Named characters
7125 [NARRATOR]
976 Clara (117)/Miss Clara (56)/Miss Vaughan (38)/Clara Vaughan (23)/Vaughan (5)/Miss Clara Vaughan (2)/dear Clara (2)/cousin Clara (2)/darling Clara (1)/DEAR MISS CLARA (1)/Clara fitty (1)/the bitter Clara Vaughan (1)/Clara dearest (1)/Child Clara (1)/proud Clara (1)/the Vaughan (1)
618 Mrs. Shelfer (183)/Shelfer (3)/good Mrs. Shelfer (1)/poor Mrs. Shelfer (1)/Little Mrs. Shelfer (1)/Quickly Mrs. Shelfer (1)/dear Mrs. Shelfer (1)/queer Mrs. Shelfer (1)
420 Isola (89)/Miss Isola (5)/Isola Ross (4)/Miss Ross (1)/pretty Isola (1)/dear Isola (1)/Lovely Isola (1)/poor little Isola (1)/Miss Isola Ross (1)
332 Lily (81)/Lily Vaughan (5)/Darling Lily (2)/Lily - bloom (1)/young Lily Vaughan (1)/Darling (1)/you?—Lily Vaughan (1)
330 Conrad (42)/Conny (23)/Mr. Conrad (3)/Master Conrad (2)/dear Conny (2)/poor Conny (1)
299 God (81)/God Creator (1)/Merciful God (1)
280 Giudice (52)/unlucky Giudice (1)/darling Giudice (1)/Beloved Giudice (1)/Even Giudice (1)
221 Mr. Shelfer (26)/Shelfer (2)/Presently Mr. Shelfer (1)
220 Mrs. Daldy (40)/the excellent and devoted Mrs. Daldy (1)
188 Miss Valence (48)/Valence (1)
188 Lily (29)/Poor Lily (4)/Lily junior (1)
139 Charley (43)/Shelfer (3)/Charley Shelfer (2)
136 Giudice (7)/Giudice Della Rocca (1)
129 Idols (28)/Miss Idols (17)/dear " Idols (1)/dear Idols (1)/darling Idols (1)
128 Balak (23)/Balaam (18)/that Balak (1)/BALAAM AND BALAK (1)
126 Sally (31)/Sally Huxtable (4)/little Sally (3)/SALLY HUXTABLE (2)/Little Sally Huxtable (1)/alone,—for little Sally (1)/Little Sally (1)/Dear little Sally (1)/SARAH HUXTABLE (1)/Dear Sally (1)/Poor little Sally (1)
126 Inspector Cutting (23)
123 Beany Dawe (29)/Mr. Dawe (11)/Beany (5)/Mr. Beany Dawe (2)
123 Mrs. Fletcher (36)/Fletcher (1)
122 Conrad (17)/Conny (10)/Harry (4)/Henry Conrad (1)/recovering Conrad (1)/darling Conny (1)/Conny durst (1)
118 Mrs. Huxtable (43)/Mrs. Honor Huxtable (1)/poor Mrs. Huxtable (1)/Honor Huxtable (1)/little Honor (1)/Mrs. Huxtable punched (1)/Honor (1)
116 Mr. Dawe (5)/Ebenezer Dawe (3)/Ebenezer (3)/Mr. Ebenezer Dawe (2)
109 Judy (47)/Darling (2)/Poor Judy (2)/lovely Judy (1)/Darling Judy (1)/darling Judy (1)
108 Cora (16)/old Cora (8)/Old Cora (3)
106 Papa (4)/papa (1)/the genuine Papa (1)/dear Papa (1)/papa go chip (1)
103 Patty (20)/Tilly (14)/Patty Shelfer (3)/poor Patty (1)
100 Isola (12)/Poor Isola (3)/dear Isola (1)/that lovely Isola (1)
99 John (13)/John Huxtable (7)/JOHN HUXTABLE (1)
99 Tulip (3)
95 Mr. Edgar Vaughan (8)/Mr. Vaughan (7)/Edgar Vaughan (2)/Edgar (1)/EDGAR VAUGHAN (1)/Ned (1)
92 Mr. Oxgall (17)/Meanwhile Mr. Oxgall (1)/poor Mr. Oxgall (1)/Unluckily Mr. Oxgall (1)
87 Lepardo (33)/Lepardo Della Croce (15)/the Della Croce (4)/Della Croce (3)/fair Adelaide (1)/brave Adelaide (1)/Adelaide (1)/the bad Lepardo (1)/that Lepardo Della Croce (1)
77 Annie Franks (9)/Annie (7)/simple Annie (1)/dear Annie (1)/dear Annie Elton ( Annie Franks of old ) , uncommonly few British Queens (1)/Annie Elton (1)
76 Tim (22)/Timothy Badcock (7)/Tim Badcock (6)/stout Tim Badcock (1)/Tim saith (1)
76 Lily (20)/Miss Lily (4)/sweet Lily (1)
73 Harry (8)/Mr. Henry Valentine Vaughan (2)/Henry (2)/Henry Valentine Vaughan (1)/a Vaughan (1)/Valentine (1)/Master Henry Vaughan (1)/little Harry (1)/young Harry (1)/Little Harry (1)/Master Harry (1)/Valentine Vaughan (1)/Vaughan (1)
73 Signor Dezio (8)/Signor Dezio Della Croce (3)/the Della Croce (3)/the Signor Dezio (2)/Della Croce (2)/the good Signor (1)/Dezio (1)/Signor (1)
71 Miss Vaughan (9)/John (9)/Uncle John (6)/My Uncle John , a very high class man , first - rate , first - rate , Miss Vaughan , has been for ever so long in the detective police (1)/farmer John (1)
65 Peter Green (13)/Green (13)/Peter (6)/young Peter Green (1)
62 John Hoxton (2)/John (2)
60 Jack (21)/little Jack (2)/Jack Ketch (1)
55 Donna (14)
54 Jane (26)/Jane Hiatt (1)/widow Hiatt (1)/Hiatt (1)
54 old Cora (7)/Cora (7)/Corsican (2)/a Corsican (2)/the Corsican (1)/the Corsican Cora (1)/sweet Cora (1)/The Corsican (1)
51 Clara (6)/Cousin Clara (2)
44 Matilda (9)/Matilda Jenkins (4)/truant Matilda (1)
43 Ann Maples (22)/nurse Maples (1)/Nancy (1)/Poor Ann Maples (1)/Ann (1)
41 Balaam (3)/Balaam Levison (1)
40 Tom (9)/Thomas Kenwood (8)/Thomas (1)/old Tom (1)
40 Clement (6)/Clement Daldy (5)
39 Dr. Franks (12)
38 Tabby (14)/Tabby Badcock (5)/Tabitha Badcock (1)/a Tabby Badcock (1)
38 Pappy (12)/the old Pappy (1)
37 Isola (12)/Dear Isola (2)/dear Isola (1)/sweet Isola (1)/lovely Isola (1)
37 Petro (14)/worthy Petro (1)/old Petro (1)
36 Bob (4)/Bob Ridley (2)/Bobby (1)
35 STORY OF EDGAR VAUGHAN (1)/Ned (1)
31 Lady Cranberry (8)
31 Conrad (4)/Conny (3)/Darling Conny (1)
31 William Edwards (3)/William (1)
31 Lily (8)/Lily - bloom (1)
29 Poor Conrad (1)/Conny (1)
29 Fiordalisa (7)/Fiordalisa Della Croce (3)/Della Croce (1)
28 Tom Gundry (6)/zaith Gundry (2)/zaith Tom Gundry (1)/old Tom (1)/Tom (1)
26 Mrs. Elton (11)
26 the Corsicans (5)/The Corsicans (3)/Corsicans (2)
25 Mr. Huxtable (15)
25 Miss Minto (10)/dear Miss Minto after a cat she lost , a tabby with a silver collar on , and a notch in his left ear (1)/dear Miss Minto (1)
25 Signor Valentine (3)/Signor Vogheno (2)/Signor Valentine Vogheno (1)/Valentine (1)/the Signor (1)/Signor (1)
24 Lucas (1)
20 Farmer Huxtable (9)/Huxtable (2)/farmer Huxtable (1)
20 Old Tom (2)/Tom (2)/Poor old Tom (1)/old Tom (1)
20 Miss. (13)/Father (3)/Miss. Father (1)/Miss. True (1)
20 Father (8)/Father Banger (2)
19 Varmer (2)/Varmer Badcock (1)
19 Tossil (16)/Tossil 's Barton (2)/Barton (1)
17 Jan Uxtable (11)/Rackon Jan Uxtable (1)/Rackon (1)/Jan (1)
17 Aunt Muxworthy (3)
16 Tilly (4)/little Tilly Jenkins (1)/Patty (1)
16 Miss Clerer (8)
16 Miss (1)
15 Robert (4)/Hubert Vaughan (2)/Vaughan (2)
15 Ma'am (3)
15 Joe (6)/Joe Queen (2)/Joe something (1)
15 Lucus (1)
14 Bill (5)/Billy (2)/Pewter Will (1)/Bill constable (1)
14 Professor Ross (5)/Ross (2)
14 Jim (5)/James McGregor (1)
14 Miss (1)
14 Clara Green (1)
13 Laurence Daldy (2)/Lawrence (1)/This Lawrence Daldy (1)/young Laurence Daldy (1)/Daldy (1)
13 Suke (11)/Poor Suke (1)
13 Major Cecil Vaughan (2)/Major Vaughan (1)/the Major (1)
13 Miss (1)
12 Miss (1)
12 Professor Sallenders (2)/The Professor (1)
12 Lilyflower (2)/the " Lilyflower " (1)
11 Mr. Elton (2)
11 Jane (3)/Good Jane (1)
11 Miss (1)
11 Clara (4)/Cla - Cla - Clara (1)/darling Clara (1)/neat Clara (1)
11 Beatrice Vaughan (2)/Beatrice (1)
11 Madonna (5)/holy Madonna (1)/Holy Madonna (1)
10 Edgar Malins Vaughan (2)/Edgar Vaughan (1)/Edgar (1)/the Malins (1)
10 Mr. Cutting (8)
9 Lor (6)/Oh Lor (1)
9 Dorcas (2)
9 Miss (1)
9 God (7)/God Almighty (1)
8 Mother (5)/Nature (2)/Mother Nature (1)
8 Death (4)
8 Thomas Henwood (7)/Tom (1)
8 Wull (6)
8 Abraham (4)/Abraham Cann (1)/honest Abraham (1)
8 Clary (3)/little Clary (1)
7 Maister (7)
7 Miss. (4)/Miss. Why (1)/Miss. Weterans (1)
7 Miss (1)
7 Dr. Ross (6)
7 George Cutting (3)/Cutting (1)
7 Miss"—was Balaam (1)/Balaam (1)
6 Tooty (4)
6 Uncle Edgar (3)/Edgar (3)
6 old Whitehead (3)/dear old Whitehead (1)/good Mrs. Whitehead (1)
6 Vaughans (4)/the Vaughans (2)
6 Miss (1)
6 Papples (1)
6 Job (3)/Job Leyson (3)
6 Miss Flounce (1)
6 Dr. Churchyard (3)/Churchyard (1)
6 Rimbecco (2)
6 the Daldys (1)/These Daldys (1)
6 Miss Adelaide (1)
6 Adelaide (3)/Adelaide Green (1)
6 Vowler (6)
6 little Lily (1)
6 Uncle (1)
5 Juan (1)
5 Providence (5)
5 Miss (1)
5 Georgiana (3)
5 Waun (3)/Clara Waun (1)
5 Ben (4)
5 Queen Victoria (2)
5 Doctor Franks (2)
5 Jacob (5)
5 Miss (1)
5 Miss (1)
5 Miss (1)
5 old Marcantonia (2)/Marcantonia (2)/good Marcantonia (1)
5 Sir William Desborough (1)
5 Gloucester (1)
5 Whitehead (2)/Old Whitehead (1)
5 Mrs. Shelfer (2)/Poor Mrs. Shelfer (1)
4 Christian (3)/This Christian Jezebel (1)
4 Varmer Uxtable (1)
4 Lunnoners (3)/the Lunnoners (1)
4 zaith (2)/Varmer (1)/zaith varmer (1)
4 Aunt Betsy (2)
4 smarl chillers"—I (1)
4 Samuel (2)/Sam the Sweep (1)
4 Polly (1)/Molly (1)/Vaughan St. Mary (1)
4 Walence (3)
4 Miss (1)
4 Miss (1)
4 Miss (1)
4 the Sbirri (1)/The Sbirri (1)
4 Lily (2)/dear Lily (1)
4 Count Gaffori (3)
4 Sam Richardson (3)
4 our Sir Arthur (1)/Arthur (1)
4 Slowski (1)/Poor Slowski (1)
4 Alexander (3)/Cassandra (1)
3 Master Clement (1)/Clement (1)
3 Eli (3)
3 Margery Daw (1)/Peggy (1)/May (1)
3 Mrs. Maples (3)
3 Constable (1)/Constable zaith (1)
3 Miss (1)
3 King Charles (1)/The King (1)/Charley (1)
3 Curbs (3)
3 Miss (1)
3 Miss (1)
3 Miss (1)
3 Bob (2)/the Bacchanalian Bob (1)
3 Miss (1)
3 Quinlan (2)
3 Dallyhorse (2)
3 Miss (1)
3 Miss. Our William (1)/Miss. (1)/William (1)
3 Seneca (1)/old Seneca (1)
3 the Spalla (2)/The Spalla (1)
3 Little Henry (1)
3 Marana (2)
3 the Spaniards (2)
3 Sally (2)/Dear Sally (1)
3 Miss (1)
3 Uncle (1)
3 Miss (1)
2 Eleanor (1)
2 Dolly (1)/Mrs. Doll (1)
2 Christmas (2)
2 Miss (1)
2 Whai (1)
2 Kirsten (2)
2 Dame Huxtable (1)
2 Daddy (2)
2 Tom Grundy (1)
2 Miss (1)
2 Sandy (2)
2 George the Fourth (2)
2 Clara Valence (2)
2 Missus (1)
2 Cooky (2)
2 Paddington (2)
2 Miss (1)
2 Dutch (2)
2 Bootiful (2)
2 Mrs. Shelfer—"until (1)
2 Babby (2)
2 parson (1)
2 Sister Muxworthy (1)
2 the Cornishers (1)/Cornishers (1)
2 Mr. Henwood (1)
2 Mr. Ross (1)
2 Humphry (2)
2 Miss (1)
2 Lilla (2)
2 Miss (1)
2 Miss (1)
2 Henry the Eighth (1)/Henry (1)
2 Saxon (2)
2 Mrs. Green (1)
2 Altiora (1)
2 Virgil (1)/Radius of Virgil (1)
2 Corsica (2)
2 De Gentili (1)/the De Gentili (1)
2 Luri (2)
2 The Moor (1)
2 the Moors (1)
2 the Balagna (2)
2 Mr. Cutting (1)
2 Messrs. Balaam (1)
2 Miss (1)
2 spirity Miss Parrysole (1)
2 Davonsheer (2)
2 Miss Jenkinson (1)
2 Miss (1)
2 Young John (1)
2 George Tamlin (1)
Major entities (proper, common)
FAC
12 Vaughan Park
10 Grove Street/one Grove Street
7 Lucas Street
6 Vaughan St. Mary
6 St. Katharine
5 Veduta tower/Veduta Tower
2 Rowley Mires
2 Tossil 's Barton
2 Barbican
2 College Street
97 home
86 the house/The house
46 there/There
42 the room
39 here/Here
14 the street/The street
13 the kitchen/The kitchen
13 the road
12 upstairs/Upstairs
11 the neighbourhood
GPE
132 London/London town
28 Devonshire/old Devonshire
28 England
27 Corsica
16 Gloucester
13 Gloucestershire
11 Italy
8 Devon
8 Paddington
7 Genoa
9 the country
8 there
8 this country
7 the village
5 London town
5 the town
4 town
4 the commune
4 here/Here
3 Lonnon town
LOC
3 the Restonica
3 the Mediterranean
2 the Severn/the distant Severn
2 the Spalla
2 the Balagna
2 the North
2 the Rogliano
1 the West
1 the Brecon hills
1 the Andes
71 the world/The world
12 heaven
11 the island/The island
10 the sea
10 the lake/The lake
10 the water
9 the land
9 earth
8 the earth/The earth
7 the river
PER
253 Clara/Miss Clara/Miss Vaughan/Clara Vaughan/Vaughan/Miss Clara Vaughan/dear Clara/cousin Clara/darling Clara/DEAR MISS CLARA/Clara fitty/the bitter Clara Vaughan/Clara dearest/Child Clara/proud Clara/the Vaughan
192 Mrs. Shelfer/Shelfer/good Mrs. Shelfer/poor Mrs. Shelfer/Little Mrs. Shelfer/Quickly Mrs. Shelfer/dear Mrs. Shelfer/queer Mrs. Shelfer
104 Isola/Miss Isola/Isola Ross/Miss Ross/pretty Isola/dear Isola/Lovely Isola/poor little Isola/Miss Isola Ross
92 Lily/Lily Vaughan/Darling Lily/Lily - bloom/young Lily Vaughan/Darling/you?—Lily Vaughan
83 God/God Creator/Merciful God
73 Conrad/Conny/Mr. Conrad/Master Conrad/dear Conny/poor Conny
60 Lepardo/Lepardo Della Croce/the Della Croce/Della Croce/fair Adelaide/brave Adelaide/Adelaide/the bad Lepardo/that Lepardo Della Croce
56 Giudice/unlucky Giudice/darling Giudice/Beloved Giudice/Even Giudice
54 Judy/Darling/Poor Judy/lovely Judy/Darling Judy/darling Judy
49 Mrs. Huxtable/Mrs. Honor Huxtable/poor Mrs. Huxtable/Honor Huxtable/little Honor/Mrs. Huxtable punched/Honor
136 my father/My father
101 my mother/My mother
88 the farmer/The farmer
73 my Uncle/my uncle/My Uncle/My uncle
59 father/Father
53 mother/Mother
51 Miss/miss
47 my good friend
40 your father/Your father
36 her father/Her father
ORG
2 the Police
1 the College
1 the Thames Police
1 the Bar
1 the banker 's
1 the landlady of the " Red - deer Inn
1 the Police
1 this company
1 their Government
1 that institution
1 Electric Telegraph Company
1 the militia
1 the Court of Chancery
VEH
2 the felucca
12 the carriage/The carriage
10 the cab
10 the boat/The boat
7 a cab/A cab
7 the yacht
5 the train
3 a ship
3 a vehicle
3 a carriage
2 the cart
Text
[I]0-i do not mean to describe [myself]0-i . Already [I]0-i feel that the personal pronoun will appear too often in these pages . Knowing the faults of [my]0-i character almost as well as [[my]0-i best friends]724-my best friends know [them]725-them , [I]0-i shall attempt to hide them no more than would [those beloved ones]726-those beloved ones . Enough of this : the story [I]0-i have to tell is strange , and short as [my]0-i own its preamble . The day when [I]0-i was ten years old began [my]0-i serious life . It was the 30th of December , 1842 ; and proud was the kiss [[my]0-i loving father]727-my loving father gave [me]0-i for spelling , writing , and pronouncing the date in English , French , and Italian . No very wonderful feat , it is true , for [a clever child well - taught]728-a clever child well - taught ; but [I]0-i was by no means [a clever child]729-a clever child ; and [no one]730-no one except [[my]0-i father]731-my father could teach [me]0-i a single letter . When , after several years of wedlock , [[my]0-i parents]732-my parents found new joy in [me]0-i , [their]732-my parents bliss was soon overhung with care . [They]732-my parents feared , but durst not own the fear , lest [the wilful , passionate , loving creature , on whom [their]732-my parents hearts were wholly set]733-the wilful , passionate , loving creature , on whom their hearts were wholly set , should be torn from [their]732-my parents love to a distance greater than the void of death ; in a word , should prove insane . At length [they]732-my parents could no longer hide this terror from [each other]734-each other . One look told it all ; and [I]0-i vaguely remember [my]0-i hazy wonder at the scene that followed . Like [a thief]735-a thief , [I]0-i came from the corner behind the curtain - loops , and trembled at [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's knee , for [him]731-my father to say something to [me]0-i . Then frightened at [his]731-my father silence — a thing unknown to [me]0-i — [I]0-i pulled [his]731-my father hands from before [his]731-my father eyes , and found hot tears upon them . [I]0-i coaxed [him]731-my father then , and petted [him]731-my father , and felt [his]731-my father sorrows through [me]0-i ; then made believe to scold [him]731-my father for being so naughty as to cry . But [I]0-i could not get [his]731-my father trouble from [him]731-my father , and [he]731-my father seemed to watch [me]0-i through [his]731-my father kisses . Before [I]0-i had ceased to ponder dreamily over this great wonder , a vast event ( for [a child of seven]737-a child of seven ) diverted [me]0-i . [Father]738-father , [mother]739-mother , and [Tooty]289-tooty — for so [I]0-i then was called — were drawn a long way by horses with [yellow men]740-yellow men upon [them]741-them : from enlarged experience [I]0-i infer that [we]742-we must have posted to [London]1-london . Here , among many marvels , [I]0-i remember especially a long and mysterious interview with [a kind , white - haired old gentleman , who wore most remarkable shoes]743-a kind , white - haired old gentleman , who wore most remarkable shoes . [He]731-my father took [me]0-i upon [his]731-my father lap , which seemed to [me]0-i rather a liberty ; then [he]731-my father smoothed down [my]0-i hair , and felt [my]0-i head so much that [I]0-i asked if [he]731-my father wanted to comb it , having made up [my]0-i mind to kick if [he]731-my father dared to try such a thing . Then [he]731-my father put all sorts of baby questions to [me]0-i which [I]0-i was disposed to resent , having long discarded [Cock Robin]290-cock robin and [Little Red - riding - hood]744-little red - riding - hood . Unconsciously too , [I]0-i was moved by [Nature]291-mother 's strong hate of examination . But [[my]0-i father]731-my father came up , and with tears in [his]731-my father eyes begged [me]0-i to answer everything . Meanwhile [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother sat in a dark corner , as if [her]746-my mother best doll was dying . With its innate pugnacity , [my]0-i hazy intellect rose to the situation , and [I]0-i narrowly heeded every thing . " Now go , [[my]747-the old gentleman dear]5318-my dear , "[747-the old gentleman] [the old gentleman]747-the old gentleman said at last ; " [you]0-i are [a very good little girl]5319-a very good little girl indeed . "[747-the old gentleman] " That 's a great lie , "[0-i] [I]0-i cried ; for [I]0-i had learned bad words from [a flighty girl]748-a flighty girl , taken rashly as [under - nurse]749-under - nurse . [The old gentleman]747-the old gentleman seemed surprised , and [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother was dreadfully shocked . [[My]0-i father]731-my father laughed first , then looked at [me]0-i sadly ; and [I]0-i did what [he]731-my father expected , [I]0-i jumped into [his]731-my father arms . At one word from [him]731-my father , [I]0-i ran to [the great physician]753-the great physician , and humbly begged [his]753-the great physician pardon , and offered [him]753-the great physician [my]0-i very dearest toy . [He]753-the great physician came up warmly , and shook [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's hand , and smiled from [his]753-the great physician heart at [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother . " Allow [me]753-the great physician , [Mrs. Vaughan]292-mrs. vaughan — allow [me]753-the great physician , [[my]753-the great physician dear sir]5320-my dear sir — to congratulate [you]746-my mother cordially . [The head]5321-the head is [a noble and honest one]5322-a noble and honest one . It is the growth of the brain that causes these little commotions ; but the congestion will not be permanent . The fits , that have so alarmed [you]746-my mother , are at this age a good symptom ; in fact , they are [Nature]291-mother 's remedy . They may last for seven years , or even for ten ; of course [they]5323-they will not depart at once . But the attacks will be milder , and the intervals longer , when [she]746-my mother has turned fourteen . For the intellect [you]746-my mother need have no fear whatever . Only keep [her]746-my mother quiet , and never force [her]746-my mother to learn . [She]746-my mother must only learn when it comes as it were with the wind . [She]746-my mother will never forget what [she]746-my mother does learn . "[753-the great physician] Hereupon , unless [I]0-i am much mistaken , [[my]0-i father]731-my father and [mother]739-mother fell to and kissed and hugged [one another]758-one another , and [I]0-i heard a sound like sobbing ; then [they]759-they caught [me]0-i up , and devoured [me]0-i , as if [I]0-i were born anew ; and staring round with great childish eyes , [I]0-i could not catch [the old gentleman]747-the old gentleman 's glance at all . Henceforth [I]0-i learned very little , the wind , perhaps , being unfavourable ; and all the little [I]0-i did learn came from [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's lips . [His]731-my father patience with [me]0-i was wonderful ; [we]762-we spent most of the day together , and when [he]731-my father was forced to leave [me]0-i , [I]0-i took no food until [he]731-my father returned . Whenever [his]731-my father horse was ordered , [Miss Clara]293-clara 's little grey pony began to neigh and to fidget , and [Miss Clara]293-clara was off in a moment to get [her]293-clara blue riding - skirt . Even when [father]738-father went shooting or fishing , [Tooty]289-tooty was sure to go too , except in the depth of winter ; and then [she]289-tooty was up at the top of [the house]764-the house , watching all round for the gun - smoke . Ah , why do [I]0-i linger so over these happy times — is it the pleasure of thinking how fondly [we]762-we loved [one another]758-one another , or is it the pain of knowing that [we]762-we can do so no more ? Now , the 30th of December was [[my]0-i parents]732-my parents ' wedding - day , for [I]0-i had been born six years exact after [their]732-my parents affectionate union . And now that [I]0-i was ten years old — a notable hinge on the door of life — how much [they]732-my parents made , to be sure , of [each other]734-each other and of [me]0-i ! At dinner [I]0-i sat in glory between [them]732-my parents , upsetting all ceremony , pleasing [[my]0-i father]731-my father , and teasing [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother , by many a childish sally . [So genial a man [[my]0-i father]731-my father]770-so genial a man my father was that [he]731-my father would talk to [the servants]772-the servants , even on state occasions , quite as if [they]772-the servants were [human beings]773-human beings . Yet [none of [them]772-the servants]774-none of them ever took the smallest liberty with [him]731-my father , unless it were one to love [him]731-my father . Before dessert , [I]0-i interred [[my]0-i queen]775-my queen doll , with much respect and some heartache , under a marble flag by the door , which had been prepared for the purpose . [[My]0-i father]731-my father was [chief - mourner]777-chief - mourner , but did not cry to [my]0-i liking , until [I]0-i had pinched [him]731-my father well . After this typical good - bye to childhood , [I]0-i rode [him]731-my father back to the dining - table , and helped [him]731-my father and [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother to [the last of [the West]2-the west 's St. Peter grapes]779-the last of the west 's st. peter grapes , giving [him]731-my father all the fattest ones . Then [we]780-we all drank health and love to [one another]758-one another , and [I]0-i fell to in earnest at [a child]782-a child 's delight . [Dearest father]783-dearest father kept supplying [me]0-i with things much nicer than are now to be got , while [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother in vain pretended to guard [the frontier]785-the frontier . It was the first time [I]0-i tasted Guava jelly ; and now , even at the name , that scene is bright before [me]0-i . [The long high room]786-the long high room oak - panelled , the lights and shadows flickering as on [a dark bay horse]787-a dark bay horse , the crimson velvet curtains where the windows were gone to bed , the great black chairs with damask cushions , but hard and sharp at the edge , the mantel - piece all carved in stone which [I]0-i was forbidden to kick , the massive lamp that never would let [me]0-i eat without loose clouds of hair dancing all over [my]0-i plate , and then the great fire , its rival , shuddering in blue flames at the thought of the frost outside ; all these things , and even the ticking of the timepiece , are more palpable to [me]0-i now than the desk on which [I]0-i write . [[My]0-i father]731-my father sat in [his]731-my father easy chair , laughing and joking , full of life and comfort , with [his]731-my father glass of old port beside [him]731-my father , [[his]731-my father wife]789-his wife in front , and [me]0-i , [his]731-my father " Claricrops , "[731-my father] at [his]731-my father knee . More happy than [a hundred kings]790-a hundred kings , [he]731-my father wished for nothing better . At one time , perhaps , [he]731-my father had longed for [a son to keep the ancient name]791-a son to keep the ancient name , but now [he]731-my father was quite ashamed of the wish , as mutiny against [me]0-i . After many an interchange , a drink for [father]738-father , a sip for [Tooty]289-tooty , [he]731-my father began to tell wondrous stories of the shots [he]731-my father had made that day ; especially how [he]731-my father had killed a woodcock through a magpie 's nest . [[My]0-i mother]746-my mother listened with playful admiration ; [I]0-i with breathless interest , and most profound belief . Then [we]794-we played at draughts , and fox and goose , and pretended even to play at chess , until it was nine o'clock , and [my]0-i hour of grace expired . Three times [Ann Maples]294-ann maples came to fetch [me]0-i , but [I]0-i would not go . At last [I]0-i went submissively at one kind word from [[my]0-i father]731-my father . [[My]0-i mother]746-my mother obtained but a pouting kiss , for [I]0-i wanted to wreak some vengeance ; but [[my]0-i father]731-my father [I]0-i never kissed with less than all [my]0-i heart and soul . [I]0-i flung both arms around [his]731-my father neck , laid [my]0-i little cheek to [his]731-my father , and whispered in [his]731-my father ear that [I]0-i loved [him]731-my father more than all [the world]798-the world . Tenderly [he]731-my father clasped and kissed [me]0-i , and now [I]0-i am sure that through [his]731-my father smile [he]731-my father looked at [me]0-i with sadness . Turning round at the doorway , [I]0-i stretched [my]0-i hands towards [him]731-my father , and met once more [his]731-my father loving , laughing eyes . Once more and only once . Next [I]0-i saw [him]731-my father in [his]731-my father coffin , white and stark with death . By - and - by [I]0-i will tell what [I]0-i know ; at present [I]0-i can only feel . The emotions — away with long words — the passions which swept [my]0-i little heart , with equal power rend it now . Long [I]0-i lay dumb and stunned at the horror [I]0-i could not grasp . Then with a scream , as in [my]0-i fits , [I]0-i flung upon [his]731-my father body . What to [me]0-i were shroud and shell , the rigid look and the world of awe ? Such things let [step - children]799-step - children fear . Not [I]0-i , when it was [[my]0-i father]731-my father . How that deed was done , [I]0-i learned at once , and will tell . By whom and why it was done , [I]0-i have given [my]0-i life to learn . The evidence laid before [the coroner]801-the coroner was a cloud and fog of mystery . For days and days [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother lay insensible . Then , for weeks and weeks , [she]746-my mother would leap from [her]746-my mother bed in fits of terror , stare , and shriek and faint . As for [the servants]772-the servants , [they]772-the servants knew very little , but imagined a great deal . [The only other witnesses]804-the only other witnesses were [a medical man]805-a medical man , [a shoemaker]806-a shoemaker , and [two London policemen]807-two london policemen . [The servants]772-the servants said that , between one and two in the morning , a clear , wild shriek rang through [the house]764-the house . Large as [the building]810-the building was , this shriek unrepeated awoke nearly all but [me]0-i . Rushing anyhow forth , [they]772-the servants hurried and huddled together at the head of the great staircase , doubting what to do . [Some]811-some said the cry came one way , some another . Meanwhile [Ann Maples]294-ann maples , who slept with [me]0-i in [an inner room]812-an inner room at the end of [a little passage]813-a little passage , in the courage of terror went straight to [[her]294-ann maples master]814-her master and [mistress]815-mistress . There , by the light of a dim night - lamp , used to visit [me]0-i , [she]294-ann maples saw [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother upright in the bed , and pointing towards [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's breast . [[My]0-i father]731-my father lay quite still ; the bed - clothes were smooth upon [him]731-my father . [[My]0-i mother]746-my mother did not speak . [Ann Maples]294-ann maples took the lamp , and looked in [[her]294-ann maples master]814-her master 's face . [His]814-her master eyes were open , wide open as in amazement , but the surprise was death . One arm was stiff around [[his]814-her master wife]789-his wife , the other lax upon the pillow . As [she]294-ann maples described it in West - country phrase , " [he]814-her master looked all frore . "[294-ann maples] [The woman]822-the woman rushed from [the room]823-the room , and screamed along [the passage]824-the passage . [The servants]772-the servants ran to [her]822-the woman , flurried and haggard , each afraid to be left behind . None except [the butler]826-the butler dared to enter . Whispering and trembling [they]772-the servants peered in after [him]814-her master , all ready to run away . [Thomas Kenwood]295-tom loved [[his]295-tom master]827-his master dearly , being [[his]295-tom foster - brother]828-his foster - brother . [He]295-tom at once removed the bedclothes , and found the fatal wound . So strongly and truly was it dealt , that it pierced the centre of [[my]0-i dear father]829-my dear father 's heart . One spot of blood and a small three - cornered hole was all that could be seen . [The surgeon , who came soon after]830-the surgeon , who came soon after , said that the weapon must have been a very keen and finely - tempered dagger , probably of foreign make . [The murderer]831-the murderer must have been quite cool , and well acquainted with the human frame . [Death]296-death followed the blow on the instant , without a motion or a groan . In [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother 's left hand strongly clutched was a lock of long , black , shining hair . A curl very like it , but rather finer , lay on [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's bosom . In [the room]823-the room were no signs of disorder , no marks of forcible entrance . [One of [the maids]836-the maids]835-one of the maids , [a timid young thing]837-a timid young thing , declared that soon after the stable - clock struck twelve , [she]835-one of the maids had heard the front balusters creak ; but as [she]835-one of the maids was known to hear this every night , little importance was attached to it . [The coroner]801-the coroner paid more attention to [the page ( a sharp youth from [London]1-london]839-the page ( a sharp youth from london ) , who , being first in [the main corridor]840-the main corridor , after the cry , saw , or thought [he]839-the page ( a sharp youth from london saw , [a moving figure , where the faint starlight came in at the oriel window]841-a moving figure , where the faint starlight came in at the oriel window . [He]839-the page ( a sharp youth from london was the more believed , because [he]839-the page ( a sharp youth from london owned that [he]839-the page ( a sharp youth from london durst not follow it . But no way of escape could be discovered there , and the eastern window was strongly barred betwixt the mullions . No door , no window was anywhere found open . Outside [the house]764-the house , the only trace was at one remarkable spot . The time had been chosen well . It was a hard black frost , without , as yet , any snow . The ground was like iron , and [an Indian]843-an indian could have spied no trail . But at this one spot , twenty - five yards from [the east end of [the house]764-the house]844-the east end of the house , and on the verge of a dense shrubbery , a small spring , scarcely visible , oozed among the moss . Around [its]764-the house very head , it cleared , and kept , a narrow space quite free from green , and [here]846-here [its]764-the house margin was a thin coat of black mineral mud , which never froze . [This space]847-this space , at the broadest , was but two feet and ten inches across from gravel to turf , yet now [it]847-this space held two distinct footprints , not of some one crossing and re - crossing , but of two successive steps leading from [the house]764-the house into [the shrubbery]849-the shrubbery . These footprints were remarkable ; the one nearest [the house]764-the house was of the left foot , the other of the right . Each was the impression of a long , light , and pointed boot , very hollow at the instep . But they differed in this — the left footprint was plain and smooth , without mark of nail , or cue , or any other roughness ; while the right one was clearly stamped in the centre of the sole with a small rectangular cross . This mark seemed to have been made by a cruciform piece of metal , or some other hard substance , inlaid into the sole . At least , so said [a shoemaker , who was employed to examine it]851-a shoemaker , who was employed to examine it ; and [he]851-a shoemaker , who was employed to examine it added that the boots were not those of the present fashion , what [he]851-a shoemaker , who was employed to examine it called " duck 's bills "[851-a shoemaker , who was employed to examine it] being then in vogue . [This man being asked to account for the fact of the footprints being so close together]852-this man being asked to account for the fact of the footprints being so close together , did so very easily , and with much simplicity . It was evident , [he]851-a shoemaker , who was employed to examine it said , that [a man of average stature , walking rapidly , would take nearly twice that distance in every stride]853-a man of average stature , walking rapidly , would take nearly twice that distance in every stride ; but here the verge of the shrubbery , and the branches striking [him]853-a man of average stature , walking rapidly , would take nearly twice that distance in every stride in the face , had suddenly curtailed the step . And to this , most likely , and not to any hurry or triumph , was to be ascribed the fact that [one so wily and steadfast]854-one so wily and steadfast did not turn back and erase the dangerous tokens . Most likely , [he]853-a man of average stature , walking rapidly , would take nearly twice that distance in every stride did not feel what was beneath [his]853-a man of average stature , walking rapidly , would take nearly twice that distance in every stride feet , while [he]853-a man of average stature , walking rapidly , would take nearly twice that distance in every stride was battling with the tangle above . Be that as it may , there the marks remained , like the blotting - paper of [his]853-a man of average stature , walking rapidly , would take nearly twice that distance in every stride crime . Casts of them were taken at once , and carefully have they been stored by [me]0-i . [The shoemaker]855-the shoemaker , [a shrewd but talkative man]856-a shrewd but talkative man , said unasked that [he]855-the shoemaker had never seen such boots as had left those marks , since [the " Young Squire]5324-the " young squire "[855-the shoemaker] ( [he]855-the shoemaker meant [Mr. Edgar Vaughan]297-mr. edgar vaughan ) went upon [his]855-the shoemaker travels . For this gratuitous statement , [he]855-the shoemaker was strongly rebuked by [the coroner]801-the coroner . For the rest , all that could be found out , after close inquiry , was , that [a stranger darkly clad]858-a stranger darkly clad had been seen by [the gamekeepers]859-the gamekeepers , in [a copse some half - mile from [the house]764-the house]860-a copse some half - mile from the house , while [the men were beating for woodcocks on the previous day]862-the men were beating for woodcocks on the previous day . [He]858-a stranger darkly clad did not seem to be following [[my]0-i father]731-my father , and [they]864-they thought [he]858-a stranger darkly clad had wandered out of [the forest road]865-the forest road . [He]858-a stranger darkly clad glided quickly away , before [they]864-they could see [his]858-a stranger darkly clad features , but [they]864-they knew that [he]858-a stranger darkly clad was tall and swarthy . No footprints were found in that ride like those by [the shrubbery spring]866-the shrubbery spring . [I]0-i need not say what verdict [[the coroner]801-the coroner 's jury]868-the coroner 's jury found . Thus far , [I]0-i have written in sore haste , to tell , as plainly and as briefly as possible , that which has darkened all [my]0-i life . Though it never leaves [my]0-i waking thoughts , to dwell upon it before [others]869-others is agony to [me]0-i . Henceforth [my]0-i tale will flow perhaps more easily , until [I]0-i fall again into a grief almost as dark , and am struck by storms of passion which childhood 's stature does not reach . When the shock of [the household]870-the household , and the wonder of [the county]871-the county , and the hopes of [constables]872-constables ( raised by a thousand pounds ' reward ) had subsided gradually , [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother continued to live in [the old mansion]874-the old mansion , perhaps because [none of [[her]746-my mother friends]876-her friends]875-none of her friends came forward to remove [her]746-my mother . Under [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's will [she]746-my mother was [the sole executrix]878-the sole executrix ; but all [the estates]879-the estates ( including [house]880-house and [park]881-park ) were left to [[[my]0-i father]731-my father 's nearest relative]883-my father 's nearest relative , as trustee for [myself]0-i , with a large annuity to [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother charged upon [them]879-the estates . There were many other provisions and powers in the will , which are of no consequence to [my]0-i story . [The chief estate]885-the chief estate was large and rich , extending three or four miles from [the house]764-the house , which stood in [a beautiful part of [Gloucestershire]3-gloucestershire]887-a beautiful part of gloucestershire . [The entire rental]888-the entire rental was about 12,000*l . * a year . [[My]0-i father]731-my father ( whose name was [Henry Valentine Vaughan]298-harry ) , being [a very active man in the prime of life]890-a very active man in the prime of life , had employed [no steward]891-no steward , but managed everything [himself]731-my father . [The park]892-the park , and two or three hundred acres round [it]892-the park , had always been kept in hand ; the rest was let to [thriving tenants]893-thriving tenants , who loved ( as [they]893-thriving tenants expressed it ) " every hair on the head of [a Vaughan]298-harry . "[0-i] There was also [a small farm near [the sea]895-the sea]894-a small farm near the sea , in [a lonely part of [Devonshire]4-devonshire]896-a lonely part of devonshire ; but this was [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother 's , having been left to [her]746-my mother by [[her]746-my mother father]898-her father , [a clergyman in [that neighbourhood]900-that neighbourhood]899-a clergyman in that neighbourhood . [[My]0-i father 's nearest relative]883-my father 's nearest relative was [[his]731-my father half - brother]902-his half - brother , [Edgar Vaughan]297-mr. edgar vaughan , who had been educated for [the Bar]903-the bar , and at one time seemed likely to become eminent ; then suddenly [he]731-my father gave up [his]731-my father practice , and resided ( or rather roved ) abroad , during several years . Sinister rumours about [him]731-my father reached [[our]904-our neighbourhood]905-our neighbourhood , not long before [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's death . To these , however , [the latter]907-the latter paid no attention , but always treated [[his]731-my father brother]908-his brother [Edgar]297-mr. edgar vaughan with much cordiality and affection . But [all]909-all admitted that [Edgar Vaughan]297-mr. edgar vaughan had far outrun [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan income as [a younger son]910-a younger son , which amounted to about 600*l . * a year . Of course , therefore , [[my]0-i father]731-my father had often helped [him]297-mr. edgar vaughan . On the third day after that night , [[my]0-i guardian]912-my guardian came to [Vaughan Park]5-vaughan park . [He]912-my guardian was said to have hurried from [London]1-london , upon learning there what had happened . [The servants]772-the servants and [others]869-others had vainly and foolishly tried to keep from [me]0-i the nature of [my]0-i loss . Soon [I]0-i found out all [they]915-they knew , and when the first tit and horror left [me]0-i , [I]0-i passed [my]0-i whole time , light or dark , in roving from [passage]916-passage to [passage]916-passage , from [room]918-room to [room]918-room , from closet to [closet]920-closet , searching every chink and cranny for [the murderer of [[my]0-i father]731-my father]921-the murderer of my father . Though heretofore [a timid child]923-a timid child , while so engaged [I]0-i knew not such a thing as fear ; but peered , and groped , and listened , feeling every inch of wall and wainscot , crawling lest [I]0-i should alarm [[my]0-i prey]924-my prey , spying through the slit of every door , and shaking every empty garment . Certain boards there were near the east window which sounded hollow ; at these [I]0-i scooped until [I]0-i broke [my]0-i nails . In vain [nurse Maples]294-ann maples locked [me]0-i in [[her]294-ann maples room]925-her room , held [me]0-i at [her]294-ann maples side , or even bound [me]0-i to the bed . [My]0-i ravings forced [her]294-ann maples soon to yield , and [I]0-i would not allow [her]294-ann maples , or [any one else]926-any one else , to follow [me]0-i . [The Gloucester physician]927-the gloucester physician said that since the disease of [my]0-i mind had taken that shape , it would be more dangerous to thwart than to indulge it . It was the evening of the third day , and weary with but never of [my]0-i search , [I]0-i was groping down the great oak - staircase in the dusk , hand after hand , and foot by foot , when suddenly the main door - bell rang . The snow was falling heavily , and had deadened the sound of wheels . At once [I]0-i slid ( as [[my]0-i father]731-my father had taught [me]0-i to do ) down the broad balustrade , ran across [the entrance - hall]929-the entrance - hall , and with [my]0-i whole strength drew back the bolt of the lock . There [I]0-i stood in [the porch]930-the porch , unfrightened , but with a new kind of excitement on [me]0-i . [A tall dark man]931-a tall dark man came up the steps , and shook the snow from [his]931-a tall dark man boots . The carriage - lamp shone in [my]0-i face . [I]0-i would not let [him]931-a tall dark man cross the threshold , but stood there and confronted [him]931-a tall dark man . [He]931-a tall dark man pretended to take [me]0-i for [[some servant]932-some servant 's child]933-some servant 's child , and handed [me]0-i a parcel covered with snow . [I]0-i flung it down , and said , looking [him]931-a tall dark man full in the face , " [I]0-i am [Clara Vaughan]293-clara , and [you]931-a tall dark man are [the man who killed [[my]0-i father]731-my father]5325-the man who killed my father . "[0-i] " Carry [her]933-some servant 's child in , [John]299-john , "[931-a tall dark man] [he]931-a tall dark man said to the servant—"carry [her]933-some servant 's child in , or [the poor little thing]5327-the poor little thing will die . What eyes ! "[931-a tall dark man] and [he]931-a tall dark man used some foreign oath—"what wonderful eyes [she]933-some servant 's child has ! "[931-a tall dark man] That burst of passion was the last conscious act of the young and over - laboured brain . For three months [I]0-i wandered outside the gates of sorrow . [[My]0-i guardian]912-my guardian , as [they]935-they told [me]0-i , was most attentive throughout the whole course of the fever , and even in the press of business visited [me]0-i three times every day . Meanwhile , [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother was slowly shaking off the stupor which lay upon [her]746-my mother , and the new fear of losing [me]0-i came through that thick heaviness , like the wind through a fog . Doubtless it helped to restore [her]746-my mother senses , and awoke [her]746-my mother to the work of life . Then , as time went on , [her]746-my mother former beauty and gentleness came back , and [her]746-my mother reason too , as regarded [other subjects]937-other subjects . But as to that which all so longed to know , not a spark of evidence could be had from [her]746-my mother . The faintest allusion to that crime , the name of [[her]746-my mother loved husband]938-her loved husband , the mere word " murder "[746-my mother] uttered in [her]746-my mother presence — and the consciousness would leave [her]746-my mother eyes , like a loan withdrawn . Upright [she]746-my mother sat and rigid as when [she]746-my mother was found that night , with the lines of [her]746-my mother face as calm and cold as moonlight . Only two means there were by which [her]746-my mother senses could be restored : one was low sweet music , the other profound sleep . [She]746-my mother was never thrown into this cataleptic state by [her]746-my mother own thoughts or words , nor even by those of [others]869-others when in strict sequence upon [her]746-my mother own . But any attempt to lead [her]746-my mother to that one subject , no matter how craftily veiled , was sure to end in this . [The skilful physician , who had known [her]746-my mother many years]940-the skilful physician , who had known her many years , judged , after special study of this disease , in which [he]940-the skilful physician , who had known her many years felt deep interest , that it was always present in [her]746-my mother brain , but waited for external aid to master [her]746-my mother . [I]0-i need not say that [she]746-my mother was now unfit for [any stranger]941-any stranger 's converse , and even [[her]746-my mother most careful friends]942-her most careful friends must touch sometimes the motive string . As [I]0-i recovered slowly from long illness , the loss of [[my]0-i best friend]943-my best friend and the search for [[my]0-i worst enemy]944-my worst enemy revived and reigned within [me]0-i . Sometimes [[my]0-i guardian]912-my guardian would deign to reason with [me]0-i upon what [he]912-my guardian called " [my]912-my guardian monomania . "[912-my guardian] When [he]912-my guardian did so , [I]0-i would fix [my]0-i eyes upon [him]912-my guardian , but never tried to answer . Now and then , those eyes seemed to cause [him]912-my guardian some uneasiness ; at other times [he]912-my guardian would laugh and compare them pleasantly to the blue fire - damp in a coal - mine . [His]912-my guardian dislike of [their]946-their scrutiny was well known to [me]0-i , and incited [me]0-i the more to urge it . But in spite of all , [he]912-my guardian was ever kind and gentle to [me]0-i , and even tried some grimly playful overtures to [my]0-i love , which fled from [him]912-my guardian with loathing , albeit a slow conviction formed that [I]0-i had wronged [him]912-my guardian by suspicion . [Edgar Malins Vaughan]300-edgar malins vaughan , then about thirty - seven years old , was ( [I]0-i suppose ) [a very handsome man]947-a very handsome man , and perhaps of a more striking presence than [[my]0-i dearest father]948-my dearest father . [His]300-edgar malins vaughan face , when [he]300-edgar malins vaughan was pleased , reminded [me]0-i strongly of the glance and smile [I]0-i had lost , but never could it convey that soft sweet look , which still came through the clouds to [me]0-i , now and then in dreams . The outlines of [[my]0-i guardian]912-my guardian 's face were keener too and stronger , and [his]912-my guardian complexion far more swarthy . [His]912-my guardian eyes were of a hard steel - blue , and never seemed to change . A slight lameness , perceptible only at times , did not impair [his]912-my guardian activity , but served [him]912-my guardian as a pretext for declining all field - sports , for which ( unlike [[my]0-i father]731-my father ) [he]912-my guardian had no real taste . [His]912-my guardian enjoyments , if [he]912-my guardian had any — and [I]0-i suppose [all men]951-all men have some — seemed to consist in the management of [the estate]952-the estate ( which [he]912-my guardian took entirely upon [himself]912-my guardian ) , in satiric literature and the news of the day , or in lonely rides and sails upon [the lake]953-the lake . It was hinted too , by [Thomas Kenwood]295-tom , who disliked and feared [him]912-my guardian strangely , that [he]912-my guardian drank spirits or foreign cordials in [[his]912-my guardian own room]954-his own room , late at night . There was nothing to confirm this charge ; [he]912-my guardian was always up betimes , [his]912-my guardian hand was never tremulous , nor did [his]912-my guardian colour change . [My]0-i life — childhood [I]0-i can scarcely call it — went quietly for several years . [The eastern wing of [the house]764-the house]955-the eastern wing of the house was left unused , and rarely traversed by any but [myself]0-i . Foolish tales , of course , were told about it ; but [my]0-i frequent visits found nothing to confirm them . At night , whenever [I]0-i could slip from the care of good but matter - of - fact [Ann Maples]294-ann maples , [I]0-i used to wander down [the long corridor]957-the long corridor , and squeeze through the iron gate now set there , half in hope and half in fear of meeting [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's spirit . For such an occasion all [my]0-i questions were prepared , and all the answers canvassed . [My]0-i infant mind was struggling ever to pierce the mystery which so vaguely led its life . Years only quickened [my]0-i resolve to be [the due avenger]959-the due avenger , and hardened the set resolve into [a fatalist]960-a fatalist 's conviction . [[My]0-i mother]746-my mother , always full of religious feeling , taught [me]0-i daily in the Scriptures , and tried to make [me]0-i pray . But [I]0-i could not take the mild teachings of the Gospel as [a little child]962-a little child . To [me]0-i the Psalms of [David]301-david , and those books of the Old Testament which recount and seem to applaud revenge , were sweeter than all the balm of [Gilead]6-gilead ; they supplied a terse and vigorous form to [my]0-i perpetual yearnings . With [a child]782-a child 's impiety , [I]0-i claimed for [myself]0-i the mission of [the Jews]964-the jews against [the enemies of [the Lord]966-the lord]965-the enemies of the lord . The forms of prayer , which [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother taught [me]0-i , [I]0-i mumbled through , while looking in [her]746-my mother gentle face , with anything but a prayerful gaze . For [my]0-i own bedside [I]0-i kept a widely different form , which even now [I]0-i shudder to repeat . And yet [I]0-i loved [dear mother]968-dear mother truly , and pitied [her]746-my mother sometimes with tears ; but the shadow - love was far the deeper . [[My]0-i father]731-my father 's grave was in [the churchyard of [the little village]971-the little village which clustered and nestled beyond [[our]972-our lodge]973-our lodge]970-the churchyard of the little village which clustered and nestled beyond our lodge . It was [a real grave]974-a real grave . The thought of lying in [a vault]975-a vault had always been loathsome to [him]731-my father , and [he]731-my father said that it struck [him]731-my father cold . So fond was [he]731-my father of air and light and freedom , the change of seasons and weather , and the shifting of the sun and stars , that [he]731-my father used to pray that they still might pass over [his]731-my father buried head ; that [he]731-my father might lie , not in the dark lockers of death , but in the open hand of time . [[His]731-my father friends]976-his friends used to think it strange that [a man of so light and festive nature should ever talk of death]977-a man of so light and festive nature should ever talk of death ; yet so [he]731-my father often did , not morbidly , but with good cheer . In pursuance , therefore , of [his]731-my father well - known wish , [the vaults wherein there lay five centuries of Vaughan dust]978-the vaults wherein there lay five centuries of vaughan dust were not opened for [him]731-my father ; neither was [[his]731-my father grave]979-his grave built over with a hideous ash - bin ; but lay narrow , fair , and humble , with a plain , low headstone of the whitest marble , bearing [his]731-my father initials deeply carved in grey . Through [our]980-our warm love and pity , and that of all [the village]981-the village , and not in mere compliance with [an old usage of [the western counties]983-the western counties]982-an old usage of the western counties , [[his]731-my father simple bed]984-his simple bed was ever green and white with the fairest of low flowers . Though otherwise too moody and reckless to be [a gardener]985-a gardener , [I]0-i loved to rear from seed [his]731-my father favourite plants , and keep them in [[my]0-i room]986-my room until they blossomed ; then [I]0-i would set them carefully along [[his]731-my father grave]979-his grave , and lie down beside it , and wonder whether [his]731-my father spirit took pleasure in them . But more often , it must be owned , [I]0-i laid a darker tribute there . The gloomy channel into which [my]0-i young mind had been forced was overhung , as might be expected , by a sombre growth . The legends of midnight spirits , and the tales of blackest crime , shed their poison on [me]0-i . From the dust of [the library]988-the library [I]0-i exhumed all records of the most famous atrocities , and devoured them at [[[my]0-i father]731-my father 's grave]990-my father 's grave . As yet [I]0-i was too young to know what grief it would cause to [him]731-my father who slept there , could [he]731-my father but learn what [[his]731-my father only child]991-his only child was doing . That knowledge would at once have checked [me]0-i , for [his]731-my father presence was ever with [me]0-i , and [his]731-my father memory cast [my]0-i thoughts , as moonlight shapes the shadows . The view from [the churchyard]992-the churchyard was a lovely English scene . What higher praise can [I]0-i give than this ? Long time a wanderer in [foreign parts]993-foreign parts , nothing have [I]0-i seen that comes from nature to the heart like [a true English landscape]994-a true english landscape . [The little church]995-the little church stood back on [a quiet hill]996-a quiet hill , which bent [its]996-a quiet hill wings in a gentle curve to shelter [it]996-a quiet hill from the north and east . These bending wings were feathered , soft as down , with , larches , hawthorn , and the lightly - pencilled birch , between which , here and there , the bluff rocks stood their ground . Southward , and beyond [the glen]997-the glen , how fair a spread of [waving country [we]999-we could see]998-waving country we could see ! To the left , [[our]999-we pretty lake]1000-our pretty lake , all clear and calm , gave back the survey of the trees , until a bold gnoll , fringed with alders , led it out of sight . Far away upon the right , [the Severn]7-the severn stole along [[its]7-the severn silver road]1001-its silver road , leaving many a reach and bend , which caught towards eventide the notice of the travelled sun . Upon the horizon might be seen at times , the blue distance of [the Brecon hills]8-the brecon hills . Often when [I]0-i sat [here]846-here all alone , and the evening dusk came on , although [I]0-i held those volumes on [my]0-i lap , [I]0-i could not but forget the murders and the revenge of [men]1003-men , the motives , form , and evidence of crime , and nurse a vague desire to dream [my]0-i life away . Sometimes also [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother would come [here]846-here , to read [her]746-my mother favourite Gospel of [St. John]302-st. john . Then [I]0-i would lay the dark records on the turf , and sit with [my]0-i injury hot upon [me]0-i , wondering at [her]746-my mother peaceful face . While , for [her]746-my mother sake , [I]0-i rejoiced to see the tears of comfort and contentment dawning in [her]746-my mother eyes , [I]0-i never grieved that the soft chastenment was not shed on [me]0-i . For [her]746-my mother [I]0-i loved and admired it ; for [myself]0-i [I]0-i scorned it utterly . The same clear sunshine was upon [us]1006-us both : [we]1006-us both were looking on the same fair scene — the gold of ripening corn , the emerald of woods and [pastures]1007-pastures , the crystal of [the lake]953-the lake and stream ; above [us]1006-us both the peaceful heaven was shed , and the late distress was but a night gone by — wherefore had it left to one the dew of life , to the other a thunderbolt ? [I]0-i knew not the reason then , but now [I]0-i know it well . Although [my]0-i favourite style of literature was not likely to improve the mind , or yield that honeyed melancholy which [some young ladies]1009-some young ladies woo , to [me]0-i it did but little harm . [My]0-i will was so bent upon one object , and the whole substance and shape of [my]0-i thoughts so stanch in [their]1010-they sole ductility thereto , that other things went idly by [me]0-i , if [they]1010-they showed no power to promote [my]0-i end . But upon palpable life , and the doings of nature [I]0-i became observant beyond [my]0-i age . Things in growth or motion round [me]0-i impressed themselves on [my]0-i senses , as if a nerve were touched . The uncoiling of a fern - frond , the shrinking of a bind - weed blossom , the escape of a cap - pinched bud , the projection of a seed , or the sparks from a fading tuberose , in short , the lighter prints of Nature 's sandalled foot , were traced and counted by [me]0-i . Not that [I]0-i derived a maiden pleasure from [them]1010-they , as [happy persons]1011-happy persons do , but that it seemed [my]0-i business narrowly to heed [them]1010-they . As for the proud phenomena of [imperial man]1012-imperial man , so far as they yet survive the crucible of convention — the lines where cunning crouches , the smile that is but a brain - flash , the veil let down across the wide mouth of greed , the guilt [they]1010-they try to make volatile in charity,—all these [I]0-i was not old and poor enough to learn . Yet [I]0-i marked unconsciously the traits of [individuals]1013-individuals , the mannerism , the gesture , and the mode of speech , the complex motive , and the underflow of thought . So all [I]0-i did , and all [I]0-i dreamed , had one colour and one aim . [My]0-i education , it is just to say , was neglected by [no one]730-no one but [myself]0-i . [[My]0-i father]731-my father 's love of air and heaven had descended to [me]0-i , and nothing but [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother 's prayers or [my]0-i own dark quest could keep [me]0-i in [the house]764-the house . Abstract principles and skeleton dogmas [I]0-i could never grasp ; but whatever was vivid and shrewd and native , whatever had point and purpose , was seized by [me]0-i and made [my]0-i own . [My]0-i faculties were not large , but steadfast now , and concentrated . Though [several masters]1018-several masters tried [their]1018-several masters best , and [[my]0-i governess]1019-my governess did all [she]1019-my governess could , [I]0-i chose to learn but little . Drawing and music ( to soothe [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother ) were [my]0-i principal studies . Of poetry [I]0-i took no heed , except in the fierce old drama . Enough of this . [I]0-i have said so much , not for [my]0-i sake , but for [my]0-i story . On the fifth anniversary of [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's death , when [I]0-i was fifteen years of age , [I]0-i went to visit ( as [I]0-i always did upon that day ) [the fatal room]1022-the fatal room . Although [this chamber]1023-this chamber had been so long unused , the furniture was allowed to remain ; and [I]0-i insisted passionately that it should be [my]0-i charge . What had seemed the petulance of [a child]782-a child was now the strong will of [a thoughtful girl]1025-a thoughtful girl . [I]0-i took the key from [my]0-i bosom , where [I]0-i always kept it , and turned it in the lock . [No mortal]1026-no mortal had entered that door since [I]0-i passed [it]1027-it in [my]0-i last paroxysm , three weeks and a day before . [I]0-i saw a cobweb reaching from the black finger - plate to the third mould of the beading . The weather had been damp , and the door stuck fast to the jamb , then yielded with a crack . Though [I]0-i was bold that day , and in a mood of triumph , some awe fell on [me]0-i as [I]0-i entered . There hung the heavy curtain , last drawn by [the murderer]831-the murderer 's hand ; there lay the bed - clothes , raised for the blow , and replaced on death ; and there was the pillow where sleep had been so prolonged . All these [I]0-i saw with a forced and fearful glance , and [my]0-i breath stood still as the wind in a grave . Presently a light cloud floated off the sun , and a white glare from the snow of the morning burst across [the room]823-the room . [My]0-i sight was not so dimmed with tears as it generally was when [I]0-i stood there , for [I]0-i had just read the history of a long - hidden crime detected , and [my]0-i eyes were full of fierce hope . But stricken soon to the wonted depth of sadness , with the throbs of [my]0-i heart falling like [the avenger]1030-the avenger 's step , [I]0-i went minutely through [my]0-i death - inspection . [I]0-i felt all round [the dusty wainscot]1031-the dusty wainscot , opened the wardrobes and cupboards , raised the lids of the deep - bayed window - seats , peered shuddering down the dark closet , where [I]0-i believed [the assassin]1032-the assassin had lurked , started and stared at [myself]0-i in the mirror , to see how lone and wan [I]0-i looked , and then approached the bed , to finish [my]0-i search in the usual place , by lying and sobbing where [[my]0-i father]731-my father died . [I]0-i had glanced beneath it and round the pillars , and clutched the curtain as if to squeeze out the truth , and was just about to throw [myself]0-i on the coverlet and indulge the fit so bitterly held at bay , when something on the hangings above the head - board stopped [me]0-i suddenly . There [I]0-i saw a narrow line of deep and glowing red . It grew so vivid on the faded damask , and in the white glare of the level sun , that [I]0-i thought it was on fire . Hastily setting a chair by the pillar , for [I]0-i would not tread on that bed , [I]0-i leaped up , and closely examined the crimson vein . Without thinking , [I]0-i knew what it was — the heart - blood of [[my]0-i father]731-my father . There were three distinct and several marks , traced by the reeking dagger . The first on the left , which had caught [my]0-i glance , was the broadest and clearest to read . Two lines , meeting at a right angle , rudely formed a Roman L. Rudely [I]0-i say , for the poniard had been too rich in red ink , which had clotted where the two strokes met . The second letter was a Roman D , formed also by two bold strokes , the upright very distinct , the curve less easily traced at the top , but the lower part deep and clear . The third letter was not so plain . It looked like C at first , but upon further examination [I]0-i felt convinced that it was meant for an O , left incomplete through the want of more writing fluid ; or was it then that [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother had seized [the dark author]1036-the dark author by the hair , as [he]1036-the dark author stooped to incline [his]1036-the dark author pen that the last drop might trickle down ? Deciphering thus with fingers and eyes , [I]0-i traced these letters of blood , one by one , over and over again , till they danced in [my]0-i gaze like the northern lights . [I]0-i stood upon tiptoe and kissed [them]1037-them ; [I]0-i cared not what [I]0-i was doing : it was [[my]0-i own father]1038-my own father 's blood , and [I]0-i thought of the heart it came from , not of the hand which shed it . When [I]0-i turned away , the surprise , for which till then [I]0-i had found no time , broke full upon [me]0-i . How could these letters , in spite of all [my]0-i vigilance , so long have remained unseen ? Why did [the murderer]831-the murderer peril [his]831-the murderer life yet more by staying to write the record , and seal perhaps the conviction of [his]831-the murderer deed ? And what did these characters mean ? Of these three questions , the first was readily solved . The other two remained to [me]0-i as new shadows of wonder . Several causes had conspired to defer so long this discovery . In the first place , the damask had been of rich lilac , shot with a pile of carmine , which , in the waving play of light , glossed at once and obscured the crimson stain , until the fading hues of art left in strong contrast nature 's abiding paint . Secondly , [my]0-i rapid growth and the clearness of [my]0-i eyes that day lessened the distance and favoured perception . Again — and this was perhaps the paramount cause — the winter sun , with rays unabsorbed by the snow , threw [his]1040-his sheer dint upon that very spot , keen , level , and uncoloured — a thing which could happen on few days in the year , and for few minutes each day , and which never had happened during [my]0-i previous search . Perhaps there was also some chemical action of the rays of light which evoked as well as showed the colour ; but of this [I]0-i do not know enough to speak . Suffice it that the letters were there , at first a great shock and terror , but soon a strong encouragement to [me]0-i . [My]0-i course was at once to perpetuate the marks and speculate upon them at leisure , for [I]0-i knew not how fleeting they might be . [I]0-i hurried [downstairs]1041-downstairs , and speaking to [no one]730-no one procured some clear tissue paper . Applying this to the damask , and holding a card behind , [I]0-i carefully traced with a pencil so much of the letters as could be perceived through the medium , and completed the sketch by copying most carefully the rest ; It was , however , beyond [my]0-i power to keep [my]0-i hand from trembling . A shade flitted over [my]0-i drawing — oh , how [my]0-i heart leaped ! When [I]0-i had finished the pencil - sketch , and before it was inked over ( for [I]0-i could not bring [myself]0-i to paint it red ) , [I]0-i knelt where [[my]0-i father]731-my father died and thanked [God]303-god for this guidance to [me]0-i . By the time [I]0-i had dried [my]0-i eyes the sun was passed and the lines of blood were gone , even though [I]0-i knew where to seek them , having left a pin in the damask . By measuring [I]0-i found that the letters were just three feet and a quarter above the spot where [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's head had been . The largest of them , the L , was three inches long and an eighth of an inch in width ; the others were nearly as long , but nothing like so wide . Trembling now , for the rush of passion which stills the body was past , and stepping silently on the long silent floor , [I]0-i went to the deep dark - mullioned window and tried to look forth . After all [my]0-i lone tumult , perhaps [I]0-i wanted to see [the world]798-the world . But [my]0-i jaded eyes and brain showed only the same three letters burning on the snow and sky . Evening , a winter evening , was fluttering down . The sun was spent and stopped by a grey mist , and the landscape full of dreariness and cold . For miles , [the earth]1046-the earth lay white and wan , with nothing to part life from death . No step was on the snow , no wind among the trees ; [fences]1047-fences , shrubs , and hillocks were as wrinkles in a winding - sheet , and every stark branch had like [me]0-i its own cold load to carry . But on the left , just in sight from the gable - window , was a spot , black as midnight , in the billowy snow . It was the spring which had stored for [me]0-i the footprints . Perhaps [I]0-i was superstitious then ; the omen was accepted . Suddenly a last gleam from the dauntless sun came through the ancient glass , and flung a crimson spot upon [my]0-i breast . It was the red heart , centre of [our]1048-our shield , won with [Coeur de Lion]304-coeur de lion . Oh scutcheons , blazonments , and other gewgaws , by which [men]1003-men think to ennoble daylight murders , how long shall [fools]1050-fools account it honour to be tattooed with [you]1051-you ? Mercy , fellow - feeling , truth , humility , virtues that never flap [their]1003-men wings , but shrink lest [they]1003-men should know [they]1003-men stoop , what have these won ? Gaze sinister , and [their]1003-men crest a pillory . With that red pride upon [my]0-i breast , and that black heart within , and [my]0-i young form stately with revenge , [I]0-i was [a true descendant of [Crusaders]305-crusaders]1052-a true descendant of crusaders . To [no one]730-no one , not even to [Thomas Kenwood]295-tom ( in whom [I]0-i confided most ) , did [I]0-i impart the discovery just described . Again and again [I]0-i went to examine those letters , jealous at once of [my]0-i secret , and fearful lest they should vanish . But though they remained perhaps unaltered , they never appeared so vivid as on that day . With keener interest [I]0-i began once more to track , from page to page , from volume to volume , the chronicled steps of limping but sure - footed justice . Not long after this [I]0-i was provided with [a companion]1054-a companion . " [Clara]293-clara , "[912-my guardian] said [[my]0-i guardian]912-my guardian one day at breakfast , " [you]293-clara live too much alone . Have [you]293-clara [any friends in [the neighbourhood]5329-the neighbourhood]5328-any friends in the neighbourhood ? "[912-my guardian] " None in [the world]798-the world , except [[my]912-my guardian mother]746-my mother . "[912-my guardian] " Well , [I]912-my guardian must try to survive the exclusion . [I]912-my guardian have done [my]912-my guardian best . But [[your]293-clara mother]5332-your mother has succeeded in finding [a colleague]5333-a colleague . There 's [a cousin of [yours]293-clara]5334-a cousin of yours coming here very soon . "[912-my guardian] " [Mother dear]5335-mother dear , "[912-my guardian] [I]0-i cried in some surprise , " [you]1056-you never told [me]0-i that [you]1056-you had [any nieces]5336-any nieces . "[0-i] " Neither have [I]912-my guardian , [[my]912-my guardian darling]5337-my darling , "[912-my guardian] [she]1056-you replied , " nor [any nephews]5338-any nephews either ; but [[your]293-clara uncle]5339-your uncle has ; and [I]1056-you hope [you]293-clara will like [[your]293-clara visitor]5340-your visitor . "[1056-you] " Now remember , [Clara]293-clara , "[912-my guardian] resumed [[my]0-i guardian]912-my guardian , " it is no wish of [mine]912-my guardian that [you]293-clara should do so . To [me]912-my guardian it is a matter of perfect indifference ; but [[your]293-clara mother]5332-your mother and [myself]912-my guardian agreed that a little society would do [you]293-clara good . "[912-my guardian] " When is [she]5340-your visitor to come ? "[0-i] [I]0-i asked , in high displeasure that [no one]730-no one had consulted [me]0-i . " [He]5340-your visitor is likely to be here to - morrow . "[0-i] " Oh , "[0-i] [I]0-i exclaimed , " the plot is to humanize [me]0-i through [a young gentleman]5342-a young gentleman , is it ? And how long is [he]5340-your visitor to stay in [[my]0-i house]5343-my house ? "[0-i] " In [[your]1059-he house]5344-your house ! [I]0-i suppose that will depend upon [[your]1059-he mother]5332-your mother 's wishes . "[0-i] " More likely upon [yours]1059-he , "[0-i] [I]0-i cried ; " but it matters little to [me]0-i . "[0-i] [He]1059-he said nothing , but looked displeased ; [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother doing the same , [I]0-i was silent , and the subject dropped . But of course [I]0-i saw that [he]1059-he wished [me]0-i to like [his]1059-he new importation , while [he]1059-he dissembled the wish from knowledge of [my]0-i character . Two years after [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's birth , [[his]1059-he father]1062-his father had married again . Of the second wedlock [the only offspring]1063-the only offspring was [[my]0-i guardian]912-my guardian , [Edgar Vaughan]300-edgar malins vaughan . [He]300-edgar malins vaughan was [a posthumous son]1065-a posthumous son , and [[his]300-edgar malins vaughan mother]1066-his mother in turn contracted a second marriage . [[Her]1066-his mother new husband]1067-her new husband was one [Stephen Daldy]306-stephen daldy , [a merchant of some wealth]1068-a merchant of some wealth . By [him]1067-her new husband [she]1066-his mother left [one son]1069-one son , named [Lawrence]307-laurence daldy , and [several daughters]1070-several daughters . [This Lawrence Daldy]307-laurence daldy , [[my]0-i guardian 's half - brother]1071-my guardian 's half - brother , proved a spendthrift , and , while scattering [the old merchant]1072-the old merchant 's treasure married [a fashionable adventuress]1073-a fashionable adventuress . As might be expected , no retrenchment ensued , and [he]1067-her new husband died in poverty , leaving [an only child]1074-an only child . [This boy]1075-this boy , [Clement Daldy]308-clement , was of [my]0-i own age , or thereabout , and , in pursuance of [[my]0-i guardian]912-my guardian 's plan , was to live henceforth with [us]1077-us . [He]1075-this boy arrived under the wing of [[his]1075-this boy mother]1066-his mother , and [his]1075-this boy character consisted in the absence of any . If [he]1075-this boy had any quality at all by which one could know [him]1075-this boy from a doll , it was perhaps vanity ; and if [his]1075-this boy vanity was singular enough to have any foundation , it could be only in [his]1075-this boy good looks . [He]1075-this boy was , [I]0-i believe , as pretty a youth as ever talked without mind , or smiled without meaning . Need it be said that [I]0-i despised [him]1075-this boy at once unfathomably ? [[His]1075-this boy mother]1066-his mother was of a very different order . Long - enduring , astute , and plausible , with truth no more than the pith of a straw , [she]1066-his mother added thereto an imperious spirit , embodied just now in an odious meekness . Whatever [she]1066-his mother said or did , in [her]1066-his mother large contempt of [the world]798-the world , [[her]1066-his mother lady - abbess]1081-her lady - abbess walk , and the chastened droop of [her]1066-his mother brilliant eyes , [she]1066-his mother conveyed through it all the impression of [her]1066-his mother humble superiority . Though profoundly convinced that all is vanity , [she]1066-his mother was reluctant to force this conviction on minds of a narrower scope , and dissembled with conscious grace [her]1066-his mother knowledge of human nature . To [a blunt , outspoken child]1082-a blunt , outspoken child , what could be more disgusting ? But when upon this was assumed an air of deep pity for [my]0-i ignorance , and interest in [my]0-i littleness , it became no longer bearable . [This Christian Jezebel]309-christian nearly succeeded in estranging [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother from [me]0-i . [The latter]907-the latter felt all that kindness towards [her]1066-his mother which [people of true religion]1085-people of true religion , when over - charitable , conceive towards [all who hoist and salute the holy flag]1086-all who hoist and salute the holy flag . [[Our]1087-our sweet pirate]1088-our sweet pirate knew well how to make the most of this . For [myself]0-i , though [I]0-i felt that [a hypocrite]1089-a hypocrite is below the level of hate , [I]0-i could not keep [my]0-i composure when with affectionate blandness [[our]1087-our visitor]1090-our visitor dared to " discharge [her]1090-our visitor sacred duty of impressing on [me]1090-our visitor the guilt of harbouring thoughts of revenge . "[1090-our visitor] Of course , [she]1090-our visitor did not attempt it in the presence of [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother ; but [[my]0-i guardian]912-my guardian was there , and doubtless knew [her]1090-our visitor intention . It was on a Sunday after the service , and [she]1090-our visitor had stayed for the sacrament . " [[My]1090-our visitor sweet child]5346-my sweet child , "[1090-our visitor] [she]1090-our visitor began , " [you]5346-my sweet child will excuse what [I]1090-our visitor am about to say , as [I]1090-our visitor only speak for [your]5346-my sweet child good , and from a humble sense that it is the path of duty . It has pleased [God]303-god , in [His]303-god infinite wisdom , to afflict [[your]5346-my sweet child dear mother]5347-your dear mother with a melancholy so sensitive , that [she]5347-your dear mother can not bear any allusion to [[your]5346-my sweet child deeply - lamented father]5348-your deeply - lamented father . [You]5346-my sweet child have therefore no female guidance upon a subject which justly occupies so much of [your]5346-my sweet child thoughts . [[Your]5346-my sweet child uncle]5339-your uncle [Edgar]300-edgar malins vaughan , in [his]300-edgar malins vaughan true affection for [you]5346-my sweet child , has thought it right that [you]5346-my sweet child should associate more with persons calculated to develop [your]5346-my sweet child mind . "[1090-our visitor] Now [I]0-i hate that word " develop ; "[0-i] and [I]0-i felt [my]0-i passion rising , but let [her]1093-me go on : — " Under these circumstances , it grieves [me]1093-me deeply , [[my]1093-me poor dear child]5350-my poor dear child , to find [you]5346-my sweet child still display a perversity , and a wilful neglect of the blessed means of grace , which must ( humanly speaking ) draw down a judgment upon [you]5346-my sweet child . Now , open [your]5346-my sweet child heart to [me]1093-me , the whole of [your]5346-my sweet child little unregenerate heart , [you]5346-my sweet child mysterious but ( [I]1093-me firmly believe ) [not ill - disposed lambkin]5351-not ill - disposed lambkin . Tell [me]1093-me all [your]5346-my sweet child thoughts , [your]5346-my sweet child broodings , [your]5346-my sweet child dreams — in fact , [your]5346-my sweet child entire experiences . [Uncle Edgar]310-uncle edgar will leave [the room]823-the room , if [you]5346-my sweet child wish it . "[1093-me] " Certainly not , "[0-i] [I]0-i said . " Quite right , [[my]0-i dear]5318-my dear ; have no secrets from [one who has been [[your]5346-my sweet child second father]5355-your second father]5354-one who has been your second father . Now tell [me]0-i all [your]5346-my sweet child little troubles . Make [me]0-i [[your]5346-my sweet child mother - [confessor]5357-confessor]5356-your mother - confessor . [I]0-i take the deepest interest in [you]5346-my sweet child . True , [I]0-i am only [a weak and sinful woman]5358-a weak and sinful woman , but [my]0-i chastisements have worked together for [my]0-i edification , and [God]303-god has been graciously pleased to grant [me]0-i peace of mind . "[0-i] " [You]1094-i do n't look as if [you]1094-i had much , "[0-i] [I]0-i cried . [Her]1094-i large eyes flashed a quick start from their depths , like the stir of a newly - fathomed sea . [[My]0-i guardian]912-my guardian 's face gleamed with a smile of sly amusement . Recovering at once [her]1094-i calm objective superiority , [she]1094-i proceeded : " [I]1094-i have been troubled and chastened severely , but now [I]1094-i perceive that it was all for the best . But perhaps it is not very graceful to remind [me]1094-i of that . Yet , since all [my]1094-i trials have worked together for [my]1094-i good , on that account [I]1094-i am , under Providence , better qualified to advise [you]0-i , in [your]0-i dark and perilous state . [I]1094-i have seen much of what [thoughtless people]5359-thoughtless people call ' life . ' But in helping [you]0-i , [I]1094-i wish to proceed on higher principles than those of [the world]798-the world . [You]0-i possess , beyond question , a strong and resolute will , but in [your]0-i present benighted course it can lead only to misery . Now , what is the principal aim of [your]0-i life , [my]1094-i love ? "[1094-i] " The death of [[my]1094-i father 's murderer]5361-my father 's murderer . "[1094-i] " Exactly so . [[My]912-my guardian unhappy child]5362-my unhappy child , [I]912-my guardian knew it too well . Though a dark sin is [your]0-i leading star , [I]912-my guardian feel too painfully [my]912-my guardian own shortcomings , and old unregenerate tendencies , to refuse [you]0-i [my]912-my guardian carnal sympathy . [You]0-i know [my]912-my guardian feelings , [Edgar]310-uncle edgar . "[912-my guardian] " Indeed , [Eleanor]311-eleanor , "[912-my guardian] replied [[my]0-i guardian]912-my guardian , with an impenetrable smile , " how should [I]912-my guardian ? [You]311-eleanor have always been such [a model of every virtue]5363-a model of every virtue . "[912-my guardian] [She]912-my guardian gave [him]1097-him a glance , and again addressed [me]0-i . " Now suppose , [Clara Vaughan]293-clara , that , after years of brooding and lonely anguish , [you]293-clara obtain [your]293-clara revenge at last , who will be any the better for it ? "[912-my guardian] " [[My]912-my guardian father]731-my father and [I.]912-my guardian "[912-my guardian] " [[Your]912-my guardian father]5365-your father indeed ! How [you]912-my guardian wrong [his]5365-your father sweet and most forgiving nature ! "[912-my guardian] This was the first thing [she]912-my guardian had said that touched [me]0-i ; and that because [I]0-i had often thought of it before . But [I]0-i would not let [her]912-my guardian see it . " Though [his]5365-your father nature were [an angel]5366-an angel 's , "[0-i] [I]0-i cried , " as [I]0-i believe it was , never could [he]5365-your father forgive [that being who tore [him]5365-your father from [me]0-i and [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother]5367-that being who tore him from me and my mother . [I]0-i know that [he]5365-your father watches [me]0-i now , and must be cold and [a wanderer]5369-a wanderer , until [I]0-i have done [my]0-i duty to [him]5365-your father and [myself]0-i . "[0-i] " [[You]912-my guardian awful child]5370-you awful child . Why , [you]912-my guardian 'll frighten [us]5371-us all . But [you]912-my guardian make it the more [my]912-my guardian duty . Come with [me]912-my guardian now , and let [me]912-my guardian inculcate the doctrines of a higher and holier style . "[912-my guardian] " Thank [you]912-my guardian , [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy , [I]1099-she want no teaching , except [[my]1099-she mother]746-my mother 's . "[1099-she] " [You]912-my guardian are too wilful and headstrong for [her]746-my mother . Come to [me]0-i , [[my]0-i poor stray lamb]5373-my poor stray lamb . "[0-i] " [I]912-my guardian would sooner go to [a butcher]5374-a butcher , [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy . "[912-my guardian] " Is it possible ? Are [you]912-my guardian so lost to all sense of right ? "[1099-she] " Yes , if [you]1099-she are right , "[0-i] [I]0-i replied ; and left [the room]823-the room . Thenceforth [she]1099-she pursued tactics of another kind . [She]1099-she tried [me]0-i with flattery and fictitious confidence , likely from [a woman of [her]1099-she maturity to win [a young girl]1101-a young girl]1100-a woman of her maturity to win a young girl , by inflating self - esteem : [she]1099-she even feigned a warm interest in [my]0-i search , and wished to partake in [my]0-i readings and secret musings . Indeed , [I]0-i could seldom escape [her]1099-she . [I]0-i am ready to own that , by [her]1099-she suggestions and quick apprehension , [she]1099-she gained some ascendancy over [me]0-i , but not a tenth part of what [she]1099-she thought [she]1099-she had won ; and [I]0-i still continued to long for [her]1099-she departure . Of this , however , no symptom appeared : [she]1099-she made [herself]1099-she quite at [home]1102-home , and did [her]1099-she best to become indispensable to [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother . [Clement Daldy]308-clement had full opportunity to commend [himself]308-clement to [my]0-i favour . [We]1104-we were constantly thrown together , in the presence of [[his]308-clement mother]1066-his mother , and the absence of [mine]0-i . For a long time , [I]0-i was too young , and too much engrossed by the object for which [I]0-i lived , to have any inkling of [their]1106-their scheme ; but suddenly a suspicion broke upon [me]0-i . [[My]0-i guardian]912-my guardian and [[his]308-clement sister - in - law]1108-his sister - in - law had formed , as [I]0-i thought , a deliberate plot for marrying [me]0-i , when old enough , to [[that tailor]1109-that tailor 's block]1110-that tailor 's block . [The one]1111-the one had been so long accustomed to the lordship of [the property]1112-the property , to some county influence , and great command of money , that it was not likely [he]308-clement would forego the whole without a struggle . But [he]308-clement knew quite well that the moment [I]0-i should be of age [I]0-i would dispense with [his]308-clement wardship , and even with [[his]308-clement residence [there]1114-there]1113-his residence there , and devote all [I]0-i had to the pursuit of [my]0-i " monomania . "[308-clement] All [his]308-clement endeavours to make [me]0-i [his]308-clement thrall had failed , partly from [my]0-i suspicions , partly from a repugnance which could not be conquered . Of course , [I]0-i intended to give [him]308-clement an ample return for [his]308-clement stewardship , which had been wise and unwearying . But this was not what [he]308-clement wanted . The motives of [[his]308-clement accomplice]1115-his accomplice require no explanation . If once this neat little scheme should succeed , [I]0-i must remain in [their]1115-his accomplice hands , [Clement]308-clement being [nobody]1116-nobody , until [they]1115-his accomplice should happen to quarrel for [me]0-i . To show what [Clement Daldy]308-clement was , a brief anecdote is enough . When [we]1117-we were about sixteen years old , [we]1117-we sat in [the park]892-the park one morning , at [the corner of [the lake]953-the lake]1119-the corner of the lake ; [Clement]308-clement 's little curled spaniel , which [he]308-clement loved as much as [he]308-clement could love anything , was gambolling round [us]1117-we . As [the boy]1121-the boy lounged along , half asleep , on the rustic chair , with [his]1121-the boy silky face shaded by a broad hat , and [his]1121-the boy bright curls glistening like daffodils playing , [I]0-i thought what a pretty peep - show [he]1121-the boy made , and wondered whether [he]1121-the boy could anyhow be [the owner of a soul]1122-the owner of a soul . " Oh , [Clara]293-clara , "[1121-the boy] [he]1121-the boy lisped , as [he]1121-the boy chanced to look up—"Couthin [Clara]293-clara , [I]1121-the boy wish [you]293-clara would n't look at [me]1121-the boy tho . "[1121-the boy] " And did it look fierce at its dolly ? "[0-i] [I]0-i said ; for [I]0-i was always good - natured to [him]1121-the boy . " [Dolly]313-dolly knows [I]0-i would n't hurt it , for it 's house full of sugar - plums . "[0-i] " Then do let [me]0-i go to thleep ; [you]1121-the boy are such [a howwid girl]5375-a howwid girl . "[0-i] So [I]0-i hushed [him]1121-the boy off with a cradle song . But before the long lashes sunk flat on [his]1121-the boy cheeks , like the ermine tips on [my]0-i muff , and while [his]1121-the boy red lips yet trembled like cherries in the wind , [my]0-i attention was suddenly drawn to [the lake]953-the lake . There was a plashing , and barking , and hissing , and napping of snow - white wings — poor [Juan]314-juan engaged in unequal combat with [two fierce swans who had a nest on [the island]1125-the island]1124-two fierce swans who had a nest on the island . The poor little dog , though [he]314-juan fought most gallantly , was soon driven into deep water , and the swans kept knocking [him]314-juan under with rapid and powerful strokes . Seeing [him]314-juan almost drowned , [I]0-i called [Clement]308-clement to save [him]314-juan at once . " [I]1126-the brave youth ca n't , "[1126-the brave youth] said [the brave youth]1126-the brave youth ; " [you]0-i go if [you]0-i like . [They]1124-two fierce swans who had a nest on the island 'll kill [me]1126-the brave youth , and [I]1126-the brave youth ca n't bear it ; and the water ith tho cold . "[1126-the brave youth] In a moment [I]0-i pushed off [the boat which was near]1127-the boat which was near , jumped into it , and , seizing an oar , contrived to beat back the swans , and lifted the poor little dog on board , gasping , half - drowned , and woefully beaten . Meanwhile [[my]0-i lord elect]1128-my lord elect had leaped on the seat for safety , and was wringing [his]1128-my lord elect white little hands , and dancing and crying , " Oh , [Clara'll]315-clara'll be throwned , and [they]1124-two fierce swans who had a nest on the island 'll say it was [me]1128-my lord elect . Oh , what thall [I]1128-my lord elect do ! what thall [I]1128-my lord elect do ! "[1128-my lord elect] Even when [I]0-i brought [him]1128-my lord elect [his]0-i little pet safe , [he]1128-my lord elect would not touch [him]1128-my lord elect , because [he]1128-my lord elect was wet ; so [I]0-i laid [him]1128-my lord elect full on [his]1128-my lord elect lap . The spring of the year 1849 was remarkable , throughout [the western counties]983-the western counties , for long drought . [I]0-i know not how it may be in [the east of [England]9-england]1130-the east of england , but [I]0-i have observed that in the west long droughts occur only in the spring and early summer . In the autumn [we]1131-we have sometimes as much as six weeks without rain , and in the summer a month at most , but all the real droughts ( so far as [my]0-i experience goes ) commence in February or March ; these are , however , so rare , and April has won such poetic fame for showers , and July for heat and dryness , that what [I]0-i state is at variance with the popular impression . Be that as it may , about Valentine's - day , 1849 , and after a length of very changeable weather , the wind fixed its home in the east , and the sky for a week was grey and monotonous . Brilliant weather ensued ; white frost at night , and strong sun by day . The frost became less biting as the year went on , and the sun more powerful ; there were two or three overcast days , and [people]1132-people hoped for rain . But no rain fell , except one poor drizzle , more like dew than rain . With habits now so ingrained as to become true pleasures , [I]0-i marked the effects of the drought on all the scene around [me]0-i . [The meadows]1133-the meadows took the colour of Russian leather , the cornlands that of a knife - board . The young leaves of the wood hung pinched and crisp , unable to shake off their tunics , and more like catkins than leaves . [The pools]1134-the pools went low and dark and thick with a coppery scum ( in autumn it would have been green ) , and little bubbles came up and popped where the earth cracked round the sides . The tap - rooted plants looked comely and brave in the morning , after [their]1133-the meadows drink of dew , but flagged and flopped in the afternoon , as a clubbed cabbage does . As for [those which had only the surface to suck , they dried by the acre , and powdered away like the base of a bonfire]1135-those which had only the surface to suck , they dried by the acre , and powdered away like the base of a bonfire . [The ground]1136-the ground was hard as horn , and fissured in stars , and angles , and jagged gaping cracks , like a dissecting map or a badly - plastered wall . It amused [me]0-i sometimes to see a beetle suddenly cut off from [[his]1128-my lord elect home]1137-his home by that which to [him]1128-my lord elect was an earthquake . How [he]1128-my lord elect would run to and fro , look doubtfully into [the dark abyss]1138-the dark abyss , then , rising to the occasion , bridge [[his]1128-my lord elect road]1139-his road with a straw . The snails shrunk close in their shells , and resigned themselves to a spongy distance of slime . The birds might be seen in the morning , hopping over [the hollows of [the shrunken ponds]1141-the shrunken ponds]1140-the hollows of the shrunken ponds , prying for worms , which had shut themselves up like caddises deep in [the thirsty ground]1142-the thirsty ground . [[Our]1143-our lake]1144-our lake , which was very deep at the lower end , became a refuge for [all the widgeons and coots and moorhens of [the neighbourhood]5329-the neighbourhood]1145-all the widgeons and coots and moorhens of the neighbourhood , and [the quick - diving grebe]1147-the quick - diving grebe , and even [the summer snipe]1148-the summer snipe , with [his]1148-the summer snipe wild and lonely " cheep . "[1148-the summer snipe] [The brink of [the water]1150-the water]1149-the brink of the water was feathered , and dabbled with countless impressions of feet of all sorts — dibbers , and waders , and wagtails , and weasels , and otters , and foxes , and the bores of a thousand bills , and muscles laid high and dry . For [my]0-i own pet robins [I]0-i used to fill pans with water along the edge of the grass , for [I]0-i knew [their]1151-their dislike of the mineral spring ( which never went dry ) , and to these [they]1151-their would fly down and drink , and perk up [their]1151-their impudent heads , and sluice [their]1151-their poor little dusty wings ; and then , as [they]1151-their could not sing now , [they]1151-their would give [me]0-i a chirp of gratitude . When the drought had lasted about three months , the east wind , which till then had been cold and creeping , became suddenly parching hot . Arid and heavy , and choking , it panted along [the glades]1152-the glades , like a dog on [a dusty road]1153-a dusty road . It came down [the water - meadows]1154-the water - meadows , where the crowsfoot grew , and wild celery , and it licked up the dregs of [the stream]1155-the stream , and powdered the flood - gates , all skeletons now , with grey dust . [It]1156-it came through [the copse]1157-the copse , and the young leaves shrunk before it , like [a child]782-a child from the hiss of a snake . The blast pushed the doors of [[our]1159-our house]1160-our house , and its dry wrinkled hand was laid on the walls and the staircase and woodwork ; a hot grime tracked its steps , and a taint fell on all that was fresh . As it folded its baleful wings , and lay down like a desert dragon , vegetation , so long a time sick , gave way at last to despair , and flagged off flabbed and dead . The clammy grey dust , like hot sand thrown from ramparts , ate to the core of everything , choking the shrivelled pores and stifling the languid breath . [Old gaffers]1161-old gaffers were talking of murrain in cattle , and famine and plague among [men]1003-men , and [farmers]1163-farmers were too badly off to grumble . But the change even now was at hand . The sky which had long presented a hard and cloudless blue , but trailing a light haze round its rim in the morning , was bedimmed more every day with a white scudding vapour across it . The sun grew larger and paler , and leaned more on the heavens , which soon became ribbed with white skeleton - clouds ; and these in their turn grew softer and deeper , then furry and ravelled and wisped . One night the hot east wind dropped , and , next morning ( though the vane had not changed ) , the clouds drove heavily from [the south - west]1164-the south - west . But these signs of rain grew for several days before a single drop fell ; as is always the case after discontinuance , it was hard to begin again . Indeed , the sky was amassed with black clouds , and the dust went swirling like a mat beaten over the trees , and the air became cold , and the wind moaned three days and three nights , and yet no rain fell . As [old Whitehead]316-old whitehead , [the man at [the lodge]1166-the lodge]1165-the man at the lodge , well observed , it had " forgotten the way to rain . "[316-old whitehead] Then it suddenly cleared one morning ( the 28th of May ) , and the west was streaked with red clouds , that came up to crow at the sun , and the wind for the time was lulled , and [the hills]1167-the hills looked close to [my]0-i hand . So [I]0-i went to [[[my]0-i father]731-my father 's grave]990-my father 's grave without the little green watering - pot or a trowel to fill the chinks , for [I]0-i knew it would rain that very day . In the eastern shrubbery there was a pond , which [[my]0-i father]731-my father had taken much trouble to make and adorn ; it was not fed by the mineral spring , for that was thought likely to injure the fish , but by [a larger and purer stream]1171-a larger and purer stream , called [the " Witches ' brook]5376-the " witches ' brook , "[0-i] which , however , was now quite dry . [This pond]1172-this pond had been planted around and through with silver - weed , thrumwort and sun - clew , water - lilies , arrow - head , and the rare double frog - bit , and other aquatic plants , some of them brought from a long distance . At one end there was [a grotto]1173-a grotto , cased with fantastic porous stone , and inside [it]1173-a grotto a small fountain played . But now the fountain was silent , and [the pond]1174-the pond shrunk almost to [its]1174-the pond centre . The silver eels which once had abounded here , finding [their]1175-their element likely to fail , made a migration , one dewy night , overland to [the lake below]1176-the lake below . The fish , in vain envy of [that great enterprise]1177-that great enterprise , huddled together in the small wet space which remained , with their back - fins here and there above water . When [any one]1178-any one came near , [they]1178-any one dashed away , as [I]0-i have seen grey mullet do in [the shallow sea - side pools]1179-the shallow sea - side pools . Several times [I]0-i had water poured in for [their]1178-any one benefit , but it was gone again directly . The mud round the edge of the remnant puddle was baked and cracked , and foul with an oozy green sludge , the relic of water - weeds . [This little lake]1180-this little lake , once so clear and pretty , and full of bright dimples and crystal shadows , now looked so forlorn and wasted and old , like a bright eye worn dim with years , and the trees stood round [it]1180-this little lake so faded and wan , the poplar unkempt of its silver and green , the willow without wherewithal to weep , and the sprays of the birch laid dead at its feet ; altogether [it]1180-this little lake looked so empty and sad and piteous , that [I]0-i had been deeply grieved for the sake of [him]1181-his who had loved it . So , when the sky clouded up again , in the afternoon of that day , [I]0-i hastened thither to mark the first effects of the rain . As [I]0-i reached the white shell - walk , which loosely girt [the pond]1174-the pond , the lead - coloured sky took a greyer and woollier cast , and overhead became blurred and pulpy ; while round the horizon it lifted in frayed festoons . As [I]0-i took [my]0-i seat in [the grotto]1183-the grotto , the big drops began to patter among the dry leaves , and the globules rolled in the dust , like parched peas . A long hissing sound ensued , and a cloud of powder went up , and the trees moved their boughs with a heavy dull sway . Then broke from the laurels the song of the long - silent thrush , and reptiles , and insects , and all that could move , darted forth to rejoice in the freshness . [The earth]1046-the earth sent forth that smell of sweet newness , the breath of young nature awaking , which reminds [us]1185-us of milk , and of clover , of balm , and the smile of [a child]782-a child . But , most of all , it was in and around [the pool]1187-the pool that the signs of new life were stirring . As the circles began to jostle , and the bubbles sailed closer together , the water , the slime , and the banks , danced , flickered , and darkened , with a whirl of living creatures . The surface was brushed , as green corn is flawed by the wind , with the quivering dip of swallows ' wings ; and the ripples that raced to [the land]1188-the land splashed over the feet of the wagtails . Here , as [I]0-i marked all narrowly , and seemed to rejoice in [their]1178-any one gladness , a sudden new wonder befell [me]0-i . [I]0-i was watching a monster frog emerge from [his]1181-his penthouse of ooze , and lift with some pride [his]1181-his brown spots and [his]1181-his bright golden throat from the matted green cake of dry weed , when a quick gleam shot through the fibres . With a listless curiosity , wondering whether the frog , like [[his]1181-his cousin]1189-his cousin the toad , were [a jeweller]1190-a jeweller , [I]0-i advanced to the brim of [the pool]1187-the pool . [The poor frog]1192-the poor frog looked timidly at [me]0-i with [his]1192-the poor frog large starting eyes ; then , shouldering off the green coil , made one rapid spring , and was safe in [the water]1150-the water . But [his]1192-the poor frog movement had further disclosed some glittering object below . Determined to know what it was , despite the rain , [I]0-i placed some large pebbles for steps , ran lightly , and lifted the weed . Before [me]0-i lay , as bright as if polished that day , with the jewelled hilt towards [me]0-i , a long narrow dagger . With a haste too rapid for thought to keep up , [I]0-i snatched it , and rushed to [the grotto]1183-the grotto . There , in the drought of [my]0-i long revenge , with eyes on fire , and teeth set hard and dry , and every root of [my]0-i heart cleaving and crying to heaven for blood , [I]0-i pored on that weapon , whose last sheath had been — how well [I]0-i knew what . [I]0-i did not lift it towards [God]303-god , nor fall on [my]0-i knees and make a theatrical vow ; for that there was no necessity . But for the moment [my]0-i life and [my]0-i soul seemed to pass along that cold blade , just as [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's had done . A treacherous , blue , three - cornered blade , with a point as keen as a viper 's fang , sublustrous like ice in the moonlight , sleuth as hate , and tenacious as death . To [my]0-i curdled and fury - struck vision it seemed to writhe in the gleam of the storm which played along it like a corpse - candle . [I]0-i fancied how it had quivered and rung to find itself deep in that heart . [My]0-i passions at length overpowered [me]0-i , and [I]0-i lay , how long [I]0-i know not , utterly insensible . When [I]0-i came to [myself]0-i again , the storm had passed over , [the calm pool]1196-the calm pool covered [my]0-i stepping stones , the shrubs and trees wept joy in the moonlight , the nightingales sang in the elms , healing and beauty were in the air , peace and content walked abroad on [the earth]1046-the earth . The May moon slept on the water before [me]0-i , and streamed through [the grotto arch]1198-the grotto arch ; but there it fell cold and ghost - like upon the tool of murder . Over this [I]0-i hastily flung [my]0-i scarf ; coward , perhaps [I]0-i was , for [I]0-i could not handle it then , but fled to [the house]764-the house and dreamed in [[my]0-i lonely bed]1200-my lonely bed . When [I]0-i examined the dagger next day , [I]0-i found it to be of foreign fabric . " Ferrati , [Bologna]317-bologna , "[0-i] the name and abode of [the maker]1201-the maker , as [I]0-i supposed , was damascened on the hilt . A cross , like that on the footprint , but smaller , and made of gold , was inlaid on the blade , just above the handle . The hilt itself was wreathed with a snake of green enamel , having garnet eyes . From the fine temper of the metal , or some annealing process , it showed not a stain of rust , and the blood which remained after writing the letters before described had probably been washed off by the water . [I]0-i laid it most carefully by , along with [my]0-i other relics , in a box which [I]0-i always kept locked . So [God]303-god , as [I]0-i thought , by [His]303-god sun , and [His]303-god seasons , and weather , and the mind [He]303-god had so prepared , was holding the clue for [me]0-i , and shaking it clear from time to time , along [my]0-i dark and many - winding path . Soon after this , a ridiculous thing occurred , the consequences of which were grave enough . The summer and autumn after that weary drought were rather wet and stormy . One night towards the end of October , it blew a heavy gale after torrents of rain . Going to [the churchyard]992-the churchyard next day , [I]0-i found , as [I]0-i had expected , that the flowers so carefully kept through the summer were shattered and strewn by the tempest ; and so [I]0-i returned to [the garden]1203-the garden for [others]869-others to plant in [their]869-others stead . [[My]0-i cousin]1205-my cousin [Clement]308-clement ( as [he]308-clement was told to call [himself]308-clement ) came sauntering towards [me]0-i among the beds . [His]303-god usual look of shallow brightness and empty self - esteem had failed [him]303-god for the moment , and [he]303-god looked like [a fan - tailed pigeon who has tumbled down the horse - rack]1206-a fan - tailed pigeon who has tumbled down the horse - rack . [He]303-god followed [me]0-i to and fro , with a sort of stuttering walk , as [I]0-i chose the plants [I]0-i liked best ; but [I]0-i took little notice of [him]303-god , for such had been [my]0-i course since [I]0-i first discovered [their]1207-their scheme . At last , as [I]0-i stooped to dig up a white verbena , [he]303-god came behind [me]0-i , and began [his]303-god errand with more than [his]303-god usual lisp . This [I]0-i shall not copy , as it is not worth the trouble . " Oh , [Clara]293-clara , "[303-god] [he]303-god said , " [I]303-god want to tell [you]293-clara something , if [you]293-clara 'll only be good - natured ! "[303-god] " Do n't [you]303-god see [I]0-i am busy now ? "[0-i] [I]0-i replied , without turning to look . " Wo n't it do when [you]303-god have taken [your]303-god curl - papers off ? "[303-god] " Now , [Clara]293-clara , [you]293-clara know that [I]303-god never use curl - papers . [My]303-god hair does n't want it . [You]293-clara know it 's much prettier than [your]293-clara long waving black stuff , and it curls of its own accord , if [mamma]5377-mamma only brushes it . But [I]303-god want to tell [you]293-clara something particular . "[303-god] " Well , then , be quick , for [I]0-i am going away . "[0-i] And with that [I]0-i stood up and confronted [him]303-god . [He]303-god was scarcely so tall as [myself]0-i , and [his]303-god light showy dress and pink rose of a face , which seemed made to be worn in the hair , were thrown into brighter relief by [my]0-i sombre apparel and earnest twilight look . Some lurking sense of this contrast seemed to add to [his]303-god hesitation . At last [he]303-god began again : " [You]0-i know , [Cousin Clara]318-clara , [you]0-i must not be angry with [me]303-god , because it is n't [my]303-god fault . "[303-god] " What is not [your]303-god fault ? "[303-god] " Why , that [I]303-god should fall — what do [they]5378-they call it?—fall in love , [I]303-god suppose . "[303-god] " [You]0-i fall in love , [[you]0-i dissolute doll]5379-you dissolute doll ! How dare [you]0-i fall in love , [sir]5380-sir , without [my]303-god leave ? "[303-god] " Well , [I]303-god was afraid to ask [you]0-i , [Clara]318-clara . [I]303-god could n't tell what [you]1208-i would say . "[303-god] " Oh , that must depend , of course , on who [Mrs. Doll]313-dolly is to be ! If it 's a good little thing with blue satin arms , and a sash and a slip , and pretty blue eyes that go with a string , perhaps [I]303-god 'll forgive [you]0-i , [poor child]5381-poor child , and set [you]0-i up with [a house]5382-a house , and a tea - set , and [a mother - of - pearl perambulator]5383-a mother - of - pearl perambulator . "[303-god] " Now , do n't talk nonsense , "[1208-i] [he]1208-i answered . " Before long [I]1208-i shall be [a man]5384-a man , and then [you]0-i 'll be afraid of [me]1208-i , and put up [your]0-i hands , and shriek , and want [me]1208-i to kiss [you]0-i . "[1208-i] [I]0-i had indulged [him]1208-i too much , and [his]1208-i tongue was taking liberties . [I]0-i soon stopped [him]1208-i . " How dare [you]1208-i bark at [me]0-i , [you]1208-i wretched little white - woolled nursery dog ? "[0-i] [I]0-i left [him]1208-i , and went with [my]0-i basket of flowers along [the path]1209-the path to [the churchyard]992-the churchyard . For a while [he]1208-i stood there frightened , till [[his]1208-i mother]1066-his mother looked forth from the drawing - room window . Between the two fears [he]1208-i chose the less , and followed [me]0-i to [[[my]0-i father]731-my father 's grave]990-my father 's grave . [I]0-i stood there and angrily waved [him]1208-i back , but [he]1208-i still persisted , though trembling . " [Cousin Clara]318-clara , "[1208-i] [he]1208-i said — and [his]1208-i lisp was quite gone , and [he]1208-i tried to be in a passion—"Cousin [Clara]318-clara , [you]318-clara shall hear what [I]1208-i have got to say . [You]318-clara have lived with [me]1208-i now a long time , and [I]1208-i 'm sure [we]5385-we have agreed very well , and [I]1208-i — [I]1208-i — no , [I]1208-i do n't see why [we]5385-we should not be married . "[1208-i] " Do n't [you]1208-i indeed , [sir]5380-sir ? "[1208-i] " Perhaps , "[1208-i] [he]1208-i continued , " [you]318-clara are afraid that [I]1208-i do n't care about [you]318-clara . Really now , [I]1208-i often think that [you]318-clara would be very good - looking , if [you]318-clara would only laugh now and then , and leave off those nasty black gowns ; and then if [you]318-clara would only leave off being so grand , and mysterious , and stately , and getting up so early , [I]1208-i would let [you]318-clara do as [you]318-clara liked , and [you]318-clara might paint [me]1208-i and have a lock of [my]1208-i hair . "[1208-i] " [Clement Daldy]308-clement , "[0-i] [I]0-i asked , " do [you]1208-i see [that lake]5387-that lake ? "[1208-i] " Yes , "[1208-i] [he]1208-i replied , turning pale , and inclined to fly . " There 's water enough there now . If [you]318-clara ever dare again to say one word like this to [me]1208-i , or even to show by [your]318-clara looks that [you]318-clara think it , [I]1208-i 'll take [you]318-clara and drown [you]318-clara there , as sure as [[my]1208-i father]731-my father lies here . "[1208-i] [He]1208-i slunk away quickly without a word , and could eat no lunch that day . In the afternoon , as [I]0-i sat in [my]0-i favourite bow - window seat , [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy glided in . [She]312-mrs. daldy had put on with care [her]312-mrs. daldy clinging smile , as [she]312-mrs. daldy would an Indian shawl . [I]0-i thought how much better [her]312-mrs. daldy face would have looked with its natural , bold , haughty gaze . " [[My]1214-this pious tidewaiter dear]5318-my dear [Clara]318-clara , "[1214-this pious tidewaiter] began [this pious tidewaiter]1214-this pious tidewaiter , " what have [you]318-clara done to vex so [[your]318-clara poor cousin]5390-your poor cousin [Clement]308-clement ? "[1214-this pious tidewaiter] " Only this , [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy : [he]308-clement was foolish or mad , and [I]312-mrs. daldy gave [him]308-clement advice in a truly Christian spirit , entirely for [his]308-clement own good . "[312-mrs. daldy] " [I]1214-this pious tidewaiter hope , [[my]1214-this pious tidewaiter dear]5318-my dear , that some day it may be [his]308-clement duty as well as [his]308-clement privilege to advise [you]318-clara . But , of course , [you]318-clara need not take [his]308-clement advice . [[My]1214-this pious tidewaiter [Clara]318-clara]5392-my clara loves [her]318-clara own way as much as [any girl [I]1214-this pious tidewaiter ever knew]5393-any girl i ever knew ; and with poor [Clement]308-clement [she]318-clara will be safe to have it . "[1214-this pious tidewaiter] " No doubt of that , "[0-i] [I]0-i replied . " And then , [[my]0-i pet]5394-my pet , [you]318-clara will be in a far better position than [you]318-clara could attain as [an unmarried girl]5395-an unmarried girl to pursue the great aim of [your]318-clara life ; so far , [I]0-i mean , as is not inconsistent with the spirit of Christian forgiveness . [[Your]318-clara guardian]5396-your guardian has thought of that , in effecting this arrangement ; and [I]0-i trust that [I]0-i was not wrong in allowing so fair a prospect , under Providence , of [your]318-clara ultimate peace of mind to influence [me]0-i considerably when [he]5396-your guardian sought [my]0-i consent . "[0-i] " [I]1214-this pious tidewaiter am sure [I]1214-this pious tidewaiter am much obliged to [you]318-clara . "[1214-this pious tidewaiter] " [I]1214-this pious tidewaiter can not conceal from [you]318-clara , so clear - sighted as [you]318-clara are — and if [I]1214-this pious tidewaiter could , [I]1214-this pious tidewaiter object to concealment of any kind , on principle — that there are also certain worldly advantages , which are not without weight , however the heart be weaned by trials and chastened from transient things . And [[your]318-clara guardian]5396-your guardian has this arrangement so very much at heart . [[My]1214-this pious tidewaiter own dear child]5398-my own dear child , [I]1214-this pious tidewaiter have felt for [you]318-clara so long that [I]1214-this pious tidewaiter love [you]318-clara as [a daughter]5399-a daughter . How thankful [I]1214-this pious tidewaiter ought to be to [the Giver of all good things]5400-the giver of all good things to have [you]318-clara really [[my]1214-this pious tidewaiter own dear child]5398-my own dear child . "[1214-this pious tidewaiter] " Be thankful , [madam]5402-madam , when [you]5402-madam have got it . This is a good thing which under [Providence]319-providence [you]5402-madam must learn to do without . "[0-i] It was coarse of [me]0-i to hint at [my]0-i riches . But what could [I]0-i do with [her]1215-her ? " Why , [Clara]318-clara , "[1215-her] [she]1215-her asked , in great amazement , " [you]318-clara can not be so foolish and wilful as to throw away this chance of revenge ? If only for [[your]318-clara dear mother]5347-your dear mother 's sake , as well as [[your]318-clara father]5365-your father 's , it is the path of duty . Let [me]1215-her tell [you]318-clara , both [she]5347-your dear mother and [yourself]318-clara are very much more in [[your]318-clara guardian]5396-your guardian 's power than [you]318-clara have any idea . And what would be [[your]318-clara poor father]5406-your poor father 's wish , who has left [you]318-clara so entirely to [[his]5406-your poor father brother]908-his brother 's care and discretion ? Will [you]318-clara put off for ever the discovery of [[his]5406-your poor father murderer]5408-his murderer ? "[1215-her] " [[My]0-i father]731-my father , "[0-i] [I]0-i said , proudly , " would scorn [me]0-i for doing a thing below [him]5406-your poor father and [myself]0-i . [The last of [the Vaughans]5411-the vaughans]5410-the last of the vaughans to be plotted away to [a grocer]5412-a grocer 's doll ! "[0-i] It had been a trial of temper ; and contempt was too much for hypocrisy . Through the rouge of [the world]798-the world , and the pearl - powder of religion , nature flushed forth on [her]1217-her cheek ; for [she]1217-her really loved [[her]1217-her son]1218-her son . [She]1217-her knew where to wound [me]0-i the deepest . " Is it no condescension in [us]5413-us that [[my]0-i beautiful boy]5414-my beautiful boy should stoop to [the maniac - child of [a man who was stabbed — stabbed in [his]5416-a man who was stabbed — stabbed in his midnight bed midnight bed]5416-a man who was stabbed — stabbed in his midnight bed — to atone , no doubt , for some low act of [his]5416-a man who was stabbed — stabbed in his midnight bed own]5415-the maniac - child of a man who was stabbed — stabbed in his midnight bed — to atone , no doubt , for some low act of his own ? "[0-i] [I]0-i sprang up , and rang the bell . [Thomas Kenwood]295-tom , who made a point of attending [me]0-i , came at once . [I]0-i said to [him]295-tom , calmly and slowly : " Allow [this person]5417-this person one hour to pack [her]5417-this person things . Get a fly from [the Walnut Tree Inn]5418-the walnut tree inn , and see [her]5417-this person beyond [the Lodge]1166-the lodge . "[0-i] If [I]0-i had told [him]295-tom to drag [her]1219-she away by the hair , [I]0-i believe [that man]1220-that man would have done it . [She]1219-she shrunk away from [me]0-i ; for the moment [her]1219-she spirit was quelled , and [she]1219-she trembled into a chair . " [I]1219-she assure [you]1219-she , [Clara]318-clara , [I]1219-she did not mean what [I]1219-she said . [You]1219-she provoked [me]1219-she so . "[1219-she] " Not one word more . Leave [the room]823-the room and [the house]764-the house . "[1219-she] " [Miss Vaughan]293-clara , [I]1219-she will not leave [this house]5422-this house until [[your]293-clara guardian]5396-your guardian returns . "[1219-she] " [Thomas]295-tom , "[0-i] [I]0-i said , without looking towards [her]1219-she , " if [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy is not gone in an hour , [you]295-tom quit [my]0-i service . "[0-i] How [Thomas Kenwood]295-tom managed it , [I]0-i never asked . [He]295-tom was [a resolute man]1221-a resolute man , and [all the servants]1222-all the servants obeyed [him]295-tom . [She]1219-she turned round once , as [she]1219-she crossed the threshold , and gave [me]0-i a look which [I]0-i shall never forget . Was such the look that had glared on [[my]0-i father]731-my father before the blow ? [She]1219-she lifted the white arm of which [she]1219-she was proud , and threw back [her]1219-she head , like the Fecial hurling [his]295-tom dart . " [Clara Vaughan]293-clara , [you]293-clara shall bitterly grieve for this . It shall throw [you]293-clara and [[your]293-clara mother]5332-your mother at the feet of [[[your]293-clara father]5365-your father 's murderer]5426-your father 's murderer , and [you]293-clara shall crave meat worse than [[your]293-clara enemy]5427-your enemy 's blood . "[1219-she] Until [she]1219-she had quitted [the house]764-the house , [I]0-i could not sit down ; but went to [[[my]0-i father]731-my father 's bedroom , where [I]0-i often took refuge when strongly excited and unable to fly to [[his]731-my father grave]979-his grave]1226-my father 's bedroom , where i often took refuge when strongly excited and unable to fly to his grave . The thoughts and the memories hovering and sighing around that fatal chamber were enough to calm and allay the sensations of trivial wrong . But now this was not the case . The outrage offered had been , not to [me]0-i , but to [him]731-my father who seemed present there . The suggestion , too , of an injury done by [[my]0-i father]731-my father , though scorned at first , was working and ruffling within [me]0-i , as [children]1229-children put bearded corn - ears in another 's sleeve , which by - and - by work [their]1229-children own way to the breast . Till now , [I]0-i had always believed that some worldly advantage or gain had impelled [[my]0-i foe]1230-my foe to the deed which left [me]0-i [an orphan]1231-an orphan . But [that woman]1232-that woman 's dark words had started a new train of reasoning , whose very first motion was doubt of [the man [I]0-i worshipped]1233-the man i worshipped . Among all [I]0-i had ever met , there existed but one opinion as to what [he]731-my father had been — [a true gentleman]1234-a true gentleman , who had injured not one of [[God]303-god 's creatures , whose life had been guided mainly by the wishes and welfare of [others]869-others]1235-god 's creatures , whose life had been guided mainly by the wishes and welfare of others . Moreover , [I]0-i had [my]0-i own clear recollections — [his]731-my father voice , [his]731-my father eyes , and [his]731-my father smile , [his]731-my father manner and whole expression ; these , it is true , were but outward things , yet [a child]782-a child 's intuition is strong and hard to refute . Again , during [my]0-i remembrance , [he]731-my father had never been absent from [us]1238-us , except for a day or two , now and then , among [[his]731-my father county neighbours]1239-his county neighbours ; and any ill will which [he]731-my father might have incurred from [them]1239-his county neighbours must , from [his]731-my father position , have become notorious . And yet , in the teeth of this reasoning , and in spite of [my]0-i own warm feeling , that horrible suspicion clave to [my]0-i heart and chilled it like the black spot of mildew . And what if the charge were true ? In that case , how was [I]0-i better than [he]731-my father who had always been to [my]0-i mind [a fiend in special commission]1240-a fiend in special commission ? [His]1241-his was vengeance , and [mine]0-i revenge ; [he]731-my father had suffered perhaps a wanton wrong , as deep to [his]731-my father honour as [mine]0-i to [my]0-i love . While [I]0-i was brooding thus miserably , [my]0-i eyes fell upon the bed . There were the red streaks , grained and fibred like the cross - cut of a fern - stalk ; framed and looking down on [me]0-i , the sampler of [my]0-i life . Drawing near , [I]0-i trembled with an unknown awe , to find [myself]0-i in that lonely presence , not indeed thinking , but inkling such things of [[my]0-i father]731-my father , [[my]0-i own darling father]1243-my own darling father , whose blood was looking at [me]0-i . In a storm of self - loathing and sorrow , [I]0-i knelt there and sobbed [my]0-i atonement ; but never thenceforth could [I]0-i wholly bar out the idea . Foul ideas when once admitted will ever return on [their]1244-their track , as the cholera walks in the trail of its former pall . But instead of abating [my]0-i dogged pursuit , [I]0-i now had a new incentive — to dispel the aspersions cast on [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's shadow . At this particular time of [my]0-i life , many things began to puzzle [me]0-i , but nothing was a greater puzzle than the character of [[my]0-i guardian]912-my guardian . Morose or moody [he]912-my guardian was not , though [a stranger]1247-a stranger might have thought [him]912-my guardian so ; nor could [I]0-i end with the conviction that [his]912-my guardian heart was cold . It rather seemed to [me]0-i as if [he]912-my guardian felt that it ought to be so , and tried [his]912-my guardian best to settle down as the inmate of [an icehouse]1248-an icehouse . But any casual flush of love , any glow of native warmth from the hearts around [him]912-my guardian , and taken by surprise [he]912-my guardian wavered for one traitor moment , and in [his]912-my guardian eyes gleamed some remembrance , like firelight upon frozen windows . But let any one attempt to approach [him]912-my guardian then with softness , to stir kind interest and feeling into benevolent expression , and [Mr. Vaughan]297-mr. edgar vaughan would promptly shut [himself]912-my guardian in again , with a bar of irony , or a bolt of sarcasm . Only to [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother was [his]912-my guardian behaviour different ; towards [her]746-my mother [his]912-my guardian manner was so gentle , and [his]912-my guardian tone so kind , that but for [my]0-i conviction that remorse lay under it , [I]0-i must have come to like [him]912-my guardian . True , [they]1250-they did not often meet , for [dear mother]968-dear mother confined [herself]968-dear mother ( in spite of [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy ) more and more closely to [[her]968-dear mother own part of [the house]764-the house]1252-her own part of the house , and rarely had the spirits now to share in the meals of [the family]1254-the family . Therefore , [I]0-i began at once to take [her]746-my mother place , and would not listen to [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy 's kind offer to relieve [me]0-i . This had led quite recently to a little outbreak . One day [I]0-i had been rather late for dinner , and , entering [the room]823-the room with a proud apology , found to [my]0-i amazement [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy at the head of the table . For [me]0-i a seat was placed , as for [a good little girl]1256-a good little girl , by the side of [Master Clement]320-master clement . At first [I]0-i had not the presence of mind to speak , but stood by [[my]0-i rival]1257-my rival 's chair , waiting for [her]1257-my rival to rise . [She]1257-my rival affected not to understand [me]0-i , and began , with [her]1257-my rival hand on the ladle , and looking [me]0-i full in the face : " [I]1257-my rival fear , [darling Clara]293-clara , the soup is cold ; but [[your]293-clara uncle]5339-your uncle can give [you]293-clara a very nice slice of salmon . Have [you]293-clara offered thanks for these mercies ? "[1257-my rival] " Thank [you]0-i , [I]0-i will take soup . Allow [me]0-i to help [myself]0-i . [I]0-i am sorry to have troubled [you]293-clara . "[0-i] And [I]0-i placed [my]0-i hand on the back of [her]1257-my rival chair , presuming that [she]1257-my rival would get up ; but [she]1257-my rival never stirred one inch , and actually called for a plate to help [me]0-i . [[My]0-i guardian]912-my guardian was looking at both of [us]1259-us , with a dry smile of amusement , and [Clement]320-master clement began to simper and play with [his]320-master clement fork.—Now for it , or never , thought [I.]0-i " [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy , [you]312-mrs. daldy quite mistake [me]1257-my rival , or pretend to do so . Have the goodness to quit [my]1257-my rival chair . "[1257-my rival] [She]1257-my rival had presumed on [my]0-i dread of an altercation before [the servants]772-the servants , but only [Thomas Henwood]321-thomas henwood happened to be in [the room]823-the room . Had there been [a dozen present]1262-a dozen present , [I]0-i would still have asserted [my]0-i right . At last [she]1257-my rival rose in [her]1257-my rival stateliest manner , but with an awkward smile , and a still more awkward sneer . " [Your]0-i use , [[my]1257-my rival poor child]5429-my poor child , of the possessive pronoun is far more emphatic than [your]0-i good breeding is . "[1257-my rival] " Who cares for [your]1257-my rival opinion ? "[1257-my rival] Not a hospitable inquiry ; but then [she]1257-my rival was not [[my]0-i visitor]1263-my visitor . In grand style [she]1257-my rival marched to the door , but soon thought better of it , and came to [her]1257-my rival proper place with the sigh of a contrite spirit . " [Poor creature]5430-poor creature ! It is a rebuke to [me]1257-my rival , for [my]1257-my rival want of true faith in the efficacy of prayer . "[1257-my rival] And after all this , [she]1257-my rival made a most excellent dinner . About [that woman]1232-that woman there was something of a slimy pride , no more like to upright prickly self - respect than macerated bird - lime is to the stiff bright holly . Yet [no one [I]0-i ever knew]1265-no one i ever knew possessed such wiry powers of irritation . Whenever [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother and [[my]0-i guardian]912-my guardian met , [she]1257-my rival took care to be in the way , and watched [them]1268-them both , and appealed to [me]0-i with all [her]1257-my rival odious pantomime of sorrow , sympathy , wonder , loving superiority , and spiritual yearnings . And all the time [her]1257-my rival noisome smile , like the smell of a snake , came over [us]1269-us . [She]1257-my rival knew , and rejoiced in the knowledge , how hard set [I]0-i was to endure it , and every quick flash of [my]0-i eyes only lit up [her]1257-my rival unctuous glory . For all [I]0-i know , it was natural that [my]0-i antipathy to [that woman]1232-that woman should , by reaction , thaw sometimes [my]0-i coldness towards [[my]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle . Though self - respect had at length compelled [him]1271-my uncle to abandon [his]1271-my uncle overtures to [my]0-i friendship , now and then [I]0-i detected [him]1271-my uncle looking at [me]0-i with a pitying regard . In self - defence , [I]0-i began to pity [him]1271-my uncle , and ceased to make faces or sneer when [the maids]836-the maids — [those romantic beings]1273-those romantic beings — declared that [he]1271-my uncle must have been crossed in love . At this conclusion , long ago , [all [the servants]772-the servants ' hall]1274-all the servants ' hall had arrived ; and even [little Tilly Jenkins]322-tilly , not admitted as yet to that high conclave , remarkable only for living in dust - bins , and too dirty to cause uneasiness to [[the under - shoeboy]1276-the under - shoeboy 's mother]1277-the under - shoeboy 's mother — even that [Tilly]322-tilly , [I]0-i say , ran up to [me]0-i one morning ( when [I]0-i went to see [my]0-i dear pony ) and beat out [her]322-tilly dust , and then whispered : " Oh , please , [Miss Clara]293-clara , to give [my]322-tilly very best wishes to [Master]5431-master . What a terrible blight to the heart be unrequited love ! "[322-tilly] And [Tilly]322-tilly sighed a great cloud of brick - dust . " Terrible , [Tilly]322-tilly : [I]322-tilly hope [you]322-tilly have not fallen in love with [the weeding boy!"—a[322-tilly] smart young lad]5432-the weeding boy!"—a smart young lad , ten stairs at least above [her]322-tilly . " [Me]322-tilly , [miss]5433-miss ? Do [you]322-tilly think [I]322-tilly would so demean [myself]322-tilly ? "[322-tilly] And [Tilly]322-tilly caught up [her]322-tilly dust - pan arrogantly . This little anecdote proves a fact which [I]0-i never could explain , viz . that [none of [the servants]772-the servants]1278-none of the servants were ever afraid of [me]0-i . To return to the straight line of history . [[My]0-i guardian]912-my guardian came [home]1102-home rather late that evening , and some hours after the hasty exit of [Mrs.]1282-mrs. and [Master Daldy]323-master daldy . While [I]0-i was waiting in some uneasiness , it struck [me]0-i that [he]912-my guardian had kept out of the way on purpose , lest [he]912-my guardian should seem too anxious about the plot . [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy , as [I]0-i found afterwards , had written to [him]912-my guardian from [the inn]1283-the inn , describing [my]0-i " frenzied violence , and foaming Satanic fury"—perhaps[312-mrs. daldy] [I]0-i turned pale , no more — and announcing [her]312-mrs. daldy intention to remain at [Malvern]10-malvern , until [she]312-mrs. daldy should be apprised whether [uncle]1284-uncle or [niece]1285-niece were [the master]1286-the master . In the latter case [she]312-mrs. daldy demanded — not that [she]312-mrs. daldy cared for [mammon]1287-mammon , but as a humble means for the advancement of [the Kingdom]1288-the kingdom — the sum of 300*l . * ; that being the lowest salary conscience allowed [her]312-mrs. daldy to specify for treading the furnace of affliction , to save the lost sheep of [the house of [Israel]324-israel]1289-the house of israel . [I]0-i forgot to say that , before [she]312-mrs. daldy left [the house]764-the house , [she]312-mrs. daldy had tried to obtain an interview with [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother , hoping , no doubt , to leave [her]746-my mother in the cataleptic state . But this had been sternly prevented by [Thomas Kenwood]295-tom , who performed quite a labour of love in ministering the expulsion . [All the servants]1222-all the servants hated [her]312-mrs. daldy as [a canting sneak]1293-a canting sneak and [a spy]1294-a spy . That night when [I]0-i received [Mr. Edgar Vaughan]297-mr. edgar vaughan 's short missive—"Clara , [I]1293-a canting sneak wish to see [you]297-mr. edgar vaughan immediately in [[my]1293-a canting sneak study]5434-my study , "[1293-a canting sneak] [my]0-i heart began to flutter provokingly , and the long speech [I]0-i had prepared flew away in shreds of rhetoric . Not that [I]0-i meant for an instant to bate one tittle of what [I]0-i had done and would do : but [I]0-i had never asserted [my]0-i rights as yet in direct opposition to [him]297-mr. edgar vaughan , nor taken upon [my]0-i own shoulders the guardianship of [myself]0-i . But the dreary years of dark preparation and silent welding of character had braced a sensitive , nervous nature with some little self - reliance . With all the indifference [I]0-i could muster , [I]0-i entered [the gloomy room]1295-the gloomy room , and found [him]297-mr. edgar vaughan leaning upon the high desk where [he]297-mr. edgar vaughan kept the accounts of [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan stewardship . The position was chosen well . It served at once to remind [me]0-i of [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan official relation , and to appeal to the feelings as betokening an onerous wardship . Of late [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan health had been failing [him]297-mr. edgar vaughan , and after every long absence from [home]1102-home , [he]297-mr. edgar vaughan returned more jaded and melancholy . Now a few silver hairs — no more than [a wife]1297-a wife would have quickly pulled out — were glistening among [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan black locks ; but though [he]297-mr. edgar vaughan was weary and lonesome , [he]297-mr. edgar vaughan seemed to want none to love [him]297-mr. edgar vaughan , and [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan face wore the wonted sarcastic and travelled look . As [our]1298-our glances met , [we]1298-our both saw that the issue was joined which should settle for life the mastery . [He]297-mr. edgar vaughan began in a light and jocund manner , as if [I]0-i were quite a small thing . " Well done , [Miss Clara]293-clara , [you]297-mr. edgar vaughan are asserting [yourself]297-mr. edgar vaughan . Why , [you]297-mr. edgar vaughan have dismissed [[our]1298-our visitors]5435-our visitors with very scant ceremony . "[297-mr. edgar vaughan] " To be sure [I]297-mr. edgar vaughan have ; and will again , if [they]5435-our visitors dare to come back . "[297-mr. edgar vaughan] " And do n't [you]297-mr. edgar vaughan think that [you]297-mr. edgar vaughan might have consulted [[your]297-mr. edgar vaughan mother]5332-your mother or [me]0-i ? ' "[0-i] Most likely [I]0-i should have done so , in an ordinary case . " "[0-i] Then [[your]0-i guardian]5396-your guardian was meant for small matters ! But what was the wonder to - day ? " "[0-i] No wonder at all . [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy insulted [[my]0-i father]731-my father , and [I]0-i sent [her]312-mrs. daldy out of [[his]731-my father house]1301-his house . " "[0-i] What made [her]312-mrs. daldy insult [[my]0-i brother]1302-my brother ? " "[0-i] [My]0-i refusal to marry [her]312-mrs. daldy puppet and puppy . " "[0-i] [Clement Daldy]308-clement ! Did [she]312-mrs. daldy propose such a thing ? [She]312-mrs. daldy must think very highly of [you]308-clement ! ' " Then [I]312-mrs. daldy think very lowly . "[312-mrs. daldy] " And [you]308-clement declined , did [you]308-clement , [Clara]293-clara ? "[312-mrs. daldy] " No . [I]312-mrs. daldy refused . "[312-mrs. daldy] " Very good . [No one]730-no one shall force [you]308-clement ; there is plenty of time to consider the subject . "[312-mrs. daldy] " One moment is too much . "[312-mrs. daldy] " [Clara]293-clara , [I]312-mrs. daldy have long noticed in [you]293-clara a rude , disrespectful , and [I]312-mrs. daldy will say ( in spite of [your]293-clara birth ) a low and vulgar manner towards [me]312-mrs. daldy , [[your]293-clara uncle]5339-your uncle and [guardian]5439-guardian . Once for all , [I]312-mrs. daldy will not permit it , [child]5440-child . "[312-mrs. daldy] " [Child]5440-child [you]308-clement call [me]1303-i , do [you]308-clement ? [Me]1303-i , who am just seventeen , and have lived seven such years as [I]1303-i have , and [no one else]5442-no one else ! "[1303-i] [He]1303-i answered quite calmly , and looking coldly at [me]0-i : " [I]1303-i never argue with [women]5443-women . Much less with [girls]5444-girls . [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy comes back to - morrow . [You]0-i will beg [her]312-mrs. daldy pardon , as becomes [a young lady who has forgotten [herself]5445-a young lady who has forgotten herself]5445-a young lady who has forgotten herself . The other question may wait . "[1303-i] " [I]1303-i thought , [sir]5380-sir , that [you]1303-i had travelled far , and in [many countries]5447-many countries . "[1303-i] The abrupt inquiry startled [him]1303-i , and [his]1303-i thoughts seemed to follow the memory . " What if [I]1303-i have ? "[1303-i] [he]1303-i asked , at length , and with a painful effort . " Have [you]0-i always found [women]5443-women do just what [you]0-i chose ? "[1303-i] [He]1303-i seemed not to listen to [me]0-i ; as if [he]1303-i were out of hearing : then laughed because [I]0-i was looking at [him]1303-i . " [Clara]293-clara , "[1303-i] [he]1303-i said , " [you]293-clara are [an odd girl]5449-an odd girl , and a Vaughan all over . [I]1303-i would rather be [[your]293-clara friend]5450-your friend than [[your]293-clara enemy]5427-your enemy . If [you]293-clara can not like [me]1303-i , at least forget [your]293-clara dislike of [me]1303-i , and remember that [I]1303-i am [[your]293-clara uncle]5339-your uncle , and have tried to make [you]293-clara love [me]1303-i . "[1303-i] " And what if [I]1304-i do not ? "[1304-i] " Then [I]1304-i must keep [you]293-clara awhile from the management of [this property]5453-this property . [[My]1304-i dear brother]5454-my dear brother would have wished it , until [you]293-clara recover [your]293-clara senses ; and not an acre of it is legally [yours]293-clara . "[1304-i] This [he]1304-i said so slowly , and distinctly , and entirely without menace , that , knowing [his]1304-i manner , [I]0-i saw it was the truth , at least in [his]1304-i opinion . Strange as it may seem , [I]0-i began at once to revolve , not the results of dispossession and poverty on [myself]0-i , or even on [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother , but the influence which the knowledge of this new fact must have on [my]0-i old suspicions , surmises , and belief . " Will [the property]1112-the property pass to [you]1304-i ? "[0-i] [I]0-i asked . " Yes , if [I]0-i choose : or at any rate the bulk of it . "[0-i] " What part will be [yours]293-clara ? Do [you]293-clara mean to say [the house]764-the house ? — "[0-i] " Never mind now . [I]0-i would rather leave things as they are , if [you]1304-i will only be more sensible . "[0-i] " [I]0-i will not disguise [my]0-i opinions for a hundred [Vaughan Parks]325-vaughan parks , or a thousand [Vaughan Palaces]11-vaughan palaces ; no , nor even to be near [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's bones . "[0-i] " Very well , "[1306-i] [he]1306-i said , " just as [you]0-i like . But for [[your]0-i mother]5332-your mother 's sake , [I]1306-i give [you]0-i till [Christmas]326-christmas to consider . "[1306-i] " If [you]0-i bring back [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy , [I]0-i shall leave the door as [she]312-mrs. daldy enters it . "[0-i] " [I]1306-i have no wish to hurry [you]0-i , "[1306-i] [he]1306-i replied , " and therefore [she]312-mrs. daldy shall not return at present . Now take these papers with [you]0-i . [You]0-i may lay them before [any lawyer [you]0-i please]5459-any lawyer you please . They are only copies , but may be compared with the originals , which [I]1306-i have . They will quickly prove how totally [you]0-i are at [my]1306-i discretion . "[1306-i] " The money and [the land]1188-the land may be so , but not [I.]1306-i Before [I]1306-i go , answer [me]1306-i one question . Did [you]0-i know of these things , whatever they may be , before [[my]1306-i father]731-my father 's death ? "[1306-i] [He]1306-i looked at [me]0-i clearly and calmly , with no withdrawal , or conscious depth in [his]1306-i eyes , and answered : " No . As [a gentleman]5462-a gentleman , [I]1306-i did not . "[1306-i] [I]0-i felt [myself]0-i more at a loss than ever , and for the moment could not think . Thus was [I]0-i , and , what mattered much more , [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother , reduced quite suddenly from a position of rank and luxury , and a prospective income of £ 15,000 a - year ( so much had [the land]1188-the land increased in value ) to a revenue of nothing , and no [home]1102-home . Even to [me]0-i it was a heavy blow , but what could [[my]0-i poor mother]1310-my poor mother do ? [We]1311-we were assured by [counsel]1312-counsel that a legal struggle could end in expense alone , and advised by [the family lawyers]1313-the family lawyers to throw [ourselves]1311-we on the good feeling and appeal to the honour of [Mr. Edgar Vaughan]297-mr. edgar vaughan . [Mr. Vaughan]297-mr. edgar vaughan [he]297-mr. edgar vaughan must henceforth be called . [I]0-i can not well understand , still less can [I]0-i explain , small and threadbare technicalities ( motes , which too often are the beam of Justice ) , but the circumstances which robbed [me]0-i of [[[my]0-i father]731-my father 's [home]1102-home]1315-my father 's home were somewhat as follows : — By the will of [[[my]0-i father]731-my father 's grandfather]1318-my father 's grandfather , [Hubert Vaughan]327-robert , who died in the year 1782 , [the whole of [the family property]1320-the family property]1319-the whole of the family property was devised to [[his]327-robert son]1321-his son , [Vaughan Powis Vaughan]328-vaughan powis vaughan , for life , and after [his]327-robert decease , to [[his]327-robert sons]1322-his sons successively in [tail male]1323-tail male , failing these to [[his]327-robert right heirs]1324-his right heirs in general . This will was said to have been prepared in haste : it was , in fact , drawn by [a country attorney]1325-a country attorney , when [the testator]1326-the testator was rapidly sinking . It was very brief , and by no means accurately worded ; neither did it contain those powers to meet family exigencies , which [I]0-i am told [a proper practitioner]1327-a proper practitioner would have inserted . There was no reason to suppose that [the testator]1326-the testator had contemplated anything more than a strict settlement of the usual kind , i.e. a common estate entail , expectant upon a life - interest ; and under which [I]0-i should have succeeded [[my]0-i father]731-my father , as [[his]327-robert heiress]1330-his heiress , in the ordinary course . But it is the chief fault of [smatterers in the law]1331-smatterers in the law ( and [country attorneys]1332-country attorneys at that time were no better ) that [they]1331-smatterers in the law will attempt to be too definite . [The country lawyer in this case , grossly ignorant of [his]1333-the country lawyer in this case , grossly ignorant of his profession profession]1333-the country lawyer in this case , grossly ignorant of his profession , and caught by the jangle of the words [tail male]1323-tail male , had inserted them at hazard , possibly not without some idea that they would insure a stricter succession than a common entail would do . When [[my]0-i father]731-my father became of age , measures were taken for barring the entail created by the will of [Hubert Vaughan]327-robert ; and at the time it was believed that these were quite effectual , and therefore that [[my]0-i father]731-my father was now entitled in fee - simple , and could dispose of the property . Upon [his]731-my father marriage with [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother , [she]746-my mother , with worthy pride , refused most firmly to accept a jointure charged on [[his]731-my father estates]1338-his estates , alleging that as [she]746-my mother brought no fortune into [the family]1254-the family , [she]746-my mother would not incumber [the family property]1320-the family property , which had but recently been relieved of incumbrances . More than this — [she]746-my mother had even insisted upon expressly abandoning , by [her]746-my mother marriage settlement , all claim to dower . This unusual course [she]746-my mother had adopted , because of some discontent expressed by relatives of [[my]0-i father]731-my father at [his]731-my father marriage with [a portionless bride]1342-a portionless bride , whereby [her]746-my mother self - respect had been deeply wounded . So nothing was settled upon [her]746-my mother , except [[her]746-my mother own little estate in [Devonshire]4-devonshire]1343-her own little estate in devonshire , which was secured to [her]746-my mother separate use . [[My]0-i father]731-my father had never permitted this excess of generosity on [her]746-my mother part , but that [he]731-my father was by nature careless upon such subjects , and hoped to provide amply for [her]746-my mother interests by [his]731-my father will : moreover [he]731-my father was hot to remove all obstacles to [their]1345-their marriage . But it was now discovered that [he]731-my father had no power to charge [the real estate]1346-the real estate for [her]746-my mother benefit , in the manner [his]731-my father will imported ; that [he]731-my father had never been more than [a tenant in tail]1347-a tenant in tail , and that entail such that [I]0-i could not inherit . Neither , of course , could [I]0-i take under [his]731-my father will , as [he]731-my father possessed no power of disposition . One quarter of all that has been written upon the subject [I]0-i never could understand ; and even as to the simplest points , sometimes [I]0-i seem to apprehend them clearly , and then [I]0-i feel that [I]0-i do not . [My]0-i account of the matter is compressed from what [I]0-i remember of the legal opinions . The leading fact , at any rate , and the key to all the mischief , was , that the entail had never been barred at all : the legal process ( called a " recovery "[1348-they] ) which was to have had that effect , being null and void through some absurd informality . [They]1348-they told [me]0-i something about [a tenant]1349-a tenant to a precipice , but [they]1348-they must have made a mistake , for there was no precipice on [the estate]952-the estate , unless some cliffs near [the church]1351-the church could be called so , and [they]1348-they were never let . Be that as it may , [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's will was declared to be waste paper , except as regarded what [they]1348-they called the personalty , or , in good English , the money [he]731-my father had to bequeath . And of this there was very little , for , shortly before [his]731-my father death , [he]731-my father had spent large sums in drainage , [farm - buildings]1353-farm - buildings , and other improvements . Furthermore , [he]731-my father had always maintained a profuse hospitality , and [his]731-my father charity was most lavish . [The lawyers]1354-the lawyers told [us]1355-our that , under the circumstances ( a favourite expression of [theirs]1354-the lawyers when [they]1354-the lawyers mean some big robbery ) , [a court of equity]1356-a court of equity would perhaps consider [our]1355-our application to be " recupped , "[1354-the lawyers] as [they]1354-the lawyers called it , out of [the estate]952-the estate , for the money laid out in [improvements]1358-improvements under a false impression . But [we]1355-our had been cupped enough already . Grossly plundered by legal jargon , robbed by statute , and scourged by [scriveners]1359-scriveners ' traditions , [we]1355-our flung away in disgust the lint [the bandits]1360-the bandits offered , and left [them]1360-the bandits " all estate , right , title , interest , and claim , whether at law or in equity , in to or out of "[731-my father] the licking of [our]1355-our blood . But now [my]0-i long suspicions , and never - discarded conviction of [[my]0-i guardian]912-my guardian 's guilt , were , by summary process , not only revived , but redoubled . This arose partly from the discovery of the stake [he]731-my father had on [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's life , and partly , perhaps , from a feeling of hatred towards [our]1355-our supplanter . That [he]731-my father knew not till now the flaw in [our]1355-our title , and [his]731-my father own superior claim , was more than [I]0-i could believe . [I]0-i felt sure that [he]731-my father had gained this knowledge while in needy circumstances and sharp legal practice , brought , as [he]731-my father then most probably was , into frequent contact with [the London agents who had the custody of the documents]1363-the london agents who had the custody of the documents . To be in [the same room]1364-the same room with [him]731-my father , was now more than [I]0-i could bear , and it became impossible that [we]1355-our should live any longer in [the same house]1365-the same house . [He]731-my father , indeed , wished , or feigned to wish , that [we]1355-our should remain [there]1114-there , and even showed some reluctance to urge [his]731-my father unrighteous rights . But neither [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother ( who bore the shock with strange resignation ) nor [myself]0-i would hear of any compromise , or take a farthing at [his]731-my father hands , and [he]731-my father was too proud and stern to press upon [us]1355-our [his]731-my father compunctions . Statements of [our]1355-our case had been prepared and submitted to [three most eminent conveyancers]1368-three most eminent conveyancers , and the three opinions had been found to agree , except upon some trivial points . More than two months had been thus consumed , and it was now once more the anniversary of [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's death . [I]0-i had spent the time in narrowly watching [[my]0-i ex - guardian]1370-my ex - guardian 's conduct , though keeping aloof , as much as possible , from any intercourse with [him]731-my father . One night , [I]0-i stole into [the room which [he]731-my father called [[his]731-my father study]1372-his study]1371-the room which he called his study , and where ( with [a child]782-a child 's simplicity ) [I]0-i believed [him]731-my father to keep [his]731-my father private documents . Through [Thomas Kenwood]295-tom , to whom [I]0-i now confided almost everything , and whose suspicions were even stronger than [mine]0-i , [I]0-i obtained clandestine possession of the keys of the large bureau . As [I]0-i stood before [that massive repository]1374-that massive repository in the dead of night , the struggle within [me]0-i was intense and long . What letters , what journals , documents , or momentous relics of a thousand kinds , might be lurking here , waiting only for [a daughter]5399-a daughter 's hand to turn the lock , and cast the light [she]5399-a daughter bore on the death - warrant of [[her]5399-a daughter father]898-her father ! How easy then to snatch away the proof , clutching it , though it should burn the hand or bosom , to wave it , with a triumph wilfully prolonged , before the eyes of [justice 's dull - visioned ministers]1377-justice 's dull - visioned ministers ; and then to see , without a shudder or a thrill of joy , but with the whole soul gazing , the slow , struggling , ghastly expiation . As this thought came crawling through [my]0-i heart , lighting up its depth as would a snake of fire , the buhl before [me]0-i grew streaks of blood , and the heavy crossbars a gallows . [I]0-i lifted [my]0-i hand to open the outer lock . Already the old cruciform key was trembling in the silver scutcheon . [I]0-i raised the lamp in [my]0-i left hand to show the lunette guard which curved above the hole , when a heavy mass all cold and dark fell across [my]0-i eyes . [I]0-i started , and thought for the moment , in [my]0-i strong excitement , that it was [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's hand . One instant more , and , through the trembling of [my]0-i senses , [I]0-i saw that it was only a thick fold of [my]0-i long black hair , shaken down on the face by [my]0-i bending and quivering posture . But the check was enough . A [Vaughan]327-robert , and that [the last one of so proud and frank a race]1379-the last one of so proud and frank a race , to be prowling meanly , with a stolen tool , to violate confidence , and pry through letters ! No suspicion , however strong , nothing short of certainty ( if even that ) could warrant it . Driven away by shame combined with superstition , [I]0-i glided from [the cold silent room]1380-the cold silent room , and restored the keys to [[my]0-i faithful friend]1381-my faithful friend , whom [I]0-i had left in [the passage]824-the passage , ordering [him]1381-my faithful friend at once to replace them , and never touch them again . " Well , [miss]5433-miss , "[1381-my faithful friend] [he]1381-my faithful friend whispered , with a smile , " [I]1381-my faithful friend knew [you]5433-miss could n't do it , because [I]1381-my faithful friend seemed , somehow , it was n't like a [Vaughan]327-robert . "[1381-my faithful friend] [We]1383-we were already preparing to quit [the house]764-the house , no longer [ours]1383-we , when [our]1383-we dismissal became abrupt , through another act of mine . What drove [me]0-i to such a wild deed [I]0-i can scarcely tell . Shame , perhaps , for the furtive nature of [my]0-i last attempt hurried [me]0-i into the other extreme ; and now [I]0-i was so shaken by conflicting impulse , that nothing was too mad for [me]0-i . On the seventh anniversary of [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's death , and the last which [I]0-i was likely ever to spend beneath that roof , [I]0-i passed the whole day in alternate sadness and passion , in [the bedroom where [he]731-my father died]1386-the bedroom where he died . All the relics [I]0-i possessed , both of [his]731-my father love and of [his]731-my father death , [I]0-i brought thither ; and spread them out , and wept upon [the one]1111-the one , and prayed upon the other . [I]0-i also brought [my]0-i choicest histories of murder and revenge , and pored over them by the waning daylight and the dull lamp , and so on through the night , until [my]0-i mind became the soul 's jetsam . Then [I]0-i procured four very large wax candles , and lit them at the head of the bed , two on each side , and spread a long white cloth between , as if [[my]0-i father]731-my father were lying in state ; and hung a row of shorter lights above , to illuminate the letters of blood . Then [I]0-i took a small alarum clock , given [me]0-i by [dear father]1389-dear father , that [I]0-i might rise for early walks with [him]731-my father , and set it upon a chest by the door , and fixed it so as to ring five minutes before the hour at which the murder befell . A cold presentiment crawled through [me]0-i that , at the fatal time , [I]0-i should see [the assassin]1032-the assassin . After all these arrangements [I]0-i took [my]0-i volume again , and sat in the shade of the curtain , with a strong light on the page . [I]0-i was deep in some horrible record , and creeping with terror and hope , when the clear bell rang a long and startling peal . [I]0-i leaped up , like one shot through the heart , and what [I]0-i did was without design or purpose . [My]0-i glance fell on the dagger ; [I]0-i caught it up , and snatched the lamp , and hurried down [corridor and staircase]1391-corridor and staircase , straight to [[[my]0-i guardian]912-my guardian 's private room]1393-my guardian 's private room . [He]912-my guardian was sitting at the table , for [he]912-my guardian never passed that night in bed . At the sound of the lock [he]912-my guardian leaped up , and pointed a pistol , then hid it . Straight up to [him]912-my guardian [I]0-i went , as swiftly and quietly as [a spirit]1394-a spirit , and spoke : " Seven years ago , at this very moment , [[my]912-my guardian father]731-my father was killed . Do [you]912-my guardian know this dagger ? "[912-my guardian] [He]912-my guardian started back , as if [I]0-i had stabbed [him]912-my guardian with it , then covered [his]912-my guardian eyes with both hands . " [You]912-my guardian know it , then ? "[0-i] [I]0-i said , with a triumph chill all over [me]0-i . " It was [your]912-my guardian hand that used it . "[0-i] Another moment , and [I]0-i should have struck [him]912-my guardian with it . [I]0-i lifted it in [my]0-i frenzy ; when [he]912-my guardian looked at [me]0-i by some wonderful effort , calmly , steadily , even coldly . " Yes , "[912-my guardian] [he]912-my guardian said , " [I]912-my guardian have seen that weapon before . Alas [[my]912-my guardian poor dear brother]5465-my poor dear brother ! "[912-my guardian] Whether it was true feeling that made [his]912-my guardian voice so low and deep , or only fierce self - control , [I]0-i knew not then , nor tried to think . " [You]912-my guardian know who owned it ? "[0-i] [I]0-i asked , with [my]0-i life upon [his]912-my guardian answer . " Yes . [I]0-i know who owned it once ; but many years ago . And [I]0-i know not in the least what is become of [him]912-my guardian now . "[0-i] The baffled fury and prostrate hope — for at the moment [I]0-i fully believed [him]912-my guardian — were too much for [my]0-i reeling brain and fasting body . For one minute 's command of [my]0-i faculties , [I]0-i would have sold them for ever ; but [I]0-i felt them ebbing from [me]0-i , as the life does from a wound . The hemispheres of [my]0-i brain were parting one from the other , and a grey void spreading between them . [I]0-i tried to think , but could not . [I]0-i strove to say anything , but failed . Fainter and fainter grew [the room]823-the room , the lamp , the ceiling , the face at which [I]0-i tried to look . Things went to and fro with a quicker quiver , like flame in the wind , then , round and round like whirling water ; [my]0-i mouth grew stiff , and the tongue between [my]0-i teeth felt like a glove ; and with a rush of sound in [my]0-i brain and throat , and a scream pent up , yet bursting , [I]0-i fell , as [I]0-i thought , through [the earth]1046-the earth . [I]0-i was only on the floor , in a fit . When [I]0-i came to [myself]0-i , [I]0-i was in [my]0-i own bed , and [[my]0-i own dear mother]1397-my own dear mother bending over [me]0-i , pale , and haggard , and full of tears . The broad daylight was around [us]1398-us , and the faint sunshine on [her]1397-my own dear mother face . [She]1397-my own dear mother had been with [me]0-i ever since . In [my]0-i weakness , [I]0-i looked up at [her]1397-my own dear mother with a pang of self - reproach , to think how little [I]0-i had valued [her]1397-my own dear mother love ; and [I]0-i vowed to [myself]0-i to make up for it by future care and devotion . That violent convulsion , and the illness after it , changed [me]0-i not a little both in mind and body . It was indeed high time for [me]0-i to cherish [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother . [Her]1397-my own dear mother pain at leaving the place where [she]1397-my own dear mother had known [her]1397-my own dear mother little all of happiness — for [her]1397-my own dear mother childhood had been overcast with trouble — [her]1397-my own dear mother pain was so acute and overpowering that all [my]0-i deep impassioned feelings sunk reproved before it . [[My]0-i guardian]912-my guardian now seemed much embittered against [me]0-i , and anxious for [our]1401-our departure . [He]912-my guardian came once or twice , in [my]0-i illness , to ask for and to see [me]0-i ; and [he]912-my guardian brought back , unperceived by any one , the weapon for which [I]0-i raved . But ere [I]0-i was quite recovered , [he]912-my guardian wrote , requesting to see [me]0-i on business in [[his]912-my guardian study]1372-his study . [I]0-i could not speak yet without pain , having bitten [my]0-i tongue severely . " [[Your]0-i mother]5332-your mother shall have a [home]1102-home [here]846-here , "[912-my guardian] [he]912-my guardian said , " as long as ever [she]5332-your mother wants one ; but as for [you]0-i , malignant or mad , [I]912-my guardian will try no more to soften [you]0-i . When first [I]912-my guardian saw [you]0-i in [your]0-i early childhood , [you]0-i flew at [me]912-my guardian as [a murderer]5469-a murderer . Soon after [you]0-i ransacked [my]912-my guardian cupboards and stole [my]912-my guardian boots , to compare them with some impressions or casts [you]0-i kept . Yes , [you]0-i look astonished . [I]912-my guardian never told [you]0-i of it , but [I]912-my guardian knew it for all that . Of those absurdities [I]912-my guardian thought little , for [I]912-my guardian regarded them as the follies of [a mad child]5470-a mad child , and [I]912-my guardian pitied [you]0-i deeply , and even liked [you]0-i for [your]0-i filial devotion . But now [I]912-my guardian find that [you]0-i have grown up in the same belief , and [you]0-i dare even now to avow it . [You]0-i know that [I]912-my guardian have no fear of [you]0-i . "[912-my guardian] " Then why had [you]1403-i got that pistol ? "[1403-i] [I]0-i saw that [he]1403-i was vexed and surprised at [my]0-i having perceived it . " In [a house like this]5471-a house like this , where such deeds have been done , [I]1403-i think it right to be armed . Do [you]0-i think if [I]1403-i had feared [you]0-i , or [your]0-i evidence , [I]1403-i would have restored that dagger ? "[1403-i] " Whose was it ? "[912-my guardian] " [I]912-my guardian told [you]0-i the other night that [I]912-my guardian once saw a weapon like it , for which at first [I]912-my guardian mistook it , but closer examination convinced [me]912-my guardian of the difference . "[912-my guardian] " How does it differ ? "[912-my guardian] " In this . There was no snake on the handle of the other , though there was the cross on the blade . "[912-my guardian] " And where did [you]1403-i see the other ? "[912-my guardian] " Some day [I]912-my guardian will tell [you]0-i . It is not right to do so now . "[912-my guardian] " Not convenient to [you]0-i , [I]912-my guardian suppose [you]0-i mean . "[912-my guardian] " [I]1404-i have also shown [you]0-i that the lock of hair found in [[your]0-i poor mother]5472-your poor mother 's hand is much finer and more silky than [mine]1404-i ; and [you]0-i know that [I]1404-i can not draw on [my]1404-i foot a boot so small as the one whose impression [you]0-i have . But [I]1404-i am ashamed of [myself]1404-i for having stooped to such proofs as these . Dare [you]0-i to look at [me]1404-i and suppose that [I]1404-i with [my]1404-i own hand could have stabbed [[my]1404-i brother]1302-my brother , [a brother so kind and good to [me]1404-i]5474-a brother so kind and good to me , and for whose sake alone [I]1404-i have borne so long with [you]0-i ? "[1404-i] [He]1404-i tried to look [me]0-i down . [I]0-i have met but one whose gaze could master [mine]0-i ; and [he]1404-i was [not that one]1405-not that one . " So , [you]1404-i doubt [me]1404-i still ? Are [your]1404-i things packed ? ' "[1404-i] Yes , and [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother 's . " "[1404-i] Then if [[your]0-i mother]5332-your mother is well enough , and will not let [you]0-i leave [her]5332-your mother , [you]0-i had better go next week . " "[0-i] No , " [I]0-i replied , "[0-i] [we]1408-we will go to - morrow . " "[0-i] Wilful to the last . So be it . Take this ; [you]0-i can not refuse it in duty to [[your]0-i mother]5332-your mother . " [He]0-i put in [my]1410-criminals hand an order for a large sum of money . [I]1410-criminals threw it into the fire . "[1410-criminals] There have been [criminals]1410-criminals , " [I]1410-criminals exclaimed , "[1410-criminals] who have suffered from a life - long fear , lest [the widow]1411-the widow and [orphans]1412-orphans , starved through [their]1410-criminals crime , should compass [their]1410-criminals dying bed . Though [we]1408-we starve in [a garret]1413-a garret , [we]1408-we touch no bread of yours . " "[329-bravo] [Bravo]329-bravo , [Miss Melodrame]330-miss melodrame . [You]0-i need never starve in the present state of the stage . " "[0-i] That [I]0-i do n't understand ; but this [I]0-i do . It is perhaps the last time [I]0-i shall ever see [you]0-i living . Whether [you]0-i did that deed or not is known to [God]303-god , and [you]0-i , and possibly [one other]1414-one other . But whether [you]0-i did it or not , [I]0-i know it is on [your]0-i soul . [Your]0-i days are wretched , [your]0-i nights are troubled . [You]0-i shall die as [[your]0-i brother]1415-your brother died , but not so prepared for death . " "[0-i] Good bye , [Clara]293-clara . [My]0-i lunch is coming up . " [God]303-god has much to forgive [me]0-i , but nothing worse than the dark thought of that speech . In [my]0-i fury at weakness in such a cause , [I]0-i had dared sometimes to imagine that [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother knew [him]0-i to be [the murderer]831-the murderer , but concealed it for the sake of the family honour ! No need to recount [my]0-i bitter farewell to all the scenes and objects [I]0-i had loved so long , to all which possessed a dark yet tender interest , and most of all to [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's grave . That some attention might still be paid to this , [I]0-i entrusted it to the care of [an old housekeeper of [ours]5479-we , who was living in [the village]981-the village]5478-an old housekeeper of ours , who was living in the village . [My]0-i last visit was in the moonlight , and [dear mother]968-dear mother was there . [I]0-i carried rather than led [her]968-dear mother away . Slight as [my]0-i knowledge has been of lightsome and happy love , [I]0-i am sure that a sombre affection is far the stronger and sweeter . As [we]5479-we began [our]5479-we journey , [a crowd of [the villagers]5483-the villagers]5482-a crowd of the villagers met [us]5479-we beyond [the lodge]1166-the lodge , and lined [the Gloucester road]5485-the gloucester road as far as the old oak - tree . While [our]5479-we hired conveyance passed between [them]5482-a crowd of the villagers , [the men]5486-the men stood mute with [their]5486-the men hats in [their]5486-the men hands , [the women]5487-the women sobbed and curtseyed , and blessed [us]5479-we , and held up [[their]5487-the women children]5488-their children to look at [us]5479-we . [[Our]5479-we refuge]5489-our refuge was [the small estate or farm in [Devonshire]4-devonshire]5490-the small estate or farm in devonshire , which [I]0-i have mentioned as [[[my]0-i mother]746-my mother 's property]5492-my mother 's property . This , which produced £ 45 a - year , was all that now remained to [us]5479-we , except a sum of £ 1,000 left to [me]0-i by [a godfather]5493-a godfather , and of which [I]0-i could not touch [the principal]5494-the principal . The residue of the personalty , and the balance at [[the banker 's]5495-the banker 's]5495-the banker 's , [we]5479-we had refused to take , being assured that legally [we]5479-we were responsible to [Mr. Vaughan]297-mr. edgar vaughan , even for the back rents of [the Gloucestershire estate]5497-the gloucestershire estate . Of course [we]5479-we had plenty of jewellery , some of it rather valuable , but the part most precious was heirloom , and that [we]5479-we had left behind . Most of [our]5479-we own had been [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's gift , and therefore [we]5479-we could not bear to sell it . As regarded [myself]0-i , this comparative poverty was not of very great moment , except as impairing [my]0-i means of search ; but for [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother 's sake [I]0-i was cut to the heart , and lost in perplexity . [She]746-my mother had so long been accustomed to much attention and many luxuries , which [her]746-my mother weak health had made indispensable to [her]746-my mother . [Thomas Henwood]321-thomas henwood and poor [Ann Maples]294-ann maples insisted on following [our]5479-we fortunes , at one third of [their]5500-their previous wages . [[My]0-i mother]746-my mother thought it beyond [our]5479-we means to keep them even so ; but for [her]746-my mother sake [I]0-i resolved to try . [I]0-i need not say that [I]0-i carried all [my]0-i relics , difficult as it was to hide them from [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother . When [we]5479-we reached [[our]5479-we new home]5503-our new home , late in the evening of the second day , a full sense of [our]5479-we privation for the first time broke upon [us]5479-we . It was mid - winter , and in the gloom of a foggy night , and after the weariness of a long journey , [our]5479-we impressions were truly dismal . Jolted endlessly up and down by ruts a foot deep and slaty stones the size of coal - scuttles , entombed alive betwixt grisly hedges which met above [us]5479-we like the wings of night , then obliged to walk up treadmill hills while the rickety fly crawled up behind ; then again plunging and lurching down some corkscrew steep to the perpetual wood and rushing stream at the bottom ; at length and at last along [a lane]5504-a lane so narrow that it scraped [us]5479-we on both sides as [we]5479-we passed , a lane which zig - zagged every thirty yards with a tree - bole jutting at every corner , at length and at last [we]5479-we came to [the farmyard gate]5505-the farmyard gate . It was not far from [the lonely village of [Trentisoe]12-trentisoe]5506-the lonely village of trentisoe , which lies some six miles to [the west of [Lynmouth]13-lynmouth]5507-the west of lynmouth . This part is little known to [London]1-london tourists , though [it]5508-it possesses scenery of a rarer kind than [Lynmouth]13-lynmouth [itself]13-lynmouth can show . Passing through [an outer court]5509-an outer court , with [a saw - pit]5510-a saw - pit on one side and what [they]5511-they call [a "[0-i] linhay "]5512-a " linhay " on the other , and where a slop of straw and "[0-i] muck " quelched under the wheels , [we]5479-we came next to [the farmyard]5513-the farmyard proper , and so ( as [the flyman]5514-the flyman expressed it ) "[0-i] [home]1102-home to ouze . " [The "[0-i] ouze "]5515-the " ouze " was [a low straggling cottage]5516-a low straggling cottage , jag - thatched , and heavy - eaved , and reminded [me]0-i strongly of ragged wet horse - cloths on a rack . [The farmer]5517-the farmer was not come [home]1102-home from [[Ilfracombe]14-ilfracombe market]5519-ilfracombe market , but [[his]5517-the farmer wife]789-his wife , [Mrs. Honor Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , soon appeared in [the porch]930-the porch , with a bucket in one hand and a candle stuck in a turnip in the other . In the cross - lights , [we]5479-we saw [a stout short woman , brisk and comely , with an amazing cap]5522-a stout short woman , brisk and comely , with an amazing cap , and cheeks like the apples which [they]5523-they call in [Devonshire]4-devonshire "[0-i] hoary mornings . " "[0-i] A massy on [us]1417-us , [Zuke]332-zuke , " [she]5522-a stout short woman , brisk and comely , with an amazing cap called into [the house]764-the house , "[0-i] if here bain't the genelvolks coom , and [us]1417-us be arl of a muck ! Hum , cheel , hum for [thee]1418-thee laife to the calves ' ouze , and toorn out both the pegs , and take the pick to the strah , and gie un a veed o ' wets . " Having thus provided for [our]5479-we horse , [she]5522-a stout short woman , brisk and comely , with an amazing cap advanced to [us]5479-we . "[1417-us] So , [ye]1417-us be coom at last ! [I]0-i be crule glad to zee e , zure enough . Baint e starved amost ! An unkid place it be for [the laikes of [you]1417-us]1419-the laikes of you . " So saying , [she]5522-a stout short woman , brisk and comely , with an amazing cap hurried [us]5479-we into [the house]764-the house , and set [us]5479-we before a wood - fire all glowing upon the ground , beneath an enormous chimney podded with great pots and crocks hung on things like saws . These pots , like [Devonshire]4-devonshire hospitality , were always boiling and chirping . [The kitchen]5526-the kitchen was low , and floored with lime and sand , which was worn into pits such as [boys]5527-boys use for marbles ; but the great feature was the ceiling . This was divided by deep rafters into [four compartments]5528-four compartments lengthwise . Across some of these , battens of wood were nailed , forming a series of racks , wherein reposed at least a stye - ful of bacon . Herbs and stores of many kinds , and ropes of onions dangled between . [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable went to the dresser , and got a large dish , and then turned round to have a good look at [us]5479-we . "[1420-poor leddy] [Poor leddy]1420-poor leddy , " [she]331-mrs. huxtable said gently , "[0-i] [I]0-i sim [her]1420-poor leddy 's turble weist and low . But look [e]1417-us zee , there be a plenty of [bakken yanner]1421-bakken yanner , and [us'll]1422-us cut a peg 's drort to - morrow , and [Varmer Badcock]333-varmer 'll zend [we]1422-us [a ship]1423-a ship , by [rason]1424-rason [ourn]1422-us be all a'lambing . " Then [she]331-mrs. huxtable turned to [me]1424-rason . "[1424-rason] Whai , [Miss]1425-miss , [you]1425-miss looks crule unkid tu . Do [e]1417-us love zider ? " "[331-mrs. huxtable] No , [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable . Not very much . [I]0-i would rather have water . " "[0-i] Oh drat that wash , e sha n't have none of thiccy . [Us]1422-us has got a brown gearge of beer , and more nor a dizzen pans of mulk and crame . " [Her]331-mrs. huxtable chattering warmth soon put [us]1422-us at [our]1422-us ease ; and as soon as the parlour fire burnt up , [she]331-mrs. huxtable showed [us]1422-us with many apologies , and "[1422-us] hopping no offence " [the room which was thenceforth to be [ours]1422-us]5529-the room which was thenceforth to be ours . After tea , [I]333-varmer put [[my]333-varmer dear mother]5530-my dear mother to bed as soon as possible , and sat by the dying fire to muse upon [our]1422-us prospects . Not the strangeness of [the place]5531-the place , the new ideas around [me]333-varmer , not even [my]333-varmer weariness after railroad , coach , and chaise , could keep [my]333-varmer mind from its one subject . In fact , its colour had now become its form . To [others]869-others indeed , all hope of ever detecting and bringing to justice [the man]5533-the man , for whose death [I]333-varmer lived , might seem to grow fainter and fainter . Expelled from [that place]5534-that place , and banished from those recollections , where , and by which alone , [I]333-varmer could well expect ever to wind up [my]333-varmer clue , robbed of all means of moving [indifferent persons]5535-indifferent persons and retaining [strong ones]5536-strong ones ; and , more than this , engrossed ( as [I]333-varmer must henceforth be ) in keeping debt at bay , and shielding [[my]333-varmer mother]746-my mother from care — what prospect was there , nay what possibility , that [I]333-varmer [a weak unaided girl , led only by set will and fatalism]5538-a weak unaided girl , led only by set will and fatalism , should ever overtake and grasp [a man of craft , and power , and desperation]5539-a man of craft , and power , and desperation ? It mattered not : let other things be doubtful , unlikely , or impossible ; let the hands of [men]1003-men be clenched against [me]333-varmer , and the ears of heaven be stopped ; let [the earth]1046-the earth be spread with thick darkness , as the waters are spread with earth , and [the murderer]831-the murderer set Sahara between [us]5543-us , or turn hermit on [the Andes]15-the andes ; happen what would , so [God]303-god were still above [us]5543-us , and [the world]798-the world beneath [our]5543-us feet — [I]333-varmer was as sure that [I]333-varmer should send [that man]1220-that man from [the one]1111-the one to the throne of the other , as [he]1220-that man was sure to be dragged away thence , to fire , and chains , and gnashing of teeth . So impulsive , kind - hearted , and honest was [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , that [we]5543-us could always tell what was the next thing [she]331-mrs. huxtable was going to say or do . Even at [her]331-mrs. huxtable meals [she]331-mrs. huxtable contrived to be in a bustle , except on Sundays ; but [she]331-mrs. huxtable got through a great deal of work . On Sundays [she]331-mrs. huxtable put on , with [her]331-mrs. huxtable best gown , an air of calm dignity which made [her]331-mrs. huxtable unhappy until it was off , which it was directly after the evening service . [She]331-mrs. huxtable seemed [a very sensible woman]5547-a very sensible woman , and whatever the merits of the case [she]331-mrs. huxtable sided always with [the weakest]5548-the weakest . The next morning [we]5543-us asked how it was [she]331-mrs. huxtable appeared not to expect [us]5543-us , as [I]333-varmer had written and posted the letter [myself]333-varmer on the previous Saturday . "[333-varmer] For sure now , " [she]331-mrs. huxtable replied , "[333-varmer] and the papper scrawl coom'd on Monday ; but [us]1426-us bain't girt scholards , and [Varmer]333-varmer said most like ' twas [the Queen]1427-the queen 's taxes , for there was [her]1427-the queen head upon it ; so [us]1426-us put [un]1428-un in the big mortar till [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe should come over , or [us]1426-us should go to [church]1429-church next [Zunday]16-zunday , and passon would discoorse it for [us]1426-us . But"—and off [she]1427-the queen ran—"But[1427-the queen] [her]1427-the queen belongs to [you]1430-you now , [Miss Clerer]335-miss clerer , seeing as how [you]1430-you 've coom after un . " So [they]5549-they had only a general idea that [we]1426-us were coming , and knew not when it would be . The following day , [Thomas Henwood]321-thomas henwood arrived , bringing [our]1426-us boxes in [a vehicle]5550-a vehicle called a "[1430-you] butt , " which is a short and rudely made cart , used chiefly for carrying lime . After unpacking [our]1426-us few embellishments , [we]1426-us set up a clumsy but comfortable sofa for [[my]296-death mother]746-my mother , and tried to divert [her]746-my mother sadness a little by many a shift and device to garnish [[our]1426-us narrow realm]5552-our narrow realm . [We]1426-us removed the horrible print of "[296-death] [Death]296-death and [the Lady]1431-the lady , " which was hung above the chimneypiece , and sundry daubs of [[our]1426-us Lord]5553-our lord and [the Apostles]5554-the apostles , and [a woman of [Samaria]17-samaria with a French parasol , and [Eli]336-eli falling from a turnpike gate over [the Great Western steamer]5556-the great western steamer]5555-a woman of samaria with a french parasol , and eli falling from a turnpike gate over the great western steamer . But these alterations were not made without some wistful glances from [poor Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable . At last , when [I]337-whai began to nail up a simple sketch of [the church at [Vaughan St. Mary]18-vaughan st. mary]5557-the church at vaughan st. mary instead of a noble representation of [the Prodigal Son]5558-the prodigal son , wearing a white hat with a pipe stuck under the riband , and weeping into a handkerchief with some horse upon it , [the good dame]5559-the good dame could no longer repress [her]5559-the good dame feelings . "[337-whai] [Whai]337-whai , [Miss Clerer]335-miss clerer , [Miss , dear art alaive]1432-miss , dear art alaive , cheel , what be 'bout ? [Them]1433-them 's [the smartest picters anywhere this saide of [Coorn]19-coorn]1434-the smartest picters anywhere this saide of coorn . [Varmer]333-varmer gied a pan of hogs ' puddens for [they]1433-them , and a Chainey taypot and a Zunday pair of corderahoys . Why them'll shaine with the zun on ' um , laike a vield of poppies and charlock . But [thic]1435-thic smarl pokey papper of [yourn]1436-yourn ha'ant no more colour nor the track of [a marly scrarly]1437-a marly scrarly . A massy on [us]1438-our if [I]0-i could n't walk a better picter than thic , with [my]0-i pattens on in the zider squash . " To argue with [such a connoisseur]5560-such a connoisseur would have been worse than useless ; so [I]1439-miss pacified [her]5559-the good dame by hanging the rejected gems in [[her]5559-the good dame own little summer room by [the dairy]5562-the dairy]5561-her own little summer room by the dairy . [[Our]1438-our parlour]5563-our parlour began before long to look neat and even comfortable . Of course the furniture was rough , but [I]1439-miss care not much for upholstery , and am quite rude of French polish . [My]1439-miss only fear was lest the damp from the lime - ash floor should strike to [[my]1439-miss dear mother]5530-my dear mother 's feet , through the scanty drugget which covered it . [The fire - place]5565-the fire - place was bright and quaint , lined with old Dutch tiles , and the grey - washed walls were less offensive to the eye than would have been a paper chosen by good [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable . The pretty lattice window , budding even now with woodbine , and impudent to the winds with myrtle , would have made amends for [the meanest room in [England]9-england]5566-the meanest room in england . Before [it]5566-the meanest room in england lay [a simple garden with sparry walks and bright - thatched hives]5567-a simple garden with sparry walks and bright - thatched hives , and down a dingle rich with trees and a crystal stream , [it]5566-the meanest room in england caught a glimpse of [the Bristol Channel]5568-the bristol channel . When [our]1438-our things were nearly settled , and [I]1439-miss was sitting by [myself]1439-miss , with dirty hands and covered with dust , there came a little timid tap at the door , followed by a shuffling outside , as if [some one contemplated flight , yet feared to fly]5569-some one contemplated flight , yet feared to fly . Opening the door , [I]1439-miss was surprised to find [the child whom [I]1439-miss expected a massive figure , some six feet and a quarter high , and [I]1439-miss know not how many feet in width , but wide enough to fill [the entire passage]5571-the entire passage]5570-the child whom i expected a massive figure , some six feet and a quarter high , and i know not how many feet in width , but wide enough to fill the entire passage . [He]0-i made a doubtful step in advance , till [his]0-i great open - hearted face hung sheepishly above [my]1439-miss head . "[1439-miss] Have [I]0-i the pleasure of seeing [Mr. Huxtable]338-mr. huxtable ? " [I]338-mr. huxtable asked . "[338-mr. huxtable] Ees ' um , " [he]0-i stammered , blushing like a beet - root , "[1439-miss] leastways [Miss]1439-miss , [I]0-i ort to zay , no plasure ' um to the laikes of [thee]1440-thee , but a honour to ai . [Varmer Uxtable]339-varmer uxtable [they]339-varmer uxtable karls [me]0-i round about these ' ere parts , and some on 'em [Varmer Jan]340-varmer jan , and [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe , [he]0-i karl [me]0-i ' Varmer Brak - plew - harnish , as tosses arl [they]339-varmer uxtable Garnish , ' and a dale [he]0-i think of [his]0-i potry as it please [God]303-god to give ' un : but [Maister]341-maister , may be , is the riglar thing , leastways [you]1439-miss knows best , [Miss.]342-miss. " "[342-miss.] Danged if [I]0-i can coom to discourse with [girt folks]1441-girt folks nohow , no more nor a sto - un . " This was an "[342-miss.] aside , " but audible a long way off , as [they]339-varmer uxtable always are on the stage . "[342-miss.] But [I]0-i am [a very small folk]1442-a very small folk , [Mr. Huxtable]338-mr. huxtable , compared at least with [you]338-mr. huxtable . " "[0-i] [I]0-i humbly ax [your]338-mr. huxtable parding , [Miss]1443-miss , but [ai]0-i did n't goo for to be zuch a beg , nockety , sprarling zort of [a chap]1444-a chap . [I]0-i did n't goo for to do it nohow . Reckon ' twar [my]0-i moother 's valt , [her]1445-her were always draining of hayricks . " This also was an "[1445-her] aside . " "[1445-her] Come in , " [I]0-i said , "[0-i] [I]0-i am very glad to see [you]338-mr. huxtable , and so will [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother be . " "[746-my mother] Noo ! Be [e]1447-e now ? Be [e]1447-e though undade , [[my]0-i dear]5318-my dear ? " [he]0-i asked with the truest and finest smile [I]0-i ever saw : and [I]0-i felt ashamed in front of the strong simplicity which took [my]0-i conventional words for heart 's truth . "[0-i] Them 's the best words , " [he]0-i continued "[0-i] as ai ' ve ' eered [this many a dai]1449-this many a dai ; for ai'll be danged if ever [a loi]1450-a loi could coom from unner such eyes as [yourn]1451-yourn . " And thereupon [he]0-i took [my]1450-a loi puny weak hand in [his]0-i rough iron palm , like an almond in the nut - crackers , and examined it with pitying wonder . "[1450-a loi] Wull , wull ! some hands be made for mulking coos , and some be made of the crame itself . Now there could n't be such a purty thing as this ere , unless it wor to snow war'rm . But [her]746-my mother bain't no kaind of gude for rarstling ? and ai be aveared [thee'll]1452-thee have to rarstle a rare bout wi [the world]798-the world , [[my]0-i dearie]1454-my dearie : one down , tother coom on , that be the wai of ' un . " "[338-mr. huxtable] Oh , [I]0-i am not afraid , [Mr. Huxtable]338-mr. huxtable . " [He]0-i took some time to meditate upon this , and shook [his]0-i head when [he]0-i had finished . "[338-mr. huxtable] Noo , [thee]1452-thee bain't aveard yet [I]0-i 'll warr'ne . Gude art alaive , if [e]1452-thee bain't [a spurrity maid]1455-a spurrity maid . But if [ere]1456-ere [a chap]1444-a chap zays the black word on [e]1452-thee — and thiccy 's the taime when [a maid]1458-a maid ca n't help [herzell]1459-herzell , then ony [you]1452-thee karl Jan Uxtable that 's arl [[my]0-i dear]5318-my dear , and if so be it 's in the dead hoor of the naight , and [thee]1452-thee beest to tother zaide of [Hexymoor]20-hexymoor , ai'll be by the zaide of [[thee]1452-thee zooner]1461-thee zooner nor [ai]1462-my could thraw a vorehip . " Before [I]1462-my could thank [him]0-i for [his]0-i honest championship [[my]1462-my mother]746-my mother entered [the room]823-the room , and all [his]0-i bashfulness ( lost for the moment in the pride of strength ) came over [him]0-i again like an extinguisher . Although [he]0-i did not tremble — [his]0-i nerves were too firm for that — [he]0-i stood fumbling with [his]0-i hat , and reddening , and looking vaguely about , at a loss where to put [his]0-i eyes or anything else . [[My]1462-my mother]746-my mother , quite worn out with [her]746-my mother morning 's walk , surprised at [her]746-my mother uncouth visitor , and frightened perhaps at [his]0-i bulk , sank on [our]5575-our new - fangled sofa , in a stupor of weakness . Then it was strange and fine to see [the strong man]5576-the strong man 's sense of [her]746-my mother feeble state . All [his]0-i embarrassment vanished at once ; [he]0-i saw there was something to do ; and a look of deep interest quickened [his]0-i great blue eyes . Poising [his]0-i heavy frame with the lightness of a bird , [he]0-i stepped to [her]746-my mother side as if the floor had been holy , and , scarcely touching [her]746-my mother , contrived to arrange the rude cushions , and to lay [her]746-my mother delicate head in an easy position , as [a nurse]5577-a nurse composes [a child]782-a child . All the while , [his]0-i looks and manner expressed so much feeling and gentleness , that [he]0-i must have known what it was to lose [a daughter]5399-a daughter or [mother]739-mother . "[1462-my] [Poor dear leddy]1463-poor dear leddy , " [he]0-i whispered to [me]1463-poor dear leddy , "[1463-poor dear leddy] [her]1463-poor dear leddy be used to zummut more plum nor thiccy , [I]0-i reckon . [Her]1463-poor dear leddy zimth crule weist and low laike . Hath [her]1463-poor dear leddy been long in that there wai ? " "[0-i] Yes , [she]1463-poor dear leddy has long been weak and poorly ; but [I]0-i fear that [her]1463-poor dear leddy health has been growing worse for the last few months . " [I]0-i could n't help crying a little ; and [I]0-i could n't help [his]0-i seeing it . "[0-i] Dang [thee]1464-ye , [Jan Uxtable]343-jan uxtable , for a doilish girt zinny . Now doon [e]1465-e tak on so , [Miss]1466-miss ; doon e , that 's [a dear]1467-a dear . Avore [her]1463-poor dear leddy 's been here a wake , [her'll]1468-her'll be as peart as [a gladdy]1469-a gladdy . There bain't in arl [they]1470-they furren parts no place the laike of this ere to make a body ston upraight . The braze cooms off o Hexymoor as frash as [a young coolt]1471-a young coolt , and up from the zay as swate as the breath of [a coo on the clover]1472-a coo on the clover , and [he]0-i 'll zit on [your]1464-ye chake the zame as a dove on [her]1463-poor dear leddy nestie ; and [ye'll]1464-ye be so hearty the both on [ye]1464-ye , that ye'll karl for taties and heggs and crame and inyons avore [e]1465-e be hout of bed . Ee 's fai [ye]1464-ye wull . " With this homely comfort [he]0-i departed , after a cheering glance at [[my]1464-ye mother]746-my mother . Before [I]1464-ye proceed , the Homeric epithet "[1464-ye] Break - plough - harness , " applied by [the poet]5582-the poet to [Mr. Huxtable]338-mr. huxtable , needs some explanation . It appears that [the farmer]5517-the farmer , in some convivial hour ( for at other times [he]5517-the farmer detested vaunting ) , had laid a wager that [he]5517-the farmer and [Timothy Badcock]344-tim , [[his]5517-the farmer farm - labourer]5584-his farm - labourer , would plough half an acre of land , "[1464-ye] wiout no beastessy in [the falde]1473-the falde . " Now , it happened that [the Parracombe blacksmith]5585-the parracombe blacksmith had lately been at [Barnstaple]21-barnstaple , and there had seen [a man who had heard of ploughing by steam]5586-a man who had heard of ploughing by steam . So when [the farmer]5517-the farmer 's undertaking got noised abroad and magnified , all [Exmoor]22-exmoor assembled to witness the exploit , wondering , trembling , and wrathful . Benches and tables were set in [the "[1464-ye] higher Barton]5588-the " higher barton , " [a nice piece of mealy land]5589-a nice piece of mealy land , just at the back of [the house]764-the house , while [Suke]345-suke and [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable plied the cider - barrel for [the yeomen of [the neighbourhood]5329-the neighbourhood]5591-the yeomen of the neighbourhood . [The farmer]5517-the farmer [himself]5517-the farmer was not visible — no plough or ploughing tackle of any description appeared , and a rumour began to spread that the whole affair was a hoax , and [the contriver]5594-the contriver afraid to show [himself]5594-the contriver . But as [people]1132-people began to talk of "[1474-the constable] sending for [the constable]1474-the constable " ( who , of course was there all the time ) , and as cart - whips and knob - sticks began to vibrate ominously , [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable made a signal to [Mr. Dawe]334-beany dawe , who led off [the grumbling throng]5596-the grumbling throng to the further end of [the field]5597-the field , where an old rick - cloth lay along against the hedge . While the tilting was moved aside , [the bold sons of [Exmoor]22-exmoor]5598-the bold sons of exmoor shrunk back , expecting some horrible monster , whose smoke was already puffing . All [they]5598-the bold sons of exmoor saw was a one - horse plough with [the farmer]5517-the farmer , in full harness , sitting upon it and smoking [his]5517-the farmer pipe , and [Timothy Badcock]344-tim patiently standing at the plough - tail . Amid a loud hurrah from [[his]5517-the farmer friends]976-his friends , [Mr. Huxtable]338-mr. huxtable leaped to the fore , and cast [his]5517-the farmer pipe over the hedge ; then settled the breast - band across the wrestling - pads on [his]5517-the farmer chest , and drew tight both the chain - traces . "[1474-the constable] Gee wugg now , if e wull , " cried [stout Tim Badcock]344-tim cheerily , and off sailed [the good ship of husbandly]5601-the good ship of husbandly , cleaving a deep bright furrow . But when [they]5598-the bold sons of exmoor reached the corner , [the farmer]5517-the farmer turned too sharply , and snapped the off - side trace . That accident impressed [the multitude]5603-the multitude with a deeper sense of [his]5517-the farmer prowess than even the striking success which attended [his]5517-the farmer primitive method of speeding the plough . To return to [[my]1474-the constable mother]746-my mother . As spring came on , and [the beautiful country around [us]5606-we]5605-the beautiful country around us freshened and took green life from the balmy air , [I]1474-the constable even ventured to hope that [the good yeoman]5607-the good yeoman 's words would be true . [He]5517-the farmer had become , by this time , [a great friend of [ours]5606-we]5608-a great friend of ours , doing [his]5517-the farmer utmost that [we]5606-we might not feel the loss of [[our]5606-we faithful]5609-our faithful [Thomas Henwood]321-thomas henwood . [Poor Thomas]346-poor thomas had been very loth to depart ; but [I]1474-the constable found , as [we]5606-we got settled , that [[my]1474-the constable mother]746-my mother ceased to want [him]5517-the farmer , and it would have been wrong as well as foolish to keep [him]5517-the farmer any longer . [He]5517-the farmer invested [his]5517-the farmer savings in [a public - house at [Gloucester]23-gloucester]5611-a public - house at gloucester , which [he]5517-the farmer called [the "[1474-the constable] Vaughan Arms]5612-the " vaughan arms , " and soon afterwards married [Jane Hiatt]347-jane , [a daughter of [[our]5606-we head game - keeper]5614-our head game - keeper]5613-a daughter of our head game - keeper ; or [I]1474-the constable ought to say , [Mr. Vaughan]297-mr. edgar vaughan 's . [Ann Maples]294-ann maples remained with [us]5606-we still . [We]5606-we lived , as may be supposed , in the most retired manner . [My]1474-the constable time was chiefly occupied in attendance upon [dear mother]968-dear mother , and in attempts to create for [her]746-my mother some of those countless comforts , whose value [we]5606-we know not until they are lost . After breakfast , [[my]1474-the constable mother]746-my mother would read for an hour [her]746-my mother favourite parts of Scripture , and vainly endeavour to lead [me]1474-the constable into the paths of peace . [Her]746-my mother soul discarded more and more the travel garb and wayfaring troubles of this lower existence , as , day by day , it won a nearer view of the golden gate , and [the glories beyond]5617-the glories beyond ; with which [I]1474-the constable have seen [her]746-my mother eyes suffused , like [the lucid heaven]5618-the lucid heaven with sunrise . It has been said , and [I]1474-the constable believe , that there is nothing , in all [our]5606-we material world , so lovely as [a fair woman looking on high for the angels [she]746-my mother knows to be waiting for [her]746-my mother]5619-a fair woman looking on high for the angels she knows to be waiting for her . Even [I]1474-the constable , though looking in an opposite direction , and for [an opposite being]5620-an opposite being , could not but admire that gentle meekness , whose absence formed the main fault of [my]1474-the constable character . Not that [I]1474-the constable was hard - hearted , or cross , ( unless self - love deceives [me]1474-the constable ) , but restless yearning and hatred were ever at work within [me]1474-the constable ; and these repel things of a milder nature , as a bullet cries tush to the zephyr . One cold day in March , when winter had come to say "[1474-the constable] good - bye " with a roar , after wheeling the sofa with [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother upon it towards the parlour fire , [I]0-i went out to refresh [my]0-i spirit in [the kitchen]5526-the kitchen with [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , and to "[0-i] yat [myself]0-i " ( for the sofa took all the parlour fire ) by the fragrant hearth of wood and furze . [[The farmer]5517-the farmer 's wife]5624-the farmer 's wife was "[1474-the constable] larning " [me]0-i some strange words of [her]5624-the farmer 's wife native dialect , which [I]0-i was now desirous to "[0-i] discoorse , " and which [she]5624-the farmer 's wife declared to be "[0-i] the only vitty talk . Arl [the lave of thiccy stoof]1475-the lave of thiccy stoof , zame as [the Carnishers]1476-the carnishers and [the Zummersets]348-the zummersets and [the Lunnoners]349-lunnoners tulls up , arl thiccy 's no more nor a passel of gibbersh , [Miss Clerer]335-miss clerer , and not vitty atarl ; noo , nor English nother . Instead of zaying ' ai ' laike a Kirsten , zome on [em]1477-em zays ' oi , ' and zome on [em]1477-em ' [I.]1478-i. ' " In the middle of [her]5624-the farmer 's wife lecture , and just as [I]1477-em had learned that to "[1477-em] quilty " is the proper English for to "[335-miss clerer] swallow , " and that the passage down which [we]5625-we quilty is , correctly speaking , not the throat , but the "[335-miss clerer] ezelpipe , " [a strange - looking individual darkened the "[335-miss clerer] draxtool " ( corruptly called the threshold )]5626-a strange - looking individual darkened the " draxtool " ( corruptly called the threshold ) and crossed the "[335-miss clerer] planch , " or floor , to the fireplace where [we]5625-we sat . Turning round , [I]335-miss clerer beheld [a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built]5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built , and utterly reckless of [his]5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built attire . [His]5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built face was long and thin , the profile keenly aquiline ; and the angles made yet sharper , by a continual twitching and tension of the muscles . The skin of [his]5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built cheeks was drawn , from [his]5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built solemn brows to [his]5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built lipless and down - curved mouth , tight and hollow , like the bladder on a jam - pot . [His]5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built eyes , of a very pale blue , seemed always to stand on tip - toe , and never to know what [he]5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built was going to say . A long , straight , melancholy chin , grisly with patches of hair , was meant by nature to keep [his]5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built mouth shut , and came back sullenly when it failed . Over [his]5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built shoulders was flung a patched potato - sack , fastened in front with a wooden skewer , and [his]5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built nether clothes were as ragged as poetry . In [his]5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built air and manner , self - satisfaction strove hard with solemn reserve . Upon the whole [he]5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built reminded [me]335-miss clerer of an owl who has lost [his]5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built heart to a bantam hen . [I]335-miss clerer can not express [him]5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built justly ; but [those who have seen]5628-those who have seen may recognise [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe , [the sawyer]5629-the sawyer , acknowledged [the bard of [the north of [Devon]24-devon]5631-the north of devon]5630-the bard of the north of devon . [Mr. Ebenezer Dawe]350-mr. dawe , without any hesitation or salute , took a three - legged stool , and set it between [our]1479-us chairs , then looked from [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable to [me]335-miss clerer , and introduced [himself]0-i . "[335-miss clerer] Wull , here be [us]1479-us three , And [I]0-i hopps [us]1479-us shall agree . " "[0-i] Agray indeed , " cried [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , "[1480-e] doon ' [e]1480-e zee the quarlity be here , [ye]1480-e aul vule ? " Then turning to [me]1480-e . "[1480-e] Doon'e be skeared , [Miss Clerer]335-miss clerer , it be oney that there aul mazed ramscallion , [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe . [Her]1481-her makth what girt scholards , laike [you]1482-you , [karls potry]351-karls potry , or zum such stoof . [Her]1481-her casn ' oppen the drort of [him]334-beany dawe nohow , but what [her]1481-her must spake potry . Pote indeed ! No tino , [I]0-i 'd pote un out of ouze if [I]0-i was [the waife of un]1483-the waife of un . ' Zee zaw , [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe ! ' that be arl the name [he]334-beany dawe hath airned vor [his]334-beany dawe rhaiming and rubbish , and too good for ' un too ! [Rhaime]352-rhaime , rhaime , drash , drash , like two girt gawks in [a barn]1484-a barn ! Oh fai , oh fai ; and [a maight]1485-a maight have aimed [two zhillings a dai]1486-two zhillings a dai and [his]1485-a maight zider ! " The subject of these elegant strictures regarded [her]1487-poor vule all the time , with that pleased pity which [none but a great Poet so placed]5632-none but a great poet so placed can feel . Then swinging slowly on [his]334-beany dawe tripod , and addressing the back of the chimney , [he]334-beany dawe responded : "[1487-poor vule] [Poor vule]1487-poor vule ! [Her]1487-poor vule dunno what a saight ' tis haigher To be [a Pout]1488-a pout , nor a hunderzawyer ! " Perhaps [his]334-beany dawe lofty couplet charmed [her]1487-poor vule savage ear ; at any rate [she]1487-poor vule made a peaceful overture . "[1487-poor vule] Coom now , [Mr. Dawe]334-beany dawe , wull [e]334-beany dawe have a few broth ? " [He]334-beany dawe assented with an alacrity much below [his]334-beany dawe dignity ; "[334-beany dawe] Taties , and zider , [maat]1489-maat , and broth a few , " [Wull]353-wull , zin [you]353-wull ax ai , ai'll not answer noo . "[1489-maat] " [E]334-beany dawe sha n't have no cider , "[1490-his hostess] replied [[his]334-beany dawe hostess]1490-his hostess , " without e'll spake , for wance , laike a [Kirsten]354-kirsten , maind that , without no moor of thiccy jingle jangle , the very zame for arl [the world]798-the world as [e]334-beany dawe be used to droon in the zawpit , ' Zee , zaw , [Margery Daw]355-margery daw , ' with the arms of [e]334-beany dawe a gwayn up and doon , up and doon , and [your]334-beany dawe oyes and maouth most chokked with pilm and the vace of [e]334-beany dawe a hurning laike a taypot , and never a drop of out to aise the crickles of [your]334-beany dawe barck . That 's the steet [you]334-beany dawe potes be in , and zawyers . "[1490-his hostess] As [she]1490-his hostess delivered this comment , [she]1490-his hostess swung to and fro on [her]1490-his hostess chair , in weak imitation of the impressive roll , with which [he]334-beany dawe enforced [his]334-beany dawe rhyme . This plagiarism annoyed [him]334-beany dawe much more than [her]1490-his hostess words : but [he]334-beany dawe vindicated [his]334-beany dawe cause , like [a true son of song]1491-a true son of song . " And if zo hap , [I]334-beany dawe be [a pout grand]5634-a pout grand , [Thee]334-beany dawe need n't [jah]5635-jah , 'cos [thee]334-beany dawe doon't understand . A pout , laike [a ' ooman]5636-a ' ooman , or a bell , Must have [his]334-beany dawe clack out , and ca n't help [hiszell]334-beany dawe . "[334-beany dawe] A mighty " ha ha "[334-beany dawe] from the door , like a jocund earthquake , proved that this last hit had found an echo in some ample bosom . " [Thee]334-beany dawe shall have as much vittels as ever [thee]334-beany dawe can let down , "[5517-the farmer] said [the farmer]5517-the farmer , as [he]5517-the farmer entered , " danged if [thee]334-beany dawe bain't a wunnerful foine chap , zure enough . Ai'd as lieve a'most to be a pote , plase [God]303-god , as [I]5517-the farmer wud to be [a ooman]5637-a ooman : zimth to ai , there bain't much differ atwixt 'em . But [they]5638-they vainds out a saight of things [us]5639-us taks no heed on . [I]5517-the farmer reckon now , [Beany]334-beany dawe , [thee]334-beany dawe cas'n drink beer ? "[5517-the farmer] This was a home thrust , for [Mr. Dawe]334-beany dawe was [a notorious drinker]1493-a notorious drinker . [He]334-beany dawe replied with a heavy sigh and profoundly solemn look : " [Ah]5640-ah noo ! a noo ! Unless when [I]334-beany dawe be vorced , By [rason]1424-rason , [Dactor zaith]356-dactor zaith , [[my]334-beany dawe stommirk ba'in exhaust]5642-my stommirk ba'in exhaust . "[334-beany dawe] " And what was it [the doctor]5643-the doctor said to [you]334-beany dawe , [Mr. Dawe]334-beany dawe ? "[0-i] [I]0-i asked , perceiving that [he]334-beany dawe courted inquiry . [He]334-beany dawe fixed [his]334-beany dawe eyes upon [me]0-i , with a searching look ; eager , as it seemed , yet fearing to believe that [he]334-beany dawe had found at last a generous sympathy . " ' Twas more nor dree months [zince ai]5644-zince ai titched a drap , When ai was compelled to consult [the Dactor chap]5645-the dactor chap ; [He]334-beany dawe [zaith]357-zaith , zaith [he]334-beany dawe , '' tain't no good now this here , Oh , [Ebenezer Dawe]350-mr. dawe , [you]0-i must tak beer . ' "[334-beany dawe] These words [he]334-beany dawe repeated with impressive earnestness , shaking [his]334-beany dawe head and sighing , as if in deprecation of so sad a remedy . Yet the subject possessed perhaps a melancholy charm , and [his]334-beany dawe voice relented to a pensive unctuousness , as [he]334-beany dawe concluded . " ' Tak beer ! ' [I]334-beany dawe zays , ' Lor , [I]334-beany dawe dunnow the way ! ' ' Then [you]0-i must larn , ' [zays]358-zays [he]334-beany dawe , ' this blessed day : [You'm]0-i got , ' [he]334-beany dawe zays , ' a daungerous zinking here , [Your]0-i constitooshun do requaire beer . ' "[334-beany dawe] " [Thee]0-i wasn ' long avore [thee]0-i tried it , [I]5517-the farmer 'll warr'n , "[5517-the farmer] said [the farmer]5517-the farmer , " tache the calf the wai to the coo ! "[5517-the farmer] Scorning this vile insinuation , [Mr. Dawe]350-mr. dawe continued thus : " [Wull]353-wull , after that , mayhap a month or zo , [I]350-mr. dawe was gooin [home]1102-home , [the zame]5647-the zame as maight be noo : [I]350-mr. dawe had zawed a hellum up for Varmer Yeo , And a velt [my]350-mr. dawe stommick gooin turble low , [Her]5648-her cried and skooned , like a chield left in the dark , And a maze laike in [my]350-mr. dawe head , and a maundering in [[my]350-mr. dawe barck]5649-my barck . Zo whun ai coom to [the voot of [Breakneck hill]5651-breakneck hill]5650-the voot of breakneck hill , [I]350-mr. dawe zeed the public kept by Pewter Will : [The virelight]5652-the virelight showed the glasses in [the bar]903-the bar , And ' um danced and twinkled like the avening star . "[350-mr. dawe] Here [he]350-mr. dawe paused , overcome by [his]350-mr. dawe own description . " Wull , "[5517-the farmer] said [the farmer]5517-the farmer , brightening with fellow - feeling , for [he]5517-the farmer liked [his]5517-the farmer glass , " [Wull]353-wull , [thee]353-wull toorned in and had a drap , laike [a man]5384-a man , and not be shamed of it nother . And how did [her]5655-her tast ? A must have been nation good , after so long a drouth ! "[5517-the farmer] " Coom'd down [my]5517-the farmer drort , like [the Quane and Princess Royal]5656-the quane and princess royal , [The very sa - am]5657-the very sa - am as a drap of oi - al ! "[5517-the farmer] " [The very sa - am]5657-the very sa - am , [the very sa - am]5657-the very sa - am , "[350-mr. dawe] [he]350-mr. dawe repeated with an extrametrical smack of [his]350-mr. dawe lips , which [he]350-mr. dawe wiped with the back of [his]350-mr. dawe hand , and cast a meaning glance towards [the cellar]1496-the cellar . [The farmer]5517-the farmer rose , and took from the dresser a heavy quart cup made of pewter . With this [he]5517-the farmer went to [the cellar]1496-the cellar , whence issued presently a trickling and frothing sound , which thrilled to the sensitive heart of [Mr. Dawe]350-mr. dawe . The tankard of ale , with a crown of white foam , was presented to [the thirsty bard]1499-the thirsty bard by [[his]5517-the farmer host]1500-his host , who did not , however , relinquish [his]1500-his host grasp upon [the vessel]1501-the vessel ; but imposed ( like [Pluto]359-pluto to [Orpheus]360-orpheus ) a stern condition . " Now , [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe , [thee]334-beany dawe sha n't have none , unless [thee]334-beany dawe can zay zummut without no poetry in it . "[359-pluto] At this barbarous restriction , poor [Ebenezer]350-mr. dawe rolled [his]350-mr. dawe eyes in a most tragic manner ; [he]350-mr. dawe thrust [his]350-mr. dawe tongue into [his]350-mr. dawe cheek , and swung [himself]350-mr. dawe , not to and fro as usual , but sideways , and clutched one hand on the tatters of [his]350-mr. dawe sack , while [he]350-mr. dawe clung with the other to the handle of the cup . Then with a great effort , and very slowly , [he]350-mr. dawe spoke — " If [my]350-mr. dawe poor vasses only maks [you]334-beany dawe frown , [I]350-mr. dawe 'll try , ees fai [I]350-mr. dawe wull , to keep ['em]5660-'em — A rhyme came over [him]350-mr. dawe , the twitching of [his]350-mr. dawe face showed the violence of the struggle ; [he]350-mr. dawe attempted to say "[350-mr. dawe] in , " but nature triumphed , and [he]350-mr. dawe uttered the fatal "[350-mr. dawe] down . " In a moment [the farmer]5517-the farmer compressed [his]350-mr. dawe mighty fingers , and crushed the thick metal like silver paper . The forfeit liquor flew over [the poet]5582-the poet 's knees , and hissed at [his]350-mr. dawe feet in the ashes . Foreseeing a storm of verse from [him]350-mr. dawe , and of prose from [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable at the fate of the pride of [her]331-mrs. huxtable dresser , [I]350-mr. dawe made a hasty retreat . Thenceforth [I]350-mr. dawe took a kind interest in [[our]5663-our conceited but harmless bard]5664-our conceited but harmless bard . [[His]350-mr. dawe neighbours]5665-his neighbours seemed not to know , how long it was since [he]350-mr. dawe had first yielded to [his]350-mr. dawe unfortunate ailment ; which probably owed its birth to the sound of the saw . During [our]5663-our first interview , [his]350-mr. dawe rhythm and rhyme had been unusually fluent and finished , from pride perhaps at having found [a new audience]5666-a new audience , or from some casual inspiration . Candour compels [me]350-mr. dawe to admit that [his]350-mr. dawe subsequent works were little , if at all , better than those of [[his]350-mr. dawe more famous contemporaries]5667-his more famous contemporaries ; and [I]350-mr. dawe am not so proud , as [he]350-mr. dawe expects [me]350-mr. dawe to be , of [his]350-mr. dawe connexion with [my]350-mr. dawe sad history . About half a mile from [[Tossil]361-tossil 's Barton]5668-tossil 's barton ( [the farmhouse where [we]5663-our lived]5669-the farmhouse where we lived ) there is [a valley]5670-a valley , or rather [a vast ravine , of a very uncommon formation]5671-a vast ravine , of a very uncommon formation . A narrow winding rocky combe , where slabs , and tors , and boulder stones , seem pasturing on the velvet grass , or looking into the bright trout - stream , which leaps down a flight of steps without a tree to shade its flash and foam ; [this narrow , but glad dingle , as it nears [the sea]895-the sea]5672-this narrow , but glad dingle , as it nears the sea , bursts suddenly back into [a desert gorge]5674-a desert gorge , cleaving [the heights that front [the Bristol Channel]25-the bristol channel]5675-the heights that front the bristol channel . [The mountain]5676-the mountain sides from right and left , straight as if struck by rule , steeply converge , like a high - pitched roof turned upside down ; so steep indeed that none can climb [them]5676-the mountain . Along the deep bottom gleams a silver chord , where [the cramped stream]5677-the cramped stream chafes its way , bedded and banked in stone , without a blade of green . From top to bottom of [this huge ravine]5678-this huge ravine there is no growth , no rocks , no cliffs , no place to stay the foot , but all a barren , hard , grey stretch of shingle , slates , and gliddery stones : as if the ballast of ten million fleets had been shot in two enormous piles , and were always on the slip . Looking at [it]5678-this huge ravine [we]5663-our forget that there is such a thing as life : the desolation is not painful , because it is so grand . The brief noon glare of the sun on [these Titanic dry walls]5679-these titanic dry walls , where even [a lichen dies]5680-a lichen dies ; the gaunt desert shade stealing back to its lair in the early afternoon ; the solemn step of evening stooping to [her]5681-her cloak below — [I]350-mr. dawe know not which of these is the most impressive and mournful . No stir of any sort , no voice of [man or beast]5682-man or beast , no flow of tide , ever comes to visit [here]846-here ; [the little river]5684-the little river , after a course of battles , wins no peaceful union with [the sea]895-the sea , but ponds against a shingle bar , and gurgles away in slow whirlpools . Only a fitful moaning wind draws up and down [the melancholy chasm]5686-the melancholy chasm . The famous "[350-mr. dawe] [Valley of Rocks]26-valley of rocks , " [some four miles to the east]5687-some four miles to the east , seems to [me]350-mr. dawe common - place and tame compared to [this grand defile]5688-this grand defile . Yet how many [men]1003-men [I]350-mr. dawe know who would smoke [their]1003-men pipes throughout [it]26-valley of rocks ! Thinking so much of [this place]5690-this place , [I]350-mr. dawe long wished [[my]350-mr. dawe mother]746-my mother to see [it]5690-this place ; and finding [her]746-my mother rather stronger one lovely April morning , [I]350-mr. dawe persuaded [her]746-my mother forth , embarked on [[Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable 's donkey]5692-mrs. huxtable 's donkey . [We]5693-we went , down [a small tributary glen]5694-a small tributary glen , towards [the head of [the great defile]5696-the great defile]5695-the head of the great defile . [The little glen]5697-the little glen was bright , and green , and laughing into bud , and bantering [a swift brook]5698-a swift brook , which could hardly stop to answer , but left the ousels as it passed to talk at leisure about [their]1003-men nests , and the trout to make those musical leaps that sound so crisp through the alders . Another stream meets [it]26-valley of rocks among the bushes below , and now [they]1003-men are entitled to the dignity of a bridge whereon grows the maidenhair fern , and which , with its rude and pointed arch , looks like an old pack - saddle upon [the stream]1155-the stream . From this point [we]5693-we followed [a lane]5504-a lane , leading obliquely up the ascent , before the impassable steep begins . Having tethered [our]5693-we quiet donkey to a broken gate , [I]350-mr. dawe took [[my]350-mr. dawe mother]746-my mother along [a narrow path]5702-a narrow path through the thicket to the view of [the great ravine]5703-the great ravine . Standing at the end of this path , [she]746-my mother was astonished at the scene before [her]746-my mother . [We]5693-we had gained a height of about two hundred feet , [the hill - top]5704-the hill - top stretched a thousand feet above [us]5693-we . [We]5693-we stood on [the very limit of vegetation]5705-the very limit of vegetation , a straight line passing clown the hill where [the quarry - like steep begins]5706-the quarry - like steep begins . [[My]350-mr. dawe dear mother]5530-my dear mother was tired , and [I]350-mr. dawe had called [her]746-my mother to come [home]1102-home , lest the view should make [her]746-my mother giddy ; when suddenly [she]746-my mother stepped forward to gather a harebell straggling among the stones . The shingle beneath [her]746-my mother foot gave way , then below [her]746-my mother , and around , and above [her]746-my mother head , began in a great mass to glide . Buried to the knees and falling sideways , [she]746-my mother was sinking slowly at first , then quickly and quicker yet , with a hoarse roar of moving tons of stone , gathering and whelming upon [her]746-my mother , down [the rugged abyss]5709-the rugged abyss . Screaming , [I]350-mr. dawe leaped into the avalanche after [her]746-my mother , never thinking that [I]350-mr. dawe could only do harm . Stronger , and swifter , and louder , and surging , and berged with shouldering stone [the solid cascade]5710-the solid cascade rushed on . [I]350-mr. dawe saw [dearest mother below [me]350-mr. dawe]5711-dearest mother below me trying to clasp [her]746-my mother hands in prayer , and to give [me]350-mr. dawe [her]746-my mother last word . With a desperate effort dragging [my]350-mr. dawe shawl from the gulfing crash , [I]350-mr. dawe threw it towards [her]746-my mother , but [she]746-my mother did not try to grasp it . A heavy stone leaped over [me]350-mr. dawe , and struck [her]746-my mother on the head ; [her]746-my mother head dropped back , [she]746-my mother lay senseless , and nearly buried . [We]5712-we were dashing more headlong and headlong , in the rush of [the mountain side]5713-the mountain side , to [the precipice over [the river]5715-the river]5714-the precipice over the river , and [my]350-mr. dawe senses had all but failed , and revenge was prone before judgment , when [I]350-mr. dawe heard through the din a shout . On the brink of firm ground stood [a man]5384-a man , and signed [me]350-mr. dawe to throw [my]350-mr. dawe shawl . With all [my]350-mr. dawe remaining strength [I]350-mr. dawe did so , but not as [he]5384-a man meant , for [I]350-mr. dawe cast it entirely to [him]5384-a man , and pointed to [[my]350-mr. dawe mother]746-my mother below . One instant the avalanche paused , [he]5384-a man leaped about twenty feet down , through the heather and gorse , and stayed [his]5384-a man descent by clutching a stout ash sapling . To this in a moment [he]5384-a man fastened [my]350-mr. dawe shawl , ( a long and strong plaid ) , and just as [[my]350-mr. dawe mother]746-my mother was being swept by , [he]5384-a man plunged with the other end into the shingle tide . [I]350-mr. dawe saw [him]5384-a man leap and struggle towards [her]746-my mother , and lift [her]746-my mother out of [the gliding tomb]5719-the gliding tomb , gliding [himself]5384-a man the while , and sway [himself]5384-a man and [his]5384-a man burden , by means of the shawl , not back ( for that was impossible ) , but obliquely downwards ; [I]350-mr. dawe saw the strong sapling bow to the strain like a fishing - rod , while hope and terror fought hard within [me]350-mr. dawe ; [I]350-mr. dawe saw [him]5384-a man , by a desperate effort , which bent the ash - tree to the ground , leap from the whirling havoc , and lay [[my]350-mr. dawe mother]746-my mother on the dead fern and heath . Of the rest , [I]350-mr. dawe know nothing , having become quite unconscious , before [he]5384-a man saved [me]350-mr. dawe , in the same manner . [We]5721-our must have been taken [home]1102-home in [[Farmer Huxtable]362-farmer huxtable 's butt]5723-farmer huxtable 's butt , for [I]350-mr. dawe remember well that , amidst the stir and fright of [our]5721-our return , and while [[my]350-mr. dawe mother]746-my mother was still insensible , [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable fell savagely upon poor [Suke]345-suke , for having despatched [that elegant vehicle]5725-that elegant vehicle without cleaning [it]5725-that elegant vehicle from the lime dust ; whereby , as [she]331-mrs. huxtable declared , [our]5721-our dresses ( so rent and tattered by the jagged stones ) were "[350-mr. dawe] muxed up to shords . " [Poor Suke]345-suke would have been likely to fare much worse , if , at such a time , [she]345-suke had stopped to dust [the cart]5726-the cart . When [the farmer]5517-the farmer came [home]1102-home , [his]5517-the farmer countenance , rich in capacity for expressing astonishment , far outdid [his]5517-the farmer words . "[350-mr. dawe] Wull , wull , for sure ! wuther [ye]1502-me did or no ? " was all the vent [he]5517-the farmer could find for [his]5517-the farmer ideas during the rest of the day ; though it was plain to all who knew [him]5517-the farmer that [he]5517-the farmer was thinking profoundly upon the subject , and wholly occupied with it . In the course of the following week [he]5517-the farmer advised [me]1502-me very impressively never to do it again ; and nothing could ever persuade [him]5517-the farmer but that [I]1502-me jumped in , and [[my]1502-me mother]746-my mother came to rescue [me]1502-me . But [[his]5517-the farmer wife]789-his wife very soon had all [her]789-his wife wits about [her]789-his wife . [She]789-his wife sent to "[1502-me] Coom " for [the doctor]5643-the doctor ( [I]350-mr. dawe begged that it might not be [[Mr. Dawe]350-mr. dawe 's physician]5732-mr. dawe 's physician ) , [she]789-his wife put [dear mother]968-dear mother to bed , and dressed [her]968-dear mother wounds with simples worth ten [druggists]5734-druggists ' shops , and bathed [her]968-dear mother temples with rosemary , and ran down [the glen]997-the glen for "[350-mr. dawe] fathery ham " ( [Valerian]363-valerian ) , which [she]789-his wife declared "[350-mr. dawe] would kill nine sorts of infermation ; " then [she]789-his wife hushed [the entire household]5736-the entire household , permitting no tongue to move except [her]789-his wife own , and beat [[her]789-his wife eldest boy]5737-her eldest boy ( a fine young [Huxtable]362-farmer huxtable ) for crying , whereupon [he]5737-her eldest boy roared ; [she]789-his wife even conquered [her]789-his wife strong desire to know much more than all could tell ; and showed [[my]350-mr. dawe mother]746-my mother such true kindness and pity that [I]350-mr. dawe loved [her]746-my mother for it at once , and ever since . Breathing slowly and heavily , [[my]350-mr. dawe poor mother]1310-my poor mother lay in the bed which had long been the pride of [[Tossil]361-tossil 's Barton]5668-tossil 's barton . [The bedstead]5741-the bedstead was made of carved oak , as many of them are in [North Devon]27-north devon , and would have been handsome and striking , if [some ancestral [Huxtable]362-farmer huxtable]5742-some ancestral huxtable had not adorned [it]5741-the bedstead with whitewash . But the quilt was what [they]5743-they were proud of . It was formed of patches of diamond shape and most incongruous colours , with a death 's head in the centre and crossbones underneath . When first [I]350-mr. dawe beheld it , [I]350-mr. dawe tossed it down [the stairs]5744-the stairs , but [[my]350-mr. dawe mother]746-my mother would have it brought back and used , because [she]746-my mother knew how [the family]1254-the family gloried in it , and [she]746-my mother could not bear to hurt [their]1254-the family feelings . One taper white hand lay on it now , with the tender skin bruised and discoloured by blows . [She]746-my mother had closed the finger which bore [her]746-my mother wedding ring , and it still remained curved and rigid . In an agony of tears , [I]350-mr. dawe knelt by the side of the bed , watching [her]746-my mother placid and deathlike face . Till then [I]350-mr. dawe had never known how strongly and deeply [I]350-mr. dawe loved [her]746-my mother . [I]350-mr. dawe firmly believe that [she]746-my mother was revived in some degree by the glare of the patched quilt upon [her]746-my mother eyes . The antagonism of nature was roused , and brought home [her]746-my mother wandering powers . Feebly glancing away , [she]746-my mother came suddenly to [herself]746-my mother , and exclaimed : "[350-mr. dawe] Is [she]1503-she safe ? is [she]1503-she safe ? ' " Yes , [mother]739-mother ; here [I]1503-she am , with [[my]1503-she own dear mother]1397-my own dear mother . "[1503-she] [She]1503-she opened [her]1503-she arms , and held [me]0-i in a nervous cold embrace , and thanked [God]303-god , and wept . When [the surgeon]1504-the surgeon came , [he]1504-the surgeon pronounced that none of [her]1503-she limbs were broken , but that the shock to the brain , and the whole system , had been so severe , that the only chance of recovery consisted in perfect quiet . [She]1503-she [herself]1503-she said that the question was , whether [Providence]319-providence wanted [her]1503-she still to watch over [[her]1503-she child]1505-her child . After some days [she]1503-she came down [stairs]1506-stairs , not without [my]0-i support , and was propped once more upon [her]1503-she poor sofa . Calm [she]1503-she appeared , and contented , and happy in such sort as of old ; but whenever [she]1503-she turned [her]1503-she glance from [me]0-i , [she]1503-she observed with starting eyes every little thing that moved . Especially [she]1503-she would lie and gaze through the open window , at [a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms]1507-a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms . One day , in making too bold a cast , [he]1507-a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms fell ; some chord of remembrance was touched , and [she]1503-she swooned away on the couch . In spite of these symptoms [I]0-i fondly hoped that [she]1503-she was recovering strength . [She]1503-she even walked out with [me]0-i twice , in the sunny afternoon . But this only lasted a very short time ; it soon became manifest , even to [me]0-i , that ere long [she]1503-she would be with [[my]0-i father]731-my father . Unable to fight any more with this dark perception , [I]0-i embraced it with a sort of savage despair , an utter sinking of the heart , which defied [God]303-god as it sank . This [she]1503-she soon discovered , and [I]0-i fear that it saddened [her]1503-she end . [She]1503-she was much disappointed , too , that [we]1509-our could not find or thank [him]1507-a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms who had perilled [his]1507-a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms life for [us]1509-our . [None]1510-none could tell who [he]1507-a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms was , or what had become of [him]1507-a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms ; though [the farmer]5517-the farmer , at [our]1509-our entreaty , searched all [the villages]1512-the villages round . [We]1509-our were told , indeed , by [the landlady of [the " Red - deer Inn]5750-the " red - deer inn]5749-the landlady of the " red - deer inn "[1503-she] ( [a lonely public - house near the scene of the accident]1513-a lonely public - house near the scene of the accident ) that [a stranger]1247-a stranger had come to [her]1503-she in very great haste , and , having learned who [we]1509-our were , for [she]1503-she had seen [us]1509-our pass half an hour before , had sent [[her]1503-she boy]1515-her boy to [the farm]1516-the farm for some kind of conveyance , while [he]1507-a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms returned at full speed to attend [those whom [he]1507-a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms had rescued]1517-those whom he had rescued . It further appeared that [this stranger]1518-this stranger had helped to place [us]1509-our in [the cart]5726-the cart , and showed the kindest anxiety to lessen the roughness of its motion , [himself]1518-this stranger even leading [old " Smiler]364-old " smiler , "[1518-this stranger] to thwart [his]1507-a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms propensity to the deepest and hardest ruts . By the time [[our]1509-our slow vehicle]1520-our slow vehicle reached [the farm]1516-the farm , [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable was returned from [the Lower Cleve orchard]1522-the lower cleve orchard , where [she]331-mrs. huxtable had been smoking the fernwebs , in ignorance of [our]1509-our mishap ; and [[our]1509-our conductor]1523-our conductor , seeing [us]1509-our safe in [her]331-mrs. huxtable hands , departed without a word , while [she]331-mrs. huxtable was too flurried and frightened to take much notice of [him]1518-this stranger . Neither could [the woman of [the inn]1283-the inn]1524-the woman of the inn describe [him]1518-this stranger ; [she]331-mrs. huxtable was so " mazed , "[331-mrs. huxtable] when [she]331-mrs. huxtable heard of the " vail arl down the girt goyal , "[331-mrs. huxtable] as [she]331-mrs. huxtable called [our]1509-our slide of about fifty feet ; and for this [she]331-mrs. huxtable quoted [the stranger]1526-the stranger as [her]331-mrs. huxtable authority , " them 's the very words as [he]1518-this stranger used ; "[331-mrs. huxtable] though , just before this , [she]331-mrs. huxtable had stated that [he]1518-this stranger was [a foreigner]1527-a foreigner and could not speak English . Knowing that in [Devonshire]4-devonshire [any stranger]941-any stranger is called [a foreigner]1527-a foreigner , and English means the brogue of [the countryside]1530-the countryside , [I]0-i did not attach much weight to this declaration . [The only remaining witness]1531-the only remaining witness , [the lad who had come with the butt]1532-the lad who had come with the butt , was too stupid to describe anything , except three round O 's , with [his]1518-this stranger mouth and eyes . But it mattered little about description ; [I]0-i had seen [that stranger]1533-that stranger under such circumstances , that [I]0-i could not fail to know [him]1526-the stranger again . On the morrow , and once in the following week , some kind inquiries were made as to [our]1509-our condition , by means of slips of paper conveyed by [country lads]1534-country lads . No name was attached to these , and no information given about [the inquirer]1535-the inquirer . [The bearer of the first missive]1536-the bearer of the first missive came from [Lynmouth]13-lynmouth , and of the second from [Ilfracombe]14-ilfracombe . [Neither lad]1537-neither lad knew anything ( though submitted by [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable to keen cross - examination ) , except that [he]1518-this stranger was paid for [his]1518-this stranger errand , but would like some cider , and that the answer was to be written upon the paper [he]1518-this stranger brought . Whether any motive for concealment existed , beside an excess of delicacy , or whether there even was any intentional secresy , or merely indifference to [our]1509-our gratitude , was more than [we]1509-our could pretend to say . [I]0-i am not at all inquisitive — not more so , [I]0-i mean , than [other women]1538-other women — but [I]0-i need not confess that [my]0-i curiosity ( to say nothing of better feelings ) was piqued a little by this uncommon reserve . So now , beside the engrossing search for [[my]0-i deadly enemy]1539-my deadly enemy , [I]0-i had to seek out another , [[my]0-i brave and noble friend]1540-my brave and noble friend . But for the present , curiosity , gratitude , hate , all feelings indeed and passions , except from the bled vein of love , and the heart - rooted fibres of sorrow , were to be crushed within [me]0-i . Evening after evening , [[my]0-i dear mother]5530-my dear mother 's presence seemed more and more dreamy and shadowy ; and night after night [she]5530-my dear mother went feebler and feebler to bed . In the morning indeed [she]5530-my dear mother had gathered some fragile strength , such strength as so wasted a form could exert , and the breeze and the fresh May sun made believe of health on [her]5530-my dear mother cheeks . But no more was [I]0-i tempted to lay [my]0-i arm round [her]5530-my dear mother waist , and rally [her]5530-my dear mother on its delicate girlish span , nor could [I]0-i now look gaily into [her]5530-my dear mother eyes , and tell [her]5530-my dear mother how much [she]5530-my dear mother excelled [[her]5530-my dear mother child]1505-her child . Those little liberties , which with [less than a matron]1543-less than a matron 's dignity , and more than [a mother]1544-a mother 's fondness [she]5530-my dear mother had so long allowed [me]0-i , became as [she]5530-my dear mother still expected , and [I]0-i could not bear to take them , so many great distresses . Even at night , when [I]0-i twined in its simple mode [her]5530-my dear mother soft brown hair , as [I]0-i thought how few the times [my]0-i old task would be needed again , it cost [me]0-i many a shift to prevent [her]5530-my dear mother descrying [my]0-i tears in the glass , or suspecting them in [my]0-i voice . For [herself]5530-my dear mother , [she]5530-my dear mother knew well what was coming ; [she]5530-my dear mother had learned how soon [she]5530-my dear mother must be [[my]0-i sweet angel]1545-my sweet angel instead of [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother , and [her]5530-my dear mother last trouble was that [she]5530-my dear mother could not bring [me]0-i to think the difference small . So calmly [she]5530-my dear mother spoke of [her]5530-my dear mother end , not looking at [me]0-i the while for fear [we]1547-we both should weep , so gently and sweetly [she]5530-my dear mother talked of the time when [I]0-i should hearken no more , as if [she]5530-my dear mother were going to visit [a garden]1548-a garden and hand [me]0-i the flowers outside . Then , if [I]0-i broke forth in an anguish of sobs , [she]5530-my dear mother would beg [my]0-i forgiveness , as if [she]5530-my dear mother could have done wrong , and mourn for [my]0-i loneliness after [her]5530-my dear mother , as though [she]5530-my dear mother could help forsaking [me]0-i . Looking back , even now , on that time , how [I]0-i condemn and yet pardon [myself]0-i , reflecting how little [I]0-i tried to dissemble [[my]0-i child]1549-my child - like woe . When all things rejoiced in their young summer strength , and scarcely the breeze turned the leaves for the songs of the birds , and the pure white hawthorn was calm as the death of the good , and the soul of gladness was sad , [we]1547-we talked for the last time together , [mother]739-mother and [child]5440-child , looking forth on the farewell of sunset . [The room under the thatch]1552-the room under the thatch smelled musty in summer , and [I]0-i had made up a bed on the sofa [downstairs]1041-downstairs . The wasting low fever was past , and the wearisome cough exhausted , and the flush had ebbed from [her]5530-my dear mother cheeks ( as the world from [her]5530-my dear mother heart ) , and of all human passions , and wishes , and cares , not one left a trace in [her]5530-my dear mother bosom , except [a mother]1544-a mother 's love . This and only this retarded [her]5530-my dear mother flight to [heaven]1555-heaven , as the sight of [his]1556-his nest delays the rising of the lark . " [[My]5530-my dear mother child]1549-my child , "[5530-my dear mother] [she]5530-my dear mother began , and [her]5530-my dear mother voice was low , but very distinct , " [[my]5530-my dear mother only and darling child]5752-my only and darling child , who has minded [me]5530-my dear mother so long , and laid [her]5530-my dear mother youth , and beauty , and high courageous spirit , at the feet of [[her]5530-my dear mother weak mother]5753-her weak mother ; [[my]5530-my dear mother child]1549-my child , who fostered in wealth and love , will be to - morrow [an orphan]1231-an orphan , cast upon the wide world"—here[5530-my dear mother] [she]5530-my dear mother fairly broke down , in spite of religion , and [heaven]1555-heaven , and turned [her]5530-my dear mother head to the pillow , [a true daughter]1558-a true daughter and [mother of earth]1559-mother of earth . [I]0-i would fain have given that fortune , whose loss to [me]0-i [she]5530-my dear mother lamented , for leave to cry freely with [her]5530-my dear mother , without adding to [her]5530-my dear mother distress . In a minute or two , [she]5530-my dear mother was able to proceed ; with [her]5530-my dear mother thin hand [she]5530-my dear mother parted the hair shaken purposely over [my]0-i eyes . " [I]5530-my dear mother am sure that [[my]5530-my dear mother pet]5394-my pet will listen , with kindness and patience , while [I]5530-my dear mother try to say what has lain so long at [my]5530-my dear mother heart . [You]0-i know how painfully [I]5530-my dear mother have always been moved by any allusion to the death of [[your]0-i dear father]5757-your dear father . It has been a weakness no doubt on [my]5530-my dear mother part , but one which [I]5530-my dear mother vainly strove against ; and for which [I]5530-my dear mother trust to be pardoned where all is pardon and peace . "[5530-my dear mother] [Her]5530-my dear mother voice began to tremble , and [her]5530-my dear mother eyes became fixed , and [I]0-i feared a return of the old disorder ; but [she]5530-my dear mother shook it off , and spoke again distinctly , though with great labour : " This is a bitter subject , and [I]5530-my dear mother never could bring [myself]5530-my dear mother to it , till now , when it seems too late . But , [[my]5530-my dear mother poor love]5758-my poor love , [I]5530-my dear mother am so anxious about it . For the rest — that Providence which has never forsaken [us]5759-us , repine as [I]5530-my dear mother would , [I]5530-my dear mother can trust that [Providence]319-providence still to protect [[my]5530-my dear mother darling child]5760-my darling child . There is one thing , and only one , by promising which [you]5758-my poor love will make [my]5530-my dear mother departure quite happy . Then [I]5530-my dear mother shall go to rejoin [[your]5758-my poor love father]5365-your father , and carry such tidings of [you]5758-my poor love , as will enable [us]5759-us both to wait , in the fulness of time , [your]5758-my poor love coming . "[5530-my dear mother] " Oh , that the fulness of time were come ! "[0-i] [I]0-i cried in [my]0-i selfish loneliness ; " for [me]0-i it is empty enough . "[0-i] " [[My]5530-my dear mother precious]5762-my precious , [[my]5530-my dear mother own darling]5763-my own darling [Clara]293-clara , [you]5758-my poor love sob so , [you]5758-my poor love make [me]5530-my dear mother most wretched . "[5530-my dear mother] " [Mother]739-mother , [I]1560-i will not cry any more ; "[1560-i] neither did [I]0-i , while [she]1560-i could see [me]0-i . " [I]1560-i need not tell [you]0-i , "[1560-i] [she]1560-i said , " what is that promise which [I]1560-i crave for [your]0-i own dear sake . "[1560-i] " No , [ma'am]5765-ma'am , "[0-i] [I]0-i replied , " [I]0-i know quite well what it is . "[0-i] [I]0-i saw that [I]0-i had grieved [her]1560-i . How could [I]0-i call [her]1560-i then anything else than " [mother]739-mother "[1560-i] ? " [[My]1560-i mother]746-my mother dear , [you]746-my mother wish [me]1560-i to promise this — that [I]1560-i will forego [my]1560-i revenge upon [[him]731-my father who slew [[my]1560-i father]731-my father]5768-him who slew my father . "[1560-i] [She]1560-i bowed [her]1560-i head , with a look [I]0-i can not describe . In the harsh way [I]0-i had put it , it seemed as if [she]1560-i were injuring both [[my]0-i father]731-my father and [me]0-i . " Had [you]746-my mother asked [me]1560-i anything else , although it were sin against [God]303-god and [man]5770-man ( if [you]746-my mother could ask [such a thing)—I]5771-such a thing)—i would have pledged [myself]1560-i to it , as gladly as [I]1560-i would die — die , at least , if [my]1560-i task were done . But this , this one thing only — to abandon what [I]1560-i live for , what [I]1560-i was born to do , to be [a traitor to [[my]1560-i own father]1038-my own father and [you]746-my mother]5772-a traitor to my own father and you — [I]1560-i implore [you]746-my mother , [mother]739-mother , by [Him]1038-my own father whose glory is on [you]746-my mother now , do not ask [me]1560-i this . "[1560-i] [Her]1562-her face in its sadness and purity made [me]0-i bury [my]0-i eyes and forget things . " Then [I]1560-i must die , and leave [[my]1560-i only child]5775-my only child possessed with [a murderer]5469-a murderer 's spirit ! "[1560-i] The depth of [her]1562-her last agony , and which [I]0-i believed would cling to [her]1562-her even in [heaven]1555-heaven , was more than [I]0-i could bear . [I]0-i knelt on the floor and put [my]0-i hand to [her]1562-her side . [Her]1562-her worn out heart was throbbing again , with the pang of [her]1562-her disappointment . " [Mother]739-mother , "[0-i] [I]0-i cried , " [I]0-i will promise [you]739-mother this . When [I]0-i have discovered , as [I]0-i must do , [that man who has made [you]739-mother [a widow]5779-a widow and [me]0-i [an orphan]1231-an orphan]5778-that man who has made you a widow and me an orphan , if [I]0-i find any plea whatever to lessen [his]5778-that man who has made you a widow and me an orphan crime , or penitence to atone for it , as [I]0-i hope to see [[my]0-i father]731-my father and [mother]739-mother in [heaven]1555-heaven , [I]0-i will try to spare and forgive [him]5778-that man who has made you a widow and me an orphan . Can [you]739-mother wish [me]0-i to rest in ignorance , and forget that deed ? "[0-i] " [Clara]293-clara , "[1564-her] [she]1564-her answered weakly , and [she]1564-her spoke more slowly and feebly every time , " [you]293-clara have promised [me]1564-her all [I]1564-her can hope for . How [you]293-clara loved [[your]293-clara father]5365-your father ! [Me]1564-her too [you]293-clara have loved [I]1564-her can not say how much . For [my]1564-her sake , [you]293-clara have borne poverty , trouble , and illness , without a complaining word . By day , and by night , through [my]1564-her countless wants , and long fretfulness . "[1564-her] [I]0-i put [my]0-i finger upon [her]1564-her pale lips . How could [she]1564-her tell such a story then ? [Her]1564-her tears came now and then , and would not be stopped , as [she]1564-her laid [her]1564-her weak hand on [my]0-i head . " May [the God of [the fatherless]5786-the fatherless and [the poor]5787-the poor , who knows and comforts [the widow]1411-the widow 's grief]5785-the god of the fatherless and the poor , who knows and comforts the widow 's grief , [the God who is taking [me]1564-her now to [His]5789-the god who is taking me now to his bosom bosom]5789-the god who is taking me now to his bosom , bless with all blessings of [earth and heaven]5790-earth and heaven , and restore to [me]1564-her this [[my]1564-her child]1549-my child . "[1564-her] A sudden happiness fell upon [her]1564-her , as if [she]1564-her had seen [her]1564-her prayer 's acceptance . [She]1564-her let [her]1564-her arms fall round [me]0-i , and laid [my]0-i cheek by the side of [her]1564-her bright flowing smile . It was the last conscious stir of the mind ; all the rest seemed the flush of the soul . In the window the night - scented heath was blooming ; outside it , the jessamine crossed in a milky way of white stars , and the lush honeysuckle had flung down [her]1564-her lap in clusters . The fragrance of flowers lay heavy upon [us]1565-we , and [we]1565-we were sore weary with the burden of sorrow and joy . So tranquil and kind was the face of death , that sleep , [[his]1566-his half - brother]902-his half - brother , still held [his]902-his half - brother hand . The voice of the thrush , from the corner laurel , broke the holy stillness . Like dreams of [home]1102-home that break [our]1565-we slumbers , [his]1566-his melody was its own excuse . [[My]0-i mother]746-my mother awoke , and said faintly , with no gleam in [her]746-my mother eyes : " Raise [me]746-my mother upon the pillow , [[my]746-my mother love]5792-my love , that [I]746-my mother may hear [him]1566-his once more . [He]1566-his sings like one [[your]0-i father]5365-your father and [I]746-my mother used to listen to every evening , in the days when [we]1565-we watched [[your]0-i cradle]5794-your cradle . "[746-my mother] [I]0-i lifted [her]746-my mother gently . The voice of nature made way for [her]746-my mother passing spirit . " Now kiss [me]746-my mother , [[my]746-my mother child]1549-my child ; once more , [[my]746-my mother own loved child]5796-my own loved child , [my]746-my mother heart is with [you]1549-my child for ever . Light of [my]746-my mother eyes , [you]1549-my child are growing dim . "[746-my mother] [She]746-my mother clasped [her]746-my mother hands in prayer , with one of [mine]0-i between them . [My]0-i other was round [her]746-my mother neck . Then [she]746-my mother spoke slowly , and with a waning voice ; but firmly , as if it had been [her]746-my mother marriage - response . " [Thou]5797-thou art [[my]746-my mother guide]5798-my guide , and [my]746-my mother staff . [I]746-my mother have no fear , neither shadow of trembling . Make no long tarrying , oh [[my]746-my mother God]5799-my god ! "[746-my mother] The bird went [home]1102-home to [[his]1571-his nest]1572-his nest , and [she]746-my mother to [that refuge where all is [home]1102-home]1573-that refuge where all is home . Though the hands that held [mine]0-i grew cold as ice , and [her]746-my mother lips replied to no kiss , and the smile on [her]746-my mother face slept off into stillness , and a grey shade crept on [her]746-my mother features;—I could not believe that all this was death . " Long - shadowed death , "[1575-some poet] [some poet]1575-some poet says . How well [I]0-i know and feel it ! the gloom before [him]1571-his deepening as [he]1571-his comes , and the world of darkness stretching many years behind . [I]0-i once dared to believe that no earthly blow could ever subdue , or even bend [my]0-i resolute will . [I]0-i now found [my]0-i mistake , and cared not even to think about it . On the morning after [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother 's death [I]0-i wandered about , and could not tell where to go . The passionate clinging which would not allow [me]0-i , during that blank and sleepless night , to quit what remained of [her]746-my mother presence , and the jealous despair which felt it a wrong that [any one else]926-any one else should approach , had now settled down to a languid heaviness , and all that [I]0-i cared for was to be let alone . All the places where [we]1578-we had been together [I]0-i visited now , without knowing why , perhaps it was to see if [she]746-my mother were [there]1114-there . Then vaguely disappointed , [I]0-i thought there must be some mistake , and wearily went the dreary round again . [I]0-i can not clearly call to mind , but think it must have been that day , when [I]0-i was in the corner of [the room]823-the room , looking at the place whence [they]1581-they had taken [dear mother]968-dear mother . [Ann Maples]294-ann maples and [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable came in , followed by [the farmer]5517-the farmer , who had left [his]5517-the farmer shoes at the door . [They]1581-they did not see [me]0-i , so [I]0-i suppose it must have been in the evening . [They]1581-they were come to remove the sofa . [I]0-i have not the heart to follow [their]1581-they brogue . " Yes to be sure , "[331-mrs. huxtable] said [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , looking at it with a short sigh . It was odd that it should strike [me]0-i then , but all [she]746-my mother did was short . " Get it out of [her]746-my mother sight , [poor dear]5800-poor dear , "[294-ann maples] said [Ann Maples]294-ann maples . " To see [her]746-my mother sit and look at it ! "[5517-the farmer] exclaimed [[the farmer]5517-the farmer 's wife]5624-the farmer 's wife . " With [her]746-my mother eyes so dry and stupid like ! "[1586-the other] returned [the other]1586-the other . " [Poor child]5381-poor child , [she]746-my mother must have cried [herself]746-my mother out . [I]1586-the other have known [her]746-my mother sit by the hour , and stare at the bed where [[her]746-my mother father]898-her father was killed , but it was a different sort of look to this . "[1586-the other] " Ah well , [she]746-my mother has lost [a good mother]5803-a good mother , "[365-dame huxtable] said [Dame Huxtable]365-dame huxtable . " God grant [[my]365-dame huxtable poor little chicks]5804-my poor little chicks may never be left like [her]746-my mother . "[365-dame huxtable] " What 's [[your]0-i children]5805-your children to talk of along with [Miss Clara]293-clara ? "[1587-my nurse] asked [[my]0-i nurse]1587-my nurse . [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable was about to answer sharply , but checked [herself]331-mrs. huxtable , and only said : " [All children]5806-all children is much of a muchness to [[their]5806-all children mothers]5807-their mothers . "[331-mrs. huxtable] " Do n't tell [me]294-ann maples , "[294-ann maples] cried [Ann Maples]294-ann maples , who had never had any . [The farmer]5517-the farmer came between [them]1589-them , walking on tip - toe . " For good , now , do n't [ye]331-mrs. huxtable fall out at such a time as this here . What 's [our]1589-them affairs to speak of now ? "[5517-the farmer] " What 's [any folks]5808-any folks , "[331-mrs. huxtable] asked [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , " that has the breath of life ? "[331-mrs. huxtable] " And goes forth in the morning , and is cast into the oven , [ma'am]5765-ma'am , "[294-ann maples] continued [[her]294-ann maples antagonist]1590-her antagonist . " Ah , bless [thee]331-mrs. huxtable , yes ! "[5517-the farmer] [the farmer]5517-the farmer replied , " [I]5517-the farmer 'll take [my]5517-the farmer gospel oath of it . It 's not much good [I]5517-the farmer am at [parsoning]5810-parsoning , and maybe [I]5517-the farmer likes a drop of drink when the weather is fitty ; but [that young chestnut filly that 's just come [home]1102-home from breaking]5811-that young chestnut filly that 's just come home from breaking , [I]5517-the farmer 'd sell [her]5811-that young chestnut filly that 's just come home from breaking to [a gipsey]5813-a gipsey , and trust [him]5813-a gipsey for the money , if so be ' twould make [the young lady]5814-the young lady turn [her]5814-the young lady face to [the Lord]5815-the lord . Ca n't [ye]331-mrs. huxtable speak to [her]5814-the young lady now about it , either of [[you]331-mrs. huxtable women]5816-you women ? Doo'e now , doo'e . "[5517-the farmer] " How could [I]789-his wife possible ? "[789-his wife] [[his]5517-the farmer wife]789-his wife exclaimed ; " why , [farmer]5817-farmer , [you]5817-farmer must be mazed . [A high young lady like that]5818-a high young lady like that , and the tears still hot in [her]5814-the young lady eyes ! "[789-his wife] " The very reason , [wife]5819-wife , the very time and reason . But likely [Mrs. Maples]366-mrs. maples would be [the proper person]5820-the proper person . "[5517-the farmer] " Thank [you]5517-the farmer , [sir]5380-sir , "[789-his wife] [[my]0-i nurse]1587-my nurse replied , " [Mrs. Maples]366-mrs. maples knows good manners a little . Thank [you]5517-the farmer , [sir]5380-sir ; [Mrs. Maples]366-mrs. maples was n't born in [Devonshire]4-devonshire . "[789-his wife] " [I]5517-the farmer ask [your]5819-wife pardon , [ma'am]5765-ma'am , "[5517-the farmer] said [the farmer]5517-the farmer , much abashed , " [I]5517-the farmer humbly ask [your]5819-wife pardon ; [I]5517-the farmer was n't taught no better . [I]5517-the farmer can only go by what [I]5517-the farmer have seen , and what seems to come inside of [me]5517-the farmer . And [I]5517-the farmer know , in [our]5824-our way of business , when a calf is weaned from [the mother]5825-the mother , [the poor beastess]5826-the poor beastess hath a call for [some one else]5827-some one else to feed [it]5826-the poor beastess . Maybe it 's no harm to let [her]5826-the poor beastess have the refusal . "[5517-the farmer] Therewith [he]5517-the farmer opened [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother 's Bible , and placed it reverently on the window - seat . " [Waife]367-waife , do'e mind the time as poor [Aunt Betsy]368-aunt betsy died , over there to [Rowley Mires]28-rowley mires ? "[5517-the farmer] " For sure [I]746-my mother do , but what have [her]368-aunt betsy got to do with it ? [Us]5824-our must n't talk of [her]368-aunt betsy , [I]746-my mother reckon , any more than of the chillers , though [us]5824-our be so unlucky as to be born in [Devonshire]4-devonshire . [Fie]5828-fie , fie , [thee]5828-fie ought to know better than to talk of poor [Aunt Betsy]368-aunt betsy along of [a lady]5829-a lady , and before [our]5824-our betters . "[746-my mother] Here [she]746-my mother curtsied to [Ann Maples]294-ann maples , with a flash of light in [her]746-my mother eyes , and rubbing them hard with [her]746-my mother apron . " Well , well , "[5517-the farmer] replied [the farmer]5517-the farmer , sadly , " mayhap so [I]5517-the farmer did . And who be [I]5517-the farmer to gainsay ? Mayhap so [I]5517-the farmer did ; "[5517-the farmer] [he]5517-the farmer dropped [his]5517-the farmer voice , but added , after some reflection , " It be hard to tell the rights of it ; but sure [her]746-my mother were [a woman]5830-a woman . "[5517-the farmer] " Who said [her]746-my mother were [a man]5384-a man , [thee]331-mrs. huxtable zany ? "[331-mrs. huxtable] [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable was disappointed that the case would not be argued . [The farmer]5517-the farmer discreetly changed the subject . " Now , if it was [me]5517-the farmer , "[5517-the farmer] [he]5517-the farmer continued , " [I]5517-the farmer would n't think of taking this [here settle - bed]5832-here settle - bed away from the poor thing . "[5517-the farmer] " Why not , [farmer]5817-farmer ? "[331-mrs. huxtable] asked [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , sharply . " Give [me]331-mrs. huxtable a reason for leaving it , and [I]331-mrs. huxtable 'll give [you]5817-farmer ten for taking it . "[331-mrs. huxtable] " [I]331-mrs. huxtable ca n't give no reasons . But maybe it comforts [her]789-his wife a little . "[331-mrs. huxtable] " Comfort indeed ! "[789-his wife] said [[his]5517-the farmer wife]789-his wife ; " breaks [her]789-his wife heart with , crying , more likely . Come , lend a hand , old heavy - strap ; what can [a great dromedary]5834-a great dromedary like [thee]789-his wife know about [young wenches]5835-young wenches ? "[789-his wife] At any rate [he]5517-the farmer knew more than [she]789-his wife did . The moment [they]1599-they touched it [I]0-i burst forth from [my]0-i corner , and flung [myself]0-i upon it , rolling as if [I]0-i would bury [myself]0-i in the ecstasy of anguish . What [they]1599-they did [I]0-i can not tell ; [they]1599-they might say what [they]1599-they liked , [I]0-i had not cried till then . The next day [I]0-i was sitting stupified and heavy , trying once more to meet the necessity of thinking about [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother 's funeral ; but again and again , the weakness of sorrow fell away from the subject . [The people of [the house]764-the house]1601-the people of the house kept from [me]0-i . [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable had done [her]331-mrs. huxtable best , but [they]1599-they knew [I]0-i would rather be alone . The door was opened quietly , and [some one]1603-some one entered in a stealthy manner . Regarding it as an intrusion , [I]0-i would not look that way . " [Miss Clara]293-clara dear , "[5517-the farmer] began [the farmer]5517-the farmer , standing behind [me]0-i , and whispering , " [I]5517-the farmer humbly ask [your]293-clara pardon , [Miss]5433-miss , for calling [you]293-clara that same . But [we]5837-we have had a wonderful fine season , sure enough . "[5517-the farmer] [I]0-i made [him]5517-the farmer no answer , being angry at [his]5517-the farmer ill - timed common - place . " If [you]293-clara please , [Miss]5838-miss , such a many lambs was never known afore , and turnips fine last winter , and corn , and hay , and every kind of stock , a fetching of such prices . [The farmers about here]5839-the farmers about here has made [their]5839-the farmers about here fortune mainly . "[0-i] " [I]0-i am glad to hear that [you]5517-the farmer are so prosperous , [Mr. Huxtable]338-mr. huxtable , "[0-i] [I]0-i answered , very coldly . " Yes fie , good times , [Miss]5433-miss , wonderful good times , [we]5837-we do n't know what to do with [our]5837-we money a'rnost . "[0-i] " Buy education and good taste , "[0-i] [I]0-i said , " instead of thrusting [your]5517-the farmer happiness upon such as [I.]0-i "[0-i] How little [I]0-i knew [him]5517-the farmer ! Shall [I]0-i ever forgive [myself]0-i that speech ? " Ah , [I]5517-the farmer wish [I]5517-the farmer could , "[5517-the farmer] [he]5517-the farmer answered , sadly , " [I]5517-the farmer wish with all [my]5517-the farmer heart [I]5517-the farmer could . But [we]1606-we must be born to the like of that , [I]5517-the farmer am afeared , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara . "[5517-the farmer] [Poor fellow]1605-poor fellow ! [he]5517-the farmer knew nothing of irony , as [we]1606-we do , who are born to good taste , otherwise [I]0-i might have suspected [him]5517-the farmer of it then . [He]5517-the farmer suddenly wished [me]0-i " good evening , "[5517-the farmer] although it was middle - day , and then [he]5517-the farmer made off for the door , but came back again with a desperate resolve , and spoke , for [him]5517-the farmer , very quickly , looking all the time at [his]5517-the farmer feet . " There , [I]5517-the farmer ca n't make head or tail of it , [Miss Clara]293-clara , but [wife]5819-wife said [I]5517-the farmer was to do it so . Take the danged money , that 's [a dear]1467-a dear , and for good now do n't be offended , for [I]5517-the farmer cas'n help it . "[5517-the farmer] [He]5517-the farmer opened [his]5517-the farmer great hand , which was actually shaking , and hurriedly placed on the sofa a small packet tied in the leaf of a copy book ; then suddenly put in mind of something , [he]5517-the farmer made a dive , and snatching it up , flung it upon a Windsor chair . It fell with a chink , the string slipped off , and out rolled at least forty sovereigns and guineas , and a number of crown - pieces . Peremptorily [I]0-i called [him]5517-the farmer back , for [he]5517-the farmer was running out of the door . " [Mr. Huxtable]338-mr. huxtable , what is the meaning of this ? "[5517-the farmer] " Meaning , [Miss]5433-miss ! [Lord]5844-lord bless [you]5433-miss , [Miss Clara]293-clara , there bain't no meaning of it ; only it corned into [my]1607-he head last night , as [I]1607-he was laying awake , humbly asking [your]5433-miss pardon , [Miss]5845-miss , for that same , that if so be [you]5433-miss should desire , that [the dear good lady]5846-the dear good lady [herself]5846-the dear good lady might like , if [I]1607-he may make so bold , meaning that it is n't fitly like , that [she]5846-the dear good lady should lay nowhere else , but alongside of [[her]5846-the dear good lady own husband]5847-her own husband , till death do [them]5848-them part , [Mr. Henry Valentine Vaughan]298-harry , Esquire , [Vaughan Park]5-vaughan park , in [the county of]5849-the county of [Gloucestershire]3-gloucestershire . There [I]1607-he be as bad as [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe . "[1607-he] [He]1607-he repeated [his]1607-he rhyme , with some relief , hoping to change the subject . [I]0-i caught [him]1607-he by both hands , and burst into tears . " Do n't [ye]0-i now , "[1607-he] [he]1607-he said , with a thickness in [his]1607-he voice , " do n't [ye]0-i now , [[my]1607-he dearie]1454-my dearie , leastways unless it does [you]0-i good . "[1607-he] " It does [me]0-i good , indeed , "[0-i] [I]0-i sobbed , " to find still in [the world]798-the world so kind a heart as [yours]1607-he . "[0-i] Though [I]0-i longed to look [him]1607-he in the face , [I]0-i knew that [I]0-i must not do so . Oh why are [men]1003-men so ashamed of manly tears ? Perceiving that [I]0-i could not speak , [he]1607-he began to talk for both of [us]1609-us , making a hundred blundering apologies , trying to hide [his]1607-he knowledge of [my]0-i poverty , and to prove that [he]1607-he was only paying a debt which extended over many years of tenancy . [He]1607-he was not at all [an imaginative man]1610-an imaginative man , but delicacy supplied [him]1607-he with invention . So deep a sense pervades all classes in [this English country]1611-this english country , that want of money is an indictment , which none but [the culprit]1612-the culprit may sign . Poor or rich , [I]0-i should not be worth despising , if [I]0-i had shown the paltry pride of declining such a loan . The tears came anew to [my]0-i eyes when [I]0-i found that what had been brought so freely was the savings of years of honest toil , a truth which [the owners]1613-the owners had tried to conceal by polishing the old coin . But not being skilled , [dear souls]1614-dear souls , in plate - cleaning , [they]1613-the owners had left some rotten - stone adhering to the George and Dragons . Although [I]0-i find a sad pleasure in lingering over these times , with such a history still impending , [I]0-i can not afford the indulgence . [Dear mother]968-dear mother 's simple funeral took [me]0-i once more to [[my]0-i native place]1616-my native place . Even without [Mr. Huxtable]338-mr. huxtable 's generous and noble assistance , [I]0-i should have laid [her]968-dear mother to rest by the side of [the husband [she]968-dear mother loved so well]1617-the husband she loved so well . But difficulties , sore to encounter at such a time , would have met [me]0-i on every side . Moreover the kind act cheered and led [me]0-i through despondency , like the hand and face of [God]303-god . Caring little what [people]1132-people might say or think , [I]0-i could not stay at a distance . Nature told [me]0-i that it was [my]0-i duty to go , and duty or not , [I]0-i could not stay away . And now for the last time [I]0-i look on the face and form of [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother . That which [I]0-i have played , and talked , and laughed with , though lately not much of laughter , that which has fed and cared for [me]0-i , till it needed [my]0-i care in turn ; that which [I]0-i have toddled beside , or proudly run in front of ; whose arms have been round [me]0-i whenever [I]0-i wept , and whose bosom the haven of childhood 's storms ; first to greet [me]0-i with smiles in the morning , and last to bless [me]0-i with tears at night ; ever loving , and never complaining — in one word for a thousand , [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother . So far away now , so hopelessly far away ! There it lies indeed , [I]0-i can touch it , kiss it , and embrace it ; but oh how small a part of [mother]739-mother ! and even that part is not [mine]0-i . So holy and calm it lies , such loving kindness still upon its features , so near [me]0-i , but in mystery so hopelessly far away ! [I]0-i can see it , but it never will know [me]0-i again ; [I]0-i may die beside it , and it can not weep . The last last look of all on [earth]1622-earth — [they]1623-they must have carried [me]0-i away . [I]0-i remember tottering down [the hill]1624-the hill , supported by a stalwart arm . The approach to [the house]764-the house prevented — or something . [Two children]1626-two children ran before [me]0-i , stopping now and then to wonder , and straggling to pick hedge - flowers . [One of [them]1626-two children]1627-one of them brought [me]0-i a bunch , then stared , and was afraid to offer [them]1626-two children . " [Nancy]294-ann maples , [I]5830-a woman 'll be the death of [thee]294-ann maples , "[5830-a woman] whispered [a woman]5830-a woman 's voice . [The little girl]1629-the little girl shrunk to [me]0-i for shelter , with timid tears in [her]1629-the little girl great blue eyes . So [I]0-i took [her]1629-the little girl hand , and led [her]1629-the little girl on , and somehow it did [me]0-i good . At intervals , the funeral hymn , which [they]1626-two children sing on [the road]1630-the road to [the grave]1631-the grave , fell solemnly on [our]1632-our ears . [Some one]1603-some one from time to time gave out the words of a verse and then it was sung to a simple impressive tune . That ancient hymn , which has drowned so many sobs , [I]0-i did not hear , but felt it . [We]1632-our arrived at [Vaughan St. Mary]18-vaughan st. mary late in the afternoon of the second day . The whole of the journey was to [me]0-i a long and tearful dream . [Mr. Huxtable]338-mr. huxtable came with [us]1632-our . [He]338-mr. huxtable had never before been further from [home]1102-home than [Exeter]29-exeter ; and [his]338-mr. huxtable single visit to [that city]1635-that city had formed the landmark of [his]338-mr. huxtable life . [He]338-mr. huxtable never tried to comfort [me]0-i as [the others]1636-the others did . [The ignorant man]1637-the ignorant man knew better . Alone [I]0-i sat by [[[my]0-i father]731-my father 's grave]990-my father 's grave , with [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother 's ready before [my]0-i feet . [They]1641-they had cast the mould on the other side , so as not to move [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's coverlet . [The poor old pensioner]1643-the poor old pensioner had been true to [her]1643-the poor old pensioner promise , and [[man]5770-man 's last garden]1645-man 's last garden was blooming like [his]5770-man first flower - bed . [My]0-i mind ( if any [I]0-i had ) seemed to have undergone some change . [Defiance]369-defiance , and pride , and savage delight in misery , were entirely gone ; and depression had taken the place of dejection . [Death]296-death now seemed to [me]0-i the usual and proper condition of things , and [I]0-i felt it an impertinence that [I]0-i should still be alive . So [I]0-i waited , with heavy composure , till [she]1643-the poor old pensioner should be brought , who so often had walked there with [me]0-i . At length [she]1643-the poor old pensioner was coming for good and all , and a space was left for [me]0-i . But [I]0-i must not repose there yet ; [I]0-i had still [my]0-i task before [me]0-i . The bell was tolling faster , and the shadows growing longer , and [the children who had been playing at hide - and - seek]1646-the children who had been playing at hide - and - seek , where soon [themselves]1646-the children who had been playing at hide - and - seek shall be sought in vain , had flitted away from sight , perhaps scared at [my]0-i presence , perhaps gone [home]1102-home to tea , to enjoy the funeral afterwards . The evening wind had ceased from troubling the yews , and the short - lived songs of the birds were done . [The place]5531-the place was as sad as [I]0-i could wish . The smell of [new earth]1649-new earth inspired , as it always does , some unsearchable everlasting sympathy between the material and [the creature]1650-the creature . The sun was setting behind [me]0-i : suddenly a shadow eclipsed [my]0-i own upon the red loam across [the open grave]1651-the open grave . Without a start , and dreamily ( as [I]0-i did all things now ) , [I]0-i turned to see whence it came . Within a yard of [me]0-i stood [Mr. Edgar Vaughan]297-mr. edgar vaughan . In a moment the old feeling was at [my]0-i heart , and [my]0-i wits were all awake . [I]0-i observed that [he]297-mr. edgar vaughan was paler than when [I]0-i had seen [him]297-mr. edgar vaughan last , and the rigid look was wavering on [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan face , like steel reflected by water . [He]297-mr. edgar vaughan lifted [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan hat to [me]0-i . [I]0-i neither rose nor spoke , but turned and watched [him]297-mr. edgar vaughan . " [Clara]293-clara , "[297-mr. edgar vaughan] [he]297-mr. edgar vaughan said in a low , earnest voice , " [I]297-mr. edgar vaughan see [you]293-clara are still the same . Will no depth of grief , no length of time , no visitation from [Him]297-mr. edgar vaughan who is over [us]5852-us all , ever bend [your]293-clara adamant and implacable will ? "[297-mr. edgar vaughan] [I]0-i heard , with some surprise , [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan allusion to the Great Being , whom [he]297-mr. edgar vaughan was not wo nt to recognise ; but [I]0-i made [him]297-mr. edgar vaughan no reply . " Very well , "[297-mr. edgar vaughan] [he]297-mr. edgar vaughan resumed , with the ancient chill hardening over [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan features ; " so then let it be . [I]297-mr. edgar vaughan am not come to offer [you]293-clara condolence , which [you]293-clara would despise ; nor do [I]297-mr. edgar vaughan mean to be present when [you]293-clara would account the sight of [me]297-mr. edgar vaughan an insult . And yet [I]297-mr. edgar vaughan loved [[your]293-clara mother]5332-your mother , [Clara]293-clara ; [I]297-mr. edgar vaughan loved [her]5332-your mother very truly . "[297-mr. edgar vaughan] This [he]297-mr. edgar vaughan said with such emotion , that a new thought broke upon [me]0-i . Quick as the thought , [he]297-mr. edgar vaughan asked , " Would [you]0-i know who killed [[your]0-i father]5365-your father ? "[297-mr. edgar vaughan] " And [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother , too , "[0-i] [I]0-i answered , " whose coffin [I]0-i see coming . "[0-i] The funeral turned the corner of [the lane]1652-the lane , and the dust rose from [the bearers]1653-the bearers ' feet . [He]297-mr. edgar vaughan took [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan hat off , and the perspiration stood upon [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan forehead . Betwixt suspense and terror , and the wildness of grief , [I]0-i was obliged to lean on the headstone for support , and a giddiness came over [me]0-i . When [I]0-i raised [my]0-i eyes again , there was [no one]730-no one near [me]0-i . In vain [I]0-i wiped them hurriedly and looked again . [Mr. Vaughan]297-mr. edgar vaughan was gone ; but on the grass at [my]0-i feet lay a folded letter . [I]0-i seized it quickly , and broke the seal . That moment a white figure appeared between the yew - trees by [the porch]930-the porch . It was [the aged minister leading [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother the last path of all]1656-the aged minister leading my mother the last path of all . The book was in [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan hand , and [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan form was tall and stately , and [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan step so slow , that the white hair fell unruffled , while the grand words on [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan lips called majesty into [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan gaze . Thrusting aside the letter , [I]0-i followed into [the Church]1351-the church , and stood behind [the old font where [I]0-i had been baptized]1659-the old font where i had been baptized ; [a dark and gloomy nook]1660-a dark and gloomy nook , fit for such an entrance . [[She]746-my mother who had carried [me]0-i [there]1114-there]1661-she who had carried me there was carried past [it]1114-there now , and the pall waved in the damp cold air , and [all the world]1663-all the world seemed stone and mould . But afterwards , on [the fair hill - side]1664-the fair hill - side , while the faint moon gathered power from the deepening sky , and glancing on that hoary brow sealed the immortal promises and smoothed the edges of the grave , around which bent the uncovered heads of [many who had mourned before , and after a few bounds of mirth]1665-many who had mourned before , and after a few bounds of mirth should bend again in mourning , until in earth 's fair turn and turn , [others]869-others should bend and [they]869-others lie down — beholding this , and feeling something higher than " dust to dust , "[0-i] [I]0-i grew content to bide [my]0-i time with [the other children of [men]1003-men]1667-the other children of men , and remembered that no wave can break until it reach [the shore]1669-the shore . When a long and heavy sleep ( [my]0-i first sleep since [dear mother]968-dear mother 's death ) had brought [me]0-i down to the dull plain of life , [I]0-i read for the first time the letter so strangely delivered . Even then it seemed unkind to [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother that [I]0-i should think about it . [Mr. Vaughan]297-mr. edgar vaughan had placed it in a new envelope , which [he]297-mr. edgar vaughan had sealed with [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan own ring , the original cover ( if any there were ) having been removed . The few words , of which it consisted , were written in a clear round hand , upon a sheet of thin tough paper , such as [we]1672-we use for foreign postage , and folded in a peculiar manner . There was nothing remarkable in the writing , except this , that the words as well as the letters were joined . It was as follows : " [The one who slain [[your]0-i brother]1415-your brother]5856-the one who slain your brother is at 19 [Grove Street]30-grove street [London]1-london . [You]0-i will come in danger of it why [you]0-i know . "[1672-we] No date , no signature , no stops , except as shown above . In short , it was so dark and vague , that [I]0-i returned to [Devonshire]4-devonshire , with a resolution to disregard it wholly . When [we]1672-we reached the foot of [the hill]1624-the hill , at the corner of [the narrow lane which leads to [Tossil 's Barton]361-tossil]1674-the narrow lane which leads to tossil 's barton , and where the white gate stands of which [the neighbourhood]5329-the neighbourhood is so proud , a sudden scream was heard , and a rush made upon [us]1672-we from behind the furze - bush . [The farmer]5517-the farmer received the full brunt of a most vigorous onset , and the number and courage of [the enemy]1677-the enemy making up for [their]1677-the enemy want of size , [his]5517-the farmer strong bastions were almost carried by storm . To the cry of " [Daddy]370-daddy ! [Daddy]370-daddy 's come [home]1102-home ! "[1678-half a dozen urchins and more , without distinction of sex] [half a dozen urchins and more , without distinction of sex]1678-half a dozen urchins and more , without distinction of sex , jumped and tugged and flung and clung around [him]5517-the farmer , with no respect whatever for [his]5517-the farmer Sunday coat , or brass - buttoned gaiters . Taking advantage of [his]5517-the farmer laughing , [they]1678-half a dozen urchins and more , without distinction of sex pulled [his]5517-the farmer legs this way and that , as if [he]5517-the farmer were skating for the first time , and [little Sally]371-sally ( [his]5517-the farmer favourite ) swarming up , made a base foot - rope of the great ancestral silver watch - chain whose mysterious awe sometimes sufficed to keep [her]371-sally eyes half open in [church]1429-church . Betwixt delight and shame , [the poor father]1680-the poor father was so dreadfully taken aback , that [he]1680-the poor father could not tell what to do , till fatherly love suggested the only escape . [He]1680-the poor father lifted them one by one to [his]1680-the poor father lips , and after some hearty smacks sent all ( except [the baby]1681-the baby ) sliding down [his]1680-the poor father back . While all this was going forward , [the good dame]5559-the good dame , with a clean apron on , kept [herself]5559-the good dame in the background , curtseying and trying to look sad at [me]0-i , but too much carried away to succeed . [Her]5559-the good dame plump cheeks left but little room for tears , yet [I]0-i thought one tried to find [a road]1683-a road from either eye . When the burst was nearly done , [she]5559-the good dame felt ( like [a true woman]1684-a true woman ) for [me]0-i so lonely in all this love , though [I]0-i could not help enjoying it ; and so [she]5559-the good dame tried to laugh at it . For a long time after this , [the farmer]5517-the farmer was admired and consulted by all [the neighbouring parishes]1686-the neighbouring parishes , as [a man who had seen [the world]798-the world]1687-a man who had seen the world . [[His]5517-the farmer labourers]1689-his labourers , also , [one man]1690-one man and [a boy]1691-a boy , for a fortnight called [him]5517-the farmer " [Sir]5380-sir , "[1690-one man] a great discomfort to [him]5517-the farmer ; more than this , some letters were brought for [him]5517-the farmer to interpret , and [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe became unduly jealous . But in this , as in most other matters , things came to their level , and when it was slowly discovered that [the farmer]5517-the farmer was just the same , [[his]5517-the farmer neighbours]5665-his neighbours showed much disappointment , and even some contempt . It was not long before the thought of that letter , which had been laid by so scornfully , began to work within [me]0-i . Again and again , as time wore on , and the deep barb of sorrow darkly rusted away , it came home to [me]0-i as a sin , that [I]0-i was neglecting a special guidance . Moreover , [my]0-i reason for staying in [Devonshire]4-devonshire was gone , and as [my]0-i spirit recovered its tone , it could not put up with inaction . Three months after [our]1694-our return , one breezy afternoon in August , when the heath had long succeeded the gorse and broom upon the cleve , and [the children]1695-the children were searching for " wuts "[746-my mother] and half - kerneled nuts , [I]0-i sat on a fallen tree , where a break in the copse made a frame for one of [our]1694-our favourite views . Of late [I]0-i had been trying to take some sketches in water - colours of what [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother and [I]0-i had so often admired together , and this had been kept for the last . Wild as the scheme may appear to all who know [the world]798-the world and its high contempt for [woman]1698-woman 's skill , [I]0-i had some hope of earning money in [London]1-london by the pencil , and was doing [my]0-i utmost to advance in art . Also , [I]0-i wished to take away with [me]0-i some memorials of a time comparatively happy . [Little Sally Huxtable]371-sally , [a dear little child]1699-a dear little child , now [[my]0-i chief companion]1700-my chief companion , had strayed into the wood to string more strawberry beads on [her]371-sally spike of grass , for the wood strawberries here last almost to the equinox ; and [I]0-i had just roughed in [my]0-i outline , and was correcting the bold strokes , by nature 's soft gradations ; when suddenly through a cobnut bush , and down the steep bank at [my]0-i side , came , in a sliding canter , a magnificent red deer . [He]1701-he passed so close before [me]0-i , with antlers , like a varnished crabstick , russet in the sun , that [I]0-i could have touched [his]1701-he brown flank with [my]0-i pencil . [Being in no hurry or fright whatever]1702-being in no hurry or fright whatever , [he]1701-he regarded [me]0-i from [his]1701-he large deep eyes with a look of courteous interest , a dignified curiosity too well bred for words ; and then , as if with an evening of pleasant business before [him]1701-he , trotted away through the podded wild broom on the left . Before [I]0-i had time to call [him]1701-he back , which , with a childish impulse , [I]0-i was about to do , the nutbush where [he]1701-he had entered moved again , and , laughing at [his]1701-he own predicament on the steep descent , [a young man]1703-a young man leaped and landed in the bramble at [my]0-i feet . Before [me]0-i stood [the one whom [we]1705-we had so often longed to thank]1704-the one whom we had so often longed to thank . But at sight of [me]0-i , [his]1701-he countenance changed entirely . The face , so playful just before , suddenly grew dark and sad , and , with a distant salutation , [he]1701-he was hurrying away , when [I]0-i sprang forward and caught [him]1701-he by the hand . Every nerve in [my]0-i body thrilled , as [I]0-i felt the grasp that had saved [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother and [me]0-i . " Excuse [me]1701-he , "[1701-he] [he]1701-he said coldly , " [I]1701-he will lose [[my]1701-he prey]924-my prey . "[1701-he] But [I]0-i would not let [him]1701-he go so curtly . What [I]0-i said [I]0-i can not tell , only that it was very foolish , and clumsy , and cold by the side of what [I]0-i felt . Whom but [God]303-god and [him]1701-he had [I]0-i to thank for [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother 's peaceful end , and all [her]746-my mother treasured words , each worth a dozen lives of [mine]0-i ? [He]1701-he answered not at all , nor looked at [me]0-i ; but listened with a cold constraint , and , as [I]0-i thought , contemptuous pity , at which [my]0-i pride began to take alarm . " [Sir]5380-sir , "[0-i] [I]0-i exclaimed , when still [he]1701-he answered not , " [Sir]5380-sir , [I]1701-he will detain [you]1701-he no longer from murdering [that poor stag]5863-that poor stag . "[1701-he] [He]1701-he answered very haughtily , " [I]1701-he am not of [the Devonshire hunters]5864-the devonshire hunters , who toil to exterminate this noble race . "[1701-he] As [he]1701-he spoke [he]1701-he pointed down [the valley]1708-the valley , where the red deer , [[my]0-i late friend]1709-my late friend , was crossing , for [his]1709-my late friend evening browse , to a gnoll of juicy grass . Then why was [he]1701-he pursuing [him]1709-my late friend , and why did [he]1701-he call [him]1709-my late friend [[his]1701-he prey]1710-his prey ? The latter , probably a pretext to escape [me]0-i , but the former question [I]0-i could not answer , and did not choose to ask . [He]1701-he went [his]1701-he way , and [I]0-i felt discharged of half [my]0-i obligation . [The farmer]5517-the farmer , [[his]1701-he wife]789-his wife , and [little Sally]371-sally were now all [I]0-i had to love . [Poor Ann Maples]294-ann maples , though thoroughly honest and faithful , was of a nature so dry and precise that [I]0-i respected rather than loved [her]294-ann maples . [I]0-i am born to love and hate with all [my]0-i heart and soul , although a certain pride prevents [me]0-i from exhibiting the better passion , except when strongly moved . That other feeling , sown by [Satan]372-satan , [he]1701-he never allows [me]0-i to disguise . To leave the only three [I]0-i loved was a bitter grief , to tell [them]1713-they of [my]0-i intention , a sore puzzle . But , after searching long for a good way to manage it , the only way [I]0-i found was to tell [them]1713-they bluntly , and not to cry if it could be helped . So when [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable came in full glory to try upon [me]0-i a pair of stockings of the brightest blue ever seen , which [she]331-mrs. huxtable had long been knitting on the sly , for winter wear , [I]0-i thanked [her]331-mrs. huxtable warmly , and said : " Dear [me]0-i , [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , how [they]1713-they will admire these in [London]1-london . "[0-i] " In [Lonnon]32-lonnon , cheel ! "[331-mrs. huxtable] [she]331-mrs. huxtable always called [me]0-i [[her]331-mrs. huxtable child]1505-her child , since [I]0-i had lost [[my]0-i mother—"they'll]5865-my mother—"they'll never see the likes of [they]1713-they in [Lonnon]32-lonnon , without [they]1713-they gits one of [them]1713-they there long glaskies , same as [preventive chaps]5866-preventive chaps has , and then [I]331-mrs. huxtable reckon there 'll be [Hexymoor]20-hexymoor between , and [Dartmoor]33-dartmoor too , for out [I]331-mrs. huxtable know , and ever so many [church - towers]5867-church - towers and milestones . "[331-mrs. huxtable] " Oh yes , [they]1713-they will . [I]331-mrs. huxtable shall be [there]1114-there in a week . "[331-mrs. huxtable] " In [Lonnon]32-lonnon in a wake ! [Dear heart alaive]5869-dear heart alaive , cheel , dont'e tell on so ! "[331-mrs. huxtable] [She]331-mrs. huxtable thought [my]0-i wits were wandering , as [she]331-mrs. huxtable had often fancied of late , and set off for the larder , which was the usual course of [her]331-mrs. huxtable prescriptions . But [I]0-i stopped [her]331-mrs. huxtable so calmly that [she]331-mrs. huxtable could not doubt [my]0-i sanity . " Yes , dear [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , [I]0-i must leave [[my]0-i quiet home]5870-my quiet home , where all of [you]331-mrs. huxtable have been so good and kind to [me]0-i ; and [I]0-i have already written to take lodgings in [London]1-london . "[0-i] " Oh , [Miss Clerer]335-miss clerer , [dear]5871-dear , [I]1715-i ca n't belave it nohow ! Come and discoorse with [farmer]5817-farmer about it . [He]5517-the farmer knows a power more than [I]1715-i do , though [I]1715-i says it as should n't . But if so be [he]5517-the farmer hearkens to the like of that , [I]1715-i 'll comb [him]5517-the farmer with the toasting iron . "[1715-i] Giving [me]0-i no time to answer , [she]1715-i led [me]0-i to [the kitchen]5526-the kitchen . [The farmer]5517-the farmer , who had finished [his]5517-the farmer morning 's work , was stamping about outside the threshold , wiping [his]5517-the farmer boots most carefully with a pitchfork and a rope of twisted straw . This process , to [his]5517-the farmer great discomfort , [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable had at length enforced by many scoldings ; but now [she]1715-i snatched the pitchfork from [him]5517-the farmer , and sent it flying into [the court]1718-the court . " Wun't [thee]0-i never larn , [thee]0-i girt drummedary , not to ston [there]1114-there an hour , mucking arl [the place]5531-the place ? "[1715-i] " Wull , wull , "[5517-the farmer] said [the farmer]5517-the farmer , looking at the pitchfork first , and then at [me]0-i , " Reckon [the old mare]5875-the old mare 's dead at last . "[5517-the farmer] " Cas'n [thee]0-i drame of [nothing but bosses and asses]5876-nothing but bosses and asses , [thee]0-i girt mule ? Here 's [Miss Clerer]335-miss clerer , as was like a cheel of [my]1715-i own , and now [she'm]335-miss clerer gooin awai , and [us'll]5877-us'll niver zee [her]335-miss clerer no more . "[1715-i] " What dost [thee]0-i mane , ' ooman ? "[5517-the farmer] asked [the farmer]5517-the farmer , sternly , " hast [thee]0-i darr'd to goo a jahing of [her]335-miss clerer , zame as [thee]0-i did Zuke ? "[5517-the farmer] " Oh , no , [farmer]5817-farmer ! "[0-i] [I]0-i answered , quickly , " [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable never gave [me]0-i an unkind word in [her]331-mrs. huxtable life . But [I]0-i must leave [you]1722-you all , and go to live in [London]1-london . "[0-i] [The farmer]5517-the farmer looked as if [he]5517-the farmer had lost something , and began feeling for it in all [his]5517-the farmer pockets . Then , without a word , [he]5517-the farmer went to the fire , and unhung the crock which was boiling for the family dinner . This done , [he]5517-the farmer raked out the embers on the hearthstone , and sat down heavily on the settle with [his]5517-the farmer back towards [us]1722-you . Presently [we]1722-you heard [him]5517-the farmer say to [himself]5517-the farmer , " If any cheel of [mine]5517-the farmer ates ever a bit of bakkon to - day , [I]5517-the farmer 'll bile [him]5517-the farmer in that there pot . And to zee the copy [[our]1722-you [Sally]371-sally]5879-our sally wrote this very morning ! "[5517-the farmer] " [Wonnerful]373-wonnerful ! wonnerful ! "[331-mrs. huxtable] cried [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , " and now [her'll]371-sally not know a p from a pothook . And [little Jack]374-jack can spell zider , zame as 'em does in [Lonnon town]5880-lonnon town ! "[331-mrs. huxtable] " [Dang Lonnon town]5881-dang lonnon town , "[5517-the farmer] said [the farmer]5517-the farmer , savagely , " and arl as lives [there]1114-there , lave out [the Duke of [Wellington]34-wellington]5883-the duke of wellington . It 's where [the devil]5884-the devil lives , and ['em]5884-the devil catches [his]5884-the devil braath in lanterns . [My]5517-the farmer faather tould [me]5517-the farmer that , and [her]371-sally niver spak a loi . But it hain't for the larning [I]5517-the farmer be vexed to lose [[my]5517-the farmer dearie]1454-my dearie . "[5517-the farmer] That last word [he]5517-the farmer dwelt upon so tenderly and sadly , that [I]0-i could stop no longer , but ran up to [him]5517-the farmer bravely with the tears upon [my]0-i face . As [I]0-i sat low before [him]5517-the farmer , on [little Sally]371-sally 's stool , [he]5517-the farmer laid [his]5517-the farmer great hand on [my]0-i head , with [his]5517-the farmer face turned toward the settle , and asked if [I]0-i had [any one]1178-any one to see [me]0-i righted in [the world]798-the world but [him]5517-the farmer . [I]0-i told [him]5517-the farmer , " None whatever ; "[0-i] and the answer seemed at once to please and frighten [him]5517-the farmer . " Then do n't [e]5886-thee be a - gooin ' , [my]0-i dear heart , do n't [e]5886-thee think no more of gooin . If it be for the bit and drap [thee]5886-thee ates and drinks , does n't [thee]5886-thee know by this time , [our]5887-us own flash and blood bain't no more welcome to it ! And [us]5887-us has a plenty here , and more nor a plenty . And if [us]5887-us had n't , [Jan Huxtable hisself]375-jan huxtable hisself , and [Honor Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable [his]5517-the farmer waife , wud live on pegmale ( better nor [they]5888-they desarves ) and gie it arl to [thee]5886-thee , and bless [thee]5886-thee for ating of it . "[0-i] " Ay , that [us]5887-us wud , [ees fai]5889-ees fai , "[331-mrs. huxtable] answered [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , coming forward . " And if it be for channge , and plaisure , and zeeing of the warld , [I]331-mrs. huxtable 've zeen a dale in [my]331-mrs. huxtable time , axing [your]5886-thee pardon , [Miss]5890-miss , for convarsing so to [you]5886-thee . And what hath it been even at [Coom market]5891-coom market , with the varmers [I]331-mrs. huxtable 've a - knowed from little chillers up ? No better nor a harrow dill for a little coolt to zuck . [I]331-mrs. huxtable 'd liefer know [thee]5886-thee was a - gooin ' to [Trentisoe churchyard]12-trentisoe , where little [Jane]347-jane and [Winny]376-winny be , than let [thee]5886-thee goo to [Lonnon town]5880-lonnon town , zame as this here be . And what wud [[thy]5886-thee poor moother zay]5893-thy poor moother zay , if so be [her]371-sally could hear tell of it ? "[331-mrs. huxtable] At this moment , when [I]0-i could say nothing , being thoroughly convicted of ingratitude , and ashamed before natures far better than [my]0-i own , [dear little [Sally]371-sally , who had been rolling on the dairy floor]1726-dear little sally , who had been rolling on the dairy floor , recovered from the burst of childish grief enough to ask whether it had any cause . Up to [me]0-i [she]371-sally ran , with great pearl tears on the veining of [her]371-sally cheeks , and peeping through the lashes of [her]371-sally violet - blue eyes , [she]371-sally gave [me]0-i one long reproachful look , as if [she]371-sally began to understand [the world]798-the world , and to find it disappointment ; then [she]371-sally buried [her]371-sally flaxen head in the homespun apron [I]0-i had lately taken to wear , and sobbed as if [she]371-sally had spoiled a dozen copies . What happened afterwards [I]0-i can not tell . Crying [I]0-i hate , but there are times when nothing else is any good . [I]0-i only know that , as [the farmer]5517-the farmer left [the house]764-the house to get , as [he]5517-the farmer said , " a little braze , "[5517-the farmer] these ominous words came back from [the court]1718-the court : " ' Twud be a bad job for [Tom Grundy]377-tom grundy , if [her]377-tom grundy coom'd acrass [me]5517-the farmer now . "[5517-the farmer] That same evening , as [I]0-i was sitting in [[my]0-i lonely room]1731-my lonely room , yet not quite [alone,—for little Sally]371-sally , who always did as [I]0-i bade [her]371-sally , was scratching and blotting [her]371-sally best copy - book , under [my]0-i auspices,—in burst [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , without stopping to knock as usual . " Oh [Miss Clerer]335-miss clerer , what have [e]335-miss clerer been and doed ? [Varmer]357-zaith 's in crule trouble . [Us'll]5894-us'll arl have to goo to [gaol]5895-gaol to - morrow , chillers and arl . "[371-sally] [She]371-sally was greatly flurried and out of breath , and yet seemed proud of what [she]371-sally had to tell . [She]371-sally did not require much asking , nor beat about the bush , as [many women]1732-many women do ; but told [me]0-i the story shortly , and then asked [me]0-i to come and hear all particulars from [Tim]344-tim Badcock [the farm - labourer]1733-the farm - labourer , who had seen the whole . [Tim]344-tim sat by the [kitchen]1734-kitchen fire with a pint of cider by [him]344-tim on the little round table ; strong evidence that [his]344-tim tidings , after all , were not so very unwelcome . " Wull , [you]371-sally zee , [Miss]5433-miss , "[344-tim] said [Tim]344-tim , after getting up , and pulling [his]344-tim rough forelock , " [you]371-sally zee , [Miss]5897-miss , [the Maister]5898-the maister coom out this arternoon , in a weist zort of a wai , as if [her]5898-the maister had n't had no dinner . "[344-tim] Here [he]344-tim gave a sly look at " [the Missus]5899-the missus , "[344-tim] who had the credit of stopping the supplies , when [the farmer had been too much on the cruise]1735-the farmer had been too much on the cruise . " What odds to [thee]344-tim , [Tim]344-tim , "[1736-she] [she]1736-she replied , " what odds to [thee]344-tim , what [thee]344-tim betters has for dinner ? "[1736-she] " [Noo fai]5900-noo fai , "[344-tim] said [Tim]344-tim , " zo long as ai gits maine , and [[my]344-tim missus]5901-my missus arlways has un raddy . Zo [I]344-tim zed to [Bill]378-bill , [zays]5902-zays [I]344-tim , ' Best maind what [thee]378-bill 's at [boy]5903-boy , there 's [a starm a coomin]5904-a starm a coomin , zure as [my]344-tim name 's [Timothy Badcock]344-tim . ' Howsomever [her]1736-she did n't tak on atarl wi [we]5905-us , but kitched up [a shivel]5906-a shivel , and worked awai without niver a ward . ' Twur the tap of the clave , ' langside of the beg fuzz , where [the braidle road]5907-the braidle road coomth along ' twixt that and [the double hadge]5908-the double hadge ; and [us]5905-us was arl a stubbing up the bushes as plaisant as could be , to plough thiccy plat for clover , coom some rain , plase [God]303-god . "[344-tim] " Git on , [Tim]344-tim , wull e , "[1737-his impatient mistress] cried [[his]344-tim impatient mistress]1737-his impatient mistress , " [us]5905-us knows arl about that . Cas'n [thee]378-bill tull it no quicker ? "[1737-his impatient mistress] " Wull , [Miss]5909-miss , "[344-tim] continued [Tim]344-tim , in no hurry whatever , " prasently [us]1738-us zees a girt beg chap on a zort of a brown cob , [a coomin in [[our]1738-us diraction"—Tim]5911-our diraction"—tim]5910-a coomin in our diraction"—tim[1737-his impatient mistress] was proud of this word , and afraid that [we]1738-us should fail to appreciate it—"they was [a coomin]5912-a coomin , as [you]5909-miss might zay , in [our]1738-us diraction [this beg chap]5913-this beg chap , and anither chap langside on [him]344-tim . Wull , when ' um coom'd within [spaking room of [us]1738-us]5914-spaking room of us , beg chap a ' horsebarck hollers out , ' Can ' [e]378-bill tell , [[my]1737-his impatient mistress men]5915-my men , where [Jan Uxtable]343-jan uxtable live ? ' Avore [I]1737-his impatient mistress had taime to spake , [Maister]341-maister lifts hissell up , and zaith , ' What doo ' [e]378-bill want to know for , [[my]1737-his impatient mistress faine feller]5916-my faine feller ? ' every bit the zame as ai be a tullin of it to [you]5909-miss . ' What 's the odds to [thee]5909-miss , ' [zays tother chap]5917-zays tother chap , ' [thee]5909-miss d'st better kape a zivil tongue in [thee]5909-miss head . [I]1737-his impatient mistress be [Tom Gundry]379-tom gundry from [Carnwall]36-carnwall . ' And with that [he]1737-his impatient mistress stood up in [his]1737-his impatient mistress starrups , as beg [a feller]5918-a feller as iver [you]5909-miss zee , [Miss.]342-miss. [Wull]353-wull , [Maister]341-maister knowed all about [Tom Gundry]379-tom gundry and what a was a coom for , and zo did [I]1737-his impatient mistress , and [the boy]1121-the boy , and arl the country round ; for [Maister]341-maister have gotten a turble name for rarstling ; maybe , [Miss]5920-miss , [you]5920-miss 've a heer'd on [him]1737-his impatient mistress in [Lunnon town]5921-lunnon town ? "[1737-his impatient mistress] " [I]1737-his impatient mistress have never been in [London]1-london , [Tim]344-tim , since [I]1737-his impatient mistress was [a child]782-a child ; and [I]1737-his impatient mistress know nothing at all about wrestling . "[1737-his impatient mistress] " [Wull]353-wull , [Miss]5433-miss , that be nayther here nor there . But there had been a dale of brag after [Maister]341-maister had thrown arl [they]5924-they Carnishers to [Barnstable vair]37-barnstable vair , last year , about vetching this here [Tom Gundry]379-tom gundry , who wor [the best man in [Cornwall]38-cornwall]5925-the best man in cornwall , to throw [[our]5926-our Maister]5927-our maister . [Howsomever]380-howsomever , it be time for ai to crack on a bit . ' Ah , ' zays [the man avoot , who [zimth]5929-zimth had coom to back un]5928-the man avoot , who zimth had coom to back un , ' ah , ' twor arl mighty faine for Uxtable to play skittles with [[our]5926-our zecond rate men]5930-our zecond rate men . [Chappell]381-chappell or Ellicombe cud have doed as much as that . [Rackon Jan Uxtable]343-jan uxtable wud vind a different game with [Tom Gundry]379-tom gundry [here]846-here . ' ' [Rackon]343-jan uxtable [he]343-jan uxtable wud , ' [zaith Gundry]379-tom gundry , ' a had better jine [a burial club]5932-a burial club , if [her've]5933-her've got ere a waife and vamily . ' "[1737-his impatient mistress] " Noo . Did a zay that though ? "[331-mrs. huxtable] inquired [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , much excited . " ' Coom now , ' [[my]331-mrs. huxtable maister]5934-my maister zaith , trying to look smarl behaind the fuzz , ' [thee]5935-thee must throw [me]331-mrs. huxtable , [[my]331-mrs. huxtable lad]5936-my lad , avore [thee]5935-thee can throw [Jan Uxtable]343-jan uxtable . [He]343-jan uxtable be [a better man]5937-a better man mainly nor ai be [this dai]5938-this dai . But ai baint in no oomer for playin ' much jist now , and [rackon ai]5939-rackon ai should hoort [any man ai kitched on]5940-any man ai kitched on . ' ' [Her]5933-her've that be [a good un]5941-a good un , [Zam]382-zam , baint it now ? ' [zaith Gundry]379-tom gundry to [little chap]5942-little chap , the very zame as ai be a tullin it now , ' doth the fule s'pose [ai]379-tom gundry be ratten ? Ai've half a maind to kick un over this hadge ; jist [thee]379-tom gundry hold the nag ! ' ' Sober now , ' [zaith varmer]357-zaith , and ai zeed a was gettin ' rad in the chakes , ' [God]303-god knows ai do n't feel no carl to hoort ' [e.]5943-e Ai'll gie [thee]379-tom gundry wan chance more , [Tom Gundry]379-tom gundry , as [thee'st]379-tom gundry a coom arl this wai fram Carnwall . Can ' [e]5943-e trod a path in [thiccy country]5944-thiccy country , zame as this here be ? ' And wi ' that , a walked into the beg fuzz , twaice so haigh as [this here room]5945-this here room , and the stocks begger round nor [my]331-mrs. huxtable body , and harder nor wrought hiern . A jist stratched [his]379-tom gundry two hons , raight and left , and twitched un up , wan by wan , vor [ten gude lanyard]5946-ten gude lanyard , as asily as ai wud pull spring inyons . ' Now , wull e let [me]331-mrs. huxtable lone ? ' zaith [he]379-tom gundry , zo zoon as a coom barck , wi [his]379-tom gundry brath a little quicker by [rason of the exarcise]5947-rason of the exarcise , ' wull ' [e]5943-e let [me]331-mrs. huxtable lone ? ' ' Ee 's fai , wull [I]331-mrs. huxtable , ' zaith [the man avoot]5948-the man avoot . ' [Hor]5949-hor , ' [zaith Tom Gundry]379-tom gundry , who had been a shopping zumwhere , ' [thee]379-tom gundry cans't do a gude dai 's work , [[my]331-mrs. huxtable man]5950-my man , tak that vor [thee]379-tom gundry 's wages . ' And wi ' that a lets fly at [Maister]341-maister 's vace wi ' a light hash stick a carr'd , maning to raide off avore [Maister]341-maister cud coom to 's brath again . In a crack [Jan Uxtable]343-jan uxtable zet both [his]343-jan uxtable hons under the stommick of the nag , one avore the starrup and [one behaind]5951-one behaind , zame as [I]331-mrs. huxtable maight to this [here little tabble]5952-here little tabble , and haved un , harse and [man]5770-man , clane over hadge into [Muster Yeo]383-muster yeo 's turmot falde . Then with wan heft , [a kitched up tother chap]5954-a kitched up tother chap , and zent un sprarling after un , zame as if ' twor this here stule after the tabble . "[331-mrs. huxtable] [I]0-i thought poor [Tim]344-tim , in the excitement of [his]344-tim story , would have thrown table and stool over the settle to illustrate it ; and if [he]344-tim had , [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable would have forgiven [him]344-tim . " ' [Thar]384-thar , ' zaith [[our]5955-our Maister]5927-our maister , as plaisant as cud be , and ai thought [us]5955-our shud have died of laffing , ' thar now , if zo be the owner of thiccy falde zummons e for traspash , [you]0-i zay [Jan Uxtable]343-jan uxtable zent e on a little arrand , to vaind a Carnisher as can do the laike to [he]344-tim . ' And wi ' that , a waiped [his]344-tim hons with a slip of vern , and tuk a little drap of zider , and full to 's wark again . "[331-mrs. huxtable] " Wull , but [Tim]344-tim , "[5517-the farmer] asked [[the farmer]5517-the farmer 's wife]5624-the farmer 's wife , to lose no part of the effect , " what zort of a hadge wor it now ? Twor a little hadge maybe , [no haigher nor the zettle barck]5957-no haigher nor the zettle barck . "[5624-the farmer 's wife] " Wor it though ? "[344-tim] said [Tim]344-tim , " [thee]5958-thee knows better nor that , [Missus]5959-missus . It be the beggest hadge on arl the varm , wi ' a double row of saplin hash atap . [Her]5624-the farmer 's wife maks the boundary betwixt [the two parishes]5960-the two parishes , and ai n't been trimmed these vaive year , ai can swear . "[344-tim] " And how be [the both on 'em]5961-the both on 'em now , [Tim]344-tim ? A must have gone haigh enough to channge the mune . "[5433-miss] [Wull]353-wull , [Miss]5433-miss , " said [Tim]344-tim , addressing [me]5433-miss , for [he]344-tim had told [[his]344-tim Mistress]5962-his mistress all the story twice , "[5433-miss] [Tom Gundry]379-tom gundry brak [his]379-tom gundry collar boun , and zarve ' un raight , for a brak [Phil Dascombe]385-phil dascombe 's a puppose whun a got ' un in a trap , that taime down to [Bodmin]39-bodmin thar ; and [harse]1742-harse gat a rick of [his]379-tom gundry taial ; but [the little chap]1743-the little chap , [he]379-tom gundry vell upon [his]379-tom gundry hat , and that zaved [him]379-tom gundry kindly . But [I]0-i heer'd down to [Pewter Will]378-bill 's , whur [I]0-i gooed for a drap of zumthin for [my]0-i waife 's stommick , ai heer'd zay [there]1114-there , as how [Constable]386-constable was a coomin to Maister this very naight , if [Carnishers]1745-carnishers cud have perswadded un . But [Constable zaith]386-constable , [zaith]357-zaith [he]386-constable , ' Twor all along o [[you]1746-you Garnish chaps]1747-you garnish chaps , [fust battery]1748-fust battery was mad , and fust blow gien , and wi'out [you]1746-you can zhow [me]0-i Squaire [Drake]387-drake 's warrant , [I]0-i wunt have nout to do wi ' it , not ai ; and that be law and gospel in [Davonsheer]687-davonsheer and in [Cornwall]38-cornwall . ' " "[344-tim] [Tim]344-tim , " said [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , "[1749-i'se] [I'se]1749-i'se warrant [thee]344-tim 's niver tould so long a spin up in [thee]344-tim 's laife avore . And [thee]344-tim 's tould it wonnerful well too ; hathn't un [Miss Clerer]335-miss clerer ? Zuke , here be [the kay of zellar]1750-the kay of zellar , gie [Tim]344-tim a half a paint more zider ; and [thee]344-tim mai'st have a drap [theesell]1751-theesell , gall . Waipe [thee]344-tim mouth fust . " "[344-tim] Ah , " said [Tim]344-tim , favouring [me]344-tim with a wink , in the excess of [his]344-tim glory , "[344-tim] rackon [they]1752-my [Carnishers]1745-carnishers 'll know the wai off [Tossil]361-tossil 's Barton varm next taime , wi'out no saign postesses . " Two or three days after this , [I]1752-my was keeping [school]5963-school in [the dairy]5562-the dairy , [the parlour]5965-the parlour being too small for that purpose , and [the kitchen]5526-the kitchen and "[1752-my] wash - up " ( as [they]1752-my called [the back - kitchen]5967-the back - kitchen ) too open to inroads from [Suke]345-suke and [Tim]344-tim . [[My]1752-my class]5968-my class consisted of ten , or rather was eight strong , the two weames ( [big baby]5969-big baby and [little baby]5970-little baby ) , only attending for the sake of example , and because [they]1752-my would have roared , if parted from [the other children]5971-the other children . So [those two]5972-those two were allowed to spraddle on the floor , where sometimes [they]5972-those two made little rollers of [themselves]5972-those two , with much indecorum , and between whiles sat gravely sucking [their]5972-those two fat red fingers , and then pointed them in a glistening state at [me]1752-my or [[my]1752-my audience]5973-my audience , and giggled with a large contempt . [The eight , who made believe to learn something]5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something , were [the six elder Huxtables]5975-the six elder huxtables , and two of [Tim Badcock]344-tim 's "[1752-my] young uns . " [I]1752-my marshalled [them]5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something , four on each side , against the low lime - whitened walls , which bore the pans of cream and milk . [Little Sally]371-sally , [[my]1752-my head scholar]5976-my head scholar , was very proud of measuring [her]371-sally height , by the horizontal line on the milk - pan where the glazing ended ; which [Tabitha Badcock]388-tabby , even on tiptoe , could not reach . [They]5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something were all well "[1752-my] claned , " and had white pinnies on , and [their]5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something ruddy cheeks rubbed up to the highest possible polish , with yellow soap and the jack - towel behind the wash - up door . Hence , [I]1752-my never could relieve [them]5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something from the idea that Sunday now came every day in the week . [I]1752-my maintained strict discipline , and allowed no nonsense ; but two sad drawbacks constantly perplexed [me]1752-my . In the first place , [their]5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something ways were so ridiculous , and [they]5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something laboured so much harder to make [me]1752-my laugh , than [they]5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something did to learn , that [I]1752-my could not always keep [my]1752-my countenance , and when the spelling - book went up before [my]1752-my face , [they]5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something knew , as well as possible , what was going on behind it , and peeped round or below , and burst out all together . The second drawback was , that [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , in spite of all [my]1752-my protests , would be always rushing in , upon errands purely fictitious ; and [the farmer]5517-the farmer [himself]5517-the farmer always found some special business in [the yard]5978-the yard , close to the wired and unglazed window , whence every now and then [his]5517-the farmer loud haw - haws , and too audible soliloquies , "[1752-my] Dang [me]0-i ! wull done , [Zally]389-zally , that wor a good un ; zay un again , cheel ! zay un again , wull ' e ? " utterly overthrew [my]1752-my most solemn institutions . "[390-smarl chillers"—i] Coom now , [smarl chillers"—I]390-smarl chillers"—i addressed [them]5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something in [my]390-smarl chillers"—i unclassical Devonshire dialect , for it kept [their]5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something attention alive to criticise [me]390-smarl chillers"—i when [I]390-smarl chillers"—i "[390-smarl chillers"—i] spak unvitty"—"coom now , e've a been spulling lang enough : ston round [me]0-i now , and tull [me]0-i what [I]0-i axes [you]5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something . "[0-i] Already , [I]0-i had made one great mistake , by saying " round "[0-i] instead of " raound , "[0-i] and [Billy]378-bill , [the genius of [the family]1254-the family]1754-the genius of the family , was upon the giggle . " Now thun , wutt be a quadripade ? "[378-bill] " Ai knoo ! "[371-sally] says [Sally]371-sally , with [her]371-sally hand held out . " Zo do ai , "[374-jack] says [Jack]374-jack , thrusting forth [his]374-jack stomach . " Who wur axing of [you]5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something ? "[374-jack] [I]0-i inquire in a stately manner . " [You]5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something bain't the smarl chillers , be ' [e]5979-e ? [Bill]378-bill knows , "[0-i] [I]0-i continue , but wax doubtful from the expression of [Bill]378-bill 's face . " Ees fai , "[378-bill] cries [Bill]378-bill , suddenly clearing up , " [her]1756-her be wutt moother zits on vor to mulk the coos . Bain't [her]1756-her now ? "[378-bill] " [Thee]5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something bee'st ony wan leg out , [Bill]378-bill . Now [Tabby Badcock]388-tabby ? "[378-bill] While [Tabby]388-tabby is splashing in [her]1756-her memory ( for [I]0-i told [them]1757-them all last week ) , [the farmer]5517-the farmer much excited , and having no idea what the answer should be , but hoping that [one of [[his]5517-the farmer own children]1760-his own children]1759-one of his own children may discover it first , boldly shows [his]5517-the farmer face at the wired window , but is quite resolved to allow fair play . Not so [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , who , in full possession of the case , suddenly appears behind [me]0-i , and shakes [her]331-mrs. huxtable fist at poor puzzled [Tabby]388-tabby . " Thee'dst best pretend to know more than [thy]388-tabby betters . "[331-mrs. huxtable] [She]331-mrs. huxtable tries to make [Tabby]388-tabby hear , without [my]0-i catching [her]331-mrs. huxtable words . But [the farmer]5517-the farmer hotly shouts , " Lat un alo - un , waife . Tak [thee]388-tabby hon from [thee]388-tabby mouth , [I]5517-the farmer tull ' e. Spak up now , [little wanch]5980-little wanch . "[5517-the farmer] Thus encouraged , [Tabby]388-tabby makes reply , looking cross - wise at [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable . " Plase , [Miss]5981-miss , it be [a beastie wi vour taials]5982-a beastie wi vour taials . "[331-mrs. huxtable] " Raight , "[5517-the farmer] cries [the farmer]5517-the farmer , with admiration conquering [his]5517-the farmer disappointment ; " raight [this taime]5983-this taime , ai'll tak [my]5517-the farmer oath on it . [I]5517-the farmer zeed wan to [Barnstaple]21-barnstaple vair last year , and [her]388-tabby wor karled , ' Phanominy Quadripade , ' [her]388-tabby [Kirsten]354-kirsten name and [her]388-tabby zurname , now ai coom to racollack . "[5517-the farmer] [Tabby]388-tabby looks elated , and [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable chagrined . Before [I]0-i can redress the situation , a sound of heavy blows , delivered on some leathery substance , causes a new stir . [All]909-all recognise the arrival of [[Her]331-mrs. huxtable Majesty]1764-her majesty 's mail , [a boy from [Martinhoe]41-martinhoe]1765-a boy from martinhoe , who comes upon a donkey twice a week , if there happen to be any letters for [the village]981-the village below . Out rush [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable and [Suke]345-suke ( who once received an epistle ) , and [the children]1695-the children long to go , but know better . [The boy]1121-the boy , however , has only a letter for [me]0-i , which is from [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ( [a cousin of [Ann Maples]294-ann maples]1769-a cousin of ann maples ) , to whom [I]0-i wrote a few days since , asking whether [she]391-mrs. shelfer had [any rooms to let]1770-any rooms to let . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer replies that " [she]391-mrs. shelfer has [apartments]5984-apartments , and [they]5984-apartments are splendid , and the rent quite trifling ; "[391-mrs. shelfer] so the mail is bribed with a pint of cider , while [I]0-i write to secure [a new home]1771-a new home . [My]0-i departure being now fixed and inevitable , [the women]5487-the women naturally began to remonstrate more than over . It had been settled that [Ann Maples]294-ann maples should go with [me]0-i , not to continue as [[my]0-i servant]1773-my servant , but to find a place for [herself]294-ann maples in [London]1-london . [My]0-i few arrangements , which cost [me]0-i far more pain than trouble , were not long in making ; and after saying good - bye to all [the dear little children]1774-the dear little children and [weanies]1775-weanies , and kissing [their]1774-the dear little children pretty faces in [their]1774-the dear little children little beds , amid an agony of tears from [Sally]371-sally , [I]0-i was surprised , on entering [the kitchen]5526-the kitchen , to find there [Mr. Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe . There was little time for talking , and much less for poetry . [We]1775-weanies were to start at three in the morning , [the farmer]5517-the farmer having promised to drive [us]1775-weanies to meet [the coach]1778-the coach in [Barnstaple]21-barnstaple , whence there would be more than thirty miles of [hilly road to [Tiverton]42-tiverton]1779-hilly road to tiverton , [the nearest railway station]1780-the nearest railway station . The journey to [London]1-london could thus be made in a day , though [no one in [the parish]1782-the parish]1781-no one in the parish could be brought to believe it . [The poet]5582-the poet had been suborned , no doubt , by [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , and now detained [me]0-i to listen to an elegy upon [the metropolis of [England]9-england]1784-the metropolis of england . [I]0-i can not stop to repeat it , neither does it deserve the trouble ; but it began thus : — " [Fayther]392-fayther was wance to [Lonnon town]5880-lonnon town , And a zed , zed [he]334-beany dawe , whan a coom down , ' Do n't e niver goo there , [Ebenezer]350-mr. dawe [[my]1786-the author son]5986-my son , For [they]5987-they mulks a coo , when [her]5987-they ai n't gat none . [They]5987-they kapes up sich a hollerin , naight and day , And [a Devonsheer man]5988-a devonsheer man dunno the impudence [they]5987-they zay . [Their]5987-they heads and [their]5987-they hats wags regular , like the scratchers of a harrow , And [they]5987-they biles [their]5987-they taties peeled , and ates [them]5987-they in a barrow . [They]5987-they raides on a waggon top with [[their]5987-they wives]5989-their wives squazed up inside [her]5989-their wives , And [they]5987-they drinks black dose and yesty pops in the place of wholesome zider . [They]5987-they want take back anything [they]5987-they 've zelled , And the beds can bite , and the cats can speak : And [a well - dress'd man]5990-a well - dress'd man be a most compelled To channge [his]5990-a well - dress'd man shirt in the middle of the week ! ' "[1786-the author] " [Lor]393-lor , "[331-mrs. huxtable] cried [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , " however could [they]5987-they do [their]5987-they washing ? [Thee]393-lor vayther must a been as big a liar as [thee]393-lor , [Beany]334-beany dawe . [Them]5987-they gifts always runs in [the family]1254-the family . "[331-mrs. huxtable] When , with remarkable patience , [I]0-i had heard out [his]1785-his elegant effusion , [the author]1786-the author , who had conceived much good will towards [me]0-i , because [I]0-i listened to [his]1785-his lays and called [him]1785-his [Mr. Dawe]334-beany dawe , [the author]1786-the author dived with a deep - drawn sigh into a hole in [his]1785-his sack , and produced in a mysterious manner something wrapped in greasy silver paper , and well tied up . [He]1786-the author begged [me]0-i to accept , and carry it about [me]0-i most carefully and secretly , as long as [I]0-i should live . To [no other person in [the world]798-the world]1788-no other person in the world would [he]1786-the author have given this , but [I]0-i had earned it , as [a true lover of poetry]1790-a true lover of poetry , and required it as [a castaway among the perils of [London]1-london]1791-a castaway among the perils of london . In vain [I]0-i declined the present ; refusal only confirmed [his]1786-the author resolution . As the matter was of so little importance , [I]0-i soon yielded upon condition that [I]0-i should first examine the gift . [He]1786-the author gave [me]0-i leave with much reluctance , and [I]0-i was surprised at the beauty and novelty of the thing . It was about the size of a Geneva watch , but rather thicker , jet black and shining , and of the exact shape of a human heart . Around the edge ran a moulding line or cord of brilliant red , of the same material as the rest . In the centre was a white spot like a siphuncle . What it was [I]0-i could not guess , but it looked like some mineral substance . Where the two lobes met , a small hole had been drilled to receive a narrow riband . After putting [me]0-i through many guesses , [Mr. Dawe]334-beany dawe informed [me]0-i that it was [a pixie]1792-a pixie 's heart , a charm of unequalled power against witchcraft and assassination , and to enthral the affection of [a loved one]1793-a loved one . [He]1786-the author only smiled , and rubbed [his]1786-the author nose , on hearing that [I]0-i should never want it in the last capacity . Being greatly pleased with it , [I]0-i asked [him]1786-the author many questions , which [he]1786-the author was very loth to answer . Nevertheless [I]0-i extorted from [him]1786-the author nearly all [he]1786-the author knew . As [he]1786-the author was sawing into boards a very large oak - tree , something fell from the very heart of it almost into [his]1786-the author mouth , for poor [Ebenezer]350-mr. dawe was only [an undersawyer]1794-an undersawyer . As [he]1786-the author could not stop the saw without [[his]1786-the author partners]1795-his partners concurrence , and did not wish to share [his]1786-the author prize , [he]1786-the author kicked some sawdust over it until [he]1786-the author could stoop to pick it up unobserved . In all [his]1786-the author long experience of [the woods]1796-the woods , [he]1786-the author had seen but two of these rare and beautiful things , and now assured [me]0-i that [any sawyer]1797-any sawyer was considered lucky who found only one in the course of [his]1786-the author career . The legend on the subject was rather quaint and graceful , and deserves a better garb than [he]1786-the author or [I]0-i can furnish . " All in the olden time , there lived [A little Pixie king , So lovely and so light of foot That]5992-a little pixie king , so lovely and so light of foot that when [he]5992-a little pixie king , so lovely and so light of foot that danced the ring , The moonlight always shifted , to gaze upon [his]5992-a little pixie king , so lovely and so light of foot that face , And the cowslip - bells uplifted , rang time with every pace . There came [a dozen maidens]5993-a dozen maidens , Almost as tall as bluebells ; The cowslips hushed [their]5993-a dozen maidens cadence , And bowed before [the true belles]5994-the true belles : [The maidens]5995-the maidens shyly glancing , betwixt the cummer darts , Espied [the monarch]5996-the monarch dancing , and lost a dozen hearts . [He]5996-the monarch was fitted up so neatly , With dewdrops for [his]5996-the monarch crown , And [he]5996-the monarch footed it so featly [He]5996-the monarch never shook them down . [The maids]836-the maids began advancing , along a lily stem , Not to stop [the monarch]5996-the monarch 's dancing , but to make [him]5996-the monarch look at [them]836-the maids . [The king]5999-the king could not afford [them]836-the maids The proper time to gaze , But sweetly bowed toward [them]836-the maids , At the turn of every maze : Till full of pretty faces , and [his]5992-a little pixie king , so lovely and so light of foot that sandals getting worn , [He]5992-a little pixie king , so lovely and so light of foot that was puzzled in [his]5992-a little pixie king , so lovely and so light of foot that paces , and fell upon a thorn . [The maidens]5995-the maidens broke the magic ring , And leaped the cummer dart ; ' Alas , [[our]5995-the maidens little Pixie king]6001-our little pixie king , The thorn is in [his]5992-a little pixie king , so lovely and so light of foot that heart ! ' [They]5995-the maidens laid [him]5992-a little pixie king , so lovely and so light of foot that in a molehill , and piteously [they]5995-the maidens cried : Yet this was not the whole ill , for all [the maidens]5995-the maidens died . [Each]6003-each took a spindled acorn , found Below a squirrel 's nest , And set the butt against the ground , The barb beneath [her]6003-each breast : So truly [she]6003-each addressed the stroke unto [her]6003-each loving part , That when the acorn grew an oak , it held [her]6003-each little heart . ' By no means a "[391-mrs. shelfer] little heart , " it seemed to [me]391-mrs. shelfer , for [a fairy]6004-a fairy to have owned , but as large as it was loving . [I]391-mrs. shelfer assured [Mr. Dawe]350-mr. dawe that [he]350-mr. dawe was quite untaught in fairy lore , or [he]350-mr. dawe never would have confounded [fairies]6005-fairies with pixies , [a different class of society]6006-a different class of society . But [he]350-mr. dawe treated [my]391-mrs. shelfer learning with utter contempt , and reasonably enough declared that [he]350-mr. dawe who spent all [his]350-mr. dawe time in [the woods]1796-the woods must know more than any books could tell . [He]350-mr. dawe also informed [me]391-mrs. shelfer , that the proper name for the lignified fairy heart , was a "[391-mrs. shelfer] gordit : " but [he]350-mr. dawe did not choose to tell [me]391-mrs. shelfer what had become of the other , which was not so large or handsome as this , yet it had saved [him]350-mr. dawe a month 's sawing , and earned [him]350-mr. dawe "[391-mrs. shelfer] a rare time , " which meant , [I]391-mrs. shelfer fear , that the proceeds had been spent in a very long cruise . After refusing all compensation , [Mr. Dawe]350-mr. dawe made [his]350-mr. dawe farewell in several couplets of uncouth but hearty blessing , begging [me]391-mrs. shelfer only to shake hands with [him]350-mr. dawe once , and venturing as [a poet]6008-a poet to prophesy that [we]6009-we should meet again . The "[391-mrs. shelfer] gordit " was probably nothing more than a rare accretion , or ganglion , in the centre of an aged oak . However , it was very pretty ; and of course [I]391-mrs. shelfer observed the condition upon which [I]391-mrs. shelfer had received it , valuing it moreover as a token of [true friends]6010-true friends . But how can [I]391-mrs. shelfer think of such trifles , while sitting for the last time in the room where [[my]391-mrs. shelfer mother]746-my mother died ? To - morrow all the form and colour of [my]391-mrs. shelfer life shall change ; even now [I]391-mrs. shelfer feel once more [my]391-mrs. shelfer step on the dark track of justice , which is to [me]391-mrs. shelfer revenge . How long have [I]391-mrs. shelfer been sauntering on the dreary moor of listlessness and hollow weariness , which spreads , for so many dead leagues , below the precipice of grief ? How long have [I]391-mrs. shelfer been sauntering , not caring to ask where , and conscious of existence only through the nerves and fibres of the memory . The things [I]391-mrs. shelfer have been doing , the duties [I]391-mrs. shelfer have discharged , the vague unlinked ideas , startling [me]391-mrs. shelfer by their buffoonery to grief — might not these have all passed through [me]391-mrs. shelfer , every whit as well , if [I]391-mrs. shelfer had been set against a wall , and wound up for three months , and fitted with the mind expressed in the chuckle of a clock ? Nay , worse than all — have [I]391-mrs. shelfer not allowed soft thoughts to steal throughout [my]391-mrs. shelfer heart , the love of [children]1229-children , the warmth of kindness , the pleasure of doing good in however small a way ? Much more of this , and [I]391-mrs. shelfer shall learn forgiveness of [my]391-mrs. shelfer wrong ! But now [I]391-mrs. shelfer see a clearer road before [me]391-mrs. shelfer . Returning health renews [my]391-mrs. shelfer gall . [Death]296-death recedes , and lifts [his]296-death train from the swords that fell before [him]296-death . Once more [my]391-mrs. shelfer pulse beats high with hatred , with scorn of meanness , treachery , and lies , with admiration of truth and manhood , not after the fashion of [fools]1050-fools . But dare [I]391-mrs. shelfer mount [the Judge]6014-the judge 's throne ? Shall the stir of one frail heart , however fresh from its Maker 's hand , be taken for [His]296-death voice pronouncing right and wrong ? These thoughts give [me]391-mrs. shelfer pause , and [I]391-mrs. shelfer dwell again with [[my]391-mrs. shelfer mother]746-my mother . But in all the strength of youth and stern will , [I]391-mrs. shelfer tread them down ; and am once more that [Clara Vaughan]293-clara whose life shall right [[her]293-clara father]898-her father 's death . At last [we]6017-our got through [our]6017-our parting with the best of [people]1132-people ( far worthier than [myself]391-mrs. shelfer to interest [any reader]6019-any reader ) , and after it the dark ride over [the moors]6020-the moors , and [the farmer]5517-the farmer 's vain attempt at talking to relieve both [himself]5517-the farmer and [us]6017-our . The honest eyes were bright with tears , tears of pity for [my]391-mrs. shelfer weakness , which now [he]5517-the farmer scarcely cared to hide , but would not show by wiping away ; and how many times [he]5517-the farmer begged for frequent tidings of [us]6017-our , which [Sally]371-sally could now interpret , if written in large round hand . How many times [he]5517-the farmer consulted , commanded , and threatened [the coachman]6022-the coachman , and promised [him]5517-the farmer a goose at [Michaelmas]43-michaelmas , if [he]5517-the farmer took good care of [us]6017-our and [our]6017-our luggage ! These great kindnesses , and all the trifling cares which strew the gap of long farewells , were more to think of than to tell . But [I]391-mrs. shelfer ought to mention , that much against [the farmer]5517-the farmer 's will , [I]391-mrs. shelfer insisted on paying [him]5517-the farmer half the sum , which [he]5517-the farmer had lent [me]391-mrs. shelfer in a manner never to be forgotten . Moreover , with the same presentiment which [he]5517-the farmer had always felt , [he]5517-the farmer made [me]391-mrs. shelfer promise once more to send for [him]5517-the farmer , if [I]391-mrs. shelfer fell into any dreadful strait . It was late at night when [[our]6017-our cabman]6024-our cabman , the most polite , and ( if [his]6024-our cabman word may be trusted ) [the most honourable of mankind]6025-the most honourable of mankind , rang the bell of [[Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's house]6026-mrs. shelfer 's house . [The house]764-the house was in [a by - street near [a large unfinished square]6029-a large unfinished square , in [the northern part of [London]1-london]6030-the northern part of london]6028-a by - street near a large unfinished square , in the northern part of london . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer came out at once , sharp and quick and short , and wonderfully queer . At first [she]391-mrs. shelfer took no notice at all of either of as , but began pulling with all [her]391-mrs. shelfer strength at the straps of the heaviest boxes , which , by means known to [herself]391-mrs. shelfer alone , [she]391-mrs. shelfer contrived to drag through [the narrow passage]6031-the narrow passage , and down three low steps into [the little kitchen]6032-the little kitchen . Then [she]391-mrs. shelfer hurried back , talking all the time to [herself]391-mrs. shelfer , re - opened the door of the fly , jumped in , and felt under both the seats , and round the lining . Finding nothing there , [she]391-mrs. shelfer climbed upon [the driver]6033-the driver 's box , and thoroughly examined both that and the roof . Being satisfied now that none of [our]6034-our chattels were left in [the vehicle]6035-the vehicle , [she]391-mrs. shelfer shook [her]391-mrs. shelfer little fist at [two or three boys]6036-two or three boys , who stood at the corner near [the mews]6037-the mews , and setting both hands to [the farmer]5517-the farmer 's great hamper or "[391-mrs. shelfer] maun " ( as [he]0-i called it ) , [she]391-mrs. shelfer dragged it inside the front door , and turned point blanc upon [me]391-mrs. shelfer . "[391-mrs. shelfer] Pray , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , how many is there ? " "[0-i] [I]0-i 'm sure [I]0-i do n't know , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [[your]391-mrs. shelfer cousin]1799-your cousin knows best . " "[391-mrs. shelfer] Ah , [they]1800-they 're terrible fellows [them]1800-they [cabbies]1801-cabbies , terrible ! " [The cabman]6039-the cabman stood by all the time , beating [his]6039-the cabman hands together . "[1802-'em] ' Twas only last time [I]0-i went to [Barbican]44-barbican , one of ['em]1802-'em come up to [me]0-i , ' [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , ' says [he]0-i , ' [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ! ' says [I]0-i , ' pray [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , how do [you]1798-my good friend know [my]0-i name ? ' ' [Ho]394-ho , [I]0-i knows [Charley]395-charley well enough , ' says [he]0-i , ' and there ai n't [a better fellow living]1804-a better fellow living . ' ' A deal too good for [you]1798-my good friend , ' says [I]0-i , ' and now pray what 's [your]1798-my good friend business with [me]0-i ? ' ' Why , [old lady]1805-old lady , ' [he]0-i says , as impudent as [the man with the wooden leg]1806-the man with the wooden leg , ' [you]1805-old lady 've been and left [your]1805-old lady second best umbrella under the seat of [the Botany Bay Bus]45-the botany bay bus . ' ' Catch [me]0-i ! ' says [I.]0-i ' It 's Bible truth , ' says [he]0-i , ' and [[my]0-i old woman]1807-my old woman 's got it now . ' ' If [you]1798-my good friend never get drunk , ' says [I]0-i , ' till that umbrella runs in [your]1798-my good friend shoes , [[your]1798-my good friend old woman]1808-your old woman need n't steal [her]1808-your old woman lights , ' and with that [I]0-i ran between the legs of a sheep , hanging up with [my]0-i Tuscan bonnet on trimmed with white — nothing like it , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , the same as [I]0-i 've had these two and twenty years . " "[0-i] What for , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ? " [I]391-mrs. shelfer asked in great surprise . "[391-mrs. shelfer] Why , for [the butcher]1810-the butcher to see [me]0-i , to be sure , [Miss.]342-miss. [You]342-miss. see [he]1810-the butcher wanted to get [me]0-i down [the mews]6037-the mews , and murder [me]0-i with [my]0-i little wash - leather bag , as [I]0-i was going to pay the interest on [Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's double - barrel gun . Ah yes , " with a short sigh , "[1810-the butcher] and there 'll be four and ninepence again , next Tuesday . " Talking at this rate , and stopping for no reply , [she]391-mrs. shelfer led [us]6040-us into [[her]391-mrs. shelfer kitchen]6041-her kitchen , saying that [she]391-mrs. shelfer would not light a fire [upstairs]6042-upstairs , it was so bootiful , the trimmings of the grate , because [she]391-mrs. shelfer was n't certain that [we]6040-us would come , but [she]391-mrs. shelfer had got supper for [us]6040-us , excuse [me]391-mrs. shelfer , [[my]391-mrs. shelfer good friend]1798-my good friend , in [[her]391-mrs. shelfer own snug little room]6044-her own snug little room , and bootiful [they]1812-they was sure enough , the wind last week had made them so fat . [She]391-mrs. shelfer pointed in triumph to a large dish on the table piled up with blue shells . "[391-mrs. shelfer] Why , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , they are muscles , " [I]391-mrs. shelfer exclaimed with some disgust . "[391-mrs. shelfer] Ah [I]0-i see [you]391-mrs. shelfer knows 'em , that [they]1812-they are , [Miss]1813-miss , and as bootiful as ever [you]391-mrs. shelfer ate . [Charley]395-charley and [me]0-i sits down to a peck of [them]1812-they . But the man as comes round with [the catsmeat]1814-the catsmeat 's brother the man with [the truck]1815-the truck and [his]1816-he eyes crossed , [he]1816-he told [me]0-i there was such a demand for them in [Grosvenor Square]46-grosvenor square , and [they]1812-they was so cunning this weather when [they]1812-they gets fat , [he]1816-he had n't more than half a peck left , but they was the best of the lot . Now [I]0-i 'll have [them]1812-they all bootiful hot , bootiful , boiling [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , if [you]391-mrs. shelfer 'll just run [upstairs]6042-upstairs , and a teaspoon and a half of salt , and [Cousin Ann]396-cousin ann knows the way , and [the apartments]1819-the apartments is splendid , splendid , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara ! " [She]1798-my good friend drew [herself]1798-my good friend up , at the end of the sentence , with an air of the greatest dignity ; then suddenly dropped it again , and began bustling in and out . Now for the first time , [I]293-clara had leisure to examine [her]1798-my good friend , for while [she]1798-my good friend spoke , the short jumps of [her]1798-my good friend ideas unsettled [my]293-clara observation . [She]1798-my good friend was a little body , rather thin , with a face not strongly peculiar , but odd enough to second the oddities of [her]1798-my good friend mind . No doubt [she]1798-my good friend had once been pretty , and [her]1798-my good friend expression was pleasant now , especially when a glimpse was afforded of [her]1798-my good friend quick grey eyes , which generally avoided the gaze , and dropped beneath a fringe of close - set lashes . But the loss of the front teeth , and the sharpening and wrinkling of the face , with the straggling neglect of the thick black hair fraying out from the black cap , and the habit [she]1798-my good friend had of shutting [her]1798-my good friend mouth with a snap , all these interfered with [her]1798-my good friend credit for pristine good looks . Like [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , [she]1798-my good friend was generally in a bustle , but a bustle of words more often than of deeds . [She]1798-my good friend had no deception about [her]1798-my good friend , yet [she]1798-my good friend never knew the difference between the truth and a lie , and could not understand that [any one else]926-any one else should do so . Therefore [she]1798-my good friend suspected everything and everybody , till one of [her]1798-my good friend veins of opinion was touched , and then [she]1798-my good friend would swallow anything . Tired out with the long day 's travel , the dazing of railway speed , and the many scenes and faces which had flashed across [me]293-clara , [I]293-clara could not appreciate the beauty of [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's furniture ; but leaving [Ann Maples]294-ann maples to eat the muscles , if [she]294-ann maples could , and to gossip with [[her]294-ann maples cousin]6046-her cousin , [I]293-clara was not slow to revisit [the old farmhouse]6047-the old farmhouse , and even [the home of [my]293-clara childhood]6048-the home of my childhood , in the winged cradle of sleep . [Ann Maples]294-ann maples had done [her]294-ann maples best to persuade [me]293-clara to call on [[my]293-clara godmother]6049-my godmother , [Lady Cranberry]397-lady cranberry , but [I]293-clara was quite resolved to do nothing of the sort . In the first place , [Lady Cranberry]397-lady cranberry was [a person of great wealth]6050-a person of great wealth , living in [a very large house]6051-a very large house , and keeping up such state as [gay widows love , who have forgotten old affections and are looking out for new]6052-gay widows love , who have forgotten old affections and are looking out for new . In [me]293-clara , therefore , to whose fixed estimate fidelity seemed the very pith of honour , there could be no love towards such a changeling . And even if [I]293-clara had liked [her]397-lady cranberry , [my]293-clara circumstances would not admit of [our]6053-our visiting upon equal terms , and it was not likely that [I]293-clara would endure to be patronized by [any one]1178-any one . In the second place , [the same most amiable lady]6055-the same most amiable lady had written letters of beautiful condolence , and taken a tender interest in [our]6053-our change of fortune , so long as there was any novelty in it ; but soon flagged off , and had not even replied to [my]293-clara announcement of [dearest mother]6056-dearest mother 's death . Finally , [I]293-clara hated [her]397-lady cranberry without any compromise , from what [I]293-clara had seen of [her]397-lady cranberry , and what [she]397-lady cranberry had done to [me]293-clara at [Vaughan Park]5-vaughan park . So [my]293-clara good [Ann]294-ann maples set off all alone , for [she]397-lady cranberry hoped to obtain some recommendation [there]1114-there , and [I]293-clara was left to receive [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's morning visit . [Her]397-lady cranberry queer episodical conversation , and strange biographies of every table , chair , and cushion — [her]397-lady cranberry "[293-clara] sticks , " as [she]397-lady cranberry delighted to call them — [I]293-clara shall not try to repeat , for [my]293-clara history is not a comic one ; neither will [she]397-lady cranberry appear , unless the connexion requires it . One vein of sympathy between [us]6058-us was opened at once , by [her]397-lady cranberry coming into [the room]823-the room with a lame blackbird on [her]397-lady cranberry finger ; and [I]293-clara was quite surprised at the number of [her]397-lady cranberry pets . As for [the "[293-clara] splendid apartments]6060-the " splendid apartments , " [they]6060-the " splendid apartments were [two little rooms on [the first floor]6062-the first floor , adjoining [one another]758-one another , and forming , together with the landing outside and [a coal - closet]6064-a coal - closet , the entirety of [that storey]6065-that storey]6061-two little rooms on the first floor , adjoining one another , and forming , together with the landing outside and a coal - closet , the entirety of that storey . [The rooms above]6066-the rooms above were occupied by [a young dress - maker]6067-a young dress - maker . [Mr.]6068-mr. and [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , who had [no children]6069-no children kept the ground - floor ( consisting of [a parlour]6070-a parlour and [kitchen]1734-kitchen ) and [the two attics , one of which was always full of onions and carrot seed]6072-the two attics , one of which was always full of onions and carrot seed . Upon the whole , though the "[293-clara] sticks " were very old , and not over clean , until [I]1820-you scoured them , and [the drawing - room ( as [[my]1820-you landlady]6074-my landlady]6073-the drawing - room ( as my landlady loved to call [it]6073-the drawing - room ( as my landlady ) was low and small , and looked through the rails of [a narrow balcony upon [a cheese - monger]6076-a cheese - monger 's shop]6075-a narrow balcony upon a cheese - monger 's shop across [the road]1630-the road ( instead of [a wooded dingle]6078-a wooded dingle ) , [I]1820-you was very well satisfied with them ; and above all the rent was within [my]1820-you means . In the afternoon , when things were growing tidy , [a carriage]6079-a carriage drove up rapidly , and a violent ringing of the bell ensued . It was [Lady Cranberry]397-lady cranberry , who , under the pretext of bringing [Ann Maples]294-ann maples [home]1102-home , was come to gratify [her]397-lady cranberry own sweet curiosity . [She]397-lady cranberry ran [upstairs]6042-upstairs in [her]397-lady cranberry most charming manner , caught [me]1820-you by both hands , and would have kissed [me]1820-you desperately , if [I]1820-you had shown any tendency that way . Then [she]397-lady cranberry stopped to admire [me]1820-you . "[1820-you] Oh , [you]1820-you lovely creature ! How [you]1820-you are grown to be sure ! [I]0-i should never have known [you]1820-you . How delicious all this is ! " Of course [I]0-i was pleased with [her]397-lady cranberry admiration ; but only for a moment , because [I]0-i disliked [her]397-lady cranberry . "[0-i] [I]0-i am glad [you]0-i find it delicious , " [I]0-i replied quite coldly ; "[0-i] perhaps [I]0-i shall by - and - by . " "[0-i] What would [I]0-i give to be entering life under such sweetly romantic circumstances ? Dear [me]0-i ! [I]0-i must introduce [you]1820-you . What a sensation [you]1820-you will cause ! With such a face and figure and such a delightful story , [we]1821-we shall all rave about [you]1820-you . And how well [you]1820-you are dressed from [that outlandish place]1822-that outlandish place ! What a piece of luck ! It 's the greatest marvel on earth that [you]1820-you found [me]0-i in [London]1-london now . " "[1820-you] Excuse [me]0-i , " [I]1820-you said , "[1820-you] [I]0-i neither found , nor meant to find [you]0-i . " "[0-i] Oh , of course [you]0-i are cross with [me]0-i . [I]0-i forgot about that . But who made [your]0-i dress , in the name of all woodland graces ? " "[0-i] [I]0-i always make [my]0-i own dresses . " "[0-i] Then [you]0-i shall make [mine]0-i . Say no more about it . [You]1820-you shall live with [me]0-i , and make [my]0-i dresses by day ; and by night [you]1820-you shall go with [me]0-i everywhere , and [I]0-i wo n't be jealous . [I]0-i will introduce [you]1820-you everywhere . ' This is [[my]0-i ward]1823-my ward , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara , whose father — ah , [I]0-i see , [you]1820-you know that romantic occurrence in [Gloucestershire]3-gloucestershire . ' Do [you]1820-you think it will be a [your]1824-your — and the Great Exhibition season — before [you]1820-you are mistress of [a property ten times the size of [Vaughan Park]5-vaughan park]1825-a property ten times the size of vaughan park ? If [you]1820-you doubt it , look in the glass . Ah [me]0-i ! [You]1820-you know nothing of [the world]798-the world , [I]0-i forget , [I]0-i am so warm - hearted . But [you]1820-you may take [my]0-i word for it . Will [you]1820-you cry a bargain ? " [She]293-clara held out [her]293-clara hand , as [she]293-clara had seen [the fast men]6082-the fast men do , whose society [she]293-clara affected . [I]1820-you noticed it not , but led [her]293-clara on ; [my]1820-you fury had long been gathering . [I]1820-you almost choked when [she]293-clara spoke in that way of [[my]1820-you father]731-my father , utterly as [I]1820-you despised [her]731-my father . But [I]1820-you made it a trial of self - control , which might be demanded against more worthy objects . "[1820-you] Are [you]1820-you sure that [I]0-i shall be useful ? Sure that [I]0-i shall earn [my]0-i board ? " "[1820-you] Oh , [you]1820-you [Vaughans]398-vaughans are always so conscientious . [I]0-i want an eider - down petticoat quilted at once for the winter , and [I]0-i dare not trust it to [Biggs]399-biggs , [I]0-i know [she]1827-she will pucker it so . That shall be the first little job for [[my]0-i Clara]5392-my clara . " [Her]293-clara cup was full . [She]293-clara had used [dearest mother]6056-dearest mother 's fond appellative , and , as [I]5392-my clara thought , in mockery . [I]5392-my clara did not lower [myself]5392-my clara by any sarcastic language . [She]293-clara would not have understood it . [I]5392-my clara merely opened the door , and said calmly to [[my]5392-my clara landlady]6074-my landlady , who was there , of course "[5392-my clara] promiscuously ; " "[5392-my clara] [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , show out the [Countess of Cranberry]400-countess of cranberry . " [Poor godmother]401-poor godmother , [she]293-clara was so frightened that [I]391-mrs. shelfer was sorry for [her]293-clara . [They]6086-they helped [her]293-clara into [the carriage]6087-the carriage , and [she]293-clara had just strength to draw down the blinds . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer had been in raptures at having so grand [a vehicle]5550-a vehicle and [two great footmen]6089-two great footmen at [her]391-mrs. shelfer door . Lest [the street]6090-the street should lose the effect , [she]391-mrs. shelfer had run in and out a dozen times , and banged the door , and got into talk with [the coachman]6022-the coachman , and sent for beer to [the Inn]1283-the inn , though [she]391-mrs. shelfer had it in [the house]764-the house . [She]391-mrs. shelfer now came again to [my]391-mrs. shelfer door , in what [she]391-mrs. shelfer called a "[391-mrs. shelfer] terrible quandary . " [I]391-mrs. shelfer could not attend to [her]391-mrs. shelfer , but locked [myself]391-mrs. shelfer in , and wrestled with [my]391-mrs. shelfer passionate nature , at one time indulging , then spurning and freezing it . Yet [I]391-mrs. shelfer could not master it , as [I]391-mrs. shelfer fancied [I]391-mrs. shelfer had done . Soon afterwards , [Ann Maples]294-ann maples went to [the place which [she]294-ann maples had obtained in [[Lady Cranberry]397-lady cranberry 's household]6095-lady cranberry 's household]6094-the place which she had obtained in lady cranberry 's household ; and [I]391-mrs. shelfer determined to begin [my]391-mrs. shelfer search . "[391-mrs. shelfer] [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , do [you]391-mrs. shelfer know [London]1-london well ? " [[My]391-mrs. shelfer landlady]6074-my landlady was feeding [her]6074-my landlady birds , and [I]391-mrs. shelfer had made up for [her]6074-my landlady disappointment about [Lady Cranberry]397-lady cranberry , by fitting the lame blackbird with a wooden leg , cut from a skewer , and tipped with a button : it was pretty to see how kindly and cleverly [he]0-i took to it , and how proudly [he]0-i contemplated it , when [he]0-i thought there was [no one]730-no one watching . [[His]0-i mistress]5962-his mistress now stopped [her]5962-his mistress work , and made ready for a long speech , with the usual snap of [her]5962-his mistress lips . "[391-mrs. shelfer] Know [London]1-london , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara ! [I]0-i was born in [Red Cross Street]47-red cross street , and [I]0-i 've never been further out of [town]1829-town than [Chalk Farm fair]48-chalk farm fair , or [Hampstead Waterworks]49-hampstead waterworks , and , please [God]303-god , [I]0-i never will . Bless [me]0-i , what [an awful place]1830-an awful place [the country]1831-the country is , awful ! What with the trees , and the ditches , and the sting - nettles , and the black wainscot with skewers on the top — " "[391-mrs. shelfer] Too bad of [you]293-clara , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , to be frightened at palings — and [[your]293-clara husband]1832-your husband [a gardener]985-a gardener , too ! But tell [me]0-i whereabouts is [Grove Street]30-grove street ? " "[391-mrs. shelfer] What [Grove Street]30-grove street , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend ? " "[391-mrs. shelfer] [Grove Street]30-grove street , [London]1-london , to be sure . " "[391-mrs. shelfer] Why , [dear]5871-dear [me]0-i , [Miss]1836-miss , [I]0-i thought [you]293-clara knew everything ; [you]293-clara can doctor [Jack]374-jack , and [the Bully]1837-the bully , and tell [me]0-i all about [Sandy]402-sandy the squirrel 's tail and the hair coming off and when it 's going to rain ! Do n't [you]293-clara know there 's [a dozen Grove Streets]1838-a dozen grove streets in [London]1-london , for all [I]0-i know . Leastways [I]0-i knows four . " "[0-i] And where are those four , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ? " "[391-mrs. shelfer] Now please , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , give [me]0-i just a minute to think . It is dreadful work to be hurried , ever since [I]0-i fell [downstairs]1041-downstairs , when [I]0-i were [six year old]1841-six year old . Let [me]0-i see now . [Charley]395-charley knows . Ca n't [you]293-clara wait , [Miss]5433-miss , till [Charley]395-charley comes [home]1102-home , and [he]395-charley 's coming quite early this evening , and [two friends of [his]395-charley]1844-two friends of his to supper . " "[391-mrs. shelfer] No , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [I]0-i can not wait . If [you]293-clara ca n't tell [me]0-i , [I]0-i must go and get a book . " "[1845-they] Oh [them]1845-they books is no good . Why [they]1845-they ai n't got [Charley]395-charley in , and [he]395-charley with the lease one time of [the garden in [Hollyhock Square]50-hollyhock square]1846-the garden in hollyhock square , and a dahlia named after [him]395-charley at [the Royal Heretical Society]51-the royal heretical society ! And [they]1845-they did say [the Queen]1427-the queen would have handed [him]395-charley the spade [she]1427-the queen liked [his]395-charley looks so much , only [his]395-charley nails was n't clean . Very likely [you]293-clara heard , [Miss]1848-miss — And how [he]395-charley was cheated out of it . " "[1848-miss] Do [you]293-clara expect [me]0-i to wait all day ? " "[293-clara] No no , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , to be sure not . [You]293-clara never will wait a minute , [partikler]1850-partikler when [I]0-i spill the coals , and when [I]0-i wants to baste the meat . And how can the gravy run , and a pinch of salt in the dripping - pan — " "[293-clara] Yesterday , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [you]293-clara basted [my]0-i pound and a half of mutton with three pounds of coals . Now do n't go off into a treatise . Answer [me]0-i , where is [Grove Street]30-grove street ? " "[293-clara] Bless [my]0-i heart , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara . [You]293-clara never gives one a chance . And [we]1851-we thought [a young lady from [the]1853-the]1852-a young lady from the [country as had been brought up with tags , and lace , and bobbin]1854-country as had been brought up with tags , and lace , and bobbin , and pigs , and hay — " "[1852-a young lady from the] Could be cheated anyhow . No , [I]0-i do n't mean that : [I]0-i beg [your]293-clara pardon , dear [Patty]322-tilly . [I]0-i often speak very hastily . What [I]0-i mean is that [you]293-clara thought [I]0-i should know nothing at all . And [I]0-i do n't know much , but one thing [I]0-i do know , that [you]293-clara would never cheat [me]0-i much . " To [my]293-clara surprise [she]293-clara was not at all sensitive on this subject . In fact [she]293-clara had dealt with so many [lodgers]6099-lodgers , that [she]293-clara expected to be suspected . But [I]293-clara believe [she]293-clara never cheated [me]293-clara more than [she]293-clara could help . [She]293-clara answered [me]293-clara quite calmly , after some meditation : "[293-clara] To be sure , [Miss]1855-miss , to be sure , [I]0-i only does [my]0-i dooty . A little dripping may be , or a drop of milk for [old Tom]379-tom gundry , and a piece of soap [you]1855-miss left in the water , [Miss]5433-miss , [I]0-i kept it for [Charley]395-charley to shave with . " "[0-i] Now , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , no more of that . Come back to [Grove Street]30-grove street ; surely , [I]0-i have given [you]1855-miss time enough now . " "[5433-miss] Well , [Miss]5433-miss , there is one [I]0-i know close by here . [You]1855-miss keep down [the Willa Road]52-the willa road , and by [[the fishmonger]1858-the fishmonger 's shop]1859-the fishmonger 's shop , and then [you]1855-miss turn on the right over against the licensed pursuant to Act of [George the Fourth]403-george the fourth . [I]0-i knows [George the Fourth]403-george the fourth acted badly , but [I]0-i never thought it was that way . [Sam the Sweep]404-samuel lives with [him]404-samuel , and [the young man with a hook for [his]1860-the young man with a hook for his hand that lets out the ' times ' for a penny , and keeps all his brothers and sisters hand that lets out the ' Times ' for a penny , and keeps all [[his]1860-the young man with a hook for his hand that lets out the ' times ' for a penny , and keeps all his brothers and sisters brothers and [sisters]1862-sisters]1861-his brothers and sisters]1860-the young man with a hook for his hand that lets out the ' times ' for a penny , and keeps all his brothers and sisters . " "[1860-the young man with a hook for his hand that lets out the ' times ' for a penny , and keeps all his brothers and sisters] And where are the other three that [you]0-i know ? " "[0-i] There 's one in [Hackney]53-hackney , and one in [Bethnal Green]54-bethnal green , and there 's one in [Mile - end Road]1863-mile - end road . Bless [me]0-i , to be sure ! [I]0-i 've been [there]1114-there with [dear [Miss Minto]405-miss minto after a cat [she]405-miss minto lost , a tabby with a silver collar on , and a notch in [his]1860-the young man with a hook for his hand that lets out the ' times ' for a penny , and keeps all his brothers and sisters left ear]405-miss minto . It would make [you]405-miss minto cry , [Miss]1865-miss — " "[1865-miss] Thank [you]405-miss minto , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ; that will do for the present . [I]0-i 'll go up to [the ' drawing - room ']1866-the ' drawing - room ' now . " In a few minutes [I]0-i went forth with [my]0-i dark plaid shawl around [me]0-i , which had saved [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother 's life , and was thenceforth sacred . It was the first time [I]0-i walked all alone in [London]1-london , and though [we]6101-we lived quite in [the suburbs]6102-the suburbs it seemed very odd to [me]0-i . For a while [I]0-i felt rather nervous , but [no one]730-no one molested [me]0-i then or at any other time ; although [I]0-i have heard [some plain young ladies]6104-some plain young ladies declare that [they]6104-some plain young ladies could not walk in [London]1-london without attracting unpleasant attention . Perhaps because [they]6104-some plain young ladies knew not the way either to walk or to dress . Without any trouble , [I]0-i found [No . 19]6105-no . 19 , [Grove Street]30-grove street , then rang the bell and looked round [me]0-i . [It]6105-no . 19 was [a clean unpretentious street]6106-a clean unpretentious street , not to be known by [its]6105-no . 19 architecture from a thousand others in [London]1-london . The bell was answered by [a neat little girl]6107-a neat little girl , and [I]0-i asked for [the Master of [the house]764-the house]6108-the master of the house . Clever tactics truly for commencing a task like [mine]0-i . Being told that [the Master]1286-the master was from [home]1102-home , [I]0-i begged to see [the Mistress]6112-the mistress . [The little maid]6113-the little maid hesitated awhile , with the chain of the door in [her]6113-the little maid hand , and then invited [me]0-i into [the parlour]5965-the parlour , [a small room]6115-a small room , but neat and pretty . "[0-i] Please , [Miss]5433-miss , what name shall [I]0-i say ? " "[0-i] [Miss Vaughan]293-clara , if [you]0-i please . " Then [I]293-clara said to [myself]293-clara , "[293-clara] What good am [I]0-i ? Is this [my]0-i detective adroitness ? " Presently [a nice old lady , with snow - white hair]6116-a nice old lady , with snow - white hair , came in . "[293-clara] [Miss Vaughan]293-clara , " [she]6116-a nice old lady , with snow - white hair asked with a pleasant smile , "[293-clara] do [you]293-clara wish to see [me]0-i ? " "[293-clara] Yes , if [you]293-clara please . Just to ask a few questions as to [the inmates of [this house]5422-this house]1868-the inmates of this house . " Despite [her]6116-a nice old lady , with snow - white hair kindness and good breeding , [the lady]1431-the lady stared a little . "[293-clara] May [I]0-i inquire [your]0-i motives ? Do [you]0-i know [me]0-i at all ? [I]0-i have not the pleasure of knowing [you]0-i . " "[0-i] [My]0-i motives [I]0-i must not tell [you]293-clara . But , as [a lady]5829-a lady , [I]0-i assure [you]293-clara , that curiosity is not one . Neither are [they]1871-me improper . " [She]293-clara looked at [me]1871-me in great surprise , examined [me]1871-me closely , and then replied : "[1871-me] [Young lady]1872-young lady , [I]0-i believe what [you]1872-young lady say . It is impossible not to do so . But [my]0-i answering [you]1872-young lady must depend on the nature of [your]1872-young lady inquiries . [You]1872-young lady have done , excuse [my]0-i saying it , [you]1872-young lady have done a very odd thing . " "[1872-young lady] [I]0-i will not ask many questions . How many [people]1132-people live [here]846-here ? " "[0-i] [I]0-i will answer [you]1872-young lady curtly as [you]1872-young lady ask , unless [you]1872-young lady ask what [I]0-i do not choose to answer . [Four people]1875-four people live [here]846-here , namely , [[my]0-i husband]1877-my husband , [myself]0-i , [[our]1878-we only daughter]1879-our only daughter — but for whom [I]0-i might have been ruder to [you]1872-young lady — and [the child who let [you]1872-young lady in]1880-the child who let you in . Also [a woman]5830-a woman comes every day to work . " "[5830-a woman] Are there no more ? Forgive [my]0-i impertinence . [No strangers to [the family]1254-the family]1882-no strangers to the family ? " "[1882-no strangers to the family] No lodgers whatever . [[My]0-i son]5986-my son is employed in [the City]1885-the city , and sleeps [there]1114-there . [[My]0-i only daughter]1887-my only daughter is in very weak health , and though [we]1878-we do not want all [the house]764-the house , [we]1878-we are not obliged to take [lodgers]6099-lodgers . A thing [I]0-i never would do , because [they]6099-lodgers always expect to be cheated . " "[6099-lodgers] And is [[your]0-i husband]1832-your husband [an Englishman]1891-an englishman ? " "[1891-an englishman] Yes , and [an English writer]1892-an english writer , not altogether unknown . " [She]1887-my only daughter mentioned a name of good repute in the world of letters , as even [I]0-i was aware . "[0-i] [You]0-i have quite satisfied [me]0-i . [I]0-i thank [you]0-i most heartily . [Very few]1893-very few would have been so polite and kind . [I]0-i fear [you]0-i must think [me]0-i [a very singular being]1894-a very singular being . But [I]0-i have powerful motive , and am quite [a stranger in [London]1-london]1895-a stranger in london . " "[0-i] [[My]0-i dear]5318-my dear , [I]0-i knew that at once . [No Londoner]1897-no londoner would have learned from [me]0-i the family history [I]0-i have told [you]0-i . [I]0-i should have shown [them]1898-them out at the very first question . Thank [you]0-i , oh thank [you]0-i , [[my]0-i child]1549-my child . But [I]0-i am sure [you]0-i have hurt [yourself]0-i . Oh , the shell has run into [your]0-i forehead . " As [she]406-mrs. elton looked so intently at [me]406-mrs. elton , on [her]406-mrs. elton way to the door of [the room]823-the room , [her]406-mrs. elton foot had been caught by the claw of the what - not , and [I]406-mrs. elton barely saved [her]406-mrs. elton from falling . "[406-mrs. elton] No , [Mrs. Elton]406-mrs. elton , [I]0-i am not hurt at all . How stupid of [me]0-i , to be sure . And all [my]0-i fault that [you]0-i fell . [I]0-i hope the shell is not broken . Ah , [I]0-i bring very bad luck to all who treat [me]0-i kindly . " "[0-i] The shell is not worth sixpence . The fault was all [my]0-i own . If [you]0-i had not been wonderfully quick , [I]0-i must have fallen heavily . Pray sit down , and recover [yourself]0-i , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara . Look , [you]0-i have dropped a letter . Dear [me]0-i , [I]0-i know that writing ! Excuse [me]0-i ; it is [I]0-i that am now impertinent . " "[0-i] If [you]0-i know that writing , pray tell [me]0-i how and where . " The letter [she]293-clara had seen was the anonymous one which brought [me]0-i from [Devonshire]4-devonshire to [London]1-london . [I]0-i had put it into [my]0-i pocket , thinking that it might be wanted . It fell out as [I]0-i leaped forward , and it lay on the floor wide open . "[0-i] May [I]0-i look at the writing more closely ? Perhaps [I]0-i am deceived . " For a while [I]0-i hesitated . But it seemed so great a point to know who [the writer]6119-the writer was , that [I]0-i hushed [my]0-i hesitation . However , [I]0-i showed the letter so that [she]1900-a polish lady could not gather its import . "[0-i] Yes , " said [Mrs. Elton]406-mrs. elton , "[0-i] [I]0-i am quite certain now . That is the writing of [a Polish lady]1900-a polish lady , whom at one time [I]0-i knew well . [[My]0-i husband]1877-my husband has written a work upon [Poland]55-poland , which brought [him]1877-my husband into contact with [some of [the refugees]1903-the refugees]1902-some of the refugees . Among [them]1902-some of the refugees was [a gentleman of some scientific attainments]1904-a gentleman of some scientific attainments , who had [a pretty lively warm - hearted wife]1905-a pretty lively warm - hearted wife , very fond of dancing , and very fond of dogs . [She]1900-a polish lady and [I]0-i have had many a laugh at [one another]758-one another and [ourselves]1907-ourselves ; for , though [my]0-i hair is grey , [I]0-i am fond of [lively people]1908-lively people . " "[1908-lively people] And where is [that lady]1909-that lady now ? " "[1909-that lady] [[My]0-i child]1549-my child , [I]0-i can not tell [you]1549-my child . [Her]1909-that lady name [I]0-i will tell [you]1549-my child , if [you]1549-my child like , when [I]0-i have consulted [[my]0-i husband]1877-my husband . But it will help [you]1549-my child very little towards finding [her]1909-that lady ; for [they]1912-they change [their]1912-they names almost every time [they]1912-they move . Even in [London]1-london [they]1912-they forget that [they]1912-they are not heard every time [they]1912-they sneeze . The furtive habits born of oppression cling about [them]1912-they still . " "[1912-they] And where did [they]1912-they live at the time [you]0-i knew [them]1912-they ? " Wrung by suspense and anxiety , [I]1912-they had forgotten good manners . But [Mrs. Elton]406-mrs. elton had good feeling which knows when to dispense with [them]1912-they . Nevertheless [I]1912-they blushed with shame at [my]1912-they own effrontery . "[1912-they] Not very far from here , in [a part that is called ' [Agar Town]1914-agar town]1913-a part that is called ' agar town . ' But [they]1912-they have now left [London]1-london , and [England]9-england too , [I]0-i believe . [I]0-i must tell [you]0-i no more , because [they]1912-they had reasons for wishing to be unknown . " "[1912-they] Only tell [me]0-i one thing . Were [they]1912-they cruel or [violent people]1915-violent people ? " "[1915-violent people] The very opposite . Most humane and warm - hearted [They]1912-they would injure [no one]730-no one , and hated all kinds of cruelty . How pale [you]0-i are , [[my]0-i child]1549-my child ! [You]0-i must have a glass of wine . It is useless to say no . " As this clue , which seemed so promising , led to nothing at all , [I]1918-good dog may as well wind it up at once , and not tangle [my]1918-good dog story with it . [Mr. Elton]407-mr. elton permitted [[his]407-mr. elton wife]789-his wife to tell [me]1918-good dog all [she]789-his wife knew about [the Polish exiles]6121-the polish exiles , for [they]6121-the polish exiles were gone to [America]56-america , and nothing done [here]846-here could harm [them]6121-the polish exiles . But at the same time [he]407-mr. elton made [me]1918-good dog promise not to mention to [the police]6123-the police , if [my]1918-good dog case should ever come before [them]6123-the police , the particulars which [he]407-mr. elton gave [me]1918-good dog ; and [I]1918-good dog am sure [he]407-mr. elton would not wish [me]1918-good dog to make free with [the gentleman]6124-the gentleman 's name . [A gentleman [he]407-mr. elton was , as both [[my]1918-good dog kind friends]6126-my kind friends]6125-a gentleman he was , as both my kind friends assured [me]1918-good dog , and not likely to conceal any atrocious secret , unless [he]407-mr. elton had learned it in a way which laid it upon [his]407-mr. elton honour . [Mr. Elton]407-mr. elton had never been intimate with [him]407-mr. elton , and knew not who [[his]407-mr. elton friends]976-his friends were , but [Mrs. Elton]406-mrs. elton had liked [the lady who was very kind and passionate]6128-the lady who was very kind and passionate . Also [she]406-mrs. elton was very apt to make mistakes in English names , and to become confused at moments of excitement . Therefore [Mrs. Elton]406-mrs. elton thought that [she]406-mrs. elton had confounded [the Eltons]408-the eltons ' address with that of [some other person]6129-some other person ; for it seemed a most unlikely thing that [she]406-mrs. elton should know [the residents at [two Nos . 19 [Grove Street]30-grove street]6131-two nos . 19 grove street]6130-the residents at two nos . 19 grove street . However so it proved — but of that in [its]6132-its place . It was now six months since [they]6126-my kind friends had quitted [London]1-london , perhaps on account of the climate , for [the gentleman]6124-the gentleman had been ill some time , and quite confined to [the house]764-the house . It would be altogether vain to think of tracing [them]6126-my kind friends in [America]56-america . While living in [London]1-london [they]6126-my kind friends owned a most magnificent dog , [a truly noble fellow but afflicted with a tumour]6135-a truly noble fellow but afflicted with a tumour . This dog suddenly disappeared , and [they]6126-my kind friends would not tell what had become of [him]6135-a truly noble fellow but afflicted with a tumour , but [the lady]1431-the lady cried most violently one day when [he]6135-a truly noble fellow but afflicted with a tumour was spoken of . Directly after this [they]6126-my kind friends left [the country]1831-the country , with a very brief farewell . All this [I]1918-good dog learned from [Mr.]6138-mr. and [Mrs. Elton]406-mrs. elton during [my]1918-good dog second visit , for [Mrs. Elton]406-mrs. elton was too good [a wife]1297-a wife to dispense with [[her]406-mrs. elton husband]6140-her husband 's judgment . Also [I]1918-good dog saw [[their]6126-my kind friends daughter]6141-their daughter , [a pleasing delicate girl]6142-a pleasing delicate girl ; [they]6126-my kind friends learned of course some parts of [my]1918-good dog story , and were most kind and affectionate to [me]1918-good dog ; and [I]1918-good dog am proud to have preserved [their]6126-my kind friends friendship to the present time . But as [they]6126-my kind friends take no prominent share in the drama of [my]1918-good dog life , henceforth [they]6126-my kind friends will not be presented upon its stage . As [I]1918-good dog returned up [the Villa Road]6143-the villa road , thinking of all [I]1918-good dog had heard , and feeling down at heart , something cold was gently placed in [my]1918-good dog ungloved hand . Turning in surprise and fright [I]1918-good dog saw an enormous dog , wagging [his]6140-her husband tail , and looking at [me]1918-good dog with magnificent brown eyes . Those great brown eyes were begging clearly for the honour of [my]1918-good dog acquaintance , and that huge muzzle was deposited as a gage of love . As [I]1918-good dog stooped to ascertain [his]6140-her husband sentiments , [he]6140-her husband gravely raised one mighty paw and offered it to [me]1918-good dog delicately , with a little sigh of self - approval . Upon [my]1918-good dog accepting it frankly and begging to congratulate [him]6140-her husband upon [his]6140-her husband noble appearance and evident moral excellence , [he]6140-her husband put out [his]6140-her husband tongue , a brilliant red one , and gave [me]1918-good dog a serious kiss . Then [he]6140-her husband shrugged [his]6140-her husband shoulders and looked with patient contempt at [a nicely - dressed young lady , who was exerting [her]6144-a nicely - dressed young lady , who was exerting her lungs at a silver whistle some fifty yards down the road lungs at a silver whistle some fifty yards down [the road]1630-the road]6144-a nicely - dressed young lady , who was exerting her lungs at a silver whistle some fifty yards down the road . "[1918-good dog] Go , [good dog]1918-good dog , " [I]1918-good dog said with a smile , "[1918-good dog] run , that 's [a good dog]1919-a good dog , [[your]1918-good dog Mistress]1920-your mistress wants [you]1918-good dog immediately . " "[1920-your mistress] Let [her]1920-your mistress wait , " [he]6140-her husband said with [his]6140-her husband eyes , "[1920-your mistress] [I]0-i am not in a hurry this morning , and [she]1920-your mistress does n't know what to do with [her]1920-your mistress time . However , if [you]1921-i think it would be rude of [me]0-i — " And with that [he]6140-her husband resumed a long bone , laid aside while [he]6140-her husband chatted to [me]1921-i , tucked it lengthwise in [his]6140-her husband mouth , like a tobacco - pipe , and after shaking hands again , and saying "[1921-i] Now do n't forget [me]0-i , " the great dog trotted away sedately , flourishing [his]6140-her husband tail on high , like a plume of Pampas grass . At the corner of [the railings]6146-the railings [he]6140-her husband overtook [[his]6140-her husband young Mistress]6147-his young mistress , whose features [I]1921-i could not descry ; though from [her]6147-his young mistress air and walk [I]1921-i knew that [she]6147-his young mistress must be [a pretty girl]6148-a pretty girl . [A good - tempered one]6149-a good - tempered one too [she]6147-his young mistress seemed to be , for [she]6147-his young mistress only shook [her]6147-his young mistress little whip lightly at the dog , who made an excursion across [the road]1630-the road and sniffed at a heap of dust . Although [Ann Maples]294-ann maples was not so very talkative , it would be romantic to suppose that [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer had failed to learn [my]1921-i entire history , so far at least as [[her]391-mrs. shelfer cousin]6046-her cousin knew it . Having now disposed of [one Grove Street]30-grove street , [I]1921-i was about to try the same rude tactics with another , viz . that in [Hackney]53-hackney ; when [[my]1921-i landlady]6074-my landlady gave a little nervous knock , and hurried into [the room]823-the room . "[1921-i] Oh , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara , is it about [them]1922-them willains [you]293-clara are wandering about and taking on so , and frightening all of [us]1923-us nearly to death ? " "[391-mrs. shelfer] [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [I]0-i shall feel obliged by [your]293-clara leaving [me]0-i to manage [my]0-i own affairs . " "[391-mrs. shelfer] Bless [you]293-clara , [Miss]1924-miss , so [I]0-i will . [I]0-i would n't have them on [my]0-i mind for [the Bank of [England]9-england]58-the bank of england , and [Guildhall]59-guildhall , paved with [Lombard Street]60-lombard street , and so [I]0-i told [Charley]395-charley last night . Right , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , quite right , [you]293-clara may depend upon it . " Here [she]391-mrs. shelfer tapped [her]391-mrs. shelfer forehead , and looked mysterious . "[293-clara] That being so , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [I]0-i need say nothing more ; " and with that [I]0-i was going away . "[0-i] No , no , to be sure not . Only listen to [me]0-i , [Miss]5433-miss , one minute ; and [I]0-i knows more about willains , a deal more than [you]293-clara do of course , [Miss. Why]342-miss. , ever since that rogue who come to [Miss Minto]405-miss minto 's with brandyballs and rabbitskins on a stick . " "[391-mrs. shelfer] Once more , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [I]0-i have no time to spare for gossip — " "[1927-gossip] [Gossip]1927-gossip ! No , no , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara ; if [you]293-clara ever heard [any one]1178-any one say [Patty Shelfer]409-patty was [a ' gossip]1929-a ' gossip , ' [I]0-i 'll thank [you]293-clara for [their]1178-any one name . [Gossip]410-gossip ! A mercy on [me]0-i with all [I]0-i has to do , and the days drawing in so , and how [they]1930-they does charge for the gas , and [the directors]1931-the directors holds a meeting first Tuesday in every month , and fills up the pipes with spittle , that 's the reason it sputters so , [Charley]395-charley told [me]0-i . " "[395-charley] Good bye , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer . " "[391-mrs. shelfer] No , no . One minute , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara ; [you]293-clara are always in such a hurry . What [Charley]395-charley and [me]0-i was talking about last night was this . [[My]0-i Uncle John , [a very high class man]1932-a very high class man , first - rate , first - rate , [Miss Vaughan]411-miss vaughan , has been for ever so long in [the detective police]1933-the detective police]411-miss vaughan . There 's nothing [he]411-miss vaughan do n't know of what goes on in [London]1-london , from the rats as comes up the drain pipes to [the Queen]1427-the queen getting up on [her]1427-the queen throne . [A wonderful man]1935-a wonderful man [he]411-miss vaughan is . [I]0-i said t'other day — " "[0-i] Is [he]411-miss vaughan like [you]391-mrs. shelfer , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ? " "[391-mrs. shelfer] Like [me]0-i , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend ! No , no . And [I]0-i would n't be like [him]411-miss vaughan for something . With all [them]1937-them state secrets upon [him]411-miss vaughan . Why [he]411-miss vaughan dare n't sneeze out of [his]411-miss vaughan hat . But if [you]391-mrs. shelfer 'll only put off going again till to - morrow , [he]411-miss vaughan 'll be here this very night about the plate [they]1938-they stole in [the Square]1939-the square . And [I]0-i 'm sure [you]391-mrs. shelfer ca n't do better than hear what [he]411-miss vaughan thinks about [you]391-mrs. shelfer . [He]411-miss vaughan 'll be sure to know all that was done at the time . Bless [you]391-mrs. shelfer , [he]411-miss vaughan has got to make all the returns ; what that is , [I]0-i do n't know . It 's a kind of tobacco [Charley]395-charley says , that [they]1938-they smokes in [the Queen]1427-the queen 's pipe . But [I]0-i think it 's [the convicts]1941-the convicts as returns from [Botany Bay]61-botany bay . " "[0-i] Well , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [I]0-i 'll think of what [you]391-mrs. shelfer say , and [I]0-i am much obliged to [you]391-mrs. shelfer for the suggestion ; but [I]0-i ca n't bear the idea of coming before [the Police]6123-the police again , with a matter in which [they]6123-the police failed so signally . " "[0-i] But [you]391-mrs. shelfer know , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , it need not be put on the books at all . [He]411-miss vaughan 'll tell [us]1944-us what [he]411-miss vaughan thinks of it , private like , and for the love of the thing . " "[411-miss vaughan] If [I]0-i see [him]411-miss vaughan at all , [I]0-i must beg to see [him]411-miss vaughan alone . " "[1798-my good friend] To be sure , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend . Quite right , [Miss Vaughan]411-miss vaughan , quite right . [I]0-i 'm sure [I]0-i would rather have [the plumber]1946-the plumber 's ladle put to [my]0-i ear , than one of [them]6123-the police horrible secrets . " "[391-mrs. shelfer] [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , have [I]0-i told [you]391-mrs. shelfer any ? Now remember , if [you]391-mrs. shelfer ever again allude to this subject before [me]0-i , [I]0-i leave [[your]391-mrs. shelfer house]5344-your house that day . [You]391-mrs. shelfer ought to know better , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer . " "[391-mrs. shelfer] [You]391-mrs. shelfer are quite right , [Miss Vaughan]411-miss vaughan ; [I]0-i ask [your]391-mrs. shelfer pardon , [you]391-mrs. shelfer are quite right . The very words as [Charley]395-charley said to [me]0-i the other night . ' [You]391-mrs. shelfer ought to have knowed better , [Patty]409-patty , that [you]391-mrs. shelfer did . ' " Away [she]391-mrs. shelfer went , smoothing [her]391-mrs. shelfer apron , patting the fray of [her]391-mrs. shelfer hair — for [she]391-mrs. shelfer never wore side - combs — and mumbling down [the stairs]5744-the stairs . "[409-patty] Quite right , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , quite right , [I]0-i ought to have knowed better , poor thing . " [She]391-mrs. shelfer brought up [my]0-i dinner and tea , without a single word , but with many sly glances at [me]0-i from [her]391-mrs. shelfer quick grey eyes . Once or twice [she]391-mrs. shelfer was at the point of speaking , and the dry smile [she]391-mrs. shelfer always spoke with fluttered upon [her]391-mrs. shelfer face ; but [she]391-mrs. shelfer closed [her]391-mrs. shelfer lips firmly and even bit them to keep [herself]391-mrs. shelfer in . [I]0-i could scarcely help laughing , for [I]0-i liked the odd little thing ; but [she]391-mrs. shelfer was so free with [her]391-mrs. shelfer tongue , that the lesson was sadly wanted . Late in the evening , [she]391-mrs. shelfer came to say that [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting was there , and would come up if [I]0-i wished it . Upon [my]0-i request [he]412-inspector cutting came , and one look was enough to show that [[his]412-inspector cutting niece]6155-his niece had not misdescribed [him]412-inspector cutting . [An elderly man]6156-an elderly man , but active looking and wiry , with nothing remarkable in [his]412-inspector cutting features , except the clear cast of [his]412-inspector cutting forehead and the firm set of [his]412-inspector cutting mouth . But the quick intelligence that shot from [his]412-inspector cutting eyes made it seem waste of time to finish telling [him]412-inspector cutting anything . For this reason , polite though [he]412-inspector cutting was , it became unpleasant to talk to [him]412-inspector cutting . It was something like shooting at [divers]6157-divers — as [[my]0-i father]731-my father used to describe it — for whom the flash of the gun is enough . Yet [he]412-inspector cutting never once stopped or hurried [me]0-i , until [my]0-i tale was done , and all [my]0-i thoughts laid bare . Then [he]412-inspector cutting asked to see all [my]0-i relics and vestiges of the deed ; even [[my]0-i gordit]6159-my gordit did not escape [him]412-inspector cutting . "[0-i] L.D.O. " [he]412-inspector cutting said shortly , "[1949-you] do [you]1949-you speak Italian ? ' " [I]1949-you can read it , but not speak it . "[1949-you] " Is it commoner for Italian surnames to begin with an O , or with a C ? "[1949-you] " There are plenty beginning with both ; but more [I]1949-you should think with a C. "[1949-you] When all [my]0-i particulars had been told , and all [my]0-i evidence shown , [I]0-i asked with breathless interest — for [my]0-i confidence in [him]1950-me grew fast — what [his]1950-me opinion was . " Allow [me]1950-me , [young lady]1872-young lady , to put a few questions to [you]1872-young lady , on matters [you]1872-young lady have not mentioned . Forgive [me]1950-me , if [they]6161-they pain [you]1872-young lady . [I]1950-me believe [you]1872-young lady feel that [they]6161-they will not be impertinent . "[1950-me] [I]0-i promised to answer without reserve . " What was [[your]1949-you mother]5332-your mother 's personal appearance ? "[0-i] " Most winning and delicate . "[1949-you] " How old was [she]5332-your mother at the time of [her]5332-your mother marriage ? "[1950-me] " Twenty - one , [I]0-i believe . "[0-i] " How old was [[your]1949-you father]5365-your father then ? "[1949-you] " Twenty - five . "[1950-me] " How many years were [they]6164-they married ? "[0-i] " Sixteen , exactly . "[0-i] " When did [[your]1949-you guardian]5396-your guardian first leave [England]9-england ? "[1949-you] " In the course of a year or two after the marriage . "[0-i] " Had there been any misunderstanding between [him]5396-your guardian and [[your]1949-you father]5365-your father ? "[0-i] " None , that [I]1949-you ever heard of . "[1949-you] " Did [[your]1949-you father]5365-your father , at any time , travel on [the continent]6168-the continent ? "[1949-you] " Only in [Switzerland]62-switzerland , and [part of [Italy]63-italy]6169-part of italy , during [his]5365-your father wedding tour . "[0-i] " [[Your]1949-you guardian]5396-your guardian returned , [I]1949-you believe , at intervals to [England]9-england ? "[1949-you] [I]0-i had never told [him]1951-him this . " Yes . At least [I]1949-you suppose so , or [he]5396-your guardian would not have been in [London]1-london . "[1949-you] " Did [he]5396-your guardian visit then at [Vaughan Park]5-vaughan park ? "[0-i] " Not once within [my]0-i memory . "[0-i] " Thank [you]1949-you . [I]0-i will ask no more . It is a strange story ; but [I]0-i have known several much more strange . Of one thing be assured . [I]0-i shall catch [the criminal]6171-the criminal . [I]0-i need not tell [you]1949-you that [I]0-i heard much of this case at the time . "[0-i] " Were [you]1949-you sent down to [Gloucestershire]3-gloucestershire ? "[0-i] " No . If [I]0-i had been — well , [I]0-i will not say . But [I]0-i was not then in [my]0-i present position . Had [I]0-i been so , it would have become [my]0-i special department . "[0-i] " Pray keep [me]0-i no more in suspense . Tell [me]0-i what [you]1949-you think . "[0-i] " That [I]0-i must not do , or [you]1949-you should know it at once , for [my]0-i opinion is formed . It would be a breach of duty for [me]0-i to tell [you]1949-you now . "[0-i] " Oh , "[0-i] [I]0-i cried in [my]0-i disappointment , " [I]0-i wish [I]0-i had never seen [you]1949-you . "[0-i] " [Young lady]1872-young lady , [you]1949-you have done [your]1949-you duty in placing the matter before [me]0-i , and some day [you]1949-you will rejoice that [you]1949-you did so . One piece of advice [I]0-i will give [you]1949-you : change [your]1949-you name immediately , before even [the tradesmen about here]6173-the tradesmen about here know it . "[0-i] " Change [my]0-i name , [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting ! Do [you]412-inspector cutting think [I]0-i am ashamed of [my]0-i name ? "[0-i] " Certainly not . [You]1949-you have shown great intelligence when [a mere child]6174-a mere child ; exert but a little now , and [you]1949-you will see the good sense , or rather the necessity , of [my]0-i recommendation . When [you]1949-you have gained [your]1949-you object , [you]1949-you may resume [your]1949-you name with pride . [You]1949-you have given [your]1949-you information , [Miss Vaughan]411-miss vaughan , as clearly as ever [I]0-i knew [a female]6175-a female give it . "[0-i] If [I]0-i detest anything , in the way of small things , it is to be called [a " female]6176-a " female . "[0-i] So [I]0-i said coldly ; " [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting , [I]0-i thank [you]412-inspector cutting for the compliment . It would be strange indeed if [I]0-i could not tell with precision , what [I]0-i have thought of all [my]0-i life . "[0-i] " Excuse [me]1952-he , [Miss]6177-miss , it would not be strange at all , in [a female]6175-a female . And now [I]1952-he will wish [you]6177-miss ' good night . ' [You]6177-miss shall hear from [me]1952-he when needful . Meanwhile , [I]1952-he will take charge of these articles . "[1952-he] [He]1952-he began , in the coolest manner , to pack up [my]0-i sacred relics , dagger , casts , and all . " Indeed [you]1952-he wo n't , "[0-i] [I]0-i cried , " [you]1952-he shall not have one of them . What are [you]1952-he thinking of ? "[1952-he] [He]1952-he went on with [his]1952-he packing . [I]0-i saw [he]1952-he was resolute ; so was [I.]0-i [I]0-i sprang to the door , locked it , and put the key in [my]0-i pocket . [He]1952-he said nothing , but smiled . " Now , "[1952-he] [I]0-i exclaimed in triumph , " [you]1952-he can not take those away , unless [you]1952-he dare to outrage [a young lady]6179-a young lady . "[0-i] [I]0-i was wholly mistaken . [He]1952-he passed by , without touching [me]0-i , drew some instrument from [his]1952-he waistcoat pocket , and the door stood open before [him]1952-he . All [my]0-i treasures were in [his]1952-he left hand . [I]0-i flew at , and snatched them , and then let go with a scream . A gush of blood poured from [my]0-i hand . [He]1952-he had taken the dagger folded in paper only , and [I]0-i was cut to the bone . [I]0-i sank on a chair and fainted . When [I]0-i came to [myself]0-i , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer was kneeling before [me]0-i , with [her]391-mrs. shelfer feet in a basin of water , while two other basins , and numberless towels , were round . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer was rubbing [my]0-i other hand , and crying and talking desperately about [her]391-mrs. shelfer bad luck that day , and [a man with eyes]1953-a man with eyes crossed whom [she]391-mrs. shelfer had met in the morning . In the background stood [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer [himself]413-mr. shelfer , whom [I]0-i had hitherto failed to see , though [I]0-i believe [he]413-mr. shelfer had seen [me]0-i often . [He]413-mr. shelfer had a pipe in [his]413-mr. shelfer mouth about a yard long , and seemed wholly undisturbed . " All right , [old ' ooman]6180-old ' ooman , "[413-mr. shelfer] [he]413-mr. shelfer said deliberately through [his]413-mr. shelfer nose , as [he]413-mr. shelfer saw that [I]0-i perceived [him]413-mr. shelfer , " [she]6180-old ' ooman 'll do now , if [you]0-i do n't make too much rumpus . "[413-mr. shelfer] And with that [he]413-mr. shelfer disappeared , and [I]0-i had time to pity [myself]0-i . The hand [the poor farmer]1954-the poor farmer used so to admire , and which [I]0-i was proud of no doubt , in [my]0-i way , lay in a dishcloth covered and oozing with blood . But [my]0-i relics were on the table , all safe . A quick step was heard on the stairs , and [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting came in , carrying a small phial . " Out of the way , [Patty]409-patty , "[412-inspector cutting] [he]412-inspector cutting cried , " [you]409-patty are doing more harm than good . "[412-inspector cutting] [He]412-inspector cutting took up a basin of cold water , and poured half the contents of the little phial into it . " Now hold [her]6180-old ' ooman arm up , [Patty]409-patty , as high as [you]409-patty can . [I]412-inspector cutting never knew [arnica]414-arnica fail . "[412-inspector cutting] [My]0-i hand was put into the water , and the bleeding was stanched in a minute or two . However [he]412-inspector cutting kept it there for a quarter of an hour , till it was quite benumbed . " Now [you]409-patty may look at [your]409-patty hand , [Miss Vaughan]411-miss vaughan ; it will not be disfigured at all . There will be no inflammation . [Patty]409-patty , fetch [me]412-inspector cutting some cambric and the best lard ; put [the young lady]5814-the young lady to bed at once , and prop [her]6180-old ' ooman arm up a little . "[412-inspector cutting] [I]0-i looked at [my]0-i hand , and found three parallel gashes across it , for every edge of the weapon was keen . But only one wound was deep , viz . that across the palm , which was very deep under the thumb . [I]0-i have the mark of it still . All the wounds were edged with a narrow yellow line . " [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting , "[0-i] [I]0-i cried , " no power will move [me]0-i from here , until [you]412-inspector cutting promise not to steal [my]0-i property . Stealing it is , and nothing else . [You]412-inspector cutting have no warrant , and [my]0-i information to [you]412-inspector cutting was wholly unofficial . "[0-i] The last word seemed to move [him]412-inspector cutting . [They]1955-i all like big words , however clear - headed they are . " [Miss Vaughan]411-miss vaughan , under these special circumstances , [I]1955-i will promise what [you]412-inspector cutting require ; upon condition that [you]412-inspector cutting give [me]1955-i accurate drawings , for [I]1955-i see that [you]412-inspector cutting can make them . "[1955-i] " Certainly , when [my]1955-i hand is well enough . "[1955-i] " Believe [me]0-i , [I]0-i am deeply concerned at what has occurred . But the fault was all [your]412-inspector cutting own . How dare [you]412-inspector cutting obstruct [the Police]6123-the police ? But [I]0-i wish [some of [[my]0-i fellows]6184-my fellows]6183-some of my fellows had only half [your]412-inspector cutting spirit . A little more experience , and nothing will escape [you]412-inspector cutting . Come , [Miss Vaughan]411-miss vaughan , though [you]412-inspector cutting are [a lady]5829-a lady , or rather because [you]412-inspector cutting are [one]6186-one , give [me]0-i [your]412-inspector cutting left hand , in token that [you]412-inspector cutting forgive [me]0-i . "[0-i] [I]0-i did so with all [my]0-i heart . [I]0-i liked [him]1956-he much better since [I]0-i had defeated [him]1956-he ; and [I]0-i saw that it was well worth the pain , for [he]1956-he would do [his]1956-he utmost to make amends . [He]1956-he wished [me]0-i good night with a most respectful bow . " [I]1956-he will come and inquire how [you]412-inspector cutting are to - morrow , [Miss Vaughan]411-miss vaughan . [Patty]409-patty , quiet , and coolness , and change the lard frequently . [No doctor]6187-no doctor , if [you]412-inspector cutting please ; and above all hold [your]412-inspector cutting queer little tongue . "[1956-he] " Never fear [me]412-inspector cutting , [Uncle John]411-miss vaughan ; [you]411-miss vaughan are right , [[my]412-inspector cutting good friend]1798-my good friend , it is a little tongue , but no queerer than [[my]412-inspector cutting neighbours]6189-my neighbours . "[412-inspector cutting] [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting would have formed a far lower opinion of [my]0-i spirit , if [he]1956-he had seen how [I]0-i cried that night ; not from the pain of the wounds , [I]0-i am sure , but to think of the fuss [dear mother]968-dear mother would have made about them . In spite of the arnica , [my]0-i cuts were not healed for a month ; not enough , [I]0-i mean , for [me]0-i to handle a pencil . [Mr. Cutting]415-mr. cutting , when [he]1956-he came , according to promise , told [me]0-i something to quiet [me]0-i , because [I]0-i was so feverish . Whether [he]1956-he believed it , or only acted medically , was more than [I]0-i could decide . The opinion [he]1956-he gave [me]0-i , or the substance of it , was this . That the deed was done , not for money , or worldly advantage in any way , but for revenge . Here [I]0-i thought of [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy . What wrong the revenge was wreaked for , [he]1956-he could not even guess , or at any rate would not hint to [me]0-i . That the straightest clue to the mystery was to be sought in [Italy]63-italy , where [[my]0-i guardian]912-my guardian 's track should be followed carefully . The idea of forcing , or worming , the truth from [him]1956-he was rejected at once through [my]0-i description of [his]1956-he character ; although [the Inspector]1959-the inspector quite agreed with [me]0-i , that , even if guiltless of the crime , [Mr. Edgar Vaughan]297-mr. edgar vaughan knew all about it now . That no importance should be attached to the anonymous letter from [London]1-london ; in accordance with [my]0-i promise to [Mrs. Elton]406-mrs. elton , [I]0-i did not mention [the Polish lady]1960-the polish lady 's name ; and [Mr. Cutting]415-mr. cutting did not press [me]0-i to do so , for [he]415-mr. cutting firmly believed from what [I]0-i said that [she]1960-the polish lady had made a mistake in the address [she]1960-the polish lady gave , and would not help [us]1961-us now , even if [we]1961-us could find [her]1960-the polish lady . That nevertheless a strict watch should be kept in [London]1-london , whither flock nine - tenths of [the foreigners who ever set foot in [this country]1963-this country]1962-the foreigners who ever set foot in this country . [London]1-london moreover was likely , ere long , to draw nearly [all the migratory strangers]1964-all the migratory strangers to the business or pleasure of next year 's " Great Exhibition , "[1959-the inspector] provided only that it should prove successful , as [the Inspector]1959-the inspector thought it would . As for [[my]0-i enemy]1966-my enemy being attracted by works of industry , it seemed to [me]0-i quite against nature that [a base assassin]1967-a base assassin should care for art or science , or any national progress . But the remembrance of several cases , among the dark annals [I]0-i used to delight in , soon proved to [me]0-i [my]0-i error ; while the long experience of [a man]5384-a man , versed from [his]5384-a man youth in criminal ways , convicted [me]0-i of presumption . To put [myself]0-i more on a level with fraud , and stealth , and mystery , [I]0-i did a thing for which [I]0-i felt guilty to [myself]0-i and [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother . [I]0-i changed [my]0-i name . But , in spite of [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting , [I]0-i did not travel out of [the family]1254-the family . [[My]0-i father]731-my father 's second name was " [Valentine]298-harry , "[731-my father] taken from [[his]731-my father mother]1066-his mother . This name [I]0-i assumed in a shorter form , becoming " [Clara Valence]416-clara valence ; "[0-i] it saved change of initials and a world of trouble , and [I]0-i felt warmer in it , because it seemed to have been [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's . In [the neighbourhood]5329-the neighbourhood [I]0-i knew [no one]730-no one except [Mrs. Elton]406-mrs. elton , to whom ( as [I]0-i grew intimate with [her]406-mrs. elton ) [I]0-i partly explained [my]0-i reasons . As for [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [she]391-mrs. shelfer was delighted at the change . [She]391-mrs. shelfer said that [[her]391-mrs. shelfer Uncle [John]411-miss vaughan]1976-her uncle john had christened [me]0-i , that it sounded much prettier , and would always remind [her]391-mrs. shelfer of [Valentines]417-valentines . Nevertheless [I]0-i longed for the day when [I]0-i might call [myself]0-i " [Clara Vaughan]293-clara "[0-i] once more . By the time [I]0-i was able to go about freely again and use [my]0-i hand as of old , it was the middle of November . The first use [I]0-i made of [my]0-i pencil was to copy most carefully all that Inspector Cutting required . [He]1977-he promised to keep these drawings , and indeed the whole matter , most jealously to [himself]1977-he ; by which term [he]1977-he meant , as [I]0-i afterwards found , [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting and those to whom [he]1977-he was bound to report . What [I]0-i now wanted was money , to send an adroit inquirer throughout [the North of [Italy]63-italy]1978-the north of italy , and [other parts where [[my]0-i guardian]912-my guardian 's shifting abode had been]1979-other parts where my guardian 's shifting abode had been . [I]0-i knew that [he]1977-he dwelt awhile at [Pisa]64-pisa , [Genoa]65-genoa , and [Milan]66-milan , also at [an obscure little village named "]6190-an obscure little village named " [Calva]67-calva , "[1977-he] which [I]0-i could not find in the maps . All [I]0-i had learned of [his]1977-he rovings was from the lessons [[my]0-i father]731-my father would give [me]0-i sometimes , when [he]731-my father used to say , " Now , [Tooty]289-tooty , put [your]289-tooty finger on [Uncle Edgar]310-uncle edgar . "[731-my father] To [every one]1982-every one , but [myself]0-i , it seemed a strange thing that after so many wanderings , [Mr. Edgar Vaughan]297-mr. edgar vaughan had brought [no valet]1983-no valet , [major domo]1984-major domo , or [courier]1985-courier , [no dependant or retainer of any kind]1986-no dependant or retainer of any kind , and not even [a foreign friend to [England]9-england]1987-a foreign friend to england , or at any rate to [Vaughan Park]5-vaughan park . But now for the needful resources — the only chance of procuring [them]1988-them lay in [my]0-i young and partly self - tutored art . [I]0-i braced [myself]0-i with the remembrance , that while [none of [[my]0-i family]1990-my family]1989-none of my family ever laid claim to genius , [the limner 's faculty]1991-the limner 's faculty had never been wanting among [them]1990-my family . Inferior gifts are often as heirlooms in the blood , though high original power follows no vein except its own . The latter none of [us]1992-us ever possessed ; but taste and the knack of adaptation had seldom been alienated . Observation too , in a small way , and the love of nature seemed inborn in [us]1992-us all . [[My]0-i father]731-my father 's drawings were perfect , but for the one thing wanted ; and in sketches from outdoor nature that want was less perceived . [[My]0-i grandfather]1994-my grandfather had been known among [the few amateurs of the day]1995-the few amateurs of the day as [a skilful colourist]1996-a skilful colourist . As to habits of observation , a little tale handed down in [[our]1992-us family]1997-our family will show that [they]1997-our family had existed in [one of its members]1998-one of its members seven generations ago . In the autumn of 1651 , when [King Charles]419-king charles was stealing along from [[Colonel Wyndham]420-colonel wyndham 's house]1999-colonel wyndham 's house to [the coast of [Hampshire]68-hampshire and [Sussex]69-sussex]2000-the coast of hampshire and sussex , [the little band]2001-the little band was overtaken by nightfall , somewhere near [the New Forest]2002-the new forest . It was shortly after the narrow escape of [the King]5999-the king from [that observant blacksmith]2004-that observant blacksmith , who saw that [his]5999-the king horse was shod with North - country iron . Though [he]5999-the king was taking it easily , [[his]5999-the king three trusty friends]2005-his three trusty friends knew well that [a Roundhead Squadron]70-a roundhead squadron was near , and that [his]5999-the king last chance depended on speed and night travel . What could [they]2005-his three trusty friends do now in the tempestuous darkness ? [They]2005-his three trusty friends were in [a tract thinly inhabited , half woodland , half heather]2006-a tract thinly inhabited , half woodland , half heather , and [the road]1630-the road was hopelessly lost . No rain fell as yet it was true , and the wind was waiting for rain , but the lightning came fitfully from the horizon all round . [The King]419-king charles alone was on horseback , [[his]5999-the king three companions]2008-his three companions afoot . [They]2005-his three trusty friends stood still in doubt and terror , for [they]2005-his three trusty friends could not tell north from south . Suddenly [Major Cecil Vaughan]421-major cecil vaughan espied a faint gleam familiar to [him]421-major cecil vaughan of old in [the waste land]2009-the waste land round [Vaughan Park]5-vaughan park . To an accurate eye there could be little doubt as to the source of the lambent light — flame it could not be called . It played in a pale yet constant stream on a certain kind of moss , known to [botanists]2010-botanists , not to [me]0-i , for [the waste lands]2011-the waste lands have been reclaimed . This light is to be seen at no time , except when the air is surcharged with electricity . " Follow [me]421-major cecil vaughan all ; [I]421-major cecil vaughan know the way ! "[421-major cecil vaughan] cried [Major Vaughan]421-major cecil vaughan , right cheerily . " And if [you]421-major cecil vaughan do , [man]5770-man , "[5999-the king] said [the King]5999-the king , " [your]421-major cecil vaughan eyes are made of [dashers]6192-dashers . "[5999-the king] [ What this meant , [I]0-i used as [a child]782-a child to wonder ; but now [I]0-i know . ] For six dark miles [the Major]421-major cecil vaughan led [them]2005-his three trusty friends without default , until [they]2005-his three trusty friends came to [a lonely heathman 's house]2014-a lonely heathman 's house , where [they]2005-his three trusty friends slept in safety . [He]421-major cecil vaughan never told [them]2005-his three trusty friends how [he]421-major cecil vaughan did it ; being apt , [I]0-i suppose , as [men of the second order]2015-men of the second order are , to hug superior knowledge . But it was a most simple thing . That strangely sensitive moss follows the course of the sun , and therefore the lambent light can only be seen from the west . So all the time [he]421-major cecil vaughan could see it — [the others]1636-the others never saw it at all — [he]421-major cecil vaughan knew that [they]1636-the others were wending from west to east , which was [their]1636-the others proper course . To return to [myself]0-i . [I]0-i put the finishing touch to a view of rock and [woodland scenery]2017-woodland scenery , north - west of [[Tossil]361-tossil 's [Barton]361-tossil]5668-tossil 's barton , and set off to try [my]0-i fortune with it . [Some young ladies]1009-some young ladies , born to [my]0-i position , would have thought this errand one of much degradation , but it did not appear so to [me]0-i . So [I]0-i walked briskly — for [I]0-i hate [an omnibus]2020-an omnibus , and could ill afford [a cab]2021-a cab — to [the shop of [a well - known dealer in pictures]2023-a well - known dealer in pictures , not far from [the Haymarket]72-the haymarket]2022-the shop of a well - known dealer in pictures , not far from the haymarket . It was [my]0-i first venture into [the heart of [London]1-london]2024-the heart of london , but [I]0-i found the way very easily , having jotted it down from a map . The day was dark and drizzly ; [the pavement]2025-the pavement grimy and slimy , and hillocked with mud at the joints of the flags . It was like walking on a peeled kneading - trough with dollops of paste left in it . Along the far reach of [the streets]2026-the streets , and [the gardens]2027-the gardens in [the squares]2028-the squares , wisps of fog were crawling , and almost every one was coughing . [The dealer]2029-the dealer received [me]0-i politely . Too politely in fact : for it seemed to savour of kindness , which [I]0-i did not want from [him]2029-the dealer . What [I]0-i wanted was business , and nothing else . [He]2029-the dealer took [my]0-i poor drawing , done only in water - colours , and set it up in a square place made perhaps for the purpose , where the brown flaw fell upon it from a skylight formed like a Devonshire chimney . Then [he]2029-the dealer drew back and clasped [his]2029-the dealer hands , then shaded [his]2029-the dealer eyes with them , as if the light were too strong , whereas [the whole place]2030-the whole place was like [a well turned upside down]2031-a well turned upside down . [He]2029-the dealer seemed uneasy because [I]0-i did not care to follow [him]2029-the dealer throughout all this little performance . " And now , "[0-i] [I]0-i said , for [my]0-i foolish pride was up , and [I]0-i spoke as [I]0-i would have done to [the porter at [[our]2033-our lodge]973-our lodge]2032-the porter at our lodge , not with the least contempt — [I]0-i was never so low as that — but with a long perspective , " Now , [Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall , it will soon be dark . What will [you]422-mr. oxgall give [me]0-i for it ? "[0-i] " Allow [me]0-i , [Miss]6193-miss ; allow [me]0-i one moment . The light is a leetle too strong . Ah , the mark of the brush comes out . Strong touch , but indiscreet . A year of study required . Shade too broad and massive . A want of tone in the background . Great feeling of nature , but inexperienced rendering . More mellowness desiderated . Full however of promise . All the faults on the right side . Most energetic handling ; no weak stippling here . But water - colours are down just now ; a deal depends on the weather and time of year . "[0-i] " How so , [Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall ? "[2032-the porter at our lodge] " Hot sun , and off they go . Fog and murk and frost , and the cry is all for oil . Excuse [me]0-i , [Miss]5433-miss — a thousand pardons , [your]5433-miss name escaped [me]0-i , [you]5433-miss did not pronounce it strongly . "[0-i] " [Miss Valence]423-miss valence ! "[0-i] [I]0-i said , with an emphasis that startled [him]2032-the porter at our lodge out of [his]2032-the porter at our lodge mincing . " [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , [you]423-miss valence think [me]0-i very long . [All young ladies]6195-all young ladies do . But [my]0-i object is to do [them]6195-all young ladies justice , and if [they]6195-all young ladies show any power , to encourage [them]6195-all young ladies . "[0-i] " Thank [you]423-miss valence , [I]0-i want no encouragement . [I]0-i know [I]0-i can draw a little ; and there it is . The fog is thickening . [I]0-i have far to go . [Your]423-miss valence price , if [you]423-miss valence please ? "[0-i] [I]0-i went up many steps in [his]2032-the porter at our lodge opinion , by reason of [my]0-i curtness and independence . " [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , [I]0-i will give [you]423-miss valence three guineas , although no doubt [I]0-i shall be [a loser]6196-a loser . "[0-i] " Then do n't give it , "[0-i] said [I]0-i in pure simplicity . [I]0-i went up several steps more . How utterly [men of [the world]798-the world]2035-men of the world are puzzled by plain truth ! " [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , if [you]423-miss valence will forgive the observation , [I]0-i would beg to remark that [your]423-miss valence conversation as well as [your]423-miss valence painting is crisp . [I]0-i will take this little piece at all hazards , because it is full of character . Will [you]423-miss valence forgive [me]0-i for one word of advice ? "[0-i] " There is nothing to forgive . [I]0-i shall thank [you]423-miss valence heartily for it . "[0-i] " It is simply this:—The worst part of [your]423-miss valence work is the perspective . And figure - drawing will be of service to [you]423-miss valence . Study at [a school of design]6197-a school of design , if [you]423-miss valence have one near [you]423-miss valence ; and be not above drawing stiff and unsightly objects . [Houses]6198-houses are the true guides to perspective . [I]0-i can not paint or even draw ; but [I]0-i am so much with [great artists]6199-great artists , that [I]0-i know well how to advise . "[0-i] " Thank [you]423-miss valence . Can [you]423-miss valence kindly suggest anything more ? "[0-i] " Yes . [Your]423-miss valence touch is here and there too harsh . Keep [your]423-miss valence hand light though bold , and [your]423-miss valence brush just a leetle wetter . But [you]423-miss valence have the grand things quite unattainable , when not in the grain . [I]0-i mean , of course , freedom of handling and [an artist]6200-an artist 's eye . "[0-i] " Do [you]423-miss valence think [I]0-i could do any good in oils ? "[0-i] " [I]2037-i have no doubt [you]423-miss valence could , but not for a long time . If fame is [your]423-miss valence object , take to oils . If speedy returns , stick to water - colours . Leave [me]2037-i [your]423-miss valence address , if [you]423-miss valence have no objection ; and bring [me]2037-i [your]423-miss valence next work . If [I]2037-i do well with this , [I]2037-i will try to give [you]423-miss valence more . "[2037-i] [He]2037-i took from a desk three new sovereigns and three new shillings , wrapped them neatly in silver paper , and handed them to [me]0-i . [I]0-i never imagined [I]0-i could be so proud of money . Light of heart [I]0-i left [the shop]2038-the shop , not that [I]0-i had made [my]0-i fortune yet , but what was greater happiness , [I]0-i thought [myself]0-i likely to make it . Soon [I]0-i perceived , with some alarm , how thick and murky the air had grown . The fog was stooping heavily down , and was now become like a wash of gamboge and lamp - black . [All the street]2039-all the street - lamps were lit , though [they]2039-all the street could not see one another , and [every shop - keeper]2040-every shop - keeper had [[his]2040-every shop - keeper little jet]2041-his little jet . [The pavement]2025-the pavement was no longer slippery , but sticky and dry ; and a cold , that pierced to the bones , was stealing along . Already it had begun to freeze ; and [I]0-i , so familiar both with white and black frost , observed with no small interest the grey or fog - frost , which was new to [me]0-i . How different from the pure whiteness when the stars are sparkling , and [the earth]1046-the earth is gleaming , and the spirit of [man]5770-man so buoyant ! This grey fog - frost is rather depressing to most natures , and a chilly damp creeps to the core of all things . Thick encrusting rime comes with it , and sometimes a freezing rain . Before [I]0-i reached [the New Road]2045-the new road , the fog had grown so dense and dark , that [I]0-i was much inclined to take [a cab]2021-a cab , for fear of losing [my]0-i way . But [I]0-i could not see one , and finding [myself]0-i at last in [a main thoroughfare called [the Hampstead Road]2048-the hampstead road]2047-a main thoroughfare called the hampstead road , [I]0-i walked on briskly and bravely till [I]0-i reached [Camden Town]73-camden town , when [I]0-i knew what course to pursue . Slowly wending up [College Street]74-college street , for [I]0-i was getting tired and the fog thicker than ever , indeed every step seemed a thrust into an ochred wall , [I]0-i heard a plaintive , and rather musical , voice chanting , much as follows : — " [Christian friends]6201-christian friends , and [sisters in the Lord]6202-sisters in the lord , [all who own a heart that feels for undeserved distress]6203-all who own a heart that feels for undeserved distress , aid , [I]0-i implore [you]6201-christian friends , [a bereaved wife]6204-a bereaved wife and [mother]739-mother , who has this very moment [seven small lovely children]6206-seven small lovely children , starving in [a garret]1413-a garret , three of [them]6206-seven small lovely children upon a bed of sickness , and [the inhuman landlord]6208-the inhuman landlord , for the sake of a few shillings about to turn [them]6206-seven small lovely children this bitter night into [the flinty streets]6209-the flinty streets . [Christian friends]6201-christian friends , may [you]6201-christian friends never know what it is to be famished as [I]0-i and [[my]0-i seven darlings]6211-my seven darlings are this very night , in the midst of plenty . From [Plymouth]75-plymouth in [Devonshire]4-devonshire , [I]0-i walked two hundred and fifty miles afoot all the way to join [[my]0-i beloved husband]6212-my beloved husband in [London]1-london . When [I]0-i came to [this Christian city]6213-this christian city — [Georgiana]424-georgiana , pick up that halfpenny — [he]6212-my beloved husband had been ordered off in [the transport ship Hippopotamus]6214-the transport ship hippopotamus , to shed [his]6212-my beloved husband blood for [his]6212-my beloved husband Queen and [country]6215-country ; and [I]0-i who have known the smiles of plenty in [[my]0-i happy rustic home]6216-my happy rustic home , [I]0-i am compelled for the sake of [[my]0-i children]6217-my children to the degradation of publicly soliciting alms . The smallest trifle , even an old pair of shoes or a left off garment will be received with the heartfelt gratitude of [the widow]1411-the widow and [orphan]6219-orphan . [[My]0-i eldest child]6220-my eldest child , [ma'am]5765-ma'am , the oldest of seven , bad in the whooping cough . [Georgiana]424-georgiana , curtsey to [the pretty lady]6222-the pretty lady , and show [her]2049-she [your]424-georgiana broken chilblains . "[0-i] " No thank [you]424-georgiana , "[0-i] [I]0-i said : [I]0-i could just see [her]2049-she through the fog . [She]2049-she looked like one who had seen better days , and the thought of [my]0-i own vicissitudes opened [my]0-i heart towards [her]2049-she . How could [I]0-i show [my]0-i gratitude better for the money [I]0-i had just earned , than by bestowing a share in charity upon [worthy objects]2050-worthy objects ? So [I]0-i took out [my]0-i purse , an elegant little French one given [me]0-i by [dear mother]968-dear mother , and placed [my]0-i three new shillings in [the poor creature]2052-the poor creature 's hand , as [she]2049-she stood in the gutter . [She]2049-she was overpowered with gratitude , and could not speak for a moment . Then [she]2049-she came nearer , to bless [me]0-i . " [Sweet lady]6223-sweet lady , in the name of [seven famishing innocents , whom [you]6223-sweet lady have saved from death this night]6224-seven famishing innocents , whom you have saved from death this night , may [[He]6225-he who guards [the fatherless]5786-the fatherless and [the widow]1411-the widow from [His]6225-he mercy - seat above]6226-he who guards the fatherless and the widow from his mercy - seat above , may [He]6225-he shower [his]6225-he richest blessings — "[2049-she] Snap — [she]2049-she had got [my]0-i purse and was out of sight in the fog . [Georgiana]424-georgiana 's red heels were the last thing [I]0-i saw . For an instant [I]0-i could not believe it ; but thought that the fog had affected [my]0-i sight . Then [I]0-i darted across [the road]1630-the road , almost under the feet of a horse , and down [a place called " [Pratt Street]76-pratt street]6229-a place called " pratt street . "[0-i] It was hopeless , utterly hopeless ; and not only [my]0-i three pounds were gone , but half besides of all [I]0-i had in [the world]798-the world . [I]0-i had taken that money with [me]0-i , because [I]0-i meant , if fortunate with [my]0-i landscape , to buy a large box of colours in Rathbone - place ; but the fog had deterred [me]0-i . [She]2049-she had snatched [my]0-i purse while [I]0-i tried to clasp it , for [my]0-i glove had first got in the way . All was gone , [dear mother]968-dear mother 's gift , [my]0-i first earnings , and all . More than all [I]0-i felt sore at heart from the baseness of the robbery . Nothing is so bitterly grievous to youth as a blow to faith in one 's species . [I]0-i am not ashamed to confess that feeling all alone in the fog , [I]0-i leaned against some iron railings and cried away like [a child]782-a child . [Child]5440-child [I]0-i was still at heart , despite all [my]0-i trials and spirit ; and more so perhaps than [girls who have played out [their]2058-girls who have played out their childhood childhood]2058-girls who have played out their childhood . In the full flow of [my]0-i passion , for [I]0-i was actually sobbing aloud , ashamed of [myself]0-i all the while , [I]0-i felt an arm steal round [my]0-i waist , and starting in fear of [another thief]2059-another thief , confronted the loveliest face that human eyes ever looked on . With soft caresses , and sweetest smiles , it drew close to [my]0-i own stormy and bitter countenance . " Are [you]0-i better now , [dear]5871-dear ? Oh do n't cry so . [You]0-i 'll break [your]0-i poor little heart . Do tell [me]2060-her what it is , that 's [a dear]1467-a dear . [I]2060-her 'll do anything to help [you]0-i . "[2060-her] " [You]0-i ca n't help [me]0-i : "[0-i] [I]0-i exclaimed through [my]0-i sobs : " [Nobody]1116-nobody can help [me]0-i ! [I]0-i was born to ill luck , and shall have nothing else till [I]0-i die . "[0-i] " Do n't say so dear . [You]0-i must n't think of it . [[My]2060-her father]731-my father , who never is wrong , says there 's no such thing as luck . "[2060-her] " [I]2060-her know that well enough . [People]1132-people always say that who have it on [their]1132-people side . "[2060-her] " Ah , [I]0-i never thought of that . But [I]0-i hope [you]0-i are wrong . But tell [me]0-i , [dear]5871-dear , what is the matter with [you]0-i . [I]0-i 'm sure [you]0-i have done no harm , and [dear papa]6236-dear papa says [no one]730-no one can be unhappy who has not injured [any one]1178-any one . "[0-i] " Ca n't [they]6239-they though ? [[Your]0-i papa]6240-your papa is [a moralist]6241-a moralist . Now [I]2060-her 'll just tell [you]0-i facts . "[2060-her] And to prove [my]0-i point , [I]0-i told [her]2060-her of this new trouble , hinted at previous ones and [my]0-i many great losses , of which money was the least . Even without the controversial spirit , [I]0-i must have told [her]2060-her all . There was no denying anything to such a winning loving face . " Dear [me]2060-her ! "[2060-her] [she]2060-her cried very thoughtfully , with [her]2060-her mites of hands out of [her]2060-her muff — [she]2060-her had the prettiest set of fur [I]0-i ever beheld , and how it became her!—"Dear [me]2060-her ! [she]2060-her could n't have meant it , [I]2060-her feel quite sure [she]2060-her could n't . [You]0-i 'll come to [my]2060-her opinion when [you]0-i have time to consider , [dear"—this]6242-dear"—this[2060-her] was said so sagely that [I]0-i could have kissed [her]2060-her all over like a duck of [a baby]2061-a baby . " To steal from [you]0-i who had just given [her]2060-her more than [you]0-i could afford ! Now come with [me]0-i , [dear]5871-dear , [you]0-i shall have all the money [I]0-i have got ; though [I]0-i do n't think it 's anything like the nine pounds [you]0-i have lost , and [I]0-i 'm sure it is not new money . Only [I]0-i have n't got it with [me]0-i . [I]0-i never carry money . Do [you]0-i know why , [dear]5871-dear ? "[0-i] " No . How should [I]2062-and the lively little thing ? "[2062-and the lively little thing] " Well , [I]0-i do n't mind telling [you]0-i . Because then [I]0-i ca n't spend it , or give it away . [I]0-i do n't care a bit about money . What good is it to [me]0-i ? Why , [I]0-i can never keep it , somehow or other . But [papa]425-papa says if [I]0-i can show five pounds on Christmas - day , [he]425-papa will put five more on the top of it , and then do [you]0-i know what [I]0-i 'll do ? [I]0-i 'll give away five , and spend the rest for [Pappy]426-pappy and [Conrad]427-conrad . "[0-i] [And the lively little thing]2062-and the lively little thing clapped [her]2062-and the lively little thing hands at the prospect , quite forgetting that [she]2062-and the lively little thing had just offered [me]0-i all [[her]2062-and the lively little thing store]2063-her store . Presently this occurred to [her]2062-and the lively little thing . " No . Now [I]0-i come to think of it , [I]0-i wo n't have the five pounds on Christmas - day . As [the girls at [the College]6246-the college]6245-the girls at the college say , [I]0-i 'll just sell [the old Pappy]426-pappy . That will be better fun still . [He]426-pappy will find a good reason for it . [He]426-pappy always does for everything . [You]0-i shall have every bit of it . Come [home]1102-home with [me]0-i now , that 's a dear . [You]0-i are better now , [you]0-i know . Come , that 's a love . [I]0-i am sure [I]0-i shall love [you]0-i with all [my]0-i heart , and [you]0-i are so terribly unlucky . "[0-i] [I]0-i yielded at once . [She]2062-and the lively little thing was so loving and natural , [I]0-i could not resist [her]2062-and the lively little thing . [She]2062-and the lively little thing broke upon [me]0-i like soft sunshine through the fog , laughing , smiling , dancing , [her]2062-and the lively little thing face all light and warmth , yet not a shallow light , but one that played up from the fount of tears . [Her]2062-and the lively little thing deep rich violet eyes seldom used their dark lashes , except when [she]2062-and the lively little thing was asleep . [She]2062-and the lively little thing was life itself , quick , playful , loving life , feeling for and with all life around ; pitying , trusting , admiring all things ; yet true as the hearth to household ties . [I]0-i never found another such nature : it was the perfection of maiden womanhood , even in its unreason . And therefore [nobody]1116-nobody could resist [her]2062-and the lively little thing . With [me]0-i , of ten times [her]2062-and the lively little thing strength of will , and power of mind — small though it be — [she]2062-and the lively little thing could do in a moment exactly as [she]2062-and the lively little thing liked ; [I]0-i mean of course in trivial matters . It was impossible to be offended with [her]2062-and the lively little thing . When [she]2062-and the lively little thing had led [me]0-i a few steps towards [[her]2062-and the lively little thing home]2065-her home — for [I]0-i went with [her]2062-and the lively little thing ( not , of course , to take [her]2062-and the lively little thing money , but to see [her]2062-and the lively little thing safe ) , [she]2062-and the lively little thing turned round suddenly : — " Oh [I]2066-i forgot , [dear]5871-dear ; [I]2066-i must not take [you]5871-dear to [[our]6249-our house]1160-our house . [We]6249-our have had new orders . But where do [you]5871-dear live ? [I]2066-i will bring [you]5871-dear [my]2066-i little bag to - morrow . [They]6251-they wo n't let [me]2066-i out again to - night . Now [I]2066-i know [you]5871-dear will oblige [me]2066-i . [I]2066-i am so sorry that [I]2066-i must n't see [you]5871-dear safe [home]1102-home , [dear]5871-dear . "[2066-i] This [she]2066-i said with the finest air of protection imaginable . [I]0-i gave [her]2066-i [my]0-i name and address , and asked for [hers]2066-i . " [My]0-i name is [Isola Ross]428-isola , [I]0-i am seventeen and a half , and [[my]0-i papa]6254-my papa is Professor at [the College]6246-the college . [I]0-i ran away from old [Cora]429-cora . It seemed such fun to be all alone in the fog . What trouble [I]0-i shall get into ! But [they]6256-they ca n't be angry with [me]0-i long . Kiss [me]0-i , [darling]6257-darling . Mind , to - morrow ! "[0-i] Off [she]2066-i danced through the fog ; and [I]0-i went sadly [home]1102-home , yet thinking more of [her]2066-i , than of [my]0-i serious and vexatious loss . [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting , upon the first tidings of the robbery , came at once , and assured [me]0-i that [he]412-inspector cutting knew the " party "[412-inspector cutting] well , and wanted [her]2066-i for several other plants , and crafty as [she]2066-i was ( " leary "[412-inspector cutting] was the elegant word [he]412-inspector cutting used ) [he]412-inspector cutting was sure to be down upon [her]2066-i in the course of a very short time . [Isola Ross]428-isola , to [my]0-i great surprise , did not come the next day , nor even the day after ; so [I]0-i set out to look for [her]2066-i , at the same time wondering at [myself]0-i for doing so . Knowing that [College Street]74-college street must take [its]74-college street name from [some academic building in or near [it]74-college street]2068-some academic building in or near it , [I]0-i concluded of course that there [I]0-i should find [Professor Ross]430-professor ross and [[my]0-i lovely new friend]2069-my lovely new friend . So without consulting [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , who would have chattered for an hour , away [I]0-i went one tine frosty morning to ask about [the College]6246-the college . [I]0-i found that [a low unsightly building , which [I]0-i had often passed , near the bottom of [the street]6090-the street]2071-a low unsightly building , which i had often passed , near the bottom of the street , was [the only College there]2073-the only college there ; so [I]0-i entered [a small quadrangle]2074-a small quadrangle , to make further inquiries . [The first person]2075-the first person [I]0-i saw was [a young man dressed like one of [[my]0-i father 's grooms]2077-my father 's grooms]2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms , and cracking a long whip and whistling . [He]2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms had a brilliant scarlet neckcloth , green sporting coat , and black boots up to [his]2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms knees . [I]0-i studied [him]2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms for a moment because it struck [me]0-i that [he]2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms would look well in a foreground , when toned down a little , as water colours would render [him]2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms . [He]2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms appreciated [my]0-i attention , and seemed proud of it . " Now , [Polly]431-polly , what can [I]2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms do for [you]431-polly , [dear]5871-dear ? "[2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms] [He]2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms must have been three parts drunk , or [he]2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms would never have dared to address [me]0-i so . Of course [I]0-i made no answer , but walked on . [He]2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms cracked [his]2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms whip like a pistol , to startle [me]0-i . " [Splendid filly]6259-splendid filly , "[2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms] [I]0-i heard [him]2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms mutter , " but cussed high action . "[2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms] What [he]2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms meant [I]0-i do not know or care . The next [I]0-i met was [a fussy little man , dressed all in brown , who smelt of musty hay]2078-a fussy little man , dressed all in brown , who smelt of musty hay . " Will [you]2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms kindly tell [me]0-i , "[0-i] [I]0-i asked , " where to find [Professor Ross]430-professor ross ? ' "[430-professor ross] [Ross]430-professor ross , [Ross]430-professor ross ! Do n't know the name . [No Ross]2079-no ross about here . What 's [he]430-professor ross Professor of ? " "[430-professor ross] That [I]0-i was not told . But it is something [the young ladies]2080-the young ladies study . " "[2080-the young ladies] [No young ladies]2081-no young ladies about [here]846-here . But [I]0-i see [you]0-i have brought [[your]0-i dear]2083-your dear mamma 's lapdog . Take it out of the bag . Let [me]0-i look at it . " "[0-i] Is not this [the College]6246-the college ? " "[0-i] Yes to be sure . [The best College in [London]1-london]2085-the best college in london . Quick , let [me]0-i see the dog . " "[0-i] [I]0-i have no dog , [sir]5380-sir . [I]0-i have made some mistake . " "[0-i] Then [you]0-i have got a pony . [Pet]432-pet over - fed . [Shetland breed]2087-shetland breed . " "[2087-shetland breed] No indeed . Nothing except [myself]0-i ; and [I]0-i am looking for [Miss Ross]428-isola . " "[428-isola] [Young lady]1872-young lady , [you]0-i have made a very great mistake . [You]0-i have kept [me]0-i five minutes from a lecture on the navicular disease . And [my]0-i practice is controverted by [an upstart youth from [the country]1831-the country]2089-an upstart youth from the country . [I]0-i am in search of [authorities]2091-authorities . " And off [he]0-i darted , [I]2091-authorities suppose to [the library]988-the library . It was clear that [I]2091-authorities had made some mistake , so [I]2091-authorities found [my]2091-authorities way back to [the street]6090-the street , and asked in [the nearest shop]6262-the nearest shop what building it was that [I]2091-authorities had just left . "[2091-authorities] Oh , [them]2092-they 's [the weterans]2093-the weterans , " said [the woman]822-the woman , "[2092-they] and a precious set [they]2092-they be ! " "[2092-they] Why , [they]2092-they did not look like [soldiers]2094-soldiers . " "[2092-they] No , no , [Miss. Weterans]342-miss. , where [they]2092-they takes in all the sick horses and dogs . And very clever [they]2092-they are , [I]0-i have heard say . " "[2092-they] And where is [the College]6246-the college where [the young ladies]2080-the young ladies are ? " "[0-i] [I]0-i do n't know of [no other College nearer than [High Street]77-high street]2097-no other college nearer than high street , where [the boys]2098-the boys wear flat caps . But there 's [[a girls]2099-a girls ' school down [the road]1630-the road]2100-a girls ' school down the road . " "[2099-a girls] [I]0-i do n't want [a school]2102-a school . [I]0-i want [a College where [young ladies]2104-young ladies go]2103-a college where young ladies go . " "[0-i] Then [I]0-i ca nt help [you]0-i , [Miss.]2105-miss. " And back [I]2105-miss. went to consult [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer . "[2105-miss.] Bless [my]0-i soul , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , " cried [the little woman]6264-the little woman , out of breath with amazement , "[423-miss valence] have [you]423-miss valence been among [them niggers]2106-them niggers ? It 's a mercy [they]2106-them niggers did n't skin and stuff [you]423-miss valence . What do [you]423-miss valence think now [they]2106-them niggers did to [[my]0-i old [Tom]379-tom gundry]2107-my old tom ? " "[423-miss valence] How can [I]0-i guess , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ? " "[391-mrs. shelfer] No , no , to be sure not . [I]0-i forgot , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend . Why , [they]2106-them niggers knowed [him]379-tom gundry well it seems , because [he]379-tom gundry had been [there]1114-there in dear [Miss Minto]405-miss minto 's time , for a salmon bone that had got crossways in [his]379-tom gundry oesop , so [they]2106-them niggers said at least , but [they]2106-them niggers are [the biggest liars]2110-the biggest liars — so only a year ago come next Boxing - day , here comes to the door half a dozen of [them]2106-them niggers , [bus - cad]2111-bus - cad and [coachman]2112-coachman all in one , all looking as grave as [judges]2113-judges . When [I]0-i went to the door [they]2106-them niggers all pulled [their]2106-them niggers hats off , as if [I]0-i had been [the Queen]1427-the queen at the very least . ' What can [I]0-i do for [you]2106-them niggers , [[my]0-i good friends]2115-my good friends ? ' says [I]0-i ; for [Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer was out of the way , and catch [me]0-i letting [them]2106-them niggers in for all [their]2106-them niggers politeness . No , no , thank [you]2106-them niggers . ' [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , ' says [the biggest of [them]2106-them niggers]2116-the biggest of them , [a lantern - jawed young fellow with covers over [his]2116-the biggest of them pockets]2117-a lantern - jawed young fellow with covers over his pockets , ' [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [you]391-mrs. shelfer are possessed of a most remarkable cat . An animal , [ma'am , of unparalleled cemetery and organic dewelopment]2118-ma'am , of unparalleled cemetery and organic dewelopment . [[Our]2119-our Professor]2120-our professor , [ma'am]5765-ma'am , is delivering a course of lectures on the Canonical Heapatightness of [the Hirumbillycuss]433-the hirumbillycuss . " "[5765-ma'am] Well done , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ! What a memory [you]391-mrs. shelfer must have ! " "[391-mrs. shelfer] Pretty well , [Miss]2122-miss , pretty well . Particular for long words , when [I]0-i likes the sound of them . ' Well [sir]5380-sir , ' [I]0-i says , feeling rather taken aback , ' thank [God]303-god [I]0-i have n't got it . ' ' No , [ma'am]5765-ma'am , ' says [he]5765-ma'am , ' [your]391-mrs. shelfer blooming countenance entirely negatives any such dyingnoses . But [the Professor]2125-the professor , in passing the other morning , observed some symptoms of it in [your]391-mrs. shelfer magnificent cat , for whom [he]2125-the professor entertains the most sincere attachment , and whom [he]2125-the professor will cure for [our]2119-our advancement and edification upon the lecture table . And now , [ma'am]5765-ma'am , [Professor Sallenders]434-professor sallenders desires [his]434-professor sallenders most respectful compliments , and will [you]391-mrs. shelfer allow [us]2119-our to take that dear good cat to be cured . [The Professor]2125-the professor was instrumental once in preserving [his]2125-the professor honoured existence , therefore [he]2125-the professor feels assured that [you]391-mrs. shelfer will not now refuse [him]2125-the professor . ' Well [you]391-mrs. shelfer see , [Miss]2128-miss , [I]0-i did n't half like to let [him]2125-the professor go , but [I]0-i was afraid to offend [the Professor]2125-the professor , because of all [my]0-i animals , for [I]0-i knew that [he]2125-the professor could put a blight upon them , birds and all , if [he]2125-the professor chose . [Old Tom]435-old tom was lying roasting [his]435-old tom back again the fender , the same as [you]391-mrs. shelfer see [him]435-old tom now , [poor soul]2130-poor soul ; so [I]0-i catched [him]435-old tom up and put [him]435-old tom in a double covered basket , with a bit of flannel over [him]435-old tom , because the weather was cold ; and [he]435-old tom was so clever , would [you]391-mrs. shelfer believe it , [he]435-old tom put up [his]435-old tom old paws to fight [me]0-i , [he]435-old tom knew [he]435-old tom was going to mischief , and that turned [me]0-i rather . ' Now will [you]2125-the professor promise to bring [him]435-old tom back safe ? ' [I]0-i says . ' [Ma'am]436-ma'am , ' says [the lantern - jawed young man]2131-the lantern - jawed young man , bowing over [his]2131-the lantern - jawed young man heart , and as serious as a pulpit , ' [Ma'am]436-ma'am , in less than an hour . Rely upon the honour of [Weteran Arian Gent]437-weteran arian gent . " "[437-weteran arian gent] Well , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [I]0-i am astonished . Even [I]0-i should never have been so silly . [Poor old Tom]435-old tom among [the Philistines]438-the philistines ! " "[2132-miss] Well , [Miss]2132-miss , [I]0-i began to feel very uneasy directly [they]2133-they was gone . [I]0-i thought [they]2133-they looked back so queerly , and [old Tom]435-old tom was mewing so dreadful in the basket . Presently [I]0-i began to hear a mewing out of the cupboard , and a mewing out of the clock , and even out of the dripping - pan . So [I]0-i put on [my]0-i bonnet as quick as [I]0-i could , and ran right away to [the College]6246-the college , and somehow or other by the time [I]0-i got [there]1114-there , [I]0-i was in a fright all over . As good luck would have it , [the man]5533-the man was at the gate ; [a nice respectable married man]2137-a nice respectable married man , and [a friend of [Charley]419-king charles 's]2138-a friend of charley 's . ' [Curbs]439-curbs , ' [I]0-i says , ' where is [Professor Sallenders]434-professor sallenders ? ' ' Down in [the country]1831-the country , ' says [he]434-professor sallenders , ' since last Friday . [He]434-professor sallenders never stops here at Christmas , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [he]434-professor sallenders 's a deal too knowing for that . ' [My]0-i heart went pop , [Miss]2140-miss , like an oyster shell in the fire . [I]0-i held on by the door , and [I]0-i thought it was all up with [me]0-i . ' Do n't take on so , [Missus]2141-missus , ' says [Curbs]439-curbs , ' if any of [[your]2141-missus museum]2142-your museum is ill , there 's [half a dozen clever young coves in [the operating room]2144-the operating room]2143-half a dozen clever young coves in the operating room over there , only [they]2143-half a dozen clever young coves in the operating room 're busy just now , cutting up a big black cat . [My]0-i eyes , how [he]434-professor sallenders did squeal ! ' [I]0-i screamed out and ran — [Curbs]439-curbs thought [I]0-i was mad , and [he]434-professor sallenders was not far out — bang went the door before [me]0-i , and there on the table , with [the lantern - jawed young man]2131-the lantern - jawed young man flourishing a big knife over [him]434-professor sallenders , there lay [[my]0-i precious old Tom]2146-my precious old tom strapped down on [his]2146-my precious old tom back , with [his]2146-my precious old tom mouth tied up in white tape , and leather gloves over [his]2146-my precious old tom feet , and sticks trussed across [him]2146-my precious old tom the same as a roasting rabbit , and a streak of white all along [his]2146-my precious old tom blessed stomach — [you]2147-you know , [Miss]2148-miss , [he]2146-my precious old tom had n't got one white hair by rights — where [the niggers]2149-the niggers had shaved and floured [him]2146-my precious old tom , to see what [they]2149-the niggers were about . [He]2146-my precious old tom turned up [his]2146-my precious old tom dear old eyes when [he]2146-my precious old tom saw [me]0-i ; it would have made [you]2147-you cry , and [he]2146-my precious old tom tried to speak . Oh [[you]2147-you precious old soul]2150-you precious old soul , did n't [I]0-i scatter [them]2149-the niggers right and left ? [I]0-i scratched that lantern - jawed hypocrite 's face till [I]0-i gave [him]2146-my precious old tom the hirumbillycuss and hirumtommycuss too , [I]0-i expect . [I]0-i called [a policeman]2151-a policeman in , and there was n't one of [them]2149-the niggers finished [his]2146-my precious old tom Christmas in [London]1-london . But [the poor old soul]2152-the poor old soul has never been the same cat since . The anxiety [he]2146-my precious old tom was in , turned [his]2146-my precious old tom hair white on both sides of [his]2146-my precious old tom heart and all round the backs of [his]2146-my precious old tom ears . [He]2146-my precious old tom would n't come to the door , [he]2146-my precious old tom shook so , at the call of [the cat's - meat man]2153-the cat's - meat man for better than a month , and [he]2146-my precious old tom wo n't look at it now , while there 's a skewer in it . " [The poor little woman]6265-the poor little woman was crying with pity and rage . [Old Tom]435-old tom looked up all the time as if [he]435-old tom knew all [she]6265-the poor little woman said , and then jumped on [her]6265-the poor little woman lap , and showed [his]435-old tom paws , and purred . Meanwhile , a change had come over [my]2146-my precious old tom intentions . Perhaps all the rudeness [I]2146-my precious old tom had met with that day had called [my]2146-my precious old tom pride into arms . At any rate , much as [I]2146-my precious old tom liked [pretty Isola]428-isola , and much as [I]2146-my precious old tom longed for [her]428-isola fresh warm kindness , [I]2146-my precious old tom now resolved to wait until [she]428-isola should choose to seek [me]2146-my precious old tom . So [I]2146-my precious old tom did not even ask [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer whether [she]391-mrs. shelfer knew [the College where [the Professor]2125-the professor lectured]6266-the college where the professor lectured . What were love and warm young hearts to [me]2146-my precious old tom ? [I]2146-my precious old tom deserved such a rebuff for swerving so from [my]2146-my precious old tom duty . Now [I]2146-my precious old tom would give all [my]2146-my precious old tom thoughts to the art , whence only could spring any hope of attaining [my]2146-my precious old tom end , and the very next day [I]2146-my precious old tom would follow [the picture - dealer]6268-the picture - dealer 's advice . There was [a school of design]6197-a school of design not very far from [[my]2146-my precious old tom lodgings]6270-my lodgings , and thither [I]2146-my precious old tom went the next morning . [[My]2146-my precious old tom landlady]6074-my landlady offered to come with [me]2146-my precious old tom and see [me]2146-my precious old tom safe in [the room]823-the room ; and of course [her]6074-my landlady Charley , who seemed to know [everybody]6273-everybody , knew [some one even there]6274-some one even there , to whom [she]6074-my landlady kindly promised to recommend [me]2146-my precious old tom . So [I]2146-my precious old tom gladly accepted [her]6074-my landlady offer . In some respects , [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer was more remarkable than even [[his]413-mr. shelfer wife]789-his wife . [He]413-mr. shelfer was so shy , that on the rare occasions when [we]6276-we met , [I]2146-my precious old tom never could get [him]413-mr. shelfer to look at [me]2146-my precious old tom , except once when [he]413-mr. shelfer was drunk ; yet by some mysterious process [he]413-mr. shelfer seemed to know everything about [me]2146-my precious old tom — the colour of [my]2146-my precious old tom eyes , the arrangement of [my]2146-my precious old tom hair , the dresses [I]2146-my precious old tom put on , the spirits [I]2146-my precious old tom was in — a great deal more , in fact , than [I]2146-my precious old tom ever cared to know . So that sometimes [my]2146-my precious old tom self - knowledge was largely increased , through [his]413-mr. shelfer observations repeated by [[his]413-mr. shelfer wife]789-his wife . But [I]2146-my precious old tom was not allowed to flatter [myself]2146-my precious old tom that this resulted from any especial interest ; for [he]413-mr. shelfer seemed to possess an equal acquaintance with the affairs of [all [his]413-mr. shelfer neighbours]6278-all his neighbours . Mention any one anywhere around , and [he]413-mr. shelfer , without seeming to mean it , would describe [him]413-mr. shelfer or [her]6279-her unmistakably in half a dozen words . [He]413-mr. shelfer never praised or blamed , [he]413-mr. shelfer simply identified . [He]413-mr. shelfer must have seen more with a blink of [his]413-mr. shelfer eye , than [most people]6280-most people see in five minutes of gazing . [He]413-mr. shelfer seldom brought [any one]1178-any one [home]1102-home with [him]413-mr. shelfer , though [he]413-mr. shelfer often promised to do so ; [he]413-mr. shelfer never seemed to indulge in gossip , at any rate not with [[his]413-mr. shelfer wife]789-his wife . "[2146-my precious old tom] Cut it short , [old ' ooman]6180-old ' ooman , " was all the encouragement [he]413-mr. shelfer ever gave [her]789-his wife in that way . When [he]413-mr. shelfer was at [home]1102-home — a thing of rare occurrence — [he]413-mr. shelfer sat with [his]413-mr. shelfer head down and a long pipe in [his]413-mr. shelfer mouth ; [he]413-mr. shelfer walked in [the street]6090-the street with [his]413-mr. shelfer head down , and never accosted [any one]1178-any one . Where did [he]413-mr. shelfer get all [his]413-mr. shelfer knowledge ? [I]2146-my precious old tom doubt if there were [a public - house in [London]1-london]6287-a public - house in london , but what [Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer knew at the furthest [a cousin of [the landlord]6289-the landlord]6288-a cousin of the landlord , and [a brother of one of [the potboys]6291-the potboys]6290-a brother of one of the potboys . "[2146-my precious old tom] [Charley Shelfer]395-charley " [everybody]6273-everybody called [him]413-mr. shelfer , and [everybody]6273-everybody spoke of [him]413-mr. shelfer , not with distinguished respect , but with a kindly feeling . [His]413-mr. shelfer luck was proverbial ; [he]413-mr. shelfer had [a room full of things which [he]413-mr. shelfer had won at raffles]6294-a room full of things which he had won at raffles , and [he]413-mr. shelfer was in constant requisition to throw for [less fortunate people]6295-less fortunate people . As for [his]413-mr. shelfer occupation — [he]413-mr. shelfer called [himself]413-mr. shelfer [a nurseryman]6296-a nurseryman , but [he]413-mr. shelfer had [no nursery that [I]2146-my precious old tom could discover]6297-no nursery that i could discover . [He]413-mr. shelfer received a pound a week for looking after [the garden]1203-the garden in [the great square]6299-the great square ; but when [any one]1178-any one came for [him]413-mr. shelfer , [he]413-mr. shelfer was never to be found [there]1114-there . [I]2146-my precious old tom think [he]413-mr. shelfer spent most of [his]413-mr. shelfer time in jobbing about , and "[2146-my precious old tom] swopping " ( as [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer called it ) among [[his]413-mr. shelfer brother gardeners]6302-his brother gardeners . Sometimes , [he]413-mr. shelfer brought home beautiful plants , perfectly lovely flowers , unknown to [me]2146-my precious old tom even by name , and many of these [he]413-mr. shelfer presented to [me]2146-my precious old tom by [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's hands . Every Sunday morning [he]413-mr. shelfer was up before the daylight , and away for an excursion , or rather an incursion , through [the Hampstead]6303-the hampstead , [Highgate]78-highgate , and [Holloway]79-holloway district . From [these raids]6304-these raids [he]413-mr. shelfer used to return as [I]2146-my precious old tom came [home]1102-home from the morning service . By the way , if [I]2146-my precious old tom had wanted to puzzle [him]413-mr. shelfer and find a blank in [his]413-mr. shelfer universal acquaintance , the best chance would have been to ask [him]413-mr. shelfer about [the clergyman]6306-the clergyman . [He]413-mr. shelfer never gave [the pew - openers]6307-the pew - openers any trouble , neither indeed did [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , who called [herself]391-mrs. shelfer [a Catholic]6308-a catholic ; but [the lively little woman]6309-the lively little woman 's chiefest terror was death , and [a parson to [her]6309-the lively little woman]6310-a parson to her was always [an undertaker]6311-an undertaker . If [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer had not spent the Sunday morning quite so well as [I]2146-my precious old tom had , at any rate [he]413-mr. shelfer had not wasted [his]413-mr. shelfer time . [I]2146-my precious old tom think [he]413-mr. shelfer must have robbed hen - roosts and [allotment grounds]6312-allotment grounds ; and yet [he]413-mr. shelfer was too respectable for that . But whence and how could [he]413-mr. shelfer ever have come by the gipsey collection [he]413-mr. shelfer always produced from [his]413-mr. shelfer hat , from [his]413-mr. shelfer countless pockets , from [his]413-mr. shelfer red cotton handkerchief , every Sunday at 1 P.M. ? Eggs , chickens , mushrooms , sticks of horseradish and celery , misletoe - thrushes , cucumbers , cabbages red and white , rabbits , watercress , Aylesbury ducks — [I]2146-my precious old tom can not remember one quarter of [his]413-mr. shelfer manifold forage . All [I]2146-my precious old tom can say is , that if these things are to be found by the side of [the road]1630-the road near [London]1-london , [Middlesex]80-middlesex is [a far better field]6314-a far better field for [the student of natural history]6315-the student of natural history than [Gloucestershire]3-gloucestershire , or even beloved [Devon]24-devon . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer said it was all [his]413-mr. shelfer luck ; but [I]2146-my precious old tom hardly think it could have rained Aylesbury ducks , even for [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer . All the time [he]413-mr. shelfer was extracting from [his]413-mr. shelfer recesses [this multifarious store]6316-this multifarious store , [he]413-mr. shelfer never once smiled , or showed any symptoms of triumph , but gravely went through the whole , as if a simple duty . How was it [such a man]6317-such a man had not made [his]413-mr. shelfer fortune ? Because [he]413-mr. shelfer had an incurable habit of "[2146-my precious old tom] backing bills " for [any one who asked [him]413-mr. shelfer]6318-any one who asked him ; and hence [he]413-mr. shelfer was always in trouble . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer and [I]2146-my precious old tom were admitted readily into [the school of design]6319-the school of design . [It]6319-the school of design was [a long low room]6320-a long low room , very badly lighted , and fitted up for the time until a better could be provided . [It]6319-the school of design looked very cold and comfortless ; forms instead of chairs , and desks like [a parish school]6321-a parish school . The whitewashed walls were hung with diagrams , sections , tracings , reductions , most of them stiff and ugly , but no doubt instructive . At one end was a raised platform , reserved for [lecturers]6322-lecturers and [the higher powers]6323-the higher powers . Shelves round the wall were filled with casts and models , and books of instruction were to be had out of cupboards . Of course [we]6324-we were expected to bring [our]6324-we own materials , and a code of rules was exhibited . [The more advanced students]6325-the more advanced students were permitted to tender any work of [their]6325-the more advanced students own which might be of service to [the neophytes]6326-the neophytes . From [no one there]6327-no one there did [I]2146-my precious old tom ever receive any insolence . At first , [the young artists]6328-the young artists used to look at [me]2146-my precious old tom rather hard , but [my]2146-my precious old tom reserved and distant air was quite enough to discourage [them]6328-the young artists . After the introduction , which [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer accomplished in very great style , [I]2146-my precious old tom dismissed [her]391-mrs. shelfer , and set to in earnest to pore once more over the rudiments of perspective . One simple truth as to the vanishing point struck [me]2146-my precious old tom at once . [I]2146-my precious old tom was amazed that [I]2146-my precious old tom had never perceived it before . It was not set forth in the book [I]2146-my precious old tom was studying ; but it was the sole key to all [my]2146-my precious old tom errors of distance . At once [I]2146-my precious old tom closed the book ; upon that one subject [I]2146-my precious old tom wanted no more instruction , [I]2146-my precious old tom had caught the focus of truth . Books , like bad glass , would only refract [my]2146-my precious old tom perception . All [I]2146-my precious old tom wanted now was practice and adaptation of the eye . Strange as it seemed to [me]2146-my precious old tom then , [I]2146-my precious old tom could draw no more that day . [I]2146-my precious old tom was so overcome at first sight by the simple beauty of truth , mathematical yet poetical truth , that error and obscurity ( for there is a balance in all things ) had their revenge for a while on [my]2146-my precious old tom brain . But the truth , once seen , could never be lost again . Thenceforth there were few higher penances for [me]2146-my precious old tom , in a small way , than to look at one of [my]2146-my precious old tom early drawings . When [my]2146-my precious old tom brain was clear , [I]2146-my precious old tom returned to do a real day 's work . For the cups , and vases , and plates , and things of "[2146-my precious old tom] æsthetic art " ( as [they]6329-they chose to call it ) , [I]2146-my precious old tom did not care at all ; but the copies and models and figures were most useful to [me]2146-my precious old tom . Unless [I]2146-my precious old tom am much mistaken , [I]2146-my precious old tom made more advance in a fortnight there , than [I]2146-my precious old tom had in any year of [my]2146-my precious old tom life before . With [my]2146-my precious old tom usual perseverance — if [I]2146-my precious old tom have no other virtue , [I]2146-my precious old tom have that — [I]2146-my precious old tom worked away to correct [my]2146-my precious old tom many shortcomings ; not even indulging ( much as [I]2146-my precious old tom wanted the money ) in any attempts at a finished drawing , until [I]2146-my precious old tom felt sure that all [my]2146-my precious old tom foundations were thoroughly laid and set . "[2146-my precious old tom] And now , " [I]2146-my precious old tom cried towards [Christmas]326-christmas , "[2146-my precious old tom] now for [Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall ; if [I]0-i do n't astonish [him]422-mr. oxgall this time , [my]0-i name is not [Clara Vaughan]293-clara ! " It did [me]293-clara good when [I]293-clara was alone , to call [myself]293-clara by [my]293-clara own name , and [my]293-clara right to be [[my]293-clara father 's daughter]6330-my father 's daughter . Meanwhile old Christmas was come , and all [I]293-clara was worth in [the world]798-the world was change for half a sovereign . True , [[my]293-clara lodgings]6270-my lodgings were paid for , a fortnight in advance , because [good Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer wanted to treat all [her]391-mrs. shelfer pets to a Christmas dinner ; but as for [my]293-clara own Christmas dinner — though [I]293-clara ca n't say [I]293-clara cared much for it — if [I]293-clara got one at all , it must be upon credit , since [my]293-clara drawing would not be finished for another week . Credit , of course , [I]293-clara would not think of . Any day in the week or year , [I]293-clara would rather starve than owe money . However , [I]293-clara was not going to cry about plum - pudding , though once or twice it made [me]293-clara hungry to think of the dinner in [the great hall at [Vaughan Park]5-vaughan park]6333-the great hall at vaughan park on the Christmas eve ; a much more elaborate matter in the old time , than the meal served in [the dining - room]6334-the dining - room next day . Now [I]293-clara sat in [[my]293-clara little room]6335-my little room this dreary Christmas eve ; and do what [I]293-clara would , [I]293-clara could not help thinking a little . It was a gusty evening , cold and damp , with scuds of sleet and snow , as yet it had not made up [its]6336-its mind whether to freeze or thaw . Nevertheless , [the streets]2026-the streets were full of merry laughing parties , proud of [their]2026-the streets bargains for the Christmas cheer ; and as [they]2026-the streets went by , the misletoe and the holly glistened in the flickering gaslight . For old recollection 's sake , [I]293-clara had made believe to dress [[my]293-clara little room]6335-my little room with some few sprigs of laurel and unberried holly ; the sceptre branch , all cobbed with coral beads , was too expensive for [me]293-clara . Misletoe [I]293-clara wanted not . Who was there now to kiss [me]293-clara ? From the sheer craving of human nature for a word of kindness , [I]293-clara had called , that afternoon , upon [Mrs. Elton]406-mrs. elton . But good as [she]406-mrs. elton was and sweet to [me]293-clara , [she]406-mrs. elton had near [relatives]6339-relatives coming ; and [I]293-clara saw or fancied , that [I]293-clara should be in the way . Yet [I]293-clara thought that [[her]406-mrs. elton mother]6340-her mother heart yearned toward [me]293-clara as [she]406-mrs. elton said "[293-clara] Good bye , " and showed [me]293-clara out by the Christmas tree , all trembling to be lighted . Now [I]293-clara sat alone and lonely by the flickering of three pennyworth of wood which [I]293-clara had bought recklessly for the sake of the big ash - tree that used to glow with the lichen peeling round it on the old Christmas hearth , where [I]293-clara was believed [the heiress]6341-the heiress . The little spark and sputter of [my]293-clara sallow billet ( chopped by [the poor old people]6342-the poor old people at [[St. Pancras]81-st. pancras workhouse]6343-st. pancras workhouse ) led [me]293-clara back through eight sad years to the last merry time when [[my]293-clara father]731-my father was keeping [his]731-my father latest Christmas , and [I]293-clara [his]731-my father pride and hope was prouder than all , at being just ten years old . How [he]731-my father carved and ladled the gravy ; how [he]731-my father flourished [his]731-my father knife and fork with a joke all hot for every one ; how [he]731-my father smiled when [the thrice - helped farmers]6345-the thrice - helped farmers sent for another slice , and laughed when [the crow - boy]6346-the crow - boy was nearly choked with plum - pudding ; how [he]731-my father patted [me]293-clara on the head and caught [me]293-clara for a kiss , when [I]293-clara , dressed up as head - waitress , with [my]293-clara long hair all tied back , pulled [his]731-my father right arm and pointed to [widow Hiatt]347-jane 's plate — the speech [he]731-my father made after dinner , when [I]293-clara was amazed at [his]731-my father eloquence and clapped [my]293-clara little hands , and the way [he]731-my father made [me]293-clara stand up on a chair and drink [the Queen]1427-the queen 's health first — then the hurrahs of [the tenants]6348-the tenants and [servants]6349-servants , and how [they]6348-the tenants kissed [me]293-clara outside — all this goes through [my]293-clara memory as the smoke of the billet goes up the chimney , and the tears steal under [my]293-clara eyelids . Then [I]293-clara see [the long hall]6350-the long hall afterwards , with the tables cleared away and the lights hung round the tapestry , and the yule log roaring afresh ; [[my]293-clara father]731-my father ( [a type of the true English gentleman , not of the past but the present century]6352-a type of the true english gentleman , not of the past but the present century ) , holding the hand of [[his]731-my father wife]789-his wife ( [a lady of no condescending airs , but true womanly warmth and love)—both dressed for the tenants]6354-a lady of no condescending airs , but true womanly warmth and love)—both dressed for the tenants ' ball as if for [the lord - lieutenant]6355-the lord - lieutenant 's ; both eager to lead off the country dance , and beating [their]6348-the tenants feet to the music . Next [them]6348-the tenants , [a laughing child in a little white frock and pink slip]6356-a laughing child in a little white frock and pink slip ( scarce to be known for [myself]293-clara ) , hand - in - hand with [[my]293-clara brave chevalier]6357-my brave chevalier , [Master Roderick Blount]440-master roderick blount , accounted by [Cooky]441-cooky and [both lady's - maids]6358-both lady's - maids , and most of all by [himself]731-my father , [[my]293-clara duly affianced lord]6359-my duly affianced lord . Then [the housekeeper]6360-the housekeeper , starched beyond measure , yet not too stiff to smile , and open for the nonce even to jokes about courtship , yielding [her]6360-the housekeeper gracious hand for the dance to [the senior tenant]6361-the senior tenant , [a man with great calves , red face , and snow - white hair]6362-a man with great calves , red face , and snow - white hair . After [them]6348-the tenants come — Hark ! a loud knock and a ring . It is just in time before [I]293-clara begin the palinode . Who can want [me]293-clara to - night ? [I]293-clara want [no one]730-no one but those [I]293-clara can not have , whom the fire has now restored [me]293-clara , though [the earth]1046-the earth has hidden [them]6348-the tenants . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer is hard at work in [the kitchen]5526-the kitchen , preparing a wonderful supper for [Charley]395-charley , who has promised to come [home]1102-home . [She]391-mrs. shelfer has canvassed the chance of [his]395-charley keeping this promise fifty times in the day . [Hope]442-hope cries "[293-clara] yes ; " experience whispers "[293-clara] no . " At any rate the knock is not [his]395-charley , for [he]395-charley always carries a latch - key . [She]391-mrs. shelfer calls up the stairs "[423-miss valence] [Miss Valence]423-miss valence ! " before [she]391-mrs. shelfer goes to the door , for who knows but [she]391-mrs. shelfer might be murdered in the midst of [her]391-mrs. shelfer Christmas pudding ? [I]423-miss valence come out to prove [my]423-miss valence existence and stand in the dark on [the landing]6367-the landing . [She]391-mrs. shelfer draws back the bolt ; [I]423-miss valence hear a gruff voice as if it came through a hat . "[423-miss valence] [Young ' ooman]2155-young ' ooman by the name of [Clara Waun]443-waun live [here]846-here ? " "[2155-young ' ooman] Yes to be sure ; [Miss Valence]423-miss valence [you]423-miss valence mean , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend . " "[423-miss valence] The name on this here ticket ai n't [Walence]445-walence , but [Waun]443-waun . " "[443-waun] All right , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend . All right . It 's just the same . " "[1798-my good friend] Hor , [I]0-i do n't know that though . [Jim]444-jim , the name of the party here ai n't [Waun]443-waun after all . It be [Walence]445-walence . And three blessed days [us]2159-us has been all over [London]1-london ! " [Jim]444-jim , from the top of [the van]6368-the van , suggests that , after all , [Walence]445-walence and [Waun]443-waun be much of a muchness . For [his]444-jim part , [he]444-jim 'll be blessed if [he]444-jim 'll go any further with it . Let [him]444-jim and [Ben]446-ben look at [the young lady]5814-the young lady , and see if [she]5814-the young lady be like the card . Meanwhile , of course , [I]445-walence come forward and claim the parcel , whatever it is . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer redoubles [her]391-mrs. shelfer assurances , and calls [the man]5533-the man [a great oaf]6371-a great oaf , which has more effect than anything . "[445-walence] Why , [Jim]444-jim , this must be [[Charley]395-charley 's missus]2160-charley 's missus ; [[Charley Shelfer]395-charley 's missus]2161-charley shelfer 's missus ! [Him]395-charley as beat [you]444-jim so at skittles last week , [you]444-jim know . " "[395-charley] Ah , [he]395-charley did so . And [I]0-i 'd like to back [him]395-charley again [you]444-jim , [Ben]446-ben , for a quart all round . " This fact is decisive . Who can doubt any more ? But for all that , the book must be signed in the name of "[443-waun] [Waun]443-waun , " with which of course [I]443-waun comply . When [the two strong men]6372-the two strong men have , with much difficulty ( of which [they]6372-the two strong men made much more ) , lowered the enormous package from [the van]6368-the van , [Ben]446-ben stands wiping [his]446-ben forehead . "[443-waun] [Lor]393-lor , how hot it be to - night to be sure ! And the job [us]2162-us has had with this big lump sure*ly * ! Both the handles come off long ago . [I]0-i wish [[my]0-i missus]5901-my missus had got a featherbed half the weight of that . Five - and - twenty year [I]0-i 've been along of [this company]2164-this company , [man]5770-man and [boy]5903-boy , but [I]0-i never see such a direction as that there in all [my]0-i born days . Did ever [you]444-jim , [Jim]444-jim ? " "[444-jim] Well , " replies [Jim]444-jim , "[444-jim] [I]0-i 've seed [a many queer ones]2167-a many queer ones , but none as could come up to that . And who 'd a thought after all [their]2168-they trouble — for [I]0-i 'm blessed if [they]2168-they wrote that there under a week — who'd a ' thought [they]2168-they 'd a put ' Waun ' on it when [they]2168-they meant ' [Walence]445-walence . ' But [the young lady]5814-the young lady is awaiting for [us]2170-us to drink [her]5814-the young lady health , [Ben]446-ben , and a merry Christmas to [her]5814-the young lady . " "[5814-the young lady] How much is [the carriage]6087-the carriage ? " [I]5433-miss ask , trembling for [my]5433-miss change of [the half - sovereign]6374-the half - sovereign . "[5433-miss] Nothing , [miss]5433-miss . Only eightpence for delivery . It be paid to [Paddington]246-paddington , and if ever [our]2170-us Company airned eightpence , [I]0-i 'm blessed if [they]2173-they have n't airned it now . Thank [you]5433-miss , [Miss]2174-miss , and [werry]2170-us handsome on [you]5433-miss , and [us]2170-us hopes the contents will prove to [your]5433-miss liking , [Miss]2175-miss , and make [you]5433-miss a merry Christmas . " Away [they]2173-they go with the smoking horses , after carrying into [the little kitchen]6032-the little kitchen [the mighty maun]6376-the mighty maun , which [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , with [my]423-miss valence assistance , could not stir . "[423-miss valence] Bless [me]0-i , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , what a direction ! " cries [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , when the full light falls upon it . The direction was written in round hand upon a strip of parchment , about four inches wide and at least eight feet in length . It came from the bottom all up over the cover and down upon the other side , so that [no one]730-no one could open the basket without breaking it asunder . It was as follows : — "[423-miss valence] [Miss Clara Vaughan]293-clara lodges at number seven in [Prince Albert Street]84-prince albert street in [London town]2176-london town near [Windsor]85-windsor Castle in [Gloucestershire]3-gloucestershire the daughter of [Mr. Henry Valentine Vaughan]298-harry Esquire [a nice tall young lady]2177-a nice tall young lady [her]2177-a nice tall young lady always wears black things and walks very peart pale with a little red on [her]2177-a nice tall young lady cheeks when [they]2178-they lets [her]2177-a nice tall young lady alone ca n't be no mistake without it be done a purpose If so be this here little maun hain't brought to [her]2177-a nice tall young lady safe and sweet and wholesome will be prosecuted with the utmost rigour of the law signed [John Huxtable]299-john [his]299-john mark x witness [Timothy Badcock]344-tim his'n X. " [I]299-john wondered much whether [Mr. Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe had been called in to achieve this masterpiece of manuscript , which was all in large round hand , but without any stops . It seemed beyond poor [Sally]371-sally 's art , yet were some loops and downstrokes that must be dear little [Sally]371-sally 's . [I]299-john took it off with much trouble — the parchment was joined in four places — and [I]299-john have it now . Meanwhile [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer was dancing around it , neglecting [her]391-mrs. shelfer supper in the wonder of this gigantic hamper . "[299-john] Let [me]0-i get a chopper , [Miss]2179-miss , [you]2179-miss 'll never get it open . Why it 's sewed as tight as an oyster . " However , [I]1798-my good friend did get it open at last , and never shall [I]1798-my good friend forget the contents . There was a month 's food for [a family of twelve]6378-a family of twelve . First came hay , such as [I]1798-my good friend never smelt out of [Devonshire]4-devonshire ; then eighteen rolls of butter , each with a snowy cloth around it ; the butter so golden even at that time of year , that [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer compared it to the yolk of an egg looking out of the white . Then a storey of clotted cream and beautiful lard and laver , which [they]6378-a family of twelve knew [I]1798-my good friend loved . Then a floor of hay . Below it a pair of guinea fowls , two large turkeys , and most carefully wrapped from the rest a fine hare filled with dried sweet herbs . Below these a flitch of bacon , two wood - smoked hams , a pair of tongues , a leg of Exmoor mutton , and three bottles of best elder wine . Then a brown paper parcel containing [Sally]371-sally 's last copy - book ( [I]1798-my good friend had set [her]371-sally copies for half a year to come ) and a long letter , the first [I]1798-my good friend had ever received from [Tossil]361-tossil 's Barton . When all was out at last , after the greatest delight and laughter as each thing appeared , [I]1798-my good friend fell back in utter dismay at the spectacle before [me]1798-my good friend . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer sat on the floor unable to find [her]391-mrs. shelfer way out , [she]391-mrs. shelfer was so flounced and tippeted with good things . When [I]1798-my good friend came to [her]391-mrs. shelfer relief , [she]391-mrs. shelfer did nothing but go round and round what was left of [the little room]6379-the little room , humming a Catholic hymn , and pressing both hands to [her]391-mrs. shelfer side . But something must be done at once . Waste is wickedness ; how could [we]6380-we stave it off ? Everything would depend upon the weather . At present all was beautifully fresh , thanks to the skilful packing and the frost , albeit the mighty package had made the round of all [the Albert Streets in [London]1-london]6381-the albert streets in london . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer would have looked at it for a month , and at intervals exclaimed , "[1798-my good friend] Bless [me]0-i , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , that beats [Charley]395-charley 's pockets . How [they]2181-they must eat in [Devonshire]4-devonshire ! " "[1798-my good friend] Come , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , what good are [you]391-mrs. shelfer at [housekeeping]2182-housekeeping ? [You]391-mrs. shelfer do n't help [me]0-i at all . Let [us]2183-we put most of it out of doors at once . [You]391-mrs. shelfer have [no cellar]2184-no cellar , and [I]0-i suppose [they]2181-they have none in [London]1-london . At least [we]2183-we can give it the chance of the open air , and it is not snowing now . " "[2185-miss] Oh , but the cats , [Miss]2185-miss ! " "[2185-miss] Well , [I]0-i must find some plan for [them]2181-they before [we]2183-we go to bed . Now come and help , that 's [a good little creature]2186-a good little creature , and [I]0-i 'll give [you]391-mrs. shelfer some elder wine when [we]2183-we have done . " So [we]2183-we got all that was taintable into [the little yard]6382-the little yard , while [Tom]435-old tom , who never stole , except when quite sure of impunity , looked on very sagely . There [we]2183-we fixed it all up to the wall secure , except from cats , of whom a roving band serenaded [me]0-i every night . [I]0-i presented [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer at once with a turkey — a specimen of natural history not found by [the roadside]6383-the roadside , even on [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer 's Sabbath journey — also a ham , and three rolls of butter . As to the rest , [I]0-i would think what to do with it afterwards . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer kept off the cats until midnight , after which [I]0-i held [them]2181-they at bay by the following means . With one of [my]0-i mineral paints mingled with some phosphorus , [I]0-i drew upon [a black board a ferocious terrier , the size of life , with fangs unsheathed , bristles erect]6384-a black board a ferocious terrier , the size of life , with fangs unsheathed , bristles erect , and eyes starting out of [his]2186-a good little creature head . [We]2183-we tried the effect in the dark on poor [Tom]435-old tom , who arched [his]435-old tom back , and sputtered with the strongest execration , then turned and fled ignobly , amid roars of laughter from [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer , who by this time was come [home]1102-home . This one - headed Cerberus being hung so as to oscillate in the wind , right across the cat - leap , [I]0-i felt quite safe , so long as [my]0-i chemical mixture should continue luminous . [Dear little Sally]371-sally 's letter gave [me]0-i the greatest delight . It was all in round hand , and had taken at least a week to write , and [she]371-sally must have washed [her]371-sally hands almost every time . There were no stops in it , but [I]0-i have put some . The spelling was wonderfully good for [her]371-sally , but here and there [I]0-i have shaped it to the present fashion . "[0-i] Please [Miss Clara]293-clara dear , [father]738-father and [mother]739-mother and [I]0-i begs [their]2189-they most respectable duty and love and [they]2189-they hopes no offence and will [you]293-clara be so kind as to have this here little hamper and wishes it was ten times as much but hopes [you]293-clara will excuse it and please to eat it all [yourself]293-clara [Miss.]342-miss. All the pegmate be [our]2190-our own doctrine , and very wholesome , and [we]2190-our have took all the hair off , please [Miss]2191-miss , because [you]293-clara said one time [you]293-clara did n't like it . Likely [you]293-clara 'll remember , [Miss]2192-miss , [the young black sow]2193-the young black sow as twisted [her]2193-the young black sow tail to the left , [her]2193-the young black sow as [Tim]344-tim was ringing the day as [I]0-i wrote first copy , and the other chillers ran out , well most of it be [she]2193-the young black sow , [Miss. Father]448-miss. say as [he]2194-he do n't think [they]2189-they ever see butter in [London town]2176-london town , but [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe says yes for [they]2189-they makes a plenty out of red herrings and train oil . Please [Miss]2196-miss , [Tabby Badcock]388-tabby would go on the ice in [the old saw - pit]2197-the old saw - pit last Sunday , by [the upper linhay]2198-the upper linhay when [I]0-i told [her]2193-the young black sow it would not bear , and so [her]2193-the young black sow fell through and would have been drownded at last , only [[our]2199-our little [Jack]374-jack]2200-our little jack crawled over the postesses and give [her]2193-the young black sow [his]374-jack heel to hold on by , and please [Miss]2201-miss it would have done [your]2201-miss heart good , [mother]739-mother says , to see how [Tim Badcock]344-tim dressed [her]2193-the young black sow when [he]344-tim come [home]1102-home from [church]1429-church for getting [her]2193-the young black sow best frock all of a muck . Please [Miss]2205-miss , [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe come when [you]2201-miss was gone , and made a poem about [you]2201-miss , and [father]738-father like it so much [he]738-father give [him]334-beany dawe free of the cider and as [he]334-beany dawe was going [home]1102-home [he]334-beany dawe fell into a bit of [a ditch down [Breakneck hill]5651-breakneck hill]2208-a ditch down breakneck hill , and when [he]334-beany dawe come to [himself]334-beany dawe [the road]1630-the road had taken to run the wrong way [Beany]334-beany dawe do n't know how for the life of [him]334-beany dawe , so [he]334-beany dawe come back here ' nolus wolus ' [he]334-beany dawe saith and that be the way to spell it and no mistake , and here [he]334-beany dawe have been ever since a - making of poems and sawing up hellums out of the lower cleeve , and [he]334-beany dawe sleepth in [the onion loft]2211-the onion loft and Suke ca n't have no rest of nights for the noise [he]334-beany dawe makes making verses . [Mother]291-mother tell [Suke]345-suke to pote [him]334-beany dawe down stairs and too good for [him]334-beany dawe , but [father]738-father say no , [he]334-beany dawe be [a fine chap for sure]2213-a fine chap for sure and airneth [his]334-beany dawe meat and drink , let alone all the poetry . Please [Miss]2214-miss [he]738-father wanted to larn [me]0-i to write , but [father]738-father say no [I]0-i had got better learning than [hisn]2216-hisn , and [I]0-i say [he]738-father may learn [Tabby Badcock]388-tabby if [he]738-father will , but [he]738-father sha n't learn [me]0-i . No tino . " How [she]388-tabby tossed [her]388-tabby pretty curls when [she]388-tabby wrote this [I]2217-miss 'll be bound . [I]2217-miss wished that [I]2217-miss could see [her]388-tabby . "[2217-miss] Please [Miss]2217-miss [I]0-i be forced to write this when [he]738-father be away , or [he]738-father 'd a made it all in poetry ; and [Tim Badcock]344-tim tell [me]0-i to be sure to tell [you]2217-miss as how at the wrastling to [Barnstaple]21-barnstaple fair , week after [you]2217-miss was gone , [father]738-father was so crule unkid that in playing off the ties [he]738-father heaved [a Cornisher]2219-a cornisher up through the chandelier , and a come down with a candle stuck so fast down [his]738-father throat [doctor]2220-doctor was forced to set it a - fire and blow with a pair of bellises afore [he]738-father could put [him]738-father to rights . [Cornisher]449-cornisher be all right again now , [Tim saith]344-tim , but [he]738-father have a made up [his]738-father mind not to wrastle no more in [Devonshire]4-devonshire . Please [Miss]2221-miss , [father]738-father saith before this here goes [he]738-father 'll shoot the old hare as sits in the top of the cleeve if [Queen Victoria]450-queen victoria transports [him]738-father for it with hard labour . [Tim]344-tim have made four pops at [her]450-queen victoria , but [he]344-tim say the powder were crooked . Please [Miss Clara]293-clara , all the eggs as [my]0-i little black hen have laid , since the last of the barley was housed , is to be sewed up inside the Turkey with the black comb ; [he]738-father be strutting about in [the court]1718-the court and looking at [me]0-i now as peart as [a gladdy]1469-a gladdy ; but [her]450-queen victoria have not laid more than a dozen to now , though [I]0-i have been up and whistled to [her]450-queen victoria in the tall at every morning and evening same as [we]2225-we used to do when [you]2226-you was in good spirits . But [the other hens]2227-the other hens has not laid none at all . Please [Miss]2228-miss , [father]738-father say as how [he]738-father have sold such a many beasties , [he]738-father be afeared to keep all the money in [the house]764-the house , and [he]738-father have told [mother]739-mother to sew up the rent for next Ladyday in the turkey with the white comb when [he]738-father be killed and [he]738-father humbly hope no offence . Please [Miss Clara]293-clara , [us]2232-us has had three letters from [you]2226-you , and [I]0-i reads them all to [father]738-father and [mother]739-mother every Sunday evening , and [Joe]451-joe [the Queen 's boy]2235-the queen 's boy do n't know but what [he]451-joe lost another one in leathering [the jackass]2236-the jackass across [the brook]2237-the brook after the rain . [Joe]451-joe tells as [he]451-joe ca n't say for certain , because why [he]451-joe baint no scholar the same as [us]2232-us be , and [Joe]451-joe only knows the letters by the pins they sticks in [his]451-joe sleeve afore [he]451-joe leaves [Martinhoe]41-martinhoe . Whoever ' twas for [he]738-father thinks there was crockery in it by reason it sunk so quick . Anyhow [mother]739-mother give [him]738-father a little tap with a mop on the side of [his]738-father head , to make [him]738-father mind [the Queen]1427-the queen 's business , and did n't [he]738-father holler a bit , and [he]738-father flung down the [parson]2240-parson 's letters all in the muck , but [us]2232-us washed them in a bucket and let [parson]2240-parson have them on Sunday . [[Joe Queen]451-joe 's boy]2242-joe queen 's boy have n't been nigh [us]2232-us since , and [they]2242-joe queen 's boy did say to [Martinhoe]41-martinhoe [us]2232-us should n't have no more letters , but [father]738-father say if [he]738-father do n't [he]738-father will show [the man there]2244-the man there what a forehip mean pretty smart . Please [Miss Clara]293-clara , [us]2232-us would have written afore , but [mother]739-mother say no , not till [I]0-i finish twelve copybooks one every week , that [the folks to [London town]2176-london town]2246-the folks to london town might see the way as [they]2246-the folks to london town ought to write and spell . [Father]448-miss. say [London]1-london be in [Gloucestershire]3-gloucestershire , but [I]0-i am most sure it baint , and [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe shake [his]334-beany dawe head and wo n't tell , and [mother]739-mother believe [he]334-beany dawe do n't know . Please [Miss]2249-miss , there be a new babby come a month agone and better , and [mother]739-mother find out as how it be [a girl]2251-a girl , and please if [you]2252-you have no objection [Miss]2253-miss , and if [you]2252-you do n't think as it would be a liberty , [us]2232-us has all made up [our]2232-us minds upon having it christened [Clara]293-clara , and please to say [Miss]2254-miss if it be too high , or any way unfitty . [Father]448-miss. be ' most afeared that it sound too grand for the like of [us]2232-us , but [mother]739-mother says as [the Huxtables]453-the huxtables was thought brave things on , to Coom and [Parracombe]86-parracombe a hundred years agone . Please Miss , [father]738-father heard to [Coom]87-coom market last week , as there 's going to be a French invasion , and [they]2257-they be sure to go to [London]1-london first , and [he]738-father beg [you]2252-you to let [him]738-father know as soon as ever there be one , and [he]738-father come up at once with the big ash - stick and the ivy on it as growed in [Challacombe]88-challacombe wood , and see as [they]2257-they does n't hurt [you]2252-you , [Miss.]448-miss. Please [Miss]2258-miss , [the young chap as saved [you]2252-you from the great goyal]2259-the young chap as saved you from the great goyal come here to ask for [you]2252-you , day after [you]2252-you was gone , and [mother]739-mother believes [he]738-father baint after no good , by token [he]738-father would not come in nor drink a drop of cider . Please [Miss]2261-miss , [father]738-father say it make [his]738-father heart ache every night , to think of [you]2252-you all to [yourself]2252-you in [the wicked London town]2263-the wicked london town , and [he]738-father go down [the lane]1652-the lane to the white gate every evening in the hope to see [you]2252-you acoming , and [mother]739-mother say if [you]2252-you be a selling red and blue picturs [her]739-mother hope [you]2252-you will send for [they]2266-they as [father]738-father gave the hog 's puddens for , and [us]2268-us wo nt miss [them]2266-they at all . And [Miss Clara]293-clara dear , [I]0-i expect [you]293-clara 'll be mazed to see how [I]0-i writes and spells , [father]738-father say it must be in [the family]1254-the family , and [I]0-i wo n't write no more till [I]0-i have finished another dozen of copy books ; and oh dear how [I]0-i do wish that [you]293-clara were come back again , but [father]738-father say to [me]0-i to say no more about it for fear to make [you]293-clara cry , [Miss.]448-miss. All [the little childers]2272-the little childers except [the new babby who have not seen [you]293-clara yet , sends [their]2272-the little childers hearts ' loves and duty and a hundred kisses]2273-the new babby who have not seen you yet , sends their hearts ' loves and duty and a hundred kisses , and [father]738-father and [mother]739-mother the same , and [Timothy Badcock]344-tim , and [Tabby]388-tabby , and [Suke]345-suke , and [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe , now [he]738-father knows it . [I]0-i remain , [[Miss Clara]293-clara dear]2276-miss clara dear , [[your]293-clara thankful and loving scholar]2277-your thankful and loving scholar to command , [SARAH HUXTABLE]371-sally . Signed all this here [papper]2278-papper scrawl in the settle by the fire . [JOHN HUXTABLE]299-john [his]299-john mark X HONOR HUXTABLE hern X. " [I]299-john was much grieved at the loss of [my]299-john last letter to [[Tossil]361-tossil 's Barton]5668-tossil 's barton , because it contained [my]299-john little Christmas presents for all [the family]1254-the family . It was registered for security , but [I]299-john suppose [they]1254-the family "[299-john] took no count " of that where the delivery of letters depended so much upon luck . Of [their]1254-the family Christmas present to [me]299-john [I]299-john resolved to give the surplus to [those who would be the better for it , and not ( according to the usual law of such things ) to those who did not want it , and would make return with interest]6388-those who would be the better for it , and not ( according to the usual law of such things ) to those who did not want it , and would make return with interest . So on the Christmas morning [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer and [myself]299-john , each carrying a large basket , went to the mews round the corner , and distributed among [the poor lodgers there]6389-the poor lodgers there , more Christmas dinners than had ever entered those doors before ; and how grateful [the poor things]6390-the poor things were , only [they]6390-the poor things all wanted the best . Now [the school of design]6319-the school of design was closed for a while , and [I]299-john worked hard for several days at the landscape for [Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall , though the store of provisions sent [me]299-john and the rent enclosed in the turkey had saved [me]299-john from present necessity . On the day of all days in the year the saddest and darkest to [me]299-john , [I]299-john could not keep to [my]299-john task , but went for a change of thoughts to [the school]6392-the school , now open again . It was the 30th of December , 1850 , and , though [I]299-john crouch not to the mumming of prigs scolloped out at the throat , who block out with a patchwork screen the simple hearth of religion , and kneel at an ashbin to warm [themselves]1254-the family ; though [I]299-john do n't care a herring for small anniversaries dotted all over the calendar , and made by [some Murphy of old]6393-some murphy of old ; yet [I]299-john reverence deeply the true feasts of [Church and Chapel]6394-church and chapel , the refreshings of faith and charity , whereupon [we]6395-we forgive and are sorry for [those who work hard to mar]6396-those who work hard to mar [them]6396-those who work hard to mar . Neither does it seem to [me]299-john — so far as [my]299-john timid and wavering judgment extends — to be superstition or vanity , if [we]6395-we dare to set mark by those dates in [our]6395-we own little span which [God]303-god has scarred on [our]6395-we memory . In [the long dark room]6397-the long dark room so bare and comfortless , and , to - day , so lonely and cold , [I]299-john got [my]299-john usual books and studies , and tried , all in vain , to fix [my]299-john attention on them . Finding the effort so fruitless , [I]299-john packed up [my]299-john things in the little black bag and rose to depart . Turning round , [I]299-john saw on the table , where [students]6398-students ' works were exhibited , a small object newly placed there . It was a statuette in white marble of a magnificent red deer , such as [I]299-john had seen once or twice in [the north of [Devon]24-devon]5631-the north of devon . The listening attitude , the turn of the neck , the light poise of the massive head , even the mild , yet spirited eye , and the quivering sensitive lip , [I]299-john could answer for [them]6396-those who work hard to mar all , they were done to the very life . Truth , power , and elegance triumphed in every vein of it . For a minute [I]299-john stood overcome with wonder . If this were the work of [a youthful sculptor]6400-a youthful sculptor , [England]9-england might hope at last for something beyond the grotesque . Before [me]299-john rose at once all [the woodland scenery]6401-the woodland scenery , the hill - side garbed with every shade of green , the brambled quarry standing forth , the trees , [the winding vales]6402-the winding vales embosoming the light , the haze that hovers above [the watersmeet]6403-the watersmeet , bold crests of amaranth heath behind , and far away [the russet wold of [Exmoor]22-exmoor]6404-the russet wold of exmoor . The stag in the foreground of [[my]299-john landscape]6405-my landscape , [I]299-john feel so grateful to [him]6406-him for this expanse of vision that [I]299-john stoop down and kiss [him]6406-him , while [no one]730-no one can see [me]299-john . As [I]299-john bend , the gordit drops from its warm home in [my]299-john breast . By some impulse undefined [I]299-john lift the ribbon from [my]299-john neck , and hang the little fairy 's heart on the antlers of the Devonshire deer . Out springs from behind a chest full of casts and [models]6408-models — what model can compare with [her?—the]6409-her?—the loveliest of [all lovely beings]6410-all lovely beings , [my]299-john little [Isola Ross]428-isola . [I]299-john hide the tears in [my]299-john eyes , and try to look cold and reserved . What use is it ? One smile of [hers]428-isola would have disarmed [Belial]454-belial . "[299-john] It is n't [my]0-i fault , [dear]5871-dear . It is n't indeed . Oh , please give [me]0-i that cordetto . No do n't . That is why [I]0-i loved [you]5871-dear so at first sight . And here is all [my]0-i money dear . [I]0-i have carried it about ever since , though [I]0-i sewed up the purse not to spend it , and only once cut it open . [They]2280-they made [me]0-i promise , and [I]0-i would not eat for three days , and [I]0-i tried to be sulky with [Pappy]426-pappy because [he]426-pappy did not care ; [they]2280-they made [me]0-i promise with all [my]0-i honour not to go and see [you]5871-dear , and [Cora]429-cora came about with [me]0-i so that [I]0-i had no chance of breaking it . And [I]0-i would not tell [them]2280-they where [you]5871-dear lived , [dear]5871-dear ; but [I]0-i led [old Cora]429-cora a dance through [[your]5871-dear street]2282-your street on the side [you]5871-dear live , till [she]429-cora began to suspect . But [I]0-i could never see [you]5871-dear , though [I]0-i looked in at all the windows till [I]0-i was quite ashamed , and [the people]2283-the people kissed [their]2283-the people hands to [me]0-i . " [Poor little dear]6411-poor little dear ! [I]2283-the people lived [upstairs]6042-upstairs , and could not have seen [her]429-cora without standing out on [the balcony]6413-the balcony , which was about the size of a chess - board . If [she]429-cora had not been so simple as to walk on [my]2283-the people side of [the street]6090-the street , [she]429-cora must have seen [me]2283-the people ere long , for [I]2283-the people sat all day near the window to draw , when [I]2283-the people was not away at [[my]2283-the people school]6415-my school . [I]2283-the people forgave [her]429-cora most graciously for having done [me]2283-the people no wrong , and kissed [her]429-cora with all [my]2283-the people heart . [Her]429-cora breath was as sweet as violets in Spring clover , and [her]429-cora lips warm and soft as a wren 's nest . On receiving [my]2283-the people forgiveness , away [she]429-cora went dancing down [the long room]6416-the long room , with [her]429-cora cloak thrown off , and [her]429-cora hair tossing all out of braid , and [her]429-cora exquisite buoyant figure floating as if on a cloud . Of course there was [no one there]6327-no one there , or even impulsive [Isola]428-isola would hardly have taken [her]428-isola frolic ; and yet [I]2283-the people am not sure . [She]429-cora never thought harm of [any one]1178-any one , and never imagined that [any one]1178-any one could think harm of [her]429-cora . After a dozen flits of some rapid elegant dance quite unknown to [me]2283-the people ( who have never had much of dancing ) , but which [I]2283-the people supposed to be [Scotch]455-scotch , back [she]429-cora came out of breath , and kissed [me]2283-the people ever so many times , and kissed [my]2283-the people gordit too , and told [me]2283-the people never to part with it . One thing [she]429-cora was sure of , that [[her]429-cora Papa]6420-her papa could not resist [me]2283-the people now , and when [he]6420-her papa was told of it [I]2283-the people should come to [[their]6421-their house]6422-their house the next day . And [she]429-cora knew [I]2283-the people was dreadfully proud , but would [I]2283-the people , for [her]429-cora sake , forgive [her]429-cora [Pappy]426-pappy ? Of course , [he]426-pappy knew nothing about [me]2283-the people , and [she]429-cora had never told [him]426-pappy [my]2283-the people name , though [she]429-cora could not help telling [my]2283-the people story , at least all [she]429-cora knew of it ; but [he]426-pappy was so dreadfully jealous of [her]429-cora , [he]426-pappy did not want [any one]1178-any one to have a touch of [her]429-cora glove but [himself]426-pappy . Looking at [her]429-cora pure sweet face , [I]2283-the people could well believe it ; but how could [he]426-pappy bear to see [that dear little thing]6424-that dear little thing go three days without food ? Most likely [she]429-cora had exaggerated . Although [she]429-cora was truthful as light , sometimes [her]429-cora quick fancy and warmth , like the sunshine itself , would bring out some points too strongly . However , [I]2283-the people was prepared , without that , to dislike [the Professor]2125-the professor , for , as a general rule , [I]2283-the people do n't like [men who moralise]6426-men who moralise ; at least if [their]6426-men who moralise philosophy is frigid . Nevertheless , [I]2283-the people promised very readily to forgive [her]429-cora [Papa]425-papa , for [I]2283-the people did so love that [Isola]428-isola . [Her]428-isola nature was so different to [mine]2283-the people , so light and airy , elastic and soft ; in short ( if [I]2283-the people must forsake [my]2283-the people language ) , the complement of [my]2283-the people own . [We]6427-we chatted , or rather [she]428-isola did , for at least half an hour ; and then [she]428-isola told [me]2283-the people [old Cora]429-cora was coming to fetch [her]428-isola at three o'clock . Once more [I]2283-the people rose to depart , for [I]2283-the people feared [she]428-isola might get into trouble , if [the old nurse]6428-the old nurse should find [her]428-isola so intimate with [a stranger]1247-a stranger . But [Isola]428-isola told [me]2283-the people that [she]428-isola did not care for [her]428-isola a bit , and [she]428-isola had quite set [her]428-isola heart on [my]2283-the people meeting [[her]428-isola brother]6430-her brother [Conrad]427-conrad , [the sculptor of that magnificent stag]6431-the sculptor of that magnificent stag . Perhaps [he]427-conrad would come with [Cora]429-cora , but [he]427-conrad was so altered now , [she]429-cora could never tell what [he]427-conrad would do . Since the time [she]429-cora first saw [me]2283-the people , [Conrad]427-conrad had come of age , and [she]429-cora could not guess what it was all about , but there had been a dreadful disturbance between [him]427-conrad and [[his]427-conrad father]1062-his father , and [he]427-conrad had actually gone to live away from [the family]1254-the family . [She]429-cora thought it must be about money , or some such nasty thing ; but even [Cora]429-cora did not know , or if [she]429-cora did , [the old thing]6434-the old thing would not tell . It had made poor [Isola]428-isola cry till [her]428-isola eyes were sore , but now [she]428-isola supposed [she]428-isola must make up [her]428-isola mind to it all . But [she]428-isola would tell the truth , [she]428-isola did hate being treated like [a baby]2061-a baby when [she]428-isola was [a full - grown woman]6436-a full - grown woman ; how much taller did [they]6437-they expect [her]428-isola to be ? And what was much worse , [she]428-isola did want so to comfort [them]6437-they both , and how could [she]428-isola do it without knowing what was the matter ? It was too bad , and [she]428-isola wished [she]428-isola was [a boy]1691-a boy , with all [her]428-isola heart [she]428-isola did . [She]428-isola went on talking like this till [her]428-isola gentle breast fluttered , and [her]428-isola coral lips quivered , and the tears stole down [her]428-isola long lashes , and [she]428-isola crept to [me]2283-the people closer for comfort . [I]2283-the people was clasping [her]428-isola round little waist , and kissing the bright drops away , when in burst [a dark , scraggy woman , who must , of course , be [old Cora]429-cora]6439-a dark , scraggy woman , who must , of course , be old cora . [She]6439-a dark , scraggy woman , who must , of course , be old cora tore [the poor child]6440-the poor child from [my]2283-the people arms , and scowled at [me]2283-the people fiercely enough to frighten [a girl unacquainted with real terrors]6441-a girl unacquainted with real terrors . [I]2283-the people met [her]6439-a dark , scraggy woman , who must , of course , be old cora dark gaze with a calm contempt , beneath which it quailed and fell . [She]6439-a dark , scraggy woman , who must , of course , be old cora mumbled some words in a language or patois , which [I]2283-the people supposed to be Gaelic , and led off [her]6439-a dark , scraggy woman , who must , of course , be old cora charge towards the door . [She]6439-a dark , scraggy woman , who must , of course , be old cora had mistaken [[her]6439-a dark , scraggy woman , who must , of course , be old cora adversary]6442-her adversary . Was [I]2283-the people to be pushed aside , like [a gingerbread woman]6443-a gingerbread woman tempting [a weak - stomached child]6444-a weak - stomached child ? [I]2283-the people passed [them]2285-this young lady ; then turned and confronted [the hag]6445-the hag . "[2283-the people] Have the goodness , [old woman]2284-old woman , to walk behind [this young lady]2285-this young lady and [me]0-i . When [we]2286-we want [your]2285-this young lady society , [we]2286-we will ask for it . [Isola Ross]428-isola , come with [me]0-i , unless [you]2285-this young lady prefer [a rude menial]2287-a rude menial 's tyranny to [a lady]5829-a lady 's affection . " [Isola]428-isola was too frightened to speak . [I]2285-this young lady know not what would have been the result , if [the old hag , who was glaring about , rather taken aback , but still clutching that delicate arm]6446-the old hag , who was glaring about , rather taken aback , but still clutching that delicate arm , had not suddenly spied [my]2285-this young lady fairy 's heart , as yet unrestored to its sanctuary . [She]428-isola stared , for a moment , in wide amazement ; then [her]428-isola whole demeanour was altered . [She]428-isola cringed , and fawned , and curtseyed , as if [I]2285-this young lady had worn a tiara . [She]428-isola dropped [my]2285-this young lady dear [Isola]428-isola 's arm , and fell behind like [a negress]6447-a negress . [[My]2285-this young lady poor little pet]6448-my poor little pet was trembling and cold with fright , for ( as [she]428-isola told [me]2285-this young lady afterwards ) [she]428-isola had never seen [old Cora]429-cora in such a passion before , and [the superstitious darling]6449-the superstitious darling dreaded the evil eye . As [we]6450-we went towards [[Isola]428-isola 's home]6451-isola 's home , [I]2285-this young lady could not help thinking how fine the interview would be between [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer and [Cora]429-cora , if [I]2285-this young lady only chose to carry [that vanquished beldame thither]6452-that vanquished beldame thither ; but [sage]456-sage discretion ( was [I]2285-this young lady not now eighteen ? ) , and the thought of that solemn day prevented [me]2285-this young lady . So [I]2285-this young lady took [them]6453-them straight [home]1102-home , leading [Isola]428-isola while [she]428-isola guided [me]2285-this young lady , and turning sometimes , with complacency , to encourage old [Cora]429-cora behind [us]6450-we . [The house]764-the house [they]6453-them lived in was [a high but narrow one , dull - looking and dark , with area rails in front]6456-a high but narrow one , dull - looking and dark , with area rails in front . [Some little maiden]6457-some little maiden came to the door , and [I]2285-this young lady took [my]2285-this young lady leave on the steps . [Dear Isola]457-isola , now in high spirits again , kissed [me]2285-this young lady , like a peach quite warm in the sun , and promised to come the next day , about which there could now be no difficulty . [Old Cora]429-cora bent low as [she]429-cora wished [me]2285-this young lady good evening and begged leave to kiss [my]2285-this young lady cordetto . This [I]2285-this young lady granted , but took good care not to let it pass out of [my]2285-this young lady hands ; [she]429-cora admired it so much , especially when allowed to examine it , and there was such a greedy light in [her]429-cora eyes , that [I]2285-this young lady was quite sure [she]429-cora would steal it upon the first chance ; and therefore [I]2285-this young lady went straightway and bought a guard of thick silk cord , as a substitute for the black riband , which was getting worn . And so [I]2285-this young lady came [home]1102-home before dark , full of wonder , but feeling rather triumphant , and greatly delighted at having recovered [dear Isola]457-isola . Late in the evening of that same day , [I]2285-this young lady sat in [[my]2285-this young lady room]986-my room by the firelight only ( for [I]2285-this young lady could not work ) and tried to look into [myself]2285-this young lady , and find out the cause of [my]2285-this young lady strange attraction or rather impulsion towards [Isola]457-isola . Somehow or other [I]2285-this young lady did not wonder so much that [she]457-isola should be drawn quite as strongly towards [me]2285-this young lady , although [an impartial observer]6460-an impartial observer would perhaps have wondered far more . Alter puzzling [myself]2285-this young lady in vain with this inquiry , [my]2285-this young lady thoughts began to move , in their usual gloomy train . Eight years had now elapsed , and what had [I]2285-this young lady discovered ? Nothing ; but at long dark intervals some impress of the deed itself , more than of [the doer]6461-the doer . Had [I]2285-this young lady halted in pursuit , or had [my]2285-this young lady vengeance cooled ? To the former question [my]2285-this young lady conscience answered "[2285-this young lady] yes , " to [the latter]907-the latter "[2285-this young lady] no . " Gentle influences had been shed around [me]423-miss valence , sorrow had bedewed the track of hate , intercourse with [happy harmless people]6463-happy harmless people , and gratitude for unmerited kindness ; it was not in human nature , however finely constitute for evil , entirely to repulse these powers . [I]423-miss valence could not deny , that the religion of [my]423-miss valence heart , during the last twelvemonth , had been somewhat neglected . For [my]423-miss valence devotion to [dear mother]968-dear mother , no plea was required . But the time since that , what business had [I]423-miss valence with [laughing children]6465-laughing children , and snug firesides , with dickybirds , and [Sandy]402-sandy the squirrel ? Even [sweet Isola]457-isola caused [me]423-miss valence a pang of remorse ; but no , [I]423-miss valence could not quite abandon [her]457-isola . But now , thank [God]303-god , [I]423-miss valence was in [the right road]6466-the right road again , and plodding resolutely as [[my]423-miss valence father]731-my father could expect . To [his]731-my father spirit , ever present with [me]423-miss valence , [I]423-miss valence knelt down and poured out [my]423-miss valence remorse ; and swore to make amends , whatever it might cost [me]423-miss valence . Yet even then , a gentle shadow seemed to come as well , and whisper the words that calmed the face of death . [My]423-miss valence musings , if so mild a word may suit them , were roughly interrupted by a loud step on the stairs . [Inspector Cutting , who could walk when needful like a cat]6468-inspector cutting , who could walk when needful like a cat , loved to redress this injury to [the Goddess Echo]458-the goddess echo , by making double noise when not on business . [Farmer Huxtable]362-farmer huxtable , [a man of twice the weight]6469-a man of twice the weight , would have come up [those stairs]6470-those stairs at half the expense in sound . When [he]362-farmer huxtable entered [the room]823-the room , [he]362-farmer huxtable found [himself]362-farmer huxtable in a semi - official state again , and [I]423-miss valence saw that [he]362-farmer huxtable was not come for nothing . In a few brief words , [he]362-farmer huxtable told [me]423-miss valence what [he]362-farmer huxtable had done , which was not very much ; or perhaps [my]423-miss valence suspicion was right , that [he]362-farmer huxtable only told [me]423-miss valence a part of it . Then [he]362-farmer huxtable said abruptly , "[423-miss valence] [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , [I]0-i know pluck when [I]0-i see it . " "[423-miss valence] What do [you]0-i mean , [Mr. Cutting]415-mr. cutting ? " "[0-i] Excuse [me]0-i , [I]0-i forgot that [you]0-i have been reared in [the country]1831-the country . What [I]0-i mean is , that [I]0-i believe [you]0-i possess an unusual share of courage . " "[0-i] As to that , [I]0-i can not say , having never been severely tried ; but in such a cause as [mine]0-i , [I]0-i could go through a good deal . " "[0-i] And not lose [your]0-i presence of mind , even in real danger ? " "[0-i] That again [I]0-i can not say , and for the same reason . But [I]0-i am quite ready to make the trial . " [I]0-i felt the colour mounting in [my]0-i cheeks . How glad [I]0-i should be to prove to [myself]0-i that [I]0-i was not ignoble . [He]0-i observed [me]0-i closely , and appeared quite satisfied . "[0-i] What [I]0-i have to propose to [you]0-i , is attended with no little danger . " "[0-i] [I]0-i will do [my]0-i utmost not to be afraid . [I]0-i am more impulsive perhaps than brave , but what is life worth to [me]0-i ? [I]0-i will try to think of that all the time . No doubt [you]0-i have a good reason for exposing [me]0-i to danger . " "[0-i] Certainly [I]0-i have , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence . For [your]0-i own purpose it is most important that [you]0-i should be able to identify [certain persons]2290-certain persons , whom [I]0-i shall show [you]0-i to - night ; that is , unless [I]0-i am misinformed . " "[0-i] To - night ! so late as this ? " And [I]0-i began to tremble already . "[0-i] Yes , [we]2291-we must go to - night , or wait for another fortnight ; and then it would be no earlier , even if [we]2291-we got such a chance again . And for [your]0-i sake it is better than to be in a fright for a fortnight . " "[412-inspector cutting] [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting , [I]0-i am in no fright whatever . At least [I]0-i mean no more so than [any other girl]2292-any other girl would be , who felt a vague danger impending . [I]0-i hope and trust that [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's memory and the justice of [God]303-god will be with [me]0-i . " "[1872-young lady] [Young lady]1872-young lady , [I]0-i see that [I]0-i may safely venture it . If [you]0-i had boasted , [I]0-i should have hesitated , though [I]0-i have had some proof already of [your]0-i determination . [The chief]2295-the chief , and indeed the only danger , is lest [you]0-i lose [your]0-i presence of mind , and that [most females]2296-most females would do , if placed as [you]0-i will be . Now [I]0-i wish [you]0-i to make deliberate choice , and not to be carried away by impulse vindictiveness , or the love of adventure ; which , when the spirit is high like [yours]0-i , too often leads [young females]2297-young females into trouble , from which it is not always possible even for [the most capable members of the force]2298-the most capable members of the force to extricate [them]2297-young females . " "[0-i] Of course [I]0-i know all that . How much longer are [we]2299-we to talk ? Must [I]0-i disguise [myself]0-i ? When am [I]0-i to be ready ? And where are [we]2299-we going ? " "[0-i] Now [you]0-i are growing impatient . That is not a good sign . Remember , [I]0-i can easily procure [another witness]2300-another witness ; but for [your]0-i own sake [I]0-i wish to give [you]0-i the chance . Probably [you]0-i will see to - night [the man who killed [[your]0-i father]5365-your father]2301-the man who killed your father . " As [he]0-i spoke [my]2301-the man who killed your father flesh was creeping , and [my]2301-the man who killed your father blood ran cold , then suddenly flushed through [my]2301-the man who killed your father system like electric fluid . [He]0-i began again as coolly as if [he]0-i were reporting a case of [some one discovered "[2301-the man who killed your father] drunk and incapable]6472-some one discovered " drunk and incapable . " From force of habit , [he]0-i touched [his]0-i forehead , and stood at attention , as [he]0-i spoke . "[2301-the man who killed your father] In consequence of information which [I]0-i have received , [I]0-i have been induced to make certain inquiries , which have resulted in the conviction that [the criminal [I]0-i am in search of]2303-the criminal i am in search of will be present at a certain place this night , at a certain hour . It is therefore [my]0-i intention to embrace the opportunity of — " "[0-i] Catching [him]2301-the man who killed your father ! " cried [I]0-i in a breathless hurry . "[0-i] To embrace the opportunity , " continued [the Inspector , like a talking oak]6473-the inspector , like a talking oak , "[0-i] of conducting [my]0-i investigations personally , and in the presence of [a witness]2304-a witness . The effect thereby produced upon [my]0-i mind shall be entered duly , the moral effect [I]0-i should have said , and the cause of justice will be promoted as rapidly as is consistent with the principles of [our]2305-our glorious constitution . " "[0-i] Do [you]0-i mean to say that [you]0-i will let [him]2301-the man who killed your father go ? " "[0-i] No , [I]0-i shall not let [him]2301-the man who killed your father go , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , for the simple reason that [I]0-i shall not apprehend [him]2301-the man who killed your father . [I]0-i see that [you]423-miss valence are inclined to take the law into [your]423-miss valence own hands . That will never do for [me]0-i . " "[423-miss valence] Oh no , [I]0-i am not . A year ago [I]0-i would have done so . But [I]0-i am older and wiser now . " [I]0-i was thinking of [dear mother]968-dear mother ; and began to feel already that [my]0-i character was changing . [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting gave [me]0-i some minute instructions , and in less than half an hour [we]6475-we set forth upon [our]6475-we enterprise . [I]0-i was wrapped in a loose grey cloak having a hooded cape ; and carefully hidden [I]0-i carried for self - defence a very keen stiletto . [I]0-i had procured it indirectly from the best cutler in [London]1-london , but neither workmanship nor material could be compared to that of [Italy]63-italy . The night was dark and cold , [the streets]2026-the streets were almost deserted , and [all the shops except [the chemists]6478-the chemists ']6477-all the shops except the chemists ' and [the public - houses]6479-the public - houses closed . [We]6475-we walked straightway to [the nearest cabstand]6480-the nearest cabstand , where [Mr. Cutting]415-mr. cutting ordered [a vehicle]5550-a vehicle , and put [me]0-i inside , [himself]415-mr. cutting riding with [the driver]6033-the driver . So little did [I]0-i know as yet of [London]1-london , that after the first turn or two , [I]0-i could not even guess what direction [we]6475-we were taking . [I]0-i had such confidence in [[my]0-i guide]5798-my guide , [a staid respectable man with [a grown up family]6485-a grown up family]6484-a staid respectable man with a grown up family , that [I]0-i never thought there could be harm in [my]0-i journeying with [him]5798-my guide at night . And even had [I]0-i thought so , most likely [I]0-i should have done it all the same . Ever since the time [he]5798-my guide wounded [me]0-i , or allowed [me]0-i to wound [myself]0-i , [his]5798-my guide manner towards [me]0-i had been most kind , considerate , and respectful ; though [he]5798-my guide found it [his]5798-my guide duty now and then to repress [my]0-i impetuosity . With all [my]0-i perception alert , [I]0-i kept a sharp look - out from the window , but vainly strove to find anything that might serve for a landmark . Once [we]6486-we stopped for about five minutes , at [a police - station]6487-a police - station somewhere in [Clerkenwell]89-clerkenwell , where , by the light of a lamp , [I]0-i read , without leaving [the cab]6488-the cab , the ghastly descriptions of all the dead bodies recently found in [London]1-london and waiting identification . Hereupon [my]0-i courage began to ooze , and the weather seemed much colder . The type was hard to read at that distance , and the imagination had fair play , as it does when words come slowly . Anon [the inspector]1959-the inspector reappeared , so altered in dress and countenance , that [I]0-i did not know [him]1959-the inspector until [he]1959-the inspector made [me]0-i a bow . With a glance of encouragement , and a little grin of dry humour , [he]1959-the inspector mounted the box again . After another long drive , in the course of which [we]6486-we ran silently over [a wooden road,—probably High Holborn,—we]6490-a wooden road,—probably high holborn,—we stopped in [a broad but deserted thoroughfare]6491-a broad but deserted thoroughfare , very badly lighted . Here [Mr. Cutting]415-mr. cutting opened the door , helped [me]0-i out , and discharged [the cab]6488-the cab , but whispered something to [the driver]6033-the driver before [he]6033-the driver let [him]6033-the driver go . "[0-i] Now take [my]0-i arm , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , if [you]423-miss valence please . [I]0-i have escorted [many [a lady of higher birth]2307-a lady of higher birth than [yours]423-miss valence]2306-many a lady of higher birth than yours . " "[2307-a lady of higher birth] Of higher title perhaps , [Mr. Cutting]415-mr. cutting ; and [[their]2306-many a lady of higher birth than yours grandfathers money - lenders]2308-their grandfathers money - lenders , or perhaps far worse . " "[0-i] [I]0-i am sure [I]0-i do n't know ; [we]2309-we must take things as [we]2309-we find them . [I]0-i thought [you]423-miss valence despised such nonsense . But the cabbage that runs to seed is the tallest in [the field]5597-the field . [No Englishman]2311-no englishman sees the nonsense of it , unless [he]2311-no englishman happens to be [a detective]2312-a detective or [a grave - digger]2313-a grave - digger . " "[2311-no englishman] Do [you]423-miss valence mean to say that [those of lofty birth]2314-those of lofty birth are worse than those of low birth ? " "[423-miss valence] No , [I]0-i mean nothing of the sort . But [I]0-i do mean that they ought to be better , and on the whole are not so . Nature holds the balance , and temptation and education chuck into the opposite scales , and [I]0-i think the first chucks fastest . At any rate [I]0-i would rather have [a good drunken navvy]2315-a good drunken navvy than [a lord]2316-a lord to take to [the station]2317-the station . [I]0-i mean of course when [my]0-i own rank was not what it is . " This little dissertation was meant to divert [my]5381-poor child thoughts . [I]5381-poor child made no reply , being ignorant of such matters ; neither did [I]5381-poor child care to talk about them then . Nevertheless , [I]5381-poor child believe [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting was wrong . As [we]6494-we entered [a narrow street]6495-a narrow street [he]412-inspector cutting suddenly turned and looked at [me]5381-poor child . "[5381-poor child] [Poor child]5381-poor child ! how [you]5381-poor child tremble ! Draw [your]5381-poor child cape more forward ; the bitter cold requires it . Are [you]5381-poor child trembling from fear ? " "[5381-poor child] No ; only from cold . " But [I]5381-poor child tried in vain to think so . "[5381-poor child] A steady hand and steadfast nerve are wanted for [your]5381-poor child task . If [you]5381-poor child can not rely on [them]2319-them , say so at once . In five minutes [you]5381-poor child will have no retreat . " "[0-i] [I]0-i shall be better directly . But [I]0-i am so cold . [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting , it must be freezing hard — ten degrees , [I]0-i should think . " "[412-inspector cutting] It does not freeze at all . [I]0-i see [we]2320-we must warm [you]5381-poor child a little . But no more ' [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting , ' if [you]5381-poor child please , until to - morrow . " Hereupon [he]412-inspector cutting led [me]412-inspector cutting into [a little room]6496-a little room , fenced off from [the bar of [some refreshment - house]6498-some refreshment - house]6497-the bar of some refreshment - house . A glorious fire was burning , by which [he]412-inspector cutting set and left [me]412-inspector cutting . Presently [he]412-inspector cutting returned , with a small glass in [his]412-inspector cutting hand . "[412-inspector cutting] Drink this , [young lady]1872-young lady . It will warm [you]5381-poor child , and brace [your]5381-poor child nerves . " [I]412-inspector cutting saw by the firelight that it was brandy , or some dark - coloured spirit . "[412-inspector cutting] No , [I]0-i thank [you]412-inspector cutting . Do [you]412-inspector cutting suppose that [I]0-i require [Dutch]459-dutch courage ? " [I]412-inspector cutting threw such emphasis on the personal pronoun , and looked at [him]412-inspector cutting so indignantly , that [he]412-inspector cutting laughed outright . "[412-inspector cutting] [I]0-i thank [you]5381-poor child in turn . [You]5381-poor child suppose that [I]0-i do . [I]0-i will justify [your]5381-poor child discernment . " And with that [he]412-inspector cutting tipped it off , and then returned to business , all the graver for the interlude . "[0-i] Now , if [you]5381-poor child are really warm , [we]2322-we will start again . Stop one moment . [I]0-i have heard [you]5381-poor child cough two or three times . Can [you]5381-poor child keep it under ? " [I]5381-poor child assured [him]412-inspector cutting that [I]5381-poor child could very easily do so , and that it was nothing but the sudden effect of the cold . Forth [we]2322-we went again into the winter night , after [I]5381-poor child had learned from [him]412-inspector cutting that [we]2322-we were now in [Whitechapel]90-whitechapel , not far from [Goodman 's Fields]91-goodman 's fields . After another short walk , [we]2322-we came to the end of [a narrow by - street]6499-a narrow by - street , where there was an archway . Passing through this archway , [we]2322-we descended some steep and broken steps . Then [the Inspector]1959-the inspector produced a small lamp brightly burning , which [he]1959-the inspector must have lit at [the public - house]6501-the public - house . It was not what is called a bull's - eye , but a reflector - lamp . By its light [I]5381-poor child saw that the chief entrance to [the house]764-the house must be round the corner , and perhaps in [another street]6503-another street . With a small key which [he]412-inspector cutting took from [his]412-inspector cutting pocket , [Mr. Cutting]415-mr. cutting unlocked a little iron gate , and [we]2322-we entered [a narrow passage]6504-a narrow passage . At the end of [it]6504-a narrow passage was a massive door studded with great nails . Here [[my]5381-poor child guide]5798-my guide gave a gentle knock , and hid the lamp as before . Presently [we]2322-we heard a shrill sound from the keyhole , like a dryad 's voice . [The Inspector]1959-the inspector stooped thereto , and pronounced the password . Not without some difficulty the lock was turned and the bolts withdrawn , and [we]2322-we stood inside . [A child , under - sized and unnaturally sharp]6507-a child , under - sized and unnaturally sharp , stared at [us]2322-we for a moment , then dodged away from the lamp , as if more accustomed to darkness . [Mr. Cutting]415-mr. cutting closed the door and refastened it , then led [me]5381-poor child through [some basement rooms]6508-some basement rooms unpaved and unfurnished , until [we]2322-we came to an iron step - ladder . This [he]412-inspector cutting ascended , and helped [me]5381-poor child up , and [we]2322-we found [ourselves]2322-we in a small dark lobby , containing no furniture , except a high three - legged stool . When [he]412-inspector cutting closed [his]412-inspector cutting lamp all around was dark , but on the rafters overhead a faint patch of light appeared — ceiling there was none . "[5381-poor child] Do [you]2323-you see that light ? " [he]412-inspector cutting whispered to [me]2323-you , pointing , as [I]2323-you could just perceive , to a narrow glazed opening high in the wall , whence the faint gleam proceeded . "[2323-you] Then jump upon this stool , and do [your]2323-you best to see through . " [He]0-i cast the light of [his]0-i lamp upon the stool for a moment , while [I]0-i did as [he]0-i bade [me]0-i . Standing there , [I]0-i found that [I]0-i was tall enough to look through ; but the narrow pane which formed the window was thickly covered with size , or some opaque integument . All [I]0-i could tell was , that the space beyond was lighted . "[0-i] [I]0-i know [you]2323-you ca n't see now , " [he]0-i said , as [I]2323-you came down despairing , "[2323-you] but [you]2323-you shall see by and by . [The fools who were here before]2324-the fools who were here before sized the glass on the wrong side , and this lot , though much sharper , have not corrected the error . [They]2324-the fools who were here before keep that window for escape in the last resort . Now take this bottle and this camel's - hair brush ; it will make the glass transparent without the smallest noise . [The men]5486-the men are not there yet . [We]2326-we could easily rub it clear now , but [they]5486-the men will examine it . When the time comes , use the liquid most carefully and lightly , and do n't spread it higher than an inch from the bottom of the frame . The lights are at this end ; the shadow of the sill will allow [you]2323-you just an inch . " "[0-i] And how far may [I]0-i go horizontally ? " "[0-i] The whole length of the glass , to command as much view as possible . The effect will pass in three or four minutes , but [you]2323-you must not do it again . If [you]2323-you do , the glass will fly , and [you]2323-you will be in [their]5486-the men hands . [Desperate men]2327-desperate men [they]5486-the men are , and though [I]0-i shall be near , [I]0-i might be too late to save [you]2323-you . See all [you]2323-you can , to be able to swear to [them]5486-the men all . " "[1111-the one] How shall [I]0-i know [the one]1111-the one ? " "[0-i] [I]0-i can not tell [you]2323-you . [I]0-i must leave it to [your]2323-you instinct , or [your]2323-you intuition . [I]0-i only know [myself]0-i that [he]1111-the one is one of the four . [My]0-i information , such as it is , was obtained very oddly , and [I]0-i trust to this night 's work to make it more precise . One thing more : No noise , if [you]2323-you value [your]2323-you life . Keep the bottle stopped . Do n't let the stuff drop on [you]2323-you ; do n't put [your]2323-you eyes to it , or it will blind [you]2323-you for ever . There is very little of it , because it is so deadly . " "[0-i] When shall [I]0-i do it ? " "[0-i] In one hour from this time . Take [this repeater]2329-this repeater . [I]0-i have shown [you]2323-you how to use it . Look well at it now , while [you]2323-you have the light . " [I]0-i looked at the watch ; it was nearly midnight . "[0-i] Am [I]0-i to be left in the dark — all in the dark here , by [myself]0-i ? " "[2330-they] Yes . [I]0-i must be seen elsewhere , or the whole thing fails . [They]2330-they know [me]0-i even in this dress , and [they]2330-they watch [me]0-i as [I]0-i do [them]2330-they . But for to - night [I]0-i believe [I]0-i have misled [them]2330-they . When it is over , wait here till [I]0-i come for [you]2323-you , or [the little girl [you]2323-you saw]2331-the little girl you saw . " "[0-i] Oh ! [I]0-i wish [I]0-i had never come ; and all so vague and indecisive ! " "[2323-you] [You]2323-you can go back now , if [you]2323-you please ; though ever that would be dangerous . " "[0-i] [I]0-i will not go back . No doubt [I]0-i shall know [him]0-i . When will [you]0-i secure [him]0-i ? " "[0-i] When [my]0-i evidence is completed . Now , remember , [you]2323-you have to deal with men keen as hawks , and stealthy as tigers . But there is no real danger , if [you]2323-you keep [your]2323-you self - command . Observe all four as narrowly as [you]2323-you can , both for [your]2323-you own sake and for [mine]0-i . Be careful to stand on the centre of the stool . But [you]2323-you had better not get upon it until [they]2332-they have searched [the room]823-the room . Now , good - bye . [I]0-i trust to [your]2323-you courage . If any harm comes , [I]0-i will avenge [you]2323-you . " "[0-i] A comfort that ! What good will it be to [me]0-i ? " "[0-i] If vengeance is no good , what are [you]0-i doing [here]846-here ? " "[0-i] Thank [you]0-i . That is no business of [yours]2323-you . Do n't let [me]0-i detain [you]2323-you . " [He]0-i told [me]0-i afterwards that [he]0-i had vexed [me]0-i on purpose to arouse [my]0-i mettle . And [I]0-i am sure [I]0-i needed it . "[0-i] Ah ! now [you]2323-you are all right . If [your]2323-you caution fails [you]2323-you , [the man who slew [[your]2323-you father]5365-your father]2335-the man who slew your father will be sure to escape [us]2337-us . " "[2335-the man who slew your father] If it fails [me]0-i , ' twill be from anger , not from terror . " "[0-i] [I]0-i know it . Let [me]0-i look at [you]2323-you . " [He]0-i threw the full light on [my]0-i face . The burnished concave was not brighter or firmer than [my]0-i eyes . "[0-i] Pale as death , and quite as resolute . Rely only upon [yourself]2323-you . " "[303-god] [God]303-god and [myself]0-i , " [I]303-god whispered , as [he]0-i glided out of sight along [the vaults below]6509-the vaults below . [I]303-god could see no other entrance to [the place in which [I]303-god sat]6510-the place in which i sat ; but how could [I]303-god tell ? For a minute excitement kept [me]303-god hot ; but as the last gleam of the light died upon the wall below , [my]303-god heart began to throb heavily , and a chill came over [me]303-god . The pulse thumped in [my]303-god ears , like a knocking in [the cellar]1496-the cellar . "[303-god] Was it fear ? " [I]303-god asked [myself]303-god , in scorn that [I]303-god should ask . No , it was not fear , but horrible suspense . The balance of life and death , of triumph and disgrace , swung there before [me]303-god in the dark , as if [my]303-god breath would turn it . No dream of [a child]782-a child , no vagary of the brain — the clear perception of strong will and soul poised upon this moment . The moment was too long ; the powers began to fail , the senses grew more faint and confused at every heavy throb . Little images and little questions took the place of large ones . In vain [I]303-god looked for even a cobweb , or the skeleton of a fly , where the dull light flickered through the pane of glass . In vain [I]303-god listened for a mouse . Even a rat ( much as [I]303-god hate [him]0-i ) would have been welcome then . The repeater was purposely made so low of tick , that [I]303-god got no comfort thence . All was deep , unfathomable silence , except the sound of [my]303-god rebel heart . As a forlorn hope , [I]303-god began to reckon sixty slowly , as [a child]782-a child keeps with a ticking clock . It would not do . [My]303-god heart was beating louder than ever , and [my]303-god hands were trembling ; even [my]303-god teeth rattled like dice in a box as the time approached . The nerves will not be hoodwinked ; the mind can not swindle the body . [I]303-god once slapped the cheeks of [[my]303-god governess]1019-my governess . [I]303-god can not treat nature so . Try the sweet influence , and the honest coin of reason . It will not do . All trembling , [I]303-god strike the repeater . Five minutes more , and the trial must come . [My]303-god heart is fluttering like a pigeon 's throat . The long suspense has been too much . Oh ! why was [I]303-god submitted to this cruel ordeal ? The walls are thick . [I]303-god can hear no movement in [the secret room]6515-the secret room . There comes a creeping , fingering , sound , as of one whose candle is out , groping for the door . It passes along the pane of glass , and a shadow is thrown on the rafter . Who can it be ? What stealthy hand but that of [[[my]303-god father]731-my father 's murderer]5361-my father 's murderer ? The word — the thought is enough . What resolution , reason , justice , all in turn , have failed to do , passion has done at once — passion at [myself]303-god , as well as at [[my]303-god enemy]1966-my enemy . Is it [Clara Vaughan]293-clara , who , for eight long years of demon 's reign , has breathed but for this moment — is [Clara Vaughan]293-clara to shake like the wooden - legged blackbird now [her]293-clara chance is come ? A rush of triumph burned , like vitriol , through [my]303-god veins . Every nerve was braced , every sense alert and eager . Against the light of that window , dull as it was , [I]303-god could have threaded the finest needle that ever was made . [I]303-god struck [my]303-god repeater again . It was the hour , the minute , when [[my]303-god father]731-my father died . With the mere spring of [my]303-god instep [I]303-god leaped upon the stool . [I]303-god could see it clearly now . [I]303-god dipped the broad camel's - hair brush in the flat phial , holding it carefully at arm 's length , and then drew it lightly along the pane , quite at the bottom , from corner to corner . One more dip , one more stripe above , a steam hovered on the glass , and there was a gazing - place , clear as crystal , and wide enough to show most of [the narrow room]6520-the narrow room . Of [the room itself]6521-the room itself [I]303-god took no heed ; [the occupants]6522-the occupants were [[my]303-god study]5434-my study . Only four in all . [One man at a high desk]6524-one man at a high desk writing rapidly ; [three men]6525-three men sitting round a small table , talking earnestly , and with much gesticulation , but the tone too low for [me]303-god even to guess [their]6525-three men language . From the appearance , manner , and action of [the speakers]6526-the speakers , [I]303-god felt sure that it was not English , and [I]303-god thought that it was not French . Why , [I]303-god can not say ; but [my]303-god attention fixed itself upon [the man who was writing at the top of the room]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room . Perhaps it was because [I]303-god could see [him]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room best , for [he]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room stood with [his]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room face full towards [me]303-god . [He]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room was [a man of middle age and stature , strongly framed , closely knit , and light of limb , with a handsome , keenly oval face , broad forehead , black eyes]6528-a man of middle age and stature , strongly framed , closely knit , and light of limb , with a handsome , keenly oval face , broad forehead , black eyes , glancing quickly and scornfully at [[his]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room three comrades]6529-his three comrades , long hair of an iron grey , falling on [his]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room shoulders , and tossed back often with a jerk of the head . [His]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room hands were white and restless , quick as light in their motion . On the left thumb flashed a large red jewel . Though [I]303-god could not see the paper , [I]303-god knew by the course of the quill that the writing was very small . But one minute [I]303-god watched [him]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room , for the film was returning upon the glass , and [I]303-god must scan [the others]1636-the others ; yet in that time [he]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room had written several lines , half of them without looking at the paper , but with [his]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room eyes upon [the other three]6531-the other three . [I]303-god knew [him]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room now [he]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room was in clear light , [I]303-god could swear to [him]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room anywhere again . The last glance [I]303-god could spare [him]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room sent a shudder through [me]303-god , for in [his]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room impatience [he]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room shifted one foot from the shade of the desk . It was small , pointed , and elegant . The film was thickening , like frost upon the pane , when [I]303-god began to observe [the others]1636-the others . But [I]303-god saw enough to print [their]1636-the others faces on [my]303-god memory , or those at least of two . The third [I]303-god could not see so well . [He]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room seemed older than [the rest]6533-the rest . [All the men]6534-all the men wore loose grey tunics , with a red sash over the left shoulder . [I]303-god judged that [the three]6535-the three were debating hotly , as to some measure , upon which [the fourth]6536-the fourth had resolved . Every now and then , [they]6535-the three glanced at [him]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room uneasily . At [him]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room [I]303-god gazed again , with deadly hatred , cold as ice , upon [my]303-god heart . [I]303-god felt [my]303-god dagger handle . Oh for one moment with [him]6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room ! In [my]303-god fury [I]303-god forgot [the Inspector]1959-the inspector 's warning . The film was closing over . [I]303-god touched the glass with [my]303-god lashes . A flash of agony shot through [my]303-god eyes . With a jerk [I]303-god drew back , the stool rocked under [me]303-god , one foot of it struck the wall . [I]303-god clutched the window sill , and threw [my]303-god weight inwards . Down came the foot of the stool , loud as the bang of a door . [I]303-god thought it was all over . How [I]303-god stifled a scream [I]303-god know not ; had it escaped [me]303-god , [I]303-god should never have told this story . [I]303-god had the presence of mind to stand still , and watch , though [my]303-god eyes were maddening [me]303-god , what the cut - throats would do . Through the agony , and the dimness , [I]303-god could just see [them]6538-them all start , and rush to the door at the side of [the room]823-the room . [The writer]6119-the writer stood first , with [his]6119-the writer papers thrust anyhow into [his]6119-the writer bosom , a pistol in one hand , a poniard in the other . Did [I]303-god know the shape of it ? [The other three]6531-the other three were armed , but [I]303-god could not see with what . [They]6531-the other three crouched behind a heavy screen , presenting ( [I]303-god supposed ) [their]6531-the other three pistol muzzles at the door . Finding no attack ensue , [they]6531-the other three began to search . Now was the real danger to [me]303-god . If [they]6531-the other three searched that window before the size returned , [my]303-god life ended there . Fear was past . Desperation seized [me]303-god . If [I]303-god was doomed to blindness , just as well to death . But [I]303-god clutched [my]303-god dagger . [My]303-god left ear was against the wall . [I]303-god heard a hand graze the partition inside , then a chair placed under the embrasure , and a step upon it . [I]303-god was still upon the stool , stooping close beneath the window frame . Suddenly the light streak vanished , the size flew over it , as the breath flies over glass in the hardest frost . The hand felt along the window frame , the dull shadow of a head flitted upon the beam . It was within a foot of [mine]303-god . [The searcher]6542-the searcher passed on , without suspicion . Strange it was , but now the deadliest peril was over , triple fear fell upon [me]303-god . The heat flew back to [my]303-god heart , just now so stanch and rigid ; [my]303-god hair seemed to creep with terror . Dear life , like true love scorned , would have its way within [me]303-god . Quietly [I]303-god slid down from the stool , and cowered upon it , in a storm of trembling . [My]303-god eyelids dropped in agony , [I]303-god could not lift them again , but blue and red lights seemed to dance within them . [I]303-god had made up [my]303-god mind to blindness ; but not , oh not just yet , to death . How long [I]303-god remained in this abject state , scorning [myself]303-god , yet none the braver , is more than [I]303-god can tell , or even cared to ask . May it never be the lot of any , not even [the basest murderer]6543-the basest murderer ! Worn out at last , in a lull of pain and terror , [I]303-god fell into deep sleep , from which [I]303-god was awakened by a hand upon [my]303-god shoulder . [I]303-god tried to look up , but could not . Sight was fled , and as [I]303-god thought for ever . But [I]303-god felt that it was [a friend]6544-a friend . "[303-god] Ah , [I]0-i see how it is"—the voice was [Inspector Cutting's—"my[391-mrs. shelfer] poor child]6545-inspector cutting's—"my poor child , there is now no danger . Give [me]0-i [your]2338-your hand : " [he]0-i tried to lift [me]2338-your , but [I]2338-your fell against the wall . "[2338-your] Take a sip of this , [we]2339-we must restore circulation . It is the cold as much as anything ; another sip , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara . " [He]0-i used [my]293-clara true name on purpose ; it helped to restore [me]293-clara . [He]0-i was most humane and kind ; [he]0-i did not even remind [me]293-clara of [Dutch]459-dutch courage . In the morning [I]293-clara dreamed of [Isola]457-isola . Across [a broad black river]6546-a broad black river , [I]293-clara saw [her]457-isola lovely smile . Thick fog rose from the water , in which two swans were beating a dog , and by snatches only could [I]293-clara see [[my]293-clara darling]5337-my darling . [She]457-isola waved [her]457-isola little hand to [me]293-clara , and begged [me]293-clara , with that coaxing smile which bent cast iron and even gold , to come across to [Isola]457-isola . In vain [I]293-clara looked for [a boat]6548-a boat , even in [my]293-clara dream [I]293-clara knew that [I]293-clara could not swim , and if [I]293-clara could , the lead upon [my]293-clara eyelids would have sunk [me]293-clara . So [I]293-clara called to [her]457-isola to come to [me]293-clara , and with that cry awoke . It was striking ten — [my]293-clara own little clock which [[my]293-clara father]731-my father gave [me]293-clara . [I]293-clara counted every stroke . What was [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer doing , that [she]391-mrs. shelfer had not called [me]293-clara yet ? What was [I]293-clara doing , that [I]293-clara lay there so late ; for [I]293-clara always get up early ? And what was the sun about , that no light came into [the room]823-the room ? [I]293-clara knew it was ten in the morning . [I]293-clara felt all round . [I]293-clara was in [my]293-clara little bed , the splinter at the side of the head - board ran into [my]293-clara finger as usual . There [I]293-clara was , and nowhere else . Was it a tremendous fog ? If it was , [they]6551-they should have told [me]293-clara , for [they]6551-they knew that [I]293-clara liked fogs . At least [they]6551-they thought so , from the interest [I]293-clara felt . [I]293-clara groped for the little bell - pull , a sleezy worsted cord , which meant to break every time , but was not strong enough to do it . [I]293-clara jerked with all [my]293-clara strength , which seemed very little somehow . What a pleasure ! The bell rang like a fire - peal . [I]293-clara fell back on the pillow , exhausted , but determined to have it out with [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer . [I]293-clara put [my]293-clara hands up to arrange [my]293-clara hair , to look a little more like [Clara Vaughan]293-clara , when the light should enter , and to frighten [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer . There was something on [my]293-clara head . [I]293-clara never wear a night - cap ; [my]293-clara long black hair would scorn it . Am [I]293-clara in [a madhouse]6552-a madhouse , is this put to keep [me]293-clara cool ? Cold it is , and [my]293-clara brain so hot . [All [Wenham]92-wenham lake on Dives]6553-all wenham lake on dives , and [he]6553-all wenham lake on dives will only hiss . While [I]293-clara am pulling at it , and find it streaming wet , in comes — [I]293-clara know [her]391-mrs. shelfer step — [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer . But there is no light from [the passage]824-the passage ! "[293-clara] [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , what do [you]391-mrs. shelfer mean by this ? " "[391-mrs. shelfer] By what , [[my]0-i dear good soul]2340-my dear good soul ? [I]0-i have done all the blessed things [I]0-i was told to do for [you]391-mrs. shelfer . [You]391-mrs. shelfer might have put a ostrich feather or a marabout to [my]0-i mouth , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , and tucked [me]0-i up , and a headstone , and none the wiser , when [Uncle John]411-miss vaughan brought [you]391-mrs. shelfer [home]1102-home last night . " "[411-miss vaughan] [I]0-i suppose [I]0-i am dreaming . But [I]0-i am sure [I]0-i rang the bell . " "[0-i] [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , [you]423-miss valence did so , and no mistake . Bless [me]0-i ! [I]0-i started in [my]0-i shoes . A good job , [Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer was n't [home]1102-home , [he]411-miss vaughan 's so nervous . [He]411-miss vaughan 'd have gone for gin straightways . Now get up , that 's [a dear good soul]2343-a dear good soul , and when [you]391-mrs. shelfer have had some breakfast , [we]2344-we 'll talk over it , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence . Let [me]0-i see how [your]391-mrs. shelfer eyes are . [Uncle John]411-miss vaughan said they was bad , and [I]0-i was to keep them covered . [I]0-i expects [him]411-miss vaughan [here]846-here every minute . Now turn them up to the light . What large eyes [you]391-mrs. shelfer have , to be sure . Bless [me]0-i ! Where are [your]391-mrs. shelfer long black lashes ? " "[391-mrs. shelfer] [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , there is some strange mistake . Let the light into [the room]823-the room . " [I]391-mrs. shelfer had risen in the bed , and [her]391-mrs. shelfer breath was on [my]391-mrs. shelfer forehead . "[391-mrs. shelfer] Light , [dear child]2347-dear child , [I]0-i ca n't let more . The sun is on [your]2347-dear child face . " [I]1872-young lady fell back upon [my]1872-young lady pillow , and could rise no more . The truth had been tingling through [me]1872-young lady , all the time [she]391-mrs. shelfer talked . [I]1872-young lady was stone - blind . [I]1872-young lady flung the bandage from [me]1872-young lady , and wished [my]1872-young lady heart would break . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer tried some comfort . [She]391-mrs. shelfer seemed to grieve for [my]1872-young lady eyelashes , more than for [my]1872-young lady eyes ; and addressed [her]391-mrs. shelfer comfort more to [my]1872-young lady looks than sight . Of course , [I]1872-young lady did not listen . When would the creature be gone , and let [me]1872-young lady try to think ? [Poor little thing]6555-poor little thing ! [I]1872-young lady was very sorry ; what fault was it of [hers]391-mrs. shelfer ? Who and what am [I]1872-young lady , blind [I]1872-young lady , to find fault with [any one who means [me]1872-young lady well]6556-any one who means me well ? [I]1872-young lady drop [my]1872-young lady eyelids , [I]1872-young lady can feel them fall ; [I]1872-young lady lift them , [I]1872-young lady can feel them rise ; a full gaze , a side gaze , a half gaze ; with both eyes , with one ; it is all the same ; gaze there may be , but no sight . Henceforth [I]1872-young lady want no eyelids . The sun is on [my]1872-young lady face . [I]1872-young lady can feel [his]6557-his winter rays , though [my]1872-young lady cheeks are wet . What use is [he]6557-his to [me]1872-young lady ? [I]1872-young lady have the dagger somewhere by which [[my]1872-young lady father]731-my father died . Let [me]1872-young lady find it , if [I]1872-young lady can . [I]1872-young lady could have sworn that the box was in that corner carefully concealed . [I]1872-young lady strike against a washing - stand . Ah , now [I]1872-young lady have it ; the box is locked , [my]1872-young lady keys are in the top - drawer . [I]1872-young lady bear the box to the bed , and go groping for the chest of drawers . Already [I]1872-young lady can tell by the sun - warmth on [my]1872-young lady face , which way [I]1872-young lady am going . Surely , if [I]1872-young lady wait , [I]1872-young lady shall have the instinct of the blind . What care [I]1872-young lady for that ? The coward love of life suggested that poor solace . Now [I]1872-young lady have the keys . [Quick]460-quick unlock the box . At length [I]1872-young lady throw the cover back . The weapon handle is to the right . [I]1872-young lady stoop to seize it . [I]1872-young lady grasp a square of colour . Pretty instinct this ! [I]1872-young lady have got [my]1872-young lady largest drawing box . Oh paints , [my]1872-young lady paints , so loved but yesterday , that ape the colours [I]1872-young lady shall never see , [my]1872-young lady hot tears make [you]6559-you water - colours indeed ! If [God]303-god has robbed [my]1872-young lady eyes of sight , [He]303-god has not dried [my]1872-young lady tears . The gushing flood relieves [me]1872-young lady . What right have [I]1872-young lady to die ? Even without asking if [my]1872-young lady case be hopeless ! Who knows but what these lovely tints may glow for [me]1872-young lady again ? May [I]1872-young lady not once more intone the carmine damask of the rose , the gauzy green of [April]461-april 's scarf ? Softening scenes before [me]1872-young lady rise . [I]1872-young lady lay [my]1872-young lady box of colours by , and creep into [my]1872-young lady bed for warmth . Presently [the doctor]5643-the doctor comes . [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting has chosen [him]5643-the doctor , and chosen well . From [his]5643-the doctor voice [I]1872-young lady know that [he]5643-the doctor is [a gentleman]5462-a gentleman , from [his]5643-the doctor words and touch instinctively [I]1872-young lady feel that [he]5643-the doctor understands the case . When [he]5643-the doctor has finished the examination [he]5643-the doctor sees [me]1872-young lady trembling for the answer which [I]1872-young lady dare not seek . "[1872-young lady] [Young lady]1872-young lady , [I]0-i have hopes , strong hopes . It is quite impossible to say what course the inflammation may pursue . All depends on that . At present there is a film over the membrane , but the cornea is uninjured . Perfect quiet , composure , so far as in such a case is possible , cold applications , and the exclusion of light , are the simple remedies . All the rest must be left to nature . Avoid excitement of any kind . Diet as low as possible . Do not admit [[your]1872-young lady dearest friends]2349-your dearest friends , unless [they]2349-your dearest friends will keep perfect silence . Even so , [they]2349-your dearest friends are better away , unless [you]1872-young lady pine at loneliness . " "[1872-young lady] Oh no . [I]0-i am quite accustomed to that . " "[0-i] That is well . [I]0-i shall make a point of calling daily , but shall not examine [your]1872-young lady eyes every time . The excitement and the effort would strain the optic nerve . [Our]2350-our object is to keep the inflammation from striking inwards . [I]0-i should not tell [you]1872-young lady all this , but [I]0-i see that [you]1872-young lady have much self - command . On that and [your]1872-young lady constitution , under Providence , the cure depends . One question . [I]0-i am not [a professed ophthalmist]2351-a professed ophthalmist , would [you]1872-young lady prefer to have one ? " "[1872-young lady] Oblige [me]0-i with [your]1872-young lady opinion . " "[1872-young lady] It is a delicate point for [me]0-i . There is no operation to perform . It is a medical , not a surgical case . [I]0-i have dealt with such before . Were [you]1872-young lady [[my]0-i own child]2352-my own child [I]0-i would call in [no ophthalmist]2353-no ophthalmist , but as [you]1872-young lady are [a stranger to [me]0-i]2354-a stranger to me , [I]0-i wish [you]1872-young lady to decide for [yourself]1872-young lady . " "[0-i] Then , [I]0-i will have none . [I]0-i have perfect confidence in [you]1872-young lady . " [He]0-i seemed gratified , and took [his]0-i leave . "[0-i] Please [God]303-god , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , [you]1872-young lady shall look [me]0-i in the face ere long . " "[1872-young lady] Composure is [my]0-i only chance . " What chance have [I]1872-young lady of composure until [I]1872-young lady know the meaning of what [I]1872-young lady saw last night ? Blind though [I]1872-young lady am , one face is ever before [me]1872-young lady . No thickening of the membrane can exclude that face . [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting is still below ; [I]1872-young lady will send for [him]412-inspector cutting at once . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer remonstrates . "[1872-young lady] It will excite [you]1872-young lady so , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend . [The doctor]5643-the doctor said perfect quiet . " "[5643-the doctor] Just so . [I]0-i can have none , until [I]0-i have spoken to [[your]1872-young lady Uncle [John]411-miss vaughan]2357-your uncle john . Let [him]411-miss vaughan stay in [[my]0-i sitting - room]2358-my sitting - room , open the folding - door a little , and then , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , please to go down [stairs]1506-stairs . " [I]391-mrs. shelfer hear [the Inspector]1959-the inspector 's step , not so heavy this time . [He]1959-the inspector asks how [I]391-mrs. shelfer am , and expresses [his]1959-the inspector sorrow . [I]391-mrs. shelfer feel obliged to [him]1959-the inspector for not reminding [me]391-mrs. shelfer that the fault was all [my]391-mrs. shelfer own . Then [I]391-mrs. shelfer implore [him]1959-the inspector , if [he]1959-the inspector wishes [me]391-mrs. shelfer ever to see again , to tell [me]391-mrs. shelfer all [he]1959-the inspector knows about [the men [I]391-mrs. shelfer saw last night]6563-the men i saw last night . Thus entreated , [he]1959-the inspector can not refuse [me]391-mrs. shelfer , but first looks up and down the stairs , as [I]391-mrs. shelfer know by the sound of [his]1959-the inspector steps ; then [he]1959-the inspector shuts the door of [the sitting - room]6564-the sitting - room . All [he]1959-the inspector knows is not very much . [They]2361-they are [refugees]6565-refugees , [Italian refugees]6566-italian refugees ; [two political and [two criminal exiles]6568-two criminal exiles , leaders now of a conspiracy to revolutionize [[their]6567-two political and two criminal exiles , leaders now of a conspiracy to revolutionize their country country]6569-their country]6567-two political and two criminal exiles , leaders now of a conspiracy to revolutionize their country . "[391-mrs. shelfer] But why does [he]2360-he not arrest [them]2361-they ? ' " Simply because [he]2360-he has no right . As for [the political refugees]6570-the political refugees , of course , [we]6571-we never meddle with [them]6570-the political refugees ; as for [the two criminals]6572-the two criminals , [they]6572-the two criminals have not been demanded by [[their]6572-the two criminals Government]6573-their government . Wonderful now , is n't it ? [The two fellows who have committed murder [their]6572-the two criminals Government]6574-the two fellows who have committed murder their government would not give sixpence for [them]6572-the two criminals ; but [the two men who have only spouted a little , it would give a thousand pounds]6575-the two men who have only spouted a little , it would give a thousand pounds for [either of [them]6572-the two criminals]6576-either of them . [He]412-inspector cutting ca n't understand such a system . "[412-inspector cutting] And [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting sucks [his]412-inspector cutting lips — [I]0-i know it by the sound — [he]412-inspector cutting always does it when [he]412-inspector cutting is in a puzzle . Being [a true Englishman]2362-a true englishman , [he]412-inspector cutting knows no more of serfdom , than of the dark half of [the moon]2363-the moon . [I]0-i mean , of course , political serfdom . Of social slavery [we]2364-we have enough to last ten generations more . " Would [he]412-inspector cutting be afraid to arrest [them]6572-the two criminals ? [He]412-inspector cutting said [they]6572-the two criminals were [desperate men]2327-desperate men . "[0-i] " [He]412-inspector cutting should rather hope [he]412-inspector cutting would n't . [They]6572-the two criminals had got [their]6572-the two criminals knives , and pistols , and all that humbug . But it was more show than fight . [They]6572-the two criminals were desperate men in a private quarrel , particular when [they]6572-the two criminals could come round a corner , and when [women]5443-women were concerned ; but as for showing honest fight , [he]412-inspector cutting would sooner come across [three of [them]6572-the two criminals]6579-three of them , than [one good Irish murderer]6580-one good irish murderer . "[2365-him] " What was [his]2365-him proof against [[my]0-i enemy]1966-my enemy ? [I]0-i need not ask [him]2365-him which it was . "[0-i] The excitement of this question sent needles through [my]0-i eyes . And [I]0-i could not see [him]2365-him , to probe [his]2365-him pupils . " Well , [his]2365-him proof was very little . In fact it was no proof at all as yet . But [he]2365-him was not like [a juryman]6582-a juryman . [He]2365-him was quite convinced ; and [his]2365-him eyes should never be off [that man]1220-that man , until [he]2365-him had [him]2365-him under warrant , and the whole case clear . Would that satisfy [me]2365-him ? "[2365-him] [He]2365-him spoke with such hearty professional pride , that [I]0-i could not help believing [him]2365-him . But as for being satisfied — why should [his]2365-him evidence be a mystery to [me]0-i ? " Catch [him]2365-him at once , "[0-i] was [my]0-i idea ; but a hot and foolish one . " Get up the evidence first , "[412-inspector cutting] was [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting 's , " [I]412-inspector cutting can catch [him]2365-him at any time . "[412-inspector cutting] That was the whole gist of it . Could [he]412-inspector cutting always catch [him]2365-him ? [He]412-inspector cutting scorned the idea of there being any difficulty about it . [The man]5533-the man could leave for [no part of [the Continent]6168-the continent]2367-no part of the continent ; [he]5533-the man was [a political refugee]2369-a political refugee . [America]56-america was [[his]2365-him only bourne beyond [the Inspector]1959-the inspector 's jurisdiction]2370-his only bourne beyond the inspector 's jurisdiction . And thither [he]5533-the man could not try to go without [the Police]93-the police being down upon [him]5533-the man at once . By this time [I]0-i was worn out , though [my]0-i reasons were not exhausted . In a word , [I]0-i was only half satisfied , but [I]0-i could not help [myself]0-i . If , in [my]0-i helpless blindness , [I]0-i offended [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting , the whole chance disappeared . Only one question remained . " Why did [he]5533-the man take [me]412-inspector cutting thither ? "[412-inspector cutting] " For excellent reasons . As to the one , it was most important that [I]0-i should always know [him]5533-the man again . Moreover , it saved [my]0-i energies from waste . As to the other three , [he]412-inspector cutting had [his]412-inspector cutting own reasons for requiring [an intelligent witness]6584-an intelligent witness about [their]2375-such fellows as those proceedings . "[0-i] [I]0-i thought of the thousand pounds , and said no more . [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting was [an Englishman]1891-an englishman , and proud , in [his]412-inspector cutting way , of English freedom . But , like [nine - tenths of [us]2374-us]2373-nine - tenths of us , [he]412-inspector cutting thought that [we]2374-us alone understand what freedom is . What good was it to [such fellows as those]2375-such fellows as those ? [They]2375-such fellows as those would only be free of [one another]758-one another 's throats . And like all of [us]2374-us , with most rare exception , next to freedom , [he]412-inspector cutting valued money . For [our]2374-us love of this , [many foreigners]2377-many foreigners jeer [us]2374-us . All [we]2374-us can say is , that with [us]2374-us it is second , with [them]2377-many foreigners it is first . But [we]2374-us are of such staple , [our]2374-us second is stronger than [their]2377-many foreigners first . When [the Inspector]1959-the inspector was gone , [I]0-i formed a very sensible resolve . Since there was nothing more to be done or learned at present , [my]0-i only care should be the recovery of [my]0-i sight . If [I]0-i were to be blind till death , the purpose of [my]0-i life was lost , and [I]0-i might as well die at once . But now the first blind agony , the sudden shock , was over ; and [I]0-i had too much of what [the Inspector]1959-the inspector denominated " pluck , "[1959-the inspector] to knock under so . In the afternoon , when all was quiet , [lovely Isola]457-isola came . Strict orders had been given that [no one]730-no one should be admitted . But [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer was not proof against the wiles of [Isola]457-isola . " [She]457-isola smiled so bootiful , when [I]391-mrs. shelfer opened the door , [Miss]6585-miss , it fetched out all [my]391-mrs. shelfer hair pins ; and when [I]391-mrs. shelfer told [her]457-isola [you]6585-miss was ill in bed , and struck stone blind along of some chemical stuff , two big tears came out of [her]457-isola long blue eyes , same as the wet out of a pennorth of violets , [Miss]6586-miss ; and as for stopping [her]457-isola , [she]457-isola threw [her]457-isola muff at [me]391-mrs. shelfer , and told [me]391-mrs. shelfer to stop that if [I]391-mrs. shelfer liked , and to run and tell [you]6585-miss that [she]457-isola was coming , quick , quick ! "[391-mrs. shelfer] To be sure , and here [I]0-i am ! " cried the cheery voice [I]0-i loved so well . "[0-i] Oh , [Clara]293-clara dear , [dear Clara]293-clara ! " [The little darling]6587-the little darling flung [her]6587-the little darling soft warm arms around [me]293-clara , utterly forgetful of [her]6587-the little darling dress , forgetful of all [the world]798-the world , but that little bit of it [she]6587-the little darling held . [Her]6587-the little darling delicious breath came over [my]293-clara fevered cheek , [her]6587-the little darling cool satin flesh was on [my]293-clara burning eyelids . What lotion could be compared to this ? How long [she]6587-the little darling stayed , [I]293-clara can not tell ; [I]293-clara only know that while [I]293-clara heard [her]6587-the little darling voice , and felt [her]6587-the little darling touch , blindness seemed no loss to [me]293-clara . [She]6587-the little darling pronounced [herself]6587-the little darling [head nurse]6589-head nurse ; and as for [doctors]6590-doctors , what were [they]6590-doctors , compared to [[her]6587-the little darling own father]6591-her own father ? If [she]6587-the little darling could coax [him]6591-her own father , [he]6591-her own father should come next day , and deliver [his]6591-her own father opinion , and then [the doctor]5643-the doctor might betake [himself]5643-the doctor to things [he]5643-the doctor understood , if indeed [he]5643-the doctor understood anything , which [she]6587-the little darling did not believe [he]5643-the doctor did , because [he]5643-the doctor had said [she]6587-the little darling was not to come . [My]293-clara drawings too [she]6587-the little darling admired , much more than they deserved , and [[her]6587-the little darling brother]6430-her brother [Conrad]427-conrad must come and see them , [he]427-conrad was so fond of drawing , and there was nothing [he]427-conrad could not do . [She]6587-the little darling was so sorry [she]6587-the little darling must go now , but [old Cora]429-cora must be tired of patroling , and [she]6587-the little darling [herself]6587-the little darling had a lecture to attend upon the chemical affinity of bodies . What it meant [she]6587-the little darling had no idea , but that would not matter the least ; [some of [the clever girls]6595-the clever girls]6594-some of the clever girls said [they]6594-some of the clever girls did , but [she]6587-the little darling would not believe [them]6594-some of the clever girls ; it took [a man]5384-a man , [she]6587-the little darling was sure , to understand such subjects . [She]6587-the little darling would bring [her]6587-the little darling work the next day , such as it was , and the nicest bit of sponge that was ever seen , it could not be bought in [London]1-london ; and [she]6587-the little darling would answer for it [I]293-clara should be able to paint [her]6587-the little darling likeness in a week ; and [she]6587-the little darling would not go till it was dark ; and then [the Professor]2125-the professor should come for [her]6587-the little darling when [his]2125-the professor lectures were over , and examine [me]293-clara ; [he]2125-the professor knew all about optics , and retinas , and pencils of light , and refraction and aberration , and [she]6587-the little darling could not remember any more names ; but [she]6587-the little darling felt quite certain this was a case of optical delusion , and nothing else . How [I]293-clara wished [I]293-clara could have seen [her]6587-the little darling , when [she]6587-the little darling pronounced this opinion , with no little solemnity . [She]6587-the little darling must have looked such [a sage]6598-a sage ! The thought of that made [me]293-clara laugh , as well as the absurdity of the idea . But [I]293-clara only asked how [the Professor]2125-the professor was to examine [my]293-clara eyes , if [he]2125-the professor did not come till dark . To be sure ! [She]6587-the little darling never thought of that . What [a little goose]6600-a little goose [she]6587-the little darling was ! But [she]6587-the little darling would make [him]2125-the professor come in the morning , before [his]2125-the professor work began ; and then [old Cora]429-cora would fetch [her]6587-the little darling [home]1102-home to tea . And [she]6587-the little darling had very great hopes , that if [she]6587-the little darling could only persuade [[her]6587-the little darling papa]6420-her papa to deliver a lecture in [[my]293-clara room]986-my room , it would have such an effect on [my]293-clara optic nerves , that [they]6604-them would come all right directly , at any rate [I]293-clara should know how to treat [them]6604-them . Delighted with this idea , [she]6587-the little darling kissed [me]293-clara , and hugged [me]293-clara , and off [she]6587-the little darling ran , after telling [me]293-clara to be sure to keep [my]293-clara spirits up , and the bandage not too tight . The latter injunction was much easier to obey than the former . [She]6587-the little darling had enlivened [me]293-clara wonderfully , as well as nursed [me]293-clara most delicately ; but now that [she]6587-the little darling was gone , the usual reaction commenced . Moreover , although as the saying is , the sight of [her]6587-the little darling would have been good for sore eyes , the effort at seeing [her]6587-the little darling , which [I]293-clara could not control , when [she]6587-the little darling was present , was , [I]293-clara already felt , anything but good for [them]6604-them . And the loss , when [she]6587-the little darling was gone , was like a second loss of light . Light ! What million thoughts flash through [me]293-clara at that little word ! Swiftest thing the mind has met , too like itself to understand . Is it steed or wing of mind ? Nay , not swift enough for that . Is it then the food of life , prepared betimes ere life appeared , the food [the blind]6605-the blind receive but can not taste ? If so , far better to be blind from birth . Well [I]293-clara know the taste from memory ; shall [I]293-clara never taste it else ? Has beauty lost its way to [me]293-clara ? The many golden folds of air , the lustrous dance of sunny morn , the soft reclining of the moon , the grand perspective of the stars ( long avenue to [[God]303-god 's own home]6606-god 's own home ) , are these all blank to [me]293-clara , and night made one with day ? [Oh God , whose first approach was light , replenisher of sun and stars]6607-oh god , whose first approach was light , replenisher of sun and stars , whence dart anew [thy]6608-thy gushing floods ( solid or liquid [we]6609-we know not ) , whose subtle volume has no bourne or track ; light , the dayside half of life , leaping , flashing , beaming ; glistening , twinkling , stealing ; light ! Oh [God]303-god , if live [I]293-clara must , grudge [me]293-clara not a ray ! Low fever followed the long prostration to which the fear of outer darkness had reduced [my]293-clara jaded nerves . This fever probably redeemed [my]293-clara sight , by generalizing the local inflammation , to which object [the doctor]5643-the doctor 's efforts had been directed . Tossing on [my]293-clara weary bed , without a glimpse of anything , how [I]293-clara longed for the soft caresses and cool lips of [Isola]457-isola ! But since that one visit , [she]457-isola had been sternly excluded . [The Professor]434-professor sallenders had no chance of delivering [his]434-professor sallenders therapeutic lecture . In fact [he]434-professor sallenders did not come . "[293-clara] Once for all , " said [Dr. Franks]462-dr. franks , when [he]0-i heard of that proposal , "[293-clara] choose , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , between [my]0-i services , and the maundering of some pansophist . If [you]423-miss valence prefer the former , [I]0-i will do [my]0-i utmost , and can almost promise [you]423-miss valence success ; but [I]0-i must and will be obeyed . [None]1510-none shall enter [[your]423-miss valence room]2382-your room , except [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer and [myself]0-i . As to [[your]423-miss valence lovely friend]2383-your lovely friend , of whom [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer is so full , if [she]2383-your lovely friend truly loves [you]423-miss valence , [she]2383-your lovely friend will keep away . [She]2383-your lovely friend has done [you]423-miss valence already more harm than [I]0-i can undo in a week . [I]0-i am deeply interested in this case , and feel for [you]423-miss valence sincerely ; but unless [you]423-miss valence promise [me]0-i to see — [I]0-i mean to receive — [no one]730-no one without [my]0-i permission , [I]0-i will come no more . " It sounded very hard , but [I]0-i felt that [he]0-i was right . "[0-i] No crying , [[my]0-i dear child]2385-my dear child , no crying ! Dear [me]0-i , [I]0-i have heard so much of [your]423-miss valence courage . Too much inflammation already . Whatever [you]423-miss valence do , [you]423-miss valence must not cry . That is one reason why [I]0-i will not have [[your]423-miss valence friend]5450-your friend [here]846-here . When [two young ladies]2388-two young ladies get together in trouble , [I]0-i know by [[my]0-i own daughters]2389-my own daughters what [they]2388-two young ladies do . [You]423-miss valence may laugh as much as [you]423-miss valence like , in a quiet way ; and [I]0-i am sure [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer can make any one laugh , under almost any circumstances . Ca n't [you]0-i now ? " "[391-mrs. shelfer] To be sure , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , [I]0-i have seen such a many rogues . That is , when [I]0-i know [Charley]395-charley 's a - coming [home]1102-home . " "[395-charley] Now good bye , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence . But [I]0-i would recommend [you]423-miss valence not to play with [your]423-miss valence paints so . There is an effluvium from [them]2392-them . " "[2392-them] Oh , what can [I]0-i do , what am [I]0-i to do to pass the endless night ? [I]0-i was only trying to build [a house]5382-a house in the dark . " "[0-i] Sleep as much as [you]423-miss valence can . [I]0-i am giving [you]423-miss valence gentle opiates . When [you]423-miss valence can sleep no longer , let [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer talk or read to [you]423-miss valence , and have a little music . [I]0-i will lend [you]423-miss valence [my]0-i musical box , which plays twenty - four tunes : have it in [the next room]2394-the next room , not to be too loud . And then play on the musical glasses , not too long at a time : [you]423-miss valence will soon find out how to do that in the dark . " [He]0-i most kindly sent [us]6611-us both the boxes that very day ; and many a weary hour [they]6611-us lightened of its load . [Poor Isola]463-isola came every day to inquire , and several times [she]463-isola had [[her]463-isola brother]6430-her brother with [her]463-isola . [She]463-isola made an entire conquest of [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , who even gave [her]463-isola a choice canary bird . [I]2395-such a pair was never tired of hearing [the little woman]6264-the little woman 's description of [her]6264-the little woman beauty , and [her]6264-the little woman visit to [the kitchen]5526-the kitchen formed the chief event of the day . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ( who had Irish blood in [her]391-mrs. shelfer veins ) used to declare that the ground was not good enough for [them]2395-such a pair to walk on . "[2395-such a pair] [Such a pair]2395-such a pair , [Miss]2396-miss ! To see [her]2397-her so light , and soft , and loving , tripping along , and such eyes and such fur ; and [him]2398-him walking so straight , and brave , and noble . [I]0-i am sure [you]2396-miss 'd go a mile , [Miss]5433-miss , to see [him]2398-him walk . " "[2396-miss] [You]2396-miss forget , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [I]0-i may never enjoy that pleasure . " "[391-mrs. shelfer] No , no . Quite true , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend . But then [we]2401-i may , all the same . " Exactly so . There lay all the difference to [me]2401-i , but none to any other . This set [me]2401-i moralising in [my]2401-i shallow way , a thing by no means natural to [me]2401-i , who was so concentrated and subjective . But loss of sight had done [me]2401-i good , had turned the mind 's eye inward into the darkness of [myself]2401-i . [I]2401-i think [the blind , as a general rule]6615-the blind , as a general rule , are less narrow - minded than [those endowed with sight]6616-those endowed with sight . Less inclined , [I]2401-i mean , to judge [[their]6616-those endowed with sight neighbours]6617-their neighbours harshly , less arrogant in exacting that every pulse keep time with [their]6616-those endowed with sight own . If eyes are but the chinks through which [we]2401-i focus on [our]2401-i brain censoriousness and bigotry , if rays of light are shafts and lances of ill will ; then better is it to have no crystalline lens . Far better to be blind , than print the world - distorted puppets of [myself]2401-i . [I]2401-i , that smallest speck of dust , blown upon [the shore of time]6618-the shore of time , blown off when [my]2401-i puff shall come ; a speck ignored by moon and stars ; too small ( however [my]2401-i ambition leap ) for [earth]1622-earth to itch , whate'er [I]2401-i suck ; and yet a speck that is [a mountain in the telescope of [God]303-god]6620-a mountain in the telescope of god ; shall [I]2401-i never learn that [His]303-god is [my]2401-i only magnitude ; shall [I]2401-i wriggle to be all in all to [my]2401-i own corpuscle ? Is there any Mocha stone , fortification agate , or Scotch pebble , with half the veins and mottlings , angles , flux and reflux , that chequer one minute of the human mind ? Was ever machine invented to throw so many shuttles ? At present [I]2401-i am gauged for little threads of thought — two minutes since , the smallest thing [I]2401-i could think of was [myself]2401-i . Now it is the largest . Must [I]2401-i grope from [room]918-room to room , shall [I]2401-i never be sure where the table is , where [my]2401-i teacup stands ; never read , or write , or draw ; never tell when [my]2401-i hands are clean , except by smelling soap ; never know ( though small the difference ) how [my]2401-i dress becomes [me]2401-i , or when [my]2401-i hair is right ; never see [my]2401-i own sad face , in which [I]2401-i have been fool enough to glory , never — and this is worst of all — never catch another 's smile ? Here am [I]2401-i , [a full - grown girl]6622-a full - grown girl , full of [maiden]6623-maiden 's thoughts and wonderings , knowing well that [I]2401-i am shaped so but to be a link in life ; must [I]2401-i never think of loving or of being loved , except with love like [Isola]463-isola 's ; sweet affection , very sweet ; but white sugar only ? When [my]2401-i work is over , and [my]2401-i object gained , when [[my]2401-i father]731-my father 's spirit knows the wrong redeemed , as [a child]782-a child [I]2401-i used to think [I]2401-i would lay [me]2401-i down and die . But since [I]2401-i came to [woman]1698-woman 's fulness , since [I]2401-i ceased to look at [men]1003-men and [they]1003-men began to look at [me]2401-i , some soft change , [I]2401-i know not what , has come across [my]2401-i dream . Is [my]2401-i purpose altered ? Is [my]2401-i tenor broken ? Not a whit of either . Rather are [they]1003-men stronger set and better led , as [my]2401-i heart and brain enlarge . Yet [I]2401-i see beyond it all , a thing [I]2401-i never used to see , a glow above the peaks of hate , a possibility of [home]1102-home . "[2401-i] Saw " [I]2401-i should have said , for now what have [I]2401-i to do with seeing ? On the fourteenth morning , [I]2401-i had given up all hope . [They]1003-men told [me]2401-i it was bright and sunny ; for [I]2401-i always asked about the weather , and felt most cruelly depressed upon a sunny day . By this time [I]2401-i had learned to dress without [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's aid . Still , from force of habit [I]2401-i went to the glass to do [my]2401-i hair , and still drew back , as far as was allowed , the window curtain . Off with [my]2401-i wet bandage , [I]2401-i am sick of it ; let [me]2401-i try no longer to delude [myself]2401-i . Suddenly a gleam of light , [I]2401-i am sure of it ; faint indeed , and like a Will of the Wisp ; but [I]2401-i am quite sure it was a gleam of light . [I]2401-i go nearer the window and try again . No , there is no more for the present , it was the sudden change produced it . Never mind ; [I]2401-i know what [I]2401-i have seen , a thing that came and cheated [me]2401-i in dreams ; this time it has not cheated [me]2401-i ; it was a genuine twinkle of the sun . [I]2401-i can do nothing more . [I]2401-i can not put another stitch upon [me]2401-i . [I]2401-i am thrilling with the sun , like [Memnon]464-memnon . [I]2401-i fall upon [my]2401-i knees , and thank [the Father of light]6629-the father of light . When [the Doctor]5643-the doctor came that day , and looked into [my]2401-i eyes , [he]5643-the doctor saw a decided change . "[2401-i] [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , the crisis is over . With all [my]0-i heart [I]0-i congratulate [you]423-miss valence . Another fortnight , and [you]423-miss valence will see better than ever . " [I]423-miss valence laughed , and wept , and , blind as [I]423-miss valence was , could hardly keep from dancing . Then [I]423-miss valence wanted to kiss [the Doctor]5643-the doctor , but hearing [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's step , made a reckless jump and had it out upon [her]391-mrs. shelfer . "[423-miss valence] Bless [me]0-i , why bless [me]0-i , [my]0-i good soul , if [I]0-i was [a young gentleman]5342-a young gentleman now — " "[423-miss valence] Why , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , [I]0-i am perfectly astonished , " said [Doctor Franks]465-doctor franks , but [I]0-i knew [he]465-doctor franks was laughing ; "[0-i] if [I]0-i had been requested , only two minutes ago , to pick out [the most self - possessed , equable , and courageous young lady in [London]1-london]2403-the most self - possessed , equable , and courageous young lady in london , [I]0-i should have said , ' [I]0-i do n't want any looking , [I]0-i know where to find [her]2403-the most self - possessed , equable , and courageous young lady in london , ' but now , upon [my]0-i word — " "[0-i] If [you]0-i are asked to point out [the most delighted , grateful , and happy girl in [London]1-london]2404-the most delighted , grateful , and happy girl in london , [you]0-i know where to come for [her]2403-the most self - possessed , equable , and courageous young lady in london . Let [me]0-i kiss [you]0-i , [Dr. Franks]462-dr. franks , only once . [I]0-i wo n't rob [[your]0-i daughters]2405-your daughters . It is to [you]0-i [I]0-i owe it all . " "[0-i] No , to [Providence]319-providence , and [yourself]0-i , and an uncommonly good conjunctiva . Now be prudent , [[my]0-i dear child]2385-my dear child ; a little ecstasy must be forgiven ; but do n't imperil [your]0-i cure by over - excitement . It is , as [I]0-i hoped it would be , a case of epiphytic sloughing " ( [I]0-i think that was what [he]0-i said ) , "[0-i] and it may become chronic if precipitated . The longer and more thorough the process , the less chance of recurrence . " "[0-i] Oh [I]0-i am satisfied with one eye , or half an eye . Can [you]0-i promise [me]0-i that ? " "[0-i] If [you]0-i will only follow [my]0-i directions , [I]0-i can promise [you]0-i both eyes , more brilliant than ever ; and [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer says they were wonderfully bright . But what [I]0-i order must be done . Slow and sure . " [He]0-i gave [me]0-i short directions , all upon the same principle , that of graduation . "[0-i] And now , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , good - bye . Henceforth [I]0-i visit [you]0-i only as [a friend]6544-a friend ; in which [I]0-i know [you]0-i will indulge [me]0-i , from the interest [I]0-i feel in the case , and in [yourself]0-i . [[Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's wonderful young lady]2408-mrs. shelfer 's wonderful young lady may be admitted on Thursday ; but do n't let [her]2408-mrs. shelfer 's wonderful young lady look at [your]0-i eyes . [Girls]5444-girls are always inquisitive . If there is [any young gentleman]2410-any young gentleman , lucky enough to explain [your]0-i strange anxiety to see , [you]0-i will make short work of [him]2410-any young gentleman , when [your]0-i sight returns . [Your]0-i eyes will be the most brilliant in [London]1-london ; which is saying a great deal . But [I]0-i fear [he]2410-any young gentleman will hardly know [you]0-i , till [your]0-i lashes grow ; and all [your]0-i face and expression are altered for the time . " "[2410-any young gentleman] One thing will never alter , though it can find no expression , [my]0-i gratitude to [you]0-i . " "[0-i] That is very pretty of [you]0-i , [[my]0-i dear child]2385-my dear child . [You]0-i kissed [me]0-i just now . Now let [me]0-i kiss [you]0-i . " [He]0-i touched [my]0-i forehead and was gone . [He]0-i was [the first true gentleman [I]0-i had met with]6632-the first true gentleman i had met with , since the loss of [Farmer Huxtable]362-farmer huxtable . When [Isola]463-isola came on the Thursday , and [I]0-i obtained some little glimpse of [her]463-isola , [she]463-isola expressed [her]463-isola joy in a thousand natural ways , well worth feeling and seeing , not at all worth telling . [I]0-i loved [her]463-isola for [them]6633-them more and more . [I]0-i never met [a girl so warm of heart]6634-a girl so warm of heart . [Many women]1732-many women can sulk for days ; [most women]6636-most women can sulk for an hour ; [I]0-i believe that no provocation could have made [Isola]463-isola sulky for two minutes . [She]463-isola tried sometimes ( at least [she]463-isola said so ) , but it was no good . And yet [she]463-isola felt as keenly as any of [the very sulkiest women]6637-the very sulkiest women can do ; but [she]463-isola had too much warmth of heart and imagination to live in the folds of that cold - blooded snake . Neither had [she]463-isola the strong selfishness , on which that serpent feeds . In the afternoon , as [we]6638-we still sat together , in rushed [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer with [her]463-isola bonnet on , quite out of breath , and without [her]463-isola usual ceremony of knocking at the door . [I]0-i could not think where [she]463-isola had been all the day ; and [she]463-isola had made the greatest mystery of it in the morning , and wanted to have it noticed . Up [she]463-isola ran to [me]0-i now , and pushed [Isola]463-isola out of the way . "[0-i] Got 'em at last , [Miss.]448-miss. Got 'em at last , and no mistake . No more [Dr. Franks]462-dr. franks , nor bandages , nor curtains down , nor nothing . Save a deal of trouble and do it in no time . But what a job [I]0-i had to get [them]2412-them to be sure ; if [[the cook]2413-the cook 's mate]2414-the cook 's mate had n't knowed [Charley]395-charley , [they]2412-them would not have let [me]0-i had 'em , after going all the way to [Wapping]94-wapping . " [She]466-idols holds up something in triumph . "[2412-them] What is it , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ? [I]0-i am sorry to say [I]0-i can not see . " "[391-mrs. shelfer] And right down glad of it , [I]0-i am , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend . Yes , yes . Or [I]0-i should have had all [my]0-i journey for nothing . But [Miss Idols]466-idols knows , [I]0-i 'll be bound [she]466-idols does , or it 's no good going to [College]2416-college . " "[466-idols] Let [me]0-i look at it first , " says [Isola]463-isola , "[0-i] [we]2417-we learn almost everything at college , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ; but even [we]2417-we [senior sophists]2418-senior sophists do n't know every thing without seeing it yet . " "[391-mrs. shelfer] Then put [your]466-idols pretty eyes on [them]2419-them , [Miss Idols]466-idols ; [I]0-i 'll be bound it will make [them]2419-them caper . [I]0-i never see [such fine ones]2420-such fine ones , nor [[the cook]2413-the cook 's mate]2414-the cook 's mate either . Why [they]2419-them 're as big as [young whelks]2423-young whelks . " "[2419-them] Mollusca , or Crustacea , or something ! " exclaims [Isola]463-isola , with more pride than accuracy , "[2419-them] what queer little things . [I]0-i must take them to [[my]0-i papa]6254-my papa . " "[0-i] Now , [young ladies]2104-young ladies , " cried [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer in [her]391-mrs. shelfer grandest style , "[0-i] [I]0-i see [I]0-i must explain them to [you]2104-young ladies after all . [Them]2426-them 's the blessed shells [the poor sailors]2427-the poor sailors put in [their]2427-the poor sailors eyes to scour them out , and keep them bright , and make [them]2427-the poor sailors see in the dark against the wind . Only see how [they]2426-them crawls . There now , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , [I]0-i 'll pick [you]2104-young ladies out [two big lively fellows]2428-two big lively fellows , and pop one for [you]2104-young ladies in the corner of each eye ; [[the cook]2413-the cook 's mate]2414-the cook 's mate showed [me]0-i how to lift [your]2104-young ladies eyelids . " "[2413-the cook] How kind of [him]2414-the cook 's mate , to be sure ! ' " And it will crawl about under the lid , [you]2104-young ladies must not mind its hurting a bit ; and it wo n't come out till to - morrow when the clock strikes twelve , and then it will have eaten up every bit , and [your]2104-young ladies eyes will be brighter than diamonds . [Charley]395-charley has seen [them]2426-them do it ever so many times , and [he]395-charley says it 's bootiful , and [they]2426-them do n't mind giving five shillings a piece for [them]2426-them , when they are scarce . "[2413-the cook] " Did [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer ever try them ? [His]413-mr. shelfer eyes are so sharp : perhaps that is the reason . "[2431-i] " No . [I]2431-i never heard that [he]413-mr. shelfer did , [Miss.]448-miss. But bless [you]2104-young ladies [he]413-mr. shelfer never tells [me]2431-i half [he]413-mr. shelfer does ; no , nor a quarter of half . "[2431-i] At this recollection , [she]2431-i fetches a little short sigh , [her]2431-i nearest approach to melancholy , for [she]2431-i is not sentimental . " [Care]467-care killed the cat , "[2431-i] is [her]2431-i favourite aphorism . " Then when [he]413-mr. shelfer comes [home]1102-home , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , pop one of these shells , a good big one , into each of [his]413-mr. shelfer eyes ; and let [us]6640-us know the effect to - morrow morning , and [I]2431-i 'll give [you]2104-young ladies a kiss , if [you]2104-young ladies do it well . "[2431-i] This is the bribe [Isola]463-isola finds most potent with [everybody]6273-everybody . " [Lor]393-lor , [Miss Idols]466-idols , bless [your]2104-young ladies innocent heart , do [you]2104-young ladies suppose [he]413-mr. shelfer would let [me]463-isola ? Why [he]413-mr. shelfer thinks it a great thing to let [me]463-isola tie [his]413-mr. shelfer shoe , and [he]413-mr. shelfer wo n't only when [he]413-mr. shelfer has had a good dinner . "[463-isola] " Well , "[463-isola] cries [Isola]463-isola , " [I]463-isola am astonished ! Catch [me]463-isola tying [[my]463-isola husband]1877-my husband 's shoes ! [I]463-isola shall expect [him]413-mr. shelfer to tie mine , [I]463-isola know ; and [he]413-mr. shelfer shall only do that when [he]413-mr. shelfer is very good . "[463-isola] With a regal air , [she]463-isola puts out the prettiest foot ever seen . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer laughs . " Lor , [Miss]6642-miss , it 's all very well for [girls]5444-girls to talk ; and [they]5444-girls all does it , till [they]5444-girls knows better . Though for the likes of [you]6642-miss , [any one]1178-any one would do anything a most . Pray , [Miss Idols]466-idols , if [I]391-mrs. shelfer may make so bold , how many offers of marriage have [you]6642-miss received ? "[391-mrs. shelfer] " Let [me]463-isola think ! Oh [I]463-isola know ! it 's one more than [I]463-isola am years old . Eighteen altogether , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ; if [you]6642-miss count [the apothecary 's boy]6645-the apothecary 's boy , and [the nephew of [the library]988-the library]6646-the nephew of the library ; but then [they]6648-they were [all of [them]6648-they [boys]5527-boys]6649-all of them boys , [[papa]6651-papa 's pupils]6652-papa 's pupils and that , a deal too young for [me]463-isola . [They]6648-they were all going to die , when [I]463-isola refused [them]6648-they ; but [they]6648-they are all alive so far , at any rate . Is n't it too bad of [them]6648-they ? "[463-isola] " Well , [Miss Idols]466-idols , if [you]466-idols get as good [a husband]6653-a husband as [you]466-idols deserve , and that is saying a deal , [he]6653-a husband 'll tie [your]466-idols shoe may be for a month , and then [he]6653-a husband 'll look for [you]466-idols to tie [his]6653-a husband . "[463-isola] " And long [he]6653-a husband may look , even if [he]6653-a husband has shellfish in [his]6653-a husband eyes . Why look , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [they]6648-they 're all crawling about ! "[391-mrs. shelfer] " [Bootiful]468-bootiful , is n't it ? [Bootiful]468-bootiful ! [I]463-isola wish [Miss Valence]423-miss valence could see [them]6648-they . And look at the horns [they]6648-they goes routing about with ! How they must tickle [your]466-idols eyelids . And what coorious eyes [they]6648-they has ! Ah , [I]463-isola often think , [Miss Idols]466-idols , [I]463-isola likes this sort of thing so much , what a pity it is as [I]463-isola was n't born in [the country]1831-the country . [I]463-isola should never be tired of watching the snails , and the earywigs , and the tadpoles . Why , [I]463-isola likes nothing better than to see them stump - legged things come to table in the cabbage . [I]463-isola have not seen one now for ever so long . Oh that [Charley]395-charley , what dreadful lies [he]395-charley do tell ! "[463-isola] " What about , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ? "[463-isola] " Why , [[my]391-mrs. shelfer good friend]1798-my good friend , [he]395-charley says them green things with stripes on , and ever so many legs , turns to live butterflies , after they be dead . But [I]391-mrs. shelfer was too many for [him]395-charley there . Yes , yes . The last one as [I]391-mrs. shelfer boiled , [I]391-mrs. shelfer did not say a word about it to [him]395-charley , but [I]391-mrs. shelfer put it by in a chiney - teacup , with the saucer over , in case it should fly away . Bless [your]466-idols heart , [young ladies]2104-young ladies , there it is now , as quiet as anything , and no signs of a butterfly . And when [he]395-charley tells [me]391-mrs. shelfer any lies , about where [he]395-charley was last night , [I]391-mrs. shelfer just goes to the cupboard , and shows [him]395-charley that ; and never another word can [he]395-charley say . And so , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , [you]423-miss valence wo n't try these little snails , after [my]391-mrs. shelfer journey and all ! "[391-mrs. shelfer] " Of course [I]391-mrs. shelfer wo n't , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer . But [I]391-mrs. shelfer am sincerely obliged to [you]423-miss valence for [your]423-miss valence trouble , as well as for all [your]423-miss valence kind nursing , which [I]391-mrs. shelfer can never forget . Now let [me]391-mrs. shelfer buy those shellfish from [you]423-miss valence , and [Miss Isola]428-isola will take them as a present to [[her]428-isola papa]6420-her papa . "[391-mrs. shelfer] " No , no , unless [he]6420-her papa will put them in [his]6420-her papa eyes , Miss. [I]463-isola wo n't have them wasted . [Charley]395-charley will sell them again in no time . [He]395-charley knows lots of [sailors]6658-sailors . Most likely [he]395-charley 'll get up a raffle for [them]2434-the ophthalmist snails , and win them [himself]395-charley . "[463-isola] Away [she]2433-she hurries to take off the bonnet [she]2433-she has been so proud of , for the last two and twenty years . Though [I]0-i declined the services of [the ophthalmist snails]2434-the ophthalmist snails , [my]0-i sight returned very rapidly . How delicious it was to see more and more every day ! Plenty of cold water was the present regimen . Vision is less a vision , every time [I]0-i use it . In a week more , [I]0-i can see quite well , though obliged to wear a shade . One morning , dear [Isola]428-isola runs [upstairs]6042-upstairs , out of breath as usual ; but , what is most unusual , actually frowning . Has [Cora]429-cora tyrannised , or what ? Through the very shade of [her]429-cora frown , comes [her]429-cora sunny smile , as [she]429-cora kisses [me]0-i . " Oh , [I]429-cora am so vexed . [I]429-cora have brought [him]395-charley to the door ; and now [he]395-charley wo n't come in ! "[429-cora] " Who , [[my]429-cora darling]5337-my darling ? "[429-cora] " Why , [Conny]427-conrad , to be sure . [[My]429-cora brother]1302-my brother [Conrad]427-conrad . [I]429-cora had set [my]429-cora heart on showing [him]395-charley to [you]427-conrad , directly [you]427-conrad could see . "[429-cora] " Why wo n't [he]395-charley come in ? "[429-cora] " Because [he]395-charley thinks that [you]427-conrad ought not to see [strangers]6661-strangers , until [you]427-conrad are quite well . [He]395-charley has not got to the corner yet . [I]429-cora can run like a deer . Send word by [me]429-cora , that [you]427-conrad are dying to see [him]395-charley . "[429-cora] " Not quite that . But say how glad [I]429-cora shall be . "[429-cora] " [I]429-cora 'll say that [you]427-conrad wo n't get well till [you]427-conrad do . "[429-cora] " Say what [you]427-conrad like . [He]395-charley will know it 's only [your]427-conrad nonsense . "[429-cora] Off [she]2436-she darts ; [she]2436-she is quick as light in [her]2436-she movements , and soon returns with [[her]2436-she brother]6430-her brother . [I]0-i lift [my]0-i weak eyes to [his]6430-her brother bright ones , and recognise at once [the preserver of [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother and [myself]0-i]2438-the preserver of my mother and myself . But [I]0-i see , in a moment , that [he]6430-her brother has not the faintest remembrance of [me]0-i . [My]0-i whole face is altered by [my]0-i accident , and even [my]0-i voice affected by the long confinement . When [he]6430-her brother met [me]0-i in the wood , [he]6430-her brother seemed very anxious not to look at [me]0-i ; when [he]6430-her brother saved [my]0-i life from [the rushing mountain]2440-the rushing mountain , [he]6430-her brother had little opportunity . Very likely [he]6430-her brother would not have known [me]0-i , under another name ; even without this illness . So let it be . [I]0-i will not reveal [myself]0-i . [I]0-i thanked [him]6430-her brother once , and [he]6430-her brother repulsed [me]0-i ; no doubt [he]6430-her brother had a reason , for [I]0-i see that [he]6430-her brother is [a gentleman]5462-a gentleman . Let that reason hold good : [I]0-i will not trespass on it . [He]6430-her brother took [my]0-i hand with a smile , the counterpart of [Isola]428-isola 's . [He]6430-her brother had heard of [me]0-i so constantly , that [I]0-i must excuse the liberty . [A dear friend of [[his]6430-her brother sister]2443-his sister 's]2442-a dear friend of his sister 's could be [no stranger to [him]6430-her brother]2444-no stranger to him . A thrill shot through [me]0-i at the touch of [his]6430-her brother hand , and [my]0-i eyes were weak . [He]6430-her brother saw it , and placed a chair for [me]0-i further from the light . On [his]6430-her brother own face , not the sun , for the " drawing - room "[6430-her brother] windows look north , but the strong reflection of the noon - day light was falling . How like [he]6430-her brother is to [Isola]428-isola , and yet how different ! So much stronger , and bolder , and more decided , so tall and firm of step . [His]6430-her brother countenance open as the noon , incapable of concealment ; yet if [he]6430-her brother be the same ( and , how can [I]0-i doubt it ? ) , then at least there seemed to be some mystery about [him]6430-her brother . [Isola]428-isola , with the quickness of [a girl]2251-a girl , saw how intently [I]0-i observed [him]6430-her brother , and could not hide [her]428-isola delight . " There now , [[Clara]293-clara dear]6662-clara dear , [I]428-isola knew [you]6662-clara dear would like [him]6430-her brother . But [you]6662-clara dear must not look at [him]6430-her brother so much , or [your]6662-clara dear poor eyes will be sore . "[428-isola] Little stupid ! As [I]0-i felt [my]0-i pale cheeks colouring , [I]0-i could almost have been angry , even with [[my]0-i [Isola]428-isola]2446-my isola . But [she]428-isola meant no harm . In spite of lectures and " college , "[428-isola] [she]428-isola was gentle nature personified ; and [no Professors]2447-no professors could make anything else of [her]428-isola . All these things run in the grain . If there is anything [I]0-i hate , [I]0-i am sure [I]0-i hate affectation . But there is a difference between [us]2448-us . Probably it is this : [I]0-i am of pure English blood , and [she]428-isola is not . That [I]0-i know by instinct . What blood [she]428-isola is of , [I]0-i am sure [I]0-i can not tell . [Gentle blood]2449-gentle blood at any rate , or [I]0-i could not have loved [her]428-isola so . How horribly narrow - minded , after all [my]0-i objectivity ! Well , what [I]0-i mean is , that [I]0-i can like and love [many people who are not of gentle , but ( [I]0-i suppose ) of ferocious blood]2450-many people who are not of gentle , but ( i suppose ) of ferocious blood ; still , as a general rule , culture and elegance are better matches for nature , after some generations of training . [[My]0-i father]731-my father used to say so about [his]731-my father pointers and [setters]2452-setters . The marvel is that [I]0-i , who belong to [this old streak]2453-this old streak , seem to have got some twist in it . [[My]0-i grandmother]2454-my grandmother would have swooned at the names of [some people [I]0-i love]2455-some people i love more than [I]0-i could have loved [her]428-isola . [[My]0-i mother]746-my mother would not . But then [she]428-isola was [a Christian]2457-a christian . Probably that is the secret of [my]0-i twist . All this has passed through [my]0-i mind , before [I]0-i can frown at [Isola]428-isola . And now [I]0-i can not frown at all . [Dear little thing]2458-dear little thing , [she]428-isola is not eighteen , and [she]428-isola knows no better . [I]0-i have attained [that Englishwoman]2459-that englishwoman 's majority three weeks ago ; and [I]0-i am sorry for [Isola]428-isola . To break the awkwardness , [[her]428-isola brother]6430-her brother starts off into subjects of art . [He]6430-her brother has heard of [my]0-i drawings , may [he]6430-her brother see them some day ? [I]0-i ask [him]6430-her brother about the magnificent stag . Yes , that is [his]6430-her brother , and [I]0-i have no idea how long it took [him]6430-her brother to do . [He]6430-her brother speaks of it with no conceit whatever ; neither with any depreciation , for the purpose of tempting praise . As [he]6430-her brother speaks , [I]0-i observe some peculiarity in [his]6430-her brother accent . [Isola]428-isola 's accent is as pure as [mine]0-i , or purer . [[Her]428-isola brother]6430-her brother speaks very good English , and never hesitates for a word ; but the form of [his]6430-her brother sentences often is not English ; especially when [he]6430-her brother warms to [his]6430-her brother subject ; and ( what struck [me]0-i first , for [I]0-i am no purist as to collocation of words ) [his]6430-her brother accent , [his]6430-her brother emphasis is not native . The difference is very slight , and quite indescribable ; but a difference there is . Perhaps it is rather a difference of the order of thought than of language , as regards the cast of the sentence ; but that will not account for the accent ; and if it would , it still shows another nationality . There is a loud knock at the door . [I]0-i am just preparing ( with [Isola]428-isola 's help ) [[my]0-i little hospitalities]2462-my little hospitalities . If [London]1-london visits mean much talk and no food , [I]0-i hold by [Gloucestershire]3-gloucestershire and [Devon]24-devon . [I]0-i have [a famous North Devon ham]2463-a famous north devon ham , and am proud of its fame . Surely no more visitors for [me]0-i . No ; but one for [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer . [The Professor]2125-the professor has heard of the eyeshells ; and what politeness , humanity , love of [[his]2125-the professor daughter]2465-his daughter failed to do , science has effected . [He]2125-the professor is come to see and secure [them]2466-them . [[His]2125-the professor children]2467-his children hear [his]2125-the professor voice . Of course , [we]2468-we must ask [him]2125-the professor to come up . [Mr. Conrad]427-conrad rises . [Isola]428-isola runs to fetch [[her]428-isola father]898-her father . [Isola]428-isola loves [everybody]6273-everybody . [I]0-i do believe [she]428-isola loves [old Cora]429-cora . [Conrad]427-conrad is of sterner stuff : but surely [he]427-conrad loves [[his]427-conrad father]1062-his father . As for [me]0-i — [we]2468-we were just getting on so well — [I]0-i wanted [no Professor]2472-no professor . [[Isola]428-isola 's brother]2473-isola 's brother will not tell a lie . [He]2473-isola 's brother does not remember , all at once , any pressing engagement . [He]2473-isola 's brother holds out [his]2473-isola 's brother hand , saying simply , " [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , [I]2473-isola 's brother heartily beg [your]423-miss valence pardon for leaving so suddenly ; and just when [we]2468-we were giving [you]423-miss valence so much trouble . It would be impertinence for [me]2473-isola 's brother to tell [you]423-miss valence the reason . It is a domestic matter . [I]2473-isola 's brother trust [you]423-miss valence will believe [me]2473-isola 's brother , that no light reason would make [me]2473-isola 's brother rude . May [I]2473-isola 's brother come again with [Isola]428-isola , to see [your]423-miss valence drawings soon ? "[2473-isola 's brother] [He]2473-isola 's brother meets [the Professor]2125-the professor on the stairs . [The latter]907-the latter enters [the room]823-the room , under evil auspices for [my]0-i good opinion . If [Professor Ross]430-professor ross entered [[my]0-i room]986-my room under evil auspices , it was not long before [he]430-professor ross sent the birds the other way . For the first time , since [my]0-i childhood , [I]0-i met [a man of large and various knowledge]2478-a man of large and various knowledge ; [a man who had spent [his]2478-a man of large and various knowledge life in amassing information , and learning how to make the most of it]2479-a man who had spent his life in amassing information , and learning how to make the most of it . A little too much perhaps there was of the second , and more fruitful branch , of the sour - sweet tree . Once [I]0-i had been fool enough to fancy that some of [my]0-i own little bopeeps at nature were original and peculiar . To [Thomas Kenwood]295-tom , [Farmer Huxtable]362-farmer huxtable , and even [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer , [a gardener]985-a gardener , [I]0-i had been quite an oracle as to the weather , the sky , and the insects about . Moreover , in most of the books [I]0-i had read , there were such blunders , even in matters that lie on nature 's doorsteps , that , looking back at them , [I]0-i thought [I]0-i had crossed [her]2481-her threshold . As the proverb has it , nature always avenges [herself]2481-her ; and here was [I]0-i , a mere " gappermouth "[0-i] ( [I]0-i use a [Devonshire]4-devonshire word ) , to be taught that [I]0-i had not yet cropped even a cud to chew . True , [I]0-i did not expect ( like [Mr.]2482-mr. and [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ) that a boiled caterpillar would become a live butterfly ; neither did [I]0-i believe , with [Farmer Huxtable]362-farmer huxtable , that hips and haws foretell a hard winter , because [God]303-god means them for the thrushes ; but [I]0-i knew no more than [they]2483-they did the laws and principles of things . [My]0-i little knowledge was all shreds and patches . It did not cover even the smallest subject . Odd things here and there [I]0-i knew ; but [a person of sound information]2484-a person of sound information knows the odd and the even as well . [My]0-i observations might truly be called [my]0-i own ; but instead of being peculiar to [me]0-i , nearly all of them had been anticipated centuries ago . [I]0-i was but a gipsey straying where [an army had been]2485-an army had been . All this [I]0-i suspected in less than ten minutes from [the Professor]2125-the professor 's entrance ; [he]2125-the professor did not leave [me]0-i long in doubt about it . It is just to [myself]0-i to say that the discovery did not mortify [me]0-i much . [My]0-i little observations had been made , partly from pure love of nature 's doings , partly through habits drawn from a darker spring . At first [I]0-i had felt no pleasure in them , but it could not long be so . Now they were [mine]0-i as much as ever , though [a thousand]2487-a thousand shared them with [me]0-i . As [the Professor]2125-the professor laid bare [my]0-i ignorance and [my]0-i errors , and proved that the little [I]0-i did know was at second hand — which it certainly was not — [I]0-i attempted no reply ; [I]0-i was too young for argument , and too much interested to be impatient . So [he]2125-the professor demolished [my]0-i ham and [myself]0-i , with equal relish and equal elegance of handling . [He]2125-the professor seemed to have no intention of doing either , but managed both incidentally , and almost accidentally , while [he]2125-the professor opened [his]2125-the professor mental encyclopædia . At length , [Isola]428-isola , who was tired of lectures , such as [she]428-isola got and forgot every day , felt that it was high time to assert [her]428-isola prerogative , and come to [my]0-i rescue . " Come , [Pappy]426-pappy , [you]426-pappy fancy [you]426-pappy know everything , do n't [you]426-pappy ? "[2125-the professor] [He]2125-the professor was just beginning to treat of mosses ; and [I]0-i knew that [he]2125-the professor was wrong upon several points , but did not dare to say so . " [[My]2125-the professor dear child]2385-my dear child , of the million things [I]2125-the professor never shall discover , one is the way to keep [you]426-pappy at all in order . "[2125-the professor] " [I]2125-the professor should hope not , indeed . Come now , here is another thing [you]426-pappy do n't know . How long did it take to boil this delicious ham ? [Clara]293-clara knows , and so do [I.]2125-the professor "[2125-the professor] " Upon that matter , [I]2125-the professor confess [my]2125-the professor total ignorance . "[2125-the professor] " Hear , hear ! [Pappy]426-pappy , [you]426-pappy can lecture by the hour upon isothermic laws , and fluids , and fibrine , and adipose deposits , and [you]426-pappy ca n't tell how long it took to set this delicate fat . [I]2125-the professor 'll tell [you]426-pappy what it is , [Pappy]426-pappy , if [you]426-pappy ever snub [me]2125-the professor in lecture again before [the junior sophists]6664-the junior sophists , as [you]426-pappy dared to do yesterday , [I]2125-the professor 'll sing out , ' Ham , [Pappy]426-pappy , ham ! ' and [you]426-pappy 'll see how [the girls]6665-the girls will laugh . "[2125-the professor] " No novelty , [[my]2489-his dear]5318-my dear , for [them]6665-the girls to laugh at [you]426-pappy . [I]2489-his fear [you]426-pappy never will learn anything but impertinence . "[2489-his] [His]2489-his words were light , and [he]2489-his strove to keep [his]2489-his manner the same ; but [his]2489-his eyes belied [him]2489-his . [Isola]428-isola ran round , and administered [her]428-isola never - failing remedy . There was that sweetness about [her]428-isola [nobody]1116-nobody could resist it . Returning to [her]428-isola seat , [she]428-isola gave [me]0-i a nod of triumph , and began again . " Now , [Papples]469-papples , when [you]469-papples are good again , [you]469-papples shall have a real treat . [Clara]293-clara will show [you]469-papples [her]293-clara cordetto , wo n't [you]469-papples , [dear]5871-dear ? It is twice as big as [yours]469-papples , and more than twice as pretty . "[428-isola] [I]0-i took it from [my]0-i neck , where it had been throughout [my]0-i illness . [Isola]428-isola told [me]0-i continually that it had saved [my]0-i sight ; and so old [Cora]429-cora devoutly believed , crossing [herself]429-cora , and invoking fifty saints . Long afterwards [I]0-i found that [Cora]429-cora knew it to be the heart of the Blessed Virgin , perpetuated in the material which [[her]429-cora husband]6140-her husband used . If so , it had been multiplied as well . [Dr. Ross]470-dr. ross took [my]0-i pretty gordit , and examined it narrowly , carrying it to the window to get a stronger light . " Beyond a doubt , "[6140-her husband] [he]6140-her husband said at last , " it is the finest in [Europe]95-europe . [I]6140-her husband have only seen one to compare with [it]6668-it , and that had a flaw in the centre . Will [you]0-i part with it , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence ? "[6140-her husband] " No ; [I]6140-her husband have promised never to do that . "[6140-her husband] " Then [I]6140-her husband must say no more ; but [I]6140-her husband should have been proud to add it to [my]6140-her husband collection . "[6140-her husband] " To carry it about with [you]0-i , [you]0-i mean , [Pappy]426-pappy . [You]0-i know [you]426-pappy are [a superstitious old Pappy]6669-a superstitious old pappy , in spite of all [your]426-pappy learning . "[6140-her husband] Weak as [my]0-i eyes were , [I]0-i could see the scowl of deep displeasure in [his]6140-her husband . [Isola]428-isola was frightened : [she]428-isola knew [she]428-isola had gone too far . [She]428-isola did not even dare to offer the kiss of peace . No more was said about it , and [I]0-i turned the conversation to some other subject . But when [he]6140-her husband rose to depart , [I]0-i found a pretext for keeping [Isola]428-isola with [me]0-i . " Good - bye for the present , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , "[6140-her husband] [Dr. Ross]470-dr. ross said gracefully — [he]6140-her husband did everything but scowl with an inborn grace—"I hope that [your]423-miss valence very first journey in quest of natural history will terminate at [[my]6140-her husband house]5343-my house . [I]6140-her husband can not show [you]423-miss valence much , but shall truly enjoy going over [my]6140-her husband little collection with [you]423-miss valence whenever [you]423-miss valence find that [your]423-miss valence sight is strong enough . Meanwhile , let [me]6140-her husband earnestly warn [you]423-miss valence to abstain from chemical experiments"—this[6140-her husband] was the cause of [my]0-i injury assigned by [Mrs. Shelfer—"until]471-mrs. shelfer—"until [you]423-miss valence have [a competent director]6671-a competent director . [Isola]428-isola , good - bye . [I]471-mrs. shelfer—"until will send [Cora]429-cora for [you]423-miss valence in good time for tea . [Your]423-miss valence attendance at lecture will be excused . "[471-mrs. shelfer—"until] All [my]0-i interest in the subjects [he]0-i had discussed , and in [his]0-i mode of treating [them]2492-them , all [my]0-i admiration of [his]0-i shrewd intellectual face , did not prevent [my]0-i feeling it a relief when [he]0-i was gone . [He]0-i was not at all like [[his]0-i children]2467-his children . About [them]2467-his children there was something so winning and unpretentious , [few]2494-few could help liking [them]2467-his children at first sight . [They]2467-his children did all [they]2467-his children could to please , but without any visible effort . But with [the Professor]2125-the professor , in spite of all [his]0-i elegance and politeness , [I]0-i could not help perceiving that [he]0-i was not doing [his]0-i best , that [he]0-i scorned to put forth [his]0-i powers when there was [neither antagonist]2496-neither antagonist nor ( in [his]0-i opinion ) [duly qualified listener]2497-duly qualified listener . Nevertheless [I]0-i could have told [him]0-i some things [he]0-i did not know concerning lichens and mosses . When [I]0-i was left with [my]0-i favourite [Isola]428-isola , [that gentle senior sophist]2498-that gentle senior sophist seemed by no means disconsolate at [her]428-isola [Papa]425-papa 's departure . [She]428-isola loved [him]425-papa and was proud of [him]425-papa , but there were times , as [she]428-isola told [me]0-i , when [she]428-isola was quite afraid of [him]425-papa . " Would [you]0-i believe it , [dear]5871-dear , that [I]428-isola could be afraid of [old Pappy?"—his]472-old pappy?"—his[428-isola] age was about four and forty—"It is very wicked [I]428-isola know , but how am [I]428-isola to help it ? Were [you]0-i like that with [[your]0-i Papa]6240-your papa , when [he]425-papa was alive ? "[428-isola] " No , [I]428-isola should think not . But [I]428-isola am not at all sure that [he]425-papa was n't afraid of [me]428-isola . "[428-isola] " Oh , how nice that must be ! But it is [my]0-i fault , is n't it ? "[0-i] [I]0-i could not well have told [her]428-isola , even if [I]0-i had known it , that the fault in such cases is almost always on [the parent]2499-the parent 's side . That same evening , when [dear " Idols]466-idols "[466-idols] was gone , and [I]0-i felt trebly alone , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer came to say that [[her]391-mrs. shelfer uncle]2500-her uncle [John]411-miss vaughan was [there]1114-there , and would be glad to see [me]0-i . Though [he]411-miss vaughan had been several times to ask how [I]0-i was , [he]411-miss vaughan had not seen [me]0-i since the first day of [my]0-i blindness . After expressing [his]411-miss vaughan joy and surprise at [my]0-i recovery , [he]411-miss vaughan assured [me]0-i that [I]0-i must thank neither [myself]0-i nor [the doctor]5643-the doctor , but [my]0-i luck in not having touched the liquid until its strength was nearly expended . " Have [you]411-miss vaughan any news for [me]0-i ? "[0-i] [I]0-i asked abruptly . As [my]0-i strength returned , the sense of [my]0-i wrong grew hotter . " Yes ; and [I]0-i fear [you]0-i will think it bad news . [You]0-i will lose [my]0-i help for awhile in [your]0-i pursuit . "[0-i] " How so ? [You]0-i talk of [my]0-i luck ; [I]0-i am always unlucky . "[0-i] " Because [I]0-i am ordered abroad on a matter too nice and difficult for any of [[my]0-i colleagues]6674-my colleagues . To - morrow [I]0-i leave [England]9-england . "[0-i] " How long shall [you]2504-you be away ? "[0-i] " [I]0-i can not tell . Perhaps one year ; perhaps two . Perhaps [I]0-i may never return . Over and above the danger , [I]0-i am not so young as [I]0-i was . "[0-i] [I]0-i felt dismayed , and stricken down . Was [I]0-i never to have a chance ? All powers of [earth]1622-earth and heaven and hell seemed to combine against [me]0-i . Then came a gleam of hope , obscured immediately by the remembrance of [his]2504-you words . " Are [you]2504-you going to [Italy]63-italy ? "[2504-you] " No . To [Australia]96-australia . "[0-i] Thereupon all hope vanished , and for a time [I]0-i could not say a word . At last [I]0-i said — " [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting , the least thing [you]412-inspector cutting can do before [you]412-inspector cutting go , and [your]412-inspector cutting absolute duty now , is to tell [me]0-i every single thing [you]412-inspector cutting found out , in the course of [your]412-inspector cutting recent search . Something [you]412-inspector cutting must have learned , or [you]412-inspector cutting would not have done what [you]412-inspector cutting did . All along [I]0-i have felt that [you]412-inspector cutting were hiding something from [me]0-i . Now [you]412-inspector cutting can have no motive . Now [I]0-i am [[your]412-inspector cutting successor]6675-your successor in the secret ; [I]0-i , and [no one else]5442-no one else . To no other will [I]0-i commit the case . How much [I]0-i have suffered from [your]412-inspector cutting secresy , none but [myself]0-i can know . Henceforth [I]0-i will have no help . Three months [you]412-inspector cutting have been on the track , and [I]0-i almost believe that [you]412-inspector cutting have discovered nothing . "[0-i] [I]0-i spoke so , partly through passion , partly in hope to taunt [him]2505-i into disclosure . [His]2505-i chief weakness , as [I]0-i knew well , was pride in [his]2505-i own sagacity . " [You]412-inspector cutting shall suffer no more . [I]2505-i had good reasons for hiding it , one of them [your]412-inspector cutting own hastiness . Now [I]2505-i will tell [you]2505-i all [I]2505-i know . In fact , as [you]2505-i well said , it has become [my]2505-i duty to do so , unless [you]2505-i will authorise [me]2505-i to appoint [a successor]6677-a successor before [I]2505-i go . "[2505-i] " Certainly not . [My]2506-my confidence in [you]2505-i can not be transferred to [a stranger]1247-a stranger . "[2506-my] " One chance more . Let [me]2505-i report the matter officially . It is possible that [[my]2505-i superiors]6679-my superiors may think it more important than [my]2505-i new mission , which is to recover a large amount of property . "[2505-i] " No . [I]2505-i will not allow it . [I]2505-i have devoted [myself]2505-i to one object . [I]2505-i alone can effect it . It shall not pass to [others]869-others . [I]2505-i feel once more that it is [my]2505-i destiny to unravel this black mystery ; [myself]2505-i , by [my]2505-i own courage . In asking [your]2505-i aid [I]2505-i was thwarting [my]2505-i destiny . Since then [I]2505-i have had nothing but accidents . There is a proverb in some language , ' Who crosses destiny shall have accident . ' "[2505-i] " [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , [I]2506-my could never have dreamed that [you]423-miss valence were so superstitious . "[2506-my] " Now tell [me]2506-my all [you]423-miss valence have done , all [you]423-miss valence have discovered , and [your]423-miss valence own conclusion from it . "[2506-my] [He]2506-my told [me]0-i all in a very few words , and [his]2506-my conclusion was [mine]0-i . To any other except [myself]0-i , the grounds on which [he]2506-my had based it , would have seemed insufficient . [I]0-i took good care to secure every possible means of following up the frail clue . Ere [he]2506-my wished [me]0-i good - bye , [he]2506-my offered one last suggestion . " If , during [my]2506-my absence , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , [you]423-miss valence press [your]423-miss valence evidence far enough to require the strong hand , or if before [you]423-miss valence have done so [you]423-miss valence require [a man]5384-a man 's assistance , apply at once to [[my]2506-my son]5986-my son — [you]423-miss valence can always find [him]5986-my son through [Patty Shelfer]409-patty . [He]5986-my son is only [a serjeant]6683-a serjeant as yet , and not in [the detective force]6684-the detective force ; but [he]5986-my son has qualities , [that young man]6685-that young man has , [he]5986-my son has got all [my]2506-my abilities , and more ! Ah , [he]5986-my son will be at the top of the tree when [I]2506-my am in [my]2506-my grave , please [God]303-god . "[2506-my] [His]2507-he shrewd eyes softened as [he]2507-he spoke , and [I]0-i liked [him]2507-he ten times as well for this little flaw in [his]2507-he sheathing . Of course [he]2507-he knew that [I]0-i could not entrust [myself]0-i to [a young man]1703-a young man , as [I]0-i could to [him]2507-he . When [he]2507-he was gone , with many good wishes on both sides , and a little keepsake from [me]0-i , [I]0-i felt that [I]0-i had lost [an intelligent , honest , and true friend]2509-an intelligent , honest , and true friend . [Vigorous]473-vigorous and elastic as [I]0-i am , [I]0-i can not deny that the air and weather have great dominion over [me]0-i . It was always so with [[my]0-i own dear father]2510-my own dear father . Two days spent indoors , without any real exercise , would make [him]2510-my own dear father feel as uneasy as a plant in [a cellaret]2511-a cellaret . Crusty and crabbed , nothing could ever make [him]2510-my own dear father — not even gout [I]0-i believe , if [he]2510-my own dear father had lived long enough for it — but when [he]2510-my own dear father had lost [his]2510-my own dear father fishing , or shooting , or bit of gardening , too long , [he]2510-my own dear father was quite unlike [himself]2510-my own dear father . It was a bad time then to coax for anything — no song , no whistling , no after - dinner nap . [I]0-i too am not of a sedentary nature , though upon due occasion [I]0-i can sit writing or drawing for some hours together . But how fine a thing all the while to see any motion outside — a leaf that can skip , or a cloud that can run ! How [we]2512-we envy [a sparrow]2513-a sparrow [his]2513-a sparrow little hop , even across the gutter . It is now a long month since [I]0-i have been out of doors , except just to sniff the air , without any bonnet on . [I]0-i have never been boxed and pannelled so long since first [I]0-i crawled out of [[my]0-i cradle]2514-my cradle . It is a sharp bright frost — it seems to freeze harder in [London]1-london than in [the west of [Gloucestershire]3-gloucestershire]2515-the west of gloucestershire , but not half so cleanly . [Isola]428-isola comes , like a tea - china rose bedded in poplin and ermine . [Her]428-isola close - drawn bonnet of velvet , mazarin blue , is freaked with snowdrops , nod , nod , nodding , not too many of them . [I]0-i hail the omen of spring , and [my]0-i spirits rise already . [Idols]466-idols is up for a lark ( as [the junior sophists]6664-the junior sophists express it ) and [she]428-isola has set [her]428-isola heart upon leading [me]0-i such a dance . Shall [she]428-isola ever set that sweet heart upon anything , and not obtain it at once ? Who knows ? Never , [I]0-i am quite sure , when another heart is the object . " Come , [you]0-i grave [old Grandmother]474-old grandmother . [You]0-i are younger than [me]2517-i , [I]2517-i believe , in spite of all [your]0-i stories ; and [you]0-i are old enough in [your]0-i ways , for [old mother Hubbard that lived in [a cupboard]6687-a cupboard]6686-old mother hubbard that lived in a cupboard . Oh [my]2517-i tippets and furbelows , if [I]2517-i wore as tall as [you]0-i , and half as long in the waist , what a dress [I]2517-i would have . Fifteen guineas at least . Come along , [[you]0-i bed - ridden dump of [a Clara]6689-a clara]6688-you bed - ridden dump of a clara ; it 's freezing like bricks and silica , and [I]2517-i am in such spirits , and [Giudice]475-giudice is frightening [Tom]295-tom out of [his]295-tom life in [the kitchen]5526-the kitchen . "[2517-i] [She]2517-i danced round [[my]0-i little room]6335-my little room , like a leaf when the wind is rising . [The Pixie - king of [my]0-i gordit]2519-the pixie - king of my gordit could not have been lighter of foot , nor half so lovely of form . How [she]2517-i managed to spin so between the " sticks , "[2517-i] none but [herself]2517-i can tell . What would [poor Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer have said ? In spite of [her]2517-i fears for the furniture , [she]2517-i would have laughed , [I]0-i believe , and blessed the pretty feet . " Come along , [[Clara]293-clara [child]5440-child]6691-clara child . Do [you]6691-clara child think [I]2517-i am going to stand still [here]846-here all day ? "[2517-i] " If [you]6691-clara child call that standing still , pray give [me]2517-i [the senior sophist]6694-the senior sophist 's definition of motion . "[2517-i] " Oh [I]2517-i want to skate , so dreadfully . And [Pappy]426-pappy and [Conrad]427-conrad wo n't let [me]2517-i . [They]6695-them say it is n't becoming . But what on earth can be more so ? Would n't [I]2517-i skim on one foot ? [I]2517-i 'll skate , in spite of [them]6695-them , [Clara]293-clara , if [you]6691-clara child 'll only keep [me]2517-i in countenance . "[2517-i] " Can [you]6691-clara child imagine [me]2517-i skating ? "[2517-i] " No . [I]2517-i know [you]6691-clara child wo n't do it , [you]6691-clara child are so fearfully grave . But there 's more fun in [you]6691-clara child , when [you]6691-clara child like , or when [you]6691-clara child ca n't help [yourself]6691-clara child , as [I]2517-i 've seen [you]6691-clara child once or twice , than there is in [a hundred such Merry - Andrews as [me]2517-i]6696-a hundred such merry - andrews as me . At any rate [we]6697-we 'll go and see [them]6695-them . On with [your]6691-clara child bonnet now , [I]2517-i can not wait a minute . Have something to cover [your]6691-clara child eyes . [Conny]427-conrad ' 11 be there [I]2517-i know . "[2517-i] On went [my]0-i bonnet , nothing loth to have an airing again . It was fading in the box . " Now lots of warm things , [darling]6257-darling . [You]6691-clara child have no idea how cold it is , and scarcely sun enough to thaw the long frost in [your]6691-clara child eyes . Let [me]2517-i look at them , [Donna]476-donna . Oh if [mine]2517-i were half as bright . [You]6691-clara child ca n't have got them in [England]9-england . "[2517-i] " Now , [Idols]466-idols , do n't talk nonsense . Every inch of [me]2520-her is English , and not an inch of [you]6691-clara child ; although [your]6691-clara child eyes are so blue . [You]6691-clara child are Scotch all over , or else [you]6691-clara child are all Swiss . "[2520-her] For answer [she]2520-her began singing " [the Merry Swiss Boy]6699-the merry swiss boy , "[2520-her] and was going to dance to [her]2520-her song , when [I]0-i danced [her]2520-her off down [stairs]1506-stairs . [Giudice]475-giudice was in [the kitchen]5526-the kitchen , with [Tom]295-tom , from the top of [the coffee - mill]2523-the coffee - mill , sputtering anathemas at [him]475-giudice . A magnificent dog [he]475-giudice was , of [the race of Maltese bloodhounds , now so scarce , fawn - coloured , long in the flank , deep in the jowl , pouch - eared , and grave of eye]2524-the race of maltese bloodhounds , now so scarce , fawn - coloured , long in the flank , deep in the jowl , pouch - eared , and grave of eye . [He]475-giudice regarded [Tom]295-tom no more than if [he]475-giudice had been an old hat brushed the wrong way ; and the birds , who were all in a flutter , [he]475-giudice took for British butterflies . [He]475-giudice came leisurely to [me]0-i , walking one side at a time , and solemnly deposited [his]475-giudice great moist nose in [my]0-i hand . [I]0-i knew [him]475-giudice then as [the friend who addressed [me]0-i , long since , in [the Villa Road]6143-the villa road]2525-the friend who addressed me , long since , in the villa road . " Why , [you]0-i graven [images"—a[475-giudice] popular person]6700-images"—a popular person always has fifty nicknames ; [Isola]428-isola had a hundred at least , and [she]428-isola liked them all—"what depth of secresy and statecraft is this ! [You]0-i know how [I]428-isola love dogs , and [you]0-i never even told [me]428-isola of [this splendid fellow]6701-this splendid fellow 's existence ! "[428-isola] " Well , [Donna]476-donna dear , do n't look so indignant . [He]475-giudice does n't belong to [me]428-isola , and [he]475-giudice wo n't come with [me]428-isola unless [he]475-giudice is told , and then [he]475-giudice makes such a favour of it . See [his]475-giudice long supple stride . [He]475-giudice walks just like a leopard — don't [you]0-i , [you]0-i pious panther ? [I]428-isola wonder [he]475-giudice took to [you]0-i so . [He]475-giudice is not fierce at all , except when [he]475-giudice ought to be ; but [he]475-giudice hardly ever makes [friends]6702-friends . "[428-isola] " Whose dog is [he]475-giudice ? ' "[427-conrad] [Conrad]427-conrad 's to be sure . And [I]0-i do believe [Conny]427-conrad thinks more of [him]427-conrad than [he]427-conrad does of [me]0-i . Get along , [you]2527-you yellow mammoth ! Why [he]427-conrad would keep [his]427-conrad head there all day ? " "[427-conrad] [All dogs]2528-all dogs love [me]0-i , [Idols]466-idols . It was so when [I]0-i was [a child]782-a child . [They]2528-all dogs know how honest [I]0-i am . " "[2528-all dogs] Well , [I]0-i believe [you]466-idols are , [Donna]476-donna ; and too honest sometimes . But [I]0-i am honest enough , and [Giudice]475-giudice does not appreciate it . Come along , [Judy]477-judy . Are [you]466-idols going to stick [there]1114-there all day ? " Away [we]6703-we went , and the great dog walked behind , keeping [his]427-conrad head most fairly adjusted between [us]6703-we , never shifting its place an inch , whether [we]6703-we walked or ran — as [we]6703-we did where [the street]6090-the street was empty , and when [we]6703-we got into [the Park]892-the park . Oh the cold air of heaven , fresh from [the clear North Pole]97-the clear north pole , where [the Great Bear]478-the great bear stalks round the Little Bear with the vigilance of [a mother]1544-a mother , how it tightens the clip of the joints , puts a sting into every step , flushes the cheeks with [Aurora]479-aurora , and sparkles in young eyes ! For the nonce [we]6703-we forget who [we]6703-we are , never think how [our]6703-we clothes blow about , [our]6703-we spirits are on the north wind , what are [we]6703-we more than snow flakes , let [us]6703-we glisten and lift on the air . Crossing [the Park]892-the park ( lightly furrowed with snow at the drains , like [our]6703-we hair when [we]6703-we part it ) [we]6703-we came to a broad sheet of ice . [We]6703-we had heard a long way off a crisp musical hollow sound , like tapping a box with a hole in it . The ice was not like the old ice at [Vaughan Park]5-vaughan park , but seamed and channeled , and up and down , and powdered light grey with scrapings from skates and shoes . [Thousands of people]6708-thousands of people were on it , some skating , some sliding , [some]811-some rushing about and playing hot game with crooked sticks , some sweeping away with short brooms , some crying things for sale and offering skates for hire , many standing still and wistfully eyeing [the land]1188-the land ; but all in the height of good humour , laughing , chaffing , holloaing , drinking , and ordering more . Every now and then [some great performer]6711-some great performer ( in [his]6711-some great performer own eyes ) would sail by [the women]5487-the women grandly ( like [a ship]1423-a ship heeling over ) , with [his]6711-some great performer arms folded and foot over foot , and a long cigar in [his]6711-some great performer mouth . For [these one]6714-these one devoutly desired a fall . [The skaters of real eminence]6715-the skaters of real eminence scorned this common show - off , and each had [[his]6711-some great performer special admirers]6716-his special admirers forming a ring around [him]6711-some great performer , where [he]6711-some great performer had cut [his]6711-some great performer own circus of smoother and greener ice . Along [the brink of firm land]6717-the brink of firm land , stood [nurses]6718-nurses and [children]1229-children innumerable ; [the maids on the giggle]6720-the maids on the giggle at every challenge borne to [them]6720-the maids on the giggle from the glazed waters , [the little ones]6721-the little ones tugging , and kicking , and frantic to get on . The [background of all the cold scene , whiter as it receded , and broken by gliding figures]6722-background of all the cold scene , whiter as it receded , and broken by gliding figures , was formed by [some low fringed islets , with open water around them]6723-some low fringed islets , with open water around them , and crane - necked wild fowl wheeling about , and warning boards , and [icemen pushing flat - bottomed boats]6724-icemen pushing flat - bottomed boats along . In the far distance , to the right , were [two or three canvas tents , where [they]6725-two or three canvas tents , where they kept the range of the mercury , and the list of the accidents kept the range of the mercury , and the list of the accidents]6725-two or three canvas tents , where they kept the range of the mercury , and the list of the accidents . [The long vista]6726-the long vista was closed now and then , as high as hats and bonnets , by scuds of the drifting ice and snow . Here as [we]6727-we stood on [the bank]6728-the bank , [Giudice]475-giudice forsook [us]6727-we shamefully , and bounded over the ice , with a levity quite scandalous for a serious - minded dog , towards one of the charmed circles , where [eminent skaters whirled , like peg - tops full of steam - engines]6729-eminent skaters whirled , like peg - tops full of steam - engines . Was it likely that [we]6727-we , [two girls of spirit]6730-two girls of spirit , would halt ignobly there ? First on the ice went [I]477-judy , holding [Isola]428-isola 's hand , and tempting [her]428-isola nothing loth . In spite of [her]428-isola boast about skating , [Idols]466-idols was frightened at first , and held very tightly by [me]477-judy , and wanted to run back . But the little feet grew braver at every step , and [she]428-isola ventured even to clap [her]428-isola hands and dance . To [me]477-judy the thing was no novelty , except from the number of [people]1132-people , and the puckering of the ice . [I]477-judy had even the courage to slide with one foot , but never with both at a time . As for the cracking and bending when [some heavy man]6732-some heavy man scoured by , on purpose , [I]477-judy dare say , to frighten [us]6727-we , [I]477-judy laughed with [my]477-judy heart in [my]477-judy mouth . [Isola]428-isola was amazed . [She]428-isola never could have conceived that [I]477-judy had so much effrontery . What cared [I]477-judy , if [a hundred people]6733-a hundred people stared at [me]477-judy ? [I]477-judy was doing nothing unseemly , and [dozens of [ladies]6735-ladies]6734-dozens of ladies were there . The scene , and the air , and the spirits of youth set [my]477-judy blood all on the bound , and oh , blessing of blessings , [my]477-judy blessed sight was come back . How manly , and stirring , to feel , that a slip — and a limb may be broken ; a crack — and one may be drowned . But , as usual , [I]477-judy suffered for [my]477-judy temerity . First [we]6727-we followed [Giudice]475-giudice , and found [him]475-giudice in the centre of the ring , where [the greatest throng]6736-the greatest throng was gathered , the dog skating with [[his]475-giudice master]827-his master , who was [one of [the very best skaters in [the world]798-the world]6739-the very best skaters in the world]6738-one of the very best skaters in the world . [Giudice]475-giudice was graver than ever , but wistfully glanced as [he]475-giudice whirled round , at every point of escape . With [his]475-giudice heavy fore feet on [[his]475-giudice master]827-his master 's shoulders , and [his]475-giudice tongue lolling out , and [his]475-giudice eyes rolling sadly at each reluctant caper , and [his]475-giudice poor tail between [his]475-giudice jerked legs , it was impossible not to see that [his]475-giudice dignity and self - respect were suffering . So when [Conrad]427-conrad came to speak to [us]6742-us , [I]477-judy earnestly begged that [Giudice]475-giudice might be set free , which was done in a moment , to the great disappointment of [the bystanders]6743-the bystanders , and the boundless delight of the dog , who came and gratefully kissed [my]477-judy hand . "[477-judy] Why , [Donna]476-donna , " cried [Isola]428-isola in a small pet , "[476-donna] [Giudice]475-giudice takes [you]476-donna for [[his]475-giudice mistress]5962-his mistress : [he]475-giudice would never do that to [me]0-i , if [I]0-i coaxed [him]475-giudice a hundred years . " Through , the colour the north wind had spread on [my]0-i cheeks , [I]0-i felt the warm blood rushing , and bent over the dog to hide it ; then much as [I]0-i longed to see [[Isola]428-isola 's brother]2473-isola 's brother skate , [I]0-i dragged [her]428-isola off rather rudely towards [the rougher part of the ice]6745-the rougher part of the ice . [Conrad]427-conrad looked rather surprised and hurt , but resumed [his]427-conrad figuring with much apparent philosophy . [Idols]466-idols and [I]0-i , with the flush in [our]6746-our cheeks , and the flash in [our]6746-our eyes , and [our]6746-our forms all buoyant with innocent fun , came suddenly round a corner on [a party of low - looking men]6747-a party of low - looking men , who were casting flat stones , bowling , or curling , or playing at drake , with a great tin can for [their]6747-a party of low - looking men mark . [We]6746-our turned and were off in a moment ; but [we]6746-our had been observed by the sharpest and slyest eyes in [London]1-london . [A man]5384-a man gave chase in half - skating fashion , having bones tied under [his]5384-a man boots , in lieu of skates . [We]6746-our could easily have escaped , in spite of [his]5384-a man bones ; but was [I]0-i going to run away , like [a skittish servant - maid]6749-a skittish servant - maid ? [I]0-i drew up [Miss Isola]428-isola sharply , whether [she]428-isola would or no , and confronted [the enemy]1677-the enemy . It was [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer [himself]413-mr. shelfer , [the man so modest and bashful , who could never bear to look at [me]0-i]6751-the man so modest and bashful , who could never bear to look at me . [Though a dozen more]6752-though a dozen more came after [him]413-mr. shelfer , [I]0-i felt no alarm at all , knowing [his]413-mr. shelfer wonderful shyness and diffidence . But [his]413-mr. shelfer first address amazed [me]0-i . "[0-i] Now 's [your]2532-your time , [lads]2533-lads . At 'em , [I]0-i say . Here 's [the two prettiest gals in [London]1-london]2534-the two prettiest gals in london . " [The low scoundrel]6753-the low scoundrel ! [I]293-clara saw that [he]413-mr. shelfer was quite tipsy . But frightened as [I]293-clara was , for none but [they]2534-the two prettiest gals in london were near , [I]293-clara could hardly help laughing at [him]413-mr. shelfer . [He]413-mr. shelfer had [his]413-mr. shelfer usual slouch , and the long sly nose , and the pent - house gleam of the eye , and [his]413-mr. shelfer gaunt cheeks drawn as if [he]413-mr. shelfer was always sucking them , and the chimneypot hat , that had once belonged to [some steady going Churchman]6754-some steady going churchman , with the crown flapping in , like the gills of a fish . All this was balanced by the skill and comical courage of [Bacchus]480-bacchus , upon a pair of grating marrow - bones . Behind [him]413-mr. shelfer [his]413-mr. shelfer countless pockets yawned and looked brown on the wind . And this was the being bowed down to by [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ! "[293-clara] [Clara]293-clara dear , stop , [Clara]293-clara ! " [the impudent sot]6755-the impudent sot cried out . [I]293-clara had stopped without that , and was already facing [him]413-mr. shelfer . For a moment [he]413-mr. shelfer was abashed , for [my]293-clara eyes were full upon [his]413-mr. shelfer ; but the others were coming up . "[293-clara] Now this is what [I]0-i calls harmony , dashed if it is n't . Why look at the trees and the bushes . There 's harmony in them trees , ay in every one on 'em . Fine trees and [pretty gals]2535-pretty gals , them 's the jockeys for [me]0-i . That 's what [I]0-i calls [natur]2536-natur ' and something like . Houses ! Lor , there 's no harmony in [houses]6198-houses and [pantiles]2538-pantiles . Fine trees is all harmony , and so is [lovely woman]2539-lovely woman . Do n't tell [the old gal]2540-the old gal at [home]1102-home . [She]2540-the old gal never would understand . Why Idols there is a pretty duck as ever swam on the ice . But [Clara]293-clara 's a — — fine swan , and no mistake . [Ducks]481-ducks is all very well , but a swan is the jockey for [me]0-i . There 's something to lay hold on there . Give [me]0-i a swan [I]0-i say , and the harmony of them trees . [Bob Ridley]482-bob , [I]0-i 'll lay [you]482-bob [a tanner]2542-a tanner [I]0-i kisses that there swan . Ever see such eyes , [Bob]482-bob , and look at the way [she]293-clara stands . Wonder there 's a bit of ice left here . " [The low rogue]6756-the low rogue had a long pipe "[0-i] in [his]0-i head,"—as [Farmer Huxtable]362-farmer huxtable expressed it,—and at every leering sentence blew out a puff of smoke . "[2542-a tanner] Bet [you]482-bob [a tanner]2542-a tanner , [Charley]395-charley , [you]482-bob do n't kiss [that stunnin ' gal]2544-that stunnin ' gal , " cried [[his]0-i friend]6757-his friend , as drunk as [himself]6757-his friend . "[482-bob] Here goes , neck or nothing ; " and the niddering made a dash at [me]482-bob . [I]482-bob drew [my]482-bob clenched hand from [my]482-bob muff , where it had been tingling in [my]482-bob glove , and in [his]0-i tipsy rush , [his]0-i face came full against it . It was a very odd thing , and [I]482-bob know not how it happened . [He]0-i reeled on [his]0-i bones from the collision , and staggered in staring amazement . Before [he]0-i had time to recover , [Conrad]427-conrad dashed up like [a hawk at an owl]6758-a hawk at an owl ; by some wonderful back - stroke [he]427-conrad stopped in an instant , wrung [Shelfer]395-charley 's crooked stick from [his]427-conrad hand , hooked [him]0-i under the collar , struck out again , and towed the poor wretch away backward , at the speed of a mile in a minute . The fire flew from [his]0-i skates as [he]0-i dashed towards [the open water]6759-the open water . [Giudice]475-giudice , at full gallop behind , tried in vain to keep up . [Every man and woman there]6760-every man and woman there turned to watch the issue . [Shelfer]395-charley threw out [his]395-charley hands wildly , and screamed : [he]395-charley was utterly helpless , [his]395-charley teeth rattled more than the bones on [his]395-charley boots . At the edge of [the open water]6759-the open water , three hundred yards away , [Conrad]427-conrad stopped suddenly , like [an engine in collision]6762-an engine in collision , unhooked [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer , and let [him]395-charley go with full impetus . Sprawling and yelling in vain , [he]395-charley flung up [his]395-charley arms , and fell backward into [the water]1150-the water headlong . [The icemen]6764-the icemen came running with [boats]6765-boats , and ropes , and grapnels . But before the first splash was over , [another]6766-another was seen ; [Giudice]475-giudice , at a sign from [[his]475-giudice master]827-his master , plunged in , drew [the poor man of harmony]6768-the poor man of harmony out , and laid [him]6768-the poor man of harmony high and wet on the ice . [He]395-charley was taken at once to [the tent]6769-the tent ; where , as [I]482-bob afterwards heard , [he]395-charley made a fine afternoon of it with [[the society]6770-the society 's men]6771-the society 's men ; most of whom , it is needless to say , [he]395-charley knew . Be that as it may , the lesson did [him]395-charley good . [He]395-charley never insulted [a lady]5829-a lady again , or ( what is still worse ) [a poor honest girl]6773-a poor honest girl , with no education , and [no one to defend [her]6773-a poor honest girl]6774-no one to defend her . As for [me]482-bob , [I]482-bob really believe [he]395-charley never durst blink [his]395-charley sly eyes in [my]482-bob direction again . [I]482-bob love good justice , in or out of the pod . The bean is as sweet to [me]482-bob from the rough air of [heaven]1555-heaven as from [a juryman]6582-a juryman 's pocket . But [I]482-bob thought [Master Conrad]427-conrad had overdone it this time . [He]395-charley had no right to risk [the poor man]6777-the poor man 's life . And so [I]482-bob told [him]395-charley when [he]395-charley came back , as calm as if [he]395-charley had cut a spread eagle . [He]395-charley assured [me]482-bob that [he]395-charley had not risked [the man]5533-the man 's life at all . [He]395-charley knew the depth of the water there by [the island]1125-the island . It was five feet and no more . Then [I]482-bob felt all of a glow and longed to give [him]395-charley the kiss which had cost [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer so much . The next minute [I]482-bob felt humiliated , and burst into a passion of tears , to think what [[my]482-bob father]731-my father would say at [his]731-my father pet of grace and luxury being insulted like that . [Idols]466-idols and [Conrad]427-conrad , not knowing [my]482-bob story , could not understand it at all . [They]6781-they came [home]1102-home with [me]482-bob at once . [Conrad]427-conrad , "[482-bob] under the circumstances , " ventured to offer [his]427-conrad arm , which [I]482-bob , under the circumstances , ventured to accept . At the door [he]427-conrad left [me]482-bob ; but [Idols]466-idols came in with [Giudice]475-giudice , commissioned to see [[her]466-idols safe [home]1102-home]6783-her safe home . [She]466-idols came in partly lest [I]482-bob should feel lonely , partly to arraign [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ( already condemned by both of [[us]6785-us girls]6786-us girls ) for daring to have such [a reprobate drunken husband]6787-a reprobate drunken husband . When [Isola]428-isola had told [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer everything , and a little more than everything ( for [her]428-isola imagination was lively ) , the dominant feeling in [the little woman]6264-the little woman 's bosom was not indignation , as [we]6785-us had expected , but terror . Terror of two evils ; the first and chief evil , the possibility of [Charley]395-charley catching cold ; the other , the probability that [he]427-conrad would crush [Conrad]427-conrad , and tread [him]427-conrad into [the earth]1046-the earth , at the earliest opportunity . [I]482-bob assured [her]428-isola warmly that [Mr. Conrad]427-conrad could well defend [himself]427-conrad , even if [Shelfer]395-charley should dare to meddle with [him]427-conrad . "[482-bob] Oh , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , [you]1798-my good friend have no idea what [a terrible fellow]2546-a terrible fellow [Charley]395-charley is . Why [he]395-charley broke the head of [the skittleman at the " Load of Hay]6790-the skittleman at the " load of hay . "[395-charley] So [he]395-charley told [me]0-i [himself]395-charley . Ah , [he]395-charley 's [a terrible fellow]2546-a terrible fellow , when [he]395-charley 's put out . " "[395-charley] But [you]1798-my good friend forget , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [he]395-charley has n't been put out this time ; [he]395-charley was put in . " That [Isola]428-isola always loved small jokes . "[395-charley] Put in , [Miss Idols]466-idols ? " [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer never understood any joke but [her]391-mrs. shelfer own—"oh[466-idols] yes , put into the water [you]1798-my good friend mean . True , true , and serve [him]395-charley right ( so long as [he]395-charley do n't take cold ) for calling [me]0-i , [[his]395-charley lawful wife]2548-his lawful wife who keeps [him]395-charley together , ' [the old gal at [home]1102-home]2549-the old gal at home ! ' But [Charley]395-charley 's [a terrible fellow]2546-a terrible fellow , terrible . " "[2552-terrible coward] [Terrible coward]2552-terrible coward more likely , " [I]395-charley cried , "[395-charley] or [he]395-charley would never have dared [his]395-charley low insolence to [me]0-i . [I]0-i am sorry for it , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , utterly as [I]0-i scorn [him]395-charley , because it compels [me]0-i to leave [[your]391-mrs. shelfer house]5344-your house ; and [you]391-mrs. shelfer have been truly good and kind to [me]0-i . " [I]391-mrs. shelfer thought of [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable ; but how different was the fibre of [her]331-mrs. huxtable kindness ! "[391-mrs. shelfer] Leave [[my]0-i house]5343-my house , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence ! No , no , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , that will never do , not to be thought of , and [us]2556-us so used to [you]391-mrs. shelfer and all , and [Tom]295-tom , and the blackbird , and the new squirrel ! A likely story , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , and with [your]391-mrs. shelfer eyelashes coming ! And do [you]391-mrs. shelfer know who would come instead of [you]391-mrs. shelfer ? " "[391-mrs. shelfer] Of course not , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer . " "[391-mrs. shelfer] Why [a nasty stinking hussy]2558-a nasty stinking hussy , that would steal the feathers out of [my]0-i best bed again , the same as [they]2559-they did before . [My]0-i very best bed , [Miss Idols]466-idols , as dear [Miss Minto]405-miss minto left [me]0-i by [her]405-miss minto will , not [a better bed in [London]1-london]2560-a better bed in london , unless it 's [the Queen]1427-the queen 's , and so [I]0-i used to tell [her]405-miss minto when [I]0-i helped to shake it up . [My]0-i mouth watered over it so , that [she]405-miss minto said one day , and [the knife - boy]2562-the knife - boy heard [her]405-miss minto on [the stairs]5744-the stairs , ' [Patty]409-patty , [you]409-patty 've been [a good girl]2564-a good girl to [me]0-i , and [you]409-patty deserves it , and [you]409-patty shall have it , when [I]0-i am tucked up for good and all . ' And so [I]0-i did , very honourable , and all above board . Yes , yes ; [I]0-i had [a commercial gent]2565-a commercial gent one time , [a wonderful heavy man]2566-a wonderful heavy man to be sure , and [he]2565-a commercial gent stayed with [me]0-i three year for the sake of that same bed . And [he]2565-a commercial gent knew what beds was , and no mistake . It was bootiful to see when [he]2565-a commercial gent was a getting up . [It]2567-it began to rise up , up , the same as [Tom]295-tom 's back , when [he]2565-a commercial gent see [your]409-patty dog , [Miss Idols]466-idols . " "[466-idols] Come , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [I]0-i fear [we]2568-we can hardly wait . " "[391-mrs. shelfer] ' Twas like dough put afore the fire , [Miss.]448-miss. There 's no such [Dantzic]98-dantzic now . [You]409-patty could n't put [your]409-patty fist into one side of it , but out it would come the other . [Oh Lor]393-lor , [I]0-i could cry ; [that nasty sly minx]2569-that nasty sly minx , [she]2569-that nasty sly minx was softer than parsnips , [you]409-patty 'd say , and one leg more than the other . [I]0-i could n't think why it was [she]2569-that nasty sly minx would always make [her]2569-that nasty sly minx own bed . ' Thank [you]409-patty , [Mrs. Shelfer'—with]483-mrs. shelfer'—with [her]2569-that nasty sly minx lips sucked in like a button - hole—'thank [you]409-patty , [you]409-patty are too kind . It does n't at all fatigue [me]0-i , and [[my]0-i doctor]2570-my doctor pronounces the exercise good for [my]0-i chest and arms . ' Thank God , [she]2569-that nasty sly minx got some exercise good for [her]2569-that nasty sly minx legs as well . Six months on the treadmill . [Charley]395-charley got [me]0-i an order , and it did [my]0-i heart good to see [her]2569-that nasty sly minx . But [my]0-i twenty pounds of best feathers never came back again , and that was n't the worst of it neither . " "[409-patty] Oh dear no , " says [Idols]466-idols , "[409-patty] the worst of it was the sin , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer . " "[391-mrs. shelfer] The worst of it was that [she]2569-that nasty sly minx stuffed it with sawdust , and oakum , and jovanna , [I]0-i do believe , by the smell of it . " "[2569-that nasty sly minx] What do [you]409-patty mean , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ? " "[409-patty] [Lor]393-lor , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , do n't [you]409-patty know [jovanna]2571-jovanna that [the kingfishers]2572-the kingfishers lays on [the top of [the sea]895-the sea]2573-the top of the sea , and [the gardeners]2575-the gardeners make water with it ? " "[2569-that nasty sly minx] And what did [she]2569-that nasty sly minx do with [your]409-patty feathers ? " "[2569-that nasty sly minx] Sneaked them out of [the house]764-the house in the crown of [her]2569-that nasty sly minx bonnet , and sold them at eightpence a pound , and they worth three and sixpence , every flue of them . But [the rag and bottleman]2577-the rag and bottleman got two months , thank [God]303-god for it . Ah , it will never be a bed again under 5*l . * at least . " "[1798-my good friend] Is it the one [I]0-i sleep on , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ? " "[391-mrs. shelfer] Yes , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , the very same . " "[391-mrs. shelfer] And [you]409-patty have put [me]0-i to sleep on guano ! Well , [I]0-i thought it smelt very odd . " "[0-i] No , no , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , wait a bit . [We]2580-we got most of that out again , and gave it to [[our]2580-we geraniums]2581-our geraniums . [She]2569-that nasty sly minx stole it out of a sack as [Charley]395-charley kept in [the washhouse]2582-the washhouse . There was feathers in it . That put it into [her]2569-that nasty sly minx head , [I]0-i suppose . But as for [your]1798-my good friend going , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , that will never do . Never , never . Will it now , [Miss Idols]466-idols ? And to see [her]2569-that nasty sly minx dress , to be sure , that baggage ! Why , [[my]0-i best tarlatan]2583-my best tarlatan , as dear [Miss Minto]405-miss minto give [me]0-i to be married in , was n't good enough for [her]2569-that nasty sly minx to sweep the stairs in . Sweep the stairs — yes , yes , [she]2569-that nasty sly minx did sweep the stairs when [I]0-i see [her]2569-that nasty sly minx last ; and [she]2569-that nasty sly minx had afore , [I]0-i know ; [she]2569-that nasty sly minx was so clever at it ; and that was why one leg was so much more than the other . " "[391-mrs. shelfer] [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , do [you]391-mrs. shelfer expect [us]2584-us to listen to [you]391-mrs. shelfer all night ? " "[391-mrs. shelfer] True , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , quite true . But when [I]0-i thinks of [my]0-i feathers , something comes over [me]0-i , [I]0-i must out with [my]0-i troubles , or burst . But [you]391-mrs. shelfer musn't go , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence . That will never do , never ; ask [Miss Idols]466-idols now . " And [she]391-mrs. shelfer turned to [Isola]428-isola , who was quite ready to be turned to . "[466-idols] Of course it wo n't , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer . [You]391-mrs. shelfer are quite right , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend . [I]0-i wo n't hear of it for a moment . Why [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer was drunk . [I]0-i know it by the way [he]413-mr. shelfer held [his]413-mr. shelfer pipe . Quite ' drunk and incapable , ' [you]391-mrs. shelfer know . And [he]413-mr. shelfer will be so sorry , and [he]413-mr. shelfer 'll never do it again . And [he]413-mr. shelfer did not mean to be drunk at all , but the frost was very hard , and the cold got into [his]413-mr. shelfer head . [I]0-i am sure it would into [mine]0-i , if [I]0-i had stayed much longer ; and [he]413-mr. shelfer did n't understand brandy - balls , as [we]2587-we do at [College]2416-college — [you]391-mrs. shelfer could not expect it , [you]391-mrs. shelfer know . " The pure good faith of this last was too much for [me]413-mr. shelfer . [I]413-mr. shelfer laughed outright , having [no husband]6791-no husband concerned in it . As for [the dry little woman]6792-the dry little woman , [she]6792-the dry little woman actually cried . [I]413-mr. shelfer had never seen a tear in [her]6792-the dry little woman quick , shy eyes before , though the feather - bed nearly brought them , and so did the death of [the elder Sandy]6793-the elder sandy , the squirrel . [She]6792-the dry little woman turned away . [She]6792-the dry little woman was always ashamed of emotion . "[413-mr. shelfer] Bless [your]391-mrs. shelfer innocent heart , [Miss Idols]466-idols , if [you]391-mrs. shelfer do n't marry [a king]2589-a king ! [Not one of [us]2587-we]2590-not one of us is good enough to tie [your]391-mrs. shelfer shoes as [you]391-mrs. shelfer talked of , [you]391-mrs. shelfer are that simple and good of heart . " Is there any goodness more touching to [a veteran]6794-a veteran than a soft young nature 's disbelief in evil ? But for bitter experience , [I]391-mrs. shelfer might have been sweet as [Isola]428-isola . Thank [God]303-god , that in spite of all vinegar , the ailment is still infectious . [Isola]428-isola could not make it all out . "[391-mrs. shelfer] To - morrow morning , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , " began [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer again , "[423-miss valence] to - morrow morning , after [I]0-i have wigged [him]2591-him well all night , and then given [him]2591-him a good breakfast , [he]2591-him 'll come and beg [your]423-miss valence pardon like [a child]782-a child , and be ashamed to look any higher than [your]423-miss valence flounces ; and [I]0-i know [you]423-miss valence 'll forgive [him]2591-him . " "[423-miss valence] [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [I]0-i have forgiven [him]2591-him long ago . [I]0-i can not bear enmity against [such people"—these]6795-such people"—these last three words had better been away—"for[423-miss valence] such little wrongs . And [I]0-i owe [you]423-miss valence a great deal for all [your]423-miss valence kindness to [me]0-i . The only question is , whether self - respect and prudence allow [me]0-i to stay [here]846-here . [I]0-i will leave the decision to [Miss Isola]428-isola . Young as [she]428-isola is , and innocent and confiding , [she]428-isola can not be wrong on a question of delicacy . As for prudence , [she]428-isola knows more of [London]1-london than [I]0-i do . " Hereon [I]428-isola sat down with a womanly air . But [I]428-isola could hardly help laughing when [the senior sophist]6694-the senior sophist jumped up , proud to deliver judgment . To look taller , [she]6694-the senior sophist shook [her]6694-the senior sophist flounces down , threw back [her]6694-the senior sophist plump white shoulders — [her]6694-the senior sophist bonnet and cloak were off — drew [her]6694-the senior sophist rich flowing hair down the pearly curve of [her]6694-the senior sophist ears and , scarcely satisfied yet , thought of mounting a stool , then took [her]6694-the senior sophist foot off [the too convictive bema]6797-the too convictive bema . After all these anabolisms , [she]6694-the senior sophist began with much solemnity . [She]6694-the senior sophist was thinking of [the College]99-the college , and [[her]6694-the senior sophist father]898-her father in the rostrum . "[428-isola] [Miss Valence]423-miss valence and [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , since [you]2594-you have honoured [my]0-i weak judgment by appointing [me]0-i umpire , and as [I]0-i am led to believe without any right of appeal , [I]0-i will do [my]0-i utmost to be discreet and impartial . In the first place [I]0-i award that [Miss Valence]423-miss valence remain in [this house]5422-this house , forget and forgive [her]423-miss valence wrongs . In the second place [I]0-i recommend ( in such a matter [I]0-i will not presume to command ) that till [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer has made a humble apology and promised faithfully never to be intoxicated again , however cold the weather is , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer shall not permit [him]413-mr. shelfer to have a single kiss , nor a single bit of hot dinner . Now [I]0-i have delivered [my]0-i decree . " "[0-i] [Lor]393-lor , [Miss Idols]466-idols , [you]466-idols are too soft for [the Old Bailey]2596-the old bailey . [He]413-mr. shelfer never kiss [me]0-i , unless it is when [he]413-mr. shelfer knows [I]0-i have got some money . But [he]413-mr. shelfer do like a good hot dinner . Right enough there , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend . " So this knotty point was settled ; and [Giudice]475-giudice , who was very loth to leave [me]1798-my good friend , escorted [Miss Idols]466-idols [home]1102-home , Before going , [he]475-giudice made another solemn deposit of [his]475-giudice great jowl in [my]1798-my good friend hand , and looked at [me]1798-my good friend with an air so tutelary and encouraging , that [I]1798-my good friend could not help laughing ; at which [he]475-giudice felt hurt , but condoned it . [Isola]428-isola told [me]1798-my good friend that when [he]475-giudice was put in charge of [her]428-isola , [he]475-giudice felt the responsibility so strongly that [he]475-giudice would not stir from [her]428-isola side , not even to speak to [the most colloquially gifted dog]6800-the most colloquially gifted dog ; though at other times [he]475-giudice would stay gossiping near a lamp - post for five minutes together . One evening when [he]475-giudice was thus commissioned , [a rude fellow]6801-a rude fellow pushed between [them]6802-them , and said something to [Isola]428-isola . [Giudice]475-giudice had [him]475-giudice down in an instant , and stood over [him]475-giudice , like a tawny thundercloud , with growlings so fearful and such flashing eyes , that [two policemen]6803-two policemen felt it wiser not to act as [conductors]6804-conductors . [Idols]466-idols [herself]466-idols was obliged , at the entreaty of [[her]466-idols prostrate foe]6805-her prostrate foe , to coax the great dog off ; but when [the ungrateful man]6806-the ungrateful man got up , [he]6806-the ungrateful man insisted on giving [Giudice]475-giudice into charge , and having [him]475-giudice dragged to [the Station]2317-the station . "[1798-my good friend] Very good , [Sir]5380-sir , " said [the policeman]6808-the policeman , "[1798-my good friend] [we]2599-we 'll enter the charge when [you]5380-sir bring [him]2600-him [there]1114-there ; let [him]2600-him go , [Miss]2602-miss , for [the Gent]2603-the gent to collar [him]2600-him . " [The "[2603-the gent] Gent "]6809-the " gent " was away in no time , and [Giudice]475-giudice and [[his]475-giudice mistress]5962-his mistress walked off amid loud hurrahs from [all the boys of [the neighbourhood]5329-the neighbourhood]6811-all the boys of the neighbourhood . [Conrad]427-conrad called with [[his]427-conrad sister]2443-his sister the day after [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer 's ducking , to reassure [himself]427-conrad as to [my]2606-little woman nerves , which were never better . [He]427-conrad looked over some of [my]2606-little woman drawings , and without seeming to give , but rather to seek information , afforded [me]2606-little woman many a hint , which [I]2606-little woman afterwards found most useful . [I]2606-little woman now learned what [his]427-conrad profession was ; and it gave [me]2606-little woman pleasure to find that [he]427-conrad was not , as [I]2606-little woman had feared , [a mere lounger upon [town]1829-town]6814-a mere lounger upon town . Instead of that , [he]427-conrad was working very hard , being ( as [he]427-conrad told [me]2606-little woman ) nothing more or less than [a journeyman sculptor]6816-a journeyman sculptor . Though , as [himself]427-conrad admitted , by no means [a novice]6817-a novice , [he]427-conrad was going through the regular course of study and hand - labour under [an eminent artist]6818-an eminent artist . But [Isola]428-isola told [me]2606-little woman , and no doubt it was true , that [he]427-conrad could beat [[his]427-conrad master]827-his master out and out , and that for any choice design , where original power and taste were needed , [they]6820-they always came to [him]427-conrad . Of late the frosts had lightened [his]427-conrad tasks ; for warm [the room]823-the room as [they]6820-they would , the weather always affected the material ; and [they]6820-they feared to attempt the more delicate parts of the work during the rigours of winter . So when the thaw came , [he]427-conrad must lose the pleasure of seeing [me]2606-little woman for a while , unless [dear Isola]428-isola wished to be escorted [home]1102-home on a Sunday ; if , indeed , [I]2606-little woman allowed [her]428-isola to come on that day . Why , that was the very day when [I]2606-little woman could best indulge in a walk with [[my]2606-little woman gentle friend]6823-my gentle friend , after going to [church]1429-church ; and [I]2606-little woman was sure [her]428-isola society did [me]2606-little woman more good than the sermons . On [her]428-isola part , [Isola]428-isola found that the services always made [her]428-isola so nervous ( [her]428-isola nerves were as good as mine ) , and that [she]428-isola did not much like walking about with a big dog on Sundays , and [Cora]429-cora was always cross all the day after mass , so [Conrad]427-conrad must promise upon [his]427-conrad honour always to come for [her]428-isola , rain , hail , or shine , on a Sunday . This [he]427-conrad promised so readily , that , for a moment , [I]2606-little woman fancied it had all been preconcerted . Then [I]2606-little woman despised [myself]2606-little woman for the suspicion . The trick would have been not out of the compass of [Isola]428-isola , but very unworthy of [Conrad]427-conrad . Soon as ever [my]2606-little woman sight was fully restored , and [I]2606-little woman had [Dr. Frank]484-dr. frank 's permission , [I]2606-little woman took to [my]2606-little woman drawing again , and worked at it till [my]2606-little woman eyes ached . This was the symptom upon which [I]2606-little woman had promised immediately to leave off . Then out [I]2606-little woman would rush , towards dusk , and away into [the great square]6299-the great square , full of the pure air of heaven , round by [the church]1351-the church at the top , and six times round [it]6299-the great square till [my]2606-little woman breath was short . [The senior sophist]6694-the senior sophist reminds [me]2606-little woman that round a square is impossible . After squaring the circle , extract the square root , [dear Idols]466-idols , by the binomial theorem . [You]466-idols do learn so much at college : but [I]2606-little woman write simple and often foolish English . Never mind ; [I]2606-little woman would rather write bad English , than the best French ever written . One is the tongue of power and multitude : the other the language of nicety and demarcation . Which of the two is the more expansive , even [a woman]5830-a woman may guess . High time it was for [me]2606-little woman to recruit [[my]2606-little woman exchequer]6829-my exchequer . [Dr. Franks]462-dr. franks had charged [me]2606-little woman far less than [I]2606-little woman even dared to hope . How [I]2606-little woman trembled when [I]2606-little woman opened the envelope ! What quick terror is half so bad as the slow fear of gathering debt ? [I]2606-little woman was accustomed to medical charges of the time when [I]2606-little woman was [an heiress]6830-an heiress : but [his]462-dr. franks appeared to [me]2606-little woman now to be even below reason . The sum could hardly have paid [him]462-dr. franks for [his]462-dr. franks numerous walks to and fro . Then a wretched idea shot through [me]2606-little woman : had [he]462-dr. franks charged [me]2606-little woman so little , because [he]462-dr. franks knew [I]2606-little woman was poor ? [I]2606-little woman took [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer into [my]2606-little woman confidence ; [she]391-mrs. shelfer was likely to know what the [London]1-london scale should be . The little thing soon reassured [me]2606-little woman : it was quite enough , [she]391-mrs. shelfer declared ; if [she]391-mrs. shelfer were in [[my]2606-little woman place]6831-my place , [she]391-mrs. shelfer would demand a discount for ready money ! "[2606-little woman] Oh [[you]2604-you dreadfully mean [little woman]2606-little woman]2605-you dreadfully mean little woman ! [I]0-i should lose [my]0-i sight , and deserve it , if [I]0-i did . " However , in spite of all this , money was scarce and scarcer every day , and none of [my]0-i grand revenues would fall due for ever so long . So another visit must be paid to [Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall . [Isola]428-isola insisted on coming with [me]0-i ; to [my]0-i surprise [I]0-i found that , with all [her]428-isola soft simplicity [she]428-isola had much more idea of making a market than [I]0-i had . The reason probably was that [she]428-isola had much less pride . No pocket would hold mine , when [a tradesman]6832-a tradesman attempted any familiarity . [And whoso stands on a pedestal to sell]6833-and whoso stands on a pedestal to sell , is like to find [the buyer]6834-the buyer 's arm too short . Whether it were that , or the golden charm of [her]428-isola manner , or of something else , let [Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall say ; certain it is that [the man of crackly canvas]6835-the man of crackly canvas ( for whom , by - the - bye , [I]0-i have a sincere respect , because [he]422-mr. oxgall cheated [me]0-i so little and so [neatly)—this man]6836-neatly)—this man , [I]0-i say , regarded [her]428-isola with a wide - mouthed , brooch - eyed , admiration , which [he]422-mr. oxgall hardly ever expended on anything out of oils . For [the king of painters]6837-the king of painters [himself]6837-the king of painters [she]428-isola was a vision sweeter than dreams of heaven . Such a tint in [her]428-isola lustrous eyes , such tone in [her]428-isola dainty cheeks , such perfection of line in [her]428-isola features , and every curve of [her]428-isola exquisite shape . And bounding and sparkling through all , from the rippled wealth of [her]428-isola hair to the light - curved arch of [her]428-isola foot , the full play of [her]428-isola innocent , joyous , loving life . No wonder [the picture - dealer]6268-the picture - dealer shaded [his]6268-the picture - dealer eyes and gazed , and rubbed them and gazed again . [I]0-i have frequently seen [respectable elderly gentlemen , whose rakishness has never been more than found vent in the cock of a hat]6839-respectable elderly gentlemen , whose rakishness has never been more than found vent in the cock of a hat , [[magisterial men]6840-magisterial men]6840-magisterial men [I]0-i mean , who would no more think of insulting [a girl in [London]1-london]6842-a girl in london or anywhere else , than of giving [[their]6839-respectable elderly gentlemen , whose rakishness has never been more than found vent in the cock of a hat daughters]6843-their daughters as prizes for competitive skill in poaching , [such good men]6844-such good men and [true]6845-true , also [simple - hearted clergymen]6846-simple - hearted clergymen ( for some there still are from [the country]1831-the country ) these and the like , [I]0-i Clara [Vaughan]293-clara have seen , when [they]6839-respectable elderly gentlemen , whose rakishness has never been more than found vent in the cock of a hat met [[my]0-i [Isola]428-isola]2446-my isola , stop short , wink frequently , and without much presence of mind , until [she]428-isola was gone by ; then shumble hotly across [the street]6090-the street , with hands in [their]6839-respectable elderly gentlemen , whose rakishness has never been more than found vent in the cock of a hat tail - coat pockets ( for [these gentlemen]6850-these gentlemen always expect most to be robbed when there is least chance of it ) pretend to look at [a shop]6851-a shop , then march at top speed , fumbling all the while for [their]6839-respectable elderly gentlemen , whose rakishness has never been more than found vent in the cock of a hat spectacles , until [they]6839-respectable elderly gentlemen , whose rakishness has never been more than found vent in the cock of a hat got well a - head of [us]6852-us . Then [I]0-i have seen [them]6839-respectable elderly gentlemen , whose rakishness has never been more than found vent in the cock of a hat cross again , some thirty yards in front , with spectacles nicely adjusted , and become again wholly absorbed by the beauty of metropolitan goods . But when the light foot sounded , from a fair gazing distance , [these same gentlemen]6853-these same gentlemen have ( by some strange coincidence ) alway turned full upon [us]6852-us , in an absent and yet nervous manner , and focussed [their]6853-these same gentlemen green or pale blue eyes upon the rich violet orbs of [Isola]428-isola . [I]0-i have even known [them]6853-these same gentlemen to look at [me]0-i ( when [they]6853-these same gentlemen could see [her]428-isola no more ) , to find some sympathy for [their]6853-these same gentlemen vague emotions . [Idols]466-idols knew it : of course [she]428-isola did . And [she]428-isola rather gloried in it . [She]428-isola had much respect for [a fine old gentleman]6854-a fine old gentleman ; and [I]0-i know not how it was , but [nobody]1116-nobody ever thought of insulting [her]428-isola when [she]428-isola could be clearly seen . A "[0-i] pretty girl " [you]6856-your would never call [her]428-isola — though [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer did — the term would be quite unworthy ; even [a "[0-i] beautiful girl]6857-a " beautiful girl , " sweetly beautiful though [she]428-isola was , would hardly be [your]6856-your expression , at least for a while . But [a "[0-i] lovely girl]6858-a " lovely girl , " and [the loveliest one ever seen]6859-the loveliest one ever seen , that is what [she]428-isola would be called at once , if [you]6856-your could take [your]6856-your eyes off , to analyse [your]6856-your ideas . [Isola]428-isola knew it of course , as [I]0-i said before , [she]428-isola knew all [her]428-isola wondrous gifts ; but as for being conceited , [a trull with a splay foot and a crop of short - horn carrots]6860-a trull with a splay foot and a crop of short - horn carrots has often thrice [her]428-isola conceit . A certain pretty graceful pride [she]428-isola had , which threw a rosy playful halo round [her]428-isola , but never made [other women]1538-other women look plain in [her]428-isola eyes . [She]428-isola will not value [her]428-isola beauty much , until [she]428-isola falls in love ; and blessed is [he]6862-he who shall be the object , if [she]428-isola is allowed to abide with [him]6862-he . [Meanwhile Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall wished for nothing but to hear and see [her]428-isola talk ; and this [she]428-isola did to some purpose . [I]0-i like [a man who at the age of sixty is still impressible to the gay vein of youth]6863-a man who at the age of sixty is still impressible to the gay vein of youth . [I]0-i know at once by [his]6863-a man who at the age of sixty is still impressible to the gay vein of youth eyes whether [his]6863-a man who at the age of sixty is still impressible to the gay vein of youth admiration is abstract and admissible . If it be , [I]0-i reciprocate it . What clearer proof can [we]6864-we find , that [his]6863-a man who at the age of sixty is still impressible to the gay vein of youth heart has not withered with [his]6863-a man who at the age of sixty is still impressible to the gay vein of youth body ; that [he]6863-a man who at the age of sixty is still impressible to the gay vein of youth is [not a man of mammon , tinsel , or phylactery,—in a word , no mummy]6865-not a man of mammon , tinsel , or phylactery,—in a word , no mummy ? Shall [I]0-i ever finish this bargain ? [I]0-i have never been so reflective before ; and all the time no less a sum than five pounds hangs upon it . Five guineas ( which sounds better ) was the amount at which dear [Idols]466-idols let off [Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall . [I]0-i believe [she]428-isola might have got ten , but [she]428-isola had an excellent conscience . It worked like a patent chronometer , with compensation balance . [Mine]0-i was still more sensitive . [I]0-i could hardly think [[my]0-i landscape]6405-my landscape , perspective mare 's nest and all , worth that amount of money , and [I]0-i wished to throw off a guinea , but [Idols]466-idols would not hear of it . "[0-i] [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , [I]0-i am [your]423-miss valence factor for this beautiful landscape , which has cost [you]423-miss valence so much labour . Either accept [my]0-i terms , inadequate as they are , or take the agency from [me]0-i , and recommence with [Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall ' de novo , ' as [we]2607-we say at College . " Betwixt [her]428-isola beauty and [my]422-mr. oxgall stately integrity , [poor Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall knew not where [he]422-mr. oxgall stood . [I]422-mr. oxgall heard [him]422-mr. oxgall mutter that [he]422-mr. oxgall would rather go through fifty auctions , even if it was [George Robins]485-george robins . But if [she]428-isola had come to sell [him]422-mr. oxgall a picture the very next day , [he]422-mr. oxgall would have gone through it all again with the same infatuation . So [I]422-mr. oxgall took the money ; and now [my]422-mr. oxgall evil demon , who had chafed beneath all this trampling , had [his]422-mr. oxgall turn again . [We]2607-we had foolishly brought the great dog [Giudice]475-giudice , for [our]2607-we delight and the expansion of [his]475-giudice mind . In [[Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall 's shop]6867-mr. oxgall 's shop [he]475-giudice behaved to admiration . With the air of [a connoisseur]6868-a connoisseur [he]475-giudice walked from picture to picture , closed one eye , and faintly wagged [his]475-giudice tail . Then [he]475-giudice found a Scotch terrier scarcely worth a sniff , and a mastiff whom [he]475-giudice saluted with a contemptuous growl . The only work of high art [he]475-giudice could discover was an interior , with a flitch of bacon in the foreground uncommonly well drawn . Before this [he]475-giudice sat down , and receiving no invitation , bedewed the boards with a stalactite from either side of [his]475-giudice mouth . The dog was so well behaved , [he]475-giudice never took anything without leave and saying t a long grace . [Unluckily Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall , mainly [I]422-mr. oxgall believe to prolong [his]475-giudice interview with [Idols]466-idols , insisted upon taking [us]2607-we to [the shop of [a carver and gilder close by]6870-a carver and gilder close by]6869-the shop of a carver and gilder close by ; where [my]422-mr. oxgall first drawing ( which had been sold ) was to be seen in its frame . [He]475-giudice declared that [we]2607-we could not tell what a painting was like , until [we]2607-we had seen it framed . Observing several large mirrors in [this shop]6871-this shop , [I]422-mr. oxgall begged that [Giudice]475-giudice might be left outside . And so [he]475-giudice was , but [he]475-giudice did not stay there . Scarcely had [we]2607-we begun to discuss the effect of the frame on [my]422-mr. oxgall drawing , when [Giudice]475-giudice pushed [his]475-giudice way in , and looked about with a truly judicial air . [The shop]2038-the shop was long , and [the owner]6873-the owner was with [us]2607-we at the further end . [I]422-mr. oxgall saw what would follow , and dashed off to stop [him]6873-the owner , but it was too late . [Giudice]475-giudice had seen the very finest dog [he]475-giudice ever beheld in [his]475-giudice life — a dog really worth fighting . Up went [his]475-giudice crest and [his]475-giudice tail , one savage growl , and [he]475-giudice sprang at [him]475-giudice . Crash,—and the largest mirror there was a wreck , and [Giudice]475-giudice the rock beneath it . For a time [he]475-giudice lay quite stunned ; then to [my]422-mr. oxgall great delight [he]475-giudice staggered to [me]422-mr. oxgall , not [Isola]428-isola , laid [his]475-giudice cut paws in [my]422-mr. oxgall hands and [his]475-giudice bleeding nose in [my]422-mr. oxgall lap , and explained it all to [me]422-mr. oxgall with much entreaty for sympathy . This [I]422-mr. oxgall gave [him]475-giudice readily , even to tears and kisses . [Isola]428-isola wanted to scold and even to beat [him]475-giudice , but [I]422-mr. oxgall would not hear of it . [He]475-giudice had seen another great dog between [himself]475-giudice and [us]6874-us , how could [he]475-giudice help attacking [him]475-giudice ? [I]422-mr. oxgall ordered a sponge and some water at once , and bathed [his]475-giudice fore paws , which were terribly cut ; then remembering [the Inspector]1959-the inspector , [I]422-mr. oxgall sent [Idols]466-idols for some arnica . But the blood was not stanched by it as [I]422-mr. oxgall expected ; perhaps the drug was not pure , or the hair obstructed its action . So [I]422-mr. oxgall held [his]475-giudice paws in the basin , and [he]475-giudice whinged , and licked [me]422-mr. oxgall , and made [my]422-mr. oxgall face all bloody . Meanwhile [the poor carver and gilder]6876-the poor carver and gilder thought much more of [his]475-giudice looking - glass than of noble flesh and blood . [The picture - dealer]6268-the picture - dealer as well was in a great predicament . "[422-mr. oxgall] [Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall , " [I]422-mr. oxgall cried , still sponging the wounded dog 's nose , "[422-mr. oxgall] let [us]2608-us hear no more about it . Tell [me]0-i the full value of the mirror , and [I]0-i will pay for it . What are glass and quicksilver , or even gold , compared to a noble dog like this ? Not worth a wag of [your]422-mr. oxgall tail , are they , [my]0-i duck of diamonds ? Give [me]0-i another kiss , [you]422-mr. oxgall delicious pet of a dog . " The delicious dog was entirely of [my]422-mr. oxgall opinion . [His]475-giudice beautiful eyes were unhurt . [His]475-giudice nose tasted wholesomely salt . But [Isola]428-isola was not half so romantic . Little [she]428-isola cared about money for [herself]428-isola ; yet [she]428-isola had no idea of seeing [a friend]6544-a friend disburse . Empowered by nature to wind [all men]951-all men round [her]428-isola finger , [she]428-isola now called art to [her]428-isola aid , and [Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall , who was half - way round already , had no chance of escape . [She]428-isola settled it thus : [the carver and gilder]6880-the carver and gilder , in consideration of [his]422-mr. oxgall dealings with [Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall and [his]422-mr. oxgall own "[422-mr. oxgall] careless exposure " of the mirror , should accept cost price for the article . That amount should be paid in equal shares by [all three of [us]6881-all three of us]6881-all three of us : by [Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall because [he]422-mr. oxgall would drag [us]6881-all three of us thither , by [herself]428-isola as [the mistress of the dog]6882-the mistress of the dog , and by [me]422-mr. oxgall as the cause of the expedition . [She]428-isola had attended a course of lectures upon jurisprudence , and [her]428-isola decision was better than that of [a judge]6883-a judge , because [she]428-isola had seen the whole of it , and because the dog was [hers]428-isola — at least [[her]428-isola brother]6430-her brother 's , which was all the same . As for [the owner of the mirror]6885-the owner of the mirror , [he]6885-the owner of the mirror must think [himself]6885-the owner of the mirror wonderfully lucky in having met with [such honest people]6886-such honest people , and in having sold [his]6885-the owner of the mirror glass , and had n't [he]6885-the owner of the mirror got all the pieces , and [she]428-isola must have the largest one for [Judy]477-judy to dress [his]6885-the owner of the mirror hair by . And so indeed [she]428-isola did . After [[our]6887-our dear]6888-our dear [Portia]486-portia had finished , and the whole thing was settled , it struck [me]422-mr. oxgall that no lectures upon jurisprudence could turn wrong into right . [Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall was quite blameless , so was [I]422-mr. oxgall , so was [Idols]466-idols , except in bringing [unlucky Giudice]475-giudice with [her]428-isola , which , from the outset , [I]422-mr. oxgall had discouraged . [She]428-isola , as [the temporary owner of the dog]6889-the temporary owner of the dog , should have borne all the loss ; and so [she]428-isola would have done gladly , only [she]428-isola did not see it in that light . As it was , [she]428-isola tried afterwards to force upon [me]422-mr. oxgall [her]428-isola last three guineas ( that being the sum which [I]422-mr. oxgall had paid , as [my]422-mr. oxgall third of the whole ) , but of course [I]422-mr. oxgall would not accept them . [She]428-isola had no money with [her]428-isola , so [I]422-mr. oxgall paid [her]428-isola contribution , but allowed [her]428-isola to repay [me]422-mr. oxgall . [Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall 's third [I]422-mr. oxgall made good to [him]422-mr. oxgall ( without consulting [her]428-isola ) when [he]422-mr. oxgall paid [me]422-mr. oxgall for [my]422-mr. oxgall next drawing . So [I]422-mr. oxgall had earned five guineas , and lost six . Is it always to be so when [I]422-mr. oxgall labour to make a little money ? At [my]422-mr. oxgall earnest entreaty — [Idols]466-idols could refuse [me]422-mr. oxgall nothing , when [I]422-mr. oxgall was in earnest — [darling Giudice]475-giudice was brought [home]1102-home in [a cab]2021-a cab to [[my]422-mr. oxgall lodgings]6270-my lodgings . [I]422-mr. oxgall knew that [he]422-mr. oxgall would not be cared for at [the stables where [he]422-mr. oxgall was boarded]6893-the stables where he was boarded ; and [his]422-mr. oxgall wounds were very serious . As for [home]1102-home , [Professor Ross]430-professor ross , who detested dogs in general , would not admit [him]422-mr. oxgall into [the house]764-the house . [He]430-professor ross even thought it a great stretch of grace to allow [old Cora]429-cora to watch the dog back to [the stables]6896-the stables , after [he]430-professor ross had been patrolling all the afternoon with [[his]430-professor ross mistress]5962-his mistress . How [I]422-mr. oxgall hate such low ingratitude ! An animal is to serve [us]6898-we , body and soul , to crouch and fawn for [our]6898-we notice — not that [Giudice]475-giudice ever fawned to [him]422-mr. oxgall , but growled awfully — and [we]6898-we are to think it well off with a curse or a kick , which [we]6898-we durst not give it but for its loyalty to [us]6898-we . What pleasure [I]422-mr. oxgall had in nursing [that poor Giudice]6899-that poor giudice , and how grateful [he]6899-that poor giudice was ! When [we]6898-we got [home]1102-home , [I]422-mr. oxgall washed [his]6899-that poor giudice wounds again , with warm water this time , as the bleeding was stanched ; and then [I]422-mr. oxgall "[422-mr. oxgall] exhibited " ( as [the doctors]6901-the doctors absurdly say ) [a little friar]6902-a little friar 's balsam . "[428-isola] Oh , it does smart so ! " [Giudice]475-giudice exclaimed with [his]475-giudice eyes , "[428-isola] but [I]0-i know it 's for the best , and [you]2609-you wo n't see [me]0-i give one wince . " Neither did [I.]422-mr. oxgall Then a nice soft bandage over [his]6899-that poor giudice lovely paws , and a plaister across [his]6899-that poor giudice nose , and [he]6899-that poor giudice lies snugly , at the proper distance from the fire , as proud as possible of being nursed , and with an interesting air of pallid refinement on [his]6899-that poor giudice features . [He]6899-that poor giudice will hardly notice [Idols]466-idols , but exclaims , at length , with the petulance of [an invalid]6903-an invalid , "[2609-you] [Isola]428-isola , ca n't [you]428-isola let [me]0-i alone ? [Clara]293-clara understands a dog , and [I]0-i like [her]293-clara much the best . " So [he]6899-that poor giudice followed [me]293-clara all round [the room]823-the room with [his]6899-that poor giudice eyes , and begged [me]293-clara to come and talk to [him]6899-that poor giudice , which [I]293-clara would not do , because [he]6899-that poor giudice needed quiet and composure . [Beloved Giudice]475-giudice remained many days under [my]293-clara care , until [he]6899-that poor giudice became convinced that [he]6899-that poor giudice was [my]293-clara dog absolutely , and had no claim on [any other human being]6905-any other human being . [He]6899-that poor giudice more than paid for [his]6899-that poor giudice board and medical attendance , by sitting repeatedly for [his]6899-that poor giudice portrait ; in which at last [I]293-clara succeeded to [his]6899-that poor giudice and [my]293-clara own satisfaction . Though by no means a conceited dog , there was nothing [he]6899-that poor giudice loved better than having [his]6899-that poor giudice likeness taken ; and directly after breakfast [he]6899-that poor giudice always assumed the most becoming attitude , and watched intently for the appearance of the pencil with [his]6899-that poor giudice massive head a little on one side , and [his]6899-that poor giudice dark brown eyes full of dignified interest , and [his]6899-that poor giudice great ears curving down through russet tufts , like tawny cascades in autumn , [he]6899-that poor giudice seemed fit study for [a real artist , who should quicken as well as copy]6906-a real artist , who should quicken as well as copy [him]6899-that poor giudice . However , [he]6899-that poor giudice was too much of [a gentleman]5462-a gentleman to sneer at [my]293-clara weak efforts , for [he]6899-that poor giudice saw that [I]293-clara did [my]293-clara best . Oftentimes [he]6899-that poor giudice would gaze steadfastly at the portrait and then at [me]293-clara , and hobble up , and nudge [me]293-clara , and whine , a little , and then sigh in self - abasement at [his]6899-that poor giudice want of speech . Whenever [he]6899-that poor giudice did this , [I]293-clara knew that [he]6899-that poor giudice wished to have something altered ; but it was long before [I]293-clara could discover what that something was . [I]293-clara tried every change of line or colour that [I]293-clara could think of — all to no purpose . At length it struck [me]293-clara that as [he]6899-that poor giudice criticised more with nose than eyes , the defect must be in the smell . Happy idea ! [I]293-clara satisfied [my]293-clara Giudice at last , and did it thus . After shading around the nose and mouth , before laying on the colour , [I]293-clara took a clean dry brush , and passed it lightly round the hollows of [his]6899-that poor giudice own sweet saltish nostrils , carefully avoiding the cut ; then one turn of the brush , not on the palette , but on a dry square of colour , and with that [I]293-clara expressed the dear dog 's nose so well , that [he]6899-that poor giudice would have spoiled it in a sniffing ecstasy , if [I]293-clara had not pulled it away . [His]6899-that poor giudice portrait now possessed the life which [he]6899-that poor giudice required . Meanwhile [I]293-clara received almost daily visits from [Isola]428-isola and [[her]428-isola brother]6430-her brother ; [the latter]907-the latter was , of course , very anxious about [his]6899-that poor giudice poor dog , and could only relieve that anxiety by long interviews with [him]6899-that poor giudice . It happened strangely enough , yet more and more often as time went on , that [Isola]428-isola during these interviews felt an especial desire for [[Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's society]6910-mrs. shelfer 's society , which [she]428-isola could only enjoy by betaking [herself]428-isola to [the kitchen]5526-the kitchen . There , with all the pets , except [old Tom]295-tom , who was constancy itself , and the lame blackbird who was all gratitude , [her]428-isola influence began to supersede [mine]293-clara , and even [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's ; for this [I]293-clara cared but little , so long as [Giudice]475-giudice kept to [me]293-clara . Over that great dog , as [he]6899-that poor giudice turned upon [his]6899-that poor giudice side , and lifted one hind leg ( the canine mode of showing submission to the will of [God]303-god ) , over [him]6899-that poor giudice [we]6912-we bent , [Conrad]427-conrad and [I]293-clara , in most interesting diagnosis , until it seemed the proper thing that [our]6912-we hair should flow together , and [our]6912-we breath make one soft breeze . From this position [we]6912-we would rise with a conscious colour in [our]6912-we cheeks , and a flutter at the heart , and a certain awe of [one another]758-one another . Then it would be ever so long before [either of [us]6912-we]6914-either of us dared to seek the other 's eyes . [Haply]487-haply when those eyes were met — unwitting yet inevitably — [they]6915-they would drop , or turn away , or find some new attraction in the dog or clouds . Then some weak remark would follow , for which [the hearer]6916-the hearer cared no whit , yet feigned deep interest therein . Why labour thus to cheat [ourselves]6912-we — each other [we]6912-we can not cheat — why feel [we]6912-we so confused and guilty , why long so heartily to be a hundred leagues away , yet knowing thoroughly that , if it were so , all the space between were void and heartache ? The reason neither [we]6912-we nor [other mortal]6917-other mortal knows ; the cause is this , that [we]6912-we love [one another]758-one another . [I]293-clara have felt that it must be so , at least on [my]293-clara part , ever since the day [he]6919-he came with [Isola]428-isola , and knew [me]293-clara not , though [I]293-clara knew [him]6919-he so well . Does [he]6919-he know [me]293-clara now as [the Clara Vaughan whom [he]6919-he once avoided]6920-the clara vaughan whom he once avoided ? These eyelashes are as long and dark as ever ; the large eyes , shaded by them , are as deep a gray as twilight in a grove of willows . [My]293-clara cheeks have regained their curve , [my]293-clara hair was never injured ; let [me]293-clara hie to the glass now [he]6919-he is gone , and see if [I]293-clara be like [myself]293-clara , and whether [I]293-clara have face and form likely to win [Conrad]427-conrad 's love . No , [I]293-clara am not like [myself]293-clara . No wonder [he]6919-he does not know [me]293-clara . The gloom habitual to [my]293-clara face is gone . It is the difference betwixt [a cavern well]6921-a cavern well and [a sunny fountain]6922-a sunny fountain . [I]293-clara see [a laughing graceful girl , with high birth marked in every vein , and self - respect in every motion]6923-a laughing graceful girl , with high birth marked in every vein , and self - respect in every motion ; [her]6923-a laughing graceful girl , with high birth marked in every vein , and self - respect in every motion clear cheeks glowing with soft wonder , [her]6923-a laughing graceful girl , with high birth marked in every vein , and self - respect in every motion red lips parted with delight , [her]6923-a laughing graceful girl , with high birth marked in every vein , and self - respect in every motion arching neck and shoulder curve gleaming through a night of tresses , [her]6923-a laughing graceful girl , with high birth marked in every vein , and self - respect in every motion forehead calm and thoughtful still , half - belying the bright eyes where love and pleasure sparkle . For a moment self - approval heightens the expression . At [my]293-clara silly self [my]293-clara foolish self is smiling ; but the smile has warmer source than [maiden]6623-maiden 's light conceit . [I]293-clara smile because [I]293-clara see that , as regards exterior , [he]6919-he who slights [me]293-clara must be hard to please ; and [some one , whom [I]293-clara think of]6925-some one , whom i think of , is not hard to please . Straight upon the thought of [him]6919-he — Ah well . [[My]293-clara father]731-my father used to quote from the "[293-clara] Hero and [Leander]488-leander " a beautiful verse , which neither [he]731-my father nor any other could in English render duly , [ Greek : Aidoûs hyròn éreuphos apostazousa prosôpou.]—v . 173 . "[293-clara] Showering from [her]2610-her cheek the flowing carmine of [her]2610-her shame . " But when [Conrad]427-conrad should have learned who it was that nursed [his]427-conrad dog , would [he]427-conrad feel the tender gratitude and delight which [he]427-conrad now displayed so freely ? Would [he]427-conrad say , as in [his]427-conrad fervour [he]427-conrad now said every day , "[293-clara] [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , [I]0-i do believe there is [no one like [you]423-miss valence in [the world]798-the world]2611-no one like you in the world ! " Would [he]427-conrad not rather say , "[293-clara] [Miss Vaughan]293-clara , how basely [you]423-miss valence have deceived [me]0-i ! [Giudice]475-giudice , come away ! " A whistle and the last sound of the foot , for which [I]475-giudice listened now by the hour . This thought was continually with [me]475-giudice . It poisoned half the flavour and ruined all the digestion of [my]475-giudice happy moments . But what could [I]475-giudice do ? How unmaidenly , how presumptuous of [me]475-giudice to imagine that [he]427-conrad was likely to break [his]427-conrad heart for [me]475-giudice ! And if [he]427-conrad did — why then [he]427-conrad should break [my]475-giudice own as well . [I]475-giudice am not one of [the drawing - room young ladies]6927-the drawing - room young ladies , who receive a modified proposal every Sunday afternoon , and think much more about the sermon afterwards . [I]475-giudice can not play with the daffodils upon the brink of love , sleepily thrusting [[my]475-giudice admirers]6928-my admirers in , and lounging with half - open breast , which neither love - knots may secure , nor fluttering sighs unzone . No , here [I]475-giudice am , such as [I]475-giudice am , such as [God]303-god has made [me]475-giudice . No usury , no auction for [my]475-giudice heart : once for all [I]475-giudice give it , and [my]475-giudice life goes with it . So it must always be with [a girl of any feeling]6929-a girl of any feeling , who has trained [her]6929-a girl of any feeling own existence . But for [my]475-giudice wild ignorance , [I]475-giudice would dare to say — so it must be always with [a girl of feeling]6930-a girl of feeling , twist and warp [her]6929-a girl of any feeling as [you]6931-you will . Yet [I]475-giudice am told , by those who know [the world]798-the world , that it is not so with [nine girls out of ten among [the lady caste]6934-the lady caste]6933-nine girls out of ten among the lady caste . If , beneath the roc of fashion , [they]6933-nine girls out of ten among the lady caste prefer the diamond to the meat , let [them]6933-nine girls out of ten among the lady caste have it , and starve thereon . The choice is of [their]6933-nine girls out of ten among the lady caste own young crops . [No parent bird]6935-no parent bird can force the bauble down . But what have [I]475-giudice to do with this ? All [I]475-giudice know is that neither [I]475-giudice , nor [any child of [mine]475-giudice]6936-any child of mine , will or shall be gulleted thus for life . After every little burst of thought , every feeble sally of imagination , came ( as always is the case with [me]475-giudice ) came the slow pusillanimous reaction . All that [I]475-giudice had any right to do was to paint , earn money , and be off for [Italy]63-italy . Little as [I]475-giudice knew about the expense of travelling , [I]475-giudice felt sure that it would be vain to start with less than a hundred pounds . Enormous sum ! How could [I]475-giudice ever hope to win it , though [I]475-giudice painted day and night , and lived on bread and water . To this diet , or what in [London]1-london is quite synonymous , bread and milk , [I]475-giudice had already reduced [myself]475-giudice , in [my]475-giudice stern resolve to lay by two pounds every week . Farewell to meat , so soon as [my]475-giudice [Devonshire]4-devonshire "[475-giudice] pegmate " was gone , and farewell to what [I]475-giudice cared much more about , a glass of good [London]1-london stout . [I]475-giudice suppose there is something horribly "[475-giudice] vulgar " in [my]475-giudice tastes , for [I]475-giudice will confess that the liquid called "[475-giudice] black draught " by [Mr. Dawe]334-beany dawe had much charm for [me]475-giudice . However , [I]475-giudice abjured it with all other luxuries , and throve no whit the worse . [The kindly little woman]6937-the kindly little woman , whose summum bonum ( next to [her]6937-the kindly little woman "[475-giudice] sticks " ) was plenty of good fare , took it much to heart that [I]475-giudice should live so plainly . "[475-giudice] Why , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , [you]423-miss valence are [the queerest young lady as ever [I]0-i set eyes on]2613-the queerest young lady as ever i set eyes on . All as ever [I]0-i see , and [I]0-i 've see'd [a many]2614-a many , [they]2614-a many picks a little bit so dainty , like a canary cracking a hemp seed when [the gentlemen]2615-the gentlemen is by : then off [they]2614-a many goes when there 's [nobody]1116-nobody looking , and munches like so many pigs in a potato bury . [Miss Violante]489-miss violante [you]423-miss valence know . But as for [you]423-miss valence , why bless [me]0-i and keep [me]0-i , [you]423-miss valence feeds that great horse of a dog with all the fat of [the land]1188-the land , and [you]423-miss valence lives on a crust [yourself]423-miss valence . Now do come down , that 's [a good soul]2618-a good soul ; there 's a clod of beef a - biling with suet dumplings , and [such lovely parsnips]2619-such lovely parsnips , [you]423-miss valence can smell it all up the stairs , galloping , galloping , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , and [that rogue of a Charley]2621-that rogue of a charley wo n't come [home]1102-home [I]0-i know , [he]2621-that rogue of a charley 's got along with [that thief [Bob Ridley]482-bob]2623-that thief bob ridley ; and [I]0-i expects [the boy]1121-the boy every minute with a little drop of stout , and the best pewter pot for [you]423-miss valence . Now if [you]423-miss valence wo n't come down , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , [my]0-i dinner will all stick in [my]0-i throat , and [I]0-i am so hungry . " "[0-i] So am [I]0-i , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [you]391-mrs. shelfer have made [me]0-i so . " In [her]391-mrs. shelfer excitement , [she]391-mrs. shelfer slipped from the edge of the chair , whereon [she]391-mrs. shelfer always balanced [herself]391-mrs. shelfer when [I]391-mrs. shelfer made [her]391-mrs. shelfer sit down . [She]391-mrs. shelfer thought it disrespectful to occupy too much room , and cuddled [herself]391-mrs. shelfer in the smallest compass possible . Let no ill be thought of [Giudice]475-giudice . Who thinks ill of [me]391-mrs. shelfer [I]391-mrs. shelfer care not , for [I]391-mrs. shelfer can defend [myself]391-mrs. shelfer , if it be worth while . So can [Giudice]475-giudice with [his]475-giudice teeth — the finest set in [London]1-london — but [he]475-giudice has no tongue , no merop tongue , [I]391-mrs. shelfer mean . It was true that [Giudice]475-giudice had good fare , and thoroughly [he]475-giudice enjoyed it . [That dog]6938-that dog knew a juicy bit of meat , short of staple , crisp , yet melting , quite as well as [I]391-mrs. shelfer did . True , [he]475-giudice had a love of bones , transparent gristle , and white fibres , which [I]391-mrs. shelfer , from inferior structure , can not quite appreciate . Yet all this was no part of [his]475-giudice mind , much less did it affect the greatness of [his]475-giudice soul . [He]475-giudice kept , as all of [us]6939-us do [who are good for anything , a certain alter ego , a higher voice , a purer sense]6940-who are good for anything , a certain alter ego , a higher voice , a purer sense , a vein which fashion can not leech , or [false shame tourniquet]6941-false shame tourniquet . So the good dog used to come to [me]391-mrs. shelfer , before [he]475-giudice touched [his]475-giudice breakfast , lunch , or dinner , and entreat [me]391-mrs. shelfer to devour all [I]391-mrs. shelfer could , there would be lots still left for [him]475-giudice . In [my]391-mrs. shelfer hurry to get start of time , to spin a little faster the revolving moons , [I]391-mrs. shelfer did a thing which [I]391-mrs. shelfer could ill - approve to [myself]391-mrs. shelfer , even at the moment . [I]391-mrs. shelfer wrote to [Sally Huxtable]371-sally to obtain [Mr. Dawe]334-beany dawe 's permission for [me]391-mrs. shelfer to sell [my]391-mrs. shelfer gordit . [Professor Ross]430-professor ross had offered [me]391-mrs. shelfer no less than ten guineas for it . As [a gentleman]5462-a gentleman [he]430-professor ross should not have made the offer , after what [I]391-mrs. shelfer had told [him]430-professor ross . But the love of science — falsely so called by [collectors]6943-collectors — drives [men]1003-men to discern propriety "[391-mrs. shelfer] by the wire - drawn line of [their]2625-their longings . " However , [I]391-mrs. shelfer was not quite so blind upon right and wrong , as to mean to keep all the money . [I]391-mrs. shelfer offered [Mr. Dawe]334-beany dawe half , if the plaything should be sold . [I]391-mrs. shelfer knew not why , but [I]391-mrs. shelfer could not bear the idea of a bargain and sale with [[Conrad]427-conrad 's father]6945-conrad 's father , wide apart as the two always were in [my]391-mrs. shelfer mind . [I]391-mrs. shelfer rather hoped that [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe , though sorely tempted , would refuse . And now the time was almost come for news from [Tossil]361-tossil 's Barton . [Dear Sally]371-sally must have filled the twelve copybooks , at the rate of one a week . Ere [I]391-mrs. shelfer quite expected it , the letter came ; but before its tidings are imparted , [I]391-mrs. shelfer must in few words describe the visit of [[Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting 's son]6946-inspector cutting 's son . [George Cutting]490-george cutting came one evening to see [his]490-george cutting good Aunt [Patty]409-patty , for so [he]490-george cutting called [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , who was in truth [[his]490-george cutting cousin]1189-his cousin . Though [I]391-mrs. shelfer had been so assured that [[my]391-mrs. shelfer enemy]1966-my enemy could not escape , [I]391-mrs. shelfer was not equally convinced , and at times a deep anxiety and despair possessed [me]391-mrs. shelfer . Therefore [I]391-mrs. shelfer went to [the kitchen]5526-the kitchen to see [[the Inspector]1959-the inspector 's son]6951-the inspector 's son , and requested [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer to allow [me]391-mrs. shelfer five minutes of conversation with [him]6951-the inspector 's son . [He]6951-the inspector 's son stood all the while , and seemed rather shy and confused . [He]6951-the inspector 's son had not heard from [[his]6951-the inspector 's son father]1062-his father , since [the ship]6953-the ship sailed ; but [he]6951-the inspector 's son had seen in the papers that [she]391-mrs. shelfer had been spoken somewhere . "[391-mrs. shelfer] The party as [I]0-i knew of " was still safe in [London]1-london — [my]0-i blood ran like lava at the thought — or [I]0-i should have heard of it . [He]6951-the inspector 's son , [George Cutting]490-george cutting , had [his]6951-the inspector 's son eye upon [him]6951-the inspector 's son , and so had [two of [the detective force]6684-the detective force]6954-two of the detective force ; but what were [they]6954-two of the detective force in comparison with [[his]6951-the inspector 's son father]1062-his father ? This [he]6951-the inspector 's son asked , despite [his]6951-the inspector 's son shyness , with so large a contempt , that [I]0-i began to think [the Cutting family]6957-the cutting family admired [the Cuttings]491-the cuttings only . Upon [me]0-i , who am no [Cutting]490-george cutting , [he]6951-the inspector 's son left the simple impression that the qualities , so lauded by [[his]6951-the inspector 's son father]1062-his father , lay as yet beneath a bushel . However , [[his]6951-the inspector 's son Aunt [Patty]409-patty]6959-his aunt patty declared that [he]6951-the inspector 's son could eat three times as much as [Charley]395-charley . Not unlikely , if [he]6951-the inspector 's son only drank one - third of [Charley]395-charley 's allowance . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , who knew that [I]0-i was laying by a fixed sum every week , began to look upon [me]0-i as [a fine young miser]6960-a fine young miser . Of course [she]391-mrs. shelfer quite fell in with what [she]391-mrs. shelfer supposed to be [my]0-i ideas , for [she]391-mrs. shelfer never contradicted any one , unless it was [a cabman]6961-a cabman . "[0-i] Oh , [I]0-i do love money , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend ; gold , gold , it is so bootiful . Did [you]1798-my good friend ever hear tell of the marrow bone [I]0-i had ? Oh dear ! " "[0-i] What marrow bone , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ? " "[391-mrs. shelfer] Why a big beef marrow bone , that long , full of [sovereigns]2627-sovereigns and guineas after dear [Miss Minto]405-miss minto . [I]0-i stopped it with a bung and a piece of bladder , and for better than a twelvemonth , while [they]2628-they was executing [her]405-miss minto will , [I]0-i slept with that beneath [my]0-i pillow for fear [the priest]2629-the priest should get it . [Lord]2630-lord , how [they]2628-they did fight over [the poor old lady]2631-the poor old lady 's rags and bones , [that leathery priest]2632-that leathery priest and [three yellow kites of [cousins]2634-cousins]2633-three yellow kites of cousins , [they]2628-they said [they]2628-they was , as come from [Portugal]100-portugal . At last [they]2628-they got a ministration with the testament and text , and [they]2628-they robbed [me]0-i shameful , shameful , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend . Never catch [me]0-i going to mass again , or [you]1798-my good friend may tell [me]0-i of it . " "[1798-my good friend] And what became of the marrow bone , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ? " At this inquiry , [she]391-mrs. shelfer winked both eyes rapidly , and screwed up [her]391-mrs. shelfer little mouth . "[391-mrs. shelfer] Oh what [a thief]735-a thief [that Father Banger]2637-that father banger was , to be sure ! [You]1798-my good friend see , [Miss]2638-miss , [I]0-i had strict orders to shut [him]2637-that father banger out , when [Miss Minto]405-miss minto was near [her]405-miss minto end , because [he]2637-that father banger had kicked [her]405-miss minto dear cat [Filippina]492-filippina from the top of [the stairs]5744-the stairs to the bottom , after [he]2637-that father banger had gived [her]405-miss minto unction . What a pretty sight it was to see them seven dear cats , all sitting round the fire , each one on [his]2637-that father banger proper stool with [his]2637-that father banger name done on it in different coloured worsted . [I]0-i had so much a year left [me]0-i on [the Bank of [England]9-england]2640-the bank of england , honourable to the day , for each one of those cats , and change of diet every week , and now there 's only one of them left , and that is [my]0-i dear old [Tom]295-tom . " "[295-tom] But , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , about the marrow bone — " "[391-mrs. shelfer] Well , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , [I]0-i was going to tell [you]1798-my good friend . The way that [Father Banger]493-father got into [the house]764-the house again to steal [the poor old lady]2631-the poor old lady 's money , for building [a school]2102-a school or [some such villany]2645-some such villany . [He]493-father knowed how fond [the poor soul]2646-the poor soul was of cats , so [he]493-father borrowed a cat somewhere , and [he]493-father got [two boys]2647-two boys to let it down [the area]2648-the area with a whipcord round its stomach , and to jerk , jerk , jerk away at it , and [the poor thing]2649-the poor thing did squeal sure enough . ' Pain , [Patty]409-patty , ' says [[my]0-i poor mistress]2650-my poor mistress , and [she]2650-my poor mistress could hardly speak—'Oh , [Patty]409-patty , there 's [some cruel Englishman torturing a cat]2651-some cruel englishman torturing a cat again . ' So out [I]0-i runs into [the area]2648-the area , and in pops [Father Banger]493-father , who had [his]493-father back to the wall , with a great sheet of paper ; and [he]493-father begins to make a list of all the things in [the house]764-the house . [I]0-i took the cat to [dear Miss Minto]405-miss minto , and how pleased [she]405-miss minto was ! ' Please [God]303-god , ' says [she]2650-my poor mistress , ' to let [me]0-i live a few days more till [I]0-i make a Catholic of [this poor heretic'—she]2654-this poor heretic'—she always converted [her]405-miss minto cats the first thing—'and then [it]2655-it shall have a stool and a good annuity . ' But next day [the poor thing]2649-the poor thing went . " [Little Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer had so great a fear of death , that like [some ancient nations]6962-some ancient nations [she]391-mrs. shelfer shunned all mention of [his]493-father name , by euphemistic periphrase . [She]391-mrs. shelfer had never known real illness , and even a stitch or a spasm would frighten [her]391-mrs. shelfer for days . When [I]2649-the poor thing spoke calmly , as [I]2649-the poor thing sometimes did , of [[our]2658-we great inevitable friend]6963-our great inevitable friend , whom [we]2658-we so labour to estrange , up would jump [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer with a shudder and a little scream . "[2649-the poor thing] Oh do n't , [[my]0-i good soul]2657-my good soul , oh do n't ! How can [you]2657-my good soul ? Let [us]2658-we live , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , let [us]2658-we live while [we]2658-we can , and not think of such dreadful things . [You]2657-my good soul make [my]0-i blood run cold . " "[2657-my good soul] But , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , surely [you]2657-my good soul know that [we]2658-we all must die . " "[2657-my good soul] Of course , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , of course . But then [you]2657-my good soul need n't remind one of it . [I]0-i met [Doctor Franks]465-doctor franks to - day , and [he]465-doctor franks said , ' Why , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [I]0-i do declare , [you]391-mrs. shelfer look younger than ever , ' and [a very clever man]2660-a very clever man [he]465-doctor franks is , yes , yes ; and not a gray hair in [my]0-i head , and [[my]0-i father]731-my father lived to eighty - eight . " "[465-doctor franks] And how old are [you]391-mrs. shelfer , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , now ? " "[391-mrs. shelfer] Oh [I]0-i am sure [I]0-i do n't know , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , [I]0-i do n't keep no account . Let [us]2662-us talk of something else . Did [you]391-mrs. shelfer hear what [Tom]295-tom did to [your]391-mrs. shelfer Judy to - day ? " Ah , [poor little thing]6555-poor little thing ! But [I]295-tom am not going to moralise . Shall [I]295-tom ever know the history of that marrow bone ? [Tossil 's Barton]361-tossil , estimating the British Post by the standard of [[Joe Queen]451-joe 's boy]2242-joe queen 's boy , placed but little confidence in [that institution]6966-that institution . Moreover , [Tossil]361-tossil 's [Barton]361-tossil held that a "[295-tom] papper scrawl , " as it termed a letter , was certain to be lost for want of size , unless it were secured in something large , "[295-tom] something as [a man]5384-a man can zee and hold on to , " as [the farmer]5517-the farmer [himself]5517-the farmer expressed it . Therefore [I]295-tom was not surprised at receiving , instead of a letter by post , a packet delivered by [the parcels van]6968-the parcels van . This packet was bound round like the handle of a whip . and stuck at either end with a mass of [cobbler]6969-cobbler 's wax . bearing the vivid impress of a mighty thumb . Within the wrappings first appeared an ominous crumpled scroll . [Ye]6970-ye stars , where [angels so buffooned by eminent painters]6971-angels so buffooned by eminent painters dwell ! Once more [I]295-tom behold [Eli]336-eli on the turnpike gate , the Great Western steamer , [Job]494-job with a potsherd of willow - pattern plate , [the Prodigal Son]5558-the prodigal son , and worse than all , that hideous Death and [the Lady]1431-the lady . Recklessly [I]295-tom tumble out all the rest of the packet . Three great bolts with silver clasps , three apostle spoons , two old silver salt - cellars marked W.H.J.H. , [a child]782-a child 's christening cup , a horn tobacco - stopper with a silver tip , an agate from [the beach]6975-the beach , a tortoise - shell knife with a silver blade , half a dozen coins and a bronze fibula found upon [the farm]1516-the farm , [an infant]6977-an infant 's coral , a neck - pin garnished with a Bristol diamond , a number of mother - of - pearl buttons and blue beads , and a mass of mock jewelry bought by [the farmer from [the Cheapjacks at [Barum]101-barum fair]6979-the cheapjacks at barum fair]6978-the farmer from the cheapjacks at barum fair with the produce of [his]5517-the farmer wrestling triumphs . Separate from the rest , and packed most carefully , were all but two of the trinkets [I]295-tom had sent as Christmas gifts for [the family]1254-the family . Touched to the heart by all this loving kindness , [I]295-tom felt so ashamed of [my]295-tom paltry petulance at [Eli]336-eli , [Jonah]495-jonah , and the rest , that [I]295-tom would not indulge in a peep at [Sally]371-sally 's letter , which came last of all , until [I]295-tom had starved [myself]295-tom for a day . That literary effort showed so much improvement , both in writing and in spelling , that [any critic]6981-any critic would have endorsed [Mr. Huxtable]338-mr. huxtable 's conclusion that the gift must be in [the family]1254-the family . A few words still there were of rather doubtful texture , but who can bind or bound the caprice and luxury of the English language ? Moreover , [Sally]371-sally 's stops were left once more to the discretion of [the reader]6983-the reader . But if [Lord Byron]496-lord byron could not grasp the mysteries of punctuation , how could [Sally Huxtable]371-sally ? Yet [that eager little maid]6984-that eager little maid would have learned in half an hour the art which might have mellowed [the self - tormentor]6985-the self - tormentor 's howling . [Sally]371-sally 's was a healthy , sweet , and wholesome nature . [[Tossil]361-tossil 's [Barton Farm]102-barton farm]6986-tossil 's barton farm , [Trentisoe]12-trentisoe . The tenth day of March A.D. 1851 . "[295-tom] [DEAR MISS CLARA]293-clara DEAR,—If [you]293-clara please , [father]738-father and [mother]739-mother and [me]0-i and [[our]2666-our little [Jack]374-jack]2200-our little jack hope this letter will find [you]293-clara in good health as it leaves all of [us]2666-our at this present , or when it will be finished , thank [God]303-god for the same , and hoping no offence . [The baby as was born on the 20th day of October]2668-the baby as was born on the 20th day of october last is [a very fine and lusty wench at this time of writing]2669-a very fine and lusty wench at this time of writing , and have got two teeth , and [her]2668-the baby as was born on the 20th day of october hair coming again , and answers to the name of [Clara]293-clara , as [you]293-clara know [Miss]2670-miss [you]293-clara was so kind to give [her]2668-the baby as was born on the 20th day of october leave and liberty , and [father]738-father call [Clara]293-clara to [her]2668-the baby as was born on the 20th day of october now , and so do [I]0-i and [Jack]374-jack , but [mother]739-mother will call [her]2668-the baby as was born on the 20th day of october [Babby]498-babby still , and so [the chillers]2673-the chillers does . [Father]493-father often say , " [Babby]498-babby ! Why there be a hundred babbies in [the world]798-the world , and a thousand either , for ought [I]493-father knows again it , but [I]493-father reckon there is n't half a dozen [Claras]499-claras . "[493-father] But [mother]739-mother say [she]739-mother ca n't help it : [she]739-mother always did call [them]2675-them [babbies]2676-babbies till [they]2675-them was put into short - clothes , and longer too , if so be there was n't another , and [she]739-mother feels a call on [her]739-mother to do it , and no offence [Miss Clara]293-clara for that same . If [you]2677-you please [Miss]2678-miss , when [the parson]2679-the parson say " Name [this child]6988-this child , "[2679-the parson] and [Aunt Muxworthy]500-aunt muxworthy , from over to [Rowley Mires]28-rowley mires , say , quite peart , " [Clara]293-clara , [sir"—father]6989-sir"—father[2240-parson] had been learning [her]293-clara , [you]2677-you see [Miss]2680-miss , all the morning — [parson]2240-parson look , so [mother]739-mother say , the same as a skinned sheep all skivered out to dry ; and [Tim Badcock]344-tim go haw haw , till [father]738-father was forced to slip behind [the godmothers]2684-the godmothers and fetch [him]344-tim a little clout on the side of [his]344-tim head . Then [parson]501-parson say at last , " [Clara]293-clara maam ! There be [no child of that name]6990-no child of that name to this side of [Coom]87-coom , and it seem to [me]501-parson to go again the rub rick . "[501-parson] [Father]493-father say [the parson]2679-the parson must be [a high farmer]2686-a high farmer , for none of [us]2687-us ever hear tell of that rick in [this country]1963-this country . " Now take [my]2679-the parson advice and think better of it [Mrs. Muxworthy]502-mrs. muxworthy , "[2679-the parson] [the parson]2679-the parson say again . So [she]739-mother looks to [father]738-father , for [you]738-father see [Miss]2691-miss [she]739-mother were not edified about it being right , because [she]739-mother could not find it in the Bible nowhere . And [she]739-mother say , " Think better of it farmer now ; if [you]738-father wants a handsome name , there 's [Tryphena]503-tryphena and [Tryphosa]504-tryphosa , and has been in [the family]1254-the family afore . "[739-mother] " [Mother]739-mother , "[731-my father] says [[my]0-i father]731-my father , and [he]731-my father looked the way [he]731-my father do when [he]731-my father do n't intend to talk about a thing , " [Mother]739-mother , go [home]1102-home with [the child]6995-the child , and [I]731-my father 'll take [her]6995-the child to [Parracombe Church]103-parracombe church next Sunday : and tell [Suke]345-suke not to put the goose down . "[731-my father] [You]2693-you see , [Miss]2694-miss , [we]2695-we was going to have a supper after [church]1429-church , and the best goose on [the farm]1516-the farm , and [the parson]2679-the parson was coming too . " [Sober]505-sober now , "[2679-the parson] say [the parson]2679-the parson , " if so be now , [farmer John]411-miss vaughan , [you]411-miss vaughan have put [your]411-miss vaughan mind upon naming this here infant [Clara]293-clara , why [I]2679-the parson will christen [her]293-clara so , only an under Protestant , and with difference to the chapter . "[2679-the parson] [Father]493-father only say " Amen , so be it ; "[2240-parson] and then [parson]2240-parson do it , and do it uncommon well too , [father]738-father say . and [she]2694-miss only laugh when [they]2702-they give [her]2694-miss the splash . [Father]493-father told [us]2695-we afterwards as [he]493-father believed [parson]2240-parson was feared [he]2240-parson could n't spell [Clara fitty]293-clara ; but [mother]739-mother say [he]2240-parson be wrong there , and all along of [his]2240-parson pride , for [parson]2240-parson be [a college chap]2706-a college chap and so [he]2240-parson can spell anything amost , in one way or another . [Miss Clara]293-clara , all them beautiful things as [you]2707-you sent for [us]2695-we to Christmas time , with the forepart of all [our]2695-we names upon them , except [Sally]371-sally , was sunk in the bottom of [the brook]2237-the brook in the hole below the stickle by the hollow ash , where the big trout hath [his]2240-parson hover , all along of [Joe]451-joe [[the Queen]1427-the queen 's boy]2235-the queen 's boy ; and [we]2695-we never knew ought about it till [your]2707-you after letter come . Then [[our]2695-we little Jack , who be quite [a big boy]2712-a big boy now , and button [his]2711-our little jack , who be quite a big boy now , and button his own corduroys own corduroys]2711-our little jack , who be quite a big boy now , and button his own corduroys , go down to [the brook]2237-the brook at once , and pull off all [his]2711-our little jack , who be quite a big boy now , and button his own corduroys things , and there [he]2711-our little jack , who be quite a big boy now , and button his own corduroys rake and feel among the stones for the biggest part of a day , though the ice was on the edge but [the water]1150-the water were quite clear ; and [Tabby Badcock]388-tabby want to pull off [her]388-tabby things and go in too , but [Jack]374-jack would not let [her]388-tabby , and be ashamed of [herself]388-tabby , and [I]0-i sat on [the bank]6728-the bank and [Tabby]388-tabby , and [Jack]374-jack pull out nine beautiful things , as were meant for [father]738-father , and [mother]739-mother , and [him]374-jack , and [Billy]378-bill , and [little Honor]331-mrs. huxtable , and [Bobby]482-bob , and [Peggy]355-margery daw , and the two [weanies]2718-weanies , but [he]374-jack could n't find nothing as were meant for [me]0-i [Sally]371-sally , unless [Tabby]388-tabby stole it , and [she]388-tabby be quite equal to it [I]0-i am afeared : and [we]2718-weanies all returns [you]2719-you many many kind thanks and love , especially the ones as had it , and [me]0-i . [[Our]2718-weanies [Jack]374-jack]2720-our jack say , No [her]388-tabby would n't do it , [he]374-jack 'll go bail for that , no fie ! But [I]0-i shake [my]0-i head ; though perhaps [she]388-tabby never had the chance , if so be there was n't none marked [Sally]371-sally , and thank [you]2719-you every bit the same , [Miss]2721-miss , so long as there was n't none for [Tabby]388-tabby . " [Poor little Sally]371-sally ! [She]371-sally must have cried bitterly to think of [her]371-sally being forgotten . But the best of all , next to [the farmer]5517-the farmer 's , was for [her]371-sally , and there was one for [Tabby]388-tabby too . "[293-clara] [Miss Clara]293-clara dear , the things was not hurt at all by being under water for a week , and [father]738-father say they must be made of the very same gold as [Queen Victoria]450-queen victoria 's crown and sceptre is , as never can rust with the briny waves ; and [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe feel cock sure as it was [the fairy of [the brook]2237-the brook]2723-the fairy of the brook stole them from [Joe]451-joe 's breeches pocket , and keep [mine]0-i still [he]334-beany dawe say because it be the prettiest . But there , [he]334-beany dawe never know much , any more than [Tabby]388-tabby does . If [you]2719-you please [Miss]2725-miss , asking [your]2719-you pardon , when [Aunt Muxworthy]500-aunt muxworthy were [here]846-here , to the christening time , [she]500-aunt muxworthy said [she]500-aunt muxworthy never see such writing in [her]500-aunt muxworthy life as [mine]0-i , and it was n't [my]0-i best copy neither , and [she]500-aunt muxworthy said it was a sin to make [a scholar of [a honest wench like that]2728-a honest wench like that]2727-a scholar of a honest wench like that , and [I]0-i should want to be [the parson]2679-the parson next , and read the forty - two generations and play the fort piano ; and [I]0-i did n't know , [Miss]2730-miss , whether to laugh or cry , so [I]0-i began to eat an apple ; but [father]738-father say quite slowly , " [Sister Muxworthy]506-sister muxworthy , [you]506-sister muxworthy was never gifted with no eddication no more nor [I]738-father [Jan Uxtable]343-jan uxtable , and how be [us]6997-us to know if it be good or bad ? Once [I]738-father had a horse , say [father]738-father , as afore ever [he]738-father went into [the field]5597-the field , turned up [his]738-father nose at the grass like , and with turning up so much [he]738-father died at last of the glanders . But [I]738-father never see that there horse persuade [the others]1636-the others to starve . "[738-father] [Aunt Muxworthy]500-aunt muxworthy toss [her]500-aunt muxworthy head , and [we]2732-we thought [she]500-aunt muxworthy would n't eat no goose , but the smell of the stuffing and the weather was too many for [her]500-aunt muxworthy ; and [she]500-aunt muxworthy eat a wing , and a leg , and one side of the breast , and it do [her]500-aunt muxworthy good . And afore [she]500-aunt muxworthy had had much brandy , " [John]411-miss vaughan , "[500-aunt muxworthy] [she]500-aunt muxworthy say , " [you]411-miss vaughan was right and [I]500-aunt muxworthy was wrong . Let [the little wench]7001-the little wench crack on , and some day [they]7002-they 'll hear of [her]7001-the little wench to tother side of [Hexmoor]104-hexmoor . "[500-aunt muxworthy] So [father]738-father laugh and kiss [her]500-aunt muxworthy , and the chillers was put to bed , and [we]2732-we drink [your]500-aunt muxworthy health [Miss]2734-miss , and [Clara]293-clara 's nine times nine , and [father]738-father say [he]738-father 'll learn [himself]738-father some day , when [he]738-father give up wrestling , only [he]738-father fear it would make [his]738-father hand shake terrible , and then some laugh and some of [us]2732-we cry , and [they]2736-they has more hot water , and [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe set to , and make so many poems [he]738-father turn the stairs somehow inside out , and [Suke]345-suke and [Tim]344-tim was forced to heave [him]738-father into [the tallat]2737-the tallat , and keep [him]738-father from going [abroad]2738-abroad by a rope of onions round [him]738-father and two truss of hay on the top . Next day , [he]738-father make no poems at all till [he]738-father drink more than a gallon of cider . Oh [Miss Clara]293-clara dear , what ever is the matter with [you]293-clara ? [Father]493-father be in such a taking [I]0-i never see . To - day [your]293-clara letter come about selling that knob - thing of [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe 's , and [we]2732-we knows it must be all along of the crown jewels [you]293-clara bought for [us]2732-we , as [we]2732-we meant to keep in [the family]1254-the family to the end of all [our]2732-we time . [Mother]291-mother double up , and cry into the churn , and spoil all the butter ; and [father]738-father were that upset [he]738-father stamp out of [the house]764-the house a trying hard to whistle , and [he]738-father could n't see [no one there to let it off on]2742-no one there to let it off on but [Timothy Badcock]344-tim , and [he]344-tim were a little saucy , so [he]344-tim toss [Tim]344-tim up on the linhay roof and [his]344-tim legs come through the thatch , and [father]738-father was forced to ease [him]344-tim out with the pitchfork . [Tim]344-tim was stiff a bit in the evening , and serve [him]344-tim right say [mother]739-mother , for laughing so at [the Cornishers]507-the cornishers ; but [father]738-father give [him]344-tim some neatsfoot oil and cider , and [we]2732-we knew [us]2732-we could n't hurt [him]344-tim because [he]344-tim be double - jointed . And if [you]2746-you please [Miss Clara]293-clara dear , [we]2732-we would not stoop to ask [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe and [he]334-beany dawe nothing but [a sawing poet]2747-a sawing poet ; so [father]738-father go to the old oak chest with the whitewash on it , and pull it open without the key , and take out some old rubbish [he]738-father saith , and order [mother]739-mother to pack it without a word , and [mother]739-mother want to put in a pair of linen sheets and the best table - cloth , but [father]738-father say quite crusty like , " Do [e]2732-we take [our]2732-we [Miss Clara]293-clara for [a common packman]7003-a common packman ? "[738-father] And when [I]0-i say , " Please [father]738-father what shall [I]738-father say about it all ? "[738-father] [he]738-father answer [me]0-i quite low , " How ever can [I]738-father tell [child]5440-child ? Ask [[your]5440-child mother]5332-your mother there . Only give [my]738-father best respects and most humble duty , and tell [Miss Clara]293-clara [I]738-father wishes [I]738-father could find [a man]5384-a man to throw [me]738-father all four pins , for being such [a drunken hosebird]7008-a drunken hosebird not to have more to send [her]5332-your mother . But [I]738-father know [her]5332-your mother wo n't take money from the likes of [us]7009-us . Stop , "[738-father] [father]738-father say , " ask [her]5332-your mother to please to lift [our]7009-us horn up as the horn of an unicorn . [I]738-father knows where to go for lots of money and all to be had for asking . [I]738-father 'll go to [Bodmin town]7010-bodmin town next week , "[738-father] say [father]738-father , " and show [them]7011-them [Cornishers]507-the cornishers a trick of [Abraham Cann]508-abraham . Since [honest Abraham]508-abraham took the sprain , [he]508-abraham left it all to [me]738-father , though [God]303-god knows , and thank [him]508-abraham for the same , [I]738-father never want it yet . [I]738-father should like to see [the Cornisher]7012-the cornisher as could stand [my]738-father grip . "[738-father] And then [father]738-father pull both [his]738-father hands out of [his]738-father pockets . [Mother]291-mother say [he]738-father wear them out [he]738-father do spraddle both [his]738-father thumbs so . It seems a curious thing , [[Miss Clara]293-clara dear]2276-miss clara dear , [father]738-father never get vexed or weist like , but what [he]738-father want to wrestle , and other times [he]738-father never think of it , unless it be to fair or revel time . When [I]0-i asked [mother]739-mother and said as [father]738-father tell [me]0-i to , the tears was in [her]739-mother eyes , and [she]739-mother try to look angry with [me]0-i , and then [she]739-mother broke out crying as loud as [Suke]345-suke when the cow [Molly]431-polly kick [her]739-mother . So between [the both of [them]2759-the both of them]2759-the both of them , [Miss]2760-miss , [I]0-i ca n't know what to say , so please to make it [yourself]2760-miss [Miss]2761-miss , for [I]0-i am sure [I]0-i ca n't find any thing only the best love of [our]2762-our hearts and a side of bacon [us]2762-our would like to send , and the butter from [my]0-i own little cow , all sweet hay and no turmots ; [I]0-i be to sit in [Coom market]5891-coom market , all by [myself]0-i , on Saturday , and [mother]739-mother not come nigh [me]0-i , and [I]0-i know [you]2760-miss 'll let [me]0-i send [you]2760-miss the money , and [I]0-i expects elevenpence a pound , because [you]2760-miss never was proud with [[your]2760-miss loving scholar]2765-your loving scholar ever to command and obey . [SALLY HUXTABLE]371-sally . All this here underneath and over the leaf is going to be written after the rest of this here paper . If [you]2760-miss please [[Miss Clara]293-clara dear]2276-miss clara dear , there come now just [a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands]2767-a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands , and ever so many great silver buttons with a print like pats of best butter , and gold ribbon round [his]2767-a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands hat . [We]2768-us seemed at first [he]2767-a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands be [an officer of dragoons]2769-an officer of dragoons , till [we]2768-us see'd the flour in [his]2767-a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands hair , and then [us]2768-us knowed [he]2767-a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands was [[the Queen]1427-the queen 's miller]2771-the queen 's miller . [Father]493-father was a great mind to show [him]2767-a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands a forehip and send [his]2767-a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands buttons to [you]2760-miss [Miss]2772-miss , because [he]2767-a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands see they be worth ever so much more than these little things all put together , only [mother]739-mother stop [him]2767-a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands . Then [the gentleman]6124-the gentleman say [he]6124-the gentleman know [Mr. Henwood]509-mr. henwood well , and respect [him]509-mr. henwood much , and [he]6124-the gentleman be sent here by expression to discover where [you]2760-miss be [Miss Clara]293-clara , and it be most particular , and if [we]2768-us wished [you]2760-miss well , [us]2768-us would tell [him]6124-the gentleman to once . [Father]493-father and [mother]739-mother and [me]0-i puts [him]6124-the gentleman in [the parlour]5965-the parlour and gives [him]6124-the gentleman a jug of the very best cider , and then [we]2768-us goes and lays [our]2768-us heads together about [him]6124-the gentleman in [the cheese - room]2777-the cheese - room , and [mother]739-mother and [me]0-i was for telling [him]6124-the gentleman , only [father]738-father say no . [You]2760-miss never give [us]2768-us leave , and [us]2768-us wants to do what is right and upright , unless [you]2760-miss order [us]2768-us contrary , and [us]2768-us has no right to tell without ask [you]2760-miss , and [you]2760-miss so full of [enemies]2780-enemies . So [father]738-father say , very grand for [him]738-father : " Honoured sir , [us]2768-us hopes the honour of a papper scrawl from [Miss Clara]293-clara in ten days time , or may be a fortnight , according to the weather please [God]303-god , and [us]2768-us be satisfied too . [[My]738-father eldest daughter]7013-my eldest daughter here be writing to [Miss Clara]293-clara for a week or more , and if so be [she]7013-my eldest daughter have got room left on the papper scrawl [she]7013-my eldest daughter ask [Miss Clara]293-clara 's leave , and [us]2768-us shall have time enough to hear what [her]7013-my eldest daughter say in a fortnight , or [mebbe]7014-mebbe three weeks . "[738-father] " Oh then , [she]7013-my eldest daughter be gone to [Hitaly]105-hitaly at the least . "[6124-the gentleman] [The gentleman]6124-the gentleman say . [Father]493-father never hear tell of [Hitaly]105-hitaly whether it be in [London town]2176-london town or no , but [he]493-father look to [mother]739-mother and [me]0-i to hold [our]2785-us noise . [The gentleman]6124-the gentleman say something sound very much like " Dang , "[6124-the gentleman] and [father]738-father hoped [he]738-father would be saucy , because then [he]738-father send [his]738-father buttons in spite of [mother]739-mother and [me]0-i ; but when [he]738-father look at [father]738-father [he]738-father think better of it , and go off very civil in [the carriage [he]738-father come by]2790-the carriage he come by , only say [he]738-father would find out in spite of [us]2785-us . And please [Miss Clara]293-clara dear , [mother]739-mother say [she]739-mother be ashamed to send [you]293-clara a parcel all rubbage , except the pictures , but [she]739-mother do hope [they]2792-they wo nt cheat [you]293-clara about them there , for [they]2792-they be the finest ever come to these parts , and warranted real [London]1-london made . [All the farmers hereaway]2793-all the farmers hereaway want to buy them of [us]2785-us . And [father]738-father say , " Dang the pictures , tell [Miss Clara]293-clara to come to [us]2785-us , and [her]293-clara sha n't want [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe 's things , nor [[the Queen]1427-the queen 's miller]2771-the queen 's miller either . "[738-father] Oh do come , [Miss Clara]293-clara dear , [the banks]2795-the banks be yellow with primroses , and white and blue with violets , and [I]0-i know three blackbirds nests already and an ousel 's down by [the river]5715-the river . Oh do come . [I]0-i have got such a lot to tell [you]293-clara , things as [I]0-i ca n't make head or tail of when [I]0-i try to spell them , and [you]293-clara shall milk [my]0-i own cow [Sally]371-sally , and have all [my]0-i black hen 's eggs , and the ducks too if they hatch,—and sling all the small potatoes from [the plough field]2797-the plough field to the hazel hedge . [[Your]293-clara best scholar]2798-your best scholar as ever was and [loving pupil]2799-loving pupil . [SALLY HUXTABLE]371-sally . " From [Sally]371-sally 's eager description of the coat and buttons , [I]371-sally concluded easily that [a servant from [Vaughan St. Mary]431-polly]7017-a servant from vaughan st. mary had been sent in quest of [me]371-sally . [[My]371-sally father]731-my father hated showy liveries and loathed hair - powder , but [Mr. Edgar Vaughan]297-mr. edgar vaughan returned to [the family]1254-the family usages , or rather allowed [them]1254-the family to re - establish [themselves]1254-the family ; for on such questions [he]297-mr. edgar vaughan was wholly indifferent . Now what could be [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan motive for sending so expressly to discover [me]371-sally ? [I]371-sally knew not , neither cared very greatly , but wrote at once to [Tossil 's Barton]361-tossil , first to return [their]1254-the family loving contribution , which consisted mainly of ancestral relics prized for generations , secondly , to set free the secret of [my]371-sally address . Into [my]371-sally own self [I]371-sally returned once more . Somehow [I]371-sally seem to expand whenever [I]371-sally come in contact with [[the yeoman]7020-the yeoman 's family]7021-the yeoman 's family , and [their]7021-the yeoman 's family lowly greatness . [I]371-sally am like a worm when it rains , after the drought of summer . Surely [the God]7022-the god , who leaves [us]7023-we to stifle [ourselves]7023-we with the dust of fashion and convention , has [His]7022-the god own gracious times to breathe upon and scatter it . At intervals [we]7023-we may see through the reek of [our]7023-we own exuding , and inhale a more bracing air than sleeps in [mausoleums]7024-mausoleums . But instead of being exalted and fed by the open breeze , [we]7023-we shudder at the draught and replace [our]7023-we respirators . [I]371-sally returned into [myself]371-sally , and found little comfort there . [I]371-sally do not live inside [myself]371-sally , as [most people]6280-most people live in [theirs]6280-most people . True , [I]371-sally am apt to resent any slight to it offered from the outside . True , [I]371-sally seek its keep and comfort in a mechanical sort of way . But as for crusting in its bottle , ripening in its husk , rusting in its watch - case , [I]371-sally have been too long the toy of wind and weather not to be turned inside out . Never can [I]371-sally moulder into the fungoid nucleus the British taste admires . And yet there is about [me]371-sally , if [I]371-sally must not say within [me]371-sally , a stanch cleaving , a cohesion , a concrete will , which is of genuine Anglo - Saxon fibre . So [I]371-sally thrust aside all dreams of [[Tossil]361-tossil 's Barton and [Vaughan Park]7027-vaughan park]7026-tossil 's barton and vaughan park , and certain wilder sweeter dreams which have begun to flutter and thrill through [me]371-sally , and in earnest [I]371-sally return to [my]371-sally task of money - making . [Giudice]475-giudice still is faithful , and comforts much [my]371-sally solitude . [He]475-giudice has never asked [[his]475-giudice master]827-his master 's leave or [mine]371-sally , [he]475-giudice has never received any formal invitation , yet here [he]475-giudice looks all at [home]1102-home , sleek and unblushing , though long since quite convalescent and equal to livery stable diet . Once indeed , as [we]7030-we passed the entrance , [he]475-giudice pretended to [me]371-sally that [his]475-giudice conscience pricked [him]475-giudice . To ease it , [he]475-giudice sniffed about , and halted just for a moment , then turned [his]475-giudice nose up , recocked [his]475-giudice tail , and trotted jauntily on . Since then [he]475-giudice has always avoided that left side of [the street]6090-the street . [He]475-giudice is affable still to [Isola]428-isola , but clearly regards [her]428-isola as no more than [a pleasant acquaintance]7032-a pleasant acquaintance . Whenever [she]428-isola enters [the room]823-the room , [he]475-giudice walks from [his]475-giudice corner with a stretch and a yawn , sniffs all round [her]428-isola dress , to learn where [she]428-isola has been , and what dogs [she]428-isola has spoken to ; then , in the absence of any striking discovery , [he]475-giudice looks into [her]428-isola face with a grave complacence , and brings [me]371-sally [his]475-giudice conclusion . [Tom]295-tom , and the birds , the squirrel , and the little marmoset ( [[Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's newest and dearest pet]7034-mrs. shelfer 's newest and dearest pet ) , [he]475-giudice gazes upon from a lofty standing as so many specimens of natural history , interesting so far , but otherwise contemptible . [He]475-giudice is now allowed free run of [the house]764-the house , understands all the locks , and presents [himself]475-giudice in [every room]7036-every room at the proper meal - time . [Even the little dress - maker]7037-even the little dress - maker is then honoured with [his]475-giudice attentions . [Everybody]6273-everybody loves [him]475-giudice , [he]475-giudice is so gentle and clever and true . Back [he]475-giudice comes to [me]371-sally , with [his]475-giudice mouth rather greasy [I]371-sally must admit , gives [me]371-sally one kiss ( as a form , [I]371-sally am afraid ) , and exclaiming , "[371-sally] Dear [me]0-i ! What a life this is ! ' sits down on [his]0-i rug to think . [No one]730-no one can tempt [him]0-i further than the corner of [[our]2801-our street]2802-our street , except [[his]0-i master]827-his master or [myself]0-i . [Miss Flounce]511-miss flounce , with [my]0-i permission , granted not without jealousy , once aspired to the escort of [Giudice]475-giudice . Although [she]511-miss flounce carried a bag of [his]475-giudice favourite biscuits ( made perhaps of bone - dust ) , and kept one of them in [her]511-miss flounce hand , [Judy]477-judy flattered [her]511-miss flounce only to [the corner]2804-the corner ; then [he]475-giudice turned abruptly , and trotted firmly ( rudely [she]511-miss flounce called it ) [home]1102-home , with [his]475-giudice eyes upon [[my]0-i balcony]2806-my balcony . [I]0-i gave [him]475-giudice more of [his]475-giudice biscuits than [he]475-giudice would have got from [her]511-miss flounce . All this was very delightful . But there were two sad drawbacks . In the first place , [Giudice]475-giudice expected [me]0-i to forego every other line of art , and devote all [my]0-i time to portraiture of [himself]475-giudice . This was unreasonable , and [I]0-i could not do it . Apart from other considerations , [Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall , after buying three studies of [him]475-giudice , declined to take any more until those three should be sold . To [Giudice]475-giudice [himself]475-giudice [I]0-i had based [my]0-i refusal upon more delicate grounds . [I]0-i had quoted to [him]475-giudice , " Although , lest [I]0-i profane [your]475-giudice hallowed part , Queen Nature chills the blood around [my]0-i heart ; Sweet dog , permit [me]0-i to indulge [my]0-i dream Of [country valleys]7039-country valleys , and [the mazy stream]7040-the mazy stream . "[0-i] But [he]475-giudice took no heed , and never would permit [me]0-i so to do , without the keenest jealousy . The other drawback was still more serious . Either by maintaining the dog , [I]0-i placed [[his]475-giudice owner]2807-his owner under an obligation ; or by engrossing the dog 's society , [I]0-i laid [myself]0-i under obligation to [[his]475-giudice owner]2807-his owner . Either view of the case was unpleasant ; the latter , which [I]0-i adopted , soon became intolerable . So [I]0-i spoke about it to [Isola]428-isola , for [I]0-i could not well explain [myself]0-i to [[her]428-isola brother]6430-her brother , who ought indeed to have perceived [my]0-i dilemma . " Oh [Donna]476-donna , "[428-isola] [she]428-isola cried , " what nonsense [you]476-donna do talk ! Obliged to [us]7041-us indeed ! [I]428-isola am sure [we]7041-us are all greatly obliged to [you]476-donna ; and many a stir it saves [us]7041-us at [home]1102-home , for the dog detests papa so ; and when [Conrad]427-conrad comes to see [us]7041-us , [he]427-conrad ca n't bear to have [Judy]477-judy shut out like [a thief]735-a thief , and [he]427-conrad the most honourable dog that ever wagged a tail . "[428-isola] " To be sure [he]427-conrad is . [You]428-isola know [you]428-isola are , do n't [you]428-isola , [oh combination of [Bayard]512-bayard and [Aristides]513-aristides]7044-oh combination of bayard and aristides ? "[2810-i] That union of justice and chivalry wagged [his]2810-i tail to [me]0-i , and nodded gravely to [Isola]428-isola . " But [I]2810-i have said all along that [Conny]427-conrad should pay for [his]427-conrad board , and [he]427-conrad feels it too : but [we]7045-we could not tell how to propose it to [you]428-isola , dear [Donna]476-donna , [you]428-isola are so very outrageous . "[2810-i] " [I]2810-i should hope so indeed . "[2810-i] " And then [I]428-isola am sure it would break poor [Judy]477-judy 's heart to go . Would n't it now , [Judy]477-judy ? "[428-isola] [Giudice]475-giudice did not answer [her]428-isola , but came and laid [his]475-giudice great head on [my]0-i lap , and looked up at [me]0-i as only a dog can look . In that wistful look [he]475-giudice said as plainly as possible — " [You]477-judy know [I]475-giudice am only a dog . But [you]428-isola , [Clara]293-clara , happen to be [a human being]7046-a human being ; and so [you]428-isola know all [we]7045-we dogs know , and ever so much besides . Only [you]428-isola ca n't smell . [You]428-isola can talk , as fast as [you]428-isola like , both to [each other]734-each other and to [us]7045-we , but [we]7045-we can talk to none except [our]7045-we fellow dogs . Now do n't take a mean advantage of [me]475-giudice . [I]475-giudice know that [I]475-giudice was made only to be [[your]428-isola servant]7048-your servant , and [I]475-giudice love [you]428-isola with all [my]475-giudice heart , that [I]475-giudice do . [I]475-giudice ca n't tell at all where [I]475-giudice shall go when [I]475-giudice die , or if [I]475-giudice shall go anywhere ; and [I]475-giudice am sure [I]475-giudice shall die , if [you]428-isola cast [me]475-giudice away like this . "[475-giudice] So [I]0-i kissed [his]2811-him dotty whiskers , and promised not to desert [him]2811-him , though [I]0-i should go all the way to [the stables]6896-the stables twice a day to see [him]2811-him . " And another thing , [Clara]293-clara dear , "[2813-his master 's sister] resumed [[his]2811-him master 's sister]2813-his master 's sister , " [I]2813-his master 's sister consider [him]2811-him now more [[my]2813-his master 's sister dog]7049-my dog than [Conny]427-conrad 's . [You]428-isola know [he]2811-him was given between [us"—this]7050-us"—this[2813-his master 's sister] was the first time [I]0-i heard of it—"and [I]2813-his master 's sister only lent [Conrad]427-conrad [my]2813-his master 's sister half as long as [he]427-conrad liked to pay for [him]2811-him . "[2813-his master 's sister] [Lovely Isola]428-isola , like [most other lovely girls]2814-most other lovely girls , was keen about money - matters . Not that [she]428-isola was ungenerous . [That impulsive little mortal]2815-that impulsive little mortal would give away all [her]428-isola substance , the moment [her]428-isola heart was touched , and it was not hard to touch , despite all the quick suspicions which [her]428-isola [London]1-london life and native shrewdness had now begun to produce . But as regards small dealings , [she]428-isola was thoroughly qualified to keep [a meat - pie shop]2816-a meat - pie shop , or go upon board wages , or even to take furnished lodging : by which climax [I]0-i mean no disrespect to [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , who ( considering [her]428-isola temptations ) is the very pink of honesty , especially since [Giudice]475-giudice can . As to these small matters , and as to many large ones , [I]0-i was dear [Isola]428-isola 's cardinal opposite . [She]428-isola would make , for [most men]2817-most men , [a far better wife than [I]0-i should]2818-a far better wife than i should ; although [she]428-isola will never love with a tenth part of the intensity . [She]428-isola ca n't even hate like [me]0-i . When [I]0-i hate , [I]0-i loathe and abhor . [I]0-i never hate [any one]1178-any one lightly , and hardly ever am reconciled , or suppress it . [Isola]428-isola talks about hating , but has never learned what it means . Spite [she]428-isola can carry , and nurse like [a doll]2820-a doll , and count it a minor virtue , albeit [she]428-isola can not be sulky ; hate is too heavy a burden . Scorn , which is with [women]5443-women the hate of things beneath [them]5443-women , [Isola]428-isola hardly knows . Perhaps [she]428-isola will learn it when [her]428-isola knowledge of [the world]798-the world narrows and condenses , as with [most women]6636-most women it does . Another great difference there is between [Isola]428-isola and [me]0-i . Although [she]428-isola never would think of deceiving [any one]1178-any one seriously , and would on no account tell a downright malicious lie , yet [she]428-isola is not so particular about telling [little fibs]2825-little fibs , or at any rate colouring matters so highly that [others]869-others are misled . This [she]428-isola can justify to [herself]428-isola in a charming warm - hearted way . And yet [she]428-isola rarely makes mischief . [Her]428-isola departures are half unconscious , and always arise from good will . " And so now , [Clara]293-clara dear , "[6694-the senior sophist] concluded [the senior sophist]6694-the senior sophist , " as [Conrad]427-conrad has owned all the dog so long , it is [my]6694-the senior sophist turn to own every bit of [him]427-conrad for an equal period , and [I]6694-the senior sophist must pay [you]293-clara half a crown a week for [his]427-conrad keep , and half a guinea for doctoring [him]427-conrad so well . "[6694-the senior sophist] [I]0-i was much inclined to take [her]428-isola at [her]428-isola word , it would have been such a surprise . But what a disgrace to [Giudice]475-giudice and to [me]0-i ! " Oh [Donna]476-donna , "[428-isola] [she]428-isola continued , " [you]476-donna have no idea how fond dear [Conny]427-conrad is of [you]476-donna . [I]428-isola am getting so jealous . [He]427-conrad thinks much more of [you]476-donna than [he]427-conrad does of [me]428-isola . "[428-isola] [I]0-i bent over [my]0-i drawing with more carmine on [my]0-i cheeks than was on the palette . What folly to be sure ! And [Isola]428-isola would come round in front . " Why do n't [you]476-donna answer [me]428-isola , [Clara]293-clara ? Did [you]476-donna ever know such a shame ? Well , [I]428-isola do believe [you]476-donna like being admired every bit as much as [I]428-isola do , in spite of all [your]476-donna sublimity . Why there comes [Conny]427-conrad [himself]427-conrad ; "[428-isola] and to [my]0-i great relief [she]428-isola stepped into [the balcony]6413-the balcony . " [I]428-isola thought so . [I]428-isola knew the ring of [his]427-conrad heel . [He]427-conrad will wear such clumsy boots , though [his]427-conrad foot is as pretty as [mine]0-i . [I]428-isola always know [his]427-conrad step , and so does [Judy]477-judy . "[428-isola] Alas ! and so do [I.]0-i How weak and paltry of [me]0-i , with a life like [mine]0-i before [me]0-i ! " [I]2443-his sister will go and open the door , "[2443-his sister] cries [[his]2829-his sister]2443-his sister ; " how rude [he]2829-his is to come when [you]0-i are so busy , [Clara]293-clara . "[2443-his sister] Away [she]2443-his sister runs , then ushers [him]2829-his grandly in , and away again to nurse the marmoset . [I]0-i know that [I]0-i look slightly discomposed . There is a glow upon [me]0-i as if [I]0-i had stepped into sunlight . [Conrad]427-conrad fails to notice it , or conceals the perception . [He]427-conrad stands before [my]0-i easel . How [I]0-i long for [his]427-conrad approbation ! That of course is only from [his]427-conrad knowledge of art and [his]427-conrad native taste . Yet [I]0-i fear to look at [his]427-conrad face , but wait for [him]427-conrad to speak . With a stretch like a windlass , and a cavernous yawn , up comes [Giudice]475-giudice , and pokes [himself]475-giudice right in front of [my]0-i work . Could [I]0-i have foreseen that effrontery and execrable taste , less bread and milk would [he]427-conrad have had for breakfast . [Conrad]427-conrad perceives [my]0-i vexation , and despite [his]427-conrad good breeding is too natural not to smile . The smile is infectious , and [I]0-i obtain no more than a look of commendation . But that is enough for [me]0-i . [I]0-i resolve to keep the drawing : [Mr. Oxgall]422-mr. oxgall may bid what [he]422-mr. oxgall likes . As [our]2831-our eyes meet , [Conrad]427-conrad 's and [mine]0-i , [I]0-i see that [he]427-conrad is not in [his]427-conrad usual spirits . Something has happened to vex [him]427-conrad . Oh that [I]0-i dared to ask what it is . [I]0-i also am heavy at heart , and ill at ease with [myself]0-i . Is it any wonder ? [My]0-i nature is true and straight - forward as well as proud and passionate . But here have [I]0-i been , for weeks and weeks , stooping below its level . [I]0-i have even been deceitful . Perhaps there was no dishonour in [my]0-i change of name , with such an object in view . Perhaps there was good excuse for maintaining disguise with [Conrad]427-conrad , when first [we]2831-our met in [London]1-london . But was it right and honourable to persist in [my]0-i alias , when [I]0-i could not help suspecting [his]427-conrad growing attachment to [me]0-i ? Peradventure [my]0-i conscience alone would not account for all the misery [I]0-i felt about this . Had [I]0-i no selfish misgivings as well ? Now as [I]0-i stood before [him]427-conrad , [my]0-i breast began to flutter with fear , not so acute , but deeper than [my]0-i alarm in the dark , when [I]0-i crouched from [the conspirators]2832-the conspirators . " [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , "[427-conrad] at last [he]427-conrad began , " [I]427-conrad am grieved in [my]427-conrad heart by hearing that [you]423-miss valence were not treated at all politely last night . "[427-conrad] [He]427-conrad was greatly moved , and began to lose [his]427-conrad command of colloquial English . [I]0-i had spent an evening at [[the Professor]2125-the professor 's house in [Lucas Street]106-lucas street]2834-the professor 's house in lucas street , the second time only of [my]0-i being [there]1114-there . Now [I]0-i came to recollect it , [Dr. Ross]470-dr. ross had certainly been a little overbearing , but [I]0-i did not feel hurt thereby , because [I]0-i cared not for [him]427-conrad , and knew it to be [his]427-conrad manner . [Isola]428-isola had told [[her]428-isola brother]6430-her brother , but without meaning any harm . [[Her]428-isola father]898-her father no doubt had been vexed , because [I]0-i could not sell [him]898-her father [my]0-i gordit . " Oh , [Mr. Ross]515-mr. ross , "[0-i] [I]0-i replied , " [I]0-i think nothing at all of that . [A learned man like [[your]515-mr. ross father]5365-your father]7051-a learned man like your father can not be expected to bear with [every ignorant girl]7053-every ignorant girl 's curiosity . "[0-i] " To [a lady]5829-a lady 's love of knowledge [every gentleman]7055-every gentleman should administer and be gratified . [All men of lofty science]7056-all men of lofty science enjoy to meet with a gentle mind inquiring . "[427-conrad] It was not the first time [Master Conrad]427-conrad had disparaged , by implication , [[his]427-conrad father]1062-his father 's great acquirements . To [me]0-i it seemed scarcely graceful , and very far from dutiful , but many of [my]0-i sentiments are dreadfully old - fashioned . An awkward pause ensued ; how could [I]0-i answer without condemning one or [the other]1586-the other ? Though [I]0-i could not quite acquit [Conrad]427-conrad , [my]0-i heart was entirely with [him]427-conrad , for [I]0-i had long been aware that [he]427-conrad was not happy at [home]1102-home . There [he]427-conrad stood , with an angry countenance , having declined the chair [I]0-i had offered [him]427-conrad . Suddenly [he]427-conrad took both [my]0-i hands and looked [me]0-i full in the face , though [his]427-conrad eyes were glistening . [I]0-i gazed full at [him]427-conrad , with vague apprehensions rising . How or why , [I]0-i know not , but at that very moment [my]0-i hair , which is always a trouble to [me]0-i , fell in a mass down [my]0-i cheeks and neck . [He]427-conrad started back , but still held [my]0-i hands . " [I]427-conrad am made certain that [I]427-conrad have seen [you]0-i long ago . [I]427-conrad will think , [I]427-conrad will think . "[427-conrad] [I]0-i saw at once how it was , the fear on [my]0-i face reminded [him]427-conrad . [I]0-i meant to tell [him]427-conrad some day , but [I]0-i never meant [him]427-conrad to find out . Scorning [myself]0-i for [a hypocrite]1089-a hypocrite , [I]0-i looked stedfastly at [him]427-conrad and smiled . " [You]427-conrad will forgive [me]427-conrad , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , [you]427-conrad know that [I]427-conrad would not use a freedom . "[427-conrad] [He]427-conrad saw in [my]0-i eyes that [I]0-i knew it , and dropped [my]0-i hands , and went on . " [You]427-conrad will think [me]0-i the weakest in mind and most wicked , but [I]0-i am most unhappy . "[0-i] [I]0-i started in turn , and how [I]0-i longed to console [him]427-conrad . What use is pride if it can not even command [one]6186-one 's eyes ? " It is to [me]427-conrad a disgrace to come to [you]427-conrad with [my]427-conrad troubles . But [I]427-conrad do it from no unmanly temper . [I]427-conrad do it alone for the sake of [[my]427-conrad precious sister]7057-my precious sister [Isola]428-isola . [I]427-conrad have no longer [any one whom [I]427-conrad dare to love but [her]428-isola]7058-any one whom i dare to love but her , and now [I]427-conrad am compelled to abandon [her]428-isola at the last . "[427-conrad] " Do [you]427-conrad mean to be long away ? "[427-conrad] This [I]0-i managed to ask pretty well , though it was sore work . " [I]0-i shall not be away from [London]1-london , but [I]0-i shall be departed from [Isola]428-isola . [The house where [she]428-isola lives [I]0-i am no more to visit]7059-the house where she lives i am no more to visit . A long time [I]0-i have gone [there]1114-there only a little , and alone to see [her]428-isola . [She]428-isola is ordered now to come no more to [me]0-i . This day [I]0-i spoke very violently . But [I]0-i will not detain [you]427-conrad with that . [I]0-i will confess [I]0-i did wrong ; but [I]0-i was richly provoked . [My]0-i object in burdening [you]427-conrad is double:—First to implore [you]427-conrad , if [I]0-i may without using liberty , to endure well with [the Professor]2125-the professor , lest [she]428-isola should be interdicted from coming to visit [you]427-conrad , and then [she]428-isola would have [no one]730-no one remaining to love [her]428-isola . Second to ask , a thing that [I]0-i hesitate because [I]0-i can not narrate to [you]427-conrad all things , whether [you]427-conrad would indulge [me]0-i , if there is no wrong , to come now and then to see [my]0-i own and [[my]0-i only sister]7063-my only sister . "[0-i] " Of course [you]0-i do not mean without [[her]428-isola father]898-her father 's knowledge . "[2843-i] " [I]2843-i would never insult [you]427-conrad , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence , by asking a thing like that . [I]2843-i desire nothing of what [you]427-conrad call clandestine . [You]427-conrad are so free and open , [you]427-conrad would never have to do with any sort of concealment . Neither am [I]2843-i in the habit to do anything like that . It has only been commanded that [I]2843-i may not go [there]1114-there , or invite [her]428-isola to come to [[my]2843-i house]5343-my house . [The Professor]2125-the professor has great power in the present , but [he]2125-the professor does not pretend to interdict [me]2843-i from [[my]2843-i sister]7068-my sister . "[2843-i] [His]2843-i eyes flashed , as [he]2843-i spoke , with an expression quite unfilial . Remembering how differently [I]0-i had loved [[my]0-i own dear father]2510-my own dear father , [I]0-i felt disappointed and grieved , but had no right to show it . " Only one more thing [I]2843-i will entreat of [you]427-conrad , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence ; poor [Isola]428-isola has never learned what means any grief . If [she]428-isola is vexed by this , [I]2843-i pray [you]427-conrad to sustain and comfort [her]428-isola ; for [I]2843-i shall never make a wrong advantage of [your]427-conrad most kind permission , so as to see [her]428-isola very often . "[2843-i] [He]2843-i raised [my]0-i hand to [his]2843-i lips in gratitude for what [he]2843-i called a kindness beyond all value to [him]2843-i , and [his]2843-i voice was trembling as [he]2843-i turned away . But [I]0-i had done no kindness , [I]0-i had given no permission ; for [I]0-i was not calm enough to distinguish right from wrong . Strange indeed it seemed to [me]0-i that [I]0-i , for the most part so decided , could not now determine , but was all perplexity . [My]0-i great iceberg self - reliance , built in bleak and lonesome years , was now adrift and melting in the bright sun of friendship and the warm sea - depths of love . [Isola]428-isola happened that day to leave [me]0-i before the usual time , being afraid that [[her]428-isola father]898-her father , who was not in [his]898-her father sweetest mood , would be angry with [her]428-isola . [She]428-isola was grieved of course at the new dissension , and thought [me]0-i ( [her]428-isola ideas were of loose texture ) somewhat to blame somehow . Nevertheless [she]428-isola soon forgave [me]0-i the crime [I]0-i had not committed . That day [I]0-i could paint no more , but sat [me]0-i down to meditate . Suddenly a loud ring and a louder knock echoed through [the house]764-the house . [Quickly Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's little feet came pattering up [the stairs]5744-the stairs , and [her]428-isola grey eyes actually seemed to come in first at the door . On the crown of [her]428-isola head [her]428-isola black cap hung , like the top of a chaise doubled back . " Oh [[my]428-isola good friend]1798-my good friend , look here ! [I]428-isola was never so frightened in all [my]428-isola life . "[428-isola] [She]428-isola held as far from [her]428-isola as [she]428-isola could reach a closed envelope , addressed " [Miss Clara Vaughan]293-clara . "[0-i] [I]0-i tore it open and read—"Mr . [Vaughan]293-clara is dying , come instantly . Sent by [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher . "[0-i] " Telegraph , [[my]391-mrs. shelfer good soul]2657-my good soul , "[391-mrs. shelfer] cried [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , " [Electric Telegraph Company]7071-electric telegraph company , all screams the wires red hot , and [you]2657-my good soul must sign the message [he]7071-electric telegraph company says . And is there any answer ? And [they]7071-electric telegraph company give [him]7071-electric telegraph company eighteen pence . Oh dear , [I]391-mrs. shelfer shall never get over it . Never had such a turn since [[my]391-mrs. shelfer brother]1302-my brother [John]411-miss vaughan went , and [they]7071-electric telegraph company tucked [him]7071-electric telegraph company up so bootiful , and [I]391-mrs. shelfer said to [the clerk at [Barbican]44-barbican]7073-the clerk at barbican — "[391-mrs. shelfer] " Out of [my]2848-me way if [you]7073-the clerk at barbican please . Let [me]2848-me sign the form , and leave [me]2848-me alone a minute . There is no answer . "[2848-me] Should [I]0-i go or not ? Bitterly as [I]0-i disliked [him]2848-me , could [I]0-i let [him]2848-me die among [hirelings]2849-hirelings and [strangers]6661-strangers — [I]0-i , [[his]2848-me brother 's daughter]2851-his brother 's daughter ! A year ago [I]0-i would have done so and thought it the judgment of [God]303-god . Now [I]0-i remembered [[my]0-i dear mother]5530-my dear mother 's death , and doubted about going only because [I]0-i knew not how [he]2848-me would take it . [My]0-i hesitation was very brief . [A cab]2021-a cab was ordered , [Giudice]475-giudice entrusted to [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's care , a short note left for [Isola]428-isola , a few things put together anyhow , and [I]0-i was ready to start . Even in this hurry a selfish terror smote [me]0-i , and [I]0-i cautioned [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer strictly to conceal both name and destination . [She]391-mrs. shelfer had only to say that [some relative]2854-some relative was suddenly taken ill , somewhere down in [the country]1831-the country ; [the country]1831-the country being to [her]391-mrs. shelfer mind a desert marked with milestones , [my]0-i description did not seem unreasonably vague . As [I]0-i stood in [the passage]824-the passage waiting for [the cab]6488-the cab , [the poor dog , who had been quite flurried , and scented indefinite evil , commenced , prolonged , and would not conclude a howl of passing sadness]2859-the poor dog , who had been quite flurried , and scented indefinite evil , commenced , prolonged , and would not conclude a howl of passing sadness . " Oh , [[my]391-mrs. shelfer good friend]1798-my good friend , "[391-mrs. shelfer] cried [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , " let [me]391-mrs. shelfer stop [the cab]6488-the cab . All waste of money to go . [The good gentleman]7076-the good gentleman , whoever [he]7076-the good gentleman is , is as dead as a crabshell now . There was [a terrier with a split ear]7077-a terrier with a split ear , next door but one , when [[my]391-mrs. shelfer poor brother]7078-my poor brother [John]411-miss vaughan was ill ; [his]7078-my poor brother name was [Jack]374-jack , [I]391-mrs. shelfer think , no , [Tom]295-tom ; bless [me]391-mrs. shelfer , no , what am [I]391-mrs. shelfer thinking of , [Bob]482-bob — [Charley]395-charley knows , [I]391-mrs. shelfer dare say — "[391-mrs. shelfer] " Well , send [me]391-mrs. shelfer [his]475-giudice name by telegraph . Here 's [the cab]6488-the cab , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer . "[391-mrs. shelfer] Heavy thumps of weary wambling feet , grating of wheels , a needless " whoa , "[2860-we] and [we]2860-we open the door . [Giudice]475-giudice bolts first into [the cab]6488-the cab , and sitting upright with [his]475-giudice tongue out and a sprightly pant , occupies the whole . It takes the united strength , address , and authority of [cabman]2862-cabman , [landlady]2863-landlady , and [myself]0-i to get [him]475-giudice out again . Then [he]475-giudice coils [his]475-giudice tail to [his]475-giudice stomach , droops [his]475-giudice ears and eyes , and receiving two hot tears and a kiss is sidled and deluded into [the narrow passage]6031-the narrow passage . The last thing [I]0-i hear is a howl that winds far round the corner and beyond [the square]1939-the square . In an hour and a half from the delivery of the message , [I]0-i was in [a second - class carriage]2866-a second - class carriage , and [we]2860-we shrieked away from [Paddington]246-paddington . The hurry and rush overcame [me]0-i for a while . Soon the April evening was spread with shadowy gray , and [we]2860-we were rushing past [the wooded waves of [Pangbourne]107-pangbourne]2867-the wooded waves of pangbourne , and casting silver rings of steam on the many - fingered spruce , before [I]0-i could collect and feel [my]0-i thoughts again . As [we]2860-we glided through plantations and between [the winding hills]2868-the winding hills , with the partridge beginning [his]475-giudice twilight call , the pheasants come out of the coppice to feed , and [the late rook]2869-the late rook plying [his]2869-the late rook dusky wings , at length the dust and city turmoil lagged round the corner miles away , and [we]2860-we sparkled in the dewy freshness of the silent moon . Though all alone in [the carriage]6087-the carriage , [I]0-i vainly tried for prudence ' sake to creep into the cloak of sleep . Every vein and every pore was full of gushing thrilling electric life . [The country]1831-the country , [the country]1831-the country ! [the heavenly country]2873-the heavenly country 's glory ! how had [I]0-i breathed and groped in [the city]1885-the city grave so long ? For every thought that dribbled there and guttered in [my]0-i brain , a hundred thousand now flow through [me]0-i , not of brain , but soul . Thoughts [I]0-i can not call them , for there is no volition , neither have [they]2875-they sequence , impress , or seen image : only a broad stream gliding , whence and whither [I]0-i know not . How can [I]0-i describe to [others]869-others what [I]0-i can not tell [myself]0-i ? " Glost ' ! [Glost]517-glost ' ! change here for [Chelt'm]518-chelt'm ! "[869-others] & c. broke [my]0-i dreaming suddenly . It was eleven at night . [I]0-i had come unwrapped ; [the heavenly country]2873-the heavenly country and nature 's tide forgot to keep [me]0-i warm . Out [I]0-i came upon [the platform]2878-the platform , and dreamily began to seek [my]0-i carpet - bag , for [I]0-i had no heavy luggage . The moon was struggling with the gas - lights , as nature in [me]0-i fought with modern life . " Fly , [Miss]7080-miss , fly ? "[2879-the lonely porter] [the lonely porter]2879-the lonely porter asked . " Yes , please , "[2879-the lonely porter] said [I.]0-i " Where for , [Miss]7081-miss ? "[0-i] " [Vaughan St. Mary]18-vaughan st. mary . "—At[2879-the lonely porter] this part of [my]0-i life , [I]0-i dropped the grand " [Vaughan Park]5-vaughan park ; "[2879-the lonely porter] it seemed too fine for [me]0-i , and [I]0-i was well content to be of [Conrad]427-conrad 's class in [the world]798-the world . " Oh , there 's [a carriage waiting at every train]7082-a carriage waiting at every train , if [you]0-i please , [Miss.]2105-miss. "[2881-the porter] And with tenfold politeness [the porter]2881-the porter showed [me]0-i across [the square]1939-the square to one of [the family hearses , which [[my]0-i father]731-my father and [I]0-i so detested]2883-the family hearses , which my father and i so detested . It so happened that [the driver]6033-the driver and [footman]2886-footman were taking some light refreshment at the bar of [a neighbouring edifice]2887-a neighbouring edifice , while the horses champed [their]2888-their bits and whinnied . [The men]5486-the men came out against [their]5486-the men will , and stared at [me]0-i in the broad moonshine . [I]0-i was very simply , plainly , and cheaply dressed , in deep mourning still for [[my]0-i darling mother]2890-my darling mother ; but [no servant of even slight experience]2891-no servant of even slight experience could take [me]0-i , [I]0-i think , for anything but [a lady]5829-a lady ; little as it matters . [The men]5486-the men were half - drunk , very surly at being disturbed , and inclined to form a low estimate of [my]0-i dress and carpet - bag . " [You]0-i mean to say [you]0-i be [Miss Vaughan]411-miss vaughan , [young ' ooman]2155-young ' ooman ? "[2894-i] stuttered the reeling coachman , with [his]2894-i hands beneath [his]2894-i flaps and a short pipe in [his]2894-i mouth , " Now [I]2894-i tell [you]0-i plainly , there 's no mistake about [me]2894-i mind , [I]2894-i ca n't noway credit it . It do n't seem likely , do it , [Bob]482-bob ? "[2894-i] " Likely , [Jacob]519-jacob ? Yes , like enough to [a fool]7085-a fool ; but nohow creditable to the like of [us]7086-us . Think [I]2894-i do n't know now ? Perhaps [the young ' ooman]7087-the young ' ooman will answer a few questions , [Jacob]519-jacob . "[2894-i] " Ah , let [you]482-bob alone ; let [you]482-bob alone , [Bob]482-bob ! Specially for [young women]7088-young women ! "[2894-i] " [Porter]7089-porter , [a cab]2021-a cab at once , if [you]7089-porter please ; or a fly [I]2894-i think [you]7089-porter call it [here]846-here . "[2894-i] Oh [my]0-i [London]1-london impudence ! " To be sure , [Miss]7092-miss ; the best in [Gloucester]23-gloucester directly . And , Miss"—confidentially[2894-i] , " if [I]2894-i was in [your]7089-porter shoes , [I]2894-i 'd walk [them]7088-young women chaps about [their]7088-young women business to - morrow . How [they]7088-young women have been carrying on [here]846-here , to be sure , ever since [the six o'clock train]7094-the six o'clock train come in . Why , in the time of [the old Squire Vaughan]520-the old squire vaughan — "[2894-i] " Thank [you]7089-porter , [the fly]7095-the fly , if [you]7089-porter please . "[2894-i] In two minutes [I]0-i was off for [[[my]0-i father]731-my father 's home]1315-my father 's home with mighty rattle of glass , and many jerking noises . About three miles from [Gloucester]23-gloucester [we]2897-we were passed by [Jacob]519-jacob and [Robert]327-robert , who were sitting side by side and driving furiously . Convinced at last by [the porter of [my]0-i genuine Vaughanship]2898-the porter of my genuine vaughanship , [they]2899-they had set off full speed to secure first audience . At length [we]2897-we passed [the lodge]1166-the lodge , where the gates creaked as of yore , and [dear old Whitehead]316-old whitehead trembled at [my]0-i voice , and so along [the great avenue]2901-the great avenue where [I]0-i had studied the manners and ways of every tree , and where [Tulip]521-tulip ( Nestor among deer ) came to stare at [us]2897-we with [his]521-tulip grey face silver in the moonlight . [Poor old friend]2902-poor old friend , [he]2902-poor old friend knew [me]0-i as well as [Giudice]475-giudice did , but [I]0-i could not stop to talk to [him]2902-poor old friend . Soon as the bell was rung the broad bolt of the great lock , which [I]0-i was once so proud to draw , flew back with suspicious promptitude . Albeit [he]2902-poor old friend had changed the cloth too ochrously described by [Sally]371-sally , for a suit of gentle gray , and had drawn out [his]2902-poor old friend face to a most unjovial length , and assumed an attitude of very profound respect , there [he]2902-poor old friend was , quite unmistakeable to observant eyes , [the Bacchanalian Bob]522-bob . " And please , Miss"—after[2902-poor old friend] [he]2902-poor old friend had fussed awhile—"what train did [you]0-i please to come by ? [I]2902-poor old friend understand that [the carriage]6087-the carriage has been waiting [there]1114-there all day ; indeed , [I]2902-poor old friend saw it come back from the pantry window [myself]2902-poor old friend , and [they]7098-they said in [the yard]5978-the yard [the last train]7100-the last train was in afore [they]7098-they come away . "[2902-poor old friend] " [I]2902-poor old friend came by [the train]7101-the train that ought to be there at half - past ten o'clock . "[2902-poor old friend] " Well to be sure ! That must be the very train as [Samuel]404-samuel and [Humphry]523-humphry said [they]7098-they waited for ; but [they]7098-they never has much judgment , [them]7098-they [two men]7102-two men . And to let [you]0-i come in a common fly , [Miss]5433-miss ! "[2902-poor old friend] " [I]2903-strange servants saw [[my]2903-strange servants father]731-my father 's carriage at [the station]2317-the station , and [two low - looking servants]7106-two low - looking servants quite tipsy . [Their]7106-two low - looking servants names , however , were not [Samuel]404-samuel and [Humphry]523-humphry , but [Jacob]519-jacob and [Robert]327-robert . "[2903-strange servants] [Strange servants]2903-strange servants now came thronging round , with an obsequiousness so long unknown that it quite disgusted [me]0-i . [No familiar face among [them]2903-strange servants]2904-no familiar face among them , none whom [I]0-i could bring [myself]0-i to ask how [[my]0-i guardian]912-my guardian was . But from [their]2903-strange servants servility to [me]0-i [I]0-i concluded that [his]912-my guardian time was short . " Will [you]0-i step into [the small drawing - room]7107-the small drawing - room , if [you]0-i be so kind , [Miss]5433-miss ? There is a good fire there , [Miss]5433-miss , and [a lady]5829-a lady waiting for [you]0-i . "[0-i] " Thank [you]0-i . Take [my]2906-the officious bob things to [[my]2906-the officious bob own little room]7111-my own little room , if [you]0-i please ; that is , if [you]0-i know [which room]7112-which room was called [mine]2906-the officious bob . "[2906-the officious bob] " [Tilly]409-patty knows , [Miss.]2105-miss. [I]2906-the officious bob 'll run and fetch [Tilly]409-patty , "[2906-the officious bob] cried [the officious Bob]2906-the officious bob . " If [Matilda Jenkins]524-matilda is still [here]846-here , let [her]524-matilda answer [my]2906-the officious bob bell as long as [I]2906-the officious bob remain . "[2906-the officious bob] And therewith [I]0-i was shown into [the room where [the lady]1431-the lady was expecting [me]0-i]2907-the room where the lady was expecting me . [She]1431-the lady sat with [her]1431-the lady back to the door , and [I]0-i could only see that [she]1431-the lady was richly attired in full evening dress . There was a powerful smell of vinegar in [the room]823-the room , and two pastiles were burning . As [I]0-i walked round the table [she]1431-the lady rose with some reluctance , and [I]0-i confronted [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy . [We]2910-we stood for a moment , examining [each other]734-each other . [She]1431-the lady was fattening nicely on what [she]1431-the lady called " holy converse and spiritual outpourings at [Cheltenham]108-cheltenham . "[1431-the lady] [She]1431-the lady rushed forward with great enthusiasm . " Why , [Clara]293-clara , [darling]6257-darling , is it possible ? Can this be [you]293-clara — so grown , and improved in every way ? [I]1431-the lady never should have known [you]293-clara , [I]1431-the lady do declare ! Why , [you]293-clara have quite a brilliant colour , and [your]293-clara eyes , and [your]293-clara hair — oh dear , how proud [[your]293-clara sweet mother]7116-your sweet mother would have been ! [You]293-clara lovely creature , [I]1431-the lady must have a kiss ! What , not even [your]293-clara pretty hand ? "[1431-the lady] " No , [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy ; never more [my]1431-the lady hand to [a person who dared to insult [[my]1431-the lady father]731-my father . [Me]1431-the lady [you]293-clara might have insulted a thousand times , and [I]1431-the lady would have forgiven [you]293-clara]7117-a person who dared to insult my father . me you might have insulted a thousand times , and i would have forgiven you . "[1431-the lady] " Come now , let bygones be bygones , that 's a dear . Oh for a little more of the essence of [Christianity]525-christianity ! Let [us]7119-us stoop to the hem of the garment of [the meek]7120-the meek and lowly"—I[1431-the lady] will not write the sacred name [she]2912-you used—"let [[us]7119-us poor grovelling [fellow - sinners]7122-fellow - sinners]7121-us poor grovelling fellow - sinners — "[1431-the lady] " Do n't couple [me]0-i with [yourself]293-clara , [I]0-i beg . "[0-i] [I]0-i was losing [my]0-i temper , and [she]2912-you saw [her]2912-you advantage . " Not even as [a sinner]7123-a sinner , [dear]5871-dear ? [I]2912-you thought in [my]2912-you humility that [we]7119-us all were [sinners]7125-sinners . "[2912-you] " So [we]7119-us are ; but [not all hypocrites]7126-not all hypocrites . "[2912-you] [She]2912-you kept [her]2912-you temper wonderfully , in all except [her]2912-you eyes . " Ah , [[you]5871-dear impetuous [young people]7128-young people]7127-you impetuous young people can not understand the chastened lowly heart , which nothing but heavy trials and the grace of [God]303-god produce . [You]5871-dear know , [Clara]293-clara , [you]5871-dear never could . "[2912-you] This last truth was put in the form of an exclamation , and in such a different tone from the rest , moreover it was so true , that [I]0-i could hardly help smiling . " Since last [I]0-i saw [you]2912-you , [I]0-i have been tried severely and chastised most heavily . [I]0-i bow to the rod . All works together for [our]7119-us spiritual good . Until that blessed day , when all the sheaves — "[0-i] " [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy , [I]2913-i as well have seen and suffered much since last [we]7119-us met . If [I]2913-i could not be hoodwinked then by this sham religion , is it likely that [I]2913-i can be now ? [I]2913-i wonder that [you]2912-you waste [your]2912-you time so . "[2913-i] The truth was that [she]2913-i talked in this strain less from hope than habit . " Then if [I]2913-i must treat [you]2912-you , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara , but as [a sister worldling]7129-a sister worldling , let [us]7119-us at least combine , for [Providence]319-providence has seen fit to make [our]7119-us interests the same . "[2913-i] " How so ? "[0-i] [I]0-i was doing [my]0-i utmost to bear with [her]2913-i awhile . " First , before [I]2913-i tell [you]2912-you anything , have [you]2912-you as keen an eye for the perception of [your]2912-you own sweet interest as for the discovery of what [you]2912-you kindly call ' hypocrisy ? ' [Ah]7130-ah well , it is all for [my]2913-i good . "[2913-i] [Her]2913-i rolling compendious eyes glistened at the thought that [she]2913-i was about to catch [me]0-i here . [I]0-i pretended to be caught already . " What of it , if [I]0-i have ? "[0-i] " Then [I]2913-i will tell [you]2912-you something . Sit down by [me]2913-i , [Clara]293-clara . "[2913-i] " Thank [you]2912-you , [I]2913-i will stand . "[2913-i] " Now first , before [I]0-i tell [you]2912-you anything , [we]7131-we must make some little arrangement for [our]7131-we mutual benefit , and then resolve upon united action . [You]2912-you must give [me]0-i one little pledge . That being done [I]0-i will tell [you]2912-you everything , and it is of the last importance to [you]2912-you . "[0-i] " Is it about [[my]2913-i father]731-my father ? ' "[2913-i] No . It has nothing to do with [him]2914-him ; it is about [[your]0-i uncle]5339-your uncle , who now lies at the door of death . All , it is all for the best . There is , [I]0-i fear , no chance of [his]5339-your uncle recovery , and the disposal of [this splendid property]2916-this splendid property is in [our]2917-our hands , if [we]2917-our know how to play [our]2917-our cards , and if [we]2917-our act together . But there is no time to be lost . Only think , 15,000*l . * a year , for it is now worth every farthing of that , besides [this beautiful place]2918-this beautiful place . Why , [Clara]293-clara , all the pleasures of life will be at [our]2917-our feet ! " In [her]293-clara greedy excitement , [she]293-clara forgot all [her]293-clara piety ; but [I]293-clara liked [her]293-clara better so . In a moment [she]293-clara saw that [she]293-clara had laid [her]293-clara wicked heart too open . In [my]293-clara eyes there was no co - partner flash of avarice . "[293-clara] What is the matter with [[my]0-i poor uncle]2919-my poor uncle ? " "[2919-my poor uncle] First a paralytic stroke ; since that low gastric fever , and entire prostration . Do [you]0-i remember when [you]0-i came to [[your]0-i dear mother]5347-your dear mother 's funeral ? " "[0-i] Of course , [I]0-i do . " "[0-i] And could [you]0-i help observing how altered [he]2919-my poor uncle was even then ? The hour [he]2919-my poor uncle heard of [her]5347-your dear mother death , [he]2919-my poor uncle was seized with violent illness , yet [he]2919-my poor uncle would go out of [doors]2921-doors alone , on the very day of the funeral . Something then excited [him]2919-my poor uncle ; [he]2919-my poor uncle came [home]1102-home worse , and in the night was visited with a slight paralytic stroke . However , [he]2919-my poor uncle quite recovered the use of [his]2919-my poor uncle limbs for a time , though never [his]2919-my poor uncle former spirits — if [we]2923-we can call [them]2924-them spirits . For several months [he]2919-my poor uncle went about as usual , except that instead of a horse [he]2919-my poor uncle rode a quiet pony . [He]2919-my poor uncle saw to [the property]1112-the property , received the Michaelmas rents , and invested large sums of money both in land and the funds ; [he]2919-my poor uncle even commenced some great improvements , for [he]2919-my poor uncle has always been , as [you]2926-you know , [a most skilful and liberal steward and manager]2927-a most skilful and liberal steward and manager . " "[2919-my poor uncle] That [I]0-i never denied . There could not be a better one . " "[2919-my poor uncle] But suddenly , after no Christmas festivities ( for [he]2919-my poor uncle would hear of none , for the sake of [[your]2926-you dear mother]5347-your dear mother ) , [he]2919-my poor uncle was found on the morning of the last day in the year bolt upright in [his]2919-my poor uncle study chair , and fully dressed , with two pistols , loaded and cocked , on the table , no sign of life in [his]2919-my poor uncle face or pulse , [his]2919-my poor uncle body stiff yet limp , like a sand - bag tightly stuffed . [The man who found [him]2919-my poor uncle]2929-the man who found him described it better than [I]0-i can . ' [Poor master]2930-poor master , whichever way [I]0-i put [him]2919-my poor uncle , there [he]2919-my poor uncle stop , like a French dog doing tricks . '' " How terrible ! "[2919-my poor uncle] " Yes , but it was true . At first [they]7133-they thought it was catalepsy only ; but when that passed off , paralysis remained . [I]2929-the man who found him wanted to send for [you]2926-you at once . "[2929-the man who found him] Here [she]2929-the man who found him met , for [she]2929-the man who found him could not help it , but did not answer , [my]0-i gaze ; and [I]0-i knew it was a lie . " However , [I]2929-the man who found him was over - ruled ; and [[your]2926-you poor uncle]7134-your poor uncle lay bed - ridden , but in no actual danger , until this horrid low fever came . [He]7134-your poor uncle must have a frame of iron to have borne up as [he]7134-your poor uncle has . [The doctor]5643-the doctor says this fever is partly from the prostration of the nerves . "[2929-the man who found him] " Who is [the doctor]5643-the doctor ? "[0-i] [I]0-i felt almost as if [I]0-i could love [[my]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle . " [A very eminent man]7137-a very eminent man . [His]7137-a very eminent man name is [Churchyard]526-dr. churchyard . "[0-i] " That is not [[our]7138-our old medical man]7139-our old medical man . Where does [this gentleman]7140-this gentleman come from ? "[2929-the man who found him] " [Cheltenham]108-cheltenham , [I]0-i believe . "[0-i] " Surely , [you]0-i must know that , if [he]7140-this gentleman is [an eminent man]7141-an eminent man ; living [there]1114-there [yourself]0-i ! "[0-i] [I]0-i saw that [she]2932-she had brought [him]1271-my uncle . " Well , "[2932-she] [she]2932-she answered sharply , " it matters little where [he]7140-this gentleman comes from , and [I]2932-she have not verified [[his]7140-this gentleman residence]7143-his residence . [I]2932-she fear [all the doctors in [Europe]95-europe]7144-all the doctors in europe could not save [[your]0-i poor dear uncle]7145-your poor dear uncle . "[2932-she] And here ( from habit when death was thought of ) [she]2932-she fell into the hypocritical vein once more—"Ah , how true it is ! The thing that will most avail [him]1271-my uncle now , when [his]1271-my uncle poor sinful frame is perishing , and [the old man with all its works]7146-the old man with all its works — "[2932-she] " Thank [you]2932-she . [I]2932-she know all that . [Which room]7112-which room does [[my]2932-she uncle]1271-my uncle occupy ? "[2932-she] " Surely , [you]2932-she never would think of disturbing [him]1271-my uncle at midnight ! "[2932-she] " Does death look what o'clock it is ? If [he]1271-my uncle is really dying , [I]2932-she must see [him]1271-my uncle at once . "[2932-she] [She]2932-she seemed resolved to prevent [me]0-i . [I]0-i was determined to do it . It is needless to tell all [her]2932-she stratagems , and needless to say ( unless [I]0-i have failed to depict [myself]0-i ) that they proved utterly vain . [I]0-i was only surprised that [she]2932-she did not come with [me]0-i . How vast [the rooms]2933-the rooms appeared to [me]0-i , how endless [the main passages]2934-the main passages , after the dimensions long familiar at [[Tossil]361-tossil 's Barton]5668-tossil 's barton , and [[Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's]2936-mrs. shelfer 's . [I]0-i even feared to lose the way , where [my]0-i childish feet had measured every step . First [I]0-i hurried to [[my]0-i own snug room]2937-my own snug room , or rooms — for [I]0-i had [parlour]2938-parlour and [bedroom]2939-bedroom adjoining — in [the western wing]2940-the western wing , where [mother]739-mother used to live . Everything there was in beautiful order , a lamp and a good fire lighted ; and [Matilda Jenkins]524-matilda met [me]0-i at the door . Directly after [our]2942-our departure for [Devonshire]4-devonshire , [Mr. Vaughan]297-mr. edgar vaughan had thought fit to discharge all [the old servants]2943-the old servants , except [the housekeeper]6360-the housekeeper and [Matilda]524-matilda . [They]2943-the old servants were all in league against [him]297-mr. edgar vaughan , for [they]2943-the old servants could not bear that [the " rightful owners]7149-the " rightful owners , "[297-mr. edgar vaughan] whom [they]2943-the old servants had known so long , should be ejected . Moreover , [his]297-mr. edgar vaughan discipline was far more stern than [ours]2942-our ; for [[my]0-i father]731-my father and [mother]739-mother had always ruled by love . [The housekeeper]6360-the housekeeper , [a great friend of [mine]0-i]2948-a great friend of mine , was retained from respect and policy , and poor [Tilly]409-patty ( who entered life through a dust - bin ) from contempt of [her]409-patty insignificance . By that time [she]409-patty had risen to the rank of [scullery - maid]2949-scullery - maid and [deputy dishwasher]2950-deputy dishwasher ; now [she]409-patty had climbed in the social scale to the position of [under - housemaid]2951-under - housemaid . " Why , [Matilda]524-matilda , how well [you]524-matilda look , and how smart ! [I]409-patty declare [you]524-matilda are getting quite tall . [I]409-patty suppose the new times agree with [you]524-matilda better than the old . "[409-patty] " Oh do n't say that , [Miss Clara]293-clara , please do n't ! [I]2952-i 'd tear the gownd off [my]2952-i back"—looking[2952-i] savagely at the neat print—"if [I]2952-i thought it make [you]524-matilda think that . No , [I]2952-i gets a little more wages , but a deal more work , and [I]2952-i never gets a kind word . Oh it does [my]2952-i heart good to see [you]524-matilda here again , in [[your]524-matilda own house]7150-your own house , [[Miss Clara]293-clara dear]2276-miss clara dear , and evil to [them]7152-them as drove [you]524-matilda out"—and[2952-i] [she]2952-i lifted the corner of [her]2952-i new white muslin apron;—"and [I]409-patty have tended [[your]524-matilda rooms]7153-your rooms all [myself]409-patty , though it was n't in [my]409-patty part , and never let [no one else]5442-no one else touch them , ever since [I]409-patty was took from [the kitchen]5526-the kitchen , and always a jug full of flowers , [Miss]7156-miss , because [you]524-matilda was so fond of them . "[409-patty] " Thank [you]524-matilda , [Matilda]524-matilda . How kind of [you]524-matilda , to be sure ! "[409-patty] " Many 's the time [I]409-patty 've cried over them , [Miss]7157-miss , and the new shilling [you]524-matilda give [me]409-patty , when [we]7158-we was [little girls]7159-little girls together . But please to call [me]409-patty ' [Tilly]409-patty , ' [Miss]7160-miss , the same as [you]524-matilda always used . "[409-patty] " [I]409-patty ca n't stop to talk to [you]524-matilda now , [Tilly]409-patty ; how is [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher ? "[409-patty] " Quite hearty , [Miss]7161-miss , all but the rheumatics . Ah , [she]516-mrs. fletcher do suffer terrible from [them]7162-them . [Us]7158-we both waited up , [Miss]5433-miss , and [I]409-patty to and fro the door , till [the carriage]6087-the carriage come [home]1102-home ; and then [she]516-mrs. fletcher went off to bed , and [I]409-patty was up with [her]516-mrs. fletcher , and never knowed when [you]524-matilda come . But [she]516-mrs. fletcher 's getting up now , [Miss]5433-miss , to come here to see [you]524-matilda . "[409-patty] " Go and stop [her]516-mrs. fletcher , at once . [I]409-patty will see [her]516-mrs. fletcher to - morrow . Stop , show [me]409-patty first [[[your]524-matilda master]7167-your master 's room]7168-your master 's room ; knock gently and bring out [the nurse]7169-the nurse . [The doctor]5643-the doctor is gone [I]409-patty believe . "[409-patty] " Yes , [Miss]7171-miss , [he]5643-the doctor left [here]846-here at eight o'clock , for [he]5643-the doctor had a long way to drive , and [he]5643-the doctor could n't do nothing more . But [you]7171-miss must not go , [Miss]5433-miss , oh pray , [Miss]5433-miss , do n't go [there]1114-there ! "[409-patty] [We]2953-we went along [the passage]824-the passage , until [we]2953-we came to the door . [I]0-i was surprised to see a new door across [the lobby]2955-the lobby , very closely fitted . There was an inner door also , and [the nurse]7169-the nurse did not seem very wakeful . Instead of knocking again , [Matilda]524-matilda retreated hastily . At last [the nurse]7169-the nurse appeared , and [I]0-i found [her]7169-the nurse to be [a very respectable woman]2958-a very respectable woman , who had been with [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother , through several attacks of illness . A dark suspicion , which [I]0-i had scarcely confessed to [myself]0-i , was partly allayed hereby . After whispering for a few moments , [she]7169-the nurse led [me]0-i into [the dimly lighted room]2960-the dimly lighted room , and to [[my]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle 's bed . [I]0-i started back in terror . Prepared as [I]0-i was for a very great change , what [I]0-i saw astounded [me]0-i . The face so drawn and warped aside , withered and yet pulpy , with an undercast of blue ; the lines of the mouth so trenched and livid , that the screwed lips were like a bull's - eye in a blue diamond pane ; and the hair , so dark and curly when last [I]0-i saw [him]1271-my uncle , now shredded in patches of waxy gray . The only sign of life [I]0-i saw , was a feeble twitching of the bed - clothes , every now and then . The poor eyes were closed , hard , and wrinkled round ; one wasted arm lay on the quilt , the hand bent up at the wrist , the fingers clutched yet flabby , and as cold as death . It was a sight for human pride to cower at , and be quelled . " Is [he]1271-my uncle like this always ? "[7169-the nurse] " No , "[7169-the nurse] [she]7169-the nurse replied , " but [he]1271-my uncle has been so now for ten hours and more : generally [he]1271-my uncle is taken with pain and thirst , every six hours ; and it makes [my]7169-the nurse heart ache to hear [him]1271-my uncle moan and cry . "[7169-the nurse] " Does [he]1271-my uncle say anything particular then ? "[303-god] [God]303-god knows [I]0-i was not pursuing [my]0-i own fell purpose in asking this . Thank [Him]1271-my uncle , [I]0-i was not such [a fiend as that]2962-a fiend as that . All [I]0-i wished was to relieve [him]1271-my uncle whom [I]0-i pitied so . " Yes , [he]1271-my uncle opens [his]1271-my uncle eyes and stares , and then [he]1271-my uncle always says , and [he]1271-my uncle tries to shake [his]1271-my uncle head only [he]1271-my uncle is n't strong enough , ' [My]2963-my fault , ah [me]2963-my , [my]2963-my fault , and to rob [them]7176-them too ! If [I]2963-my could but see [her]2963-my , if [I]2963-my could but see [her]2963-my , and die ! ' [He]1271-my uncle always says that first , and then that exhausts [him]1271-my uncle so , [he]1271-my uncle can hardly say ' water ' after , and then [he]1271-my uncle moans so melancholy , and then [he]1271-my uncle goes off again . "[2963-my] The tears stood in [her]2963-my eyes , for [she]2963-my had a tender heart . [I]0-i burst into [my]0-i usual violent flood , for [I]0-i never have any half - crying . " Have [you]2963-my any medicine to give [him]1271-my uncle ? "[0-i] " No , [Miss]7177-miss , no more ; [he]1271-my uncle has taken a shopful already , though [he]1271-my uncle can only swallow at the time [he]1271-my uncle wakes up . [The doctor]5643-the doctor said to - night [he]1271-my uncle could do no more ; this awful black fever must end in mortification ; no medicine moves it at all . "[2963-my] " Did [the doctor]5643-the doctor call it black fever ? "[2963-my] " Yes , the very worst form of typhus of [the real Irish type]7180-the real irish type , such as [they]5643-the doctor have had once or twice in [Manchester]109-manchester . It has settled most on the stomach , but all the blood is poisoned . "[0-i] And [she]2963-my sprinkled [herself]2963-my , and the bed again , with disinfecting fluid , and threw some over [me]0-i . " Excuse [me]2963-my , [Miss]5433-miss , [you]5433-miss would n't allow [me]2963-my , so [I]2963-my am bound not to ask [you]5433-miss . [You]5433-miss know [you]5433-miss came in dead against [my]2963-my will , and dead against all orders"—this[2963-my] was what the whispering had been about—"and if anything happens to [you]5433-miss , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara , who is to have all the property , but that bad [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy ? "[2963-my] Oh ! In a moment [I]0-i saw the whole ; though it was too black for belief , blacker than any fever that festers the human heart . This was the purpose with which [that woman]1232-that woman had sent for [me]0-i . [She]1232-that woman had lied to [me]0-i as to the character of the disease . [She]1232-that woman had opposed [me]0-i , because [she]1232-that woman knew it the surest way to urge [me]0-i . [She]1232-that woman had brought [me]0-i too at night , when fevers are doubly infectious . " [You]5433-miss see , [Miss]7182-miss , [we]7183-we are forced to keep the three windows open , and the passage doors all closed . It 's a wonder [I]1232-that woman had any of the fluid left , for [they]7184-they never sent it up this afternoon ; but [I]1232-that woman had a drop put by , no thanks to [them]7184-they for the same . [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy brought [the first nurse]7185-the first nurse , but [she]7185-the first nurse ran clean away when the fever took the turn ; and [they]7184-they were forced to send for [me]1232-that woman , for [nobody else]7186-nobody else would come near [him]1232-that woman . But [[my]1232-that woman poor old man]7187-my poor old man has no work , and [I]1232-that woman 've minded as bad a case as this , and [they]7184-they say [I]1232-that woman be fever - proof . But [you]5433-miss , [Miss]5433-miss , [you]5433-miss ; [I]1232-that woman should never forgive [myself]1232-that woman , if anything happened to [you]5433-miss , and in [your]5433-miss youth and bloom . Though [I]1232-that woman could not stop [you]5433-miss , [you]5433-miss know [I]1232-that woman did [my]1232-that woman best . And [they]7184-they say [you]5433-miss catch things most when [you]5433-miss come off a journey . "[1232-that woman] " [Jane]347-jane , whatever happens , [you]5433-miss are not to blame . [I]1232-that woman have no fear whatever ; and now [I]1232-that woman am here , [I]1232-that woman will stay . It is safer so , both for [myself]1232-that woman and [others]869-others . "[1232-that woman] " Well , [Miss]7190-miss , so [I]2965-i have heard say . Once in for it , keep to the air . But come into [this little room]7191-this little room , if [you]5433-miss want to talk to [me]2965-i , [Miss.]2105-miss. [We]7193-we can hear [the poor gentleman]7194-the poor gentleman move , or even sigh ; and the air is a little fresher there . But [we]7193-we must keep the window open . "[2965-i] [She]2965-i led [me]0-i into [the dressing room]2966-the dressing room ; but even there the same crawling creeping smell pervaded , as if a grave had been opened , when the ground was full of gas . Instead of talking to [the nurse]7169-the nurse , [I]0-i began to think . It broke upon [me]0-i vaguely , that [I]0-i had heard of some very simple remedy for a fever of this nature , and that [[my]0-i dear mother]5530-my dear mother , who in [her]5530-my dear mother prosperous times was [the village doctoress]2969-the village doctoress , had been acquainted with the case . But in the whirl of [my]0-i brain , [I]0-i could not bring to mind what it was . Oh what would [I]0-i give , only to think of it now ! Though not , [I]0-i am sorry to say , at all of a pious turn ( at least if [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy is so ) , in the strong feeling of the moment , [I]0-i fell upon [my]0-i knees , and prayed for help . So had [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother taught [me]0-i , and [Mother Nature]291-mother taught [me]0-i now . [I]0-i will not be so daring as to say that [my]0-i prayer was answered . Perhaps it was only that it calmed [my]0-i mind . " [Jane]347-jane , have [they]7195-they been brewing lately ? "[746-my mother] Alas the bathos ! But [I]0-i ca n't help it . " Yes , [Miss]7196-miss ; last Thursday and Friday . [They]7195-they wo n't let [me]0-i go near the kitchen part : but [I]0-i know it all the same . "[0-i] " Go and get [me]2971-me a nice jug of fresh yeast . [I]2971-me will watch [[your]347-jane master]7167-your master . "[2971-me] [She]2971-me stared , and hesitated ; but saw that [I]0-i was in earnest . " [I]0-i do n't know where to find it , [Miss]7198-miss ; and [none of [them]7195-they]774-none of them will come near [me]0-i ; and [they]7195-they 'll stop [me]0-i too if [they]7195-they can . Why [they]7195-they wo n't bring [my]0-i food to the door , but put it half - way down [the passage]824-the passage . [They]7195-they wanted to lock [me]0-i in , only [I]0-i would n't stand that ; and [they]7195-they break all the plates and dishes , and to - day [they]7195-they sent word that [my]0-i dinner must come in at the window to - morrow . "[0-i] " [Low cowards and zanies]7201-low cowards and zanies ! Now find the yeast , [Jane]347-jane , if [you]347-jane have to search for an hour . [They]7195-they must all be gone to bed now , except [Matilda Jenkins]524-matilda ; and [she]524-matilda dare not stop [you]347-jane if [you]347-jane say [you]347-jane have [my]347-jane orders . "[347-jane] " Bless [you]347-jane , [Miss]7202-miss ; [she]524-matilda 'll run away as if [I]0-i was a ghost . "[0-i] " Then call to [her]524-matilda , that [I]347-jane say [she]524-matilda must go to bed directly . "[347-jane] After a few more words , [Jane]347-jane went [her]347-jane way stealthily , like [a thorough - bred thief]2972-a thorough - bred thief ; and [I]0-i was left alone with [[my]0-i poor dying uncle]2973-my poor dying uncle . Wonderful as it seemed to [me]0-i , [I]0-i felt now a tender affection for [him]2973-my poor dying uncle , [I]0-i the resolute , [the consistent]2974-the consistent , [the bitter Clara Vaughan]293-clara . Even if [he]2973-my poor dying uncle had told [me]0-i that moment , that [he]2973-my poor dying uncle had plotted [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's death , [I]0-i would have perilled [my]0-i life for [his]2973-my poor dying uncle ; because [I]0-i should have known that [he]2973-my poor dying uncle was sorry . Yet [I]0-i was full of cold fear , lest [he]2973-my poor dying uncle should awake to consciousness , and utter that awful cry , while [I]0-i alone was with [him]2973-my poor dying uncle , in the dead hour of night . Sooner than [I]0-i expected , [the nurse]7169-the nurse came back with a jug of beautiful yeast , smelling as fresh as daybreak . [We]2977-we put it outside the window on the stone sill , to keep it cool and airy . [She]7169-the nurse had seen [no one]730-no one except [Matilda]524-matilda , who was waiting for [me]0-i , and crying dreadfully , predicting [my]0-i certain death , and [her]524-matilda own too ; if [she]524-matilda should have to attend [me]0-i . [She]7169-the nurse kept at a most respectful distance from [Jane]347-jane ; and , with all [her]7169-the nurse affection , was glad to be clear of [me]0-i for the night . For nearly two hours , [the nurse]7169-the nurse and [I]0-i sat watching , with hardly a spoken word , except that [I]0-i asked one question . " How often has [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy been to see [[my]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle ? "[0-i] " [She]312-mrs. daldy would hardly leave [his]1271-my uncle bedside , until the fever declared itself . Since then [she]312-mrs. daldy has not been once . "[527-broad] [Broad]527-broad awake at that strange hour , and in that strange way , [I]0-i began to pass through the stereoscope of [my]0-i brain the many strange slides of [my]0-i life . Of all of these , the last for the moment seemed the strangest . Suddenly [we]2980-we heard a low feeble moan . Running into [the bedroom]2981-the bedroom , there [we]2980-we saw [the poor sick one]2982-the poor sick one with [his]2982-the poor sick one eyes wide open , vainly attempting to rise . [I]0-i put [my]0-i arms around [him]2982-the poor sick one , and raised [him]2982-the poor sick one on the pillow . [He]2982-the poor sick one tried to say ' thank [you]0-i , ' for [he]2982-the poor sick one was always a gentleman in [his]2982-the poor sick one manners ; then [he]2982-the poor sick one gazed at [me]0-i with hazily wondering eyes . Then [he]2982-the poor sick one opened [his]2982-the poor sick one mouth in a spasmodic way , and began that bitter cry . Ere [he]2982-the poor sick one closed [his]2982-the poor sick one mouth again , [I]0-i poured well into [his]2982-the poor sick one throat a table - spoonful of yeast , handed to [me]0-i by [Jane]347-jane . To [my]0-i great pleasure , it glided beyond the black tongue ; and [I]0-i gave [him]2982-the poor sick one two more spoonfuls , while [he]2982-the poor sick one was staring at [me]0-i with a weak and rigid amazement . " No water , [Jane]347-jane , not a drop of water ! It will work far better alone . [He]2982-the poor sick one does n't know what it is , and [he]2982-the poor sick one thinks [he]2982-the poor sick one has had [his]2982-the poor sick one water . Keep [him]2982-the poor sick one thirsty that [he]2982-the poor sick one may take more . "[2982-the poor sick one] As [he]2982-the poor sick one lay thus in [my]0-i arms , [I]0-i felt that one side was icily cold , and the other fiery hot . [His]2982-the poor sick one face looked most ghastly and livid , but there was not that mystical gray upon it , like the earth - shine on the moon , which shows when the face of [man]5770-man is death 's mirror , and the knee of death on [man]5770-man 's heart . In a minute [he]2982-the poor sick one slid from [my]0-i grasp , down on the pillow again , and , with a long - drawn sigh , became once more stiff and insensible . [My]0-i hope was faint indeed , but still it was hope : if [he]2982-the poor sick one had hope 's vitality , [he]2982-the poor sick one might yet be saved . The rest of that night was passed by [the nurse]7169-the nurse and [myself]0-i in heavy yet broken sleep . [Jane]347-jane assured [me]0-i that there was no chance of [[my]0-i poor uncle]2919-my poor uncle becoming conscious again , for at least six hours . [I]0-i was loth to forego [my]0-i watch , and argued that the dose [we]2987-we had given might cut short this interval ; but lo — while [I]0-i kept repeating at weary and weary periods , that [I]0-i could do no harm , since [the physician]2988-the physician gave up , and [I]0-i might do good — sleep , [the lover of repetition]2989-the lover of repetition , laid [his]2989-the lover of repetition hand alike on [my]0-i formula and [myself]0-i . Dear [Judy]477-judy 's howl was in [my]0-i dream , and [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's never ceasing prattle . Cold and fresh was the morning air , and the open window invited the sounds of country life . Who could think of fever with the bright dew sparkling on [the lawn]2990-the lawn , the lilac buds growing fat enough to claim their right of shadow , the pleasant ring of the sharpening scythe , and the swishing sweep of the swathe ? From [the stable - yard]2991-the stable - yard , round the corner , came the soothing hiss of [the grooms]2992-the grooms , the short stamp of the lively steed ( [I]0-i fancied [I]0-i knew [my]0-i own favourite " [Lilla]528-lilla "[0-i] ) , and the gruff " Stand still , [mare]7204-mare , wull'e ? "[2994-the cowboy] Far down [the avenue]2993-the avenue whistled [the cowboy]2994-the cowboy , waddle - footed , on [his]2994-the cowboy way to [the clover leys]2995-the clover leys , or [the milkmaid]2996-the milkmaid sung with the pail on [her]2996-the milkmaid hip , and the deer came trooping and stooping [their]2997-their horns along . Was it not [one of [[my]0-i own pet robins]2999-my own pet robins , who hopped on the window - sill , peered bravely at [himself]2998-one of my own pet robins , who hopped on the window - sill , peered bravely at himself in the jug , and tried to remember the last of his winter notes in the jug , and tried to remember the last of [his]2998-one of my own pet robins , who hopped on the window - sill , peered bravely at himself in the jug , and tried to remember the last of his winter notes winter notes]2998-one of my own pet robins , who hopped on the window - sill , peered bravely at himself in the jug , and tried to remember the last of his winter notes ? But it is cold , [Jane]347-jane , very cold indeed ; and [we]3000-we have never been to bed ; and now [the mowers]3001-the mowers have descried [us]3000-we , why do [they]3001-the mowers stop [their]3001-the mowers work , and shake [their]3001-the mowers heads together so , and keep outside the ranunculus bed , and agree that the grass beneath [our]3000-we windows does not require cutting ? Why , if [they]3001-the mowers were [Papists]3002-papists , [they]3001-the mowers would cross [themselves]3001-the mowers , and that saves many an oath . But the grass does want cutting , [Jane]347-jane . It can not have been cut for a week . [I]0-i will call to [them]3001-the mowers . No , it might disturb [[my]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle . There is no sound from the bed - room yet : all deep and deadly silence . [I]0-i will go and see . There [[my]0-i patient]3004-my patient lies , just as when [I]0-i saw [him]3004-my patient first , except that [I]0-i have arranged the wreck of [his]3004-my patient hoary locks , and applied a lotion to [his]3004-my patient temple on the burning side . And yet , now [I]0-i look closer , the face is not quite so livid ; or is it the difference between the candle - light and the morning ray ? Even while [I]0-i looked , [he]3004-my patient started up , as if [my]0-i eyes revived [him]3004-my patient . [He]3004-my patient did not moan or cry ; but opened wide [his]3004-my patient filmy eyes , and gazed feebly and placidly at [me]0-i . For a time [he]3004-my patient did not know [me]0-i : then a great change gradually crept through [his]3004-my patient long faltering gaze . Fearing the effects of excitement upon [him]3004-my patient , [I]0-i tried to divert [his]3004-my patient attention by another good dose of yeast . Three times [he]3004-my patient took it with resignation like [a well - trained child]3005-a well - trained child , but [his]3004-my patient eyes all the time intent on [me]0-i . Presently [they]3006-they began to swim and swerve ; the effort of the faint blood - tissued brain and the exertion of swallowing had been too much for [his]3004-my patient shattered powers . [He]3004-my patient fell off again into the comatose state , but with a palpable difference . The pulse , which had throbbed on the hot side only , could now be felt most feebly moving in the other wrist , and the tension of the muscles was relaxed : circulation was being restored and balanced , and the breathing could now be traced , short as it was and irregular . [I]0-i have not time to describe all the symptoms of gradual improvement , and [I]0-i have not the medical knowledge needful to do so clearly . Enough that the six - hour interval was shortened that day by half , that the breathing became more regular , and a soft perspiration broke through the clogged and clammy pores . [Jane]347-jane wanted to second this by an additional blanket , but [I]0-i feared to allow it in a case of so utter prostration . When the perspiration was over , then [I]0-i prescribed the blanket for fear of a chill reaction . At every return of consciousness , [[our]3007-our patient]3008-our patient made an effort to speak , but [I]0-i hushed [him]3004-my patient with [my]0-i hand on [his]3004-my patient lips , and [he]3004-my patient even managed to smile , when [he]3004-my patient found that [I]0-i would be obeyed . In the evening [he]3004-my patient tried to open [his]3004-my patient arms to [me]0-i , and then tried to push [me]0-i away , in some faint recollection of the nature of [his]3004-my patient disorder . To [me]0-i the interest was so intense , and the delight so deep , that if [I]0-i had lost [him]3004-my patient now , it would surely have broken [my]0-i heart . At sunset of that day , as [nurse]3009-nurse and [I]0-i sat near [the dressing - room]3010-the dressing - room window , watching the slant rays flickering on the sward , and the rooks alighting and swinging over [their]3011-their noisy nests , a black cloud hung for a moment just above the sun , a black cloud with a vivid edge of gold . It tempered the light in a peculiar manner , and seemed to throw it downwards . Peering through [my]0-i fingers at it , for it was very beautiful , [I]0-i saw a whitish mist or vapour steaming and hovering above the disk of the setting sun , between [my]0-i eyes and that golden marge . [I]0-i wondered what this could be ; there was no heat to cause strong evaporation , nor any mist or dewy haze about , nor was the sun " drawing water . "[0-i] But what [I]0-i saw was like that trembling twinkle of the air , which [we]3012-we often observe on [a meadow footpath]3013-a meadow footpath in the hot forenoon of July . [I]0-i drew [Jane]347-jane 's attention to it , not expecting any solution , but just for something to say . " Dear [me]0-i , [Miss]7205-miss , do n't [you]347-jane know what that is ? [I]0-i see it every evening ; it will be twice as plain when the sun goes down , and then it will be quite white . "[0-i] " Well , what is it ? Why ca n't [you]347-jane tell [me]0-i ? Is everything here a secret ? "[0-i] [I]0-i was rather irritable , but vexed with [myself]0-i for being so . Too much excitement and too little sleep were the causes . " No , [Miss]7206-miss , there 's no secret at all about that . [Every one]1982-every one knows what that is . It 's only the scum that rises through the grass from the arched pool that takes all the drains of [the house]764-the house . Some of the arch fell in [they]7209-they say , and the ground shakes when [they]7209-they mow it ; [they]7209-they are afraid to roll there . "[0-i] " Is it possible ? And [you]347-jane knew it , [a practised nurse like [you]347-jane]7210-a practised nurse like you ! Did [[my]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle know it ? "[0-i] " [I]0-i am sure , [Miss]7212-miss , [I]0-i ca n't tell : most likely not , or [he]1271-my uncle would have had it mended , [he]1271-my uncle hates things out of repair . But it ca n't do any harm , with the mould and the grass above it . "[0-i] " Ca n't it indeed ? And [you]7212-miss can see it rise . Shut all the bedroom windows in a moment , [Jane]347-jane . [I]3014-she 'll shut this . "[3014-she] [She]3014-she thought [my]0-i wits were wandering , from what [I]0-i had gone through ; nevertheless [she]3014-she obeyed [me]0-i . It happened that [I]0-i had attended , at [Isola]428-isola 's urgent request , one lecture of the many delivered by [Dr. Ross]470-dr. ross . [She]428-isola forgot what the subject was to be . It proved to be an unsavoury and " unlady - like "[428-isola] one — [Mephitis]529-mephitis . [Isola]428-isola wanted to run away , but [I]0-i have none of that nonsense about [me]0-i , when human life is concerned , and listened with great attention , and even admiration ; for [he]470-dr. ross handled the matter eloquently and well . " Now , [Jane]347-jane , throw all the doors open , and the lobby window that looks in the other direction . When do [you]7212-miss think it will be possible to move [[our]7213-we poor patient]7214-our poor patient from [these rooms]7215-these rooms ? The air here is deadly poison . "[470-dr. ross] " Well [I]7169-the nurse 'm sure , [Miss]7216-miss ! And [he]7214-our poor patient could n't have a nicer nor [a more airy room]7217-a more airy room ; and all [my]7169-the nurse things in order too , and so handy , and so many cupboards ! "[7169-the nurse] " Out of this poison [he]7214-our poor patient must go . When can [he]7214-our poor patient be moved ? "[7169-the nurse] " Well , [Miss]7218-miss , [he]7214-our poor patient might be moved to - morrow , if [we]7213-we could only get plenty of hands , and do it cleverly . "[470-dr. ross] " Surely [we]7213-we can have plenty of hands . There used to be [twenty - five servants]7219-twenty - five servants [here]846-here ; and [I]7169-the nurse have not heard that [[my]7169-the nurse uncle]1271-my uncle has lessened the number . "[7169-the nurse] " No , [Miss]7222-miss ; but save and keep [us]7213-we , [we]7213-we sha n't get one of [them]7219-twenty - five servants [here]846-here . "[7169-the nurse] " Nonsense ! [I]7169-the nurse will have [them]7219-twenty - five servants , or [they]7219-twenty - five servants leave [the house]764-the house . Of course [I]7169-the nurse wo n't peril [their]7219-twenty - five servants lives . [We]7213-we shall only want two or three ; and [they]7219-twenty - five servants may take a bath of disinfecting stuff , with all [their]7219-twenty - five servants clothes on , before [they]7219-twenty - five servants come ; and [they]7219-twenty - five servants may smoke all the while . "[7169-the nurse] [The nurse]7169-the nurse laughed grimly , and shook [her]7169-the nurse gray head . " And [we]7213-we will fumigate , [Jane]347-jane , fumigate tremendously . Surely [Englishmen]7225-englishmen have more self - respect than to be [such babies]7226-such babies , and [you]347-jane [a woman]5830-a woman , and [I]7169-the nurse [a girl]2251-a girl , shaming [them]7219-twenty - five servants out of face . "[7169-the nurse] " It does n't matter , [Miss]7229-miss ; [they]7219-twenty - five servants wo n't come . [I]7169-the nurse know [them]7219-twenty - five servants well , the lot [I]7169-the nurse mean that are in [the house]764-the house now . "[7169-the nurse] " Very well , [Jane]347-jane , [we]7213-we 'll have [Gamekeeper Hiatt]530-gamekeeper hiatt , and [[his]7231-his eldest son]7232-his eldest son ; [they]7219-twenty - five servants are [men]1003-men [I]7169-the nurse know . And if that is not enough , [we]7213-we 'll send to [Gloucester]23-gloucester for [Thomas Henwood]321-thomas henwood . But why do n't [you]347-jane open the lobby door , as [I]7169-the nurse told [you]347-jane ? "[7169-the nurse] " If [you]347-jane please , [Miss]7234-miss , [I]7169-the nurse ca n't . [They]7219-twenty - five servants have fastened it outside . "[7169-the nurse] " Do [you]347-jane mean to say that [they]7219-twenty - five servants have dared to lock [us]7213-we in ? "[7169-the nurse] " Indeed [I]7169-the nurse do , [Miss]7235-miss ; [we]7213-we have been fastened in since the morning . "[7169-the nurse] " And pray , why did [you]347-jane not tell [me]7169-the nurse ? ' "[7169-the nurse] Because [I]0-i feared to excite [you]3016-you , [Miss.]448-miss. [I]0-i know [your]3016-you temper when [you]3016-you are wronged , ever since [you]3016-you was that high ; and in this fever air , excitement is sure to kill [you]3016-you . [Brutes]3017-brutes ! But [I]0-i suppose [they]3017-brutes do n't know it . " "[3017-brutes] [They]3017-brutes know it well ; at least [the master - spirit]3018-the master - spirit does . And for that very reason [I]0-i will crush [my]0-i indignation . Since [I]0-i was that high , [Jane]347-jane , [I]0-i have passed through much tribulation , and have dropped [my]0-i lady - heiress tone . [I]0-i can now command [myself]0-i . " "[0-i] Then , [Miss]3019-miss , [I]0-i will show [you]3019-miss what [they]3017-brutes sent this morning , round the handle of the coffee - jug . [I]0-i was afraid to let [you]3019-miss see it before . " [She]516-mrs. fletcher gave [me]0-i a twist of paper , on which was written as follows : — "[0-i] For the safety of [the household]870-the household , [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher orders that [the persons in [the fever - room]3022-the fever - room]3021-the persons in the fever - room be allowed no communication with [the other servants]3023-the other servants . The intercepting door is fastened , because a most sinful un - Christian act was perpetrated last night . Due supplies will be delivered once a - day , at 10 A.M. No empty vessels and no correspondence received . Any attempt to break these rules will be punished by suspension of supplies . [Servants]6349-servants are forbidden to come beneath [the sick - room]3025-the sick - room windows . May [the Lord]5815-the lord have [you]3019-miss in [His]5815-the lord keeping , in [His]5815-the lord tender mercy , according to [His]5815-the lord holy will . [You]3019-miss are requested to read Philippians i. 8 - 11 inclusive . There are three holy bibles on the drawers and dressing - tables . " When [I]303-god had read this , and perceived , by the blasphemy at the end , that it could proceed from no other than [that awful woman]7236-that awful woman , [I]303-god confess that [my]303-god spirit was cowed within [me]303-god . Not from selfish fear , nor yet from the taming of passion , but from the lowering thought that [I]303-god belonged to the same race of being as [the author of such Satanity]7237-the author of such satanity . Presently , [I]303-god became too indignant to speak , or even think . It added , if that were possible , to [my]303-god indignation , that [I]303-god had seen [her]7236-that awful woman leave [the house]764-the house , about nine o'clock that morning , in [[our]7239-our best close carriage]7240-our best close carriage . [She]7236-that awful woman kept the windows up until [she]7236-that awful woman was past [the lawn]2990-the lawn and the light iron gates , beyond the arcade of roses ; then , at the first turn in [the avenue]2993-the avenue , [she]7236-that awful woman let down the glass and gracefully kissed [her]7236-that awful woman hand to [me]303-god . [I]303-god did not believe , however , that [she]7236-that awful woman was gone back to [Cheltenham]108-cheltenham . With so much at stake in [[our]7239-our house]1160-our house , and depending on [her]7236-that awful woman direction , [she]7236-that awful woman would surely stop in [the neighbourhood]5329-the neighbourhood , if only to watch the course of events . Sooner than [I]303-god dared to expect , [I]303-god regained the command of [myself]303-god ; horror within [me]303-god was stronger than wrath , and stronger than either became the resolve to survive and win . "[303-god] There can be no [God]303-god , " [I]303-god exclaimed , in [my]303-god presumptuous ignorance , "[303-god] if this scheme of the devil is permitted to triumph . " First [I]303-god tried the door , which severed [us]7239-our from [the rest of [the house]764-the house]7245-the rest of the house . [[[My]303-god uncle]1271-my uncle 's rooms]7248-my uncle 's rooms were in [the western wing]2940-the western wing , very near those which [[my]303-god dear mother]5530-my dear mother had occupied , and not very far from [my]303-god own . They formed one floor of the western gable ; the three bedroom windows and that of [the dressing - room]3010-the dressing - room looked to the west , while the great lobby window , from which [I]303-god had seen [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy 's departure , looked southward along [the avenue]2993-the avenue , the curve of which could be seen also from the bedroom windows . An oaken door , at the end of the main passage , cut off [the rooms in this storey of the gable from all the rest of [the house]764-the house]7253-the rooms in this storey of the gable from all the rest of the house . This door [Jane]347-jane had left locked from the inside , fearing lest [others]869-others should lock [her]347-jane in , as [they]869-others had threatened to do . But now [we]7239-our found that a strong iron bolt had been fixed upon the outside , while [we]7239-our were asleep in the morning , and that [we]7239-our had no chance of forcing it . Next [I]303-god asked [Jane]347-jane , whether [she]347-jane thought that [the house]764-the house , now [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy was gone , would be still in the hands of [[our]7239-our enemies]7257-our enemies . Would not [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher at once re - assert [her]516-mrs. fletcher authority ? Might not [Matilda Jenkins]524-matilda be expected to fly to the rescue ? [The nurse]7169-the nurse , knowing all the politics of [[the servants]772-the servants ' hall]7260-the servants ' hall , assured [me]303-god that there was no hope of either of these events . [Robert]327-robert , [a drunken Wesleyan]7261-a drunken wesleyan , turned out of the sect in [Cheltenham]108-cheltenham , was [[Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy 's lieutenant]7262-mrs. daldy 's lieutenant , and would take all care of [Matilda]524-matilda , to whose good graces [he]327-robert had been making overture . As for [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher , [she]516-mrs. fletcher was probably in the same plight as [ourselves]7239-our . From what [I]303-god heard about [Robert]327-robert , [I]303-god began to believe that [he]327-robert had private orders to disown [me]303-god at [the station]2317-the station , for the double purpose of yielding a tit - bit of insolence , and warning of [my]303-god arrival . However , that mattered very little ; but out of [those rooms]7264-those rooms [I]303-god must get , either by door or by window ; and that , too , without delay . Do [they]7265-they expect to triumph so easily over [Clara Vaughan]293-clara ? And in [[[her]293-clara father]898-her father 's house]7267-her father 's house ? The windows were about twenty feet from the ground , as nearly as [I]303-god could guess , and [the rooms beneath]7268-the rooms beneath were empty . At once [I]303-god resolved to attempt an escape that way , and to do so before the moon , which was southing now , should shine on the western aspect . [Good Jane]531-jane was terrified at the thought ; and then , upon [my]303-god persisting , implored [me]303-god to let [her]531-jane make the attempt , if it must be made at all . "[303-god] Now , [Jane]531-jane , no more , if [you]531-jane please . [We]3027-we ca n't waste time about that . [You]531-jane have [a husband partly dependent upon [you]531-jane]3028-a husband partly dependent upon you , and [several children]3029-several children to think of . For [me]0-i [nobody]1116-nobody cares . " But [I]1116-nobody hoped [somebody]7269-somebody did . "[1116-nobody] And [you]531-jane know [I]0-i am far more active and much lighter than [you]531-jane are . Help [me]0-i out with the feather bed . " The little bed in [the dressing - room]3010-the dressing - room , which [she]531-jane had to sleep on , was speedily brought to the window , and dropped just underneath it . It fell upon the grass with a pleasing and quiet flop . Then the two strong bell - ropes , already cut down and plaited together , were tied round the bars of the double window sashes , the lower sash being thrown up to the full extent , the glass pressed quietly out with a pair of wet towels , and the splinters removed , so as not to cut the rope . The latter still failed to reach more than half - way to the ground , but [I]1116-nobody would venture the drop if [I]1116-nobody could only descend so far . After winding a linen sheet around [my]1116-nobody body and dress , with the end tied round one ankle , so as to leave [me]1116-nobody free use of [my]1116-nobody limbs , [I]1116-nobody sat upon the window - sill in the broad shadow , and calculated [my]1116-nobody chances . Should [I]1116-nobody begin the descent with face , or with back , to the wall ? Face to the wall [I]1116-nobody resolved on , for though [I]1116-nobody should have to drop backward so , yet what [I]1116-nobody feared most of all was having the back of [my]1116-nobody head crushed against [the house]764-the house . Next to this [I]1116-nobody dreaded a sprain of the ankle , but [all [our]7273-our family]7272-all our family are well - knit and straight in the joint . So [I]1116-nobody launched [myself]1116-nobody off , beginning as gently as could be , [Jane]531-jane having firm hold of one hand , until [I]1116-nobody was well on the voyage . Though not well versed in calisthenic arts , [I]1116-nobody got on famously almost as far as the end of the rope , keeping away from the wall by the over - saling of the window - sill , and the rapid use of [my]1116-nobody feet . Then [I]1116-nobody rested a moment on a projecting ledge — called , [I]1116-nobody believe , a "[1116-nobody] stringing - course"—and away hand below hand again . But [I]1116-nobody struck [my]1116-nobody knuckles terribly against that stringing - course , and very nearly lost hold from the pain of the blow ; then bending [my]1116-nobody body forward [I]1116-nobody gave one good push at the wall , and shutting both eyes , [I]1116-nobody believe , let go the rope altogether . Backward [I]1116-nobody fell , and rolled over upon the feather bed . [I]1116-nobody was not even stunned , but feared for a moment to try if [my]1116-nobody limbs were sound . There [I]1116-nobody sat and stripped off the winding sheet . Presently , up [I]1116-nobody got , and , in [my]1116-nobody triumph , alas ! could not help crying "[1116-nobody] All right , [Hurrah]532-hurrah ! " like [a foolish little child]7274-a foolish little child . In a moment [I]1116-nobody saw that [my]1116-nobody cry had been heard , where it should not have been . A rapid flitting of lights along the lower windows and in [the stableyard]7275-the stableyard , and [I]1116-nobody knew that chase would be given . But after leaving [[[my]1116-nobody father]731-my father 's house]7277-my father 's house in such a dignified manner , was it likely that [I]1116-nobody would give in and be caught ? Now , [Clara]293-clara , [you]293-clara could beat all [[your]293-clara nurses]7278-your nurses in running , off and away like the wind ! Away [I]1116-nobody went full speed towards the shade of [the avenue]2993-the avenue , while [Jane]531-jane had the wit to scream out of the window , "[1116-nobody] Help ! Help ! Here 's [the house]764-the house on fire ! " This made some little diversion ; [I]521-tulip had a capital start , and it was but half a mile to [the lodge where [old Whitehead]316-old whitehead lived]7280-the lodge where old whitehead lived . Once there , [I]521-tulip should care for [nobody]1116-nobody . [I]521-tulip must have escaped very easily , for [my]521-tulip feet seemed as swift as a deer 's ; but , as [my]521-tulip luck would have it , the light iron gates between [the lawn]2990-the lawn and [the park]892-the park were fastened . What on earth should [I]521-tulip do ? [I]521-tulip saw [men]1003-men running across [the lawn]2990-the lawn , and , what was worse , [they]1003-men saw [me]521-tulip . In vain [I]521-tulip pulled at the gates ; [they]1003-men rattled , but would not yield . Had [I]521-tulip owned true presence of mind , [I]521-tulip should have walked boldly up to [the men]5486-the men , and dared [them]1003-men to touch [me]521-tulip fresh from [the fever - room]3022-the fever - room . In the flurry of the moment [I]521-tulip never thought of that , but darted into the shrubbery , and crouched among thick laurels . Presently [I]521-tulip heard [them]5486-the men rush down [the main drive]7288-the main drive and begin the search , with some heavy swearing . [Two of [them]5486-the men]7289-two of them came to the very clump [I]521-tulip was hiding in , and pushed a pitchfork almost into [my]521-tulip side , but [the stupid fellows]7290-the stupid fellows had lanterns , which blinded [them]7290-the stupid fellows to the moonlight . On [they]7290-the stupid fellows went with grumblings and growlings , which told [me]521-tulip exactly where to shun [them]7290-the stupid fellows . Judging at length , from the silence , that the search had passed to the right , [I]521-tulip slipped from [my]521-tulip tangled lair , and glided away to the left , beyond the shrubbery spring , where a little gate , as [I]521-tulip knew , led to a glade in [the park]892-the park . The deep ha - ha which [I]521-tulip had feared to jump in the dark , because of the loose stones at the bottom , was here succeeded by a high oak paling , and probably through that gate had come [the murderer of [[my]521-tulip father]731-my father]921-the murderer of my father . With a cold shudder at the remembrance , [I]521-tulip stole along through [the shadowy places]7294-the shadowy places , and had almost reached the little gate , when [I]521-tulip saw [two of [the searchers]7296-the searchers]7295-two of the searchers coming straight towards [me]521-tulip . To the right of [me]521-tulip was [the park - paling]7297-the park - paling , on the left a breastwork of sod , which [I]521-tulip could not climb without being clearly seen ; to fly was to meet [the enemy]1677-the enemy ; should [I]521-tulip yield , and be baffled after all ; insulted too , most likely , for [I]521-tulip knew that [the men]5486-the men were tipsy ? In [my]521-tulip hand was the tightly - wound sheet , used as a rope to confine [my]521-tulip dress . [I]521-tulip had folded it short and carried it , on the chance of its proving useful . In a moment [I]521-tulip was under the palings in deep shadow , with the white sheet thrown around [me]521-tulip , falling from [my]521-tulip forehead , and draped artistically over the right arm . [Stock]533-stock still [I]521-tulip stood against the black boards , and two great coils of long black hair flowed down the winding sheet . [The men]5486-the men came up , tired of the chase , and grumbling ; and by [their]5486-the men voices [I]521-tulip knew [them]5486-the men for [[my]521-tulip good friends]2115-my good friends [Jacob]519-jacob and [Bob]522-bob . Suddenly , [they]5486-the men espied a tall , white figure , of tremendous aspect . [They]5486-the men stopped short , both tongue and foot , and [I]521-tulip distinctly heard [their]5486-the men teeth chatter . With a slow and spectral motion , [I]521-tulip raised [my]521-tulip draped white arm , and fetched a low , sepulchral moan . Down fell the lantern , and , with a loud yell , away went [the men]5486-the men , as hard as [their]5486-the men legs could carry [them]5486-the men . Laughing heartily , [I]521-tulip refolded [my]521-tulip sheet , and taking the short cut across [the park]892-the park to [the lodge where [old Whitehead]316-old whitehead lived]7280-the lodge where old whitehead lived , arrived , without having met even [[my]521-tulip old friend]7305-my old friend "[521-tulip] [Tulip]521-tulip . " [The old man]7306-the old man , in hot indignation , drew forth [his]7306-the old man battered musket — for [he]7306-the old man had once been in [the militia]7307-the militia — and swore that [he]7306-the old man would march upon [the — — rogues]7308-the — — rogues at once . Instead of that [I]521-tulip sent [him]7306-the old man for [the two Hiatts]7309-the two hiatts , and [the village constable]7310-the village constable ; and soon , without invitation , half [the village]981-the village attended . With [my]521-tulip torn dress tucked up by [good Mrs. Whitehead]316-old whitehead , and a hat on [my]521-tulip head , newly bought for [[her]316-old whitehead clean little grandchild]7312-her clean little grandchild , [I]521-tulip set forth again in the moonlight , at the head of [a faithful army]7313-a faithful army , to recover [[my]521-tulip native home]7314-my native home . [Hiatt]347-jane easily opened the gate , which had defied [my]521-tulip flurried efforts , and [we]7315-we presented [ourselves]7315-we at the main entrance , a force that would frighten [a castle]7316-a castle . It is needless to say that [we]7315-we carried all before [us]7315-we . The state of siege was rescinded , [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher and [Tilly]409-patty set free , all [the ringleaders]7317-the ringleaders turned away neck and crop , and what was far more important , [[my]521-tulip poor uncle]2919-my poor uncle removed , without being conscious of it , to [a sweet and wholesome room]7319-a sweet and wholesome room . The sturdy Gloucestershire yeomen scorned all idea of danger . Tired with all [my]521-tulip adventures , before [I]521-tulip slept that night — still near [[my]521-tulip uncle]1271-my uncle 's bed — two reflections came dreamily over [my]521-tulip mind . The first was a piece of vanity . "[521-tulip] Ah , [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy , [you]312-mrs. daldy little know [Clara Vaughan]293-clara ! " The second was , "[312-mrs. daldy] Dear [me]0-i , how [Conrad]427-conrad would be astonished at this ! And how strange that [[his]427-conrad father]1062-his father should thus have saved [[my]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle 's life ! For [he]427-conrad must have died , if left in [that noisome room]3034-that noisome room . " Before that week was over , [[my]427-conrad uncle]1271-my uncle could sit up in bed for a short time every day , being duly propped in a downy nest of pillows . One arm , however , remained quite impotent , and part of one side rigid and numb . [His]1271-my uncle recovery was slow and tedious , as might well be expected with [one who had been dragged not from the jaws but the very throat of death]7322-one who had been dragged not from the jaws but the very throat of death . For a long time also [his]1271-my uncle mind was feeble and dim , a mirror overcast by the vapours of the body . To [me]427-conrad , who am fond of observing , in [my]427-conrad own little childish way , it was interesting as well as delightful to note how , day by day , the mind and body , hand in hand , rose stronger . More than all was [I]427-conrad taught , and humbled in [my]427-conrad own conceit , by taking heed how tardily came back the power to guide and control the imagination . That object - glass of the mind — not achromatic even in first - rate intellects — had long been out of the focal distance from the lens of reason 's eye . Upon it had been glancing loose distorted images , rendered home imperfectly , if at all , to the retina of the brain . Herein its state was the very opposite to that of [my]427-conrad own phrenoscope . [I]427-conrad have no large imagination ; but the images it presents are vivid , and [I]427-conrad see well round them . Every one of them is not cast , but cut , on [my]427-conrad sensorium . Whether [I]427-conrad can strike them off in words — whether [my]427-conrad telegraph can print its message — is quite another question , and beside its purpose . Having rendered home to [me]427-conrad the idols ( oftentimes inverted , though distinct ) it leaves expression and judgment to do their best with the copyright . Now , both in fabric and in mould , [[my]427-conrad uncle]1271-my uncle 's mind was different . Naturally [his]1271-my uncle powers were far superior , but [he]1271-my uncle seemed to take no pride in them . No dark and settled purpose had ever thrown its shadow , and even its weight , upon them ; nor had [they]7324-they felt , so far as [I]427-conrad knew , the rough grasp of adversity . Therefore [they]7324-they were longer in recovering from the blow , than [I]427-conrad think [my]427-conrad own would have been . There were few things , among the many desired by [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy , which [she]312-mrs. daldy failed to reconcile with [her]312-mrs. daldy strong sense of religion . "[427-conrad] There is not one"—I have heard [her]312-mrs. daldy say—"not[427-conrad] one of the things [we]3035-we believe to be for [our]3035-we good , which [we]3035-we should scruple to lay before the Throne of Grace . Even the throbbings of [that little unregenerate heart"—Clara Vaughan]7325-that little unregenerate heart"—clara vaughan 's to wit , who had kicked [her]312-mrs. daldy that morning , quite by accident of course—"even[427-conrad] they are known and sifted there"—slight confusion of metaphor caused by strong conviction of sin—"Infinite[534-elder] mercy knows the things that be for [our]3035-we edification , and confirmation in the faith . Yes , [backsliding sinner]3036-backsliding sinner , the want of real heart - felt spiritual life can be supplied by prayer alone . Is it not so in [your]3037-your experience , [Elder]534-elder ? " "[534-elder] Prayer , [[my]0-i dear Madam]3038-my dear madam , and searching of the heart . Oh the depth of the wickedness of the unconverted heart ! " And [he]0-i took another glass of sherry . That night [I]516-mrs. fletcher remember [she]312-mrs. daldy worked very hard , for [her]312-mrs. daldy ; and the next day [she]312-mrs. daldy presented [me]516-mrs. fletcher with markers the size of a gallows , progged with many holes ; on one was done in cross - stitch , "[516-mrs. fletcher] Pray without ceasing , " and upon the other "[516-mrs. fletcher] Wrestle thou in prayer . Gen. xxxii . 24 . " Both of these [I]3039-i threw into the fire there before [her]312-mrs. daldy eyes . From this it will be clear , that in [her]312-mrs. daldy devotions [she]312-mrs. daldy still remembered [me]3039-i , and doubtless prayed in good Scriptural phraseology for [my]3039-i release from [this wicked world]7326-this wicked world . [Dr. Churchyard]526-dr. churchyard 's last report had raised [her]312-mrs. daldy terror to the highest pitch , and instead of wrestling in prayer , [she]312-mrs. daldy had run away in high panic , upon hearing that [the fever - nurse]7327-the fever - nurse was seen at large the night before . "[3039-i] [We]3039-i must use the means of grace , " [she]312-mrs. daldy said to [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher , before [she]312-mrs. daldy locked [her]516-mrs. fletcher in , "[516-mrs. fletcher] and accept the mercies vouchsafed to [us]3039-i . And it would be sinful , dear [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher , in [me]0-i to neglect such a warning as this . " It was wise , as well as righteous , in [her]312-mrs. daldy to keep aloof for a time , while [her]312-mrs. daldy devices worked [their]7328-their consummation . For the present it appeared to [me]516-mrs. fletcher that [they]7328-their were failing signally . [[My]516-mrs. fletcher uncle]1271-my uncle was regaining strength of mind and body ; while native air , a sense of triumph , and daily exercise , kept [me]516-mrs. fletcher in blooming health . [[My]516-mrs. fletcher patient]3004-my patient , who otherwise could hardly bear [me]516-mrs. fletcher to leave [him]1271-my uncle for an hour , insisted upon [my]516-mrs. fletcher taking a long ride every day . [Lilla]528-lilla was charmed , and so was [I]516-mrs. fletcher , with the sweet spring air , and the rich familiar scenery . And how it did make [me]516-mrs. fletcher eat ! Thankful indeed [I]516-mrs. fletcher ought to be , and am , that it pleased [God]303-god to spare [me]516-mrs. fletcher that awful and deadly pestilence . But the worst injury done by [canting hypocrites]7331-canting hypocrites is , that the repulsion [they]7331-canting hypocrites create drives away [others]869-others from good . Truly [I]516-mrs. fletcher may say , that for days after being in contact with that slimy sanctity , [I]516-mrs. fletcher could not say [my]516-mrs. fletcher own prayers , as [a little child]962-a little child should do . Of that fever there had been three fatal cases in [the village]981-the village , before it entered [[our]7335-our house]1160-our house ; and [I]516-mrs. fletcher found that it was spreading rapidly . With [[my]516-mrs. fletcher uncle]1271-my uncle 's authority , [I]516-mrs. fletcher had the drainage surveyed and amended at once ; and so the pest was stayed . Of course [we]7335-our did not neglect [our]7335-our own weak point ; and the crawling noisome smell was no longer perceived in [the room]823-the room , nor the white vapour on the grass . And so three weeks went by ; no news from [London]1-london or [Devonshire]4-devonshire , no explanation between [[my]516-mrs. fletcher uncle]1271-my uncle and [myself]516-mrs. fletcher , no arrangements as to [my]516-mrs. fletcher expectations in life . As yet [[my]516-mrs. fletcher uncle]1271-my uncle was too weak to bear any sort of excitement , and seemed desirous only to be passive in [my]516-mrs. fletcher hands . [His]1271-my uncle eyes always followed [me]516-mrs. fletcher to every part of [the room]823-the room , and [he]1271-my uncle would even be propped on the sofa to see [me]516-mrs. fletcher ride down [the avenue]2993-the avenue ; and there [I]516-mrs. fletcher always found [him]1271-my uncle watching for [my]516-mrs. fletcher return . Meanwhile [I]516-mrs. fletcher yearned to be once more in [a certain little room]7343-a certain little room with a north aspect , opposite [a cheesemonger 's shop in [an obscure street of [London]1-london]7345-an obscure street of london]7344-a cheesemonger 's shop in an obscure street of london . Nightly [I]516-mrs. fletcher dreamed of [Giudice]475-giudice , and daily [I]516-mrs. fletcher dreamed of dear [Isola]428-isola and [Conrad]427-conrad . The dog in [the stableyard]7275-the stableyard , who had hitherto owned no especial attractions for [me]516-mrs. fletcher , suddenly found [himself]1271-my uncle petted , and coaxed , and fed ( which [he]1271-my uncle thought much more of ) to the scandal of [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher , and the great alarm of [the grooms]2992-the grooms , who would rather not have [me]516-mrs. fletcher [there]1114-there . Moreover , the dog [himself]1271-my uncle , though [I]516-mrs. fletcher strove to invest [him]1271-my uncle with every chivalrous attribute , was of a low and ungenial order , adorned with no graces of mind , and little taste , except for bones and gravy . But perhaps [my]516-mrs. fletcher standard was too high : peradventure [I]516-mrs. fletcher even commenced with more prejudice than a bulldog 's . Be that as it may — and if [I]516-mrs. fletcher can see round things , [I]516-mrs. fletcher ought to see round [myself]516-mrs. fletcher — every day fell heavier and heavier from the fair balance of time ; and every night the stars — for there was now no moon — looked wearier in the heavens , and less inclined for business . How long , how long shall [you]7349-you go round the pole in [your]7349-you steady pacing way , as if the sky were for auction , and [you]7349-you were pacing [the lots]7350-the lots ; while [I]516-mrs. fletcher , with more fire in [me]516-mrs. fletcher than [you]7349-you can strike or steal , am ditched like [a glow - worm kicked under a dock - leaf]7351-a glow - worm kicked under a dock - leaf , and see no polestar at all ? Here is [May]355-margery daw , the height of May : [I]516-mrs. fletcher am full of life and spirit : the garb of death , like an April cloud , blows over . Let [me]516-mrs. fletcher see . Last birthday [I]516-mrs. fletcher was eighteen : [I]516-mrs. fletcher have known more troubles than years , and enjoyed no youth as yet . Last year [I]516-mrs. fletcher spent in growing , and pining , and starving . Now the Power , that balances [earth]1622-earth and [heaven]1555-heaven , has filled [me]516-mrs. fletcher with joy and light . Neither am [I]516-mrs. fletcher renegade to [my]516-mrs. fletcher life , in opening wide [my]516-mrs. fletcher heart to this flood of love and happiness . Still am [I]516-mrs. fletcher set upon one strong purpose . Still am [I]516-mrs. fletcher sworn , and will not repent , that if filial duty demand it , [I]516-mrs. fletcher will trample love under [my]516-mrs. fletcher feet , and cut the throat of happiness . During most of this time , [I]516-mrs. fletcher had no idea where [the queen of hypocrites]7354-the queen of hypocrites was ; though doubtless [she]7354-the queen of hypocrites knew all that was happening to [us]7355-us . As soon as [he]7356-he heard of [[my]516-mrs. fletcher uncle]1271-my uncle 's surprising rally , [Dr. Churchyard]526-dr. churchyard came over , and claimed all the merit for [his]7356-he own last prescription . Brought face to face with the awkward fact that the medicine had not been procured , [he]7356-he was not in the least disconcerted , but found that [we]7355-us had misunderstood [him]7356-he , the prescription to which [he]7356-he referred was the one before the last . At any rate , [he]7356-he enhanced [his]7356-he own fame immensely , and became "[516-mrs. fletcher] instrumental under Providence " in killing [more people]7358-more people than ever . In reply to [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher , for [I]521-tulip would not deign to ask [him]7356-he , [he]7356-he stated that [the excellent and devoted Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy had not been seen lately in [Cheltenham]108-cheltenham . [[Her]312-mrs. daldy son]1218-her son , however , was there , and foremost in the ranks of [Pump - room Lady - killers]7360-pump - room lady - killers . Just what [he]1218-her son was fit for . [The doctor]5643-the doctor entertained a belief , and spread the report in [Cheltenham]108-cheltenham , that [Dorcas]535-dorcas was lodged in [a humble cot among the haunts of pestilence]7362-a humble cot among the haunts of pestilence , imperilling [her]535-dorcas life and lavishing [her]535-dorcas substance to relieve the fever - stricken . This being more than [I]521-tulip could stand , [I]521-tulip asked [the worthy doctor]7363-the worthy doctor — who , after all , was [a man of [the world]798-the world]7364-a man of the world — what [three wealthy persons]7366-three wealthy persons [Dorcas]535-dorcas had carried with [her]535-dorcas . At first [he]7363-the worthy doctor feigned not to understand [me]521-tulip , then looked sly , and changed the subject cleverly . Of course [I]521-tulip referred to the well - known fact , that [she]535-dorcas supported [her]535-dorcas grandeur and [[her]535-dorcas son]1218-her son 's extravagance by playing an admirable rubber . [She]535-dorcas was playing a better one now . [Dr. Churchyard]526-dr. churchyard finished by writing another prescription , which , after [his]526-dr. churchyard departure , [I]521-tulip handed to [the husband of [Venus]536-venus]7368-the husband of venus , [legitimate disposer of mineral medicines]7369-legitimate disposer of mineral medicines . [London]1-london ! [London]1-london ! was still the cry of [my]521-tulip heart ; and was [I]521-tulip not summoned thither by duty long ago ? What might become , during all this time , of [the man whom [I]521-tulip was bound to watch at every turn , and whom [I]521-tulip was now in a better condition to deal with]7370-the man whom i was bound to watch at every turn , and whom i was now in a better condition to deal with ? [My]521-tulip first visit , every morning , was to [[[my]521-tulip parents]732-my parents ' graves]7372-my parents ' graves , and [neither of [them]732-my parents]7373-neither of them would be there but for [his]526-dr. churchyard ruthless hand . As [I]521-tulip sat there how lonely [I]521-tulip felt ! how sadly forlorn in [the world]798-the world , be [my]521-tulip lot wealth or poverty , victory or defeat ! One morning as [I]521-tulip sat there [my]521-tulip spirit was moved by dreams of the night before , and [I]521-tulip vowed , in that bodily but invisible presence , that [none]1510-none , except one whose name [I]521-tulip whispered , should ever kneel on that turf hand in hand with [me]521-tulip . Borne out of [my]521-tulip usual vein by the deed [myself]521-tulip had done , [I]521-tulip entered [the ancient church]7376-the ancient church , always left open for [me]521-tulip , and , kneeling at the altar - rails , with [many a Vaughan supine in prayer]7377-many a vaughan supine in prayer , pennons , helms , and trophies round [me]521-tulip , stately dames in marble white , and [old crusaders]7378-old crusaders clutching still the cross — there [I]521-tulip made [my]521-tulip vow upon the knee - cupped stones , that if [he]7379-he claimed [me]521-tulip not , the race should end with [me]521-tulip . It was a presumptuous and unholy act , with all around [me]521-tulip quelled by time , with ages laid aside in dust , with many a stouter heart and larger mind than [mine]521-tulip , helpless even to superintend the wasting of [his]7379-he tenement , with all [his]7379-he bygone bliss and woe , stanchest love and deadliest hate , less eloquent now than the fly whom the spider has caught in [his]7379-he skull . Returning across [the park]892-the park , after a warm interview with "[521-tulip] [Tulip]521-tulip , " who insisted mainly upon having [his]7379-he ears well scratched , [I]521-tulip found [[my]521-tulip uncle]1271-my uncle in [his]7379-he snug wheel - chair , waiting near the side - door for [me]521-tulip to help and accompany [him]7379-he forth . This was [our]7382-our best way to take [him]7379-he out , because of the steps at the front - door . [He]7379-he had not yet been in the open air since [his]7379-he terrible illness , but , judging by [my]521-tulip own experience , [I]521-tulip thought that [he]7379-he pined for the breeze , and , after long council , it was resolved to trust [him]7379-he forth this day . With all [his]7379-he heart [he]7379-he was longing to be out ; but , instead of expressing impatience , smiled gratefully at [me]521-tulip . [I]521-tulip now observed that [he]7379-he had a sweet and winning smile — a gift bestowed not rarely on faces of a sombre cast . In return for it [I]521-tulip kissed [him]7379-he , and [we]7382-our sailed smoothly out . How [he]7379-he revelled , to be sure , in the first clear breath from the lips of heaven ! Stretching one poor arm forth — the other [he]7379-he could not move — [he]7379-he tried to spread [himself]7379-he like a flower to the sun . Then [he]7379-he drew long draughts of liquid freedom , and was for a time as one intoxicated . In the glorious crystal bath [he]7379-he seemed to float away from [earth]1622-earth . Coming to [himself]7379-he at length , [he]7379-he looked at [me]521-tulip , and said , "[521-tulip] Now [John]411-miss vaughan may go , if [he]411-miss vaughan pleases . " A year ago [he]7379-he would have said , "[411-miss vaughan] Go , [John]411-miss vaughan , " and no more . But illness is [a great refiner]7384-a great refiner . When [John]411-miss vaughan was out of sight [he]7379-he allowed free vent to the tears of joy and gratitude , whereof , in [my]411-miss vaughan opinion , [he]7379-he had no call to be ashamed . [I]411-miss vaughan kissed [him]7379-he many times . [My]411-miss vaughan warm impassioned nature always felt for and delighted in any touch like this . Then [he]7379-he placed [his]7379-he better hand on the cold and rigid one , lifting this with that , and poured forth silent thanks to [the Giver of all things]7385-the giver of all things . "[411-miss vaughan] [Clara]293-clara , [darling]6257-darling , " at length [he]7379-he said , "[411-miss vaughan] how can [I]0-i ever show [you]293-clara a thousandth part of [my]0-i gratitude for all the lovingkindness [you]293-clara have heaped on [me]0-i ? Coals of fire , indeed ! and they have warmed [my]0-i selfish heart . With loathsome death before [your]293-clara face , in all the pride and bloom of early youth and richest — " [I]0-i will not repeat [his]7379-he words , because it would not become [me]0-i ; but [I]0-i am forced by all that has happened to show what [his]7379-he feelings were . "[0-i] And all this for [me]0-i — [me]0-i who have been [[your]293-clara bitterest enemy]3041-your bitterest enemy , who have turned [you]293-clara out of [[[your]293-clara father]5365-your father 's house]3043-your father 's house , and caused [[your]293-clara mother]5332-your mother 's death ! " Here [I]3045-dear uncle stopped [him]3045-dear uncle , lest [he]3045-dear uncle should be overcome . "[3045-dear uncle] [Dear uncle]3045-dear uncle , talk no more of this — never even think of it . The fault was all [my]0-i own . [You]3045-dear uncle know [I]0-i would not stop , often as [you]3045-dear uncle asked [me]0-i . There always was a bar between [us]3046-us , and it was [my]0-i obstinacy . " "[0-i] No , it was [my]0-i pride . [Clara]293-clara , in [my]0-i better mind [I]0-i loved [you]293-clara all along . How could [I]0-i help admiring [your]293-clara truth and courage and devotion to [[your]293-clara father]5365-your father ? Although [I]0-i own that [you]3045-dear uncle were very bitter against [me]0-i , yet , if [I]0-i had only used the proper means , [I]0-i might have got the better of it . If [I]0-i had told [you]293-clara all [my]0-i story , [you]3045-dear uncle would have pitied more even than condemned [me]0-i . But [my]0-i pride forbade , and [I]0-i made the common mistake of regarding [you]293-clara as [a child]782-a child , because [you]293-clara were that in years . [I]0-i forgot to allow for the forcing powers of grief . Even now , pulled down as [I]0-i am , and humbled by the wisdom of Heaven , [I]0-i can not tell [you]293-clara [my]0-i strange history without the acutest pain . " "[0-i] Then [I]0-i am sure , [uncle]1284-uncle , [I]0-i will never let [you]1284-uncle do it . " "[0-i] Yes , it is [my]0-i duty , and the sooner done the better . Rescued though [I]0-i am , for the present , by [your]3045-dear uncle wonderful courage and skill , [I]0-i feel that one more blow , even a slight one now , and time for [me]0-i is ended . But if it were [God]303-god 's will to cut [me]0-i off to - morrow , [I]0-i should die in happiness , having made [my]0-i peace , and won [your]3045-dear uncle kind forgiveness . " "[1284-uncle] [You]1284-uncle shall not tell [me]0-i now at any rate . And [I]0-i wo n't have [you]1284-uncle talk so , [uncle]1284-uncle . Mind , [I]0-i am head - nurse still . Now come and see how lovely [the ranunculus]3051-the ranunculus are getting . " [I]1284-uncle began to wheel [him]1284-uncle over the grass and gather flowers ( which "[1284-uncle] [he]1284-uncle played with like [a child]782-a child ) , to change , if possible , the current of [his]1284-uncle thoughts . Stupid thing ! [I]0-i took the wrong way to do it . " Oh , [uncle dear]7386-uncle dear ! [you]1284-uncle will laugh at [me]0-i , and say [I]0-i am as bad as ever ; but as soon as [you]1284-uncle get better [I]0-i want to be off again , kind and good as [you]1284-uncle are to [me]0-i . "[0-i] [He]1284-uncle trembled so violently , that [I]0-i feared the chair would be upset . " What , [Clara]293-clara , ca n't [you]293-clara live with [me]3053-i even now ? Everything shall be [yours]1284-uncle , as it ought to be . [I]3053-i will never meddle with [you]293-clara in any way , but keep to some lonely corner , and not see [you]293-clara very often . Oh , [Clara]293-clara ! dear [Clara]293-clara ! do n't go away ! [You]293-clara know [I]3053-i am quite helpless , and [I]3053-i ca n't live long , and [you]293-clara are all in all to [me]3053-i , and [I]3053-i am so proud of [you]293-clara , [darling]6257-darling ! But it is not for [myself]3053-i [I]3053-i care . [I]3053-i can not tell , much less can [you]293-clara , what mischief may be done if [you]293-clara leave [this house]5422-this house again . [That low , crafty woman]7389-that low , crafty woman will be back again directly — [she]7389-that low , crafty woman who made cowards of all [the household]870-the household , and acted [the coward]7391-the coward [herself]7389-that low , crafty woman , who left [me]3053-i to die in [my]3053-i lonely bed , while [she]7389-that low , crafty woman took all [my]3053-i keys . If [her]7389-that low , crafty woman treachery succeeds , [I]3053-i shall rise from [my]3053-i grave . And [I]3053-i know [she]7389-that low , crafty woman will poison [me]3053-i yet , if [she]7389-that low , crafty woman gets the chance , and can make anything by it . "[3053-i] It was the first time [he]3053-i had spoken to [me]0-i of [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy , and [I]0-i was amazed at [his]3053-i bitterness , for [I]0-i had heard of no quarrel between [them]3054-them . What on earth did it mean ? " Do n't go , [Clara]293-clara ! "[3053-i] [he]3053-i implored [me]0-i , with the cold sweat on [his]3053-i forehead , and every line in [his]3053-i poor thin face a - quivering . " Do n't go , [[my]3053-i darling]5337-my darling , blessed [Clara]293-clara ! [I]3053-i have had none to love for years and years , and to love [you]293-clara is so sweet ! If [you]293-clara go [I]3053-i must die at once , and , worse than that , die wretched in the knowledge that [you]293-clara will be robbed . "[3053-i] [He]3053-i fell back in the chair , from which , in [his]3053-i excitement , [he]3053-i had striven to rise , and for some minutes there [he]3053-i lay insensible . When [I]0-i had succeeded in bringing [him]3053-i to [himself]3053-i , [he]3053-i looked at [me]0-i so piteously , with so much death in [his]3053-i eyes , that [I]0-i promised , with a sinking heart , never to leave [him]3053-i more , except upon absolute necessity , until [he]3053-i should be well , or need [my]0-i care no longer . [He]3053-i even tried to persuade [me]0-i not to go to [London]1-london for the things [I]0-i had left [there]1114-there , but to send [a trusty person]3056-a trusty person to pack and bring [them]3057-them [home]1102-home . To this , however , [I]0-i could not yield , feeling , as [I]0-i did , that , after all [my]0-i love for [Isola]428-isola , and all [her]428-isola kindness to [me]0-i , [I]0-i was bound to see [her]428-isola and say farewell ; and what harm could there possibly be in so short an absence ? [[My]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle wished [me]0-i to bring [her]428-isola down for a good long visit , but this at such a time could not be thought of . Moreover , [lively , impulsive Idols]3060-lively , impulsive idols would have grown very long - faced in [a dull sick house]3061-a dull sick house , which ours must be for the present . It was settled at last that [I]0-i should go to [London]1-london the following Monday , stay [there]1114-there one entire day , and come back the day after with all [my]0-i trifling chattels . One thing more [[my]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle proposed which [I]0-i would not hear of . It was , that [he]1271-my uncle should transfer to [me]0-i , by deed of gift , all the estate , both real and personal , reserving only a small annuity for [himself]1271-my uncle , and a sum of 10,000*l . * for some special purpose , which [he]1271-my uncle would disclose to [me]0-i at leisure . Thus , [he]1271-my uncle said , [he]1271-my uncle should feel as if justice had been done , and there would be some security against [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy 's schemes . Of the latter [I]0-i felt no fear whatever , and thought it the effect of a shaken mind that [he]1271-my uncle attached so much importance to [them]3064-them . Under no circumstances would [I]0-i think , for a moment , of allowing [him]1271-my uncle so to divest [himself]1271-my uncle . Money , to any amount , [I]0-i could have , though [I]0-i wanted very little , seeing that now , once more , a solemn duty would withdraw [me]0-i from [my]0-i long pursuit , and from all the frivolities which [many girls]3065-many girls delight in . [I]0-i begged [[my]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle to appoint [an honest steward]3067-an honest steward for [the estate]952-the estate , and to assign [me]0-i a moderate yearly allowance , which would save much trouble . To this [he]1271-my uncle at last consented , and proposed for [me]0-i so large a revenue , that , after removing the last cipher , [I]0-i had more than [I]0-i knew how to spend . The first thing [I]0-i did was to send the kind farmer the residue of the sum [he]1271-my uncle had lent [me]0-i , together with interest at ten per cent . , which did not seem excessive , considering that [he]1271-my uncle had no security . And now , with the utmost anxiety , [I]0-i looked forward to the time when [[my]0-i poor uncle]2919-my poor uncle should be strong enough to tell [me]0-i , without risk , that history of [himself]2919-my poor uncle which [he]2919-my poor uncle had distinctly promised [me]0-i . Surely it must shed some light on the mystery of [my]0-i own . This thought , as well as the sense of duty , reconciled [me]0-i in some measure to the suspension of [my]0-i life - long search . [He]1271-my uncle would have told [me]0-i everything then and there , in [his]1271-my uncle warm gratitude for [my]0-i undertaking ; but [I]0-i durst not let [him]1271-my uncle . [He]1271-my uncle was already fatigued with so much talking , and when the stimulus of the fresh air was gone , [he]1271-my uncle suffered a serious relapse . On the following Monday , [[my]0-i poor uncle]2919-my poor uncle being rather better again , [I]0-i set off for [London]1-london , as had been determined , and arrived [there]1114-there late in the afternoon . It had been proposed to send [a servant]3072-a servant with [me]0-i , but [I]0-i had been too long accustomed to independence , and also had reasons of [my]0-i own for refusing . [I]0-i was to receive , on the morrow , an account , by telegraph , of [[my]0-i patient]3004-my patient 's health and spirits , and promised to give , in return , some tidings of [myself]0-i . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer had not been apprised of [my]0-i coming , because [she]391-mrs. shelfer would have been sure to tell [Miss Isola]428-isola , whom , as well as [[her]428-isola brother]6430-her brother , [I]0-i wished to take by surprise . [Dear Isola]457-isola had often inquired about [[my]0-i family]1990-my family , but only knew that [I]0-i was [an orphan]1231-an orphan , much reduced in [the world]798-the world , poor , and all alone . Much as [I]0-i loved [her]428-isola , [I]0-i knew quite well that [she]428-isola could not keep a secret , and whenever [she]428-isola teased [me]0-i about [my]0-i " iron mask , "[428-isola] [I]0-i retorted upon [her]428-isola that [she]428-isola had first to discover the secret of [[her]428-isola own home]3078-her own home . As [we]3079-us rushed towards [the mighty city]3080-the mighty city , what a flush was in [my]0-i cheeks , what a flutter in [my]0-i heart ! Whom might [I]0-i not see even upon [the platform]2878-the platform , or , at any rate , in [the streets]2026-the streets , and , poverty being removed , what obstacle could there be between [us]3079-us ? Not that [I]0-i intended to resign [myself]0-i to affection , and lead a life of softness , until [I]0-i had discharged to the utmost [my]0-i duty to the dead . Yet some sort of pledge might pass — some surety there might be , that neither of [us]3079-us would feel thereafter quite alone in [the world]798-the world . But how could [I]0-i tell that [he]3084-he even cared about [me]0-i ? Well , [I]0-i had a strong suspicion . In some things the eyes are [the best detective police]3085-the best detective police . Only [I]0-i had always been so unlucky . Was it not too good luck for [me]0-i ever to be true ? [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's door was opened at [my]0-i knock , not by [her]391-mrs. shelfer own little bustling self , nor even by shock - headed and sly " [Charley]395-charley , "[391-mrs. shelfer] but by [a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - Jewish face , and a confidential air]3086-a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - jewish face , and a confidential air . [He]3086-a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - jewish face , and a confidential air had a pot of porter in one hand and a paper - roll in the other , a greasy hat on [his]3086-a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - jewish face , and a confidential air head , and one leg of [his]3086-a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - jewish face , and a confidential air trousers had lost the lower half . Upon learning [my]0-i name and object , [he]3086-a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - jewish face , and a confidential air took no notice whatever of [me]0-i , but put up [his]3086-a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - jewish face , and a confidential air paper - roll for a trumpet , and shouted along [the passage]824-the passage , " [Balaam]537-balaam , here 's a kick ! [I]3086-a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - jewish face , and a confidential air 'm bothered if it 's all lies , after all . Never dreamed [the old gal]2540-the old gal could tell a word of truth . Had a higher opinion of [her]2540-the old gal . Blowed if [the young woman]7394-the young woman [herself]2540-the old gal ai n't come ! "[3086-a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - jewish face , and a confidential air] " Easy there , [Balak"—the]538-balak"—the[3086-a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - jewish face , and a confidential air] mouth of [the speaker]3088-the speaker was full—"keep the door , [I]3088-the speaker tell [you]537-balaam . Never gets a bit of time to [my]3088-the speaker victuals . [She]7394-the young woman 's up to a plant , [I]3088-the speaker doubt . Just let [me]3088-the speaker have a squint at [her]7394-the young woman . "[3088-the speaker] Out came [another man with a like appearance and air]3089-another man with a like appearance and air , and a blade - bone in [his]3089-another man with a like appearance and air hand , whereat [he]3089-another man with a like appearance and air continued to gnaw throughout the interview . It was indeed a squint with which [he]3089-another man with a like appearance and air favoured [me]0-i , and neither of [them]3090-them would move for [me]0-i to pass . " Pray what is the meaning of all this ? "[0-i] [I]0-i asked , in [my]0-i grandest manner . " Surely [I]0-i have not mistaken [the house [I]0-i lived in]7395-the house i lived in . This , [I]0-i believe , is [[Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's house]6026-mrs. shelfer 's house ? "[0-i] Instead of answering [me]0-i , [they]3090-them closed the door enough to put the slide - chain on , leaving [me]0-i still outside , where , with boiling indignation , [I]0-i heard [myself]0-i discussed ; [the cabman]6039-the cabman looking on with an experienced grin . " Well , [Balaam]537-balaam , now , and what do [you]537-balaam think of that party ? "[6039-the cabman] " [Uncommon fine young gal]7397-uncommon fine young gal , and doosed mannersome too ; but it do n't follow , for all that , that the thing is on [the square]1939-the square , [you]537-balaam know . Have [she]7397-uncommon fine young gal got any luggage , [Balak]539-balak ? "[6039-the cabman] " No , [mate]7399-mate . And that looks fishy , now one come to think on it . Stop , let [me]6039-the cabman have another look . "[6039-the cabman] " No ; leave that to [me]6039-the cabman . Slip the chain out , [Balak]539-balak : and keep [your]539-balak foot behind the door . [She]7397-uncommon fine young gal ca n't push [us]7400-we both in without assault and battery . "[6039-the cabman] To [my]0-i shame and indignation , [I]0-i was subjected to another critical cross - fire from half drunken eyes . [I]0-i turned [my]0-i back and stamped in [my]0-i vexation ; [the cabman]6039-the cabman gave [me]0-i an approving nod . This little act of [mine]0-i was so unmistakably genuine , and displayed such very nice embroidery — [I]0-i do like a tasteful petticoat — that the hard heart of [Balaam]539-balak was softened ; at the same moment a brilliant idea stole through [his]539-balak cautious mind . " Stop now , [Balak]539-balak , put [your]539-balak foot there . [She]7397-uncommon fine young gal ca n't push [us]7400-we both in , [I]539-balak believe ; leastways not without battery and contempt of court . Now what do [you]3093-his grimy friend think of this?"—And[539-balak] [he]539-balak whispered to [[his]539-balak grimy friend]3093-his grimy friend . " Well , that beats all [I]539-balak ever heer'd on . Let [you]3093-his grimy friend alone for brains , [Balaam]539-balak , and [me]539-balak for muscle and pluck ! "[539-balak] " Now , [young lady]1872-young lady , "[539-balak] began [Balaam]539-balak in a diplomatic tone , " [me]539-balak and [[my]539-balak mate]7402-my mate here be in a constitution of trust , or else [you]1872-young lady may take [your]1872-young lady oath , and never a pervarication , [we]7400-we never would keep [an agreeable young female"—here]7403-an agreeable young female"—here[539-balak] [he]539-balak gave [me]0-i two ogles intended for one—"on the flinty stones so long ; only [we]7400-we ca n't say if [you]1872-young lady mean honest , and there be such a many bad ones going , and [we]7400-we 've got a leary file inside . Now listen to what [I]539-balak say . There 's a dog as big as a lion in [the room]823-the room as [you]1872-young lady calls [yourn]1872-young lady ; and [he]539-balak do show [his]539-balak teeth , and no mistake . [We]7400-we be afeared to show [our]7400-we noses there , even at the command of dooty . [You]1872-young lady can hear [him]539-balak growling now like all the Strand and [Fleet Street]110-fleet street ; and [[my]539-balak mate]7402-my mate [Balak]539-balak here leave half [his]539-balak breeches behind [him]539-balak , saving [your]1872-young lady presence , [Miss]7406-miss , and lucky to get off so . Now if so be [you]1872-young lady undertakes , honour bright , to march straight into [that front room]7407-that front room , [[my]539-balak mate]7402-my mate and [self]7409-self have concluded to let [you]1872-young lady in . "[539-balak] " Of course [I]0-i will , "[0-i] said [I]0-i , smiling at [their]3094-their terrors . So [I]0-i paid [the cabman]6039-the cabman , took up [my]0-i little bag , and ran right up [the stairs]5744-the stairs . [Balaam]539-balak and [Balak]539-balak feared to come round the corner . " [You]0-i must unlock the door , [Miss]5433-miss , "[1627-one of them] cried [one of [them]3094-their]1627-one of them , " [we]7411-we was forced to lock [him]539-balak in . "[1627-one of them] " Oh [Judy]477-judy , [[my]539-balak darling [Judy]477-judy]7412-my darling judy , [[my]539-balak own pet love of a [Judy]477-judy]7413-my own pet love of a judy . "[539-balak] [He]539-balak let [me]0-i say no more ; [his]539-balak paws were on [my]0-i shoulders , and [I]0-i was in a shower - bath of kisses . In the ecstasy of [my]0-i joy , [I]0-i forgot all about [the two men]3098-the two men and [their]3098-the two men mysterious doings , and flung [myself]0-i down on a chair , while [Judy]477-judy , out of [his]539-balak mind with delight , even tried to sit on [my]0-i lap . [He]539-balak whinnied , and cried , and laughed , and yelled , and could find no vent for [his]539-balak feelings , until [he]539-balak threw [his]539-balak great head back and told all in a wow - wow , that must have been heard in [Oxford Street]111-oxford street . A little familiar knock , and [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer appeared , looking rather better than ever . " Why , [dear Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , how glad [I]391-mrs. shelfer am to see [you]391-mrs. shelfer ! And [you]391-mrs. shelfer look much younger , [I]391-mrs. shelfer declare ! "[391-mrs. shelfer] " And , [Miss]7414-miss , [you]391-mrs. shelfer do look bootiful , bootiful , [[my]391-mrs. shelfer good friend]1798-my good friend ! [Splendid things,"—I]7416-splendid things,"—i[391-mrs. shelfer] was dressed a little better , but still in sombre colours—"splendid , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara , and how [you]391-mrs. shelfer becomes 'em to be sure ! Talk of [Miss Idols]466-idols after that , why it 's [the Queen]1427-the queen to [a gipsy]7418-a gipsy ! And pray , [Miss]7419-miss , if [I]391-mrs. shelfer may make so bold , what did [you]391-mrs. shelfer give for this ? it beats [my]391-mrs. shelfer sarcenet dress , [I]391-mrs. shelfer do believe . "[391-mrs. shelfer] " Nothing , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , only a little kiss . "[391-mrs. shelfer] " Gracious [me]391-mrs. shelfer , [Miss]5433-miss , then [you]391-mrs. shelfer 've been and got engaged , and to [a lord]2316-a lord at least . [I]391-mrs. shelfer heard [you]391-mrs. shelfer were come into [your]391-mrs. shelfer great fortune at last ; more than all Middlesex [they]7422-they tell [me]391-mrs. shelfer , [Regency Park]112-regency park and all ! And [that poor straight - legged young man]7423-that poor straight - legged young man , as come here every day to see [Judy]477-judy , and to ask for [you]391-mrs. shelfer . "[391-mrs. shelfer] " Now , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , do n't talk nonsense,"—my[391-mrs. shelfer] heart was jumping , but [I]0-i did not want [her]3099-her to see it . " [I]0-i only hope [you]391-mrs. shelfer have n't said a word to [him]7423-that poor straight - legged young man about these foolish reports . "[0-i] " [Me]391-mrs. shelfer , [Miss]7424-miss ! Do [you]391-mrs. shelfer think [I]391-mrs. shelfer would now ? "[391-mrs. shelfer] " Yes ; [I]427-conrad know by [your]391-mrs. shelfer face [you]391-mrs. shelfer have . [You]391-mrs. shelfer ca n't cheat [me]427-conrad , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer . Never mind , if [you]391-mrs. shelfer have not mentioned [my]427-conrad name . "[427-conrad] It never struck [me]0-i that [Conrad]427-conrad would be frightened at [my]0-i money . " No , never , [Miss]7425-miss , as [I]3100-i hope to be saved . "[3100-i] And [she]3100-i crossed [herself]3100-i , which [I]0-i had never seen [her]3100-i do . " Come , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , now ; [I]3100-i 've got some pretty little trifles for [you]391-mrs. shelfer in this bag . "[3100-i] [She]3100-i jumped with pleasure ; [she]3100-i was so fond of knick - knacks : then [she]3100-i put [her]3100-i fingers on [her]3100-i lips and went to the door and listened . Presently [she]3100-i came back with a mysterious air . " Pray , [Miss]7426-miss , as [you]7426-miss are so very kind , excuse [my]3100-i taking the liberty , but would [you]7426-miss mind giving [Judy]477-judy the bag in [his]477-judy paws ? no fear of [them]7427-them getting it there . "[3100-i] " Why , what on earth is the matter ? Why did n't [you]7426-miss let [me]3100-i in ? Who are [those nasty men]7428-those nasty men ? "[3100-i] " Oh , it 's nothing , [Miss]7429-miss ; nothing at all to speak of : only [they]7428-those nasty men knocks [my]3100-i sticks so in making the inwentory , and the one [they]7428-those nasty men made last time , and the time before , would do every bit as well . But [they]7428-those nasty men charges for it , every time , [the rogues]7430-the rogues — and [they]7428-those nasty men dare to put the chairs down lackered and American cloth , good , morocco as ever was , and as if [Miss Minto]405-miss minto — "[3100-i] " Now , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , tell [me]3100-i in two words what it means . Is it a sale ? "[3100-i] " No , no , [Miss]7431-miss , [I]3100-i should hope not ; only an execution , and [them]7428-those nasty men [two men]7102-two men are [the bailiffs]7433-the bailiffs ; [civil tongues enough , and very good judges of porter and periwinkles]7434-civil tongues enough , and very good judges of porter and periwinkles . [They]7428-those nasty men 're [the ones as come last time]7435-the ones as come last time ; but [I]3100-i 'd sooner have [the old ones]7436-the old ones , [jolly fellows]7437-jolly fellows [they]7436-the old ones were , and knew how to wink both eyes . But [that cross - eyed thief]7438-that cross - eyed thief — "[3100-i] " And have [they]7428-those nasty men got [my]3100-i things , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ? "[3100-i] " No , [Miss]7439-miss ; only what few was in [the bedroom]2981-the bedroom ; [they]7428-those nasty men dare n't come here for [Judy]477-judy . It was as much as [their]7428-those nasty men lives were worth . If [I]3100-i had known [they]7428-those nasty men was coming , [I]3100-i 'd have had [him]7438-that cross - eyed thief at the front door , but [they]7428-those nasty men locked [him]7438-that cross - eyed thief in as soon as [he]7438-that cross - eyed thief got a piece out of [the other fellow]7441-the other fellow 's leg . Bless [me]3100-i , how [he]7438-that cross - eyed thief did holloa ! "[3100-i] " Do [you]391-mrs. shelfer mean to say , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , that [they]7428-those nasty men have taken possession of [my]3100-i things in [[my]3100-i bedroom]7442-my bedroom ? "[3100-i] " To be sure , [Miss.]448-miss. [I]3100-i said they was [yours]391-mrs. shelfer , and of course [they]7428-those nasty men would n't believe [me]3100-i , and the folding door was shut , but [Judy]477-judy would have broken it down only [they]7428-those nasty men put the bedstead again it . Gracious [me]3100-i ! [I]3100-i never see a dog take on so in all [my]3100-i life ! [He]7438-that cross - eyed thief was like a roaring lion . "[3100-i] " [I]3100-i should rather hope so . [Giudice]475-giudice , [I]3100-i commend [you]475-giudice ; and [I]3100-i 've a great mind to let [you]475-giudice out , and what is more , [I]3100-i will if [they]7428-those nasty men do n't give [me]3100-i back [my]3100-i things . Surely , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [they]7428-those nasty men have no right to [[my]3100-i property]7443-my property . "[3100-i] " Well , so [I]3100-i say , [Miss]7444-miss ; because it is n't for [the landlord]6289-the landlord ; but [they]7428-those nasty men wo n't believe [they]7428-those nasty men are [yours]475-giudice . "[3100-i] " If [they]7428-those nasty men do n't believe [me]3100-i pretty soon , [Giudice]475-giudice shall convince [them]7428-those nasty men . [He]475-giudice is [a judge]6883-a judge [you]7444-miss know , and [I]3100-i 've no idea of robbery any more than [he]475-giudice has . But who is doing all this , and why do [you]7444-miss seem so unconcerned about it ? [I]3100-i should cry [my]3100-i eyes out , [I]3100-i am sure . "[3100-i] " Bless [your]7444-miss pretty heart , [Miss]7447-miss ; this makes the fifteenth time [I]3100-i 've had [them]7428-those nasty men [here]846-here in the last four years . At first [I]3100-i was terribly put out , and made [myself]3100-i [a figure crying]7449-a figure crying ; but now [I]3100-i only think it 's company , and [they]7428-those nasty men drink as if [they]7428-those nasty men was , that 's certain . [You]7444-miss must have seen the inwentories , [Miss]7450-miss , round the candles lots of times . Only one thing [they]7428-those nasty men does that do n't strike [me]3100-i as wery honourable , though it 's law [I]3100-i b'lieve ; [they]7428-those nasty men charges [me]3100-i , and wery high too , for eating up [my]3100-i victuals , and [they]7428-those nasty men will have meat four times a day . Why , [that Balak]539-balak , [him]539-balak with [his]539-balak breeches gone — "[3100-i] " Who put them in , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , and how much is it for ? "[3100-i] " Oh , it 's one of [Charley]395-charley 's bills or notes , of course . [Quinlan]540-quinlan holds it , [him]540-quinlan as keeps "[3100-i] the little dust - pan , " down [Maiden Lane]113-maiden lane , and [Charley]395-charley says that all [he]395-charley got for it was ten shillings and a waggon - load of water - cresses . Now [they]7428-those nasty men 'll be here directly , [Miss]7451-miss , with [you]7451-miss to keep the dog in . Excuse [me]3100-i , [Miss]7452-miss , [I]3100-i see [you]7451-miss have got one of them new wide things as go all round and up — capital things , [I]3100-i must have one before [they]7428-those nasty men come again . And could [you]7451-miss manage to sit upon the sofa , [Miss]7453-miss , and the three best chairs in [your]7451-miss petticoat , with the tea - poy on [your]7451-miss lap ? "[3100-i] " What on earth do [you]3100-i mean , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ? "[3100-i] " Why , [Miss]7454-miss , [they]7428-those nasty men ca n't lay hold of any article in use , [I]3100-i believe , and [you]7451-miss have got so much room in [your]7451-miss things . "[3100-i] " Do [you]7451-miss suppose [I]3100-i intend to let [them]7428-those nasty men come [here]846-here , for a moment ? Now let [me]3100-i look at [[my]3100-i bedroom]7442-my bedroom . Come , [Judy]477-judy . "[3100-i] " Oh , [Miss]7457-miss , [they]7428-those nasty men did have such a hunt here for [Charley]395-charley 's double - barrel gun ; a regular beauty it is , and that big rogue [Quinlan]540-quinlan is after it . [They]7428-those nasty men know it all round [this neighbourhood]7458-this neighbourhood , it was made by [a famous maker]7459-a famous maker , [Joe something]451-joe , [I]3100-i b'lieve , and the best [he]7459-a famous maker ever made ; it was [poor [Miss Minto]405-miss minto 's brother]7460-poor miss minto 's brother 's ; and [they]7428-those nasty men sha n't have it , not one of 'em . [I]3100-i 'd sooner shoot [them]7428-those nasty men with it . [I]3100-i keeps it always in [the safest place [I]3100-i knows on]7461-the safest place i knows on , and twice a year [I]3100-i see that it do n't get rusty . "[3100-i] " What safe place do [you]3101-i keep it in ? "[3101-i] [She]3101-i put [her]3101-i little mouth up to [my]0-i ear , and [her]3101-i little hand up to [her]3101-i mouth , and whispered — " At [the broker]7462-the broker 's , [Miss]5433-miss , in [Barbican]44-barbican . [He]7459-a famous maker has had it now six years . It 's in for a quarter its value , but that 's all the better for [me]3101-i : [I]3101-i have less to pay for keeping it , and [I]3101-i carries the ticket night and day in [my]3101-i bosom . And do [you]5433-miss know , [[my]3101-i good friend]1798-my good friend , [they]7465-they thought [they]7465-they had got it just now ; [they]7465-they got a key that fitted that box of [yours]5433-miss , that [you]5433-miss always locked so carefully , and [they]7465-they made sure that was it ; ha , ha , how [I]3101-i laughed at [them]7465-they when [they]7465-they opened it ! "[3101-i] " What ! have [they]7465-they dared to open [my]3101-i mahogany box ? "[3101-i] It was the repository of [my]0-i precious relics . " To be sure [they]7465-they did , [Miss]7466-miss , and [they]7465-they found such curious things there ! A lovely thing all set with jewels , [they]7465-they said , a baggonet fit for the Duke of [Wellington]34-wellington , and plaster shapes like [a cobbler]7467-a cobbler 's last , and coloured paper with queer letters on it , and a piece of long black hair , and a plan with distances on it — Lor , [Miss]7468-miss , what on earth is the matter ? Water ! water ! [You]5433-miss 're like death — [Balaam]537-balaam ! [Balak]539-balak ! "[3101-i] " Stop , [Mrs. Shelfer"—I]541-mrs. shelfer"—i[3102-her] had fallen on the bed—"I would not for ten thousand pounds have had that box exposed to [those low ruffians]7469-those low ruffians , ransacked , and even catalogued . If [I]3101-i can punish [them]7469-those low ruffians [I]3101-i will ; and [you]5433-miss too , [you]5433-miss low , [miserly , meddling , inquisitive old crone]7470-miserly , meddling , inquisitive old crone . "[3101-i] [She]3102-her cared for nothing — though afterwards [she]3102-her told [me]0-i [she]3102-her never saw such eyes in [her]3102-her life — until [I]0-i luckily called [her]3102-her an " [old crone]7471-old crone . "[0-i] At that , [she]3102-her fell back upon the towel - horse , and sobbed with both hands over [her]3102-her eyes , as if [her]3102-her heart would break . [I]0-i had pierced [her]3102-her in the tenderest point — [her]3102-her age . [I]0-i did not feel sorry for [her]3102-her at all for at least two minutes , but let [her]3102-her cry away . " Serves [her]3102-her right , "[0-i] [I]0-i thought . Even if [she]3102-her could not have stopped [them]3103-them from opening that box of [mine]0-i , at any rate [she]3102-her had no right to gossip about it , and enjoy it all , as [she]3102-her evidently had done . Furthermore , [I]0-i knew well that [she]3102-her had always been on the tingle to learn the contents of that box , and many a time [I]0-i had baffled [her]3102-her . Now [she]3102-her had triumphed thoroughly , and [I]0-i should not have been [female]3104-female if [I]0-i had calmly allowed it . But seeing [her]3102-her great distress ( through all of which [she]3102-her talked , with sobs for affirmations ) , [I]0-i began to think what a pity it was ; then to wonder whether [she]3102-her deserved it all ; next , to believe that [she]3102-her had done no harm ; lastly , to feel that [I]0-i had been [a brute]3105-a brute . Thereupon [I]0-i rushed to coax and kiss [her]3102-her , wiped away [her]3102-her tears with [my]0-i own lawn handkerchief — the feel of which consoled [her]3102-her , for the edge was lace — and begged [her]3102-her pardon fifty times in a thousand foolish words . Finally [she]3102-her was quite set up again by this : " [I]3102-her tell [you]0-i , [[my]3102-her dear]5318-my dear [Patty]409-patty , when [I]3102-her come to [your]0-i age , when [I]3102-her am five and thirty"—she[3102-her] was fifty - two at least—"I shall fully deserve to be called [an old woman]7473-an old woman for this ; and much older [I]3102-her shall look , there is no doubt , than [you]0-i do . "[3102-her] " Right , [[my]3102-her good friend]1798-my good friend , [you]0-i are quite right there"—this[3102-her] expression showed [me]0-i that [she]3102-her [herself]3102-her was right.—"Why [the young man from the butcher]7475-the young man from the butcher 's , [he]7475-the young man from the butcher said to [me]3102-her this morning , and beautiful black hair reminded [me]3102-her of [yours]0-i , [Miss]5433-miss , all stuck together with the fat from off the kidneys — "[3102-her] " Come , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , let [me]3102-her see about [my]3102-her box . "[3102-her] " To be sure , to be sure , [[my]3102-her dear]5318-my dear [Miss Vaughan]293-clara ; but what do [you]0-i think [he]7475-the young man from the butcher said ? ' Now , [William John]542-william john , ' says [I]3102-her , ' a good steak mind , a tender juicy steak , for [the gentleman visitors here'—Balaam]7478-the gentleman visitors here'—balaam , [Miss]5433-miss , and [Balak]539-balak , if [you]0-i please,—'does like good juicy meat . ' ' [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [ma'am]5765-ma'am , ' [he]7475-the young man from the butcher says , a bowing with [his]7475-the young man from the butcher tray like that , ' [you]5765-ma'am shall have a steak , [ma'am]5765-ma'am , as fresh and as juicy as [yourself]5765-ma'am . ' Now was n't that pretty , [[my]3102-her good friend]1798-my good friend ? "[3102-her] " Beautiful , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer . But see about [my]539-balak box . "[539-balak] " Surely , surely , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara . But it was very pretty , like a valentine , do n't [you]293-clara think it was now ? "[3102-her] " Where is it ? "[3102-her] " [Downstairs]1041-downstairs , [Miss]5433-miss , in [[my]539-balak little parlour]7485-my little parlour . "[539-balak] " Then send it up at once , by [one of [the men]5486-the men]7486-one of the men . "[3102-her] Presently [Balaam]539-balak came up , looking askance at [Judy]477-judy , and with the mahogany box under [his]539-balak right arm . [He]539-balak touched [his]539-balak dirty hat , for [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer had filled [him]539-balak by this time with the wonders of [my]0-i wealth , and then [he]539-balak looked doubtfully , and with sorrow , at [his]539-balak burden . " Put it here if [you]539-balak please , "[0-i] and [I]0-i pointed to some chairs , " the dog will not touch [you]539-balak while [I]0-i am [here]846-here . Now what is the amount of this execution ? "[0-i] " Debt fifteen pounds , [Miss]5433-miss ; expenses up to five o'clock , four pound ten . "[0-i] " Here is the money . Now give [me]0-i a receipt . "[0-i] " No , [Miss]7490-miss ! [You]5433-miss do n't mean to pay all ! "[0-i] " Of course , [I]0-i do . "[0-i] " Then , [Miss]7491-miss , [I]0-i beg [your]7491-miss pardon , but [I]0-i ca n't allow [you]7491-miss . [I]0-i has a duty to [[my]0-i employer]7492-my employer , and [I]0-i has a duty to [the public]7493-the public too , not forgetting [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , and [Charley]395-charley [an old friend]7494-an old friend , and all so handsome in the way of victuals . And [I]0-i 'm sure [she]391-mrs. shelfer would n't wish [you]7491-miss to be cheated , [Miss.]448-miss. Pay ten pounds for the debt , [Miss]5433-miss , and that 's a deal more than it cost [them]7493-the public or [they]7493-the public expects to get . ' Twixt [you]7491-miss and [me]0-i , [Miss]7496-miss , every stick of this here furniture is in a dozen bills of sale already ; and [we]7497-we comes here more for practice like , than for anything else . "[0-i] In short , [I]0-i paid 10*l . * for the debt , and 4*l . * for the expenses : whereupon [Balaam]539-balak looked at [me]0-i with a most impressive and confidential glance . " Now , [Miss]5433-miss , [you]7491-miss wo n't think [me]539-balak rude ; but [you]7491-miss have come down so handsome , [I]539-balak can tell [you]7491-miss something as [you]7491-miss may like to know . [I]539-balak 've seed the very moral of that sword of [yours]7491-miss before . "[539-balak] " Are [you]539-balak certain ? Pray where was it ? "[0-i] [I]0-i trembled with excitement . " It was in [a place in [Somers - town]7500-somers - town]7499-a place in somers - town , [Miss]7501-miss ; where [I]0-i made a levy , some eight year agone . "[0-i] " What was the name of [the people]2283-the people ? "[0-i] " [Dallyhorse]543-dallyhorse , or [Jellycorse]544-jellycorse , or something of the sort . [Foreigners]7503-foreigners [they]7503-foreigners was , and [they]7503-foreigners had only just come to [this country]1963-this country . But [I]0-i can tell [you]7491-miss the name more shipshape from the books . Ah , the very moral of it ; only there warn't no serpent . "[0-i] " Do [you]539-balak know what has become of [them]2283-the people ? "[0-i] " No that [I]0-i do n't , and do n't want to come across [them]2283-the people again . [A mean set of [mongrel parlywoos]7506-mongrel parlywoos]7505-a mean set of mongrel parlywoos ; [I]0-i got [starved amost]545-starved amost . But [I]0-i did hear [they]2283-the people was riding the high horse now , and something about [court]7507-court . "[0-i] " Are [you]539-balak quite sure that the weapon was exactly like this ? Look at this again . "[0-i] " [Miss]5433-miss , [I]0-i can take [my]0-i oath it was [the fellow pea]7509-the fellow pea , all but the little snake , and [he]7509-the fellow pea ai n't a fixture , [I]0-i do n't believe . [I]0-i would have sworn it was the very same , only [you]539-balak tells [me]0-i not . [I]0-i noticed it most particular ; for [I]0-i never see one like it , though [I]0-i have had a sight of foreign weapons in [my]0-i hands ere now . And [the gent]2603-the gent had got it put away so ; [we]7511-we come across [it]7509-the fellow pea only through a cat as happened to be confined — "[0-i] " And what became of it ? Did [[your]539-balak employer]7512-your employer have it ? "[0-i] " Not [he]7512-your employer , [Miss.]448-miss. When [the gent]2603-the gent found [we]7511-we had got it , [he]7512-your employer was put out and no mistake ; though [he]7512-your employer sham not . Away [he]7512-your employer goes and gets the money somehow , and has [us]7511-we all away in no time . "[0-i] " How many were there in [the family]1254-the family ? "[0-i] " Well , let [me]0-i see . [They]1254-the family was only living in [lodgings]7515-lodgings , and had but half [the house]764-the house . There was [Dallyhorse]543-dallyhorse [himself]543-dallyhorse , and [a queer - looking lady]7517-a queer - looking lady , and [some children]7518-some children , [I]0-i do n't know how many [children]1229-children , for [they]3106-they kept [them]1229-children out of the way ; and [a nice young woman]7520-a nice young woman as did the cooking for [them]1254-the family , and precious little it was . "[0-i] " What was [his]3107-his profession ? And who was [[his]3107-his creditor]7521-his creditor ? ' "[0-i] [I]0-i do n't know . [They]3106-they called [him]3107-his [an artist]6200-an artist [I]0-i think , but [he]3107-his look to [me]0-i more like [a sailor]3109-a sailor . It was a boarding - house bill , as [I]0-i was on [him]3107-his for . [Rum - tempered fellow]3110-rum - tempered fellow . [I]0-i thought [he]3107-his would have stuck [me]0-i when [I]0-i got [his]3107-his sword thing . [A tallish man]3111-a tallish man [he]3107-his was , slight build , and active , and such black eyes . " "[3107-his] Now , [Balaam]539-balak , if [you]539-balak can trace [that man]1220-that man , and find out where [he]1220-that man is living now , [I]0-i will give [you]539-balak two hundred pounds . Here 's ten pounds for [you]539-balak as [an earnest]3113-an earnest . " [Balaam]539-balak was so amazed , that [he]539-balak almost looked straight at [me]3113-an earnest . "[3113-an earnest] Please , [Miss]5433-miss , may [I]0-i tell [Balak]539-balak ? [I]0-i sha n't be happy if [I]0-i does n't . [We]3115-we always works together , and it would n't be on the square like . " "[3115-we] Was [he]1220-that man with [you]0-i then ? And can [he]1220-that man keep a secret ? " "[1220-that man] Yes , [Miss]3116-miss , [he]1220-that man was with [me]0-i , and [I]0-i 'd trust [him]1220-that man with a gallows secret . [I]0-i ca n't do no good without [him]1220-that man . " "[0-i] Then , certainly [you]0-i may tell [him]1220-that man ; but not while in [this house]5422-this house . Here is [my]0-i country address , that [you]0-i may know who [you]0-i act for . Keep clear of [the Police]93-the police . Keep the whole matter to [yourselves]0-i . In two days , [I]0-i leave [London]1-london ; if [you]0-i discover nothing in that time , write to [me]0-i here , and [I]0-i will take good care to have the letters forwarded . Do nothing , but find out that one thing , and when [I]0-i have verified it , [I]0-i will pay [you]0-i the two hundred pounds . " "[0-i] Would [you]0-i mind , [Miss]3118-miss , putting it on paper ? " "[0-i] Yes : for many reasons , [I]0-i will not write it down . But [you]0-i are at liberty to inquire who [I]0-i am , and whether [I]0-i am likely to disgrace [my]0-i word . " After taking [his]0-i address , "[0-i] [Balaam Levison]537-balaam , [Dove Court]117-dove court , [Chancery Lane]118-chancery lane , " [I]537-balaam allowed [him]0-i to depart , and heard [him]0-i pause on [every stair]7522-every stair , to ponder this strange matter . [Presently Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer came [home]1102-home , and was delighted to see [the bailiffs]7433-the bailiffs ; and the pleasure being mutual , and [my]537-balaam cash burning to be quenched , a most hilarious evening was the natural result . [My]537-balaam health was drunk , as [I]537-balaam could hear too plainly , to unfathomable depths : and comic songs from three loud organs , provided with patent nasal stops , with even [Patty]409-patty 's treble pipe audible in the chorus , broke from time to time the tenour of [my]537-balaam sad and lonely thoughts . [The bailiff]7525-the bailiff 's discovery , and the pursuit commenced thereon , appeared to [me]537-balaam so important , that in reply to the message received the next morning — that [[my]537-balaam uncle]1271-my uncle was much the same , and longing for [my]537-balaam return — [I]537-balaam sent word that [my]537-balaam journey was put off until the day after the morrow . This allowed [me]537-balaam one day more for tidings from [[my]537-balaam new scouts]7527-my new scouts , as to the success of [their]7527-my new scouts efforts . [I]537-balaam was very sorry to disappoint [[my]537-balaam poor sick uncle]7528-my poor sick uncle , but it seemed still worse to run away all in the dark . The next thing [I]537-balaam did was to arrange with [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer about the money [I]537-balaam had paid for [her]391-mrs. shelfer . It was not the money [I]537-balaam cared for , but [I]537-balaam had other views . Although [she]391-mrs. shelfer was politely thankful , [I]537-balaam perceived that [she]391-mrs. shelfer thought it a very bad job indeed , and a most romantic transaction . Thirty per cent . was the very largest dividend [she]391-mrs. shelfer had ever intended to pay . But the plan which [I]537-balaam proposed was so much for [her]391-mrs. shelfer benefit , while it suited [me]537-balaam , who otherwise must have lost the money , that it almost recovered [her]391-mrs. shelfer from the shock of having paid a debt . The plan was simply this , that [she]391-mrs. shelfer should reserve [[my]537-balaam rooms]7529-my rooms for [me]537-balaam , airing and cleaning [them]7529-my rooms duly , and always keeping the bed in a fit state to be slept on at an hour 's notice . [My]537-balaam previous rent had been twelve shillings a week , the utmost [I]537-balaam could afford out of [my]537-balaam narrow income ; attendance , and linen , and other troubles being now dispensed with , [I]537-balaam thought it fair to allow [her]391-mrs. shelfer ten shillings off [her]391-mrs. shelfer debt to [me]537-balaam , for every week [I]537-balaam should so retain [the rooms]2933-the rooms . The 4*l . * for the expenses of the execution [I]537-balaam forgave [her]391-mrs. shelfer altogether ; inasmuch as [I]537-balaam had paid without consulting [her]391-mrs. shelfer . Directly [my]537-balaam payment should be exhausted , to wit in twenty weeks , [I]537-balaam would send [her]391-mrs. shelfer a further sum , if [I]537-balaam still required [the rooms]2933-the rooms . [She]391-mrs. shelfer was delighted with this arrangement , which in fact enabled [her]391-mrs. shelfer to have [her]391-mrs. shelfer "[537-balaam] sticks " all to [herself]391-mrs. shelfer , to pet them and talk to [them]2933-the rooms every day , and even to clean them , if such a freak of destruction ever should enter [her]391-mrs. shelfer brain . [She]391-mrs. shelfer could use [the sitting - room]6564-the sitting - room for [her]391-mrs. shelfer own pleasure and pride , as much as ever [she]391-mrs. shelfer chose , so long as it always was ready for [me]0-i ; and already visions were passing before [her]391-mrs. shelfer mind 's eye , of letting [the parlour]5965-the parlour [downstairs]1041-downstairs with the onion - room for [[its]5965-the parlour dormitory]7535-its dormitory . To [me]0-i the arrangement was very convenient , as affording [a fixed and familiar resort in [London]1-london]7536-a fixed and familiar resort in london , and a pivot of ready communication . Nor was it a small consolation to feel that [I]0-i still retained [a stronghold in [the neighbourhood of [dear friends]7539-dear friends]7538-the neighbourhood of dear friends]7537-a stronghold in the neighbourhood of dear friends . All this being comfortably settled , [Giudice]475-giudice and [I]0-i went forth to pay [our]7540-we visit in [Lucas Street]106-lucas street . The whole of [that street]7541-that street [we]7540-we found so utterly changed in appearance by a vigorous onset of [painters]7542-painters , [grainers]7543-grainers , and [decorators]7544-decorators , that it was not easy to know [the house [we]7540-we were in quest of]7545-the house we were in quest of . Even the numbers on the doors , which had been illegible , or very nearly so , had now been re - arranged and painted over again upon the fashionable and very sensible mode of marking odd numerals on one side , and even ones on the other . Finding [myself]0-i in a difficulty , and [the houses]7546-the houses all alike as [the central peas of a pod]7547-the central peas of a pod , [I]0-i trusted to [Judy]477-judy 's delicate nose , and rang the bell of the door at which [he]477-judy halted . Then [he]477-judy drew back , and trembled , and crouched upon [the pavement]2025-the pavement , to wait for [my]0-i return . As [I]0-i heard the tinkle , [my]0-i heart began to flutter : who could tell what new phase of [my]0-i life might begin with that little pull ? After some delay , poor old [Cora]429-cora came , looking as weird and woebegone as ever — fierce would have been that look to [any one but [me]0-i]7549-any one but me . [I]0-i knew that [I]0-i held [her]429-cora by [my]0-i magic gordit , like [the slave of the lamp]7550-the slave of the lamp . After imploring in some mumbled words ( which [I]0-i interpreted only by knowledge of [her]429-cora desire ) gracious leave to kiss that potent charm , [she]429-cora led [me]0-i into [the breakfast - parlour]7551-the breakfast - parlour , where [I]0-i found sweet [Isola]457-isola in a passionate flood of tears . At sight of [me]0-i , [her]429-cora beautiful smile broke through them , and [her]429-cora quick deep sobs spent themselves in kisses . "[0-i] Oh , [I]0-i am so gug - gug - glad , [my]0-i own dear [Cla - Cla - Clara]546-clara ; and [I]0-i wo n't cuc - cuc - cry one bit more , the moment [I]0-i can stop . " [She]429-cora put [her]429-cora arms around [me]0-i , and [her]429-cora head upon [my]0-i breast , as if [I]0-i had been , at the very least , [[her]429-cora brother]6430-her brother . "[0-i] [[My]0-i pretty dear]3119-my pretty dear , what is it all about ? " [I]0-i had never seen [her]429-cora look so lovely as now , [her]429-cora violet eyes brimming with liquid brightness , the velvet of [her]429-cora cheeks deepened to rich carmine , and the only thing that sweet face ever wanted , the expression of earnest feeling , now radiant through the whole . "[0-i] Why , [dear]5871-dear , [I]0-i ought not to tell [you]5871-dear ; but [I]0-i must tell [somebody]7269-somebody , or [my]0-i heart will break . " Here [she]429-cora pressed [her]429-cora little hand on that pure unfissured casket , where sorrow was as yet an undreamed - of robber . "[7269-somebody] [You]5871-dear know , [dear]5871-dear , it 's all about [papa]6651-papa and [[my]0-i darling]5337-my darling [Conny]427-conrad . The only trouble [I]0-i ever have , but a very great one , big enough and too big for [two little folk of [my]0-i size]3125-two little folk of my size . Half an hour ago , [I]0-i went in suddenly to get a book upon the politico - economical science , the very one [papa]6651-papa is lecturing about so beautifully ; and [I]0-i did not even know that [Conny]427-conrad was in [the house]764-the house . There [papa]6651-papa was , white as death with passion ; and [Conrad]427-conrad with [his]427-conrad eyes like coals of sparkling fire ; and what do [you]5871-dear suppose [[my]0-i papa]6254-my papa called [[his]6254-my papa own son]3130-his own son [Conny]427-conrad ? " "[6254-my papa] Do n't tell [me]0-i , if it 's anything bad . [I]0-i ca n't bear it , [Isola]457-isola . " "[457-isola] Oh , [I]0-i knew [you]5871-dear were fond of [him]427-conrad , and [I]0-i am so glad ! " This [she]457-isola said in such an artless way — as if [Conrad]427-conrad and [I]0-i were two dolls which [she]457-isola meant to put in [[one doll]7553-one doll 's house]7554-one doll 's house — that instead of colouring , [I]0-i actually laughed . "[0-i] Oh , but [I]0-i must tell [you]5871-dear , [Clara]546-clara : it 's right for [you]5871-dear to know ; one of the leading principles of political economy — " "[427-conrad] Do n't talk to [me]0-i of that stuff . " "[427-conrad] Well , [I]0-i wo n't ; because [I]0-i see that [you]5871-dear do n't understand it . But [he]427-conrad actually called [him]427-conrad — and [his]427-conrad voice came from a depth , like an Artesian well — [he]427-conrad called [[our]3131-our darling [Conny]427-conrad]3132-our darling conny — " "[427-conrad] What ? " And in [my]3133-a low bastard passion , [I]3133-a low bastard flung off [her]5871-dear hand , and stood up . "[3133-a low bastard] [A low bastard]3133-a low bastard , a renegade hound , a scandal to [[his]427-conrad country]3134-his country — and then [he]427-conrad even said [Rimbecco]547-rimbecco . " [She]5871-dear pronounced the last word almost with a scream , as an insult beyond forgiveness . What it meant [I]427-conrad did not ask , [I]427-conrad had heard enough already . "[427-conrad] [I]0-i must leave [this house]5422-this house . Where is [[your]0-i brother]1415-your brother [Conrad]427-conrad ? " "[0-i] Gone , [I]0-i believe , to inquire for [you]0-i . Nothing but that composes [him]427-conrad . [I]0-i wish [he]427-conrad would never come here . And [he]427-conrad was ordered not to . But it is about some business . Oh , [he]427-conrad never will come again . " And [she]2347-dear child began to cry at the thought of the very thing [she]2347-dear child had wished for . "[427-conrad] Neither will [I]0-i come again . Where is [[your]0-i father]5365-your father now ? " "[427-conrad] Up at [his]427-conrad lumbering cabinet , where [he]427-conrad always consoles [himself]427-conrad , whenever [he]427-conrad is put out . But if [you]0-i are going , [dear child]2347-dear child , do let [me]0-i come with [you]0-i . [I]0-i shall cry till [I]0-i die here , all by [myself]0-i : and [Pappy]426-pappy never cares about [me]0-i , when [he]427-conrad is in [his]427-conrad black dudgeon . " In a few minutes [we]7555-we left [the rude unpleasant house]7556-the rude unpleasant house , and even [Judy]477-judy seemed relieved to get away from the door . By the time [we]7555-we reached [[Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's]2936-mrs. shelfer 's , [Idols]466-idols was in capital spirits again , and pressed [me]427-conrad for some account of the wonderful wealth , and [the grand house [she]466-idols had heard of]7558-the grand house she had heard of . No doubt this rumour had found its way through [Ann Maples]294-ann maples . "[427-conrad] And [the great Lord]3139-the great lord — what 's [his]3139-the great lord name , dear [Donna]476-donna ? [I]0-i would n't believe a word of it ; though [I]0-i 'm sure [you]476-donna are a deal too good for [all the house of peers]3140-all the house of peers . But [Conny]427-conrad did ; and was n't [he]427-conrad in a way ? But [he]427-conrad ought to be very glad [you]476-donna know — wish [you]476-donna every blessing , as [they]3141-they say in the plays ; and [a peer]3142-a peer is the very highest blessing to [an Englishwoman]3143-an englishwoman . But one thing [I]0-i am quite resolved on : [Judy]477-judy belongs to [me]0-i now , do n't [you]476-donna , [lovely Judy]477-judy ? " "[476-donna] No , " said the judicious , "[476-donna] [I]0-i belong to [Clara]546-clara . " "[546-clara] Though [Conny]427-conrad pretends , since [he]427-conrad was left at [[your]476-donna place]3144-your place , that [he]427-conrad belongs to [him]427-conrad . Now [I]0-i will give [him]427-conrad to [you]476-donna ; and so will [Conny]427-conrad too . [You]476-donna can afford to keep [him]427-conrad now , and [I]0-i ca n't , [he]427-conrad does eat such a lot ; and [he]427-conrad does not care a pin for [me]0-i , but [he]427-conrad loves [you]476-donna with all [his]427-conrad heart . " "[427-conrad] How do [you]0-i know [he]427-conrad does ? " [I]0-i was not attending much , but thinking of [some one else]5827-some one else . "[0-i] Why , ca n't [you]476-donna see that [he]427-conrad does , how [he]427-conrad wags [his]427-conrad tail every time [you]476-donna even look at [him]427-conrad ? But [I]0-i hope [poor Conny]427-conrad is here . [I]0-i should think [he]427-conrad would stop , when [he]427-conrad finds [darling Clara]546-clara come back . " [I]427-conrad had jumped to that hope long ago , before [we]7560-we even left [Lucas Street]106-lucas street , and that had something to do with [my]427-conrad walking so fast . No , [he]427-conrad was not there , [he]427-conrad had not been [there]1114-there to - day . It was [my]427-conrad turn now to cry ; what might [he]427-conrad not have done , after that fearful insult , and from [[his]427-conrad own father]7562-his own father too ? The tears , which [I]427-conrad confided to [no one]730-no one except the wooden - legged blackbird — for [Giudice]475-giudice would have made such a fuss about them — were still upon [my]427-conrad cheeks , when [I]427-conrad heard the well - known step — not half so elastic as usual . [I]427-conrad fled into [[my]427-conrad bedroom]7442-my bedroom , and pushed the boxes about , to make a goodly noise , and to account for the colour in [my]427-conrad face . Then out [I]427-conrad came at the side - door , and ran [downstairs]1041-downstairs perversely , though [I]427-conrad knew that [Conrad]427-conrad and [Isola]457-isola were in [[my]427-conrad sitting - room]2358-my sitting - room . But this first - rate manoeuvre only outwitted [its author]7567-its author , for [Isola]457-isola ran down after [me]427-conrad , and sent [me]427-conrad [upstairs]6042-upstairs alone . All [my]427-conrad little nonsense vanished the moment [I]427-conrad looked in [Conrad]427-conrad 's face . [His]427-conrad healthy brown complexion was faded to an opal white ; beneath [his]427-conrad eyes such dark blue rims , that [I]427-conrad thought [he]427-conrad had spectacles on ; and on either cheek a round red spot was burning . So shocked [I]427-conrad was , that when [he]427-conrad took [my]427-conrad hand , [I]427-conrad turned [my]427-conrad face away and smothered down a sob . [I]427-conrad felt that [I]427-conrad had no right to be so fresh and blooming . Nor was it only in health that the contrast between [us]7569-us lay . [I]427-conrad was dressed with unusual care , having fidgeted all the morning , and with [my]427-conrad utmost taste . [Poor Conrad]548-poor conrad was in [his]548-poor conrad working clothes , full of marble dust , tumbled , threadbare , and even in need of mending ; [his]548-poor conrad hair swept anyhow , and [his]548-poor conrad hands not over - lately washed . Yet , for all that , [he]548-poor conrad was as clearly [a gentleman]5462-a gentleman , as [I]427-conrad was [a lady]5829-a lady . Not so would [he]548-poor conrad have been arrayed , [I]427-conrad fancy , had [he]548-poor conrad thought to see [neat Clara]546-clara . And yet , who knows ? "[427-conrad] [I]0-i trust that [you]3145-you will excuse [me]0-i , " [he]548-poor conrad began to say , "[3145-you] but such things have happened lately — [you]3145-you will not account [me]0-i rude — [I]0-i had no sense at all of this great pleasure . " "[0-i] [I]0-i fear [you]0-i have not been very happy . " [I]0-i knew not what to say , or how to keep [my]0-i voice clear . "[0-i] Yes , " [he]548-poor conrad replied , "[0-i] as happy as [I]0-i deserve . It serves [me]0-i aright for esteeming so much of [myself]0-i , before that [I]0-i do anything . But [I]0-i will win [my]0-i way"—and [his]548-poor conrad own proud glance flashed out—"and[0-i] [we]3146-we shall see how many will scorn [me]0-i then . " "[3147-no one in the world] [No one in [the world]798-the world]3147-no one in the world can scorn [you]0-i , " [I]3147-no one in the world said very softly , and [my]3147-no one in the world voice thrilled through [him]548-poor conrad . "[3147-no one in the world] Ah , [you]0-i are always kind and gentle:"—am [I]0-i though , thought I—"but[0-i] [I]0-i will no more fatigue [you]0-i with [my]0-i different lot in life . [I]0-i am told that [some great nobleman]3149-some great nobleman has won [you]0-i for [his]3149-some great nobleman own . Perhaps [you]0-i will give [me]0-i an order . " [His]548-poor conrad throat was swelling with these bitter words , and [he]548-poor conrad looked at [his]548-poor conrad dusty clothes . Somewhat rude [I]0-i thought [him]548-poor conrad , but [I]0-i knew not half [his]548-poor conrad troubles . "[0-i] Whoever told [you]0-i that , has made a great mistake . [I]0-i am engaged to [no one]730-no one . [[Your]0-i sister]3151-your sister knows [me]0-i better . " And [I]3151-your sister turned away to the window . For a minute [he]548-poor conrad said nothing ; but [I]3151-your sister could hear [his]548-poor conrad heart beat . Stedfastly [I]3151-your sister looked at [[the cheesemonger]7572-the cheesemonger 's shop]7573-the cheesemonger 's shop . Oh for a flower , or something on [the balcony]6413-the balcony ! Presently [he]548-poor conrad came round the corner of the sofa . Without being rude , [I]3151-your sister could not help turning round . [His]548-poor conrad face was much , much , brighter , and [his]548-poor conrad eyes more kind . "[3151-your sister] Have [I]0-i said any harm — [I]0-i would not for [the world]798-the world — [I]0-i knew not it was harm . " "[0-i] No harm , " [I]0-i said , "[0-i] to think so ill of [me]0-i ! To believe , for a single moment , that because [I]0-i am not so poor , [I]0-i would go and forsake — at least , [I]0-i mean , forget — [any one [I]0-i cared for]3153-any one i cared for ! " "[0-i] Can [I]0-i ever hope , if [I]0-i serve [you]0-i all [my]0-i life , that [you]0-i will ever care for [me]0-i ? " "[0-i] Do n't [you]0-i know [I]0-i do ? " And [I]0-i burst into [my]0-i violent flood . When [I]0-i came to [myself]0-i , both [his]0-i arms were round [me]0-i , and [I]0-i was looking up at [his]0-i poor sick face , [my]0-i hair quite full of marble chips , and [he]0-i was telling [me]0-i with glad tears in [his]0-i eyes , which [he]0-i never took from [mine]0-i , how [he]0-i cared for nothing now , not for all [the world]798-the world , not for glory or fur shame , so long as [I]0-i only loved [him]0-i . "[0-i] With all [my]0-i heart and soul , " [I]0-i whispered , "[0-i] [him]3154-him and [no one else whatever]3155-no one else whatever , whether in life or death . " All the folly [we]7576-we went through [I]0-i am not going to repeat , though [I]0-i remember well every atom of it . Let [the wise]7577-the wise [their]7577-the wise wisdom keep , [we]7576-we are [babes]7578-babes and [sucklings]7579-sucklings . Neither of [us]7576-we had ever loved before , or ever meant to love again , except of course [each other]734-each other , and that should be for ever . "[0-i] One thing [I]0-i must tell [you]3156-you , [my]0-i own sweet love , and yet [I]0-i fear to do it . But [you]3156-you are not like [other girls]3157-other girls . There is [no one like [you]3156-you]3158-no one like you , nor has there ever been . [I]0-i think [you]3156-you will not scorn [me]0-i for another 's fault . " "[3156-you] Of course [I]0-i wo n't , [my]0-i own pet [Conny]548-poor conrad . What is this awful thing ? " "[0-i] [I]0-i am [an illegitimate son]3159-an illegitimate son . " One moment [I]0-i sprang from [him]548-poor conrad ; the next [I]0-i despised [myself]0-i . But in spite of all [my]0-i troubles , there still lurked in [my]0-i heart the narrow pride of birth . Down to the earth it fell beneath the foot of true love , and [I]0-i kissed away from [his]548-poor conrad eyes the mingled reproach and sorrow , assuring [him]548-poor conrad that at least [he]548-poor conrad should have [a legitimate wife]7581-a legitimate wife . To make amends , [I]0-i leaned upon [him]548-poor conrad one moment , and put [my]0-i hand on [his]548-poor conrad shoulder , and let [him]548-poor conrad play awhile with the dark shower of [my]0-i hair . "[0-i] [Darling Conny]549-conrad , [you]549-conrad have told [me]0-i [yours]549-conrad , now [you]549-conrad shall hear [my]0-i secret . Only promise [me]0-i [you]549-conrad will give tit for tat . [You]549-conrad say [you]549-conrad loved [me]0-i ever since [you]549-conrad saw [me]0-i first ; then [you]549-conrad must have loved [[your]549-conrad Clara]3160-your clara when [you]549-conrad saved [her]3160-your clara life . " "[549-conrad] What do [you]549-conrad mean , [[my]0-i [Clara]546-clara]5392-my clara ? [Those low ruffians in [the Park]892-the park]3162-those low ruffians in the park were not going to kill [you]549-conrad . " "[3162-those low ruffians in the park] No , [dearest]3164-dearest ; [I]0-i do n't mean that at all . But there 's a kiss for that , [I]0-i have owed it [you]3164-dearest ever since . But what [I]0-i mean no kisses can repay ; no , nor a life of love . [You]3164-dearest saved a life worth fifty of [my]0-i own . " Some dark alarm was growing in [his]0-i eyes , on which [I]3164-dearest gazed with vague increasing terror . "[3164-dearest] Why , [dearest]3164-dearest , it is nothing . Only [your]3164-dearest own [Clara]546-clara is not [Clara Valence]416-clara valence ; [you]3164-dearest must call [her]546-clara ' [Clara Vaughan]293-clara . ' " With actual violence [he]0-i thrust [me]546-clara from [his]0-i arms , and stood staring at [me]546-clara , while [I]546-clara trembled from head to foot ; [his]0-i face was one scarlet flame . "[546-clara] And pray , [Sir]5380-sir , what harm have [I]0-i done ? Am [I]0-i to suppose that you"—special emphasis meant for illegitimacy—"that[5380-sir] [you]5380-sir are ashamed of [[my]0-i father]731-my father and [me]0-i ? " "[5380-sir] Yes , [I]0-i am . Accursed low licentious race ! If [you]5380-sir knew what [you]5380-sir have done , [you]5380-sir would tear [your]5380-sir heart out rather than give it to [me]0-i . " "[5380-sir] Thank [you]5380-sir — [I]0-i feel obliged — [my]0-i heart indeed — to [a bastard]3168-a bastard . Take back [your]5380-sir ring if [you]5380-sir please ; kindly restore [me]0-i [mine]0-i . May [I]0-i trouble [you]5380-sir for room enough to go by ? " And [I]0-i swept out of [the room]823-the room , and through the side - door into [[my]0-i bed - room]7583-my bed - room , where [I]0-i crouched in a corner , with both hands on [my]0-i heart , and the whole world gone away . "[0-i] Mad ! " [I]0-i heard [him]0-i cry , "[0-i] yes , [I]0-i must go mad at last ! " Away [he]0-i rushed from [the house]764-the house , and [I]0-i fell upon the bed , and lay in fits till midnight . [I]0-i believe that [my]0-i heart would have burst , if [they]7585-they had not cut [my]0-i stays ; and how [I]0-i wished it had . When [I]0-i came back to [my]0-i unlucky self , there was something shivery cold in the forehead wave of [my]0-i hair . Was it [Conrad]549-conrad 's finger ? [I]0-i put up [my]0-i hand to dash it away , and caught a fine fat leech . [Dr. Franks]462-dr. franks was sitting by [me]0-i , holding a basin and a sponge . "[0-i] That 's the last of them , [[my]0-i dear child]2385-my dear child . Do n't disturb [him]0-i . [He]0-i is doing [his]0-i duty by [you]2385-my dear child . " "[0-i] [His]0-i duty ! Was it [his]0-i duty to say such fearful things ? To break [my]0-i heart with every word ! Ashamed of [me]0-i — ashamed of [[my]0-i darling father]3170-my darling father ! Low and licentious ! What have [I]0-i done ? what have [I]0-i done ? Oh , it [I]0-i only knew what harm [I]0-i have ever done ! " "[0-i] No harm , [[my]0-i poor dear]3171-my poor dear , no harm in [the world]798-the world ; let [me]0-i bathe [your]3171-my poor dear pretty face . Come now , [you]3171-my poor dear sha n't cry another drop . What is to become of the beautiful eyes [I]0-i was so proud of saving ? " "[0-i] Oh , [I]0-i wish [you]0-i had n't , how [I]0-i wish [you]0-i had n't . [Dr. Franks]462-dr. franks , [I]0-i have [no father]3173-no father , and [no mother]3174-no mother , and [no one in all [the world]798-the world]3175-no one in all the world to love [me]0-i , and [I]0-i was just getting so nice and happy again , so proud of [myself]0-i , and so much prouder of [him]462-dr. franks , and [I]0-i began to think how glad [[my]0-i own dear father]2510-my own dear father would be ; and , [Dr. Franks]462-dr. franks , [I]0-i did love [him]462-dr. franks so , with all [my]0-i heart , perhaps it 's not very large , but with every morsel and atom of [my]0-i heart — and now , now [I]0-i must hate [him]462-dr. franks as much as ever [I]0-i can . Oh let [me]0-i go [home]1102-home , do let [me]0-i go [home]1102-home , where [[my]0-i father]731-my father and [mother]739-mother are buried . " And [I]1982-every one rose in the bed to start , and the candles glimmered in [my]1982-every one eyes . "[1982-every one] Please to go out of [the room]823-the room , [every one]1982-every one please to go ; and do n't let [Isola]457-isola come . [I]0-i ca n't bear the sight of [her]457-isola now . It wo n't take [me]0-i long to dress , and [I]0-i do n't want any luggage ; and , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , please to go for [a cab]2021-a cab : and [I]0-i sha n't want [the rooms]2933-the rooms any more , and it does not matter a bit about any letters . [I]0-i 'll tell [[my]0-i father]731-my father everything when [I]0-i see [him]731-my father , and then perhaps [he]731-my father 'll tell [me]0-i what harm it is [I]0-i have done . Why do n't [you]0-i go , when [you]0-i see [I]0-i want to get up ? ' " Do n't [you]0-i see , [[my]0-i dear child]2385-my dear child , [we]7587-we are going ? Only [you]0-i must take this glass of wine first , to prepare [you]0-i for [your]0-i long journey . Will [you]0-i take it now , while [we]7587-we fetch [the cab]6488-the cab ? "[0-i] " Yes , anything , anything : [I]0-i do n't care what it is . Only let [me]0-i get ready . "[0-i] And [I]0-i drank , without even tasting it , a glass of some dark liquid , which saved [me]0-i from wandering further either in mind or body . When [I]0-i awoke , it was broad noon once more , and [Dr. Franks]462-dr. franks was sitting by [me]0-i with one of [my]0-i hands in [his]462-dr. franks . " Magnificent constitution , "[462-dr. franks] [I]0-i thought [I]0-i heard [him]462-dr. franks mutter , " glorious constitution . "[462-dr. franks] What good was it to [me]0-i ? At the foot of the bed , sat [Isola]457-isola crying terribly . Slowly [I]0-i remembered all [my]0-i great disaster , but saw it only through a dull gray veil . The power of the opiate was still upon [my]0-i brain . But a cold dead pain lay heavy on [my]0-i heart , and always seemed to want a heavy hand upon it . After [he]462-dr. franks had given [me]0-i a reviving draught , [Dr. Franks]462-dr. franks perceived that [I]0-i wished to speak to [Isola]457-isola , and accordingly withdrew . [Poor Isola]463-isola came slowly and sat beside [my]0-i pillow , doubting whether [she]463-isola should dare to take [my]0-i hand . Therefore [I]0-i took [hers]457-isola , drew [her]457-isola face towards [me]0-i , and covered it with kisses . [Isola]463-isola had done no harm to [me]0-i whatever , and [I]0-i felt it something to have even [her]457-isola to love . [She]463-isola was overcome with affectionate surprise . " Oh , [Clara dearest]293-clara , [I]463-isola am so very glad to find [you]293-clara love [me]463-isola still . [I]463-isola feared that [you]293-clara would never care for [me]463-isola again . What is it all about , [dear]5871-dear , if [you]293-clara are well enough to tell [me]463-isola , what is all this dreadful misery about ? "[463-isola] " That is the very thing [I]0-i want to learn from [you]293-clara , [dear]5871-dear . Surely [you]293-clara must know better far than [I]0-i do . "[0-i] [I]0-i would not even ask [her]463-isola what had become of [Conrad]549-conrad . " No , [I]463-isola do n't dear . [I]463-isola do n't know at all . All [I]463-isola know is there must have been some dreadful quarrel between [you]293-clara and [Conrad]549-conrad . [I]463-isola must tell [you]293-clara , [dear]5871-dear , [I]463-isola was so anxious about something [you]293-clara can guess , that [I]463-isola stole up to the door soon after [he]549-conrad came in ; and [you]293-clara were so intent upon the window , that [you]293-clara never even saw [me]463-isola put the door ajar ; and then [I]463-isola heard [him]549-conrad tell [you]293-clara how very much [he]549-conrad loved [you]293-clara , and [I]463-isola was so glad . And then [I]463-isola thought it was not quite fair of [me]463-isola , and [I]463-isola knew all [I]463-isola wanted , so [I]463-isola ran [downstairs]1041-downstairs again . And the next thing [I]463-isola heard was [your]293-clara bedroom door bang and then [Conny]549-conrad dashed out [the house]764-the house , and [Judy]477-judy came down to [me]463-isola looking very sorrowful . And [I]463-isola ran up to [you]293-clara , and [here]846-here [I]463-isola found [you]293-clara shrieking so , and rolling , and clutching at the bedclothes , and [I]463-isola was so frightened [I]463-isola could not even move . And then [Judy]477-judy came and made such a dreadful howling , and [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ran straight off for [the doctor]5643-the doctor , and [I]463-isola poured the water in the decanter over [you]293-clara , and [I]463-isola ca n't tell any more . "[463-isola] " But surely , [darling]6257-darling , [you]293-clara have been [home]1102-home since that ? "[0-i] " Oh yes ; when [Dr. Franks]462-dr. franks came , and [you]293-clara were a little better , [he]462-dr. franks would make [me]0-i go [home]1102-home , because [he]462-dr. franks did not want [two patients]7599-two patients , [he]462-dr. franks said ; and [[his]462-dr. franks eldest daughter]7600-his eldest daughter , such [a nice girl]7601-a nice girl , came with [me]0-i ; and [[my]0-i papa]6254-my papa did n't even know that [I]0-i had been out of [the house]764-the house . [He]462-dr. franks was still [upstairs]6042-upstairs , brooding over [his]462-dr. franks relics , and [all the sixth form at [the College]6246-the college]7605-all the sixth form at the college had to go to dinner without [their]7605-all the sixth form at the college lectures ; but [I]0-i do believe [the stupid girls]7607-the stupid girls were glad . "[0-i] " And did [you]0-i hear — no , it does n't matter . "[463-isola] " No , [I]0-i never heard what became of [Conrad]549-conrad . No doubt [he]549-conrad went back to [his]549-conrad favourite chip , chipping . [He]462-dr. franks has got a splendid thing [he]462-dr. franks is full of now , and it prevents [his]462-dr. franks sleeping ; something or other very horrible from [Dante]550-dante , and [the leading figure]7608-the leading figure is modelled after [you]0-i . [I]0-i have seen the drawings , and [he]462-dr. franks has got [you]0-i exactly . "[0-i] " How gratifying to be sure ! [I]463-isola will ask [you]0-i no more questions . Pray let [me]463-isola know when [I]463-isola am for sale ; though [I]463-isola should call it a work of illegitimate art . "[463-isola] [My]0-i eyes were on [her]3187-she face , but [she]3187-she showed no consciousness whatever , which [she]3187-she must have done had [she]3187-she known the fact referred to , for [she]3187-she was quick of perception , and open as the day . [I]0-i was angry with [myself]0-i for the low and bootless sneer , which was pretty certain to be conveyed to [[her]3187-she brother]6430-her brother . " Now [I]463-isola will delay no longer . Let [me]463-isola speak to [Dr. Franks]462-dr. franks . [I]463-isola shall go this afternoon . "[463-isola] [Poor Isola]463-isola turned pale ; [she]463-isola had looked upon the occurrence as only [a lover]3189-a lover 's quarrel , sure to be set right in a day or two . [She]463-isola could not harbour any great resentment long , and forgot that [I]0-i could . " Do n't talk so , [dear]5871-dear ; and [you]5871-dear so very weak ! it would be sure to kill [you]5871-dear . And what will [Conny]549-conrad think ? [You]5871-dear must not go , at any rate , till [you]5871-dear have been to see [him]549-conrad . "[463-isola] " [I]0-i go to [him]549-conrad ! [I]0-i hope to see [him]549-conrad never more until [I]0-i charge [him]549-conrad in [another world]7610-another world with this bitter wrong . No , no more if [you]5871-dear please ; [I]0-i will not hear [his]549-conrad name again . How can [he]549-conrad be [[your]5871-dear brother]1415-your brother ? [Darling Idols]551-darling idols , [I]0-i never shall forget [you]3190-you . Take this , [[my]0-i pet]5394-my pet , and think of [me]0-i sometimes , for [you]3190-you will never see [me]0-i more . "[0-i] [I]0-i gave [her]3190-you an emerald ring , set with lovely pearls , small types of [herself]3190-you . It was not the one [I]0-i had reclaimed from [[her]3190-you brother]6430-her brother , that was [a plain keeper]3192-a plain keeper . " Oh [Clara]293-clara , [Clara]293-clara , do n't say that , whatever [you]3190-you do , because [I]3192-a plain keeper know [you]3190-you will keep to it , [you]3190-you are so shamefully obstinate . And [I]3192-a plain keeper never loved [any one in [the world]798-the world like [you]3190-you]7613-any one in the world like you ; no , not even [Conny]549-conrad . "[3192-a plain keeper] " And not even [[your]3190-you father]5365-your father or [mother]739-mother ? "[3192-a plain keeper] " No , not half so much . [I]3192-a plain keeper like [Pappy]426-pappy very well when [he]426-pappy is good and kind , but that is not very often now"—the[3192-a plain keeper] poor little thing 's eyes filled again with tears,—"and as for [[my]3192-a plain keeper mother]746-my mother , [I]3192-a plain keeper never even saw [her]746-my mother ; [she]746-my mother died when [I]3192-a plain keeper was born . "[3192-a plain keeper] " And [I]3192-a plain keeper love [you]3190-you too , [[my]3192-a plain keeper sweet]7618-my sweet , best of all [the world]798-the world — now . Nevertheless , [we]7620-we must part . "[3192-a plain keeper] " And never see [each other]734-each other ? [I]3193-i do n't call that loving . Tell [me]3193-i why : do tell [me]3193-i why . There seems some horrid mystery about every one [I]3193-i love . "[3193-i] And [she]3193-i was overcome with grief . [She]3193-i had not been , like [me]0-i , apprenticed young to trouble . " [Darling]6257-darling , [I]3193-i will write to [you]6257-darling sometimes . [You]6257-darling can come here for the letters . [I]3193-i will have no secrets any more from [you]6257-darling ; but [you]6257-darling must never attempt to write to [me]3193-i — only send [your]6257-darling name on a bit of paper when [my]3193-i letters go . "[3193-i] " But why on earth may n't [I]3193-i write to [you]6257-darling , [Clara dear]6662-clara dear ? "[3193-i] " [I]3193-i ca n't tell [you]6257-darling why . Only [I]3193-i can not bear it . "[3193-i] The truth was [I]0-i could never have borne to read about [[her]3193-i brother]6430-her brother . So all that was settled , and [I]0-i said good - bye with plenty of bitter crying . As for [Balaam]537-balaam and [Balak]539-balak , from whom [I]0-i expected tidings , and [George Cutting]490-george cutting , whom [I]0-i had thought it right to send for — [I]0-i had not the heart to attend to any of [them]3195-them . [Dr. Franks]462-dr. franks had done [his]462-dr. franks utmost to oppose [my]0-i sudden journey , but [I]0-i told [him]462-dr. franks truly that [I]0-i should go mad if [I]0-i stopped [there]1114-there any longer . [I]0-i could not bear the mere sight of [the room where [I]0-i had been , in the height of delicious joy , so trampled upon and outraged]3197-the room where i had been , in the height of delicious joy , so trampled upon and outraged . [My]0-i brain was burning , and [my]0-i heart was aching for the only spot on [earth where true love could be found]3198-earth where true love could be found , the spot where lay [[my]0-i father]731-my father and [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother . Seeing how the fever of the mind was kindling , [the doctor]5643-the doctor , like [a good physician]3202-a good physician , knew that the best plan was to indulge , and so allay it . Yet [he]462-dr. franks begged [me]0-i , if [I]0-i had any regard for [him]462-dr. franks , not to travel all alone while in that dangerous state . With most unlooked - for and unmerited kindness , [he]462-dr. franks even sent [[his]462-dr. franks eldest daughter]7600-his eldest daughter , at an hour 's notice , to see [me]0-i [home]1102-home in safety . The last farewell was said to [Judy]477-judy , whom [I]0-i would not take away , greatly as [I]0-i loved [him]477-judy still ; and [he]477-judy received most stringent orders first to conduct [dear Isola]463-isola [home]1102-home , and then to go to [[his]477-judy old quarters at [the livery stables]3207-the livery stables]3206-his old quarters at the livery stables . Apparently [he]477-judy acquiesced , though with wistful glances ; but at [Paddington]246-paddington , as [I]0-i was getting the tickets , to [my]0-i amazement in [he]477-judy rushed , upset [a couple of [porters]3209-porters]3208-a couple of porters , and demanded [his]477-judy ticket too . Under the circumstances there was nothing for it , except to let [him]477-judy go with [us]3210-us , or to lose [the train]7101-the train . So [his]477-judy ticket was taken , and [he]477-judy dashed into the dog - box with an enthusiasm which earned [him]477-judy a hard knock on the head . [Annie Franks]552-annie franks was exactly as [Isola]463-isola had described [her]552-annie franks , " such [a nice girl]7601-a nice girl . "[552-annie franks] Kind - hearted like [[her]552-annie franks father]898-her father , truthful , ladylike , and sensitive ; retiring too , and humble - minded , with a well of mute romance in the shadow of [her]552-annie franks heart , a wave of which [she]552-annie franks would not for [the world]798-the world display . The only vent [she]552-annie franks ever allowed this most expansive element was novel - reading , or a little quiet hero - worship . [Her]552-annie franks greatest happiness was to sit upon [a lonely bank]3214-a lonely bank , and read a slashing curtel - axe and gramercy romance , with lots of high - born ladies in it , and lots of moonlight love . If history got hard thumps among [them]3215-them , and chronology , like an unwound clock , was right but twice in twenty - four , [simple Annie]552-annie franks smiled no less , so long as the summer sun flashed duly on pennon , helm , and gonfalon , and [she]552-annie franks could see bright cavalcades winding through the greenwood shade . In " coat and waistcoat "[552-annie franks] novels [her]552-annie franks soul took no delight . Not a shilling would [she]552-annie franks squeeze from [her]552-annie franks little beaded purse for all the quicksilver of [Dickens]553-dickens , or the frosted gold of [Thackeray]554-thackeray . Yet [she]552-annie franks was not by any means what [fast young ladies]3216-fast young ladies call [a " spooney]7625-a " spooney ; "[552-annie franks] [she]552-annie franks had plenty of common sense upon the things of daily life , plenty of general information , and no lack of gentle self - respect . Now [she]552-annie franks was wending through [an upland meet for gray - clad reverie]3217-an upland meet for gray - clad reverie , where [she]552-annie franks might dream for days and days , and none but silly deer intrude . As [we]3218-we passed along in the gloaming of [the May]355-margery daw , through [bosomed lawn]3219-bosomed lawn and [bosky dell]121-bosky dell , with lilac plumes for cavaliers , and hawthorn sweeps for [ladies]6735-ladies ' trains , the soft gray eyes of [Annie]552-annie franks ceased at last to watch [me]0-i , and [her]552-annie franks thoughts were in costume of [Chevy Chase]555-chevy chase or [Crecy]556-crecy . By reason of the message sent the day before , [no one in]3221-no one in [the house]764-the house expected [me]0-i ; so [we]3218-we stole in quietly , lest [[my]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle should be alarmed , and [I]0-i requested [Gregory]557-gregory , [tipsy [Bob]522-bob 's successor]3224-tipsy bob 's successor , to bring [Jane]347-jane to meet [us]3218-we , in [[my]0-i own little room]7111-my own little room . [Annie]552-annie franks being installed [there]1114-there , to [her]552-annie franks great delight , and allowed free boot of " Marry , [Sir knight]7626-sir knight , "[552-annie franks] and " Now by [my]552-annie franks halidame , "[552-annie franks] [I]0-i went to see [[my]0-i poor dear uncle]3227-my poor dear uncle , who by this time was prepared for [my]0-i visit . Very weak [he]3227-my poor dear uncle seemed , and nervous , and more rejoiced at [my]0-i return than even [I]0-i had expected . To [me]0-i also it was warm comfort in [my]0-i cold pride - ailment to be with [one of [[my]0-i own kin]3229-my own kin , whom none could well disparage]3228-one of my own kin , whom none could well disparage . There was a dignity about [him]3227-my poor dear uncle , an air of lofty birth , which [[my]0-i own darling father]1243-my own darling father had been too genial to support . Soon [I]0-i perceived from [[my]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle 's manner , that something had happened since [my]0-i departure to add to [his]3227-my poor dear uncle uneasiness . But [he]3227-my poor dear uncle offered no explanation and [I]0-i did not like to ask [him]3227-my poor dear uncle . [He]3227-my poor dear uncle in turn perceived the heavy dark despondency , which , in spite of all [my]0-i efforts , would at times betray itself . Pride and indignation supported [me]0-i , when [I]0-i began to think , but then [I]0-i could not always think , whereas [I]0-i could always feel . Moreover , pride and indignation are , in almost every case , props that carry barbs . In a word , though [I]0-i would scorn [the love - lorn maiden]3232-the love - lorn maiden 's part , it was sad for [me]0-i to know that [I]0-i could never love again . With [a father]3233-a father 's tenderness , [he]3227-my poor dear uncle feebly drew [my]0-i head to [his]3227-my poor dear uncle trembling breast , and asked [me]0-i in a tearful whisper what had happened to [me]0-i . But [I]0-i was too proud to tell [him]3227-my poor dear uncle . Oh that [I]0-i had not been ! What misery might have been spared to [many]3234-many . But all the time [my]0-i head lay there , [I]0-i was on fire with shame and agony , thinking of the breast on which [my]0-i hair had last been shed . " Now , [good nurse]7627-good nurse [Clara]293-clara , "[3227-my poor dear uncle] [he]3227-my poor dear uncle said at last with a poor attempt at playfulness , " [I]3227-my poor dear uncle shall have no more confidence in [your]293-clara professional skill , unless [you]293-clara wheel [me]3227-my poor dear uncle forth to - morrow with a cheerful face . [You]293-clara are tired to - night , [[my]3227-my poor dear uncle love]5792-my love , and so should [I]3227-my poor dear uncle have been , if [you]293-clara had not come [home]1102-home . To - morrow [you]293-clara shall tell [me]3227-my poor dear uncle why [you]293-clara came so suddenly and saved [me]3227-my poor dear uncle a day of longing . And to - morrow , if [I]3227-my poor dear uncle am strong enough , [I]3227-my poor dear uncle will tell [you]293-clara a little history , which may be lost , like many a great one , unless it is quickly told . Stop — one cup of tea , [dear]5871-dear , and how proud [I]3227-my poor dear uncle am to pour it out for [you]293-clara — and then [I]3227-my poor dear uncle will not keep [you]293-clara from [a livelier friend]7631-a livelier friend . To - morrow , [you]293-clara must introduce [me]3227-my poor dear uncle . [I]3227-my poor dear uncle still like [pretty girls]7632-pretty girls , and [you]293-clara should have brought [that lovely Isola]463-isola with [you]293-clara . [I]3227-my poor dear uncle ca n't think why [you]293-clara did n't . [She]463-isola would have been most welcome . "[3227-my poor dear uncle] " Come , [uncle]1284-uncle , [I]3235-i shall be jealous . [The young lady [I]3235-i have brought]7634-the young lady i have brought is quite pretty enough for [you]1284-uncle . "[3235-i] [He]3235-i sighed at some remembrance , and then asked abruptly , " Do [you]0-i mean to sleep , [[my]3235-i darling]5337-my darling , in [the little room]6379-the little room to - night ? "[3235-i] [His]3235-i voice shook so , while [he]3235-i asked this question , that [I]0-i was quite certain something had alarmed [him]3235-i . [The little room]6379-the little room was [the one [I]0-i had occupied between [the main corridor]840-the main corridor and [[his]3235-i present bedroom]3239-his present bedroom]3237-the one i had occupied between the main corridor and his present bedroom . It was meant for [an ante - room]3240-an ante - room , not [a sleeping chamber]3241-a sleeping chamber ; but [I]0-i had brought [my]0-i little iron bedstead thither . " To be sure [I]0-i do , [dear uncle]3045-dear uncle ; do [you]3045-dear uncle suppose , because [I]0-i have been off duty , that [I]0-i mean to be cashiered ? Only one thing [I]0-i must tell [you]3045-dear uncle ; [I]0-i have brought [home]1102-home with [me]0-i one of [the very best friends [I]0-i ever had]7639-the very best friends i ever had . [You]3045-dear uncle have heard [me]0-i talk of [Giudice]475-giudice . [I]0-i can not bear the thought of parting with [him]475-giudice to - night , [he]475-giudice will cry so dreadfully in [the strange stables]7640-the strange stables ; and in [London]1-london [he]475-giudice always slept on the mat outside [my]0-i door . May [I]0-i have [him]475-giudice in [the lobby]2955-the lobby , [uncle]1284-uncle , [you]3045-dear uncle will never hear [him]475-giudice move , and [he]475-giudice never snores except just after dinner ? "[0-i] " To be sure , [[my]3242-my pet]5394-my pet ; [I]3242-my would not part [you]5394-my pet for [the world]798-the world . [God]303-god bless [you]5394-my pet , [[my]3242-my own child]2352-my own child , and keep [your]5394-my pet true heart lighter . "[3242-my] If [I]0-i had been really [[his]3242-my own child]3243-his own child , [he]3242-my could not have been more loving to [me]0-i , than [he]3242-my had now become . After giving [Annie Franks]552-annie franks [her]552-annie franks tea , which [she]552-annie franks was far too deep in tournament to drink , [I]0-i paid a visit to [[Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher 's room]3244-mrs. fletcher 's room , and learned from [her]552-annie franks that nothing , so far as [she]552-annie franks knew , had happened to disturb [[my]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle : [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy had not been near [the house]764-the house , and there was a rumour afloat that [she]552-annie franks had been called to take part in a revival meeting near [Swansea]122-swansea . So after introducing [Judy]477-judy , who was a dreadful dog for jam , and having [him]477-judy admired almost as much as [he]477-judy ought to be , [I]0-i returned to [Annie]552-annie franks , and found [her]552-annie franks in high delight with everything and [everybody]6273-everybody , and most of all with [her]552-annie franks tapestry - writer . Leaving [her]552-annie franks at last under [Tilly]409-patty 's care , [Judy]477-judy and [I]0-i were making off for [[our]3248-our sleeping quarters]3249-our sleeping quarters , when [truant Matilda]524-matilda followed [me]0-i down [the passage hastily]3250-the passage hastily . " Oh , [Miss]7646-miss , please , [Miss]7647-miss , [I]524-matilda want to tell [you]7647-miss something , and [I]524-matilda did not like to name it before [that nice young lady]7648-that nice young lady , because [I]524-matilda am sure [she]7648-that nice young lady is timid like . "[524-matilda] [Matilda]524-matilda looked not timid like , but terrified exceedingly , as [she]524-matilda stared on every side with [her]524-matilda candle guttering . " Hold [your]7647-miss candle up , [Matilda]524-matilda ; and tell [me]524-matilda what it is . "[524-matilda] By this time [we]3248-our were in [the main passage]3251-the main passage , " corridor "[3252-they] [they]3252-they called it , and could see all down [it]3251-the main passage by the faint light of some oil - lamps , to the oriel window at the farther end , whereon the moon ( now nearly full again ) was shining . " Why , [Miss]7649-miss , the ghost was walking last night , and the night before . "[409-patty] " Nonsense , [Matilda]524-matilda . Do n't be so absurd . "[409-patty] " It 's true , [Miss. True]448-miss. as [you]7647-miss stand there . Pale gray it is this time , and so tall , and the face as white as ashes . "[409-patty] And a shiver ran through [Tilly]409-patty , at [her]409-patty own description—"You know , [Miss]7650-miss , it 's the time of year , and [she]7648-that nice young lady always walks three nights together , from the big east window to this end and back again . So please to lock [your]7647-miss door , [Miss]7651-miss , and bolt it too inside . "[409-patty] " Well done , [Tilly]409-patty ! Does [any one]1178-any one intend to wait up for [the ghost]7653-the ghost ? What time does it come ? "[409-patty] " [One o'clock]7654-one o'clock , [Miss]5433-miss , as punctual as a time - piece . But could [you]5433-miss suppose , [Miss]7656-miss , [any one]1178-any one would dare to wait up and see it ? "[409-patty] " Then how have [they]3252-they seen it , in the name of folly ? "[409-patty] " Why , [Miss]7658-miss , [I]409-patty 'll tell [you]7658-miss . [One of [the carriage - horses]7660-the carriage - horses]7659-one of the carriage - horses got an inflammation in [his]7659-one of the carriage - horses eyes , and [the farrier]7661-the farrier give orders to have it sponged never more than three hours between , and so [William Edwards]558-william edwards , [the head - groom]7662-the head - groom if [you]7658-miss please , [Miss"—Tilly]559-miss"—tilly[409-patty] curtseyed [here]846-here , because this was [her]3254-her legitimate sweetheart—"he stops up till one o'clock to see to it , and then [Job Leyson]494-job goes instead . So [William]558-william edwards come in , [Miss]5433-miss , on Monday night , to go to bed , please , [Miss]7664-miss , and [he]558-william edwards took the short cut , not that [he]558-william edwards were allowed , [Miss]7665-miss , or would think of taking a liberty on no account whatever , but [he]558-william edwards were that sleepy [he]558-william edwards did n't know the way to bed , so [he]558-william edwards went across [the corridor]7666-the corridor for the short cut from [the kitchen gallery]7667-the kitchen gallery to [[the servants]772-the servants ' passage]7669-the servants ' passage ; and there [he]558-william edwards saw — [he]558-william edwards had n't any light , [Miss]7670-miss , and the lamps all out — Goodness [me]409-patty ! Whatever was that ? Did [you]7670-miss hear it , [Miss]7671-miss ? "[409-patty] " Yes , and see it , [Tilly]409-patty ; it 's a daddy in [your]409-patty candle . Go on , [Tilly]409-patty , will [you]409-patty . Am [I]409-patty to stop [here]846-here all night and get as bad as [you]409-patty are ? "[409-patty] " There [William Edwards]558-william edwards , a man who never swears or drinks , there [he]558-william edwards saw all in the dark , coming so stately down [the corridor]7666-the corridor , as if [it]7666-the corridor had n't room enough , with one arm up like this , [a tall pale melancholy ghost]7674-a tall pale melancholy ghost , and [he]558-william edwards knew it was [the lady who was wronged and killed , when the great wars was , [Miss]7676-miss , two hundred year agone]7675-the lady who was wronged and killed , when the great wars was , miss , two hundred year agone . "[409-patty] " Well , [Tilly]409-patty , and did [he]558-william edwards speak to [it]7675-the lady who was wronged and killed , when the great wars was , miss , two hundred year agone ? "[409-patty] " [He]558-william edwards was that frightened , [Miss]7677-miss , [he]558-william edwards could not move or speak ; but [he]558-william edwards fell again the wall in [the side - passage]7678-the side - passage , with [his]558-william edwards eyes coming out of [his]558-william edwards head , and [his]558-william edwards hair up like [my]409-patty wicker - broom . And then [she]7675-the lady who was wronged and killed , when the great wars was , miss , two hundred year agone vanished away , and [he]558-william edwards got to bed , and did perspire so , [they]7679-they was forced to wring the blankets . "[409-patty] " Capital , [Tilly]409-patty ! And who saw [her]7675-the lady who was wronged and killed , when the great wars was , miss , two hundred year agone the next night ? "[409-patty] " Why [that nincompoop Job Leyson]7680-that nincompoop job leyson , [Miss. Our William]560-miss. our william was a deal too wise to go that way any more , but [he]558-william edwards tell [Job Leyson]494-job , and [he]558-william edwards [a foolish empty fellow]7681-a foolish empty fellow , perhaps [you]7677-miss know , [Miss.]560-miss. our william ' Ho , ' says [Job]494-job , ' [I]409-patty often hear tell of [her]7675-the lady who was wronged and killed , when the great wars was , miss , two hundred year agone , to - night [I]409-patty 'll have a peep . ' So last night when [William]560-miss. our william went to bed on [the servants]772-the servants ' side , down comes [Job]494-job and takes the front way , pretty impudent of [him]558-william edwards [I]409-patty think . And , [Miss]7683-miss , [I]409-patty do n't know what [he]558-william edwards see , [I]409-patty never says much to [him]558-william edwards ; but there [they]772-the servants found [him]558-william edwards in [the saddle - room]7684-the saddle - room , at five o'clock this morning , with [his]558-william edwards heels up on a rack , and [his]558-william edwards head down in the bucket , and never a bit of sponge had come near the poor mare 's eye . "[409-patty] " Oh , thank [you]0-i , [Tilly]409-patty . Perhaps [you]0-i had better snuff [your]0-i candle . [No ghost]7685-no ghost will have much chance that comes near [[my]409-patty Judy]7686-my judy . "[409-patty] And with that [I]0-i went to bed , tired of such nonsense . An hour of deep sleep from pure weariness both of mind and body , and [I]0-i awoke with every fibre full of nervous life . The moon was high in the south - east , and three narrow stripes of lozenged light fell upon the old oak floor . Although [[my]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle had left the gable where the windows faced the setting sun , [he]1271-my uncle still kept to the western wing . [The house]764-the house , which was built in the reign of [Henry the Eighth]561-henry the eighth , covered [the site]3257-the site and in some parts embodied the relics of [a much more ancient structure]3258-a much more ancient structure . The plan was very simple , at least as regarded [the upstair rooms]3259-the upstair rooms . From east to west ran [one long corridor]3260-one long corridor , crossed at right angles , in the centre and near the ends , by three gable passages . Although there were so many [servants]6349-servants , not half [the rooms]2933-the rooms were occupied : [all the best bedrooms]3263-all the best bedrooms had been empty many a year . No festivities had filled [them]3263-all the best bedrooms since [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's days . Gloom and terror still hung over the eastern part , where [he]731-my father had been so foully murdered . In most of the downstair windows along the front of [the house]764-the house , the rickety lattice of diamond panes had been replaced by clear plate - glass , but [the old hall]3266-the old hall , and [the corridor]7666-the corridor , and some of the gable windows still retained their gorgeous tints and heraldry . As the shadows of the mullions stole upon [my]0-i counterpane , there began to creep across [my]0-i mind uneasy inklings of [the ghost]7653-the ghost . [A less imaginative man]3269-a less imaginative man than [William Edwards]558-william edwards , [I]0-i who had often enjoyed [his]558-william edwards escort , knew well there could not be . As for [Job Leyson]494-job [I]0-i could not tell with what creative powers [his]558-william edwards mind might be endowed ; but — to judge from physiognomy — a light ring snaffle would hold them . Thinking , with less and less complacence , of this apparition story , and the red legend which lay beneath it , for [the spectral lady]3270-the spectral lady was believed to be a certain [Beatrice Vaughan]562-beatrice vaughan , [daughter of [the Cavalier who perceived the moss - light]3272-the cavalier who perceived the moss - light , and heiress of [the house]764-the house]3271-daughter of the cavalier who perceived the moss - light , and heiress of the house 200 years ago — thinking of this , [I]0-i say , with more and more of flutter , [I]0-i sat up in the bed and listened . [[My]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle 's thick irregular breathing , the play of an ivy - leaf on the mullion , the half - hour struck by the turret - clock , were all the sounds [I]0-i heard ; except that [my]0-i heart , so listless and desponding , was re - asserting some right to throb for its own safety . With [my]0-i hand upon it , [I]0-i listened for another minute , resolving if [I]0-i heard nothing more to make a great nest in the pillows — [I]0-i always want three at least — and shut both ears to destiny . But there came , before the minute passed , a low , long , hollow sound , an echo of trembling expectation . In a moment [I]0-i leaped from the bed ; though [I]0-i had never heard it before , [I]0-i knew it could only be [the bloodhound]3275-the bloodhound 's cautious warning . [I]0-i flung a long cloak round [me]0-i , gathered close [my]0-i hair , hurried velvet slippers on , locked [[my]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle in , and quietly opened the outer door . There stood [Giudice]475-giudice in the moonlight , with [his]475-giudice head towards the far east window , [his]475-giudice ears laid back , [his]475-giudice crest erect , and in [his]475-giudice throat a gurgling sound , a growl suppressed by wonder . [He]475-giudice never turned to look at [me]0-i , nor even wagged [his]475-giudice tail , but watched and waited grimly . [I]0-i laid [my]0-i hand upon [him]475-giudice , and then glided down [the corridor]7666-the corridor , avoiding the moonlight patches . [Giudice]475-giudice followed , like [my]0-i shadow , never a foot behind [me]0-i , [his]475-giudice tread as stealthy as a cat 's . Before [I]0-i reached the oriel window where the broad light fell , something told [me]0-i to draw aside and watch . [I]0-i withdrew , and [Giudice]475-giudice with [me]0-i , into the dark entrance to [[[my]0-i father]731-my father 's room]3279-my father 's room . Here [we]3280-we would see what came . Scarcely had [I]0-i been there ten throbs of the heart , when between [me]0-i and the central light , where the moonbeams fell askance , rose [a tall gray figure]3281-a tall gray figure . [I]0-i am not quite [a coward]3282-a coward , for [a woman]5830-a woman at least , but every drop of blood within [me]0-i at that sight stood still . [Even Giudice]475-giudice trembled , and [his]475-giudice growl was hushed , and every hair upon [him]475-giudice bristled as [he]475-giudice crouched into [my]0-i cloak . Slowly the form was rising , like [a corpse raised from a coffin by the loose end of the winding - sheet]3284-a corpse raised from a coffin by the loose end of the winding - sheet . [I]0-i could not speak , [I]0-i could not move , much less could [I]0-i think . With a silent stately walk , or glide — for no feet could [I]0-i see — [the figure]3285-the figure came towards the embrasure where [we]3280-we lurked . Ashy white the face was , large the eyes and hollow , all the hair fell down the back , the form was tall and graceful , one arm was lifted as in appeal , to heaven , and the shroud drooped from it , the other lay across the breast . The colour of the shroud was gray , pale , unearthly gray . For one moment as it passed , [I]0-i kept [my]0-i teeth from chattering . [Giudice]475-giudice crawled one step before [me]0-i , with [his]475-giudice mind made up for death . Back the blood leaped to [my]0-i heart , as [the apparition]3286-the apparition glided slowly down [the corridor]7666-the corridor without sigh or footfall . What to do [I]0-i knew not ; [my]0-i feet were now unrooted from the ground . Should [I]0-i fly into [[[my]0-i father]731-my father 's death - room]3289-my father 's death - room ? No ; [I]0-i was afraid . To stay where [I]0-i was seemed best , but how could [I]0-i see it come back , as [I]0-i knew it would ? Another such suspension of [my]0-i life , and all , [I]0-i felt , would be over . Suddenly , while still [the figure]3285-the figure was receding in the distance , [I]0-i saw a great change in the bloodhound . [He]3285-the figure strode into [the corridor]7666-the corridor , and began to follow . At the same time , the deep gurgle in [his]3285-the figure throat revived . In a moment , it flashed through [me]0-i that [he]3285-the figure had smelt [the ghost]7653-the ghost to be [a thing of flesh and blood]3293-a thing of flesh and blood . It might be [[[my]0-i father]731-my father 's murderer]5361-my father 's murderer . At any rate [it]7653-the ghost had entered as [he]3285-the figure must have done . Close behind the dog [I]0-i stole after [the spectral figure]3296-the spectral figure . The supernatural horror fled ; all [my]0-i life was in [my]0-i veins . What became of [me]0-i [I]0-i cared not , [I]0-i who was so wretched . Almost to the end , that gliding form preceded [us]3297-us , then turned down a flight of steps leading to [the basement]3298-the basement . Triple resolution gushed through [me]0-i at this ; this was the spot where the ghost was known to turn , and glide back through [the corridor]7666-the corridor . When it had descended about half - way down the staircase , where the steps were on the turn and narrow , standing at the head [I]0-i distinctly heard a flop , as of a slipper - heel dropping from the foot , and then caught up again . What ghost was likely to want slippers ? And what mortal presence need [I]0-i fear , with [Judy]477-judy at [my]0-i side ? Keeping [him]477-judy behind [me]0-i by a gentle touch , [I]0-i hurried down [the stairs]5744-the stairs . Luckily , [I]0-i stopped before [I]0-i turned the corner , for a gleam came up [the passage]824-the passage ; the ghost had struck a lucifer . It was [a dark and narrow passage]3302-a dark and narrow passage , proof to any moon - light , and [the spectre]3303-the spectre lost no time in lighting a small lamp , to find the study door ; [I]0-i mean [[[my]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle 's private study]3305-my uncle 's private study , where [he]1271-my uncle kept [his]1271-my uncle papers . The lamp was of peculiar shape , very small , and fitted with three reflectors , to throw the light in converging planes . Still remaining in deep shadow , [I]0-i saw [the person — ghost no longer]3306-the person — ghost no longer — produce a key , open the study door and enter . Then an attempt was made to lock the door from the inside , but — as [I]0-i knew by the sound — the false key would not work that way , and the door was only closed . Whispering into [Judy]477-judy 's ear , that if [he]477-judy dared to move — for [his]477-judy honest wrath at these burglarious doings could scarcely be controlled — [I]0-i would make a ghost of [him]477-judy next day , [I]0-i left [him]477-judy in [the passage]824-the passage , and softly followed [the intruder]3308-the intruder . First [I]0-i looked through the key - hole ; [the room]823-the room was very dark and full of heavy furniture ; [I]0-i could see nothing ; but must risk the chance . So [I]0-i slipped in noiselessly and closed the door behind [me]0-i . With the ghostly apparel thrown aside , and a mask laid on an ebony desk , stood intently occupied at [the large bureau , which [I]0-i had once so longed to search]3310-the large bureau , which i had once so longed to search , [[my]0-i arch - enemy]3311-my arch - enemy , [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy . [I]0-i was not at all surprised , having felt long since that it could be no other . Sitting upon a stiff - backed velvet chair , in the shadow of an oaken bookcase — crouch [I]0-i would not for [her]312-mrs. daldy — [I]0-i waited to see what [she]312-mrs. daldy would do . Already the folding - doors of [the large bureau]3312-the large bureau were open ; their creaking had drowned the noise of [my]0-i entry . Before [her]312-mrs. daldy was exposed a multitude of drawers . All the visible doors [she]312-mrs. daldy had probably explored on the previous nights , as well as the other repositories of various kinds which [the room]823-the room contained . [Her]312-mrs. daldy search was narrowed now to one particular part of [this bureau]3314-this bureau . The folding - doors were very large , and richly inlaid with arabesques and scroll - work of satin - wood and ebony : all the inside was fitted and adorned with ivory pillars , small alcoves containing baby mirrors , flights of chequered steps , and other quaint devices , besides the more business - like and useful sliding trays . With the lamp - light flashing on it , [it]3314-this bureau looked like [a palace for [the Queen of Dolls]3316-the queen of dolls]3315-a palace for the queen of dolls — [a place for puppet ceremony and pleasure]3317-a place for puppet ceremony and pleasure . Every drawer was faced with marquetrie , every little door had panels of shagreen . In short , the whole thing would have been the pride of [any shop in [Wardour Street]123-wardour street]3318-any shop in wardour street , when [that street]7541-that street was [itself]7541-that street . Having never seen [it]3314-this bureau open till now , [I]0-i was quite astonished , though [I]0-i do n't know how often [[my]0-i father]731-my father had promised to show it to [me]0-i on [my]0-i very next birthday , if [I]0-i were good . Probably [I]0-i was never good enough . Without any hesitation , [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy pressed a fan , or slide , of cedar - wood , in the right corner of the cabinet ; the slide sunk into a groove , and disclosed two deep , but narrow drawers ; these [she]312-mrs. daldy pulled out from [their]3321-their boxes , and laid aside ; they were full of papers , which [she]312-mrs. daldy no doubt had already examined . Then [she]312-mrs. daldy placed the diminutive lamp on one of the doll steps , and produced from [her]312-mrs. daldy pocket three or four little tools . Before commencing with these , [she]312-mrs. daldy probed and pressed the partition between the sockets of those two drawers , in every imaginable way — a last attempt to find the countersign of [some private nook]3322-some private nook , which had defied [her]312-mrs. daldy the night before . At length , with a low cry of impatience , [she]312-mrs. daldy seized a small , thin chisel , and a bottle of clear liquid : with the one [she]312-mrs. daldy softened the buhl veneer upon the partition 's face , and with the other [she]312-mrs. daldy removed it . Then , after a little unscrewing , [she]312-mrs. daldy carefully prized away the stop of cedar - wood , while [I]0-i admired [her]312-mrs. daldy workman - like proceedings ( so far as they were visible to [me]0-i ) , and the graceful action of the arms [she]312-mrs. daldy was so proud of . [Her]312-mrs. daldy shoulder came rather in [my]0-i way , but [I]0-i got a glimpse of the narrow , vertical opening , where the cedar - stop had been . [She]312-mrs. daldy drew a long breath of delight and pride , then thrust a wire - crook into this opening , and hooked forth two thin and closely - fastened packets . Eagerly [she]312-mrs. daldy looked at them ; they were what [she]312-mrs. daldy wanted . No doubt [she]312-mrs. daldy knew [their]3323-their contents ; [her]312-mrs. daldy object was to get hold of them . Having placed them carefully in [her]312-mrs. daldy bosom , [she]312-mrs. daldy prepared for a little more joiner 's work , to restore what [she]312-mrs. daldy had dismantled . [Her]312-mrs. daldy dexterity was so pleasing , that [I]0-i let [her]312-mrs. daldy proceed for a while . [She]312-mrs. daldy soon refixed the cedar - stop , tapping it in the most knowing way with the handle of the screw - driver , then [she]312-mrs. daldy screwed it tightly , and spread the wood with some liquid cement to carry the veneer . [She]312-mrs. daldy had mislaid the narrow strip of tortoise - shell and brass , and was looking for it on the chequered steps , when [I]0-i called aloud : " Shall [I]0-i show [you]312-mrs. daldy where [you]312-mrs. daldy put it , [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy ? But where on earth did [you]312-mrs. daldy learn [your]312-mrs. daldy trade ? "[0-i] Never was amazement written more strongly on any human face . If the ghost had frightened [me]0-i , [I]0-i now had [my]0-i full revenge . [She]312-mrs. daldy dropped the bottle of cement , and it rolled on the cabinet steps ; [she]312-mrs. daldy turned , with [her]312-mrs. daldy face as white as the mask , and glared round [the room]823-the room , for [I]0-i was still concealed in the recess . [I]0-i thought [she]312-mrs. daldy would have blown out the lamp , but [she]312-mrs. daldy had not presence of mind enough : otherwise among all that furniture it would not have been easy to catch [her]312-mrs. daldy ; and [she]312-mrs. daldy knew nothing of [[my]0-i sentinel]3325-my sentinel at the door . After some quiet enjoyment of [her]312-mrs. daldy terror , [I]0-i came forth , and met [her]312-mrs. daldy fairly . " What , [Clara Vaughan]293-clara ! Is it possible ? [I]0-i thought [you]312-mrs. daldy were in [London]1-london . "[0-i] " Is it possible that [I]0-i have found [a Christian]2457-a christian , so truly earnest about [her]2457-a christian soul , so yearning over the unregenerate , committing a black robbery in the dead of night ? Is this what [you]312-mrs. daldy call a wholesome conviction of sin ? "[0-i] Low exultation [I]0-i confess : but the highest blood in [the land]1188-the land , if it were blood , could scarcely have forborne it : for how [I]0-i abhorred [that hypocrite]3327-that hypocrite ! For a time [she]312-mrs. daldy knew not what to do or say , but glared at [me]0-i without much [Christian]309-christian feeling . Then [she]312-mrs. daldy tried to carry it off in a grandly superior style . [She]312-mrs. daldy drew [herself]312-mrs. daldy up , and looked as if [I]0-i were not worth reasoning with . " Perhaps [you]0-i are young enough to imagine , that because appearances are at this moment peculiar — "[312-mrs. daldy] " Thank [you]0-i : there is no need to inquire into the state of [my]312-mrs. daldy mind . Be kind enough to restore those packets which [you]0-i have stolen . "[312-mrs. daldy] " Indeed ! [I]312-mrs. daldy am perfectly amazed at [your]312-mrs. daldy audacity . What [I]312-mrs. daldy have belongs to [me]312-mrs. daldy righteously , and a stronger hand than [yours]312-mrs. daldy is required to rob [me]312-mrs. daldy . "[312-mrs. daldy] [She]312-mrs. daldy grasped [her]312-mrs. daldy chisel , and stood in a menacing attitude . [I]0-i answered [her]312-mrs. daldy very quietly , and without approaching nearer . " If [I]0-i wish to see [you]3328-his torn in pieces , [I]0-i have only to raise [my]0-i hand . [Giudice]475-giudice ! "[0-i] And [I]0-i gave a peculiar whistle thoroughly known to [my]0-i dog . [He]3328-his leaped against the door , forced the worn catch from the guard , and stood at [my]0-i side , with [his]3328-his great eyes flashing and [his]3328-his fangs laid bare . [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy jumped to the other side of the table , and seized a heavy chair . " [[My]312-mrs. daldy dear child]2385-my dear child , [[my]312-mrs. daldy dear girl]7689-my dear girl , [I]312-mrs. daldy believe [you]2385-my dear child are right after all . It is so hard to judge — for [God]303-god 's sake keep [him]3328-his back — so hard to judge when [one]6186-one 's own rights are in question . The old unregenerate tendencies — "[312-mrs. daldy] " Will lodge [you]2385-my dear child in [Gloucester]23-gloucester jail to - morrow . Once more those papers — or — "[0-i] and [I]0-i looked at [Giudice]475-giudice and began to raise [my]0-i hand . [His]3328-his eyes were on it , and [he]3328-his gathered [himself]3328-his for the spring like a cannon recoiling . In the height of [her]312-mrs. daldy terror , [she]312-mrs. daldy tore [her]312-mrs. daldy dress open and flung [me]0-i the packets across the end of the table . [I]0-i examined and fixed them to [Judy]477-judy 's collar . Then [we]3329-we both advanced , and penned [her]312-mrs. daldy up in a corner . It was so delightful to see [her]312-mrs. daldy for once in [her]312-mrs. daldy native meanness , despoiled of [her]312-mrs. daldy ca nt and phylactery , like a Pharisee under an oil - press . [She]312-mrs. daldy fell on [her]312-mrs. daldy knees and implored [me]0-i , in plain earnest English for once , to let [her]312-mrs. daldy go . [She]312-mrs. daldy appealed to [my]0-i self - interest , and offered [me]0-i partnership in [her]312-mrs. daldy schemes ; whereby alone [I]0-i could regain the birthright of which [I]0-i had been so heinously robbed . [I]0-i only asked if [she]312-mrs. daldy could reveal the mystery of [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's death . [She]312-mrs. daldy could not tell [me]0-i anything , or [she]312-mrs. daldy would have jumped at the chance . At last [I]0-i promised to let [her]312-mrs. daldy go , if [she]312-mrs. daldy would show [me]0-i the secret entrance under the oriel window . It was not for [her]312-mrs. daldy own sake [I]0-i released [her]312-mrs. daldy , but to avoid the scandal and painful excitement which [her]312-mrs. daldy trial must have created . When [she]312-mrs. daldy departed , now thoroughly crestfallen , [I]0-i followed [her]312-mrs. daldy out of [the house]764-the house by [the secret passage]3332-the secret passage , wherein [she]312-mrs. daldy had stored a few of [her]312-mrs. daldy stage - properties . [Giudice]475-giudice , whom , for fear of treachery , [I]0-i kept at [my]0-i side all the time , showed [his]475-giudice great teeth in the moonlight , and almost challenged [my]0-i right to let [her]312-mrs. daldy go . After taking the packets from [him]475-giudice , [I]0-i gave [him]475-giudice a sheepskin mat under the window there , and left [him]475-giudice on guard ; although there was little chance of another attempt being made , while the papers were in [my]0-i keeping . [Her]312-mrs. daldy mask and spectral drapery remained with [me]0-i , as trophies of this [my]0-i ghostly adventure . Next day when [I]0-i showed [[my]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle the two sealed packets which [I]0-i had rescued , and told [him]1271-my uncle all that had happened , at first [he]1271-my uncle was overcome with terror and amazement . [His]1271-my uncle illness seemed to have banished all [his]1271-my uncle satirical humour , and that disdainful apathy which is the negative form of philosophy . [He]1271-my uncle took the parcels with a trembling hand , and began to examine the seals . " All safe , "[1271-my uncle] [he]1271-my uncle said at last , " all safe , to [my]1271-my uncle surprise . [Dear child]2347-dear child , [I]1271-my uncle owe [you]2347-dear child more than life this time . [You]2347-dear child have defeated [[my]1271-my uncle worst enemy]944-my worst enemy . To [your]2347-dear child care only will [I]1271-my uncle commit these papers , one of which , [I]1271-my uncle hope will soon be of little value . It is [my]1271-my uncle will ; and by it [[your]2347-dear child father]5365-your father 's estates are restored to [you]2347-dear child , while the money which [I]1271-my uncle have saved by [my]1271-my uncle own care and frugality is divided into two portions , one for [you]2347-dear child , and the other , upon certain events , for that worthless [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy . This must be altered at once . When [you]2347-dear child have heard [my]1271-my uncle story , [you]2347-dear child may read the will , if [you]2347-dear child like . Indeed [I]1271-my uncle wish [you]2347-dear child to do so , because it will prove that in spite of all [our]7694-our estrangement , [I]1271-my uncle have meant all along to act justly towards [you]2347-dear child . But that [you]2347-dear child may understand things properly , [I]1271-my uncle will tell [you]2347-dear child [my]1271-my uncle strange history . Only one thing [you]2347-dear child must promise before [I]1271-my uncle begin . "[1271-my uncle] " What is it , [uncle dear]7386-uncle dear ? "[3334-his] " That [you]2347-dear child will forgive [me]0-i for [my]0-i one great error . Although it was the cause of [[your]2347-dear child dear father]5757-your dear father 's death . "[0-i] [I]0-i could not answer , for a minute . Then [I]0-i took [his]3334-his hand and kissed it , as [he]3334-his turned [his]3334-his face away . " [[My]0-i darling]5337-my darling , [I]0-i am not quite strong enough now after all [you]2347-dear child have been telling [me]0-i . Although [I]0-i had dark suspicions yesterday that some plot was in action ; for [I]0-i had observed that things in [the study]7698-the study were not as [I]0-i had left them ; and [I]0-i had other reasons too . But take [me]0-i , [[my]0-i precious child]7699-my precious child , to [the sunny bank]7700-the sunny bank this afternoon , and please [God]303-god , [I]0-i will at least begin [my]0-i tale . "[0-i] [I]0-i begged [him]3334-his in vain to defer it : there was a weight upon [his]3334-his mind , [he]3334-his said , which [he]3334-his must unload . So in the early afternoon , [I]0-i wheeled [him]3334-his gently to [the sheltered nook]3335-the sheltered nook . There , with the breezes way - lost among [new streets of verdure]3336-new streets of verdure , tall laburnum dangling chains of gold around [us]3337-us , and [Giudice]475-giudice stretching out [his]475-giudice paws in sunny yawns of glory , [I]0-i listened to [[my]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle 's tale , and was too young to understand the sigh which introduced it . How [few]2494-few may tell the story of [their]2494-few lives without remembering how [they]2494-few played with life ! Alas the die thrown once for all , but left to roll unwatched , and lie uncounted ! Though [I]0-i can not tell the story in [his]3334-his impressive way , [I]0-i will try to repeat it , so far as [my]0-i memory serves , in [his]3334-his words , and with [his]3334-his feelings . Solemnly and sadly fell the history from [his]3334-his lips , for [his]3334-his mind from first to last was burdened with the knowledge that the end was nigh at hand , that nothing now remained , except to wait with resignation the impending blow . STORY OF [EDGAR VAUGHAN]297-mr. edgar vaughan . " [I]297-mr. edgar vaughan have always been , as [you]7701-you know , of a roving unsocial nature . [[My]297-mr. edgar vaughan father]731-my father being dead before [I]297-mr. edgar vaughan was born , and [[my]297-mr. edgar vaughan mother]746-my mother having married again before [I]297-mr. edgar vaughan could walk , there was little to counteract [my]297-mr. edgar vaughan centrifugal tendencies . [I]297-mr. edgar vaughan seemed to belong to [neither family]7704-neither family ; though [I]297-mr. edgar vaughan always clung to [the Vaughans]398-vaughans , and disliked [the Daldys]563-the daldys . The trustees of [[[my]297-mr. edgar vaughan mother]746-my mother 's settlement]7706-my mother 's settlement were [[my]297-mr. edgar vaughan virtual guardians]7707-my virtual guardians ; for all the [Vaughan]293-clara estates being most strictly entailed , [[my]297-mr. edgar vaughan father]731-my father had nothing to dispose of , and therefore had made no will . [[[My]297-mr. edgar vaughan mother]746-my mother 's settlement]7706-my mother 's settlement comprised only personal estate , for no power had been reserved under the entail to create any charges upon [the land]1188-the land . The mortgages , of which no doubt [you]3341-your have heard , as paid off by [[your]3341-your father]5365-your father , were encumbrances of long standing . "[297-mr. edgar vaughan] [The estates]879-the estates , [I]0-i need not tell [you]3341-your , were shamefully mismanaged , during [[your]3341-your father]5365-your father 's long minority . [An agent]3343-an agent was appointed under [the Court of Chancery]3344-the court of chancery , and [an indolent rogue [he]3343-an agent was]3345-an indolent rogue he was . Meanwhile [[your]3341-your father]5365-your father and [myself]0-i went through the usual course of education , no difference being made in that respect between [us]3347-we . Although [we]3347-we were [only half - brothers]3348-only half - brothers , [we]3347-we were strongly attached to each other , especially after a thorough drubbing which [[your]3341-your good papa]3349-your good papa found it [his]3349-your good papa duty to administer to [me]0-i at [Eton]125-eton . It did [me]0-i a world of good ; before that , [I]0-i had rather despised [him]3349-your good papa for the gentleness of [his]3349-your good papa nature . At [Oxford]126-oxford , after [[your]3341-your father]5365-your father had left , [I]0-i kept aloof both from the great convivial and from the thinly peopled reading set , and lived very much by [myself]0-i . Soon as the humorous doings , whose humour culminates in the title ' lectures , ' soon as these were over , [I]0-i was away from the freckled stones , punting lazily on [the Cherwell]127-the cherwell , with French and Italian novels ; or lounging among the gipseys on [the steppes of [Cowley]128-cowley]3351-the steppes of cowley . Hall [I]0-i never frequented , but dined at [some distant tavern]3352-some distant tavern , and spent the evening , and often the night till [Tom]321-thomas henwood - curfew , in riding through [the lonely lanes]3353-the lonely lanes towards [Otmoor]129-otmoor , [Aston Common]130-aston common , or [Stanlake]131-stanlake . It was strange that [I]0-i never fell in love , for [I]0-i had plenty of small adventures , and fell in with [several pretty girls]3354-several pretty girls , but never one [I]0-i cared for . Gazing on the wreck [I]0-i am , it is no conceit to say that in those times [I]0-i was considered remarkably good - looking . Of course [I]0-i was not popular ; that [I]0-i never cared for ; but [nobody]1116-nobody had reason to dislike [me]0-i . [I]0-i affected no peculiarity , gave [myself]0-i no airs , behaved politely to all who took the trouble to address [me]0-i ; and [the world]798-the world , which [I]0-i neither defied nor courted , followed its custom in such cases , and let [me]0-i have [my]0-i way . " At [Lincoln 's Inn]132-lincoln 's inn , [my]3357-my life was much the same , except that wherries succeeded punts , and evening rides were exchanged for moonlight walks in [the park]892-the park . It was reported at [home]1102-home , as it is of [most men who are called to [the Bar]903-the bar]7715-most men who are called to the bar , that [I]3357-my was likely to do great things . There never was a chance of it . Setting aside the question of ability , [I]3357-my had no application , no love of the law , no idea whatever of touting ; and still more fatal defect , [my]3357-my lonely habits were darkening into a shy dislike of [my]3357-my species . "[3357-my] [You]3357-my have heard that [I]0-i was extravagant . As regards [my]0-i early career , the charge is quite untrue . Money , [I]0-i confess , was never much in [my]0-i thoughts , nor did [I]0-i ever attempt to buy things below their value ; but [my]0-i wants were so few , and [my]0-i mode of life so ungenial , that [I]0-i never exceeded the moderate sum allotted to [me]0-i as [a younger son]910-a younger son . Afterwards this was otherwise , and for excellent reasons . " During the height of the [London]1-london season [I]3359-i was always most restless and misanthropic . Not that [I]3359-i looked with envy on the frivolous dust of fashion , and clouds of sham around [me]3359-i ; but that [I]3359-i felt [myself]3359-i lowered as [an Englishman]1891-an englishman by the cringing , the falsehood , the small babooneries , which [we]7718-we call ' society . ' [I]3359-i longed to be , if [I]3359-i could but afford it , where [men]1003-men have more manly self - respect , and [women more true womanhood]7720-women more true womanhood . "[3359-i] [[Your]3359-i parents]3360-your parents were married , [[my]0-i darling]5337-my darling [Clara]293-clara , at the end of December , 1826 , six years before [your]3359-i birth . Upon that occasion , [[your]3359-i dear father]5757-your dear father , [the only man in [the world]798-the world for whom [I]0-i cared a fig]3363-the only man in the world for whom i cared a fig , made [me]0-i a very handsome present . In fact [he]5757-your dear father gave [me]0-i a thousand pounds . [He]5757-your dear father would have given [me]0-i a much larger sum , for [he]5757-your dear father was [a most liberal man]3365-a most liberal man , but [the estates]879-the estates had suffered from long mismanagement , and were seriously encumbered . [I]0-i do not hesitate to say that the gross income of [this property]5453-this property is now double what it was when [[your]3359-i father]5365-your father succeeded to it , and the net income more than quadruple . During the four years which elapsed between that event and [his]5757-your dear father marriage , [he]5757-your dear father had devoted all [he]5757-your dear father could spare to the clearance of encumbrances and therefore , as [I]0-i said , the present [he]5757-your dear father made [me]0-i was a most generous one . More than this , [he]5757-your dear father invited and pressed [me]0-i to come and live on [the estate]952-the estate , and offered to set [me]0-i up in [a farm which [I]0-i might hold from [him]5757-your dear father on most advantageous terms]3370-a farm which i might hold from him on most advantageous terms . Upon [my]0-i refusal , [he]5757-your dear father even begged [me]0-i to accept , at a most liberal salary , the stewardship of [the property]1112-the property , and the superintendence of great improvements , which [he]5757-your dear father meant to effect . [I]0-i remember , as if it were yesterday , the very words [he]5757-your dear father used . [He]5757-your dear father took [my]0-i hand in [his]5757-your dear father , and with that genial racy smile , which very few could resist , " ' Come , [Ned]297-mr. edgar vaughan , ' [he]5757-your dear father cried , ' there are but two of [us]7721-us ; there 's room for both in [the old nest]7722-the old nest ; and [you]297-mr. edgar vaughan are big enough to thrash [me]5757-your dear father now . ' "[5757-your dear father] At the sweet recollection of [his]5757-your dear father Eton drubbing , as [he]5757-your dear father called it , [[my]0-i poor uncle]2919-my poor uncle 's eyes grew moist . " So [you]297-mr. edgar vaughan see , [[my]5757-your dear father child]1549-my child , instead of grudging [[your]297-mr. edgar vaughan father]5365-your father [the property]1112-the property , [I]5757-your dear father had every reason to love and revere [him]5365-your father . However , [I]5757-your dear father refused this as well as the other offer ; but [I]5757-your dear father accepted [his]5757-your dear father present , and invested it rather luckily . After spending a pleasant month at [home]1102-home — as [I]5757-your dear father always called it — [I]5757-your dear father returned to [London]1-london early in April , 1827 . There are [no two minds]7727-no two minds alike , any more than there are [two bodies]7728-two bodies ; and yet how little variety exists in polite society ! Surely it were more reasonable to wedge the infant face into a jelly - mould , to flute [its]7729-its ears and cheeks like collared head , and grow the nose and lips and eyebrows into rosettes and grapes and acorns , than to bow and cramp and squeeze a million minds into one set model . Yet [here]846-here [I]5757-your dear father find [men]1003-men all alike , [Dane]564-dane and [Saxon]565-saxon , [Celt]566-celt and [Norman]567-norman , like [those who walk where snow is deep , or [Alpine travellers lashed to a rope]7733-alpine travellers lashed to a rope , trudging [each in other]7734-each in other 's footprint , swinging all [their]1003-men arms in time , looking neither right nor left , and so on through life 's pilgrimage]7732-those who walk where snow is deep , or alpine travellers lashed to a rope , trudging each in other 's footprint , swinging all their arms in time , looking neither right nor left , and so on through life 's pilgrimage , a file some million deep . Who went first [they]1003-men do not know , why [they]1003-men follow [they]1003-men can not tell , what it leads to [they]1003-men never ask . [I]5757-your dear father was marked and scorned at once , because [I]5757-your dear father dared to adopt a hat that did not scalp [me]5757-your dear father in half - an hour , and a cravat that did not throttle [me]5757-your dear father ; and even had the hardihood to dine when [I]5757-your dear father felt hungry . How often [I]5757-your dear father longed for [a land of freedom and common sense]7735-a land of freedom and common sense , where it is no disgrace to carry a barrel of oysters , or shake hands with [a tradesman]6832-a tradesman . [I]5757-your dear father know what [you]7737-you are smiling at , [Clara]293-clara . [You]7737-you are thinking to [yourself]7737-you , ' how different [you]7737-you are now , [[my]5757-your dear father good uncle]7738-my good uncle ; and wern't [you]7737-you a little inconsistent in sanctioning all this livery humbug here ? ' Yes , [I]5757-your dear father am different now . [I]5757-your dear father am older and wiser than to expect to wipe away with [my]5757-your dear father coat - sleeve the oxide of many centuries . As for the livery , it makes [them]7739-them happy : it is [an Englishman]1891-an englishman 's uniform . And [I]5757-your dear father have seen and suffered so bitterly from the violence of an untamed race , that [I]5757-your dear father admire less what [I]5757-your dear father used to call [the unlassoed arch of the human neck]7741-the unlassoed arch of the human neck . [I]5757-your dear father have seen a coarse line somewhere , "[5757-your dear father] ' And freedom made a deal too free with [me]0-i , ' which expresses briefly the moral of [my]0-i life . However , at the time [I]0-i speak of , nursing perhaps [a younger son]910-a younger son 's bias against the social laws , and fresh from the true simplicity and unaffected warmth of [[your]3374-your father]5365-your father 's character and the gentle sweetness of [[your]3374-your mother]5332-your mother 's , [I]0-i could not sit on the spikes of [fashion 's hackney coach]3377-fashion 's hackney coach , as becomes [a poor Briton]3378-a poor briton , till [the driver]6033-the driver whips behind . Finding of course that [no one]730-no one cared whether [I]0-i sat there or not , and that all [I]0-i got at the side of [the road]1630-the road was pea - shots from cads in the dickey , [I]0-i did what [thousands]3382-thousands have done before [me]0-i , and will probably do again , [I]0-i voted [[my]0-i fellow - Britons]3383-my fellow - britons a parcel of [drivelling slaves]3384-drivelling slaves , and longed to be out of [the gang]3385-the gang . Perhaps [I]0-i should never have made [my]0-i escape , for like most of [[my]0-i class]5968-my class , [I]0-i spent all [my]0-i energy in small eccentricity , if it had not been for what [we]3387-we idlers entitle the force of circumstances . At a time when [my]0-i life was flowing on calmly enough though babbling against [its]3388-its banks , it came suddenly on an event which drove it into [another and rougher channel]3389-another and rougher channel . " Early one afternoon in the month of April , 1829 , [I]0-i launched [[my]0-i little boat]7742-my little boat from [the Temple - stairs]7743-the temple - stairs , where [I]0-i kept [it]7742-my little boat , and feeling more than usually saturnine and moody , resolved on a long expedition . So [I]0-i victualled [[my]0-i ship]7744-my ship like [Robinson Crusoe]568-robinson crusoe , and took some wraps and coverings . It was then slack water , just at the height of the flood . [I]0-i meant to have gone to [Richmond]133-richmond , but being far too indolent to struggle against the tide , [I]0-i yielded to nature 's good pleasure , and pulled away down stream . In a few minutes a rapid ebb tide was running , and [I]0-i made up [my]0-i mind to go with it as far as ever it chose , and to return with the flood whenever that pleased to meet [me]0-i . "[0-i] After rowing steadily for several hours , [I]0-i found [myself]0-i a long way past [my]0-i customary Cape Turn - again . With a strong ebb tide as well as [a land - fresh in [the river]5715-the river]3390-a land - fresh in the river , [I]0-i had got beyond [Barking Reach]134-barking reach , and as far as [the Dagenham marshes]3392-the dagenham marshes . Here [some muddy creeks]3393-some muddy creeks , pills , and [sluggish channels]3394-sluggish channels wind and welter among the ooze - lands on [the north side of [the Thames]135-the thames]3395-the north side of the thames . All around [them]3393-some muddy creeks stretches and fades away a dreary flat monotonous waste ; no dot of [a house]5382-a house , no jot of a tree , to vary [the dead expanse]3397-the dead expanse ; except that by [the river]5715-the river - side one or two low cabooses , more like hoys than [houses]6198-houses , are grounded among the slime . This , so far as [my]0-i memory serves , was the state of [these Essex marshes]3400-these essex marshes in the year 1829 : how it is now [I]0-i can not say . " It was high time for [me]0-i to turn : row as [I]0-i would , [I]0-i could hardly get back to [[my]0-i haven]7745-my haven by midnight . [Outrigger skiffs]7746-outrigger skiffs were not yet known ; and [an oarsman]7747-an oarsman could not glide along at the rate of ten miles an hour . Just as [I]0-i was working round , [a steam packet]7748-a steam packet , which had been moored a short way below , crippled perhaps in [[her]7748-a steam packet engines]7749-her engines , now at the turn of the tide passed up , and was quickly out of sight . As [she]7748-a steam packet passed [me]0-i [I]0-i hailed for a tow - rope ; but either [they]7750-they could not hear , or [they]7750-they did not choose to notice [me]0-i . There was nothing for it but to bend [my]0-i back to the oars , and keep a sharp look out . Presently the flood began to make strongly up [the river]5715-the river , and [I]0-i gave way with a will , [my]0-i paddles bending and the water gleaming in the early starlight . It was a lonely and melancholy scene . The gray mist returning from some marshy excursion , and hugging [the warm sea - water]7752-the warm sea - water , floated along in dull folds , with a white flaw of steam here and there curdling over the current . Not [a ship]1423-a ship , [not a barge]7754-not a barge was in sight ; no voice of [men]1003-men or [low of cattle]7756-low of cattle broke the foggy silence : but the wash of [the stream]1155-the stream on [its]1155-the stream sludgy marge , or on some honey - combed mooring - post , surged every now and then betwixt the jerks of [my]0-i rowlocks . The loneliness and the sadness harmonised with [my]0-i sombre mind . All is transient , all is selfish , all is a flux of melancholy . If [we]7758-we toss and dance [we]7758-we are only boats adrift ; [we]7758-we are nothing more than crazy tide - posts , if [we]7758-we be philosophers . "[0-i] Suddenly a clear loud cry broke [my]0-i vacant musings . It startled [me]0-i so that [I]0-i caught a crab , ceased rowing , and gazed around . At first [I]0-i could not tell whence it came , till [[my]0-i boat]3401-my boat , with the way [she]3402-she had on [her]3402-she , shot round [a low spit of [the Essex shore]3404-the essex shore]3403-a low spit of the essex shore , which from the curve of [the river]5715-the river [I]0-i was nearing rapidly . Louder and louder the cry was twice repeated , and [I]0-i heard in the still spring evening the oaths of [men]1003-men and the scuffling of feet . Within fifty yards of [me]0-i was [an ill - looking house , made of battens , and raised on piles above high water mark]3407-an ill - looking house , made of battens , and raised on piles above high water mark . A tattered sign hung on a pole , and [a causeway]3408-a causeway led to the steps . While [I]0-i was hesitating , [two figures]3409-two figures crossed a lattice window , as if in violent struggle , and a heavy crash resounded . Three strong strokes of [my]0-i oars , and the keel grated on [the causeway]3410-the causeway . Out [I]0-i leaped with the boat - hook , threw the painter over a post , and rushed up [the slimy jetty]3411-the slimy jetty , and the narrow wooden steps . The door was fastened , [I]0-i pushed it with all [my]0-i force , but in vain . One faint scream reached [my]0-i ears , as of [some one at length overpowered . Swinging the boat - hook with both hands]3412-some one at length overpowered . swinging the boat - hook with both hands , [I]0-i struck the old door with the butt , and broke it open . In [the lower room]3413-the lower room there was [no one , but a moaning and trampling sounded over head]3414-no one , but a moaning and trampling sounded over head . [Upstairs]6042-upstairs [I]0-i ran , and into [the room where [the villany]3417-the villany was doing]3416-the room where the villany was doing . [A poor girl]3418-a poor girl lay on the floor at the last gasp of exhaustion . [Two ruffians with a rope]3419-two ruffians with a rope were bending over [her]3418-a poor girl . Down went one , at a blow of [my]0-i boat - hook , flat beside [[his]3420-his victim]3421-his victim : the other leaped at [my]0-i throat . [I]0-i saw and soon felt that [he]3420-his was [a powerful man]3422-a powerful man , but in those days [I]0-i was [no cripple]3423-no cripple . [We]3424-we were most evenly matched . [I]0-i wrenched [his]3420-his hand from [my]0-i throat , but twice [he]3420-his got [me]0-i under [him]3420-his , twice [I]0-i writhed from [his]3420-his grasp like a python from a tiger 's jaw . Clutched and locked in [each other]734-each other 's arms , in vain [we]3424-we tugged to get room for a blow . Throttle , and gripe , and roll — which should be first insensible ? An accident gave [me]0-i the mastery . For a moment [we]3424-we lay face to face , glaring at [each other]734-each other , drawing the strangled breath , loosing the deadly grip , panting , throbbing , and watching . [My]0-i boat - hook lay on the floor , [[my]0-i enemy]1966-my enemy spied and made a sudden dash at it . Instead of withholding , [I]0-i jobbed [him]3420-his towards it with all [my]0-i might , and as [he]3420-his raised it , the point entered one of [his]3420-his eyes . With a yell of pain and fury , [he]3420-his sank beneath [me]0-i insensible . Shaking and quaking all over after the desperate struggle , [I]0-i bound [him]3420-his and [[his]3420-his mate]3428-his mate , hand and foot , with the twisted tarry junk , which [they]3429-they had meant for [the maiden]3430-the maiden . " At length [I]3429-they had time to look round . On a low truckle bed at the end of [the long dark room]6397-the long dark room , in which a ship - lamp was burning , there lay [an elderly lady in a perfect stupor of fright and illness]7760-an elderly lady in a perfect stupor of fright and illness . Upon the floor with [her]7760-an elderly lady in a perfect stupor of fright and illness head thrown back against the timbers , and [her]7760-an elderly lady in a perfect stupor of fright and illness black eyes wide open and fixed on [me]3429-they , sat [a girl of remarkable beauty]7761-a girl of remarkable beauty , though [her]7760-an elderly lady in a perfect stupor of fright and illness cheeks were as white as death . A magnificent ring , for which [she]7760-an elderly lady in a perfect stupor of fright and illness had fought most desperately , was wrenched from its place on [her]7760-an elderly lady in a perfect stupor of fright and illness finger and hung over the opal nail , for [her]7760-an elderly lady in a perfect stupor of fright and illness hands were clenched , and [her]7760-an elderly lady in a perfect stupor of fright and illness arms quite stiff , in the swoon of utter exhaustion . [Both ladies]7762-both ladies were in deep mourning . "[3429-they] For the rest a few words will suffice . [The poor ladies]3431-the poor ladies revived at last , after chafing of hands and sprinkling , and told [me]0-i where to find [the woman of [the house]764-the house , who had been locked up in [another room]3434-another room by [[her]3432-the woman of the house , who had been locked up in another room by her husband and brother husband]6140-her husband and [brother]3436-brother]3432-the woman of the house , who had been locked up in another room by her husband and brother . There was [no one else]5442-no one else on [the premises]3438-the premises . How came [the ladies]3439-the ladies [there]1114-there , what was [their]3439-the ladies destination , and why were [they]3439-the ladies so outraged ? [They]3439-the ladies were on [their]3439-the ladies return to [London]1-london from [the Continent]136-the continent , being called [home]1102-home by tidings of death , and had sailed from [Antwerp]137-antwerp two days and a - half before , in [the steamer]3442-the steamer which [I]0-i had seen lying to . [Steamers]3443-steamers were then heavy lumbering things , and all that time [Mrs. Green]569-mrs. green and [[her]569-mrs. green daughter]3444-her daughter had been knocking about on [a pecky sea]3445-a pecky sea . No wonder that [the poor mother]3446-the poor mother had cried out feebly , to be landed anywhere , anywhere in [the world]798-the world , where things would leave off going round . And before [they]3439-the ladies came to that tedious halt in [the river]5715-the river , [fair Adelaide]570-lepardo , who had enjoyed [her]570-lepardo meals throughout , renewed and completed [her]570-lepardo poor mamma 's excavation , by inquiring calmly with [her]570-lepardo mouth full of pickled pork , where the peas - pudding was . Now too [Miss Adelaide]571-miss adelaide soon recovered from [her]571-miss adelaide fearful battle for honour and life . [She]571-miss adelaide was what is called now - a - days [a girl of " splendid organisation]7763-a girl of " splendid organisation . "[7763-a girl of " splendid organisation] If [she]571-miss adelaide had not been so , [she]571-miss adelaide would have lain ere now with [[her]571-miss adelaide mother]6340-her mother at [the bottom of [Barking Reach]134-barking reach]3450-the bottom of barking reach . [The two scoundrels of [that lonesome hostelry]3452-that lonesome hostelry]3451-the two scoundrels of that lonesome hostelry had been ordered to send to [Barking]139-barking for a conveyance . But [they]3451-the two scoundrels of that lonesome hostelry only pretended to do so ; for [they]3451-the two scoundrels of that lonesome hostelry had cast foul covetous eyes on the wealth of [[their]3451-the two scoundrels of that lonesome hostelry unknown guests]3453-their unknown guests and on [brave Adelaide]570-lepardo 's beauty . Beyond a doubt [both ladies]7762-both ladies would have been murdered , but for the gallant resistance , the vigour , and presence of mind of [Adelaide]570-lepardo . " Having restored [their]3451-the two scoundrels of that lonesome hostelry watches , and scattered trinkets , and led the poor things from the scene of the combat , [I]3455-i was quite at a loss for means to convey [them]3451-the two scoundrels of that lonesome hostelry [home]1102-home . [Barking]139-barking was a long way off , and [the marshy track]7765-the marshy track unknown to [me]3455-i , and not likely to be found in the dark . Moreover , there must be some hazard in leaving [them]3451-the two scoundrels of that lonesome hostelry still in [that villanous den]7766-that villanous den , no matter how [[their]3451-the two scoundrels of that lonesome hostelry cowardly foes]7767-their cowardly foes might be bound . At last , and with great difficulty , [I]3455-i embarked [the two ladies]7768-the two ladies in [my]3455-i shallop , and wrapped [them]7768-the two ladies warmly from the night air ; then after relashing [[my]3455-i prisoners]7769-my prisoners , and locking [them]7768-the two ladies up in [separate rooms]7770-separate rooms , and [the woman]822-the woman [downstairs]1041-downstairs , [I]3455-i pulled away stoutly for [Woolwich]140-woolwich . Here [I]3455-i obtained [a carriage]6079-a carriage , and started [[my]3455-i convoy]7774-my convoy for [London]1-london , and then returned with [two policemen]6803-two policemen to [the "[3455-i] Old Row Barge]7776-the " old row barge , " as [the low caboose]7777-the low caboose was called . But both [our]7778-our birds were flown , as [I]3455-i was inclined to expect . Most likely [the woman]822-the woman had contrived to get out , and release [them]7768-the two ladies . At any rate [the "[3455-i] Old Row Barge]7776-the " old row barge " had [no crew]7781-no crew , and [the deserters]7782-the deserters had set it on fire . The flames , as [we]7778-our rowed away , after vainly searching [the marshes]7783-the marshes , cast a lurid glow on [the mud - banks]7784-the mud - banks , and on the slackening tide ; a true type it was of what soon befell [me]3455-i — the burning of [[my]3455-i caboose]7785-my caboose . [The two men]3098-the two men were caught long afterwards by [the Thames Police]141-the thames police , and transported for life on a conviction for river piracy . At least , [I]3455-i was told that [they]3098-the two men were [the men]5486-the men . "[3455-i] " And of course , [dear uncle]3045-dear uncle , [you]3045-dear uncle fell deeply in love with the beautiful [Adelaide Green]572-adelaide . "[3455-i] " Of course , [[my]0-i dear]5318-my dear , [a young lady]6179-a young lady would conclude so . But at present [I]0-i must not talk any more . "[0-i] [I]0-i had several times tried to stop [him]3455-i . " And what [I]3455-i have next to relate is matter of deeper feeling . By [Jove]573-jove , to think how [I]3455-i battled with [that strong man]7791-that strong man ! And now [your]5318-my dear little fist , [Clara]293-clara , would floor [me]3455-i altogether . "[3455-i] [He]3455-i sighed , and [I]0-i sighed for [him]3455-i . Then [I]0-i thought of [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer , and gloried in [my]0-i prowess , as [I]0-i wheeled [[my]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle [home]1102-home . [[My]0-i uncle]1271-my uncle 's tale , as repeated here , will no more be broken either by [my]0-i interruptions , which were frequent enough , or by [his]3455-i own pauses , but will be presented in a continuous form . [STORY OF EDGAR VAUGHAN]574-story of edgar vaughan . " On the following day , when [I]574-story of edgar vaughan called at [the house in [Bloomsbury]142-bloomsbury]7792-the house in bloomsbury — then [a fashionable neighbourhood]7793-a fashionable neighbourhood — to which [I]574-story of edgar vaughan had been directed , [I]574-story of edgar vaughan was met at the threshold , with power and warmth , by [Peter Green]575-green [himself]575-green , [an old acquaintance of [mine]574-story of edgar vaughan]7794-an old acquaintance of mine , who proved to be [[Adelaide]572-adelaide 's brother]7795-adelaide 's brother . [My]574-story of edgar vaughan nature had been too reserved for [me]574-story of edgar vaughan to be friendly with [him]575-green at [College]99-the college , but [I]574-story of edgar vaughan had liked [him]575-green much better than [any one else]926-any one else , because [he]575-green was so decided and straight - forward . The meeting rather surprised [me]574-story of edgar vaughan , for [Green]575-green is not a rare name , and so it had never occurred to [me]574-story of edgar vaughan to ask the weary [Adelaide]572-adelaide whether [she]572-adelaide knew one [Peter Green]575-green , [a first - class man of [Christchurch]144-christchurch]7797-a first - class man of christchurch . [Peter]575-green , who was [a most hearty fellow]7798-a most hearty fellow , and full , like [[his]575-green sister]2443-his sister , of animal life , overpowered [me]574-story of edgar vaughan with the weight of [his]575-green gratitude , which [I]574-story of edgar vaughan did not at all desire or deserve . As , in spite of [your]7800-your rash conclusion , [[my]574-story of edgar vaughan romantic [Clara]293-clara]7801-my romantic clara , [I]574-story of edgar vaughan did not fall in love with [Adelaide]572-adelaide , who besides [her]572-adelaide pithsome health and vigour was in many respects astray from [my]574-story of edgar vaughan fair ideal , and more than all , was engaged long ago to [the giver of the sapphire ring]7802-the giver of the sapphire ring , [I]574-story of edgar vaughan need not enlarge upon [my]574-story of edgar vaughan friendship with [Peter Green]575-green , whom [I]574-story of edgar vaughan now began to like in real earnest . Young as [he]575-green was , [[his]575-green father]1062-his father 's recent death had placed [him]575-green at the head of [a leading mercantile house]7804-a leading mercantile house , [Green]575-green , [Vowler]7805-vowler , and [Green]575-green , of [Little Distaff Lane]145-little distaff lane . And young as [he]575-green was — not more than seven - and - twenty — [his]575-green manners were formed , and [his]575-green character and opinions fixed , as if [he]575-green had seen all the ways , and taken stock of the sentiments of [all the civilised world]7806-all the civilised world . Present to [him]575-green any complexity , any conflict of probabilities , [any maze whose ins and outs]7807-any maze whose ins and outs were abroad half over [the universe]7808-the universe , and if the question were practical , [he]575-green would see what to do in a moment ; if it were theoretical , [he]575-green would quietly move it aside . [I]574-story of edgar vaughan have known [many learned judges]7809-many learned judges sum up a case most lucidly , blow away all the verbiage , sweep aside all the false issues , balance the contradictions , illuminate all the obscurities , and finally lift from its matrix , and lay in the colourless sunlight the virgin truth , without either dross or polish . All this [Peter Green]575-green seemed to have done in a moment , without any effort , without any reasoning process ; not jumping at [his]575-green conclusion , but making it fly to [him]575-green . [He]575-green possessed what [an ancient writer]7810-an ancient writer , once highly esteemed at [Oxford]126-oxford , entitles the "[574-story of edgar vaughan] wit universal , " which confers and comprises the "[574-story of edgar vaughan] wit of details . " For this power when applied to a practical purpose , [a great historian]7811-a great historian employs a happy expression not welcomed by [our]7812-our language ; [he]7811-a great historian calls it the power to "[574-story of edgar vaughan] pontoon the emergency . " Excuse [my]574-story of edgar vaughan harsh translation , perhaps it is better than paraphrase . With all these business qualities , [[my]574-story of edgar vaughan friend]7813-my friend was as merry and unpretentious [a man]5384-a man as ever made a bad joke , or laughed at [another fellow]7815-another fellow 's ; [liberal]7816-liberal also , warm - hearted , and not sarcastic . In a word , [he]575-green was [a genuine specimen of [the noble English merchant , who has done more to raise [this country]1963-this country in the esteem of [the world]798-the world than would [a thousand Nelsons]7821-a thousand nelsons or [Wellingtons]576-wellingtons]7818-the noble english merchant , who has done more to raise this country in the esteem of the world than would a thousand nelsons or wellingtons]7817-a genuine specimen of the noble english merchant , who has done more to raise this country in the esteem of the world than would a thousand nelsons or wellingtons . Now [this man]7822-this man discerned at a glance the wretched defects of [my]574-story of edgar vaughan nature and position . An active mind like [his]7822-this man could never believe in the possibility of being happy without occupation . And by occupation [he]7822-this man meant , not the chasing of butterflies , or maundering after foxes , but real honest Anglo - Saxon work ; work that strings the muscles , or knits the hemispheres of the brain . And work [he]7822-this man would [himself]7822-this man , ay , and with all [his]7822-this man energies . Not [the man]5533-the man was [he]7822-this man to tap the table with [his]7822-this man pipe , and cry out , "[574-story of edgar vaughan] Bravo , [Altiora]577-altiora ! A little more gin if [you]577-altiora please , and chalk it down to the Strike ; " but [he]7822-this man was [the man]5533-the man to throw off [his]7822-this man coat , and pitch into the matter before [him]7822-this man without many words , though with plenty of thought . Now , [this man]7822-this man , feeling deeply indebted to [me]293-clara , and beginning to like [me]293-clara as [my]293-clara apathy and reserve went to pieces before [his]7822-this man energy , [this man]7822-this man , [I]293-clara say , cast about for some method of making [me]293-clara useful and happy . Wonderfully swift as [he]7822-this man was in pouncing upon the right thing , [I]293-clara believe it took [him]7822-this man at least five minutes to find out the proper course for [an impracticable fellow like [me]293-clara]7827-an impracticable fellow like me . And when [he]7822-this man had found this out , it took even [him]7822-this man a week to draw the snail out of [his]7822-this man hole . Years of agreeable indolence , and calm objective indifference , seldom ruffled except at fashionable snobbery , had made of [me]293-clara not [a Sybarite]7828-a sybarite , or [a supercilious censor]7829-a supercilious censor , much less [a waiter on fortune]7830-a waiter on fortune , but [a contemplative islander]7831-a contemplative islander , [a Haytian who had been once to [Spain]146-spain , and would henceforth be satisfied with the view of [her]7832-a haytian who had been once to spain , and would henceforth be satisfied with the view of her caravels caravels]7832-a haytian who had been once to spain , and would henceforth be satisfied with the view of her caravels . But [[my]293-clara Adelantado]7833-my adelantado was [a man of gold and iron]7834-a man of gold and iron . [Green]575-green , [Vowler]578-vowler , and [Green]575-green were largely concerned in the oil and dried fruit business . [They]7835-they had ransacked [the olive districts of [continental Europe]95-europe]7836-the olive districts of continental europe , and found the price going up and the quality going down , so [they]7835-they wanted now to open another oil vein . [Peter Green]575-green observing [my]293-clara love of uncultured freedom , the only subject on which [I]293-clara ever grew warm and rapturous , espied the way to relieve [me]293-clara of some nonsense , give [my]293-clara slow life a fillip , and perhaps — oh climax — open a lucrative connexion . [He]575-green knew , for [he]575-green seemed to know everything done or undone by commerce , that there was [a glorious island rich in jewels and marble and every dower of nature]7837-a glorious island rich in jewels and marble and every dower of nature , and above all teeming with olives , lemons , and grapes , and citrons ; and that [this gifted island]7838-this gifted island still remained a stranger , through French and [Genoese]148-genoese ignorance , to [our]7839-our [London]1-london trade . This was [the island libelled by [Seneca]579-seneca , idolised by [[its]7840-the island libelled by seneca , idolised by its natives , drenched with more blood than all the plains of emathia natives]7841-its natives , drenched with more blood than [all the plains of [Emathia]149-emathia]7842-all the plains of emathia]7840-the island libelled by seneca , idolised by its natives , drenched with more blood than all the plains of emathia , yet [mother of [heroes]7844-heroes and conquerors of [the world]798-the world]7843-mother of heroes and conquerors of the world — if that be any credit — in a single word , [Corsica]150-corsica . Once or twice indeed [[our]7839-our countrymen]7846-our countrymen have attempted to shake hands with [this noble race , so ruined by narrow tradition]7847-this noble race , so ruined by narrow tradition ; and in the end [we]7839-our shall doubtless succeed , as [we]7839-our always do ; but the grain of [the Corsican]585-old cora is almost as stubborn as [our]7839-our own . In fact the staple is much the same , the fabric is very different . Bold [they]7846-our countrymen are , and manly , simple , generous , and most hospitable , [lovers too of [[their]7846-our countrymen country]6569-their country beyond [all other nations]7850-all other nations]7848-lovers too of their country beyond all other nations ; but — oh fatal ignorance — industry to [them]7846-our countrymen is drudgery ; and labour is an outrage . Worse than all is [the fiend of [the island]1125-the island]7851-the fiend of the island , the cursed Blood - revenge . "[293-clara] Just the place for [you]3459-you , [Vaughan]293-clara , " said [the indomitable [Peter]575-green]7853-the indomitable peter , "[293-clara] every one there as dignified as an eagle after stealing a lamb . No institutions to speak of , but the natural one of Vendetta , splendid equality , majestic manhood , lots of true womanhood , and it does all the work that is done , which is n't saying much . Why , [[my]0-i dear]5318-my dear [Quixotic]580-quixotic , [the land of [Sampiero]152-sampiero and [Paoli]153-paoli]3461-the land of sampiero and paoli , and where [Rousseau]581-rousseau was to legislate , only [he]3462-he proved too lazy,—is not that the jockey for [you]3459-you ? After all these levees and masquerades that [you]3459-you so much delight in — [you]3459-you need not scowl like [a bandit]3463-a bandit ; it is only because [they]3464-they do n't want [you]3459-you , [you]3459-you are just the same as [the rest]6533-the rest , or why do [you]3459-you notice the nonsense?—after all this [London]1-london frippery , [Monte Kotondo]582-monte kotondo will be a fresh oyster after devil'd biscuits . " "[582-monte kotondo] True enough , [[my]0-i friend]7813-my friend : but an oyster to be swallowed shell and all . " "[582-monte kotondo] Well , is not that just what [you]7813-my friend want ? Lime is good for squeamishness . And more than that , [you]3459-you are just [the man [we]3468-we want]3467-the man we want . [You]3459-you can talk Italian with excellent opera style and sentiment ; and [you]3459-you wo n't be long till [you]3459-you fraternise with [the Corsicans]583-the corsicans . Perhaps [they]3464-they will drive out [the French]3469-the french , who do n't know what to do with it , and make [you]3459-you [[their]3469-the french king]3470-their king like [Theodore of Neuhoff]584-theodore of neuhoff ; and then [you]3459-you proclaim free trade restricted to [the navy of [Green]575-green]3471-the navy of green , [Vowler]578-vowler , and [Green]575-green . But in sober earnest , think of it , [[my]0-i dear]5318-my dear [Vaughan]293-clara . Anything is better than this cynic indolence . Some of [your]3459-you views will be corrected , and all enlarged by travel . A common sentiment . Yes , the very thing [you]3459-you are short of . All [your]3459-you expenses [we]3473-we pay of course , and give [you]3459-you an honest salary ; and all [we]3473-we ask of [you]3459-you is to explore more than [a tourist]3474-a tourist would ; and to send [us]3473-we a plain description of everything . [You]3459-you have plenty of observation ; make it useful instead of a torment to [you]3459-you . [We]3473-we know well enough the great gifts of [that island]3475-that island , but [we]3473-we want to know how they lie , and how [we]3473-we may best get at [them]3476-them . " "[0-i] Then [you]0-i would expect [me]0-i to make commercial arrangements ? " [Peter]575-green laughed outright . "[0-i] [I]0-i should rather fancy not . Somewhat queer ones they would be . Platonic no doubt , and panisic , but not altogether adapted to double entry . " "[3477-a committee of inquiry] Then in fact [I]0-i am to go as [a committee of inquiry]3477-a committee of inquiry . " "[0-i] [I]0-i have told [you]3459-you all [we]3473-we want . If [you]3459-you make [any friends]3478-any friends all the better ; but that [we]3473-we leave to [yourself]3459-you . Perhaps [you]3459-you 'll grow sociable [there]1114-there . Though [the Corsican]585-old cora does not sing , ' [We]3473-we wo n't go [home]1102-home till morning , ' and be going [home]1102-home all the time . " "[585-old cora] And how long would [my]0-i engagement last ? " "[585-old cora] Till [you]3459-you have thoroughly traversed [the country]1831-the country , if [you]3459-you stick to it so long ; and then if [you]3459-you quit [yourself]3459-you well , [we]3473-we should commission [you]3459-you for Sardinia . What an opening for [an idle man]3483-an idle man , though it would soon kill [me]0-i — so little to do . But [you]3459-you may cut it short when [you]3459-you like . [Plenty of [[our]3473-we people]3485-our people]3484-plenty of our people would jump at such an offer ; but for [a country like that]3486-a country like that [we]3473-we must have [a thorough gentleman]3487-a thorough gentleman . [A coarse - mannered bagman]3488-a coarse - mannered bagman would very soon secure the contents of a fusil . [He]3488-a coarse - mannered bagman would be kissing [the Corsican girls]3489-the corsican girls , who are wonderfully lovely [they]3489-the corsican girls say , and [[their]3489-the corsican girls lovers]3490-their lovers amazingly jealous ; and [every man]3491-every man carries a gun . [A timid man]3492-a timid man [they]3489-the corsican girls despise , [an insolent man]3493-an insolent man [they]3489-the corsican girls shoot ; and [most of [[our]3473-we fellows]3495-our fellows]3494-most of our fellows are one or the other , or both . But will [you]3496-you undertake it ? Yes , or no , on the spot . And [I]0-i ask [you]3496-you to say ' yes ' as a special favour to [me]0-i . " "[0-i] Then of course [I]0-i say yes . When shall [I]0-i go ? " "[0-i] To - morrow , if [you]3496-you like . Next month if [you]3496-you prefer it . [We]3473-we can give [you]3496-you introductions . There is no real danger for [a thorough gentleman]3487-a thorough gentleman , or [you]3496-you should not go for all the olives in [Europe]95-europe . Mind [we]3473-we want a particular sort , very long and taper — [Virgil]586-virgil 's ' Ray , ' in fact . [You]3496-you shall have a sample of it . As yet [we]3473-we know but [one district of [Italy]63-italy where it grows]3498-one district of italy where it grows , but have got scent of it in [Corsica]150-corsica . Glorious fellows [they]3499-they are , if half that [I]0-i hear is true , [glorious fellows]3500-glorious fellows but for [their]3499-they laziness , and that — — Vendetta . " To be brief , [I]574-story of edgar vaughan received very clear instructions in writing , and was off for [Bonifazio]155-bonifazio the following week , in [a small swift yacht]7854-a small swift yacht of [my]574-story of edgar vaughan own , a luxury to which [I]574-story of edgar vaughan had always aspired , and which [I]574-story of edgar vaughan could now for a time afford . But before [I]574-story of edgar vaughan went , [[your]3496-you poor father]5406-your poor father , [Clara]293-clara , protested most strongly against the scheme , and even came to [London]1-london in the vain hope of dissuading [me]574-story of edgar vaughan . [He]0-i had some deep presentiment that it would end darkly , and so indeed it did . "[574-story of edgar vaughan] [Ned]574-story of edgar vaughan , " said [he]0-i once more , "[574-story of edgar vaughan] there are only two of [us]3501-us , and [[my]0-i dear wife]3502-my dear wife is very delicate . [I]0-i have been at [Genoa]65-genoa , where [those islanders]3503-those islanders are well known , and even there [they]3503-those islanders are rarely spoken of but with a cold shudder . [They]3503-those islanders are [a splendid race]3504-a splendid race , [I]0-i believe , [great heroes]3505-great heroes and all that , but [they]3503-those islanders shoot [a man with no more compunction]3506-a man with no more compunction than [they]3503-those islanders shoot [a muffro]3507-a muffro . [I]0-i implore [you]574-story of edgar vaughan , [[my]0-i dear brother]5454-my dear brother , not to risk [the last of [[our]3501-us family]1997-our family , where blood flows as freely as water]3509-the last of our family , where blood flows as freely as water . And [your]574-story of edgar vaughan temper , [you]574-story of edgar vaughan know , is not the best in [the world]798-the world . Do n't go , [[my]0-i dear fellow]3512-my dear fellow , do n't go . [I]0-i shall have to come and avenge [you]574-story of edgar vaughan , and [I]0-i do n't understand Vendetta . " Ah , [me]0-i ! If [I]0-i had only listened to [him]0-i . And yet , [I]0-i do n't know . After a pleasant voyage [we]3501-us reached [the magnificent island]7856-the magnificent island , about the middle of May. [My]0-i intention was to skirt round [it]7856-the magnificent island from [the southern extremity]7857-the southern extremity , taking the western side first , and touching at every anchorage , whence [I]0-i would make incursions , and return to [[my]0-i little cutter]7858-my little cutter , as the most convenient head - quarters . Of course [I]0-i should have to rough [it]7858-my little cutter ; but [what young man]7859-what young man would think twice of that , with an adventurous life before [him]7859-what young man ? [I]0-i will not weary [you]574-story of edgar vaughan , [[my]0-i dear child]2385-my dear child , with a long description of [Corsica]150-corsica . [It]150-corsica is [a land which combines all the softness and the majesty , all the wealth and barrenness , all the smile and menace of all [the world beside]7862-the world beside]7861-a land which combines all the softness and the majesty , all the wealth and barrenness , all the smile and menace of all the world beside . [I]0-i could talk of it by the hour ; but [you]574-story of edgar vaughan want to know what [I]0-i did , and was done to , more than what [I]0-i saw . From [the awful rock of [Bonifazio]155-bonifazio]7863-the awful rock of bonifazio , [the streets where [men]1003-men should have no elbows]7864-the streets where men should have no elbows , and [the tower of [Torrione]156-torrione]7866-the tower of torrione , along [the fantastic coast which looks as if time]7867-the fantastic coast which looks as if time were a giant rabbit , [we]7868-we traced [the blue and spur - vexed sea]7869-the blue and spur - vexed sea , now edged with white , and now with gray , and now with glowing red , until [we]7868-we reached [that paradise of heaven]7870-that paradise of heaven , [the garden of [Balagna]183-the balagna]7871-the garden of balagna . Let [me]0-i hold [myself]0-i . Weak as [I]0-i am and crippled by premature old age , not the shortness of [my]0-i breath , not the numbness of [my]0-i heart , not even the palsy of [my]0-i frame , can quench or check the fire rekindled by the mere name of [that heavenly valley]7872-that heavenly valley . To live there only half a minute is worth a day of English life . Life — it is a space to measure , not by pendulum or clock - hand , not by [our]7868-we own strides to and fro ( the ordnance scale of the million ) , not even by the rolling sun , and nature 's hail and farewell ; but by the well - spring of [ourselves]7868-we , the fount of thought and feeling . Every single breath [I]0-i draw of this living air — air [the bride of [earth]1622-earth [[our]7868-we sire]7875-our sire , wedded to [him]7875-our sire by [God Creator]303-god , [air whose mother - milk [we]7868-we fight for in clusters baulking [one another]758-one another]7876-air whose mother - milk we fight for in clusters baulking one another]7873-the bride of earth our sire , wedded to him by god creator , air whose mother - milk we fight for in clusters baulking one another — every breath [I]0-i draw dances with a buoyant virtue , sucked , in [any other land]7878-any other land , but from [mountain nipples]7879-mountain nipples . Bright air of a rosy blue , where northern eyes are dazed with beauty , where every flower cuts stars of light , and every cloud is sunshine 's step ; can even [lovers parted]7880-lovers parted thus believe [themselves]7880-lovers parted divided ? [Every rock]7881-every rock has its myrtle favour , every tree its clematis wreath ; under the cistus and oleander hides the pink to lace [its]7881-every rock bodice , watched by [the pansy]7882-the pansy 's sprightly eye . Lavishly , as [children]1229-children 's bubbles , hover overhead oranges , and citrons , lemons , almonds , figs , varied by the blushing peach and the purpling grape . Far behind , and leaning forth the swarthy bosom of [the mountain]5676-the mountain , whose white head leans on [the heaven]7885-the heaven , are ranks on ranks of glaucous olive , giants of a green old age dashed with silver gray . And oh , the fragrance under foot , the tribute of the ground , which [[Corsica]150-corsica 's great son]7886-corsica 's great son — as [we]7868-we men measure greatness — pined for in [the barren isle]7887-the barren isle , where the iron of [his]7886-corsica 's great son selfishness entered [his]7886-corsica 's great son own soul . These are said to be the largest olive - trees in [the world]798-the world , and of the very best varieties . Heaps upon heaps the rich fruit lies at the foot of the glorious tree ; nature is too bountiful for [man]5770-man to heed [her]7890-her gifts . For [this district of Balagna]7891-this district of balagna , and [that of [Nebbio]158-nebbio further north]7892-that of nebbio further north , [my]0-i attention had been especially bespoken by [[my]0-i shrewd and sagacious friend]7893-my shrewd and sagacious friend . Therefore and by reason of the charms around [me]0-i , here [I]0-i resolved to pass the summer ; so [my]0-i vessel was laid up at [Calvi]159-calvi , and being quartered in [Belgodere]160-belgodere at [a little [Inn—"locanda]161-inn—"locanda]7894-a little inn—"locanda[0-i] " it should be called , but [I]3513-law the second to live by robbery hate interlarding — [I]3513-law the second to live by robbery addressed [myself]3513-law the second to live by robbery right heartily to business and to pleasure . First [I]3513-law the second to live by robbery had to study the grand Palladian gift . Unless [old Seneca]579-seneca was , as [the Corsicans]583-the corsicans say , [a great liar]7895-a great liar , [he]579-seneca can not have been the author of that epigram which declares [this land]7896-this land a stranger to [the peaceful boon]7897-the peaceful boon . It is impossible to believe that [a country so adapted to that tree , so often colonized by [cultured races]7899-cultured races]7898-a country so adapted to that tree , so often colonized by cultured races , can have been so long ungifted with [its]7898-a country so adapted to that tree , so often colonized by cultured races staff of life . [The island]1125-the island itself in that same epigram is utterly mis - described . As regards [the inhabitants]7901-the inhabitants , the first line of the well - known couplet is verified by ages ; to the second it does not plead guilty now , and probably never did . "[3513-law the second to live by robbery] Law the first revenge . [Law the second to live by robbery]3513-law the second to live by robbery . Law the third to lie . The fourth to deny any Gods . " [The Corsicans]583-the corsicans , on the contrary , have always been famous for candour , whose very soul is truth , and for superstition , [the wen or hump of religion]7902-the wen or hump of religion . For [my]0-i own part , loving not that unprincipled fellow hard labour , towards whom [these noble islanders]7903-these noble islanders entertain a like antipathy , and loving much any freedom not hostile to [my]0-i own , [I]0-i got on with [the natives]7904-the natives admirably , for a certain time . Time had reconciled [me]0-i to [their]583-the corsicans custom of carrying , instead of cane or umbrella , long double - barrelled guns , whose muzzle they afford [the stranger]1526-the stranger full opportunity of inspecting . [First - rate marksmen]7906-first - rate marksmen are [they]583-the corsicans , but [they]583-the corsicans sling [their]583-the corsicans guns at hap - hazard on [their]583-the corsicans backs , and cheek to jowl [we]7907-we come upon the cold metal at the corner of [the narrow streets]7908-the narrow streets . [Tall and powerful men]7909-tall and powerful men [they]583-the corsicans are , especially [the mountaineers]7910-the mountaineers ; with all [the Spaniard]7911-the spaniard 's dignity and [the Italian]7912-the italian 's native grace . [The women]5487-the women are lithe , erect , and beautifully formed , with a swan - like carriage , and a free and courteous bearing , such as very few of [[our]7907-we high - born damsels]7914-our high - born damsels own . [The olive - growers]7915-the olive - growers frankly gave [me]0-i all [their]7915-the olive - growers little information about that tree whose typical virtues [they]7915-the olive - growers have never cared to learn . The variety chiefly grown , or rather which chiefly grows itself , is one [they]7915-the olive - growers call [the Genoese]148-genoese . [The owners]1613-the owners afford [them]7915-the olive - growers very little culture , and [many]3234-many are too idle even to collect the fruit . There are said to be ten million olive - trees in [the island]1125-the island ; at least they were reckoned up to that number by order of [the Government]7919-the government ; then [the enumerators]7920-the enumerators grew tired , and left off counting . Whatever number there is might easily be tripled , if [any one]1178-any one had the energy to graft the oleasters , with which [the hills]1167-the hills are covered . There is also the Saracen olive , and the Sabine , the latter perhaps the Regia of [Columella]162-columella , Raggiaria of [Cæsalpinus]163-cæsalpinus , and [Radius of Virgil]586-virgil . However , though not unlike [my]0-i sample fruit , it was not quite identical , and as [[my]0-i employers]7923-my employers wanted a very special sort for very special qualities , [I]0-i was as far from [my]0-i object as ever . One magnificent summer evening , as [I]0-i rode along [the mountain side]5713-the mountain side near [the village of Speloncato]7925-the village of speloncato , suddenly [the track]7926-the track turned sharply into [a wooded dingle]6078-a wooded dingle . Steeped in the dream of nature 's beauty , [I]0-i was thinking of nothing at all , as becomes [a true Corsican]7928-a true corsican , when [I]0-i received a sharpish knock in the eye . Something fell and lodged in [my]0-i capacious beard . Smarting from the pain . [I]0-i caught it , and not being able to see clearly , took it at first for a spent and dropping bullet . But when [my]0-i eyes had ceased to water , [I]0-i found in [my]0-i hand a half - grown olive of the very kind [I]0-i had so long been seeking . [I]0-i drew forth some of [my]0-i London specimens which had been chemically treated to prevent [their]7923-my employers shrivelling , and compared it narrowly . Yes , there could be no doubt ; the same pyriform curve , the same bulge near the peduncle , the same violet lines in the skin , and when cut open , the same granulation and nucleus . [I]0-i was truly delighted , at length [I]0-i should be of some real service ; at least if there were many trees [here of this most rare variety]7929-here of this most rare variety . By riding up [the dingle]7930-the dingle , [I]0-i soon ascertained that [it]7930-the dingle was planted with trees of this sort only , gray old trees of a different habit from any other olive . Afterwards [I]0-i found that it requires a different soil , and a different aspect . Full speed [I]0-i galloped back to [the hamlet of [Speloncato]164-speloncato]7931-the hamlet of speloncato , and inquired for [the owner of [this olive Eldorado]7933-this olive eldorado]7932-the owner of this olive eldorado . [Signor Dezio Della Croce]589-signor dezio , owner of all this lovely slope , and of [large estates extending as far as [the road]1630-the road to [Corte]165-corte]7934-large estates extending as far as the road to corte ; in fact [the chief proprietor of [the neighbourhood]5329-the neighbourhood]7936-the chief proprietor of the neighbourhood . [He]589-signor dezio was , said [the peasant]7938-the peasant with some pride , [a true descendant of [the great race of [Cinarca]166-cinarca]7940-the great race of cinarca , foremost in [the island]1125-the island annals for a thousand years , and of whom was [the famous [Giudice Della Rocca]590-giudice , Count and Judge of [Corsica]150-corsica]7942-the famous giudice della rocca , count and judge of corsica]7939-a true descendant of the great race of cinarca , foremost in the island annals for a thousand years , and of whom was the famous giudice della rocca , count and judge of corsica , six hundred years ago . "[0-i] At the sound of [his]3514-his name , [Giudice]590-giudice opened [his]590-giudice great sleepy eyes , and pricked [his]590-giudice ears : [I]0-i promised not to interrupt , but [he]590-giudice gave no such pledge . " Let the Cinarchesi blood go for its full value ; but it was worth something to [the Della Croce]589-signor dezio to be descended also from [the Tuscan Malaspina]7943-the tuscan malaspina ; for [the lands of [those great Marquises]7945-those great marquises]7944-the lands of those great marquises were now in the possession of [the Signor Dezio]589-signor dezio . And [the Signor]7946-the signor had such [a daughter]5399-a daughter , [a young maiden]7948-a young maiden . Ah , [Madonna]591-madonna ! [The loveliest girl in [Corsica]150-corsica]7949-the loveliest girl in corsica . And [the vine - dresser]7950-the vine - dresser crossed [himself]7950-the vine - dresser . As [I]590-giudice listened to all this information , [I]590-giudice began to look through [my]590-giudice unused credentials , which [I]590-giudice always carried . It struck [me]590-giudice that this name of [Della Croce]589-signor dezio was quite familiar to [me]590-giudice , though [I]590-giudice knew not how , until a letter in the sprawling hand of [young Laurence Daldy]307-laurence daldy fell out from among [Peter]575-green 's crabbed characters . [Laurence Daldy]307-laurence daldy , [[my]590-giudice mother 's younger son]7951-my mother 's younger son , was now in full career , as a pigeon and [a Guardsman]7952-a guardsman , spending at full gallop [[his]307-laurence daldy dead father]7953-his dead father 's money . [These Daldys]563-the daldys were of Italian origin , the true name being D'Aldis , which after some years of English life [they]563-the daldys had naturalised into [Daldy]307-laurence daldy . And now [I]590-giudice recollected that when [we]7954-we [Vaughan boys]7955-vaughan boys scorned [them]563-the daldys as [ignoble sons of commerce]7956-ignoble sons of commerce , [they]563-the daldys used to brag about [their]563-the daldys kinship to the ancient [Della Croce]589-signor dezio . Riding up [the forest hill]7957-the forest hill , on whose western bluff stands boldly [the gray old tower of [the Malaspinas]167-the malaspinas]7958-the gray old tower of the malaspinas , [I]590-giudice began of course to make forecasts about the character of [[my]590-giudice host]7959-my host . [My]590-giudice host [I]590-giudice knew [he]7959-my host needs must be , for [Corsica]150-corsica is of all [the world the most hospitable spot]7960-the world the most hospitable spot . Although by this time well acquainted with the simple island habits , [I]590-giudice could not but expect to find [a man of stateliness and surroundings , of stiffness and some arrogance]7961-a man of stateliness and surroundings , of stiffness and some arrogance . Now the sun was setting , and the western fire from off [the sea]895-the sea glanced in spears of reddening gold into the solemn timeworn keep . All things looked majestic , but a deal too lonely . Where was [I]590-giudice to apply , how was [I]590-giudice to get in ? The narrow doorway overhung with the wreck of some portcullis , was blocked instead with a sort of mantlet like [the Roman Vinea]7963-the roman vinea ; the loopholes on the ground - tier were boarded almost to the top , the high windows , such as they were , had their rough shutters closed . Everything betokened a state of siege and fear . Two or three magnificent chesnuts , which must have commanded the front of [the tower]7964-the tower , had been cut down and added to the defences of the approach . Over these [I]590-giudice managed at last to leap [my]590-giudice horse , who was by no means [a perfect hunter]7965-a perfect hunter ; and there [I]590-giudice halted at a loss how to proceed . [I]590-giudice had been long enough in [Corsica]150-corsica to know , even without a certain ominous gleam from a loophole , and the view in transverse section of a large double - barrelled gun , that [the owner of [this old mansion]7967-this old mansion]7966-the owner of this old mansion was now in the pleasant state of [Vendetta]168-vendetta . Expecting every moment to be shot , and nothing said about it , [I]590-giudice waved [my]590-giudice letter , as a white flag , furiously above [my]590-giudice head . Presently that frightful muzzle was withdrawn , and the slide pushed back , to reconnoitre [me]590-giudice at leisure . [I]590-giudice tried , for the first time in [my]590-giudice life , to look like [a real Briton]7968-a real briton ; [my]590-giudice Corsican ambition was already on the wane . So [I]590-giudice sat [my]590-giudice horse , and waited ; and what came was worth a thousand years of waiting . Round [the bastion of the tower]7969-the bastion of the tower , under the rich magnolia bloom , towards [me]590-giudice glided through the rosy shadow the loveliest being that ever moved outside [the gates of [heaven]1555-heaven]7970-the gates of heaven . [She]7972-her seemed not to walk but waft along , like the pearly Nautilus . A pink mandile of lightest gauze lit the sable of [her]7972-her clustering hair , and wreathing round [her]7972-her graceful head deepened the tinge of the nestling cheeks . The lithe faldetta of white cashmere , thrown hastily over the shoulders , half concealed the flowing curves of the slender supple form , half betrayed them as it followed every facile motion . But when [she]7972-her smiled — oh , [Clara]293-clara , [I]590-giudice would have leaped from [[[her]7972-her father]898-her father 's tower]7974-her father 's tower , or into [the black caves of [the Restonica]169-the restonica]7975-the black caves of the restonica , for one smile of [hers]7972-her . The dark - fringed lustre of [her]7972-her eyes seemed to dance with golden joy , trusting , hoping , loving all things , pleasure pleased at pleasing . And the gleesome arch of [her]7972-her laughing lips , that never shaped evil word ! Oh , [[my]590-giudice [Lily]592-lily]7976-my lily , [[my]590-giudice own Lily]7977-my own lily , [I]590-giudice shall see [you]293-clara soon again . [[My]590-giudice dear]5318-my dear [Clara]293-clara , [I]590-giudice ought to know better . [I]590-giudice am ashamed of [myself]590-giudice . And after so many years ! But at the first glance of [Fiordalisa]593-fiordalisa , [my]590-giudice fate was fixed for this life and the other . [I]590-giudice never had loved before . [I]590-giudice never had cared to look at [a girl]2251-a girl ; in fact [I]590-giudice despised [them]7980-them all . Now [I]590-giudice paid for that contemptuous folly . Loving at one glance , loving once , for all , for ever , [my]590-giudice heart stood still like the focus of a hurricane ; [my]590-giudice speech and every power but that of vision failed [me]590-giudice . [I]590-giudice dared not try to leave the saddle , such a trembling took [me]590-giudice . It was a visitation unknown in [[our]7981-our foggy plains]7982-our foggy plains , scoffed at by [[our]7981-our prosy race]7983-our prosy race , but known full well in [Southern climes]7984-southern climes , as the sunstroke of love . [[My]590-giudice own darling]5763-my own darling — [I]590-giudice can call [her]5763-my own darling nothing less — [[my]590-giudice own delicious darling]7986-my own delicious darling was quite startled at [me]590-giudice . Whether [she]5763-my own darling had a like visitation in a milder form , is more than [I]590-giudice can say ; but [I]590-giudice hope with all [my]590-giudice heart [she]5763-my own darling had ; for then , as the Southern tale recites , [God]303-god placed [her]5763-my own darling hand in [mine]590-giudice . How [I]590-giudice got [my]590-giudice horse tied up , how [I]590-giudice followed [her]5763-my own darling through the side entrance , and returned [[her]5763-my own darling father]898-her father 's greeting , [I]590-giudice have not the least idea ; all [I]590-giudice know is that [she]5763-my own darling smiled , and [I]590-giudice wanted nothing more . But [I]590-giudice could not bear to see [her]5763-my own darling in the true Homeric fashion still maintained in [Corsica]150-corsica , waiting on [us]7988-us like [a common servant]7989-a common servant , with [her]5763-my own darling beautiful arched feet glancing under the brown pelone , and [her]5763-my own darling tapering white arms laid demurely on [her]5763-my own darling bosom ; then at [[her]5763-my own darling father]898-her father 's signal how [she]5763-my own darling flew for the purple grapes or the fragrant broccio ! But do what [she]5763-my own darling would , it seemed to become [her]5763-my own darling more than all [she]5763-my own darling had done before . As that form of love and elegance flitted through [the simple room]7991-the simple room , and those lustrous heavenly eyes beamed with hospitable warmth , [Signor Dezio Della Croce]589-signor dezio , [careworn man with beard of snow]7992-careworn man with beard of snow , seemed at times no little proud of [[his]589-signor dezio sweet and only child]7993-his sweet and only child , but was too proud to show [his]589-signor dezio pride . As for [me]590-giudice , [he]589-signor dezio must have thought that [I]590-giudice spoke very poor Italian . [Child Clara]293-clara , for [your]293-clara own dear sake , as well as [mine]590-giudice and [my]590-giudice sweet love 's , [I]590-giudice will not dwell on that tempestuous time . If [you]293-clara can not comprehend it without words , no words will enable [you]293-clara . If [you]293-clara can , and [I]590-giudice fear [you]293-clara do , no more words are wanted ; and , as [an old man weary of [the world]798-the world]7994-an old man weary of the world , [I]590-giudice know not whether to envy or to pity [you]293-clara . Hither and thither [I]590-giudice was flung , to the zenith star of ecstasy or the nadir gulf of agony , according as [[my]590-giudice idol]7996-my idol pet chose to smile or frown . Though [she]293-clara was [no silly child]7997-no silly child , but [a girl of mind and feeling]7998-a girl of mind and feeling , [she]293-clara had a store , [I]590-giudice must confess , of clouds as well as dazzling sunlight in the empyrean of [her]293-clara eyes . [Her]293-clara nature , like [my]590-giudice love , was full of Southern passion . It is like the air [they]7999-they breathe , the beauty [they]7999-they behold . One minute of such love compresses in a thunder flood all the slow emotions stealing through the drought - scrimped channel , where [we]8000-we dredge for gold deposits , through ten years of Saxon courtship . Instead of [Lily - bloom]592-lily , [she]293-clara should have been called the Passion - flower . [My]590-giudice life , [my]590-giudice soul — how weak [our]8000-we English words are — [she]293-clara loved [me]590-giudice from the first , [I]590-giudice can take [my]590-giudice oath [she]293-clara did , although [her]293-clara glory was too great for [her]293-clara to own it yet , though now and then [her]293-clara marvellous eyes proved traitors . Sometimes when [she]293-clara was racking [me]590-giudice most , feigning even , with those eyes cast down , [her]293-clara pellucid fingers point to point , and [her]293-clara little foot tapping the orchid bloom , feigning , [I]590-giudice say , in cold blood , to reckon [[her]293-clara noble lovers]8001-her noble lovers — long names all and horribly hateful to [me]590-giudice — suddenly , while [I]590-giudice trembled , and scowled like [a true - born Briton]8002-a true - born briton , suddenly up would leap the silky drooping lashes , and a spring of soft electric light would flutter through them to the very core of [my]590-giudice heart . As for [me]590-giudice , [I]590-giudice abandoned [myself]590-giudice . [I]590-giudice made no pretence of waiting a moment . [I]590-giudice flung [my]590-giudice heart wide open to [her]293-clara , and if [she]293-clara would not come in , desert it should be for ever . [She]293-clara did come . That life - blood of [my]590-giudice soul came in , and would and could live nowhere else for ever . It was done like this . One August evening , when the sun was sinking , and the air was full of warmth and wooing sounds , [the cicale]8003-the cicale waking from [his]8003-the cicale early nap , the muffro leaping for the first dew - drop , the love - birds whispering in the tamarind leaves , [Fiordalisa]593-fiordalisa sat with [me]590-giudice , under a giant cork - tree on [the western slope]8004-the western slope . [The tower]7964-the tower was still in Vendetta siege , and [the grave and reverend Signor]8006-the grave and reverend signor knew better than to come out , when [the Sbirri]595-the sbirri were gone to [the town]8007-the town . [Lily - bloom]596-lily was sitting by [me]590-giudice in a mass of flowers ; [her]293-clara light mandile was laid by , that [her]293-clara glorious hair might catch the first waft of the evening breeze . All down [her]293-clara snow - white shoulders fell the labyrinth of tresses , twined by [me]590-giudice with red Tacsonia , and two pale carnations . [Her]293-clara form was pillowed in rich fern , that feathered round [her]293-clara waist ; of all the fronds and plumes and stems , not one so taper , light , and rich as that . The bloom upon [her]293-clara cheeks was deepened by [my]590-giudice playing with [her]293-clara hair , and [her]293-clara soft large eyes were beaming with delicious wonder . [We]8008-we knew , as well as [He]8009-he who made [us]8008-we , that [we]8008-we loved [one another]758-one another . [None who did not love for ever]8011-none who did not love for ever could interchange such looks . Suddenly , and without a word , in an ecstasy of admiration , [I]590-giudice passed [my]590-giudice left arm round [her]293-clara little waist , drew [her]293-clara close to [me]590-giudice — [she]293-clara was very near before — and looking full into [her]293-clara wondrous eyes , found no protest but a thrill of light ; then tried [her]293-clara lips and met [her]293-clara whole heart there . [Darling]477-judy , how [she]293-clara kissed [me]590-giudice ! [No English girl]8012-no english girl can do it . And then the terror of [her]293-clara maiden thoughts . The recollection of [her]293-clara high - born pride , and higher because [God]303-god - born innocence . How [she]293-clara wept , and blushed , and trembled ; trembled , blushed , and wept again ; and then vouchsafed one more entrancing kiss , to atone for the unwitting treason . Even thus [I]590-giudice would not be content . [I]590-giudice wanted words as well . "[590-giudice] Do [you]3515-my love [me]0-i , [my]0-i own [Lily]596-lily , with every atom of [your]3515-my heart ? " "[3515-my] [I]0-i have not left one drop of blood for all [the world]798-the world besides . " And it was true . And so it was with [me]3515-my . [I]3515-my told [[her]293-clara father]898-her father that same night . And now in the heaven of gladness and wild pleasure , beyond all dreams of [earth]1622-earth , opened the hell of [my]3515-my wickedness and crime ; which but for mercy and long repentance would sever [me]3515-my from [[my]3515-my Lily]7976-my lily in [the world]798-the world to come . To some the crime may seem a light one , to [me]3515-my it is a most atrocious sin , enhanced tenfold by its awful consequences . By [my]3515-my crime , [I]3515-my do not mean [my]3515-my sinful adoration , as [cold men]8017-cold men may call it , of [a fellow mortal]8018-a fellow mortal . Nature has no time to waste , and unless [she]293-clara meant [[my]3515-my Lily]7976-my lily to be worshipped , [she]293-clara would not have lavished all [her]293-clara skill in making [her]293-clara so divine . No , [I]3515-my mean [my]3515-my black deceit , in passing for [[my]3515-my brother]1302-my brother . Oh , [Clara]293-clara , do n't go from [me]3515-my . Like many another ruinous sin , it was committed without thought , or rather without deliberation . No scheme was laid , not even the least intention cherished ; but the moment brought it , and the temptation was too great . Who could have [that loving pet]8021-that loving pet gazing at [him]1302-my brother so , and not sell [his]1302-my brother soul almost to win [her]8021-that loving pet to [his]1302-my brother arms ? [Laurence Daldy]307-laurence daldy was [a lazy ass]8022-a lazy ass . [I]3515-my do not want to shift [my]3515-my blame to [him]307-laurence daldy , but merely state a fact . If [he]307-laurence daldy had not been [a lazy ass]8022-a lazy ass , [[your]8024-your father]5365-your father would be living now — ay , and [my]3515-my Fiordalisa . When [he]307-laurence daldy chose , [he]307-laurence daldy could write very good Italian , and a clear , round hand , and oh , rare accomplishment for [an officer]8026-an officer , [he]307-laurence daldy could even spell . But [his]307-laurence daldy letter to [Signor Dezio]589-signor dezio , scrawled betwixt two games of pool , was a perfect magpie 's nest of careless zigzag , wattles , and sand slap - dash . In those days [a hasty writer]8027-a hasty writer used to flick [his]8027-a hasty writer work with sand , which stanched but did not dry the ink . The result was often a grimy dabble , like [a child]782-a child 's face blotched with blackberries . [Lily]596-lily and [I]3515-my had quite arranged how [we]8029-we should present [ourselves]8029-we . Like [two children]1626-two children [we]8029-we rehearsed it under the twilight trees . "[3515-my] And then , [you]3517-you know , " [[my]0-i sweet love]8031-my sweet love whispered , "[0-i] [I]0-i shall give [you]3517-you a regular kiss beneath [the dear father]3518-the dear father 's beard , and [you]3517-you will see what an effect it will have . Thence [he]3518-the dear father will learn , oh sweetest mine , that there is no help for it ; because [we]3519-we [Corsican girls]3520-corsican girls are so chary of [our]3519-we lips . " "[3517-you] Are [you]3517-you indeed , [[my]0-i beautiful [Lily]596-lily]3521-my beautiful lily ? [I]0-i must teach [you]3517-you liberality , to [me]0-i , and to [me]0-i alone . " "[0-i] Sweetest mine , " [she]596-lily always called [me]0-i from the moment [she]596-lily confessed [her]596-lily love ; and so , no doubt , [she]596-lily is calling [me]0-i now in [heaven]1555-heaven . The curtain hung in heavy folds across the narrow doorway of [the long dark room]6397-the long dark room . The hospitable board was gay with wine and dainty fruit , melons , figs , and peaches , plums of golden and purple hue , pomegranates , pomi d'oro , green almonds , apricots , and muscatels from the ladders of [Cape Corso]170-cape corso . Through [them]8034-them and upon [them]8034-them played the mellow light from a single lamp , with dancing lustres round it . All the rest of [the room]823-the room was dark . At the head of the table sat [Signor Dezio Della Croce]589-signor dezio , waiting for [[his]589-signor dezio guest]8036-his guest and [daughter]8037-daughter . Posted high at the end window on a ledge of rough - hewn board , stood [the ancient warder]8038-the ancient warder , who had lived for fifty years among [them]8034-them , and whose great fusil commanded the only approach to [the castle]8039-the castle . As [we]8040-we entered timidly , [the maiden]3430-the maiden 's right hand on [my]0-i neck , [my]0-i left arm round [her]3430-the maiden ductile waist , [our]8040-we other hands clasped firmly , [I]0-i glanced toward [that noxious sentinel]8042-that noxious sentinel . "[0-i] Never mind [him]3522-my , sweetest mine . Do n't believe that [he]3522-my is there . [Grandpapa]597-grandpapa , [I]0-i call [him]3522-my , and [he]3522-my knows all [my]0-i secrets . " [Signor Dezio]589-signor dezio looked amazed , as [we]8040-we glided towards [him]589-signor dezio . [His]589-signor dezio life had been one series of crushing blows from heaven . [Three brave sons]8043-three brave sons had been barbarously murdered in Vendetta , and [[his]589-signor dezio graceful loving wife]8044-his graceful loving wife had broken [her]8044-his graceful loving wife heart and died . The sole hope of [[his]589-signor dezio house]1301-his house , [[his]589-signor dezio petling Fiordalisa]8046-his petling fiordalisa , though [she]8046-his petling fiordalisa called [herself]8046-his petling fiordalisa [a woman and was full sixteen]8047-a woman and was full sixteen , [he]589-signor dezio looked upon [her]8046-his petling fiordalisa still in [his]589-signor dezio trouble - torn chronology , as only ripe enough to be dandled on [his]589-signor dezio lap . Still [he]589-signor dezio called [her]8046-his petling fiordalisa [his]589-signor dezio "[3522-my] [Ninnina]598-ninnina , " and sang nannas to [her]8046-his petling fiordalisa , as [he]589-signor dezio had been obliged to do after [[her]8046-his petling fiordalisa mother]6340-her mother 's death . As [he]589-signor dezio sat there , too astonished to smile , or frown , or say a word , [Lily]596-lily dropped upon [her]596-lily knees before [him]589-signor dezio , as [a Grecian maiden]8049-a grecian maiden would . [We]8050-we English are not supple - jointed ; but for [Lily]596-lily 's sake , [I]3522-my could not stand beside [her]596-lily . Then [she]596-lily placed [her]596-lily soft right hand in the centre of [my]3522-my hard palm , flung the other arm round [my]3522-my neck , and with [her]596-lily eyes upon [[her]596-lily father]898-her father 's , gave [me]3522-my a long affectionate kiss . This done , [she]596-lily drew [[her]596-lily father]898-her father 's head down , and kissed [his]589-signor dezio snow - white beard . Now , [she]596-lily told [me]3522-my , after this , [any father who is obdurate , must according to institution blame [himself]589-signor dezio and [no one else]5442-no one else , if harm befall [the maiden]3430-the maiden]8053-any father who is obdurate , must according to institution blame himself and no one else , if harm befall the maiden . All this time , [I]3522-my spoke not , and thought of nothing except to screen [[my]3522-my Lily]7976-my lily . [Signor Dezio]589-signor dezio kept a stately silence , but the tears were in [his]589-signor dezio eyes , and the long white beard was quivering . [Lily]596-lily bent [her]596-lily head , and waited for [his]589-signor dezio words . "[3522-my] [Mother of [God]303-god]3523-mother of god ! [[My]0-i little child]3524-my little child , what are [you]3524-my little child thinking of ? " "[3524-my little child] Only thinking of being married , [father]738-father . " "[738-father] And set another Vendetta afoot , and be killed [yourself]3524-my little child ! [Signor"—turning]599-signor"—turning haughtily to [me—"this[738-father] lady]8057-me—"this lady is betrothed , from [her]3526-her early infancy , to [[her]3526-her cousin]6046-her cousin [Lepardo Della Croce]570-lepardo . " "[570-lepardo] Oh , [I]0-i hate [him]6046-her cousin , " cried [Fiordalisa]593-fiordalisa , clasping [her]3529-our lady hands piteously . "[0-i] Ah , [Madonna]591-madonna , [I]0-i hate [him]6046-her cousin so ; and thank [[our]3528-our Lady]3529-our lady , [no one]730-no one has seen [him]6046-her cousin for six years . [He]6046-her cousin is dead no doubt in [some Cannibal Island]3531-some cannibal island . [Saints of mercy]600-saints of mercy , keep [him]6046-her cousin . [I]0-i saw it in [the Spalla]171-the spalla , in [the Shepherd]3532-the shepherd 's [Spalla]171-the spalla , and [I]0-i saw [my]0-i own love there , the eve before [he]6046-her cousin came . " "[0-i] Grace of [Holy Mary]601-holy mary ! Who read [the Spalla]171-the spalla for [you]0-i ? " "[171-the spalla] The hoary goatherd from [Ghidazzo]173-ghidazzo . " And up sprang [Fiordalisa]593-fiordalisa , flew to [an inner room]812-an inner room , and fetched from the dark niche in the wall the box of holy relics . With these [she]1549-my child knelt before [[her]1549-my child father]898-her father , and placed [her]1549-my child right hand on the box . "[171-the spalla] [[My]0-i child]1549-my child , it is not needful . [I]0-i believe [you]1549-my child without an oath . Never yet have [you]1549-my child passed the boundary of truth . " [The old chief]8060-the old chief bowed [his]8060-the old chief head in thought . [He]8060-the old chief had lost [[his]8060-the old chief last surviving son]8061-his last surviving son by neglecting [the Spalla]171-the spalla 's decree . [The Spalla]171-the spalla is the shoulder blade of a goat , polished , and used for divination ; upon it had been read [Sampiero]152-sampiero 's death , and the destiny of [Napoleon]604-napoleon . [The old man who had forecast [the latter]907-the latter was still alive , and of immense renown , and traversed [the island]1125-the island now like [an ancient prophet]8065-an ancient prophet]8062-the old man who had forecast the latter was still alive , and of immense renown , and traversed the island now like an ancient prophet . [He]8062-the old man who had forecast the latter was still alive , and of immense renown , and traversed the island now like an ancient prophet was [the hoary goatherd of [Ghidazzo]173-ghidazzo]8066-the hoary goatherd of ghidazzo . [Lily]596-lily saw that [she]596-lily was conquering ; [she]596-lily leaped upon [[her]596-lily father]898-her father 's knee and hugged [him]898-her father ; and [her]596-lily triumph was complete . While [she]596-lily wept upon [his]898-her father breast , and told [him]898-her father all [her]596-lily little tale , and whispered in [his]898-her father ear , and while [he]898-her father kissed , and comforted [her]596-lily , and thought of [[her]596-lily dear mother]8068-her dear mother , [I]1549-my child rushed out and leaped [the Vinea]174-the vinea , and wept beneath the olive - trees . At last [the old man]7306-the old man rose and called [me]1549-my child , [he]7306-the old man durst not venture from the door ; but [he]7306-the old man did what was far better , [he]7306-the old man sent [my]1549-my child own love after [me]1549-my child . At length when [we]8070-we returned , and [we]8070-we found cause not to hurry , — "[1549-my child] [Signor Vogheno]605-signor valentine , " [he]0-i began , "[605-signor valentine] [I]0-i have observed [you]605-signor valentine well . [I]0-i am [a man of very keen observation"—Lily]8071-a man of very keen observation"—lily 's eyes gave [me]8071-a man of very keen observation"—lily a twinkle full of fun—"or[8071-a man of very keen observation"—lily] [I]0-i should not be alive this moment . [I]0-i have observed [you]605-signor valentine , [sir]5380-sir , and [I]0-i approve [your]605-signor valentine character . [I]0-i can not say as much , [sir]5380-sir , of all [the Englishmen [I]0-i have been privileged to meet]3536-the englishmen i have been privileged to meet . There is about [them]3537-them very much of the nature of a dog . Forgive [me]0-i , [sir]5380-sir ; pray interrupt [me]0-i not . [I]0-i only judge by what [I]0-i have seen . God forbid that [I]0-i should say so to [you]605-signor valentine , while [you]605-signor valentine were [[my]0-i guest]3539-my guest . Now [you]605-signor valentine are [one of [[my]0-i family]1990-my family]3540-one of my family , and entitled to the result of [my]0-i observations . Of [the little island itself]3542-the little island itself [I]0-i know nothing at all , though [I]0-i am informed that [its]3542-the little island itself institutions are of a barbarous character . " "[3543-signor beloved] Vendetta for instance , " was on [my]3543-signor beloved lips , but [Lily]596-lily 's glance just saved it . And [I]3543-signor beloved thought of [[his]0-i three brave sons]8072-his three brave sons . "[3543-signor beloved] But , [Signor beloved]3543-signor beloved , [you]605-signor valentine are different from [them]3544-them ; indeed [you]605-signor valentine have the nobility of the Corsican nature . And what is most of all , [[my]0-i little child]3524-my little child has fixed [her]3524-my little child heart upon [you]605-signor valentine . But [she]3524-my little child is very young , [sir]5380-sir , quite a child [you]605-signor valentine see . " [I]3524-my little child saw nothing of the sort , but [a blooming maiden figure]8073-a blooming maiden figure , growing lovelier every day . [Poor Lily]606-lily dropped [her]606-lily long eyelashes , and smiled through a glowing blush . So blushed [Lavinia]607-lavinia under the eyes of [Turnus]608-turnus . "[3524-my little child] [This darling child]3547-this darling child is now [the heiress to [these lands of [mine]0-i]3549-these lands of mine]3548-the heiress to these lands of mine . And if [[her]3547-this darling child cousin]6046-her cousin [Lepardo]570-lepardo , whose death [she]3547-this darling child has seen on [the Spalla]171-the spalla , be indeed removed from [us]3551-us , [she]3547-this darling child is the very last of all [the Della Croce]570-lepardo . [I]0-i can not easily read the billet of [[your]605-signor valentine brother]1415-your brother . [He]1415-your brother does not write good Corsican of [[our]3551-us side of [the mountains]3554-the mountains]3553-our side of the mountains , but [some outlandish [Tuscan]175-tuscan]3555-some outlandish tuscan . There is something first which [I]0-i can not well decipher , and then [I]0-i see [your]605-signor valentine name [Signor Valentine Vogheno]605-signor valentine , and that [you]605-signor valentine are [the lord of [very large estates]3557-very large estates]3556-the lord of very large estates , in [some district called [Gloisterio]176-gloisterio]3558-some district called gloisterio ? " [He]1415-your brother looked at [me]3559-i inquiringly . Instead of explaining that [I]3559-i was only [the brother of [the great Signor Valentino]609-the great signor valentino]8074-the brother of the great signor valentino , [I]3559-i bowed , alas [I]3559-i bowed with a hot flush on [my]3559-i cheeks . What could it matter , and why should [I]3559-i interrupt [him]1415-your brother , if [he]1415-your brother chose to deceive [himself]1415-your brother ? [Lily]606-lily charmed away all hesitation , by clapping [her]606-lily little hands , and crying , "[3559-i] Sweetest [mine]3559-i , [I]0-i am so glad . " "[0-i] Then , upon two conditions [I]0-i will give [you]3560-you [[my]0-i daughter]3561-my daughter . The first , that [you]3560-you leave [this island]3562-this island , and do not see [[our]3563-our [Lily]606-lily]3564-our lily , write to , or even hear from [her]606-lily , for a period of six months . If [she]606-lily has not outgrown [her]606-lily love , [she]606-lily will then be almost old enough to [we]3563-our d. [I]0-i mean , of course , if [Lepardo]570-lepardo does not appear . The other condition is that [you]3560-you shall promise on the holy relics , and [you]3560-you as well , [[my]0-i flower]3565-my flower , never to part with [these old estates]3566-these old estates , but keep them for [Lily]606-lily while [she]606-lily lives , and transmit them to [[her]606-lily second child]3567-her second child . " A load of terror was off [my]3565-my flower heart — [I]3565-my flower thought [he]0-i was going to bind [me]3565-my flower to the accursed Vendetta . Even for [[my]3565-my flower Lily]7976-my lily , [I]3565-my flower could hardly have taken that pledge . So [I]3565-my flower assented readily to the last stipulation , though it was based upon a virtual lie of mine . But with [Lily]606-lily 's eyes upon [me]3565-my flower , brimming as they were with tears at the first condition , and [her]606-lily round arms trembling to enfold [me]3565-my flower , could [I]3565-my flower stick at anything short of downright murder ? The first proviso [I]3565-my flower fought against in vain . Even [Lily]606-lily coaxed and cried , without any good effect . When at last [we]8076-we yielded to the stern decree , [the venerable father]8077-the venerable father , as [we]8076-we knelt before [him]8077-the venerable father , joined [our]8076-we hands together , and poured a blessing on [us]8076-we , which [I]3565-my flower did not lack . [He]8077-the venerable father had given [me]3565-my flower [my]3565-my flower blessing . After this [we]8076-we sat down to supper , and the trusty musketeer , who had watched the whole scene grimly , and without hearing all , knew what the result was , [he]8077-the venerable father , [I]3565-my flower say , upon [his]8077-the venerable father perch began to improvise , or haply to adapt , and sing to a childish air , some little verses upon the glad occasion . Having exhausted [his]8077-the venerable father stock , down [he]8077-the venerable father leaped without permission , and drank [our]8076-we health in a bumper of Luri wine . [Lily]606-lily was now in due course of promotion . No longer was [she]606-lily [the handmaid , whose eyes created and rejoiced in countless mistakes of [mine]3565-my flower]8078-the handmaid , whose eyes created and rejoiced in countless mistakes of mine . Now [she]606-lily was sitting by [my]3565-my flower side , as [she]606-lily had good right to be , and was lost in pretty raptures at [my]3565-my flower gallant attentions . [They]8079-they were very nice , [she]606-lily owned , but thoroughly un - [Corsican]585-old cora . How [I]3565-my flower wished [[her]606-lily father]898-her father and [the old fusileer]8081-the old fusileer away ! "[3565-my flower] Six long months to be away from [Lily]606-lily ! And perhaps forget [her]606-lily , and find [some lovelier maiden]3568-some lovelier maiden . " "[3568-some lovelier maiden] By [Lily]606-lily 's side , [all maids]3569-all maids are burdocks . And yet what if [I]0-i do ? " [She]606-lily showed a small stiletto toy with a cross upon the handle , and ground [her]606-lily pearly teeth together . "[0-i] Will it be for [me]0-i , or [her]606-lily ? " "[606-lily] Both ; and [Lily]606-lily afterwards . " "[606-lily] Oh [you]0-i [wholesale little murderer]3570-wholesale little murderer ! Three great kisses directly , one for every murder . " "[606-lily] Only if [you]0-i promise , on the relics , never to look twice at [a pretty maiden]3571-a pretty maiden . " And so [we]8082-we spent the precious time,—ten days allowed [me]0-i to prepare [[my]0-i yacht]8083-my yacht — in talking utter nonsense , and conning fifty foolish schemes , to make [us]8082-we seem together . [I]0-i was for departing at once , that the period might begin to run ; but [Lily]606-lily was for keeping [me]0-i to the last possible moment , and of course [she]606-lily had [her]606-lily way . It was fixed that [I]0-i should sail on the 10th day of September . [[My]0-i little boat]7742-my little boat , now called the "[0-i] Lily flower , " was brought from [Calvi]159-calvi , and moored in [a secluded cove]8085-a secluded cove , where [[my]0-i love]5792-my love could see it from [her]5792-my love bedroom window . It was no longer Corsican law that [I]0-i should live in [the castle]8039-the castle . The privileges of [a guest]8088-a guest were gone ; and the rigorous code of [suitorship]8089-suitorship began . But to [me]0-i and [[my]0-i own darling]5763-my own darling it made very little difference . [I]0-i never left [Vendetta tower]168-vendetta , as [I]0-i lightly named [it]168-vendetta , until [[my]0-i pet]5394-my pet was ordered off to bed ; and every morn [I]0-i climbed [the heights]8092-the heights , after a long swim in [the sapphire ripple]8093-the sapphire ripple , and met [my]0-i own sweet [Lily]606-lily sparkling from the dew of [her]606-lily early toilet . How [she]606-lily loved [me]0-i , how [I]0-i loved [her]606-lily ; which more than other let [angels]8094-angels say ; for [we]8095-we could not decide . [That ancient Corsican [[her]606-lily father]898-her father , albeit little versed in books]8096-that ancient corsican her father , albeit little versed in books , was as upright and downright a gentleman as ever knew when [his]898-her father presence was not required . Therefore [he]898-her father took [my]0-i word of honour for [his]898-her father [Lily]606-lily 's safety ; and left [her]606-lily to [her]606-lily own sweet will ; and [her]606-lily sweet will was to spend with [me]0-i all [her]606-lily waking hours . For [her]606-lily as yet there was no fear of [the blood - avenger]8098-the blood - avenger . According to [their]8094-angels etiquette [they]8094-angels can not shoot [the daughter]8099-the daughter , until [they]8094-angels have shot [the father]8100-the father . As to [the sons]8101-the sons the restriction does not hold . The feud [we]8102-we were concerned in had lasted now 120 years , and cost the lives of [130 people]8103-130 people . It lay between [the ancient races of Della Croce]8104-the ancient races of della croce , and [De Gentili]610-de gentili , and owed its origin to the discovery of a dead mule on [the road to [church]1429-church]8105-the road to church . The question was which [family]8107-family should be exterminated first . For many years [the house of [Della Croce]570-lepardo]8108-the house of della croce had been in the ascendant , having produced a long succession of [good shots and clever bushmen]8109-good shots and clever bushmen . At one time all the hopes of [the De Gentili]610-de gentili hung upon one infant life , which was not thought worth the taking . Fatal error — that one life had proved a mighty trump . One after one the [Della Croce]570-lepardo fell before [that original artist]8110-that original artist , who invented a patent method of trunking [himself]8110-that original artist in olive bark and firing from a knot - hole . Many a story [Lily]606-lily told [me]0-i of [his]8110-that original artist devilish wiles ; and in those stories [I]0-i rejoiced , because [she]606-lily clung around [my]0-i neck , and trembled so that [I]0-i must hold [her]606-lily . Happily now this olive - branch was dead , having received [his]8110-that original artist death - wound while [he]8110-that original artist administered one to [[Lily]606-lily 's youngest brother]8111-lily 's youngest brother . Ever since that , the feud had languished , and strict etiquette required that [the Della Croce]570-lepardo should perpetrate the next murder . But [[her]606-lily father]898-her father , said [[my]0-i [Lily]606-lily]7976-my lily , with [her]606-lily sweet head on [my]0-i breast and [her]606-lily soft eyes full of fire , [[her]606-lily father]898-her father did not seem to care even to shoot [the cousin of the man who had shot [[her]606-lily brothers]8116-her brothers]8115-the cousin of the man who had shot her brothers . [Darling Lily]592-lily , [my]0-i blood runs cold , even with [your]592-lily beauty in [my]0-i arms , to hear [you]592-lily talk of murder so . [[Own]0-i pet]8117-own pet , [I]0-i shall change [you]592-lily . [You]592-lily heaven meant for love , and softness , and delight : human devilry has tainted even [you]592-lily . It was not an easy task to change [her]606-lily . Of all human passions revenge is far the strongest . [Clara]293-clara , how [your]592-lily eyes flash . [You]592-lily ought to have been [a Corsican]585-old cora . It was not an easy task ; but love loves difficulties . In [my]0-i ten short days of delicious wretchedness , almost [I]0-i taught [Fiordalisa]593-fiordalisa to despise revenge . And what do [you]592-lily think availed [me]0-i most ? Not the Bible . No , [her]606-lily mind and soul were swathed by [Popery]612-popery in the rags of [too many saints]8118-too many saints . What helped [me]0-i most , and the only thing that helped [me]0-i at all , except caresses , was the broad and free expanse of [the ever changing sea]8119-the ever changing sea . [Her]606-lily nature was all poetry , [her]606-lily throbbing breast an Idyl . Upon [[my]0-i little quarter - deck]8120-my little quarter - deck [I]0-i had a cushioned niche for [her]606-lily , and there [we]8121-we sat and steered [ourselves]8121-we while [the sailors]8122-the sailors slept below . Alone upon [the crystal world]8123-the crystal world , pledged for life or death together , drinking deepest draughts of passion and thirsting still for more , what cared [we]8121-we for petty hatreds , [we]8121-we whose all in all was love ? How [she]606-lily listened as [I]0-i spoke , how [her]606-lily large eyes grew enlarged . At last [those]8124-those eyes , pure wells of love , were troubled with hot tears . The fatal day was come . Tokens [we]8121-we had interchanged , myriad vows , and countless pledges , which even love could scarce remember . With all the passion of [her]606-lily race , and all the fervour of the clime , [she]606-lily bared [her]606-lily beautiful round arm , the part that lay most near the heart and touched it with the keen stiletto , then [she]606-lily threw [her]606-lily breast on [mine]0-i , and [I]0-i laid the crimsoned ivory on [my]0-i lips . How [the devil]5884-the devil — excuse [me]0-i , [Clara]293-clara — how the devil [I]0-i got away , [only phlegmatic Englishmen]8126-only phlegmatic englishmen can tell . [No Frenchman]8127-no frenchman , or Italian , would have left that heavenly darling so . [We]8121-we put it off to the last moment , till it was quite dangerous to pass [the rocky jaws]8128-the rocky jaws . As [my]0-i bad luck would have it , there was a purpling sunset breeze . [My]0-i own love on the furthest point , [her]606-lily white feet in the water , growing smaller and smaller yet , and standing upon tiptoe to be seen for [another yard]8129-another yard ; [my]0-i own darling love of ages , [she]606-lily loosed [her]606-lily black hair down [her]606-lily snowy vest , for [me]0-i to know [her]606-lily from the rocks behind ; then [she]606-lily waved and waved [her]606-lily sweet palm hat , fragrant of [my]0-i Lily,—I had kissed every single inch of it,—until [she]606-lily thought [I]0-i could not see [her]606-lily ; and then , as [my]0-i telescope showed [me]0-i , back [she]606-lily fell upon [a ledge of rocks]8130-a ledge of rocks , and [I]0-i could see or fancy [her]606-lily delicious bosom heaving to the fury of [her]606-lily tears . [We]8131-we glided past [the cavern mouth]8132-the cavern mouth , and [the silver beach beyond]8133-the silver beach beyond [it]8132-the cavern mouth , whence [we]8131-we had often watched the sunset ; and then a beetling crag took from [me]0-i the last view of [Lily]592-lily . However long [the schoolboy]8134-the schoolboy may have bled from [some big coward]8135-some big coward 's bullying , or the sway of the rustling birch and the bosky thrill that follows , however sore [he]8134-the schoolboy may have wept while hung head - downwards through the midnight hours , with a tallow candle between [his]8134-the schoolboy teeth , or in the pang of nouns heteroclite and brachycatalectic dinners ; yet despite these minor ills , [his]8134-the schoolboy fond heart turns through after life to the scene of foot - ball and I - spy , to the days when [he]8134-the schoolboy could jump or eat any mortal thing . And so it is with bygone love . Even the times of separation or of bitter quarrel , the aching heart whereon the keepsake lies , the spasms of jealousy , the tenterhooks of doubt ; remembrance looks upon them all as treasures of a golden age . Over [the darkening sea]8136-the darkening sea , [we]8131-we bore away for [Sardinia]181-sardinia . Hours and hours , [I]0-i gazed upon the cushions , where [[my]0-i own pet darling]8137-my own pet darling used to lean and love [me]0-i . To [me]0-i they were fairer than all the stars , or [the phosphorescent sea]8138-the phosphorescent sea . From time to time [[our]8131-we Corsican pilot]8139-our corsican pilot kept [himself]8139-our corsican pilot awake , by chanting to strangely mournful airs some of the voceros or dirges , the burden of many ages in [that lamenting land]8140-that lamenting land . Fit [home]1102-home for [Rachel]614-rachel , [Niobe]178-niobe , or [Cassandra]698-alexander , where half [a million gallant beings]8142-a million gallant beings , twice the number of [the present population]8143-the present population , have fallen [victims to the blood - revenge]8144-victims to the blood - revenge . So [Corsican historians]8145-corsican historians tell ; a thousand violent deaths each year , for the last five centuries . Sometimes [the avenger]1030-the avenger waits for half a lifetime , lurking till [his]1030-the avenger moment comes . Before [[his]1030-the avenger victim]3421-his victim has ceased to quiver , or the shot to ring down [the rocky pass]8148-the rocky pass , [he]1030-the avenger is off for the bush or [the mountains]3554-the mountains , and leads thenceforth [a bandit]3463-a bandit 's life . [They]8145-corsican historians tell [me]0-i , [Clara]293-clara , that things are better now , and this black stain on a chivalrous race is being purged by [Christian civilization]8151-christian civilization . Be it as it may , [I]0-i love the island of [[my]0-i [Lily]592-lily]7976-my lily still ; and hope , please [God]303-god , to see it once more , before [I]0-i go to [her]592-lily . Banished though [I]0-i was , for the present , from [the only place [I]0-i cared for]8153-the only place i cared for , it seemed still greater severance to go further than [I]0-i could help . Therefore instead of returning to [England]9-england , [I]0-i spent the winter in cruising along [the western coast of [Italy]63-italy]8154-the western coast of italy , and [the south of [Spain]146-spain]8155-the south of spain ; and coasted back to [Genoa]65-genoa . To [Seville]180-seville , and [other places famed for [beautiful women]8157-beautiful women , [I]0-i made especial trips , to search for any fit to compare with [[my]0-i own maiden]8158-my own maiden]8156-other places famed for beautiful women , i made especial trips , to search for any fit to compare with my own maiden . Of course [I]0-i knew none could be found ; but it gave [me]0-i some employment , and bitter pleasure , to observe how [inferior were all]8159-inferior were all . To [my]0-i eyes , bright with one sweet image , no other form had grace enough to be fit pillow for [[my]0-i charmer]8160-my charmer 's foot . How [I]0-i longed and yearned for some fresh token of [her]8160-my charmer : all [her]8160-my charmer little gifts [I]0-i carried ever in [my]0-i bosom , but never let another 's eyes rest one moment on them . Not even would [I]0-i tell [[my]0-i friends]8161-my friends one word about [my]0-i love ; it seemed as if it would grow common by being talked about . To [Peter Green]575-green [I]0-i wrote , resigning [my]0-i commission , although [I]0-i did not tell [him]575-green that [I]0-i had found the olives . No , [[friend]8162-friend [Peter]575-green]8163-friend peter , those olives are much too near [[my]0-i Lily]7976-my lily ; and [I]0-i wo n't have [you]8163-friend peter or [any other stranger there]8165-any other stranger there . [I]0-i know [she]7976-my lily would not look at [you]8163-friend peter ; still [I]0-i would rather have [you]8163-friend peter a thousand miles away . Free trade , if [you]8163-friend peter like , when [I]0-i have made [my]0-i fortune ; which by the bye is somewhat the maxim of [that school]8166-that school . [My]0-i fortune , not in olives , oil , or even guineas — all that rubbish [you]8163-friend peter are welcome to — but [my]0-i fortune where [my]0-i heart and soul are all invested , and now , no more [my]0-i fortune , but [my]0-i certain fate in [Lily]592-lily . At length and at last [my]0-i calendar — like [a homesick pair at school]8167-a homesick pair at school , [we]8168-we had made one for [each other]734-each other , thanking [God]303-god that it was not a leap - year — [my]0-i calendar so often counted , so punctually erased , began to yield and totter to the stubborn sap of time . [My]0-i patience long ago had yielded , [my]0-i blood was in a fever . Another thing began to yield , alas it was [my]0-i money . [Green]575-green , [Vowler]578-vowler , and [Green]575-green had behaved most liberally ; but of course the expenses of [my]0-i vessel had been heavy on [me]0-i ; and now [my]0-i salary had ceased . [Peter Green]575-green wrote to [me]0-i in the kindest and most handsome manner , pressing [me]0-i , if tired ( as [he]575-green concluded ) of [those murderous Corsicans]8170-those murderous corsicans , to accept another engagement in [Sardinia]181-sardinia . Even without imparting [my]0-i last discovery , [I]0-i had done good service to [the firm]8171-the firm . [I]0-i smiled at the idea of [my]0-i being weary of [Corsicans]583-the corsicans : even now the mere word sends a warm tide to [my]0-i heart . It was not for the beauty of the scene , or the works of art , that [I]0-i remained in [Genoa]65-genoa ; but because it was [the likeliest place to see]8172-the likeliest place to see [the Negro]8173-the negro 's head . As [we]8174-we lay at the end of [the mole]8175-the mole , [my]0-i glass commanded all that entered ; and [every lugger or xebec that bore the sacred emblem]8176-every lugger or xebec that bore the sacred emblem — off [my]0-i little dingy pushed from [our]8174-we raking stern , and with [one man]1690-one man , now [[my]0-i friend]7813-my friend because [a thorough Corsican]8179-a thorough corsican , [I]0-i boarded [her]7813-my friend , at all hazards of imprisonment ; and craved for tidings of [the sacred land]8180-the sacred land . Although , of course , [I]0-i would not show the nest of all [my]0-i thoughts , yet by beating about the bush , [I]0-i got some scraps of news . [The great Signor]8181-the great signor was flourishing , and had harvested an enormous crop of olives : [[his]8181-the great signor lovely daughter]8182-his lovely daughter , now becoming the glory of [the island]1125-the island , had been ill of something like marsh - fever , but was now as blooming as the roses . [They]8184-they did say , but [the captain]8185-the captain could not at all believe it , that [she]7813-my friend had been betrothed to [some foreign olive - merchant]8186-some foreign olive - merchant . What disgrace ! The highest blood and [the sweetest maid in [Corsica]150-corsica]8187-the sweetest maid in corsica , to be betrayed to [an oilman]8188-an oilman ! Plenty of other news [I]0-i gathered — [the good people]8189-the good people are great gossips — but this was all [I]0-i cared for . Meanwhile [[your]8190-your father]5365-your father , [[Clara]293-clara dear]6662-clara dear , replied most warmly to [my]0-i letter , sending [me]0-i a sum on loan , which quite relieved [me]0-i from cheese - paring . And now the wind was in [the north]8193-the north , and it was almost time to start for the arms of [Lily]592-lily . If [I]0-i waited any longer , [I]0-i should be too mad to bear the voyage . At the break of day [we]8194-we left [the magnificent harbour]8195-the magnificent harbour , and the cold wind from [the maritime Alps]8196-the maritime alps chilled all but the fire of love . Up and down [the little deck]8197-the little deck , up and down all day and night ; sleep [I]0-i never would again , until [I]0-i touched [my]0-i Lily . On the evening of the 8th of March , [we]8194-we were near [Cape Corso]170-cape corso ; next day [we]8194-we coasted down the west to the lively breeze of spring , and so upon the 9th [we]8194-we moored to [the tongue of [Calvi]159-calvi]8198-the tongue of calvi . At midnight [we]8194-we were under way , and when the sun could reach [the sea]895-the sea over [the snowy peaks]8200-the snowy peaks , [we]8194-we glided past [the mountain crescent that looks on [the Balagna]183-the balagna]8201-the mountain crescent that looks on the balagna . In the early morning still , when the dew was floating , [we]8194-we rounded [the gray headland of Signor [Dezio 's cove]589-signor dezio]8202-the gray headland of signor dezio 's cove , and [I]0-i climbed along the bowsprit to glance beyond the corner . What is that white dress [I]0-i see fluttering at [the water 's edge]8203-the water 's edge ? Whose is that red - striped mandile tossed on high and caught again ? And there the flag - staff [I]0-i erected , with [my]0-i colours flying ! Only one such shape on [earth]1622-earth — only two such arms — out with [the boat]8205-the boat or [I]0-i must swim , or run [the yacht]8206-the yacht [ashore]8207-ashore . [The boat]8205-the boat has been towing alongside for the last six hours : [Lily]592-lily ca n't wait for [the boat]8205-the boat any more than [I]0-i can . From rock to rock [she]592-lily is leaping ; which is the nearest one ? Into [the water]1150-the water [she]592-lily runs , then away in blushing terror — [she]592-lily forgot all about [the other men]8211-the other men . But [I]0-i know where to find [her]592-lily , [she]592-lily has dropped [her]592-lily little shoe , [she]592-lily must be in [[my]0-i grotto]8212-my grotto . There [I]0-i press [her]592-lily to [my]0-i heart of hearts , trembling , weeping , laughing , all unable to get close enough to [me]0-i . "[0-i] Sweetest mine , ten thousand times , [I]0-i have been so wretched . " [Her]592-lily voice is like a silver bell . "[0-i] [My]0-i own , [I]0-i am so glad to hear it . But how well [you]3572-i look ! " If [she]592-lily were lovely when [I]3572-i left [her]592-lily , what shall [I]3572-i call [her]592-lily now ? There is not one atom of [her]592-lily but is pure perfection . [I]3572-i hold [her]592-lily from [me]3572-i for one moment , to take in all [her]592-lily beauties . [She]592-lily has a most delicious fragrance that steals upon [my]3572-i senses . Toilet bottles [she]592-lily never heard of ; what [she]592-lily has is nature 's gift , and unperceived except by love . [I]3572-i have often told [her]592-lily of it , but [she]592-lily wo n't believe it . It is not [your]3572-i breath , [[you]3572-i darling]8213-you darling ; [your]3572-i breath is only violets ; it comes from every fibre of [you]3572-i , even from [your]3572-i hair ; it is as when the wind has kissed a lily of [the valley]1708-the valley . [The ancient Signor]8215-the ancient signor being [a man of very keen observation]8216-a man of very keen observation , did not delay [our]8217-our wedding any longer than could be helped . That evening [we]8217-our hauled down [the family fusileer]8218-the family fusileer , gave [him]8215-the ancient signor a goblet of wine , and sent [him]8215-the ancient signor about [his]8215-the ancient signor business : for one night [we]8217-our would take [our]8217-our chance even of Vendetta . At supper - time [the Signor]7946-the signor was in wonderful spirits , and drank [our]8217-our health with many praises of [our]8217-our constancy and obedience . One little fact [he]7946-the signor mentioned worth a thousand propinations ; [[his]7946-the signor daughter]2465-his daughter 's fever had been cured by some chance news of [me]3572-i . [He]7946-the signor even went away to fetch a bottle of choicest [Rogliano]204-rogliano , when [he]7946-the signor saw how [I]3572-i was fidgetting to get [my]3572-i arm round [Lily]592-lily . Then after making [his]7946-the signor re - entrance , with due clumsiness at the door , [he]7946-the signor quite disgraced [himself]7946-the signor , while drawing the cork , by even winking at [me]3572-i , as [he]7946-the signor said abruptly , "[3572-i] [Fiordalisa]593-fiordalisa , when would [you]593-fiordalisa like to be married ? " [[My]593-fiordalisa [Lily]592-lily]7976-my lily blushed , [I]593-fiordalisa must confess , but did not fence with the question . "[593-fiordalisa] As soon as ever [you]593-fiordalisa please , [papa]6651-papa . That is , if [[my]0-i love]5792-my love wishes it . " But [she]592-lily would not look at [me]5792-my love to ask . In [the porch]930-the porch [she]592-lily whispered to [me]5792-my love , that it was only from [her]592-lily terror of [the bad Lepardo]570-lepardo coming . Did [the loving creature]8223-the loving creature fancy that [I]5792-my love would believe it ? Once more [we]8224-we sailed together over [the amethyst sea]8225-the amethyst sea ; [she]592-lily was as fond of [the water]1150-the water as [a true - born Briton]8002-a true - born briton . In [her]592-lily thoughts and glances was infinite variety . [None]1510-none could ever guess the next thing [she]592-lily would say . Thoroughly [I]5792-my love knew [her]592-lily heart , because [I]5792-my love lived therein , and sweeter lodgings never [man]5770-man was blessed with . But of [her]592-lily mind [she]592-lily veiled as yet the maiden delicacies , strictly as [she]592-lily would the glowing riches of [her]592-lily figure . What amazed [me]5792-my love more than all , was that while [most Corsican girls]8230-most corsican girls are of the nut - brown order , no sun ever burned the snowy skin of [Lily]592-lily : [she]592-lily always looked so clear and clean , as if it were impossible for anything to stain [her]592-lily . [Clara]293-clara , [you]293-clara are always talking of [your]293-clara lovely [Isola]463-isola . [I]5792-my love wonder where [she]463-isola got [her]463-isola name : it is no stranger to [me]5792-my love . Something in [your]293-clara description of [her]463-isola reminds [me]5792-my love of [my]5792-my love [Lily]592-lily . [I]5792-my love long to see [the girl]8231-the girl : and [you]293-clara must have some reason for so obstinately preventing [me]5792-my love . Though [Lily]592-lily and [I]5792-my love were most desirous to keep things as quiet as possible , by this time [our]8232-our engagement was talked of in [every house of [the Balagna]183-the balagna]8233-every house of the balagna . [That paternal fusileer]8234-that paternal fusileer and [[my]5792-my love merry yachtsmen]8235-my merry yachtsmen , although [they]8235-my merry yachtsmen looked the other way whenever [we]8232-our approached , would not permit the flower of [Corsica]150-corsica , as [she]592-lily was now proclaimed , to blush with [me]5792-my love unseen . [[My]5792-my love sailors]8236-my sailors attended to [her]592-lily far more than to [their]8236-my sailors business , and would have leaped into [the water]1150-the water for one smile of [Lily]592-lily . It is the fashion of [the island]1125-the island to make a wedding jubilee ; and [the Signor]7946-the signor was anxious to outdo all that had ever been done . [We]8232-our , absorbed in [one another]758-one another , did [our]8232-our best to disappoint [him]7946-the signor ; but [he]7946-the signor scorned the notion of any private marriage . [I]5792-my love never shall forget how [he]7946-the signor knit [his]7946-the signor silver brows when [I]5792-my love made a last attempt to bring [him]7946-the signor to [our]8232-our views . "[5792-my love] [Signor Vogheno]605-signor valentine , to [me]0-i [you]605-signor valentine appear to forget whose daughter it is that loves [you]605-signor valentine . Perhaps in [[your]605-signor valentine remote , but well regarded island maidens]3575-your remote , but well regarded island maidens may be stolen before [[their]3575-your remote , but well regarded island maidens fathers]3576-their fathers can look round . Indeed , [I]0-i have heard that [they]3575-your remote , but well regarded island maidens leap over a broomstick . That is not the custom here . [Fiordalisa Della Croce]593-fiordalisa is [[my]0-i only child]5775-my only child — [the child of [my]0-i old age]3578-the child of my old age ; and not altogether one to be ashamed of . [I]0-i can afford to be hospitable , and [I]0-i mean to be so . " [The Corsicans]583-the corsicans are [a most excitable race]8241-a most excitable race , and , when affronted , seem to lash [their]583-the corsicans sides as [they]583-the corsicans talk . By the time [the good Signor]8242-the good signor had finished [his]8242-the good signor speech , every hair of [his]8242-the good signor beard was curling with indignation . But [[his]8242-the good signor daughter]2465-his daughter sprang into [his]8242-the good signor arms and kissed away the tempest , and promised , if it must be so , to make [herself]2465-his daughter one mass of gold and coral . So [the Parolanti]8244-the parolanti , or [mediators]8245-mediators , were invoked ; an armistice for a week was signed , and honour pledged on either side . Free and haughty was the step of [the Signor Dezio]589-signor dezio as [he]589-signor dezio set forth for [the town]8007-the town to order everything [he]589-signor dezio could see ; and very wroth again [he]589-signor dezio was , because [I]0-i would not postpone the day for [him]589-signor dezio to get a shipload of trumpery from [Marseilles]186-marseilles . This time [I]0-i was resolved to have [my]0-i way . Besides the fervour of [my]0-i passion and [my]0-i dread of accidents , the one thing of all others [I]0-i detest is to be stared at anywhere . And it is far worse to be stared at by [a foreign race]8247-a foreign race . [The Corsicans]583-the corsicans are [gentlemen]8248-gentlemen by nature , but [they]583-the corsicans could not be expected to regard without some curiosity [the lucky stranger who had won [their]583-the corsicans Lily]8249-the lucky stranger who had won their lily . [I]0-i will not weary [you]8250-you , as [I]0-i [myself]0-i was wearied , with all the ceremonies of the wedding - day . All [I]0-i wanted was [[my]0-i bride]8251-my bride , and [she]8251-my bride wanted none but [me]0-i : yet [we]8252-we could not help being touched by the hearty good - will of [the commune]8253-the commune . The fame of [Lily]592-lily 's beauty had spread even to [Sardinia]181-sardinia , and many [a handsome woman]8254-a handsome woman came to measure [her]8254-a handsome woman own thereby . Clever as [they]583-the corsicans are at such things , not one of [them]583-the corsicans could find a blemish or defect in [Lily]592-lily , and [[our]8252-we fair [Balagnese]615-balagnese]8255-our fair balagnese told [them]583-the corsicans to go [home]1102-home and break [their]583-the corsicans mirrors . It was a sweet spring morning , and amid a fearful din of guns and trumpets , mandolins and fiddles , [I]0-i waited with a nervous smile under the triumphal arch in front of [[my]0-i fictitious house]8257-my fictitious house . [A sham house]8258-a sham house had been made of boards , and boughs , and flowers , because it is most essential that [the bride]8259-the bride should be introduced to [[the bridegroom]8260-the bridegroom 's dwelling]8261-the bridegroom 's dwelling . Here [I]0-i was to receive the procession , which at last appeared . First came [fifty well - armed youths , crowned with leaves and ribbons]8262-fifty well - armed youths , crowned with leaves and ribbons ; then [four - and - twenty maidens dressed alike , singing and scattering flowers]8263-four - and - twenty maidens dressed alike , singing and scattering flowers , and then [a boy of noble birth , mounted on a pony]8264-a boy of noble birth , mounted on a pony , and carrying the freno , symbol of [many scions]8265-many scions . None of them [I]0-i looked at ; only for [[my]0-i Lily]7976-my lily . On a noble snow - white palfrey , decked from head to foot with flowers , [[her]7976-my lily father]898-her father walking at [her]7976-my lily side , came the bloom , the flower , the lily of them all , arrayed in clear white muslin , self - possessed , and smiling . One glorious wreath was round [her]7976-my lily head ; it was [her]7976-my lily own black hair by [her]7976-my lily own sweet fingers twined with sprigs of myrtle . A sash , or fazoletto , of violet transparent crape , looped at the crown of [her]7976-my lily head , fell over the shy lift of [her]7976-my lily bosom , parting like a sunset cloud , where the boddice opened below the pear - like waist . To [me]0-i [she]7976-my lily looked like a white coralline rising through [an amethyst sea]8268-an amethyst sea . Behind [her]7976-my lily came [the authorities of [the commune]8253-the commune]8269-the authorities of the commune . The sham keys were already hanging at [her]7976-my lily slender zone . It was [my]0-i place to lift [her]7976-my lily down and introduce [her]7976-my lily formally . This [I]0-i did with excellent grace , feeling the weight of eyes upon [me]0-i . But when [I]0-i got [her]7976-my lily inside , [I]0-i spoiled the folds of the fazoletto . [I]0-i heard [the old man]7306-the old man shouting , "[0-i] Who are [[ye]3579-ye gallant sons of [the mountain]5676-the mountain]3580-ye gallant sons of the mountain , who have carried off [[my]0-i daughter]3561-my daughter ? To [me]0-i , indeed , [ye]3579-ye seem to be brave and [noble men]3583-noble men , yet have [ye]3579-ye taken [her]3561-my daughter rather after the manner of [bandits]3584-bandits . Know [ye]3579-ye not that [she]3561-my daughter is the fairest flower that ever was reared in [Corsica]150-corsica ? " "[3585-old fellow] Yes , [old fellow]3585-old fellow , [I]0-i know that well enough ; and that 's the very reason why [I]0-i have got [her]3561-my daughter [here]846-here . " One more virgin kiss , and with [Lily]592-lily on [my]6702-friends arm , forth [I]6702-friends sally to respond . "[6702-friends] [Friends]6702-friends [we]6702-friends are , who claim some hospitality . [We]6702-friends have plucked the fairest flower on all the strands of [Corsica]150-corsica , and [we]6702-friends bear [her]3561-my daughter to [the priest]2629-the priest , fit offering for [Madonna]591-madonna . " "[2629-the priest] Bide on , [[my]0-i noble friends]3589-my noble friends ; then come and enjoy [my]0-i feast . " No more delay . [The maids]836-the maids have got all [they]836-the maids can do to keep in front of [us]6702-friends with [their]836-the maids flowers . [The armed youths]8273-the armed youths stand on either side at the entrance to [the church]1351-the church . The tapers are already lit , the passage up [the little church]995-the little church is strewed with flowering myrtle . [Lily]592-lily , holding [her]592-lily veil around [her]592-lily , walks hand in hand with [me]3592-me . [Fiordalisa Della Croce]593-fiordalisa now is [Lily Vaughan]592-lily ; amidst a world of shouting , shooting , and cornamusas , [we]6702-friends are led to [the banqueting - room]8276-the banqueting - room ; there [they]836-the maids seat [us]6702-friends in two chairs , and [a fine fat baby]8277-a fine fat baby is placed on [Lily]592-lily 's lap , to remind [her]592-lily of [her]592-lily duties . [She]592-lily dandles it , and kisses [it]8277-a fine fat baby as if [she]592-lily understood the business , and then presents [it]8277-a fine fat baby with a cap of corals and gay ribbons . Now [Lily Vaughan]592-lily throws off [her]592-lily fazoletto , and gives [me]3592-me for a keepsake the myrtles in [her]592-lily hair . Then all who can claim kin with [her]592-lily , to [the fortieth generation]8278-the fortieth generation , hurry up and press [her]592-lily hand , and wish the good old wish . "[3592-me] Long life and growing pleasure , [[sons]3590-sons like [him]3592-me]3591-sons like him , and [[daughters]3593-daughters like [yourself]3595-yourself]3594-daughters like yourself . " After the banquet , [we]8279-we were free to go , having first led off the ballo in the Cerca dance . Thank [God]303-god , [[my]593-fiordalisa Lily]7976-my lily is at last [my]593-fiordalisa own ; [she]7976-my lily falls upon [my]593-fiordalisa bosom weary and delighted . [Clara]293-clara , remember this : [the little church in which [we]8279-we were married]8281-the little church in which we were married is called [[St. Katharine]188-st. katharine 's on [the cliff]8283-the cliff]8282-st. katharine 's on the cliff ; and [I]593-fiordalisa signed the record in [my]593-fiordalisa proper name , [Edgar Malins Vaughan]300-edgar malins vaughan : [the Malins]300-edgar malins vaughan , very likely , [they]8284-they did not know from [Valentine]605-signor valentine , for [I]593-fiordalisa always wrote it with a flourish at the end . [The Signor]7946-the signor , with all [[his]7946-the signor friends]976-his friends , escorted [us]8279-we to [the limits of [[his]7946-the signor domain]8288-his domain]8287-the limits of his domain ; there [we]8279-we bade [them]8284-they heartily farewell , and [they]8284-they returned to renew the feast . [[My]593-fiordalisa little yacht]8289-my little yacht was in [the bay]8290-the bay , and [we]8279-we saw [the boat]8205-the boat push off to fetch [us]8279-we as had been arranged . [We]8279-we were to sail for [Girolata]189-girolata , where [the Signor]605-signor valentine had [a country - house]8292-a country - house , lonely enough even for [two such lovers]8293-two such lovers . Three or four hours would take [us]8279-we thither , and the sun was still in the heavens . As [no one]730-no one now could see [us]8279-we , [Lily]592-lily performed a little dance for [my]593-fiordalisa especial delight . How beaming [she]592-lily looked , how full of spirits , now all the worry was over . Then [she]592-lily tripped roguishly at [my]593-fiordalisa side to the winding rocky steps that lead to [[St. Katharine]188-st. katharine 's cove]8295-st. katharine 's cove . [The cove]8296-the cove was like a well scooped in [the giant cliffs]8297-the giant cliffs . As [we]8279-we descended [the steep and narrow stairs]8298-the steep and narrow stairs , [[my]593-fiordalisa Lily]7976-my lily trembled on [my]593-fiordalisa arm . [The house]764-the house and [all the merry - makers]8301-all the merry - makers were out of sight and hearing . Of course [we]8279-we stopped every now and then , for [the boat]8205-the boat could not be at [the landing]6367-the landing yet , and [we]8279-we had much to tell [each other]734-each other . As [we]8279-we stepped upon [the beach]6975-the beach , and under the eaves of a jutting rock , [a tall man]8306-a tall man stood before [us]8279-we . [His]8306-a tall man eyes and beard were black as jet , and [he]8306-a tall man wore the loose dress of [a Southern seaman]8307-a southern seaman . [Three sailors , unmistakeably English]8308-three sailors , unmistakeably english , were smoking and playing cards in [the corner shade of [the cliff]8283-the cliff]8309-the corner shade of the cliff . [Lily]592-lily started violently , turned pale , and clung to [me]593-fiordalisa , but faced [the intruder]3308-the intruder bravely . [He]8306-a tall man was quite amazed at [her]592-lily beauty , [I]593-fiordalisa at [his]8306-a tall man insolent gaze . "[593-fiordalisa] [Fiordalisa Della Croce]593-fiordalisa , " [he]8306-a tall man said with a pure Tuscan accent , "[593-fiordalisa] behold [me]0-i ! [I]0-i am come to claim [you]593-fiordalisa . " [He]8306-a tall man actually laid [his]8306-a tall man small , but muscular hand upon [my]0-i [Lily]592-lily 's shoulder . [She]592-lily leaped back as from a snake . [I]0-i knew it must be [Lepardo]570-lepardo . "[0-i] [Sir]5380-sir , " [I]0-i said , as calmly as [I]0-i could , "[0-i] oblige [me]0-i by allowing [[my]0-i wife]3597-my wife to pass . " The sneering , supercilious look which [he]8306-a tall man hardly deigned to spare [me]0-i , was honest , compared to [his]8306-a tall man foul stare at [her]592-lily . "[0-i] [Signor]3598-signor , [she]3597-my wife is too beautiful . [I]0-i must have [my]0-i rights . Come for [her]3597-my wife when [I]0-i am tired , if any can tire of [her]3597-my wife . " And [he]8306-a tall man thrust [his]8306-a tall man filthy , hairy lips under [my]3597-my wife own pet 's hat . [My]3597-my wife muscles leaped , and [my]3597-my wife soul was in the blow . Down [he]8306-a tall man went like a flail , and [I]3597-my wife thought [he]8306-a tall man was stunned for an hour ; but while [I]3597-my wife was bearing [[my]3597-my wife pet]5394-my pet to [the boat]8205-the boat , which now was close to [the beach]6975-the beach , up [he]8306-a tall man leaped , and rushed at [me]3597-my wife with a dagger — a dagger like one which [you]8315-you know . [I]3597-my wife did not see [him]8306-a tall man , but [Lily]592-lily did over [my]3597-my wife shoulder ; [she]592-lily sprang from [my]3597-my wife arms and flung [herself]592-lily between [us]8316-us . [He]8306-a tall man thrust [her]592-lily aside , and leaped at [me]3597-my wife like a panther , aiming straight at [my]3597-my wife heart . How [he]8306-a tall man missed [me]3597-my wife [I]3597-my wife can not tell , but think it was through [Lily]592-lily . Before [he]8306-a tall man recovered , [I]3597-my wife closed with [him]8306-a tall man , wrested away the weapon and flung it far into [the sea]895-the sea . But one main thing [I]3597-my wife omitted ; [I]3597-my wife ought to have stunned [him]8306-a tall man thoroughly . Into [the boat]8205-the boat with [Lily]592-lily — [I]3597-my wife caught up an oar , and away [we]8316-us dashed . [The three English sailors]8319-the three english sailors were running up . As a wave took [the boat]8205-the boat about , one of [them]8319-the three english sailors grasped the stern ; down on [his]8306-a tall man knuckles crashed [my]3597-my wife oar , and with a curse [he]8306-a tall man let go . All right , all clear , off for [the yacht]8206-the yacht for [your]8322-your lives . [I]3597-my wife would show fight , for [my]3597-my wife blood is up , but what would become of [Lily]592-lily ? And [we]8316-us are but three against four , and none of [us]8316-us have arms . Meanwhile , that black Italian , [I]3597-my wife can never call [him]8306-a tall man [a Corsican]8323-a corsican , sneaked away to a tuft of sea - grass for [his]8306-a tall man double - barrelled fusil . [Bowing]616-bowing with all [my]3597-my wife might , [I]3597-my wife saw [him]8306-a tall man examine the priming , lay [his]8306-a tall man red cap on a rock , and the glistening gun on the cap , and , closing one eye , take steady aim , not at [me]3597-my wife , but at [Lily]592-lily . [Poor Lily]606-lily sat on the thwart at [my]3597-my wife side , faintly staring with terror . No time to think ; oar and all [I]3597-my wife dashed in front of [[my]3597-my wife darling]5337-my darling . A ping in the air , a jar on [my]3597-my wife wrist , a slight blow on [my]3597-my wife breast , and at [my]3597-my wife feet dropped the bullet . It had passed through the tough ash handle . Down , [Lily]592-lily , down , for God 's sake ; [he]8306-a tall man is firing the other barrel . [I]3597-my wife flung [her]592-lily down in [the bilge water]8325-the bilge water ; [the brute]8326-the brute can not see [her]592-lily now . Not quite so easily off . Up [a steep rock]8327-a steep rock [he]8306-a tall man climbed like a cat , the cursed gun still in [his]8306-a tall man hand . [He]8306-a tall man won fifty feet of vantage , and commanded the whole of [the boat]8205-the boat . [We]8329-we were not eighty yards away . There [he]8306-a tall man coolly levelled at [my]3597-my wife prostrate [Lily]592-lily . [I]3597-my wife had grey hairs next morning . Forward , [I]3597-my wife threw [myself]3597-my wife , over [[my]3597-my wife wife]3597-my wife ; [me]3597-my wife [he]8306-a tall man might kill if [he]8306-a tall man chose . One lurch of [the boat]8205-the boat — [a short sea]8332-a short sea was running — and [[my]3597-my wife darling]5337-my darling 's head was shown . [He]8306-a tall man saw [his]8306-a tall man chance and fired . Thank [God]303-god , [he]8306-a tall man had too little powder in ; [my]3597-my wife own love is untouched . The ball fell short of [Lily]592-lily , and passed through [my]3597-my wife left foot , in at the sole and out below the instep . Luckily [I]3597-my wife had retained [my]3597-my wife dancing shoes , or [my]3597-my wife thick boots would have kept the ball in [my]3597-my wife foot . [The brute]8326-the brute could not see that [he]8306-a tall man had hit any one , and [he]8306-a tall man cursed [us]8335-us in choice Italian . [Poor Lily]606-lily had quite swooned away , and knew nothing of [my]3597-my wife wound . Over the side of [the yacht]8206-the yacht [I]3597-my wife lifted [her]606-lily [myself]3597-my wife , standing upon one leg . [No one else]5442-no one else should touch [her]606-lily . So furious [I]3597-my wife was with [that cold - blooded miscreant]8338-that cold - blooded miscreant , that if [I]3597-my wife could only have walked , [I]3597-my wife would have returned to fight [him]8338-that cold - blooded miscreant . [[My]3597-my wife men]5915-my men , too , were quite up for it . But when [Lily]606-lily came to [herself]606-lily , and threw [her]606-lily arms round [me]3597-my wife and wept , and thanked [God]303-god and [[her]606-lily saints]8340-her saints , [I]3597-my wife found [my]3597-my wife foot quite soaked in a pool of blood , and stiffening . [Poor little dear]6411-poor little dear ! what a fuss [she]606-lily did make about it ! [I]3597-my wife would have borne ten times the pain for the smiles and tears [she]606-lily gave [me]3597-my wife . One thing was certain — under the mercy of [God]303-god , [we]8342-we owed [our]8342-we lives to each other , and held [them]5915-my men henceforth in common . As , with a flowing sheet , [we]8342-we doubled [the craggy point]8343-the craggy point , concealed close under [the rocks]8344-the rocks [we]8342-we saw a low and snake - like vessel , of the felucca build . [She]606-lily was banked for three pair of sweeps , and looked a thorough rover . This was , of course , [[Lepardo]570-lepardo 's boat]8345-lepardo 's boat . [We]8342-we now bore away for [Ajaccio]191-ajaccio , [dear Lily]618-lily having implored [me]3597-my wife not to think of [Girolata]189-girolata , where no medical aid could anyhow be procured . Moreover , [she]606-lily wanted to fly from [that dark Lepardo]570-lepardo ; and [I]3597-my wife am quite willing to own that , despite [my]3597-my wife delicious nursing , [I]3597-my wife was not ambitious to stand as target again during [our]8342-we honeymoon . At first [I]3597-my wife thought a great deal more of the pain than the danger of [my]3597-my wife wound ; but when [I]3597-my wife showed it to [the French surgeon at [Ajaccio]191-ajaccio]8346-the french surgeon at ajaccio , [he]8346-the french surgeon at ajaccio surprised [me]3597-my wife by shrugging [his]8346-the french surgeon at ajaccio shoulders formidably , and declaring that it was [the good God]8347-the good god if [I]3597-my wife kept [my]3597-my wife foot . Being of a somewhat sceptical turn , [I]3597-my wife thought at first that [he]8346-the french surgeon at ajaccio only wanted to gild the frame of [his]8346-the french surgeon at ajaccio work ; but when [I]3597-my wife began to consider it , [I]3597-my wife found that [he]8346-the french surgeon at ajaccio was quite right . The fact was , that [I]3597-my wife had thought much more of [[my]3597-my wife bride]8251-my bride than of [my]3597-my wife metatarsals . Two of these were splintered where the bullet passed between them , and it was a question whether it had not been poisoned . [Many of [the mountaineers]7910-the mountaineers]8349-many of the mountaineers are skilled in deadly drugs , and use them rarely for the bowl , not so rarely for the sword and gun . At one time there were symptoms even of mortification , and [[my]3597-my wife wife]3597-my wife , who waited hand and foot upon [me]3597-my wife , joined [the surgeon]1504-the surgeon in imploring [me]3597-my wife to submit to amputation . "[3597-my wife] Sweetest mine ! do [you]3599-you suppose that [I]0-i shall love [you]3599-you any the less because [you]3599-you walk on crutches , and all through [your]3599-you love of [me]0-i ? And what other difference can it make to either of [us]3600-i ? [I]0-i shall cry a great deal at first , for [I]0-i love [your]3599-you little toe - nails more than [I]0-i do [my]0-i own eyes ; but , [darling]6257-darling , [we]3600-i shall get over it . " As [she]3597-my wife loved [my]3600-i toes so much , [I]3600-i resolved to keep them , if it was only for [her]3597-my wife sake ; and , after a narrow crisis , [my]3600-i foot began to get better . To [her]3597-my wife care and tenderness [I]3600-i owed [my]3600-i recovery , far more than to the skill of [the clever surgeon]8353-the clever surgeon . Six months elapsed before [I]3600-i could walk again , and [[our]3600-i little yacht]8354-our little yacht was sent to [Calvi]159-calvi to explain the long delay . [Fond]619-fond as [I]3600-i was of the "[3600-i] Lily - flower , " [I]3600-i was anxious now to sell [her]3597-my wife ; but [[my]3600-i darling nurse]8355-my darling nurse , although [she]8355-my darling nurse knew before [our]3600-i marriage that [I]3600-i was not [a wealthy man]8356-a wealthy man , would not listen to the scheme at all ; for [the doctor]5643-the doctor ordered [me]3600-i , as [I]3600-i grew stronger , to be constantly on [the water]1150-the water . "[3600-i] Not by any means , [my]0-i own , will [we]3602-our sell [[our]3602-our little love - boat]3603-our little love - boat . [I]0-i should cry after it like [a baby]2061-a baby ; and another thing , far more important , [you]3605-you can bear no motion except on board [[our]3602-our Lily]3564-our lily . [Papa]425-papa has got great heaps of money , and [he]425-papa never can refuse [me]0-i anything when [I]0-i coax in earnest . " Conscious as [I]425-papa was of [my]425-papa vile deceit , [I]425-papa would rather have died than apply to [Signor Dezio]589-signor dezio , albeit [I]425-papa am quite sure that [he]589-signor dezio would soon have forgiven [me]425-papa . So [I]425-papa wrote again to [[my]425-papa good - natured brother]8359-my good - natured brother and [banker]8360-banker , and told [him]589-signor dezio all that had happened , but begged [him]589-signor dezio not to impart it even to [[your]3605-you mother]5332-your mother . [I]425-papa have strong reason for suspecting that [he]589-signor dezio did not conceal it from [her]5332-your mother ; but as [I]425-papa never alluded to the subject before [her]5332-your mother , [she]5332-your mother was too much [a lady]5829-a lady ever to lead [me]425-papa towards it . [My]425-papa motive for this reserve was at first some ill - defined terror lest [my]425-papa fraud upon [Signor Dezio]589-signor dezio should come to light prematurely . Also [I]425-papa hate to be talked about among people whom [I]425-papa despise . Afterwards , as [you]3605-you will perceive , [I]425-papa had other and far more cogent reasons . [I]425-papa need not say that [[your]3605-you father]5365-your father — [dear Clara]293-clara , [I]425-papa ought to love [you]3605-you , if only on [his]5365-your father account!—your father wrote [me]425-papa a kind and most warm - hearted letter , accompanied by a most handsome gift — no loan this time , but a wedding - gift , and a very noble one . Also [he]5365-your father pressed [me]425-papa to come [home]1102-home with [[my]425-papa bride]8251-my bride the moment [I]425-papa could endure the voyage . Ah ! if [I]425-papa had only obeyed [him]5365-your father , not [Lily]618-lily and [Henry]561-henry the eighth , but [myself]425-papa would have been [the victim]8366-the victim . [We]8367-we returned as soon as possible to [Vendetta tower]168-vendetta , and found [the good Signor]589-signor dezio in excellent spirits , delighted to see [[his]589-signor dezio sweet daughter]8368-his sweet daughter again , and still more delighted by hope of a little successor to the gray walls and [the olive groves]8369-the olive groves . When this hope was realized , and [a lusty young grandson]8370-a lusty young grandson was laid in [his]589-signor dezio arms , [he]589-signor dezio became so wild in [his]589-signor dezio glory , that [he]589-signor dezio went about boasting all over [the commune]8253-the commune , feasting all who came near [him]589-signor dezio , forgetting the very name of the blood - revenge . Many a time [we]8367-we reminded and implored [him]589-signor dezio to be more careful . [He]589-signor dezio replied , that [his]589-signor dezio life was of no importance now ; [he]589-signor dezio had come to [[his]589-signor dezio haven]8372-his haven among [[his]589-signor dezio own dear ones]8373-his own dear ones , and was crowning [the old ship]8374-the old ship with flowers . Moreover , [he]589-signor dezio knew that [the De ' Gentili]8375-the de ' gentili were of a nobler spirit than to shed the blood of [a gray - haired man]8376-a gray - haired man , when institution did not very loudly demand it . And so [I]425-papa believe [they]8375-the de ' gentili were . Alas ! [the poor old man!—a thorough and true gentleman]8377-the poor old man!—a thorough and true gentleman as [one need wish to see — choleric albeit , and not too wide of mind]8378-one need wish to see — choleric albeit , and not too wide of mind ; but [his]589-signor dezio heart was in the right place , and made of the right material , and easy enough to get at . [He]589-signor dezio was free to confess [his]589-signor dezio own failings , and could feel for [a man who was tempted]8379-a man who was tempted . Deeply thankful [I]425-papa am that , before [his]589-signor dezio white beard was laid low , [I]425-papa acknowledged to [him]589-signor dezio [my]425-papa offence , and obtained [his]589-signor dezio hearty forgiveness . [Little Henry]620-little henry was on [his]589-signor dezio lap , going off into smiles of sleep , with [[his]620-little henry mother]1066-his mother 's soft finger in [his]620-little henry mouth . At first [my]425-papa confession quite took [the poor Signor]8381-the poor signor aback ; for [I]425-papa did not attempt to gloss the dishonour of what [I]425-papa had done ; but [I]425-papa told [him]589-signor dezio truly that the meanness was not in [my]425-papa nature , and although [I]425-papa had won [my]425-papa pet Lily , [the road]1630-the road ran through hemlock and wormwood . And now [I]425-papa perceived how uncalled - for and stupid the fraud had been . When [the old man]7306-the old man recovered a little from the shock caused by the dishonesty — towards which recovery the tears of [[his]7306-the old man daughter]2465-his daughter and the smiles of [[his]7306-the old man grandson]8385-his grandson contributed — [he]7306-the old man was really glad to find that [I]425-papa was not [a landed Signor]8386-a landed signor . [He]7306-the old man rubbed [his]7306-the old man hands and twitched [his]7306-the old man beard with delight , for now [[his]7306-the old man little Enrico]8387-his little enrico would never be taken away to [the barbarous English island]8388-the barbarous english island . Was [he]7306-the old man not [rightful successor to [the lands of [the Della Croce]589-signor dezio]8390-the lands of the della croce]8389-rightful successor to the lands of the della croce ? and what more could [he]7306-the old man possibly want ? What could [he]7306-the old man care for [the property in [Gloisterio]176-gloisterio]8391-the property in gloisterio ? However , [he]7306-the old man made [us]8392-us promise that if [the present remarkable baby]8393-the present remarkable baby , [Master Henry Vaughan]298-harry , should ever enjoy [the property in [the unpronounceable county]8395-the unpronounceable county]8394-the property in the unpronounceable county , [[Lily]618-lily 's second child]8396-lily 's second child , if [she]618-lily had one , should take [the Corsican lordships]8397-the corsican lordships ; for [his]7306-the old man great fear was , that [the Malaspina and Della Croce estates]8398-the malaspina and della croce estates should become [a servient tenement to [the frozen fields of [the North]192-the north]8400-the frozen fields of the north]8399-a servient tenement to the frozen fields of the north . To express and ensure [his]7306-the old man wishes , [he]7306-the old man had a deed - poll prepared according to [his]7306-the old man own fancy , read it to [us]8392-us and [some witnesses]8401-some witnesses , then signed , sealed , and enrolled it . This was one of the documents which [you]8402-you , [[my]425-papa brave [Clara]293-clara]8403-my brave clara , rescued from that vile , stealthy ghost . And now , for a short time , [we]8392-us enjoyed deep , quiet , delicious happiness . The crime which had haunted [me]425-papa was confessed and forgiven . Amply possessed of the means , and even the abundance of life , [I]425-papa was blessed with strong health again , and freedom among [the free]8404-the free . Richest and best of all blessings , [I]425-papa had [a sweet , most lovely , and most loving wife]8405-a sweet , most lovely , and most loving wife , and loved [her]8405-a sweet , most lovely , and most loving wife once and for all . No more beautiful vision has [any poet]8406-any poet imagined than [young Lily Vaughan]592-lily sitting under the vine - leaves , [her]8405-a sweet , most lovely , and most loving wife form more exquisite than ever , [[her]8405-a sweet , most lovely , and most loving wife soft - eyed infant]8407-her soft - eyed infant in [her]8405-a sweet , most lovely , and most loving wife lap wondering at [[his]8407-her soft - eyed infant mother]1066-his mother 's beauty , while [her]8405-a sweet , most lovely , and most loving wife own deep - lustred eyes carried to [[her]8405-a sweet , most lovely , and most loving wife husband]6140-her husband 's , without the trouble of thinking , all that flowed into [her]8405-a sweet , most lovely , and most loving wife heart — joy at belonging to [him]6140-her husband , hope of bliss to come , fear of over - happiness , pride in [all the three of [us]8410-all the three of us]8410-all the three of us , and shame at feeling proud . Then a gay coquettish glance , as [quick youth]8411-quick youth warms the veins , and some humorous thought occurs , a tickle for [the baby]1681-the baby , and a feint of cold - shouldering [me]425-papa . But , jealous as [I]425-papa was , desperately jealous , for [my]425-papa love was more passionate than ever , [I]425-papa can honourably state that [Lily]592-lily 's one and only trial to arouse [my]425-papa jealousy was an ignominious failure , recoiling only on [the person of [the dear designer]8414-the dear designer]8413-the person of the dear designer . However exacting [little Harry]298-harry might be , [I]425-papa never grudged [him]298-harry [his]298-harry double share of attention . In the first place [I]425-papa looked upon [him]298-harry as a piece of [me]425-papa , still holding on ; and , in the next place , [I]425-papa knew that all [he]298-harry laid claim to was only a loan to [him]298-harry , and belonged in fee simple to [[his]298-harry father]1062-his father . At this time [I]425-papa wrote to [[my]425-papa brother]1302-my brother again , announcing the birth of [[our]8417-our boy]8418-our boy , and that [we]8417-our had made [him]298-harry [[his]298-harry namesake]8419-his namesake ; dispensing , too , with all further reserve on the subject of [our]8417-our marriage . This letter was never delivered to [[your]1302-my brother dear father]5757-your dear father . That much [I]425-papa know , for certain ; and at one time [I]425-papa strongly suspected that [[our]8417-our cold - blooded , crafty foe]8421-our cold - blooded , crafty foe contrived to intercept it . But no ; if [he]8421-our cold - blooded , crafty foe had , [he]8421-our cold - blooded , crafty foe would have known better afterwards . After that cowardly onslaught upon [[my]425-papa bride]8251-my bride and [myself]425-papa , [I]425-papa had of course learned all [I]425-papa could of the history of [this Lepardo]8423-this lepardo . [He]298-harry was [the only son of [[the Signor]7946-the signor 's only brother]8426-the signor 's only brother]8424-the only son of the signor 's only brother , but very little was known of [him]298-harry in [the neighbourhood]5329-the neighbourhood , as [he]298-harry came from [Vescovato]193-vescovato on [the east side of [the island]1125-the island]8428-the east side of the island . [He]298-harry was said to have great abilities and very great perseverance , and under the guardianship of [[his]298-harry uncle]8430-his uncle had been intended and partly educated for the French Bar . But [his]298-harry disposition was most headstrong and sullen ; and at an early age [he]298-harry displayed a ferocity unusual even in [a Corsican]585-old cora . Neither had [he]298-harry the great redeeming trait of [the islanders]8431-the islanders , [I]425-papa mean [their]8431-the islanders noble patriotism . One good quality , however , [he]298-harry did possess , and that was fidelity to [his]298-harry word . With one of the contradictions so common in human nature , [he]298-harry would even be false in order to be true : that is , [he]298-harry would be treacherous wherever [he]298-harry was unpledged , if it assisted [him]298-harry towards a purpose to which [he]298-harry was committed . While [he]298-harry was yet [a boy]1691-a boy , [his]298-harry intended career was cut short by an act of horrible violence . [He]298-harry disliked all the lower animals , horses and [mules]8433-mules especially ; and one day [he]298-harry was detected by [a master of [the Paoli College]8435-the paoli college]8434-a master of the paoli college , screaming , and yelling at , and lashing , from a safe distance , [a poor little pony whom [he]298-harry had tied to a fence]8436-a poor little pony whom he had tied to a fence . [The master]1286-the master , [an elderly man]6156-an elderly man , very humane and benevolent , rebuked [him]298-harry in the most cutting manner , and called [him]298-harry [a low coward]8439-a low coward . [The young villain]8440-the young villain ran off , with [his]298-harry eyes flashing fire , procured a stiletto , and stabbed [the poor man]6777-the poor man in the back . Then [he]298-harry leaped on the horse [he]298-harry had been ill - treating , and pricking [him]8436-a poor little pony whom he had tied to a fence with the dagger , rode away furiously in [the direction of [Bastia]194-bastia]8442-the direction of bastia . [The pursuers]8443-the pursuers could not trace [him]298-harry through [the wild mountain district]8444-the wild mountain district , but it was believed that [he]298-harry reached [the town]8007-the town and took refuge in [an English brig]8446-an english brig , which was lying off [the harbour]8447-the harbour , and sailed for [Genoa]65-genoa that evening . [The pony]8448-the pony was found dead , lying by the roadside with [the brute]8326-the brute 's dagger in its throat . No wonder [Lily]592-lily , who told [me]425-papa all this , with true Corsican rage in [her]592-lily eyes , no wonder [[my]425-papa [Lily]592-lily]7976-my lily hated [him]298-harry . Even as [a little girl]8451-a little girl , for [she]592-lily was but ten years old when [he]298-harry disappeared , [she]592-lily always felt a strong repugnance towards [him]298-harry . [He]298-harry was about six years older than [Fiordalisa]593-fiordalisa , and four years younger than [I]425-papa ; so when [he]298-harry shot at [Lily]592-lily , [he]298-harry must have been three - and - twenty . It was reported that after [his]298-harry disappearance [he]298-harry took to a sea - faring life , and made [himself]298-harry very useful , by [his]298-harry knowledge of languages , in [the English merchant service]8452-the english merchant service . Quarrelling with [[his]298-harry employers]8453-his employers , [he]298-harry was said to have resorted to smuggling in [the Levant]195-the levant , if not to downright piracy . [Clara]293-clara , for reasons [I]425-papa can not explain , [I]425-papa wish [you]293-clara to follow [my]425-papa story step by step in its order , noting each landing - place . To do this with advantage , [you]293-clara must have the dates carved upon each of the latter : therefore [I]425-papa beg [you]293-clara to copy them as [you]293-clara pass . [I]425-papa arrived in [Corsica]150-corsica , as [you]293-clara heard , during the month of May , 1829 . On the 12th of August in that same year [I]425-papa first beheld [[my]425-papa [Lily]592-lily]7976-my lily . That day [I]425-papa remember , beside other reasons , because [I]425-papa had wondered , as [I]425-papa rode idly along , whether [[my]425-papa brother]1302-my brother was opening [his]1302-my brother usual Highland campaign , and whether [he]1302-my brother would like to shoot the muffrone . [Lily]592-lily and [I]425-papa were married on the 21st of March , 1830 , when [I]425-papa was twenty - seven years old : and [[our]8456-our little [Henry]298-harry]8457-our little henry first saw the light on the 24th of December following , more than two years before [your]293-clara birth . [[Your]293-clara father]5365-your father having [no children]6069-no children as yet , [I]425-papa looked upon [[my]425-papa Harry]8460-my harry as [heir presumptive to [these estates]8462-these estates]8461-heir presumptive to these estates . Although [your]293-clara birth appeared to divest [him]8460-my harry of the heirship , it has since , through causes then unknown to [me]425-papa , proved otherwise ; and if [he]8460-my harry were living now , [he]8460-my harry would in strict law be entitled to [this property]5453-this property after [my]425-papa death . But if [he]8460-my harry were alive , [he]8460-my harry never should have an inch of it , that is if [I]425-papa could prevent it ; because in strict righteousness all belongs to [you]293-clara . And now [I]425-papa hold [the property]1112-the property in fee simple , under an Act which abolishes fines and recoveries ; for [I]425-papa have suffered so much from remorse , ever since [[your]293-clara dear mother]5347-your dear mother 's death , that even before [you]293-clara saved [my]425-papa life , [dearest child]8466-dearest child , [I]425-papa enrolled a deed in Chancery , which gives [me]425-papa disposing powers ; and as [I]425-papa think [you]293-clara know , [I]425-papa made thereupon a will devising [the lands]8467-the lands to [you]293-clara . This also was one of the documents [you]293-clara caught that vile hypocrite stealing . To return to [the old Signor]8468-the old signor . [He]8468-the old signor was now as happy as the day was long , and desirous , as [an old man]8469-an old man often is , to set on foot noteworthy schemes , which might survive [his]8468-the old signor time . Of this desire [I]425-papa took advantage to inoculate [him]8468-the old signor with some English views . It was rather late to learn another catechism , at threescore years and five ; but a green old age was [his]8468-the old signor , hale and hearty as could be . "[425-papa] Why should all those noble olives shed , and rot upon the ground , all those grapes of divers colours be of no more use than rainbows ? Why should all the dazzling marbles slumber in [the quarry]3607-the quarry , [the porphyry of [Molo]196-molo]3608-the porphyry of molo , [the verde antique of [Orezza]197-orezza]3609-the verde antique of orezza , [the Parian of [Cassaconi]198-cassaconi]3610-the parian of cassaconi , [the serpentine near [Bastia]194-bastia]3611-the serpentine near bastia , and the garnets of [Vizzavona]199-vizzavona — nay even the matchless white alabaster — " Mother of [[our]8470-our Lord]5553-our lord , [I]0-i have got such pretty stuff in [[my]0-i cavern]8472-my cavern on [the gulf of [Porto]200-porto]8473-the gulf of porto . [Some one]1603-some one told [me]0-i it was the very finest alabaster . But then it would require cutting out . "[0-i] The last thought seemed a poser . " Well , [father"—so]8475-father"—so[0-i] [I]0-i called [him]3612-him now—"when [Harry]298-harry has finished [his]298-harry tooth , suppose [we]3613-we go all together in [the yacht]8206-the yacht and see it . "[0-i] And so [we]3613-we did ; and it was worth a voyage all the way from [London]1-london only to look at [it]3614-it . Pillars of snow , pellucid , and fancifully veined , like a glacier shot with sea - weed ; clean - working moreover , and tough , and of even texture , as [I]0-i proved to [my]0-i [Lily]592-lily 's delight . There is now a small piece in the drawer of [my]0-i walnut - wood desk . But [I]0-i took [home]1102-home a square block with [me]0-i , and under [[my]0-i wife]3597-my wife 's most original criticisms , worked it into a rough resemblance of [the baby Henry]3617-the baby henry . Perhaps [I]0-i have a natural turn for sculpture , perhaps it was [a wife]1297-a wife 's flattery ; but at any rate [the young mother]3619-the young mother was so charmed with it , that in one of [her]3619-the young mother pensive moments [she]3619-the young mother even made [me]0-i promise , that if [she]3619-the young mother died soon and alone , [I]0-i would have the little recumbent figure laid upon [her]3619-the young mother breast . Meanwhile [the Signor]7946-the signor was gayer than ever : [he]7946-the signor told [us]3621-us to have no anxiety about anything less than a score of [children]1229-children ; to such effect would [he]7946-the signor work [[his]7946-the signor great olive grounds]3623-his great olive grounds , [quarries]3624-quarries , and [vineyards]3625-vineyards . Some ingenious plan [he]7946-the signor formed , which delighted [him]7946-the signor hugely , but was past [my]0-i comprehension . As fast as [he]7946-the signor quarried [his]7946-the signor alabaster , [he]7946-the signor would plant young vines in the holes , and [every one]1982-every one knew how the vine delighted to run away over [the rocks]8344-the rocks . So at once [he]7946-the signor must set off for [Corte]165-corte , [the central town of [the island]1125-the island]3628-the central town of the island , to procure a large stock of tools well - tempered in [the Restonica]169-the restonica . That [turbulent little river]3630-turbulent little river possesses a magic power . Its water is said to purify steel so highly that it never can rust again . [I]0-i have even heard that [the cutlers of [Northern Italy]201-northern italy]3631-the cutlers of northern italy import it , for the purpose of annealing [their]3631-the cutlers of northern italy choicest productions . For [my]0-i part , little as [I]0-i knew of commerce , [I]0-i strongly recommended that arrangements for shipping and selling the alabaster should be made , before it was quarried . But [the Signor]7946-the signor scorned the idea . Having in prospect all the riches of [Croesus]202-croesus , and in possession enough to make [us]3633-we happy , and having worked , as [we]3633-we thought , uncommonly hard , [we]3633-we all four indulged in a tour through [Sicily]203-sicily and [Italy]63-italy , proposing to visit and criticise [the principal marble quarries]3634-the principal marble quarries . By the time [we]3633-we had done all this and enjoyed it thoroughly — dear [me]0-i , how [[my]0-i wife]3597-my wife was admired in [[the sculptor]3636-the sculptor 's studio!—and]3637-the sculptor 's studio!—and by the time [we]3633-we had fallen to work again , surveyed and geologised all [the estates]879-the estates , taken , or rather listened to , long earfuls of advice , settled all [our]3633-we plans summarily over [the Rogliano]204-rogliano , and reopened them all the next morning , by this time , [I]0-i say , nearly three years of bliss had slipped by , since [my]0-i recovery from the lingering wound ; and it was now the summer of 1833 . [[My]0-i loving wife]3639-my loving wife was twenty years old , and [we]3633-we were looking forward to the birth of [a brother]3640-a brother or sister for [Harry]298-harry . Meanwhile [we]3633-we had heard of [your]3641-your birth , which delighted [us]3633-we all , especially [[my]0-i [Lily]592-lily]7976-my lily . [She]3639-my loving wife used to talk , in the fond way [mothers]3643-mothers discover , to [Harry]298-harry , now gravely perched up on a stool , about [[his]298-harry little sweetheart]3644-his little sweetheart away in [the dark north country]3645-the dark north country . It was in the month of July 1833 that [the Signor]7946-the signor found [he]7946-the signor could no longer postpone [his]7946-the signor visit to [Corte]165-corte . Alone [he]7946-the signor would go , riding [his]7946-the signor favourite jennet , as sure - footed as a mule , and as hardy as [a mustang]3647-a mustang . Behind [him]7946-the signor [he]7946-the signor slung [his]7946-the signor trusty fusil , with both barrels loaded , for [he]7946-the signor had to traverse [a desert and mountainous district haunted by banditti]3648-a desert and mountainous district haunted by banditti . [He]7946-the signor was to travel through by - ways to [Novella]205-novella , and so on to the bridge where [the roads from [Calvi]159-calvi and [Bastia]194-bastia]3649-the roads from calvi and bastia meet , put up in [rude quarters there]3650-rude quarters there for the night , and follow the steep descent to [the town of Corte]3651-the town of corte next day . In vain [we]3652-we begged [him]7946-the signor to take [some escort]3653-some escort , or at least to let [me]0-i go with [him]7946-the signor . No , [I]0-i must stop to guard [the Lily]592-lily and [the little snow - drop]3654-the little snow - drop ; could [he]7946-the signor possibly take [me]0-i at such a time from [home]1102-home , and did [I]0-i think a [Della Croce]593-fiordalisa was afraid of bandits ? It was a Monday morning when [he]7946-the signor left [the tower]7964-the tower , and [he]7946-the signor would be back on Saturday in good time for supper . [He]7946-the signor kissed and blessed [[his]7946-the signor Lily]3657-his lily , and the little snow - drop as [he]7946-the signor called [young Harry]298-harry , who cried at [his]7946-the signor departure ; and then [he]7946-the signor gave [me]0-i too an earnest trembling blessing . By this time [he]7946-the signor and [I]0-i had come to love [each other]734-each other , as [a father]3233-a father and [a son]3660-a son . [I]0-i went with [him]7946-the signor quite to [the borders of [the commune]8253-the commune]3661-the borders of the commune ; and there , in [a mountain defile]3663-a mountain defile , [I]0-i lit for [him]7946-the signor [his]7946-the signor cigar . With some dark foreboding , [I]0-i waited till [I]0-i saw [him]7946-the signor reach and pass the gap at [the summit of the rise]3664-the summit of the rise . There [he]7946-the signor turned in the saddle to wave [his]7946-the signor last adieu , and [his]7946-the signor beard , like a white cloud , floated on the morning sky . On the Saturday night , an excellent supper was ready : [the Signor]7946-the signor 's own particular plate was at the head of the table , and by it gleamed , in a portly bottle , [his]7946-the signor favourite Rogliano . [Little Harry]298-harry , who could say anything [he]298-harry was told , and knew right well what was good , or at least what tasted good — [that beloved child]3666-that beloved child was allowed to stop up , that [grandpapa]3667-grandpapa might kiss [him]7946-the signor ; this was a sovereign specific , believed in the nursery creed , to ensure sweet sleep for both . That silver beard never kissed the chubby cheek again . All night [we]3668-we waited and wondered : [Harry]298-harry was sent to bed roaring ; [no grandpapa]3669-no grandpapa appeared . The olives rustled at midnight , and out [I]0-i ran ; the doors creaked afterwards , and [I]0-i opened them , all in vain ; the sound of hoofs came up [the valley]1708-the valley before the break of day ; but no step or voice of [man]5770-man , no bark of [his]7946-the signor favourite mountain hound , no neigh of the jennet to [[her]3672-her sleepy brother]3673-her sleepy brother - horses . All Sunday [we]3668-we remained in terrible uneasiness , trying to cheer [each other]734-each other with a hundred assurances that [the dear old man]3675-the dear old man must have turned aside to see [an ancient friend]3676-an ancient friend living now at [Prato]207-prato . When Monday morning came , but brought no tidings of [him]3675-the dear old man , [I]0-i set off , amid a shower of tears , to seek [the beloved father]3677-the beloved father . [The old fusileer]8081-the old fusileer was left on guard , and [I]0-i took [two young and active men]3679-two young and active men , well acquainted with [the mountain passes]3680-the mountain passes . All well mounted , and well armed , [we]3668-we purposed to ride hard , and search [the track quite up to [the town of Corte]3651-the town of corte]3681-the track quite up to the town of corte . There , if indeed [he]3675-the dear old man had ever arrived , [we]3668-we should be sure to hear of [him]3675-the dear old man . But it proved unnecessary to go so far from [home]1102-home . Along [that dreary mountain road]3684-that dreary mountain road , often no more than [a shepherd]3685-a shepherd 's walk difficult to descry , [we]3668-we found no token of [any traveller]3686-any traveller either living or dead , until [we]3668-we came to [the Ponte Leccia]208-the ponte leccia , where [the main roads]3687-the main roads meet . Here [our]3668-we fears were doubled , and the last hope nearly quenched ; for on asking at [[the shepherd]3532-the shepherd 's hut]3689-the shepherd 's hut , where [Signor Dezio]589-signor dezio meant to put up , [we]3668-we found that [he]3675-the dear old man had slept [there]1114-there on the Friday night , as [he]3675-the dear old man was returning from [the town]8007-the town . [[The shepherd]3532-the shepherd 's wife , who had known [him]3675-the dear old man for years]3693-the shepherd 's wife , who had known him for years , assured [us]3668-we that [he]3675-the dear old man was in wonderful spirits and health , insisted upon [her]3693-the shepherd 's wife , who had known him for years supping with [them]3694-them — which is contrary to Corsican usage — and boasted much of the great things [he]3675-the dear old man would do , and still more of [[his]3675-the dear old man beautiful grandson]3695-his beautiful grandson . [His]3675-the dear old man goatskin wallet was full of sample tools , which were to astonish [[his]3675-the dear old man English son]3696-his english son , and [he]3675-the dear old man had a toy gun no bigger than the tail of a dog , with which [he]3675-the dear old man intended to teach [the baby]1681-the baby to shoot . Telling [us]3668-we all these little things , and showing [us]3668-we [her]3693-the shepherd 's wife , who had known him for years presents , [the poor woman]3698-the poor woman cried at the thought of what must have happened to [him]3675-the dear old man . Right early on Saturday morning [he]3675-the dear old man set off , as impatient as [a child]782-a child , to see [[his]3675-the dear old man beloved ones]3700-his beloved ones again , and exhibit all [his]3675-the dear old man treasures . For love of [the Della Croce]589-signor dezio [[her]3693-the shepherd 's wife , who had known him for years husband]6140-her husband had groomed the mare thoroughly , and [she]3693-the shepherd 's wife , who had known him for years neighed merrily down [the hill]1624-the hill at thought of [[her]3693-the shepherd 's wife , who had known him for years stable friends]3703-her stable friends . Moreover , [[the shepherd]3532-the shepherd 's wife]3705-the shepherd 's wife told [us]3668-we that there had been in [those parts]3706-those parts [no bandit worth the name]3707-no bandit worth the name , since the death of [the great Teodoro , king of [the mountains]3554-the mountains , whose baby still received tribute]3708-the great teodoro , king of the mountains , whose baby still received tribute . After resting [our]3668-we horses awhile , with heavy hearts [we]3668-we began to retrace [our]3668-we steps through [that awful wilderness]3710-that awful wilderness . Instead of keeping together , as [we]3668-we had done in the morning , [we]3668-we now rode in parallel lines , right and left of [the desert track]3711-the desert track , wherever the ground permitted it . All [this district]3712-this district is very barren and rugged , and the way winds up and down , often along the brink of crags , or through [narrow mountain gorges]3713-narrow mountain gorges . The desolation and loneliness grew more oppressive , as the shadows lengthened . [We]3668-we had thoroughly searched two - thirds of the distance homeward , and had crossed [some granite heights]3714-some granite heights whence [the sea]895-the sea was visible ; the sun was low over [Cape Bevellata]209-cape bevellata , and the vapours from [the marsh]3716-the marsh were crouching at [the mountain]5676-the mountain 's foot . Here as [I]0-i rode to the left of [[my]0-i two companions]3718-my two companions , [I]0-i heard the faint bay of a dog far down [a deep ravine]3719-a deep ravine , that trended leftward from [our]3668-we course . Putting [my]0-i jaded animal to [his]3720-his utmost speed , [I]0-i made for the hollow which echoed the dismal sound — a feeble bark prolonged into a painful howl . Turning the corner sharply [I]0-i scared two monstrous vultures , who were hovering over and craning at a dog . The dog so gaunt and starved , that at every bark the ribs seemed bursting the skin , still was fighting past despair with [[his]3720-his loathsome enemies]3721-his loathsome enemies . [He]3720-his stood across the breast of [the noble Signor [Dezio]589-signor dezio]3722-the noble signor dezio . There lay [that gallant cavalier]3723-that gallant cavalier , stark and rigid , with [his]3723-that gallant cavalier eyes wide open , and [his]3723-that gallant cavalier white beard tipped with crimson . There [he]3723-that gallant cavalier lay upon [his]3723-that gallant cavalier back , [his]3723-that gallant cavalier kingly head against a rock , [his]3723-that gallant cavalier left hand on [his]3723-that gallant cavalier clotted breast and glued thereto with blood ; [his]3723-that gallant cavalier right hand hung beside [his]3723-that gallant cavalier chin whence it had slipped in death , and in it still securely grasped was a trinket newly made , containing a little sheaf of [the baby]1681-the baby 's flossy hair tied with a black wisp of [the mother]5825-the mother 's . [The poor old man]3726-the poor old man had dragged [himself]3726-the poor old man thither to die , and died with that keepsake on [his]3726-the poor old man lips . The fatal shot had been fired from above , and passed completely through [his]3726-the poor old man body . It pierced [his]3726-the poor old man lungs , and [I]0-i believe that [he]3726-the poor old man felt little pain , but gasped [his]3726-the poor old man simple life away . Near [him]3726-the poor old man was [his]3726-the poor old man wallet , with the tools still in it ; [I]0-i think [he]3726-the poor old man had been playing with the toy gun when [he]3726-the poor old man received the wound ; at any rate it lay separate from the rest , and at [the old man]7306-the old man 's side . Examining by the waning light , with icy awe upon [me]0-i , the scene of this damned atrocity , [I]0-i found that [the hoary traveller]3728-the hoary traveller must have dismounted here , to eat [his]3728-the hoary traveller frugal dinner . A horn cup and a crust of bread were on a rocky shelf , and a little spring welled down the dingle , with the mark of the dog 's feet here and there . [The craven foe]3729-the craven foe had been sneaking along behind , and took advantage of [the old man]7306-the old man 's position , as [he]3729-the craven foe sat upon a stone to make certain of [him]3729-the craven foe from the granite loophole . [We]3731-we found the very place where [the murderer]831-the murderer must have crouched , but [the cliff - side]3733-the cliff - side kept no footprint . [The victim]8366-the victim 's gun was gone , and so was the Spanish mare : no other robbery seemed to have been committed . [This glen]3735-this glen led to [a shorter but more difficult track]3736-a shorter but more difficult track towards [home]1102-home , which [the Signor]7946-the signor , in [his]7946-the signor impatience , must have resolved to try . Reverently [we]3731-we laid [him]7306-the old man on the freshest horse ; while [I]0-i with the faithful mountain dog on [my]0-i saddle — for [he]7306-the old man was too exhausted to walk — rode on to break the melancholy news , and send assistance back . To break bad news — the phrase is a failure , the attempt it implies a much worse one . [Lily]592-lily knew all in a moment , and in [her]592-lily delicate state [she]592-lily received so appalling a shock , that for a week [she]592-lily lay on the very threshold of death . At the end of that time , and three days after [the old man]7306-the old man 's funeral — at which for [[his]7306-the old man daughter]2465-his daughter 's sake [I]0-i allowed no wailings or voceros — [a lively little girl]3741-a lively little girl was born , who seemed to be none the worse for [[her]3741-a lively little girl mother]6340-her mother 's bitter sufferings . [Her]592-lily innocent caresses , or some baby doings optimised by [[her]3741-a lively little girl mother]6340-her mother — though even as [a new - born babe]3744-a new - born babe [she]592-lily seemed [a most loving creature]3745-a most loving creature — all those soft endearing ways , which [I]0-i could not understand , did more to bring [my]0-i [Lily]592-lily 's spirit back than even [my]0-i fond attentions . But as yet , though able to walk again , and nurse [[her]6340-her mother child]1505-her child , whom [she]6340-her mother would not commit to another , [[my]0-i wife]3597-my wife remained in a fearfully sensitive and tremulous condition . The creak of a door , the sound of a foot , the rustle of the wind — and [she]3597-my wife , so brave and proud of yore , started like a cicale , and shook like a forest shadow . In everything [she]3597-my wife feared the ambush of [that sleuth cold - blooded reptile , on whom alone , truly or not God]3748-that sleuth cold - blooded reptile , on whom alone , truly or not god knows , [she]3597-my wife charged the blood of [[her]3597-my wife venerable father]3749-her venerable father . But still [she]3597-my wife had the comfort of [a husband]6653-a husband 's love , [a husband]6653-a husband even fonder than when the flowers fell on [his]6653-a husband path ; and still [she]3597-my wife had the joy of watching , with [a mother]1544-a mother 's tender insight , the budding promise of [two sweet infants]3753-two sweet infants . Infants [I]0-i call [them]3753-two sweet infants , why [Master Harry]298-harry was now [a thorough chatterbox]3754-a thorough chatterbox ! With all this love around [her]3597-my wife , [she]3597-my wife by far the loveliest , the pride and glory of all , was sure to find [her]3597-my wife comfort soon upon the breast of time , even as small [Lily]592-lily found it in [her]592-lily own sweet bosom . Deeply and long [we]3755-we mourned [that ancient Signor]3756-that ancient signor , [chivalrous and true gentleman]3757-chivalrous and true gentleman , [counsellor of all things]3758-counsellor of all things . Every day [we]3755-we missed [him]3756-that ancient signor ; but could talk of it more as time flowed on . [Rogliano]204-rogliano had no sparkle , [Luri]622-luri not the tint of old : never could [I]0-i pour out either from [his]3756-that ancient signor favourite flagon , without a thought of [him]3756-that ancient signor who taught [us]3755-we the proper way to do it ; who ought to be teaching [us]3755-we still , but was lying foully murdered in [[his]3756-that ancient signor lonely grave at [St. Katharine]188-st. katharine 's on [the Cliff]8283-the cliff]3759-his lonely grave at st. katharine 's on the cliff . [We]3755-we had done [our]3755-we utmost to avenge [him]3756-that ancient signor : soon as [I]0-i could leave [[my]0-i wife]3597-my wife , [I]0-i had scoured all [the neighbourhood]5329-the neighbourhood . [The Sbirri]595-the sbirri too had done [their]595-the sbirri best , but discovered nothing . [Brave fellows]3763-brave fellows [they]595-the sbirri are , when it comes to fighting , but [very poor detectives]3764-very poor detectives . Only two things [we]3755-we heard that seemed at all significant . One of these was that [a Spanish jennet]3765-a spanish jennet , like [the Signor]7946-the signor 's favourite " [Marana]623-marana , "[7946-the signor] but dreadfully jaded and nearly starved , had been sold on the Friday after the murder , being the very day of the funeral , at [the town of [Porto Vecchio]210-porto vecchio]3767-the town of porto vecchio on [the south - eastern coast]3768-the south - eastern coast . [I]0-i sent [[my]0-i coxswain]3769-my coxswain [Petro]624-petro , [an intelligent and trusty Corsican]3770-an intelligent and trusty corsican , to follow up this clue ; for [I]0-i durst not leave [[my]0-i wife]3597-my wife as yet . [Petro]624-petro discovered [the man who had bought the mare]3772-the man who had bought the mare , and re - purchased [her]3597-my wife from [him]3772-the man who had bought the mare , as [I]0-i had directed : but the description of [the first seller]3773-the first seller did not tally with [my]0-i recollections of [Lepardo]570-lepardo . However , it proved to be the true [Marana]623-marana ; and glad [she]623-marana was to get [home]1102-home once more . The other report , that seemed to bear upon the bloody mystery , was that [a swift felucca , flush - built and banked for triple sweeps]3775-a swift felucca , flush - built and banked for triple sweeps , had been seen lying close in shore near [point Girolata]189-girolata , during the early part of the week in which [the Signor]7946-the signor left [home]1102-home . And it was even said that [two Maltese sailors , belonging to [this felucca]3779-this felucca]3778-two maltese sailors , belonging to this felucca , had encamped on [shore]3780-shore in [a lonely place near [Otta]212-otta]3781-a lonely place near otta , and were likely to be found [there]1114-there still . [Lily]592-lily being stronger now , [I]0-i determined to follow this last clue [myself]0-i ; and so [I]0-i put [the little yacht]3783-the little yacht into commission again , and manned [her]3783-the little yacht with [Calvi men]3784-calvi men , for all [[my]0-i English crew]3785-my english crew had been dismissed long ago . Leaving [[my]0-i wife]3597-my wife and [children]1229-children under the care of [the old fusileer]8081-the old fusileer , away [I]0-i sailed from [St. Katharine]188-st. katharine 's , intending to return in three days ' time . [All this coast]3789-all this coast [I]0-i now knew thoroughly , and [Otta]212-otta was not far beyond [the poor Signor 's cave of [alabaster]214-alabaster]3790-the poor signor 's cave of alabaster . [It]3789-all this coast is [a wild and desert region]3791-a wild and desert region , far away from [any frequented road]3792-any frequented road , and little visited except by [outlaws]3793-outlaws . [We]3794-we found no trace of [any tent , no sign of any landing]3795-any tent , no sign of any landing , and [an aged fisherman]3796-an aged fisherman , whom [we]3794-we met , declared that [no felucca or vessel of any sort]3797-no felucca or vessel of any sort had lately been near [the bay]8290-the bay . [I]0-i began to fear that , for some dark purpose , [I]0-i had been beguiled from [home]1102-home , and despatched upon [a fool]7085-a fool 's errand . [The dreary coast]3801-the dreary coast was still the home of solitude , [the alabaster cave untouched since [our]3794-we pic - nic survey]3802-the alabaster cave untouched since our pic - nic survey ; the marks of which were undisturbed except by wind and weather . So [I]0-i crowded sail , and hurried back to [St. Katharine]188-st. katharine 's , with a strange weight on [my]0-i heart . To add to [my]0-i vexation , a strong north wind set in , and smartly as [[our]3794-we cutter]3803-our cutter sailed , [we]3794-we were forced to run off [the land]1188-the land . When at last [we]3794-we made [the cove]8296-the cove , it was unsafe for [the yacht]8206-the yacht to anchor , and so [I]0-i was compelled to send [her]8206-the yacht on to [Calvi]159-calvi . It was nearly midnight on the 2d of October , when [Petro]624-petro and [myself]0-i plodded up [the wooded hill on which [the old tower]3808-the old tower stands]3807-the wooded hill on which the old tower stands . Weary and dispirited , though glowing every now and then with the thought of all [[my]0-i darlings]3809-my darlings , in vain [I]0-i called [myself]0-i [a fool]7085-a fool for fearing where no fear was . When [we]3794-we reached [the brow of [the hill]1624-the hill]3811-the brow of the hill , [my]0-i vague alarm was doubled . The rude oil - lamps that marked the entrance , why were they unlighted ? [I]0-i had especially ordered that they should be kindled every night , and [Lily]592-lily had promised to see to it [herself]592-lily . No challenge from [the watchman]3813-the watchman , no click of the musket hammer , even the vinea was not in its place . In vain [we]3794-we knocked and knocked at the old chesnut doors ; [no one]730-no one answered , [no one]730-no one came to open . None of the loopholes showed a light ; [the house]764-the house was dark and silent as the ivy . Wild with terror [I]0-i ran to the little side - door , whence first [[my]0-i [Lily]592-lily]7976-my lily met [me]0-i . This too was locked , or fastened somehow ; and only the echo of [my]0-i knock was heard . [Petro]624-petro and [I]0-i caught up a great bough of ilex , which [myself]0-i had lopped last week , rushed at the door with the butt , and broke it in with one blow . Shrieking for [Lily]592-lily , [Lily]592-lily , [I]0-i flew from [room]918-room to room , tumbling over the furniture , blundering at the doorways . No voice of [wife]5819-wife , no cry of [child]5440-child , no answer of domestic ; all as silent as if ten fathoms under water . Having dashed through [every room]7036-every room , [I]0-i turned to rush off to [the hamlet]3822-the hamlet , when [my]0-i foot struck something — something soft and yielding ; was it a sack or bolster ? [I]0-i stooped to feel it ; it was [Lily]592-lily , laid out , stiff and cold Dead , [[my]0-i [Lily]592-lily]7976-my lily dead ! Oh , [God]303-god can never mean it ; would [He]303-god let [me]0-i love [her]592-lily so ? For all intents of actual life , for all that [we]3824-we are made for , for [all the soul 's loan of [this world]3826-this world]3825-all the soul 's loan of this world , [I]0-i died that very moment ; and yet a mad life burned within [me]0-i , the flare of hope that will not die . How [I]0-i forced [her]592-lily clenched hands open , bowed [her]592-lily rigid arms around [me]0-i , threw [myself]0-i upon [her]592-lily , breathed between [her]592-lily lips and listened , tore [her]592-lily simple dress asunder and laid [my]0-i cheek upon [her]592-lily heart ; feeling not a single throb , flooded [her]592-lily cold breast with tears , and lay insensible awhile . Then , as if awaking , felt that [she]592-lily was with [me]0-i , but somehow not as usual ; called [her]592-lily all [our]3824-we names of love , and believed [we]3824-we were in heaven . But there stood [Petro]624-petro with a light , sobbing , and how [his]624-petro beard shook!—What right had [he]624-petro in [heaven]1555-heaven ? Would [they]3828-they let [him]624-petro in without shaving ? [I]0-i rose to order [him]624-petro out ; when [he]624-petro restored [my]0-i wits awhile by pointing with [his]624-petro finger . " Look , look , [Signor]589-signor dezio ! [She]592-lily is not dead , [I]624-petro saw [her]592-lily eyelid tremble . "[624-petro] Wide [she]592-lily opened those glorious eyes , looked at [me]0-i with no love in them , shuddered , and closed them again . Mad with rapture , [I]0-i caught [her]592-lily up , sent Petro headlong lamp and all , and kissed [her]592-lily enough to kill [her]592-lily . [She]592-lily was not dead , [[my]0-i Lily]7976-my lily , [[my]0-i pet of eternal ages]3830-my pet of eternal ages . There [she]592-lily fell trembling , fluttering , nestling in [my]0-i arms , [her]592-lily pale cheek on [my]0-i breast , [her]592-lily white hand on [my]0-i shoulder ; then frightened at [her]592-lily nest shrunk back , and gazed with unutterable reproach , where love like the fallen lamp was flickering : then clung to [me]0-i once more , as if [she]592-lily ought to hate , but could not yet help loving . [She]592-lily died the next morning . [Clara]293-clara , [I]0-i ca n't tell [you]293-clara any more now . Before [my]0-i own and only love departed , [she]592-lily knew , thank [God]303-god , [she]592-lily knew as well as [I]0-i did , that [I]0-i had never wronged [her]592-lily pure and true affection . But it was long before [I]0-i learned what had so distressed [her]592-lily . Though [she]592-lily appeared quite sensible , and looked at [me]0-i , every now and then , with the same reproachful harrowing gaze , it seemed to [me]0-i ages , it must have been hours , before [she]592-lily could frame [her]592-lily thoughts in words . In an agony of suspense for [her]592-lily , for [[our]3831-our children]3832-our children , for [our]3831-our love , [I]0-i could hardly repress [my]0-i impatience even at [her]592-lily debility . Many a time [she]592-lily opened [her]592-lily trembling lips , but the words died on them . At last [I]0-i caught [her]592-lily meaning from a few broken sentences . " How could [he]8477-he do it ? How could [he]8477-he so betray [her]592-lily ? And [his]8477-he own Lily that loved [him]8477-he so — no , [she]592-lily must not be [Lily]592-lily any more , [she]592-lily was only [Fiordalisa Della Croce]593-fiordalisa . How could [he]8477-he come and pretend to love [her]592-lily , and pretend to marry [her]592-lily , when all the while [he]8477-he had [a young wife at [home]1102-home in [England]9-england]8478-a young wife at home in england ? Never would [she]592-lily have believed it but for the proofs , the proofs [that hateful man]8480-that hateful man had shown [her]592-lily . How could [he]8477-he shame [his]8477-he own love so , and [[his]8477-he children]2467-his children , and [the aged father]8482-the aged father — there was no hope for [her]3833-her but to die — to die and never see [him]8477-he more ; and then perhaps [he]8477-he would be sorry , for [he]8477-he must care about [her]3833-her a little . "[0-i] Then [she]3833-her burst into such a torrent of tears , and pressed both hands on [her]3833-her bounding heart , and grew white with terror . Then as the palpitation passed , [she]3833-her looked at [me]0-i and knew [me]0-i , and crept close to [me]0-i , forgetting all the evil,—and seemed to sleep awhile . Of course [I]0-i saw what it was ; dazed as [I]0-i was and wild at [her]3833-her sorrow and danger , [I]0-i slowly perceived what it was . [The serpent - like foe]3834-the serpent - like foe had been there , and had hissed in [her]3833-her ear what [he]3834-the serpent - like foe thought to be true — that [I]0-i had done [her]3833-her a dastard 's wrong ; had won [her]3833-her passionate maiden love , and defiled [her]3833-her by a sham marriage , while [[my]0-i lawful wife]3835-my lawful wife was living . When once [I]0-i knew [my]0-i supposed offence , it did not take long to explain [the murderer]831-the murderer 's error , an error which had sprung from [my]0-i own deceit . But [[my]0-i children]6217-my children , where are [[my]0-i children]6217-my children , [Lily]592-lily ? In [her]3833-her ecstatic joy , [she]3833-her could not think for the moment even of [[her]3833-her children]3839-her children ; but pressed [me]0-i to [her]3833-her tumultuous heart , as if [I]0-i were all [she]3833-her wanted . Then [she]3833-her began to revile [herself]3833-her , for daring to believe any ill of [[her]3833-her noble husband]3840-her noble husband . " And even if it had been true , which [you]0-i know it never could be , [dear,—I]0-i must have forgiven [you]0-i , [sweetest darling]8483-sweetest darling , because [you]0-i could n't have helped it , [you]0-i did love [me]3833-her so , did n't [you]0-i ? "[3833-her] This sweet womanly logic , [you]0-i , [Clara]293-clara , may comprehend — But where are [the children]1695-the children , [[my]0-i [Lily]592-lily]7976-my lily ? " Oh , in bed [I]592-lily suppose , [dear]5871-dear : let [me]592-lily get up , [we]8485-we must go and kiss [the darlings]8486-the darlings . When [I]592-lily first came in , [I]592-lily could not bear to go near [them]1695-the children , [poor pets]8487-poor pets ; but now — Oh [my]592-lily heart , holy [Madonna]591-madonna , [my]592-lily heart ! "[592-lily] [She]592-lily leaped up as if [she]592-lily were shot , and a choking sound rose in [her]592-lily throat .. [Her]592-lily fresh youth fought hard in the clutches of death . " Oh save [me]592-lily , [[my]592-lily own husband]8488-my own husband , save [me]592-lily . Hold [me]592-lily tighter ; [I]592-lily can not die yet . So young and so happy with [you]8488-my own husband . It is gone ; but the next pang is death . Hold [me]592-lily so till it comes again . God bless [you]8488-my own husband , [my]592-lily own for ever . [You]8488-my own husband will find [me]592-lily in [heaven]1555-heaven , wo n't [you]8488-my own husband ? [You]8488-my own husband can never forget [your]8488-my own husband own Lily . "[592-lily] [Her]592-lily large eyes rested on [mine]3843-mine , as they did when [she]592-lily first owned [her]592-lily love ; and [her]592-lily soul seemed trying to spring into the breast of [mine]3843-mine . Closer to [me]0-i [she]592-lily clung , but with less and less of strength . [Her]592-lily smooth , clear cheek was on [mine]3843-mine , [her]592-lily exhausted heart on [my]0-i wild one . [I]0-i felt its last throb , as the death - pang came , and [she]592-lily tried to kiss [me]0-i to show that it was not violent . Frantic , [I]0-i opened [my]0-i lips , and received the last breath of [hers]592-lily . The crush of its anguish [her]592-lily heart might have borne , but not the rebound of its joy . [Her]592-lily body , the fairest the sun ever saw , was laid beside [[her]592-lily father]898-her father 's in [the little churchyard at [St. Katharine]188-st. katharine 's]3845-the little churchyard at st. katharine 's , with the toy baby on [her]592-lily breast ; [her]592-lily soul , the most loving and playful that ever [the angels]3846-the angels visited , is still in attendance upon [me]0-i , and mourns until [mine]0-i rejoins it . [You]3847-you have heard [my]0-i greatest but not [my]0-i only distress . For more than three months , [my]0-i reason forsook [me]0-i utterly . [I]0-i recognised [no one]730-no one , not even [myself]0-i , but sought high and low for [[my]0-i Lily]7976-my lily . At night [I]0-i used to wander forth and search among the olive - trees , where [we]3850-we so often roved : sometimes the form [I]0-i knew so well would seem to flit before [me]0-i , tempting [me]0-i on from bole to bole , and stretching vain hands towards [me]0-i . Then as [I]0-i seemed to have overtaken and brought to bay [her]7976-my lily coyness , with a faint shriek [she]7976-my lily would vanish into hazy air . Probably [I]0-i owed these visions to capricious memory , gleaming upon old hexameters of the Eton clink . True from false [I]0-i knew not , [neither]3851-neither cared to know : everything [I]0-i did seemed to be done in sleep , with all the world around [me]0-i gone to sleep as well . One vague recollection [I]0-i retain of going somewhere , to do something that made [me]0-i creep with cold . This must have been the funeral of [my]0-i lost one ; when [the Corsicans]583-the corsicans , as [I]0-i am told , fled from [my]0-i ghastly stare , and would only stand behind [me]0-i . [They]583-the corsicans are [a superstitious race]3852-a superstitious race , and [they]583-the corsicans feared the " evil eye . "[583-the corsicans] All the time [I]0-i was in this state , faithful [Petro]624-petro waited on [me]0-i , and watched [me]0-i like [a father]3233-a father . [He]624-petro sent for [[his]624-petro wife]789-his wife , [old Marcantonia]625-marcantonia , who was famed for [her]789-his wife knowledge of herbs and [her]789-his wife power over [the witches]3855-the witches , who now beyond all doubt had gotten [me]0-i in possession . [Decoctions]626-decoctions manifold [she]789-his wife gave [me]0-i at the turn of the moon , and hung [me]0-i all over with amulets , till [I]0-i rang like a peal of cracked bells . In spite of all these sovereign charms , [Lepardo]570-lepardo might at any time have murdered [me]0-i , if [he]624-petro had thought [me]0-i happy enough to deserve it . Perhaps [he]624-petro was in [some other land]3856-some other land , making sure of [[my]0-i children]6217-my children 's lives . [Poor helpless darlings]3858-poor helpless darlings , all that was left [me]0-i of [[my]0-i Lily]7976-my lily , as yet [I]0-i did not know that even [they]6217-my children were taken . [Petro]624-petro told [me]0-i afterwards that [I]0-i had asked for [them]6217-my children once or twice , in a vacant wondering manner , but had been quite content with some illusory answer . It was [[my]0-i Lily]7976-my lily , and [no one else]5442-no one else , who brought [me]0-i back to conscious life . What [I]0-i am about to tell may seem to [you]3862-you a feeble brain 's chimera ; and so it would appear to [me]0-i , if related by another . But though [my]0-i body was exhausted by unsleeping sorrow , under whose strain the mental chords had yielded , yet [I]0-i assure [you]3862-you that what befell [me]0-i did not flow from but swept aside both these enervations . It is the [Corsican]585-old cora 's belief , that [those whom [he]624-petro has deeply mourned , and desolately missed]3863-those whom he has deeply mourned , and desolately missed , are allowed to hover near [him]624-petro in the silent night . Then sometimes , when [he]624-petro is sleeping , [they]3864-they will touch [his]624-petro lids and say , " Weep no more , [beloved one]8490-beloved one : in all , except [thy]3863-those whom he has deeply mourned , and desolately missed sorrow , [we]8491-we are blessed as [thou]3863-those whom he has deeply mourned , and desolately missed couldst wish . "[3864-they] Or sometimes , if the parting be of still more tender sort , ( as between [two lovers]3865-two lovers , or [a newly wedded couple]3866-a newly wedded couple ) in the depth of darkness when [the lone survivor]3867-the lone survivor can not sleep for trouble , appears [the lost one at the chamber door]3868-the lost one at the chamber door , holds it open , and calls softly ; " Dearest , come ; for [I]3868-the lost one at the chamber door as well am lonely . "[3868-the lost one at the chamber door] Having thrice implored , it waves its cerements like an angel 's wing , and awaits the answer . Answer not , if [you]3862-you wish to live ; however the sweet voice thrills [your]3862-you heart , however that heart is breaking . But if [you]3862-you truly wish to die , and hope is quenched in memory ; make answer to the well - known voice . Within three days [you]3862-you will be dead , and flit beside the invoking shadow . Perhaps [old Marcantonia]625-marcantonia had warned [me]0-i of this appeal , and begged [me]0-i to keep silence , which for [[my]0-i children]6217-my children 's sake [I]0-i was bound to do . All [I]0-i know is that one night towards the end of January , [I]0-i lay awake as usual , thinking — if a mind distempered thus can think — of [my]0-i own sweet [Lily]592-lily . All the evening [I]0-i had sought [her]592-lily among the olive - trees , and at [St. Katharine 's Church]215-st. katharine 's church , and even on [the sad sea - shore]3870-the sad sea - shore by the moaning of the waves . Now the winter moon was high , and through the embrasured window , the far churchyard that held [[my]0-i wife]3597-my wife , and [the silver sea beyond]3872-the silver sea beyond [it]3873-it , glimmered like the curtain of [another world]7610-another world . Sitting up in the widowed bed , with one hand on [my]0-i aching forehead — for now [I]0-i breathed perpetual headache — [I]0-i called in question [that old church of one gay wedding and two dark funerals]3875-that old church of one gay wedding and two dark funerals . Was there [any such church]3876-any such church at all ; was it not a dream of moonlight and the phantom love ? Even as [I]0-i sat gazing now , so on many a moonlight night sat [my]0-i [Lily]592-lily gazing with [me]0-i , whispering of [[her]592-lily father]898-her father 's grave , and looking for it in the shrouded distance . [Her]592-lily little hand used to quiver in [mine]0-i , as [she]592-lily declared [she]592-lily had found it ; and [her]592-lily dark eyes had so wondrous a gift of sight , that [I]0-i never would dare to deny , though [I]0-i could not quite believe it . Had [she]592-lily not in the happy days , when [we]3878-we roamed on [the beach]6975-the beach together , waiting for [the yacht]8206-the yacht and pretending to seek shells , had [she]592-lily not then told [me]0-i the stripes and colours of [the sailors]8122-the sailors ' caps , and even the names of [the men on deck]3882-the men on deck , when [I]0-i could hardly see [their]3882-the men on deck figures ? Ah , could [she]592-lily tell [my]0-i own name now , could [she]592-lily descry [me]0-i from that shore which mocks the range of telescope , and the highest lens of thought ; was [she]592-lily permitted one glimpse of [him]3883-him from whom in life [she]592-lily could hardly bear to withdraw those gentle eyes ? Answer [me]0-i , [my]0-i own , in life and death [my]0-i own one ; tell [me]0-i that [you]3884-you watch and love [me]0-i , though it be but now and then , and not enough to break the by - laws of [the disembodied world]3885-the disembodied world . Calmly as [I]0-i now repeat it , but in a low melodious tone , sweeter than [any mortal]3886-any mortal 's voice , a tone that dwelt [I]0-i knew not where , like the sighing of the night - wind , came this answer to [me]0-i : " True love , for [[our]8492-our children]3832-our children 's sake , and [[mine]0-i who watch and love [you]3884-you still , quit this grief , the spirit 's grave]8494-mine who watch and love you still , quit this grief , the spirit 's grave . All [your]3884-you sorrow still is [mine]0-i , and would [you]3884-you vex [[your]3884-you darling]8495-your darling , when [you]3884-you can not comfort [her]8495-your darling ? Though [you]3884-you see [me]592-lily now no more , [I]592-lily am with [you]3884-you more than ever ; [I]592-lily am [your]3884-you image and [your]3884-you shadow . At every sigh of [yours]3884-you , [I]592-lily shiver ; [your]3884-you smiles are all [my]592-lily sunshine . Let [me]592-lily feel some sunshine , sweetest ; [you]3884-you know how [I]592-lily used to love it , and as yet [you]3884-you have sent [me]592-lily none . [I]592-lily shall look for some to - morrow . Lo [I]592-lily , for ever [yours]3884-you , am smiling on [you]3884-you now . "[592-lily] And a golden light , richer than any sunbeam , rippled through [the room]823-the room . [I]0-i knew the soft gleam like the sunset on a harvest - field . It was [my]0-i [Lily]592-lily 's smile . A glow of warmth was shed on [me]0-i , and [I]0-i fell at once into a deep and dreamless sleep . [You]3888-you , [[my]0-i child]1549-my child , who have never known such loss — pray God [you]3888-you never may — very likely [you]3888-you regard all this incident as a dream . Be it so : if it were a dream , [[Lily]592-lily 's angel]3890-lily 's angel brought it . The next day [I]0-i was [a different man]3891-a different man . All [my]0-i energy had returned , and all [my]0-i reasoning power ; but not , thank [God]303-god , the rigour of [my]0-i mind , the petty contempt of [[my]0-i fellow - men]3892-my fellow - men . Nothing is more hard to strip than that coat of flinty closeness formed upon [Deucalion]627-deucalion 's offcast in the petrifying well of self . Though [I]0-i have done [my]0-i utmost , and prayed of late for help in doing it , never have [I]0-i quite scaled off this accursed deposit . This it was that so estranged [your]3888-you warm nature , [Clara]293-clara ; a nature essentially like [[your]3888-you father]5365-your father 's , but never allowed free scope . [You]3888-you could not tell the reason , [children]1229-children never can ; but somehow it made [you]3888-you shiver to be in contact with [me]0-i . [Petro]624-petro and [Marcantonia]625-marcantonia would have been astonished at [my]0-i sudden change , but [they]3895-they had lately dosed [me]0-i with some narcotic herb , procured , by a special expedition , from [the Monte Rotondo]216-the monte rotondo , and esteemed [a perfect Stregomastix]3896-a perfect stregomastix ; so of course [the worthy pair]3897-the worthy pair expected [my]0-i recovery . No longer did [they]3895-they attempt to conceal from [me]0-i the truth as to [[my]0-i poor infants , who had been carried off on the day of [my]0-i return]3898-my poor infants , who had been carried off on the day of my return . What [I]0-i learned of the great calamity , which then befell [me]0-i , was this . Towards sunset , [[my]0-i dear wife]3502-my dear wife , with [her]3502-my dear wife usual fondness , went forth to look for the little yacht returning from [the gulf of [Porto]200-porto]8473-the gulf of porto . [[Our]3901-our darling]3902-our darling [Harry]298-harry , then in [his]298-harry third year , was with [her]3502-my dear wife , and [the young nurse from [Muro]217-muro]3903-the young nurse from muro . [Lily]592-lily sat upon [the cliff]8283-the cliff , watching a sail far in [the offing]3905-the offing , probably [[our]3901-our vessel]3906-our vessel . Then as [she]592-lily turned towards [the tower]7964-the tower , [a man from the shrubbery]3908-a man from the shrubbery stood before [her]592-lily , and called [her]592-lily by [her]592-lily maiden name . [She]592-lily knew [[her]592-lily cousin]6046-her cousin [Lepardo]570-lepardo , and supposed that [he]6046-her cousin was come to kill [her]592-lily . Nevertheless [she]592-lily asked [him]6046-her cousin proudly how [he]6046-her cousin dared to insult [her]592-lily so , in the presence of [[her]592-lily child]1505-her child and [servant]3911-servant . [He]6046-her cousin answered that it was [her]592-lily name , and [she]592-lily was entitled to no other . Then [he]6046-her cousin promised not to harm [her]592-lily , if [she]592-lily would send [the maid]3912-the maid away , for [he]6046-her cousin had important things to speak of . And thereupon [he]6046-her cousin laid before [her]592-lily documents and letters . Meanwhile [the tower]7964-the tower was surrounded by [[his]6046-her cousin comrades]3914-his comrades ; but [they]3914-his comrades durst not enter , for [the trusty fusileer]3915-the trusty fusileer kept the one approach up [the steep hillside]3916-the steep hillside ; and [[his]3915-the trusty fusileer grandson]8385-his grandson , [a brave boy]3918-a brave boy , stood at the loop - hole with [him]3915-the trusty fusileer . [The maid]3912-the maid , however , with [her]3912-the maid little charge , was allowed to pass , and [she]3912-the maid joined [the two other women]3920-the two other women in weak preparations for defence . The period of attack had been chosen skilfully . So simple and patriarchal is the Corsican mode of life , that [very few servants]3921-very few servants are kept , even by [men of the highest station]3922-men of the highest station ; and those few are not [servants]6349-servants in [our]3924-our sense of the word . It happened this night that [the only two men employed upon the premises]3925-the only two men employed upon the premises , beside [the old fusileer]8081-the old fusileer , had been sent into [the town]8007-the town for things wherewith to welcome [me]0-i . However , [the faithful gunner]3928-the faithful gunner , with [his]3928-the faithful gunner eye along the barrels , kept [the foe]3929-the foe at bay , and seemed likely to keep [them]3929-the foe there , until the return of [the men]5486-the men ; while [[his]3928-the faithful gunner sturdy grandson]3931-his sturdy grandson split [his]3931-his sturdy grandson red cheeks at [the warder]3932-the warder 's conch . But [they]5486-the men little knew [[their]5486-the men enemy]3933-their enemy . [Lepardo Della Croce]570-lepardo was not to be baulked by [an old man]8469-an old man and [a boy]1691-a boy . At the narrow entrance [a lady]5829-a lady 's dress came fluttering in the brisk north wind . [Poor [Lily]592-lily]3937-poor lily tottered across the line of fire , [her]3937-poor lily life [she]3937-poor lily never thought of ; what use to live after all that [she]3937-poor lily had heard ? Close behind [her]3937-poor lily , and in the dusk invisible past [her]3937-poor lily wind - tossed drapery , stole [[her]3937-poor lily scoundrel cousin]3938-her scoundrel cousin ; [whom , like trees set in a row , or feather - edged boards seen lengthwise , a score of lithe and active sailors]3939-whom , like trees set in a row , or feather - edged boards seen lengthwise , a score of lithe and active sailors followed . No chance for [the marksman]3940-the marksman ; like [tiles]3941-tiles [they]3942-they overlapped [one another]758-one another , and poor [Lily]592-lily , upright in [her]592-lily outraged pride , covered the stooping graduated file . French and English , [Moorish and Maltese]3944-moorish and maltese , [a motley band as ever]3945-a motley band as ever swore , [they]3946-they burst into a hearty laugh at [the old gunner]3947-the old gunner 's predicament , the moment [they]3946-they had passed [his]3947-the old gunner range . [All within]3948-all within was at [their]3946-they mercy . True [he]3947-the old gunner kept the main gate still , and all the doors were barred ; but gates and doors were lubber 's holes for [seamen]3949-seamen such as [they]3946-they . Up [the ivy]3950-the ivy [they]3946-they clambered , along the chesnut branches , or the mere coignes of the granite , and into [the house]764-the house [they]3946-they poured at every loop - hole and window . One thing must be said in [their]3946-they favour — [they]3946-they did very little mischief . [They]3946-they were kept thoroughly under command , and a wave of [[their]3946-they captain]3952-their captain 's hand drove [them]3946-they anywhither . All [he]3952-their captain wanted was possession of [[my]0-i children]6217-my children , and of some valuable property which [he]3952-their captain claimed in right of [[his]3952-their captain father]1062-his father . Having secured both objects , [he]3952-their captain ordered [[his]3952-their captain men]3955-his men to depart , allowing [them]3955-his men only to carry what wine and provisions [they]3955-his men found . But [the three domestics]3956-the three domestics , and [the ancient sentinel]3957-the ancient sentinel and [[his]3952-their captain boy]3958-his boy , were bound hand and foot , and concealed in [a cave on [the beach]6975-the beach]3959-a cave on the beach , to prevent any stir in [the neighbouring hamlet]3961-the neighbouring hamlet . [Poor Lily]606-lily was left where [she]606-lily fell , to recover or not , as might be . [[My]0-i own darling]5763-my own darling was not insulted or touched ; [the men]5486-the men were afraid , and [Lepardo]570-lepardo too proud to outrage one of [[his]3952-their captain kin]3964-his kin . Moreover , [his]3952-their captain word was pledged ; and [they]5486-the men say that [he]3952-their captain always keeps it . Soon after dark [the robbers]3965-the robbers set sail , and slipped away down [the coast]3966-the coast , before that strong north wind which had so baffled [me]0-i . But for [me]0-i a letter was left , full of triumph and contumely . It was addressed to " [Valentine Vaughan]298-harry , [the Englishman]8496-the englishman ; "[3967-the fusileer] " [Signor Valentine]605-signor valentine "[3967-the fusileer] was the title conferred on [me]0-i by [the fusileer]3967-the fusileer , and adopted by [the neighbourhood]5329-the neighbourhood . To [my]0-i surprise that letter was written in English , and English as good as [a foreigner]1527-a foreigner ever indites : [I]0-i can repeat it word for word : — " [SIR,—I]8497-sir,—i am reluctant to obtrude good counsel , but with the obtuseness of [[your]8497-sir,—i nation]8498-your nation [you]8497-sir,—i are prone to the undervaluing of [others]869-others . It is [my]0-i privilege to amend this error , while meekly [I]0-i revindicate [my]0-i own neglected rights . From [me]0-i [you]8497-sir,—i have stolen [[my]0-i bride]8251-my bride and [my]0-i good inheritance , and in a manner which [the persons unversed in human nature]8501-the persons unversed in human nature would be inclined to characterise as dastardly and dissolute . Furthermore , [you]8497-sir,—i have rendered [the heiress of [the noblest house in [Corsica]150-corsica [a common Englishman]8504-a common englishman 's adulteress]8503-the noblest house in corsica a common englishman 's adulteress]8502-the heiress of the noblest house in corsica a common englishman 's adulteress . If [I]0-i had heard this on the day of [your]8497-sir,—i mocking marriage , not [the poor victim]8505-the poor victim but [you]8497-sir,—i , [you]8497-sir,—i , would have been [my]0-i direction . Now [I]0-i will punish [you]8497-sir,—i more gradually , and longer , as [you]8497-sir,—i deserve . [[Your]8497-sir,—i unhappy adulteress]8506-your unhappy adulteress knows the perfidy of [your]8497-sir,—i treachery , and [[your]8497-sir,—i two poor bastards]8507-your two poor bastards shall take refuge with [me]0-i . The inquiry with respect to [my]0-i drowning [them]8507-your two poor bastards to - night is dependent upon the stars . But if [I]0-i shall spare [them]8507-your two poor bastards , as [I]0-i may , because [they]8507-your two poor bastards can not come between [me]0-i and [[my]0-i property]7443-my property , [I]0-i will teach [them]8507-your two poor bastards , when [they]8507-your two poor bastards are old enough , to despise and loathe [your]8497-sir,—i name . [They]8507-your two poor bastards shall know that in the stead of [a father]3233-a father 's love [they]8507-your two poor bastards have only had a vagabond 's lust , and [they]8507-your two poor bastards shall know how [you]8497-sir,—i seduced and then slew [[their]8507-your two poor bastards mother]8510-their mother ; for death , in [my]0-i humble opinion , appears in [her]8510-their mother face to - night . Although [she]8510-their mother has betrayed [me]0-i , [I]0-i am regretful for [her]8510-their mother : but to [you]8497-sir,—i who have disgraced [my]0-i name and plundered [me]0-i , as [a man of liberal and exalted views]8511-a man of liberal and exalted views [I]0-i grant a contemptuous forbearance ; so long , that is to say , as [you]8497-sir,—i remain unhappy , which [the wicked]8512-the wicked ought to be . Of one thing , however , [I]0-i bid [you]8497-sir,—i to take admonishment . If [I]0-i hear that [you]8497-sir,—i ever forget this episode of debauchery , and return to [[your]8497-sir,—i English wife]8513-your english wife and property , [no house]8514-no house , [no castle that ever was edified]8515-no castle that ever was edified , shall protect [you]8497-sir,—i from [my]0-i dagger . Remember the one thing , as [your]8497-sir,—i proverb tells , [I]0-i am slow and sure . LEPARDO DELLA CROCE . "[0-i] > Instead of enraging or maddening [me]0-i , as [the writer]6119-the writer perhaps expected , this execrable letter did [me]0-i a great deal of good . [I]0-i determined to lower that insufferable arrogance ; and brought all [my]0-i thoughts to bear upon one definite object , the recovery of [[my]0-i darlings]3809-my darlings and the punishment of [that murderer]3972-that murderer . [I]0-i did not believe that [he]3972-that murderer had destroyed [them]3809-my darlings , or was likely to do so ; for had not [[their]3809-my darlings mother]8510-their mother 's spirit referred to [them]3809-my darlings as living ? Without delay , [[my]0-i yacht]8083-my yacht was prepared for a lengthened cruise ; [the tower]7964-the tower committed to [Marcantonia]625-marcantonia and [the gray sentinel]3976-the gray sentinel ; and with [Petro]624-petro for [[my]0-i skipper]3977-my skipper , [I]0-i sailed on the following day . Alas , the three months now elapsed during [my]0-i delirium , had [they]3809-my darlings not like [the sea]895-the sea itself closed across the track ? All [the neighbours]3979-the neighbours knew was this , the felucca had passed [Point Girolata]219-point girolata , and had been seen in the early morning , standing away due south . [All the villagers]3980-all the villagers , and even [the men from [the mountain]5676-the mountain]3981-the men from the mountain , thronged [the shore]1669-the shore as [I]0-i embarked , and there invoked [Madonna]591-madonna 's blessing on [poor [Signor Valentine]605-signor valentine , so basely robbed of [wife]5819-wife and [children]1229-children]3984-poor signor valentine , so basely robbed of wife and children . When [we]3987-we had rounded [Girolata]189-girolata , [we]3987-we bore away due south , and in less than fifteen hours made the Sardinian shore in [the gulf of [Asinara]220-asinara]3988-the gulf of asinara . Here [we]3987-we coasted along the curve , inquiring at every likely place whether [any such vessel]3989-any such vessel had been sighted as that which [we]3987-we were seeking . But [we]3987-we could learn nothing of [her]3990-her until [we]3987-we were off [the Gypsum Cape]221-the gypsum cape ; where [some fishermen]3991-some fishermen told [us]3987-we , that at or about the time [we]3987-we spoke of , [a swift felucca , built and manned exactly as [we]3987-we had described]3992-a swift felucca , built and manned exactly as we had described , glided by [them]3991-some fishermen and bore up for [the town of Alghero]3993-the town of alghero . [We]3987-we too bore up for [Alghero]222-alghero , and soon discovered that [the roving vessel]3994-the roving vessel had undoubtedly been there : even [Lepardo]570-lepardo , [the captain]8185-the captain , was described by [the keen Sardinians]628-the keen sardinians . But [she]3994-the roving vessel had only lain to for a few hours , and cleared again for [Cagliari]223-cagliari . For [Cagliari]223-cagliari [we]3987-we made sail as hard as the sticks could carry , and arrived [there]1114-there on the fourth day from [Cape Girolata]224-cape girolata . [The pirates]3997-the pirates , if such [they]3997-the pirates were , had offered [[their]3997-the pirates vessel]3998-their vessel for sale at [Cagliari]223-cagliari ; but , failing of a satisfactory price had sailed away again , and after much trouble [I]0-i found out that [their]3997-the pirates destination was [Valetta]225-valetta . To [Valetta]225-valetta also [we]3987-we followed , feeling like [a new boy at school who is mystified by [the experts]4000-the experts — innocent of much Greek [themselves]4000-the experts]3999-a new boy at school who is mystified by the experts — innocent of much greek themselves — with a game which means in English , " send [the fool]8516-the fool on further . "[3999-a new boy at school who is mystified by the experts — innocent of much greek themselves] When at length [we]3987-we reach [the Maltese capital]4001-the maltese capital — where [I]0-i was not sorry to hear once more [[my]0-i native tongue]4002-my native tongue — [we]3987-we found [the felucca]226-the felucca snugly moored near [the " Merchant 's Yard]8517-the " merchant 's yard , "[7140-this gentleman] and being refitted as [a pleasure - boat]4003-a pleasure - boat for [a wealthy Englishman]4004-a wealthy englishman . [This gentleman]7140-this gentleman knew a good deal about [ships]4006-ships , but not quite enough . Pleased with the graceful lines and clean run of [the felucca]226-the felucca , [he]7140-this gentleman had given nearly twice [her]226-the felucca value for [her]226-the felucca ; as [he]7140-this gentleman soon perceived when [the ship - carpenters]4007-the ship - carpenters set to work . [He]7140-this gentleman was in the vein to afford all possible information , being thoroughly furious with [the condemnable pirates]4008-the condemnable pirates — as [he]7140-this gentleman called [them]4008-the condemnable pirates , without the weakness of the composite verb — who had robbed [him]7140-this gentleman so shamefully of [his]7140-this gentleman money . [He]7140-this gentleman told [me]0-i that [[my]0-i children]6217-my children had been ashore , and [Harry]298-harry was much admired and kissed in [the Floriana]227-the floriana . One thing [the sailors]8122-the sailors did which would have surprised [a man unacquainted with [the Corsicans]583-the corsicans]4011-a man unacquainted with the corsicans , or perhaps [I]0-i should say [the islanders of [the Mediterranean]228-the mediterranean]4012-the islanders of the mediterranean . [They]8122-the sailors decked [[my]0-i little babe]4013-my little babe with flowers and ribands , and bore [her]4013-my little babe in procession to [the church of St. John of [Jerusalem]229-jerusalem]4014-the church of st. john of jerusalem ; and there [they]8122-the sailors had [her]4013-my little babe baptized , for [Lepardo]570-lepardo had found out that [she]4013-my little babe had never undergone the ceremony . [I]0-i was anxious to see the record , but was not allowed to do so ; therefore [I]0-i do not know what [the little darling]6587-the little darling 's name is , if [she]4013-my little babe be still alive : but [they]8122-the sailors told [me]0-i that the surname entered was not [Vaughan]298-harry , but [Della Croce]570-lepardo . It was said that [the sailors]8122-the sailors had become very fond of [her]4013-my little babe , [the little creature]4017-the little creature being very sweet - tempered and happy , and a pleasing novelty to [them]8122-the sailors . Very likely [they]8122-the sailors named [her]4013-my little babe after [[their]8122-the sailors own felucca]4018-their own felucca . [The crew]4019-the crew being now dispersed , [some]811-some to [[their]811-some homes]4021-their homes , and some on board [ships which had sailed]4022-ships which had sailed , [I]0-i was thrown completely off the scent . All [I]0-i could learn , at [a house which [they]8122-the sailors had frequented]4023-a house which they had frequented , was that [Lepardo]570-lepardo , [the commander]4024-the commander , had long ago left [the island]1125-the island . [Whither]629-whither , or in what [ship]4026-ship , [he]4024-the commander had sailed , [they]8122-the sailors could not or would not tell [me]0-i : [he]4024-the commander had always plenty of money , [they]8122-the sailors said , and [he]4024-the commander spent it like [a prince]4027-a prince . But [Petro]624-petro , who was a much better ferret than [I]0-i , discovered , or seemed to have done so , that [the kidnapper and murderer]4028-the kidnapper and murderer had taken passage for [Naples]230-naples . [My]0-i heart fell when [I]0-i heard it ; almost as easily might [I]0-i have tracked [him]4024-the commander in [London]1-london . At [Naples]230-naples [I]0-i had spent a month , and knew the lying ingenuity , the laziness in all but lies , of its swarming thousands . However , [the little yacht]3783-the little yacht was again put under way , and , after a tedious passage , [we]4030-we saw [the Queen of [cities]4032-cities]4031-the queen of cities . Here , as [I]0-i expected , the pursuit was baffled . [I]0-i will not weary [you]4033-you with [my]0-i wanderings , off more often than on [the track]7926-the track , up and down [the Mediterranean]228-the mediterranean , and sometimes far inland . If [I]0-i marked them on a map , however large the scale , [you]4033-you would have what [children]1229-children call a crinkly crankly puzzle , like [Lancashire]630-lancashire in [Bradshaw]231-bradshaw . Once , indeed , [I]0-i rested at [the ancient tower]4036-the ancient tower , near [[[my]0-i [Lily]606-lily]7976-my lily 's grave]4038-my lily 's grave , which [I]0-i always visited twice in every year . [I]0-i have some vague idea , now in [my]0-i old age , that though [we]4039-we [Vaughans]398-vaughans detest any display of feeling — except indeed at times when the heart is too big for the skin — [we]4039-we are in substance , without knowing it , [a most romantic race]4040-a most romantic race . Whether [we]4039-we are that , or not , is matter of small moment ; one thing is quite certain , [we]4039-we are strutted well and stable . [We]4039-we are not quick of reception , but [we]4039-we are most retentive . Never was there [man of [us]4039-we who ever loved [a woman]5830-a woman and cast [her]5830-a woman off through weariness]4041-man of us who ever loved a woman and cast her off through weariness ; never was [there woman of [[our]4039-we house]1160-our house who played the jilt , when once [she]5830-a woman had passed the pledge of love]4043-there woman of our house who played the jilt , when once she had passed the pledge of love . And after all [I]0-i have seen of [the world]798-the world , and through [my]0-i dark misfortune [few men]4046-few men have seen more , it is [my]0-i set conclusion that strong tenacity is the foremost of all the virtues . [[My]0-i enemy]1966-my enemy has it , [I]0-i freely own , and through all [his]1966-my enemy wickedness it saves [him]1966-my enemy from being contemptible . For a time , as [I]0-i said before , [I]0-i paused from [my]0-i continual search , and abode in [the old gray tower]4048-the old gray tower . That search now appeared so hopeless , that [I]0-i was half inclined to believe no better policy could be found than this . Some day or other [the robber]4049-the robber would surely return and lay claim to [the lands of [the Della Croce]570-lepardo]8390-the lands of the della croce . At present [he]4049-the robber durst not do it , while under the ban of piracy and the suspicion of [[his]4049-the robber uncle]8430-his uncle 's murder . Moreover , [I]0-i thought it [my]0-i duty to see to the welfare of [[[my]0-i children]6217-my children 's property]4053-my children 's property . Under the deed - poll of [the old Signor]8468-the old signor , [[his]8468-the old signor friend at [Prato]207-prato]4055-his friend at prato and [myself]0-i were [trustees]4056-trustees and [guardians]4057-guardians . But [I]0-i could not live [there]1114-there long : it was too painful for [me]0-i to sit alone in [the desolate rooms where [[my]0-i children]6217-my children]4059-the desolate rooms where my children ought to be toddling , or to wander through the shrubberies and among the untended flowers , every one of [them]6217-my children whispering " [Lily]606-lily . "[6217-my children] Formerly [I]0-i had admired and loved that peculiar stillness , that rich deep eloquent solitude , which mantles in bucolic gray [the lawns and glades of [Corsica]150-corsica]4061-the lawns and glades of corsica . But when [I]0-i so admired and loved , [I]0-i was [a happy man]4062-a happy man , [a man who had affection near [him]4063-a man who had affection near him , and could warm himself when he pleased , and could warm [himself]4063-a man who had affection near him , and could warm himself when he pleased when [he]4063-a man who had affection near him , and could warm himself when he pleased pleased]4063-a man who had affection near him , and could warm himself when he pleased . Now though [I]0-i had [no friends]4064-no friends or friendship , [neither]3851-neither cared for any , solitude struck [me]0-i to the bones , because it seemed [my]0-i destiny . After striving for half a year to do [my]0-i duty as [a hermit Signor]4066-a hermit signor , [I]0-i found [myself]0-i , one dreary morning , fingering [my]0-i pistols gloomily , and fitting a small bullet into [my]0-i ear . [My]0-i thumb caught in the guard of the [Signor]605-signor valentine 's locket , and jerked it up [my]0-i waistcoat . It was the same which [the poor old man]3726-the poor old man had pressed to [his]3726-the poor old man dying lips . There was [Lily]606-lily 's hair and [Harry]298-harry 's , and a tiny wisp of down since added , belonging to [baby]4068-baby — name unknown . Looking at [them]4069-them and seeing how [Lily]606-lily 's bound [them]4069-them together and to [me]0-i , [I]0-i felt ashamed of [my]0-i cowardly gloom , and resolved to quit [myself]0-i like [a man]5384-a man in [my]0-i duty towards [the three]6535-the three . [I]0-i rode at once to [Prato]207-prato , and persuaded [Count Gaffori]631-count gaffori to come and live at [the tower]7964-the tower . Like [[his]3726-the poor old man old friend]4073-his old friend [the Signor]7946-the signor , [he]3726-the poor old man had only [himself]3726-the poor old man and [[his]3726-the poor old man lovely daughter]8182-his lovely daughter to think of ; but unlike [Signor Dezio]589-signor dezio [he]3726-the poor old man had lost nearly all [his]3726-the poor old man paternal property , through political troubles . Therefore it was for [him]3726-the poor old man no little comfort and advantage to be placed at the head of [a household]4076-a household again , and restored to some worldly importance . Nevertheless , [his]3726-the poor old man sense of honour was so nice and exacting , that [I]0-i thought [I]0-i should never succeed in bringing [him]3726-the poor old man to [my]0-i views ; and indeed [I]0-i must have failed but for [[his]3726-the poor old man daughter]2465-his daughter 's assistance . [A very sweet elegant girl [she]4078-a very sweet elegant girl she was was]4078-a very sweet elegant girl she was , and [she]4078-a very sweet elegant girl she was had been [a great friend of [[my]0-i [Lily]606-lily]7976-my lily 's]4079-a great friend of my lily 's . If [I]0-i could ever have loved again , [I]0-i should have loved [that maiden]4081-that maiden : but the thing was impossible . [The old Count]4082-the old count promised to come and settle at [Veduta tower]233-veduta tower — which name , in light days , [I]0-i had corrupted into " Vendetta"—and[4082-the old count] living [there]1114-there to assume the management of [the estates]879-the estates , in trust for [[my]0-i lost infants]4085-my lost infants , as soon as [his]3726-the poor old man arrangements could be made . [I]0-i saw nothing that need have delayed [him]3726-the poor old man a day ; however , [he]3726-the poor old man declared that [he]3726-the poor old man must have a month to get ready , and [he]3726-the poor old man was plainly [a man whom nature meant not to be pushed]4086-a man whom nature meant not to be pushed . So [I]0-i employed the interval in having [my]0-i dear old " Lilyflower "[3726-the poor old man] overhauled at [Marseilles]186-marseilles , coppered , and thoroughly painted . [I]0-i could not bear to alter [[our]4087-our little love - boat]3603-our little love - boat , as [[my]0-i darling]5337-my darling called it , even in outward appearance ; but like [our]4087-our love [she]5337-my darling had laboured through many a tempest ; unlike it , [she]5337-my darling needed repairs . However , [I]0-i saved from [the painter]4090-the painter 's brush [[our]4087-our favourite quarter - deck bench]4091-our favourite quarter - deck bench , whereon through the moonlight watches [my]0-i Lily seemed still to recline . And so [my]0-i life for some years wandered on , a worthless , unsettled , forlorn existence , only refreshed at intervals by return to the scenes of past happiness . If [I]0-i had really wronged [Lepardo Della Croce]570-lepardo , [he]4090-the painter could hardly have wished for a better revenge . But in truth [I]0-i had never wronged [him]4090-the painter . Even if [I]0-i had never come near [[his]4090-the painter betrothed]4092-his betrothed , it is quite certain [she]4092-his betrothed would not have accepted [him]4090-the painter . And [he]4090-the painter , by [his]4090-the painter own desertion , had left [her]4092-his betrothed free to choose . Late in the autumn of 1812 , when [I]0-i had abandoned all hope of ever recovering [my]0-i little ones , except by one of those eddies of [Providence]319-providence , which [we]4087-our [men call accidents]4093-men call accidents , and in which [I]0-i place [my]0-i confidence to this hour , at that season , [I]0-i say , [I]0-i landed at [Gibraltar]235-gibraltar , being wind - bound in [the straits]4094-the straits . [We]4087-our were making for [Lisbon]236-lisbon , where [I]0-i was to ship some English watches , guns , and fine cutlery for [Ajaccio]191-ajaccio . What a loss of rank for the " [Lilyflower]632-lilyflower , "[4096-her late mistress] to turn [her]4092-his betrothed into [a trading smack]4095-a trading smack ! Well , [I]0-i could not see it so ; and [I]0-i am sure [[her]4092-his betrothed late mistress]4096-her late mistress , who with all [her]4096-her late mistress sweet romance was an excellent hand at a bargain , would have thought it far more below [my]0-i dignity for [me]0-i to sponge on [[our]4087-our children]3832-our children . There was plenty of money in hand at [Veduta tower]233-veduta tower ; but having retired from stewardship , [I]0-i did not feel [myself]0-i justified in drawing upon [[my]0-i children]6217-my children . Therefore , and for the sake of the large acquaintance and great opportunities gained , [I]0-i had renewed [my]0-i connection with [the firm of [Green]575-green]4099-the firm of green , [Vowler]578-vowler , and [Green]575-green . Somehow , [I]0-i could not bear to revisit [the shores of [England]9-england]4100-the shores of england ; otherwise [I]0-i am sure that with the knowledge [I]0-i now possessed of [the Mediterranean ports]4101-the mediterranean ports , and [a house of such standing and enterprise]4102-a house of such standing and enterprise to back [me]0-i , [I]0-i should quickly have made [my]0-i fortune . [[My]0-i vessel]4103-my vessel , moreover , was much too small for the fruit - trade , even if [I]0-i could have lowered [her]4103-my vessel to an uncleanly freight ; but [she]4103-my vessel was just the craft for valuable goods in small compass . [I]0-i knew the Corsican fondness for arms and first - rate cutlery ; and the tools [the poor Signor Dezio]4104-the poor signor dezio meant to astonish [me]0-i with , certainly did astonish [me]0-i by [their]4104-the poor signor dezio wonderful badness . True , the material was good , but [all the waters of [the Restonica]169-the restonica]4105-all the waters of the restonica will not convert a hammer into a handsaw . Although hardware was not at all in [his]4106-his line of business , [Peter Green]575-green most kindly undertook to send [me]0-i a cargo of [first - rate Sheffield]4107-first - rate sheffield and Birmingham goods , by [a return fruit - schooner]4108-a return fruit - schooner . These , consigned to [[his]4106-his [Lisbon]236-lisbon agent]4109-his lisbon agent , [I]0-i could fetch away , as [I]0-i pleased , or wanted [them]4110-them . Having arranged with [a shrewd merchant of [Ajaccio]191-ajaccio]4111-a shrewd merchant of ajaccio to take [my]0-i goods wholesale , and save the dignity of all [the Vogheni]633-the vogheni from haggling , [I]0-i had already made six trips , and in spite of the most tyrannical douane perhaps in all [the world]798-the world , [I]0-i as a Corsican , importing goods in [a Corsican bottom]4113-a corsican bottom , had cleared very nearly three hundred per cent . on [my]0-i outlay . [We]4114-we were now on [our]4114-we seventh voyage , to reship the last of the second English consignment , when a violent gale from [the west]4115-the west met [us]4114-we right in the teeth , and [we]4114-we were forced to bear up for [the anchorage]4116-the anchorage . [A first - rate sea - boat]4117-a first - rate sea - boat [the " Lilyflower "]632-lilyflower[4117-a first - rate sea - boat] was , although [she]4117-a first - rate sea - boat had been built for racing , and for two or three years had beaten [all competitors]4118-all competitors , whenever there was wind enough for a cat to stand on the sheets . But one hot June day [she]4117-a first - rate sea - boat got beaten in a floating match , when [the lightest bung]4119-the lightest bung went fastest , and [her]4117-a first - rate sea - boat prig of [a " noble owner]8518-a " noble owner "[4117-a first - rate sea - boat] sold [her]4117-a first - rate sea - boat in disgust , and built a thing that drew as much water as a nautilus . In [her]4117-a first - rate sea - boat [he]4120-he was happily upset , and could hardly find a sheet of paper to hold on by . Knowing some little about [yachts]4121-yachts , from [my]0-i pool and reach experiences , [I]0-i bought [the famous racing cutter]4122-the famous racing cutter at about a quarter [her]4117-a first - rate sea - boat value ; and even in these , [her]4117-a first - rate sea - boat olden days , [she]4117-a first - rate sea - boat could exhibit [her]4117-a first - rate sea - boat taffrail to the smartest fruit - clipper — the name was then just invented — that ever raced for [the Monument]4123-the monument . [Her]4117-a first - rate sea - boat register was fifty tons , but [she]4117-a first - rate sea - boat carried eighty . Landing at [Gibraltar]235-gibraltar , [I]0-i kept clear of [[my]0-i countrymen]4124-my countrymen , not that [I]0-i dislike [them]4124-my countrymen , but because — well [I]0-i can not tell why ; and strolled away to [the Spanish and Moorish quarters]4125-the spanish and moorish quarters . It was a windy evening , and in front of [a low refreshment house]4126-a low refreshment house [some sailors]4127-some sailors and [Spanish girls]4128-spanish girls were dancing . A squabble arose among [them]4124-my countrymen ; something [I]0-i think it was about [a young girl]1101-a young girl 's dress . Knives were drawn , and [two men]7102-two men were stabbed in less than the time [I]0-i am speaking . [I]0-i just saved the life of one , just saved it by half an inch . [A fine - looking Spaniard]4131-a fine - looking spaniard lay under [a Moor]4132-a moor , who had tripped [him]4131-a fine - looking spaniard up in [their]4124-my countrymen quick way . The point of the knife had flashed through [the Spaniard]7911-the spaniard 's shirt and [his]4131-a fine - looking spaniard flesh was cut , before the swing of [my]0-i stick — upwards luckily — had jerked [the Moor]4134-the moor off [his]4131-a fine - looking spaniard body . If [I]0-i had struck downwards , or a millionth part of a second later , the blade would have stood in the heart . But [I]0-i knew [those fellows]4135-those fellows by this time . [The Moor]634-the moor lay senseless from the quick upper - cut on [his]634-the moor temples , and the knife was quivering where the impulse had failed it . Now if [Petro]624-petro and [I]0-i held deliberate choice—"proairesis "[126-oxford] [Oxford]126-oxford calls it — not to be turned into knife - sheaths , [our]4136-we only chance of developing into action that undeniable process of " nous , "[126-oxford] was to be found in the policy , vulgarly called " cut and run . "[126-oxford] At a shrill signal , from [ship]4026-ship and from [shore]3780-shore , [the Moors]636-the moors came swarming silently and swiftly . [Their]636-the moors yellow slippers and coffee - coloured legs seemed set upon springs by excitement . [Some of [the Spaniards]637-the spaniards]4139-some of the spaniards stood bravely by [us]4136-we , and with [their]4139-some of the spaniards aid [we]4136-we hurried [the wounded man]4140-the wounded man into [[our]4136-we boat]4141-our boat , and pushed off just in time . Unlike [the Corsican peasants]4142-the corsican peasants , [[our]4136-we pursuers]4143-our pursuers carried no fire - arms , and before [they]4143-our pursuers could get any , [we]4136-we were at safe distance . Having sent for [an English surgeon]4144-an english surgeon , [we]4136-we kept [the poor sailor on board [the yacht]8206-the yacht]4145-the poor sailor on board the yacht , until [he]4145-the poor sailor on board the yacht was quite out of danger . [We]4136-we Britons are not , as a general rule , an over - grateful race ; [we]4136-we hate to be under an obligation , and too often illustrate [the great philosopher]4147-the great philosopher 's saying , that [the doer]6461-the doer feels more good will than [the receiver of a kindness]4149-the receiver of a kindness . Moreover , [the Spaniards]637-the spaniards , in [the neighbourhood of [the Rock]237-the rock]4150-the neighbourhood of the rock , could hardly be expected to love [us]4136-we , even if [we]4136-we were accustomed , which it is needless to say [we]4136-we are not , to treat [them]637-the spaniards with decent courtesy . Therefore [I]0-i was surprised at the deep and warm gratitude of [this wounded man]4151-this wounded man . A thing that enhanced [his]4151-this wounded man debt to [me]0-i — for life , in [my]0-i opinion , is very little to owe — was that [he]4151-this wounded man loved [a young girl]1101-a young girl , the one over whom [they]4153-they had quarrelled , and [he]4151-this wounded man was about to marry [her]1101-a young girl . Discovering who [I]0-i was , for [he]4151-this wounded man knew nothing of [me]0-i at first , [he]4151-this wounded man saw that [he]4151-this wounded man could be of no little service to [me]0-i . The only obstacle was a solemn oath ; but from this , [he]4151-this wounded man believed , [he]4151-this wounded man could soon obtain release . With [an Englishman]1891-an englishman 's honest and honourable repugnance to any breach of faith , [I]0-i was long reluctant to encourage this absolution . But the thought of [[my]0-i helpless children]4155-my helpless children , robbed of [their]4155-my helpless children inheritance , and , still worse , of [a father]3233-a father 's love , and dependant on the caprice of [a superstitious villain]4157-a superstitious villain , this , and the recollection of [my]0-i desolating wrongs , overpowered all scruples . And is it not a wiser course , and more truly [Christian]309-christian , to port the helm than to cross the bows of [another man]4158-another man 's religion , at any rate so long as it be [Christian]309-christian also , though frogged in [a pensioner]4159-a pensioner 's coat ? Being duly absolved — for which [he]4151-this wounded man would not allow [me]0-i to pay — [the Spanish sailor]4160-the spanish sailor told [me]0-i all [he]4160-the spanish sailor knew . [He]4160-the spanish sailor had been [[Lepardo]570-lepardo 's mate]4161-lepardo 's mate , on many a smuggling run , and in many an act of piracy off [the coast of [Barbary]238-barbary]4162-the coast of barbary . But [he]4160-the spanish sailor had never liked [[his]4160-the spanish sailor captain]4163-his captain , [no one]730-no one ever did ; though [all the crew]4165-all the crew admired [him]4160-the spanish sailor as [the cleverest man in [the world]798-the world]4166-the cleverest man in the world . After the felucca was sold and [[her]4168-her crew]4169-her crew dispersed , [the mate]4170-the mate had followed for a while the fortunes of [Lepardo]570-lepardo . [He]4170-the mate told [me]0-i things about [him]4170-the mate which [I]0-i knew not how to believe . However , [I]0-i will not repeat them , because they do not seem to bear upon [my]0-i story . The name of [[my]0-i little girl]4171-my little girl [he]4170-the mate could not remember , for [he]4170-the mate was not at the christening , and [she]4171-my little girl was always called [the baby]1681-the baby . Being [a good - natured man]4173-a good - natured man [he]4170-the mate took kindly to [the children]1695-the children , and told [me]0-i anecdotes of [them]1695-the children which brought the tears to [my]0-i eyes . After two or three months spent at [Naples]230-naples , [they]1695-the children all left suddenly for [Palermo]239-palermo , on account , as [the mate]4170-the mate believed , of [my]0-i unexpected arrival ; and [here]846-here [he]4170-the mate lost sight of [[his]4170-the mate commander]4177-his commander , for tired by this time of an idle life , and seeing no chance of any more roving adventures , [he]4170-the mate accepted a berth in [a brig]4178-a brig bound for [the Piræus]240-the piræus , and now after many shifts and changes was [first mate of [a fruit vessel sailing from [Zante]241-zante to [London]1-london]4180-a fruit vessel sailing from zante to london]4179-first mate of a fruit vessel sailing from zante to london . The most important part to [me]0-i of all [his]4170-the mate communication was that , on [their]1695-the children previous voyage , [they]1695-the children had carried to [England]9-england [Lepardo Della Croce]570-lepardo and [[my]0-i two dear children]4181-my two dear children . [That murderer]3972-that murderer and [kidnapper]4183-kidnapper had taken the lead in some conspiracy against [the government of [the Two Sicilies]4185-the two sicilies]4184-the government of the two sicilies , and through the treachery of [an accomplice]4186-an accomplice had been obliged to fly for [his]4170-the mate life . Disguising [himself]4170-the mate [he]4170-the mate contrived to reach [Gibraltar]235-gibraltar , and took refuge on [English ground]4187-english ground . [He]4170-the mate was now very poor and in great distress , but still clung to [the children]1695-the children , of whom [he]4170-the mate appeared to be fond , and who believed [him]4170-the mate to be [[their]1695-the children father]4189-their father . [The " Duo Brachiones]638-the " duo brachiones "[638-the " duo brachiones] touching [there]1114-there , as usual , for supplies , [Lepardo]570-lepardo met [[his]4170-the mate old mate]4191-his old mate ashore ; and begged for a passage to [England]9-england . [They]4192-they took [him]4170-the mate to [London]1-london , and there of course lost sight of [him]4170-the mate . [He]4170-the mate was greatly altered , [the mate]4170-the mate said , from the Lepardo of old . Morose and reserved [he]4170-the mate had always been ; but now misfortune had covered [him]4170-the mate with a skin - deep philosophy . But [his]4170-the mate eyes contracted and sparkled as of yore , whenever [my]0-i name was mentioned ; and [the mate]4170-the mate knew what [his]4170-the mate intention was , in case [he]4170-the mate should find [me]0-i [a happy man]4062-a happy man . [The simple mate]4196-the simple mate was still more surprised at the alteration in [[my]0-i children]6217-my children ; as pretty a pair , [he]4196-the simple mate said , as ever [he]4196-the simple mate set eyes on . But [they]6217-my children were kept most jealously from the notice of [the crew]4019-the crew , and even from [[their]6217-my children ancient friend]4199-their ancient friend 's attentions ; [they]6217-my children were never allowed to be on [the deck]4200-the deck , except when [the berths]4201-the berths were being cleaned . [They]6217-my children seemed to fear [[their]6217-my children reputed father]4202-their reputed father , a great deal more than [they]6217-my children loved [him]4202-their reputed father . Upon hearing this last particular [I]0-i seized [the mate]4170-the mate by the hand , and felt something rise in [my]0-i throat : [I]0-i was so delighted to learn that [the pirate]4204-the pirate had not succeeded in carrying nature by boarding . The next day [I]0-i left [Petro]624-petro to see to the hardware business — to which [we]4205-we were bound by charter — while [I]0-i set sail in the " Duo Brachiones "[6217-my children] for the arms of [[my]0-i darling little ones]4206-my darling little ones . > [They]6217-my children put [me]0-i in [the very hammock where that murderer of all [my]0-i happiness had slept]4207-the very hammock where that murderer of all my happiness had slept , and no wonder that [I]0-i could find no rest there . Soon as [I]0-i knew the reason , [I]0-i was allowed to change , and crept into [the little berth where [[my]0-i innocent pets]4209-my innocent pets had lain in [each other]734-each other 's arms]4208-the little berth where my innocent pets had lain in each other 's arms . Here [I]0-i slept much better than [a king]2589-a king , for [I]0-i even fancied that it smelt of [Lily]606-lily . If [little Lily]639-little lily , as [she]639-little lily shall be called , whatever [the rogues]7430-the rogues have christened [her]639-little lily , if [my]0-i little beauty — for that [I]0-i am sure [she]639-little lily must be — ever comes to light , when [I]0-i am in [my]0-i grave , remember one thing , [Clara]293-clara , [you]293-clara will find [her]639-little lily breath and general fragrance just as [[her]639-little lily mother]6340-her mother 's were . Such things are hereditary , especially among [women]5443-women . After a long and stormy passage , and a fortnight spent in repairing at [Bordeaux]242-bordeaux , [we]4215-we passed [the familiar [Essex]243-essex marshes]4216-the familiar essex marshes by night , and were off [the Custom House]4217-the custom house by the last day of the year . When that tedious work was over — talk as [we]4215-we please of [the douane]4218-the douane , [our]4215-we own is as bad as most of [them]4218-the douane — feeling quite out of [my]0-i latitude , and not a bit like [an Englishman]1891-an englishman , [I]0-i betook [myself]0-i to [a tavern near [London Bridge]244-london bridge]4220-a tavern near london bridge . There everything seemed new , and [I]0-i could not walk [the streets]2026-the streets without yawing into the wrong tide . But one old [London]1-london custom held its ground with time . Papers a week and a fortnight old still strayed about in [the coffee - room]4222-the coffee - room . Being told that the journals of that day were " in hand , "[0-i] as they always are , [I]0-i took up a weekly paper of some ten days back to yawn over it till supper time . It was too late for [me]0-i to think of disturbing [Peter Green]575-green by a sudden arrival , and so [I]0-i had ordered a bed at [this hotel]4223-this hotel . The weekly gazette in [my]0-i hand was one of those which use the shears with diligence and method . Under the heading " Provincial News , "[0-i] [I]0-i found the following paragraph : — [[My]0-i dear brother]5454-my dear brother 's distinguished degree was that of [B.A.]640-b.a. after a narrow escape from pluck . [Clara]293-clara , do n't look offended . [[Your]293-clara father]5365-your father had very good abilities , but spent most of [his]5365-your father Oxford time in pigeon matches at [the Weirs]4226-the weirs , and expeditions to [Bagley]245-bagley wood , which later in life [he]5365-your father would have looked upon as felonious . This paltry puff would never have been reprinted by a [London]1-london [journal of eminence and influence]4227-journal of eminence and influence , but for the suggestion at the end , which happened just to hit the sentiments of [the more exalted editor]4228-the more exalted editor . Now this weekly paper was sure to circulate among [refugees from [the continent]6168-the continent]4229-refugees from the continent , by reason of its well - known antipathy towards [them]4229-refugees from the continent ; and there happened to be in this very number a violent tirade against [[our]4231-our Government]4232-our government for displaying what [we]4231-our delight to call [the mighty Ægis of [England]9-england]4233-the mighty ægis of england . [I]0-i saw the danger at once , and [my]0-i heart turned sick within [me]0-i . [[My]0-i gay and harmless brother]4234-my gay and harmless brother in the midst of [his]4234-my gay and harmless brother Christmas rejoicings , and [a stealthy murderer]4235-a stealthy murderer creeping perhaps at that very moment towards [him]4234-my gay and harmless brother . But even if it were so , was there not some chance of [Lepardo]570-lepardo discovering [his]4234-my gay and harmless brother mistake , when in [the neighbourhood where [the Vaughans were so well known]4237-the vaughans were so well known]4236-the neighbourhood where the vaughans were so well known ? Yes , some chance there was , but very little . Bound upon such an errand [he]4234-my gay and harmless brother would not dare to show [himself]4234-my gay and harmless brother , or to make any inquiries , even if they seemed needful . And the mention by that cursed gossip of what [he]4234-my gay and harmless brother called " continental [travel"—your[4234-my gay and harmless brother] father]8519-travel"—your father 's wedding tour — would banish all doubt of identity , had any been entertained . Even supposing that [cold - blooded fiend]4238-cold - blooded fiend should meet [[my]0-i poor brother]7078-my poor brother , face to face , in the open daylight , it was not likely that [he]4234-my gay and harmless brother would be undeceived . [Lepardo]570-lepardo and [I]0-i had met only once , and then in hot encounter . [[My]0-i brother]1302-my brother was like [me]0-i in figure , in face , and in voice ; and though [I]0-i was somewhat taller and much darker of complexion , the former difference would not attract attention , unless [we]4241-we stood side by side ; the latter would of course be attributed to the effects of climate . From [the gamekeeper]4242-the gamekeeper 's evidence , [I]0-i am now inclined to believe that [Lepardo]570-lepardo , while lurking in the lower coppice , among the holly bushes , must have cast [his]4234-my gay and harmless brother evil eyes on [[your]4243-your poor father]5406-your poor father 's face , and convinced [himself]4234-my gay and harmless brother that [he]4234-my gay and harmless brother beheld [[his]4234-my gay and harmless brother enemy]4245-his enemy . Flurried and frightened , [I]0-i looked at the date of the paper . It was twelve days old . Possibly [I]0-i might yet be in time , for most likely [the murderer]831-the murderer would set out on foot , according to Corsican practice , with the travel - stone bound on [his]831-the murderer knee . Even if [he]831-the murderer had travelled in modern fashion , [he]831-the murderer would probably lurk and lie in ambush about [the house]764-the house , enduring hunger and cold and privation , until [his]831-the murderer moment came . Could [I]0-i leave for [Gloucester]23-gloucester that night ? No , [the last train]7100-the last train would have started , before [I]0-i could get to [Paddington]246-paddington . So [I]0-i resolved to go by [the morning express]4249-the morning express , which would take [me]0-i to [Gloucester]23-gloucester by middle day . After a sleepless night , [I]0-i was up betimes in the morning , and went through the form of breakfast while [the cab]6488-the cab was sent for . Presently [a waiter]4251-a waiter came in with the morning papers , the papers of New Year's - day , 1843 . What [I]0-i saw and what [my]0-i feelings were , [you]4252-you , [[my]0-i poor child]5429-my poor child , can too well imagine . That day [I]0-i could not bear to go . It was cowardly of [me]0-i , and perhaps unmanly ; but [I]0-i could not face [[your]4252-you mother]5332-your mother 's grief and the desolate household . Therefore [I]0-i persuaded [myself]0-i that [I]0-i had discharged [my]0-i duty , by visiting all [the London police stations]4255-the london police stations , and leaving the best description [I]0-i could give of [Lepardo]570-lepardo . The following day [I]0-i left [London]1-london , and arrived , as perhaps [you]4252-you remember , long after dark , and during a heavy fall of snow . There at the very threshold [I]0-i began amiss with [you]4252-you , for [I]0-i outraged [your]4252-you childish pride by mistaking [you]4252-you for [[the housekeeper]6360-the housekeeper 's daughter]4257-the housekeeper 's daughter . With [a well - born child]4258-a well - born child 's high self - esteem , and making no allowance for the dim light , [you]4252-you believed it to be a sham intended to mortify [you]4252-you ; and it poisoned [your]4252-you heart towards [me]0-i . But [you]4252-you were wholly mistaken . [My]0-i mind was full of [[your]4252-you mother]5332-your mother and of the terrible blow to [her]5332-your mother ; to [you]4252-you , whom [I]0-i had never seen , and scarcely even heard of , [I]0-i never gave a thought ; except the mistaken one that [you]4252-you were not old enough to be sensible of [your]4252-you loss . Little did [I]0-i imagine what a fount of resolute will , and deep feeling , found a vent in the kicks and screams of [the large - eyed minnikin]4260-the large - eyed minnikin , that would not be ordered away . [You]4252-you are entitled , [Clara]293-clara , to know all that [I]0-i have done towards the discovery of [[[your]4252-you father]5365-your father 's assassin]4262-your father 's assassin , and all that [I]0-i can tell to aid [your]4252-you own pursuit . The hair found in [[your]4252-you mother]5332-your mother 's grasp was beyond a doubt [Lepardo]570-lepardo 's ; that laid upon [[your]4252-you father]5365-your father 's bosom was , of course , [my]0-i [Lily]606-lily 's . It was to show that [her]5332-your mother supposed seduction had been expiated . The one thing that most surprised [me]0-i was that [the murderer]831-the murderer left no token , no symbol of [himself]831-the murderer . In a Vendetta murder [they]4266-they almost always do , as a mark of triumph and a gage to [[the victim]8366-the victim 's family]4268-the victim 's family . Hence [I]0-i believed that [Signor Dezio]589-signor dezio was not killed in [Vendetta]168-vendetta , but by [[his]589-signor dezio nephew]4269-his nephew for gain . How [Lepardo]570-lepardo got into [the house]764-the house [I]0-i have no idea , or rather [I]0-i had none , until [you]4271-you told [me]0-i of the secret passage , and [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy 's entrance . Till then [I]0-i always thought that [he]831-the murderer had clambered up , as [he]831-the murderer did at [Veduta tower]233-veduta tower . But unless there was [a traitor]4272-a traitor in [the household]870-the household , [he]831-the murderer must have been [there]1114-there more than once , to have known so well [[[your]4271-you father]5365-your father 's sleeping room]4276-your father 's sleeping room . It would have been waste of time for [me]0-i to concern [myself]0-i about [the county police]4277-the county police . That body of well - conducted navvies — [Lepardo]570-lepardo would have outwitted [them]4277-the county police , when [he]831-the murderer was five years old . Neither did [I]0-i meddle with [the coroner]801-the coroner and [[his]801-the coroner jury]4279-his jury , but left [them]4277-the county police to [their]4277-the county police own devices and indigenous intellect . [These]4280-these displayed [themselves]4280-these in much puzzle - headed cross - questioning , sagacious looks , and nods , and winks of acute reservation . It was , as most often it is , a bulldog after a hare . [Lepardo]570-lepardo might safely have been in the midst of [them]4277-the county police , asked for a chair , and made suggestions . as " amicus curiæ . "[570-lepardo] But with [the [London]1-london police]4281-the london police it was somewhat different . [They]4281-the london police showed some little acumen , but [their]4281-the london police fundamental error is this — [they]4281-the london police pride [themselves]4281-the london police on [their]4281-the london police intelligence . [No man of any real depth]4282-no man of any real depth ever does such a thing as this . [He]4282-no man of any real depth knows very well that whatever [he]4282-no man of any real depth is , there are half a million more so ; that the age of exceptional intellects expired , at least in [this country]1963-this country , with [Mr. Edmund Burke]641-mr. edmund burke , and is not likely to rise from the dead . Now [we]4284-we are all pretty much good useful clods on a level : education , like all good husbandry , tends to pulverisation ; and if the collective produce is greater , let [us]4284-we be at once thankful and humble . The [London]1-london police , being proud of [their]4281-the london police intelligence , declared that there could be no doubt about [their]4281-the london police catching [the criminal]6171-the criminal . [They]4281-the london police laughed at [my]0-i belief that [he]6171-the criminal might walk through the midst of [them]4281-the london police , while [they]4281-the london police would touch [their]4281-the london police hats to [him]6171-the criminal , and beg [him]6171-the criminal to look after [his]6171-the criminal handkerchief . At one time , [I]0-i think , [they]4281-the london police were really on [his]6171-the criminal track , and [I]0-i went to [London]1-london , and stayed [there]1114-there , and did [my]0-i best to help [them]4281-the london police . But [they]4281-the london police were all too late ; [Lepardo]570-lepardo , if [he]6171-the criminal it were , had left for [Paris]247-paris the week before . To [Paris]247-paris [I]0-i followed , but found no trace of [him]6171-the criminal there . Then [I]0-i went on to [Corsica]150-corsica , thinking it likely that [he]6171-the criminal would return to [his]6171-the criminal old piratical ways . Moreover , [I]0-i wanted to see how [[[my]0-i children]6217-my children 's estates]4288-my children 's estates were managed , and to revisit [St. Katharine]188-st. katharine 's . All was calm and peaceful . [[Lily]606-lily 's grave]4289-lily 's grave and [[her]606-lily father]898-her father 's were blended in one rich herbage . There all the bloom of [my]0-i life was drooping , like the yellow mountain - rose , whence if a single flower be plucked , all the other blossoms fall . [Count Gaffori]631-count gaffori received [me]0-i kindly . [[His]631-count gaffori daughter]2465-his daughter was married and had [two children]1626-two children , who played where [[Lily]606-lily 's boy]4293-lily 's boy and [girl]4294-girl should by rights be playing . [I]0-i could not bear it , and came away , having nothing now to care for . Wherever [I]0-i went [the world]798-the world seemed much of a muchness to [me]0-i ; and to [my]0-i own misfortunes the blood of [[my]0-i brother]1302-my brother was added . [I]0-i found the " Lilyflower "[606-lily] still under [worthy Petro]624-petro , and returned in [her]606-lily to [England]9-england , and [she]606-lily still is mine . [Petro]624-petro would not come ; [he]624-petro was too true [a Corsican]8323-a corsican to leave [the beloved island]4298-the beloved island now [his]624-petro hair was grey . So [I]0-i set [him]624-petro up at [Calvi]159-calvi with [a vessel of [his]624-petro own]4299-a vessel of his own , and now and then [I]0-i receive a letter from [good Marcantonia]625-marcantonia . [They]4300-they have promised to watch for the reappearance of [[our]4301-our fearful enemy]4302-our fearful enemy ; and [Petro]624-petro has sworn to shoot [him]624-petro , if ever [he]624-petro gets a chance . After [my]0-i return to [England]9-england , [I]0-i set to work with all [my]0-i energy to improve [this property]5453-this property . In this , if in nothing else , [I]0-i have thoroughly succeeded . Much opposition [I]0-i had to encounter ; for [the tenants]6348-the tenants regarded [me]0-i as [a mere interloper]4305-a mere interloper , and [their]6348-the tenants hearts were with [you]4306-you and [[your]4306-you mother]5332-your mother . When [I]0-i call [them]6348-the tenants together to - morrow , as [I]0-i intend to do , abandon all [my]0-i right , title , and interest , and declare [you]4306-you [[their]6348-the tenants Signora]4308-their signora , it is [my]0-i firm belief that [they]6348-the tenants will hardly think [me]0-i worth cursing before [they]6348-the tenants worship [you]4306-you . [This old retainership]4309-this old retainership is a thing to be proud and yet ashamed of . It is a folly that makes one glory in being [a fool]7085-a fool . Why , after [you]4306-you left for [Devonshire]4-devonshire ( much , as [you]4306-you know , against [my]0-i will ) , [I]0-i could not ride out without being insulted , and even [the boys]2098-the boys called [me]0-i " [Jonathan Wild]643-jonathan wild . "[0-i] But this was due , in some measure , to [[your]4306-you father]5365-your father 's gay geniality , and hearty good - will to [all men]951-all men , contrasted with [my]0-i satiric and moody reserve . Neither were [your]4306-you youth , and sex , and helplessness , lost upon that chivalrous being — if [he]5365-your father only knew [his]5365-your father chivalry — [the sturdy English yeoman]4314-the sturdy english yeoman . Why did [I]0-i let [you]4306-you go ? Well , [I]0-i believe it was one of the many mistakes of [my]0-i life ; but [I]0-i had a number of reasons , though personal dislike of [you]4306-you was not , as [you]4306-you thought , one of them . No , [[my]0-i child]1549-my child , [I]0-i have never disliked [you]4306-you ; not even on the night when [you]4306-you came and denounced [me]0-i , with the dagger in [your]4306-you hand . [I]0-i must indeed have been worse than [I]0-i am , if [I]0-i could have nourished ill - will against [a young thing , whom [I]0-i had made [an orphan]1231-an orphan]4316-a young thing , whom i had made an orphan . By some instinct , [you]4306-you knew from the first that the deed was [mine]0-i , although [I]0-i was not [the doer]6461-the doer . [I]0-i would have loved [you]4306-you , if [you]4306-you would have let [me]0-i , [my]0-i heart yearned so over [children]1229-children . But of [my]0-i reason for letting [you]4306-you go , the chiefest perhaps — setting aside that [I]0-i could not stop [you]4306-you — was this consideration . For years [I]0-i had longed , and craved in [my]0-i heart of hearts , to tell [[your]4306-you mother]5332-your mother all , and obtain [her]5332-your mother gentle forgiveness . But any allusion — no matter how veiled and mantled — to the story of [her]5332-your mother loss threw [her]5332-your mother , as [you]4306-you know well , into a most peculiar state , wherein all the powers of mind and body seemed to be quite suspended . With [a man]5384-a man 's usual roughness of prescription for the more delicate sex , [I]0-i believed firmly that total change of living , and air , and place , and habits , would relax this wonderful closure , secure [my]0-i forgiveness , and re - establish [her]5332-your mother health . The shock [I]0-i received at [her]5332-your mother death was almost as terrible as when [[my]0-i brother]1302-my brother died . When [I]0-i stood beside [you]4306-you at [[her]5332-your mother grave]4323-her grave , [I]0-i was come with the full intention of telling [you]4306-you all [my]0-i story , and begging [you]4306-you to return with [me]0-i , and live once more in [[[your]4306-you father]5365-your father 's house]3043-your father 's house . But [your]4306-you behaviour to [me]0-i was so cold and contemptuous , that [I]0-i forgot [my]0-i crushing debt to [you]4306-you ; and humiliation became , for the moment , impossible . [I]0-i meant , however , to have written to [you]4306-you that evening , before [you]4306-you should leave [the village]981-the village ; but ( as [you]4306-you now are aware ) that very evening , [I]0-i was smitten helpless . Partially recovering , after months of illness , [I]0-i was deeply distressed to find that [you]4306-you had left [[your]4306-you good friends]4327-your good friends in [Devonshire]4-devonshire , and were gone , [[my]0-i informants]4328-my informants could not say whither . Neither had [I]0-i learned [your]4306-you whereabouts up to the time of [my]0-i last illness , when [I]0-i was making inquiries , of which [[your]4306-you enemy]5427-your enemy reaped the benefit . For the rest , [you]4306-you know that [I]0-i never meant to rob [you]4306-you of [your]4306-you inheritance , though bigoted nonsense enables [me]0-i . To - morrow , please [God]303-god , [I]0-i will put it out of [my]0-i power to do so . [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy 's motive [you]4306-you have long since perceived . Failing [[my]0-i children]6217-my children , and [the attainted Lepardo]4331-the attainted lepardo , [[her]312-mrs. daldy son]1218-her son is [the heir to [all the lands of [the Della Croce]570-lepardo]4334-all the lands of the della croce]4333-the heir to all the lands of the della croce . [She]312-mrs. daldy has held [me]0-i much in [her]312-mrs. daldy power , by [her]312-mrs. daldy knowledge of parts of [my]0-i history . [Henry]298-harry 's baptismal entry , as well as that of [my]0-i marriage , was in the packet [she]312-mrs. daldy stole . One word more , [[my]0-i darling]5337-my darling — and from [an old man , who has wandered and suffered much]4336-an old man , who has wandered and suffered much , [you]4306-you will not think it impertinent . Leave [your]4306-you revenge to [God]303-god . In [His]4336-an old man , who has wandered and suffered much way — which [we]4337-we call wonderful , because the steps are unseen — [He]4336-an old man , who has wandered and suffered much will accomplish it for [you]4306-you , as righteousness demands . Any interference of [ours]4337-we is a worm - cast in [[His]4336-an old man , who has wandered and suffered much avenue]4338-his avenue . Though [I]0-i am stricken and dying , [He]4336-an old man , who has wandered and suffered much , if so pleases [Him]4336-an old man , who has wandered and suffered much , will bring [me]0-i [[my]0-i children]6217-my children before [I]0-i die , that [I]0-i may bless [Him]4336-an old man , who has wandered and suffered much , and tell [[my]0-i [Lily]606-lily]7976-my lily . " [I]606-lily fell upon [the old man]7306-the old man 's neck — old [he]7306-the old man was , though not in years — and as [I]606-lily wept [I]606-lily kissed [him]7306-the old man . How could [I]606-lily have wronged [him]7306-the old man so , and how could [I]606-lily keep [myself]606-lily from loving one so long unhappy ? If sorrow be the sponge of sin , [his]7306-the old man fault was wiped away . At this time and place , [I]606-lily , [Clara Vaughan]293-clara , leap from the pillion of [[my]606-lily Uncle]1271-my uncle 's pensive mule , and am upon the curb - stone of [my]606-lily own strange life again . How [I]606-lily wandered with [him]7306-the old man through [the olive groves of [Corsica]150-corsica]8522-the olive groves of corsica , how [I]606-lily wept for [his]7306-the old man loving [Lily]606-lily , [that ancient Signor]3756-that ancient signor , and the stolen babes ; and how , beyond the vomito of words , [I]606-lily loathed [that fiend who had injured whom or what most [I]606-lily know not , unless it were [his]7306-the old man own soul]8524-that fiend who had injured whom or what most i know not , unless it were his own soul , if [he]7306-the old man had any , and for [God]303-god 's sake [I]606-lily hope [he]7306-the old man had — all this , though [I]606-lily am too weak of language , will , perhaps , be understood . To [myself]606-lily [I]606-lily would hardly confess the interest [I]606-lily could not discard in the pure and constant love of [that impassioned pair]8525-that impassioned pair ; for what had [I]606-lily any longer to do with [Pyramus]644-pyramus and [Thisbe]248-thisbe ? No more of love for [me]606-lily . [You]8526-you will not see [me]606-lily droop , and fret , and turn to a mossy green . No nonsense of that sort for [me]606-lily : [I]606-lily have a loop at either side entitled self - respect , which will keep [my]606-lily skirt from draggling . Neither will [I]606-lily rush into the opposite extreme , pronounce all love a bubble because [my]606-lily own has burst , take to low - necked dresses , and admire cats more than babies . No ; [I]606-lily am only eighteen , not yet eighteen and a half ; [I]606-lily have loved with all [my]606-lily heart , and a free true heart it is , albeit [a hot and haughty one]8527-a hot and haughty one ; if it be despised , outraged , and made nothing of , though [I]606-lily can never transfer , [I]606-lily will not turn it sour . [The world]798-the world is every whit as fair , [children]1229-children are quite as pretty , flowers have as rich a scent , and goodness as pure a charm , as if [that silly maiden]8530-that silly maiden [Clara]293-clara had not leaped before [she]293-clara looked . And yet how [I]606-lily wish that [I]606-lily could only think so . Before [I]606-lily go on with [my]606-lily tale , [I]606-lily must recur to one or two little matters , that everything may be as clear as it lies in [my]606-lily power to make it . For although [I]606-lily am but [a "[606-lily] female]6176-a " female , " as [Inspector Cutting]412-inspector cutting observed , [I]606-lily am doing [my]606-lily best to make everything as clear as if told by [a male]8532-a male . In the first place then , when [[my]606-lily Uncle]1271-my uncle had recovered from the exertion of telling [his]1271-my uncle tale , [I]606-lily acquainted [him]1271-my uncle with [my]606-lily discovery of the letters upon the bed - hangings . [They]8534-they confirmed [his]1271-my uncle account of the fearful Vendetta usages , and explained the point which had been to [him]1271-my uncle most mysterious . Secondly , as to the anonymous letter which had led [me]606-lily first to [London]1-london ; like [the detective policeman]8535-the detective policeman , [he]1271-my uncle now attached but little importance to it . [He]1271-my uncle had done [his]1271-my uncle best , at the time , to trace [the writer]6119-the writer and follow the clue , if there were any . But [he]1271-my uncle had met with no success . [His]1271-my uncle reason for passing it on to [me]606-lily , was that [he]1271-my uncle hoped to create some diversion of [my]606-lily thought , some break in the clouds of [my]606-lily sorrow . Next , to show the full meaning of [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy 's manoeuvres . Through [her]312-mrs. daldy connexion — which [she]312-mrs. daldy had carefully cultivated , when it began to seem worth [her]312-mrs. daldy while — with [[[her]312-mrs. daldy husband]6140-her husband 's kindred near [Genoa]65-genoa]8538-her husband 's kindred near genoa , [she]312-mrs. daldy had learned some portions of [[my]606-lily poor Uncle]2919-my poor uncle 's history ; for , as [he]1271-my uncle [himself]1271-my uncle observed , [the islanders]8431-the islanders are much addicted to gossip , as indeed [all islanders]8541-all islanders are , and continentals too for that matter , especially in hot climates . Now there is no lack of intercourse between [the Balagna]183-the balagna and [Genoa]65-genoa . Of course [[our]8542-our chastened hypocrite]8543-our chastened hypocrite made the most of [her]312-mrs. daldy knowledge in a hundred ways , and by [her]312-mrs. daldy sham sympathy and pretended aid — for up to the time of [his]1271-my uncle illness [the desolate father]8544-the desolate father still sought and sought — [she]312-mrs. daldy even secured some little influence over [[her]312-mrs. daldy brother - in - law]8545-her brother - in - law . How often is it so : though [we]8542-our know [people]1132-people to be false , [we]8542-our do not believe , when [our]8542-our hearts are concerned , that [they]1132-people are so false to [us]8542-our . Moreover , when [she]312-mrs. daldy found [him]1271-my uncle shattered in body and mind by paralysis , [she]312-mrs. daldy commenced an active bombardment , pulling out the tompions from every gun of mock religion . But , as in [her]312-mrs. daldy treatment of [me]606-lily , [she]312-mrs. daldy displayed , in spite of all [her]312-mrs. daldy experience and trials , a sad ignorance of unregenerate human nature . [[My]606-lily Uncle]1271-my uncle was not the man , palsied or no , to be terrified by [a Calvinist]8548-a calvinist : and [he]1271-my uncle knew too much of [her]312-mrs. daldy early days , and certain doings at [Baden]249-baden , to identify [her]312-mrs. daldy at present with [the angel that stands in the sun]8549-the angel that stands in the sun . And [this prison - eyed mole]8550-this prison - eyed mole made another mistake . Not content with one good gallery , [she]312-mrs. daldy must needs work two runs , side by side , in a very mealy soil . The result was of course that [they]8551-they ran into one , and [she]312-mrs. daldy had to dig [her]312-mrs. daldy way out . If [she]312-mrs. daldy had worked , heart and soul , for [[my]606-lily Uncle]1271-my uncle 's money only , which [he]1271-my uncle rightly regarded as [his]1271-my uncle own , and at [his]1271-my uncle own disposal , [I]606-lily believe [she]312-mrs. daldy might have got most of it . At any rate , under the will which [I]606-lily caught [her]312-mrs. daldy carrying off , [she]312-mrs. daldy was to take half of the large sum which [he]1271-my uncle had laid by ; [I]606-lily mean if [[his]1271-my uncle children]2467-his children did not come to light , and prove [their]2467-his children legitimacy . But twenty - five thousand pounds would be nothing to [[her]312-mrs. daldy dear son , who had inherited [[his]1271-my uncle father]1062-his father 's extravagance , or to [herself]312-mrs. daldy , who loved high play]8554-her dear son , who had inherited his father 's extravagance , or to herself , who loved high play . Therefore , believing [me]606-lily out of the field , [she]312-mrs. daldy began to plot for [the Vaughan estate]8556-the vaughan estate as well , and furthermore for [the magnificent property in [Corsica]150-corsica]8557-the magnificent property in corsica . Of [the Vaughan estates]8558-the vaughan estates [she]312-mrs. daldy had no chance — albeit [she]312-mrs. daldy had the impudence to propose a compromise with [me]606-lily — of [Veduta]233-veduta tower tower [she]312-mrs. daldy had some prospect , if [the right heirs]8559-the right heirs , [the poor children]8560-the poor children , should never appear , or establish [their]8559-the right heirs claim , and if [she]312-mrs. daldy could procure the outlawry of [Lepardo]570-lepardo . Believing [[my]606-lily Uncle]1271-my uncle to be dying by inches , [she]312-mrs. daldy made a bold stroke for possession of the most important documents ; and , but for [Giudice]590-giudice and [me]606-lily , no doubt [she]312-mrs. daldy would have succeeded . But [she]312-mrs. daldy had dashed far out of [her]312-mrs. daldy depth , and had little chance now of reaching [the coveted land]8562-the coveted land . [I]606-lily hope [she]312-mrs. daldy felt that everything was ordered for [her]312-mrs. daldy good . Another point which seems to require some explanation , is the discovery by the assassin of the secret entrance , an access quite unknown to [the family]1254-the family , [the servants]772-the servants , or [any other person]8565-any other person , except , at a later time , [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy . [The house]764-the house , as [I]606-lily said before , was built upon [the site]3257-the site and partly embodied the fabric of [a still more ancient structure]8568-a still more ancient structure . Probably these narrow stairs , now enclosed in the basement of the eastern wall , had saved [many [a ripe priest]8570-a ripe priest from reeling , in the time of [the Plantagenets]8571-the plantagenets]8569-many a ripe priest from reeling , in the time of the plantagenets . [They]8571-the plantagenets led , [I]606-lily think , from [the ancient chapel]8572-the ancient chapel , long since destroyed , to [[the chaplain]8573-the chaplain 's room]8574-the chaplain 's room , and perhaps had been reopened secretly during the great rebellion , when [the Vaughans]398-vaughans were in hot trouble . [Beatrice Vaughan]562-beatrice vaughan , [[the cavalier]8575-the cavalier 's child]8576-the cavalier 's child , who was now supposed to begin [her]562-beatrice vaughan ghost walk at the eastern window , glided probably down this staircase , when , as the legend relates , [she]562-beatrice vaughan escaped mysteriously from [the house]764-the house , in [[her]562-beatrice vaughan father]898-her father 's absence , roused [the tenants]6348-the tenants , and surprised [the Roundhead garrison in [their]6348-the tenants beds]8580-the roundhead garrison in their beds . [The house]764-the house was soon retaken , and [Beatrice]562-beatrice vaughan , in [her]562-beatrice vaughan youthful beauty , given up to [the brutal soldiers]8582-the brutal soldiers . [She]562-beatrice vaughan snapped a pistol at [the Puritan officer]8583-the puritan officer , and flew like a bird along [this corridor]8584-this corridor . At the end , while trying perhaps to draw the old oak slide — though nothing was said of this — [she]562-beatrice vaughan was caught by [the gloating fanatics]8585-the gloating fanatics , and stabbed [herself]562-beatrice vaughan on the spot rather than yield to dishonour . [[The poor maiden]8586-the poor maiden 's tomb]8587-the poor maiden 's tomb is in [the church]1351-the church , not far from the chancel arch , with some lines of quaint Latin upon [it]8587-the poor maiden 's tomb . [[Her]562-beatrice vaughan lover]8589-her lover , [Sir William Desborough]646-sir william desborough , slit [that Puritan officer]8590-that puritan officer 's nose and cut off both [his]646-sir william desborough ears . [I]606-lily wonder that [he]646-sir william desborough let [him]646-sir william desborough off so lightly ; but perhaps it was all [he]646-sir william desborough was worth . [Major Cecil Vaughan]421-major cecil vaughan married again , and the direct line was re - established . [The chapel well]8591-the chapel well , as [it]8591-the chapel well was called , dark and overhung with ivy , was a spring of limpid icy crystal , spanned by and forming a deep alcove in the ancient chapel wall , which , partly for [its]8591-the chapel well sake , and partly as a buttress for [the east end of [the house]764-the house]844-the east end of the house , had been left still standing . [This old well]8594-this old well had long time been disused , hiding , as [it]8594-this old well did , in a wild and neglected corner out of sight from [the terrace walk]8595-the terrace walk ; and [the gardeners , who found the pump less troublesome]8596-the gardeners , who found the pump less troublesome , had condemned the water as too cold for [their]8596-the gardeners , who found the pump less troublesome plants . The mouth , with its tangled veil of ivy and periwinkle , was also masked by a pile of [the chapel ruins]8597-the chapel ruins , now dignified with the name of a rockwork . Some steps of jagged stone led through the low black archway to [the crouching water]8598-the crouching water , which was so clear that it seemed to doubt which was itself and which was stone . [This peaceful , cold , unruffled well]8599-this peaceful , cold , unruffled well , formed the antechamber to [[the murderer]831-the murderer 's passage]8601-the murderer 's passage . For on the right - hand side , not to be seen in the darkness , and the sublustrous confusion , by any common eye , was a small niche and footing - place not a yard above [the water]1150-the water . [It]8603-it needed some nerve and vigour to spring from the lowest stepping - stone sideways to this scarcely visible ledge . [None , of the few whose eyes were good enough to espy it]8604-none , of the few whose eyes were good enough to espy it , would be tempted to hazard the leap , unless [they]8604-none , of the few whose eyes were good enough to espy it knew or suspected that the facing would yield to the foot , that it was in fact a small door purposely coloured and jointed like the slimy green of the masonry . In this well [the murderer]831-the murderer must have lurked ; and [he]831-the murderer might have done so from one year 's end to another . There with the craft of [his]831-the murderer devilish race — [[my]606-lily Uncle]1271-my uncle may admire [them]8607-them , but not [I]606-lily — and with [their]8607-them wonderful powers of sight , [he]831-the murderer must have found this entrance , and rejoiced in [his]831-the murderer hellish heart . As for [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy , [she]312-mrs. daldy found it out at the other end , most likely . Unless [my]606-lily memory fails [me]606-lily , [I]606-lily spoke long ago of some boards which sounded hollow to the ring of [my]606-lily childish knuckles . These were in the skirting — if that be the proper name for it — under the centre of the great oriel window . The oak slides , when pressed from below , ran in a groove with but little noise , and without much force being used : but it required some strength to move them on the side of [the corridor]7666-the corridor . It was the sound of these sliding boards which had first drawn [Judy]477-judy 's notice : but as they were in deep shadow , [I]606-lily neither perceived the opening , nor gave [him]831-the murderer the opportunity . [That woman]1232-that woman would never have dreamed of the thing , if [she]1232-that woman had not surprised [me]606-lily one day when [I]606-lily was prying about [there]1114-there ; [she]1232-that woman must have returned alone , and being , as [we]8611-we have seen , [a superior cabinet - maker]8612-a superior cabinet - maker , discovered the secret which baffled [me]606-lily . As [I]606-lily did not want [Judy]477-judy to catch cold by watching there any longer , [I]606-lily had [this horrible passage]8613-this horrible passage walled up at either end , and built across in the middle . Having thus made good [my]606-lily arrears , [I]606-lily am at liberty to proceed . When [[my]606-lily Uncle]1271-my uncle had paused from [his]1271-my uncle many sorrows , which [he]1271-my uncle did with a mellow dignity not yet understood by [me]606-lily ; and when [I]606-lily , in the fervour of youth , had offered much comfort kindly received , but far better let alone , [I]606-lily asked [him]4342-i for one thing only:—the most minute and accurate description [he]4342-i could give of [that Lepardo Della Croce]570-lepardo . [His]4342-i answer was as follows : — "[606-lily] [[My]0-i dear]5318-my dear , [I]0-i have seen [him]4342-i once only , and that more than twenty years ago , and in an interview of [some excitement"—I]8615-some excitement"—i should think so indeed , when [one]6186-one tried to kill [the other—"but]8617-the other—"but[8615-some excitement"—i] [I]0-i will describe [him]4342-i to the best of [my]0-i recollection . [He]4342-i is [rather [a tall man]8306-a tall man , at least of about [my]0-i own height , but more lightly built than [myself]0-i]4343-rather a tall man , at least of about my own height , but more lightly built than myself . [His]4342-i hands and feet are remarkably small and elegant . [His]4342-i face is of the true Italian type , a keen oval with a straight nose , and plenty of width between the eyes , which are large and very dark . [His]4342-i forehead is not massive , but well - formed , and much whiter than the rest of [his]4342-i face . The expression of [his]4342-i countenance is that of shrewdness and versatility , with a quickness eager to save both [you]4345-you and [himself]4342-i from the trouble of completing [your]4345-you sentence . But all this is common enough . One thing [I]0-i saw , or fancied , which is not quite so common . As [I]0-i dealt [him]4342-i that blow with [my]0-i fist , [my]0-i eyes for one flash met [his]4342-i , and [his]4342-i leaped towards [one another]758-one another , as if [he]4342-i had a strong cast in them . Before that , and afterwards too , there was no appearance of any distortion : if there were any at that moment , it arose from the start of terror or fury jerking the muscles awry . [His]4342-i voice is flexible and persuasive , and soft as [a serpent - charmer]4347-a serpent - charmer 's . [I]0-i think [he]4342-i must be [a most arrogant man]4348-a most arrogant man ; profoundly convinced of [his]4342-i own abilities , but seldom caring to vindicate them . Just [the man to get on in [the world]798-the world , if [he]4342-i were only what is called respectable]4349-the man to get on in the world , if he were only what is called respectable . Just [the man to break [a woman]5830-a woman 's heart , and crush the spirit of [a meek and humble child]4353-a meek and humble child]4351-the man to break a woman 's heart , and crush the spirit of a meek and humble child . Ah , [I]0-i would forgive [him]4342-i [his]4342-i sins against [me]0-i , though not [his]4342-i wrongs towards [you]4354-you , if [I]0-i could only learn that [he]4342-i had been kind to [[my]0-i children]6217-my children . " This description dwelt on [my]4342-i mind for days and days of thinking . It did not altogether apply to [the man whom [I]4342-i had observed so closely at the meeting of [the conspirators]2832-the conspirators]8618-the man whom i had observed so closely at the meeting of the conspirators . [That man]1220-that man was of middle height , and though [his]1220-that man face was oval , there was scarcely the average width between the eyes . And [he]1220-that man did not seem to [me]4342-i like [an arrogant man]8621-an arrogant man , cold except when excited ; but rather of a hasty , impassioned nature , sure to do its utmost in trifles . Could it be that [I]4342-i had watched and hated [the wrong man]8622-the wrong man ? It might be so ; and it was not unlikely that [Mr. Cutting]8623-mr. cutting [himself]8623-mr. cutting knew not which was the guilty one . Like [most of [the London policemen]8625-the london policemen]8624-most of the london policemen — [[my]4342-i Uncle]1271-my uncle had taught [me]4342-i this — [he]1271-my uncle was too proud of [his]1271-my uncle sagacity to be in truth very sagacious . Experience [he]1271-my uncle had , and all that ; but [he]1271-my uncle would not have done in [Paris]247-paris . The real depth , that goes below , and yet allows for the depth of another , must be in the nature , can rarely exist in a small one , and in a large one is seldom worked but for theoretical purposes . Therefore [shallow men]8627-shallow men overreach in daily life , and fancy [they]8627-shallow men have blinded those who know [them]8627-shallow men thoroughly , and know [themselves]8627-shallow men as well . So far as [my]4342-i experience goes , [large - natured men]8628-large - natured men abhor cunning so much , that [they]8628-large - natured men fear to work the depth of [their]8628-large - natured men own intelligence , because it seems akin to it . So [they]8628-large - natured men are cheated every day , as [a strong man]8629-a strong man yields to the push of [a child]782-a child ; and [the fools who cheat [them]8628-large - natured men]8631-the fools who cheat them chuckle in the idea that [they]8628-large - natured men have done it by fine sagacity , and without [the victim]8366-the victim 's knowledge . At [my]4342-i earnest entreaty , the idea of assembling [the tenants]6348-the tenants especially was allowed to drop , and [I]4342-i was to be inducted at the Midsummer dinner , which was very near at hand . A deed had been prepared by [the [London]1-london solicitors]8634-the london solicitors , reciting the facts and assuring all [the estate]952-the estate to [me]4342-i , as [[my]4342-i father 's proper heiress]8636-my father 's proper heiress . [[My]4342-i Uncle]1271-my uncle also desired to settle upon [me]4342-i all the personal property , except a sum of 10,000*l . * , which [he]1271-my uncle would reserve for [[his]1271-my uncle children]2467-his children , to enable [them]2467-his children , if ever [they]2467-his children should be found , to establish [their]2467-his children claims in [Corsica]150-corsica : then if [the son]8639-the son obtained [his]8639-the son rights , [[his]8639-the son sister]2443-his sister was to have the money with all expenditure made good by [him]1271-my uncle . But [I]4342-i would not hear of it . It would have made [me]4342-i [a rogue]8641-a rogue . By [his]1271-my uncle skill and economy , [[my]4342-i Uncle]1271-my uncle , during the nine years of [his]1271-my uncle management , had saved more than 50,000*l . * from the proceeds of [the estate]952-the estate . But [he]1271-my uncle had added at least an equal amount to the value of [the land]1188-the land , by carrying out most judiciously the improvements begun by [[my]4342-i father]731-my father ; and the whole was now considered [the best - managed estate in [Gloucestershire]3-gloucestershire]8646-the best - managed estate in gloucestershire . Therefore , when [he]1271-my uncle abandoned [his]1271-my uncle legal right , in the most honourable manner , it would have been horribly shabby and unlike [a Vaughan]8647-a vaughan , to hold [him]1271-my uncle accountable for the back rents . [I]4342-i begged [him]1271-my uncle to leave the whole of it for the benefit of [[his]1271-my uncle poor children]8648-his poor children , requesting only , and unnecessarily , that [the hypocrite]8649-the hypocrite might not have sixpence . Another thing [I]4342-i entreated , that [he]1271-my uncle would prolong [his]1271-my uncle guardianship , and stewardship , if [his]1271-my uncle health allowed it , until [I]4342-i should be of age , that is to say , for two years and a half . Seeing how earnestly [I]4342-i desired it , [he]1271-my uncle undertook to do so , though [he]1271-my uncle made the promise with a melancholy smile , adding that [he]1271-my uncle hoped [[his]1271-my uncle children]2467-his children would be found ere then , if [he]1271-my uncle was to see [them]2467-his children at all . When the rent - dinner was over , and the glasses had been replaced , [[my]4342-i Uncle]1271-my uncle , who had not been there as usual , led [me]4342-i into [the great old hall]8652-the great old hall . Feeble as [he]1271-my uncle was , [he]1271-my uncle entered with a grace and courtesy not always to be discovered in [the mien of [princes]8654-princes]8653-the mien of princes . The supper — as [the farmers]8655-the farmers called it — had not begun till six o'clock ; and now the evening sunshine glanced through the western window , and between the bunches of stoning grapes into the narrow doorway , stealing in from the Vinery with sandals of leafy pattern . [The hall]8656-the hall was decked with roses , no other flower but roses ; yet who could want any other , when every known rose was there ? Even the bright yellow blossoms of the Corsican rock - rose , a plant so sensitive that to steal one flower is to kill all the rest . From time out of mind , some feudal custom of tenure by the rose had been handed down in [[our]8657-our family]1997-our family . [All the guests]8659-all the guests rose as [we]8657-our passed , which made [me]4342-i rather nervous , albeit [I]4342-i knew every one of [them]8659-all the guests from [my]4342-i childhood up . Then [[my]4342-i Uncle]1271-my uncle , leaning on [me]4342-i , spoke a few words from the step , plain and simple words without flourish or pretence . What [he]1271-my uncle said was known long since , and had been thoroughly discussed in [every house of [the village]981-the village]8661-every house of the village . [He]1271-my uncle finished by setting [me]4342-i in the black oak chair of state — which [he]1271-my uncle had never used — and presenting [me]4342-i with a rose ; then [he]1271-my uncle turned round and proposed [my]4342-i health . When [I]4342-i took the rose , an exquisite crested moss , kissed it and placed it in [my]4342-i bosom , according to the usage , such a shout arose , such an English hurrah , that it must have echoed to [the other bank of [the distant Severn]7-the severn]8663-the other bank of the distant severn . At first [I]4342-i was quite frightened , then [I]4342-i burst into tears as [I]4342-i thought of [him]1271-my uncle whose chair [I]4342-i sat in , [whose memory still was echoing in that mighty shout]8664-whose memory still was echoing in that mighty shout . It was not only love of right , or sympathy with [a helpless girl]8665-a helpless girl , that moved [those honest bosoms]8666-those honest bosoms , but the remembrance of [him]1271-my uncle who had been so pleasant to [them]8666-those honest bosoms , humble , kind and just , in one word , [a gentleman]5462-a gentleman . But as [they]8666-those honest bosoms came up , one by one , and begged to take [my]4342-i hand , and wished [me]4342-i joy and long life with all [their]8666-those honest bosoms hearts , [I]4342-i found that [I]4342-i was right in one thing ; [I]4342-i knew [them]8666-those honest bosoms better than [[my]4342-i Uncle]1271-my uncle did . Instead of being rude or cold to [him]1271-my uncle , as [he]1271-my uncle expected , [they]8666-those honest bosoms almost overwhelmed [him]1271-my uncle with praise and admiration . But all this [I]4342-i must not dwell on , for [my]4342-i story hurries hence , and its path is not through roses . [Annie Franks]552-annie franks , who still was with [us]8669-us , and did not mean to go until [she]552-annie franks had finished all the Froissart novels , and such [a dear good girl]8670-a dear good girl [she]552-annie franks was , that [we]8669-us hoped [they]8666-those honest bosoms would last for ever , [Annie Franks]552-annie franks brought [me]4342-i next day two letters of aspect strange to "[4342-i] good society . " One [I]0-i knew at a glance to be from [Tossil]361-tossil 's Barton , though the flourishes were amazing , and the lead - pencil lines rubbed out . The other , a work of far less ambition and industry , was an utter stranger ; so of course [I]0-i took it first . Nevertheless , [I]0-i will treat of it last , because it opens the stormy era . [Dear Sally]647-sally 's gossip is not to be served up whole . Even if it were interesting to [others]869-others as to [me]0-i , [[my]0-i space]8672-my space permits no dalliance with [farm - yards]8673-farm - yards , no idyls of [Timothy Badcock]344-tim , nay , nor even the stern iambics of [Ebenezer Dawe]350-mr. dawe . Only to be just and clear , [I]0-i may not slur it all . The direction was remarkable . [The farmer]5517-the farmer was always afraid of not being duly explicit , for [he]5517-the farmer believed that letters were delivered throughout [England]9-england as in [the parish of Trentisoe]8675-the parish of trentisoe ; where all , except those for [the parson]2679-the parson and [[Tossil]361-tossil 's Barton farm]6986-tossil 's barton farm , were set upside down in the window at [Pewter Will 's]378-bill , [the most public - house in [the place]5531-the place]8678-the most public - house in the place . The idea was ingenious , and , [I]0-i believe , original — having been suggested by [[the Queen]1427-the queen 's boy]2235-the queen 's boy , whose head [Mrs. Huxtable punched]331-mrs. huxtable . It was that [no one]730-no one could read the name upside down , except [the owner of the name and therefore of the letter]8683-the owner of the name and therefore of the letter . Sound or not , [I]0-i can not say , having had no experience ; but there was this to be said for it , that [no one]730-no one would try the puzzle who did not expect a letter , unless indeed [he]8685-he were of precocious genius , and from that [Trentisoe]12-trentisoe was quite safe . Upon the present "[0-i] papper - scrawl , " after a long description of [me]0-i , patronymical , local , and personal , the following injunctions and menaces were added , "[0-i] Not be stuck tops [I]0-i turve [I]0-i on no account in [no public house]4356-no public house . [She]4357-her be in [[her]4357-her own house]4358-her own house now again , thank [God]303-god and dang [them]4359-them as turned [her]4357-her out [I]0-i say , so mind [you]4360-you carr it [there]1114-there . A deal of money there be in it , and no fear of [Joe]451-joe because [he]451-joe knows it , and there lives [a man in [Gloucestershire]3-gloucestershire]4362-a man in gloucestershire knows [me]0-i well by the name of [Thomas Henwood]321-thomas henwood . Best look sharp [I]0-i say . [I]0-i be up to [every one of [you]4360-you]4363-every one of you . [John Huxtable]299-john [his]299-john name , no mark this time . God save [the queen]1427-the queen . " So [the farmer]5517-the farmer had actually learned to write , although as yet to a strictly limited extent . Of course [he]5517-the farmer had not written any of the above except [his]5517-the farmer name ; but that was [his]5517-the farmer , and did [him]5517-the farmer credit , though it nearly described a circle . After the warmest congratulations and returning the five - pound note , which [I]299-john had sent for interest , with an indignant inquiry from [father]738-father whether [I]299-john took [him]5517-the farmer for [a Jew]8688-a jew , and after several anecdotes and some histories of butter sold at [Ilfracombe]14-ilfracombe market , [Sally]647-sally proceeded thus : "[299-john] Now what do [you]4360-you think , [Miss Clara]293-clara dear ? No [you]4360-you never would guess as long as [you]4360-you live — [father]738-father are going to [London town]1-london , and [me]0-i , and [Jack]374-jack , and [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe . [None of [us]4367-us]4366-none of us have slept two grunts of a pig , ever since it were made up , only [father]738-father , and [he]738-father always sleep without turning . Now mind if [I]0-i tell [you]4360-you all about it , [you]4360-you must not tell again , [Miss Clara]293-clara , because there is ever so much money upon it , and [we]4367-us do hear [they]4369-they have put it on some [London]1-london paper and no business of theirs . [Two great gentlefolks]4370-two great gentlefolks , the greatest of any about these parts , have been and made up a bet for [[my]0-i father]731-my father to wrestle along with [a great big chap as [they]4369-they calls [the North Country champion]4373-the north country champion]4372-a great big chap as they calls the north country champion . Seems as [some great Northern lord]4374-some great northern lord was boasting in [London]1-london one dinner - time , [Speaker]4375-speaker 's dinner [they]4369-they called it because there were a deaf and dumb dinner next day , [this here great lord]4376-this here great lord was telling up as how [Sam Richardson]648-sam richardson were [the strongest man in [the world]798-the world]4377-the strongest man in the world . So [[our]4367-us Sir [Arthur]649-our sir arthur]649-our sir arthur spake up for [Devonshire]4-devonshire , and laid [him]649-our sir arthur a quart - pot full of [sovereigns]2627-sovereigns as [he]649-our sir arthur would find [a better man in [the West country]4381-the west country]4380-a better man in the west country . And so [I]0-i do n't know the rights of it , nor [father]738-father nor [mother]739-mother either , but it was made up atwixt [them]4384-them that [Farmer Huxtable]362-farmer huxtable , that 's [[my]0-i father]731-my father , [Miss]5433-miss , should try this great [North country]4387-north country chap at the time of the great Xabition — [you]5433-miss never showed [me]0-i the way to spell it , [Miss]4388-miss , so [I]0-i go by the light of nature , as [you]5433-miss used to say , [Miss]4389-miss — and should take best of three falls for 200*l . * a side . That will be 400*l . * for [us]4390-our , when [father]738-father gets it , and all [his]738-father expenses paid , and [they]4392-they say [the other folk]4393-the other folk wo n't allow no kicking , so [he]738-father must be [a soft - shelled chap]4394-a soft - shelled chap ; but [father]738-father feel no call to hurt [him]738-father , if so be [he]738-father can help it . [Mother]291-mother do n't want [father]738-father to go , but [he]738-father say [he]738-father be bound for the honour of [old Devonshire]4-devonshire , or maybe [they]4392-they will take [a man not good enough to make a standard]4397-a man not good enough to make a standard . And please , [Miss]4398-miss , when [we]4390-our brings [home]1102-home the money , [I]0-i be to go to [Miss Bowden]650-miss bowden 's , in [Boutport Street]255-boutport street , and [[our]4390-our [Jack]374-jack]2720-our jack to be put to [a day - school not more than six miles away]4401-a day - school not more than six miles away , and then [I]0-i hope [he]374-jack know [himself]374-jack , and look higher than that minx of [a Tabby Badcock]388-tabby . What do [you]4398-miss think , [Miss Clara]293-clara , [you]4398-miss would never believe it [I]0-i know , but only a week ago last Tuesday [I]0-i come sudden round the corner , and catched [her]4398-miss a kissing of [[our]4390-our [Jack]374-jack]2720-our jack in [the shed there by the shoot]4403-the shed there by the shoot . And after all [you]4398-miss taught [her]4398-miss , [Miss]4404-miss ! [Jack]374-jack [he]374-jack ran away , as red as mangawazzle , but [that brazen slut]4405-that brazen slut , there [she]4398-miss stand with [her]4398-miss legs out , as innocent as a picture . Never a word [I]0-i said , but with no more to do [I]0-i put [her]4398-miss head in the calves ' stommick as [we]4390-our makes the cheese with , in a bucket handy . It would have done [you]4398-miss good to see [[her]4398-miss [Miss]4407-miss]4406-her miss , [she]4398-miss did cry so hard , and [she]4398-miss smell of it for a week , and it cure [[our]4390-our [Jack]374-jack]2720-our jack , up to Sunday anyhow . [Mother]739-mother come out at the noise , but [her]739-mother see that [she]739-mother deserve it , and the runnet was no account , except for the pigs , because it were gone by . [I]0-i hope [she]739-mother know [her]739-mother manners now and [her]739-mother spear in life with [her]739-mother sheep 's eyes , and not come trying to catch [any of [[my]0-i family]1990-my family]4410-any of my family . Well , [Miss Clara]293-clara please , [father]738-father want [mother]739-mother to go ; but no , say [she]4398-miss , " with all [they"—she]8689-they"—she[4398-miss] ought to have said " [them]8689-they"—she "[4398-miss] [Miss]4414-miss , now had n't [she]4398-miss ought?—"with all [they]8689-they"—she young pigs , and the brown cow expecting every day , and [Suke]345-suke no head at all , and all the chillers and [little Clara"—she]651-little clara"—she[4398-miss] call [her]4398-miss " [Clara]293-clara "[4398-miss] now , [Miss,—"why farmer]8690-miss,—"why farmer what be thinking of ? "[4398-miss] Then [father]738-father rub the nose of [him]738-father , [you]293-clara know the way [he]738-father do it , [Miss]4416-miss , and [he]738-father say , " [I]738-father must have some one . [London]1-london be such [a wicked place]8691-a wicked place . "[738-father] [Mother]291-mother look up very sharp at that , and say quite peart , " take [[your]738-father daughter]8692-your daughter , [farmer Huxtable]362-farmer huxtable , if [you]738-father wants to be kept respectable . "[291-mother] So [I]0-i be to go [Miss]4417-miss ; and go [I]0-i would n't without [Jack]374-jack and leave [him]374-jack along of that sly cat [Tabby]388-tabby , and [her]388-tabby got sweet again now ; besides [I]0-i want [him]374-jack to choose a knife [I]0-i promised [him]374-jack , same as [he]374-jack saw to [Coom]87-coom one time , if [he]374-jack would n't let [Tabby]388-tabby kiss [him]374-jack with seven blades and a corkscrew , and [I]0-i 'll give eighteen pence for it , that [I]0-i will . And [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe must go to show [us]4418-us the way about , and see as [they]4419-they does n't cheat [us]4418-us , because [[his]334-beany dawe father]1062-his father was once to [London town]2176-london town , and told [him]334-beany dawe a power about it . If [you]4422-you please , [Miss Clara]293-clara , [father]738-father be put in training as [they]4419-they call it in these parts , all the same as a horse . [He]374-jack run up and down [Breakneck hill]5651-breakneck hill , with the best bed on [his]374-jack back , nine times every day , and [he]374-jack do n't drink no cider , no nor beer , nor gin and water , and [mother]739-mother hardly know [him]374-jack , [he]374-jack be come so clear in the skin ; but [he]374-jack say [his]374-jack hand shake still from the time [I]0-i taught [him]374-jack to write , and please , [Miss]4426-miss , what do [you]4426-miss think of the way [he]374-jack is going to sign this ? [I]0-i ca n't get [him]374-jack to put [his]374-jack thumb right , no nor [his]374-jack middle finger , and [he]374-jack stick [his]374-jack elbow out every bit as bad as [Tabby]388-tabby , and [he]374-jack say [he]374-jack like the pot - hooks over the fire best , but for all that [I]0-i believe [I]0-i shall make a scholard of [him]374-jack , particular when [he]374-jack give up wrestling , which [he]374-jack have sworn to do if [he]374-jack throw this Cumberland chap , and stick to [his]374-jack Bible and Prayer - book . Please , [Miss]5433-miss , not to be offended , but excuse [us]4428-us asking if [you]4426-miss like to see the great wrestling . [Father]448-miss. say no , it would not be fitty , and that be the worst of being [a gentlefolk]4429-a gentlefolk ; but [mother]739-mother say what harm , and [she]739-mother be sure [the farmer]5517-the farmer do it twice as well with [you]4426-miss there , and [you]4426-miss shall have the best seat in the place next to [the two judges]4432-the two judges , and such a pretty handkerchief [they]4432-the two judges sent down all spotted the same as a Guernsey cow , how [the people in church]4433-the people in church did stare at [me]0-i , and [you]4426-miss shall have two of the best , [Miss]4434-miss , but [I]0-i am afraid it be making too bold ; but [you]4426-miss never see any wrestling , [Miss]4435-miss , and [I]0-i am sure [you]4426-miss would enjoy it so . It take place in [the copandhagen fields]4436-the copandhagen fields , next Saturday week . Do come , [Miss Clara]293-clara dear , it will do [you]4426-miss so much good , and [you]4426-miss see [father]738-father , and [me]0-i , and [Jack]374-jack , and [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe . " [I]334-beany dawe need recount no more of poor [Sally]647-sally 's soft persuasions . The other letter was of a different vein : — "[334-beany dawe] [HONOURED Miss,—Balak]653-honoured miss,—balak and [me]0-i after a deal of trouble and labouring night and day and throwing up [our]4438-our vacation has at last succeeded in finding [you]4426-miss knows who . Personal interview will oblige , earliest inconvenience . No more at present not being safe on paper , from [[your]4426-miss most obedient servants]4439-your most obedient servants and suitors [BALAAM AND BALAK]539-balak — [you]4426-miss knows who . — [Poscrip.—Balak]654-poscrip.—balak says [a sharp young lady]4440-a sharp young lady quite sure to know what is right , but for fear of accidents please [a little of the ready]4441-a little of the ready will oblige , [large families both of [us]4438-our]4442-large families both of us has and it do take a deal of beer more than [our]4438-our proper vacation [no one]730-no one would guess unless [they]4444-they was to try and bad beer too a deal of it . For self and partner.—BALAAM . " When [[my]293-clara Uncle]1271-my uncle saw that letter , [he]1271-my uncle declared that [he]1271-my uncle would go to [London]1-london with [me]293-clara . No power on [earth]1622-earth should prevent [him]1271-my uncle . Not even [his]1271-my uncle self - willed [Clara]293-clara . It was not revenge [he]1271-my uncle wanted : even though it were for [[his]1271-my uncle innocent brother]8695-his innocent brother , whose wrongs [he]1271-my uncle could not pardon . No , if [the small - minded wretch who had spent [his]8696-the small - minded wretch who had spent his life in destroying a fellow - creature 's life in destroying a fellow - creature 's]8696-the small - minded wretch who had spent his life in destroying a fellow - creature 's , if [that contemptible miscreant]8697-that contemptible miscreant lay at [his]8696-the small - minded wretch who had spent his life in destroying a fellow - creature 's feet to - morrow , [he]8696-the small - minded wretch who had spent his life in destroying a fellow - creature 's would not plant foot upon [him]8696-the small - minded wretch who had spent his life in destroying a fellow - creature 's ; but forgive [him]8696-the small - minded wretch who had spent his life in destroying a fellow - creature 's heartily , if [he]8696-the small - minded wretch who had spent his life in destroying a fellow - creature 's had the grace to desire it . But for [his]1271-my uncle children,—for [them]8698-them [he]1271-my uncle must go to [London]1-london . Only let [him]1271-my uncle see [them]8698-them once before [he]1271-my uncle died . No torpid limbs for [him]1271-my uncle . Who said [he]1271-my uncle was old — and [he]1271-my uncle only forty - seven ? One thing seemed rather strange to [me]293-clara . [He]1271-my uncle longed , yearned [I]293-clara should say , to look upon [his]1271-my uncle little [Lily]606-lily even more than on [the child [he]1271-my uncle knew]8699-the child he knew , [[his]1271-my uncle son]1321-his son , [[his]1271-my uncle first - born [Harry]298-harry]8701-his first - born harry . "[293-clara] Why , [Clara]293-clara , " [he]1271-my uncle used to say , "[293-clara] [she]4445-she is nearly as old as [you]293-clara , and [you]293-clara are [a full - grown girl]6622-a full - grown girl . On the 21st of this month"—it was now July—"she[4445-she] will be eighteen ; [I]0-i can hardly believe it . [I]0-i wonder what [she]4445-she is like . Most likely [she]4445-she takes after [[her]4445-she lovely mother]4447-her lovely mother . No doubt of it , [I]0-i should say . Do n't [you]293-clara think so , [Clara]293-clara ? " "[293-clara] Of course , [Uncle]1284-uncle , " [I]4445-she would reply , knowing nothing at all about it , "[4445-she] of course [she]4445-she does . How [I]0-i should like to see [her]4445-she . " Perhaps fifty times a day , [he]1271-my uncle would ask for [my]0-i opinion , and [I]0-i would deliver it firmly , perhaps in the very same words and without a shade of misgiving ; and though of no value whatever , it seemed to comfort [him]1271-my uncle every time . But the prolonged excitement , and the stress of imagination exerted on [Lily junior]606-lily , told upon [him]1271-my uncle rapidly in [his]1271-my uncle worn and weak condition . Longing for [his]1271-my uncle company , assistance , and advice , [I]0-i waited from day to day , even at the risk of leaving [Balaam]537-balaam and [Balak]539-balak without good beer . All this time , [my]0-i imagination was busy with weak surmises , faint suspicions , and tangled recollections . At last , [I]0-i could delay no longer . Tuesday was the latest day [I]0-i could consent to wait for , and on the Monday [[my]0-i Uncle]1271-my uncle was more nervous and weak than ever . It was too plain that [he]1271-my uncle must not attempt the journey , and that the long suspense was impairing [his]1271-my uncle feeble health . So for once [I]0-i showed some decision — which seemed to have failed [me]0-i of late — without telling [him]1271-my uncle any more about it , [I]0-i got everything ready , and appeared at [[his]1271-my uncle bedroom]8703-his bedroom door , only to say "[0-i] Good bye . " [Annie Franks]552-annie franks , who was going with [me]0-i , for a short visit to [[her]552-annie franks father]898-her father , hung back in some amazement , doubting whether [she]552-annie franks had any right to be [there]1114-there , and dragged off [her]552-annie franks legs by the coil of [my]0-i strong will . [[My]0-i poor Uncle]2919-my poor uncle seemed quite taken aback ; but as it could not be helped , [he]1271-my uncle speedily made up [his]1271-my uncle mind to it . "[0-i] [The carriage]6087-the carriage was at the door ; " which announcement to English minds precludes all further argument . "[0-i] Good bye , [Uncle dear]7386-uncle dear , " [I]7386-uncle dear cried , as cheerily as [I]7386-uncle dear could , "[7386-uncle dear] [I]0-i shall be back by the end of the week and bring [[your]7386-uncle dear [Lily]606-lily]4451-your lily with [me]0-i . Give [me]0-i a good kiss for [her]606-lily , and now another for [myself]0-i . " [He]7386-uncle dear was sitting up in the bed , with a Cashmere dressing - gown on , and poring over some relics of olden time . "[0-i] Good bye , [[my]0-i darling]5337-my darling , and do n't be long away . [They]4453-i have robbed [me]0-i enough already . " After giving [Judy]477-judy the strictest orders , [I]4453-i hurried off in fear and hope , doubtful whether [I]4453-i ought to go . [Annie]552-annie franks lingered and gave [him]7386-uncle dear a kiss , for [she]552-annie franks was very fond of [him]7386-uncle dear . [He]7386-uncle dear whispered something about [me]4453-i , which [I]4453-i did not stop to hear , for [I]4453-i wanted to leave [him]7386-uncle dear in good spirits . After a rapid journey , [I]4453-i saw [dear Annie]552-annie franks safe in the arms of [[her]552-annie franks father]898-her father and [mother]739-mother , and found [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer at [home]1102-home , and in capital spirits , all the birds , & c. well , and no distress in [the house]764-the house . [Charley]395-charley was doing wonders , wonders , [[my]4453-i good friend]1798-my good friend , sticking to [his]7386-uncle dear work , yes , yes , and not inside [the public house]8712-the public house for the best part of the week . Leastways so [he]7386-uncle dear said , and it would not do to contradict [him]7386-uncle dear . And [she]391-mrs. shelfer really did believe there were only three bills over - due ! [[My]4453-i little rooms]8713-my little rooms were snug and quiet , and the dust not more than half an inch thick . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer used to say that dusting furniture was the worst thing in [the world]798-the world to wear it out . According to [her]391-mrs. shelfer theory , the dust excluded the air , especially from the joints , and prevented the fly - blows coming . However , [I]4453-i made [her]391-mrs. shelfer come up and furbish , while [I]4453-i went out to post a letter for [Messrs. Balaam]655-messrs. balaam and [Balak]539-balak , requesting [them]655-messrs. balaam to visit [me]4453-i in the morning . When things were set to rights a little , and air , which [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer hated , flowed in from [either balcony]8715-either balcony , [I]4453-i bought a fine crab and some [Sally Lunns]656-sally lunns , and begged for the pleasure of [[my]4453-i landlady]6074-my landlady 's company at tea . This [she]391-mrs. shelfer gladly gave [me]4453-i , for [the little woman]6264-the little woman loved nothing better than sucking the hairy legs of a crab . But [she]391-mrs. shelfer was so overcome by the rumours of [my]4453-i wealth , that [she]391-mrs. shelfer even feared to eject the pieces in [her]391-mrs. shelfer ordinary manner , and the front rail of [her]391-mrs. shelfer chair was like the beam of a balance . [Infinitely]657-infinitely rather would [I]4453-i be poor [myself]4453-i , than have [people]1132-people ceremonious to [me]4453-i because [I]4453-i am not poor ; and to tell the honest truth , [I]4453-i believe there is a vein of very low blood in [me]4453-i , which blushes at the sense of riches and position . Why should [I]4453-i have every luxury , that is if [I]4453-i choose to have it , while [men]1003-men and women of a thousand times [my]4453-i mind , and soul , and heart , spend [their]1132-people precious lives in earning the value of [their]1132-people coffins ? This thought has wearied [many a mind of pure aerial flight]8720-many a mind of pure aerial flight , compared whereto [my]4453-i weak departures are but the hops of a flea ; so [I]4453-i lose the imago , but catch the larva , upon the nettle , practice . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer is soon at ease ; and [we]8721-we talk of the price of cat 's meat , and how dear sausages are , and laugh — [myself]4453-i with sorrow — over the bygone days , when dripping played the role of butter , and [Judy]477-judy would not take a bone because [he]477-judy thought [I]4453-i wanted it . Then [we]8721-we talk over the news . [Miss Idols]466-idols had been there , bless [her]466-idols sweet face , yes , ever so many times , to look for letters , or to hear tidings of [me]4453-i . But [she]466-idols was not one bit like [herself]466-idols . [She]466-idols never teased [the poor little woman]6265-the poor little woman now ; [the poor little woman]6265-the poor little woman wished very much [she]6265-the poor little woman would . Oh , [I]4453-i should hardly know [her]466-idols . [She]466-idols did not know which bird it was that had the wooden leg , and had forgotten the difference between a meal - worm and a lob . And [she]466-idols did not care which way [she]466-idols rubbed the ears of the marmoset . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer believed , but for [the world]798-the world it must not be told again , that [Isola]463-isola was deeply in love , unrequited love , perhaps [one of [the weteranarian gents]8726-the weteranarian gents]8725-one of the weteranarian gents . [They]8727-they did say [they]8727-they had some stuff as would lead [a girl]2251-a girl like a horse . But whatever it was , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer only knew that [she]391-mrs. shelfer could not get at the rights of it . [Girls]5444-girls had grown so cunning now - a - days , what with the great supernatural exhibition , and the hats [they]5444-girls had taken to wear flat on the tops of [their]5444-girls heads , not at all what [they]5444-girls used to be when [she]391-mrs. shelfer and [Charley]395-charley were young . Then [a young woman]8730-a young woman was not afraid of showing what [her]8730-a young woman neck was like ; now [she]8730-a young woman tucked it in cotton wool like a canary 's egg . And what were [they]5444-girls [the better , sly minxes]8731-the better , sly minxes ? [She]8730-a young woman saw enough of it in [the Square garden]8732-the square garden , and [them]5444-girls showing [[their]5444-girls little sisters]8733-their little sisters ' legs for patterns of [their]5444-girls own , oh fie ! "[4453-i] " Come , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , no scandal , if [you]391-mrs. shelfer please . What news of [[your]391-mrs. shelfer Uncle]5339-your uncle [John]299-john ? "[4454-i] " Ah , [Miss]5433-miss , [you]5433-miss must ask the sharks , and the lobsters , and the big sea - serpent . [They]5444-girls do say , down at [Wapping]94-wapping , that [the ship]6953-the ship was cast away among [the cannibal islands]8737-the cannibal islands , and [the people]2283-the people ate [a policeman]2151-a policeman , and [he]2151-a policeman upon [his]2151-a policeman promotion . What a pity , what a pity ! And [his]2151-a policeman coat four and sixpence [a yard]8740-a yard , ready shrunk ! But [them]5444-girls natives is outrageous . "[4454-i] " Nonsense , [Patty]409-patty , [I]4453-i do n't believe a word of it . [Sailors]6658-sailors are [dreadful story - tellers]8742-dreadful story - tellers , ever since the days of [Sindbad]257-sindbad . Has any one besides [Miss Isola]428-isola , [Mrs. Elton]406-mrs. elton , or [any one]1178-any one , been here to ask for [me]4453-i ? "[4453-i] " No , [Miss]8744-miss , [Mr. Conrad]427-conrad never come after the day [you]8744-miss served [him]427-conrad so dreadful ; and [Miss Idols]466-idols say [he]427-conrad went back and spoiled 300*l . * worth of work ; but that great lady with the red plush breeches , and the pink silk stockings , and [the baker]8745-the baker 's shop in [their]5444-girls hair , [she]466-idols been [here]846-here twice last week , and left a letter for [you]8744-miss . And [Balaam]539-balak been here several times , and [Balak]539-balak along of [him]539-balak ; but [I]4454-i banged the door on [them]5444-girls both , now [I]4454-i hear [they]5444-girls be out of the business , and [a nice young man]8747-a nice young man set up who do n't bother about the gun . "[4454-i] " [Lady Cranberry]397-lady cranberry 's letter may lie there , and go back the next time [Ann Maples]294-ann maples comes . But [the bailiffs]7433-the bailiffs [I]4454-i must see . If [they]7433-the bailiffs come to - morrow , let [them]7433-the bailiffs in immediately . And how are all [[my]4454-i friends]8161-my friends at [the Mews]6037-the mews ? "[4454-i] [Her]4454-i reply would fill a chapter , so [I]0-i will not enter upon it , but go to bed and miss the sound of dear [Judy]477-judy 's tail at the door . In the first course of [my]0-i dreams , [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer passed on [[his]413-mr. shelfer bedward road]4455-his bedward road , having politely taken [his]413-mr. shelfer shoes off at the bottom of the stairs ; in doing which [he]413-mr. shelfer made at least three times the noise [his]413-mr. shelfer shodden feet would have inflicted . In the morning [I]0-i took [my]0-i old walk round [the Square]1939-the square , and then sat down and tried to be patient until [the bailiffs]7433-the bailiffs should come . Of course [I]0-i did not mean to go to [[my]0-i darling]5337-my darling [Isola]428-isola , nor even to let [her]428-isola know that [I]0-i was so near at hand , although [my]0-i heart was burning to see [her]428-isola sweet face again . [I]0-i even kept away from the window , though [I]0-i wanted to watch for [the bailiffs]7433-the bailiffs , and strictly ordered [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer not to tell [her]391-mrs. shelfer , if [she]391-mrs. shelfer should call , a word about [my]0-i being [there]1114-there . However , it was all in vain . [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer went out after breakfast to [his]413-mr. shelfer play - work in [the Square]1939-the square , and the smell of [his]413-mr. shelfer pipe invaded [[my]0-i little room]6335-my little room . [I]0-i think [he]413-mr. shelfer must have left the front door open ; at any rate [I]0-i heard , all of a sudden , a quick patter of running feet , and such a crying and sobbing , and [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer hurrying out to meet it . " [You]391-mrs. shelfer ca n't , [Miss]5433-miss , [you]391-mrs. shelfer ca n't indeed — not for a thousand pounds . [The rooms]2933-the rooms are let , [I]391-mrs. shelfer tell [you]391-mrs. shelfer , and [you]391-mrs. shelfer ca n't go up . Oh dear , oh dear , whatever am [I]391-mrs. shelfer to do ? "[391-mrs. shelfer] " [Patty]409-patty , [I]466-idols will go up . [I]466-idols do n't care who 's there . [My]466-idols heart is breaking , and [I]466-idols will die on [[my]466-idols darling]5337-my darling 's bed . If [you]391-mrs. shelfer stand there , [I]466-idols 'll push [you]391-mrs. shelfer . Out of the way , [I]466-idols tell [you]391-mrs. shelfer . "[466-idols] And up flew [Idols]466-idols , in a perfect mess of tears . What could [I]0-i do but fly to meet [her]466-idols , and hug [[my]0-i only pet]4463-my only pet ? What with [her]466-idols passion of grief , and sudden joy , at seeing [me]0-i , [she]466-idols fainted away in [my]0-i arms . [I]0-i got [her]466-idols somehow to the sofa , and kissed [her]466-idols into [her]466-idols senses again . When [she]466-idols came to [herself]466-idols , and felt sure it was not a dream , [she]466-idols nestled into [my]0-i bosom , as if [I]0-i had been [[her]466-idols husband]6140-her husband , and stole long glances at [me]0-i to see whether [I]0-i was offended . [Her]466-idols pretty cloak lay on the floor , and [her]466-idols hat beneath the table . For a long time [she]466-idols sobbed and trembled so that [she]466-idols could not say a word , while [I]0-i kept on whispering such vain words as these : " Never mind , [[my]0-i pet]5394-my pet . There , [you]4465-that sweet child have cried enough . Tell [[your]4465-that sweet child own]8755-your own dear [Clara]293-clara who has dared to vex [you]4465-that sweet child . "[0-i] To see [that sweet child]4465-that sweet child 's misery , [I]0-i felt in such a rage , [I]0-i could have boxed [[her]466-idols enemy]4466-her enemy 's ears . But [I]0-i never thought that it was more than [a child]782-a child 's vexation . At last , after drinking a tumblerful of water , and giving room to [her]466-idols palpitating heart , [she]466-idols contrived to tell [me]0-i [her]466-idols trouble . " Why , [dear]5871-dear , [you]5871-dear know [[my]466-idols pappy]8757-my pappy — pappy [I]466-idols used to call [him]8757-my pappy — [he]8757-my pappy is not [[my]466-idols papa]6254-my papa at all , [he]8757-my pappy says [himself]8757-my pappy [he]8757-my pappy is not ; and that is not the worst of it , for [I]466-idols could do well enough without [him]8757-my pappy , [he]8757-my pappy is always so dreadfully cross , and does n't care for [me]466-idols one bit . [I]466-idols could do without [him]8757-my pappy very well , if [I]466-idols had [a proper papa]8759-a proper papa , or if [[my]466-idols father]731-my father was dead and had loved [me]466-idols before [he]731-my father died ; but now [I]466-idols have [no father]3173-no father at all , and never had any in [the world]798-the world ; [I]466-idols am only [an outcast]8763-an outcast , an abandoned — Oh , [Clara]293-clara , will [you]293-clara promise to forgive [me]466-idols , and love [me]466-idols all the same ? "[466-idols] " To be sure [I]4468-her will , [[my]4468-her dearest]8764-my dearest . [I]4468-her am sure , [you]293-clara have done no harm . And even if [you]293-clara have been led astray — "[4468-her] [She]4468-her looked at [me]0-i with quick pride flashing through [her]4468-her abasement , and [she]4468-her took [her]4468-her arm off [my]0-i shoulder . " No , [you]0-i have quite mistaken [me]4468-her . Do [you]0-i think [I]4468-her would sit here and kiss [you]293-clara , if [I]4468-her were [a wicked girl]8765-a wicked girl ? But who am [I]4468-her to be indignant at anything now ? [He]4468-her told [me]4468-her — are [you]293-clara sure the door is shut?—he told [me]4468-her , with a sneer , that [I]4468-her was [a base - born child]8766-a base - born child , and [he]4468-her used a worse word than that . "[4468-her] [She]4468-her fell away from [me]0-i , [her]4468-her cheeks all crimson with shame , and [her]4468-her long eyelashes drooping heavily on them . [I]0-i caught [her]4468-her to [my]0-i heart : [poor wronged one]4469-poor wronged one , was [she]4468-her a whit less pure ? [I]0-i seemed to love [her]4468-her the better , for [her]4468-her great misfortune . Of course , [I]0-i had guessed it long ago , from what [[her]4468-her brother]6430-her brother told [me]0-i . " And who is [[your]4468-her father]5365-your father , [[my]0-i pretty]8768-my pretty ? [Any father]8769-any father must be [a fool who would not be proud of [you]4468-her]8770-a fool who would not be proud of you . "[0-i] " Oh , [Clara]293-clara , the worst of it is that [I]6430-her brother have not the least idea . But from something [that hard man]8771-that hard man said , [I]6430-her brother believe [he]8771-that hard man was [an Englishman]1891-an englishman . [I]6430-her brother think [I]6430-her brother could have got everything from [him]8771-that hard man , [he]8771-that hard man was so beside [himself]8771-that hard man ; but when [he]8771-that hard man told [me]6430-her brother that dreadful thing , and said that [[my]6430-her brother father]731-my father had lied to [[my]6430-her brother mother]746-my mother and ruined [her]746-my mother , [I]6430-her brother felt so sick that [I]6430-her brother could not speak , till [he]8771-that hard man turned [me]6430-her brother out of [the house]764-the house , and struck [me]6430-her brother as [I]6430-her brother went . "[6430-her brother] " What ? "[0-i] " Yes , [he]8771-that hard man turned [me]6430-her brother out of [the house]764-the house , and gave [me]6430-her brother the blow of disgrace , and said [I]6430-her brother should never look on [his]8771-that hard man face again . [He]8771-that hard man had won [his]8771-that hard man revenge — [I]6430-her brother can not tell what [he]8771-that hard man meant , for [I]6430-her brother never harmed [him]8771-that hard man — and now [I]6430-her brother might follow [[my]6430-her brother mother]746-my mother , and take to — [I]6430-her brother ca n't repeat it , but it was worse than death . No fear of [my]6430-her brother starving , [he]8771-that hard man said , with this poor face of [mine]6430-her brother . And so [I]6430-her brother was going to [Conny]427-conrad , [dear Conny]427-conrad ; [I]6430-her brother think [he]8771-that hard man knew it all long ago , but could not bear to tell [me]6430-her brother . And [I]6430-her brother sat on some steps in [a lonely place]8778-a lonely place , for [I]6430-her brother did not know how to walk , and [I]6430-her brother prayed to see [you]427-conrad and die : then [old Cora]585-old cora came after [me]6430-her brother , and even [she]585-old cora was crying , and [she]585-old cora gave [me]6430-her brother all [her]585-old cora money , and a morsel of the true cross , and told [me]6430-her brother to come here first , for [Conny]427-conrad was out of [town]1829-town , and [she]585-old cora would come to see [me]6430-her brother at dark ; and perhaps [the Professor]2125-the professor would take [me]6430-her brother back when [his]2125-the professor rage was over . Do [you]427-conrad think [I]6430-her brother would ever go ? And after what [he]2125-the professor told [me]6430-her brother to do ! "[6430-her brother] Such depth of loathing and scorn in those gentle violet eyes , and [her]4471-i playful face for the moment so haughtily wild and implacable — [Clara Vaughan]293-clara , in [her]4471-i stately rancour , seemed an iceberg by a volcano . [I]0-i saw that it was the moment for learning all that [she]4471-i knew ; and the time for scruples was past . " [Isola]428-isola , tell [me]0-i all [you]428-isola have heard , about [this dastard bully]8781-this dastard bully ? "[0-i] " [I]4471-i know very little ; [he]8781-this dastard bully has taken good care of that . [I]4471-i only know that [he]8781-this dastard bully did most horrible things to unfortunate cats and dogs . It made [me]4471-i shudder to touch [him]8781-this dastard bully at one time . But [he]8781-this dastard bully gave that up [I]4471-i believe . But there is some dark and fearful mystery , which [[my]4471-i brother]1302-my brother has found out ; that is if [he]1302-my brother be [[my]4471-i brother]1302-my brother . How can [I]4471-i tell even that ? Whatever the discovery was , it made such a change in [him]8781-this dastard bully , that [he]8781-this dastard bully cared for nothing afterwards , until [he]8781-this dastard bully saw [you]428-isola , [Clara]293-clara . [I]4471-i am not very sharp , [you]428-isola know , though [I]4471-i have learned so much , that perhaps [you]428-isola think [I]4471-i am . "[4471-i] " [[My]4471-i darling]5337-my darling , [I]4471-i never thought such a thing for a moment . "[4471-i] " Oh , [I]0-i am very glad . At any rate [I]0-i like to talk as if [I]0-i was clever . And [some people]8785-some people say [I]0-i am . But , clever or stupid , [I]0-i am almost certain that [Conny]427-conrad found out only half the secret ; and then on the day when [he]427-conrad came of age , [that man]1220-that man told [him]427-conrad the rest , either for [his]427-conrad own purposes , or [holy Madonna]591-madonna knows why . "[0-i] " When was [[your]0-i brother]1415-your brother of age ? "[4471-i] " Last Christmas Eve . Do n't [you]428-isola remember what [I]4471-i told [you]428-isola at [the school of design]6319-the school of design that day ? "[4471-i] " And when is [your]0-i birthday , [Isola]428-isola ? "[0-i] " [I]4471-i am sure [I]4471-i do n't know , but somewhere about [Midsummer]658-midsummer . [They]8785-some people never told [Conny]427-conrad when [his]427-conrad was , but [he]427-conrad knew it somehow . Come , [he]427-conrad is clever now , [Clara]293-clara , though [you]428-isola do n't think [I]4471-i am . Is n't [he]427-conrad now ? Tell the truth . "[4471-i] " [I]4471-i am thinking of far more important matters than [[your]0-i rude brother]8789-your rude brother 's ability . Whence did [you]0-i come to [England]9-england and when ? "[4471-i] This was quite a shot in the dark . But [I]0-i had long suspected that [they]4472-they were of Southern race . " [I]0-i am sure [I]0-i do n't know . [I]0-i was quite [a child]782-a child at the time , and the subject has been interdicted ; but [I]0-i think [we]4472-they came from [Italy]63-italy , and at least ten years ago . "[0-i] " And [[your]0-i brother]1415-your brother speaks Italian more readily than English . Can [you]0-i tell [me]4471-i anything more ? "[4471-i] " Nothing . Only [I]0-i know that [old Cora]585-old cora is [a Corsican]8323-a corsican : [she]585-old cora boasts of it every night , when [she]585-old cora comes to see [me]0-i in bed , although [she]585-old cora has been forbidden . But what does [she]585-old cora care — [she]585-old cora asks — for [this dirty little English island]8793-this dirty little english island ? And [she]585-old cora sits by [my]0-i bed , and sings droning songs , which [I]0-i hardly understand ; but [she]585-old cora says they are beautiful nannas . "[0-i] How [my]0-i heart was beating , at every simple sentence . None of this had [I]0-i heard before , because [she]4473-me durst not tell it . " Any other questions , [Donna]476-donna ? "[4473-me] [She]4473-me was recovering [her]4473-me spirits , as [girls]5444-girls always do by talking . " Why , [[my]4473-me darling]5337-my darling , [you]476-donna ought to have a wig . [You]476-donna beat [all the senior sophists]8795-all the senior sophists . "[4473-me] " Yes . Now come and kiss [me]4473-me . Kiss [me]4473-me for a pledge that [you]476-donna will never leave [me]4473-me . [I]4473-me am rich again now : [you]476-donna ca n't tell how rich [I]4473-me am , and nothing to do with [my]4473-me money , and [nobody]1116-nobody likely to share it . If [you]476-donna were [[my]4473-me own sister]8797-my own sister , [I]4473-me could not love [you]476-donna more ; and most likely [I]4473-me should not love [you]476-donna a quarter as much . And [[my]4473-me Uncle]1271-my uncle longs to see [you]476-donna so . [You]476-donna shall come and live with [me]4473-me , and [we]8799-we 'll be [two old maids]8800-two old maids together . Now promise , [darling]6257-darling , promise . Kiss [me]4473-me , and seal the bargain . "[4473-me] " [Clara]293-clara , [I]4475-i would rather be [[your]476-donna servant]7048-your servant than [the queen of [the world]798-the world]8803-the queen of the world . Only promise first that [you]476-donna will never scold [me]4475-i . [I]4475-i can not bear being scolded . [I]4475-i never used to be ; and it will turn all [my]4475-i hair gray . "[4475-i] " [I]4475-i will promise never to scold [you]476-donna , unless [you]476-donna run away . "[4475-i] [She]4475-i swept back [her]4475-i beautiful hair , threw [her]4475-i arms round [my]0-i neck , looked in [my]0-i eyes with a well - spring of love , and kissed [me]0-i . Oh , traitorous [Clara]293-clara , it was not the kiss — deeply as [I]0-i loved [her]4475-i — but the evidence [I]0-i wanted . [I]0-i knew that with [her]4475-i ardent nature [she]4475-i would breathe [her]4475-i soul upon [me]0-i . The exquisite fragrance of [her]4475-i breath was like the wind stealing over violets . [I]0-i had noticed it often before . [My]0-i last weak doubt was scattered ; yet [I]0-i played with [her]4475-i and [myself]0-i , one sweet moment longer . " [Darling]477-judy , what scent do [you]477-judy use ? What is it [you]477-judy wash [your]477-judy teeth with ? "[0-i] " Nothing but water , [Clara]293-clara ; what makes [you]477-judy ask in that way ? "[4475-i] " And the perfume in [your]477-judy hair — what is it ? Oh , [you]477-judy little Rimmel ! "[4475-i] " Nothing at all , [Donna]476-donna . [I]0-i never use anything scented . Not even Eau de Cologne . [I]0-i hate all the stuff [they]8805-they sell . "[0-i] " How very odd ! Why , [I]4475-i could have declared that [your]477-judy lips and [your]477-judy hair were sprinkled with extract of violets . "[4475-i] " Oh , now [I]4475-i know what [you]477-judy mean . [I]4475-i never perceive it [myself]4475-i , but [numbers of people]8806-numbers of people have fancied that [I]4475-i use artificial perfume . But [that man]1220-that man — oh , what shall [I]4475-i call [him]1220-that man ? And only this morning [I]4475-i called [him]1220-that man ' pappy'—he always accounts for everything , [you]477-judy know ; and [he]1220-that man said it was hered — [herod]8808-herod — [I]4475-i ca n't say it now , the long English word , but [I]4475-i could at college — no matter , it means something in [the family]1254-the family . [[My]4475-i mother]746-my mother , [he]1220-that man said , was so well known to possess it , that [she]746-my mother had an Italian name among [the servants]772-the servants for it ; though [her]746-my mother real name was quite a different flower . [Clara]293-clara , why do [you]293-clara look at [me]4475-i so ? And what are [you]293-clara crying for ? "[4475-i] " Because , [[my]4476-her own darling dear]8812-my own darling dear , [I]4476-her have not loved [you]293-clara for nothing . [You]293-clara are [my]4476-her own flesh and blood . [You]293-clara are [[my]4476-her own cousin]8813-my own cousin , [I]4476-her tell [you]293-clara , [[my]4476-her dear Uncle 's daughter]8814-my dear uncle 's daughter ; and [your]293-clara name is [Lily Vaughan]592-lily . "[4476-her] [She]4476-her drew [her]4476-her arms from [me]0-i , and leaped up from the sofa ; [she]4476-her was so amazed and frightened . [She]4476-her looked at [me]0-i most sadly , believing that [I]0-i was mad ; then [she]4476-her fainted again , and fell back into [my]0-i arms . When [I]0-i had brought [her]4476-her round , and propped [her]4476-her up with a pillow — for cushions were very scarce — the strain of the mind being over , [my]0-i brain began to whirl so that [I]0-i could neither think nor act . For a long time [I]0-i could not have enough of kissing and hugging [Idols]466-idols . [I]0-i played with [her]4476-her hair , as if [I]0-i had been [[her]4476-her lover]8589-her lover ; and then patted and caressed [her]4476-her , as if [she]4476-her had been [[my]0-i baby]4478-my baby . And had [I]0-i no thought of another , who ought to be doing all this to [me]0-i ? Yes , [I]0-i fear that it lay in the depth of [my]0-i heart , stronger than [maid]4479-maid 's love of maiden , or even than [my]0-i delight at the joy coming to [[my]0-i Uncle]1271-my uncle . Then [I]0-i hated [myself]0-i for [my]0-i selfishness , and caught up [my]0-i Lily and rubbed [her]4476-her , and made [her]4476-her understand things . [I]0-i flung a decanter of water over both [her]4476-her and [myself]0-i , which saved [us]4481-us from hysterics . [Poor little thing]6555-poor little thing ! [She]4476-her was not like [me]0-i . [Strong Passion]659-strong passion was a stranger to [her]4476-her , and [she]4476-her fell before [his]1271-my uncle blow . [I]0-i had fought with [him]1271-my uncle so long , that [I]0-i met [him]1271-my uncle like [a prize - fighter]4483-a prize - fighter , and countered at every stroke . Up ran [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , in the height and crest of the wave , when backwards or forwards , crying or laughing , hung on a puff of wind . [She]391-mrs. shelfer came with a commonplace motive ; [she]391-mrs. shelfer thought [we]4481-us were playing at cricket with [her]391-mrs. shelfer beloved sticks . [Her]391-mrs. shelfer arrival made a diversion , though it had no other effect , for [I]0-i walked [the little thing]4484-the little thing out , and locked the door behind [her]391-mrs. shelfer . Then [I]0-i got [[my]0-i darling new cousin]4485-my darling new cousin into [my]0-i arms , and kissed [her]391-mrs. shelfer , and marched [her]391-mrs. shelfer about [the room]823-the room , and made [her]391-mrs. shelfer show [her]391-mrs. shelfer Vaughan instep . Excuse the petty nonsense — what [women]5443-women are quite free from it?—but for many generations [our]4481-us feet have been arched and pointed : of course it does not matter ; still [I]0-i was glad that [hers]391-mrs. shelfer were of the true Vaughan pattern . Then , as [she]391-mrs. shelfer so hated all the stuffs [they]4488-they sell , [I]0-i showered over [her]391-mrs. shelfer an entire bottle of the very best Eau de Cologne . It was a bit of bullying ; but [all girls of high spirit]4489-all girls of high spirit are [bullies]4490-bullies . And it made [her]391-mrs. shelfer eyes water so dreadfully , that [she]391-mrs. shelfer cried as hard as [I]0-i did . It must be owned that [my]0-i evidence at present was very shadowy . Yet to [myself]0-i [I]0-i seemed slow of hand for not having grasped it before . To the mind there was nothing conclusive , to the heart all was irresistible . [I]0-i have not set down a quarter of the thoughts that now dawned upon [me]0-i ; and it would be waste of time to recount them , when actual proof is forthcoming . And poor [Idols]466-idols gave [me]0-i small chance of thinking clearly , in the turbulent flood of [her]391-mrs. shelfer questions . " And are [you]391-mrs. shelfer quite sure , quite certain , [[Clara]293-clara darling]8815-clara darling , that [I]0-i have [a lawful father]8816-a lawful father , [one who is not ashamed of [me]0-i , and was not ashamed of [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother]8817-one who is not ashamed of me , and was not ashamed of my mother ! And why did [he]8816-a lawful father never come for [me]0-i ? And do [you]391-mrs. shelfer think [he]8816-a lawful father will love [me]0-i ? And is dear Conrad [[my]0-i own brother]8819-my own brother ? [I]0-i do n't seem to understand half that [you]391-mrs. shelfer have told [me]0-i . "[0-i] At length [I]0-i knelt down , and thanked [God]303-god — rather late in the day , [I]0-i must own — for [His]303-god wonderful guidance to [me]0-i . While doing so , and remembering , as [I]0-i always did then , [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother — revealed in sudden light [I]0-i saw the justice of [[God]303-god 's Providence]4492-god 's providence . Long as [I]0-i had groped and groped , with red revenge [[my]0-i leading star]4493-my leading star , no breath of love or mercy cheering the abrupt steps of [a fatalist]960-a fatalist , so long had [He]303-god vouchsafed to send [me]0-i check and warning , more than guidance . By loss of wealth and [dearest friends]4495-dearest friends , by blindness and desertion , and the crushing blow to [maiden]6623-maiden 's pride when [her]6623-maiden heart is flung back in [her]6623-maiden face , by sad hours of watching and weeping over the bed of sickness , by the history of another 's wrongs — worse than [my]0-i own , and yet forgiven — by all these means , and perhaps no less by the growth of the mind , and wider views of life , [the spirit , once so indomitable]4497-the spirit , once so indomitable , had learned to bow to [its Maker]4498-its maker . Stooping thus it saw the path , which stiff - necked pride could not descry . Not first and sole , as it would have been two years since , but side by side with softer thoughts , came the strong belief that now [God]303-god had revealed to [me]0-i [the man who slew [[my]0-i father]731-my father]4499-the man who slew my father . And what humiliation to all [my]0-i boasted destiny ! [I]0-i had grasped the hand that did the deed , smiled to the eyes that glared upon it , laughed at the sallies of the mind that shaped it . Enough of this ; ere it go too hard with Christian feeling . [My]0-i bosom heaves , [my]0-i throat swells , and [my]0-i eyes flash as of old . Before [I]0-i had time to resolve what next to do ( for [Isola]428-isola would not let [me]0-i think ) , [we]4501-we had another interruption . [That girl]4502-that girl had a most ill - regulated and illogical mind . And the fault was fundamental . If [the lovely senior sophist]4503-the lovely senior sophist had ever got [her]4503-the lovely senior sophist degree , and worn the gown of [a Maiden of Arts]4504-a maiden of arts , it could only have come by favour , after the manner of kissing . [Her]4502-that girl enthymems were quick enough , and a great deal too quick [I]0-i believe ; but as for [their]4505-their reduction or eduction into syllogisms — [we]4501-we might as well expect [her]4502-that girl to make a telescope out of [her]4502-that girl boot - tags . And now at once [she]4502-that girl expected , and would not give [me]0-i room for a word , that [I]0-i should minutely detail in two sentences , with marginal annotations , and footnotes , queries , conjectures , and various readings , all incorporated into the text , everything that had ever , anywhere , or by any means , befallen [her]4502-that girl " [genuine father]8820-genuine father . "[0-i] Not being [Thucydidean]660-thucydidean enough to omit the key - word in the sentence , and mash ten thoughts into one verb , [I]0-i could not meet the emergency ; and [[my]0-i dear cousin]4506-my dear cousin lost [her]4506-my dear cousin patience , which was always a very small parcel . " At any rate , [Clara]293-clara , tell [me]4506-my dear cousin one thing clearly . Are [you]293-clara quite certain that [Conny]427-conrad and [I]4506-my dear cousin are not — not — "[4506-my dear cousin] " Not base - born , "[0-i] [I]0-i said — why be mawkish in [Oscan - English]258-oscan - english , when [Saxon]565-saxon is to be had?—"No , [[my]0-i darling]5337-my darling , [you]293-clara are as lawful as [I]0-i , [[your]293-clara cousin]1799-your cousin [Clara]293-clara . [We]8823-we [Vaughans]398-vaughans are [a passionate race]8824-a passionate race , but [we]8823-we never make wrecks of [women]5443-women , and [scoundrels of [ourselves]8823-we]8826-scoundrels of ourselves . That [we]8823-we leave for [Corsicans]583-the corsicans , and [people brought up to lies]8827-people brought up to lies . "[0-i] The sneer was most unjust , and dreadfully unkind , but far too natural for [me]0-i , so long pent in , to resist it . [I]0-i saw that [I]0-i had grieved [[my]0-i pet]5394-my pet , so [I]0-i begged [her]5394-my pet pardon , and reviled [myself]0-i , till all was right again . Then suddenly [she]5394-my pet leaped up and cried , with [her]5394-my pet hand upon [her]5394-my pet bounding heart — every look and gesture must have been like [[her]5394-my pet mother]6340-her mother 's . " Let [me]5394-my pet go now , [Clara]293-clara . What am [I]5394-my pet thinking of ? Let [me]5394-my pet start at once . And [you]293-clara say [[my]5394-my pet own father]1038-my own father is very ill . [He]1038-my own father will die without seeing [me]5394-my pet . On with [your]293-clara things , while [I]5394-my pet run to [the cab - stand]8829-the cab - stand . [I]5394-my pet have money enough for both . "[5394-my pet] [She]5394-my pet wrenched at the door - handle in [her]5394-my pet hurry , forgetting that [I]0-i had locked it ; rich colour leaped into [her]5394-my pet cheeks , and [her]5394-my pet features and form seemed to dance , like a flickering flame , with excitement . No wonder [[her]5394-my pet mother]6340-her mother had loved , and been loved , with such power of passion . " [Idols]466-idols , take it easily , or [I]6340-her mother wo n't let [you]293-clara go at all . [I]6340-her mother rather fancy , [we]8830-we must have some evidence , before [[my]6340-her mother Uncle]1271-my uncle owns a little chit picked up in [London]1-london . [He]1271-my uncle is [a clever and cautious man]8832-a clever and cautious man , and will expect something more convincing than [your]293-clara beautiful eyes and sweet breath . Do [you]293-clara expect , [[you]293-clara impetuous jumper]8833-you impetuous jumper , that [he]1271-my uncle will know [you]293-clara by instinct ? "[6340-her mother] Poor little thing , how [her]5394-my pet face fell , and how the roses faded out of it ! That look of hers went to [my]0-i heart ; but [I]0-i knew what [the mother]5825-the mother had died of , and feared lest [her]5394-my pet image and picture should perish in the same manner . So [I]0-i said again : " Did [you]293-clara suppose , [[my]0-i dear]5318-my dear , that [[your]293-clara father]5365-your father would know [you]293-clara by instinct ? "[0-i] " Well , perhaps [I]0-i did , [Clara]293-clara ; if [I]0-i thought about it at all . [I]0-i am sure [I]0-i should know [him]5365-your father so . "[0-i] At this moment , two heavy knocks , like [a postman]4511-a postman 's , but not so quick , sounded through [the house]764-the house . [I]0-i knew what [they]4513-they meant , one was [Balaam]539-balak , [the other]1586-the other was [Balak]539-balak . [Isola]428-isola clung to [me]0-i , and turned pale ; [she]428-isola thought it was [some one pursuing [her]428-isola]4515-some one pursuing her . [I]0-i told [her]428-isola hastily whom [I]0-i expected , and sent [her]428-isola to [[Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's room]4516-mrs. shelfer 's room . [My]0-i heart beat high , when with many a scrape and bow , [the worthy but not ornamental pair]4517-the worthy but not ornamental pair sidled heavily into [the room]823-the room . To [my]0-i greetings [they]4513-they answered [me]0-i never a word ; but [Balaam]539-balak stood solemnly at the end of the little table , and beckoned to [[his]539-balak partner]4519-his partner to fasten the door . This being done with some pantomime , which meant " By [your]539-balak leave , if [you]539-balak please , [Miss]5433-miss , "[3098-the two men] [the two men]3098-the two men , who looked none the leaner for [their]3098-the two men arduous exertions , stood side by side before [me]0-i . Tired of this nonsense [I]0-i exclaimed impatiently , " Be quick , if [you]539-balak please ; what is it [you]539-balak have found out ? "[0-i] [Balaam]539-balak winked at [Balak]539-balak , and receiving a ponderous nod , began to digest it leisurely . " Have [you]539-balak brought [me]539-balak to [London]1-london for nothing ? What do [you]539-balak mean by all this mummery ? [I]539-balak shall ring the bell in a moment , and have [you]539-balak both shown out . "[539-balak] [Balaam]539-balak 's tongue revolved in [his]539-balak mouth , but burst not the bonds of speech , and [he]539-balak tried to look straight at both windows,—till [my]0-i hand was on the bell - pull . " [Balak]539-balak , [I]0-i told [you]539-balak so . Lor , how much better it be for [you]539-balak to take [my]0-i advice , than for [me]0-i to take [yourn]8837-yourn ! [Balak]539-balak said , [Miss]8838-miss , as [we]8839-we come along , [the young lady]5814-the young lady would be sure to know what was right , and turn up handsome afore [she]5814-the young lady asked [us]8839-we nothing . Now , says [I]0-i , that ai n't [the carakter of [my]0-i experience]8841-the carakter of my experience , [the women]5487-the women most always wants — "[0-i] " Here , quick , how much do [you]539-balak want , before [I]539-balak know what [you]539-balak have to tell ? "[539-balak] Here a long interchange of signals took place , and even whispering behind a hat . " Well , [Miss]8843-miss , [I]0-i say ten , and that quite enough till [you]8843-miss has time to judge . But [Balak]539-balak say nothing under twenty , considering all the beer , and some of it [country brewers]8844-country brewers ' — "[0-i] " [Your]539-balak advice is better than [Balak]539-balak 's ; [I]4521-i agree with [you]539-balak on that point ; and [I]4521-i will take it in preference . Here are ten pounds . "[4521-i] [He]4521-i looked rather taken aback , but could not well get out of it . [Balak]539-balak smiled grimly at [him]4521-i . " If what [you]539-balak tell [me]539-balak proves really valuable , [I]539-balak will give [you]539-balak a cheque for another ninety ere long , and the residue hereafter : but not another farthing , if [you]539-balak keep [me]539-balak in this suspense . Do [I]539-balak look likely to cheat [people of [[your]539-balak class]8846-your class]8845-people of your class ? "[539-balak] " No , [Miss]8847-miss , [we]8848-we hopes not ; nor of any other class , [I]4521-i dare say . Still there be so many rogues in [the world]798-the world — "[4521-i] " [You]4521-i have taken [my]539-balak money ; speak on . "[539-balak] What [they]4522-they told [me]0-i at wearisome length , and with puzzling divergence , and quantities of self - praise , need not occupy many lines . [They]4522-they had traced the Jelly - corses , as [they]4522-they called [Della Croce]570-lepardo , from [Somers Town]4523-somers town to [Lisson Grove]260-lisson grove , where [they]4522-they stayed but a very short time , Lepardo Della Croce , under some fictitious name , giving lessons in French , Spanish , and Italian , at [schools in [Portland Town]261-portland town and [St. John 's Wood]262-st. john 's wood]4524-schools in portland town and st. john 's wood . But [he]4525-his only seemed to play with [his]4525-his work , though [he]4525-his never broke any engagement to which [he]4525-his really pledged [himself]4525-his . [He]4525-his was always reserved and silent , accepted no invitations , and gathered [his]4525-his real subsistence by night at chess - clubs and [billiard - rooms]4526-billiard - rooms , where [his]4525-his skill was unequalled . [[His]4525-his only friends]4527-his only friends were [Italian refugees]6566-italian refugees , [his]4525-his only diversion the vivisection of animals . It must have been about this time that [he]4525-his saw the newspaper paragraph , and did what [he]4525-his did to [me]0-i . Then [he]4525-his changed [his]4525-his name again , and lived awhile in [Kensington]263-kensington ; [he]4525-his had been in [London]1-london years before , and seemed to know it well . [Here]846-here [a nobleman]4530-a nobleman , whom [he]4525-his had taught some new device at billiards , took [him]4525-his up and introduced [him]4525-his to [a higher class of pupils]4531-a higher class of pupils , and obtained [him]4525-his some back - door palace appointment . [He]4525-his dubbed [himself]4525-his " [Professor]8850-professor , "[4525-his] and started as [Dr. Ross]470-dr. ross . But still [he]4525-his missed the excitement and change of [his]4525-his once adventurous life , and several times [he]4525-his broke loose , and left [[his]4525-his household]4532-his household , for weeks and months together . Then [the two lovely children , whom all admired but none were allowed to notice]4533-the two lovely children , whom all admired but none were allowed to notice , were attended wherever [they]4533-the two lovely children , whom all admired but none were allowed to notice went , by [a dark - browed Italian woman]4534-a dark - browed italian woman . Suddenly [they]4533-the two lovely children , whom all admired but none were allowed to notice all left [Kensington]263-kensington , and went to live at [Ball 's Pond]264-ball 's pond ; the reason being some threatened exposure of [the Professor]2125-the professor 's cat - skinning propensities . [His]4525-his love of vivisection had become the master - passion , and [he]4525-his would gratify it at all hazards . There is to some natures a strange fascination in the horrible cruelties perpetrated under the name of science . Through its influence [he]4525-his even relaxed [his]4525-his strict reserve a little , and formed the acquaintance of [a gentleman connected with [the college at [Camden Town]73-camden town]4537-the college at camden town ; to which suburb after a while [he]4525-his removed , because [he]4525-his found it impossible to pursue [his]4525-his inhuman researches under [his]4525-his own roof comfortably . [Here]846-here , by means of [[his]4525-his new ally]4539-his new ally , who could not help admiring [his]4525-his infinitely superior skill , [he]4525-his was appointed lecturer at [several schools for]4540-several schools for [young ladies , where smatterings of science were dealt in]4541-young ladies , where smatterings of science were dealt in]4536-a gentleman connected with the college at camden town ; to which suburb after a while he removed , because he found it impossible to pursue his inhuman researches under his own roof comfortably . here , by means of his new ally , who could not help admiring his infinitely superior skill , he was appointed lecturer at several schools for young ladies , where smatterings of science were dealt in . And now [he]4525-his was highly respected by [people who did not know [him]4525-his , and idolised by [young ladies]2104-young ladies too clever to care for [pet parsons]4544-pet parsons]4542-people who did not know him , and idolised by young ladies too clever to care for pet parsons . Of course [he]4525-his became conceited ; for [his]4525-his nature was but a shallow one , and [his]4525-his cunning , though sharp and poisonous , had no solid barb at the end . So [he]4525-his sneered , and grimaced , and sniggered , and before [an ignorant audience]4545-an ignorant audience made [learned men]4546-learned men stammer and stutter , amazed at [his]4525-his bold assumptions , and too honest and large of mind to suspect [them]4546-learned men , at short notice . But the skill of [his]4525-his hands was genuine , and [his]4525-his power of sight most wonderful . [I]0-i have since been told — though [I]0-i do not believe it possible — that [he]4525-his once withdrew and bottled nearly half the lungs of a dog , tubercular after distemper , while [the poor sufferer]4547-the poor sufferer still gasped on , and tried to lick [his]4525-his face . Oh that [I]0-i were [a man]5384-a man ! How can [I]0-i hear such things and not swear ? All animals , except [one]6186-one , hated [him]4525-his by instinct . [The only one]4550-the only one , not sagacious enough to know [him]4525-his , was [[his]4525-his fellow - man]4551-his fellow - man . [Men]1003-men , or at any rate [women]5443-women , thought [him]4525-his [a handsome , lively , playful , and brilliant being]4554-a handsome , lively , playful , and brilliant being . And yet , upon the honour of [a lady]5829-a lady [I]0-i declare — let [those who know nothing of honour]4556-those who know nothing of honour despise it as an after - thought — that when [he]4525-his first entered [[my]0-i room]986-my room , in [his]4525-his graceful and elegant way , there ran through [me]0-i such a shudder as first turns the leaves towards autumn , such a chill of the spinal marrow as makes the aura of epilepsy . [Darling Judy]477-judy hated [him]4525-his from every bristle of [his]4525-his body , not only through instinct , but for certain excellent reasons . [[The monster]4558-the monster 's most intimate friend]4559-the monster 's most intimate friend was [a gallant Polish patriot , who had sacrificed all for [his]4560-a gallant polish patriot , who had sacrificed all for his country country]4560-a gallant polish patriot , who had sacrificed all for his country , and lived [here]846-here in dignified poverty . [This gentleman]7140-this gentleman and [[his]7140-this gentleman wife]789-his wife could only afford one luxury ; and that , by denying [themselves]4564-themselves many a little comfort . [They]4564-themselves had the finest dog in [London]1-london , [one who had saved [[his]4560-a gallant polish patriot , who had sacrificed all for his country master]827-his master 's life from [the squat - nosed sons of [the Czar]4568-the czar]4567-the squat - nosed sons of the czar]4565-one who had saved his master 's life from the squat - nosed sons of the czar . [This glorious fellow , of Maltese family]4569-this glorious fellow , of maltese family , was [the father of [[my]0-i Giudice]4571-my giudice — whom in [his]4571-my giudice puppy days [the Polish exile]4572-the polish exile gave to [Conrad]427-conrad and pretty girl [Isola]428-isola]4570-the father of my giudice — whom in his puppy days the polish exile gave to conrad and pretty girl isola . [Slowski]661-slowski , now [an ancient dog]4573-an ancient dog , had a wen behind [his]661-slowski shoulder , which grew and grew until [the Professor]2125-the professor could scarcely keep [his]2125-the professor hands from it . But [he]2125-the professor knew that any operation , in so severe a case , was nearly sure to kill a dog so old and weather - beaten . [The owner]6873-the owner too knew this , and would not have it meddled with . [Lepardo Della Croce]570-lepardo swore at last that [he]2125-the professor would taste no food until [he]2125-the professor had traced the roots of that wen . [Judy]477-judy , then [a pretty pup]4576-a pretty pup , gambolled into [the room]823-the room and saw [[his]477-judy poor papa]4578-his poor papa — but [I]0-i will not describe what a dog can not even bear to think of . [Poor Slowski]661-slowski died that night , and [the Pole]4579-the pole knocked down [the surviving brute]4580-the surviving brute , who shot [him]661-slowski next day upon [Hampstead Heath]265-hampstead heath . However , [the gentleman]6124-the gentleman slowly recovered ; but during [his]6124-the gentleman illness [the frenzied wife]4582-the frenzied wife overstepped the bounds of honour — according to [their]4583-their ideas ; [she]4582-the frenzied wife took advantage of [Cora]585-old cora , in the absence of [Lepardo]570-lepardo , and learned some of [his]6124-the gentleman previous crimes , by practising on [the poor woman]3698-the poor woman 's superstition . Then [she]4582-the frenzied wife found , through the firm of [Green]575-green , [Vowler]578-vowler , and [Green]575-green , that [[my]0-i Uncle]1271-my uncle was still alive , traced out the history of the atrocious deed , and wrote the letter which had brought [me]0-i to [London]1-london . Soon afterwards , when [[her]4582-the frenzied wife husband]6140-her husband recovered , [she]4582-the frenzied wife was sorry for what [she]4582-the frenzied wife had done , and opened [her]4582-the frenzied wife lips on the subject no more ; at least in [this country]1963-this country , which [they]4583-their soon forsook for [America]56-america . In this brief epitome , [I]0-i have told , for the purpose of saving trouble , a great deal more than [I]0-i learned at the time , a great deal more than [Balaam]539-balak and [Balak]539-balak would have found out in a twelvemonth . But it makes no difference : for [my]0-i conclusions and actions were just the same as they would have been , if [I]0-i had known all the above . " And so [you]8851-you see , [Miss"—was[539-balak] Balaam]662-miss"—was balaam 's peroration—"we have had a downy cove to deal with , for all [his]539-balak furious temper . [Lor]393-lor now , [I]539-balak never believe [any Bobby]8852-any bobby would have discovered [him]539-balak ; but [we]8853-we has ways , [Miss]8854-miss , what with the carpets and [the sofys]8855-the sofys , and always knowing the best pump at the bar , [gentlemen of [our]8853-we profession]8856-gentlemen of our profession has ways that [no Peeler]8857-no peeler would ever dream of . And now , [Miss]8858-miss , the ink is on the table , and both of [us]8853-we wishes [you]8851-you joy — didn't [you]8851-you say so , [Balak?—if]663-balak?—if [you]8851-you only think [we]8853-we has earned that cheque for 90*l . * , and the rest , please [God]303-god , when [the gentleman]6124-the gentleman feel [Jack Ketch]374-jack . "[539-balak] " [You]8851-you shall have the money soon , if not now . For [I]662-miss"—was balaam believe [you]8851-you have deserved it . But [I]662-miss"—was balaam must trouble [you]8851-you first to write down briefly what [you]8851-you have told [me]662-miss"—was balaam , and to sign it in full . It is not for [myself]662-miss"—was balaam . [I]662-miss"—was balaam remember every word . It is for the satisfaction of [a gentleman who can not see [you]8851-you]8860-a gentleman who can not see you . "[662-miss"—was balaam] [Balaam]662-miss"—was balaam and [Balak]539-balak looked very blank , and declared it would take [them]4588-them a week to write out half [they]4588-them had told [me]0-i . This objection [I]0-i soon removed , by offering to make an abstract of it , which [I]0-i could do from memory , and then let [them]4588-them read and sign it . By this time [they]4588-them were both afflicted with thirst , which [I]0-i sent [them]4588-them away to quench , while [I]0-i drew up a rough deposition . But first [I]0-i called [darling Idols]466-idols , and told [her]466-idols that now [I]0-i had evidence which would satisfy even [a sceptical father]4589-a sceptical father . " And surely , [[my]466-idols pet]5394-my pet , [you]5394-my pet [yourself]5394-my pet must have something ; some relic , or token , to help [us]8862-us . "[466-idols] " No , [cousin Clara]293-clara , [I]466-idols ca n't think of anything , except this little charm , which has been round [my]466-idols neck for years , and which [I]466-idols have shown [you]5394-my pet before : but [I]466-idols fear it is not uncommon . [He]427-conrad took it away from [me]466-idols once , but [I]466-idols managed to steal it back again . "[466-idols] The charm was a piece of chalcedony , ground into some resemblance which [I]0-i could not recognise then , and very highly polished . [She]466-idols said it had been [[her]466-idols brother]6430-her brother [Conrad]427-conrad 's , and [he]427-conrad had given it to [her]466-idols ; hearing which [I]0-i ceased to examine it . Presently [the bailiffs]7433-the bailiffs returned , in very high spirits indeed , and ready to sign almost anything . But [I]0-i took good care to inform [them]7433-the bailiffs that , however hard [they]7433-the bailiffs had laboured , [I]0-i had made the discovery before [them]7433-the bailiffs ; which [they]7433-the bailiffs said was permiscuous , and not to be thought nothing of . All the forms being quickly despatched , [I]0-i found a few minutes to think what was next to be done . It is too late in [my]0-i journey for dalliance and embarrassment with the heavy luggage of motives , and the bandboxes of reflections , when [we]4592-we are past [the last station]4593-the last station , and flying to [[our]4592-we terminus]4594-our terminus : enough that [I]0-i resolved to take [poor little Isola]428-isola [home]1102-home at once to [the house at [Vaughan St. Mary]18-vaughan st. mary]4596-the house at vaughan st. mary , and the arms of [[her]428-isola longing father]4597-her longing father , that [he]4597-her longing father might see [her]428-isola before [he]4597-her longing father died . [I]0-i hoped [he]4597-her longing father might live for years , but [I]0-i feared [he]4597-her longing father might die to - morrow ; so hangs over [every one]1982-every one 's mind that fatal third stroke of paralysis . [Her]428-isola own entreaties and coaxing told much upon [my]0-i resolution ; if none could resist [her]428-isola when happy , who could withstand [her]428-isola distress ? So [Balaam]539-balak and [Balak]539-balak were ordered most strictly to watch [[that demon]4599-that demon 's abode]4600-that demon 's abode , and at any risk give [him]4597-her longing father in charge if [he]4597-her longing father made attempt at departure . To ensure due vigilance , [I]0-i reclaimed the 90*l . * cheque , and gave one payable three days afterwards . [They]4601-they grumbled and did not like it ; but in the course of all [my]0-i rough usage , [I]0-i had learned one great maxim — Never trust , beyond the length of a cork , [any man who is slave to the bottle . Eager as [Isola]428-isola was to see [[her]428-isola true father]4603-her true father]4602-any man who is slave to the bottle . eager as isola was to see her true father at last , [she]428-isola pressed [me]0-i strongly to call at [[[her]428-isola brother]6430-her brother 's lodgings]4605-her brother 's lodgings on [our]4606-our way to [Paddington]246-paddington , and take [him]6430-her brother with [us]4606-our if possible ; or at any rate learn where [he]6430-her brother was , and how long [he]6430-her brother would be absent . But [I]0-i refused to do anything of the kind . Though not half so proud as of old , [I]0-i could not quite stoop to that . " [You]0-i know , [dear]5871-dear , "[428-isola] [she]428-isola continued , " [Conny]427-conrad will think it unfair of [me]428-isola to get such a start of [him]6430-her brother with [the real good Papa]8864-the real good papa ; and it would be so much nicer to have [him]6430-her brother there to help . And [I]428-isola am terribly frightened , though of course [you]0-i ca n't understand it . "[428-isola] " [Isola]428-isola , no more nonsense . For [your]0-i sake , and [[my]428-isola poor Uncle]2919-my poor uncle 's , [I]428-isola would do anything honest and proper : but neither can [I]428-isola travel with [[your]0-i brother]1415-your brother [Conrad]427-conrad , nor can [I]428-isola go near [[his]427-conrad lodgings]8867-his lodgings . [I]428-isola am not quite reduced to that , however [I]428-isola am trampled on . "[428-isola] " But , [darling]6257-darling , [they]8869-they need not see [you]6257-darling . And [you]6257-darling know [he]4607-he has made some wonderful mistake . "[428-isola] Of course [I]0-i knew it , and told [myself]0-i so fifty times in a minute ; but it was a likely thing that [I]0-i would tell [[his]4607-he sister]2443-his sister so . " [He]4607-he has , indeed , a very grave mistake , if [he]4607-he ever thinks [I]0-i will forgive [him]4607-he . No mistake ever made by [man]5770-man can be pleaded for what [he]5770-man has done . Even if [he]4607-he believed , by some excess of absurdity , that [[my]0-i father]731-my father had murdered [his]4607-he , instead of [his]4607-he murdering [mine]0-i ( which was much nearer the mark ) , would even that justify [his]4607-he rudeness , low rudeness , and personal violence to [a lady]5829-a lady ? What [he]4607-he did [I]0-i never told [you]2443-his sister ; and [he]4607-he , [I]0-i should hope , was too much ashamed to speak of it : why [he]4607-he actually pushed [me]0-i ; thrust [me]0-i , [Clara Vaughan]293-clara , away from [him]4607-he , till [I]0-i almost fell on the floor ! "[0-i] " Oh , [Donna]476-donna , how [your]476-donna eyes flash ! And [you]476-donna call [me]4607-he excitable ! Let [me]4607-he put [your]476-donna hair back . There now , give [me]4607-he a kiss . [I]4607-he am so sorry for [Conny]427-conrad . [He]427-conrad loves [you]476-donna with all [his]427-conrad heart , and [you]476-donna look as if [you]476-donna could kill [him]427-conrad . But no doubt [the new good papa]8873-the new good papa will put every thing to rights . "[4607-he] " Will [he]427-conrad indeed ? Let [us]4609-our go and see . "[0-i] [We]4609-our got to [Paddington]246-paddington just in time to catch [the two o'clock train]4610-the two o'clock train , having telegraphed first to [[my]0-i Uncle]1271-my uncle that [I]0-i was coming to take [his]1271-my uncle advice , before doing anything more . This was true , so far as it went , and as much of the truth as [I]0-i then dared to administer . This message was sent , not for the sake of finding [the carriage]6087-the carriage at [Gloucester]23-gloucester , but in order to break the suddenness of [our]4609-our arrival . Through all [my]0-i joy [I]0-i dreaded what was to come , and knew not how to manage it . [Idols]466-idols talked fast enough all the way down the line . As yet [she]4613-she had seen scarcely anything of [our]4609-our quiet , rich English scenery ; and although [the Great Western]4614-the great western exhibits it rather flatly , some parts there are , below [Swindon]266-swindon , which fill the mind with content . But [our]4609-our minds could not be so filled , being full of excitement already . Near [Stroud poor Idols]664-stroud poor idols was in the greatest ecstasy , and expected [me]0-i to know [the owner of [every pretty meadow]4616-every pretty meadow]4615-the owner of every pretty meadow . But after [we]4609-our entered [[my]0-i Uncle]1271-my uncle 's carriage — or [mine]0-i , [I]0-i suppose , it should now be called — dear [Isola]428-isola fell away into the deepest silence . [She]428-isola stored [her]428-isola wonder inwardly , nor showed the sweet depths of [her]428-isola eyes , until [she]428-isola sprang out at the foot of the old stone steps , trodden by so many hundreds of [[her]428-isola ancestors]4618-her ancestors . Then [she]428-isola looked up at [the long gray house]4619-the long gray house , with the dusk of July around [it]4619-the long gray house , and bats of three varieties flitting about [the gables]4620-the gables ; and [I]0-i saw beneath [her]428-isola dark eye - lashes the tremulous light of a tear . After leading [[my]0-i sweet new cousin]4621-my sweet new cousin — whom [everybody]6273-everybody stared at , and who feared to look at [the pavement]2025-the pavement — to [[my]0-i own snug quarters]4624-my own snug quarters , [I]0-i left [her]428-isola there under kind [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher 's charge , and ran to [[[my]0-i Uncle]1271-my uncle 's favourite room]4626-my uncle 's favourite room . Already [my]0-i breath was short , and [my]0-i heart up and down with excitement , and [I]0-i had but the presence of mind to know that [I]0-i was sure to make a mistake of it . [I]0-i saw a great change in [him]1271-my uncle , even since the Monday ; but [he]1271-my uncle was the first to speak . " [[My]1271-my uncle dear child]2385-my dear child , kiss [me]1271-my uncle again . [You]2385-my dear child are nearly as tall as [I]1271-my uncle am , since [my]1271-my uncle upright ways have departed . From the moment [you]2385-my dear child went away , [I]1271-my uncle have done nothing but miss [you]2385-my dear child , every hour and every minute ; and last night [I]1271-my uncle slept never a single wink . Let [us]8875-us give it up , [[my]1271-my uncle darling]5337-my darling . [God]303-god has sent [you]2385-my dear child to [me]1271-my uncle to make up for both [daughter]8037-daughter and [son]8878-son . "[1271-my uncle] " Well , [Uncle]1284-uncle , that 's all very fine , but [I]0-i doubt it strongly . "[0-i] [I]0-i was forced to be flippant a little , for fear of breaking down . " It is [my]4627-you firm belief that [proud Clara]293-clara will still have to wash at the pump . "[4627-you] [He]4627-you knew what [I]0-i meant ; it was an old tale , in [[our]4628-our neighbourhood]905-our neighbourhood , of [[a nobleman]4530-a nobleman 's second wife]4631-a nobleman 's second wife who would not allow [[her]4631-a nobleman 's second wife step - children]4632-her step - children even the use of a yellow basin . " What ! do [you]0-i mean to say"—and[4627-you] [he]4627-you began to tremble exceedingly—"that [you]0-i have found any trace , any clue even , to [[my]4627-you poor darlings]8880-my poor darlings ? "[4627-you] " Yes , thank [God]303-god , [I]4627-you have . Oh , [Uncle]1284-uncle , [I]4627-you am so glad ! "[4627-you] And [I]0-i threw [myself]0-i into [his]4627-you arms : [his]4627-you head fell heavily on [my]0-i shoulder , and [I]0-i felt that [I]0-i had been too sudden . [He]4627-you could not speak , but fetched one long sob . [I]0-i parted [his]4627-you white hair , and looked at [him]4627-you as if in surprise at [his]4627-you hastiness . " [Dear Uncle]3045-dear uncle , [we]8883-we must not be certain yet . [I]0-i mean that [I]0-i have found something , or fancy [I]0-i have found something , which — which — [I]0-i mean if properly followed up — may lead in time — but [you]4627-you know how sanguine [I]0-i am . "[0-i] " [Clara]293-clara , [you]4627-you are playing with [me]0-i . It is a mistake to do so . [I]0-i can not bear it , [child]5440-child . But the sudden shock [I]0-i can bear . Let [me]0-i know all at once . Are [they]8885-them alive or dead ? "[0-i] " Alive , [I]4633-his think , [dear Uncle]3045-dear uncle ; and [I]4633-his hope to find [them]8885-them soon , if [you]4627-you will calmly advise [me]4633-his . "[4633-his] " [You]4633-his have found [them]8885-them . No more fencing . [I]4633-his know it by [your]4627-you eyes . All the truth this moment , unless [you]4627-you wish to kill [me]4633-his . "[4633-his] [He]4633-his stood up as if to seize [me]0-i , for [I]0-i had withdrawn from [his]4633-his grasp , but [his]4633-his poor legs would not carry [him]4633-his ; so [I]0-i was obliged to seize [him]4633-his instead . [He]4633-his fell sideways on a chair , and vainly tried to speak ; but [his]4633-his eyes never faltered from [mine]0-i . " [Dearest Uncle]8887-dearest uncle , [I]4633-his tell [you]4627-you the truth . Of course [I]4633-his can not be certain yet , and it wo n't do to make a mistake ; and so [I]4633-his want more evidence . "[4633-his] " [I]4633-his want no more . Only let [me]4633-his see [them]8888-them . "[4633-his] [He]4633-his spoke very slowly , and the muscles of [his]4633-his face twitched at every word . " Now , keep [your]4633-his mind calm and clear , to help [me]4633-his , [[my]4633-his dear Uncle]8889-my dear uncle ; for [I]4633-his know not what to do . Have [you]4633-his anything , any tokens at all , of [[their]8888-them beloved mother]8890-their beloved mother ? "[4633-his] [My]0-i object was to divert [his]4633-his mind , for [I]0-i saw the approach of coma , and now trembled more than [he]4633-his did . With a feeble smile at the folly of [my]0-i question , after such a love as [his]4633-his , [he]4633-his answered in great exhaustion , " Take the key from [my]4633-his neck . [You]0-i know the large black box in — in — "[4633-his] Here [his]4633-his chin fell on [his]4633-his breast , and [he]4633-his could not lift the key , but [his]4633-his eyes still shone with intelligence , and followed [me]0-i everywhere . [Ribbon]665-ribbon and all [I]0-i took the key , and rang the bell for [Jane]347-jane , [the most careful and kind of nurses]4634-the most careful and kind of nurses . [I]0-i ordered [her]347-jane , in a whisper , to give [[my]0-i Uncle]1271-my uncle a glass of very strong brandy and water , if [she]347-jane could get [him]4633-his to swallow it ; and away [I]0-i ran [upstairs]6042-upstairs , hoping to relieve [him]4633-his . Then suddenly it struck [me]0-i that [I]0-i had no right to open that box , without the presence of [a competent witness]4637-a competent witness . [I]0-i knew at once what box it was , from the constant anxiety [[my]0-i poor Uncle]2919-my poor uncle had shown about it . Who had such right to be [[my]0-i witness]4639-my witness as [[his]2919-my poor uncle darling daughter]4640-his darling daughter ? So back [I]0-i flew to [[my]0-i own rooms]4641-my own rooms , and dragged the bewildered [Isola]428-isola down [the broad corridor]4642-the broad corridor . [The poor little thing]5327-the poor little thing was frightened so that [she]5327-the poor little thing could hardly breathe . [I]0-i had no especial object in opening that old box , at that particular moment , much as [I]0-i had often longed to know what [its]4644-its contents were . [My]0-i presence of mind was lost , and all [I]0-i could think of was , that [I]0-i might find something there to break that awful suspension of life , so likely to end in death . The box was in a panelled closet by the head of [[[my]0-i Uncle]1271-my uncle 's bed]4646-my uncle 's bed . When [I]0-i handed [Idols]466-idols the light to hold , [she]466-idols took it as if in a dream ; [her]466-idols cheeks were as white and transparent as the wax , and [she]466-idols held the candle so that a hot flake splashed on [my]0-i neck . The lock of the long box turned most easily , and the hinges moved without creaking : most likely it had been pored over every day , for many years . The lid was arched and hollow , with straps of faded web inside it . In beautiful order , so fair that [I]0-i hardly dared to touch them , lay the clothes and trinkets , the letters and little relics , the gloves and pocket - handkerchiefs , the fairy slippers , the wedding - dress , the coquettish veil , and saucy hat of the dead . [I]0-i am not over sensitive , thank [God]303-god , or [I]0-i should not be living now ; but the sight of those things upset [me]0-i more than any distress of [my]0-i own . The small parcels of silver paper , screwed at the end and pinned in the middle , the pins put stupidly as [men]1003-men always put them , the light gay dresses made for some sweet figure , folded with such care , and yet quite out of the plaits , and labelled with the dates when last [the dear one]4648-the dear one wore them , even a withered fern - wreath and a sprig of shrivelled myrtle — [I]0-i could not thrust [my]0-i commonplace hands into these holy treasures ; if [I]0-i could [I]0-i should never deserve to be [myself]0-i so remembered . But one thing struck [me]0-i , as thoughts profane always strike [us]4649-us crookedly ; if [the poor lady]4650-the poor lady could have been wept to life again , how much better would [she]4650-the poor lady have found all [her]4650-the poor lady things arranged , than [she]4650-the poor lady had ever kept them ! That is to say if [she]4650-the poor lady resembled [[her]4650-the poor lady wondering and crying daughter]4651-her wondering and crying daughter , who knelt down and wanted to kiss every article in the box . [Her]4650-the poor lady little white hands were as busy as mice among them ; and long - drawn sobs were tumbled with interjections . " Now , [[my]4652-he dearest]8764-my dearest [Idols]466-idols , [you]466-idols must not disturb these things . [[Your]466-idols father]5365-your father will be so vexed . "[4652-he] Would [he]4652-he though?—said [I]0-i to [myself]0-i — not if [he]4652-he knew whose hand it was that did it . [She]4650-the poor lady paid no attention to [me]0-i . " Now just put back that silver knife , with the bit of peach - skin upon it : and leave the stone as it was . "[4650-the poor lady] To [my]0-i surprise [she]4650-the poor lady began to suck the stone , which [[her]4650-the poor lady mother]6340-her mother perhaps had sucked , eighteen years ago . Inside the paper was written , " Knife and peach - stone found in [my]4650-the poor lady [Lily]592-lily 's pocket . The stone was meant for [me]4650-the poor lady to set . [I]4650-the poor lady will plant it , when [I]4650-the poor lady have found [[her]6340-her mother children]3839-her children . E.V. , January , 1834 . "[4650-the poor lady] " Now , [[you]4650-the poor lady foolish child]8894-you foolish child , [you]4650-the poor lady are really too bad . "[0-i] And with that [I]0-i gave [her]4650-the poor lady a little push . In [her]4650-the poor lady heedless way , [she]4650-the poor lady fell almost into the box , and [her]4650-the poor lady light form lay amongst [[her]4650-the poor lady mother]6340-her mother 's dresses . A sudden thought flashed across [me]0-i . " [Isola]428-isola , off with that nasty dark frock ! "[0-i] " Nasty , indeed , [Clara]293-clara ! Why [you]293-clara said this morning how very pretty it was . "[4650-the poor lady] " What has that to do with it ? Pull it off , or [I]0-i 'll tear it . Now , out with the other arm . "[0-i] In a moment or two , [I]0-i had all [her]4650-the poor lady beauty gleaming in white before [me]0-i ; and carefully taking from the box a frock of pale blue silk , [I]0-i lifted it over [her]4650-the poor lady head , and drew [her]4650-the poor lady dimpled arms through the sleeves ; then [I]0-i fixed it in front with the turquoise buttons , and buckled the slender zone . [Her]4650-the poor lady blue eyes looked on in amazement , like violets at a snow - storm . Then [I]0-i led [her]4650-the poor lady to the mirror , and proud as [we]4655-us both had always been of [her]4650-the poor lady beauty , the same thought struck [us]4655-us now . [I]0-i saw it in the mirror , by the toss of [her]4650-the poor lady pointed chin and the coy bend of [her]4650-the poor lady neck : [she]4650-the poor lady saw it there as clearly , by the flash of [my]0-i tear - bright eyes . Neither of [us]4655-us had ever seen [that loveliest of [all girls]4657-all girls]4656-that loveliest of all girls look half so lovely before . The glow of pride and beauty 's glory mantled in [her]4650-the poor lady cheeks ; and [her]4650-the poor lady eyes were softly beaming down the avenue of lashes , from clearest depths of azure . [I]0-i never saw such eyes as [she]4650-the poor lady had , among all [our]4655-us English beauties . Some perhaps are as fine of colour , and as liquid , though not so lustrous : but the exquisite arch of the upper lid , and the rich short fringe of the lower , cast a tremulous light and shade , which dull [Anglo - Saxons]666-anglo - saxons feel not . Like moonbeams playing through a mantled bridge . The dress fitted [her]4650-the poor lady exactly . It had been made for a slender , buoyant figure , as graceful and pure as a snow - wreath , yet full of warm motion and richness . Indeed , [I]0-i must confess , that , although correct enough for the time and clime of [the owner]6873-the owner , it showed too much of the lifting snow for [our]4655-us conceptions of maidenhood : so [I]0-i drew a gauzy scarf — perhaps a true fazoletto — over the velvet slope of the shoulders , and imprisoned it in [the valley]1708-the valley . This being nicely arranged , [I]0-i hung [her]4650-the poor lady chalcedony charm from [her]4650-the poor lady neck , and fastened it to [her]4650-the poor lady waist - band . Then [I]0-i caught up [her]4650-the poor lady clustering hair , nearly as thick and long as [my]0-i own , after the Corsican fashion , snooded it close in ripples with a pink and white - striped mandile , and told [her]4650-the poor lady to love [herself]4650-the poor lady in the glass , while [I]0-i ran off to [the hot - house]4660-the hot - house for a truss of Stephanotis . This , with a glossy sprig of Gardenia leaves to back it , [I]0-i fastened cleverly into the clear mandile , on the curve of [her]4650-the poor lady elegant head , and [[my]0-i darling]5337-my darling was complete . Then [I]0-i kissed [her]4650-the poor lady sweet lips , and admired [her]4650-the poor lady , more than [she]4650-the poor lady admired [herself]4650-the poor lady . " [Clara]293-clara , it does not matter how much trouble [you]293-clara take ; [you]293-clara ca n't make [me]4650-the poor lady look a quarter so well as [you]293-clara do . "[4650-the poor lady] " Not quite so tall , [[my]5337-my darling darling]5337-my darling , nor anything like so naughty ; but a thousand times more lovely . "[5337-my darling] " Well , [I]4650-the poor lady wish [I]4650-the poor lady could think so . [I]4650-the poor lady am always longing to change with [you]293-clara . "[4650-the poor lady] " Do n't talk nonsense , [[my]0-i pretty]8768-my pretty ; if [I]0-i were [a man]5384-a man [I]0-i should die for [you]4662-her . Now [I]0-i glory in [you]4662-her as a [Vaughan]293-clara . Come along . "[0-i] [I]0-i led [her]4662-her through [the gallery]4663-the gallery and to the door of [[[her]4662-her father]898-her father 's room]4665-her father 's room , before [she]4662-her had time to think . [She]4662-her did not know but what [I]0-i was taking [her]4662-her back to [[my]0-i own rooms]4641-my own rooms , along [another passage]4667-another passage . At [the sick man]4668-the sick man 's door [I]0-i left [her]4662-her , while [I]0-i went in to see how much might be safely ventured . [[My]0-i Uncle]1271-my uncle was leaning back in [his]1271-my uncle deep reclining chair , with [his]1271-my uncle weak eyes fixed most eagerly on the door . In vain [he]1271-my uncle strove to hide [his]1271-my uncle disappointment , and to look at [me]0-i with gratitude . [The wandering mind]4670-the wandering mind too plainly hoped for something dearer than [[a brother]3640-a brother 's child]4672-a brother 's child . Dismissing [Jane]347-jane through [the other room]4673-the other room , that [she]347-jane might not encounter [Isola]428-isola , [I]0-i sat down to examine [him]1271-my uncle . The brandy and water had rallied [his]1271-my uncle vital power , but made [him]1271-my uncle hot and feverish . [He]1271-my uncle kissed [my]0-i hand to atone for some sharp and impatient expressions , and [I]0-i saw that the moment was favourable . " [Uncle dear]7386-uncle dear , what will [you]7386-uncle dear say to [me]1271-my uncle ? [I]1271-my uncle have brought [you]7386-uncle dear [another new visitor]8899-another new visitor , [the loveliest girl in [London]1-london]8900-the loveliest girl in london . [You]7386-uncle dear know [her]8900-the loveliest girl in london well by name . [You]7386-uncle dear have often longed to see [my]1271-my uncle sweet darling [Isola]428-isola . And [she]8900-the loveliest girl in london wants to see [you]7386-uncle dear so much . Only [you]7386-uncle dear must promise [me]1271-my uncle one thing honourably . Be gay and sprightly with [her]8900-the loveliest girl in london ; [she]8900-the loveliest girl in london is timid in [this old house]8901-this old house . "[1271-my uncle] " [[My]1271-my uncle dear]5318-my dear , [I]1271-my uncle ca n't see [her]8900-the loveliest girl in london to - night . [You]7386-uncle dear do n't mean that of course . Give [her]8900-the loveliest girl in london [my]1271-my uncle best apologies . [You]7386-uncle dear say [she]8900-the loveliest girl in london is very sweet - tempered ; [I]1271-my uncle am sure [she]8900-the loveliest girl in london will excuse [me]1271-my uncle . "[1271-my uncle] " If [she]8900-the loveliest girl in london would , [I]0-i will not . Nor would [you]7386-uncle dear excuse [her]8900-the loveliest girl in london , if [you]7386-uncle dear knew whom [she]8900-the loveliest girl in london resembles . "[0-i] " What do [you]7386-uncle dear mean ? Have [you]7386-uncle dear locked [my]1271-my uncle box again ? "[1271-my uncle] " Yes , and here is the key . [I]0-i found a portrait of [a lady"—I]8903-a lady"—i[0-i] had not shown this to [[my]0-i cousin—"very]8904-my cousin—"very like beautiful [Isola]428-isola . "[1271-my uncle] [He]4674-he began to tremble again , so [I]0-i thought the quicker the better . Placing the lamp - shade so that a dim light fell on the door , [I]0-i ran out to fetch [[his]4674-he daughter]2465-his daughter . " Now , do n't be [a baby]2061-a baby , [Isola]428-isola . Remember how ill [he]4674-he is . Keep as much in the shadow as possible ; and if [he]4674-he should guess who [you]0-i are , pretend not to care a bit for [him]4674-he . "[0-i] " [I]2465-his daughter will try [my]2465-his daughter very best , [Clara]293-clara . But [I]2465-his daughter do n't think [I]2465-his daughter can do that . "[2465-his daughter] [She]2465-his daughter shook so much that [I]0-i was obliged to support [her]2465-his daughter , as [she]2465-his daughter had supported [me]0-i that evening when first [we]4676-we met . [Stiffly]667-stiffly [I]0-i brought [her]2465-his daughter in , and began to introduce [her]2465-his daughter , holding [her]2465-his daughter back all the time . " [Uncle Edgar]310-uncle edgar , this is [[my]0-i dearest friend]8906-my dearest friend , of whom [you]2465-his daughter have heard so often , [Miss Isola"—Ross]668-miss isola"—ross[0-i] [I]0-i could not say . " Why , [Uncle]8907-uncle — why , [Idols]466-idols , [darling]6257-darling — "[0-i] It was all in vain ; [I]0-i might as well have spared [my]0-i devices . From the moment [she]2465-his daughter crossed the threshold , [his]4677-he eyes had been leaping towards [her]2465-his daughter . [The paralysed man]4678-the paralysed man bounded forward , as if with galvanic life . [[His]4677-he daughter]2465-his daughter met [him]4677-he as wildly . " [[My]4677-he Lily]7976-my lily , [[my]4677-he [Lily]592-lily]7976-my lily , "[4677-he] was all [he]4677-he could sob , " [my]4677-he own [Lily]592-lily come from the grave ! "[4677-he] With [a father]3233-a father 's strength [he]4677-he clasped [her]2465-his daughter , and [her]2465-his daughter dark locks were showered with silver . As for tears — but [I]0-i left them together when [I]0-i had seen [both]4681-both safe on the sofa . To [our]4682-our surprise and delight , [the genuine Papa]425-papa , instead of being worse the next day , looked more like [himself]4677-he than [he]4677-he had done at any time since the fever . But in spite of added importance , and the sense of parental dignity , [he]4677-he sat hand in hand with [[his]4677-he beautiful daughter]4683-his beautiful daughter by the hour together , playing with [her]2465-his daughter cheeks and hair , as [little girls]7159-little girls do with dollies . And all the time [he]4677-he was talking to [her]2465-his daughter about [[her]2465-his daughter darling mother]4685-her darling mother , and made [her]2465-his daughter answer [him]4677-he in Italian , and made [her]2465-his daughter kiss [him]4677-he every other minute ; and found out a thousand times , as a novelty every time , that [she]2465-his daughter was the very image and model of [[her]2465-his daughter mother]6340-her mother , and yet [he]4677-he was not sure that [her]2465-his daughter smile was quite so sweet ; then to make up for depreciation [he]4677-he needs must kiss [her]2465-his daughter again , and say , yes , [he]4677-he thought it was , though it was quite impossible for any other to be so — and thus [they]4687-their went on , till [I]0-i thought there never would be an end of it ; albeit [I]0-i did [my]0-i utmost to keep away from [them]4687-their both . Knowing that [I]0-i was in [their]4687-their way , and feeling rather out of spirits , [I]0-i went [my]0-i old accustomed round of places , sacred in [my]0-i memory to [a certain father]4688-a certain father and [mother of [my]0-i own]4689-mother of my own . How long [I]0-i wept at [[their]4687-their simple graves]4690-their simple graves , how [I]0-i knelt to [[their]4687-their God]4691-their god and [mine]0-i , thanking [Him]4691-their god from [my]0-i desolate heart for the light now shed upon [me]0-i , and how [I]0-i prayed that [they]4687-their might both be looking down on [me]0-i now and craving heavenly guidance for [me]0-i through the peril yet to come — these , and the rest of [my]0-i doings there , can not well be told except to the ears of [orphans]1412-orphans . The clouds of an overcast existence seemed to be opening rapidly , and though they could never disclose [my]0-i sun and moon again , some happiness it was to know even how those had set . And more than all , the foul aspersion upon [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's memory , which all the while [I]0-i scorned it so , had lain heavily on [my]0-i thoughts , this was now proved liar 's spittle , and [[my]0-i sweet darling father]4694-my sweet darling father had offended not even [a villain]4695-a villain . A thousand times [I]0-i implored [his]4694-my sweet darling father pardon for the splash having ever descended upon the hem of [my]0-i garment , though shaken off straight - way with loathing . In the midst of [my]0-i dreamy thoughts , and while [I]0-i sat between the two low headstones , upon the very spot where [I]0-i hope [my]0-i own head may lie , the tremulous beauty of [the Golden Thuja]267-the golden thuja , which [I]0-i had planted there , was pushed aside too carelessly , and something far more beautiful planted itself in front . It was [[my]0-i cousin]1205-my cousin [Lily]592-lily . [I]0-i have been strictly forbidden ever to call [her]592-lily " [Isola]428-isola , "[592-lily] or even " [Idols]466-idols , "[592-lily] again , as savouring of [the evil one]4697-the evil one . [Lily Vaughan]592-lily was beaming with young delight and happiness : the fresh west country air , sweet from [the tropic gulf - stream]4698-the tropic gulf - stream , had crowned the April of [her]592-lily cheeks with a June of roses . " Oh , [Donna]476-donna , [I]592-lily am so glad [I]592-lily have found [you]476-donna at last . What makes [you]476-donna run away from [me]592-lily and [[my]592-lily Papa]6254-my papa ? [I]592-lily have lost [my]592-lily way all over [the world]798-the world . What [a lovely world]8913-a lovely world [it]8913-a lovely world is , [Donna]476-donna ! "[592-lily] " Do n't call [me]592-lily that name here . Do [you]0-i not see where [you]0-i stand ? "[592-lily] [She]592-lily glanced at the headstones engraved with initials and dates , and at once understood it all . For a long time [she]592-lily was silent , a long time [I]0-i mean for [her]592-lily ; and [her]592-lily soft eyes glistened at once with awe and pity . At last , [she]592-lily crept close to [me]0-i , looked at the ground , and whispered with a deep sigh : " How [you]0-i must hate [me]592-lily , [Clara]293-clara . "[592-lily] " Hate [you]0-i , [[my]592-lily darling]5337-my darling ! What for ? "[592-lily] " Oh , because [I]592-lily have got such a dear [Papa]425-papa , and [you]0-i have none at all . And much worse than that , because — because — oh , [I]592-lily do n't know how to tell [you]0-i . "[592-lily] " Tell [me]592-lily all [you]0-i mean . Let there be no misunderstanding between [us]8915-us . "[592-lily] " Because [[my]4699-her mother]746-my mother and [[my]4699-her father]731-my father seem somehow to have killed — though [I]4699-her am sure [they]8918-they would rather have killed [themselves]8918-they — [[your]0-i poor papa]8919-your poor papa and [mamma]5377-mamma . "[4699-her] And [she]4699-her leaned on [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother 's headstone , and sobbed till [I]0-i feared for [her]4699-her heart . [I]0-i put [my]0-i arm around [her]4699-her waist , drew [her]4699-her towards [me]0-i , and sat on [[[my]0-i father]731-my father 's grave]990-my father 's grave , with [[his]731-my father niece]6155-his niece upon [my]0-i lap . " [Dearest]3164-dearest , [I]0-i could not be [the child of those who sleep beneath [us]8923-us]8922-the child of those who sleep beneath us , if it were in [my]0-i nature now to feel as [you]3164-dearest imagine . Years ago , [I]0-i might have done so ; though [I]0-i hope not even then . [Orphan]669-orphan as [I]0-i am and helpless , already [I]0-i perceive that [I]0-i have not lived for nothing . [[My]0-i father]731-my father , [I]0-i believe , [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother , [I]0-i am sure , would have laid down life with pleasure to see [me]0-i led from wayward childhood even to what [I]0-i am . Oh , [Lily]592-lily , [you]592-lily ca n't think how [they]8926-they loved [me]0-i . "[0-i] And at the tender memory , came tears , the voice of silence . [Lily]592-lily said not a word , but gathered and plaited a wreath of flowers , wherewith , as in a nuptial tie , [she]592-lily bound the white headstones together — anything so as not to disturb [me]0-i just then . Even that trifle , a graceful idea born of [her]592-lily Southern origin , even that for the moment touched [me]0-i deeply . Times there are when [our]4704-our souls seem to have taken hot baths in the springs of memory , and every pore of them is open . " [Darling Lily]592-lily , come — how proud [they]8926-they would have been of [you]592-lily — come and kiss [me]4705-the innocent creature in this presence , and promise that , whatever happens , [none]1510-none shall ever thrust cold hands between [your]592-lily heart and [mine]4705-the innocent creature . That [we]4704-our will bear , and trust , and love ; nor , if a shadow steals between [us]4704-our , blink it till the substance follows , but be frank and open — the very breath of friendship — and when doubt begins to grow , for [the devil]5884-the devil is sure to sow it , have it plucked away at once , each by [the other]1586-the other 's hand . Kiss [me]4705-the innocent creature , [dear]5871-dear ; [your]592-lily weakness is that [you]592-lily are not so outspoken as [I]4705-the innocent creature am . Never let [me]4705-the innocent creature vex [you]592-lily , without knowing it . "[4705-the innocent creature] [The innocent creature]4705-the innocent creature kissed [me]0-i , and promised solemnly . " Oh , [Clara]293-clara , "[4705-the innocent creature] [she]4705-the innocent creature cried , " how on earth did [you]293-clara find it out ? Sometimes [you]293-clara have vexed [me]4705-the innocent creature dreadfully , for [you]293-clara do n't care much what [you]293-clara say ; but [I]4705-the innocent creature always thought it was [my]4705-the innocent creature fault , and [I]4705-the innocent creature never told [you]293-clara of it . But it never made [me]4705-the innocent creature love [you]293-clara a single bit the less . "[4705-the innocent creature] " Yes , it did for the moment , though [you]293-clara may soon have forgiven it . But a love which is always undergoing forgiveness , is like glass steeped in water , [you]293-clara may cut it in two with a pair of common scissors . "[4705-the innocent creature] " Well , [I]4707-i should like to see the scissors that would cut [me]4707-i away from [you]293-clara . [I]4707-i 'll have a great piece off [your]293-clara hair , [Clara]293-clara , if [you]293-clara talk such nonsense . Now come ; [[my]4707-i father]731-my father wants [you]293-clara . "[4707-i] " Have [you]293-clara told [him]731-my father ? "[4705-the innocent creature] " Yes , everything about [dear Conny]427-conrad and [you]293-clara ; and [he]731-my father says [you]293-clara are [a noble girl]8932-a noble girl , but uncommonly thick - headed about [your]293-clara own concerns , though as quick as lightning for others . Now , [I]4707-i wo n't have [you]293-clara look so pale ; let [us]8933-us run and get some colour . See , [I]4707-i 'll get first to that tree . "[4707-i] " Will [you]0-i indeed ? "[0-i] [I]0-i won the race by [a yard]8740-a yard , and was glad that the exercise made excuse for the quick rise of [my]0-i bosom . After all that had happened , [I]0-i would not have [her]4707-i imagine that [I]0-i still cared for [[her]4707-i brother]6430-her brother . Like [a girl]2251-a girl all over , [she]4707-i said not another word , determined that [I]0-i should begin it . " Let [us]8933-us walk faster , [Lily]592-lily , if [[my]4707-i Uncle]1271-my uncle wishes to see [me]4707-i . "[4707-i] " No , there is plenty of time . It will do [him]1271-my uncle good to sleep a little . "[4707-i] " Oh , then it is nothing important . [I]4707-i rather feared that it might be . "[4707-i] " Do n't be at all afraid , [darling]6257-darling . [He]1271-my uncle wants to show [you]6257-darling how nicely [he]1271-my uncle made the Chalcedony Spalla that used to be round [my]4707-i neck . [He]1271-my uncle made it for [[my]4707-i mother]746-my mother , in remembrance of something . "[4707-i] " Oh , nothing more than that . [I]4707-i thought [you]0-i spoke of something — at least [you]0-i seemed to imply — "[4707-i] " Nothing that [you]6257-darling need blush about , nor stammer either , proud [Donna]476-donna . [You]6257-darling know [you]6257-darling proved to [me]4707-i yesterday , when [we]8937-we were in [the cab]6488-the cab , that [you]6257-darling did not care for [Conny]427-conrad any more than [you]6257-darling did for a flake of [London]1-london soot , which happened to come in at the window , and fall upon [your]6257-darling glove . And [you]6257-darling were kind enough to compare [him]427-conrad to [that individual smut]8939-that individual smut . "[4707-i] " Oh , [Judy]477-judy , [Judy]477-judy , "[0-i] [I]0-i cried , as the dog came bounding to meet us—"darling [Judy]477-judy , [you]6257-darling love [Clara]293-clara , if [nobody else]7186-nobody else has sense enough . "[4707-i] And half an hour ago , [Lily]592-lily and [I]0-i in dramatic language , vowed eternal affection ! " Oh , [Clara]293-clara , [darling Clara]8941-darling clara , do n't [you]293-clara know that [I]4707-i was in fun ? [I]4707-i thought [you]293-clara were so clever . And now to see [you]293-clara sobbing over that great muff of a dog ! [Judy]477-judy , [I]4707-i hate [you]293-clara , get out of the way"—the[4707-i] judicious would not stir—"take [your]293-clara great hulking paws from [cousin Clara]293-clara 's neck . There then , make the most of that ! Oh , [I]4707-i have hurt [my]4707-i hand so , and [he]4707-i is only wagging [his]4707-i tail . But [I]4707-i am so delighted , [[my]4707-i own pet]8942-my own pet , that [you]293-clara love poor [Conny]427-conrad still . "[4707-i] " And pray , who said [I]4707-i did ? "[4707-i] " [Nobody]1116-nobody , only [me]4707-i . All [dear Papa]425-papa said was this , that there was a great mistake , and [he]425-papa soon perceived what it was ; and [I]4707-i asked [him]425-papa to take [my]4707-i opinion about it , because [I]4707-i was [a senior sophist]8944-a senior sophist . And [he]425-papa pretended not to know what [a senior sophist]8944-a senior sophist was . And [I]4707-i told [him]425-papa it was [my]4707-i degree , not from [that man]1220-that man , [you]293-clara know , but fairly earned at [the College]6246-the college ; though [they]8948-they did have the impudence to say that [the Professors]8949-the professors were going to pluck [me]4707-i , until [I]4707-i gave [them]8948-they a smile . "[4707-i] " True enough , no doubt . But [I]4707-i know all that long ago . What more did [[my]4707-i Uncle]1271-my uncle say ? "[4707-i] " That [he]1271-my uncle would tell [you]293-clara [his]1271-my uncle opinion , but [he]1271-my uncle would rather not talk about it to [me]4707-i . And [he]1271-my uncle could not bear [me]4707-i to go out , for fear [I]4707-i should be stolen again . And [I]4707-i do believe [he]1271-my uncle has had [me]4707-i watched all the way . Here [I]4707-i come , [Pappy]426-pappy ; large as life [you]293-clara see , and three times as natural . "[4707-i] " Yes , [my]592-lily own treasure , three times as natural to [me]592-lily , as [my]592-lily life has been without [you]293-clara . But wheel [me]592-lily indoors , [young maidens]8951-young maidens . [No other man in [the world]798-the world]8952-no other man in the world has such a pair of horses . [I]592-lily want to talk to [Clara]293-clara , in [[my]592-lily own room]8954-my own room alone . [Lily]592-lily , go to [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher , [I]592-lily ca n't have [you]592-lily roving about so . "[592-lily] [Lily]592-lily obeyed [him]4710-my instantly . " Wait one minute , [[Uncle]8955-uncle dear]7386-uncle dear ; [I]4710-my want to go and fetch something . "[4710-my] [I]0-i ran to [[my]0-i own rooms]4641-my own rooms , and found the deed of gift , which had not been returned to [the lawyers]1354-the lawyers . This [I]0-i took to [[his]4710-my study]1372-his study and placed it in [his]4710-my hands . " What is the matter , [Clara]293-clara ? Have [you]293-clara turned [conveyancer]8957-conveyancer , and detected some informality ? "[0-i] " No , [dearest Uncle]8887-dearest uncle . But [I]0-i want [you]4710-my to cancel this . [I]0-i can not allow [you]4710-my so to rob [[your]4710-my children]5805-your children . "[0-i] [I]0-i will not say what [he]4710-my called [me]0-i in [his]4710-my surprise and delight . It seemed to [me]0-i quite uncalled for ; [I]0-i had only done what [my]0-i conscience told [me]0-i was just . But as for accepting [my]0-i offer — [he]4710-my would not hear of it twice . " [Darling]592-lily , it would be wrong . It would be downright robbery ; and no plea whatever for it , on the score of paternal duty . [You]592-lily are [the proper heir]8960-the proper heir , [the child of [the elder son]8962-the elder son]8961-the child of the elder son , [the true representative of [[our]8964-our ancient family]8965-our ancient family]8963-the true representative of our ancient family . All the rest is a quibble and quirk , of which , even without [your]592-lily countless benefits , [I]4710-my never intended to take advantage . And [[my]4710-my children]6217-my children are , by [the mother]5825-the mother 's side , of [a family older even than [ours]8964-our]8968-a family older even than ours — so far as that nonsense goes — and are heirs to wealth compared to which — if it only be rightly worked — [these Vaughan estates]8969-these vaughan estates are nothing . All [I]4710-my ask [you]592-lily is to do a thing which [I]4710-my am sure [you]592-lily would do without asking — to assist [them]6217-my children , if what [I]4710-my have left [them]6217-my children is spent before [they]6217-my children prove [their]6217-my children claims . Here is a letter to [Count Gaffori]631-count gaffori ; [that excellent man]8970-that excellent man is still alive ; and here are the certificates , and [my]4710-my own brief deposition , which [I]4710-my have begged [a neighbouring magistrate]8971-a neighbouring magistrate to come to - day and attest ; here is [my]4710-my [Lily]592-lily 's [Spalla]171-the spalla , and perhaps other relics are in [[my]4710-my son]5986-my son 's possession . Lastly , here are two more letters , one to [[my]4710-my old friend]7305-my old friend [Peter Green]575-green , who has now much influence in [that part of [Corsica]150-corsica]8974-that part of corsica , the other to [James McGregor]444-jim , once [[my]4710-my messmate at [Lincoln 's Inn]132-lincoln 's inn]8975-my messmate at lincoln 's inn , now [an acute and rising Counsel]8976-an acute and rising counsel , and a leading authority upon municipal law . Take all these , [[my]4710-my darling]5337-my darling , if [you]5337-my darling will so far oblige [me]4710-my ; for [I]4710-my fear [[my]4710-my lovely daughter]8978-my lovely daughter — isn't [she]8978-my lovely daughter lovely , [Clara]293-clara ? "[4710-my] " [The loveliest girl in [all the world]1663-all the world]8979-the loveliest girl in all the world ; and what is far more important , the sweetest , and the best . "[4714-my] " Yes , if [you]5337-my darling had searched [the kingdom]1288-the kingdom , [you]5337-my darling could not have brought [me]4714-my such another love . But ah ! [you]5337-my darling should have seen [[her]8978-my lovely daughter mother]6340-her mother ! However , [I]4714-my fear [the sweet pet]8983-the sweet pet is a little careless and random , as [[her]8978-my lovely daughter father]898-her father used to be . At any rate , [I]4714-my prefer entrusting this great budget to [your]5337-my darling brave and honest hands ; at least until [[my]4714-my son]5986-my son comes here to claim it . The deposition [you]5337-my darling shall have , when attested . "[4714-my] " But , [Uncle]1284-uncle , surely [you]4714-my had better keep it all [yourself]4714-my . No fear of [Mrs. Daldy]312-mrs. daldy now . "[4710-my] " No , [[my]4714-my darling]5337-my darling ; but these things must not be buried with [me]4714-my . "[4714-my] There was something in [his]4714-my eyes which made [me]0-i start with terror . But [he]4714-my smiled so sweetly that [my]0-i terror fled . " And now , [[my]4714-my child]1549-my child , about [yourself]1549-my child . Though [you]1549-my child have found [me]4714-my [another daughter]8989-another daughter , [I]4714-my look upon [you]1549-my child as [the eldest]8990-the eldest ; and [I]4714-my venture to speak to [you]1549-my child , as [a father]3233-a father would . Is it as [[my]4714-my [Lily]592-lily]7976-my lily tells [me]4714-my ? Is it true — [God]303-god grant it may be — that [you]1549-my child love [[my]4714-my son]5986-my son , [[my]4714-my [Lily]592-lily 's son]8994-my lily 's son , [Henry Conrad]670-conrad ? Why do n't [you]1549-my child answer [me]4714-my , [darling]6257-darling ? Tell the truth like [a real Vaughan]8996-a real vaughan . Surely [you]1549-my child are not ashamed of [him]8996-a real vaughan . "[4714-my] And [he]4715-his laid [his]4715-his hand on [my]0-i head . [My]0-i tears fell fast ; and [my]0-i heart was in a tempest . " Yes , [Uncle]1284-uncle , "[4715-his] at last [I]0-i answered , frightened for [his]4715-his suspense , and looking [him]4715-his full in the face , " Yes , [Uncle]8998-uncle , [I]0-i do — [I]0-i mean at least [I]0-i did — love [him]8996-a real vaughan very much at one time . "[0-i] " With all [your]8998-uncle heart , as [we]8999-we [Vaughans]398-vaughans love ; with all [your]8998-uncle heart , [poor darling]9000-poor darling ? "[4715-his] " Yes , [Uncle]9001-uncle , "[0-i] [I]0-i sobbed , in bitter humiliation ; " none of [my]0-i heart is left [me]0-i . "[0-i] " Thank [God]303-god ! what blest news for [[his]8996-a real vaughan mother]1066-his mother ! [[My]4715-his [Harry]670-conrad]8460-my harry is [the happiest fellow alive]9004-the happiest fellow alive . "[4715-his] " But , [Uncle]9005-uncle , [he]8996-a real vaughan does not think so , [he]8996-a real vaughan — [he]8996-a real vaughan — doesn't perceive [his]8996-a real vaughan blessedness . "[0-i] A flash of [my]0-i old self - irony came even through [my]0-i anguish . " Oh , [I]0-i have heard all that . But surely [you]9005-uncle know the absurd mistake [he]8996-a real vaughan made . "[0-i] " Indeed , [I]4715-his can not guess it . Is it [my]4715-his place to do that ? "[4715-his] " Of course it is ; when [you]9005-uncle are in the light , and [he]8996-a real vaughan is all in the dark . Whom did [that kidnapper]9006-that kidnapper believe [himself]8996-a real vaughan to have murdered ? "[4715-his] " [You]9005-uncle , [Uncle]1284-uncle , of course . "[0-i] " And whose child then does [he]8996-a real vaughan suppose [you]9005-uncle to be ; if [he]8996-a real vaughan heard of [your]9005-uncle existence , as [he]8996-a real vaughan is sure to have done ? "[4715-his] " [Merciful God]303-god , [I]0-i see it all ! And how bitterly [I]0-i have wronged [him]8996-a real vaughan , [[my]0-i own noble Conrad]9008-my own noble conrad ! "[0-i] [[My]0-i poor weak Uncle]4716-my poor weak uncle had to manage [me]0-i , all by [himself]4716-my poor weak uncle , in [my]0-i terrible hysterics . Frightened as [he]4716-my poor weak uncle was , for [he]4716-my poor weak uncle never before had to deal in that way with a nature resembling [mine]0-i , [he]4716-my poor weak uncle would not even ring for help , lest [I]0-i should betray [my]0-i secret to other ears than [his]4716-my poor weak uncle own . When at last [I]0-i came to [myself]0-i , [he]4716-my poor weak uncle kissed [me]0-i tenderly , and said : " [[My]4716-my poor weak uncle poor dear child]5350-my poor dear child , remember — when [you]5350-my poor dear child may be glad to think of it — that whether [I]4716-my poor weak uncle see [[my]4716-my poor weak uncle noble boy]9010-my noble boy or not , [I]4716-my poor weak uncle shall die now in perfect happiness . Noble [he]9010-my noble boy must be , or [Clara]293-clara could not love [him]9010-my noble boy . It would have been the pet scheme of [my]4716-my poor weak uncle heart , if [I]4716-my poor weak uncle could have had a voice in it . And here it is done without [me]4716-my poor weak uncle ! How often have [I]4716-my poor weak uncle longed and yearned that [he]4716-my poor weak uncle could only see [you]5350-my poor dear child , as [you]5350-my poor dear child waited day and night by [my]4716-my poor weak uncle pestilential bed , that [he]4716-my poor weak uncle could only know the tale of [your]5350-my poor dear child troubles and devotion . At [my]4716-my poor weak uncle death , [the generation so visited from heaven]9011-the generation so visited from heaven expires ; and [[you]5350-my poor dear child three darlings]9012-you three darlings start anew , with all things in [your]5350-my poor dear child favour . Now mind that [the good old Signor]9013-the good old signor 's directions are complied with , and that [Harry]670-conrad , if [he]670-conrad lives [here]846-here , abandons [the Corsican property]9015-the corsican property to [[his]670-conrad sister]2443-his sister [Lily]592-lily . Promise [me]4716-my poor weak uncle this , [[my]4716-my poor weak uncle [Clara]293-clara]5392-my clara . "[4716-my poor weak uncle] " Of course [I]4716-my poor weak uncle will , [dear Uncle]3045-dear uncle — [I]4716-my poor weak uncle mean , so far as [my]4716-my poor weak uncle influence goes . And [he]670-conrad will then be bound to do so under the deed - poll , if [I]4716-my poor weak uncle understood [you]293-clara aright . But perhaps [he]670-conrad has quite forgotten [me]4716-my poor weak uncle now . "[4716-my poor weak uncle] " Of course [he]670-conrad thinks [himself]670-conrad bound to avoid [you]293-clara . But [I]4716-my poor weak uncle have written to set [him]670-conrad right , and to bring [him]670-conrad as soon as possible . And now about — about that horrible — "[4716-my poor weak uncle] " Ah , yes . If [I]4716-my poor weak uncle had the right , [I]4716-my poor weak uncle would even let [him]670-conrad go . [My]4716-my poor weak uncle feeling has changed from fierce hatred to utter contempt . And surely [his]670-conrad vengeance is satisfied now . "[4716-my poor weak uncle] " No , [Clara]293-clara . It will flame more wildly than ever the moment [he]670-conrad learns [his]670-conrad mistake , and [my]4716-my poor weak uncle final triumph over [him]670-conrad . Has [he]670-conrad any idea where [[our]9019-our [Lily]592-lily]3564-our lily is ? "[4716-my poor weak uncle] " As yet , [he]670-conrad can have none . If [old Cora]585-old cora went to [Albert Street]268-albert street last evening , [she]585-old cora would learn nothing from [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [I]4716-my poor weak uncle took care of that , except that [Lily]592-lily had been [there]1114-there , and was gone again . [The old woman]9022-the old woman does not speak English enough to attempt to cross - examine . [She]9022-the old woman loves poor [Lily]592-lily , [I]4716-my poor weak uncle know , but will be satisfied with the belief that [the child]6995-the child had gone to [[her]9022-the old woman brother]6430-her brother 's . And as for [that monster]9025-that monster , even if [he]670-conrad relents , [he]670-conrad will be too proud to inquire . "[4716-my poor weak uncle] " What had [[my]4716-my poor weak uncle poor child]5429-my poor child done , that [the brute]8326-the brute turned [her]9022-the old woman out , and struck [her]9022-the old woman ? "[4716-my poor weak uncle] " Nothing , [I]4716-my poor weak uncle believe , beyond defending [[her]9022-the old woman brother]6430-her brother [Conrad]670-conrad , as [she]9022-the old woman always did . [I]4716-my poor weak uncle suppose [I]4716-my poor weak uncle may call [him]670-conrad ' [Conrad]670-conrad , ' [Uncle]9029-uncle ? "[4716-my poor weak uncle] " Yes , [[my]4716-my poor weak uncle dear]5318-my dear , it is [his]670-conrad true name , chosen by [[his]670-conrad mother]1066-his mother . Where are [you]4716-my poor weak uncle going so hastily ? "[4716-my poor weak uncle] " To [London]1-london at once . For [your]5318-my dear sake , [[Uncle]9032-uncle dear]7386-uncle dear , [I]4716-my poor weak uncle must not think of sparing [him]670-conrad . [I]4716-my poor weak uncle must have [him]670-conrad in [custody]9034-custody to - night . [I]4716-my poor weak uncle would have avoided it , if [I]4716-my poor weak uncle could for a thousand reasons ; but there is no alternative . "[4716-my poor weak uncle] " Yes there is . In two days [I]4716-my poor weak uncle shall be beyond [his]670-conrad reach . Do n't ask [me]4716-my poor weak uncle what [I]4716-my poor weak uncle mean . To - day is Thursday . Promise only to let [him]670-conrad go free till Saturday . "[4716-my poor weak uncle] " [I]4716-my poor weak uncle will . But [I]4716-my poor weak uncle must go to [London]1-london . [I]4716-my poor weak uncle can not rest quiet here . "[4716-my poor weak uncle] [[My]0-i Uncle]1271-my uncle 's face brightened beautifully . And [he]1271-my uncle took [my]0-i hand in [his]1271-my uncle . " [I]1271-my uncle know what [you]0-i mean , [[my]1271-my uncle darling]5337-my darling . [You]0-i intend to discover [[my]1271-my uncle Harry]8460-my harry , for fear of any mishap . [I]1271-my uncle will let [you]0-i go , [dear]5871-dear ; though [the house]764-the house seems empty without [you]0-i , [[its]764-the house truthful and graceful mistress]9039-its truthful and graceful mistress . But [you]0-i must not go alone . It is not right for [a beautiful girl]9040-a beautiful girl , however self - possessed and dignified , especially one of [your]0-i station , to rove about unattended . "[1271-my uncle] " [Only one man]9041-only one man ever insulted [me]4716-my poor weak uncle , [Uncle]9042-uncle , [I]4716-my poor weak uncle mean in a serious way , and [he]9041-only one man never did it again . "[4716-my poor weak uncle] " It does not matter . The example is bad , and [all men]951-all men are not [gentlemen]8248-gentlemen . [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher shall go with [you]0-i , and [our]9045-our pretty [Lily]592-lily keep house . But [I]1271-my uncle have an especial reason , and [a most powerful one]9046-a most powerful one , for wishing that [you]0-i should be [here]846-here . Do n't go till to - morrow , [[my]1271-my uncle darling]5337-my darling ; [I]1271-my uncle am so well to - day , and [I]1271-my uncle must see [you]0-i once at [your]0-i own table , with [[my]1271-my uncle daughter]3561-my daughter and [me]1271-my uncle for [[your]0-i guests]9050-your guests . "[1271-my uncle] " Oh , [Uncle]1284-uncle , [I]1271-my uncle hope so a thousand times . [I]1271-my uncle will stop till the morning , if [you]1284-uncle have set [your]1284-uncle heart upon it . "[1271-my uncle] " [I]1271-my uncle have indeed . [You]1284-uncle may go in the morning by [the first train]9052-the first train , and be back to - morrow night . Will [you]1284-uncle promise ? "[1271-my uncle] Though [I]0-i could not understand [his]4718-his motive , and [he]4718-his was pleased to conceal it , [I]0-i promised all [he]4718-his asked . Then [I]0-i told [him]4718-his all the story of [Conrad]670-conrad and the accident , how [he]670-conrad saved [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother 's life and [mine]0-i , with the courage and skill of [a true - born mountaineer]4720-a true - born mountaineer . [[My]0-i Uncle]1271-my uncle was moved to tears , not only at the gallantry of [[his]4718-his son]1321-his son , but also by the joy of discovering that all the obligations lay not upon one side . [I]0-i also wept at finding that [Lily]592-lily had never heard of it . [Conrad]670-conrad 's lofty nature scorned to narrate its own achievements . When , after that adventure , [he]4718-his discovered who [we]4723-we were , [he]4718-his avoided [us]4723-we because [he]4718-his believed that [[his]4718-his father]1062-his father had slain [mine]0-i . It was not till a later date , when [he]4718-his became of age — as [the Corsicans]4725-the corsicans reckon manhood — that [Lepardo Della Croce]570-lepardo told [him]4718-his all [he]4718-his knew of [his]4718-his history , dwelt on the foul shame wrought to [the Della Croce by [[his]4718-his bigamist father]4727-his bigamist father]4726-the della croce by his bigamist father , and tried in vain to force on [him]4718-his the awful oath of Vendetta . [The youth]4728-the youth had too much English blood in [his]4728-the youth heart to accept the black inheritance . Thenceforth [he]4728-the youth could not bear the sight of [the man who had killed , as [they]4730-they both supposed , [[his]4718-his father]1062-his father , although , in [his]4718-his wrath for [[his]4718-his mother]1066-his mother 's wrongs and [his]4718-his own]4729-the man who had killed , as they both supposed , his father , although , in his wrath for his mother 's wrongs and his own , [he]4718-his would not resent the deed . What marvel then that [he]4718-his spurned [me]0-i , and was maddened with [himself]4718-his , at finding that [he]4718-his , [the illegitimate]4733-the illegitimate , was in love with [me]0-i , [[his]4718-his legitimate sister]4734-his legitimate sister ? But now , [we]4735-us are only half - [cousins]2634-cousins , and nature has never misled [us]4735-us . All that evening , [[my]0-i Uncle]1271-my uncle was in the most glorious spirits , and [I]0-i am not sure that [Lily]592-lily and [I]0-i were very far behind [him]1271-my uncle . [He]1271-my uncle played [us]4735-us all sorts of boyish tricks , and [we]4735-us made reprisals with girlish ones , till [Lily]592-lily 's joyous laughter rang halfway clown [the corridor]7666-the corridor . [I]0-i had dressed [her]592-lily with especial care , and [she]592-lily did look such a love ! But it was all too sudden , and far too sweet to last . [[My]0-i Uncle]1271-my uncle indeed seemed quite beside [himself]1271-my uncle , more gladsome than nature allows [us]4735-us to be with impunity . Then the vein dried all of a sudden , and the mind flowed the opposite way . [He]1271-my uncle made [[his]1271-my uncle beautiful daughter]4683-his beautiful daughter , who , though [not much of a sophist]4741-not much of a sophist , had [a soul that thrilled to music]4742-a soul that thrilled to music , [he]1271-my uncle made [her]4683-his beautiful daughter play the soft Corsican airs , that seem to weep as they breathe , and which [she]4683-his beautiful daughter had learned from [old Cora]585-old cora . [He]1271-my uncle knew [them]4743-them all ; how well [he]1271-my uncle knew [them]4743-them , [his]1271-my uncle face turned from the light betrayed . The depth of melodious sadness , the touch of some nervine chord , which knew not its own existence , and starts to be known and appreciated , as might [an unconscious poet]4744-an unconscious poet , and more than all the trembling spread of the feelers of the heart , these are the proofs of nature 's presence in music or in poetry . Then [he]1271-my uncle begged [me]0-i to play some of the sweet and simple melodies of [Wales]671-wales . These [he]1271-my uncle declared , and [I]0-i had already perceived it , these were born of the self - same spirit , though not so highly intensified , as the Corsican romances . Finally , [he]1271-my uncle told [us]4745-us many a moving tale of [[his]1271-my uncle [Lily]592-lily]3657-his lily ; tales [a man]5384-a man is loth to tell to those with whom [he]5384-a man expects to live . How [she]592-lily was loved , and how [she]592-lily seemed to love [everybody]6273-everybody , and pretty answers [she]592-lily made to those who praised [her]592-lily beauty , and more than words or kisses , the loving things [she]592-lily did , the elegance of self - denial , and the innocence of merit . That night , that memorable night , [we]4745-us stayed up more than two hours over [his]1271-my uncle proper time for going to bed . [He]1271-my uncle seemed so sad to part , that [I]0-i could not bear to hurry [him]1271-my uncle . One thing [he]1271-my uncle told [me]0-i which [I]0-i was glad to hear . " [Clara]293-clara , [darling]6257-darling , [I]1271-my uncle have taken a liberty with [[your]6257-darling house]5344-your house . This afternoon , [I]1271-my uncle wrote by the [London]1-london post , for [Annie Franks]552-annie franks to come back again to - morrow , if [she]552-annie franks will , as an especial favour to [me]1271-my uncle . "[1271-my uncle] [I]0-i was rather surprised ; but answered [him]1271-my uncle warmly , and in all truth : " [Dear Uncle]672-dear uncle , [you]1271-my uncle know that [I]1271-my uncle love [her]552-annie franks ; and [I]1271-my uncle can not see too much of [the few whom [I]1271-my uncle really love]9055-the few whom i really love . "[1271-my uncle] Then , as [I]0-i was to start at six o'clock in the morning , [he]1271-my uncle wished [me]0-i " Good bye , "[1271-my uncle] in a solemn manner , which seemed to [me]0-i quite uncalled for . [He]1271-my uncle drew [my]0-i young face to [his]1271-my uncle own , so marked by sorrow and illness , looked into [my]0-i eyes as if [I]0-i were to remember something , then held [me]0-i in [his]1271-my uncle trembling embrace , and kissed [me]0-i long and fondly . " God in [heaven]1555-heaven bless [you]0-i , [darling]6257-darling , for all [you]0-i have done to [me]1271-my uncle and [mine]1271-my uncle . "[1271-my uncle] " [Mine]1271-my uncle , [you]0-i should say , [dear Uncle]3045-dear uncle . [I]2465-his daughter count them now [my]2465-his daughter own . "[2465-his daughter] [[His]1271-my uncle daughter]2465-his daughter took [him]1271-my uncle away , with [her]2465-his daughter white arms thrown around [him]1271-my uncle . For now [she]2465-his daughter slept in [the closet next to [[his]1271-my uncle room]4751-his room]4750-the closet next to his room , where [I]0-i had so long been quartered . In the early morning , [I]0-i was off for [London]1-london , taking [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher with [me]0-i , much against [my]0-i will , because [she]516-mrs. fletcher seemed to cumber [me]0-i both in thought and action . Between the door and [the avenue]2993-the avenue , [I]0-i looked from [the open carriage]4753-the open carriage — [I]0-i hate to be shut up in summer — at [the dear old house]4754-the dear old house . [Lily]592-lily had got up to breakfast with [me]0-i , in spite of [my]0-i prohibition ; and [she]592-lily was going with [us]4755-us as far as [the lodge]1166-the lodge , to have a nice walk back . To [my]0-i great surprise [I]0-i saw [[my]0-i poor Uncle]2919-my poor uncle , standing at [his]2919-my poor uncle open window , wrapped in a dressing - gown . [He]2919-my poor uncle kissed [his]2919-my poor uncle hand and waved [me]0-i [his]2919-my poor uncle last farewell . [I]0-i leaped on the seat to reply , and then scolded [him]2919-my poor uncle with [my]0-i glove . Half in play and half in sorrow , [he]2919-my poor uncle mocked [my]0-i lively gestures , and the morning breeze lifted [his]2919-my poor uncle silver hair , as [he]2919-my poor uncle wafted [me]0-i the last kiss . [I]0-i told [Lily]592-lily to scold [him]2919-my poor uncle well , with [my]0-i very best love , and [she]592-lily asked [me]0-i in the most ladylike manner , if [I]0-i saw any green in [her]592-lily eye . [The girl]8231-the girl had picked up a great deal of slang among [the fair collegians]4759-the fair collegians . [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher looked sadly shocked ; so [I]0-i said , to reassure [her]516-mrs. fletcher : " [You]516-mrs. fletcher know , [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher , [we]9059-we must make allowances for [young ladies who come from college]9060-young ladies who come from college . "[0-i] " To be sure , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara , to be sure [we]9059-we must , "[592-lily] [she]592-lily replied with [her]592-lily most sagacious air : and at [Gloucester]23-gloucester [she]592-lily whispered to [the coachman]6022-the coachman , " [John]299-john , [the villain that stole [Miss Lily]673-lily]9061-the villain that stole miss lily sent [her]673-lily to [Oxford]126-oxford , in [a young gentleman]5342-a young gentleman 's clothes , and [she]673-lily took a very high degree : but do n't say a word about it . "[592-lily] " Not by any means , [ma'am]5765-ma'am , "[299-john] answered [John]299-john , with a grin . Nevertheless , it found its way over [the house]764-the house , and the result was that all [the girls]6665-the girls came to [Lily]673-lily about [[their]6665-the girls sweethearts]4763-their sweethearts . [I]0-i mention this trifling incident only to show how little [I]0-i thought that [I]0-i then saw the last of [[my]0-i Uncle]1271-my uncle . At [Paddington]246-paddington [we]4765-we met [Annie Franks]552-annie franks taking [her]552-annie franks ticket for [Gloucester]23-gloucester , and looking most bright and blooming , with a grand pocket in [her]552-annie franks cloak , made to hold a three - volumed novel . [I]0-i had only time for a few words with [her]552-annie franks , in which [I]0-i commended [[my]0-i Uncle]1271-my uncle to [her]552-annie franks especial attention , as [she]552-annie franks had ten times [[my]0-i cousin]1205-my cousin 's experience . Then [I]0-i went with [her]552-annie franks to [the down - platform]4768-the down - platform , and saw [her]552-annie franks get into [the carriage]6087-the carriage , and gave [her]552-annie franks the last of [my]0-i sandwiches , while [a cruel guard]4770-a cruel guard made [her]552-annie franks turn out [her]552-annie franks new pocket , insisting that [she]552-annie franks must have a little dog concealed there . [I]0-i laughed at [the poor little dear]4771-the poor little dear , as crimson with mortification [she]552-annie franks showed before all [the gentlemen]2615-the gentlemen the triple fluted bulk , and [the guard]4773-the guard read out , more in amazement than rudeness , " [Sir Ingomar of the Red Hand]9064-sir ingomar of the red hand ; or , [The Knight of St. Valentine]674-the knight of st. valentine , and [the Paynim Lady]9065-the paynim lady . "[4773-the guard] [The gentlemen]2615-the gentlemen were [gentlemen]8248-gentlemen , and tried very hard not to smile ; but the way [the guard]4773-the guard scratched [his]4773-the guard head was a great deal too much for [them]2615-the gentlemen . " [Dog]675-dog 's ears , anyhow , "[4773-the guard] cried [he]4773-the guard , trying to escape with a joke . [I]0-i drew [her]552-annie franks out of [the carriage]6087-the carriage , with tears in [her]552-annie franks soft gray eyes , and put [her]552-annie franks into another , where [Sir Ingomar]676-sir ingomar was unknown , and might spur on at pleasure . Then the smiles returned to [her]552-annie franks shy and innocent face , and [she]552-annie franks put [her]552-annie franks head to the window , and whispered gently to [me]0-i : " Any strawberries left , [dear]5871-dear ? "[552-annie franks] " [I]552-annie franks should think so , [Annie]552-annie franks . The best of [them all]9067-them all , [the British Queens]9068-the british queens , are just coming in . And such a crop of grapes ! "[552-annie franks] [Annie]552-annie franks 's conception of perfect bliss was to sit upon [a shady bank]4778-a shady bank , " the breeze just fanning [her]552-annie franks delicate cheek , "[552-annie franks] with a cabbage - leaf full of strawberries by [her]552-annie franks , and a cut - and - thrust novel upon [her]552-annie franks lap . Off [she]552-annie franks went with a lovely smile , foreseeing all these delights . From [Paddington]246-paddington [we]4779-we drove straightway to [the lodgings of [Conrad Vaughan]269-conrad vaughan]4780-the lodgings of conrad vaughan . As [we]4779-we jolted along [the New - road]4781-the new - road , which always has more holes in [it]4781-the new - road than [any other street in [London]1-london]4782-any other street in london , [I]0-i lost [my]0-i wits in a tumult of thick tempestuous thought . What would [Conny]670-conrad say to see [me]0-i , [me]0-i [the haughty Clara]4783-the haughty clara , coming all impatiently even in quest of [him]670-conrad ? Would it not have been far better , far more like [an English maiden]4784-an english maiden , to wait , and wait , and wear the soul out , rather than to run the risk of mis - interpretation ? True , it was for [[his]670-conrad father]1062-his father 's sake , to save [him]670-conrad from deadly peril , and to make [his]670-conrad happiness complete ; but might not all have been done by [messenger]4786-messenger , as well as by [me]0-i in person ? So at least might fancy [those who did not know [[our]4779-we enemy]4788-our enemy]4787-those who did not know our enemy . Worst of all , and cloudiest thought , that filled the eyes every time it came,—would [he]670-conrad love [me]0-i still ? Would not the strong revulsion , that must have torn [him]670-conrad in two , when [he]670-conrad dashed [his]670-conrad hand on [his]670-conrad forehead , and forgot even [man]5770-man 's forbearance , would not , must not this have snapped all the delicate roots of love ? [I]0-i could not tell . Of [man]5770-man 's heart [I]0-i know nothing ; but [I]0-i felt that with [me]0-i , [a woman]5830-a woman , such a horrible thing would create only longing to make amends . " [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher , how is [my]0-i hair ? "[0-i] " Lovely , [my]5770-man pretty child"—she[5770-man] always called [me]0-i so from habit when [no one else]5442-no one else was present—"you look [your]516-mrs. fletcher very best ; and [I]0-i 'd like to see [them]9069-them that could — talk to [me]0-i of Lilies indeed , when [our]9070-our [Miss Clara]293-clara — "[0-i] " No smuts on [my]0-i nose , [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher , [I]0-i hope ? [I]0-i never feel sure , in [London]1-london . [You]516-mrs. fletcher do n't know [London]1-london , [you]516-mrs. fletcher see . "[0-i] " No , [[my]0-i pretty]8768-my pretty , as clean as a whistle , and as clear as the voice of a May - bird , every atom of [you]516-mrs. fletcher . There 's no such complexion nowhere out of [Gloshire]270-gloshire or in [it]270-gloshire : and its all along of the brimstone and treacle [I]0-i give [you]516-mrs. fletcher , when [you]516-mrs. fletcher was small . Talk to [me]0-i of [Lilies]677-lilies — why [I]0-i see three great butter spots , as big as the point of a needle , and [I]0-i know by the make of [her]9072-her boot that [her]9072-her little toe turn over ; and what 's more than that — "[0-i] " [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher , [I]0-i wo n't hear a word of it . As to [her]9072-her little toe , [I]0-i can most solemnly declare that [you]516-mrs. fletcher are wrong altogether ; for [I]0-i have seen [her]9072-her naked foot , and [a lovelier one]9073-a lovelier one never was — "[0-i] " Take [yours]516-mrs. fletcher out of the way , [Miss.]448-miss. But — "[0-i] " But — here [we]9074-we are ; and [you]516-mrs. fletcher have made [my]0-i cheeks quite red ! [I]0-i shall be ashamed to be seen . "[0-i] However , it did not matter ; for there was [no one there]6327-no one there to see [me]0-i . [Conrad]670-conrad was gone to [Paris]247-paris ; [he]670-conrad had quitted [London]1-london quite suddenly , and there was a letter left for [[his]670-conrad sister]2443-his sister , which [the girl]8231-the girl forgot to post , till [she]8231-the girl thought it was too late . And [he]670-conrad said very likely [he]670-conrad should go on to [Italy]63-italy ; and [they]4796-they were not to keep [the rooms]2933-the rooms , if [they]4796-they had a chance of letting [them]2933-the rooms , only to put away the things [he]670-conrad had left , in the cupboard . So [I]0-i took the letter , directed " [Miss Isola Ross]428-isola , "[0-i] but [I]0-i did not dare to open it , much as [I]0-i longed to do so . Having enclosed it in a new envelope , and posted it in the nearest letter - box , with a heavy heart [I]0-i re - entered [the cab]6488-the cab , and went on to [[Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's]2936-mrs. shelfer 's . [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer was of course surprised to see [me]0-i so soon again . Nevertheless [she]391-mrs. shelfer was all kindness and hospitality , as usual . The residue of [her]391-mrs. shelfer little debt had been long ago released , and now [I]0-i paid full rent , for [I]0-i could easily afford it . In answer to [my]0-i eager inquiries as to what had occurred since Wednesday , [the little woman]6264-the little woman said shortly : " Nothing at all , [Miss]5433-miss , of any account , [I]6264-the little woman thank [you]5433-miss . Only [Charley]395-charley threw double size , three times running , and won — "[6264-the little woman] " [I]6264-the little woman do n't mean that , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ; [I]6264-the little woman mean , what has happened for [me]6264-the little woman ? "[6264-the little woman] " Nothing , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara ; no , nothing to concern [a great lady like [you]5433-miss]9076-a great lady like you : only [such a queer lot]9077-such a queer lot come , and [they]9077-such a queer lot seemed to be [friends of [yours]5433-miss]9078-friends of yours . [They]9077-such a queer lot ai n't gone from [here]846-here more than half an hour ago . "[6264-the little woman] " Tell [me]6264-the little woman all about [them]9077-such a queer lot . "[6264-the little woman] " [They]9077-such a queer lot come and ringed the bell , as modest as could be ; and when [I]436-ma'am went to the door , says [they]9077-such a queer lot , ' If [you]5433-miss please , where be [Miss Clara]293-clara , [ma'am]5765-ma'am ? ' ' [Miss Clara]293-clara ! ' says [I]436-ma'am , ' [a set of dressed up trollops like [you]293-clara]9081-a set of dressed up trollops like you , come and ask for [Miss Clara]293-clara ! [She]293-clara 'd [Miss Clara]293-clara [you]5433-miss , pretty quick time , [I]436-ma'am doubt , if [she]293-clara was only [here]846-here . ' ' [Us]9083-us humbly hopes no offence , [ma'am]5765-ma'am , ' says [the great big man]9085-the great big man , [the biggest man as ever [I]436-ma'am see without paying]9086-the biggest man as ever i see without paying , ' only [us]9083-us has come up from [the country]1831-the country , [ma'am]5765-ma'am . ' ' Up from [the country]1831-the country ! ' says [I]436-ma'am , ' need n't tell [me]436-ma'am that , [[my]436-ma'am good giant]9090-my good giant ; [any fool]9091-any fool can see that . And if [you]9090-my good giant take [my]436-ma'am advice , [you]9090-my good giant 'll clap [your]9090-my good giant hat on , and go down again , and thank [God]303-god for it . ' [You]5765-ma'am see , [Miss]9092-miss , [he]9085-the great big man had got [his]9085-the great big man hat off , and [he]9085-the great big man standing out of doors , on the shady side of [the street]6090-the street ! So what [I]436-ma'am said seemed to stop [him]9085-the great big man altogether , and [he]9085-the great big man looked as if [he]9085-the great big man wanted to think about it ; and [I]436-ma'am was just a slapping the door in [their]9094-their faces , when [the other man]9095-the other man , [the queerest guy [I]436-ma'am ever see]9096-the queerest guy i ever see , a hanging in [his]9095-the other man clothes like a skiver in a dish - clout , [he]9095-the other man look full in [my]436-ma'am face as grave as [a heretic parson]9097-a heretic parson , and stretch out [his]9095-the other man skinny arm , and keep time with one foot , while [he]9095-the other man say or sing , "[436-ma'am] ' [Ma'am]436-ma'am , [us]4801-us be here now in [this Lunnon town]4802-this lunnon town , And it bain't likely as [we]4801-us be going down , Till [us]4801-us see [every mortal thing as there be for to see]4803-every mortal thing as there be for to see , And take all the change out in a thorough - going spree . ' Then [the big man]4804-the big man laugh and clap [him]4804-the big man on the back ; and [the little one]4805-the little one wink both [his]4805-the little one eyes , and look to see what [I]0-i think of it . Then when [he]4805-the little one see [me]0-i laugh , [he]4805-the little one make [me]0-i such a coorous bow , that what with [his]4805-the little one — what do [they]4806-they call the plaister , [Miss]5433-miss ? " "[4805-the little one] [Diachylon]678-diachylon , perhaps [you]0-i mean , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer ? " "[391-mrs. shelfer] Ah , that 's the word . What with [his]4805-the little one strange diaculum , and [his]4805-the little one dancing altitude , [I]0-i declare [I]0-i was a most a going to invite [them]4806-they in : but [I]0-i recollects , no , no : If [Charley]395-charley gets along of such Reginalds as these , [I]0-i may stand at the bed - room door and whistle for a week . There 's nothing [Charley]395-charley loves so much as a downright [Reginald]679-reginald . " [Poor simple - minded woman]9098-poor simple - minded woman ; how little [she]9098-poor simple - minded woman perceived that [she]9098-poor simple - minded woman of all the number was by far the most original ! And , like [most of those who are truly so]9099-most of those who are truly so , [she]9098-poor simple - minded woman would have taken the imputation as an outrageous insult . Only the sham original glories in being thought queer . "[679-reginald] Well , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [I]0-i want to hear the end of it . " "[391-mrs. shelfer] Just what [I]0-i say , [Miss.]448-miss. Yes , yes , no time to spare , and the pudding boiling . So [I]0-i says , quite sharp , ' What name , [[my]0-i good sir]4808-my good sir , and will [you]4808-my good sir leave a message ? [Miss Vaughan]293-clara is out of [town]1829-town . ' ' Wull , ' says [he]4808-my good sir , just as [I]0-i tell [you]448-miss. , [Miss]4810-miss , ' ony plase [you]448-miss. say , [ma'am]5765-ma'am , as [Jan Uxtable]343-jan uxtable , and [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe , and [the two beggest of the chillers]4812-the two beggest of the chillers has doed theirselves the honour of coming to lave [their]4812-the two beggest of the chillers dooty . ' Then [the little girl]1629-the little girl look up and [she]1629-the little girl flash [her]1629-the little girl ribbons and say , ' [Mr. Huxtable]338-mr. huxtable , if [you]5765-ma'am please , [ma'am]5765-ma'am , and [Mr. Ebenezer Dawe]350-mr. dawe , and [Miss Huxtable]680-miss huxtable , and [Master John]681-master john , has called . ' ' Had n't [you]1629-the little girl better write it down , [Miss]5433-miss ? ' says [I]0-i , as innocent as possible . ' Do [you]5765-ma'am suppose [I]0-i ca n't then ? ' says [she]1629-the little girl , with such a spitting out of [her]1629-the little girl eyes , and [she]1629-the little girl swinging a new parry sole . ' Just give [me]0-i a sheet of papper , if [you]5765-ma'am keep such a thing in [the house]764-the house . ' ' Plase to excuse [the little wanch]4817-the little wanch , [ma'am]5765-ma'am , ' says [the big man]4804-the big man , quite humble , ' [us]4820-us ca n't hardly make head nor tail of [her]4817-the little wanch , since [her]4817-the little wanch come to this [here Lunnon]4821-here lunnon . If [I]0-i had only knowed it [I]0-i 'd have had [[her]4817-the little wanch mother]6340-her mother along of [me]0-i , that [I]0-i would ees fai , and the coo be [her]4817-the little wanch own midwaife . But ony plase [you]5765-ma'am say [Jan Uxtable]343-jan uxtable come if [they]4823-they count it dacent hereaway . [Threescore acres]4824-threescore acres and five , [ma'am]5765-ma'am , without reckon [the Cleeve]682-the cleeve , and [no man]4826-no man have a call , to [my]0-i mind , to christen [himself]4804-the big man " [Mister]9100-mister "[682-the cleeve] on less than a hundred acres , in [Lunnon]271-lunnon or out of [it]271-lunnon . ' ' Very well , [sir]5380-sir , ' [I]0-i says , for [I]0-i took to [the big man]4804-the big man somehow , ' [I]0-i will deliver [your]5380-sir message . [Miss Vaughan]293-clara only went from [here]846-here of middle day on Wednesday . ' ' And tell [her]293-clara please , if [she]293-clara do come back , ' says [spirity Miss Parrysole]683-spirity miss parrysole , with the tears in [her]683-spirity miss parrysole great blue eyes , ' that [Sally Huxtable]371-sally leave [her]371-sally very best love and duty , and hope so much [Miss Clara]293-clara will come to see the great wrestling to - morrow , twelve o'clock , and be early . And [they]4830-they be betting now two to one on [the other man]9095-the other man , [ma'am]5765-ma'am . But [he]9095-the other man have no chance , no more than [Tim Badcock]344-tim with [father]738-father . ' ' [I]0-i be much afeared , [ma'am]5765-ma'am , ' says [the deep - voiced man]4835-the deep - voiced man , as soft as any bell , ' [I]0-i be afeared [[our]4836-our [Sally]371-sally]5879-our sally will be begger by [a lanyard]4838-a lanyard nor ever [[her]371-sally daddy]4839-her daddy or [[her]371-sally mammy]4840-her mammy was . But likely it be all for the best . ' And with that [all four of [them]4841-all four of them]4841-all four of them crooked [their]4841-all four of them legs to [me]0-i most polite , and went on round the corner ; and after [them]4841-all four of them went a score of [boys]5527-boys , that seemed to follow [them]4841-all four of them everywhere . [The boys]2098-the boys knew all about it , and so did [I]0-i at last , that it was the great champion wrestling , that is to be to - morrow . [Charley]395-charley have been mad about it going on now two months . And can [you]0-i please to tell [him]395-charley , [Miss]4844-miss , which way to lay [his]395-charley money ? " "[0-i] To be sure , [I]0-i can . Let [him]395-charley take every offer of two to one against [the Devonshire champion]4845-the devonshire champion ; and if [he]395-charley loses [I]0-i will make it good to [him]395-charley , upon condition that [he]395-charley gives [you]0-i everything [he]395-charley wins . Now please to let [me]0-i have a cup of strong tea . " Having thus got rid of [[my]0-i most talkative friend]9101-my most talkative friend , and [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher having started off to buy something , [I]0-i had time to think a little . It was nearly two o'clock on the Friday afternoon . Nothing more could be done at present towards [recovering Conrad]670-conrad , for [he]395-charley had not even left at [[his]395-charley lodgings]8867-his lodgings any [Continental]272-continental address . Possibly [his]395-charley place of sojourn might be revealed in the letter to [[his]395-charley sister]2443-his sister , posted by [my]0-i hand : but it was far more likely that [he]395-charley [himself]395-charley knew not , at the time of writing , where [he]395-charley should find [quarters]9104-quarters . [I]0-i must have been beside [myself]0-i with worry and disappointment , when [I]0-i dropped that letter into [[Her]2443-his sister Majesty]1764-her majesty 's box ; for if [I]0-i returned , as had been arranged , by the express at five o'clock , several hours would be saved in the delivery of its tidings . And , as yet , [I]0-i little dreamed where [I]0-i should be at five P.M. In [that little room]9106-that little room , whose walls were more relieved than decorated by certain daubs of [mine]0-i , which even in [my]0-i narrowest straits [I]0-i could not bear to part with , because [an indulgent critic]9107-an indulgent critic had found merit in them — a discovery requiring much acumen — here [I]0-i now sat , gazing fondly , dreaming hazily , yearning strongly for the days gone by , yet only three months old , when [I]0-i had not a crust or dress till [I]0-i earned it by [my]0-i labour . How that pinch enlarged [my]0-i heart , [God]303-god only knows , not [I.]0-i Ah , then [I]0-i was [a happy girl]9108-a happy girl , though [I]0-i never guessed it . How proudly [I]0-i walked down [the Square]1939-the square , with [my]0-i black straw bonnet on — which [Idols]466-idols called the Dowdy,—and [my]0-i dark plaid shawl around [me]0-i , the plainest of [the plain]9110-the plain , yet not prepared to confess [myself]0-i so quotidian as [my]0-i dress . Who could tell , in those happy days , who might come , or round what corner , and who could say whether of the twain would look the more accidental ? And then the doubt — shall [I]0-i look or not , better perhaps be intent on the fire - plug , and make [him]9111-him come round again ? But now . Ah [me]0-i , [they]9112-they have heaped up riches for [me]0-i , and who shall come to enjoy them ? Just as [I]0-i was warming to this subject , gushing along in a fine vein of that compassion which alone of soft emotions [we]9113-we find it no duty to wrestle with , [I]0-i mean of course self - pity — in came [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher , suddenly , and in anger . "[0-i] Well , [Miss Clara]293-clara , " [she]516-mrs. fletcher exclaimed , throwing down [her]516-mrs. fletcher parcel , "[0-i] so this is [London]1-london , is it ? " "[516-mrs. fletcher] To be sure , [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher . What objection have [you]516-mrs. fletcher to make to it ? " "[516-mrs. fletcher] No objection , [Miss]4846-miss , only this , that if ever [I]0-i seen [a set of [countrified folk]4848-countrified folk]4847-a set of countrified folk , [the Londoners]4849-the londoners are [them]4849-the londoners . Why [the commonest of [[our]4851-our kitchen - [maids]4853-maids]4852-our kitchen - maids]4850-the commonest of our kitchen - maids would be ashamed to talk so broad , and to dress so contemptuous . And [here]846-here [I]0-i went half a mile to buy boots , real [London]1-london - made ; and trees all along by the side of [the road]1630-the road , and pots on the shelves of the windows . [I]0-i never , if [Gloucester]23-gloucester do n't look much more like [a town]4856-a town . " As [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher did not tell a story with the Herodotean vivacity of [Tim Badcock]344-tim , [I]23-gloucester will render [her]516-mrs. fletcher facts in [my]23-gloucester own unpretending version , premising only that [she]516-mrs. fletcher had taken [the farmer]5517-the farmer and [Sally]371-sally for specimens of [the true Cockney]9115-the true cockney ; a bit of saltatory reasoning of which [she]516-mrs. fletcher has not heard ( and perhaps never will hear ) the last . While then [the worthy housekeeper]9116-the worthy housekeeper was driving a slow but shrewd bargain , in [a smart shop by [the Broadway]9118-the broadway]9117-a smart shop by the broadway , taking the boots to the sunshine , to pick clever holes in the stitching , [she]9116-the worthy housekeeper observed [a diminutive boy]9119-a diminutive boy , of the genuine shoe - black order , encamping in a bight or back - eddy of pavement , just at the side of the door . [This little fellow]9120-this little fellow was uniformed , or rather multi - coloured , in gold , and red , and green . [His]9120-this little fellow cap was scarlet , and edged with gold twist ; [his]9120-this little fellow tunic red , and [his]9120-this little fellow apron of very bright green baize . On [his]9120-this little fellow cap , and on one shoulder , appeared [his]9120-this little fellow number , 32 , in figures of brass , an inch and a half in length . Strapped on [his]9120-this little fellow back [he]9120-this little fellow carried an oblong block of wood , like a great club - foot , and nearly as large as [himself]9120-this little fellow . This [he]9120-this little fellow deposited , with elaborate fuss , on the curb of [the inner pavement]9121-the inner pavement , which terraced some inches above [the true thoroughfare]9122-the true thoroughfare . A blacking - jar hung at one end of [his]9120-this little fellow block ; from a drawer below [he]9120-this little fellow pulled out three well - worn brushes , and began to hiss and to work away , in double quick time , with both hands , at some boot projected towards [him]9120-this little fellow on the delicate foot of fancy . As [he]9120-this little fellow grew warm at [his]9120-this little fellow work , with one sharp eye all the while looking out for [a genial passenger]9123-a genial passenger , there slowly came straggling towards [him]9120-this little fellow a bevy quite fresh from [Arcadia]273-arcadia . First , in treble importance walked , impressively rolling and leering around , [Hermes]685-hermes , [Pan]686-pan , and the owl of [Pallas]274-pallas , combined in one [Ebenezer Dawe]350-mr. dawe . [His]9120-this little fellow eyes , never too co - operative , roved away upon either side , in quest of intelligence , which [they]9124-they received with a blink that meant , "[23-gloucester] Pooh , do n't [I]0-i know it ? " With occasional jerks of [his]9120-this little fellow lank right arm , [he]9120-this little fellow was dragging along , like a saw through a knot , the sturdy , tight - buttoned , and close - pronged form of [[our]9125-our little [Jack]374-jack]2200-our little jack . [Jack]374-jack was arrayed in a black wide - awake , with blue ribbons , and a bran - new suit of broad - furrowed corduroy , made of nights by [[his]374-jack mother]1066-his mother and [Suke]345-suke , and turned out with countless pockets , each having three broad buttons , to foil [the London thieves]9128-the london thieves . In one of these pockets , the trouser one [I]23-gloucester do believe , in spite of all [Sally]371-sally had taught [him]9120-this little fellow , [he]9120-this little fellow was now chinking , to the creak of the corduroys , [his]9120-this little fellow last - abiding halfpence , and lagging heavily on [the poet]5582-the poet 's arm , [he]9120-this little fellow cast fond glances at a pile of glorious peg - tops . Sticking [her]371-sally toes into little [Jack]374-jack 's heels , to kick anybody that dared to steal [him]9120-this little fellow , came [[my]23-gloucester little Sally]9130-my little sally , all fire , and wonder , and self - assertion , towing [[her]371-sally mighty father]9131-her mighty father along , like a grasshopper leading an ox . At times [she]371-sally strove to drag [him]9120-this little fellow towards the finery of the windows , and paid very little heed to [his]9120-this little fellow placid protestations . "[23-gloucester] Walk fitty , [[my]0-i dear]5318-my dear ; walk as [you]5318-my dear ought to do , [[my]0-i dear]5318-my dear . Oh fai ! oh fai ! Whatever wull [they]4859-they [Lunnoners]349-lunnoners think of [Davonsheer]687-davonsheer , if [they]4859-they zees [you]5318-my dear agooin on laike this here ? There , dang that [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe ; blest if [I]0-i baint a toornin Poüt too . Coomth of larnin to wraite , [I]0-i reckon . " [The farmer]5517-the farmer 's pockets were crammed with circulars , handbills , and puffs of every description , which [he]5517-the farmer received from all who offered , and was saving them all for [[his]5517-the farmer wife]789-his wife . "[0-i] Clean [your]5318-my dear boots , [[my]0-i gentleman]4860-my gentleman , " cried [a little shrill voice]9134-a little shrill voice ; "[0-i] clean both [your]5318-my dear boots for a halfpenny . Never say die , [Sir]5380-sir ; polish 'em bright till the cat at [home]1102-home wo n't know them . Three - fardings - worth of blacking , and a penny in skill and labour , and all for the laughable sum of one half - penny . Pure satisfaction guaranteed , or the whole of the money returned . Up with [your]5318-my dear foot , [my gentleman]4860-my gentleman ! " [The farmer]5517-the farmer pulled up suddenly , for fear of walking over [him]5318-my dear , as [the boy]1121-the boy , despising [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe , had dashed in between [Jack]374-jack and [Sally]371-sally , and danced before [Mr. Huxtable]338-mr. huxtable . [His]5318-my dear brushes were whisking about , like bumble - bees roughly disturbed , and already menaced the drab of [the Sunday fustian gaiters]9137-the sunday fustian gaiters . "[688-zober] [Zober]688-zober now , " cried [the farmer]5517-the farmer , who could not believe that [he]5517-the farmer was addressed , having never dreamed , in [his]5517-the farmer most ambitious moments ( if any such [he]5517-the farmer had ) , of ever being called [a gentleman]5462-a gentleman , "[688-zober] zober now , wull'e . Where bee'st gooin to , [[thou]4864-thou little hosebird]4865-thou little hosebird ; be [they]4866-they [your]5318-my dear Lunnon - town manners ? Lat alo - un , [I]0-i zay ; [lat alo - un]4867-lat alo - un now , wull ' e?"—as [the boy]1121-the boy got more and more tentative—"Heart[4867-lat alo - un] alaive , ca nt e zee , [they]4866-they be [my]0-i Zunday gaiters ? Oh , if [my]0-i missus wor here ! And ' [e]4868-e bain't more nor naine year old ! Wull , wull , where ever do ' [e]4868-e goo to schoüll ? " "[4868-e] [Hinstitooshun 66]275-hinstitooshun 66 . [No children]6069-no children or [females]4870-females admitted . Up with [your]5318-my dear foot , [old bloke]4871-old bloke ! Do [the young uns and tootor half - price]4872-the young uns and tootor half - price . Just two minutes to spare , till the Dook of [Cambridge]689-cambridge 's turn . Great Exhibition polish , and all to encourage the fine arts . " [The good farmer]9141-the good farmer was lost beyond hope , in the multitude of [subjects]9142-subjects pressed all of a pulp on [his]9141-the good farmer slow understanding ; nevertheless , [he]9141-the good farmer had presence of mind to feel first for [his]9141-the good farmer watch and [his]9141-the good farmer money , and then for the best pocket - handkerchief stitched into the crown of [his]9141-the good farmer hat ; meanwhile [the boy]1121-the boy got hold of one foot , and began to turn up [his]1121-the boy gaiters . Then [Sally]371-sally and [little Jack]374-jack rushed to the rescue , and [Jack]374-jack punched [the boy]1121-the boy in the face , while [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe looked on with a grin of broad experience . But in spite of all aid , [the farmer]5517-the farmer began to collapse before [[his]9141-the good farmer mosquito enemy]9146-his mosquito enemy ; when luckily [three giant Life - guards ( for a crowd]9147-three giant life - guards ( for a crowd was now collected ) opened [their]9147-three giant life - guards ( for a crowd mouths , like the ends of a monkey - fur muff , in a round and loud guffaw , with a very coarse sneer at poor [Sally]371-sally . [The farmer]5517-the farmer looked at [them]9147-three giant life - guards ( for a crowd in much amazement ; then [his]9141-the good farmer perplexity went like a cloud , and [his]9141-the good farmer face shone with something to do , as [he]9141-the good farmer gave [Sally]371-sally [his]9141-the good farmer hat to hold . Till now [all the mockers]9149-all the mockers had been too small for [him]9141-the good farmer anyhow to fall foul of . Ere the echo of laughter was over , [the three dandy Lifeguards]9150-the three dandy lifeguards lay on [their]9150-the three dandy lifeguards backs in the mud , with [their]9150-the three dandy lifeguards striped legs erect in the air , like the rods of [a railway surveyor]9151-a railway surveyor . [The crowd]9152-the crowd fell back headlong , as if from a plunging horse , then laughed at [the fallen]9153-the fallen and with [the conqueror]9154-the conqueror . Even [the boy]1121-the boy was humility multiplied into servility . "[4871-old bloke] Wutt be up to , arl on ' [e]4873-e ? " asked [the farmer]5517-the farmer , replacing [his]5517-the farmer hat ; "[4871-old bloke] cas'n none on ' [e]4873-e lat [a pacible chap alo - un]4874-a pacible chap alo - un ? And wutt will [they]4875-them [chillers]4876-chillers think as coom here to get example ? Why , [Beany]334-beany dawe , if [us]4877-us had knowed this , [us]4877-us would have brought [Bill constable]378-bill with [us]4877-us , ees fai . Now ' [e]4873-e do n't know nothing about it"—he remonstrated with the admiring multitude—"one[4873-e] o ' [them]4875-them dree worn't throw handsome laike , ony dree pins , [I]0-i tull ' e. But us'll do it over again , if [he]378-bill claimeth it . Ca n't do nothing vitty , zin [I]0-i laved [my]0-i missus at [home]1102-home . But [her]4879-her wadn't coom , God knows . " These last two remarks were addressed to [himself]0-i , but [the crowd]9152-the crowd had full benefit of them . "[4879-her] Worn't ' [e]4873-e axing of lave , two or dree minutes agone , [little chap with the brisk there]4880-little chap with the brisk there , to tend [my]0-i butts , and tuk it amost wiout axing ? [Us]4877-us be bound laike to stap here now till [us]4877-us zees if [[them]4875-them ' lisher [men]1003-men]4881-them ' lisher men feels up for any moor plai . Do as ' e plase , [little chap]5942-little chap , zoon as [Sally]371-sally hath toorned [my]0-i best gaiters up , if [her]371-sally bain't too grand in [Lunnon]271-lunnon . " With bright ribbons fluttering and finery flapping about [her]371-sally , poor [Sally]371-sally knelt down in a moment to work at [the muddy fustian]9158-the muddy fustian : but [[her]371-sally father]898-her father would not allow it , [he]898-her father had only wished to try [her]371-sally ; so [he]898-her father caught [her]371-sally up with one hand , and kissed [her]371-sally , and [I]5942-little chap think , from what [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher said , [he]898-her father must have given [her]371-sally sixpence at least . It is needless to say that , although [the boy]1121-the boy worked with both hands in the most conscientious manner , [the farmer]5517-the farmer 's boots defied [him]898-her father . Neats'-foot oil , and tallow , and beeswax held [their]4886-their own against Day and [Martin]690-martin . "[5942-little chap] Coom , [little chap]5942-little chap , " said [Mr. Huxtable]338-mr. huxtable , kindly , "[5942-little chap] [thee]4885-thee hast dooed [thy]4885-thee very best , but [our]4886-their Zuke will have the laugh of [thee]4885-thee . Tache [thee]4885-thee perhaps it wull to be zoberer next taime , and not be quite so peart to do a dale more nor [thee]4885-thee can do . But [thee]4885-thee hast used more ink than ai wud over two copies . Here be a groat for the Exhibition polish . " In this little episode , as will be manifest , [Sally]371-sally has helped [me]303-god more than [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher . But now , to return to [my]303-god narrative . Almost directly after [the housekeeper]6360-the housekeeper left [me]303-god , [Patty]409-patty came trotting in with a large white breakfast - cup full of most powerful tea . [I]303-god can not help thinking that [the little woman]6264-the little woman put some brandy in it , or allowed [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher , who trusted much in that cordial , to do so ; but [they]4886-their stoutly deny the charge , and declare that there was only a pinch of gunpowder . Whatever it was , being parched with thirst , [I]303-god swallowed without tasting it , and the effect upon [my]303-god jaded brain was immediate and amazing . All self - pity was gone ; and self - admiration , and haughty courage succeeded . Was [I]303-god , [Clara Vaughan]293-clara , who had groped and grubbed for years to find the hole of a blasting snake , and had now got [my]303-god hand upon it , was [I]303-god to start back and turn pale at [his]4885-thee hiss , and say , "[303-god] [God]303-god speed [you]4885-thee and polish [your]4885-thee skin . Give [me]0-i [your]4885-thee slough for a keepsake ? " Would [I]303-god not rather seize [the incarnate devil]9164-the incarnate devil , trample [his]4885-thee spine , and make [his]4885-thee tongue sputter in dust ? In a moment [my]303-god cloak and hat were on again ; [I]303-god scarcely looked at the glass , but felt the hot flush on [my]303-god cheeks , as [I]303-god lightly skipped down the stairs , and silently left [the house]764-the house . What to do next [I]303-god knew not , nor asked , but flew headlong before the impulse , to lift and confront — as is [my]303-god nature — the danger that lay before [me]303-god . As [I]303-god glided along , [I]303-god was conscious of one thing , [the people in [the street]6090-the street]9166-the people in the street turned in surprise to watch [me]303-god . As if by instinct , [I]303-god hurried straight to [Lucas Street]106-lucas street , [my]303-god courage mounting higher and higher as [I]303-god neared the accursed threshold . [Balaam]539-balak and [Balak]539-balak stood at the bar of [a tavern which commanded a view of [the street]6090-the street]9168-a tavern which commanded a view of the street , but were much too busy with beer to see [me]303-god passing so swiftly . Loudly [I]303-god rang the bell of [No . 37]276-no . 37 ; the figures were bright on the door , and looking narrowly , [I]303-god perceived the old No . 19 , more by the lines than the colour . [Old Cora]429-cora came as usual ; but started at seeing [me]303-god , and turned as pale as death . "[303-god] Is [[your]4887-you master]7167-your master within ? " [I]4887-you could not use [his]7167-your master false name . "[4887-you] Yes , [Meesa]4887-you , but [you]4887-you not see [him]7167-your master now . " "[7167-your master] Dare [you]4887-you to disobey [[Our]4889-our Lady]3529-our lady 's heart ? " And [I]7167-your master held [my]7167-your master gordit before [her]429-cora . [She]429-cora cowered with one knee on the mat and kissed it ; then led [me]7167-your master into the presence of [Lepardo Della Croce]570-lepardo . It was [a dark and gloomy room]9170-a dark and gloomy room , with three high , narrow windows . [Cora]429-cora departed hastily , frightened at what [she]429-cora had done . In a recess at the farther end , before a chest of black bog - oak , sat [the man [I]7167-your master sought]9171-the man i sought . The crowning moment of [my]7167-your master life was come . All rehearsals went for nothing : the strongest feeling of [my]7167-your master heart was scorn , cold , unfathomable scorn . To show [myself]7167-your master well , [I]7167-your master took off [my]7167-your master hat , and advanced in [my]7167-your master haughtiest manner . As [he]9171-the man i sought turned [his]9171-the man i sought head , [I]7167-your master saw that [his]9171-the man i sought mood was blacker than the oak before [him]9171-the man i sought . Some dark memorials perhaps were there ; hastily and heavily [he]9171-the man i sought flung down the lid , as [I]7167-your master walked with even steps towards [him]9171-the man i sought . "[7167-your master] Ah ! [Miss Valence]423-miss valence ! [The young lady that paints]4891-the young lady that paints . [I]0-i feared that [you]423-miss valence were lost to [London]1-london ; for now - a - days the pursuit of the fine arts requires either genius , or fashion , at any rate the latter most , to be at all remunerative . May [I]0-i show [you]423-miss valence the way to [the drawing - room]4892-the drawing - room ? [I]0-i have not often the honour of receiving [visitors]4893-visitors [here]846-here . But [I]0-i think [you]423-miss valence know how entirely [I]0-i am [the slave of [young ladies]2104-young ladies]4895-the slave of young ladies , [Miss Valence]423-miss valence . " And [he]0-i held out [his]0-i delicate hand . "[423-miss valence] [Lepardo Della Croce]570-lepardo , [my]0-i name is not [Valence]423-miss valence . [I]0-i am [Clara Vaughan]293-clara , [the only child of [him]0-i whom in [his]0-i sleep [you]423-miss valence murdered]4897-the only child of him whom in his sleep you murdered . " [He]0-i turned not pale , but livid . [His]0-i jaunty nonsense was gone in a moment . [He]0-i quailed from [my]4898-you dark eyes , and fell upon a chair . For one minute there [he]0-i crouched , and dared not meet [my]4898-you gaze ; every fibre of [his]0-i flesh was quivering . It was not shame that cowed [him]0-i , but the prostration of amazement . Suddenly [he]0-i leaped upright , and met [me]4898-you eye to eye . Then [I]4898-you saw that [his]0-i pupils turned towards each other , as [[my]4898-you uncle]1271-my uncle had described . [I]4898-you neither spoke , nor allowed [my]4898-you gaze to falter . Every nerve and cord of [my]4898-you frame was tense , and rigid , and rooted . To [him]0-i [I]4898-you must have seemed the embodiment of revenge . At last [he]0-i spoke , very slowly , and in words that trembled . "[4898-you] [You]4898-you have no right to judge [me]0-i by [your]4898-you English notions . [You]4898-you do not understand [me]0-i . " "[0-i] [I]0-i judge [you]4898-you not at all . [God]303-god shall judge and smite [you]4898-you . In cold blood [you]4898-you murdered [a man who never wronged [you]4898-you]4899-a man who never wronged you . " "[4898-you] What ! " [he]0-i burst forth in a blaze of triumph , "[4898-you] no wrong to steal [[my]0-i lovely bride]4900-my lovely bride , and [my]0-i noble inheritance , to debauch the purest blood of [Corsica]150-corsica by a prostitute wedding ; no wrong to strike [me]0-i senseless ! Even [[your]4898-you nation of [policemen]4902-policemen]4901-your nation of policemen would call this rather initiative . " "[4902-policemen] [The man [you]4898-you stole upon in [his]4903-the man you stole upon in his sleep sleep]4903-the man you stole upon in his sleep had never seen or heard of [you]4898-you , had never been in [Corsica]150-corsica . " "[4903-the man you stole upon in his sleep] What ? " [His]0-i teeth struck together like fire - tongs badly jointed , and [he]0-i could not part them . "[4903-the man you stole upon in his sleep] It is true . [I]0-i regret to inform [you]4898-you that [you]4898-you must go to hell for nothing . [You]4898-you could not even murder [the right man]4904-the right man . " "[4898-you] Tell [me]0-i . " "[4898-you] Like [a coward]3282-a coward as [you]4898-you are , [you]4898-you crawled , and lurked , and lied ; [you]4898-you spent what little mind [you]4898-you have in securing [a baby]2061-a baby 's blow , [you]4898-you crouched among old clothes and bed - ticks , and behind [the housemaid]4907-the housemaid 's flask ; and [you]4898-you went away exulting in [your]4898-you bloody soul , over what ? [the wrong man]8622-the wrong man 's murder . " "[4898-you] Can it be ? " "[4898-you] Not only this , but [you]4898-you enriched and brought into high position [the man [you]4898-you meant to kill]4909-the man you meant to kill . [He]4909-the man you meant to kill became [the lord of [[his]4909-the man you meant to kill half - brother]902-his half - brother 's lands]4910-the lord of his half - brother 's lands , and now is wealthy and happy , and [the children [you]4898-you stole]4912-the children you stole will help [him]4909-the man you meant to kill to laugh at [your]4898-you Vendetta . " "[4909-the man you meant to kill] Wait a little . " "[4909-the man you meant to kill] Cats and small dogs [you]4898-you can carve alive , when [a woman]5830-a woman has strapped them down for [you]4898-you , and the poor things are trying to lick [you]4898-you . But as for midnight murder , however sound [[your]4898-you victims]4914-your victims sleep , [you]4898-you have not nerve enough . [You]4898-you quake and quiver so that [you]4898-you know not [a dark man from a fair]4915-a dark man from a fair . Clever , do n't [you]4898-you think ? Particularly for [a Professor]4916-a professor . " [I]4916-a professor saw that [my]4916-a professor contempt was curling round [him]4898-you like a knout ; so [I]4916-a professor gave [him]4898-you a little more of it . "[4916-a professor] Of course [we]4917-we could not expect [you]4898-you to meet [[your]4898-you foe]4918-your foe like [a man]5384-a man . Even were [you]4898-you [a worthy sample of [your]4898-you sneaking race]4920-a worthy sample of your sneaking race , [you]4898-you never could do that . Too wholesome memory of the English blow between [your]4898-you quailing eyes . [I]0-i am pleased to see [you]4898-you fumbling clumsily for [your]4898-you dagger . Who knows but what [you]4898-you are fool enough even to have some self - respect ? " A black tint darted beneath [his]4898-you skin , as if [his]4898-you heart were a cuttle - fish . Had [I]570-lepardo taken [my]570-lepardo eyes from [him]4898-you , [he]4898-you would have stabbed [me]570-lepardo . [He]4898-you fell back against the oak chest . [My]570-lepardo madness grew with [my]570-lepardo triumph . "[570-lepardo] No . [You]4898-you dare not do it , because [I]0-i am not asleep . Come , [I]0-i will give [you]4898-you every chance , [Lepardo Della Croce]570-lepardo . If [you]4898-you are brave enough to shoot [a white - haired man]4921-a white - haired man at dinner , surely [you]4898-you have the courage to stab [a young girl on the sofa]4922-a young girl on the sofa . Here [I]0-i lie . [I]0-i will not move . And [I]0-i defy [you]4898-you to do it . " Quietly [I]0-i lay and watched [him]4898-you ; but as if [he]4898-you were scarcely worth it . [He]4898-you could not take [his]4898-you eyes from [mine]0-i . [He]4898-you was like a rat before a snake . And all the while , [his]4898-you hand was working on the cross haft of a poniard . "[0-i] What more can [I]0-i do to encourage [you]4898-you ? Would [you]4898-you like the curtain to skulk behind ? " And [I]4898-you threw the window - hangings over the foot of the sofa , but so that [I]4898-you held [him]4898-you still in view . Calm as [I]4898-you was , [I]4898-you must have been mad to play with [my]4898-you life so contemptuously . Presently [I]4898-you rose , put back [my]4898-you hair and turned away , as in weariness . "[4898-you] [I]0-i fear [your]4898-you appetite is cloyed with the writhings of cats and dogs . Or has murder no relish for [you]4898-you , unless it be in cold blood ? But there , [I]0-i am tired of [you]4898-you : [you]4898-you have so little variety . [We]4923-my will send [you]4898-you back to [Corsica]150-corsica , and write ' Rimbecco ' on [you]4898-you . " [He]4898-you sprang at [me]4923-my madly , gnashing [his]4898-you teeth , and whirling [his]4898-you stiletto . [I]4923-my faced [him]4898-you just in time , with both hands by [my]4923-my side . Had [I]4923-my raised them , or shown the least sign of fear , [my]4923-my life would have followed [[my]4923-my father]731-my father 's then and there . "[4923-my] Yes , " [I]547-rimbecco said , while [he]4898-you paused , with the weapon not a yard from [me]547-rimbecco , "[547-rimbecco] a spirited attempt , considering what [you]4898-you are . But waste of time and trouble . However , [I]0-i have hit the word which seems to suit [your]4898-you views . Allow [me]0-i to repeat the agreeable term , ' [Rimbecco]547-rimbecco . ' " [I]547-rimbecco saw in [his]4898-you eyes the flash which shows the momentum given , but [his]4898-you arm fell powerless . [He]4898-you looked even humbly at [me]547-rimbecco . "[547-rimbecco] [Clara Vaughan]293-clara — " "[293-clara] Be kind enough to address [me]0-i properly . " "[293-clara] [Miss Vaughan]293-clara , [you]4898-you must have some powerful reason for wishing to be rid of life . " [He]4898-you tried to look piercingly at [me]4898-you . "[4898-you] [You]4898-you are quite mistaken . It is nothing more than contempt of [an abject coward and murderer]4924-an abject coward and murderer . " "[4924-an abject coward and murderer] To [you]4898-you [I]0-i will make no attempt to justify [myself]0-i . [You]4898-you could not understand [me]0-i . [Your]4898-you ways of thought are wholly different . " "[4898-you] [I]0-i beg leave to hope so . Do n't come near [me]0-i , if [you]4898-you please . " "[4898-you] If [I]0-i have injured [you]4898-you in ignorance , [I]0-i will do [my]0-i best to make amends . What course do [you]4898-you propose ? " "[4898-you] To let [you]4898-you go free , in pity for [your]4898-you abject nature and cowardice . [We]4925-i scorn [you]4898-you too much for anything else . " This seemed to amaze [him]4898-you more than all before . It was plain that [he]4898-you could not believe [me]4925-i . A long silence ensued . Looking at [the wily wretch]9174-the wily wretch , [I]4925-i began unwittingly to compare , or rather to contrast [[his]4898-you noble victim]9175-his noble victim with [him]4898-you . [I]4925-i thought of the deep affliction and misery wrought by [his]4898-you despicable revenge . [I]4925-i thought of [his]4898-you brutal cruelty to [the poor creatures [God]303-god has given [us]4925-i]9176-the poor creatures god has given us ; and a rancour like [his]4898-you own began to move in [my]4925-i troubled heart . It had been there all the while , no doubt , but a larger pressure had stilled it . Watching [me]4925-i intently , [he]4898-you saw the change in [my]4925-i countenance , and as cold disdain grew flushed with anger , [my]4925-i power over [him]4898-you departed . But [he]4898-you did not let [me]4925-i perceive it . [I]4925-i am sure that [I]4925-i might have gone whither and when [I]4925-i pleased , and [he]4898-you would have feared to follow [me]4925-i , if [I]4925-i had only regarded [him]4898-you to the end with no other emotion than scorn . "[4925-i] Am [I]0-i to understand , " [he]4898-you said at last , "[0-i] that [you]0-i intend to do nothing to [me]0-i ? " "[0-i] It is not worth [our]4926-we while to hang [you]0-i . For such a crime any other punishment would be an outrage and a jest . [You]0-i slew [a good and a gentle man]4927-a good and a gentle man ; one as brave as [you]0-i are cowardly . By the same blow [you]0-i destroyed [[his]4927-a good and a gentle man wife]789-his wife , who lingered for a few years , pining till [she]789-his wife died . Both of these were dear to [God]303-god . [He]303-god will avenge [them]4929-them in [His]303-god good time . Only one thing [we]4926-we shall insist on , that [you]0-i leave [this country]1963-this country immediately , and under a solemn oath never to return to it . One good point [you]0-i have , [I]0-i am told — fidelity to [your]0-i word . " "[0-i] And if [I]0-i refuse , what then ? " "[0-i] Then [you]0-i die [a murderer]5469-a murderer 's death . [We]4926-we have evidence [you]0-i little dream of . " [He]0-i had now recovered [his]0-i presence of mind , and [his]0-i scoffing manner ; and all [his]0-i plan was formed . "[4926-we] What [a brave young lady]4932-a brave young lady [you]0-i are to come here all alone , and entertaining so low an opinion of [the poor Professor]4933-the poor professor . " "[4934-precautions] The very reason why [I]0-i scorned [precautions]4934-precautions . " A deep gleam shot through the darkness of [his]0-i eyes . "[0-i] [You]0-i must indeed despise [me]0-i , to come here without telling [any one]1178-any one ! " "[0-i] Of course . But [I]0-i did not mean to come , till [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's spirit led [me]0-i . " With a shudder [he]0-i glanced all round [the room]823-the room . [Lily]673-lily was not mistaken when [she]673-lily called [him]0-i superstitious . Then [he]0-i tried to sneer it off . "[0-i] And did [the good Papa]4937-the good papa , dear to [God]303-god , undertake to escort [you]0-i back ? " Seeing that [I]4937-the good papa disdained to answer , [he]0-i continued thus : "[4937-the good papa] [You]0-i have displayed much graceful and highly - becoming scorn . [I]0-i , in turn , will exhibit some little contempt of [you]0-i . [You]0-i were pleased to say , if [my]0-i memory serves [me]0-i , that [you]0-i had some wonderful evidence . [I]0-i will furnish [you]0-i with more , and perhaps what [you]0-i little dream of . Approach , and examine this box . " [He]0-i raised the lid of the oaken chest , and propped it with a staple . Quite thrown off [my]1872-young lady guard for the moment , [I]1872-young lady began to devour the contents with [my]1872-young lady eyes . Not many things were in it ; but all of them were remarkable . To [me]1872-young lady they looked like theatrical properties , or materials for disguise . Some of them were faded and tarnished ; some were set with a silver cross . [My]1872-young lady gaze was rivetted on a pair of boots , fixed in a ledge with horse - shoe bays ; on the sole of one [I]1872-young lady perceived a cross of metal inlaid ; [I]1872-young lady drew nearer to see it more closely , when something fell over [my]1872-young lady head . All down [me]1872-young lady , and round [me]1872-young lady , and twisted behind in a tight tourniquet , before [I]1872-young lady could guess what it was . [I]1872-young lady am not weak , for [a girl]2251-a girl ; but [I]1872-young lady could no more lift [my]1872-young lady arms than a swathed mummy can . Neither could [I]1872-young lady kick , although as [a child]782-a child [I]1872-young lady had been famous for that accomplishment ; if [I]1872-young lady lifted either foot , [I]1872-young lady must tumble head - foremost into the box , which was large enough for [me]1872-young lady to live in . Scream [I]1872-young lady could , and did , in spite of all [my]1872-young lady valour , not only from fright , but from pain , for [my]1872-young lady chest was dreadfully tightened ; but before [I]1872-young lady could scream more than twice , a cloth was passed over [my]1872-young lady mouth , and knotted behind [my]1872-young lady neck . So there [I]1872-young lady stood , [a helpless prisoner]9180-a helpless prisoner , in the recess at the end of the oaken ark . A low laugh thrilled in [my]1872-young lady ears , but the hand on [my]1872-young lady spine relaxed not ; [I]1872-young lady turned [my]1872-young lady neck by a violent effort and met [the demon]9181-the demon 's eyes . "[1872-young lady] Very pretty [you]4938-you look , [young lady]1872-young lady , very pretty indeed . [I]0-i must have a kiss before [I]0-i have done with [you]4938-you , in spite of all indignation . There is a dress resembling this among [the Tartar tribes]4940-the tartar tribes . Did [I]0-i hurt [your]4938-you proud , straight nose ? If so , accept most humble apologies . [I]0-i would not injure it for [the world]798-the world ; it does express so much scorn . Take care , [[my]0-i child]1549-my child , [your]4938-you eyelashes are coming through the worsted . " Yes . Ignoble confession ! [I]1549-my child , for whose disdain [the world]798-the world had been too small , was prisoned and helpless in an "[1549-my child] anti - macassar , " like a fly in a paper cage - trap . The sofa , on which [I]1549-my child had lain so grandly defying [[my]1549-my child enemy]1966-my enemy , was covered with a stout worsted net , long and very strong : this [he]1966-my enemy had doubled end to end , and flung over [my]1549-my child haughty head . [I]1549-my child have not patience to recount [his]1966-my enemy paltry , bantering jeers . Contempt is a tool [I]1549-my child am used to grasp by the handle only . Be it enough to say that , without releasing [me]1549-my child , [he]1966-my enemy rang the bell for [Cora]429-cora , whose greedy eyes glistened when [she]429-cora saw [my]1549-my child gordit loose from [my]1549-my child bosom , and tangled in the net . [[Her]429-cora master]814-her master allowed [her]429-cora to disengage , and , for the time at least , appropriate it . In return for this , [she]429-cora was , at [his]1966-my enemy pleasure , to stab [me]1549-my child if [he]1966-my enemy should order it . By [his]1966-my enemy directions , [she]429-cora tied [my]1549-my child ankles together , while [he]1966-my enemy lashed [my]1549-my child arms anew , and tightened the muffler over [my]1549-my child bleeding lips . [I]1549-my child closed [my]1549-my child eyes , and prayed ; then [I]1549-my child made up [my]1549-my child mind to die , as many [a Vaughan]8647-a vaughan had done , at the hands of [a brutal enemy]9186-a brutal enemy . [My]1549-my child last thought was of [Conrad]670-conrad , and then [my]1549-my child senses forsook [me]1549-my child . [I]1549-my child have a faint recollection of feeling [myself]1549-my child swung , and jolted down a number of stairs , and of a cold breeze striking on [my]1549-my child face . And doubtless [they]8647-a vaughan carried [me]1549-my child down ; for [the room in which [I]1549-my child had found [[my]1549-my child enemy]1966-my enemy]9187-the room in which i had found my enemy was two floors above [the cellarage]9189-the cellarage . When [I]1549-my child came to [myself]1549-my child , [I]1549-my child had no idea where in [the world]798-the world [I]1549-my child was . The air was heavy with a most powerful and oppressive smell , a reek and taint as of death and corruption . It made [me]1549-my child faint , and [I]1549-my child think [I]1549-my child must have gone off again . Lifting [my]1549-my child head at last , [I]1549-my child began to look languidly around . The table , or working - bench , on which [I]1549-my child lay , was near the centre of [a long and narrow room]9191-a long and narrow room , gloomy and cold , even in the dog - days , floored with moss - green stone , and far below the ground - level . Those flag - stones , [I]1549-my child suppose , were bedded immediately upon the tough blue London clay , that most unconquerable stratum , sullen , damp , and barren . [I]1549-my child could only see two windows in [the long low room]9192-the long low room , both upon the same side , horizontally fixed , and several feet from the floor . Heavy iron bars , perpendicularly set , crossed them at narrow intervals , as if [it]9193-it had been [the condemned cell in [a prison]9195-a prison]9194-the condemned cell in a prison . One of these windows was already darkened with a truss of straw , and sacks over it , placed outside the glass ; as is done in [Corsica]150-corsica , during Vendetta siege . The technical term is "[1549-my child] inceppar le fenestre . " Through the other window ( which looked up a slide or scoop of brickwork , like a malt - shovel , to [the flabby garden behind [the house]764-the house]9196-the flabby garden behind the house ) , [I]1549-my child saw an arm , the colour and shape of an American herring , very active with a hammer . [I]1549-my child knew that arm at once . Sticking out at the joints , like the spurs of a pear - tree , welted and wired with muscle between them , like the drumstick of a turkey , but flat as if plaited of hide , [no friend of mine]9198-no friend of mine could claim it , except [the Corsican Cora]585-old cora . Deliberately [she]585-old cora drove the nails , like [a gardener training a tree]9199-a gardener training a tree , paying undue attention to [her]585-old cora skinny knuckles ; then [she]585-old cora lifted the sacks , stooped down and looked in , grimly reconnoitring [me]1549-my child . By the slanting light [I]1549-my child saw what a horrible place [I]1549-my child lay in . Around and under [me]1549-my child , on the furrowed timber , were dull plum - coloured blotches , where the slowly trickling blood of many an unlucky dog and cat had curdled ; even if there were not any shed from nobler veins . Reaching in a back - handed way towards the jagged margin , [I]1549-my child grasped a cold hard cylinder . It was an iron hold - fast , like , but larger than the instrument to be seen in [every carpenter]9200-every carpenter 's bench , which works in a collared hole , and has a claw for clutching . Under it , no doubt , many [a poor live victim]9201-a poor live victim had quivered and sobbed in vain . At [my]1549-my child head were two square slides , fitted with straps of stout unyielding web . Near them was a rasped iron plane working along a metal bed or groove , with a solid T piece , and a winch to adjust it . As with morbid observation [I]1549-my child surveyed [these fiendish devices]9202-these fiendish devices , and many others which [I]1549-my child can not stop to tell of , [I]1549-my child who love almost every creature made by [[our]9203-we own Maker]9204-our own maker , especially those to whom [we]9203-we are lent as [Gods]691-gods , [my]1549-my child flesh , [I]1549-my child say , began to creep , and [my]1549-my child blood to curdle , as if the dissecting knife were already in [my]1549-my child diaphragm . Surely [those who in full manhood]9205-those who in full manhood torture [[His]9205-those who in full manhood innocent creatures]9206-his innocent creatures — poor things that can not plead or weep , but worship the foot that kicks [them]9206-his innocent creatures — surely these , if any , [we]9203-we may without presumption say that [He]9205-those who in full manhood who made will judge . Four brief lines by [a modern poet]9207-a modern poet , too well known for [me]1549-my child to quote them , express a grand and simple truth , seldom denied , more seldom felt . But here am [I]1549-my child , laid out in this fearful place , perhaps [myself]1549-my child a subject for vivisection . No , [I]1549-my child am not strapped ; even [my]1549-my child feet are free . Off the grouted and grimy table [I]1549-my child roll with all possible speed , the table where even strong [Judy]477-judy must have lain still as a skeleton . Of skeletons there were plenty ranged around the walls , and other hideous things which [I]1549-my child can not bear to think of . One was a monstrous crocodile , with scales like a shed fir - cone , all reflexed and dry , and ringent lips of leather , and teeth that seemed to look the wrong way , like a daisy - rake over - worked . Another was some pulled - out beast , that never could hit [his]9205-those who in full manhood own joints again — plesiosauri , deinosauri , marsupials , [proboscidians]9208-proboscidians — [I]1549-my child am sure [I]1549-my child can not tell , having never been at college . [I]1549-my child only know that at every one of them [I]1549-my child shuddered , and shrugged [my]1549-my child shoulders , and wished that [he]9205-those who in full manhood smelled rather nicer . Then there were numbers of things always going up and down , in stuff like clarified syrup , according to the change of temperature , just as leeches do in a pickle - bottle . Snakes as well , and other reptiles streaked like sticks of peppermint , and centipedes , and Rio wrigglers , called [I]1549-my child think [La Croya]692-la croya . It was enough in [that vault - like room]9209-that vault - like room , which felt like the scooping of an August iceberg ; it was more than enough to strike a chill to the marrow , as of one who sleeps in a bed newly brought from [the cellar]1496-the cellar . But the worst and most horrible thing of all was the core and nucleus of the smell that might be felt , the half - dissected body of a porpoise , leaning on a dozen stout cross - poles . It was enough to make the blood of a dog run cold . Overpowered by sights and smells , and the fear of mingling with [them]9211-them , [I]1549-my child huddled away in a corner , and tried in vain to take [my]1549-my child eyes from the only sign of life yet left , the motion of [Cora]585-old cora 's club - like arm . [The poor old woman]9212-the poor old woman enjoyed [my]1549-my child interest in [her]9212-the poor old woman work , and when [she]9212-the poor old woman had finished , [she]9212-the poor old woman made [me]1549-my child a mock salaam , and kissed [the pixie]9213-the pixie 's heart . Then , with a grin , [she]9212-the poor old woman dropped the rough hangings , and left [me]1549-my child in ghastly twilight . As the sacks fell over the window - frame , [I]1549-my child lost all presence of mind , all honest indignation , everything but a coward horror , and the shrinking of life from death . With all the strength of [my]1549-my child chest and throat , [I]1549-my child cast forth , as a cannon discharges , one long , volleyed , agonising shriek . As it rang among the skeletons , and rattled [their]9214-their tissue - less joints , a small square grating in the upper panel of the heavy door swung back , and in the opening appeared the face of [Lepardo Della Croce]570-lepardo . [He]0-i lifted [his]0-i hat with a pleasant air , and addressed [me]1549-my child with a smile , "[1549-my child] Ah ! now , this [I]0-i call a pity , a great pity , indeed , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara ; but that [I]0-i always fear the imputation of pedantry , [I]0-i should call it a bathos . [You]4943-you can hardly be aware that since [you]4943-you made that dreadful noise , [you]4943-you have fallen in [my]0-i opinion from [a Porcia]4944-a porcia , or [an Arria]4945-an arria , to [a common maid Marian]4946-a common maid marian . Fie , fie , it is too disappointing . It saps [one]6186-one 's candid faith in the nobility of human nature . But , as [I]0-i can no longer appeal to [your]4943-you courage or spirit , [I]0-i must , it appears , address [myself]0-i to [your]4943-you reason ; if , as [I]0-i am fain to hope , [your]4943-you nerves have not impaired it . Be assured , then , once for all , that it is a vulgar error to exert [your]4943-you sweet voice in so high a key . [My]0-i little dissecting theatre , though not so perfect as [I]0-i could wish , particularly in ventilation , is nevertheless so secured from erroneous plebeian sympathy , that [all the cats in [London]1-london]4948-all the cats in london might squall away [their]4948-all the cats in london fabulous nine lives without affecting the tea and muffins of [the excellent old ladies who live on either side of [us]4950-us]4949-the excellent old ladies who live on either side of us . [That noble tabby , on the third shelf right]4951-that noble tabby , on the third shelf right , was [a household god at No . 39]4952-a household god at no . 39 , until [he]4951-that noble tabby , on the third shelf right had the honour of attracting [my]0-i attention . Breathe not a word about [him]4951-that noble tabby , on the third shelf right , if [you]4943-you ever come out . Twice a day , [I]0-i sent to inquire , with [my]0-i kindest compliments , whether poor [Miss Jenkinson]693-miss jenkinson had recovered [her]693-miss jenkinson darling cat . Meanwhile , by inanition scientifically graduated , [I]0-i succeeded in absorbing [his]4951-that noble tabby , on the third shelf right adipose deposit , and found [him]4951-that noble tabby , on the third shelf right one of the kindest subjects [I]0-i have had the pleasure of manipulating . Be not alarmed , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara ; [I]0-i have no intention of starving [you]293-clara ; neither , if [you]293-clara behave with courtesy , will [I]0-i even dissect [you]293-clara . [I]0-i only mention these little facts to convince [you]293-clara of [our]4953-our pleasing retirement . The ceiling of [[your]293-clara room]2382-your room is six feet below the level of [the street]6090-the street , the walls are three feet thick and felted , and the bricks set all as headers , which makes a great difference in conducting power . The windows , as perhaps [you]293-clara have already observed , are secluded from vulgar eyes , and command a very partial view of [[our]4953-our own little Eden]4956-our own little eden . Moreover , if by exerting [your]293-clara nobly - developed chest , to an extent which for [your]293-clara sake [I]0-i affectionately deprecate , [you]293-clara even succeeded at last in producing an undulation — do [you]293-clara remember [my]0-i lecture upon the conflicting theories of sound?—or a vibration in the tympanum of [a neighbour]4957-a neighbour , [I]0-i fear [you]293-clara would be regarded — it shocks [me]0-i greatly to think of it — as a cat of rare vocal power , unduly agitated by [my]0-i feeble pursuit of science . Therefore , let [me]0-i conclude [my]0-i friendly counsel in the language of all [[your]293-clara theatres]4958-your theatres — ah ! [you]293-clara have no drama now in [this country]1963-this country , such poverty of invention — but in the words , which [I]0-i regret to say , appear from six to a dozen times in every British trugody , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara , ' Be calm . ' " Through all this brutal sneering , [I]293-clara stood resolutely with [my]293-clara back turned to [him]0-i . Perhaps [he]0-i thought that [I]293-clara would stoop to supplication . [I]293-clara could have bitten [my]293-clara tongue off for that contemptible shriek ; it was such a triumph to [him]0-i . "[293-clara] Ah ! sulky , [I]0-i fear ; [young lady sulky with [the poor Professor , who tries to develop [her]4961-the poor professor , who tries to develop her mind mind]4961-the poor professor , who tries to develop her mind . Fie , fie , very small and ungrateful , and not half so grand a study as the attitude of contempt]4960-young lady sulky with the poor professor , who tries to develop her mind . fie , fie , very small and ungrateful , and not half so grand a study as the attitude of contempt . What a pity poor [Conrad]670-conrad was not present an hour ago ! How [he]670-conrad might have enriched [his]670-conrad little book of schemata . Several most magnificent poses . But [I]0-i fear [the poor fellow]4962-the poor fellow has taken [his]4962-the poor fellow last chip . A sad thing , was it not ? Why , how [you]293-clara start , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara ! Oh , [you]293-clara can show [your]293-clara face at last ! And how pale ! Well , if eyes could only kill — " "[293-clara] What is it — [I]0-i mean be good enough just to go away . " "[0-i] To be sure [I]0-i will . [I]0-i have a little matter on hand which must not be delayed ; to leave [my]0-i carte de visite upon [the right man]4904-the right man , this time . [I]0-i can not sufficiently thank [you]293-clara for [your]293-clara invaluable information . Is that snug little entrance practicable still ? [Very hospitable people [they]4964-very hospitable people they used to be at vaughan park used to be at [Vaughan Park]5-vaughan park]4964-very hospitable people they used to be at vaughan park . Fare [you]293-clara well , [young lady]1872-young lady ; [I]0-i will not keep [you]293-clara in any unnecessary suspense . After [my]0-i return , [I]0-i shall arrange for [your]293-clara release ; if it can be made compatible with [my]0-i safety . [You]293-clara will have plenty of food , and much time for meditation . Let [your]293-clara thoughts of [me]0-i be liberal and kindly . [I]0-i never injure [any one]1178-any one , when [I]0-i can avoid it . [I]0-i only regret that the air [you]293-clara breathe will impair , for the while , [your]293-clara roses . But what an opportunity of analysing the gases ! Carbonic acid predominant . Do [you]293-clara gratify [me]0-i by bearing in mind a lecture , at which [you]293-clara were very attentive , on Malaria and [Miasma]694-miasma ? " Taunting to the last , and sneering even at [himself]0-i , as [men of the blackest dye of wickedness]9215-men of the blackest dye of wickedness are very apt to do , [he]0-i closed the grating carefully , and [I]293-clara heard the ring of the metal cross on the rough stone steps . [He]0-i had the boots of vengeance on ; [his]0-i errand was stealthy and cold - blooded murder ; [me]293-clara , who had never harmed [him]0-i , [he]0-i was abandoning perhaps to death , certainly to madness — and yet to [his]0-i own ideas , all [he]0-i was doing was right . Frantic at the horrors around [me]293-clara , and still more so at those impending through [my]293-clara own rash folly , [I]293-clara tore and scratched at the solid door , and flung [myself]293-clara against it , till [my]293-clara nails were broken , and [my]293-clara fingers bleeding , and all [my]293-clara body palpitating with impotent mad fury . In weariness at last and shame at this wild outburst , [I]293-clara sat upon the floor , for [I]293-clara could not touch [the operator]9216-the operator 's stool , and tried to collect [my]293-clara thoughts . Was there any possibility of saving [[my]293-clara poor Uncle]2919-my poor uncle ? It must now be nearly four o'clock on the Friday afternoon , or at least [I]293-clara so computed it . The beautiful watch given [me]293-clara by [[my]293-clara Uncle]1271-my uncle had stopped through [my]293-clara reckless violence , and the breaking of the glass . The hands , as [I]293-clara could barely perceive , stood at a quarter to four . [The express - train]9219-the express - train , by which [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher and [I]293-clara were to have returned , would leave [Paddington]246-paddington at five P.M. and reach [Gloucester]23-gloucester soon after eight . [Lepardo Della Croce]570-lepardo would catch it easily , and perhaps would accomplish [his]2919-my poor uncle foul design that night . [My]293-clara only hope of preventing [him]2919-my poor uncle lay in [his]2919-my poor uncle own tenacity of usage . From [[my]293-clara Uncle]1271-my uncle 's account , [I]293-clara knew , that on [their]1271-my uncle cursed Vendetta enterprises , a certain pilgrimage on foot is , in [many families]9221-many families , regarded as a matter of honour . This usage owes its origin perhaps to some faint trace of mercy , some wish to afford the evil passions one more chance of relenting to the milder reflections of weariness , and the influence of the air . Be that as it may , [I]293-clara believed that the custom was hereditary in [the Della Croce family]9222-the della croce family ; and if so , [the enemy]1677-the enemy would finish [his]1677-the enemy journey on foot , quitting [the train]7101-the train some distance on [this side of [Gloucester]23-gloucester]9225-this side of gloucester . Therefore if [I]293-clara could contrive to escape in the course of the night , [I]293-clara might yet be in time . All the rest of the daylight , such as it was , [I]293-clara spent in examining , inch by inch , every part of the loathsome chamber , which was now [[my]293-clara dungeon]9226-my dungeon . By this time all [my]293-clara patience , habitual more than natural , had returned , and all [my]293-clara really inborn determination and hope . Surely [I]293-clara had been every bit as badly off before , and had struggled through quite as hopeless a difficulty . If arduous courage and tough perseverance were of any avail , those four walls should not hold [me]293-clara , though [they]1271-my uncle might be three feet thick . So stopping both [my]293-clara nostrils with cotton - wool from a specimen ( for the smell was most insufferable ) , and pinning up [my]293-clara dress , [I]293-clara set to work in earnest . First , [I]293-clara examined the windows : there was nothing to hope from them ; [I]293-clara could never loosen a bar , and even if [I]293-clara could , [I]293-clara should only escape from [one prison]9227-one prison to another , for [the garden behind [the house]764-the house]9228-the garden behind the house was surrounded with high dead walls . Fireplace there was none ; the door had already baffled [me]293-clara ; could [I]293-clara dig through the party wall , and into [the adjoining house]9230-the adjoining house ? Most likely it was all a falsehood and boast about the thickness , intended perhaps to discourage [me]293-clara from attempting the easiest way . And in so damp a place , the mortar probably would be soft . So , after searching and groping , ever so long , to find , if possible , one loose brick to begin with , [I]293-clara drew from [my]293-clara pocket a knife , of which [I]293-clara was very proud , "[293-clara] because [[my]0-i father]731-my father had given [it]4968-it [me]0-i ; and [I]0-i looked at it wistfully in the dusk , because [I]0-i feared so to break it . Nothing but the thought that life itself was at stake would ever have induced [me]0-i to use that beloved knife for work so very unsuitable . It was a knife of strong but by no means elegant make , shorter in the handle , and squarer in the joints , than [the rising generation of knives]4969-the rising generation of knives . Very likely [Sheffield of the present day]4970-sheffield of the present day would laugh at it ; but like [most who laugh]4971-most who laugh , it could not produce [the fellow]4972-the fellow . [[My]0-i father]731-my father [himself]731-my father had owned it for nearly thirty years , and had treated [it]4968-it with the high respect which an honest knife deserves . From this due regard [[his]731-my father daughter]2465-his daughter had not derogated , and the knife was now as good as when it left [the maker]1201-the maker 's hand . It had never been honed in utter ignorance of proper plane and angle , as nearly all knives are , and by none so often as [the professional knife - grinder]4976-the professional knife - grinder . [I]0-i never dared to meddle with it , except on a very mild razor - strap ; and all it was allowed to do was to mend [my]0-i pens — [I]0-i , [Clara Vaughan]293-clara , hate steel paper - stabbers — and sometimes to cut [my]0-i pencils . Now , this true and worshipful knife was to cut bricks and mortar ! In [my]0-i natural affection for it , [I]0-i hesitated and trembled , and knowing what was to come it closed upon [my]0-i fingers . Oh , ruthless Atta Nævia ! trusty knife , fall to ! Meanwhile [old Cora]585-old cora showed at the heavy grating [her]585-old cora countenance demiss ; to all [my]0-i eager adjurations , promises , and prayers , [she]585-old cora answered not a word , but grimly smiled , like an ancient bird , beyond the reach of chaff . [She]585-old cora handed [me]0-i in a pint of milk , and a loaf of the variety termed in [London]1-london a " twopenny brick . "[585-old cora] A red herring on the toasting - fork , dripping with its own unction , was hastily shown , and then withdrawn , and the gordit appeared in its stead ; which being done , [the experienced dame]4977-the experienced dame winked , and regarded [me]0-i deeply . This meant , " Surrender [your]0-i legal right in [[Our]9231-our Lady]3529-our lady 's heart , without which [I]4977-the experienced dame shall have no luck , and [I]4977-the experienced dame will give [you]0-i this beautiful fish , hard - roed , and done to a nicety . "[4977-the experienced dame] Ah no , [sweet Cora]585-old cora , a good red herring is not to be despised ; but who could eat in a reeking hole like this ? Once [I]0-i went , for [Judy]477-judy 's sake , being rash and light of step , into [the back premises of [a highly respectable butcher]4979-a highly respectable butcher]4978-the back premises of a highly respectable butcher . Woe is [me]0-i , what [I]0-i saw and smelt there was Muscat grapes compared to this . When [Cora]585-old cora had departed , after handing [me]0-i in a pillow and a blanket of the true work - house texture , and crossing [herself]585-old cora with a strange expression , meaning , as [I]0-i interpreted , " Now keep alive if possible till breakfast time , [young woman]9233-young woman , "[585-old cora] [I]0-i sat [me]0-i down upon the floor at one end of [the room]823-the room , and began [my]0-i labours . First . [I]0-i put on a pair of tan - leather gloves ; for small as [my]0-i vanity is , [I]0-i do not like [my]0-i hands to look altogether like a hodman 's . Then [I]0-i removed a strip of the felt with which the wall was covered . It was nearly dark , but [I]0-i could easily feel the joints between the bricks . The mortar was not very good , but [my]0-i work was rendered doubly difficult by the bricks being all set cross - wise to the line of the wall ; this , [I]0-i suppose , is what [he]4979-a highly respectable butcher meant when [he]4979-a highly respectable butcher described them as " headers . "[4979-a highly respectable butcher] By reason of this arrangement , [I]0-i had to dig and dig for hours , before [I]0-i could loosen a single brick ; and working all in the dark as [I]0-i was , [I]0-i feared every moment to break the stick - blade of [my]0-i knife . The fingers of [my]0-i gloves were very soon worn away , and even the palm where the heel of the knife was chafing ; nor was it long before [my]0-i skin was full of weals , and raspy , like the knobs [I]0-i have seen inside the legs of a horse . At last , to [my]0-i wonderful delight , one brick began to tremble . In another half - hour , [I]0-i eased it out most carefully , kissed [my]0-i trusty blade , now worn almost to a skewer , and with stiff and aching muscles , and the trophy brick upon [my]0-i lap , fell off into as sound a sleep as ever [I]0-i was blest with . When [I]0-i awoke , the summer dawn was stealing faintly through the barricaded windows . Oh ! how [I]0-i longed for one draught of air , even as [London]1-london imports it ! [My]0-i head was burning and [my]0-i eyes distended from the tainted stuff around [me]0-i , and [my]0-i hands , and arms , and even shoulders were stiff from over exertion . Languidly regarding the brick [I]0-i had worked so hard for , and commiserating much the plight of [my]0-i tender hands , [I]0-i felt inclined to give it up , till [I]0-i thought of all at stake . [[My]0-i poor Uncle]2919-my poor uncle in deadly peril through [my]0-i desperate folly ; [Conrad]670-conrad too , as that murderer implied , in a critical position . [My]0-i own life also — it might be a week before [the monster]4558-the monster returned ; and [I]0-i felt sure that [I]0-i could not live more than three days in that corruption . The oppression was so horrible , especially when [I]0-i stood up , that [I]0-i resolved at all hazards to break one of the windows . [I]0-i had tried to do so the night before , but they were beyond [my]0-i reach , and [I]0-i had no stick , for [I]0-i durst not touch the poles that propped the unlucky porpoise . Now , [I]0-i had a good missile , and after two or three vain attempts from the closeness of the bars , [I]0-i hurled the brick - bat through the glass ; and , as it raised the sacks a little , [I]0-i obtained more light , as well as a breath of air . The taint upon the glass , the reek of the deadly gases , even cleared away for a short distance round the fracture . [Cora]585-old cora was fast asleep no doubt , and the crash of the glass did not disturb [her]585-old cora ; so [I]0-i fell to again , and worked very hard till breakfast time . If [I]0-i could only get out by noon , in time for the two o'clock train ! When [I]0-i expected [[my]0-i jailor]4983-my jailor , [I]0-i hid away under the porpoise the seven bricks [I]0-i had removed since daylight — for [I]0-i could work much faster as the aperture increased — and then [I]0-i fastened [my]0-i blanket over the hole . After drinking the milk with some relish — eat [I]0-i could not in [that pestilential den]4984-that pestilential den — [I]0-i returned to [my]0-i labour , and prepared to attack the second course in the thickness of the wall . By this time [I]0-i had contrived , with the help of a brick , to extract the hold - fast from the bench , which [I]0-i could not do the night before ; and very useful [I]0-i found it , both as a hammer and lever . So with rising hopes , [I]0-i resumed . Oh , cruel disappointment ! The second course was bedded in cement harder than the bricks themselves . Most likely they had formed the outside of the wall , until [Lepardo]570-lepardo added the nine - inch lining of headers . [I]0-i was utterly dismayed ; and now [my]0-i beloved knife , which had stood like [a hero]4985-a hero - martyr all its grinding indignities , broke off short at the haft , and left [me]0-i helpless and hopeless . And [I]0-i was getting on so well , and so proud of all [I]0-i had done . There was nothing for it but a storm of crying . It served [me]0-i right for ill - treating [[my]0-i dear father]829-my dear father 's knife so shockingly . [I]0-i cried for at least a quarter of an hour , before it occurred to [me]0-i what [a great baby]4987-a great baby [I]0-i was . Then , with the tears in [my]0-i swollen eyes , and sobs that made [my]0-i net - pressed bosom sore , [I]0-i began to grope and peer again along the sides of [[my]0-i prison]4988-my prison . There was more light now than had hitherto entered , since [Cora]585-old cora dropped the curtain . This was partly owing to the position of the sun , and partly to the interposition of the brick . Just opposite that window , on a shelf where lay [an old Penguin]4989-an old penguin looking very bilious , [I]0-i spied the corner of a little box , half covered with tow and moth - eaten feathers . Snatching it eagerly , [I]0-i found it to be a match - box . But alas , how light ! With trembling fingers [I]0-i pulled it open , for it was one of those that slide . There were three , and only three , fine stout lucifer matches , with the precious blue still on them . But even if they should prove dry enough to kindle , what good would they be to [me]0-i ? " All the good in [the world]798-the world , "[0-i] said hope , looking towards the door , " if [you]0-i had shown sense enough , [Clara]293-clara , to fall to at that door , before [your]0-i knife was broken , [you]0-i might have cut through it by this time . Now [you]0-i ca n't , that is certain ; but why should n't [you]0-i burn it down ? "[0-i] At any rate , [I]0-i would try ; that is , if [my]0-i matches would only strike fire . [I]0-i had felt last night a piece of candle on the floor near the crocodile . This [I]0-i soon laid hands upon ; and now for operations . No fear of [old Cora]585-old cora smelling the smoke , for [she]585-old cora spent all the forenoon , as [I]0-i knew well , in [a little chapel [she]585-old cora had established quite at the top of [the house]764-the house]4990-a little chapel she had established quite at the top of the house ; and this being the festival of [St. Bottle - imp]277-st. bottle - imp , [she]585-old cora would be twice as devout as usual . As for suffocating [myself]0-i , that [I]0-i must take the chance of . Much better to die of curling wood smoke than of these crawling odours . To give the wood , which was hard and solid , every inclination to burn , [I]0-i channeled it first in a fan from the bottom with [my]0-i little pen - blade . Then [I]0-i cut off the lower half of [my]0-i precious candle , and smeared the tallow in the shallow grooves [I]0-i had made . This being done , [I]0-i broke , with as little noise as possible , some other panes of glass , to admit the air to [my]0-i fire , procured all the wool and tow that [I]0-i could reach , and a pile of paper , and steeped them , though it sickened [me]0-i to do it , in the rank oil from some of the specimens . All this being ready at hand , [I]0-i prepared , with a beating heart , to try the matches , on which the whole depended . [I]0-i had taken the precaution of slipping them just inside [my]0-i frock , hoping that the warmth of [my]0-i body might serve to dry them a little . The first , as [I]0-i rubbed it on the sandpaper , flashed for a moment , but did not kindle ; the second just kindled with a sputter , but did not ignite its stick : the third — [I]0-i was so nervous that [I]0-i durst not attempt it then ; but trembled as [I]0-i looked at it . [I]0-i would not even breathe for fear of damping the phosphorus . Perhaps three lives depended on the behaviour of that match . In desperation at last [I]0-i struck boldly ! a broad blue flame leaped upon the air , and in a moment [my]0-i candle was lighted . In the hollow of [my]0-i hand [I]0-i carried it round [the room]823-the room , to search for anything likely to be of service to [me]0-i . Oh ! grand discovery — behind a great tabby cat , [I]0-i found a bottle containing nearly a pint of naphtha , used , [I]0-i suppose , for singeing some of the hair off . Now [I]0-i need not fear , but what [I]0-i could burn the door down ; the only thing to fear was that [I]0-i should burn [myself]0-i as well , used the naphtha very cautiously , keeping most of it as a last resource . Then commending the result to [God]303-god , [I]0-i set [my]0-i candle carefully at the foot of the door , just below the spot where all [my]0-i little grooves converged . At once the flame ran up them , the naphtha kindling angrily with a spatter and a hiss . The blue light showed in livid ghastliness all the horrors of [the chamber]4993-the chamber . The naphtha was burnt in a moment , it seemed to go off like gunpowder ; from a prudent distance [I]0-i threw more upon it , and soon [I]0-i had the delight of seeing a steady flame established . The lumps of tallow were burning now , and the wood began to smoulder . Several times [I]0-i thought that [I]0-i must be choked by the smoke , till it went in a cloud to the windows , and streamed away under the sacks . As the fire grew and grew , and required no more feeding , [I]0-i lay on [my]0-i face , to get all the air possible , at the further end of [the room]823-the room , where [my]0-i loose mortar was scattered . [I]0-i could feel [my]0-i heart thumping heavily on the pavement , and [my]0-i breath was shorter and shorter , as much from fear as from smoke . If once [I]0-i became insensible , or even if [I]0-i retained [my]0-i senses but failed to extinguish the fire , nothing more would ever be known or heard of [Clara Vaughan]293-clara ; there would be nothing even to hold an inquest upon . [I]0-i must burn ignobly , in the fat of that dreadful porpoise , and with the crocodile , and all those grinning beasts , so awful in the firelight , making faces at [me]0-i ! Surely it must be time , high time to put it out ; that is to say if [I]0-i could . Once let the flame gather head on the other side of the door , and with [my]0-i scanty means [I]0-i never could hope to quench it . At last , [I]0-i became so frightened , that [I]0-i hardly let it burn long enough . It was flaring beautifully , and licking deeper and deeper ( with ductile wreathing tongues and jets like a pushing crocus ) , the channels prepared to tempt it ; and now the black wood was reddened , and a strong heat was given out , and the blazes began to roar ; when [I]0-i cast on the centre suddenly [my]0-i doubled blanket , and propped it there with the pillow . After a few vain efforts , the flames , deprived of air , expired in gray smoke ; then [I]0-i removed the scorched blanket , and let the smouldering proceed . The charring went on nicely for perhaps a quarter of an hour , and the smell made [me]0-i think of bonfires and roast potatoes ; and [I]0-i gouged away with the claw of the holdfast , until [I]0-i saw that , by a vigorous onset , a large piece might be detached ; so [I]0-i stepped back and ran at it with a mighty kick , and with a shower of dust and sparks , a great triangle flew out before [my]0-i " military heel . "[4995-a girl rather full in the chest] At the risk of setting [myself]0-i on fire , though gathered in the smallest possible compass for [a girl rather full in the chest]4995-a girl rather full in the chest , [I]0-i squeezed through the hole in the door , and met face to face old [Cora]585-old cora . [She]585-old cora could not speak , but fell back upon the steps , and rolled in fits of terror . [I]0-i thought [her]585-old cora black eyes would have leaped from their sockets ; they came out like hat - pegs japanned . Pressed as [I]0-i was for time , [I]0-i could not leave [her]585-old cora so . [I]0-i ran up to [the pump - trough]4996-the pump - trough for water , and put out the fire first , and then poor [Cora]585-old cora 's hysterics . [I]0-i can not repeat [her]585-old cora exclamations , to [our]4997-our ears they are so impious ; but the mildest of them were these , as rendered weakly into English . " [Holy Madonna]591-madonna , [most sacred mother]9235-most sacred mother , take back [your]591-madonna blessed heart . Take it back , for the sake of [the God that loved [you]591-madonna]9236-the god that loved you , take it back , and trample on the wicked stomach of [her]9236-the god that loved you who dared to steal it . [You]591-madonna have come through the fires of hell to fetch it , [mother of [the beloved one]9238-the beloved one]9237-mother of the beloved one , lo [I]0-i hold it out to [you]591-madonna . "[0-i] [I]0-i gladly received [my]0-i poor gordit , and left [the old lady]4998-the old lady , as there was now no danger , to recover [her]4998-the old lady wits at leisure ; for [I]0-i had not a moment to spare . As [I]0-i entered [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's door , the church clock at the top of [the Square]1939-the square was striking twelve . By the two o'clock train [I]0-i must go , or [I]0-i might as well have stopped in [[my]0-i dungeon]9226-my dungeon . Though the smoke had purified [me]0-i a little , [I]0-i still felt conscious of a nasty clinging smell ; but it would have surprised [me]0-i , if there had been time , when [the little woman]6264-the little woman cried , " Lor bless [my]6264-the little woman soul , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara , where ever have [you]293-clara been ? Why , [Mr. Chumps]695-mr. chumps [the butcher]1810-the butcher — "[6264-the little woman] " The bath in one moment , and all the water in [the house]764-the house . And as [I]6264-the little woman throw [my]6264-the little woman things out , burn them in [the garden]1203-the garden . "[6264-the little woman] In twenty minutes [I]0-i was reclad from head to foot , and as sweet as [any girl in [Gloucestershire]3-gloucestershire]5002-any girl in gloucestershire ; [my]0-i eyes were bright with energy , and [my]0-i dripping hair in billows , like a rapid under the pine - trees . [I]0-i had no time to tell [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , who was off [her]391-mrs. shelfer legs with excitement , one word of what had happened , or what [I]0-i was going to do ; but flung on [myself]0-i another hat and cloak , then [her]391-mrs. shelfer old bonnet and little green shawl on [her]391-mrs. shelfer , dragged [her]391-mrs. shelfer out of [the house]764-the house , and locked the door behind [us]5004-us ; for [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher , after waiting and wondering long about [me]0-i , was gone to consult [Ann Maples]294-ann maples . If [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer 's best bonnet was twenty - two years old , [her]391-mrs. shelfer second - best must have been forty - four ; at any rate it appeared coeval with [herself]391-mrs. shelfer . [Patty]409-patty trotted along at [my]0-i side , wondering what would come next . [Her]409-patty thin little lips were working , and [her]409-patty face was like a kaleidoscope of expressions ; but whenever [I]0-i glanced toward [her]409-patty , [she]409-patty cast [her]409-patty eyes up , with a scared weird look , as if [she]409-patty was watching a ghost through a skylight , and trudged still faster , and muttered , " Yes , yes , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara . Quite right , [[my]409-patty good friend]1798-my good friend ; not a moment to lose . "[409-patty] " And pray , [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , where do [you]391-mrs. shelfer suppose [we]9243-we are going ? "[409-patty] " Oh , [I]391-mrs. shelfer knows well enough "[391-mrs. shelfer] — with [her]391-mrs. shelfer eyes like corks drawn by distance—"I knowed it all the time . Yes , yes . Let [me]409-patty alone for that . [Patty Shelfer]409-patty was n't born yesterday . Why only Tuesday was a week — "[409-patty] " If [you]391-mrs. shelfer guess right , [I]409-patty will tell [you]391-mrs. shelfer . "[409-patty] " Why going to [Charley]395-charley , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara , to be sure . Going for [Charley]395-charley 's opinion . And very wise of [you]391-mrs. shelfer too ; and what [a most every one]9244-a most every one does ; particular when [he]395-charley have money . But how [you]391-mrs. shelfer knowed [he]395-charley were there — "[409-patty] " Where ? "[409-patty] " At the great wrestling match to be sure . And [he]395-charley wanted to take [me]409-patty ; a thing [he]395-charley ai n't offered to do fifteen year next oyster - day . No , no , says [I]409-patty , with [Miss Vaughan]293-clara away , and most likely among [them]9245-them [resurrectioners]9246-resurrectioners — "[409-patty] Here [she]5005-she cast at [me]0-i a glance , like a flash of lightning , to see if the hit had told . In a moment [I]0-i understood all that [I]0-i had not cared to ask about ; why [she]5005-she trembled and shrunk from [my]0-i hand , why [she]5005-she feared to look at [me]0-i , and fixed [her]5005-she eyes away so . [She]5005-she believed that [I]0-i had been burked , and that what [she]5005-she saw walking beside was [my]0-i spirit come to claim burial . [I]0-i could not stop to disprove it , any more than [I]0-i could stop to laugh . " And [[his]395-charley grandfather]9247-his grandfather were [a sexton]9248-a sexton , [Miss]9249-miss ; and [[our]9250-our Charley]9251-our charley [himself]9251-our charley a first - rate hand at the spade . "[0-i] " [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , [we]9250-our are close to [the place]5531-the place . Now , listen to what [I]5006-i say . It is not [[your]391-mrs. shelfer husband]1832-your husband [I]5006-i want , but [Farmer Huxtable]362-farmer huxtable , whom [you]391-mrs. shelfer saw at the door . Nothing but a question of life and death would bring [me]5006-i among [this rabble]9254-this rabble . No doubt there are [many respectable men]9255-many respectable men , but it is no place for [a lady]5829-a lady . [The farmer]5517-the farmer [himself]5517-the farmer knows that , and has never dared to ask [me]5006-i ; though [[his]5517-the farmer wife]789-his wife and [daughter]8037-daughter , in ignorance , have . It is half - past twelve exactly ; in a quarter of an hour at the utmost , [I]5006-i must speak to , and what is more , carry off the [Devonshire]4-devonshire competitor . [[Your]391-mrs. shelfer husband]1832-your husband is here , and on the Committee , [you]391-mrs. shelfer told [me]5006-i . [I]5006-i expect [you]391-mrs. shelfer to manage it . Go in at once and find [him]1832-your husband . Stop , here is plenty of money . "[5006-i] In [her]5006-i supreme astonishment , [she]5006-i even dared to look at [me]0-i . But [she]5006-i feared to take the money , although [her]5006-i eyes glistened at it , for [I]0-i offered more gold than silver . " Come back to [me]5006-i at once ; [I]5006-i shall not move from here . Mind , if [the farmer]5517-the farmer loses the match through [me]5006-i , [I]5006-i will pay all , and give the money for another . "[5006-i] For once [the little woman]6264-the little woman obeyed [me]0-i , without discussion . [She]6264-the little woman pushed through a canvass door into [the vast marquee]5008-the vast marquee , or whatever [it]5008-the vast marquee ought to be called , and was admitted readily on giving [[her]6264-the little woman husband]6140-her husband 's name . [I]0-i hung back , but with a sense of the urgency of [my]0-i case , which turned [my]0-i shame into pride . Many eyes were on [me]0-i already of loungers and [outsiders]5010-outsiders . In two or three minutes [poor Patty]409-patty came back , bringing [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer [himself]413-mr. shelfer , who ever since [his]413-mr. shelfer ducking had shown [me]0-i the rose and pink of respect . [He]413-mr. shelfer even went the length now of removing [his]413-mr. shelfer pipe from [his]413-mr. shelfer mouth . " Very sorry indeed , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara , very sorry , [you]293-clara know . But [we]9262-we darrn't interrupt [the men]5486-the men now . [Our]9262-we lives would n't be worth it , and [they]5486-the men 'd kill both [the umpires]9264-the umpires and [the referee]9265-the referee too [you]293-clara know . Why it 's fall for fall , only think of that , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara , it 's fall for fall ! "[413-mr. shelfer] And the perspiration stood upon [his]413-mr. shelfer forehead , and [he]413-mr. shelfer wanted to run back . " What do [you]293-clara mean ? "[413-mr. shelfer] In spite of [my]0-i hurry , [I]0-i felt deeply interested . How could [I]0-i help it , loving [the farmer]5517-the farmer so ? " Why , [the Great Northern]9266-the great northern won the first throw by a bit of foul play , a foul stroke altogether , and no back at all , say [I]413-mr. shelfer , and [my]413-mr. shelfer eyes is pretty good ; however , [the umpires]9264-the umpires give it , and [you]293-clara should see [John Huxtable]299-john 's face , the colour of a scythe - stone ; [he]299-john knew it was unfair [you]293-clara know . And [you]293-clara should see [him]299-john go in again for the second fall . ' [I]413-mr. shelfer could ha dooed it , ' [I]413-mr. shelfer hear [him]413-mr. shelfer say , ' [I]413-mr. shelfer could ha dooed it aisy , only [I]413-mr. shelfer wudn't try [Abraham]508-abraham , and [I]413-mr. shelfer wun't nother if can help it now . ' None of [us]9268-us knows what [he]413-mr. shelfer mean , but in [he]413-mr. shelfer go again , [Miss]9269-miss , and three times [he]413-mr. shelfer throw [Sam Richardson]648-sam richardson clean over [his]413-mr. shelfer shoulder , and one as fair a back as ever was in sawdust . But [the umpires]9264-the umpires would n't give it , till just now [he]413-mr. shelfer turn [him]299-john over straight for'ard , just the same as a sod in a spade , and [they]9264-the umpires could n't get out of that . And now [they]9264-the umpires be just in for the finishing bout , and if [you]0-i want [him]413-mr. shelfer , [your]0-i only way is to come . May be , [he]413-mr. shelfer 'll try [Abraham]508-abraham , when [he]413-mr. shelfer see [you]0-i . Ah [they]9264-the umpires 've catched . "[413-mr. shelfer] A shout inside proclaimed some crisis ; [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer , in [his]413-mr. shelfer excitement , actually pulled [me]0-i in without knowing it . Once there , [I]0-i could not go back ; and the scene was a grand and thrilling one . In the centre of [a roped arena]5012-a roped arena , hedged by [countless faces , all rigid , flushed , and straining with suspense]5013-countless faces , all rigid , flushed , and straining with suspense , stood two mighty forms ; [the strongest men in [England]9-england]5014-the strongest men in england and perhaps in all [the world]798-the world . A loose sack , or jerkin , of the toughest canvass , thrown back clear of the throat , half - sleeved , and open in front , showed the bole of the pollard neck , the solid brawn of the chest , and the cords of the outstretched arm . Stout fustian breeches , belted at waist , and strapped at knee , cased [their]5016-they vast limbs so exactly , yet so easily , that every curve was thew , and every wrinkle sinew . Thin white stockings , flaked with sawdust and looking rather wet , rolled and stood out , like the loops of a mace , with the rampant muscles of the huge calf , and the bulge of the broad foreleg . As the shout proclaimed , [they]5016-they had caught or clutched ; a thing which is done with much fencing and feinting , each foining to get the best grasp . Where [I]0-i went , or what happened to [me]0-i , [I]0-i never noticed at all , so absorbed at once [I]0-i became in this rare and noble probation of glorious strength , trained skill , and emulous manhood . Round and round the ring [they]5016-they went , as in musical measure , holding each other at arms ' length , pacing warily and in distance , skilfully poised to throw the weight for either attack or defence . [Each]6003-each with [his]6003-each left hand clutched the jerkin of the other , between the neck and shoulder , [each]6003-each kept [his]6003-each right arm lightly bent , and the palm like a butterfly quivering . [Neither]3851-neither dared to move [his]3851-neither eyes from the pupils of [the other]1586-the other ; for though [they]5016-they were not built alike , [each]6003-each knew the strength of [[his]6003-each fellow]5022-his fellow . [The Northern Champion]5023-the northern champion was at least three inches taller than [the Son of [Devon]24-devon]5024-the son of devon , quite as broad in the shoulders and large of limb , but not so thick - set and close - jointed , not quite so stanch in the loins and quarters . But [he]5023-the northern champion was longer in the reach , and made the most of that advantage . On [his]5023-the northern champion breast [he]5023-the northern champion bore the mark of a hug as hard as a bear 's ; and [his]5023-the northern champion face , though a fine and manly one , looked rather savage and spiteful . [The farmer]5517-the farmer was smiling pleasantly , an honest but anxious smile . For the first time [he]5517-the farmer had met with [a man of almost [his]5517-the farmer own power]5026-a man of almost his own power ; and on a turn of the heel depended at least four hundred pounds , and what was more than four million to [him]5023-the northern champion , the fame of [the county]871-the county that nursed [him]5023-the northern champion . Above [them]5016-they hung [the champion]5028-the champion 's belt , not of [the west or north]5029-the west or north , but of [England]9-england and of [the world]798-the world . Suddenly , ere [I]0-i could see how [they]5016-they did it , [they]5016-they had closed in the crowning struggle . Breast to breast , and thigh to thigh , [they]5016-they tugged , and strained , and panted . Nothing though [I]0-i knew of the matter , [I]0-i saw that [the North - man]5031-the north - man had won the best hold , and as [his]5031-the north - man huge arms enwrapped [[my]0-i friend]7813-my friend , a tremble went through [my]0-i own frame . [The men of [the North]192-the north]5033-the men of the north and [[their]5033-the men of the north backers]5034-their backers saw it , and a loud hurrah pealed forth ; deep silence ensued , and every eye was intent . Though giant arms were round [him]5031-the north - man and [Titan]696-titan legs inlocked , never a foot [he]5031-the north - man budged . [John Huxtable]299-john stood like [a buttress]5035-a buttress . [He]5031-the north - man tried not to throw the other ; placed as [he]5031-the north - man was , [he]5031-the north - man durst not ; but [he]5031-the north - man made up [his]5031-the north - man mind to stand , and stand [he]5031-the north - man did with a vengeance . In vain [the giant]5036-the giant jerked and twisted , levered , heaved , and laboured , till [his]5031-the north - man very eyeballs strained ; all the result was ropes and bunches in the wide - spread [Devonshire]4-devonshire calves , and a tightening of the clench that threatened to crush the Northern ribs . As well might a coiling snake expect to uproot an oak . As this exertion of grand stability lasted and outlasted , shouts arose and rang alike from [friend]8162-friend and [foe]5038-foe , from north , and west , and east ; even [I]0-i could not help clapping [my]0-i feeble hands . But the trial was nearly over . [The assailant]5039-the assailant 's strength was ebbing ; [I]0-i could hear [him]5031-the north - man gasp for breath under the fearful pressure . By great address [he]5031-the north - man had won that hold , and made sure of victory from it , it had never failed before ; but to use a [Devonshire]4-devonshire word , [the farmer]5517-the farmer was too " stuggy . "[5517-the farmer] Now , [the latter]907-the latter watched [his]5031-the north - man time , and [his]5031-the north - man motive power waxed as the other 's waned . At length [he]5031-the north - man lifted [him]5031-the north - man bodily off [his]5031-the north - man legs , and cast [him]5031-the north - man flat on [his]5031-the north - man back . A flat and perfectly level cast , as ever pancake crackled at . Thunders of applause broke forth , and scarcely could [I]0-i keep quiet . With amazement [the farmer]5517-the farmer espied [me]0-i as [he]5517-the farmer was bowing on all sides , and amid the tumult and uproar that shook the canvass like a lark 's wing , [he]5517-the farmer ran across the ring full speed . Then [he]5517-the farmer stopped short , remembering [his]5517-the farmer laboured and unpresentable plight , and [he]5517-the farmer would have blushed , if [he]5517-the farmer had not been as red as fire already . None of such nonsense for [me]0-i . [I]0-i called [him]5517-the farmer by name , took [his]5517-the farmer hand , and with all [my]0-i heart congratulated . " But , [farmer]5817-farmer , [I]0-i want [you]5517-the farmer immediately , on a matter of life and death . "[0-i] [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe and [the children]1695-the children came , but [I]0-i only stopped to kiss [Sally]371-sally , and motioned [them]5044-them all away . " If [you]5517-the farmer remember [your]5517-the farmer promise to [me]0-i , get ready for a journey in a moment , and run all the way to [[my]0-i lodgings]6270-my lodgings . [We]9273-we must leave [London]1-london , at two o'clock , to save [[my]0-i Uncle]1271-my uncle 's life . "[0-i] [Mr. Huxtable]338-mr. huxtable looked astounded , and [his]338-mr. huxtable understanding , unlike [his]338-mr. huxtable legs , for the moment was carried away . [Meanwhile]697-meanwhile up came [Sally]371-sally again , caught hold of [my]0-i hand , and silently implored for some little notice , if only of [her]371-sally costume , violet , indigo , blue , green , yellow , orange and red . [I]0-i could only kiss [her]371-sally again . " Oh do come , [farmer Huxtable]9275-farmer huxtable , do come at once , [I]0-i entreat [you]9275-farmer huxtable ; or [I]0-i must go alone and helpless . "[0-i] " That [you]9275-farmer huxtable sha n't , [[my]5533-the man dearie]1454-my dearie , dang [Jan Uxtable]343-jan uxtable for [a girt lout]9277-a girt lout . "[5533-the man] " Please , [sir]5380-sir , [I]5533-the man am sent to tell [you]9275-farmer huxtable that [the umpires]9264-the umpires gives it no fall , and [you]9275-farmer huxtable must play again . "[5533-the man] [The man]5533-the man looked abased by [his]5533-the man errand ; even [he]5533-the man knew better . In [my]0-i hurry [I]0-i had paid no attention to the ominous hissing and hooting around a knot of [men on the benches at the end]5046-men on the benches at the end . [The farmer]5517-the farmer 's face [I]0-i shall never forget ; as [he]5533-the man slowly gathered the truth , it became majestic with honest indignation . [A strong man]8629-a strong man 's wrath at deceit and foul play sat upon it , like [a king on [his]8629-a strong man throne]5049-a king on his throne . " For the chillers — "[5533-the man] [he]5533-the man stammered at last—"ony for [the poor chiller]9280-the poor chiller 's sake — else [I]5533-the man 'd never stand it , danged if [I]5533-the man wud , [Miss Clara]293-clara ; it make [a man]5384-a man feel like [a rogue]8641-a rogue and a cheat [himself]5384-a man . "[5533-the man] Then , with all the power of [his]5533-the man mighty voice [he]5533-the man shouted , so that every fold of the canvass shook , and every heart thrilled fearfully : " [Men of [Lunnon]271-lunnon]9283-men of lunnon , if [men]1003-men [you]9283-men of lunnon be , [no chap]9285-no chap can have fair play with [you]9283-men of lunnon . It be all along of [your]9283-men of lunnon swindling bets about things [you]9283-men of lunnon do n't know nothing of . [You]9283-men of lunnon offered [me]5533-the man five hunder pound , afore ever here [I]5533-the man come , to sell [my]5533-the man back to [the Northman]9286-the northman . [A good honest man]9287-a good honest man [he]5533-the man be , and the best cross - buttock as ever [I]5533-the man met with ; but a set of [rogues and cowards]9288-rogues and cowards that 's what [you]9283-men of lunnon be ; and [no sport]9289-no sport can live with [you]9283-men of lunnon . As for [your]9283-men of lunnon danged belt , [I]5533-the man wun't have it , [no tino]9290-no tino , it wud be a disgrace to [the family]1254-the family ; it sha n't never go along side the [Devonshire]4-devonshire and [Cornwall]38-cornwall leather . But [I]5533-the man 'll throw [[your]9283-men of lunnon man]9292-your man over again , and any six of [you]9283-men of lunnon to once as plases . "[5533-the man] Then , [thorough gentleman]5050-thorough gentleman as [he]5050-thorough gentleman was , [he]5050-thorough gentleman apologized to [me]0-i for [his]5050-thorough gentleman honest anger , and for having drawn all eyes upon [me]0-i , as there [I]0-i stood at [his]5050-thorough gentleman side . " But never fear about the time , [Miss Clara]293-clara , [I]5050-thorough gentleman wo n't kape [you]9283-men of lunnon two minutes . [I]5050-thorough gentleman 'll give [him]9292-your man [Abraham]508-abraham 's staylace this time . [They]9293-they have a drove [me]5050-thorough gentleman to it , as [us]9294-us has n't a moment to spare . "[5050-thorough gentleman] Proudly [he]5050-thorough gentleman stepped into [the ring]5051-the ring again , and again [the North Country giant]5052-the north country giant , looking rather ashamed , confronted [him]5050-thorough gentleman . No fencing or feinting this time ; but [the Devonshire wrestler]5053-the devonshire wrestler , appealing thus to [the public]7493-the public , " Now look here , [Lunnoners]349-lunnoners , wull e , and zee if this here be a back , "[5053-the devonshire wrestler] rushed straight at [[his]5053-the devonshire wrestler antagonist]5055-his antagonist , grappled [him]5055-his antagonist in some peculiar manner , seemed to get round [his]5055-his antagonist back , and then spun [him]5055-his antagonist up over [his]5055-his antagonist own left shoulder , in such a way that [he]5055-his antagonist twirled in the air and came down dead on [his]5055-his antagonist spine . Dead indeed [he]5055-his antagonist appeared to be , and [a dozen surgeons]5056-a dozen surgeons came forward , in the midst of a horrible silence , and some were preparing to bleed [him]5055-his antagonist , when [the farmer]5517-the farmer moved [them]5056-a dozen surgeons aside ; [he]5050-thorough gentleman knew that [the poor man]6777-the poor man was only stunned by concussion of the spine . Awhile [he]5050-thorough gentleman knelt over [him]5055-his antagonist sadly , with the tears in [his]5050-thorough gentleman own brave eyes : " [I]5050-thorough gentleman wudn't have doed it , [lad]9295-lad ; indade and indade [I]5050-thorough gentleman wudn't , ony [they]5056-a dozen surgeons forced [me]5050-thorough gentleman to it ; and [you]9295-lad did n't say nought agin [them]5056-a dozen surgeons . It be all fair enough , but it do hoort so tarble . That there trick was invented by [a better man]5937-a better man nor [I]5050-thorough gentleman be , and it be karled ' [Abraham]508-abraham Cann 's staylace . ' [I]5050-thorough gentleman 'll show [e]9295-lad how to do it , if ever [us]9297-us mates again . Now tak the belt , [man]5770-man , tak it — "[5050-thorough gentleman] [he]5050-thorough gentleman leaped up , and tore it down , with very little respect , " [I]5050-thorough gentleman resigns it over to [you]9295-lad ; zimth [they]5056-a dozen surgeons arl wants [you]9295-lad to have it and [you]9295-lad be [a better man]5937-a better man nor deserves it . And [I]5050-thorough gentleman 'll never wrastle no more ; [Jan]343-jan uxtable Uxtable 's time be over . Give [us]9297-us [your]9295-lad hond , [old chap]9300-old chap . [We]9297-us two never mate again , unless [you]9295-lad comes down [[our]9297-us wai]9301-our wai , and [us]9297-us han't got [a man to bate e]9302-a man to bate e , now [I]5050-thorough gentleman be off the play . There be [dacent zider]9303-dacent zider and bakkon to [Tossil]361-tossil 's [Barton Farm]102-barton farm . Give [us]9297-us [your]9295-lad hond like [a man]5384-a man , there be no ill will atween [us]9297-us , for this here little skumdoover . "[5050-thorough gentleman] Perhaps [he]5059-he meant skirmish and manoeuvre , all in one . [Sam Richardson]648-sam richardson , slowly recovering , put out [his]648-sam richardson great hand , all white and clammy , and [John Huxtable]299-john took it tenderly , amid such uproarious cheering , that [I]0-i expected the tent on [our]5060-our heads . Even [Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer 's sharp eyes had a drop of moisture in them . As for [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe , [he]413-mr. shelfer flung to the winds all dithyrambic gravity , and chanted and danced incoherently , [Cassandra]698-alexander and Chorus in one ; while [Sally Huxtable]371-sally blotted all [her]371-sally rainbow in heavy drops . Hundreds of pipes were smashed , even [the Stoic Shelfer]699-the stoic shelfer 's , in the rush to get at [the farmer]5517-the farmer ; but [he]413-mr. shelfer parted [the crowd]9152-the crowd right and left , as [I]0-i might part willow - sprays , and came at once to [me]0-i . Whether by [his]413-mr. shelfer aid , or by the sympathies of [the multitude]5603-the multitude , [I]0-i am sure [I]0-i can not tell , but [I]0-i found [myself]0-i in [a cab]2021-a cab , with [Sally]371-sally at [my]0-i side , and [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer on the box , and [the farmer]5517-the farmer 's face at the window . " Twenty minutes , [Miss]5433-miss , [I]391-mrs. shelfer 'll be [there]1114-there , raddy to go where [you]5433-miss plases . It bain't quite one o'clock yet . [I]391-mrs. shelfer must put [myself]391-mrs. shelfer dacent like , avore [I]391-mrs. shelfer can go with [you]5433-miss , [Miss]9307-miss ; and git the money for the sake of [them]6708-thousands of people poor chiller , if so be [they]6708-thousands of people [Lunnoners]349-lunnoners be honest enough to pai . [Jan Uxtable]343-jan uxtable never come to [Lunnon town]5921-lunnon town no more . "[391-mrs. shelfer] With [thousands of [people]1132-people]6708-thousands of people hurraing , [we]5068-we set off full gallop for [Albert Street]268-albert street . At the door [we]5068-we found [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher just returned from [Lady Cranberry]397-lady cranberry 's , and eager to say a great deal which could not now be listened to . Having proved the speed of [our]5068-we horse , [I]0-i begged [the cabman]6039-the cabman to wait for a quarter of an hour , and then take [us]5068-we to [Paddington]246-paddington at any fare [he]6039-the cabman pleased , so long as [he]6039-the cabman drove full gallop . This suited [his]6039-the cabman views very nicely , and knowing [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer , as [every one in [London]1-london]5070-every one in london does — so at least [I]0-i am forced to believe — [he]413-mr. shelfer fain would have kept [me]0-i ten minutes of the fifteen , to tell of [Charley]395-charley 's knowingness , how [he]413-mr. shelfer had kept it all dark as could be , [you]5071-you see , [Miss]5072-miss , and had won three hundred and twenty - five pounds , without reckoning the odd money , [Miss]5073-miss — " Reckon it then , [Mr. Cabman]700-mr. cabman , "[0-i] and [I]0-i ran [upstairs]6042-upstairs full speed , after telling [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer the sum , lest [she]391-mrs. shelfer should be cheated . In five minutes [I]0-i was ready , and came out of [[my]0-i bedroom]7442-my bedroom into [the sitting - room]6564-the sitting - room , with [my]0-i hat in one hand , and a little bag in the other ; and there , instead of [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher , [I]0-i found , whom?—Conrad ! Very pale and ill [he]413-mr. shelfer looked , so unlike [himself]413-mr. shelfer that [I]0-i was shocked , and instead of leaping to [him]413-mr. shelfer , fell upon a chair . [He]413-mr. shelfer mistook [me]0-i , and approached very slowly , but with [his]413-mr. shelfer dear old smile : how [my]0-i heart beat , how [I]0-i longed to be in [his]413-mr. shelfer arms ; but [they]5077-they looked too weak to hold [me]0-i . " Oh , [Miss Vaughan]293-clara , [I]5077-they know everything . Will [you]413-mr. shelfer ever forgive [me]5077-they ? "[5077-they] " Never , [[my]413-mr. shelfer own darling]5763-my own darling , while [you]413-mr. shelfer call [me]413-mr. shelfer that . Forgive [you]0-i indeed ! Can [I]413-mr. shelfer ever forgive [myself]413-mr. shelfer , for the evil [I]413-mr. shelfer have thought of [you]0-i ? How very ill [you]0-i look ! Come and let [me]413-mr. shelfer kiss [you]0-i well . "[413-mr. shelfer] But instead of [my]0-i doing that , [he]413-mr. shelfer had to do it for [me]0-i ; for [I]0-i was quite beaten at last , and fainted away in [his]413-mr. shelfer arms . By this folly five minutes were lost ; and [I]0-i had so much to say to [him]413-mr. shelfer , and more to think of than twenty such heads could hold . But [he]413-mr. shelfer seemed to think that it must be all right , so long as [he]413-mr. shelfer had [me]0-i [there]1114-there . " Oh , [Conny]670-conrad , "[0-i] [I]0-i said through [my]0-i tears at last , " [[my]0-i own pet [Conny]670-conrad]9310-my own pet conny , come with [me]0-i . [[Your]670-conrad father]5365-your father is in such danger . "[0-i] " Life of [my]0-i heart , [I]0-i will follow [you]670-conrad by [the very next train]9312-the very next train . This one [I]0-i can not go by . "[0-i] [I]0-i could wait for no explanation , and [he]413-mr. shelfer seemed inclined to give none . Perhaps this was the reason that [he]413-mr. shelfer spent all the time in kissing [me]0-i ; which , much as [I]0-i enjoyed it , would have done quite as well at leisure . Be that as it may , there was no time to talk about it ; [he]413-mr. shelfer said it did [his]413-mr. shelfer lips good , and [I]0-i believe it did , they were so pale at first , and now so fine a red . Suddenly in the midst of it , a great voice was heard from [the passage]824-the passage : " Why now , what ever be [us]9313-us to do with the chillers ? "[0-i] Out [I]0-i ran , with [my]0-i hair down as usual , and a great flush in [my]0-i cheeks , but [I]0-i did not let [any one]1178-any one see [me]0-i . " Leave [them]9314-them here , to be sure , leave [them]9314-them here , [Mr. Huxtable]338-mr. huxtable . [They]9314-them shall have [[my]0-i rooms]7529-my rooms ; and in all [London]1-london [they]9314-them would not find such [a hostess]9316-a hostess as [Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer . "[0-i] There was no time to consider it . The throat of hurry is large , and gulps almost any suggestion . Away [we]5081-we went full gallop ; [the farmer]5517-the farmer was on the box,—how [the driver]6033-the driver found [room]918-room [I]0-i ca n't say,—Mrs . [Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher and [I]0-i inside , all consulting [her]5085-her watch every minute . Across [the Regent 's Park]278-the regent 's park , scattering the tame wild ducks , past [Marylebone Church]279-marylebone church , and [the Yorkshire Stingo]5086-the yorkshire stingo , and [Edgware Road]280-edgware road — [we]5081-we saved it by just two minutes . Although [I]0-i had taken [his]6033-the driver ticket , [the farmer]5517-the farmer would not come with [us]5081-we , but went in [a second - class carriage]2866-a second - class carriage . " [They]9317-they blue featherbeds trimmed with pig 's tails , is too good for the likes of [I]0-i , [Miss Clara]293-clara ; and [I]0-i should be afeared all the wai that [the Missus]5899-the missus was rating of [me]0-i for [[my]0-i leg - room]9319-my leg - room . [I]0-i paid parlour price coming up , and went in the [kitchen waggons]9320-kitchen waggons , because it zim'd only fair , as [I]0-i takes such a dale of room . "[0-i] [I]0-i knew that [none]1510-none ever could turn [him]6033-the driver from what [he]6033-the driver considered just , and therefore allowed [him]6033-the driver to ride where [he]6033-the driver pleased . But a dozen times [I]0-i thought [we]5081-we should have lost [him]6033-the driver on the way ; for at [every station]5090-every station , where [the train]7101-the train stopped , [he]6033-the driver made a point of coming to [our]5081-we window , which [he]6033-the driver had marked with a piece of chalk , and " humbly axing [our]5081-we pardon , but was [we]5081-we all right and no fire ? [He]6033-the driver could n't think what [they]5081-we wanted , not [he]6033-the driver , with tempting [God Almighty]701-god fast . "[6033-the driver] Not fast enough for [me]0-i , [I]0-i told [him]6033-the driver every time ; whereupon [he]6033-the driver put on [his]6033-the driver hat with a sigh , and said [he]6033-the driver supposed [I]0-i was born to it . And yet all the time [he]6033-the driver seemed to consider that [he]6033-the driver was protecting [me]0-i somehow , and once [he]6033-the driver called [me]0-i [[his]6033-the driver dearie]5092-his dearie , to the great surprise of [the other passengers]5093-the other passengers , and the horror of [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher ; seeing which [he]6033-the driver repented hastily , and " [Miss Vaughan'd]702-miss vaughan'd "[0-i] [me]0-i three times in a sentence , with a hot flush on [his]6033-the driver forehead . At [Swindon]266-swindon , where [we]5094-us changed [carriages]5095-carriages , [he]6033-the driver pulled out very mysteriously from an inner breast - pocket a little sack tied with whipcord , and in which , [I]0-i do believe , [the simple soul]5096-the simple soul had deposited all [his]6033-the driver hard - earned prize - money . Then [he]6033-the driver led [us]5094-us to the counter , proud to show that [he]6033-the driver had been [there]1114-there before , and earnestly begged for the honour of treating [us]5094-us to a drop of somewhat . [His]6033-the driver countenance fell so on [my]0-i refusal , that [I]0-i was fain to cancel it , and to drink at [his]6033-the driver expense a glass of iced sherry and water ; while [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher , with much persuasion and simpering , and for the sake of [her]516-mrs. fletcher poor inside , that had been so long [[her]516-mrs. fletcher enemy]4466-her enemy , ventured on a " wee wee thimbleful of Cognac . "[5517-the farmer] [The farmer]5517-the farmer [himself]5517-the farmer , much abashed at the splendour around [him]5517-the farmer , which [he]5517-the farmer told [me]0-i , in a whisper , beat Pewter Will 's out and out , and even the " Fortescue Arms , "[5517-the farmer] would not call for anything , until [I]0-i insisted upon it ; being hard pressed [he]5517-the farmer asked at last , hoping no offence of [the lady]1431-the lady , for a pint of second cider . [The young woman]7394-the young woman turned up [her]7394-the young woman nose , but [I]0-i soon made [her]7394-the young woman turn it down again , and fetch [him]5517-the farmer , as the nearest thing , a bottle of sparkling perry . As always happens , when [one]6186-one is in a great hurry , [the train]7101-the train was an hour behind [its]7101-the train time , and the setting sun was casting gold upon [the old cathedral]5104-the old cathedral — to [my]0-i mind [one of the lightest and grandest buildings in [England]9-england]5105-one of the lightest and grandest buildings in england , though [the farmer]5517-the farmer prefers [that squat and heavy Norman thing at [Exeter]29-exeter]5107-that squat and heavy norman thing at exeter — when [we]5108-we glided smoothly and swiftly into [the Gloucester Station]5109-the gloucester station . [I]0-i fully intended to have sent an electric message from [London]1-london , not for the sake of [the carriage]6087-the carriage , which mattered nothing , but to warn [[my]0-i dear uncle]8889-my dear uncle ; at [Paddington]246-paddington , however , [we]5108-we found no time to do it , and so stupid [I]0-i was that [I]0-i never once thought of telegraphing from [Swindon]266-swindon . To make up by over alacrity , in a case of far less importance , [I]0-i went to [the office at [Gloucester]23-gloucester]5112-the office at gloucester , and sent this message to [Tiverton]42-tiverton , then [the nearest Station to [Exmoor—"Farmer]281-exmoor—"farmer]9321-the nearest station to exmoor—"farmer has won , and got the money . [Clara Vaughan]293-clara to [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable . "[5517-the farmer] The amazement of [the farmer]5517-the farmer , [I]0-i can not stop to describe . No time was lost by doing this , for [I]0-i had ordered a pair of horses , and [they]5114-they were being put to . Then , stimulating [the driver]6033-the driver , [we]5108-we dashed off for [Vaughan St. Mary]18-vaughan st. mary . Anxious as [I]0-i was , and wretched at the thought of what [we]5108-we might find , so exhausted was [my]0-i frame by the thaumatrope of the last six - and - thirty hours , that [I]0-i fell fast asleep , and woke not until [we]5108-we came to [the lodge]1166-the lodge . [Old Whitehead]703-whitehead came out , hat in hand , and whispered something into [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher 's ear . [That good old lady]5117-that good old lady had been worrying [me]0-i dreadfully about [her]5117-that good old lady jams , for the weather was so hot , [she]5117-that good old lady was sure all the fruit would be over , & c. , none of which could [I]0-i listen to now . As [Whitehead]703-whitehead spoke , [I]0-i saw through [my]0-i half - open lashes that [she]703-whitehead started violently ; but [she]703-whitehead would not tell [me]0-i what it was , and [I]0-i did not want to intrude on secrets that might be between [them]5118-them . [The farmer]5517-the farmer also diverted attention by calling from the box , as [we]5108-we wound into [the avenue]2993-the avenue , " [Dear heart alaive]5869-dear heart alaive ; this bate all the sojers as ever [I]5517-the farmer see , [Miss Clara]293-clara , or even [the melisher to Coom]9323-the melisher to coom . Why , arl thiccy treeses must [a growed so a puppose]9324-a growed so a puppose , just over again [one another]758-one another , and arl of a bigness too . Wull , wull ! [Coachman]2112-coachman , was ever [you]2112-coachman to [Davonsheer]687-davonsheer ? "[5517-the farmer] [I]0-i do believe [those men of [Devon]24-devon]5121-those men of devon see nothing [they]5121-those men of devon admire , without thinking at once of [[their]5121-those men of devon county]5122-their county . At the front door , [the butler]826-the butler met [us]5108-we , which surprised [me]0-i rather , as being below [his]826-the butler dignity . [He]826-the butler was [a trusty old servant , who had been under [Thomas Henwood]321-thomas henwood , and had come back to [his]826-the butler place since the general turn - out of [the household]870-the household]5124-a trusty old servant , who had been under thomas henwood , and had come back to his place since the general turn - out of the household . Now [he]826-the butler looked very grave and sad , and instead of leading [me]0-i on , drew [me]0-i aside in [the hall]8656-the hall . It was getting dark , and the fire in [the west]4115-the west was dying . Great plumes of asparagus — shame it was to cut them — waved under the ancient mantel - piece . " Bad news it is , [Miss Clara"—they]704-miss clara"—they[705-john hoxton] all seemed to call [me]0-i that—"very bad news indeed , [Miss.]448-miss. But [I]705-john hoxton hope [you]0-i was prepared for it . "[705-john hoxton] " What do [you]0-i mean ? "[705-john hoxton] " Why , have n't [you]0-i heard about [poor master]2930-poor master 's death ? "[705-john hoxton] " Dead , [[my]705-john hoxton dear uncle]8889-my dear uncle dead ! Do [you]0-i mean to say"—I[705-john hoxton] could not finish the sentence . " No , [Miss]5433-miss , only to - day , and not as [you]5433-miss thinks ; no fit at all , nor paralyatic stroke . [He]2930-poor master went off quiet as a lamb , as near as could be three o'clock . [He]2930-poor master was very poorly before ; but [he]2930-poor master had a deal to do , and would not give in on no account . [He]2930-poor master was sitting by [himself]2930-poor master in [the study]7698-the study after breakfast , and at last [he]2930-poor master rang the bell , and told [them]9331-them to send [me]705-john hoxton up . When [I]705-john hoxton went in , [he]2930-poor master was bolt upright in [his]2930-poor master chair , with a beautiful smile on [his]2930-poor master face , but so pale , white [I]705-john hoxton ought to say , [Miss]9332-miss , and so weak [he]2930-poor master could hardly move . ' [John]299-john , ' [he]2930-poor master says , ' Yes , [Sir]5380-sir , ' says [I]705-john hoxton ; ' [John]299-john , ' [he]2930-poor master says again , ' [you]299-john are [a most respectable man]9334-a most respectable man , and [I]705-john hoxton can trust [you]299-john with anything in [the world]798-the world , [John]299-john . Take this letter for [Miss Vaughan]293-clara , and put it with [your]299-john own hands into [her]293-clara own , directly the moment [she]293-clara comes back . [I]705-john hoxton am rather uneasy about [the poor girl]9336-the poor girl , ' [he]2930-poor master says , as it were to [himself]2930-poor master . ' Which [Miss Vaughan]293-clara , [Sir]5380-sir ? ' says [I.]705-john hoxton ' [[Your]5380-sir mistress]1920-your mistress , [John]299-john . Ca n't [you]299-john see what is written on it ? And now help [me]705-john hoxton [upstairs]6042-upstairs ; and if ever [I]705-john hoxton spoke to [you]299-john harshly , [John Hoxton]705-john hoxton , [I]705-john hoxton ask [your]299-john pardon for it . [You]299-john will find as [I]705-john hoxton have n't forgotten [you]299-john . ' And with that [I]705-john hoxton helped [him]299-john [upstairs]6042-upstairs , [Miss]9341-miss , and [I]705-john hoxton had almost to carry [him]299-john ; and then [he]299-john says , ' Help [me]705-john hoxton to bed , [John]299-john . [I]705-john hoxton would like to die in [my]705-john hoxton bed , and it will save some trouble . And let [me]705-john hoxton look out of the window ; what a lovely day it is , it reminds [me]705-john hoxton quite of [the South]282-the south . So [I]705-john hoxton set [him]299-john up in the bed , [Miss]9342-miss , handy altogether , and beautiful , and [he]299-john could see two larks on [the lawn]2990-the lawn , and [he]299-john asked [me]705-john hoxton what [they]9344-they was . Then [he]299-john says , ' Thank [you]299-john , [John]299-john , [you]299-john have done it wonderful well , and [I]705-john hoxton hope [they]9344-they wo n't speak evil of [me]705-john hoxton round [this place]5690-this place , after [I]705-john hoxton am gone . [I]705-john hoxton have tried to do [my]705-john hoxton duty , [John]299-john , as between [man]5770-man and [man]5770-man : though [I]705-john hoxton would be softer with [them]9344-they , if [I]705-john hoxton had [my]705-john hoxton time over again . Now send [[my]705-john hoxton daughter]3561-my daughter to [me]705-john hoxton , though [I]705-john hoxton wish [I]705-john hoxton had seen [[my]705-john hoxton son]5986-my son , [John]299-john . But [I]705-john hoxton ought to be very thankful , and what 's more , [I]705-john hoxton am . [All of [you]9350-all of you]9350-all of you likes [Miss Lily]673-lily , unless [they]9344-they tell [me]705-john hoxton stories , [John]299-john . ' ' [Sir]5380-sir , ' says [I]705-john hoxton , ' [we]9352-we wusships [her]673-lily , though not like [our]9352-we own [Miss Vaughan]293-clara . ' "[705-john hoxton] Ah , [John Hoxton]705-john hoxton , did [you]705-john hoxton say that to [him]705-john hoxton , [I]0-i wonder , or interpolate , ex post facto ? " So [he]705-john hoxton looked very pleased at that , [Miss]9353-miss , and [he]705-john hoxton says again , ' [John]705-john hoxton , let all that love [her]673-lily know that [she]673-lily is the living image of [[her]673-lily mother]6340-her mother . Now go and send [her]673-lily quickly ; but [John]705-john hoxton , take care not to frighten [[my]705-john hoxton little darling]9355-my little darling . ' So [I]705-john hoxton went and found [Miss Lily]673-lily got along with the Shetland pony and giving it bits of clover , and [I]705-john hoxton sent [her]673-lily up and [Jane]347-jane too , for [I]705-john hoxton was dreadfully frightened , and [you]9353-miss away , [Miss]9356-miss , at the time . And what come afterwards [I]705-john hoxton ca n't tell , only no luncheon went up , and there was orders not to ring the bell for [the servants]772-the servants ' dinner ; and [I]705-john hoxton heard poor [Miss Lily]673-lily crying terrible all along [the corridor]7666-the corridor , and [I]705-john hoxton did hear say that [his]705-john hoxton last words was , and [he]705-john hoxton trying to raise [his]705-john hoxton arms toward the window , ' Blessed be [God]701-god , [I]705-john hoxton can see [my]705-john hoxton own [Lily]673-lily , ' but [she]673-lily warn't that side of the bed , [Miss]9359-miss ; so [he]705-john hoxton must have made some mistake . "[705-john hoxton] " No . [He]705-john hoxton meant [[her]673-lily mother]6340-her mother . Where is [[my]0-i cousin]1205-my cousin now ? "[0-i] " In [[your]9359-miss own room]9362-your own room , [Miss]5433-miss , lying down , [they]9364-they tell [me]705-john hoxton . [She]673-lily did take on so awful , [Jane]347-jane thought [she]673-lily would have died . But at last [she]347-jane brought [her]673-lily round a little , and persuaded [her]673-lily to lie down . [She]673-lily calls for [you]9359-miss , [Miss]9365-miss , every time [she]673-lily comes to [herself]673-lily . "[705-john hoxton] [I]0-i went straightway to [the poor little dear]4771-the poor little dear , without even stopping to read the letter placed in [my]0-i hands . [The room in which [she]4771-the poor little dear lay]5129-the room in which she lay was dark ; for [Jane]347-jane , who was watching in [[my]0-i little parlour]7485-my little parlour , whispered to [me]0-i that [the poor child]6440-the poor child could not bear the lamp - light , [her]4771-the poor little dear eyes were so weak and sore . At first [Lily]673-lily did not know [me]0-i ; and it went to [my]0-i heart , after all [my]0-i own great sorrows , to hear the sad low moaning . [She]673-lily lay on [[my]0-i own little bed]5132-my own little bed , with [her]673-lily pale face turned to the wall , [her]673-lily thick hair all over [her]673-lily shoulders , and both hands pressed to [her]673-lily heart . [Annie Franks]552-annie franks had been many times to ask for [her]673-lily , but [Lily]673-lily would not let [her]673-lily come in . Bending over [I]0-i laid [my]0-i cheek on [Lily]673-lily 's , and softly whispered [her]673-lily name . At last [she]673-lily knew [me]0-i , and took [my]0-i hand , and turned [her]673-lily sweet lips to kiss [me]0-i . Then [she]673-lily sobbed and cried most bitterly ; but [I]0-i saw that it did [her]673-lily good . By and by [she]673-lily said , with [her]673-lily fingers among [my]0-i hair : " Oh , [Clara]293-clara , is n't it hard to find [him]9366-he at last , and love [him]9366-he so , and only for three days , and then , and then — "[673-lily] " And then , [[my]673-lily pet]5394-my pet , to let [him]9366-he go where [his]9366-he heart has been nearly twenty years . Would [you]5394-my pet be so selfish as to rob [[your]5394-my pet mother]5332-your mother of [him]9366-he ? And to go so happy . [I]673-lily am sure [he]9366-he has . Come with [me]673-lily and see . "[673-lily] " Oh no , oh no . [I]673-lily can not . "[673-lily] And [her]673-lily lovely young form trembled , at the thought of visiting death . " Yes , [you]5394-my pet can , if [you]5394-my pet only try , and [I]673-lily am sure that [he]9366-he would wish it . That [you]5394-my pet and [I]673-lily should kneel hand in hand and bless [him]9366-he , as [others]869-others shall kneel some day by [us]9370-us . What , [Lily]673-lily afraid of [[her]673-lily father]898-her father ! Then [I]673-lily have no fear of [[my]673-lily Uncle]1271-my uncle . "[673-lily] [God]701-god knows that [I]0-i spoke so , not from harshness , only in the hope to do [her]673-lily good . " If [you]5394-my pet really think [he]9366-he would wish it , [dear]5871-dear — "[0-i] " Yes . It is a duty [I]477-judy owe [him]9366-he . [He]9366-he would be disappointed in [me]477-judy , if [I]477-judy failed . "[477-judy] " Oh , how [he]9366-he longed to see [you]5871-dear once more , [dear [Clara]293-clara]9374-dear clara , But [he]9366-he felt that [you]5871-dear were safe , and [he]9366-he said [you]5871-dear would come to see [him]9366-he , though [he]9366-he could not see [you]5871-dear . [He]9366-he talked of [you]5871-dear quite to the last ; [you]5871-dear and [darling Conny]670-conrad . "[0-i] " [Conny]670-conrad will be here to - night . "[0-i] " No ! Oh [I]477-judy am so glad ! "[477-judy] and a bright flash of joy shone forth from the eyes that were red with weeping . Something cold pushed quietly in between [us]5133-us , and then gave a sniff and a sigh . It was [darling Judy]477-judy 's nose . [He]5134-he had learned in [the lower regions]5135-the lower regions , where [he]5134-he always dwelled in [my]0-i absence , that [Miss Clara]293-clara was come [home]1102-home ; and knowing [my]0-i name as well as [his]5134-he own , [he]5134-he had set off at once in quest of [me]0-i . After offering [me]0-i [his]5134-he best love and respects , with the tip of [his]5134-he tongue , as [he]5134-he always did , [he]5134-he looked from one to the other of [us]5133-us , with [his]5134-he eyebrows raised in surprise , and the deepest sorrow and sympathy in [his]5134-he beautiful soft - brown pupils . [I]0-i declare it made [us]5133-us cry more than ever . " Oh , [Clara]293-clara , "[673-lily] sobbed [Lily]673-lily at length , " [he]5134-he did howl so last night . Do [you]293-clara think [he]5134-he could have known it ? "[673-lily] [His]5134-he eyes dropped , as [she]673-lily was telling [me]0-i . [They]5137-they always did , when [he]5134-he thought [he]5134-he had been a bad dog . " Now go down , [Judy]477-judy ; good little [Judy]477-judy , go to [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher . [A great friend of mine]2948-a great friend of mine is with [her]516-mrs. fletcher . "[5134-he] Away [he]5134-he trotted obediently , and [his]5134-he tail recovered its flourish before [he]5134-he had got to the corner . " Now , [darling]6257-darling , let [us]5139-we go [there]1114-there , "[6440-the poor child] said [the poor child]6440-the poor child , trembling again . " [I]6440-the poor child would go anywhere with [you]6257-darling . "[6440-the poor child] Hand in hand [we]5139-we walked into [[[my]0-i Uncle]1271-my uncle 's chamber]5141-my uncle 's chamber . Young as [I]0-i was , and still thoughtless in many ways , twice before now had [I]0-i gazed on the solemn face of death ; but never , not even in [[my]0-i mother]746-my mother 's holy countenance , saw [I]0-i such perfect peace and bliss as dwelt in and seemed to smile from [my]0-i dearest Uncle 's lineaments . The life , in youth puffed here and there by every captious breeze of pride , in its prime becalmed awhile on the halycon deep of love , then tempest - tossed through the lonely dark , and shattered of late by blows from [God]701-god , [that life whose flaw of misanthropy and waste of high abilities had been redeemed , ennobled even , by a pure and perfect love]5143-that life whose flaw of misanthropy and waste of high abilities had been redeemed , ennobled even , by a pure and perfect love — now it had bidden farewell to all below the clouds , calmly , happily , best of all — in faith . [We]5139-we knelt beside the bed and prayed — [Lily]673-lily as [a Catholic]6308-a catholic , [Clara]293-clara as [a Protestant]5145-a protestant — that [we]5139-we , and all [we]5139-we loved , might have so blest an end . Then [we]5139-we both sat peacefully , with a happy awe upon [us]5139-we , in the dark recess behind the velvet curtains . Two wax candles were burning on the table towards the door , and by [their]5146-their light the face [we]5139-we loved , looked not wan , but glorious , as with a silver glory . Clasping [each the other]5147-each the other 's waist , and kissing away [each other]734-each other 's tranquil tears , how long [we]5139-we sat there [I]0-i know not , neither what high fluttering thoughts , thoughts or [angels]8094-angels , which be [they]5150-they — stealthily a door was opened , not the door of [heaven]1555-heaven , not even the main door of [the room [we]5139-we sat in]5152-the room we sat in , but a narrow side - door . Through [it]5153-it crept , with crawling caution , [he]5154-his whom most of all [men]1003-men [I]0-i now despised and pitied . [Lily]673-lily did not hear [his]5154-his entrance , neither did [she]673-lily see [him]5154-his ; but [my]0-i eyes and ears were keen from many a call of danger . Stunned for a while by the heavy blow , that met [me]0-i on [my]0-i return , [I]0-i had forgotten all about [him]5154-his ; [I]0-i mean , at least , all about [his]5154-his present design . [I]0-i had indeed told [the farmer]5517-the farmer , for it was only fair to do so , [my]0-i object in bringing [him]5154-his down ; and how [I]0-i relied on [his]5154-his wonderful strength and courage , having then no other to help [me]0-i ; but since [I]0-i got [home]1102-home , and heard the sad tidings , it seemed a mere thing for contempt . Not even [Lepardo Della Croce]570-lepardo could catch a departed spirit . So , and in the landslip of the mind , sapped by its own , and sliding swiftly into another 's sorrow , [I]0-i had not even ordered that [the house]764-the house should be watched at all ; [I]0-i had not even posted [Giudice]590-giudice , who had a vendetta of [his]590-giudice own , anywhere on guard . With a stiletto still concealed , all but the handle on which the light fell , [he]590-giudice approached the bed , wriggling along and crouching , as a cat or leopard would . Then [he]590-giudice rose and stood upright at the side of the bed , not [our]5159-our side but the other , and glared upon [[his]590-giudice intended victim]5160-his intended victim 's face . [I]0-i pushed [Lily]673-lily back behind the curtain as if with the weight of [my]0-i bosom , while [I]0-i watched the whole . Never in all [my]0-i tempestuous life , of all the horrible things [I]0-i have seen , and heard , and shuddered at , saw [I]0-i anything so awful , so utterly beyond not only description , but conception , as that disdainful , arrogant face , when the truth burst on [him]590-giudice . Not the body only , but the mind and soul — if [God]701-god had cursed [him]590-giudice with one — were smitten back all of a lump , as if [he]590-giudice had leaped from [a train]5161-a train at full speed into a firing cannon 's mouth . Before [he]590-giudice had time to recover , [I]0-i advanced and faced [him]590-giudice . All dressed in white [I]0-i was , with [my]0-i black hair below [my]0-i waist , for [I]0-i had thrown off [my]0-i travelling frock , and taken what first came to hand . [They]5162-they tell [me]0-i [I]0-i look best in white , it shows [my]0-i hair and eyes so . [He]590-giudice believed that it was a spirit , [the Vendetta spirit of the other side]5163-the vendetta spirit of the other side ; and [he]590-giudice cowered from [me]0-i . [I]0-i was the first to speak . " [Lepardo Della Croce]570-lepardo , it is the rebuke of heaven . Dust upon ashes ; such is [man]5770-man 's revenge . [I]0-i have nursed , but scorn it now . Go in peace , and pray [the Almighty]9379-the almighty that [He]590-giudice be not like [you]570-lepardo . Stop ; [I]0-i will show [you]570-lepardo forth . [You]570-lepardo have [a vindictive foe]9380-a vindictive foe here , who would tear [you]570-lepardo to atoms . "[0-i] [I]0-i led the way , trembling at every corner lest [we]5164-we should meet [Giudice]590-giudice ; for [I]0-i knew [he]590-giudice would not obey [me]0-i , if [he]590-giudice once caught sight of [this hated one]5165-this hated one . After standing silently , unable to take [his]590-giudice eyes from the placid face of the dead , [Lepardo]570-lepardo began to follow [me]0-i , walking as if in a dream . Meeting none , [I]0-i led [him]590-giudice forth along [the corridor]7666-the corridor , down the end staircase , and out on [the eastern terrace]5167-the eastern terrace . [There]1114-there [I]0-i waved [him]590-giudice off , and pointed to the dark refuge of the shrubbery , beyond [the mineral spring]5169-the mineral spring . The moonlight slept upon the black water narrowly threading the grass . Over [our]5164-we heads drooped the ivy , the creeper of oblivion . [The murderer]831-the murderer turned and looked at [me]0-i ; hitherto [he]831-the murderer had glided along with [his]831-the murderer head down , as in bewilderment . Oh that [he]831-the murderer had said one word of sorrow or repentance ! [He]831-the murderer spoke not at all ; but shuddered , as the ivy rustled above [us]5164-we . [His]831-the murderer face was pale as the moonlight . Did [he]831-the murderer see in [me]0-i something higher than the spirit of Vendetta ? [I]0-i pointed again to the trees , and urged [him]831-the murderer away from [the house]764-the house . [He]831-the murderer had [two strong enemies]5172-two strong enemies [there]1114-there ; a minute might make all the difference . Breaking as if from a spell , [he]831-the murderer waved [his]831-the murderer Italian cap , and [his]831-the murderer lithe strong figure was lost among the Portugal laurels . For a minute [I]0-i stood there , wondering ; then slowly went round [the house]764-the house - corner , and gazed at the grey stone mullions of [the room which had been [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's]5175-the room which had been my father 's . [I]0-i was still in the anguish of doubt and misgiving — what right had [an ignorant girl]5177-an ignorant girl like [me]0-i to play [judge and jury]5178-judge and jury , or more , to absolve and release a crime against all humanity?—when a mighty form stood beside [me]0-i , and [Giudice]590-giudice , all bristle and fire , dashed forth from the door in the gable . With command and entreaty [I]0-i called [him]831-the murderer , but [he]831-the murderer heard [me]0-i not , [neither]3851-neither looked at [me]0-i ; but scoured the ground like a shadow , quartering it as a pointer does , only [he]831-the murderer carried [his]831-the murderer nose down . " Dang [my]5517-the farmer slow bones , "[5517-the farmer] said [the farmer]5517-the farmer , " but [I]5517-the farmer 'll have [him]831-the murderer yet , [Miss.]448-miss. [I]5517-the farmer seed [him]831-the murderer go , [I]5517-the farmer 'll soon find [him]831-the murderer . "[5517-the farmer] " No , no . [I]831-the murderer wo n't have [him]831-the murderer stopped . [He]831-the murderer shall go free , and repent . "[831-the murderer] " By [your]831-the murderer lave , [Miss]5433-miss , it ca n't be . [A man]5384-a man as have done what [he]5384-a man have , [us]9383-us has no right to play buff with . Never before did [I]5517-the farmer go again [your]831-the murderer will , [Miss]9384-miss ; but axing [your]831-the murderer pardon , [I]5517-the farmer must now . Look , [the girt dog]9385-the girt dog know better . "[5517-the farmer] As the dog found the track and gave tongue , [the farmer]5517-the farmer rushed from [me]0-i and followed [him]5182-him , dashing headlong into the shrubbery , after leaping the mineral spring , at the very spot where the footprints had been . [Judy]477-judy and [Farmer Huxtable]362-farmer huxtable were [fast friends]5183-fast friends already ; for that dog always made up [his]5182-him mind in a moment on the question of like and dislike . For a time [I]0-i was so horror - struck , that no power of motion was left . [I]0-i knew that [the farmer]5517-the farmer was quite unarmed , [he]5517-the farmer carried not even a stick . Even with the great dog to help [him]5517-the farmer , what could [he]5517-the farmer do against fire - arms , which [Lepardo]570-lepardo was sure to have ? What should [I]0-i say to [[his]5517-the farmer wife]789-his wife and [children]1229-children , what should [I]0-i say to [myself]0-i , if [John Huxtable]299-john fell [a victim to [that wily and desperate criminal]5188-that wily and desperate criminal]5187-a victim to that wily and desperate criminal ? Resolved to be present , if possible , [I]0-i rushed down the narrow path which led to [the little park]5189-the little park - gate , where probably [they]5190-they would pass . [I]0-i was right : [they]5190-they had passed , and flung [it]5191-it wide open . Breathless [I]0-i looked around , for hence several tracks diverged . No living thing could [I]0-i see or hear , but the beating of [my]0-i heart , which seemed to be in [my]0-i throat , and the hooting of an owl from the hollow elm at the corner . [I]0-i flung [myself]0-i down on the dewy grass , and strained [my]0-i eyes in vain ; until by some silver birch - trees on which the moonlight was glancing , [I]0-i saw first [a gliding figure that looked like a deer in the distance]5192-a gliding figure that looked like a deer in the distance , then [a tall man]8306-a tall man running rapidly . Away [I]0-i made by a short cut for [the " Witches ' grave]9386-the " witches ' grave , "[8306-a tall man] as [the end of [the lake]953-the lake]5194-the end of the lake was called , for [I]0-i knew that the path [they]5190-they were on led thither . Quite out of breath [I]0-i was , for [I]0-i had run more than half a mile , when [I]0-i came full upon a scene , which would have robbed [me]0-i of breath if [I]0-i had any . At the end of [a little dingle]5196-a little dingle , under a willow - tree , and within a few feet of [the water]1150-the water , stood [Lepardo Della Croce]570-lepardo , brought to bay at last . A few yards from [him]8306-a tall man , [Giudice]590-giudice was struggling furiously to escape [the farmer]5517-the farmer 's grasp ; perhaps [no other hand in [England]9-england]5199-no other hand in england could have held [him]590-giudice . [His]590-giudice eyes kindled in the moonlight , like the red stars of a rocket , and a deep roar of baffled rage came from the surge of [his]590-giudice chest , as [he]590-giudice champed [his]590-giudice monstrous fangs , and volleyed all the spring of [his]590-giudice loins . [The farmer]5517-the farmer leaned backward to hold [him]590-giudice , and stayed [himself]5517-the farmer by a tree - stump . " Sharp now , surrender , wull e , [man]5770-man . In the name of of [the Quane]706-the quane and [the Lord Chafe Justice]9388-the lord chafe justice , and [the High Shariff of [Devon]24-devon]9389-the high shariff of devon , [I]570-lepardo tell [e]570-lepardo surrender — dang this here dog — surrender , and [I]570-lepardo ' ont hoort e ; and [I]570-lepardo ' ont let the girt dog . "[570-lepardo] [Lepardo]570-lepardo answered calmly , in a voice that made [my]0-i blood cold : " Do [you]0-i value [your]0-i life ? If so , stand out of [my]570-lepardo way . [I]570-lepardo have death here for [you]0-i , and five other dogs . "[570-lepardo] [I]0-i saw the barrel of a large revolver , with a stream of light upon it . [He]5201-he held it steadily as a tobacco - pipe . [I]0-i am glad [he]5201-he owned some courage . For [my]0-i life , [I]0-i could not stir . All the breath in [my]0-i body was gone . " Dear heart alaive . [Thiccy man]9390-thiccy man must be a fule , "[5517-the farmer] said [the farmer]5517-the farmer quite contemplatively . " Do n't [e]570-lepardo know who [I]5517-the farmer be ? Do [e]570-lepardo reckon [they]9391-they peppermint twistesses can hurt [Jan Uxtable]343-jan uxtable ? [I]5517-the farmer seed ever so many in [a smarl shop window to [Lunnon]271-lunnon]9392-a smarl shop window to lunnon . Surrender now wull e , [thou]570-lepardo shalt have fair traial to [Hexeter]283-hexeter , as [a Davonshire man]9393-a davonshire man have took [e]570-lepardo , and a dale more nor [e]570-lepardo desarves . Sharp now : [I]5517-the farmer be afeared of the girt dog getting loose . Dang [you]5517-the farmer dog . [Ston]707-ston up a bit . "[5517-the farmer] And [the farmer]5517-the farmer approached [him]5517-the farmer coolly , trailing the dog along ; as if what [the murderer]831-the murderer held in [his]831-the murderer hand was a stick of Spanish liquorice . " [Fool]9394-fool , if [you]5517-the farmer pass that stump , [your]5517-the farmer great carcase shall lie on it . "[5517-the farmer] " Fire away , "[5517-the farmer] said [the farmer]5517-the farmer , " [I]5517-the farmer knowed [you]5517-the farmer was [a coward]3282-a coward , and [I]5517-the farmer be glad it be so . Now mind , if so be [you]5517-the farmer shuts , [I]5517-the farmer lets the dog go , honour braight , because [e]570-lepardo dunno what fair play be . But if [e]570-lepardo harken to rason , [I]5517-the farmer 'll give [e]570-lepardo one chance more . [I]5517-the farmer 'll tie up the dog with [my]5517-the farmer braces to thiccy tree — allers wear cart rope [I]5517-the farmer does — and [I]5517-the farmer 'll tak [[e]570-lepardo Quane 's prisoner]9396-e quane 's prisoner , with [my]5517-the farmer left hond , and t'other never out of [my]5517-the farmer breeches pocket ; look e , [zee]9397-zee , laike thiccy . "[5517-the farmer] And [the farmer]5517-the farmer buried [his]5517-the farmer right hand in [his]5517-the farmer capacious trowsery . [The Corsican]585-old cora seemed astonished . " [Fool - hardy clown]9398-fool - hardy clown , [worthy son of [a bull - headed country]9400-a bull - headed country]9399-worthy son of a bull - headed country , stop at the stump — then , take that . "[585-old cora] Out blazed the pistol with a loud ring , and [I]0-i saw that [the farmer]5517-the farmer was struck . [He]5517-the farmer let go the dog , and leaped up ; [his]5517-the farmer right hand fell on [Lepardo]570-lepardo 's temple , and seemed to crush the skull in,—another shot at the same instant and down fell [the farmer]5517-the farmer heavily . " [Great God]9401-great god , "[0-i] [I]0-i screamed , and leaped forward . But [Giudice]590-giudice was loose to avenge [him]5517-the farmer , though [I]0-i could swear that it was on a corpse . Corpse or living body , over and over it rolled , with the dog 's fangs in its throat . [I]0-i heard a gurgle , a tearing , and grinding , and then a loud splash in the water . The dog , and [the murderer]831-the murderer , both of [man]5770-man and dog , sunk in [the lake]953-the lake together . Twenty feet out from [the shore]1669-the shore rose above water one moment , drawn ghastly white in the moonbeams , the last view seen till the judgment - day of the face of [Lepardo Della Croce]570-lepardo . Almost drowned [himself]5517-the farmer — for [he]5517-the farmer would not release [[[his]5517-the farmer father]1062-his father 's murderer]5214-his father 's murderer , while a gasp was in [him]5517-the farmer — staggered at last to [the shore]1669-the shore [my]0-i noble and true dog Giudice . [He]5517-the farmer fell down awhile , to recover [his]5517-the farmer breath , then shook [himself]5517-the farmer gratefully , tottered to [me]0-i , where [I]0-i knelt at [the farmer]5517-the farmer 's side , and wagged [his]5517-the farmer tail for approval . The water from [his]5517-the farmer chest and stomach dripped on [the farmer]5517-the farmer 's upturned face , and for a moment revived [him]5517-the farmer . " No belt , [no tino lad]9402-no tino lad , [I]5517-the farmer ' ont tak ' it . Zimth laike a ticket for chating . [I]5517-the farmer dunno as [I]5517-the farmer 'd tak ' [the mony]9403-the mony , if it warn't for the poor chillers , naine chillers now , and [anither a - coomin]9404-anither a - coomin . Must n't drink no more beer , but [Beany]334-beany dawe shall have his'n . "[5517-the farmer] And [his]5517-the farmer head fell back on [my]0-i lap , and [I]0-i felt sure that [he]5517-the farmer was dead . How [I]0-i screamed and shrieked , till [I]0-i lay beside [him]5517-the farmer , with [Judy]477-judy licking [my]0-i face , none can tell but [the gamekeepers , who had heard the shots]5218-the gamekeepers , who had heard the shots , and came hurrying . Of [this lower end of [the lake]953-the lake]5219-this lower end of the lake [they]5218-the gamekeepers , who had heard the shots happened to be most jealous ; for a brood of pintail ducks , very rare [I]0-i believe in [England]9-england , had been hatched [here]846-here this summer , and [no one]730-no one was allowed to go near [them]5223-them . [Poor Judy]477-judy kept all [the men]5486-the men aloof , till [I]0-i was able to speak to [him]5517-the farmer . Then [I]0-i perceived that [he]5517-the farmer as well was bleeding , wounded perhaps by the poniard as [he]5517-the farmer leaped on [[his]5517-the farmer enemy]4245-his enemy 's breast . It had entered just under the shoulder , and narrowly missed the heart . [They]5218-the gamekeepers , who had heard the shots took [us]5226-we at once towards [the house]764-the house , carrying [the farmer]5517-the farmer and [Judy]477-judy on the wooden floodgates of [the stream]1155-the stream called [the " Witches ' brook]5376-the " witches ' brook , "[5218-the gamekeepers , who had heard the shots] which here fell into [the lake]953-the lake . As [we]5226-we entered [the avenue]2993-the avenue , being obliged to take the broad way , though much further round , [we]5226-we heard [a carriage]6079-a carriage coming . It was the one [I]0-i had sent for [Conrad]670-conrad , with a hurried note to break the sad news of [[his]670-conrad father]1062-his father 's death . [He]670-conrad had been detained in [London]1-london by a challenge [he]670-conrad found from [Lepardo]570-lepardo ; which was of course a stratagem to keep [him]670-conrad out of the way . How delighted [I]0-i was to see [his]670-conrad calm brave face again , as [he]670-conrad leaped down , and took [my]0-i tottering form in [his]670-conrad arms . In a minute [he]670-conrad understood everything , and knew what was best to be done . [He]670-conrad would not allow [them]5234-they to place [the poor farmer]1954-the poor farmer in [the carriage]6087-the carriage , as [they]5234-they foolishly wanted to do ; but laid the rude litter down , examined the wounds by the lamplight , and bound them up most cleverly with the appliances of the moment . " Oh , [Conrad]670-conrad , will [he]670-conrad die ? "[670-conrad] " No , [[my]670-conrad darling]5337-my darling , [I]670-conrad hope not ; but [he]670-conrad must if [they]5234-they had let [him]670-conrad bleed so much longer . "[670-conrad] " [I]670-conrad never heard that [you]670-conrad were [a surgeon]9407-a surgeon , [Conny]670-conrad . "[670-conrad] " Could [I]670-conrad call [myself]670-conrad [a sculptor]9408-a sculptor , without having studied anatomy ? [[My]670-conrad dearest]8764-my dearest one , how [you]8764-my dearest tremble ! Go [home]1102-home in [the carriage]6087-the carriage , and give directions for [us]9412-us . [A room]9413-a room [downstairs]1041-downstairs , with a wide doorway , and plenty of air . [I]670-conrad will stay with [them]9412-us , and see that [they]9412-us bear [him]670-conrad gently . [Poor Judy]477-judy may go with [you]670-conrad . "[670-conrad] Thus [Conrad]670-conrad saw for the first time [the hearth and home of [[his]670-conrad ancestors]5238-his ancestors]5237-the hearth and home of his ancestors , with [[his]670-conrad father]1062-his father lying dead there , and [[his]670-conrad avenger]5240-his avenger carried helpless . But [I]0-i met [him]670-conrad at the door . Did that comfort [you]5241-you just a little , [[my]0-i darling]5337-my darling ? [The lake]953-the lake was dragged that night , and all the following day , in spite of [the gamekeeper]4242-the gamekeeper 's strong remonstrance for the sake of the tender pintails . But nothing whatever was found , except the Italian cap . [[The " Witches]9415-the " witches ' grave]9386-the " witches ' grave , "[9415-the " witches] invisible [I]0-i am glad to say from [the house]764-the house , is more than forty feet deep , when the water is at its lowest . Three or four years afterwards [young William Hiatt]708-young william hiatt caught a monstrous pike in [the lake]953-the lake , and sent [him]670-conrad , with [our]5247-our permission , to be stuffed at [Gloucester]23-gloucester . Like the famous fish of [Samos]284-samos , this pike had swallowed a ring , which was sent to [Conrad]670-conrad by [the Gloucester gun - maker]5248-the gloucester gun - maker . It was [Lepardo]570-lepardo 's seal - ring , the cross of [the family]1254-the family engraved on a bloodstone , with L.D.C. below it . Whether [the midnight stabber]5250-the midnight stabber died by the blow of an English fist , or suffered vivisection through a dog 's vendetta — an institution more excusable and dignified than [man's]5251-man's — is known to [Him]670-conrad , and [Him]670-conrad alone , who holds the scales of retribution , and laughs in scorn as well as wrath at [our]5247-our attempts to swing them . For are [we]5247-our not therein [ourselves]5247-our ; and how shall [the best and strongest of [us]5247-our]5252-the best and strongest of us carry the thing [he]670-conrad is carried in ? Right glad [I]0-i am , and ever shall be , that [I]0-i moved not in the awful scene , which closed [[my]0-i father]731-my father 's tragedy . Through [Conrad]670-conrad 's skill and presence of mind , [the dear farmer]5254-the dear farmer 's life was saved . [We]5247-our sent to [Gloucester]23-gloucester immediately for [the cleverest surgeon there]5255-the cleverest surgeon there ; and [he]5255-the cleverest surgeon there owned that [he]5255-the cleverest surgeon there could not have fixed the ligatures better , though [he]5255-the cleverest surgeon there did what [Conny durst]670-conrad not attempt , [he]5255-the cleverest surgeon there extracted [the murderer]831-the murderer 's bullet . It was the first shot that did all the mischief , being aimed deliberately at the large and tender heart . Thanks to the waving of the willow - tree , for [Lepardo]570-lepardo was [a known marksman]5257-a known marksman , it had missed by about two inches . The second shot , fired quite close and wildly , had grooved the left temple , and stricken [the farmer]5517-the farmer senseless . For six weeks now [[our]5247-our dear friend]5259-our dear friend , whose patience amazed all but [me]0-i , was kept from [[his]5259-our dear friend Devonshire home]5260-his devonshire home . To [London]1-london [I]0-i sent at once for [the two children]5261-the two children and [Mr. Dawe]334-beany dawe , and would have sent to [Devon]24-devon as well , for kind and good [Mrs. Huxtable]331-mrs. huxtable , but [[her]331-mrs. huxtable husband]6140-her husband would not hear of it . By [Ann Maples]294-ann maples , who had left [Lady Cranberry]397-lady cranberry " shockingly , "[6140-her husband] on hearing from [Mrs. Fletcher]516-mrs. fletcher that [I]0-i would take [her]397-lady cranberry again , [he]6140-her husband sent to [[his]6140-her husband wife]789-his wife " kind love and best duty , and for goodness ' sake , stop at [home]1102-home now . No call to make a fule of [yourself]0-i , and [the farm]1516-the farm go to rack and ruin . There be fuss enough 'bout [I]6140-her husband already , and never [I]6140-her husband brag no more , when a pill like thiccy upsot [me]6140-her husband . But [Miss Clara]293-clara , God bless [her]397-lady cranberry bootiful eyes , [she]397-lady cranberry nurse [me]6140-her husband , just as if [she]397-lady cranberry wor [my]6140-her husband own darter , with the apron on as [you]0-i give [her]397-lady cranberry . And [you]0-i should see [the kitchen]5526-the kitchen , [Honor]331-mrs. huxtable , [you]0-i loves [a kitchen]9420-a kitchen so ; [they]9420-a kitchen be a bilin and roastin arl day , and [they]9420-a kitchen be vorced to swape the chimbley three times in a vortnight"—the[6140-her husband] rest of this glorious message , about three pages long , [I]0-i am " vorced "[789-his wife] to suppress ; [I]0-i only hope [Ann Maples]294-ann maples remembered a quarter of it . But [his]5264-his wonderful Miss [Clara]293-clara did not nurse [him]5264-his long . Hearing from [the surgeon]1504-the surgeon that all the danger was over by the end of the following week — so strong was the constitution — [Conrad]670-conrad , [Lily]673-lily , and [I]0-i set sail for [Corsica]150-corsica on [our]5266-our melancholy errand . In that letter , which seemed to come to [me]0-i from the grave , [[my]0-i poor Uncle]2919-my poor uncle after expressing [his]2919-my poor uncle joy and deep gratitude at so happy a close to [his]2919-my poor uncle life , continued thus : — " Yes , [[my]2919-my poor uncle dear child]2385-my dear child , the close of [my]2919-my poor uncle wasted and weary life . [You]2385-my dear child may be surprised and perplexed at what [I]2919-my poor uncle am about to tell [you]2385-my dear child ; but [you]2385-my dear child are not one of [those low - minded ones , who condemn as superstition all beyond [their]9422-those low - minded ones , who condemn as superstition all beyond their philosophy philosophy]9422-those low - minded ones , who condemn as superstition all beyond their philosophy . The very night after [you]2385-my dear child brought [me]2919-my poor uncle [my]2919-my poor uncle new [Lily]673-lily , a sweet thing just like [[her]673-lily mother]6340-her mother , [I]2919-my poor uncle lay for some hours awake , broad awake as [I]2919-my poor uncle am now . [I]2919-my poor uncle was thinking of [my]2919-my poor uncle two Lilies , [the lovely and loving creatures]9424-the lovely and loving creatures . [I]2919-my poor uncle was not in the least excited , but calm , reflective , and happy . Soon after the clock struck two , at the time when [our]9425-our life burns lowest , [I]2919-my poor uncle heard a soft voice , sweet as the music of heaven , call [me]2919-my poor uncle by name three times . Of course [I]2919-my poor uncle knew whose it was : too often that voice had murmured upon [my]2919-my poor uncle bosom , for [me]2919-my poor uncle not to know it now . Not rashly , but with a mind long since resolved , [I]2919-my poor uncle answered : ' [Sweetest [mine'—her]9426-sweetest mine'—her own artless and young endearment—'sweetest mine own artless and young endearment—'Sweetest [mine]2919-my poor uncle]9426-sweetest mine'—her own artless and young endearment—'sweetest mine , no longer will [I]2919-my poor uncle keep [you]9426-sweetest mine'—her own artless and young endearment—'sweetest mine lonely . ' No answer came in words ; but the light , the golden light of [my]2919-my poor uncle own love 's smile , as [I]2919-my poor uncle had seen it in [Corsica]150-corsica , when [she]9427-she came from the grave to comfort [me]2919-my poor uncle . And now , as after that visit , [I]2919-my poor uncle fell into deep and perfect rest , such rest as comes but rarely until the sleep of all . No wonder [you]9426-sweetest mine'—her own artless and young endearment—'sweetest mine and [Lily]673-lily thought [me]2919-my poor uncle so strong next day . In the morning [I]2919-my poor uncle knew and rejoiced in [my]2919-my poor uncle quick departure . This cold obstruction was to be cast aside , this palsied frame to release the winged soul . On the third day [I]2919-my poor uncle was to find and dwell with [[my]2919-my poor uncle Lily]7976-my lily for ever . So on the first day [I]2919-my poor uncle enjoyed the harmless pleasures of life , and could not bear [you]9426-sweetest mine'—her own artless and young endearment—'sweetest mine to leave [me]2919-my poor uncle , because that would have turned them to pain . The second day [I]2919-my poor uncle got through all the business that still remained , refreshing its dryness often with [[my]2919-my poor uncle sweet child]5346-my sweet child 's society . On this , the third , [I]2919-my poor uncle write to [you]5270-you , and am , through the grace of [God]701-god , as calm and content , nay more content than if [I]2919-my poor uncle were going to bed . "[2919-my poor uncle] [Beloved daughters]5268-beloved daughters both , and [[my]0-i dear son]5269-my dear son as well , [I]0-i implore [you]5270-you not to grieve painfully for [me]0-i . Too well [I]0-i know the weight of excessive sorrow , and how it oppresses the lost one , even more than the loser . Since the parting is so brief , the reunion so eternal , why make the interval long and dreary by counting every footstep ? Alas , it is easy to talk and think so , but very hard to feel it . Time demands [his]5269-my dear son walk with sorrow , and will not have [his]5269-my dear son arm dispensed with . Then think of [my]0-i happiness , [darlings]5271-darlings , and how [your]5270-you own will increase it . Only one more request , which after Ciceronian sentiments — which [Cicero]709-cicero could not practise — [you]5270-you are all too young not to wonder at . If [you]5270-you , [[my]0-i three children]5272-my three children , can manage it , without any heavy expense , or much trouble to [yourselves]5270-you , it is [my]0-i last wish as regards the body , that it should lie by the side of [[my]0-i wife]3597-my wife 's . The name of [the little church]995-the little church , [[St. Katharine]188-st. katharine 's on [the Cliff]8283-the cliff]8282-st. katharine 's on the cliff , can scarcely have escaped [[my]0-i [Clara]293-clara]5392-my clara 's excellent memory . [Lily]673-lily lies beside [[her]673-lily father]898-her father , in the right - hand corner towards [the sea]895-the sea . [Each of [them]5281-they]5280-each of them has a cross of the Signor 's alabaster , made from [my]0-i own design . [Lily]673-lily 's is enough for [me]0-i : put [my]0-i name with [hers]673-lily . " Not only did [we]9430-we look upon [his]898-her father last fond wish as sacred , but [we]9430-we accomplished it in the manner that was likely to please [him]898-her father most . [We]9430-we put [his]898-her father own "[632-lilyflower] [Lilyflower]632-lilyflower , " [the little love - boat]9431-the little love - boat as [they]5281-they called it , into commission again , engaged [a good captain]9432-a good captain and [crew]9433-crew , and taking [old Cora]585-old cora with [us]9430-we , set sail from [Gloucester]23-gloucester for [the Mediterranean]228-the mediterranean . [Poor Cora]710-poor cora was now all devotion to [Conrad]670-conrad and [Lily]673-lily , ever since [she]585-old cora had found that [they]5281-they were [lawful blood and direct heirs of [the Della Croce]570-lepardo]9434-lawful blood and direct heirs of the della croce . The more recent part of the family story [she]585-old cora had known only from [[her]585-old cora master]814-her master 's version , and had set little store by [the children]1695-the children as bearing the stamp of disgrace ; though [she]585-old cora could not help loving [sweet Lily]673-lily . Now , by [her]585-old cora evidence , coupled with [[my]632-lilyflower dear]5318-my dear Uncle 's deposition , [his]814-her master relics , and documents , and [my]632-lilyflower own testimony , confirmed by [Balaam]539-balak and [Balak]539-balak , [we]9438-our established very easily the birth and the claims of [[my]632-lilyflower Uncle [[Edgar]310-uncle edgar 's children]9440-edgar 's children]9439-my uncle edgar 's children ; and [the old Count Gaffori , most venerable of [signors]9442-signors]9441-the old count gaffori , most venerable of signors , would have kept [us]9438-our a month at least to go through all [his]9441-the old count gaffori , most venerable of signors accounts . [He]9441-the old count gaffori , most venerable of signors was entreated to retain [his]9441-the old count gaffori , most venerable of signors position as [the guardian of [our]9438-our [Lily]673-lily]9443-the guardian of our lily . So far as [our]9438-our recent sorrow permitted enjoyment of scenery , [we]9438-our were all enchanted with [the Balagna]183-the balagna . At the funeral of "[632-lilyflower] [Signor Valentine]605-signor valentine , " whose name was still remembered and loved , nearly all [the commune]8253-the commune was present ; and [many a dignified matron]9445-many a dignified matron shed tears , who had smiled as [a graceful girl]9446-a graceful girl , and strown flowers , at [his]9441-the old count gaffori , most venerable of signors wedding . [They]8253-the commune were burning with curiosity to see [our]9438-our beautiful [Lily]673-lily , for the tender tale had moved [them]8253-the commune , as Southern natures are moved ; and many of [them]8253-the commune had loved and gloried in [[her]673-lily mother]6340-her mother . But in spite of all this desire , not a prying glance fell on [her]673-lily , as [she]673-lily bowed in the hooded robe , and wept to [the mournful vocero]9448-the mournful vocero . Foremost of all stood [old Petro]624-petro and [Marcantonia]625-marcantonia , who had found out and kissed with sobs of delight [[their]8253-the commune beloved master 's daughter]9449-their beloved master 's daughter . For [my]713-lucus part , [I]713-lucus loved [the Corsicans]583-the corsicans ; there is something so noble and simple about [the men]5486-the men , so graceful , warm - hearted , and lady - like in [the women]5487-the women ; and in a very short time [I]713-lucus could understand more than half [they]8253-the commune said . The black Vendetta , [they]8253-the commune told [me]713-lucus , was dying out among [them]8253-the commune , and in a few years would be but a wonder of the past . [God]701-god in [His]701-god mercy grant it . There must have been something surely in [my]713-lucus Uncle [Edgar]310-uncle edgar 's nature , which won the Southern hearts , as [[my]713-lucus father]731-my father won British affections . Such things [I]713-lucus can not explain , or account for . [I]713-lucus only know and feel them . [We]9453-we were all back at [Vaughan St. Mary]18-vaughan st. mary before the end of August , and found [the farmer]5517-the farmer , [the two chillers]9455-the two chillers , and [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe as happy as if [they]8253-the commune were born and reared [there]1114-there . [Old Cora]429-cora was left at [Veduta Tower]233-veduta tower ; and having obtained [Mr. Dawe]334-beany dawe 's permission [I]713-lucus presented [her]429-cora once and for all with the whole treasure of the gordit . [She]429-cora intends , however , to bequeath it to [me]713-lucus in [her]429-cora will . Soon afterwards [Conrad]670-conrad gave [her]429-cora a more substantial blessing ; for [he]670-conrad sold the things left in [Lucas Street]106-lucas street , under letters of administration , as being [the next of kin]9457-the next of kin . All the proceeds [he]670-conrad handed over to [Cora]429-cora , except one - tenth , which [he]670-conrad presented to [the Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to [Animals]711-animals]9458-the society for the prevention of cruelty to animals . As many of the specimens , iguanodon , and other monsters , fetched prices as hard to explain away as [themselves]8253-the commune , poor [Cora]429-cora was amply provided for : all which of course [she]429-cora attributed to [the holy Madonna]9459-the holy madonna 's heart . And now at last [I]713-lucus understood how 19 , [Grove Street]30-grove street had become No . 37 , [Lucas Street]106-lucas street . The change of number [I]713-lucus have already explained ; the change of name was on [this wise:—The builder]9460-this wise:—the builder , [a rising man]9461-a rising man , who had bought the old part of [the street]6090-the street , and built [thereto the new one]9463-thereto the new one , had [a son]3660-a son , [a fine undergraduate , better skilled in the boats than in the books of Oxford]9465-a fine undergraduate , better skilled in the boats than in the books of oxford . Reading hard one day , after [his]3660-a son third pluck , [this young man]9466-this young man discovered that lucus was the Latin for grove . [He]3660-a son smote [his]3660-a son hand on [his]3660-a son forehead , and a great idea presented itself . Had there not been both nymphs and [philosophers of the grove]9467-philosophers of the grove ? [The street]6090-the street that was [his]3660-a son inheritance should be distinguished by nomenclature from [the thousand groves of [London]1-london]9469-the thousand groves of london , wherein [the nightingale]9470-the nightingale pipeth not , neither — but [I]713-lucus am getting poetical , and do n't understand [the Gradus]712-the gradus . Enough , that [he]3660-a son wrote at once and earnestly to [[his]3660-a son father]1062-his father , forgetting the vivid description , which was now growing stale , of [his]3660-a son pluck — a result secured , as [the Winchester gentlemen]9472-the winchester gentlemen tell [me]713-lucus , by learning too solid to carry — but begging that [his]3660-a son Oxford career might at least be commemorated in and by [the street that paid [his]3660-a son bills [there]1114-there]9473-the street that paid his bills there . "[713-lucus] [Lucus]713-lucus " [he]3660-a son wrote plainly enough , and in very large letters , but [the father]8100-the father read it "[632-lilyflower] Lucks . " No , said [the mother]5825-the mother , [she]5825-the mother was sure [Alexander]698-alexander never meant such a low thing as that , it was "[632-lilyflower] [Lucas]714-lucas " of course ; why [the Lucases]715-the lucases were [[her]5825-the mother own cousins]9477-her own cousins , and [Rosa]716-rosa such [a nice girl]7601-a nice girl , [she]5825-the mother saw how it was , that [she]5825-the mother did , and [Alexander]698-alexander might have done worse . And so it was painted most bravely "[632-lilyflower] [Lucas Street]106-lucas street , " and [the builder]9479-the builder was n't going to make a fool of [himself]9479-the builder , when [Alexander]698-alexander protested . When [John Huxtable]299-john set off for [home]1102-home , just in time to see to [his]299-john harvest , which is always late round [Exmoor]22-exmoor , [I]632-lilyflower kissed [him]299-john — ay , [Conny]670-conrad , [you]670-conrad saw it — and thrust , during [his]299-john amazement , something far down into [his]299-john mighty pocket , which something [he]299-john was not upon any account to look at until [he]299-john got [home]1102-home . It was a deed , prepared by [[our]9482-our solicitors]9483-our solicitors , presenting [him]299-john with the fee simple of [[Tossil]361-tossil 's [Barton]361-tossil farm]6986-tossil 's barton farm . True , [I]632-lilyflower was not of age , but [I]632-lilyflower signed it as if [I]632-lilyflower had been , and [Conny]670-conrad and [I]632-lilyflower again signed it , when [we]9482-our paid [our]9482-our first visit [there]1114-there . Perhaps , in strict law , it binds not [my]632-lilyflower interest even now ; but if ever [any one claiming "[632-lilyflower] by]9486-any one claiming " by , from , through , under , or in trust for " [me]714-lucas , forgets [the Vaughan]293-clara honour and dares to dream of [that farm]9487-that farm , [I]714-lucas 'll be at [him]299-john as sure as a ghost ; and [I]714-lucas trust before that time comes , [the farmer]5517-the farmer will have sound title by immemorial years of possession . [He]299-john is now [a prosperous man]9489-a prosperous man ; and has never found it necessary to give up [his]299-john beer , as [he]299-john threatened [Young John]717-young john , who is just like [[his]717-young john father]1062-his father , cleaves fast to [Tabby Badcock]388-tabby , now [a blooming maiden]9491-a blooming maiden ; but [[my]714-lucas [Sally]371-sally]9492-my sally has more than balanced that imminent loss of caste , by fixing the eyes and transfixing the heart of [George Tamlin]718-george tamlin , [the son of [[our]9494-our principal tenant]9495-our principal tenant]9493-the son of our principal tenant , and [himself]718-george tamlin of [Devonshire]4-devonshire origin . [The young lady]5814-the young lady comes to and fro every six weeks , and is to be married from [[our]9494-our house]1160-our house , when [[her]5814-the young lady father]898-her father considers [her]5814-the young lady "[714-lucas] zober enough . " [Beany Dawe]334-beany dawe , who does not like work , still lives at [[Tossil]361-tossil 's Barton]361-tossil , and is in receipt of a pension of sixpence a day from [Government]9499-government , as [a bard at last appreciated]9500-a bard at last appreciated . As for [me]714-lucas , [Clara Vaughan]293-clara , on the very day after that which released [me]714-lucas from [my]714-lucas teens ( counting forward , as [we]9494-our do , till [we]9494-our count receding years ) , to wit on the 31st of December , 1851 , [I]714-lucas did not change [my]714-lucas name , but wrote it in the old church register , half an inch below a better and firmer hand . There was no fuss or frippery ; [no four clergymen]9501-no four clergymen and [ten bridesmaids simpering at one another]9502-ten bridesmaids simpering at one another . [[Our]9494-our good vicar]9503-our good vicar represented [the one class]9504-the one class , dear [Lily]673-lily and [Annie Franks]552-annie franks [the other]1586-the other . [[My]714-lucas godfather]9506-my godfather , newly disclosed for the purpose , gave [me]714-lucas away very gracefully , and [young Peter Green]575-green helped [Conrad]670-conrad . [Lily Vaughan]592-lily looked so exquisite , so deliciously lovely , that nobody in [the whole world]9507-the whole world — Now [Conny]670-conrad , hold [your]670-conrad tongue , [I]714-lucas never fish for compliments , do n't degrade [yourself]670-conrad so for a kiss , of course [I]714-lucas know all [my]714-lucas perfections , but how can [I]714-lucas care about them , when [you]670-conrad say they belong to [you?—Lily Vaughan]592-lily , [I]714-lucas say once more , was such a sunrise of loveliness , that young [Peter Green]575-green , just new from [his]575-green Oxford honours , collapsed , and fell over the railings , and wedged [his]575-green head in the "[714-lucas] piscina , " or whatever [those nice young gentlemen , who see the duty of wearing strait waistcoats]9508-those nice young gentlemen , who see the duty of wearing strait waistcoats , are pleased to denominate it . Ah , [Little Distaff Lane , most unconnubial title]9509-little distaff lane , most unconnubial title , ah firm of [Green]575-green , [Vowler]578-vowler , and [Green]575-green , [[your]670-conrad Hercules]9510-your hercules holds the distaff , and holds it , alas , in [his]9510-your hercules heart ! From that shock [he]575-green never recovered , until [we]9511-we had at [Vaughan Park]5-vaughan park a really merry wedding ; and [I]714-lucas , ah [me]714-lucas , [I]714-lucas could not dance just then , but [I]714-lucas showered roses upon [them]9512-them , for the shadow of death was past . [Old Mr. Green,—nay]719-old mr. green,—nay , nay , not fifty yet , by [[our]9511-we Lady,—Mr]9513-our lady,—mr . [Peter Green]575-green [the elder]9514-the elder , came down [here]846-here for the occasion , and [I]714-lucas hardly ever took such a fancy to [any man]9516-any man before . [He]575-green seemed to know almost everything , not by the skin , as [Dr. Ross]470-dr. ross seemed to hold things , but by the marrow and fibrine of [their]9512-them alimentary part . And withal such [a perfect gentleman]9517-a perfect gentleman : [he]575-green kept in the horns of [his]575-green knowledge , instead of exalting them , and making [us]9511-we wish for hay on them , while tossed in headlong ignorance . Scant as [I]714-lucas am of space , [I]714-lucas must tell how [he]575-green behaved , when [[his]575-green son]1321-his son revealed [his]1321-his son attachment . "[714-lucas] Is it [a lady]5829-a lady , [Peter]575-green ? " "[5829-a lady] [I]0-i should rather think [she]5829-a lady is , [father]738-father . " "[5829-a lady] Do [you]738-father love [her]5829-a lady with all [your]738-father heart ? " "[738-father] Of course [I]0-i do , every bit . [I]0-i am tough , but [I]0-i know [I]0-i shall die , unless — " "[0-i] That will do , [[my]0-i son]5986-my son . [You]5986-my son have [my]0-i full consent , and [[your]5986-my son mother]5332-your mother 's is sure to follow . Most likely [you]5986-my son got it beforehand . [[You]5986-my son young fellows]5286-you young fellows are so deep . Let [me]0-i kiss [your]5986-my son forehead , [[my]0-i boy]5287-my boy , although [I]0-i am not dramatic . " Having behaved so nobly , for [this boy]1075-this boy was [his]0-i only hope , [he]0-i deserved to find , as [he]0-i did , that if [he]0-i had searched [the world]798-the world [he]0-i could not have hit upon any other so desirable for [[his]0-i son]1321-his son , as [the daughter of [[his]0-i old friend]4073-his old friend]9522-the daughter of his old friend . The only mistake [he]0-i has made is that [he]0-i so adores [her]1075-this boy , [he]0-i can not bear [her]1075-this boy to be in [Corsica]150-corsica ; though the trade [they]9524-they conduct is worth at least fifty thousand a year . When [Lily]592-lily fell in love , [I]720-clara green told [her]592-lily that it was because [she]592-lily had an eye for the olives ; and olives enough [the darling]9525-the darling has , [I]720-clara green trow , and olive branches too . [The eldest]8990-the eldest is called [Clara]293-clara . "[720-clara green] [Clara Green]720-clara green ! " [I]720-clara green do n't like the sound altogether ; but the substance is something beautiful , and the freshest of all Spring verdure . Nevertheless , [[my]720-clara green [Clara]293-clara]5392-my clara is an inch larger round the calf , and [I]720-clara green think [her]293-clara eyelashes are longer . [Her]293-clara hair weighs more , that is certain . [We]9528-we compare [them]9524-they very often ; for [they]9524-they live only half the year at [Veduta Tower]233-veduta tower . In the summer heats [they]9524-they are here , and [the children]1695-the children between [them]9524-they , [my]720-clara green own every bit as bad , leave [dear [Annie Elton]552-annie franks ( [Annie]552-annie franks Franks of old ) , uncommonly few British Queens]552-annie franks . It is all [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer 's fault . What is the use of [a gardener]985-a gardener , if [he]985-a gardener allows dessert all the day long ? Every autumn [we]9528-we go to [Corsica]150-corsica to help at the olive harvest , and rarely [we]9528-we enjoy it . [The Old Veduta Tower]285-the old veduta tower is like a nest in the ivy , chirruping with young voices ; and the happy sleep of [the two who loved so well]9531-the two who loved so well is dreaming , if dream it can or care to do , of the fairest flowers in [Europe]95-europe , scattered there by little soft hands . [Conny]670-conrad is wild every time about [the Rogliano]204-rogliano and [Luri]622-luri ; and if [Peter Green]575-green listens to [him]670-conrad — which [every one]1982-every one does , except [me]720-clara green — [he]670-conrad will introduce , very slowly of course , those fine - bodied yet aerial wines to the noble British public , that loves not even intoxication , unless it be adulterated . Oh , [queer Mrs. Shelfer]391-mrs. shelfer , oh [Balaam]539-balak and [Balak]539-balak , shall [I]720-clara green pretermit [your]9533-your annals ? [[The two Sheriff]9534-the two sheriff 's officers]9535-the two sheriff 's officers , having secured [their]9534-the two sheriff reward , set up therewith [a public - house called the "[720-clara green] Posse - Comitatus]9536-a public - house called the " posse - comitatus , " which soon became the head quarters of all who are [agents]9537-agents or [patients in the machinery of levying]9538-patients in the machinery of levying . As at such times [all people]9539-all people drink and pay more than double , [the public - house]6501-the public - house has already [a Queensbench - ful of good - will]9541-a queensbench - ful of good - will . [Poor Mrs. Shelfer]721-mrs. shelfer and [Charley]395-charley did not invest the 325*l . * altogether judiciously : at least , it went mainly to purchase "[720-clara green] eternal gratitude , " whose time does not begin to run till [the purchaser]9542-the purchaser 's is over . But [Patty]409-patty , [I]720-clara green am glad to say , has still that 30*l . * a year of [her]409-patty own , left to [her]409-patty in the funds by good and grateful [Miss Minto]405-miss minto . "[720-clara green] Ca n't touch it , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , not [the Queen]1427-the queen , [the Lord Mayor]5290-the lord mayor , and [all the royal family]5291-all the royal family . [Government]9499-government give [their]9499-government bond for it , on parchment made of [their]9499-government skins , and the ink come out of [their]9499-government gall . " Be this as it may , what is much more to the purpose is that [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer can not touch it . And now [I]720-clara green have pride in announcing , for [I]720-clara green never expected such glory , that all the cats and birds , squirrels , mice , and monkeys , live , like [the happy family]9543-the happy family , in [[our]9544-our northern lodge]9545-our northern lodge , where [Patty]409-patty is most useful and happy as [the Queen of the poultry]9546-the queen of the poultry . In a word , [they]9499-government keep the gate , not of [[their]9499-government enemies]9547-their enemies , but of [old and grateful friends]9548-old and grateful friends . [I]720-clara green expected to see at least a leading article in the "[720-clara green] Times , " when [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer left [the metropolis]9549-the metropolis ; but [they]9499-government let [him]413-mr. shelfer go very easily for the sake of the discount market . [They]9499-government gave [him]413-mr. shelfer only two - and - twenty dinners ; but when [he]413-mr. shelfer first came to [Vaughan Park]5-vaughan park , how [he]413-mr. shelfer wanted country air ! Now [he]413-mr. shelfer attends to the wall - trees , and [the avenue]2993-the avenue , and [I]720-clara green hope finds harmony there . At any rate , [he]413-mr. shelfer never breaks it by any undue exertion . Nevertheless , [his]413-mr. shelfer very long pipe is of some account with the green fly , which has been very bad on [our]5295-our peaches , ever since [they]5293-they repealed the corn laws . [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer , accordingly , is compelled to spend half [his]413-mr. shelfer time in smoking them . "[720-clara green] Wonderful nice [they]5293-they do taste , [Miss Clara]293-clara ; [you]293-clara 'd be quite surprised , [you]293-clara know . Wonderful good , [Miss]5294-miss , and [werry]5295-our high - flavoured [you]293-clara know , when they begins to fry . " "[5294-miss] Come , come , [Mr. Shelfer]413-mr. shelfer , [I]0-i fear [you]413-mr. shelfer cultivate them for their flavour . There are ten times as many of them , [I]0-i see , as of peaches on the trees . And [you]413-mr. shelfer charge [me]0-i every week five shillings for tobacco . " "[413-mr. shelfer] To be sure , [Miss Clara]293-clara . Shows a fine constitooshun , [you]293-clara know . And dreadful hard work it is to have to smoke so much , [you]293-clara know . And then the sun will come on the wall , and only a quart of beer allowed all the afternoon . And sometimes [they]5293-they makes [me]0-i go for it [myself]0-i , [you]293-clara know ! Indeed [they]5293-they does , [Miss]5296-miss , [they]5293-they has such cheek here in [Gloucestershire]3-gloucestershire ! " [Patty]409-patty brought all [her]409-patty sticks of course , in spite of the twenty - five bills of sale , which by this time had grown upon them . One whole roomful was packed in the duplicate inventories . The law on this subject [she]409-patty contemplated from a peculiar point of view . "[5293-they] Lor , [Miss]5297-miss , [I]0-i never grudges ['em]5298-'em . They do cost a bit at the time ; but see how safe [they]5293-they makes [them]5298-'em . If it was n't for [them]5293-they [I]0-i should be frightened out of [my]0-i wits of thieves , down here where the trees and all the green grocery is , worse than [the Regency Park]5299-the regency park . Bless [me]0-i , [I]0-i never should have gone out of doors , [Miss]5300-miss , if [you]293-clara had n't pulled [me]0-i . And to see the flowers here all a - growing with their heads up as bootiful as a bonnet . Pray , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend , is that what they was made for , if [I]0-i may be so bold ? " "[409-patty] No , [Patty]409-patty , not for bonnets . They were made for the bees and the butterflies , and for [us]5302-us to enjoy them , while [they]5298-'em enjoy [themselves]5298-'em . " "[0-i] Well , [I]0-i never . Pray , [Miss]5433-miss , did [I]0-i tell [you]293-clara [Uncle John]411-miss vaughan 's come [home]1102-home , and [they]5305-they only ate a piece of [his]411-miss vaughan shoulder for [they]5305-they found [his]411-miss vaughan belt was tenderer ; and [he]411-miss vaughan put the glazing on it the same as [they]5305-they wears on [their]5305-they hats , and three cork pins to hold it , and [he]411-miss vaughan find it [werry]5306-werry convenient , it save so much rheumatism : and [he]411-miss vaughan 'll be here next week to convict [the man that made [[his]411-miss vaughan wife]789-his wife swallow the tea - pot]5307-the man that made his wife swallow the tea - pot . [Dear]5871-dear , [dear]5871-dear , what things [they]5305-they does do in [the country]1831-the country . Not a bit like [Christians]722-christians . And so , [Miss Clara]293-clara , [the old man]7306-the old man wo n't drop off after all ; and [Uncle John]411-miss vaughan a - coming , how nice it would have been . " [The old man]7306-the old man was poor [Whitehead]703-whitehead , whose lodge [Mrs. Shelfer]721-mrs. shelfer coveted , as it was larger and livelier than [her]721-mrs. shelfer own . "[411-miss vaughan] No , [Mrs. Shelfer]721-mrs. shelfer , [I]0-i think [he]7306-the old man will get over it . Surely [you]721-mrs. shelfer would not wish to hurry [him]7306-the old man . " "[721-mrs. shelfer] To be sure , [[my]0-i good friend]1798-my good friend ; no , no : let [him]7306-the old man have [his]7306-the old man time , [I]0-i say . But [he]7306-the old man would have had it long ago , if [he]7306-the old man had any reason in [him]7306-the old man . What good can [he]7306-the old man do now , holding on with [his]7306-the old man eyebrows ? Please [God]701-god to let [him]7306-the old man go in peace ; and so much happier for [us]5314-us all . " When [Uncle John]411-miss vaughan appeared , [he]411-miss vaughan scolded [me]293-clara for [my]293-clara want of intelligence on the night when [I]293-clara was blinded . Of [the four men in [that room]9553-that room]9552-the four men in that room , [the one whom [I]293-clara had noticed least]9554-the one whom i had noticed least was [the very one whom [he]411-miss vaughan had meant [me]293-clara especially to observe]9555-the very one whom he had meant me especially to observe . At least , so [he]411-miss vaughan said ; but [I]293-clara fully believed , and did not scruple to tell [him]411-miss vaughan , that [he]411-miss vaughan had discovered little beyond the information and description given at the time by [Mr. Edgar Vaughan]297-mr. edgar vaughan . These [he]411-miss vaughan had disinterred from the archives of [Bow Street]286-bow street and [Whitehall]287-whitehall , and was then trying to apply them . However , [I]293-clara forgave [him]411-miss vaughan freely ; inasmuch as , but for [my]293-clara blindness , even blind love would have known [me]293-clara as [an objectionable being]9556-an objectionable being . And now [I]293-clara come to a real grievance . When there is another [Miss Clara]293-clara — such a beauty ! [I]293-clara ca n't tell [you]9557-you — and [a little Harry]9558-a little harry , for whose sake this tale is told — why will [every one on [these premises]9560-these premises]9559-every one on these premises , even [the under - gardener 's boy]9561-the under - gardener 's boy , persist in calling [me]293-clara "[293-clara] [Miss Clara]293-clara ? " It makes [me]293-clara stamp sometimes , and such a bad example that is for [[my]293-clara children]6217-my children . Dear [me]293-clara , if either of [[my]293-clara ducklings]9563-my ducklings were to carry on as [I]293-clara did at [their]9563-my ducklings age , [I]293-clara would cut down immediately the largest birch - tree on [the property]1112-the property , and order a hogshead of salt . But , to return to that contumely — is it to be suspected that [I]293-clara was more forcible and pronounced , in the days of [my]293-clara trial and misery , than now when [I]293-clara am [the happiest of [all the young mothers of [England]9-england]9566-all the young mothers of england]9565-the happiest of all the young mothers of england ? "[293-clara] Come , [Conny]670-conrad , tell the truth now , do n't [I]0-i keep [you]670-conrad in order ? " "[0-i] [My]0-i own delight , [I]0-i should think [you]670-conrad did . [I]0-i am nearly as much afraid of [you]670-conrad as [I]0-i am of [little Clary]723-clary . [Clary]723-clary ride on [Judy]477-judy now , and [Harry]670-conrad on [pup Sampiero]152-sampiero , and come and see [papa go chip]425-papa , chip , chip ? " "[425-papa] No , [Clary]723-clary stop and see [mamma]5377-mamma go scratch , scratch , scratch , like [Cooky]441-cooky at the pie - crust . [Clary]723-clary love [mamma]5377-mamma to - day , and papa to - morrow . " And [the lovely dear]9567-the lovely dear jumps on the stool , to pull the top of [my]723-clary pen . [Harry]670-conrad pops out from under the table , and prepares [himself]670-conrad for onset . [[My]723-clary husband]1877-my husband comes and lifts [my]723-clary hair , and throws [his]1877-my husband arm around [me]723-clary . It is all up now with writing . "[723-clary] [Darlings]5271-darlings , [I]0-i love all three of [you]5271-darlings , to - day , to - morrow , and for ever . Only do n't pull [me]0-i to pieces . "