Named characters

Major entities (proper, common)

FAC

97 home
86 the house/The house
46 there/There
42 the room
39 here/Here
14 the street/The street
13 the kitchen/The kitchen
13 the road
12 upstairs/Upstairs
11 the neighbourhood

GPE

9 the country
8 there
8 this country
7 the village
5 London town
5 the town
4 town
4 the commune
4 here/Here
3 Lonnon town

LOC

71 the world/The world
12 heaven
11 the island/The island
10 the sea
10 the lake/The lake
10 the water
9 the land
9 earth
8 the earth/The earth
7 the river

PER

136 my father/My father
101 my mother/My mother
88 the farmer/The farmer
73 my Uncle/my uncle/My Uncle/My uncle
59 father/Father
53 mother/Mother
51 Miss/miss
47 my good friend
40 your father/Your father
36 her father/Her father

ORG

1 the Bar
1 the banker 's
1 the landlady of the " Red - deer Inn
1 the Police
1 this company
1 their Government
1 that institution
1 Electric Telegraph Company
1 the militia
1 the Court of Chancery

VEH

12 the carriage/The carriage
10 the cab
10 the boat/The boat
7 a cab/A cab
7 the yacht
5 the train
3 a ship
3 a vehicle
3 a carriage
2 the cart

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[I]_0-i do not mean to describe [myself]_0-i . Already [I]_0-i feel that the personal pronoun will appear too often in these pages . Knowing the faults of [my]_0-i character almost as well as [[my]_0-i best friends]_{724-my best friends} know [them]_725-them , [I]_0-i shall attempt to hide them no more than would [those beloved ones]_{726-those beloved ones} . Enough of this : the story [I]_0-i have to tell is strange , and short as [my]_0-i own its preamble . The day when [I]_0-i was ten years old began [my]_0-i serious life . It was the 30th of December , 1842 ; and proud was the kiss [[my]_0-i loving father]_{727-my loving father} gave [me]_0-i for spelling , writing , and pronouncing the date in English , French , and Italian . No very wonderful feat , it is true , for [a clever child well - taught]_{728-a clever child well - taught} ; but [I]_0-i was by no means [a clever child]_{729-a clever child} ; and [no one]_{730-no one} except [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} could teach [me]_0-i a single letter . When , after several years of wedlock , [[my]_0-i parents]_{732-my parents} found new joy in [me]_0-i , [their]_{732-my parents} bliss was soon overhung with care . [They]_{732-my parents} feared , but durst not own the fear , lest [the wilful , passionate , loving creature , on whom [their]_{732-my parents} hearts were wholly set]_{733-the wilful , passionate , loving creature , on whom their hearts were wholly set} , should be torn from [their]_{732-my parents} love to a distance greater than the void of death ; in a word , should prove insane . At length [they]_{732-my parents} could no longer hide this terror from [each other]_{734-each other} . One look told it all ; and [I]_0-i vaguely remember [my]_0-i hazy wonder at the scene that followed . Like [a thief]_{735-a thief} , [I]_0-i came from the corner behind the curtain - loops , and trembled at [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's knee , for [him]_{731-my father} to say something to [me]_0-i . Then frightened at [his]_{731-my father} silence — a thing unknown to [me]_0-i — [I]_0-i pulled [his]_{731-my father} hands from before [his]_{731-my father} eyes , and found hot tears upon them . [I]_0-i coaxed [him]_{731-my father} then , and petted [him]_{731-my father} , and felt [his]_{731-my father} sorrows through [me]_0-i ; then made believe to scold [him]_{731-my father} for being so naughty as to cry . But [I]_0-i could not get [his]_{731-my father} trouble from [him]_{731-my father} , and [he]_{731-my father} seemed to watch [me]_0-i through [his]_{731-my father} kisses . Before [I]_0-i had ceased to ponder dreamily over this great wonder , a vast event ( for [a child of seven]_{737-a child of seven} ) diverted [me]_0-i . [Father]_738-father , [mother]_739-mother , and [Tooty]_289-tooty — for so [I]_0-i then was called — were drawn a long way by horses with [yellow men]_{740-yellow men} upon [them]_741-them : from enlarged experience [I]_0-i infer that [we]_742-we must have posted to [London]_1-london . Here , among many marvels , [I]_0-i remember especially a long and mysterious interview with [a kind , white - haired old gentleman , who wore most remarkable shoes]_{743-a kind , white - haired old gentleman , who wore most remarkable shoes} . [He]_{731-my father} took [me]_0-i upon [his]_{731-my father} lap , which seemed to [me]_0-i rather a liberty ; then [he]_{731-my father} smoothed down [my]_0-i hair , and felt [my]_0-i head so much that [I]_0-i asked if [he]_{731-my father} wanted to comb it , having made up [my]_0-i mind to kick if [he]_{731-my father} dared to try such a thing . Then [he]_{731-my father} put all sorts of baby questions to [me]_0-i which [I]_0-i was disposed to resent , having long discarded [Cock Robin]_{290-cock robin} and [Little Red - riding - hood]_{744-little red - riding - hood} . Unconsciously too , [I]_0-i was moved by [Nature]_291-mother 's strong hate of examination . But [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} came up , and with tears in [his]_{731-my father} eyes begged [me]_0-i to answer everything . Meanwhile [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} sat in a dark corner , as if [her]_{746-my mother} best doll was dying . With its innate pugnacity , [my]_0-i hazy intellect rose to the situation , and [I]_0-i narrowly heeded every thing . " Now go , [[my]_{747-the old gentleman} dear]_{5318-my dear} , "_{[747-the old gentleman]} [the old gentleman]_{747-the old gentleman} said at last ; " [you]_0-i are [a very good little girl]_{5319-a very good little girl} indeed . "_{[747-the old gentleman]} " That 's a great lie , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i cried ; for [I]_0-i had learned bad words from [a flighty girl]_{748-a flighty girl} , taken rashly as [under - nurse]_{749-under - nurse} . [The old gentleman]_{747-the old gentleman} seemed surprised , and [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} was dreadfully shocked . [[My]_0-i father]_{731-my father} laughed first , then looked at [me]_0-i sadly ; and [I]_0-i did what [he]_{731-my father} expected , [I]_0-i jumped into [his]_{731-my father} arms . At one word from [him]_{731-my father} , [I]_0-i ran to [the great physician]_{753-the great physician} , and humbly begged [his]_{753-the great physician} pardon , and offered [him]_{753-the great physician} [my]_0-i very dearest toy . [He]_{753-the great physician} came up warmly , and shook [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's hand , and smiled from [his]_{753-the great physician} heart at [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} . " Allow [me]_{753-the great physician} , [Mrs. Vaughan]_{292-mrs. vaughan} — allow [me]_{753-the great physician} , [[my]_{753-the great physician} dear sir]_{5320-my dear sir} — to congratulate [you]_{746-my mother} cordially . [The head]_{5321-the head} is [a noble and honest one]_{5322-a noble and honest one} . It is the growth of the brain that causes these little commotions ; but the congestion will not be permanent . The fits , that have so alarmed [you]_{746-my mother} , are at this age a good symptom ; in fact , they are [Nature]_291-mother 's remedy . They may last for seven years , or even for ten ; of course [they]_5323-they will not depart at once . But the attacks will be milder , and the intervals longer , when [she]_{746-my mother} has turned fourteen . For the intellect [you]_{746-my mother} need have no fear whatever . Only keep [her]_{746-my mother} quiet , and never force [her]_{746-my mother} to learn . [She]_{746-my mother} must only learn when it comes as it were with the wind . [She]_{746-my mother} will never forget what [she]_{746-my mother} does learn . "_{[753-the great physician]} Hereupon , unless [I]_0-i am much mistaken , [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} and [mother]_739-mother fell to and kissed and hugged [one another]_{758-one another} , and [I]_0-i heard a sound like sobbing ; then [they]_759-they caught [me]_0-i up , and devoured [me]_0-i , as if [I]_0-i were born anew ; and staring round with great childish eyes , [I]_0-i could not catch [the old gentleman]_{747-the old gentleman} 's glance at all . Henceforth [I]_0-i learned very little , the wind , perhaps , being unfavourable ; and all the little [I]_0-i did learn came from [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's lips . [His]_{731-my father} patience with [me]_0-i was wonderful ; [we]_762-we spent most of the day together , and when [he]_{731-my father} was forced to leave [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i took no food until [he]_{731-my father} returned . Whenever [his]_{731-my father} horse was ordered , [Miss Clara]_293-clara 's little grey pony began to neigh and to fidget , and [Miss Clara]_293-clara was off in a moment to get [her]_293-clara blue riding - skirt . Even when [father]_738-father went shooting or fishing , [Tooty]_289-tooty was sure to go too , except in the depth of winter ; and then [she]_289-tooty was up at the top of [the house]_{764-the house} , watching all round for the gun - smoke . Ah , why do [I]_0-i linger so over these happy times — is it the pleasure of thinking how fondly [we]_762-we loved [one another]_{758-one another} , or is it the pain of knowing that [we]_762-we can do so no more ? Now , the 30th of December was [[my]_0-i parents]_{732-my parents} ' wedding - day , for [I]_0-i had been born six years exact after [their]_{732-my parents} affectionate union . And now that [I]_0-i was ten years old — a notable hinge on the door of life — how much [they]_{732-my parents} made , to be sure , of [each other]_{734-each other} and of [me]_0-i ! At dinner [I]_0-i sat in glory between [them]_{732-my parents} , upsetting all ceremony , pleasing [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} , and teasing [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} , by many a childish sally . [So genial a man [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father}]_{770-so genial a man my father} was that [he]_{731-my father} would talk to [the servants]_{772-the servants} , even on state occasions , quite as if [they]_{772-the servants} were [human beings]_{773-human beings} . Yet [none of [them]_{772-the servants}]_{774-none of them} ever took the smallest liberty with [him]_{731-my father} , unless it were one to love [him]_{731-my father} . Before dessert , [I]_0-i interred [[my]_0-i queen]_{775-my queen} doll , with much respect and some heartache , under a marble flag by the door , which had been prepared for the purpose . [[My]_0-i father]_{731-my father} was [chief - mourner]_{777-chief - mourner} , but did not cry to [my]_0-i liking , until [I]_0-i had pinched [him]_{731-my father} well . After this typical good - bye to childhood , [I]_0-i rode [him]_{731-my father} back to the dining - table , and helped [him]_{731-my father} and [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} to [the last of [the West]_{2-the west} 's St. Peter grapes]_{779-the last of the west 's st. peter grapes} , giving [him]_{731-my father} all the fattest ones . Then [we]_780-we all drank health and love to [one another]_{758-one another} , and [I]_0-i fell to in earnest at [a child]_{782-a child} 's delight . [Dearest father]_{783-dearest father} kept supplying [me]_0-i with things much nicer than are now to be got , while [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} in vain pretended to guard [the frontier]_{785-the frontier} . It was the first time [I]_0-i tasted Guava jelly ; and now , even at the name , that scene is bright before [me]_0-i . [The long high room]_{786-the long high room} oak - panelled , the lights and shadows flickering as on [a dark bay horse]_{787-a dark bay horse} , the crimson velvet curtains where the windows were gone to bed , the great black chairs with damask cushions , but hard and sharp at the edge , the mantel - piece all carved in stone which [I]_0-i was forbidden to kick , the massive lamp that never would let [me]_0-i eat without loose clouds of hair dancing all over [my]_0-i plate , and then the great fire , its rival , shuddering in blue flames at the thought of the frost outside ; all these things , and even the ticking of the timepiece , are more palpable to [me]_0-i now than the desk on which [I]_0-i write . [[My]_0-i father]_{731-my father} sat in [his]_{731-my father} easy chair , laughing and joking , full of life and comfort , with [his]_{731-my father} glass of old port beside [him]_{731-my father} , [[his]_{731-my father} wife]_{789-his wife} in front , and [me]_0-i , [his]_{731-my father} " Claricrops , "_{[731-my father]} at [his]_{731-my father} knee . More happy than [a hundred kings]_{790-a hundred kings} , [he]_{731-my father} wished for nothing better . At one time , perhaps , [he]_{731-my father} had longed for [a son to keep the ancient name]_{791-a son to keep the ancient name} , but now [he]_{731-my father} was quite ashamed of the wish , as mutiny against [me]_0-i . After many an interchange , a drink for [father]_738-father , a sip for [Tooty]_289-tooty , [he]_{731-my father} began to tell wondrous stories of the shots [he]_{731-my father} had made that day ; especially how [he]_{731-my father} had killed a woodcock through a magpie 's nest . [[My]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} listened with playful admiration ; [I]_0-i with breathless interest , and most profound belief . Then [we]_794-we played at draughts , and fox and goose , and pretended even to play at chess , until it was nine o'clock , and [my]_0-i hour of grace expired . Three times [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} came to fetch [me]_0-i , but [I]_0-i would not go . At last [I]_0-i went submissively at one kind word from [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} . [[My]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} obtained but a pouting kiss , for [I]_0-i wanted to wreak some vengeance ; but [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} [I]_0-i never kissed with less than all [my]_0-i heart and soul . [I]_0-i flung both arms around [his]_{731-my father} neck , laid [my]_0-i little cheek to [his]_{731-my father} , and whispered in [his]_{731-my father} ear that [I]_0-i loved [him]_{731-my father} more than all [the world]_{798-the world} . Tenderly [he]_{731-my father} clasped and kissed [me]_0-i , and now [I]_0-i am sure that through [his]_{731-my father} smile [he]_{731-my father} looked at [me]_0-i with sadness . Turning round at the doorway , [I]_0-i stretched [my]_0-i hands towards [him]_{731-my father} , and met once more [his]_{731-my father} loving , laughing eyes . Once more and only once . Next [I]_0-i saw [him]_{731-my father} in [his]_{731-my father} coffin , white and stark with death . By - and - by [I]_0-i will tell what [I]_0-i know ; at present [I]_0-i can only feel . The emotions — away with long words — the passions which swept [my]_0-i little heart , with equal power rend it now . Long [I]_0-i lay dumb and stunned at the horror [I]_0-i could not grasp . Then with a scream , as in [my]_0-i fits , [I]_0-i flung upon [his]_{731-my father} body . What to [me]_0-i were shroud and shell , the rigid look and the world of awe ? Such things let [step - children]_{799-step - children} fear . Not [I]_0-i , when it was [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} . How that deed was done , [I]_0-i learned at once , and will tell . By whom and why it was done , [I]_0-i have given [my]_0-i life to learn . The evidence laid before [the coroner]_{801-the coroner} was a cloud and fog of mystery . For days and days [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} lay insensible . Then , for weeks and weeks , [she]_{746-my mother} would leap from [her]_{746-my mother} bed in fits of terror , stare , and shriek and faint . As for [the servants]_{772-the servants} , [they]_{772-the servants} knew very little , but imagined a great deal . [The only other witnesses]_{804-the only other witnesses} were [a medical man]_{805-a medical man} , [a shoemaker]_{806-a shoemaker} , and [two London policemen]_{807-two london policemen} . [The servants]_{772-the servants} said that , between one and two in the morning , a clear , wild shriek rang through [the house]_{764-the house} . Large as [the building]_{810-the building} was , this shriek unrepeated awoke nearly all but [me]_0-i . Rushing anyhow forth , [they]_{772-the servants} hurried and huddled together at the head of the great staircase , doubting what to do . [Some]_811-some said the cry came one way , some another . Meanwhile [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} , who slept with [me]_0-i in [an inner room]_{812-an inner room} at the end of [a little passage]_{813-a little passage} , in the courage of terror went straight to [[her]_{294-ann maples} master]_{814-her master} and [mistress]_815-mistress . There , by the light of a dim night - lamp , used to visit [me]_0-i , [she]_{294-ann maples} saw [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} upright in the bed , and pointing towards [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's breast . [[My]_0-i father]_{731-my father} lay quite still ; the bed - clothes were smooth upon [him]_{731-my father} . [[My]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} did not speak . [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} took the lamp , and looked in [[her]_{294-ann maples} master]_{814-her master} 's face . [His]_{814-her master} eyes were open , wide open as in amazement , but the surprise was death . One arm was stiff around [[his]_{814-her master} wife]_{789-his wife} , the other lax upon the pillow . As [she]_{294-ann maples} described it in West - country phrase , " [he]_{814-her master} looked all frore . "_{[294-ann maples]} [The woman]_{822-the woman} rushed from [the room]_{823-the room} , and screamed along [the passage]_{824-the passage} . [The servants]_{772-the servants} ran to [her]_{822-the woman} , flurried and haggard , each afraid to be left behind . None except [the butler]_{826-the butler} dared to enter . Whispering and trembling [they]_{772-the servants} peered in after [him]_{814-her master} , all ready to run away . [Thomas Kenwood]_295-tom loved [[his]_295-tom master]_{827-his master} dearly , being [[his]_295-tom foster - brother]_{828-his foster - brother} . [He]_295-tom at once removed the bedclothes , and found the fatal wound . So strongly and truly was it dealt , that it pierced the centre of [[my]_0-i dear father]_{829-my dear father} 's heart . One spot of blood and a small three - cornered hole was all that could be seen . [The surgeon , who came soon after]_{830-the surgeon , who came soon after} , said that the weapon must have been a very keen and finely - tempered dagger , probably of foreign make . [The murderer]_{831-the murderer} must have been quite cool , and well acquainted with the human frame . [Death]_296-death followed the blow on the instant , without a motion or a groan . In [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} 's left hand strongly clutched was a lock of long , black , shining hair . A curl very like it , but rather finer , lay on [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's bosom . In [the room]_{823-the room} were no signs of disorder , no marks of forcible entrance . [One of [the maids]_{836-the maids}]_{835-one of the maids} , [a timid young thing]_{837-a timid young thing} , declared that soon after the stable - clock struck twelve , [she]_{835-one of the maids} had heard the front balusters creak ; but as [she]_{835-one of the maids} was known to hear this every night , little importance was attached to it . [The coroner]_{801-the coroner} paid more attention to [the page ( a sharp youth from [London]_1-london]_{839-the page ( a sharp youth from london} ) , who , being first in [the main corridor]_{840-the main corridor} , after the cry , saw , or thought [he]_{839-the page ( a sharp youth from london} saw , [a moving figure , where the faint starlight came in at the oriel window]_{841-a moving figure , where the faint starlight came in at the oriel window} . [He]_{839-the page ( a sharp youth from london} was the more believed , because [he]_{839-the page ( a sharp youth from london} owned that [he]_{839-the page ( a sharp youth from london} durst not follow it . But no way of escape could be discovered there , and the eastern window was strongly barred betwixt the mullions . No door , no window was anywhere found open . Outside [the house]_{764-the house} , the only trace was at one remarkable spot . The time had been chosen well . It was a hard black frost , without , as yet , any snow . The ground was like iron , and [an Indian]_{843-an indian} could have spied no trail . But at this one spot , twenty - five yards from [the east end of [the house]_{764-the house}]_{844-the east end of the house} , and on the verge of a dense shrubbery , a small spring , scarcely visible , oozed among the moss . Around [its]_{764-the house} very head , it cleared , and kept , a narrow space quite free from green , and [here]_846-here [its]_{764-the house} margin was a thin coat of black mineral mud , which never froze . [This space]_{847-this space} , at the broadest , was but two feet and ten inches across from gravel to turf , yet now [it]_{847-this space} held two distinct footprints , not of some one crossing and re - crossing , but of two successive steps leading from [the house]_{764-the house} into [the shrubbery]_{849-the shrubbery} . These footprints were remarkable ; the one nearest [the house]_{764-the house} was of the left foot , the other of the right . Each was the impression of a long , light , and pointed boot , very hollow at the instep . But they differed in this — the left footprint was plain and smooth , without mark of nail , or cue , or any other roughness ; while the right one was clearly stamped in the centre of the sole with a small rectangular cross . This mark seemed to have been made by a cruciform piece of metal , or some other hard substance , inlaid into the sole . At least , so said [a shoemaker , who was employed to examine it]_{851-a shoemaker , who was employed to examine it} ; and [he]_{851-a shoemaker , who was employed to examine it} added that the boots were not those of the present fashion , what [he]_{851-a shoemaker , who was employed to examine it} called " duck 's bills "_{[851-a shoemaker , who was employed to examine it]} being then in vogue . [This man being asked to account for the fact of the footprints being so close together]_{852-this man being asked to account for the fact of the footprints being so close together} , did so very easily , and with much simplicity . It was evident , [he]_{851-a shoemaker , who was employed to examine it} said , that [a man of average stature , walking rapidly , would take nearly twice that distance in every stride]_{853-a man of average stature , walking rapidly , would take nearly twice that distance in every stride} ; but here the verge of the shrubbery , and the branches striking [him]_{853-a man of average stature , walking rapidly , would take nearly twice that distance in every stride} in the face , had suddenly curtailed the step . And to this , most likely , and not to any hurry or triumph , was to be ascribed the fact that [one so wily and steadfast]_{854-one so wily and steadfast} did not turn back and erase the dangerous tokens . Most likely , [he]_{853-a man of average stature , walking rapidly , would take nearly twice that distance in every stride} did not feel what was beneath [his]_{853-a man of average stature , walking rapidly , would take nearly twice that distance in every stride} feet , while [he]_{853-a man of average stature , walking rapidly , would take nearly twice that distance in every stride} was battling with the tangle above . Be that as it may , there the marks remained , like the blotting - paper of [his]_{853-a man of average stature , walking rapidly , would take nearly twice that distance in every stride} crime . Casts of them were taken at once , and carefully have they been stored by [me]_0-i . [The shoemaker]_{855-the shoemaker} , [a shrewd but talkative man]_{856-a shrewd but talkative man} , said unasked that [he]_{855-the shoemaker} had never seen such boots as had left those marks , since [the " Young Squire]_{5324-the " young squire} "_{[855-the shoemaker]} ( [he]_{855-the shoemaker} meant [Mr. Edgar Vaughan]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} ) went upon [his]_{855-the shoemaker} travels . For this gratuitous statement , [he]_{855-the shoemaker} was strongly rebuked by [the coroner]_{801-the coroner} . For the rest , all that could be found out , after close inquiry , was , that [a stranger darkly clad]_{858-a stranger darkly clad} had been seen by [the gamekeepers]_{859-the gamekeepers} , in [a copse some half - mile from [the house]_{764-the house}]_{860-a copse some half - mile from the house} , while [the men were beating for woodcocks on the previous day]_{862-the men were beating for woodcocks on the previous day} . [He]_{858-a stranger darkly clad} did not seem to be following [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} , and [they]_864-they thought [he]_{858-a stranger darkly clad} had wandered out of [the forest road]_{865-the forest road} . [He]_{858-a stranger darkly clad} glided quickly away , before [they]_864-they could see [his]_{858-a stranger darkly clad} features , but [they]_864-they knew that [he]_{858-a stranger darkly clad} was tall and swarthy . No footprints were found in that ride like those by [the shrubbery spring]_{866-the shrubbery spring} . [I]_0-i need not say what verdict [[the coroner]_{801-the coroner} 's jury]_{868-the coroner 's jury} found . Thus far , [I]_0-i have written in sore haste , to tell , as plainly and as briefly as possible , that which has darkened all [my]_0-i life . Though it never leaves [my]_0-i waking thoughts , to dwell upon it before [others]_869-others is agony to [me]_0-i . Henceforth [my]_0-i tale will flow perhaps more easily , until [I]_0-i fall again into a grief almost as dark , and am struck by storms of passion which childhood 's stature does not reach . When the shock of [the household]_{870-the household} , and the wonder of [the county]_{871-the county} , and the hopes of [constables]_{872-constables} ( raised by a thousand pounds ' reward ) had subsided gradually , [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} continued to live in [the old mansion]_{874-the old mansion} , perhaps because [none of [[her]_{746-my mother} friends]_{876-her friends}]_{875-none of her friends} came forward to remove [her]_{746-my mother} . Under [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's will [she]_{746-my mother} was [the sole executrix]_{878-the sole executrix} ; but all [the estates]_{879-the estates} ( including [house]_880-house and [park]_881-park ) were left to [[[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's nearest relative]_{883-my father 's nearest relative} , as trustee for [myself]_0-i , with a large annuity to [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} charged upon [them]_{879-the estates} . There were many other provisions and powers in the will , which are of no consequence to [my]_0-i story . [The chief estate]_{885-the chief estate} was large and rich , extending three or four miles from [the house]_{764-the house} , which stood in [a beautiful part of [Gloucestershire]_{3-gloucestershire}]_{887-a beautiful part of gloucestershire} . [The entire rental]_{888-the entire rental} was about 12,000*l . * a year . [[My]_0-i father]_{731-my father} ( whose name was [Henry Valentine Vaughan]_298-harry ) , being [a very active man in the prime of life]_{890-a very active man in the prime of life} , had employed [no steward]_{891-no steward} , but managed everything [himself]_{731-my father} . [The park]_{892-the park} , and two or three hundred acres round [it]_{892-the park} , had always been kept in hand ; the rest was let to [thriving tenants]_{893-thriving tenants} , who loved ( as [they]_{893-thriving tenants} expressed it ) " every hair on the head of [a Vaughan]_298-harry . "_[0-i] There was also [a small farm near [the sea]_{895-the sea}]_{894-a small farm near the sea} , in [a lonely part of [Devonshire]_4-devonshire]_{896-a lonely part of devonshire} ; but this was [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} 's , having been left to [her]_{746-my mother} by [[her]_{746-my mother} father]_{898-her father} , [a clergyman in [that neighbourhood]_{900-that neighbourhood}]_{899-a clergyman in that neighbourhood} . [[My]_0-i father 's nearest relative]_{883-my father 's nearest relative} was [[his]_{731-my father} half - brother]_{902-his half - brother} , [Edgar Vaughan]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} , who had been educated for [the Bar]_{903-the bar} , and at one time seemed likely to become eminent ; then suddenly [he]_{731-my father} gave up [his]_{731-my father} practice , and resided ( or rather roved ) abroad , during several years . Sinister rumours about [him]_{731-my father} reached [[our]_904-our neighbourhood]_{905-our neighbourhood} , not long before [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's death . To these , however , [the latter]_{907-the latter} paid no attention , but always treated [[his]_{731-my father} brother]_{908-his brother} [Edgar]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} with much cordiality and affection . But [all]_909-all admitted that [Edgar Vaughan]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} had far outrun [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} income as [a younger son]_{910-a younger son} , which amounted to about 600*l . * a year . Of course , therefore , [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} had often helped [him]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} . On the third day after that night , [[my]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} came to [Vaughan Park]_{5-vaughan park} . [He]_{912-my guardian} was said to have hurried from [London]_1-london , upon learning there what had happened . [The servants]_{772-the servants} and [others]_869-others had vainly and foolishly tried to keep from [me]_0-i the nature of [my]_0-i loss . Soon [I]_0-i found out all [they]_915-they knew , and when the first tit and horror left [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i passed [my]_0-i whole time , light or dark , in roving from [passage]_916-passage to [passage]_916-passage , from [room]_918-room to [room]_918-room , from closet to [closet]_920-closet , searching every chink and cranny for [the murderer of [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father}]_{921-the murderer of my father} . Though heretofore [a timid child]_{923-a timid child} , while so engaged [I]_0-i knew not such a thing as fear ; but peered , and groped , and listened , feeling every inch of wall and wainscot , crawling lest [I]_0-i should alarm [[my]_0-i prey]_{924-my prey} , spying through the slit of every door , and shaking every empty garment . Certain boards there were near the east window which sounded hollow ; at these [I]_0-i scooped until [I]_0-i broke [my]_0-i nails . In vain [nurse Maples]_{294-ann maples} locked [me]_0-i in [[her]_{294-ann maples} room]_{925-her room} , held [me]_0-i at [her]_{294-ann maples} side , or even bound [me]_0-i to the bed . [My]_0-i ravings forced [her]_{294-ann maples} soon to yield , and [I]_0-i would not allow [her]_{294-ann maples} , or [any one else]_{926-any one else} , to follow [me]_0-i . [The Gloucester physician]_{927-the gloucester physician} said that since the disease of [my]_0-i mind had taken that shape , it would be more dangerous to thwart than to indulge it . It was the evening of the third day , and weary with but never of [my]_0-i search , [I]_0-i was groping down the great oak - staircase in the dusk , hand after hand , and foot by foot , when suddenly the main door - bell rang . The snow was falling heavily , and had deadened the sound of wheels . At once [I]_0-i slid ( as [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} had taught [me]_0-i to do ) down the broad balustrade , ran across [the entrance - hall]_{929-the entrance - hall} , and with [my]_0-i whole strength drew back the bolt of the lock . There [I]_0-i stood in [the porch]_{930-the porch} , unfrightened , but with a new kind of excitement on [me]_0-i . [A tall dark man]_{931-a tall dark man} came up the steps , and shook the snow from [his]_{931-a tall dark man} boots . The carriage - lamp shone in [my]_0-i face . [I]_0-i would not let [him]_{931-a tall dark man} cross the threshold , but stood there and confronted [him]_{931-a tall dark man} . [He]_{931-a tall dark man} pretended to take [me]_0-i for [[some servant]_{932-some servant} 's child]_{933-some servant 's child} , and handed [me]_0-i a parcel covered with snow . [I]_0-i flung it down , and said , looking [him]_{931-a tall dark man} full in the face , " [I]_0-i am [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara , and [you]_{931-a tall dark man} are [the man who killed [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father}]_{5325-the man who killed my father} . "_[0-i] " Carry [her]_{933-some servant 's child} in , [John]_299-john , "_{[931-a tall dark man]} [he]_{931-a tall dark man} said to the servant—"carry [her]_{933-some servant 's child} in , or [the poor little thing]_{5327-the poor little thing} will die . What eyes ! "_{[931-a tall dark man]} and [he]_{931-a tall dark man} used some foreign oath—"what wonderful eyes [she]_{933-some servant 's child} has ! "_{[931-a tall dark man]} That burst of passion was the last conscious act of the young and over - laboured brain . For three months [I]_0-i wandered outside the gates of sorrow . [[My]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} , as [they]_935-they told [me]_0-i , was most attentive throughout the whole course of the fever , and even in the press of business visited [me]_0-i three times every day . Meanwhile , [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} was slowly shaking off the stupor which lay upon [her]_{746-my mother} , and the new fear of losing [me]_0-i came through that thick heaviness , like the wind through a fog . Doubtless it helped to restore [her]_{746-my mother} senses , and awoke [her]_{746-my mother} to the work of life . Then , as time went on , [her]_{746-my mother} former beauty and gentleness came back , and [her]_{746-my mother} reason too , as regarded [other subjects]_{937-other subjects} . But as to that which all so longed to know , not a spark of evidence could be had from [her]_{746-my mother} . The faintest allusion to that crime , the name of [[her]_{746-my mother} loved husband]_{938-her loved husband} , the mere word " murder "_{[746-my mother]} uttered in [her]_{746-my mother} presence — and the consciousness would leave [her]_{746-my mother} eyes , like a loan withdrawn . Upright [she]_{746-my mother} sat and rigid as when [she]_{746-my mother} was found that night , with the lines of [her]_{746-my mother} face as calm and cold as moonlight . Only two means there were by which [her]_{746-my mother} senses could be restored : one was low sweet music , the other profound sleep . [She]_{746-my mother} was never thrown into this cataleptic state by [her]_{746-my mother} own thoughts or words , nor even by those of [others]_869-others when in strict sequence upon [her]_{746-my mother} own . But any attempt to lead [her]_{746-my mother} to that one subject , no matter how craftily veiled , was sure to end in this . [The skilful physician , who had known [her]_{746-my mother} many years]_{940-the skilful physician , who had known her many years} , judged , after special study of this disease , in which [he]_{940-the skilful physician , who had known her many years} felt deep interest , that it was always present in [her]_{746-my mother} brain , but waited for external aid to master [her]_{746-my mother} . [I]_0-i need not say that [she]_{746-my mother} was now unfit for [any stranger]_{941-any stranger} 's converse , and even [[her]_{746-my mother} most careful friends]_{942-her most careful friends} must touch sometimes the motive string . As [I]_0-i recovered slowly from long illness , the loss of [[my]_0-i best friend]_{943-my best friend} and the search for [[my]_0-i worst enemy]_{944-my worst enemy} revived and reigned within [me]_0-i . Sometimes [[my]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} would deign to reason with [me]_0-i upon what [he]_{912-my guardian} called " [my]_{912-my guardian} monomania . "_{[912-my guardian]} When [he]_{912-my guardian} did so , [I]_0-i would fix [my]_0-i eyes upon [him]_{912-my guardian} , but never tried to answer . Now and then , those eyes seemed to cause [him]_{912-my guardian} some uneasiness ; at other times [he]_{912-my guardian} would laugh and compare them pleasantly to the blue fire - damp in a coal - mine . [His]_{912-my guardian} dislike of [their]_946-their scrutiny was well known to [me]_0-i , and incited [me]_0-i the more to urge it . But in spite of all , [he]_{912-my guardian} was ever kind and gentle to [me]_0-i , and even tried some grimly playful overtures to [my]_0-i love , which fled from [him]_{912-my guardian} with loathing , albeit a slow conviction formed that [I]_0-i had wronged [him]_{912-my guardian} by suspicion . [Edgar Malins Vaughan]_{300-edgar malins vaughan} , then about thirty - seven years old , was ( [I]_0-i suppose ) [a very handsome man]_{947-a very handsome man} , and perhaps of a more striking presence than [[my]_0-i dearest father]_{948-my dearest father} . [His]_{300-edgar malins vaughan} face , when [he]_{300-edgar malins vaughan} was pleased , reminded [me]_0-i strongly of the glance and smile [I]_0-i had lost , but never could it convey that soft sweet look , which still came through the clouds to [me]_0-i , now and then in dreams . The outlines of [[my]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} 's face were keener too and stronger , and [his]_{912-my guardian} complexion far more swarthy . [His]_{912-my guardian} eyes were of a hard steel - blue , and never seemed to change . A slight lameness , perceptible only at times , did not impair [his]_{912-my guardian} activity , but served [him]_{912-my guardian} as a pretext for declining all field - sports , for which ( unlike [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} ) [he]_{912-my guardian} had no real taste . [His]_{912-my guardian} enjoyments , if [he]_{912-my guardian} had any — and [I]_0-i suppose [all men]_{951-all men} have some — seemed to consist in the management of [the estate]_{952-the estate} ( which [he]_{912-my guardian} took entirely upon [himself]_{912-my guardian} ) , in satiric literature and the news of the day , or in lonely rides and sails upon [the lake]_{953-the lake} . It was hinted too , by [Thomas Kenwood]_295-tom , who disliked and feared [him]_{912-my guardian} strangely , that [he]_{912-my guardian} drank spirits or foreign cordials in [[his]_{912-my guardian} own room]_{954-his own room} , late at night . There was nothing to confirm this charge ; [he]_{912-my guardian} was always up betimes , [his]_{912-my guardian} hand was never tremulous , nor did [his]_{912-my guardian} colour change . [My]_0-i life — childhood [I]_0-i can scarcely call it — went quietly for several years . [The eastern wing of [the house]_{764-the house}]_{955-the eastern wing of the house} was left unused , and rarely traversed by any but [myself]_0-i . Foolish tales , of course , were told about it ; but [my]_0-i frequent visits found nothing to confirm them . At night , whenever [I]_0-i could slip from the care of good but matter - of - fact [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} , [I]_0-i used to wander down [the long corridor]_{957-the long corridor} , and squeeze through the iron gate now set there , half in hope and half in fear of meeting [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's spirit . For such an occasion all [my]_0-i questions were prepared , and all the answers canvassed . [My]_0-i infant mind was struggling ever to pierce the mystery which so vaguely led its life . Years only quickened [my]_0-i resolve to be [the due avenger]_{959-the due avenger} , and hardened the set resolve into [a fatalist]_{960-a fatalist} 's conviction . [[My]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} , always full of religious feeling , taught [me]_0-i daily in the Scriptures , and tried to make [me]_0-i pray . But [I]_0-i could not take the mild teachings of the Gospel as [a little child]_{962-a little child} . To [me]_0-i the Psalms of [David]_301-david , and those books of the Old Testament which recount and seem to applaud revenge , were sweeter than all the balm of [Gilead]_6-gilead ; they supplied a terse and vigorous form to [my]_0-i perpetual yearnings . With [a child]_{782-a child} 's impiety , [I]_0-i claimed for [myself]_0-i the mission of [the Jews]_{964-the jews} against [the enemies of [the Lord]_{966-the lord}]_{965-the enemies of the lord} . The forms of prayer , which [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} taught [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i mumbled through , while looking in [her]_{746-my mother} gentle face , with anything but a prayerful gaze . For [my]_0-i own bedside [I]_0-i kept a widely different form , which even now [I]_0-i shudder to repeat . And yet [I]_0-i loved [dear mother]_{968-dear mother} truly , and pitied [her]_{746-my mother} sometimes with tears ; but the shadow - love was far the deeper . [[My]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's grave was in [the churchyard of [the little village]_{971-the little village} which clustered and nestled beyond [[our]_972-our lodge]_{973-our lodge}]_{970-the churchyard of the little village which clustered and nestled beyond our lodge} . It was [a real grave]_{974-a real grave} . The thought of lying in [a vault]_{975-a vault} had always been loathsome to [him]_{731-my father} , and [he]_{731-my father} said that it struck [him]_{731-my father} cold . So fond was [he]_{731-my father} of air and light and freedom , the change of seasons and weather , and the shifting of the sun and stars , that [he]_{731-my father} used to pray that they still might pass over [his]_{731-my father} buried head ; that [he]_{731-my father} might lie , not in the dark lockers of death , but in the open hand of time . [[His]_{731-my father} friends]_{976-his friends} used to think it strange that [a man of so light and festive nature should ever talk of death]_{977-a man of so light and festive nature should ever talk of death} ; yet so [he]_{731-my father} often did , not morbidly , but with good cheer . In pursuance , therefore , of [his]_{731-my father} well - known wish , [the vaults wherein there lay five centuries of Vaughan dust]_{978-the vaults wherein there lay five centuries of vaughan dust} were not opened for [him]_{731-my father} ; neither was [[his]_{731-my father} grave]_{979-his grave} built over with a hideous ash - bin ; but lay narrow , fair , and humble , with a plain , low headstone of the whitest marble , bearing [his]_{731-my father} initials deeply carved in grey . Through [our]_980-our warm love and pity , and that of all [the village]_{981-the village} , and not in mere compliance with [an old usage of [the western counties]_{983-the western counties}]_{982-an old usage of the western counties} , [[his]_{731-my father} simple bed]_{984-his simple bed} was ever green and white with the fairest of low flowers . Though otherwise too moody and reckless to be [a gardener]_{985-a gardener} , [I]_0-i loved to rear from seed [his]_{731-my father} favourite plants , and keep them in [[my]_0-i room]_{986-my room} until they blossomed ; then [I]_0-i would set them carefully along [[his]_{731-my father} grave]_{979-his grave} , and lie down beside it , and wonder whether [his]_{731-my father} spirit took pleasure in them . But more often , it must be owned , [I]_0-i laid a darker tribute there . The gloomy channel into which [my]_0-i young mind had been forced was overhung , as might be expected , by a sombre growth . The legends of midnight spirits , and the tales of blackest crime , shed their poison on [me]_0-i . From the dust of [the library]_{988-the library} [I]_0-i exhumed all records of the most famous atrocities , and devoured them at [[[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's grave]_{990-my father 's grave} . As yet [I]_0-i was too young to know what grief it would cause to [him]_{731-my father} who slept there , could [he]_{731-my father} but learn what [[his]_{731-my father} only child]_{991-his only child} was doing . That knowledge would at once have checked [me]_0-i , for [his]_{731-my father} presence was ever with [me]_0-i , and [his]_{731-my father} memory cast [my]_0-i thoughts , as moonlight shapes the shadows . The view from [the churchyard]_{992-the churchyard} was a lovely English scene . What higher praise can [I]_0-i give than this ? Long time a wanderer in [foreign parts]_{993-foreign parts} , nothing have [I]_0-i seen that comes from nature to the heart like [a true English landscape]_{994-a true english landscape} . [The little church]_{995-the little church} stood back on [a quiet hill]_{996-a quiet hill} , which bent [its]_{996-a quiet hill} wings in a gentle curve to shelter [it]_{996-a quiet hill} from the north and east . These bending wings were feathered , soft as down , with , larches , hawthorn , and the lightly - pencilled birch , between which , here and there , the bluff rocks stood their ground . Southward , and beyond [the glen]_{997-the glen} , how fair a spread of [waving country [we]_999-we could see]_{998-waving country we could see} ! To the left , [[our]_999-we pretty lake]_{1000-our pretty lake} , all clear and calm , gave back the survey of the trees , until a bold gnoll , fringed with alders , led it out of sight . Far away upon the right , [the Severn]_{7-the severn} stole along [[its]_{7-the severn} silver road]_{1001-its silver road} , leaving many a reach and bend , which caught towards eventide the notice of the travelled sun . Upon the horizon might be seen at times , the blue distance of [the Brecon hills]_{8-the brecon hills} . Often when [I]_0-i sat [here]_846-here all alone , and the evening dusk came on , although [I]_0-i held those volumes on [my]_0-i lap , [I]_0-i could not but forget the murders and the revenge of [men]_1003-men , the motives , form , and evidence of crime , and nurse a vague desire to dream [my]_0-i life away . Sometimes also [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} would come [here]_846-here , to read [her]_{746-my mother} favourite Gospel of [St. John]_{302-st. john} . Then [I]_0-i would lay the dark records on the turf , and sit with [my]_0-i injury hot upon [me]_0-i , wondering at [her]_{746-my mother} peaceful face . While , for [her]_{746-my mother} sake , [I]_0-i rejoiced to see the tears of comfort and contentment dawning in [her]_{746-my mother} eyes , [I]_0-i never grieved that the soft chastenment was not shed on [me]_0-i . For [her]_{746-my mother} [I]_0-i loved and admired it ; for [myself]_0-i [I]_0-i scorned it utterly . The same clear sunshine was upon [us]_1006-us both : [we]_1006-us both were looking on the same fair scene — the gold of ripening corn , the emerald of woods and [pastures]_{1007-pastures} , the crystal of [the lake]_{953-the lake} and stream ; above [us]_1006-us both the peaceful heaven was shed , and the late distress was but a night gone by — wherefore had it left to one the dew of life , to the other a thunderbolt ? [I]_0-i knew not the reason then , but now [I]_0-i know it well . Although [my]_0-i favourite style of literature was not likely to improve the mind , or yield that honeyed melancholy which [some young ladies]_{1009-some young ladies} woo , to [me]_0-i it did but little harm . [My]_0-i will was so bent upon one object , and the whole substance and shape of [my]_0-i thoughts so stanch in [their]_1010-they sole ductility thereto , that other things went idly by [me]_0-i , if [they]_1010-they showed no power to promote [my]_0-i end . But upon palpable life , and the doings of nature [I]_0-i became observant beyond [my]_0-i age . Things in growth or motion round [me]_0-i impressed themselves on [my]_0-i senses , as if a nerve were touched . The uncoiling of a fern - frond , the shrinking of a bind - weed blossom , the escape of a cap - pinched bud , the projection of a seed , or the sparks from a fading tuberose , in short , the lighter prints of Nature 's sandalled foot , were traced and counted by [me]_0-i . Not that [I]_0-i derived a maiden pleasure from [them]_1010-they , as [happy persons]_{1011-happy persons} do , but that it seemed [my]_0-i business narrowly to heed [them]_1010-they . As for the proud phenomena of [imperial man]_{1012-imperial man} , so far as they yet survive the crucible of convention — the lines where cunning crouches , the smile that is but a brain - flash , the veil let down across the wide mouth of greed , the guilt [they]_1010-they try to make volatile in charity,—all these [I]_0-i was not old and poor enough to learn . Yet [I]_0-i marked unconsciously the traits of [individuals]_{1013-individuals} , the mannerism , the gesture , and the mode of speech , the complex motive , and the underflow of thought . So all [I]_0-i did , and all [I]_0-i dreamed , had one colour and one aim . [My]_0-i education , it is just to say , was neglected by [no one]_{730-no one} but [myself]_0-i . [[My]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's love of air and heaven had descended to [me]_0-i , and nothing but [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} 's prayers or [my]_0-i own dark quest could keep [me]_0-i in [the house]_{764-the house} . Abstract principles and skeleton dogmas [I]_0-i could never grasp ; but whatever was vivid and shrewd and native , whatever had point and purpose , was seized by [me]_0-i and made [my]_0-i own . [My]_0-i faculties were not large , but steadfast now , and concentrated . Though [several masters]_{1018-several masters} tried [their]_{1018-several masters} best , and [[my]_0-i governess]_{1019-my governess} did all [she]_{1019-my governess} could , [I]_0-i chose to learn but little . Drawing and music ( to soothe [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} ) were [my]_0-i principal studies . Of poetry [I]_0-i took no heed , except in the fierce old drama . Enough of this . [I]_0-i have said so much , not for [my]_0-i sake , but for [my]_0-i story . On the fifth anniversary of [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's death , when [I]_0-i was fifteen years of age , [I]_0-i went to visit ( as [I]_0-i always did upon that day ) [the fatal room]_{1022-the fatal room} . Although [this chamber]_{1023-this chamber} had been so long unused , the furniture was allowed to remain ; and [I]_0-i insisted passionately that it should be [my]_0-i charge . What had seemed the petulance of [a child]_{782-a child} was now the strong will of [a thoughtful girl]_{1025-a thoughtful girl} . [I]_0-i took the key from [my]_0-i bosom , where [I]_0-i always kept it , and turned it in the lock . [No mortal]_{1026-no mortal} had entered that door since [I]_0-i passed [it]_1027-it in [my]_0-i last paroxysm , three weeks and a day before . [I]_0-i saw a cobweb reaching from the black finger - plate to the third mould of the beading . The weather had been damp , and the door stuck fast to the jamb , then yielded with a crack . Though [I]_0-i was bold that day , and in a mood of triumph , some awe fell on [me]_0-i as [I]_0-i entered . There hung the heavy curtain , last drawn by [the murderer]_{831-the murderer} 's hand ; there lay the bed - clothes , raised for the blow , and replaced on death ; and there was the pillow where sleep had been so prolonged . All these [I]_0-i saw with a forced and fearful glance , and [my]_0-i breath stood still as the wind in a grave . Presently a light cloud floated off the sun , and a white glare from the snow of the morning burst across [the room]_{823-the room} . [My]_0-i sight was not so dimmed with tears as it generally was when [I]_0-i stood there , for [I]_0-i had just read the history of a long - hidden crime detected , and [my]_0-i eyes were full of fierce hope . But stricken soon to the wonted depth of sadness , with the throbs of [my]_0-i heart falling like [the avenger]_{1030-the avenger} 's step , [I]_0-i went minutely through [my]_0-i death - inspection . [I]_0-i felt all round [the dusty wainscot]_{1031-the dusty wainscot} , opened the wardrobes and cupboards , raised the lids of the deep - bayed window - seats , peered shuddering down the dark closet , where [I]_0-i believed [the assassin]_{1032-the assassin} had lurked , started and stared at [myself]_0-i in the mirror , to see how lone and wan [I]_0-i looked , and then approached the bed , to finish [my]_0-i search in the usual place , by lying and sobbing where [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} died . [I]_0-i had glanced beneath it and round the pillars , and clutched the curtain as if to squeeze out the truth , and was just about to throw [myself]_0-i on the coverlet and indulge the fit so bitterly held at bay , when something on the hangings above the head - board stopped [me]_0-i suddenly . There [I]_0-i saw a narrow line of deep and glowing red . It grew so vivid on the faded damask , and in the white glare of the level sun , that [I]_0-i thought it was on fire . Hastily setting a chair by the pillar , for [I]_0-i would not tread on that bed , [I]_0-i leaped up , and closely examined the crimson vein . Without thinking , [I]_0-i knew what it was — the heart - blood of [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} . There were three distinct and several marks , traced by the reeking dagger . The first on the left , which had caught [my]_0-i glance , was the broadest and clearest to read . Two lines , meeting at a right angle , rudely formed a Roman L. Rudely [I]_0-i say , for the poniard had been too rich in red ink , which had clotted where the two strokes met . The second letter was a Roman D , formed also by two bold strokes , the upright very distinct , the curve less easily traced at the top , but the lower part deep and clear . The third letter was not so plain . It looked like C at first , but upon further examination [I]_0-i felt convinced that it was meant for an O , left incomplete through the want of more writing fluid ; or was it then that [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} had seized [the dark author]_{1036-the dark author} by the hair , as [he]_{1036-the dark author} stooped to incline [his]_{1036-the dark author} pen that the last drop might trickle down ? Deciphering thus with fingers and eyes , [I]_0-i traced these letters of blood , one by one , over and over again , till they danced in [my]_0-i gaze like the northern lights . [I]_0-i stood upon tiptoe and kissed [them]_1037-them ; [I]_0-i cared not what [I]_0-i was doing : it was [[my]_0-i own father]_{1038-my own father} 's blood , and [I]_0-i thought of the heart it came from , not of the hand which shed it . When [I]_0-i turned away , the surprise , for which till then [I]_0-i had found no time , broke full upon [me]_0-i . How could these letters , in spite of all [my]_0-i vigilance , so long have remained unseen ? Why did [the murderer]_{831-the murderer} peril [his]_{831-the murderer} life yet more by staying to write the record , and seal perhaps the conviction of [his]_{831-the murderer} deed ? And what did these characters mean ? Of these three questions , the first was readily solved . The other two remained to [me]_0-i as new shadows of wonder . Several causes had conspired to defer so long this discovery . In the first place , the damask had been of rich lilac , shot with a pile of carmine , which , in the waving play of light , glossed at once and obscured the crimson stain , until the fading hues of art left in strong contrast nature 's abiding paint . Secondly , [my]_0-i rapid growth and the clearness of [my]_0-i eyes that day lessened the distance and favoured perception . Again — and this was perhaps the paramount cause — the winter sun , with rays unabsorbed by the snow , threw [his]_1040-his sheer dint upon that very spot , keen , level , and uncoloured — a thing which could happen on few days in the year , and for few minutes each day , and which never had happened during [my]_0-i previous search . Perhaps there was also some chemical action of the rays of light which evoked as well as showed the colour ; but of this [I]_0-i do not know enough to speak . Suffice it that the letters were there , at first a great shock and terror , but soon a strong encouragement to [me]_0-i . [My]_0-i course was at once to perpetuate the marks and speculate upon them at leisure , for [I]_0-i knew not how fleeting they might be . [I]_0-i hurried [downstairs]_{1041-downstairs} , and speaking to [no one]_{730-no one} procured some clear tissue paper . Applying this to the damask , and holding a card behind , [I]_0-i carefully traced with a pencil so much of the letters as could be perceived through the medium , and completed the sketch by copying most carefully the rest ; It was , however , beyond [my]_0-i power to keep [my]_0-i hand from trembling . A shade flitted over [my]_0-i drawing — oh , how [my]_0-i heart leaped ! When [I]_0-i had finished the pencil - sketch , and before it was inked over ( for [I]_0-i could not bring [myself]_0-i to paint it red ) , [I]_0-i knelt where [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} died and thanked [God]_303-god for this guidance to [me]_0-i . By the time [I]_0-i had dried [my]_0-i eyes the sun was passed and the lines of blood were gone , even though [I]_0-i knew where to seek them , having left a pin in the damask . By measuring [I]_0-i found that the letters were just three feet and a quarter above the spot where [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's head had been . The largest of them , the L , was three inches long and an eighth of an inch in width ; the others were nearly as long , but nothing like so wide . Trembling now , for the rush of passion which stills the body was past , and stepping silently on the long silent floor , [I]_0-i went to the deep dark - mullioned window and tried to look forth . After all [my]_0-i lone tumult , perhaps [I]_0-i wanted to see [the world]_{798-the world} . But [my]_0-i jaded eyes and brain showed only the same three letters burning on the snow and sky . Evening , a winter evening , was fluttering down . The sun was spent and stopped by a grey mist , and the landscape full of dreariness and cold . For miles , [the earth]_{1046-the earth} lay white and wan , with nothing to part life from death . No step was on the snow , no wind among the trees ; [fences]_1047-fences , shrubs , and hillocks were as wrinkles in a winding - sheet , and every stark branch had like [me]_0-i its own cold load to carry . But on the left , just in sight from the gable - window , was a spot , black as midnight , in the billowy snow . It was the spring which had stored for [me]_0-i the footprints . Perhaps [I]_0-i was superstitious then ; the omen was accepted . Suddenly a last gleam from the dauntless sun came through the ancient glass , and flung a crimson spot upon [my]_0-i breast . It was the red heart , centre of [our]_1048-our shield , won with [Coeur de Lion]_{304-coeur de lion} . Oh scutcheons , blazonments , and other gewgaws , by which [men]_1003-men think to ennoble daylight murders , how long shall [fools]_1050-fools account it honour to be tattooed with [you]_1051-you ? Mercy , fellow - feeling , truth , humility , virtues that never flap [their]_1003-men wings , but shrink lest [they]_1003-men should know [they]_1003-men stoop , what have these won ? Gaze sinister , and [their]_1003-men crest a pillory . With that red pride upon [my]_0-i breast , and that black heart within , and [my]_0-i young form stately with revenge , [I]_0-i was [a true descendant of [Crusaders]_{305-crusaders}]_{1052-a true descendant of crusaders} . To [no one]_{730-no one} , not even to [Thomas Kenwood]_295-tom ( in whom [I]_0-i confided most ) , did [I]_0-i impart the discovery just described . Again and again [I]_0-i went to examine those letters , jealous at once of [my]_0-i secret , and fearful lest they should vanish . But though they remained perhaps unaltered , they never appeared so vivid as on that day . With keener interest [I]_0-i began once more to track , from page to page , from volume to volume , the chronicled steps of limping but sure - footed justice . Not long after this [I]_0-i was provided with [a companion]_{1054-a companion} . " [Clara]_293-clara , "_{[912-my guardian]} said [[my]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} one day at breakfast , " [you]_293-clara live too much alone . Have [you]_293-clara [any friends in [the neighbourhood]_{5329-the neighbourhood}]_{5328-any friends in the neighbourhood} ? "_{[912-my guardian]} " None in [the world]_{798-the world} , except [[my]_{912-my guardian} mother]_{746-my mother} . "_{[912-my guardian]} " Well , [I]_{912-my guardian} must try to survive the exclusion . [I]_{912-my guardian} have done [my]_{912-my guardian} best . But [[your]_293-clara mother]_{5332-your mother} has succeeded in finding [a colleague]_{5333-a colleague} . There 's [a cousin of [yours]_293-clara]_{5334-a cousin of yours} coming here very soon . "_{[912-my guardian]} " [Mother dear]_{5335-mother dear} , "_{[912-my guardian]} [I]_0-i cried in some surprise , " [you]_1056-you never told [me]_0-i that [you]_1056-you had [any nieces]_{5336-any nieces} . "_[0-i] " Neither have [I]_{912-my guardian} , [[my]_{912-my guardian} darling]_{5337-my darling} , "_{[912-my guardian]} [she]_1056-you replied , " nor [any nephews]_{5338-any nephews} either ; but [[your]_293-clara uncle]_{5339-your uncle} has ; and [I]_1056-you hope [you]_293-clara will like [[your]_293-clara visitor]_{5340-your visitor} . "_[1056-you] " Now remember , [Clara]_293-clara , "_{[912-my guardian]} resumed [[my]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} , " it is no wish of [mine]_{912-my guardian} that [you]_293-clara should do so . To [me]_{912-my guardian} it is a matter of perfect indifference ; but [[your]_293-clara mother]_{5332-your mother} and [myself]_{912-my guardian} agreed that a little society would do [you]_293-clara good . "_{[912-my guardian]} " When is [she]_{5340-your visitor} to come ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i asked , in high displeasure that [no one]_{730-no one} had consulted [me]_0-i . " [He]_{5340-your visitor} is likely to be here to - morrow . "_[0-i] " Oh , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i exclaimed , " the plot is to humanize [me]_0-i through [a young gentleman]_{5342-a young gentleman} , is it ? And how long is [he]_{5340-your visitor} to stay in [[my]_0-i house]_{5343-my house} ? "_[0-i] " In [[your]_1059-he house]_{5344-your house} ! [I]_0-i suppose that will depend upon [[your]_1059-he mother]_{5332-your mother} 's wishes . "_[0-i] " More likely upon [yours]_1059-he , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i cried ; " but it matters little to [me]_0-i . "_[0-i] [He]_1059-he said nothing , but looked displeased ; [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} doing the same , [I]_0-i was silent , and the subject dropped . But of course [I]_0-i saw that [he]_1059-he wished [me]_0-i to like [his]_1059-he new importation , while [he]_1059-he dissembled the wish from knowledge of [my]_0-i character . Two years after [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's birth , [[his]_1059-he father]_{1062-his father} had married again . Of the second wedlock [the only offspring]_{1063-the only offspring} was [[my]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} , [Edgar Vaughan]_{300-edgar malins vaughan} . [He]_{300-edgar malins vaughan} was [a posthumous son]_{1065-a posthumous son} , and [[his]_{300-edgar malins vaughan} mother]_{1066-his mother} in turn contracted a second marriage . [[Her]_{1066-his mother} new husband]_{1067-her new husband} was one [Stephen Daldy]_{306-stephen daldy} , [a merchant of some wealth]_{1068-a merchant of some wealth} . By [him]_{1067-her new husband} [she]_{1066-his mother} left [one son]_{1069-one son} , named [Lawrence]_{307-laurence daldy} , and [several daughters]_{1070-several daughters} . [This Lawrence Daldy]_{307-laurence daldy} , [[my]_0-i guardian 's half - brother]_{1071-my guardian 's half - brother} , proved a spendthrift , and , while scattering [the old merchant]_{1072-the old merchant} 's treasure married [a fashionable adventuress]_{1073-a fashionable adventuress} . As might be expected , no retrenchment ensued , and [he]_{1067-her new husband} died in poverty , leaving [an only child]_{1074-an only child} . [This boy]_{1075-this boy} , [Clement Daldy]_308-clement , was of [my]_0-i own age , or thereabout , and , in pursuance of [[my]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} 's plan , was to live henceforth with [us]_1077-us . [He]_{1075-this boy} arrived under the wing of [[his]_{1075-this boy} mother]_{1066-his mother} , and [his]_{1075-this boy} character consisted in the absence of any . If [he]_{1075-this boy} had any quality at all by which one could know [him]_{1075-this boy} from a doll , it was perhaps vanity ; and if [his]_{1075-this boy} vanity was singular enough to have any foundation , it could be only in [his]_{1075-this boy} good looks . [He]_{1075-this boy} was , [I]_0-i believe , as pretty a youth as ever talked without mind , or smiled without meaning . Need it be said that [I]_0-i despised [him]_{1075-this boy} at once unfathomably ? [[His]_{1075-this boy} mother]_{1066-his mother} was of a very different order . Long - enduring , astute , and plausible , with truth no more than the pith of a straw , [she]_{1066-his mother} added thereto an imperious spirit , embodied just now in an odious meekness . Whatever [she]_{1066-his mother} said or did , in [her]_{1066-his mother} large contempt of [the world]_{798-the world} , [[her]_{1066-his mother} lady - abbess]_{1081-her lady - abbess} walk , and the chastened droop of [her]_{1066-his mother} brilliant eyes , [she]_{1066-his mother} conveyed through it all the impression of [her]_{1066-his mother} humble superiority . Though profoundly convinced that all is vanity , [she]_{1066-his mother} was reluctant to force this conviction on minds of a narrower scope , and dissembled with conscious grace [her]_{1066-his mother} knowledge of human nature . To [a blunt , outspoken child]_{1082-a blunt , outspoken child} , what could be more disgusting ? But when upon this was assumed an air of deep pity for [my]_0-i ignorance , and interest in [my]_0-i littleness , it became no longer bearable . [This Christian Jezebel]_{309-christian} nearly succeeded in estranging [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} from [me]_0-i . [The latter]_{907-the latter} felt all that kindness towards [her]_{1066-his mother} which [people of true religion]_{1085-people of true religion} , when over - charitable , conceive towards [all who hoist and salute the holy flag]_{1086-all who hoist and salute the holy flag} . [[Our]_1087-our sweet pirate]_{1088-our sweet pirate} knew well how to make the most of this . For [myself]_0-i , though [I]_0-i felt that [a hypocrite]_{1089-a hypocrite} is below the level of hate , [I]_0-i could not keep [my]_0-i composure when with affectionate blandness [[our]_1087-our visitor]_{1090-our visitor} dared to " discharge [her]_{1090-our visitor} sacred duty of impressing on [me]_{1090-our visitor} the guilt of harbouring thoughts of revenge . "_{[1090-our visitor]} Of course , [she]_{1090-our visitor} did not attempt it in the presence of [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} ; but [[my]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} was there , and doubtless knew [her]_{1090-our visitor} intention . It was on a Sunday after the service , and [she]_{1090-our visitor} had stayed for the sacrament . " [[My]_{1090-our visitor} sweet child]_{5346-my sweet child} , "_{[1090-our visitor]} [she]_{1090-our visitor} began , " [you]_{5346-my sweet child} will excuse what [I]_{1090-our visitor} am about to say , as [I]_{1090-our visitor} only speak for [your]_{5346-my sweet child} good , and from a humble sense that it is the path of duty . It has pleased [God]_303-god , in [His]_303-god infinite wisdom , to afflict [[your]_{5346-my sweet child} dear mother]_{5347-your dear mother} with a melancholy so sensitive , that [she]_{5347-your dear mother} can not bear any allusion to [[your]_{5346-my sweet child} deeply - lamented father]_{5348-your deeply - lamented father} . [You]_{5346-my sweet child} have therefore no female guidance upon a subject which justly occupies so much of [your]_{5346-my sweet child} thoughts . [[Your]_{5346-my sweet child} uncle]_{5339-your uncle} [Edgar]_{300-edgar malins vaughan} , in [his]_{300-edgar malins vaughan} true affection for [you]_{5346-my sweet child} , has thought it right that [you]_{5346-my sweet child} should associate more with persons calculated to develop [your]_{5346-my sweet child} mind . "_{[1090-our visitor]} Now [I]_0-i hate that word " develop ; "_[0-i] and [I]_0-i felt [my]_0-i passion rising , but let [her]_1093-me go on : — " Under these circumstances , it grieves [me]_1093-me deeply , [[my]_1093-me poor dear child]_{5350-my poor dear child} , to find [you]_{5346-my sweet child} still display a perversity , and a wilful neglect of the blessed means of grace , which must ( humanly speaking ) draw down a judgment upon [you]_{5346-my sweet child} . Now , open [your]_{5346-my sweet child} heart to [me]_1093-me , the whole of [your]_{5346-my sweet child} little unregenerate heart , [you]_{5346-my sweet child} mysterious but ( [I]_1093-me firmly believe ) [not ill - disposed lambkin]_{5351-not ill - disposed lambkin} . Tell [me]_1093-me all [your]_{5346-my sweet child} thoughts , [your]_{5346-my sweet child} broodings , [your]_{5346-my sweet child} dreams — in fact , [your]_{5346-my sweet child} entire experiences . [Uncle Edgar]_{310-uncle edgar} will leave [the room]_{823-the room} , if [you]_{5346-my sweet child} wish it . "_[1093-me] " Certainly not , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said . " Quite right , [[my]_0-i dear]_{5318-my dear} ; have no secrets from [one who has been [[your]_{5346-my sweet child} second father]_{5355-your second father}]_{5354-one who has been your second father} . Now tell [me]_0-i all [your]_{5346-my sweet child} little troubles . Make [me]_0-i [[your]_{5346-my sweet child} mother - [confessor]_{5357-confessor}]_{5356-your mother - confessor} . [I]_0-i take the deepest interest in [you]_{5346-my sweet child} . True , [I]_0-i am only [a weak and sinful woman]_{5358-a weak and sinful woman} , but [my]_0-i chastisements have worked together for [my]_0-i edification , and [God]_303-god has been graciously pleased to grant [me]_0-i peace of mind . "_[0-i] " [You]_1094-i do n't look as if [you]_1094-i had much , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i cried . [Her]_1094-i large eyes flashed a quick start from their depths , like the stir of a newly - fathomed sea . [[My]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} 's face gleamed with a smile of sly amusement . Recovering at once [her]_1094-i calm objective superiority , [she]_1094-i proceeded : " [I]_1094-i have been troubled and chastened severely , but now [I]_1094-i perceive that it was all for the best . But perhaps it is not very graceful to remind [me]_1094-i of that . Yet , since all [my]_1094-i trials have worked together for [my]_1094-i good , on that account [I]_1094-i am , under Providence , better qualified to advise [you]_0-i , in [your]_0-i dark and perilous state . [I]_1094-i have seen much of what [thoughtless people]_{5359-thoughtless people} call ' life . ' But in helping [you]_0-i , [I]_1094-i wish to proceed on higher principles than those of [the world]_{798-the world} . [You]_0-i possess , beyond question , a strong and resolute will , but in [your]_0-i present benighted course it can lead only to misery . Now , what is the principal aim of [your]_0-i life , [my]_1094-i love ? "_[1094-i] " The death of [[my]_1094-i father 's murderer]_{5361-my father 's murderer} . "_[1094-i] " Exactly so . [[My]_{912-my guardian} unhappy child]_{5362-my unhappy child} , [I]_{912-my guardian} knew it too well . Though a dark sin is [your]_0-i leading star , [I]_{912-my guardian} feel too painfully [my]_{912-my guardian} own shortcomings , and old unregenerate tendencies , to refuse [you]_0-i [my]_{912-my guardian} carnal sympathy . [You]_0-i know [my]_{912-my guardian} feelings , [Edgar]_{310-uncle edgar} . "_{[912-my guardian]} " Indeed , [Eleanor]_311-eleanor , "_{[912-my guardian]} replied [[my]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} , with an impenetrable smile , " how should [I]_{912-my guardian} ? [You]_311-eleanor have always been such [a model of every virtue]_{5363-a model of every virtue} . "_{[912-my guardian]} [She]_{912-my guardian} gave [him]_1097-him a glance , and again addressed [me]_0-i . " Now suppose , [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara , that , after years of brooding and lonely anguish , [you]_293-clara obtain [your]_293-clara revenge at last , who will be any the better for it ? "_{[912-my guardian]} " [[My]_{912-my guardian} father]_{731-my father} and [I.]_{912-my guardian} "_{[912-my guardian]} " [[Your]_{912-my guardian} father]_{5365-your father} indeed ! How [you]_{912-my guardian} wrong [his]_{5365-your father} sweet and most forgiving nature ! "_{[912-my guardian]} This was the first thing [she]_{912-my guardian} had said that touched [me]_0-i ; and that because [I]_0-i had often thought of it before . But [I]_0-i would not let [her]_{912-my guardian} see it . " Though [his]_{5365-your father} nature were [an angel]_{5366-an angel} 's , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i cried , " as [I]_0-i believe it was , never could [he]_{5365-your father} forgive [that being who tore [him]_{5365-your father} from [me]_0-i and [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother}]_{5367-that being who tore him from me and my mother} . [I]_0-i know that [he]_{5365-your father} watches [me]_0-i now , and must be cold and [a wanderer]_{5369-a wanderer} , until [I]_0-i have done [my]_0-i duty to [him]_{5365-your father} and [myself]_0-i . "_[0-i] " [[You]_{912-my guardian} awful child]_{5370-you awful child} . Why , [you]_{912-my guardian} 'll frighten [us]_5371-us all . But [you]_{912-my guardian} make it the more [my]_{912-my guardian} duty . Come with [me]_{912-my guardian} now , and let [me]_{912-my guardian} inculcate the doctrines of a higher and holier style . "_{[912-my guardian]} " Thank [you]_{912-my guardian} , [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} , [I]_1099-she want no teaching , except [[my]_1099-she mother]_{746-my mother} 's . "_[1099-she] " [You]_{912-my guardian} are too wilful and headstrong for [her]_{746-my mother} . Come to [me]_0-i , [[my]_0-i poor stray lamb]_{5373-my poor stray lamb} . "_[0-i] " [I]_{912-my guardian} would sooner go to [a butcher]_{5374-a butcher} , [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} . "_{[912-my guardian]} " Is it possible ? Are [you]_{912-my guardian} so lost to all sense of right ? "_[1099-she] " Yes , if [you]_1099-she are right , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i replied ; and left [the room]_{823-the room} . Thenceforth [she]_1099-she pursued tactics of another kind . [She]_1099-she tried [me]_0-i with flattery and fictitious confidence , likely from [a woman of [her]_1099-she maturity to win [a young girl]_{1101-a young girl}]_{1100-a woman of her maturity to win a young girl} , by inflating self - esteem : [she]_1099-she even feigned a warm interest in [my]_0-i search , and wished to partake in [my]_0-i readings and secret musings . Indeed , [I]_0-i could seldom escape [her]_1099-she . [I]_0-i am ready to own that , by [her]_1099-she suggestions and quick apprehension , [she]_1099-she gained some ascendancy over [me]_0-i , but not a tenth part of what [she]_1099-she thought [she]_1099-she had won ; and [I]_0-i still continued to long for [her]_1099-she departure . Of this , however , no symptom appeared : [she]_1099-she made [herself]_1099-she quite at [home]_1102-home , and did [her]_1099-she best to become indispensable to [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} . [Clement Daldy]_308-clement had full opportunity to commend [himself]_308-clement to [my]_0-i favour . [We]_1104-we were constantly thrown together , in the presence of [[his]_308-clement mother]_{1066-his mother} , and the absence of [mine]_0-i . For a long time , [I]_0-i was too young , and too much engrossed by the object for which [I]_0-i lived , to have any inkling of [their]_1106-their scheme ; but suddenly a suspicion broke upon [me]_0-i . [[My]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} and [[his]_308-clement sister - in - law]_{1108-his sister - in - law} had formed , as [I]_0-i thought , a deliberate plot for marrying [me]_0-i , when old enough , to [[that tailor]_{1109-that tailor} 's block]_{1110-that tailor 's block} . [The one]_{1111-the one} had been so long accustomed to the lordship of [the property]_{1112-the property} , to some county influence , and great command of money , that it was not likely [he]_308-clement would forego the whole without a struggle . But [he]_308-clement knew quite well that the moment [I]_0-i should be of age [I]_0-i would dispense with [his]_308-clement wardship , and even with [[his]_308-clement residence [there]_1114-there]_{1113-his residence there} , and devote all [I]_0-i had to the pursuit of [my]_0-i " monomania . "_{[308-clement]} All [his]_308-clement endeavours to make [me]_0-i [his]_308-clement thrall had failed , partly from [my]_0-i suspicions , partly from a repugnance which could not be conquered . Of course , [I]_0-i intended to give [him]_308-clement an ample return for [his]_308-clement stewardship , which had been wise and unwearying . But this was not what [he]_308-clement wanted . The motives of [[his]_308-clement accomplice]_{1115-his accomplice} require no explanation . If once this neat little scheme should succeed , [I]_0-i must remain in [their]_{1115-his accomplice} hands , [Clement]_308-clement being [nobody]_1116-nobody , until [they]_{1115-his accomplice} should happen to quarrel for [me]_0-i . To show what [Clement Daldy]_308-clement was , a brief anecdote is enough . When [we]_1117-we were about sixteen years old , [we]_1117-we sat in [the park]_{892-the park} one morning , at [the corner of [the lake]_{953-the lake}]_{1119-the corner of the lake} ; [Clement]_308-clement 's little curled spaniel , which [he]_308-clement loved as much as [he]_308-clement could love anything , was gambolling round [us]_1117-we . As [the boy]_{1121-the boy} lounged along , half asleep , on the rustic chair , with [his]_{1121-the boy} silky face shaded by a broad hat , and [his]_{1121-the boy} bright curls glistening like daffodils playing , [I]_0-i thought what a pretty peep - show [he]_{1121-the boy} made , and wondered whether [he]_{1121-the boy} could anyhow be [the owner of a soul]_{1122-the owner of a soul} . " Oh , [Clara]_293-clara , "_{[1121-the boy]} [he]_{1121-the boy} lisped , as [he]_{1121-the boy} chanced to look up—"Couthin [Clara]_293-clara , [I]_{1121-the boy} wish [you]_293-clara would n't look at [me]_{1121-the boy} tho . "_{[1121-the boy]} " And did it look fierce at its dolly ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said ; for [I]_0-i was always good - natured to [him]_{1121-the boy} . " [Dolly]_313-dolly knows [I]_0-i would n't hurt it , for it 's house full of sugar - plums . "_[0-i] " Then do let [me]_0-i go to thleep ; [you]_{1121-the boy} are such [a howwid girl]_{5375-a howwid girl} . "_[0-i] So [I]_0-i hushed [him]_{1121-the boy} off with a cradle song . But before the long lashes sunk flat on [his]_{1121-the boy} cheeks , like the ermine tips on [my]_0-i muff , and while [his]_{1121-the boy} red lips yet trembled like cherries in the wind , [my]_0-i attention was suddenly drawn to [the lake]_{953-the lake} . There was a plashing , and barking , and hissing , and napping of snow - white wings — poor [Juan]_314-juan engaged in unequal combat with [two fierce swans who had a nest on [the island]_{1125-the island}]_{1124-two fierce swans who had a nest on the island} . The poor little dog , though [he]_314-juan fought most gallantly , was soon driven into deep water , and the swans kept knocking [him]_314-juan under with rapid and powerful strokes . Seeing [him]_314-juan almost drowned , [I]_0-i called [Clement]_308-clement to save [him]_314-juan at once . " [I]_{1126-the brave youth} ca n't , "_{[1126-the brave youth]} said [the brave youth]_{1126-the brave youth} ; " [you]_0-i go if [you]_0-i like . [They]_{1124-two fierce swans who had a nest on the island} 'll kill [me]_{1126-the brave youth} , and [I]_{1126-the brave youth} ca n't bear it ; and the water ith tho cold . "_{[1126-the brave youth]} In a moment [I]_0-i pushed off [the boat which was near]_{1127-the boat which was near} , jumped into it , and , seizing an oar , contrived to beat back the swans , and lifted the poor little dog on board , gasping , half - drowned , and woefully beaten . Meanwhile [[my]_0-i lord elect]_{1128-my lord elect} had leaped on the seat for safety , and was wringing [his]_{1128-my lord elect} white little hands , and dancing and crying , " Oh , [Clara'll]_315-clara'll be throwned , and [they]_{1124-two fierce swans who had a nest on the island} 'll say it was [me]_{1128-my lord elect} . Oh , what thall [I]_{1128-my lord elect} do ! what thall [I]_{1128-my lord elect} do ! "_{[1128-my lord elect]} Even when [I]_0-i brought [him]_{1128-my lord elect} [his]_0-i little pet safe , [he]_{1128-my lord elect} would not touch [him]_{1128-my lord elect} , because [he]_{1128-my lord elect} was wet ; so [I]_0-i laid [him]_{1128-my lord elect} full on [his]_{1128-my lord elect} lap . The spring of the year 1849 was remarkable , throughout [the western counties]_{983-the western counties} , for long drought . [I]_0-i know not how it may be in [the east of [England]_9-england]_{1130-the east of england} , but [I]_0-i have observed that in the west long droughts occur only in the spring and early summer . In the autumn [we]_1131-we have sometimes as much as six weeks without rain , and in the summer a month at most , but all the real droughts ( so far as [my]_0-i experience goes ) commence in February or March ; these are , however , so rare , and April has won such poetic fame for showers , and July for heat and dryness , that what [I]_0-i state is at variance with the popular impression . Be that as it may , about Valentine's - day , 1849 , and after a length of very changeable weather , the wind fixed its home in the east , and the sky for a week was grey and monotonous . Brilliant weather ensued ; white frost at night , and strong sun by day . The frost became less biting as the year went on , and the sun more powerful ; there were two or three overcast days , and [people]_1132-people hoped for rain . But no rain fell , except one poor drizzle , more like dew than rain . With habits now so ingrained as to become true pleasures , [I]_0-i marked the effects of the drought on all the scene around [me]_0-i . [The meadows]_{1133-the meadows} took the colour of Russian leather , the cornlands that of a knife - board . The young leaves of the wood hung pinched and crisp , unable to shake off their tunics , and more like catkins than leaves . [The pools]_{1134-the pools} went low and dark and thick with a coppery scum ( in autumn it would have been green ) , and little bubbles came up and popped where the earth cracked round the sides . The tap - rooted plants looked comely and brave in the morning , after [their]_{1133-the meadows} drink of dew , but flagged and flopped in the afternoon , as a clubbed cabbage does . As for [those which had only the surface to suck , they dried by the acre , and powdered away like the base of a bonfire]_{1135-those which had only the surface to suck , they dried by the acre , and powdered away like the base of a bonfire} . [The ground]_{1136-the ground} was hard as horn , and fissured in stars , and angles , and jagged gaping cracks , like a dissecting map or a badly - plastered wall . It amused [me]_0-i sometimes to see a beetle suddenly cut off from [[his]_{1128-my lord elect} home]_{1137-his home} by that which to [him]_{1128-my lord elect} was an earthquake . How [he]_{1128-my lord elect} would run to and fro , look doubtfully into [the dark abyss]_{1138-the dark abyss} , then , rising to the occasion , bridge [[his]_{1128-my lord elect} road]_{1139-his road} with a straw . The snails shrunk close in their shells , and resigned themselves to a spongy distance of slime . The birds might be seen in the morning , hopping over [the hollows of [the shrunken ponds]_{1141-the shrunken ponds}]_{1140-the hollows of the shrunken ponds} , prying for worms , which had shut themselves up like caddises deep in [the thirsty ground]_{1142-the thirsty ground} . [[Our]_1143-our lake]_{1144-our lake} , which was very deep at the lower end , became a refuge for [all the widgeons and coots and moorhens of [the neighbourhood]_{5329-the neighbourhood}]_{1145-all the widgeons and coots and moorhens of the neighbourhood} , and [the quick - diving grebe]_{1147-the quick - diving grebe} , and even [the summer snipe]_{1148-the summer snipe} , with [his]_{1148-the summer snipe} wild and lonely " cheep . "_{[1148-the summer snipe]} [The brink of [the water]_{1150-the water}]_{1149-the brink of the water} was feathered , and dabbled with countless impressions of feet of all sorts — dibbers , and waders , and wagtails , and weasels , and otters , and foxes , and the bores of a thousand bills , and muscles laid high and dry . For [my]_0-i own pet robins [I]_0-i used to fill pans with water along the edge of the grass , for [I]_0-i knew [their]_1151-their dislike of the mineral spring ( which never went dry ) , and to these [they]_1151-their would fly down and drink , and perk up [their]_1151-their impudent heads , and sluice [their]_1151-their poor little dusty wings ; and then , as [they]_1151-their could not sing now , [they]_1151-their would give [me]_0-i a chirp of gratitude . When the drought had lasted about three months , the east wind , which till then had been cold and creeping , became suddenly parching hot . Arid and heavy , and choking , it panted along [the glades]_{1152-the glades} , like a dog on [a dusty road]_{1153-a dusty road} . It came down [the water - meadows]_{1154-the water - meadows} , where the crowsfoot grew , and wild celery , and it licked up the dregs of [the stream]_{1155-the stream} , and powdered the flood - gates , all skeletons now , with grey dust . [It]_1156-it came through [the copse]_{1157-the copse} , and the young leaves shrunk before it , like [a child]_{782-a child} from the hiss of a snake . The blast pushed the doors of [[our]_1159-our house]_{1160-our house} , and its dry wrinkled hand was laid on the walls and the staircase and woodwork ; a hot grime tracked its steps , and a taint fell on all that was fresh . As it folded its baleful wings , and lay down like a desert dragon , vegetation , so long a time sick , gave way at last to despair , and flagged off flabbed and dead . The clammy grey dust , like hot sand thrown from ramparts , ate to the core of everything , choking the shrivelled pores and stifling the languid breath . [Old gaffers]_{1161-old gaffers} were talking of murrain in cattle , and famine and plague among [men]_1003-men , and [farmers]_1163-farmers were too badly off to grumble . But the change even now was at hand . The sky which had long presented a hard and cloudless blue , but trailing a light haze round its rim in the morning , was bedimmed more every day with a white scudding vapour across it . The sun grew larger and paler , and leaned more on the heavens , which soon became ribbed with white skeleton - clouds ; and these in their turn grew softer and deeper , then furry and ravelled and wisped . One night the hot east wind dropped , and , next morning ( though the vane had not changed ) , the clouds drove heavily from [the south - west]_{1164-the south - west} . But these signs of rain grew for several days before a single drop fell ; as is always the case after discontinuance , it was hard to begin again . Indeed , the sky was amassed with black clouds , and the dust went swirling like a mat beaten over the trees , and the air became cold , and the wind moaned three days and three nights , and yet no rain fell . As [old Whitehead]_{316-old whitehead} , [the man at [the lodge]_{1166-the lodge}]_{1165-the man at the lodge} , well observed , it had " forgotten the way to rain . "_{[316-old whitehead]} Then it suddenly cleared one morning ( the 28th of May ) , and the west was streaked with red clouds , that came up to crow at the sun , and the wind for the time was lulled , and [the hills]_{1167-the hills} looked close to [my]_0-i hand . So [I]_0-i went to [[[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's grave]_{990-my father 's grave} without the little green watering - pot or a trowel to fill the chinks , for [I]_0-i knew it would rain that very day . In the eastern shrubbery there was a pond , which [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} had taken much trouble to make and adorn ; it was not fed by the mineral spring , for that was thought likely to injure the fish , but by [a larger and purer stream]_{1171-a larger and purer stream} , called [the " Witches ' brook]_{5376-the " witches ' brook} , "_[0-i] which , however , was now quite dry . [This pond]_{1172-this pond} had been planted around and through with silver - weed , thrumwort and sun - clew , water - lilies , arrow - head , and the rare double frog - bit , and other aquatic plants , some of them brought from a long distance . At one end there was [a grotto]_{1173-a grotto} , cased with fantastic porous stone , and inside [it]_{1173-a grotto} a small fountain played . But now the fountain was silent , and [the pond]_{1174-the pond} shrunk almost to [its]_{1174-the pond} centre . The silver eels which once had abounded here , finding [their]_1175-their element likely to fail , made a migration , one dewy night , overland to [the lake below]_{1176-the lake below} . The fish , in vain envy of [that great enterprise]_{1177-that great enterprise} , huddled together in the small wet space which remained , with their back - fins here and there above water . When [any one]_{1178-any one} came near , [they]_{1178-any one} dashed away , as [I]_0-i have seen grey mullet do in [the shallow sea - side pools]_{1179-the shallow sea - side pools} . Several times [I]_0-i had water poured in for [their]_{1178-any one} benefit , but it was gone again directly . The mud round the edge of the remnant puddle was baked and cracked , and foul with an oozy green sludge , the relic of water - weeds . [This little lake]_{1180-this little lake} , once so clear and pretty , and full of bright dimples and crystal shadows , now looked so forlorn and wasted and old , like a bright eye worn dim with years , and the trees stood round [it]_{1180-this little lake} so faded and wan , the poplar unkempt of its silver and green , the willow without wherewithal to weep , and the sprays of the birch laid dead at its feet ; altogether [it]_{1180-this little lake} looked so empty and sad and piteous , that [I]_0-i had been deeply grieved for the sake of [him]_1181-his who had loved it . So , when the sky clouded up again , in the afternoon of that day , [I]_0-i hastened thither to mark the first effects of the rain . As [I]_0-i reached the white shell - walk , which loosely girt [the pond]_{1174-the pond} , the lead - coloured sky took a greyer and woollier cast , and overhead became blurred and pulpy ; while round the horizon it lifted in frayed festoons . As [I]_0-i took [my]_0-i seat in [the grotto]_{1183-the grotto} , the big drops began to patter among the dry leaves , and the globules rolled in the dust , like parched peas . A long hissing sound ensued , and a cloud of powder went up , and the trees moved their boughs with a heavy dull sway . Then broke from the laurels the song of the long - silent thrush , and reptiles , and insects , and all that could move , darted forth to rejoice in the freshness . [The earth]_{1046-the earth} sent forth that smell of sweet newness , the breath of young nature awaking , which reminds [us]_1185-us of milk , and of clover , of balm , and the smile of [a child]_{782-a child} . But , most of all , it was in and around [the pool]_{1187-the pool} that the signs of new life were stirring . As the circles began to jostle , and the bubbles sailed closer together , the water , the slime , and the banks , danced , flickered , and darkened , with a whirl of living creatures . The surface was brushed , as green corn is flawed by the wind , with the quivering dip of swallows ' wings ; and the ripples that raced to [the land]_{1188-the land} splashed over the feet of the wagtails . Here , as [I]_0-i marked all narrowly , and seemed to rejoice in [their]_{1178-any one} gladness , a sudden new wonder befell [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i was watching a monster frog emerge from [his]_1181-his penthouse of ooze , and lift with some pride [his]_1181-his brown spots and [his]_1181-his bright golden throat from the matted green cake of dry weed , when a quick gleam shot through the fibres . With a listless curiosity , wondering whether the frog , like [[his]_1181-his cousin]_{1189-his cousin} the toad , were [a jeweller]_{1190-a jeweller} , [I]_0-i advanced to the brim of [the pool]_{1187-the pool} . [The poor frog]_{1192-the poor frog} looked timidly at [me]_0-i with [his]_{1192-the poor frog} large starting eyes ; then , shouldering off the green coil , made one rapid spring , and was safe in [the water]_{1150-the water} . But [his]_{1192-the poor frog} movement had further disclosed some glittering object below . Determined to know what it was , despite the rain , [I]_0-i placed some large pebbles for steps , ran lightly , and lifted the weed . Before [me]_0-i lay , as bright as if polished that day , with the jewelled hilt towards [me]_0-i , a long narrow dagger . With a haste too rapid for thought to keep up , [I]_0-i snatched it , and rushed to [the grotto]_{1183-the grotto} . There , in the drought of [my]_0-i long revenge , with eyes on fire , and teeth set hard and dry , and every root of [my]_0-i heart cleaving and crying to heaven for blood , [I]_0-i pored on that weapon , whose last sheath had been — how well [I]_0-i knew what . [I]_0-i did not lift it towards [God]_303-god , nor fall on [my]_0-i knees and make a theatrical vow ; for that there was no necessity . But for the moment [my]_0-i life and [my]_0-i soul seemed to pass along that cold blade , just as [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's had done . A treacherous , blue , three - cornered blade , with a point as keen as a viper 's fang , sublustrous like ice in the moonlight , sleuth as hate , and tenacious as death . To [my]_0-i curdled and fury - struck vision it seemed to writhe in the gleam of the storm which played along it like a corpse - candle . [I]_0-i fancied how it had quivered and rung to find itself deep in that heart . [My]_0-i passions at length overpowered [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i lay , how long [I]_0-i know not , utterly insensible . When [I]_0-i came to [myself]_0-i again , the storm had passed over , [the calm pool]_{1196-the calm pool} covered [my]_0-i stepping stones , the shrubs and trees wept joy in the moonlight , the nightingales sang in the elms , healing and beauty were in the air , peace and content walked abroad on [the earth]_{1046-the earth} . The May moon slept on the water before [me]_0-i , and streamed through [the grotto arch]_{1198-the grotto arch} ; but there it fell cold and ghost - like upon the tool of murder . Over this [I]_0-i hastily flung [my]_0-i scarf ; coward , perhaps [I]_0-i was , for [I]_0-i could not handle it then , but fled to [the house]_{764-the house} and dreamed in [[my]_0-i lonely bed]_{1200-my lonely bed} . When [I]_0-i examined the dagger next day , [I]_0-i found it to be of foreign fabric . " Ferrati , [Bologna]_317-bologna , "_[0-i] the name and abode of [the maker]_{1201-the maker} , as [I]_0-i supposed , was damascened on the hilt . A cross , like that on the footprint , but smaller , and made of gold , was inlaid on the blade , just above the handle . The hilt itself was wreathed with a snake of green enamel , having garnet eyes . From the fine temper of the metal , or some annealing process , it showed not a stain of rust , and the blood which remained after writing the letters before described had probably been washed off by the water . [I]_0-i laid it most carefully by , along with [my]_0-i other relics , in a box which [I]_0-i always kept locked . So [God]_303-god , as [I]_0-i thought , by [His]_303-god sun , and [His]_303-god seasons , and weather , and the mind [He]_303-god had so prepared , was holding the clue for [me]_0-i , and shaking it clear from time to time , along [my]_0-i dark and many - winding path . Soon after this , a ridiculous thing occurred , the consequences of which were grave enough . The summer and autumn after that weary drought were rather wet and stormy . One night towards the end of October , it blew a heavy gale after torrents of rain . Going to [the churchyard]_{992-the churchyard} next day , [I]_0-i found , as [I]_0-i had expected , that the flowers so carefully kept through the summer were shattered and strewn by the tempest ; and so [I]_0-i returned to [the garden]_{1203-the garden} for [others]_869-others to plant in [their]_869-others stead . [[My]_0-i cousin]_{1205-my cousin} [Clement]_308-clement ( as [he]_308-clement was told to call [himself]_308-clement ) came sauntering towards [me]_0-i among the beds . [His]_303-god usual look of shallow brightness and empty self - esteem had failed [him]_303-god for the moment , and [he]_303-god looked like [a fan - tailed pigeon who has tumbled down the horse - rack]_{1206-a fan - tailed pigeon who has tumbled down the horse - rack} . [He]_303-god followed [me]_0-i to and fro , with a sort of stuttering walk , as [I]_0-i chose the plants [I]_0-i liked best ; but [I]_0-i took little notice of [him]_303-god , for such had been [my]_0-i course since [I]_0-i first discovered [their]_1207-their scheme . At last , as [I]_0-i stooped to dig up a white verbena , [he]_303-god came behind [me]_0-i , and began [his]_303-god errand with more than [his]_303-god usual lisp . This [I]_0-i shall not copy , as it is not worth the trouble . " Oh , [Clara]_293-clara , "_[303-god] [he]_303-god said , " [I]_303-god want to tell [you]_293-clara something , if [you]_293-clara 'll only be good - natured ! "_[303-god] " Do n't [you]_303-god see [I]_0-i am busy now ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i replied , without turning to look . " Wo n't it do when [you]_303-god have taken [your]_303-god curl - papers off ? "_[303-god] " Now , [Clara]_293-clara , [you]_293-clara know that [I]_303-god never use curl - papers . [My]_303-god hair does n't want it . [You]_293-clara know it 's much prettier than [your]_293-clara long waving black stuff , and it curls of its own accord , if [mamma]_5377-mamma only brushes it . But [I]_303-god want to tell [you]_293-clara something particular . "_[303-god] " Well , then , be quick , for [I]_0-i am going away . "_[0-i] And with that [I]_0-i stood up and confronted [him]_303-god . [He]_303-god was scarcely so tall as [myself]_0-i , and [his]_303-god light showy dress and pink rose of a face , which seemed made to be worn in the hair , were thrown into brighter relief by [my]_0-i sombre apparel and earnest twilight look . Some lurking sense of this contrast seemed to add to [his]_303-god hesitation . At last [he]_303-god began again : " [You]_0-i know , [Cousin Clara]_318-clara , [you]_0-i must not be angry with [me]_303-god , because it is n't [my]_303-god fault . "_[303-god] " What is not [your]_303-god fault ? "_[303-god] " Why , that [I]_303-god should fall — what do [they]_5378-they call it?—fall in love , [I]_303-god suppose . "_[303-god] " [You]_0-i fall in love , [[you]_0-i dissolute doll]_{5379-you dissolute doll} ! How dare [you]_0-i fall in love , [sir]_5380-sir , without [my]_303-god leave ? "_[303-god] " Well , [I]_303-god was afraid to ask [you]_0-i , [Clara]_318-clara . [I]_303-god could n't tell what [you]_1208-i would say . "_[303-god] " Oh , that must depend , of course , on who [Mrs. Doll]_313-dolly is to be ! If it 's a good little thing with blue satin arms , and a sash and a slip , and pretty blue eyes that go with a string , perhaps [I]_303-god 'll forgive [you]_0-i , [poor child]_{5381-poor child} , and set [you]_0-i up with [a house]_{5382-a house} , and a tea - set , and [a mother - of - pearl perambulator]_{5383-a mother - of - pearl perambulator} . "_[303-god] " Now , do n't talk nonsense , "_[1208-i] [he]_1208-i answered . " Before long [I]_1208-i shall be [a man]_{5384-a man} , and then [you]_0-i 'll be afraid of [me]_1208-i , and put up [your]_0-i hands , and shriek , and want [me]_1208-i to kiss [you]_0-i . "_[1208-i] [I]_0-i had indulged [him]_1208-i too much , and [his]_1208-i tongue was taking liberties . [I]_0-i soon stopped [him]_1208-i . " How dare [you]_1208-i bark at [me]_0-i , [you]_1208-i wretched little white - woolled nursery dog ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i left [him]_1208-i , and went with [my]_0-i basket of flowers along [the path]_{1209-the path} to [the churchyard]_{992-the churchyard} . For a while [he]_1208-i stood there frightened , till [[his]_1208-i mother]_{1066-his mother} looked forth from the drawing - room window . Between the two fears [he]_1208-i chose the less , and followed [me]_0-i to [[[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's grave]_{990-my father 's grave} . [I]_0-i stood there and angrily waved [him]_1208-i back , but [he]_1208-i still persisted , though trembling . " [Cousin Clara]_318-clara , "_[1208-i] [he]_1208-i said — and [his]_1208-i lisp was quite gone , and [he]_1208-i tried to be in a passion—"Cousin [Clara]_318-clara , [you]_318-clara shall hear what [I]_1208-i have got to say . [You]_318-clara have lived with [me]_1208-i now a long time , and [I]_1208-i 'm sure [we]_5385-we have agreed very well , and [I]_1208-i — [I]_1208-i — no , [I]_1208-i do n't see why [we]_5385-we should not be married . "_[1208-i] " Do n't [you]_1208-i indeed , [sir]_5380-sir ? "_[1208-i] " Perhaps , "_[1208-i] [he]_1208-i continued , " [you]_318-clara are afraid that [I]_1208-i do n't care about [you]_318-clara . Really now , [I]_1208-i often think that [you]_318-clara would be very good - looking , if [you]_318-clara would only laugh now and then , and leave off those nasty black gowns ; and then if [you]_318-clara would only leave off being so grand , and mysterious , and stately , and getting up so early , [I]_1208-i would let [you]_318-clara do as [you]_318-clara liked , and [you]_318-clara might paint [me]_1208-i and have a lock of [my]_1208-i hair . "_[1208-i] " [Clement Daldy]_308-clement , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i asked , " do [you]_1208-i see [that lake]_{5387-that lake} ? "_[1208-i] " Yes , "_[1208-i] [he]_1208-i replied , turning pale , and inclined to fly . " There 's water enough there now . If [you]_318-clara ever dare again to say one word like this to [me]_1208-i , or even to show by [your]_318-clara looks that [you]_318-clara think it , [I]_1208-i 'll take [you]_318-clara and drown [you]_318-clara there , as sure as [[my]_1208-i father]_{731-my father} lies here . "_[1208-i] [He]_1208-i slunk away quickly without a word , and could eat no lunch that day . In the afternoon , as [I]_0-i sat in [my]_0-i favourite bow - window seat , [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} glided in . [She]_{312-mrs. daldy} had put on with care [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} clinging smile , as [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} would an Indian shawl . [I]_0-i thought how much better [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} face would have looked with its natural , bold , haughty gaze . " [[My]_{1214-this pious tidewaiter} dear]_{5318-my dear} [Clara]_318-clara , "_{[1214-this pious tidewaiter]} began [this pious tidewaiter]_{1214-this pious tidewaiter} , " what have [you]_318-clara done to vex so [[your]_318-clara poor cousin]_{5390-your poor cousin} [Clement]_308-clement ? "_{[1214-this pious tidewaiter]} " Only this , [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} : [he]_308-clement was foolish or mad , and [I]_{312-mrs. daldy} gave [him]_308-clement advice in a truly Christian spirit , entirely for [his]_308-clement own good . "_{[312-mrs. daldy]} " [I]_{1214-this pious tidewaiter} hope , [[my]_{1214-this pious tidewaiter} dear]_{5318-my dear} , that some day it may be [his]_308-clement duty as well as [his]_308-clement privilege to advise [you]_318-clara . But , of course , [you]_318-clara need not take [his]_308-clement advice . [[My]_{1214-this pious tidewaiter} [Clara]_318-clara]_{5392-my clara} loves [her]_318-clara own way as much as [any girl [I]_{1214-this pious tidewaiter} ever knew]_{5393-any girl i ever knew} ; and with poor [Clement]_308-clement [she]_318-clara will be safe to have it . "_{[1214-this pious tidewaiter]} " No doubt of that , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i replied . " And then , [[my]_0-i pet]_{5394-my pet} , [you]_318-clara will be in a far better position than [you]_318-clara could attain as [an unmarried girl]_{5395-an unmarried girl} to pursue the great aim of [your]_318-clara life ; so far , [I]_0-i mean , as is not inconsistent with the spirit of Christian forgiveness . [[Your]_318-clara guardian]_{5396-your guardian} has thought of that , in effecting this arrangement ; and [I]_0-i trust that [I]_0-i was not wrong in allowing so fair a prospect , under Providence , of [your]_318-clara ultimate peace of mind to influence [me]_0-i considerably when [he]_{5396-your guardian} sought [my]_0-i consent . "_[0-i] " [I]_{1214-this pious tidewaiter} am sure [I]_{1214-this pious tidewaiter} am much obliged to [you]_318-clara . "_{[1214-this pious tidewaiter]} " [I]_{1214-this pious tidewaiter} can not conceal from [you]_318-clara , so clear - sighted as [you]_318-clara are — and if [I]_{1214-this pious tidewaiter} could , [I]_{1214-this pious tidewaiter} object to concealment of any kind , on principle — that there are also certain worldly advantages , which are not without weight , however the heart be weaned by trials and chastened from transient things . And [[your]_318-clara guardian]_{5396-your guardian} has this arrangement so very much at heart . [[My]_{1214-this pious tidewaiter} own dear child]_{5398-my own dear child} , [I]_{1214-this pious tidewaiter} have felt for [you]_318-clara so long that [I]_{1214-this pious tidewaiter} love [you]_318-clara as [a daughter]_{5399-a daughter} . How thankful [I]_{1214-this pious tidewaiter} ought to be to [the Giver of all good things]_{5400-the giver of all good things} to have [you]_318-clara really [[my]_{1214-this pious tidewaiter} own dear child]_{5398-my own dear child} . "_{[1214-this pious tidewaiter]} " Be thankful , [madam]_5402-madam , when [you]_5402-madam have got it . This is a good thing which under [Providence]_{319-providence} [you]_5402-madam must learn to do without . "_[0-i] It was coarse of [me]_0-i to hint at [my]_0-i riches . But what could [I]_0-i do with [her]_1215-her ? " Why , [Clara]_318-clara , "_[1215-her] [she]_1215-her asked , in great amazement , " [you]_318-clara can not be so foolish and wilful as to throw away this chance of revenge ? If only for [[your]_318-clara dear mother]_{5347-your dear mother} 's sake , as well as [[your]_318-clara father]_{5365-your father} 's , it is the path of duty . Let [me]_1215-her tell [you]_318-clara , both [she]_{5347-your dear mother} and [yourself]_318-clara are very much more in [[your]_318-clara guardian]_{5396-your guardian} 's power than [you]_318-clara have any idea . And what would be [[your]_318-clara poor father]_{5406-your poor father} 's wish , who has left [you]_318-clara so entirely to [[his]_{5406-your poor father} brother]_{908-his brother} 's care and discretion ? Will [you]_318-clara put off for ever the discovery of [[his]_{5406-your poor father} murderer]_{5408-his murderer} ? "_[1215-her] " [[My]_0-i father]_{731-my father} , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said , proudly , " would scorn [me]_0-i for doing a thing below [him]_{5406-your poor father} and [myself]_0-i . [The last of [the Vaughans]_{5411-the vaughans}]_{5410-the last of the vaughans} to be plotted away to [a grocer]_{5412-a grocer} 's doll ! "_[0-i] It had been a trial of temper ; and contempt was too much for hypocrisy . Through the rouge of [the world]_{798-the world} , and the pearl - powder of religion , nature flushed forth on [her]_1217-her cheek ; for [she]_1217-her really loved [[her]_1217-her son]_{1218-her son} . [She]_1217-her knew where to wound [me]_0-i the deepest . " Is it no condescension in [us]_5413-us that [[my]_0-i beautiful boy]_{5414-my beautiful boy} should stoop to [the maniac - child of [a man who was stabbed — stabbed in [his]_{5416-a man who was stabbed — stabbed in his midnight bed} midnight bed]_{5416-a man who was stabbed — stabbed in his midnight bed} — to atone , no doubt , for some low act of [his]_{5416-a man who was stabbed — stabbed in his midnight bed} own]_{5415-the maniac - child of a man who was stabbed — stabbed in his midnight bed — to atone , no doubt , for some low act of his own} ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i sprang up , and rang the bell . [Thomas Kenwood]_295-tom , who made a point of attending [me]_0-i , came at once . [I]_0-i said to [him]_295-tom , calmly and slowly : " Allow [this person]_{5417-this person} one hour to pack [her]_{5417-this person} things . Get a fly from [the Walnut Tree Inn]_{5418-the walnut tree inn} , and see [her]_{5417-this person} beyond [the Lodge]_{1166-the lodge} . "_[0-i] If [I]_0-i had told [him]_295-tom to drag [her]_1219-she away by the hair , [I]_0-i believe [that man]_{1220-that man} would have done it . [She]_1219-she shrunk away from [me]_0-i ; for the moment [her]_1219-she spirit was quelled , and [she]_1219-she trembled into a chair . " [I]_1219-she assure [you]_1219-she , [Clara]_318-clara , [I]_1219-she did not mean what [I]_1219-she said . [You]_1219-she provoked [me]_1219-she so . "_[1219-she] " Not one word more . Leave [the room]_{823-the room} and [the house]_{764-the house} . "_[1219-she] " [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara , [I]_1219-she will not leave [this house]_{5422-this house} until [[your]_293-clara guardian]_{5396-your guardian} returns . "_[1219-she] " [Thomas]_295-tom , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said , without looking towards [her]_1219-she , " if [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} is not gone in an hour , [you]_295-tom quit [my]_0-i service . "_[0-i] How [Thomas Kenwood]_295-tom managed it , [I]_0-i never asked . [He]_295-tom was [a resolute man]_{1221-a resolute man} , and [all the servants]_{1222-all the servants} obeyed [him]_295-tom . [She]_1219-she turned round once , as [she]_1219-she crossed the threshold , and gave [me]_0-i a look which [I]_0-i shall never forget . Was such the look that had glared on [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} before the blow ? [She]_1219-she lifted the white arm of which [she]_1219-she was proud , and threw back [her]_1219-she head , like the Fecial hurling [his]_295-tom dart . " [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara , [you]_293-clara shall bitterly grieve for this . It shall throw [you]_293-clara and [[your]_293-clara mother]_{5332-your mother} at the feet of [[[your]_293-clara father]_{5365-your father} 's murderer]_{5426-your father 's murderer} , and [you]_293-clara shall crave meat worse than [[your]_293-clara enemy]_{5427-your enemy} 's blood . "_[1219-she] Until [she]_1219-she had quitted [the house]_{764-the house} , [I]_0-i could not sit down ; but went to [[[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's bedroom , where [I]_0-i often took refuge when strongly excited and unable to fly to [[his]_{731-my father} grave]_{979-his grave}]_{1226-my father 's bedroom , where i often took refuge when strongly excited and unable to fly to his grave} . The thoughts and the memories hovering and sighing around that fatal chamber were enough to calm and allay the sensations of trivial wrong . But now this was not the case . The outrage offered had been , not to [me]_0-i , but to [him]_{731-my father} who seemed present there . The suggestion , too , of an injury done by [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} , though scorned at first , was working and ruffling within [me]_0-i , as [children]_{1229-children} put bearded corn - ears in another 's sleeve , which by - and - by work [their]_{1229-children} own way to the breast . Till now , [I]_0-i had always believed that some worldly advantage or gain had impelled [[my]_0-i foe]_{1230-my foe} to the deed which left [me]_0-i [an orphan]_{1231-an orphan} . But [that woman]_{1232-that woman} 's dark words had started a new train of reasoning , whose very first motion was doubt of [the man [I]_0-i worshipped]_{1233-the man i worshipped} . Among all [I]_0-i had ever met , there existed but one opinion as to what [he]_{731-my father} had been — [a true gentleman]_{1234-a true gentleman} , who had injured not one of [[God]_303-god 's creatures , whose life had been guided mainly by the wishes and welfare of [others]_869-others]_{1235-god 's creatures , whose life had been guided mainly by the wishes and welfare of others} . Moreover , [I]_0-i had [my]_0-i own clear recollections — [his]_{731-my father} voice , [his]_{731-my father} eyes , and [his]_{731-my father} smile , [his]_{731-my father} manner and whole expression ; these , it is true , were but outward things , yet [a child]_{782-a child} 's intuition is strong and hard to refute . Again , during [my]_0-i remembrance , [he]_{731-my father} had never been absent from [us]_1238-us , except for a day or two , now and then , among [[his]_{731-my father} county neighbours]_{1239-his county neighbours} ; and any ill will which [he]_{731-my father} might have incurred from [them]_{1239-his county neighbours} must , from [his]_{731-my father} position , have become notorious . And yet , in the teeth of this reasoning , and in spite of [my]_0-i own warm feeling , that horrible suspicion clave to [my]_0-i heart and chilled it like the black spot of mildew . And what if the charge were true ? In that case , how was [I]_0-i better than [he]_{731-my father} who had always been to [my]_0-i mind [a fiend in special commission]_{1240-a fiend in special commission} ? [His]_1241-his was vengeance , and [mine]_0-i revenge ; [he]_{731-my father} had suffered perhaps a wanton wrong , as deep to [his]_{731-my father} honour as [mine]_0-i to [my]_0-i love . While [I]_0-i was brooding thus miserably , [my]_0-i eyes fell upon the bed . There were the red streaks , grained and fibred like the cross - cut of a fern - stalk ; framed and looking down on [me]_0-i , the sampler of [my]_0-i life . Drawing near , [I]_0-i trembled with an unknown awe , to find [myself]_0-i in that lonely presence , not indeed thinking , but inkling such things of [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} , [[my]_0-i own darling father]_{1243-my own darling father} , whose blood was looking at [me]_0-i . In a storm of self - loathing and sorrow , [I]_0-i knelt there and sobbed [my]_0-i atonement ; but never thenceforth could [I]_0-i wholly bar out the idea . Foul ideas when once admitted will ever return on [their]_1244-their track , as the cholera walks in the trail of its former pall . But instead of abating [my]_0-i dogged pursuit , [I]_0-i now had a new incentive — to dispel the aspersions cast on [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's shadow . At this particular time of [my]_0-i life , many things began to puzzle [me]_0-i , but nothing was a greater puzzle than the character of [[my]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} . Morose or moody [he]_{912-my guardian} was not , though [a stranger]_{1247-a stranger} might have thought [him]_{912-my guardian} so ; nor could [I]_0-i end with the conviction that [his]_{912-my guardian} heart was cold . It rather seemed to [me]_0-i as if [he]_{912-my guardian} felt that it ought to be so , and tried [his]_{912-my guardian} best to settle down as the inmate of [an icehouse]_{1248-an icehouse} . But any casual flush of love , any glow of native warmth from the hearts around [him]_{912-my guardian} , and taken by surprise [he]_{912-my guardian} wavered for one traitor moment , and in [his]_{912-my guardian} eyes gleamed some remembrance , like firelight upon frozen windows . But let any one attempt to approach [him]_{912-my guardian} then with softness , to stir kind interest and feeling into benevolent expression , and [Mr. Vaughan]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} would promptly shut [himself]_{912-my guardian} in again , with a bar of irony , or a bolt of sarcasm . Only to [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} was [his]_{912-my guardian} behaviour different ; towards [her]_{746-my mother} [his]_{912-my guardian} manner was so gentle , and [his]_{912-my guardian} tone so kind , that but for [my]_0-i conviction that remorse lay under it , [I]_0-i must have come to like [him]_{912-my guardian} . True , [they]_1250-they did not often meet , for [dear mother]_{968-dear mother} confined [herself]_{968-dear mother} ( in spite of [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} ) more and more closely to [[her]_{968-dear mother} own part of [the house]_{764-the house}]_{1252-her own part of the house} , and rarely had the spirits now to share in the meals of [the family]_{1254-the family} . Therefore , [I]_0-i began at once to take [her]_{746-my mother} place , and would not listen to [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} 's kind offer to relieve [me]_0-i . This had led quite recently to a little outbreak . One day [I]_0-i had been rather late for dinner , and , entering [the room]_{823-the room} with a proud apology , found to [my]_0-i amazement [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} at the head of the table . For [me]_0-i a seat was placed , as for [a good little girl]_{1256-a good little girl} , by the side of [Master Clement]_{320-master clement} . At first [I]_0-i had not the presence of mind to speak , but stood by [[my]_0-i rival]_{1257-my rival} 's chair , waiting for [her]_{1257-my rival} to rise . [She]_{1257-my rival} affected not to understand [me]_0-i , and began , with [her]_{1257-my rival} hand on the ladle , and looking [me]_0-i full in the face : " [I]_{1257-my rival} fear , [darling Clara]_293-clara , the soup is cold ; but [[your]_293-clara uncle]_{5339-your uncle} can give [you]_293-clara a very nice slice of salmon . Have [you]_293-clara offered thanks for these mercies ? "_{[1257-my rival]} " Thank [you]_0-i , [I]_0-i will take soup . Allow [me]_0-i to help [myself]_0-i . [I]_0-i am sorry to have troubled [you]_293-clara . "_[0-i] And [I]_0-i placed [my]_0-i hand on the back of [her]_{1257-my rival} chair , presuming that [she]_{1257-my rival} would get up ; but [she]_{1257-my rival} never stirred one inch , and actually called for a plate to help [me]_0-i . [[My]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} was looking at both of [us]_1259-us , with a dry smile of amusement , and [Clement]_{320-master clement} began to simper and play with [his]_{320-master clement} fork.—Now for it , or never , thought [I.]_0-i " [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} , [you]_{312-mrs. daldy} quite mistake [me]_{1257-my rival} , or pretend to do so . Have the goodness to quit [my]_{1257-my rival} chair . "_{[1257-my rival]} [She]_{1257-my rival} had presumed on [my]_0-i dread of an altercation before [the servants]_{772-the servants} , but only [Thomas Henwood]_{321-thomas henwood} happened to be in [the room]_{823-the room} . Had there been [a dozen present]_{1262-a dozen present} , [I]_0-i would still have asserted [my]_0-i right . At last [she]_{1257-my rival} rose in [her]_{1257-my rival} stateliest manner , but with an awkward smile , and a still more awkward sneer . " [Your]_0-i use , [[my]_{1257-my rival} poor child]_{5429-my poor child} , of the possessive pronoun is far more emphatic than [your]_0-i good breeding is . "_{[1257-my rival]} " Who cares for [your]_{1257-my rival} opinion ? "_{[1257-my rival]} Not a hospitable inquiry ; but then [she]_{1257-my rival} was not [[my]_0-i visitor]_{1263-my visitor} . In grand style [she]_{1257-my rival} marched to the door , but soon thought better of it , and came to [her]_{1257-my rival} proper place with the sigh of a contrite spirit . " [Poor creature]_{5430-poor creature} ! It is a rebuke to [me]_{1257-my rival} , for [my]_{1257-my rival} want of true faith in the efficacy of prayer . "_{[1257-my rival]} And after all this , [she]_{1257-my rival} made a most excellent dinner . About [that woman]_{1232-that woman} there was something of a slimy pride , no more like to upright prickly self - respect than macerated bird - lime is to the stiff bright holly . Yet [no one [I]_0-i ever knew]_{1265-no one i ever knew} possessed such wiry powers of irritation . Whenever [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} and [[my]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} met , [she]_{1257-my rival} took care to be in the way , and watched [them]_1268-them both , and appealed to [me]_0-i with all [her]_{1257-my rival} odious pantomime of sorrow , sympathy , wonder , loving superiority , and spiritual yearnings . And all the time [her]_{1257-my rival} noisome smile , like the smell of a snake , came over [us]_1269-us . [She]_{1257-my rival} knew , and rejoiced in the knowledge , how hard set [I]_0-i was to endure it , and every quick flash of [my]_0-i eyes only lit up [her]_{1257-my rival} unctuous glory . For all [I]_0-i know , it was natural that [my]_0-i antipathy to [that woman]_{1232-that woman} should , by reaction , thaw sometimes [my]_0-i coldness towards [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} . Though self - respect had at length compelled [him]_{1271-my uncle} to abandon [his]_{1271-my uncle} overtures to [my]_0-i friendship , now and then [I]_0-i detected [him]_{1271-my uncle} looking at [me]_0-i with a pitying regard . In self - defence , [I]_0-i began to pity [him]_{1271-my uncle} , and ceased to make faces or sneer when [the maids]_{836-the maids} — [those romantic beings]_{1273-those romantic beings} — declared that [he]_{1271-my uncle} must have been crossed in love . At this conclusion , long ago , [all [the servants]_{772-the servants} ' hall]_{1274-all the servants ' hall} had arrived ; and even [little Tilly Jenkins]_322-tilly , not admitted as yet to that high conclave , remarkable only for living in dust - bins , and too dirty to cause uneasiness to [[the under - shoeboy]_{1276-the under - shoeboy} 's mother]_{1277-the under - shoeboy 's mother} — even that [Tilly]_322-tilly , [I]_0-i say , ran up to [me]_0-i one morning ( when [I]_0-i went to see [my]_0-i dear pony ) and beat out [her]_322-tilly dust , and then whispered : " Oh , please , [Miss Clara]_293-clara , to give [my]_322-tilly very best wishes to [Master]_5431-master . What a terrible blight to the heart be unrequited love ! "_[322-tilly] And [Tilly]_322-tilly sighed a great cloud of brick - dust . " Terrible , [Tilly]_322-tilly : [I]_322-tilly hope [you]_322-tilly have not fallen in love with [the weeding boy!"—a_[322-tilly] smart young lad]_{5432-the weeding boy!"—a smart young lad} , ten stairs at least above [her]_322-tilly . " [Me]_322-tilly , [miss]_5433-miss ? Do [you]_322-tilly think [I]_322-tilly would so demean [myself]_322-tilly ? "_[322-tilly] And [Tilly]_322-tilly caught up [her]_322-tilly dust - pan arrogantly . This little anecdote proves a fact which [I]_0-i never could explain , viz . that [none of [the servants]_{772-the servants}]_{1278-none of the servants} were ever afraid of [me]_0-i . To return to the straight line of history . [[My]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} came [home]_1102-home rather late that evening , and some hours after the hasty exit of [Mrs.]_1282-mrs. and [Master Daldy]_{323-master daldy} . While [I]_0-i was waiting in some uneasiness , it struck [me]_0-i that [he]_{912-my guardian} had kept out of the way on purpose , lest [he]_{912-my guardian} should seem too anxious about the plot . [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} , as [I]_0-i found afterwards , had written to [him]_{912-my guardian} from [the inn]_{1283-the inn} , describing [my]_0-i " frenzied violence , and foaming Satanic fury"—perhaps_{[312-mrs. daldy]} [I]_0-i turned pale , no more — and announcing [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} intention to remain at [Malvern]_10-malvern , until [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} should be apprised whether [uncle]_1284-uncle or [niece]_1285-niece were [the master]_{1286-the master} . In the latter case [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} demanded — not that [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} cared for [mammon]_1287-mammon , but as a humble means for the advancement of [the Kingdom]_{1288-the kingdom} — the sum of 300*l . * ; that being the lowest salary conscience allowed [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} to specify for treading the furnace of affliction , to save the lost sheep of [the house of [Israel]_324-israel]_{1289-the house of israel} . [I]_0-i forgot to say that , before [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} left [the house]_{764-the house} , [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} had tried to obtain an interview with [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} , hoping , no doubt , to leave [her]_{746-my mother} in the cataleptic state . But this had been sternly prevented by [Thomas Kenwood]_295-tom , who performed quite a labour of love in ministering the expulsion . [All the servants]_{1222-all the servants} hated [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} as [a canting sneak]_{1293-a canting sneak} and [a spy]_{1294-a spy} . That night when [I]_0-i received [Mr. Edgar Vaughan]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} 's short missive—"Clara , [I]_{1293-a canting sneak} wish to see [you]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} immediately in [[my]_{1293-a canting sneak} study]_{5434-my study} , "_{[1293-a canting sneak]} [my]_0-i heart began to flutter provokingly , and the long speech [I]_0-i had prepared flew away in shreds of rhetoric . Not that [I]_0-i meant for an instant to bate one tittle of what [I]_0-i had done and would do : but [I]_0-i had never asserted [my]_0-i rights as yet in direct opposition to [him]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} , nor taken upon [my]_0-i own shoulders the guardianship of [myself]_0-i . But the dreary years of dark preparation and silent welding of character had braced a sensitive , nervous nature with some little self - reliance . With all the indifference [I]_0-i could muster , [I]_0-i entered [the gloomy room]_{1295-the gloomy room} , and found [him]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} leaning upon the high desk where [he]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} kept the accounts of [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} stewardship . The position was chosen well . It served at once to remind [me]_0-i of [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} official relation , and to appeal to the feelings as betokening an onerous wardship . Of late [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} health had been failing [him]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} , and after every long absence from [home]_1102-home , [he]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} returned more jaded and melancholy . Now a few silver hairs — no more than [a wife]_{1297-a wife} would have quickly pulled out — were glistening among [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} black locks ; but though [he]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} was weary and lonesome , [he]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} seemed to want none to love [him]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} , and [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} face wore the wonted sarcastic and travelled look . As [our]_1298-our glances met , [we]_1298-our both saw that the issue was joined which should settle for life the mastery . [He]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} began in a light and jocund manner , as if [I]_0-i were quite a small thing . " Well done , [Miss Clara]_293-clara , [you]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} are asserting [yourself]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} . Why , [you]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} have dismissed [[our]_1298-our visitors]_{5435-our visitors} with very scant ceremony . "_{[297-mr. edgar vaughan]} " To be sure [I]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} have ; and will again , if [they]_{5435-our visitors} dare to come back . "_{[297-mr. edgar vaughan]} " And do n't [you]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} think that [you]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} might have consulted [[your]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} mother]_{5332-your mother} or [me]_0-i ? ' "_[0-i] Most likely [I]_0-i should have done so , in an ordinary case . " "_[0-i] Then [[your]_0-i guardian]_{5396-your guardian} was meant for small matters ! But what was the wonder to - day ? " "_[0-i] No wonder at all . [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} insulted [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} , and [I]_0-i sent [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} out of [[his]_{731-my father} house]_{1301-his house} . " "_[0-i] What made [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} insult [[my]_0-i brother]_{1302-my brother} ? " "_[0-i] [My]_0-i refusal to marry [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} puppet and puppy . " "_[0-i] [Clement Daldy]_308-clement ! Did [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} propose such a thing ? [She]_{312-mrs. daldy} must think very highly of [you]_308-clement ! ' " Then [I]_{312-mrs. daldy} think very lowly . "_{[312-mrs. daldy]} " And [you]_308-clement declined , did [you]_308-clement , [Clara]_293-clara ? "_{[312-mrs. daldy]} " No . [I]_{312-mrs. daldy} refused . "_{[312-mrs. daldy]} " Very good . [No one]_{730-no one} shall force [you]_308-clement ; there is plenty of time to consider the subject . "_{[312-mrs. daldy]} " One moment is too much . "_{[312-mrs. daldy]} " [Clara]_293-clara , [I]_{312-mrs. daldy} have long noticed in [you]_293-clara a rude , disrespectful , and [I]_{312-mrs. daldy} will say ( in spite of [your]_293-clara birth ) a low and vulgar manner towards [me]_{312-mrs. daldy} , [[your]_293-clara uncle]_{5339-your uncle} and [guardian]_{5439-guardian} . Once for all , [I]_{312-mrs. daldy} will not permit it , [child]_5440-child . "_{[312-mrs. daldy]} " [Child]_5440-child [you]_308-clement call [me]_1303-i , do [you]_308-clement ? [Me]_1303-i , who am just seventeen , and have lived seven such years as [I]_1303-i have , and [no one else]_{5442-no one else} ! "_[1303-i] [He]_1303-i answered quite calmly , and looking coldly at [me]_0-i : " [I]_1303-i never argue with [women]_5443-women . Much less with [girls]_5444-girls . [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} comes back to - morrow . [You]_0-i will beg [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} pardon , as becomes [a young lady who has forgotten [herself]_{5445-a young lady who has forgotten herself}]_{5445-a young lady who has forgotten herself} . The other question may wait . "_[1303-i] " [I]_1303-i thought , [sir]_5380-sir , that [you]_1303-i had travelled far , and in [many countries]_{5447-many countries} . "_[1303-i] The abrupt inquiry startled [him]_1303-i , and [his]_1303-i thoughts seemed to follow the memory . " What if [I]_1303-i have ? "_[1303-i] [he]_1303-i asked , at length , and with a painful effort . " Have [you]_0-i always found [women]_5443-women do just what [you]_0-i chose ? "_[1303-i] [He]_1303-i seemed not to listen to [me]_0-i ; as if [he]_1303-i were out of hearing : then laughed because [I]_0-i was looking at [him]_1303-i . " [Clara]_293-clara , "_[1303-i] [he]_1303-i said , " [you]_293-clara are [an odd girl]_{5449-an odd girl} , and a Vaughan all over . [I]_1303-i would rather be [[your]_293-clara friend]_{5450-your friend} than [[your]_293-clara enemy]_{5427-your enemy} . If [you]_293-clara can not like [me]_1303-i , at least forget [your]_293-clara dislike of [me]_1303-i , and remember that [I]_1303-i am [[your]_293-clara uncle]_{5339-your uncle} , and have tried to make [you]_293-clara love [me]_1303-i . "_[1303-i] " And what if [I]_1304-i do not ? "_[1304-i] " Then [I]_1304-i must keep [you]_293-clara awhile from the management of [this property]_{5453-this property} . [[My]_1304-i dear brother]_{5454-my dear brother} would have wished it , until [you]_293-clara recover [your]_293-clara senses ; and not an acre of it is legally [yours]_293-clara . "_[1304-i] This [he]_1304-i said so slowly , and distinctly , and entirely without menace , that , knowing [his]_1304-i manner , [I]_0-i saw it was the truth , at least in [his]_1304-i opinion . Strange as it may seem , [I]_0-i began at once to revolve , not the results of dispossession and poverty on [myself]_0-i , or even on [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} , but the influence which the knowledge of this new fact must have on [my]_0-i old suspicions , surmises , and belief . " Will [the property]_{1112-the property} pass to [you]_1304-i ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i asked . " Yes , if [I]_0-i choose : or at any rate the bulk of it . "_[0-i] " What part will be [yours]_293-clara ? Do [you]_293-clara mean to say [the house]_{764-the house} ? — "_[0-i] " Never mind now . [I]_0-i would rather leave things as they are , if [you]_1304-i will only be more sensible . "_[0-i] " [I]_0-i will not disguise [my]_0-i opinions for a hundred [Vaughan Parks]_{325-vaughan parks} , or a thousand [Vaughan Palaces]_{11-vaughan palaces} ; no , nor even to be near [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's bones . "_[0-i] " Very well , "_[1306-i] [he]_1306-i said , " just as [you]_0-i like . But for [[your]_0-i mother]_{5332-your mother} 's sake , [I]_1306-i give [you]_0-i till [Christmas]_{326-christmas} to consider . "_[1306-i] " If [you]_0-i bring back [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} , [I]_0-i shall leave the door as [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} enters it . "_[0-i] " [I]_1306-i have no wish to hurry [you]_0-i , "_[1306-i] [he]_1306-i replied , " and therefore [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} shall not return at present . Now take these papers with [you]_0-i . [You]_0-i may lay them before [any lawyer [you]_0-i please]_{5459-any lawyer you please} . They are only copies , but may be compared with the originals , which [I]_1306-i have . They will quickly prove how totally [you]_0-i are at [my]_1306-i discretion . "_[1306-i] " The money and [the land]_{1188-the land} may be so , but not [I.]_1306-i Before [I]_1306-i go , answer [me]_1306-i one question . Did [you]_0-i know of these things , whatever they may be , before [[my]_1306-i father]_{731-my father} 's death ? "_[1306-i] [He]_1306-i looked at [me]_0-i clearly and calmly , with no withdrawal , or conscious depth in [his]_1306-i eyes , and answered : " No . As [a gentleman]_{5462-a gentleman} , [I]_1306-i did not . "_[1306-i] [I]_0-i felt [myself]_0-i more at a loss than ever , and for the moment could not think . Thus was [I]_0-i , and , what mattered much more , [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} , reduced quite suddenly from a position of rank and luxury , and a prospective income of £ 15,000 a - year ( so much had [the land]_{1188-the land} increased in value ) to a revenue of nothing , and no [home]_1102-home . Even to [me]_0-i it was a heavy blow , but what could [[my]_0-i poor mother]_{1310-my poor mother} do ? [We]_1311-we were assured by [counsel]_1312-counsel that a legal struggle could end in expense alone , and advised by [the family lawyers]_{1313-the family lawyers} to throw [ourselves]_1311-we on the good feeling and appeal to the honour of [Mr. Edgar Vaughan]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} . [Mr. Vaughan]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} [he]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} must henceforth be called . [I]_0-i can not well understand , still less can [I]_0-i explain , small and threadbare technicalities ( motes , which too often are the beam of Justice ) , but the circumstances which robbed [me]_0-i of [[[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's [home]_1102-home]_{1315-my father 's home} were somewhat as follows : — By the will of [[[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's grandfather]_{1318-my father 's grandfather} , [Hubert Vaughan]_327-robert , who died in the year 1782 , [the whole of [the family property]_{1320-the family property}]_{1319-the whole of the family property} was devised to [[his]_327-robert son]_{1321-his son} , [Vaughan Powis Vaughan]_{328-vaughan powis vaughan} , for life , and after [his]_327-robert decease , to [[his]_327-robert sons]_{1322-his sons} successively in [tail male]_{1323-tail male} , failing these to [[his]_327-robert right heirs]_{1324-his right heirs} in general . This will was said to have been prepared in haste : it was , in fact , drawn by [a country attorney]_{1325-a country attorney} , when [the testator]_{1326-the testator} was rapidly sinking . It was very brief , and by no means accurately worded ; neither did it contain those powers to meet family exigencies , which [I]_0-i am told [a proper practitioner]_{1327-a proper practitioner} would have inserted . There was no reason to suppose that [the testator]_{1326-the testator} had contemplated anything more than a strict settlement of the usual kind , i.e. a common estate entail , expectant upon a life - interest ; and under which [I]_0-i should have succeeded [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} , as [[his]_327-robert heiress]_{1330-his heiress} , in the ordinary course . But it is the chief fault of [smatterers in the law]_{1331-smatterers in the law} ( and [country attorneys]_{1332-country attorneys} at that time were no better ) that [they]_{1331-smatterers in the law} will attempt to be too definite . [The country lawyer in this case , grossly ignorant of [his]_{1333-the country lawyer in this case , grossly ignorant of his profession} profession]_{1333-the country lawyer in this case , grossly ignorant of his profession} , and caught by the jangle of the words [tail male]_{1323-tail male} , had inserted them at hazard , possibly not without some idea that they would insure a stricter succession than a common entail would do . When [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} became of age , measures were taken for barring the entail created by the will of [Hubert Vaughan]_327-robert ; and at the time it was believed that these were quite effectual , and therefore that [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} was now entitled in fee - simple , and could dispose of the property . Upon [his]_{731-my father} marriage with [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} , [she]_{746-my mother} , with worthy pride , refused most firmly to accept a jointure charged on [[his]_{731-my father} estates]_{1338-his estates} , alleging that as [she]_{746-my mother} brought no fortune into [the family]_{1254-the family} , [she]_{746-my mother} would not incumber [the family property]_{1320-the family property} , which had but recently been relieved of incumbrances . More than this — [she]_{746-my mother} had even insisted upon expressly abandoning , by [her]_{746-my mother} marriage settlement , all claim to dower . This unusual course [she]_{746-my mother} had adopted , because of some discontent expressed by relatives of [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} at [his]_{731-my father} marriage with [a portionless bride]_{1342-a portionless bride} , whereby [her]_{746-my mother} self - respect had been deeply wounded . So nothing was settled upon [her]_{746-my mother} , except [[her]_{746-my mother} own little estate in [Devonshire]_4-devonshire]_{1343-her own little estate in devonshire} , which was secured to [her]_{746-my mother} separate use . [[My]_0-i father]_{731-my father} had never permitted this excess of generosity on [her]_{746-my mother} part , but that [he]_{731-my father} was by nature careless upon such subjects , and hoped to provide amply for [her]_{746-my mother} interests by [his]_{731-my father} will : moreover [he]_{731-my father} was hot to remove all obstacles to [their]_1345-their marriage . But it was now discovered that [he]_{731-my father} had no power to charge [the real estate]_{1346-the real estate} for [her]_{746-my mother} benefit , in the manner [his]_{731-my father} will imported ; that [he]_{731-my father} had never been more than [a tenant in tail]_{1347-a tenant in tail} , and that entail such that [I]_0-i could not inherit . Neither , of course , could [I]_0-i take under [his]_{731-my father} will , as [he]_{731-my father} possessed no power of disposition . One quarter of all that has been written upon the subject [I]_0-i never could understand ; and even as to the simplest points , sometimes [I]_0-i seem to apprehend them clearly , and then [I]_0-i feel that [I]_0-i do not . [My]_0-i account of the matter is compressed from what [I]_0-i remember of the legal opinions . The leading fact , at any rate , and the key to all the mischief , was , that the entail had never been barred at all : the legal process ( called a " recovery "_[1348-they] ) which was to have had that effect , being null and void through some absurd informality . [They]_1348-they told [me]_0-i something about [a tenant]_{1349-a tenant} to a precipice , but [they]_1348-they must have made a mistake , for there was no precipice on [the estate]_{952-the estate} , unless some cliffs near [the church]_{1351-the church} could be called so , and [they]_1348-they were never let . Be that as it may , [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's will was declared to be waste paper , except as regarded what [they]_1348-they called the personalty , or , in good English , the money [he]_{731-my father} had to bequeath . And of this there was very little , for , shortly before [his]_{731-my father} death , [he]_{731-my father} had spent large sums in drainage , [farm - buildings]_{1353-farm - buildings} , and other improvements . Furthermore , [he]_{731-my father} had always maintained a profuse hospitality , and [his]_{731-my father} charity was most lavish . [The lawyers]_{1354-the lawyers} told [us]_1355-our that , under the circumstances ( a favourite expression of [theirs]_{1354-the lawyers} when [they]_{1354-the lawyers} mean some big robbery ) , [a court of equity]_{1356-a court of equity} would perhaps consider [our]_1355-our application to be " recupped , "_{[1354-the lawyers]} as [they]_{1354-the lawyers} called it , out of [the estate]_{952-the estate} , for the money laid out in [improvements]_{1358-improvements} under a false impression . But [we]_1355-our had been cupped enough already . Grossly plundered by legal jargon , robbed by statute , and scourged by [scriveners]_{1359-scriveners} ' traditions , [we]_1355-our flung away in disgust the lint [the bandits]_{1360-the bandits} offered , and left [them]_{1360-the bandits} " all estate , right , title , interest , and claim , whether at law or in equity , in to or out of "_{[731-my father]} the licking of [our]_1355-our blood . But now [my]_0-i long suspicions , and never - discarded conviction of [[my]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} 's guilt , were , by summary process , not only revived , but redoubled . This arose partly from the discovery of the stake [he]_{731-my father} had on [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's life , and partly , perhaps , from a feeling of hatred towards [our]_1355-our supplanter . That [he]_{731-my father} knew not till now the flaw in [our]_1355-our title , and [his]_{731-my father} own superior claim , was more than [I]_0-i could believe . [I]_0-i felt sure that [he]_{731-my father} had gained this knowledge while in needy circumstances and sharp legal practice , brought , as [he]_{731-my father} then most probably was , into frequent contact with [the London agents who had the custody of the documents]_{1363-the london agents who had the custody of the documents} . To be in [the same room]_{1364-the same room} with [him]_{731-my father} , was now more than [I]_0-i could bear , and it became impossible that [we]_1355-our should live any longer in [the same house]_{1365-the same house} . [He]_{731-my father} , indeed , wished , or feigned to wish , that [we]_1355-our should remain [there]_1114-there , and even showed some reluctance to urge [his]_{731-my father} unrighteous rights . But neither [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} ( who bore the shock with strange resignation ) nor [myself]_0-i would hear of any compromise , or take a farthing at [his]_{731-my father} hands , and [he]_{731-my father} was too proud and stern to press upon [us]_1355-our [his]_{731-my father} compunctions . Statements of [our]_1355-our case had been prepared and submitted to [three most eminent conveyancers]_{1368-three most eminent conveyancers} , and the three opinions had been found to agree , except upon some trivial points . More than two months had been thus consumed , and it was now once more the anniversary of [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's death . [I]_0-i had spent the time in narrowly watching [[my]_0-i ex - guardian]_{1370-my ex - guardian} 's conduct , though keeping aloof , as much as possible , from any intercourse with [him]_{731-my father} . One night , [I]_0-i stole into [the room which [he]_{731-my father} called [[his]_{731-my father} study]_{1372-his study}]_{1371-the room which he called his study} , and where ( with [a child]_{782-a child} 's simplicity ) [I]_0-i believed [him]_{731-my father} to keep [his]_{731-my father} private documents . Through [Thomas Kenwood]_295-tom , to whom [I]_0-i now confided almost everything , and whose suspicions were even stronger than [mine]_0-i , [I]_0-i obtained clandestine possession of the keys of the large bureau . As [I]_0-i stood before [that massive repository]_{1374-that massive repository} in the dead of night , the struggle within [me]_0-i was intense and long . What letters , what journals , documents , or momentous relics of a thousand kinds , might be lurking here , waiting only for [a daughter]_{5399-a daughter} 's hand to turn the lock , and cast the light [she]_{5399-a daughter} bore on the death - warrant of [[her]_{5399-a daughter} father]_{898-her father} ! How easy then to snatch away the proof , clutching it , though it should burn the hand or bosom , to wave it , with a triumph wilfully prolonged , before the eyes of [justice 's dull - visioned ministers]_{1377-justice 's dull - visioned ministers} ; and then to see , without a shudder or a thrill of joy , but with the whole soul gazing , the slow , struggling , ghastly expiation . As this thought came crawling through [my]_0-i heart , lighting up its depth as would a snake of fire , the buhl before [me]_0-i grew streaks of blood , and the heavy crossbars a gallows . [I]_0-i lifted [my]_0-i hand to open the outer lock . Already the old cruciform key was trembling in the silver scutcheon . [I]_0-i raised the lamp in [my]_0-i left hand to show the lunette guard which curved above the hole , when a heavy mass all cold and dark fell across [my]_0-i eyes . [I]_0-i started , and thought for the moment , in [my]_0-i strong excitement , that it was [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's hand . One instant more , and , through the trembling of [my]_0-i senses , [I]_0-i saw that it was only a thick fold of [my]_0-i long black hair , shaken down on the face by [my]_0-i bending and quivering posture . But the check was enough . A [Vaughan]_327-robert , and that [the last one of so proud and frank a race]_{1379-the last one of so proud and frank a race} , to be prowling meanly , with a stolen tool , to violate confidence , and pry through letters ! No suspicion , however strong , nothing short of certainty ( if even that ) could warrant it . Driven away by shame combined with superstition , [I]_0-i glided from [the cold silent room]_{1380-the cold silent room} , and restored the keys to [[my]_0-i faithful friend]_{1381-my faithful friend} , whom [I]_0-i had left in [the passage]_{824-the passage} , ordering [him]_{1381-my faithful friend} at once to replace them , and never touch them again . " Well , [miss]_5433-miss , "_{[1381-my faithful friend]} [he]_{1381-my faithful friend} whispered , with a smile , " [I]_{1381-my faithful friend} knew [you]_5433-miss could n't do it , because [I]_{1381-my faithful friend} seemed , somehow , it was n't like a [Vaughan]_327-robert . "_{[1381-my faithful friend]} [We]_1383-we were already preparing to quit [the house]_{764-the house} , no longer [ours]_1383-we , when [our]_1383-we dismissal became abrupt , through another act of mine . What drove [me]_0-i to such a wild deed [I]_0-i can scarcely tell . Shame , perhaps , for the furtive nature of [my]_0-i last attempt hurried [me]_0-i into the other extreme ; and now [I]_0-i was so shaken by conflicting impulse , that nothing was too mad for [me]_0-i . On the seventh anniversary of [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's death , and the last which [I]_0-i was likely ever to spend beneath that roof , [I]_0-i passed the whole day in alternate sadness and passion , in [the bedroom where [he]_{731-my father} died]_{1386-the bedroom where he died} . All the relics [I]_0-i possessed , both of [his]_{731-my father} love and of [his]_{731-my father} death , [I]_0-i brought thither ; and spread them out , and wept upon [the one]_{1111-the one} , and prayed upon the other . [I]_0-i also brought [my]_0-i choicest histories of murder and revenge , and pored over them by the waning daylight and the dull lamp , and so on through the night , until [my]_0-i mind became the soul 's jetsam . Then [I]_0-i procured four very large wax candles , and lit them at the head of the bed , two on each side , and spread a long white cloth between , as if [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} were lying in state ; and hung a row of shorter lights above , to illuminate the letters of blood . Then [I]_0-i took a small alarum clock , given [me]_0-i by [dear father]_{1389-dear father} , that [I]_0-i might rise for early walks with [him]_{731-my father} , and set it upon a chest by the door , and fixed it so as to ring five minutes before the hour at which the murder befell . A cold presentiment crawled through [me]_0-i that , at the fatal time , [I]_0-i should see [the assassin]_{1032-the assassin} . After all these arrangements [I]_0-i took [my]_0-i volume again , and sat in the shade of the curtain , with a strong light on the page . [I]_0-i was deep in some horrible record , and creeping with terror and hope , when the clear bell rang a long and startling peal . [I]_0-i leaped up , like one shot through the heart , and what [I]_0-i did was without design or purpose . [My]_0-i glance fell on the dagger ; [I]_0-i caught it up , and snatched the lamp , and hurried down [corridor and staircase]_{1391-corridor and staircase} , straight to [[[my]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} 's private room]_{1393-my guardian 's private room} . [He]_{912-my guardian} was sitting at the table , for [he]_{912-my guardian} never passed that night in bed . At the sound of the lock [he]_{912-my guardian} leaped up , and pointed a pistol , then hid it . Straight up to [him]_{912-my guardian} [I]_0-i went , as swiftly and quietly as [a spirit]_{1394-a spirit} , and spoke : " Seven years ago , at this very moment , [[my]_{912-my guardian} father]_{731-my father} was killed . Do [you]_{912-my guardian} know this dagger ? "_{[912-my guardian]} [He]_{912-my guardian} started back , as if [I]_0-i had stabbed [him]_{912-my guardian} with it , then covered [his]_{912-my guardian} eyes with both hands . " [You]_{912-my guardian} know it , then ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said , with a triumph chill all over [me]_0-i . " It was [your]_{912-my guardian} hand that used it . "_[0-i] Another moment , and [I]_0-i should have struck [him]_{912-my guardian} with it . [I]_0-i lifted it in [my]_0-i frenzy ; when [he]_{912-my guardian} looked at [me]_0-i by some wonderful effort , calmly , steadily , even coldly . " Yes , "_{[912-my guardian]} [he]_{912-my guardian} said , " [I]_{912-my guardian} have seen that weapon before . Alas [[my]_{912-my guardian} poor dear brother]_{5465-my poor dear brother} ! "_{[912-my guardian]} Whether it was true feeling that made [his]_{912-my guardian} voice so low and deep , or only fierce self - control , [I]_0-i knew not then , nor tried to think . " [You]_{912-my guardian} know who owned it ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i asked , with [my]_0-i life upon [his]_{912-my guardian} answer . " Yes . [I]_0-i know who owned it once ; but many years ago . And [I]_0-i know not in the least what is become of [him]_{912-my guardian} now . "_[0-i] The baffled fury and prostrate hope — for at the moment [I]_0-i fully believed [him]_{912-my guardian} — were too much for [my]_0-i reeling brain and fasting body . For one minute 's command of [my]_0-i faculties , [I]_0-i would have sold them for ever ; but [I]_0-i felt them ebbing from [me]_0-i , as the life does from a wound . The hemispheres of [my]_0-i brain were parting one from the other , and a grey void spreading between them . [I]_0-i tried to think , but could not . [I]_0-i strove to say anything , but failed . Fainter and fainter grew [the room]_{823-the room} , the lamp , the ceiling , the face at which [I]_0-i tried to look . Things went to and fro with a quicker quiver , like flame in the wind , then , round and round like whirling water ; [my]_0-i mouth grew stiff , and the tongue between [my]_0-i teeth felt like a glove ; and with a rush of sound in [my]_0-i brain and throat , and a scream pent up , yet bursting , [I]_0-i fell , as [I]_0-i thought , through [the earth]_{1046-the earth} . [I]_0-i was only on the floor , in a fit . When [I]_0-i came to [myself]_0-i , [I]_0-i was in [my]_0-i own bed , and [[my]_0-i own dear mother]_{1397-my own dear mother} bending over [me]_0-i , pale , and haggard , and full of tears . The broad daylight was around [us]_1398-us , and the faint sunshine on [her]_{1397-my own dear mother} face . [She]_{1397-my own dear mother} had been with [me]_0-i ever since . In [my]_0-i weakness , [I]_0-i looked up at [her]_{1397-my own dear mother} with a pang of self - reproach , to think how little [I]_0-i had valued [her]_{1397-my own dear mother} love ; and [I]_0-i vowed to [myself]_0-i to make up for it by future care and devotion . That violent convulsion , and the illness after it , changed [me]_0-i not a little both in mind and body . It was indeed high time for [me]_0-i to cherish [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} . [Her]_{1397-my own dear mother} pain at leaving the place where [she]_{1397-my own dear mother} had known [her]_{1397-my own dear mother} little all of happiness — for [her]_{1397-my own dear mother} childhood had been overcast with trouble — [her]_{1397-my own dear mother} pain was so acute and overpowering that all [my]_0-i deep impassioned feelings sunk reproved before it . [[My]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} now seemed much embittered against [me]_0-i , and anxious for [our]_1401-our departure . [He]_{912-my guardian} came once or twice , in [my]_0-i illness , to ask for and to see [me]_0-i ; and [he]_{912-my guardian} brought back , unperceived by any one , the weapon for which [I]_0-i raved . But ere [I]_0-i was quite recovered , [he]_{912-my guardian} wrote , requesting to see [me]_0-i on business in [[his]_{912-my guardian} study]_{1372-his study} . [I]_0-i could not speak yet without pain , having bitten [my]_0-i tongue severely . " [[Your]_0-i mother]_{5332-your mother} shall have a [home]_1102-home [here]_846-here , "_{[912-my guardian]} [he]_{912-my guardian} said , " as long as ever [she]_{5332-your mother} wants one ; but as for [you]_0-i , malignant or mad , [I]_{912-my guardian} will try no more to soften [you]_0-i . When first [I]_{912-my guardian} saw [you]_0-i in [your]_0-i early childhood , [you]_0-i flew at [me]_{912-my guardian} as [a murderer]_{5469-a murderer} . Soon after [you]_0-i ransacked [my]_{912-my guardian} cupboards and stole [my]_{912-my guardian} boots , to compare them with some impressions or casts [you]_0-i kept . Yes , [you]_0-i look astonished . [I]_{912-my guardian} never told [you]_0-i of it , but [I]_{912-my guardian} knew it for all that . Of those absurdities [I]_{912-my guardian} thought little , for [I]_{912-my guardian} regarded them as the follies of [a mad child]_{5470-a mad child} , and [I]_{912-my guardian} pitied [you]_0-i deeply , and even liked [you]_0-i for [your]_0-i filial devotion . But now [I]_{912-my guardian} find that [you]_0-i have grown up in the same belief , and [you]_0-i dare even now to avow it . [You]_0-i know that [I]_{912-my guardian} have no fear of [you]_0-i . "_{[912-my guardian]} " Then why had [you]_1403-i got that pistol ? "_[1403-i] [I]_0-i saw that [he]_1403-i was vexed and surprised at [my]_0-i having perceived it . " In [a house like this]_{5471-a house like this} , where such deeds have been done , [I]_1403-i think it right to be armed . Do [you]_0-i think if [I]_1403-i had feared [you]_0-i , or [your]_0-i evidence , [I]_1403-i would have restored that dagger ? "_[1403-i] " Whose was it ? "_{[912-my guardian]} " [I]_{912-my guardian} told [you]_0-i the other night that [I]_{912-my guardian} once saw a weapon like it , for which at first [I]_{912-my guardian} mistook it , but closer examination convinced [me]_{912-my guardian} of the difference . "_{[912-my guardian]} " How does it differ ? "_{[912-my guardian]} " In this . There was no snake on the handle of the other , though there was the cross on the blade . "_{[912-my guardian]} " And where did [you]_1403-i see the other ? "_{[912-my guardian]} " Some day [I]_{912-my guardian} will tell [you]_0-i . It is not right to do so now . "_{[912-my guardian]} " Not convenient to [you]_0-i , [I]_{912-my guardian} suppose [you]_0-i mean . "_{[912-my guardian]} " [I]_1404-i have also shown [you]_0-i that the lock of hair found in [[your]_0-i poor mother]_{5472-your poor mother} 's hand is much finer and more silky than [mine]_1404-i ; and [you]_0-i know that [I]_1404-i can not draw on [my]_1404-i foot a boot so small as the one whose impression [you]_0-i have . But [I]_1404-i am ashamed of [myself]_1404-i for having stooped to such proofs as these . Dare [you]_0-i to look at [me]_1404-i and suppose that [I]_1404-i with [my]_1404-i own hand could have stabbed [[my]_1404-i brother]_{1302-my brother} , [a brother so kind and good to [me]_1404-i]_{5474-a brother so kind and good to me} , and for whose sake alone [I]_1404-i have borne so long with [you]_0-i ? "_[1404-i] [He]_1404-i tried to look [me]_0-i down . [I]_0-i have met but one whose gaze could master [mine]_0-i ; and [he]_1404-i was [not that one]_{1405-not that one} . " So , [you]_1404-i doubt [me]_1404-i still ? Are [your]_1404-i things packed ? ' "_[1404-i] Yes , and [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} 's . " "_[1404-i] Then if [[your]_0-i mother]_{5332-your mother} is well enough , and will not let [you]_0-i leave [her]_{5332-your mother} , [you]_0-i had better go next week . " "_[0-i] No , " [I]_0-i replied , "_[0-i] [we]_1408-we will go to - morrow . " "_[0-i] Wilful to the last . So be it . Take this ; [you]_0-i can not refuse it in duty to [[your]_0-i mother]_{5332-your mother} . " [He]_0-i put in [my]_{1410-criminals} hand an order for a large sum of money . [I]_{1410-criminals} threw it into the fire . "_{[1410-criminals]} There have been [criminals]_{1410-criminals} , " [I]_{1410-criminals} exclaimed , "_{[1410-criminals]} who have suffered from a life - long fear , lest [the widow]_{1411-the widow} and [orphans]_1412-orphans , starved through [their]_{1410-criminals} crime , should compass [their]_{1410-criminals} dying bed . Though [we]_1408-we starve in [a garret]_{1413-a garret} , [we]_1408-we touch no bread of yours . " "_[329-bravo] [Bravo]_329-bravo , [Miss Melodrame]_{330-miss melodrame} . [You]_0-i need never starve in the present state of the stage . " "_[0-i] That [I]_0-i do n't understand ; but this [I]_0-i do . It is perhaps the last time [I]_0-i shall ever see [you]_0-i living . Whether [you]_0-i did that deed or not is known to [God]_303-god , and [you]_0-i , and possibly [one other]_{1414-one other} . But whether [you]_0-i did it or not , [I]_0-i know it is on [your]_0-i soul . [Your]_0-i days are wretched , [your]_0-i nights are troubled . [You]_0-i shall die as [[your]_0-i brother]_{1415-your brother} died , but not so prepared for death . " "_[0-i] Good bye , [Clara]_293-clara . [My]_0-i lunch is coming up . " [God]_303-god has much to forgive [me]_0-i , but nothing worse than the dark thought of that speech . In [my]_0-i fury at weakness in such a cause , [I]_0-i had dared sometimes to imagine that [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} knew [him]_0-i to be [the murderer]_{831-the murderer} , but concealed it for the sake of the family honour ! No need to recount [my]_0-i bitter farewell to all the scenes and objects [I]_0-i had loved so long , to all which possessed a dark yet tender interest , and most of all to [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's grave . That some attention might still be paid to this , [I]_0-i entrusted it to the care of [an old housekeeper of [ours]_5479-we , who was living in [the village]_{981-the village}]_{5478-an old housekeeper of ours , who was living in the village} . [My]_0-i last visit was in the moonlight , and [dear mother]_{968-dear mother} was there . [I]_0-i carried rather than led [her]_{968-dear mother} away . Slight as [my]_0-i knowledge has been of lightsome and happy love , [I]_0-i am sure that a sombre affection is far the stronger and sweeter . As [we]_5479-we began [our]_5479-we journey , [a crowd of [the villagers]_{5483-the villagers}]_{5482-a crowd of the villagers} met [us]_5479-we beyond [the lodge]_{1166-the lodge} , and lined [the Gloucester road]_{5485-the gloucester road} as far as the old oak - tree . While [our]_5479-we hired conveyance passed between [them]_{5482-a crowd of the villagers} , [the men]_{5486-the men} stood mute with [their]_{5486-the men} hats in [their]_{5486-the men} hands , [the women]_{5487-the women} sobbed and curtseyed , and blessed [us]_5479-we , and held up [[their]_{5487-the women} children]_{5488-their children} to look at [us]_5479-we . [[Our]_5479-we refuge]_{5489-our refuge} was [the small estate or farm in [Devonshire]_4-devonshire]_{5490-the small estate or farm in devonshire} , which [I]_0-i have mentioned as [[[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} 's property]_{5492-my mother 's property} . This , which produced £ 45 a - year , was all that now remained to [us]_5479-we , except a sum of £ 1,000 left to [me]_0-i by [a godfather]_{5493-a godfather} , and of which [I]_0-i could not touch [the principal]_{5494-the principal} . The residue of the personalty , and the balance at [[the banker 's]_{5495-the banker 's}]_{5495-the banker 's} , [we]_5479-we had refused to take , being assured that legally [we]_5479-we were responsible to [Mr. Vaughan]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} , even for the back rents of [the Gloucestershire estate]_{5497-the gloucestershire estate} . Of course [we]_5479-we had plenty of jewellery , some of it rather valuable , but the part most precious was heirloom , and that [we]_5479-we had left behind . Most of [our]_5479-we own had been [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's gift , and therefore [we]_5479-we could not bear to sell it . As regarded [myself]_0-i , this comparative poverty was not of very great moment , except as impairing [my]_0-i means of search ; but for [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} 's sake [I]_0-i was cut to the heart , and lost in perplexity . [She]_{746-my mother} had so long been accustomed to much attention and many luxuries , which [her]_{746-my mother} weak health had made indispensable to [her]_{746-my mother} . [Thomas Henwood]_{321-thomas henwood} and poor [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} insisted on following [our]_5479-we fortunes , at one third of [their]_5500-their previous wages . [[My]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} thought it beyond [our]_5479-we means to keep them even so ; but for [her]_{746-my mother} sake [I]_0-i resolved to try . [I]_0-i need not say that [I]_0-i carried all [my]_0-i relics , difficult as it was to hide them from [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} . When [we]_5479-we reached [[our]_5479-we new home]_{5503-our new home} , late in the evening of the second day , a full sense of [our]_5479-we privation for the first time broke upon [us]_5479-we . It was mid - winter , and in the gloom of a foggy night , and after the weariness of a long journey , [our]_5479-we impressions were truly dismal . Jolted endlessly up and down by ruts a foot deep and slaty stones the size of coal - scuttles , entombed alive betwixt grisly hedges which met above [us]_5479-we like the wings of night , then obliged to walk up treadmill hills while the rickety fly crawled up behind ; then again plunging and lurching down some corkscrew steep to the perpetual wood and rushing stream at the bottom ; at length and at last along [a lane]_{5504-a lane} so narrow that it scraped [us]_5479-we on both sides as [we]_5479-we passed , a lane which zig - zagged every thirty yards with a tree - bole jutting at every corner , at length and at last [we]_5479-we came to [the farmyard gate]_{5505-the farmyard gate} . It was not far from [the lonely village of [Trentisoe]_12-trentisoe]_{5506-the lonely village of trentisoe} , which lies some six miles to [the west of [Lynmouth]_13-lynmouth]_{5507-the west of lynmouth} . This part is little known to [London]_1-london tourists , though [it]_5508-it possesses scenery of a rarer kind than [Lynmouth]_13-lynmouth [itself]_13-lynmouth can show . Passing through [an outer court]_{5509-an outer court} , with [a saw - pit]_{5510-a saw - pit} on one side and what [they]_5511-they call [a "_[0-i] linhay "]_{5512-a " linhay "} on the other , and where a slop of straw and "_[0-i] muck " quelched under the wheels , [we]_5479-we came next to [the farmyard]_{5513-the farmyard} proper , and so ( as [the flyman]_{5514-the flyman} expressed it ) "_[0-i] [home]_1102-home to ouze . " [The "_[0-i] ouze "]_{5515-the " ouze "} was [a low straggling cottage]_{5516-a low straggling cottage} , jag - thatched , and heavy - eaved , and reminded [me]_0-i strongly of ragged wet horse - cloths on a rack . [The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} was not come [home]_1102-home from [[Ilfracombe]_{14-ilfracombe} market]_{5519-ilfracombe market} , but [[his]_{5517-the farmer} wife]_{789-his wife} , [Mrs. Honor Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , soon appeared in [the porch]_{930-the porch} , with a bucket in one hand and a candle stuck in a turnip in the other . In the cross - lights , [we]_5479-we saw [a stout short woman , brisk and comely , with an amazing cap]_{5522-a stout short woman , brisk and comely , with an amazing cap} , and cheeks like the apples which [they]_5523-they call in [Devonshire]_4-devonshire "_[0-i] hoary mornings . " "_[0-i] A massy on [us]_1417-us , [Zuke]_332-zuke , " [she]_{5522-a stout short woman , brisk and comely , with an amazing cap} called into [the house]_{764-the house} , "_[0-i] if here bain't the genelvolks coom , and [us]_1417-us be arl of a muck ! Hum , cheel , hum for [thee]_1418-thee laife to the calves ' ouze , and toorn out both the pegs , and take the pick to the strah , and gie un a veed o ' wets . " Having thus provided for [our]_5479-we horse , [she]_{5522-a stout short woman , brisk and comely , with an amazing cap} advanced to [us]_5479-we . "_[1417-us] So , [ye]_1417-us be coom at last ! [I]_0-i be crule glad to zee e , zure enough . Baint e starved amost ! An unkid place it be for [the laikes of [you]_1417-us]_{1419-the laikes of you} . " So saying , [she]_{5522-a stout short woman , brisk and comely , with an amazing cap} hurried [us]_5479-we into [the house]_{764-the house} , and set [us]_5479-we before a wood - fire all glowing upon the ground , beneath an enormous chimney podded with great pots and crocks hung on things like saws . These pots , like [Devonshire]_4-devonshire hospitality , were always boiling and chirping . [The kitchen]_{5526-the kitchen} was low , and floored with lime and sand , which was worn into pits such as [boys]_5527-boys use for marbles ; but the great feature was the ceiling . This was divided by deep rafters into [four compartments]_{5528-four compartments} lengthwise . Across some of these , battens of wood were nailed , forming a series of racks , wherein reposed at least a stye - ful of bacon . Herbs and stores of many kinds , and ropes of onions dangled between . [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} went to the dresser , and got a large dish , and then turned round to have a good look at [us]_5479-we . "_{[1420-poor leddy]} [Poor leddy]_{1420-poor leddy} , " [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} said gently , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i sim [her]_{1420-poor leddy} 's turble weist and low . But look [e]_1417-us zee , there be a plenty of [bakken yanner]_{1421-bakken yanner} , and [us'll]_1422-us cut a peg 's drort to - morrow , and [Varmer Badcock]_333-varmer 'll zend [we]_1422-us [a ship]_{1423-a ship} , by [rason]_1424-rason [ourn]_1422-us be all a'lambing . " Then [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} turned to [me]_1424-rason . "_[1424-rason] Whai , [Miss]_1425-miss , [you]_1425-miss looks crule unkid tu . Do [e]_1417-us love zider ? " "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} No , [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} . Not very much . [I]_0-i would rather have water . " "_[0-i] Oh drat that wash , e sha n't have none of thiccy . [Us]_1422-us has got a brown gearge of beer , and more nor a dizzen pans of mulk and crame . " [Her]_{331-mrs. huxtable} chattering warmth soon put [us]_1422-us at [our]_1422-us ease ; and as soon as the parlour fire burnt up , [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} showed [us]_1422-us with many apologies , and "_[1422-us] hopping no offence " [the room which was thenceforth to be [ours]_1422-us]_{5529-the room which was thenceforth to be ours} . After tea , [I]_333-varmer put [[my]_333-varmer dear mother]_{5530-my dear mother} to bed as soon as possible , and sat by the dying fire to muse upon [our]_1422-us prospects . Not the strangeness of [the place]_{5531-the place} , the new ideas around [me]_333-varmer , not even [my]_333-varmer weariness after railroad , coach , and chaise , could keep [my]_333-varmer mind from its one subject . In fact , its colour had now become its form . To [others]_869-others indeed , all hope of ever detecting and bringing to justice [the man]_{5533-the man} , for whose death [I]_333-varmer lived , might seem to grow fainter and fainter . Expelled from [that place]_{5534-that place} , and banished from those recollections , where , and by which alone , [I]_333-varmer could well expect ever to wind up [my]_333-varmer clue , robbed of all means of moving [indifferent persons]_{5535-indifferent persons} and retaining [strong ones]_{5536-strong ones} ; and , more than this , engrossed ( as [I]_333-varmer must henceforth be ) in keeping debt at bay , and shielding [[my]_333-varmer mother]_{746-my mother} from care — what prospect was there , nay what possibility , that [I]_333-varmer [a weak unaided girl , led only by set will and fatalism]_{5538-a weak unaided girl , led only by set will and fatalism} , should ever overtake and grasp [a man of craft , and power , and desperation]_{5539-a man of craft , and power , and desperation} ? It mattered not : let other things be doubtful , unlikely , or impossible ; let the hands of [men]_1003-men be clenched against [me]_333-varmer , and the ears of heaven be stopped ; let [the earth]_{1046-the earth} be spread with thick darkness , as the waters are spread with earth , and [the murderer]_{831-the murderer} set Sahara between [us]_5543-us , or turn hermit on [the Andes]_{15-the andes} ; happen what would , so [God]_303-god were still above [us]_5543-us , and [the world]_{798-the world} beneath [our]_5543-us feet — [I]_333-varmer was as sure that [I]_333-varmer should send [that man]_{1220-that man} from [the one]_{1111-the one} to the throne of the other , as [he]_{1220-that man} was sure to be dragged away thence , to fire , and chains , and gnashing of teeth . So impulsive , kind - hearted , and honest was [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , that [we]_5543-us could always tell what was the next thing [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} was going to say or do . Even at [her]_{331-mrs. huxtable} meals [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} contrived to be in a bustle , except on Sundays ; but [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} got through a great deal of work . On Sundays [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} put on , with [her]_{331-mrs. huxtable} best gown , an air of calm dignity which made [her]_{331-mrs. huxtable} unhappy until it was off , which it was directly after the evening service . [She]_{331-mrs. huxtable} seemed [a very sensible woman]_{5547-a very sensible woman} , and whatever the merits of the case [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} sided always with [the weakest]_{5548-the weakest} . The next morning [we]_5543-us asked how it was [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} appeared not to expect [us]_5543-us , as [I]_333-varmer had written and posted the letter [myself]_333-varmer on the previous Saturday . "_[333-varmer] For sure now , " [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} replied , "_[333-varmer] and the papper scrawl coom'd on Monday ; but [us]_1426-us bain't girt scholards , and [Varmer]_333-varmer said most like ' twas [the Queen]_{1427-the queen} 's taxes , for there was [her]_{1427-the queen} head upon it ; so [us]_1426-us put [un]_1428-un in the big mortar till [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} should come over , or [us]_1426-us should go to [church]_1429-church next [Zunday]_16-zunday , and passon would discoorse it for [us]_1426-us . But"—and off [she]_{1427-the queen} ran—"But_{[1427-the queen]} [her]_{1427-the queen} belongs to [you]_1430-you now , [Miss Clerer]_{335-miss clerer} , seeing as how [you]_1430-you 've coom after un . " So [they]_5549-they had only a general idea that [we]_1426-us were coming , and knew not when it would be . The following day , [Thomas Henwood]_{321-thomas henwood} arrived , bringing [our]_1426-us boxes in [a vehicle]_{5550-a vehicle} called a "_[1430-you] butt , " which is a short and rudely made cart , used chiefly for carrying lime . After unpacking [our]_1426-us few embellishments , [we]_1426-us set up a clumsy but comfortable sofa for [[my]_296-death mother]_{746-my mother} , and tried to divert [her]_{746-my mother} sadness a little by many a shift and device to garnish [[our]_1426-us narrow realm]_{5552-our narrow realm} . [We]_1426-us removed the horrible print of "_[296-death] [Death]_296-death and [the Lady]_{1431-the lady} , " which was hung above the chimneypiece , and sundry daubs of [[our]_1426-us Lord]_{5553-our lord} and [the Apostles]_{5554-the apostles} , and [a woman of [Samaria]_17-samaria with a French parasol , and [Eli]_336-eli falling from a turnpike gate over [the Great Western steamer]_{5556-the great western steamer}]_{5555-a woman of samaria with a french parasol , and eli falling from a turnpike gate over the great western steamer} . But these alterations were not made without some wistful glances from [poor Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} . At last , when [I]_337-whai began to nail up a simple sketch of [the church at [Vaughan St. Mary]_{18-vaughan st. mary}]_{5557-the church at vaughan st. mary} instead of a noble representation of [the Prodigal Son]_{5558-the prodigal son} , wearing a white hat with a pipe stuck under the riband , and weeping into a handkerchief with some horse upon it , [the good dame]_{5559-the good dame} could no longer repress [her]_{5559-the good dame} feelings . "_[337-whai] [Whai]_337-whai , [Miss Clerer]_{335-miss clerer} , [Miss , dear art alaive]_{1432-miss , dear art alaive} , cheel , what be 'bout ? [Them]_1433-them 's [the smartest picters anywhere this saide of [Coorn]_19-coorn]_{1434-the smartest picters anywhere this saide of coorn} . [Varmer]_333-varmer gied a pan of hogs ' puddens for [they]_1433-them , and a Chainey taypot and a Zunday pair of corderahoys . Why them'll shaine with the zun on ' um , laike a vield of poppies and charlock . But [thic]_1435-thic smarl pokey papper of [yourn]_1436-yourn ha'ant no more colour nor the track of [a marly scrarly]_{1437-a marly scrarly} . A massy on [us]_1438-our if [I]_0-i could n't walk a better picter than thic , with [my]_0-i pattens on in the zider squash . " To argue with [such a connoisseur]_{5560-such a connoisseur} would have been worse than useless ; so [I]_1439-miss pacified [her]_{5559-the good dame} by hanging the rejected gems in [[her]_{5559-the good dame} own little summer room by [the dairy]_{5562-the dairy}]_{5561-her own little summer room by the dairy} . [[Our]_1438-our parlour]_{5563-our parlour} began before long to look neat and even comfortable . Of course the furniture was rough , but [I]_1439-miss care not much for upholstery , and am quite rude of French polish . [My]_1439-miss only fear was lest the damp from the lime - ash floor should strike to [[my]_1439-miss dear mother]_{5530-my dear mother} 's feet , through the scanty drugget which covered it . [The fire - place]_{5565-the fire - place} was bright and quaint , lined with old Dutch tiles , and the grey - washed walls were less offensive to the eye than would have been a paper chosen by good [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} . The pretty lattice window , budding even now with woodbine , and impudent to the winds with myrtle , would have made amends for [the meanest room in [England]_9-england]_{5566-the meanest room in england} . Before [it]_{5566-the meanest room in england} lay [a simple garden with sparry walks and bright - thatched hives]_{5567-a simple garden with sparry walks and bright - thatched hives} , and down a dingle rich with trees and a crystal stream , [it]_{5566-the meanest room in england} caught a glimpse of [the Bristol Channel]_{5568-the bristol channel} . When [our]_1438-our things were nearly settled , and [I]_1439-miss was sitting by [myself]_1439-miss , with dirty hands and covered with dust , there came a little timid tap at the door , followed by a shuffling outside , as if [some one contemplated flight , yet feared to fly]_{5569-some one contemplated flight , yet feared to fly} . Opening the door , [I]_1439-miss was surprised to find [the child whom [I]_1439-miss expected a massive figure , some six feet and a quarter high , and [I]_1439-miss know not how many feet in width , but wide enough to fill [the entire passage]_{5571-the entire passage}]_{5570-the child whom i expected a massive figure , some six feet and a quarter high , and i know not how many feet in width , but wide enough to fill the entire passage} . [He]_0-i made a doubtful step in advance , till [his]_0-i great open - hearted face hung sheepishly above [my]_1439-miss head . "_[1439-miss] Have [I]_0-i the pleasure of seeing [Mr. Huxtable]_{338-mr. huxtable} ? " [I]_{338-mr. huxtable} asked . "_{[338-mr. huxtable]} Ees ' um , " [he]_0-i stammered , blushing like a beet - root , "_[1439-miss] leastways [Miss]_1439-miss , [I]_0-i ort to zay , no plasure ' um to the laikes of [thee]_1440-thee , but a honour to ai . [Varmer Uxtable]_{339-varmer uxtable} [they]_{339-varmer uxtable} karls [me]_0-i round about these ' ere parts , and some on 'em [Varmer Jan]_{340-varmer jan} , and [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} , [he]_0-i karl [me]_0-i ' Varmer Brak - plew - harnish , as tosses arl [they]_{339-varmer uxtable} Garnish , ' and a dale [he]_0-i think of [his]_0-i potry as it please [God]_303-god to give ' un : but [Maister]_341-maister , may be , is the riglar thing , leastways [you]_1439-miss knows best , [Miss.]_342-miss. " "_[342-miss.] Danged if [I]_0-i can coom to discourse with [girt folks]_{1441-girt folks} nohow , no more nor a sto - un . " This was an "_[342-miss.] aside , " but audible a long way off , as [they]_{339-varmer uxtable} always are on the stage . "_[342-miss.] But [I]_0-i am [a very small folk]_{1442-a very small folk} , [Mr. Huxtable]_{338-mr. huxtable} , compared at least with [you]_{338-mr. huxtable} . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i humbly ax [your]_{338-mr. huxtable} parding , [Miss]_1443-miss , but [ai]_0-i did n't goo for to be zuch a beg , nockety , sprarling zort of [a chap]_{1444-a chap} . [I]_0-i did n't goo for to do it nohow . Reckon ' twar [my]_0-i moother 's valt , [her]_1445-her were always draining of hayricks . " This also was an "_[1445-her] aside . " "_[1445-her] Come in , " [I]_0-i said , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am very glad to see [you]_{338-mr. huxtable} , and so will [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} be . " "_{[746-my mother]} Noo ! Be [e]_1447-e now ? Be [e]_1447-e though undade , [[my]_0-i dear]_{5318-my dear} ? " [he]_0-i asked with the truest and finest smile [I]_0-i ever saw : and [I]_0-i felt ashamed in front of the strong simplicity which took [my]_0-i conventional words for heart 's truth . "_[0-i] Them 's the best words , " [he]_0-i continued "_[0-i] as ai ' ve ' eered [this many a dai]_{1449-this many a dai} ; for ai'll be danged if ever [a loi]_{1450-a loi} could coom from unner such eyes as [yourn]_1451-yourn . " And thereupon [he]_0-i took [my]_{1450-a loi} puny weak hand in [his]_0-i rough iron palm , like an almond in the nut - crackers , and examined it with pitying wonder . "_{[1450-a loi]} Wull , wull ! some hands be made for mulking coos , and some be made of the crame itself . Now there could n't be such a purty thing as this ere , unless it wor to snow war'rm . But [her]_{746-my mother} bain't no kaind of gude for rarstling ? and ai be aveared [thee'll]_1452-thee have to rarstle a rare bout wi [the world]_{798-the world} , [[my]_0-i dearie]_{1454-my dearie} : one down , tother coom on , that be the wai of ' un . " "_{[338-mr. huxtable]} Oh , [I]_0-i am not afraid , [Mr. Huxtable]_{338-mr. huxtable} . " [He]_0-i took some time to meditate upon this , and shook [his]_0-i head when [he]_0-i had finished . "_{[338-mr. huxtable]} Noo , [thee]_1452-thee bain't aveard yet [I]_0-i 'll warr'ne . Gude art alaive , if [e]_1452-thee bain't [a spurrity maid]_{1455-a spurrity maid} . But if [ere]_1456-ere [a chap]_{1444-a chap} zays the black word on [e]_1452-thee — and thiccy 's the taime when [a maid]_{1458-a maid} ca n't help [herzell]_1459-herzell , then ony [you]_1452-thee karl Jan Uxtable that 's arl [[my]_0-i dear]_{5318-my dear} , and if so be it 's in the dead hoor of the naight , and [thee]_1452-thee beest to tother zaide of [Hexymoor]_20-hexymoor , ai'll be by the zaide of [[thee]_1452-thee zooner]_{1461-thee zooner} nor [ai]_1462-my could thraw a vorehip . " Before [I]_1462-my could thank [him]_0-i for [his]_0-i honest championship [[my]_1462-my mother]_{746-my mother} entered [the room]_{823-the room} , and all [his]_0-i bashfulness ( lost for the moment in the pride of strength ) came over [him]_0-i again like an extinguisher . Although [he]_0-i did not tremble — [his]_0-i nerves were too firm for that — [he]_0-i stood fumbling with [his]_0-i hat , and reddening , and looking vaguely about , at a loss where to put [his]_0-i eyes or anything else . [[My]_1462-my mother]_{746-my mother} , quite worn out with [her]_{746-my mother} morning 's walk , surprised at [her]_{746-my mother} uncouth visitor , and frightened perhaps at [his]_0-i bulk , sank on [our]_5575-our new - fangled sofa , in a stupor of weakness . Then it was strange and fine to see [the strong man]_{5576-the strong man} 's sense of [her]_{746-my mother} feeble state . All [his]_0-i embarrassment vanished at once ; [he]_0-i saw there was something to do ; and a look of deep interest quickened [his]_0-i great blue eyes . Poising [his]_0-i heavy frame with the lightness of a bird , [he]_0-i stepped to [her]_{746-my mother} side as if the floor had been holy , and , scarcely touching [her]_{746-my mother} , contrived to arrange the rude cushions , and to lay [her]_{746-my mother} delicate head in an easy position , as [a nurse]_{5577-a nurse} composes [a child]_{782-a child} . All the while , [his]_0-i looks and manner expressed so much feeling and gentleness , that [he]_0-i must have known what it was to lose [a daughter]_{5399-a daughter} or [mother]_739-mother . "_[1462-my] [Poor dear leddy]_{1463-poor dear leddy} , " [he]_0-i whispered to [me]_{1463-poor dear leddy} , "_{[1463-poor dear leddy]} [her]_{1463-poor dear leddy} be used to zummut more plum nor thiccy , [I]_0-i reckon . [Her]_{1463-poor dear leddy} zimth crule weist and low laike . Hath [her]_{1463-poor dear leddy} been long in that there wai ? " "_[0-i] Yes , [she]_{1463-poor dear leddy} has long been weak and poorly ; but [I]_0-i fear that [her]_{1463-poor dear leddy} health has been growing worse for the last few months . " [I]_0-i could n't help crying a little ; and [I]_0-i could n't help [his]_0-i seeing it . "_[0-i] Dang [thee]_1464-ye , [Jan Uxtable]_{343-jan uxtable} , for a doilish girt zinny . Now doon [e]_1465-e tak on so , [Miss]_1466-miss ; doon e , that 's [a dear]_{1467-a dear} . Avore [her]_{1463-poor dear leddy} 's been here a wake , [her'll]_1468-her'll be as peart as [a gladdy]_{1469-a gladdy} . There bain't in arl [they]_1470-they furren parts no place the laike of this ere to make a body ston upraight . The braze cooms off o Hexymoor as frash as [a young coolt]_{1471-a young coolt} , and up from the zay as swate as the breath of [a coo on the clover]_{1472-a coo on the clover} , and [he]_0-i 'll zit on [your]_1464-ye chake the zame as a dove on [her]_{1463-poor dear leddy} nestie ; and [ye'll]_1464-ye be so hearty the both on [ye]_1464-ye , that ye'll karl for taties and heggs and crame and inyons avore [e]_1465-e be hout of bed . Ee 's fai [ye]_1464-ye wull . " With this homely comfort [he]_0-i departed , after a cheering glance at [[my]_1464-ye mother]_{746-my mother} . Before [I]_1464-ye proceed , the Homeric epithet "_[1464-ye] Break - plough - harness , " applied by [the poet]_{5582-the poet} to [Mr. Huxtable]_{338-mr. huxtable} , needs some explanation . It appears that [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , in some convivial hour ( for at other times [he]_{5517-the farmer} detested vaunting ) , had laid a wager that [he]_{5517-the farmer} and [Timothy Badcock]_344-tim , [[his]_{5517-the farmer} farm - labourer]_{5584-his farm - labourer} , would plough half an acre of land , "_[1464-ye] wiout no beastessy in [the falde]_{1473-the falde} . " Now , it happened that [the Parracombe blacksmith]_{5585-the parracombe blacksmith} had lately been at [Barnstaple]_{21-barnstaple} , and there had seen [a man who had heard of ploughing by steam]_{5586-a man who had heard of ploughing by steam} . So when [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} 's undertaking got noised abroad and magnified , all [Exmoor]_22-exmoor assembled to witness the exploit , wondering , trembling , and wrathful . Benches and tables were set in [the "_[1464-ye] higher Barton]_{5588-the " higher barton} , " [a nice piece of mealy land]_{5589-a nice piece of mealy land} , just at the back of [the house]_{764-the house} , while [Suke]_345-suke and [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} plied the cider - barrel for [the yeomen of [the neighbourhood]_{5329-the neighbourhood}]_{5591-the yeomen of the neighbourhood} . [The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} [himself]_{5517-the farmer} was not visible — no plough or ploughing tackle of any description appeared , and a rumour began to spread that the whole affair was a hoax , and [the contriver]_{5594-the contriver} afraid to show [himself]_{5594-the contriver} . But as [people]_1132-people began to talk of "_{[1474-the constable]} sending for [the constable]_{1474-the constable} " ( who , of course was there all the time ) , and as cart - whips and knob - sticks began to vibrate ominously , [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} made a signal to [Mr. Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} , who led off [the grumbling throng]_{5596-the grumbling throng} to the further end of [the field]_{5597-the field} , where an old rick - cloth lay along against the hedge . While the tilting was moved aside , [the bold sons of [Exmoor]_22-exmoor]_{5598-the bold sons of exmoor} shrunk back , expecting some horrible monster , whose smoke was already puffing . All [they]_{5598-the bold sons of exmoor} saw was a one - horse plough with [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , in full harness , sitting upon it and smoking [his]_{5517-the farmer} pipe , and [Timothy Badcock]_344-tim patiently standing at the plough - tail . Amid a loud hurrah from [[his]_{5517-the farmer} friends]_{976-his friends} , [Mr. Huxtable]_{338-mr. huxtable} leaped to the fore , and cast [his]_{5517-the farmer} pipe over the hedge ; then settled the breast - band across the wrestling - pads on [his]_{5517-the farmer} chest , and drew tight both the chain - traces . "_{[1474-the constable]} Gee wugg now , if e wull , " cried [stout Tim Badcock]_344-tim cheerily , and off sailed [the good ship of husbandly]_{5601-the good ship of husbandly} , cleaving a deep bright furrow . But when [they]_{5598-the bold sons of exmoor} reached the corner , [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} turned too sharply , and snapped the off - side trace . That accident impressed [the multitude]_{5603-the multitude} with a deeper sense of [his]_{5517-the farmer} prowess than even the striking success which attended [his]_{5517-the farmer} primitive method of speeding the plough . To return to [[my]_{1474-the constable} mother]_{746-my mother} . As spring came on , and [the beautiful country around [us]_5606-we]_{5605-the beautiful country around us} freshened and took green life from the balmy air , [I]_{1474-the constable} even ventured to hope that [the good yeoman]_{5607-the good yeoman} 's words would be true . [He]_{5517-the farmer} had become , by this time , [a great friend of [ours]_5606-we]_{5608-a great friend of ours} , doing [his]_{5517-the farmer} utmost that [we]_5606-we might not feel the loss of [[our]_5606-we faithful]_{5609-our faithful} [Thomas Henwood]_{321-thomas henwood} . [Poor Thomas]_{346-poor thomas} had been very loth to depart ; but [I]_{1474-the constable} found , as [we]_5606-we got settled , that [[my]_{1474-the constable} mother]_{746-my mother} ceased to want [him]_{5517-the farmer} , and it would have been wrong as well as foolish to keep [him]_{5517-the farmer} any longer . [He]_{5517-the farmer} invested [his]_{5517-the farmer} savings in [a public - house at [Gloucester]_{23-gloucester}]_{5611-a public - house at gloucester} , which [he]_{5517-the farmer} called [the "_{[1474-the constable]} Vaughan Arms]_{5612-the " vaughan arms} , " and soon afterwards married [Jane Hiatt]_347-jane , [a daughter of [[our]_5606-we head game - keeper]_{5614-our head game - keeper}]_{5613-a daughter of our head game - keeper} ; or [I]_{1474-the constable} ought to say , [Mr. Vaughan]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} 's . [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} remained with [us]_5606-we still . [We]_5606-we lived , as may be supposed , in the most retired manner . [My]_{1474-the constable} time was chiefly occupied in attendance upon [dear mother]_{968-dear mother} , and in attempts to create for [her]_{746-my mother} some of those countless comforts , whose value [we]_5606-we know not until they are lost . After breakfast , [[my]_{1474-the constable} mother]_{746-my mother} would read for an hour [her]_{746-my mother} favourite parts of Scripture , and vainly endeavour to lead [me]_{1474-the constable} into the paths of peace . [Her]_{746-my mother} soul discarded more and more the travel garb and wayfaring troubles of this lower existence , as , day by day , it won a nearer view of the golden gate , and [the glories beyond]_{5617-the glories beyond} ; with which [I]_{1474-the constable} have seen [her]_{746-my mother} eyes suffused , like [the lucid heaven]_{5618-the lucid heaven} with sunrise . It has been said , and [I]_{1474-the constable} believe , that there is nothing , in all [our]_5606-we material world , so lovely as [a fair woman looking on high for the angels [she]_{746-my mother} knows to be waiting for [her]_{746-my mother}]_{5619-a fair woman looking on high for the angels she knows to be waiting for her} . Even [I]_{1474-the constable} , though looking in an opposite direction , and for [an opposite being]_{5620-an opposite being} , could not but admire that gentle meekness , whose absence formed the main fault of [my]_{1474-the constable} character . Not that [I]_{1474-the constable} was hard - hearted , or cross , ( unless self - love deceives [me]_{1474-the constable} ) , but restless yearning and hatred were ever at work within [me]_{1474-the constable} ; and these repel things of a milder nature , as a bullet cries tush to the zephyr . One cold day in March , when winter had come to say "_{[1474-the constable]} good - bye " with a roar , after wheeling the sofa with [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} upon it towards the parlour fire , [I]_0-i went out to refresh [my]_0-i spirit in [the kitchen]_{5526-the kitchen} with [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , and to "_[0-i] yat [myself]_0-i " ( for the sofa took all the parlour fire ) by the fragrant hearth of wood and furze . [[The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} 's wife]_{5624-the farmer 's wife} was "_{[1474-the constable]} larning " [me]_0-i some strange words of [her]_{5624-the farmer 's wife} native dialect , which [I]_0-i was now desirous to "_[0-i] discoorse , " and which [she]_{5624-the farmer 's wife} declared to be "_[0-i] the only vitty talk . Arl [the lave of thiccy stoof]_{1475-the lave of thiccy stoof} , zame as [the Carnishers]_{1476-the carnishers} and [the Zummersets]_{348-the zummersets} and [the Lunnoners]_{349-lunnoners} tulls up , arl thiccy 's no more nor a passel of gibbersh , [Miss Clerer]_{335-miss clerer} , and not vitty atarl ; noo , nor English nother . Instead of zaying ' ai ' laike a Kirsten , zome on [em]_1477-em zays ' oi , ' and zome on [em]_1477-em ' [I.]_1478-i. ' " In the middle of [her]_{5624-the farmer 's wife} lecture , and just as [I]_1477-em had learned that to "_[1477-em] quilty " is the proper English for to "_{[335-miss clerer]} swallow , " and that the passage down which [we]_5625-we quilty is , correctly speaking , not the throat , but the "_{[335-miss clerer]} ezelpipe , " [a strange - looking individual darkened the "_{[335-miss clerer]} draxtool " ( corruptly called the threshold )]_{5626-a strange - looking individual darkened the " draxtool " ( corruptly called the threshold )} and crossed the "_{[335-miss clerer]} planch , " or floor , to the fireplace where [we]_5625-we sat . Turning round , [I]_{335-miss clerer} beheld [a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built]_{5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built} , and utterly reckless of [his]_{5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built} attire . [His]_{5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built} face was long and thin , the profile keenly aquiline ; and the angles made yet sharper , by a continual twitching and tension of the muscles . The skin of [his]_{5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built} cheeks was drawn , from [his]_{5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built} solemn brows to [his]_{5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built} lipless and down - curved mouth , tight and hollow , like the bladder on a jam - pot . [His]_{5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built} eyes , of a very pale blue , seemed always to stand on tip - toe , and never to know what [he]_{5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built} was going to say . A long , straight , melancholy chin , grisly with patches of hair , was meant by nature to keep [his]_{5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built} mouth shut , and came back sullenly when it failed . Over [his]_{5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built} shoulders was flung a patched potato - sack , fastened in front with a wooden skewer , and [his]_{5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built} nether clothes were as ragged as poetry . In [his]_{5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built} air and manner , self - satisfaction strove hard with solemn reserve . Upon the whole [he]_{5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built} reminded [me]_{335-miss clerer} of an owl who has lost [his]_{5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built} heart to a bantam hen . [I]_{335-miss clerer} can not express [him]_{5627-a man about fifty years old , of moderate stature , gauntly bodied , and loosely built} justly ; but [those who have seen]_{5628-those who have seen} may recognise [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} , [the sawyer]_{5629-the sawyer} , acknowledged [the bard of [the north of [Devon]_24-devon]_{5631-the north of devon}]_{5630-the bard of the north of devon} . [Mr. Ebenezer Dawe]_{350-mr. dawe} , without any hesitation or salute , took a three - legged stool , and set it between [our]_1479-us chairs , then looked from [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} to [me]_{335-miss clerer} , and introduced [himself]_0-i . "_{[335-miss clerer]} Wull , here be [us]_1479-us three , And [I]_0-i hopps [us]_1479-us shall agree . " "_[0-i] Agray indeed , " cried [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , "_[1480-e] doon ' [e]_1480-e zee the quarlity be here , [ye]_1480-e aul vule ? " Then turning to [me]_1480-e . "_[1480-e] Doon'e be skeared , [Miss Clerer]_{335-miss clerer} , it be oney that there aul mazed ramscallion , [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} . [Her]_1481-her makth what girt scholards , laike [you]_1482-you , [karls potry]_{351-karls potry} , or zum such stoof . [Her]_1481-her casn ' oppen the drort of [him]_{334-beany dawe} nohow , but what [her]_1481-her must spake potry . Pote indeed ! No tino , [I]_0-i 'd pote un out of ouze if [I]_0-i was [the waife of un]_{1483-the waife of un} . ' Zee zaw , [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} ! ' that be arl the name [he]_{334-beany dawe} hath airned vor [his]_{334-beany dawe} rhaiming and rubbish , and too good for ' un too ! [Rhaime]_352-rhaime , rhaime , drash , drash , like two girt gawks in [a barn]_{1484-a barn} ! Oh fai , oh fai ; and [a maight]_{1485-a maight} have aimed [two zhillings a dai]_{1486-two zhillings a dai} and [his]_{1485-a maight} zider ! " The subject of these elegant strictures regarded [her]_{1487-poor vule} all the time , with that pleased pity which [none but a great Poet so placed]_{5632-none but a great poet so placed} can feel . Then swinging slowly on [his]_{334-beany dawe} tripod , and addressing the back of the chimney , [he]_{334-beany dawe} responded : "_{[1487-poor vule]} [Poor vule]_{1487-poor vule} ! [Her]_{1487-poor vule} dunno what a saight ' tis haigher To be [a Pout]_{1488-a pout} , nor a hunderzawyer ! " Perhaps [his]_{334-beany dawe} lofty couplet charmed [her]_{1487-poor vule} savage ear ; at any rate [she]_{1487-poor vule} made a peaceful overture . "_{[1487-poor vule]} Coom now , [Mr. Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} , wull [e]_{334-beany dawe} have a few broth ? " [He]_{334-beany dawe} assented with an alacrity much below [his]_{334-beany dawe} dignity ; "_{[334-beany dawe]} Taties , and zider , [maat]_1489-maat , and broth a few , " [Wull]_353-wull , zin [you]_353-wull ax ai , ai'll not answer noo . "_[1489-maat] " [E]_{334-beany dawe} sha n't have no cider , "_{[1490-his hostess]} replied [[his]_{334-beany dawe} hostess]_{1490-his hostess} , " without e'll spake , for wance , laike a [Kirsten]_354-kirsten , maind that , without no moor of thiccy jingle jangle , the very zame for arl [the world]_{798-the world} as [e]_{334-beany dawe} be used to droon in the zawpit , ' Zee , zaw , [Margery Daw]_{355-margery daw} , ' with the arms of [e]_{334-beany dawe} a gwayn up and doon , up and doon , and [your]_{334-beany dawe} oyes and maouth most chokked with pilm and the vace of [e]_{334-beany dawe} a hurning laike a taypot , and never a drop of out to aise the crickles of [your]_{334-beany dawe} barck . That 's the steet [you]_{334-beany dawe} potes be in , and zawyers . "_{[1490-his hostess]} As [she]_{1490-his hostess} delivered this comment , [she]_{1490-his hostess} swung to and fro on [her]_{1490-his hostess} chair , in weak imitation of the impressive roll , with which [he]_{334-beany dawe} enforced [his]_{334-beany dawe} rhyme . This plagiarism annoyed [him]_{334-beany dawe} much more than [her]_{1490-his hostess} words : but [he]_{334-beany dawe} vindicated [his]_{334-beany dawe} cause , like [a true son of song]_{1491-a true son of song} . " And if zo hap , [I]_{334-beany dawe} be [a pout grand]_{5634-a pout grand} , [Thee]_{334-beany dawe} need n't [jah]_5635-jah , 'cos [thee]_{334-beany dawe} doon't understand . A pout , laike [a ' ooman]_{5636-a ' ooman} , or a bell , Must have [his]_{334-beany dawe} clack out , and ca n't help [hiszell]_{334-beany dawe} . "_{[334-beany dawe]} A mighty " ha ha "_{[334-beany dawe]} from the door , like a jocund earthquake , proved that this last hit had found an echo in some ample bosom . " [Thee]_{334-beany dawe} shall have as much vittels as ever [thee]_{334-beany dawe} can let down , "_{[5517-the farmer]} said [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , as [he]_{5517-the farmer} entered , " danged if [thee]_{334-beany dawe} bain't a wunnerful foine chap , zure enough . Ai'd as lieve a'most to be a pote , plase [God]_303-god , as [I]_{5517-the farmer} wud to be [a ooman]_{5637-a ooman} : zimth to ai , there bain't much differ atwixt 'em . But [they]_5638-they vainds out a saight of things [us]_5639-us taks no heed on . [I]_{5517-the farmer} reckon now , [Beany]_{334-beany dawe} , [thee]_{334-beany dawe} cas'n drink beer ? "_{[5517-the farmer]} This was a home thrust , for [Mr. Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} was [a notorious drinker]_{1493-a notorious drinker} . [He]_{334-beany dawe} replied with a heavy sigh and profoundly solemn look : " [Ah]_5640-ah noo ! a noo ! Unless when [I]_{334-beany dawe} be vorced , By [rason]_1424-rason , [Dactor zaith]_{356-dactor zaith} , [[my]_{334-beany dawe} stommirk ba'in exhaust]_{5642-my stommirk ba'in exhaust} . "_{[334-beany dawe]} " And what was it [the doctor]_{5643-the doctor} said to [you]_{334-beany dawe} , [Mr. Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i asked , perceiving that [he]_{334-beany dawe} courted inquiry . [He]_{334-beany dawe} fixed [his]_{334-beany dawe} eyes upon [me]_0-i , with a searching look ; eager , as it seemed , yet fearing to believe that [he]_{334-beany dawe} had found at last a generous sympathy . " ' Twas more nor dree months [zince ai]_{5644-zince ai} titched a drap , When ai was compelled to consult [the Dactor chap]_{5645-the dactor chap} ; [He]_{334-beany dawe} [zaith]_357-zaith , zaith [he]_{334-beany dawe} , '' tain't no good now this here , Oh , [Ebenezer Dawe]_{350-mr. dawe} , [you]_0-i must tak beer . ' "_{[334-beany dawe]} These words [he]_{334-beany dawe} repeated with impressive earnestness , shaking [his]_{334-beany dawe} head and sighing , as if in deprecation of so sad a remedy . Yet the subject possessed perhaps a melancholy charm , and [his]_{334-beany dawe} voice relented to a pensive unctuousness , as [he]_{334-beany dawe} concluded . " ' Tak beer ! ' [I]_{334-beany dawe} zays , ' Lor , [I]_{334-beany dawe} dunnow the way ! ' ' Then [you]_0-i must larn , ' [zays]_358-zays [he]_{334-beany dawe} , ' this blessed day : [You'm]_0-i got , ' [he]_{334-beany dawe} zays , ' a daungerous zinking here , [Your]_0-i constitooshun do requaire beer . ' "_{[334-beany dawe]} " [Thee]_0-i wasn ' long avore [thee]_0-i tried it , [I]_{5517-the farmer} 'll warr'n , "_{[5517-the farmer]} said [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , " tache the calf the wai to the coo ! "_{[5517-the farmer]} Scorning this vile insinuation , [Mr. Dawe]_{350-mr. dawe} continued thus : " [Wull]_353-wull , after that , mayhap a month or zo , [I]_{350-mr. dawe} was gooin [home]_1102-home , [the zame]_{5647-the zame} as maight be noo : [I]_{350-mr. dawe} had zawed a hellum up for Varmer Yeo , And a velt [my]_{350-mr. dawe} stommick gooin turble low , [Her]_5648-her cried and skooned , like a chield left in the dark , And a maze laike in [my]_{350-mr. dawe} head , and a maundering in [[my]_{350-mr. dawe} barck]_{5649-my barck} . Zo whun ai coom to [the voot of [Breakneck hill]_{5651-breakneck hill}]_{5650-the voot of breakneck hill} , [I]_{350-mr. dawe} zeed the public kept by Pewter Will : [The virelight]_{5652-the virelight} showed the glasses in [the bar]_{903-the bar} , And ' um danced and twinkled like the avening star . "_{[350-mr. dawe]} Here [he]_{350-mr. dawe} paused , overcome by [his]_{350-mr. dawe} own description . " Wull , "_{[5517-the farmer]} said [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , brightening with fellow - feeling , for [he]_{5517-the farmer} liked [his]_{5517-the farmer} glass , " [Wull]_353-wull , [thee]_353-wull toorned in and had a drap , laike [a man]_{5384-a man} , and not be shamed of it nother . And how did [her]_5655-her tast ? A must have been nation good , after so long a drouth ! "_{[5517-the farmer]} " Coom'd down [my]_{5517-the farmer} drort , like [the Quane and Princess Royal]_{5656-the quane and princess royal} , [The very sa - am]_{5657-the very sa - am} as a drap of oi - al ! "_{[5517-the farmer]} " [The very sa - am]_{5657-the very sa - am} , [the very sa - am]_{5657-the very sa - am} , "_{[350-mr. dawe]} [he]_{350-mr. dawe} repeated with an extrametrical smack of [his]_{350-mr. dawe} lips , which [he]_{350-mr. dawe} wiped with the back of [his]_{350-mr. dawe} hand , and cast a meaning glance towards [the cellar]_{1496-the cellar} . [The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} rose , and took from the dresser a heavy quart cup made of pewter . With this [he]_{5517-the farmer} went to [the cellar]_{1496-the cellar} , whence issued presently a trickling and frothing sound , which thrilled to the sensitive heart of [Mr. Dawe]_{350-mr. dawe} . The tankard of ale , with a crown of white foam , was presented to [the thirsty bard]_{1499-the thirsty bard} by [[his]_{5517-the farmer} host]_{1500-his host} , who did not , however , relinquish [his]_{1500-his host} grasp upon [the vessel]_{1501-the vessel} ; but imposed ( like [Pluto]_359-pluto to [Orpheus]_360-orpheus ) a stern condition . " Now , [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} , [thee]_{334-beany dawe} sha n't have none , unless [thee]_{334-beany dawe} can zay zummut without no poetry in it . "_[359-pluto] At this barbarous restriction , poor [Ebenezer]_{350-mr. dawe} rolled [his]_{350-mr. dawe} eyes in a most tragic manner ; [he]_{350-mr. dawe} thrust [his]_{350-mr. dawe} tongue into [his]_{350-mr. dawe} cheek , and swung [himself]_{350-mr. dawe} , not to and fro as usual , but sideways , and clutched one hand on the tatters of [his]_{350-mr. dawe} sack , while [he]_{350-mr. dawe} clung with the other to the handle of the cup . Then with a great effort , and very slowly , [he]_{350-mr. dawe} spoke — " If [my]_{350-mr. dawe} poor vasses only maks [you]_{334-beany dawe} frown , [I]_{350-mr. dawe} 'll try , ees fai [I]_{350-mr. dawe} wull , to keep ['em]_5660-'em — A rhyme came over [him]_{350-mr. dawe} , the twitching of [his]_{350-mr. dawe} face showed the violence of the struggle ; [he]_{350-mr. dawe} attempted to say "_{[350-mr. dawe]} in , " but nature triumphed , and [he]_{350-mr. dawe} uttered the fatal "_{[350-mr. dawe]} down . " In a moment [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} compressed [his]_{350-mr. dawe} mighty fingers , and crushed the thick metal like silver paper . The forfeit liquor flew over [the poet]_{5582-the poet} 's knees , and hissed at [his]_{350-mr. dawe} feet in the ashes . Foreseeing a storm of verse from [him]_{350-mr. dawe} , and of prose from [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} at the fate of the pride of [her]_{331-mrs. huxtable} dresser , [I]_{350-mr. dawe} made a hasty retreat . Thenceforth [I]_{350-mr. dawe} took a kind interest in [[our]_5663-our conceited but harmless bard]_{5664-our conceited but harmless bard} . [[His]_{350-mr. dawe} neighbours]_{5665-his neighbours} seemed not to know , how long it was since [he]_{350-mr. dawe} had first yielded to [his]_{350-mr. dawe} unfortunate ailment ; which probably owed its birth to the sound of the saw . During [our]_5663-our first interview , [his]_{350-mr. dawe} rhythm and rhyme had been unusually fluent and finished , from pride perhaps at having found [a new audience]_{5666-a new audience} , or from some casual inspiration . Candour compels [me]_{350-mr. dawe} to admit that [his]_{350-mr. dawe} subsequent works were little , if at all , better than those of [[his]_{350-mr. dawe} more famous contemporaries]_{5667-his more famous contemporaries} ; and [I]_{350-mr. dawe} am not so proud , as [he]_{350-mr. dawe} expects [me]_{350-mr. dawe} to be , of [his]_{350-mr. dawe} connexion with [my]_{350-mr. dawe} sad history . About half a mile from [[Tossil]_361-tossil 's Barton]_{5668-tossil 's barton} ( [the farmhouse where [we]_5663-our lived]_{5669-the farmhouse where we lived} ) there is [a valley]_{5670-a valley} , or rather [a vast ravine , of a very uncommon formation]_{5671-a vast ravine , of a very uncommon formation} . A narrow winding rocky combe , where slabs , and tors , and boulder stones , seem pasturing on the velvet grass , or looking into the bright trout - stream , which leaps down a flight of steps without a tree to shade its flash and foam ; [this narrow , but glad dingle , as it nears [the sea]_{895-the sea}]_{5672-this narrow , but glad dingle , as it nears the sea} , bursts suddenly back into [a desert gorge]_{5674-a desert gorge} , cleaving [the heights that front [the Bristol Channel]_{25-the bristol channel}]_{5675-the heights that front the bristol channel} . [The mountain]_{5676-the mountain} sides from right and left , straight as if struck by rule , steeply converge , like a high - pitched roof turned upside down ; so steep indeed that none can climb [them]_{5676-the mountain} . Along the deep bottom gleams a silver chord , where [the cramped stream]_{5677-the cramped stream} chafes its way , bedded and banked in stone , without a blade of green . From top to bottom of [this huge ravine]_{5678-this huge ravine} there is no growth , no rocks , no cliffs , no place to stay the foot , but all a barren , hard , grey stretch of shingle , slates , and gliddery stones : as if the ballast of ten million fleets had been shot in two enormous piles , and were always on the slip . Looking at [it]_{5678-this huge ravine} [we]_5663-our forget that there is such a thing as life : the desolation is not painful , because it is so grand . The brief noon glare of the sun on [these Titanic dry walls]_{5679-these titanic dry walls} , where even [a lichen dies]_{5680-a lichen dies} ; the gaunt desert shade stealing back to its lair in the early afternoon ; the solemn step of evening stooping to [her]_5681-her cloak below — [I]_{350-mr. dawe} know not which of these is the most impressive and mournful . No stir of any sort , no voice of [man or beast]_{5682-man or beast} , no flow of tide , ever comes to visit [here]_846-here ; [the little river]_{5684-the little river} , after a course of battles , wins no peaceful union with [the sea]_{895-the sea} , but ponds against a shingle bar , and gurgles away in slow whirlpools . Only a fitful moaning wind draws up and down [the melancholy chasm]_{5686-the melancholy chasm} . The famous "_{[350-mr. dawe]} [Valley of Rocks]_{26-valley of rocks} , " [some four miles to the east]_{5687-some four miles to the east} , seems to [me]_{350-mr. dawe} common - place and tame compared to [this grand defile]_{5688-this grand defile} . Yet how many [men]_1003-men [I]_{350-mr. dawe} know who would smoke [their]_1003-men pipes throughout [it]_{26-valley of rocks} ! Thinking so much of [this place]_{5690-this place} , [I]_{350-mr. dawe} long wished [[my]_{350-mr. dawe} mother]_{746-my mother} to see [it]_{5690-this place} ; and finding [her]_{746-my mother} rather stronger one lovely April morning , [I]_{350-mr. dawe} persuaded [her]_{746-my mother} forth , embarked on [[Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} 's donkey]_{5692-mrs. huxtable 's donkey} . [We]_5693-we went , down [a small tributary glen]_{5694-a small tributary glen} , towards [the head of [the great defile]_{5696-the great defile}]_{5695-the head of the great defile} . [The little glen]_{5697-the little glen} was bright , and green , and laughing into bud , and bantering [a swift brook]_{5698-a swift brook} , which could hardly stop to answer , but left the ousels as it passed to talk at leisure about [their]_1003-men nests , and the trout to make those musical leaps that sound so crisp through the alders . Another stream meets [it]_{26-valley of rocks} among the bushes below , and now [they]_1003-men are entitled to the dignity of a bridge whereon grows the maidenhair fern , and which , with its rude and pointed arch , looks like an old pack - saddle upon [the stream]_{1155-the stream} . From this point [we]_5693-we followed [a lane]_{5504-a lane} , leading obliquely up the ascent , before the impassable steep begins . Having tethered [our]_5693-we quiet donkey to a broken gate , [I]_{350-mr. dawe} took [[my]_{350-mr. dawe} mother]_{746-my mother} along [a narrow path]_{5702-a narrow path} through the thicket to the view of [the great ravine]_{5703-the great ravine} . Standing at the end of this path , [she]_{746-my mother} was astonished at the scene before [her]_{746-my mother} . [We]_5693-we had gained a height of about two hundred feet , [the hill - top]_{5704-the hill - top} stretched a thousand feet above [us]_5693-we . [We]_5693-we stood on [the very limit of vegetation]_{5705-the very limit of vegetation} , a straight line passing clown the hill where [the quarry - like steep begins]_{5706-the quarry - like steep begins} . [[My]_{350-mr. dawe} dear mother]_{5530-my dear mother} was tired , and [I]_{350-mr. dawe} had called [her]_{746-my mother} to come [home]_1102-home , lest the view should make [her]_{746-my mother} giddy ; when suddenly [she]_{746-my mother} stepped forward to gather a harebell straggling among the stones . The shingle beneath [her]_{746-my mother} foot gave way , then below [her]_{746-my mother} , and around , and above [her]_{746-my mother} head , began in a great mass to glide . Buried to the knees and falling sideways , [she]_{746-my mother} was sinking slowly at first , then quickly and quicker yet , with a hoarse roar of moving tons of stone , gathering and whelming upon [her]_{746-my mother} , down [the rugged abyss]_{5709-the rugged abyss} . Screaming , [I]_{350-mr. dawe} leaped into the avalanche after [her]_{746-my mother} , never thinking that [I]_{350-mr. dawe} could only do harm . Stronger , and swifter , and louder , and surging , and berged with shouldering stone [the solid cascade]_{5710-the solid cascade} rushed on . [I]_{350-mr. dawe} saw [dearest mother below [me]_{350-mr. dawe}]_{5711-dearest mother below me} trying to clasp [her]_{746-my mother} hands in prayer , and to give [me]_{350-mr. dawe} [her]_{746-my mother} last word . With a desperate effort dragging [my]_{350-mr. dawe} shawl from the gulfing crash , [I]_{350-mr. dawe} threw it towards [her]_{746-my mother} , but [she]_{746-my mother} did not try to grasp it . A heavy stone leaped over [me]_{350-mr. dawe} , and struck [her]_{746-my mother} on the head ; [her]_{746-my mother} head dropped back , [she]_{746-my mother} lay senseless , and nearly buried . [We]_5712-we were dashing more headlong and headlong , in the rush of [the mountain side]_{5713-the mountain side} , to [the precipice over [the river]_{5715-the river}]_{5714-the precipice over the river} , and [my]_{350-mr. dawe} senses had all but failed , and revenge was prone before judgment , when [I]_{350-mr. dawe} heard through the din a shout . On the brink of firm ground stood [a man]_{5384-a man} , and signed [me]_{350-mr. dawe} to throw [my]_{350-mr. dawe} shawl . With all [my]_{350-mr. dawe} remaining strength [I]_{350-mr. dawe} did so , but not as [he]_{5384-a man} meant , for [I]_{350-mr. dawe} cast it entirely to [him]_{5384-a man} , and pointed to [[my]_{350-mr. dawe} mother]_{746-my mother} below . One instant the avalanche paused , [he]_{5384-a man} leaped about twenty feet down , through the heather and gorse , and stayed [his]_{5384-a man} descent by clutching a stout ash sapling . To this in a moment [he]_{5384-a man} fastened [my]_{350-mr. dawe} shawl , ( a long and strong plaid ) , and just as [[my]_{350-mr. dawe} mother]_{746-my mother} was being swept by , [he]_{5384-a man} plunged with the other end into the shingle tide . [I]_{350-mr. dawe} saw [him]_{5384-a man} leap and struggle towards [her]_{746-my mother} , and lift [her]_{746-my mother} out of [the gliding tomb]_{5719-the gliding tomb} , gliding [himself]_{5384-a man} the while , and sway [himself]_{5384-a man} and [his]_{5384-a man} burden , by means of the shawl , not back ( for that was impossible ) , but obliquely downwards ; [I]_{350-mr. dawe} saw the strong sapling bow to the strain like a fishing - rod , while hope and terror fought hard within [me]_{350-mr. dawe} ; [I]_{350-mr. dawe} saw [him]_{5384-a man} , by a desperate effort , which bent the ash - tree to the ground , leap from the whirling havoc , and lay [[my]_{350-mr. dawe} mother]_{746-my mother} on the dead fern and heath . Of the rest , [I]_{350-mr. dawe} know nothing , having become quite unconscious , before [he]_{5384-a man} saved [me]_{350-mr. dawe} , in the same manner . [We]_5721-our must have been taken [home]_1102-home in [[Farmer Huxtable]_{362-farmer huxtable} 's butt]_{5723-farmer huxtable 's butt} , for [I]_{350-mr. dawe} remember well that , amidst the stir and fright of [our]_5721-our return , and while [[my]_{350-mr. dawe} mother]_{746-my mother} was still insensible , [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} fell savagely upon poor [Suke]_345-suke , for having despatched [that elegant vehicle]_{5725-that elegant vehicle} without cleaning [it]_{5725-that elegant vehicle} from the lime dust ; whereby , as [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} declared , [our]_5721-our dresses ( so rent and tattered by the jagged stones ) were "_{[350-mr. dawe]} muxed up to shords . " [Poor Suke]_345-suke would have been likely to fare much worse , if , at such a time , [she]_345-suke had stopped to dust [the cart]_{5726-the cart} . When [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} came [home]_1102-home , [his]_{5517-the farmer} countenance , rich in capacity for expressing astonishment , far outdid [his]_{5517-the farmer} words . "_{[350-mr. dawe]} Wull , wull , for sure ! wuther [ye]_1502-me did or no ? " was all the vent [he]_{5517-the farmer} could find for [his]_{5517-the farmer} ideas during the rest of the day ; though it was plain to all who knew [him]_{5517-the farmer} that [he]_{5517-the farmer} was thinking profoundly upon the subject , and wholly occupied with it . In the course of the following week [he]_{5517-the farmer} advised [me]_1502-me very impressively never to do it again ; and nothing could ever persuade [him]_{5517-the farmer} but that [I]_1502-me jumped in , and [[my]_1502-me mother]_{746-my mother} came to rescue [me]_1502-me . But [[his]_{5517-the farmer} wife]_{789-his wife} very soon had all [her]_{789-his wife} wits about [her]_{789-his wife} . [She]_{789-his wife} sent to "_[1502-me] Coom " for [the doctor]_{5643-the doctor} ( [I]_{350-mr. dawe} begged that it might not be [[Mr. Dawe]_{350-mr. dawe} 's physician]_{5732-mr. dawe 's physician} ) , [she]_{789-his wife} put [dear mother]_{968-dear mother} to bed , and dressed [her]_{968-dear mother} wounds with simples worth ten [druggists]_{5734-druggists} ' shops , and bathed [her]_{968-dear mother} temples with rosemary , and ran down [the glen]_{997-the glen} for "_{[350-mr. dawe]} fathery ham " ( [Valerian]_363-valerian ) , which [she]_{789-his wife} declared "_{[350-mr. dawe]} would kill nine sorts of infermation ; " then [she]_{789-his wife} hushed [the entire household]_{5736-the entire household} , permitting no tongue to move except [her]_{789-his wife} own , and beat [[her]_{789-his wife} eldest boy]_{5737-her eldest boy} ( a fine young [Huxtable]_{362-farmer huxtable} ) for crying , whereupon [he]_{5737-her eldest boy} roared ; [she]_{789-his wife} even conquered [her]_{789-his wife} strong desire to know much more than all could tell ; and showed [[my]_{350-mr. dawe} mother]_{746-my mother} such true kindness and pity that [I]_{350-mr. dawe} loved [her]_{746-my mother} for it at once , and ever since . Breathing slowly and heavily , [[my]_{350-mr. dawe} poor mother]_{1310-my poor mother} lay in the bed which had long been the pride of [[Tossil]_361-tossil 's Barton]_{5668-tossil 's barton} . [The bedstead]_{5741-the bedstead} was made of carved oak , as many of them are in [North Devon]_{27-north devon} , and would have been handsome and striking , if [some ancestral [Huxtable]_{362-farmer huxtable}]_{5742-some ancestral huxtable} had not adorned [it]_{5741-the bedstead} with whitewash . But the quilt was what [they]_5743-they were proud of . It was formed of patches of diamond shape and most incongruous colours , with a death 's head in the centre and crossbones underneath . When first [I]_{350-mr. dawe} beheld it , [I]_{350-mr. dawe} tossed it down [the stairs]_{5744-the stairs} , but [[my]_{350-mr. dawe} mother]_{746-my mother} would have it brought back and used , because [she]_{746-my mother} knew how [the family]_{1254-the family} gloried in it , and [she]_{746-my mother} could not bear to hurt [their]_{1254-the family} feelings . One taper white hand lay on it now , with the tender skin bruised and discoloured by blows . [She]_{746-my mother} had closed the finger which bore [her]_{746-my mother} wedding ring , and it still remained curved and rigid . In an agony of tears , [I]_{350-mr. dawe} knelt by the side of the bed , watching [her]_{746-my mother} placid and deathlike face . Till then [I]_{350-mr. dawe} had never known how strongly and deeply [I]_{350-mr. dawe} loved [her]_{746-my mother} . [I]_{350-mr. dawe} firmly believe that [she]_{746-my mother} was revived in some degree by the glare of the patched quilt upon [her]_{746-my mother} eyes . The antagonism of nature was roused , and brought home [her]_{746-my mother} wandering powers . Feebly glancing away , [she]_{746-my mother} came suddenly to [herself]_{746-my mother} , and exclaimed : "_{[350-mr. dawe]} Is [she]_1503-she safe ? is [she]_1503-she safe ? ' " Yes , [mother]_739-mother ; here [I]_1503-she am , with [[my]_1503-she own dear mother]_{1397-my own dear mother} . "_[1503-she] [She]_1503-she opened [her]_1503-she arms , and held [me]_0-i in a nervous cold embrace , and thanked [God]_303-god , and wept . When [the surgeon]_{1504-the surgeon} came , [he]_{1504-the surgeon} pronounced that none of [her]_1503-she limbs were broken , but that the shock to the brain , and the whole system , had been so severe , that the only chance of recovery consisted in perfect quiet . [She]_1503-she [herself]_1503-she said that the question was , whether [Providence]_{319-providence} wanted [her]_1503-she still to watch over [[her]_1503-she child]_{1505-her child} . After some days [she]_1503-she came down [stairs]_1506-stairs , not without [my]_0-i support , and was propped once more upon [her]_1503-she poor sofa . Calm [she]_1503-she appeared , and contented , and happy in such sort as of old ; but whenever [she]_1503-she turned [her]_1503-she glance from [me]_0-i , [she]_1503-she observed with starting eyes every little thing that moved . Especially [she]_1503-she would lie and gaze through the open window , at [a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms]_{1507-a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms} . One day , in making too bold a cast , [he]_{1507-a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms} fell ; some chord of remembrance was touched , and [she]_1503-she swooned away on the couch . In spite of these symptoms [I]_0-i fondly hoped that [she]_1503-she was recovering strength . [She]_1503-she even walked out with [me]_0-i twice , in the sunny afternoon . But this only lasted a very short time ; it soon became manifest , even to [me]_0-i , that ere long [she]_1503-she would be with [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} . Unable to fight any more with this dark perception , [I]_0-i embraced it with a sort of savage despair , an utter sinking of the heart , which defied [God]_303-god as it sank . This [she]_1503-she soon discovered , and [I]_0-i fear that it saddened [her]_1503-she end . [She]_1503-she was much disappointed , too , that [we]_1509-our could not find or thank [him]_{1507-a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms} who had perilled [his]_{1507-a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms} life for [us]_1509-our . [None]_1510-none could tell who [he]_{1507-a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms} was , or what had become of [him]_{1507-a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms} ; though [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , at [our]_1509-our entreaty , searched all [the villages]_{1512-the villages} round . [We]_1509-our were told , indeed , by [the landlady of [the " Red - deer Inn]_{5750-the " red - deer inn}]_{5749-the landlady of the " red - deer inn} "_[1503-she] ( [a lonely public - house near the scene of the accident]_{1513-a lonely public - house near the scene of the accident} ) that [a stranger]_{1247-a stranger} had come to [her]_1503-she in very great haste , and , having learned who [we]_1509-our were , for [she]_1503-she had seen [us]_1509-our pass half an hour before , had sent [[her]_1503-she boy]_{1515-her boy} to [the farm]_{1516-the farm} for some kind of conveyance , while [he]_{1507-a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms} returned at full speed to attend [those whom [he]_{1507-a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms} had rescued]_{1517-those whom he had rescued} . It further appeared that [this stranger]_{1518-this stranger} had helped to place [us]_1509-our in [the cart]_{5726-the cart} , and showed the kindest anxiety to lessen the roughness of its motion , [himself]_{1518-this stranger} even leading [old " Smiler]_{364-old " smiler} , "_{[1518-this stranger]} to thwart [his]_{1507-a certain large spider , who worked very hard among the woodbine blossoms} propensity to the deepest and hardest ruts . By the time [[our]_1509-our slow vehicle]_{1520-our slow vehicle} reached [the farm]_{1516-the farm} , [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} was returned from [the Lower Cleve orchard]_{1522-the lower cleve orchard} , where [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} had been smoking the fernwebs , in ignorance of [our]_1509-our mishap ; and [[our]_1509-our conductor]_{1523-our conductor} , seeing [us]_1509-our safe in [her]_{331-mrs. huxtable} hands , departed without a word , while [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} was too flurried and frightened to take much notice of [him]_{1518-this stranger} . Neither could [the woman of [the inn]_{1283-the inn}]_{1524-the woman of the inn} describe [him]_{1518-this stranger} ; [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} was so " mazed , "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} when [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} heard of the " vail arl down the girt goyal , "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} as [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} called [our]_1509-our slide of about fifty feet ; and for this [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} quoted [the stranger]_{1526-the stranger} as [her]_{331-mrs. huxtable} authority , " them 's the very words as [he]_{1518-this stranger} used ; "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} though , just before this , [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} had stated that [he]_{1518-this stranger} was [a foreigner]_{1527-a foreigner} and could not speak English . Knowing that in [Devonshire]_4-devonshire [any stranger]_{941-any stranger} is called [a foreigner]_{1527-a foreigner} , and English means the brogue of [the countryside]_{1530-the countryside} , [I]_0-i did not attach much weight to this declaration . [The only remaining witness]_{1531-the only remaining witness} , [the lad who had come with the butt]_{1532-the lad who had come with the butt} , was too stupid to describe anything , except three round O 's , with [his]_{1518-this stranger} mouth and eyes . But it mattered little about description ; [I]_0-i had seen [that stranger]_{1533-that stranger} under such circumstances , that [I]_0-i could not fail to know [him]_{1526-the stranger} again . On the morrow , and once in the following week , some kind inquiries were made as to [our]_1509-our condition , by means of slips of paper conveyed by [country lads]_{1534-country lads} . No name was attached to these , and no information given about [the inquirer]_{1535-the inquirer} . [The bearer of the first missive]_{1536-the bearer of the first missive} came from [Lynmouth]_13-lynmouth , and of the second from [Ilfracombe]_{14-ilfracombe} . [Neither lad]_{1537-neither lad} knew anything ( though submitted by [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} to keen cross - examination ) , except that [he]_{1518-this stranger} was paid for [his]_{1518-this stranger} errand , but would like some cider , and that the answer was to be written upon the paper [he]_{1518-this stranger} brought . Whether any motive for concealment existed , beside an excess of delicacy , or whether there even was any intentional secresy , or merely indifference to [our]_1509-our gratitude , was more than [we]_1509-our could pretend to say . [I]_0-i am not at all inquisitive — not more so , [I]_0-i mean , than [other women]_{1538-other women} — but [I]_0-i need not confess that [my]_0-i curiosity ( to say nothing of better feelings ) was piqued a little by this uncommon reserve . So now , beside the engrossing search for [[my]_0-i deadly enemy]_{1539-my deadly enemy} , [I]_0-i had to seek out another , [[my]_0-i brave and noble friend]_{1540-my brave and noble friend} . But for the present , curiosity , gratitude , hate , all feelings indeed and passions , except from the bled vein of love , and the heart - rooted fibres of sorrow , were to be crushed within [me]_0-i . Evening after evening , [[my]_0-i dear mother]_{5530-my dear mother} 's presence seemed more and more dreamy and shadowy ; and night after night [she]_{5530-my dear mother} went feebler and feebler to bed . In the morning indeed [she]_{5530-my dear mother} had gathered some fragile strength , such strength as so wasted a form could exert , and the breeze and the fresh May sun made believe of health on [her]_{5530-my dear mother} cheeks . But no more was [I]_0-i tempted to lay [my]_0-i arm round [her]_{5530-my dear mother} waist , and rally [her]_{5530-my dear mother} on its delicate girlish span , nor could [I]_0-i now look gaily into [her]_{5530-my dear mother} eyes , and tell [her]_{5530-my dear mother} how much [she]_{5530-my dear mother} excelled [[her]_{5530-my dear mother} child]_{1505-her child} . Those little liberties , which with [less than a matron]_{1543-less than a matron} 's dignity , and more than [a mother]_{1544-a mother} 's fondness [she]_{5530-my dear mother} had so long allowed [me]_0-i , became as [she]_{5530-my dear mother} still expected , and [I]_0-i could not bear to take them , so many great distresses . Even at night , when [I]_0-i twined in its simple mode [her]_{5530-my dear mother} soft brown hair , as [I]_0-i thought how few the times [my]_0-i old task would be needed again , it cost [me]_0-i many a shift to prevent [her]_{5530-my dear mother} descrying [my]_0-i tears in the glass , or suspecting them in [my]_0-i voice . For [herself]_{5530-my dear mother} , [she]_{5530-my dear mother} knew well what was coming ; [she]_{5530-my dear mother} had learned how soon [she]_{5530-my dear mother} must be [[my]_0-i sweet angel]_{1545-my sweet angel} instead of [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} , and [her]_{5530-my dear mother} last trouble was that [she]_{5530-my dear mother} could not bring [me]_0-i to think the difference small . So calmly [she]_{5530-my dear mother} spoke of [her]_{5530-my dear mother} end , not looking at [me]_0-i the while for fear [we]_1547-we both should weep , so gently and sweetly [she]_{5530-my dear mother} talked of the time when [I]_0-i should hearken no more , as if [she]_{5530-my dear mother} were going to visit [a garden]_{1548-a garden} and hand [me]_0-i the flowers outside . Then , if [I]_0-i broke forth in an anguish of sobs , [she]_{5530-my dear mother} would beg [my]_0-i forgiveness , as if [she]_{5530-my dear mother} could have done wrong , and mourn for [my]_0-i loneliness after [her]_{5530-my dear mother} , as though [she]_{5530-my dear mother} could help forsaking [me]_0-i . Looking back , even now , on that time , how [I]_0-i condemn and yet pardon [myself]_0-i , reflecting how little [I]_0-i tried to dissemble [[my]_0-i child]_{1549-my child} - like woe . When all things rejoiced in their young summer strength , and scarcely the breeze turned the leaves for the songs of the birds , and the pure white hawthorn was calm as the death of the good , and the soul of gladness was sad , [we]_1547-we talked for the last time together , [mother]_739-mother and [child]_5440-child , looking forth on the farewell of sunset . [The room under the thatch]_{1552-the room under the thatch} smelled musty in summer , and [I]_0-i had made up a bed on the sofa [downstairs]_{1041-downstairs} . The wasting low fever was past , and the wearisome cough exhausted , and the flush had ebbed from [her]_{5530-my dear mother} cheeks ( as the world from [her]_{5530-my dear mother} heart ) , and of all human passions , and wishes , and cares , not one left a trace in [her]_{5530-my dear mother} bosom , except [a mother]_{1544-a mother} 's love . This and only this retarded [her]_{5530-my dear mother} flight to [heaven]_1555-heaven , as the sight of [his]_1556-his nest delays the rising of the lark . " [[My]_{5530-my dear mother} child]_{1549-my child} , "_{[5530-my dear mother]} [she]_{5530-my dear mother} began , and [her]_{5530-my dear mother} voice was low , but very distinct , " [[my]_{5530-my dear mother} only and darling child]_{5752-my only and darling child} , who has minded [me]_{5530-my dear mother} so long , and laid [her]_{5530-my dear mother} youth , and beauty , and high courageous spirit , at the feet of [[her]_{5530-my dear mother} weak mother]_{5753-her weak mother} ; [[my]_{5530-my dear mother} child]_{1549-my child} , who fostered in wealth and love , will be to - morrow [an orphan]_{1231-an orphan} , cast upon the wide world"—here_{[5530-my dear mother]} [she]_{5530-my dear mother} fairly broke down , in spite of religion , and [heaven]_1555-heaven , and turned [her]_{5530-my dear mother} head to the pillow , [a true daughter]_{1558-a true daughter} and [mother of earth]_{1559-mother of earth} . [I]_0-i would fain have given that fortune , whose loss to [me]_0-i [she]_{5530-my dear mother} lamented , for leave to cry freely with [her]_{5530-my dear mother} , without adding to [her]_{5530-my dear mother} distress . In a minute or two , [she]_{5530-my dear mother} was able to proceed ; with [her]_{5530-my dear mother} thin hand [she]_{5530-my dear mother} parted the hair shaken purposely over [my]_0-i eyes . " [I]_{5530-my dear mother} am sure that [[my]_{5530-my dear mother} pet]_{5394-my pet} will listen , with kindness and patience , while [I]_{5530-my dear mother} try to say what has lain so long at [my]_{5530-my dear mother} heart . [You]_0-i know how painfully [I]_{5530-my dear mother} have always been moved by any allusion to the death of [[your]_0-i dear father]_{5757-your dear father} . It has been a weakness no doubt on [my]_{5530-my dear mother} part , but one which [I]_{5530-my dear mother} vainly strove against ; and for which [I]_{5530-my dear mother} trust to be pardoned where all is pardon and peace . "_{[5530-my dear mother]} [Her]_{5530-my dear mother} voice began to tremble , and [her]_{5530-my dear mother} eyes became fixed , and [I]_0-i feared a return of the old disorder ; but [she]_{5530-my dear mother} shook it off , and spoke again distinctly , though with great labour : " This is a bitter subject , and [I]_{5530-my dear mother} never could bring [myself]_{5530-my dear mother} to it , till now , when it seems too late . But , [[my]_{5530-my dear mother} poor love]_{5758-my poor love} , [I]_{5530-my dear mother} am so anxious about it . For the rest — that Providence which has never forsaken [us]_5759-us , repine as [I]_{5530-my dear mother} would , [I]_{5530-my dear mother} can trust that [Providence]_{319-providence} still to protect [[my]_{5530-my dear mother} darling child]_{5760-my darling child} . There is one thing , and only one , by promising which [you]_{5758-my poor love} will make [my]_{5530-my dear mother} departure quite happy . Then [I]_{5530-my dear mother} shall go to rejoin [[your]_{5758-my poor love} father]_{5365-your father} , and carry such tidings of [you]_{5758-my poor love} , as will enable [us]_5759-us both to wait , in the fulness of time , [your]_{5758-my poor love} coming . "_{[5530-my dear mother]} " Oh , that the fulness of time were come ! "_[0-i] [I]_0-i cried in [my]_0-i selfish loneliness ; " for [me]_0-i it is empty enough . "_[0-i] " [[My]_{5530-my dear mother} precious]_{5762-my precious} , [[my]_{5530-my dear mother} own darling]_{5763-my own darling} [Clara]_293-clara , [you]_{5758-my poor love} sob so , [you]_{5758-my poor love} make [me]_{5530-my dear mother} most wretched . "_{[5530-my dear mother]} " [Mother]_739-mother , [I]_1560-i will not cry any more ; "_[1560-i] neither did [I]_0-i , while [she]_1560-i could see [me]_0-i . " [I]_1560-i need not tell [you]_0-i , "_[1560-i] [she]_1560-i said , " what is that promise which [I]_1560-i crave for [your]_0-i own dear sake . "_[1560-i] " No , [ma'am]_5765-ma'am , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i replied , " [I]_0-i know quite well what it is . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i saw that [I]_0-i had grieved [her]_1560-i . How could [I]_0-i call [her]_1560-i then anything else than " [mother]_739-mother "_[1560-i] ? " [[My]_1560-i mother]_{746-my mother} dear , [you]_{746-my mother} wish [me]_1560-i to promise this — that [I]_1560-i will forego [my]_1560-i revenge upon [[him]_{731-my father} who slew [[my]_1560-i father]_{731-my father}]_{5768-him who slew my father} . "_[1560-i] [She]_1560-i bowed [her]_1560-i head , with a look [I]_0-i can not describe . In the harsh way [I]_0-i had put it , it seemed as if [she]_1560-i were injuring both [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} and [me]_0-i . " Had [you]_{746-my mother} asked [me]_1560-i anything else , although it were sin against [God]_303-god and [man]_5770-man ( if [you]_{746-my mother} could ask [such a thing)—I]_{5771-such a thing)—i} would have pledged [myself]_1560-i to it , as gladly as [I]_1560-i would die — die , at least , if [my]_1560-i task were done . But this , this one thing only — to abandon what [I]_1560-i live for , what [I]_1560-i was born to do , to be [a traitor to [[my]_1560-i own father]_{1038-my own father} and [you]_{746-my mother}]_{5772-a traitor to my own father and you} — [I]_1560-i implore [you]_{746-my mother} , [mother]_739-mother , by [Him]_{1038-my own father} whose glory is on [you]_{746-my mother} now , do not ask [me]_1560-i this . "_[1560-i] [Her]_1562-her face in its sadness and purity made [me]_0-i bury [my]_0-i eyes and forget things . " Then [I]_1560-i must die , and leave [[my]_1560-i only child]_{5775-my only child} possessed with [a murderer]_{5469-a murderer} 's spirit ! "_[1560-i] The depth of [her]_1562-her last agony , and which [I]_0-i believed would cling to [her]_1562-her even in [heaven]_1555-heaven , was more than [I]_0-i could bear . [I]_0-i knelt on the floor and put [my]_0-i hand to [her]_1562-her side . [Her]_1562-her worn out heart was throbbing again , with the pang of [her]_1562-her disappointment . " [Mother]_739-mother , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i cried , " [I]_0-i will promise [you]_739-mother this . When [I]_0-i have discovered , as [I]_0-i must do , [that man who has made [you]_739-mother [a widow]_{5779-a widow} and [me]_0-i [an orphan]_{1231-an orphan}]_{5778-that man who has made you a widow and me an orphan} , if [I]_0-i find any plea whatever to lessen [his]_{5778-that man who has made you a widow and me an orphan} crime , or penitence to atone for it , as [I]_0-i hope to see [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} and [mother]_739-mother in [heaven]_1555-heaven , [I]_0-i will try to spare and forgive [him]_{5778-that man who has made you a widow and me an orphan} . Can [you]_739-mother wish [me]_0-i to rest in ignorance , and forget that deed ? "_[0-i] " [Clara]_293-clara , "_[1564-her] [she]_1564-her answered weakly , and [she]_1564-her spoke more slowly and feebly every time , " [you]_293-clara have promised [me]_1564-her all [I]_1564-her can hope for . How [you]_293-clara loved [[your]_293-clara father]_{5365-your father} ! [Me]_1564-her too [you]_293-clara have loved [I]_1564-her can not say how much . For [my]_1564-her sake , [you]_293-clara have borne poverty , trouble , and illness , without a complaining word . By day , and by night , through [my]_1564-her countless wants , and long fretfulness . "_[1564-her] [I]_0-i put [my]_0-i finger upon [her]_1564-her pale lips . How could [she]_1564-her tell such a story then ? [Her]_1564-her tears came now and then , and would not be stopped , as [she]_1564-her laid [her]_1564-her weak hand on [my]_0-i head . " May [the God of [the fatherless]_{5786-the fatherless} and [the poor]_{5787-the poor} , who knows and comforts [the widow]_{1411-the widow} 's grief]_{5785-the god of the fatherless and the poor , who knows and comforts the widow 's grief} , [the God who is taking [me]_1564-her now to [His]_{5789-the god who is taking me now to his bosom} bosom]_{5789-the god who is taking me now to his bosom} , bless with all blessings of [earth and heaven]_{5790-earth and heaven} , and restore to [me]_1564-her this [[my]_1564-her child]_{1549-my child} . "_[1564-her] A sudden happiness fell upon [her]_1564-her , as if [she]_1564-her had seen [her]_1564-her prayer 's acceptance . [She]_1564-her let [her]_1564-her arms fall round [me]_0-i , and laid [my]_0-i cheek by the side of [her]_1564-her bright flowing smile . It was the last conscious stir of the mind ; all the rest seemed the flush of the soul . In the window the night - scented heath was blooming ; outside it , the jessamine crossed in a milky way of white stars , and the lush honeysuckle had flung down [her]_1564-her lap in clusters . The fragrance of flowers lay heavy upon [us]_1565-we , and [we]_1565-we were sore weary with the burden of sorrow and joy . So tranquil and kind was the face of death , that sleep , [[his]_1566-his half - brother]_{902-his half - brother} , still held [his]_{902-his half - brother} hand . The voice of the thrush , from the corner laurel , broke the holy stillness . Like dreams of [home]_1102-home that break [our]_1565-we slumbers , [his]_1566-his melody was its own excuse . [[My]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} awoke , and said faintly , with no gleam in [her]_{746-my mother} eyes : " Raise [me]_{746-my mother} upon the pillow , [[my]_{746-my mother} love]_{5792-my love} , that [I]_{746-my mother} may hear [him]_1566-his once more . [He]_1566-his sings like one [[your]_0-i father]_{5365-your father} and [I]_{746-my mother} used to listen to every evening , in the days when [we]_1565-we watched [[your]_0-i cradle]_{5794-your cradle} . "_{[746-my mother]} [I]_0-i lifted [her]_{746-my mother} gently . The voice of nature made way for [her]_{746-my mother} passing spirit . " Now kiss [me]_{746-my mother} , [[my]_{746-my mother} child]_{1549-my child} ; once more , [[my]_{746-my mother} own loved child]_{5796-my own loved child} , [my]_{746-my mother} heart is with [you]_{1549-my child} for ever . Light of [my]_{746-my mother} eyes , [you]_{1549-my child} are growing dim . "_{[746-my mother]} [She]_{746-my mother} clasped [her]_{746-my mother} hands in prayer , with one of [mine]_0-i between them . [My]_0-i other was round [her]_{746-my mother} neck . Then [she]_{746-my mother} spoke slowly , and with a waning voice ; but firmly , as if it had been [her]_{746-my mother} marriage - response . " [Thou]_5797-thou art [[my]_{746-my mother} guide]_{5798-my guide} , and [my]_{746-my mother} staff . [I]_{746-my mother} have no fear , neither shadow of trembling . Make no long tarrying , oh [[my]_{746-my mother} God]_{5799-my god} ! "_{[746-my mother]} The bird went [home]_1102-home to [[his]_1571-his nest]_{1572-his nest} , and [she]_{746-my mother} to [that refuge where all is [home]_1102-home]_{1573-that refuge where all is home} . Though the hands that held [mine]_0-i grew cold as ice , and [her]_{746-my mother} lips replied to no kiss , and the smile on [her]_{746-my mother} face slept off into stillness , and a grey shade crept on [her]_{746-my mother} features;—I could not believe that all this was death . " Long - shadowed death , "_{[1575-some poet]} [some poet]_{1575-some poet} says . How well [I]_0-i know and feel it ! the gloom before [him]_1571-his deepening as [he]_1571-his comes , and the world of darkness stretching many years behind . [I]_0-i once dared to believe that no earthly blow could ever subdue , or even bend [my]_0-i resolute will . [I]_0-i now found [my]_0-i mistake , and cared not even to think about it . On the morning after [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} 's death [I]_0-i wandered about , and could not tell where to go . The passionate clinging which would not allow [me]_0-i , during that blank and sleepless night , to quit what remained of [her]_{746-my mother} presence , and the jealous despair which felt it a wrong that [any one else]_{926-any one else} should approach , had now settled down to a languid heaviness , and all that [I]_0-i cared for was to be let alone . All the places where [we]_1578-we had been together [I]_0-i visited now , without knowing why , perhaps it was to see if [she]_{746-my mother} were [there]_1114-there . Then vaguely disappointed , [I]_0-i thought there must be some mistake , and wearily went the dreary round again . [I]_0-i can not clearly call to mind , but think it must have been that day , when [I]_0-i was in the corner of [the room]_{823-the room} , looking at the place whence [they]_1581-they had taken [dear mother]_{968-dear mother} . [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} and [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} came in , followed by [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , who had left [his]_{5517-the farmer} shoes at the door . [They]_1581-they did not see [me]_0-i , so [I]_0-i suppose it must have been in the evening . [They]_1581-they were come to remove the sofa . [I]_0-i have not the heart to follow [their]_1581-they brogue . " Yes to be sure , "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} said [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , looking at it with a short sigh . It was odd that it should strike [me]_0-i then , but all [she]_{746-my mother} did was short . " Get it out of [her]_{746-my mother} sight , [poor dear]_{5800-poor dear} , "_{[294-ann maples]} said [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} . " To see [her]_{746-my mother} sit and look at it ! "_{[5517-the farmer]} exclaimed [[the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} 's wife]_{5624-the farmer 's wife} . " With [her]_{746-my mother} eyes so dry and stupid like ! "_{[1586-the other]} returned [the other]_{1586-the other} . " [Poor child]_{5381-poor child} , [she]_{746-my mother} must have cried [herself]_{746-my mother} out . [I]_{1586-the other} have known [her]_{746-my mother} sit by the hour , and stare at the bed where [[her]_{746-my mother} father]_{898-her father} was killed , but it was a different sort of look to this . "_{[1586-the other]} " Ah well , [she]_{746-my mother} has lost [a good mother]_{5803-a good mother} , "_{[365-dame huxtable]} said [Dame Huxtable]_{365-dame huxtable} . " God grant [[my]_{365-dame huxtable} poor little chicks]_{5804-my poor little chicks} may never be left like [her]_{746-my mother} . "_{[365-dame huxtable]} " What 's [[your]_0-i children]_{5805-your children} to talk of along with [Miss Clara]_293-clara ? "_{[1587-my nurse]} asked [[my]_0-i nurse]_{1587-my nurse} . [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} was about to answer sharply , but checked [herself]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , and only said : " [All children]_{5806-all children} is much of a muchness to [[their]_{5806-all children} mothers]_{5807-their mothers} . "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} " Do n't tell [me]_{294-ann maples} , "_{[294-ann maples]} cried [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} , who had never had any . [The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} came between [them]_1589-them , walking on tip - toe . " For good , now , do n't [ye]_{331-mrs. huxtable} fall out at such a time as this here . What 's [our]_1589-them affairs to speak of now ? "_{[5517-the farmer]} " What 's [any folks]_{5808-any folks} , "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} asked [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , " that has the breath of life ? "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} " And goes forth in the morning , and is cast into the oven , [ma'am]_5765-ma'am , "_{[294-ann maples]} continued [[her]_{294-ann maples} antagonist]_{1590-her antagonist} . " Ah , bless [thee]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , yes ! "_{[5517-the farmer]} [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} replied , " [I]_{5517-the farmer} 'll take [my]_{5517-the farmer} gospel oath of it . It 's not much good [I]_{5517-the farmer} am at [parsoning]_{5810-parsoning} , and maybe [I]_{5517-the farmer} likes a drop of drink when the weather is fitty ; but [that young chestnut filly that 's just come [home]_1102-home from breaking]_{5811-that young chestnut filly that 's just come home from breaking} , [I]_{5517-the farmer} 'd sell [her]_{5811-that young chestnut filly that 's just come home from breaking} to [a gipsey]_{5813-a gipsey} , and trust [him]_{5813-a gipsey} for the money , if so be ' twould make [the young lady]_{5814-the young lady} turn [her]_{5814-the young lady} face to [the Lord]_{5815-the lord} . Ca n't [ye]_{331-mrs. huxtable} speak to [her]_{5814-the young lady} now about it , either of [[you]_{331-mrs. huxtable} women]_{5816-you women} ? Doo'e now , doo'e . "_{[5517-the farmer]} " How could [I]_{789-his wife} possible ? "_{[789-his wife]} [[his]_{5517-the farmer} wife]_{789-his wife} exclaimed ; " why , [farmer]_5817-farmer , [you]_5817-farmer must be mazed . [A high young lady like that]_{5818-a high young lady like that} , and the tears still hot in [her]_{5814-the young lady} eyes ! "_{[789-his wife]} " The very reason , [wife]_5819-wife , the very time and reason . But likely [Mrs. Maples]_{366-mrs. maples} would be [the proper person]_{5820-the proper person} . "_{[5517-the farmer]} " Thank [you]_{5517-the farmer} , [sir]_5380-sir , "_{[789-his wife]} [[my]_0-i nurse]_{1587-my nurse} replied , " [Mrs. Maples]_{366-mrs. maples} knows good manners a little . Thank [you]_{5517-the farmer} , [sir]_5380-sir ; [Mrs. Maples]_{366-mrs. maples} was n't born in [Devonshire]_4-devonshire . "_{[789-his wife]} " [I]_{5517-the farmer} ask [your]_5819-wife pardon , [ma'am]_5765-ma'am , "_{[5517-the farmer]} said [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , much abashed , " [I]_{5517-the farmer} humbly ask [your]_5819-wife pardon ; [I]_{5517-the farmer} was n't taught no better . [I]_{5517-the farmer} can only go by what [I]_{5517-the farmer} have seen , and what seems to come inside of [me]_{5517-the farmer} . And [I]_{5517-the farmer} know , in [our]_5824-our way of business , when a calf is weaned from [the mother]_{5825-the mother} , [the poor beastess]_{5826-the poor beastess} hath a call for [some one else]_{5827-some one else} to feed [it]_{5826-the poor beastess} . Maybe it 's no harm to let [her]_{5826-the poor beastess} have the refusal . "_{[5517-the farmer]} Therewith [he]_{5517-the farmer} opened [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} 's Bible , and placed it reverently on the window - seat . " [Waife]_367-waife , do'e mind the time as poor [Aunt Betsy]_{368-aunt betsy} died , over there to [Rowley Mires]_{28-rowley mires} ? "_{[5517-the farmer]} " For sure [I]_{746-my mother} do , but what have [her]_{368-aunt betsy} got to do with it ? [Us]_5824-our must n't talk of [her]_{368-aunt betsy} , [I]_{746-my mother} reckon , any more than of the chillers , though [us]_5824-our be so unlucky as to be born in [Devonshire]_4-devonshire . [Fie]_5828-fie , fie , [thee]_5828-fie ought to know better than to talk of poor [Aunt Betsy]_{368-aunt betsy} along of [a lady]_{5829-a lady} , and before [our]_5824-our betters . "_{[746-my mother]} Here [she]_{746-my mother} curtsied to [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} , with a flash of light in [her]_{746-my mother} eyes , and rubbing them hard with [her]_{746-my mother} apron . " Well , well , "_{[5517-the farmer]} replied [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , sadly , " mayhap so [I]_{5517-the farmer} did . And who be [I]_{5517-the farmer} to gainsay ? Mayhap so [I]_{5517-the farmer} did ; "_{[5517-the farmer]} [he]_{5517-the farmer} dropped [his]_{5517-the farmer} voice , but added , after some reflection , " It be hard to tell the rights of it ; but sure [her]_{746-my mother} were [a woman]_{5830-a woman} . "_{[5517-the farmer]} " Who said [her]_{746-my mother} were [a man]_{5384-a man} , [thee]_{331-mrs. huxtable} zany ? "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} was disappointed that the case would not be argued . [The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} discreetly changed the subject . " Now , if it was [me]_{5517-the farmer} , "_{[5517-the farmer]} [he]_{5517-the farmer} continued , " [I]_{5517-the farmer} would n't think of taking this [here settle - bed]_{5832-here settle - bed} away from the poor thing . "_{[5517-the farmer]} " Why not , [farmer]_5817-farmer ? "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} asked [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , sharply . " Give [me]_{331-mrs. huxtable} a reason for leaving it , and [I]_{331-mrs. huxtable} 'll give [you]_5817-farmer ten for taking it . "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} " [I]_{331-mrs. huxtable} ca n't give no reasons . But maybe it comforts [her]_{789-his wife} a little . "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} " Comfort indeed ! "_{[789-his wife]} said [[his]_{5517-the farmer} wife]_{789-his wife} ; " breaks [her]_{789-his wife} heart with , crying , more likely . Come , lend a hand , old heavy - strap ; what can [a great dromedary]_{5834-a great dromedary} like [thee]_{789-his wife} know about [young wenches]_{5835-young wenches} ? "_{[789-his wife]} At any rate [he]_{5517-the farmer} knew more than [she]_{789-his wife} did . The moment [they]_1599-they touched it [I]_0-i burst forth from [my]_0-i corner , and flung [myself]_0-i upon it , rolling as if [I]_0-i would bury [myself]_0-i in the ecstasy of anguish . What [they]_1599-they did [I]_0-i can not tell ; [they]_1599-they might say what [they]_1599-they liked , [I]_0-i had not cried till then . The next day [I]_0-i was sitting stupified and heavy , trying once more to meet the necessity of thinking about [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} 's funeral ; but again and again , the weakness of sorrow fell away from the subject . [The people of [the house]_{764-the house}]_{1601-the people of the house} kept from [me]_0-i . [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} had done [her]_{331-mrs. huxtable} best , but [they]_1599-they knew [I]_0-i would rather be alone . The door was opened quietly , and [some one]_{1603-some one} entered in a stealthy manner . Regarding it as an intrusion , [I]_0-i would not look that way . " [Miss Clara]_293-clara dear , "_{[5517-the farmer]} began [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , standing behind [me]_0-i , and whispering , " [I]_{5517-the farmer} humbly ask [your]_293-clara pardon , [Miss]_5433-miss , for calling [you]_293-clara that same . But [we]_5837-we have had a wonderful fine season , sure enough . "_{[5517-the farmer]} [I]_0-i made [him]_{5517-the farmer} no answer , being angry at [his]_{5517-the farmer} ill - timed common - place . " If [you]_293-clara please , [Miss]_5838-miss , such a many lambs was never known afore , and turnips fine last winter , and corn , and hay , and every kind of stock , a fetching of such prices . [The farmers about here]_{5839-the farmers about here} has made [their]_{5839-the farmers about here} fortune mainly . "_[0-i] " [I]_0-i am glad to hear that [you]_{5517-the farmer} are so prosperous , [Mr. Huxtable]_{338-mr. huxtable} , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i answered , very coldly . " Yes fie , good times , [Miss]_5433-miss , wonderful good times , [we]_5837-we do n't know what to do with [our]_5837-we money a'rnost . "_[0-i] " Buy education and good taste , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said , " instead of thrusting [your]_{5517-the farmer} happiness upon such as [I.]_0-i "_[0-i] How little [I]_0-i knew [him]_{5517-the farmer} ! Shall [I]_0-i ever forgive [myself]_0-i that speech ? " Ah , [I]_{5517-the farmer} wish [I]_{5517-the farmer} could , "_{[5517-the farmer]} [he]_{5517-the farmer} answered , sadly , " [I]_{5517-the farmer} wish with all [my]_{5517-the farmer} heart [I]_{5517-the farmer} could . But [we]_1606-we must be born to the like of that , [I]_{5517-the farmer} am afeared , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara . "_{[5517-the farmer]} [Poor fellow]_{1605-poor fellow} ! [he]_{5517-the farmer} knew nothing of irony , as [we]_1606-we do , who are born to good taste , otherwise [I]_0-i might have suspected [him]_{5517-the farmer} of it then . [He]_{5517-the farmer} suddenly wished [me]_0-i " good evening , "_{[5517-the farmer]} although it was middle - day , and then [he]_{5517-the farmer} made off for the door , but came back again with a desperate resolve , and spoke , for [him]_{5517-the farmer} , very quickly , looking all the time at [his]_{5517-the farmer} feet . " There , [I]_{5517-the farmer} ca n't make head or tail of it , [Miss Clara]_293-clara , but [wife]_5819-wife said [I]_{5517-the farmer} was to do it so . Take the danged money , that 's [a dear]_{1467-a dear} , and for good now do n't be offended , for [I]_{5517-the farmer} cas'n help it . "_{[5517-the farmer]} [He]_{5517-the farmer} opened [his]_{5517-the farmer} great hand , which was actually shaking , and hurriedly placed on the sofa a small packet tied in the leaf of a copy book ; then suddenly put in mind of something , [he]_{5517-the farmer} made a dive , and snatching it up , flung it upon a Windsor chair . It fell with a chink , the string slipped off , and out rolled at least forty sovereigns and guineas , and a number of crown - pieces . Peremptorily [I]_0-i called [him]_{5517-the farmer} back , for [he]_{5517-the farmer} was running out of the door . " [Mr. Huxtable]_{338-mr. huxtable} , what is the meaning of this ? "_{[5517-the farmer]} " Meaning , [Miss]_5433-miss ! [Lord]_5844-lord bless [you]_5433-miss , [Miss Clara]_293-clara , there bain't no meaning of it ; only it corned into [my]_1607-he head last night , as [I]_1607-he was laying awake , humbly asking [your]_5433-miss pardon , [Miss]_5845-miss , for that same , that if so be [you]_5433-miss should desire , that [the dear good lady]_{5846-the dear good lady} [herself]_{5846-the dear good lady} might like , if [I]_1607-he may make so bold , meaning that it is n't fitly like , that [she]_{5846-the dear good lady} should lay nowhere else , but alongside of [[her]_{5846-the dear good lady} own husband]_{5847-her own husband} , till death do [them]_5848-them part , [Mr. Henry Valentine Vaughan]_298-harry , Esquire , [Vaughan Park]_{5-vaughan park} , in [the county of]_{5849-the county of} [Gloucestershire]_{3-gloucestershire} . There [I]_1607-he be as bad as [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} . "_[1607-he] [He]_1607-he repeated [his]_1607-he rhyme , with some relief , hoping to change the subject . [I]_0-i caught [him]_1607-he by both hands , and burst into tears . " Do n't [ye]_0-i now , "_[1607-he] [he]_1607-he said , with a thickness in [his]_1607-he voice , " do n't [ye]_0-i now , [[my]_1607-he dearie]_{1454-my dearie} , leastways unless it does [you]_0-i good . "_[1607-he] " It does [me]_0-i good , indeed , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i sobbed , " to find still in [the world]_{798-the world} so kind a heart as [yours]_1607-he . "_[0-i] Though [I]_0-i longed to look [him]_1607-he in the face , [I]_0-i knew that [I]_0-i must not do so . Oh why are [men]_1003-men so ashamed of manly tears ? Perceiving that [I]_0-i could not speak , [he]_1607-he began to talk for both of [us]_1609-us , making a hundred blundering apologies , trying to hide [his]_1607-he knowledge of [my]_0-i poverty , and to prove that [he]_1607-he was only paying a debt which extended over many years of tenancy . [He]_1607-he was not at all [an imaginative man]_{1610-an imaginative man} , but delicacy supplied [him]_1607-he with invention . So deep a sense pervades all classes in [this English country]_{1611-this english country} , that want of money is an indictment , which none but [the culprit]_{1612-the culprit} may sign . Poor or rich , [I]_0-i should not be worth despising , if [I]_0-i had shown the paltry pride of declining such a loan . The tears came anew to [my]_0-i eyes when [I]_0-i found that what had been brought so freely was the savings of years of honest toil , a truth which [the owners]_{1613-the owners} had tried to conceal by polishing the old coin . But not being skilled , [dear souls]_{1614-dear souls} , in plate - cleaning , [they]_{1613-the owners} had left some rotten - stone adhering to the George and Dragons . Although [I]_0-i find a sad pleasure in lingering over these times , with such a history still impending , [I]_0-i can not afford the indulgence . [Dear mother]_{968-dear mother} 's simple funeral took [me]_0-i once more to [[my]_0-i native place]_{1616-my native place} . Even without [Mr. Huxtable]_{338-mr. huxtable} 's generous and noble assistance , [I]_0-i should have laid [her]_{968-dear mother} to rest by the side of [the husband [she]_{968-dear mother} loved so well]_{1617-the husband she loved so well} . But difficulties , sore to encounter at such a time , would have met [me]_0-i on every side . Moreover the kind act cheered and led [me]_0-i through despondency , like the hand and face of [God]_303-god . Caring little what [people]_1132-people might say or think , [I]_0-i could not stay at a distance . Nature told [me]_0-i that it was [my]_0-i duty to go , and duty or not , [I]_0-i could not stay away . And now for the last time [I]_0-i look on the face and form of [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} . That which [I]_0-i have played , and talked , and laughed with , though lately not much of laughter , that which has fed and cared for [me]_0-i , till it needed [my]_0-i care in turn ; that which [I]_0-i have toddled beside , or proudly run in front of ; whose arms have been round [me]_0-i whenever [I]_0-i wept , and whose bosom the haven of childhood 's storms ; first to greet [me]_0-i with smiles in the morning , and last to bless [me]_0-i with tears at night ; ever loving , and never complaining — in one word for a thousand , [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} . So far away now , so hopelessly far away ! There it lies indeed , [I]_0-i can touch it , kiss it , and embrace it ; but oh how small a part of [mother]_739-mother ! and even that part is not [mine]_0-i . So holy and calm it lies , such loving kindness still upon its features , so near [me]_0-i , but in mystery so hopelessly far away ! [I]_0-i can see it , but it never will know [me]_0-i again ; [I]_0-i may die beside it , and it can not weep . The last last look of all on [earth]_1622-earth — [they]_1623-they must have carried [me]_0-i away . [I]_0-i remember tottering down [the hill]_{1624-the hill} , supported by a stalwart arm . The approach to [the house]_{764-the house} prevented — or something . [Two children]_{1626-two children} ran before [me]_0-i , stopping now and then to wonder , and straggling to pick hedge - flowers . [One of [them]_{1626-two children}]_{1627-one of them} brought [me]_0-i a bunch , then stared , and was afraid to offer [them]_{1626-two children} . " [Nancy]_{294-ann maples} , [I]_{5830-a woman} 'll be the death of [thee]_{294-ann maples} , "_{[5830-a woman]} whispered [a woman]_{5830-a woman} 's voice . [The little girl]_{1629-the little girl} shrunk to [me]_0-i for shelter , with timid tears in [her]_{1629-the little girl} great blue eyes . So [I]_0-i took [her]_{1629-the little girl} hand , and led [her]_{1629-the little girl} on , and somehow it did [me]_0-i good . At intervals , the funeral hymn , which [they]_{1626-two children} sing on [the road]_{1630-the road} to [the grave]_{1631-the grave} , fell solemnly on [our]_1632-our ears . [Some one]_{1603-some one} from time to time gave out the words of a verse and then it was sung to a simple impressive tune . That ancient hymn , which has drowned so many sobs , [I]_0-i did not hear , but felt it . [We]_1632-our arrived at [Vaughan St. Mary]_{18-vaughan st. mary} late in the afternoon of the second day . The whole of the journey was to [me]_0-i a long and tearful dream . [Mr. Huxtable]_{338-mr. huxtable} came with [us]_1632-our . [He]_{338-mr. huxtable} had never before been further from [home]_1102-home than [Exeter]_29-exeter ; and [his]_{338-mr. huxtable} single visit to [that city]_{1635-that city} had formed the landmark of [his]_{338-mr. huxtable} life . [He]_{338-mr. huxtable} never tried to comfort [me]_0-i as [the others]_{1636-the others} did . [The ignorant man]_{1637-the ignorant man} knew better . Alone [I]_0-i sat by [[[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's grave]_{990-my father 's grave} , with [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} 's ready before [my]_0-i feet . [They]_1641-they had cast the mould on the other side , so as not to move [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's coverlet . [The poor old pensioner]_{1643-the poor old pensioner} had been true to [her]_{1643-the poor old pensioner} promise , and [[man]_5770-man 's last garden]_{1645-man 's last garden} was blooming like [his]_5770-man first flower - bed . [My]_0-i mind ( if any [I]_0-i had ) seemed to have undergone some change . [Defiance]_369-defiance , and pride , and savage delight in misery , were entirely gone ; and depression had taken the place of dejection . [Death]_296-death now seemed to [me]_0-i the usual and proper condition of things , and [I]_0-i felt it an impertinence that [I]_0-i should still be alive . So [I]_0-i waited , with heavy composure , till [she]_{1643-the poor old pensioner} should be brought , who so often had walked there with [me]_0-i . At length [she]_{1643-the poor old pensioner} was coming for good and all , and a space was left for [me]_0-i . But [I]_0-i must not repose there yet ; [I]_0-i had still [my]_0-i task before [me]_0-i . The bell was tolling faster , and the shadows growing longer , and [the children who had been playing at hide - and - seek]_{1646-the children who had been playing at hide - and - seek} , where soon [themselves]_{1646-the children who had been playing at hide - and - seek} shall be sought in vain , had flitted away from sight , perhaps scared at [my]_0-i presence , perhaps gone [home]_1102-home to tea , to enjoy the funeral afterwards . The evening wind had ceased from troubling the yews , and the short - lived songs of the birds were done . [The place]_{5531-the place} was as sad as [I]_0-i could wish . The smell of [new earth]_{1649-new earth} inspired , as it always does , some unsearchable everlasting sympathy between the material and [the creature]_{1650-the creature} . The sun was setting behind [me]_0-i : suddenly a shadow eclipsed [my]_0-i own upon the red loam across [the open grave]_{1651-the open grave} . Without a start , and dreamily ( as [I]_0-i did all things now ) , [I]_0-i turned to see whence it came . Within a yard of [me]_0-i stood [Mr. Edgar Vaughan]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} . In a moment the old feeling was at [my]_0-i heart , and [my]_0-i wits were all awake . [I]_0-i observed that [he]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} was paler than when [I]_0-i had seen [him]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} last , and the rigid look was wavering on [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} face , like steel reflected by water . [He]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} lifted [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} hat to [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i neither rose nor spoke , but turned and watched [him]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} . " [Clara]_293-clara , "_{[297-mr. edgar vaughan]} [he]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} said in a low , earnest voice , " [I]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} see [you]_293-clara are still the same . Will no depth of grief , no length of time , no visitation from [Him]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} who is over [us]_5852-us all , ever bend [your]_293-clara adamant and implacable will ? "_{[297-mr. edgar vaughan]} [I]_0-i heard , with some surprise , [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} allusion to the Great Being , whom [he]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} was not wo nt to recognise ; but [I]_0-i made [him]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} no reply . " Very well , "_{[297-mr. edgar vaughan]} [he]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} resumed , with the ancient chill hardening over [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} features ; " so then let it be . [I]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} am not come to offer [you]_293-clara condolence , which [you]_293-clara would despise ; nor do [I]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} mean to be present when [you]_293-clara would account the sight of [me]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} an insult . And yet [I]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} loved [[your]_293-clara mother]_{5332-your mother} , [Clara]_293-clara ; [I]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} loved [her]_{5332-your mother} very truly . "_{[297-mr. edgar vaughan]} This [he]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} said with such emotion , that a new thought broke upon [me]_0-i . Quick as the thought , [he]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} asked , " Would [you]_0-i know who killed [[your]_0-i father]_{5365-your father} ? "_{[297-mr. edgar vaughan]} " And [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} , too , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i answered , " whose coffin [I]_0-i see coming . "_[0-i] The funeral turned the corner of [the lane]_{1652-the lane} , and the dust rose from [the bearers]_{1653-the bearers} ' feet . [He]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} took [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} hat off , and the perspiration stood upon [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} forehead . Betwixt suspense and terror , and the wildness of grief , [I]_0-i was obliged to lean on the headstone for support , and a giddiness came over [me]_0-i . When [I]_0-i raised [my]_0-i eyes again , there was [no one]_{730-no one} near [me]_0-i . In vain [I]_0-i wiped them hurriedly and looked again . [Mr. Vaughan]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} was gone ; but on the grass at [my]_0-i feet lay a folded letter . [I]_0-i seized it quickly , and broke the seal . That moment a white figure appeared between the yew - trees by [the porch]_{930-the porch} . It was [the aged minister leading [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} the last path of all]_{1656-the aged minister leading my mother the last path of all} . The book was in [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} hand , and [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} form was tall and stately , and [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} step so slow , that the white hair fell unruffled , while the grand words on [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} lips called majesty into [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} gaze . Thrusting aside the letter , [I]_0-i followed into [the Church]_{1351-the church} , and stood behind [the old font where [I]_0-i had been baptized]_{1659-the old font where i had been baptized} ; [a dark and gloomy nook]_{1660-a dark and gloomy nook} , fit for such an entrance . [[She]_{746-my mother} who had carried [me]_0-i [there]_1114-there]_{1661-she who had carried me there} was carried past [it]_1114-there now , and the pall waved in the damp cold air , and [all the world]_{1663-all the world} seemed stone and mould . But afterwards , on [the fair hill - side]_{1664-the fair hill - side} , while the faint moon gathered power from the deepening sky , and glancing on that hoary brow sealed the immortal promises and smoothed the edges of the grave , around which bent the uncovered heads of [many who had mourned before , and after a few bounds of mirth]_{1665-many who had mourned before , and after a few bounds of mirth} should bend again in mourning , until in earth 's fair turn and turn , [others]_869-others should bend and [they]_869-others lie down — beholding this , and feeling something higher than " dust to dust , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i grew content to bide [my]_0-i time with [the other children of [men]_1003-men]_{1667-the other children of men} , and remembered that no wave can break until it reach [the shore]_{1669-the shore} . When a long and heavy sleep ( [my]_0-i first sleep since [dear mother]_{968-dear mother} 's death ) had brought [me]_0-i down to the dull plain of life , [I]_0-i read for the first time the letter so strangely delivered . Even then it seemed unkind to [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} that [I]_0-i should think about it . [Mr. Vaughan]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} had placed it in a new envelope , which [he]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} had sealed with [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} own ring , the original cover ( if any there were ) having been removed . The few words , of which it consisted , were written in a clear round hand , upon a sheet of thin tough paper , such as [we]_1672-we use for foreign postage , and folded in a peculiar manner . There was nothing remarkable in the writing , except this , that the words as well as the letters were joined . It was as follows : " [The one who slain [[your]_0-i brother]_{1415-your brother}]_{5856-the one who slain your brother} is at 19 [Grove Street]_{30-grove street} [London]_1-london . [You]_0-i will come in danger of it why [you]_0-i know . "_[1672-we] No date , no signature , no stops , except as shown above . In short , it was so dark and vague , that [I]_0-i returned to [Devonshire]_4-devonshire , with a resolution to disregard it wholly . When [we]_1672-we reached the foot of [the hill]_{1624-the hill} , at the corner of [the narrow lane which leads to [Tossil 's Barton]_361-tossil]_{1674-the narrow lane which leads to tossil 's barton} , and where the white gate stands of which [the neighbourhood]_{5329-the neighbourhood} is so proud , a sudden scream was heard , and a rush made upon [us]_1672-we from behind the furze - bush . [The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} received the full brunt of a most vigorous onset , and the number and courage of [the enemy]_{1677-the enemy} making up for [their]_{1677-the enemy} want of size , [his]_{5517-the farmer} strong bastions were almost carried by storm . To the cry of " [Daddy]_370-daddy ! [Daddy]_370-daddy 's come [home]_1102-home ! "_{[1678-half a dozen urchins and more , without distinction of sex]} [half a dozen urchins and more , without distinction of sex]_{1678-half a dozen urchins and more , without distinction of sex} , jumped and tugged and flung and clung around [him]_{5517-the farmer} , with no respect whatever for [his]_{5517-the farmer} Sunday coat , or brass - buttoned gaiters . Taking advantage of [his]_{5517-the farmer} laughing , [they]_{1678-half a dozen urchins and more , without distinction of sex} pulled [his]_{5517-the farmer} legs this way and that , as if [he]_{5517-the farmer} were skating for the first time , and [little Sally]_371-sally ( [his]_{5517-the farmer} favourite ) swarming up , made a base foot - rope of the great ancestral silver watch - chain whose mysterious awe sometimes sufficed to keep [her]_371-sally eyes half open in [church]_1429-church . Betwixt delight and shame , [the poor father]_{1680-the poor father} was so dreadfully taken aback , that [he]_{1680-the poor father} could not tell what to do , till fatherly love suggested the only escape . [He]_{1680-the poor father} lifted them one by one to [his]_{1680-the poor father} lips , and after some hearty smacks sent all ( except [the baby]_{1681-the baby} ) sliding down [his]_{1680-the poor father} back . While all this was going forward , [the good dame]_{5559-the good dame} , with a clean apron on , kept [herself]_{5559-the good dame} in the background , curtseying and trying to look sad at [me]_0-i , but too much carried away to succeed . [Her]_{5559-the good dame} plump cheeks left but little room for tears , yet [I]_0-i thought one tried to find [a road]_{1683-a road} from either eye . When the burst was nearly done , [she]_{5559-the good dame} felt ( like [a true woman]_{1684-a true woman} ) for [me]_0-i so lonely in all this love , though [I]_0-i could not help enjoying it ; and so [she]_{5559-the good dame} tried to laugh at it . For a long time after this , [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} was admired and consulted by all [the neighbouring parishes]_{1686-the neighbouring parishes} , as [a man who had seen [the world]_{798-the world}]_{1687-a man who had seen the world} . [[His]_{5517-the farmer} labourers]_{1689-his labourers} , also , [one man]_{1690-one man} and [a boy]_{1691-a boy} , for a fortnight called [him]_{5517-the farmer} " [Sir]_5380-sir , "_{[1690-one man]} a great discomfort to [him]_{5517-the farmer} ; more than this , some letters were brought for [him]_{5517-the farmer} to interpret , and [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} became unduly jealous . But in this , as in most other matters , things came to their level , and when it was slowly discovered that [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} was just the same , [[his]_{5517-the farmer} neighbours]_{5665-his neighbours} showed much disappointment , and even some contempt . It was not long before the thought of that letter , which had been laid by so scornfully , began to work within [me]_0-i . Again and again , as time wore on , and the deep barb of sorrow darkly rusted away , it came home to [me]_0-i as a sin , that [I]_0-i was neglecting a special guidance . Moreover , [my]_0-i reason for staying in [Devonshire]_4-devonshire was gone , and as [my]_0-i spirit recovered its tone , it could not put up with inaction . Three months after [our]_1694-our return , one breezy afternoon in August , when the heath had long succeeded the gorse and broom upon the cleve , and [the children]_{1695-the children} were searching for " wuts "_{[746-my mother]} and half - kerneled nuts , [I]_0-i sat on a fallen tree , where a break in the copse made a frame for one of [our]_1694-our favourite views . Of late [I]_0-i had been trying to take some sketches in water - colours of what [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} and [I]_0-i had so often admired together , and this had been kept for the last . Wild as the scheme may appear to all who know [the world]_{798-the world} and its high contempt for [woman]_1698-woman 's skill , [I]_0-i had some hope of earning money in [London]_1-london by the pencil , and was doing [my]_0-i utmost to advance in art . Also , [I]_0-i wished to take away with [me]_0-i some memorials of a time comparatively happy . [Little Sally Huxtable]_371-sally , [a dear little child]_{1699-a dear little child} , now [[my]_0-i chief companion]_{1700-my chief companion} , had strayed into the wood to string more strawberry beads on [her]_371-sally spike of grass , for the wood strawberries here last almost to the equinox ; and [I]_0-i had just roughed in [my]_0-i outline , and was correcting the bold strokes , by nature 's soft gradations ; when suddenly through a cobnut bush , and down the steep bank at [my]_0-i side , came , in a sliding canter , a magnificent red deer . [He]_1701-he passed so close before [me]_0-i , with antlers , like a varnished crabstick , russet in the sun , that [I]_0-i could have touched [his]_1701-he brown flank with [my]_0-i pencil . [Being in no hurry or fright whatever]_{1702-being in no hurry or fright whatever} , [he]_1701-he regarded [me]_0-i from [his]_1701-he large deep eyes with a look of courteous interest , a dignified curiosity too well bred for words ; and then , as if with an evening of pleasant business before [him]_1701-he , trotted away through the podded wild broom on the left . Before [I]_0-i had time to call [him]_1701-he back , which , with a childish impulse , [I]_0-i was about to do , the nutbush where [he]_1701-he had entered moved again , and , laughing at [his]_1701-he own predicament on the steep descent , [a young man]_{1703-a young man} leaped and landed in the bramble at [my]_0-i feet . Before [me]_0-i stood [the one whom [we]_1705-we had so often longed to thank]_{1704-the one whom we had so often longed to thank} . But at sight of [me]_0-i , [his]_1701-he countenance changed entirely . The face , so playful just before , suddenly grew dark and sad , and , with a distant salutation , [he]_1701-he was hurrying away , when [I]_0-i sprang forward and caught [him]_1701-he by the hand . Every nerve in [my]_0-i body thrilled , as [I]_0-i felt the grasp that had saved [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} and [me]_0-i . " Excuse [me]_1701-he , "_[1701-he] [he]_1701-he said coldly , " [I]_1701-he will lose [[my]_1701-he prey]_{924-my prey} . "_[1701-he] But [I]_0-i would not let [him]_1701-he go so curtly . What [I]_0-i said [I]_0-i can not tell , only that it was very foolish , and clumsy , and cold by the side of what [I]_0-i felt . Whom but [God]_303-god and [him]_1701-he had [I]_0-i to thank for [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} 's peaceful end , and all [her]_{746-my mother} treasured words , each worth a dozen lives of [mine]_0-i ? [He]_1701-he answered not at all , nor looked at [me]_0-i ; but listened with a cold constraint , and , as [I]_0-i thought , contemptuous pity , at which [my]_0-i pride began to take alarm . " [Sir]_5380-sir , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i exclaimed , when still [he]_1701-he answered not , " [Sir]_5380-sir , [I]_1701-he will detain [you]_1701-he no longer from murdering [that poor stag]_{5863-that poor stag} . "_[1701-he] [He]_1701-he answered very haughtily , " [I]_1701-he am not of [the Devonshire hunters]_{5864-the devonshire hunters} , who toil to exterminate this noble race . "_[1701-he] As [he]_1701-he spoke [he]_1701-he pointed down [the valley]_{1708-the valley} , where the red deer , [[my]_0-i late friend]_{1709-my late friend} , was crossing , for [his]_{1709-my late friend} evening browse , to a gnoll of juicy grass . Then why was [he]_1701-he pursuing [him]_{1709-my late friend} , and why did [he]_1701-he call [him]_{1709-my late friend} [[his]_1701-he prey]_{1710-his prey} ? The latter , probably a pretext to escape [me]_0-i , but the former question [I]_0-i could not answer , and did not choose to ask . [He]_1701-he went [his]_1701-he way , and [I]_0-i felt discharged of half [my]_0-i obligation . [The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , [[his]_1701-he wife]_{789-his wife} , and [little Sally]_371-sally were now all [I]_0-i had to love . [Poor Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} , though thoroughly honest and faithful , was of a nature so dry and precise that [I]_0-i respected rather than loved [her]_{294-ann maples} . [I]_0-i am born to love and hate with all [my]_0-i heart and soul , although a certain pride prevents [me]_0-i from exhibiting the better passion , except when strongly moved . That other feeling , sown by [Satan]_372-satan , [he]_1701-he never allows [me]_0-i to disguise . To leave the only three [I]_0-i loved was a bitter grief , to tell [them]_1713-they of [my]_0-i intention , a sore puzzle . But , after searching long for a good way to manage it , the only way [I]_0-i found was to tell [them]_1713-they bluntly , and not to cry if it could be helped . So when [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} came in full glory to try upon [me]_0-i a pair of stockings of the brightest blue ever seen , which [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} had long been knitting on the sly , for winter wear , [I]_0-i thanked [her]_{331-mrs. huxtable} warmly , and said : " Dear [me]_0-i , [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , how [they]_1713-they will admire these in [London]_1-london . "_[0-i] " In [Lonnon]_32-lonnon , cheel ! "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} always called [me]_0-i [[her]_{331-mrs. huxtable} child]_{1505-her child} , since [I]_0-i had lost [[my]_0-i mother—"they'll]_{5865-my mother—"they'll} never see the likes of [they]_1713-they in [Lonnon]_32-lonnon , without [they]_1713-they gits one of [them]_1713-they there long glaskies , same as [preventive chaps]_{5866-preventive chaps} has , and then [I]_{331-mrs. huxtable} reckon there 'll be [Hexymoor]_20-hexymoor between , and [Dartmoor]_33-dartmoor too , for out [I]_{331-mrs. huxtable} know , and ever so many [church - towers]_{5867-church - towers} and milestones . "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} " Oh yes , [they]_1713-they will . [I]_{331-mrs. huxtable} shall be [there]_1114-there in a week . "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} " In [Lonnon]_32-lonnon in a wake ! [Dear heart alaive]_{5869-dear heart alaive} , cheel , dont'e tell on so ! "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} [She]_{331-mrs. huxtable} thought [my]_0-i wits were wandering , as [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} had often fancied of late , and set off for the larder , which was the usual course of [her]_{331-mrs. huxtable} prescriptions . But [I]_0-i stopped [her]_{331-mrs. huxtable} so calmly that [she]_{331-mrs. huxtable} could not doubt [my]_0-i sanity . " Yes , dear [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , [I]_0-i must leave [[my]_0-i quiet home]_{5870-my quiet home} , where all of [you]_{331-mrs. huxtable} have been so good and kind to [me]_0-i ; and [I]_0-i have already written to take lodgings in [London]_1-london . "_[0-i] " Oh , [Miss Clerer]_{335-miss clerer} , [dear]_5871-dear , [I]_1715-i ca n't belave it nohow ! Come and discoorse with [farmer]_5817-farmer about it . [He]_{5517-the farmer} knows a power more than [I]_1715-i do , though [I]_1715-i says it as should n't . But if so be [he]_{5517-the farmer} hearkens to the like of that , [I]_1715-i 'll comb [him]_{5517-the farmer} with the toasting iron . "_[1715-i] Giving [me]_0-i no time to answer , [she]_1715-i led [me]_0-i to [the kitchen]_{5526-the kitchen} . [The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , who had finished [his]_{5517-the farmer} morning 's work , was stamping about outside the threshold , wiping [his]_{5517-the farmer} boots most carefully with a pitchfork and a rope of twisted straw . This process , to [his]_{5517-the farmer} great discomfort , [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} had at length enforced by many scoldings ; but now [she]_1715-i snatched the pitchfork from [him]_{5517-the farmer} , and sent it flying into [the court]_{1718-the court} . " Wun't [thee]_0-i never larn , [thee]_0-i girt drummedary , not to ston [there]_1114-there an hour , mucking arl [the place]_{5531-the place} ? "_[1715-i] " Wull , wull , "_{[5517-the farmer]} said [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , looking at the pitchfork first , and then at [me]_0-i , " Reckon [the old mare]_{5875-the old mare} 's dead at last . "_{[5517-the farmer]} " Cas'n [thee]_0-i drame of [nothing but bosses and asses]_{5876-nothing but bosses and asses} , [thee]_0-i girt mule ? Here 's [Miss Clerer]_{335-miss clerer} , as was like a cheel of [my]_1715-i own , and now [she'm]_{335-miss clerer} gooin awai , and [us'll]_5877-us'll niver zee [her]_{335-miss clerer} no more . "_[1715-i] " What dost [thee]_0-i mane , ' ooman ? "_{[5517-the farmer]} asked [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , sternly , " hast [thee]_0-i darr'd to goo a jahing of [her]_{335-miss clerer} , zame as [thee]_0-i did Zuke ? "_{[5517-the farmer]} " Oh , no , [farmer]_5817-farmer ! "_[0-i] [I]_0-i answered , quickly , " [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} never gave [me]_0-i an unkind word in [her]_{331-mrs. huxtable} life . But [I]_0-i must leave [you]_1722-you all , and go to live in [London]_1-london . "_[0-i] [The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} looked as if [he]_{5517-the farmer} had lost something , and began feeling for it in all [his]_{5517-the farmer} pockets . Then , without a word , [he]_{5517-the farmer} went to the fire , and unhung the crock which was boiling for the family dinner . This done , [he]_{5517-the farmer} raked out the embers on the hearthstone , and sat down heavily on the settle with [his]_{5517-the farmer} back towards [us]_1722-you . Presently [we]_1722-you heard [him]_{5517-the farmer} say to [himself]_{5517-the farmer} , " If any cheel of [mine]_{5517-the farmer} ates ever a bit of bakkon to - day , [I]_{5517-the farmer} 'll bile [him]_{5517-the farmer} in that there pot . And to zee the copy [[our]_1722-you [Sally]_371-sally]_{5879-our sally} wrote this very morning ! "_{[5517-the farmer]} " [Wonnerful]_{373-wonnerful} ! wonnerful ! "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} cried [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , " and now [her'll]_371-sally not know a p from a pothook . And [little Jack]_374-jack can spell zider , zame as 'em does in [Lonnon town]_{5880-lonnon town} ! "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} " [Dang Lonnon town]_{5881-dang lonnon town} , "_{[5517-the farmer]} said [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , savagely , " and arl as lives [there]_1114-there , lave out [the Duke of [Wellington]_{34-wellington}]_{5883-the duke of wellington} . It 's where [the devil]_{5884-the devil} lives , and ['em]_{5884-the devil} catches [his]_{5884-the devil} braath in lanterns . [My]_{5517-the farmer} faather tould [me]_{5517-the farmer} that , and [her]_371-sally niver spak a loi . But it hain't for the larning [I]_{5517-the farmer} be vexed to lose [[my]_{5517-the farmer} dearie]_{1454-my dearie} . "_{[5517-the farmer]} That last word [he]_{5517-the farmer} dwelt upon so tenderly and sadly , that [I]_0-i could stop no longer , but ran up to [him]_{5517-the farmer} bravely with the tears upon [my]_0-i face . As [I]_0-i sat low before [him]_{5517-the farmer} , on [little Sally]_371-sally 's stool , [he]_{5517-the farmer} laid [his]_{5517-the farmer} great hand on [my]_0-i head , with [his]_{5517-the farmer} face turned toward the settle , and asked if [I]_0-i had [any one]_{1178-any one} to see [me]_0-i righted in [the world]_{798-the world} but [him]_{5517-the farmer} . [I]_0-i told [him]_{5517-the farmer} , " None whatever ; "_[0-i] and the answer seemed at once to please and frighten [him]_{5517-the farmer} . " Then do n't [e]_5886-thee be a - gooin ' , [my]_0-i dear heart , do n't [e]_5886-thee think no more of gooin . If it be for the bit and drap [thee]_5886-thee ates and drinks , does n't [thee]_5886-thee know by this time , [our]_5887-us own flash and blood bain't no more welcome to it ! And [us]_5887-us has a plenty here , and more nor a plenty . And if [us]_5887-us had n't , [Jan Huxtable hisself]_{375-jan huxtable hisself} , and [Honor Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} [his]_{5517-the farmer} waife , wud live on pegmale ( better nor [they]_5888-they desarves ) and gie it arl to [thee]_5886-thee , and bless [thee]_5886-thee for ating of it . "_[0-i] " Ay , that [us]_5887-us wud , [ees fai]_{5889-ees fai} , "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} answered [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , coming forward . " And if it be for channge , and plaisure , and zeeing of the warld , [I]_{331-mrs. huxtable} 've zeen a dale in [my]_{331-mrs. huxtable} time , axing [your]_5886-thee pardon , [Miss]_5890-miss , for convarsing so to [you]_5886-thee . And what hath it been even at [Coom market]_{5891-coom market} , with the varmers [I]_{331-mrs. huxtable} 've a - knowed from little chillers up ? No better nor a harrow dill for a little coolt to zuck . [I]_{331-mrs. huxtable} 'd liefer know [thee]_5886-thee was a - gooin ' to [Trentisoe churchyard]_12-trentisoe , where little [Jane]_347-jane and [Winny]_376-winny be , than let [thee]_5886-thee goo to [Lonnon town]_{5880-lonnon town} , zame as this here be . And what wud [[thy]_5886-thee poor moother zay]_{5893-thy poor moother zay} , if so be [her]_371-sally could hear tell of it ? "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} At this moment , when [I]_0-i could say nothing , being thoroughly convicted of ingratitude , and ashamed before natures far better than [my]_0-i own , [dear little [Sally]_371-sally , who had been rolling on the dairy floor]_{1726-dear little sally , who had been rolling on the dairy floor} , recovered from the burst of childish grief enough to ask whether it had any cause . Up to [me]_0-i [she]_371-sally ran , with great pearl tears on the veining of [her]_371-sally cheeks , and peeping through the lashes of [her]_371-sally violet - blue eyes , [she]_371-sally gave [me]_0-i one long reproachful look , as if [she]_371-sally began to understand [the world]_{798-the world} , and to find it disappointment ; then [she]_371-sally buried [her]_371-sally flaxen head in the homespun apron [I]_0-i had lately taken to wear , and sobbed as if [she]_371-sally had spoiled a dozen copies . What happened afterwards [I]_0-i can not tell . Crying [I]_0-i hate , but there are times when nothing else is any good . [I]_0-i only know that , as [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} left [the house]_{764-the house} to get , as [he]_{5517-the farmer} said , " a little braze , "_{[5517-the farmer]} these ominous words came back from [the court]_{1718-the court} : " ' Twud be a bad job for [Tom Grundy]_{377-tom grundy} , if [her]_{377-tom grundy} coom'd acrass [me]_{5517-the farmer} now . "_{[5517-the farmer]} That same evening , as [I]_0-i was sitting in [[my]_0-i lonely room]_{1731-my lonely room} , yet not quite [alone,—for little Sally]_371-sally , who always did as [I]_0-i bade [her]_371-sally , was scratching and blotting [her]_371-sally best copy - book , under [my]_0-i auspices,—in burst [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , without stopping to knock as usual . " Oh [Miss Clerer]_{335-miss clerer} , what have [e]_{335-miss clerer} been and doed ? [Varmer]_357-zaith 's in crule trouble . [Us'll]_5894-us'll arl have to goo to [gaol]_5895-gaol to - morrow , chillers and arl . "_[371-sally] [She]_371-sally was greatly flurried and out of breath , and yet seemed proud of what [she]_371-sally had to tell . [She]_371-sally did not require much asking , nor beat about the bush , as [many women]_{1732-many women} do ; but told [me]_0-i the story shortly , and then asked [me]_0-i to come and hear all particulars from [Tim]_344-tim Badcock [the farm - labourer]_{1733-the farm - labourer} , who had seen the whole . [Tim]_344-tim sat by the [kitchen]_1734-kitchen fire with a pint of cider by [him]_344-tim on the little round table ; strong evidence that [his]_344-tim tidings , after all , were not so very unwelcome . " Wull , [you]_371-sally zee , [Miss]_5433-miss , "_[344-tim] said [Tim]_344-tim , after getting up , and pulling [his]_344-tim rough forelock , " [you]_371-sally zee , [Miss]_5897-miss , [the Maister]_{5898-the maister} coom out this arternoon , in a weist zort of a wai , as if [her]_{5898-the maister} had n't had no dinner . "_[344-tim] Here [he]_344-tim gave a sly look at " [the Missus]_{5899-the missus} , "_[344-tim] who had the credit of stopping the supplies , when [the farmer had been too much on the cruise]_{1735-the farmer had been too much on the cruise} . " What odds to [thee]_344-tim , [Tim]_344-tim , "_[1736-she] [she]_1736-she replied , " what odds to [thee]_344-tim , what [thee]_344-tim betters has for dinner ? "_[1736-she] " [Noo fai]_{5900-noo fai} , "_[344-tim] said [Tim]_344-tim , " zo long as ai gits maine , and [[my]_344-tim missus]_{5901-my missus} arlways has un raddy . Zo [I]_344-tim zed to [Bill]_378-bill , [zays]_5902-zays [I]_344-tim , ' Best maind what [thee]_378-bill 's at [boy]_5903-boy , there 's [a starm a coomin]_{5904-a starm a coomin} , zure as [my]_344-tim name 's [Timothy Badcock]_344-tim . ' Howsomever [her]_1736-she did n't tak on atarl wi [we]_5905-us , but kitched up [a shivel]_{5906-a shivel} , and worked awai without niver a ward . ' Twur the tap of the clave , ' langside of the beg fuzz , where [the braidle road]_{5907-the braidle road} coomth along ' twixt that and [the double hadge]_{5908-the double hadge} ; and [us]_5905-us was arl a stubbing up the bushes as plaisant as could be , to plough thiccy plat for clover , coom some rain , plase [God]_303-god . "_[344-tim] " Git on , [Tim]_344-tim , wull e , "_{[1737-his impatient mistress]} cried [[his]_344-tim impatient mistress]_{1737-his impatient mistress} , " [us]_5905-us knows arl about that . Cas'n [thee]_378-bill tull it no quicker ? "_{[1737-his impatient mistress]} " Wull , [Miss]_5909-miss , "_[344-tim] continued [Tim]_344-tim , in no hurry whatever , " prasently [us]_1738-us zees a girt beg chap on a zort of a brown cob , [a coomin in [[our]_1738-us diraction"—Tim]_{5911-our diraction"—tim}]_{5910-a coomin in our diraction"—tim[1737-his impatient mistress]} was proud of this word , and afraid that [we]_1738-us should fail to appreciate it—"they was [a coomin]_{5912-a coomin} , as [you]_5909-miss might zay , in [our]_1738-us diraction [this beg chap]_{5913-this beg chap} , and anither chap langside on [him]_344-tim . Wull , when ' um coom'd within [spaking room of [us]_1738-us]_{5914-spaking room of us} , beg chap a ' horsebarck hollers out , ' Can ' [e]_378-bill tell , [[my]_{1737-his impatient mistress} men]_{5915-my men} , where [Jan Uxtable]_{343-jan uxtable} live ? ' Avore [I]_{1737-his impatient mistress} had taime to spake , [Maister]_341-maister lifts hissell up , and zaith , ' What doo ' [e]_378-bill want to know for , [[my]_{1737-his impatient mistress} faine feller]_{5916-my faine feller} ? ' every bit the zame as ai be a tullin of it to [you]_5909-miss . ' What 's the odds to [thee]_5909-miss , ' [zays tother chap]_{5917-zays tother chap} , ' [thee]_5909-miss d'st better kape a zivil tongue in [thee]_5909-miss head . [I]_{1737-his impatient mistress} be [Tom Gundry]_{379-tom gundry} from [Carnwall]_36-carnwall . ' And with that [he]_{1737-his impatient mistress} stood up in [his]_{1737-his impatient mistress} starrups , as beg [a feller]_{5918-a feller} as iver [you]_5909-miss zee , [Miss.]_342-miss. [Wull]_353-wull , [Maister]_341-maister knowed all about [Tom Gundry]_{379-tom gundry} and what a was a coom for , and zo did [I]_{1737-his impatient mistress} , and [the boy]_{1121-the boy} , and arl the country round ; for [Maister]_341-maister have gotten a turble name for rarstling ; maybe , [Miss]_5920-miss , [you]_5920-miss 've a heer'd on [him]_{1737-his impatient mistress} in [Lunnon town]_{5921-lunnon town} ? "_{[1737-his impatient mistress]} " [I]_{1737-his impatient mistress} have never been in [London]_1-london , [Tim]_344-tim , since [I]_{1737-his impatient mistress} was [a child]_{782-a child} ; and [I]_{1737-his impatient mistress} know nothing at all about wrestling . "_{[1737-his impatient mistress]} " [Wull]_353-wull , [Miss]_5433-miss , that be nayther here nor there . But there had been a dale of brag after [Maister]_341-maister had thrown arl [they]_5924-they Carnishers to [Barnstable vair]_{37-barnstable vair} , last year , about vetching this here [Tom Gundry]_{379-tom gundry} , who wor [the best man in [Cornwall]_38-cornwall]_{5925-the best man in cornwall} , to throw [[our]_5926-our Maister]_{5927-our maister} . [Howsomever]_{380-howsomever} , it be time for ai to crack on a bit . ' Ah , ' zays [the man avoot , who [zimth]_5929-zimth had coom to back un]_{5928-the man avoot , who zimth had coom to back un} , ' ah , ' twor arl mighty faine for Uxtable to play skittles with [[our]_5926-our zecond rate men]_{5930-our zecond rate men} . [Chappell]_381-chappell or Ellicombe cud have doed as much as that . [Rackon Jan Uxtable]_{343-jan uxtable} wud vind a different game with [Tom Gundry]_{379-tom gundry} [here]_846-here . ' ' [Rackon]_{343-jan uxtable} [he]_{343-jan uxtable} wud , ' [zaith Gundry]_{379-tom gundry} , ' a had better jine [a burial club]_{5932-a burial club} , if [her've]_5933-her've got ere a waife and vamily . ' "_{[1737-his impatient mistress]} " Noo . Did a zay that though ? "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} inquired [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , much excited . " ' Coom now , ' [[my]_{331-mrs. huxtable} maister]_{5934-my maister} zaith , trying to look smarl behaind the fuzz , ' [thee]_5935-thee must throw [me]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , [[my]_{331-mrs. huxtable} lad]_{5936-my lad} , avore [thee]_5935-thee can throw [Jan Uxtable]_{343-jan uxtable} . [He]_{343-jan uxtable} be [a better man]_{5937-a better man} mainly nor ai be [this dai]_{5938-this dai} . But ai baint in no oomer for playin ' much jist now , and [rackon ai]_{5939-rackon ai} should hoort [any man ai kitched on]_{5940-any man ai kitched on} . ' ' [Her]_5933-her've that be [a good un]_{5941-a good un} , [Zam]_382-zam , baint it now ? ' [zaith Gundry]_{379-tom gundry} to [little chap]_{5942-little chap} , the very zame as ai be a tullin it now , ' doth the fule s'pose [ai]_{379-tom gundry} be ratten ? Ai've half a maind to kick un over this hadge ; jist [thee]_{379-tom gundry} hold the nag ! ' ' Sober now , ' [zaith varmer]_357-zaith , and ai zeed a was gettin ' rad in the chakes , ' [God]_303-god knows ai do n't feel no carl to hoort ' [e.]_5943-e Ai'll gie [thee]_{379-tom gundry} wan chance more , [Tom Gundry]_{379-tom gundry} , as [thee'st]_{379-tom gundry} a coom arl this wai fram Carnwall . Can ' [e]_5943-e trod a path in [thiccy country]_{5944-thiccy country} , zame as this here be ? ' And wi ' that , a walked into the beg fuzz , twaice so haigh as [this here room]_{5945-this here room} , and the stocks begger round nor [my]_{331-mrs. huxtable} body , and harder nor wrought hiern . A jist stratched [his]_{379-tom gundry} two hons , raight and left , and twitched un up , wan by wan , vor [ten gude lanyard]_{5946-ten gude lanyard} , as asily as ai wud pull spring inyons . ' Now , wull e let [me]_{331-mrs. huxtable} lone ? ' zaith [he]_{379-tom gundry} , zo zoon as a coom barck , wi [his]_{379-tom gundry} brath a little quicker by [rason of the exarcise]_{5947-rason of the exarcise} , ' wull ' [e]_5943-e let [me]_{331-mrs. huxtable} lone ? ' ' Ee 's fai , wull [I]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , ' zaith [the man avoot]_{5948-the man avoot} . ' [Hor]_5949-hor , ' [zaith Tom Gundry]_{379-tom gundry} , who had been a shopping zumwhere , ' [thee]_{379-tom gundry} cans't do a gude dai 's work , [[my]_{331-mrs. huxtable} man]_{5950-my man} , tak that vor [thee]_{379-tom gundry} 's wages . ' And wi ' that a lets fly at [Maister]_341-maister 's vace wi ' a light hash stick a carr'd , maning to raide off avore [Maister]_341-maister cud coom to 's brath again . In a crack [Jan Uxtable]_{343-jan uxtable} zet both [his]_{343-jan uxtable} hons under the stommick of the nag , one avore the starrup and [one behaind]_{5951-one behaind} , zame as [I]_{331-mrs. huxtable} maight to this [here little tabble]_{5952-here little tabble} , and haved un , harse and [man]_5770-man , clane over hadge into [Muster Yeo]_{383-muster yeo} 's turmot falde . Then with wan heft , [a kitched up tother chap]_{5954-a kitched up tother chap} , and zent un sprarling after un , zame as if ' twor this here stule after the tabble . "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} [I]_0-i thought poor [Tim]_344-tim , in the excitement of [his]_344-tim story , would have thrown table and stool over the settle to illustrate it ; and if [he]_344-tim had , [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} would have forgiven [him]_344-tim . " ' [Thar]_384-thar , ' zaith [[our]_5955-our Maister]_{5927-our maister} , as plaisant as cud be , and ai thought [us]_5955-our shud have died of laffing , ' thar now , if zo be the owner of thiccy falde zummons e for traspash , [you]_0-i zay [Jan Uxtable]_{343-jan uxtable} zent e on a little arrand , to vaind a Carnisher as can do the laike to [he]_344-tim . ' And wi ' that , a waiped [his]_344-tim hons with a slip of vern , and tuk a little drap of zider , and full to 's wark again . "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} " Wull , but [Tim]_344-tim , "_{[5517-the farmer]} asked [[the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} 's wife]_{5624-the farmer 's wife} , to lose no part of the effect , " what zort of a hadge wor it now ? Twor a little hadge maybe , [no haigher nor the zettle barck]_{5957-no haigher nor the zettle barck} . "_{[5624-the farmer 's wife]} " Wor it though ? "_[344-tim] said [Tim]_344-tim , " [thee]_5958-thee knows better nor that , [Missus]_5959-missus . It be the beggest hadge on arl the varm , wi ' a double row of saplin hash atap . [Her]_{5624-the farmer 's wife} maks the boundary betwixt [the two parishes]_{5960-the two parishes} , and ai n't been trimmed these vaive year , ai can swear . "_[344-tim] " And how be [the both on 'em]_{5961-the both on 'em} now , [Tim]_344-tim ? A must have gone haigh enough to channge the mune . "_[5433-miss] [Wull]_353-wull , [Miss]_5433-miss , " said [Tim]_344-tim , addressing [me]_5433-miss , for [he]_344-tim had told [[his]_344-tim Mistress]_{5962-his mistress} all the story twice , "_[5433-miss] [Tom Gundry]_{379-tom gundry} brak [his]_{379-tom gundry} collar boun , and zarve ' un raight , for a brak [Phil Dascombe]_{385-phil dascombe} 's a puppose whun a got ' un in a trap , that taime down to [Bodmin]_39-bodmin thar ; and [harse]_1742-harse gat a rick of [his]_{379-tom gundry} taial ; but [the little chap]_{1743-the little chap} , [he]_{379-tom gundry} vell upon [his]_{379-tom gundry} hat , and that zaved [him]_{379-tom gundry} kindly . But [I]_0-i heer'd down to [Pewter Will]_378-bill 's , whur [I]_0-i gooed for a drap of zumthin for [my]_0-i waife 's stommick , ai heer'd zay [there]_1114-there , as how [Constable]_{386-constable} was a coomin to Maister this very naight , if [Carnishers]_{1745-carnishers} cud have perswadded un . But [Constable zaith]_{386-constable} , [zaith]_357-zaith [he]_{386-constable} , ' Twor all along o [[you]_1746-you Garnish chaps]_{1747-you garnish chaps} , [fust battery]_{1748-fust battery} was mad , and fust blow gien , and wi'out [you]_1746-you can zhow [me]_0-i Squaire [Drake]_387-drake 's warrant , [I]_0-i wunt have nout to do wi ' it , not ai ; and that be law and gospel in [Davonsheer]_{687-davonsheer} and in [Cornwall]_38-cornwall . ' " "_[344-tim] [Tim]_344-tim , " said [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , "_[1749-i'se] [I'se]_1749-i'se warrant [thee]_344-tim 's niver tould so long a spin up in [thee]_344-tim 's laife avore . And [thee]_344-tim 's tould it wonnerful well too ; hathn't un [Miss Clerer]_{335-miss clerer} ? Zuke , here be [the kay of zellar]_{1750-the kay of zellar} , gie [Tim]_344-tim a half a paint more zider ; and [thee]_344-tim mai'st have a drap [theesell]_{1751-theesell} , gall . Waipe [thee]_344-tim mouth fust . " "_[344-tim] Ah , " said [Tim]_344-tim , favouring [me]_344-tim with a wink , in the excess of [his]_344-tim glory , "_[344-tim] rackon [they]_1752-my [Carnishers]_{1745-carnishers} 'll know the wai off [Tossil]_361-tossil 's Barton varm next taime , wi'out no saign postesses . " Two or three days after this , [I]_1752-my was keeping [school]_5963-school in [the dairy]_{5562-the dairy} , [the parlour]_{5965-the parlour} being too small for that purpose , and [the kitchen]_{5526-the kitchen} and "_[1752-my] wash - up " ( as [they]_1752-my called [the back - kitchen]_{5967-the back - kitchen} ) too open to inroads from [Suke]_345-suke and [Tim]_344-tim . [[My]_1752-my class]_{5968-my class} consisted of ten , or rather was eight strong , the two weames ( [big baby]_{5969-big baby} and [little baby]_{5970-little baby} ) , only attending for the sake of example , and because [they]_1752-my would have roared , if parted from [the other children]_{5971-the other children} . So [those two]_{5972-those two} were allowed to spraddle on the floor , where sometimes [they]_{5972-those two} made little rollers of [themselves]_{5972-those two} , with much indecorum , and between whiles sat gravely sucking [their]_{5972-those two} fat red fingers , and then pointed them in a glistening state at [me]_1752-my or [[my]_1752-my audience]_{5973-my audience} , and giggled with a large contempt . [The eight , who made believe to learn something]_{5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something} , were [the six elder Huxtables]_{5975-the six elder huxtables} , and two of [Tim Badcock]_344-tim 's "_[1752-my] young uns . " [I]_1752-my marshalled [them]_{5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something} , four on each side , against the low lime - whitened walls , which bore the pans of cream and milk . [Little Sally]_371-sally , [[my]_1752-my head scholar]_{5976-my head scholar} , was very proud of measuring [her]_371-sally height , by the horizontal line on the milk - pan where the glazing ended ; which [Tabitha Badcock]_388-tabby , even on tiptoe , could not reach . [They]_{5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something} were all well "_[1752-my] claned , " and had white pinnies on , and [their]_{5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something} ruddy cheeks rubbed up to the highest possible polish , with yellow soap and the jack - towel behind the wash - up door . Hence , [I]_1752-my never could relieve [them]_{5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something} from the idea that Sunday now came every day in the week . [I]_1752-my maintained strict discipline , and allowed no nonsense ; but two sad drawbacks constantly perplexed [me]_1752-my . In the first place , [their]_{5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something} ways were so ridiculous , and [they]_{5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something} laboured so much harder to make [me]_1752-my laugh , than [they]_{5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something} did to learn , that [I]_1752-my could not always keep [my]_1752-my countenance , and when the spelling - book went up before [my]_1752-my face , [they]_{5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something} knew , as well as possible , what was going on behind it , and peeped round or below , and burst out all together . The second drawback was , that [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , in spite of all [my]_1752-my protests , would be always rushing in , upon errands purely fictitious ; and [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} [himself]_{5517-the farmer} always found some special business in [the yard]_{5978-the yard} , close to the wired and unglazed window , whence every now and then [his]_{5517-the farmer} loud haw - haws , and too audible soliloquies , "_[1752-my] Dang [me]_0-i ! wull done , [Zally]_389-zally , that wor a good un ; zay un again , cheel ! zay un again , wull ' e ? " utterly overthrew [my]_1752-my most solemn institutions . "_{[390-smarl chillers"—i]} Coom now , [smarl chillers"—I]_{390-smarl chillers"—i} addressed [them]_{5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something} in [my]_{390-smarl chillers"—i} unclassical Devonshire dialect , for it kept [their]_{5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something} attention alive to criticise [me]_{390-smarl chillers"—i} when [I]_{390-smarl chillers"—i} "_{[390-smarl chillers"—i]} spak unvitty"—"coom now , e've a been spulling lang enough : ston round [me]_0-i now , and tull [me]_0-i what [I]_0-i axes [you]_{5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something} . "_[0-i] Already , [I]_0-i had made one great mistake , by saying " round "_[0-i] instead of " raound , "_[0-i] and [Billy]_378-bill , [the genius of [the family]_{1254-the family}]_{1754-the genius of the family} , was upon the giggle . " Now thun , wutt be a quadripade ? "_[378-bill] " Ai knoo ! "_[371-sally] says [Sally]_371-sally , with [her]_371-sally hand held out . " Zo do ai , "_[374-jack] says [Jack]_374-jack , thrusting forth [his]_374-jack stomach . " Who wur axing of [you]_{5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something} ? "_[374-jack] [I]_0-i inquire in a stately manner . " [You]_{5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something} bain't the smarl chillers , be ' [e]_5979-e ? [Bill]_378-bill knows , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i continue , but wax doubtful from the expression of [Bill]_378-bill 's face . " Ees fai , "_[378-bill] cries [Bill]_378-bill , suddenly clearing up , " [her]_1756-her be wutt moother zits on vor to mulk the coos . Bain't [her]_1756-her now ? "_[378-bill] " [Thee]_{5974-the eight , who made believe to learn something} bee'st ony wan leg out , [Bill]_378-bill . Now [Tabby Badcock]_388-tabby ? "_[378-bill] While [Tabby]_388-tabby is splashing in [her]_1756-her memory ( for [I]_0-i told [them]_1757-them all last week ) , [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} much excited , and having no idea what the answer should be , but hoping that [one of [[his]_{5517-the farmer} own children]_{1760-his own children}]_{1759-one of his own children} may discover it first , boldly shows [his]_{5517-the farmer} face at the wired window , but is quite resolved to allow fair play . Not so [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , who , in full possession of the case , suddenly appears behind [me]_0-i , and shakes [her]_{331-mrs. huxtable} fist at poor puzzled [Tabby]_388-tabby . " Thee'dst best pretend to know more than [thy]_388-tabby betters . "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} [She]_{331-mrs. huxtable} tries to make [Tabby]_388-tabby hear , without [my]_0-i catching [her]_{331-mrs. huxtable} words . But [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} hotly shouts , " Lat un alo - un , waife . Tak [thee]_388-tabby hon from [thee]_388-tabby mouth , [I]_{5517-the farmer} tull ' e. Spak up now , [little wanch]_{5980-little wanch} . "_{[5517-the farmer]} Thus encouraged , [Tabby]_388-tabby makes reply , looking cross - wise at [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} . " Plase , [Miss]_5981-miss , it be [a beastie wi vour taials]_{5982-a beastie wi vour taials} . "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} " Raight , "_{[5517-the farmer]} cries [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , with admiration conquering [his]_{5517-the farmer} disappointment ; " raight [this taime]_{5983-this taime} , ai'll tak [my]_{5517-the farmer} oath on it . [I]_{5517-the farmer} zeed wan to [Barnstaple]_{21-barnstaple} vair last year , and [her]_388-tabby wor karled , ' Phanominy Quadripade , ' [her]_388-tabby [Kirsten]_354-kirsten name and [her]_388-tabby zurname , now ai coom to racollack . "_{[5517-the farmer]} [Tabby]_388-tabby looks elated , and [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} chagrined . Before [I]_0-i can redress the situation , a sound of heavy blows , delivered on some leathery substance , causes a new stir . [All]_909-all recognise the arrival of [[Her]_{331-mrs. huxtable} Majesty]_{1764-her majesty} 's mail , [a boy from [Martinhoe]_41-martinhoe]_{1765-a boy from martinhoe} , who comes upon a donkey twice a week , if there happen to be any letters for [the village]_{981-the village} below . Out rush [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} and [Suke]_345-suke ( who once received an epistle ) , and [the children]_{1695-the children} long to go , but know better . [The boy]_{1121-the boy} , however , has only a letter for [me]_0-i , which is from [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ( [a cousin of [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples}]_{1769-a cousin of ann maples} ) , to whom [I]_0-i wrote a few days since , asking whether [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had [any rooms to let]_{1770-any rooms to let} . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} replies that " [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} has [apartments]_{5984-apartments} , and [they]_{5984-apartments} are splendid , and the rent quite trifling ; "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} so the mail is bribed with a pint of cider , while [I]_0-i write to secure [a new home]_{1771-a new home} . [My]_0-i departure being now fixed and inevitable , [the women]_{5487-the women} naturally began to remonstrate more than over . It had been settled that [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} should go with [me]_0-i , not to continue as [[my]_0-i servant]_{1773-my servant} , but to find a place for [herself]_{294-ann maples} in [London]_1-london . [My]_0-i few arrangements , which cost [me]_0-i far more pain than trouble , were not long in making ; and after saying good - bye to all [the dear little children]_{1774-the dear little children} and [weanies]_1775-weanies , and kissing [their]_{1774-the dear little children} pretty faces in [their]_{1774-the dear little children} little beds , amid an agony of tears from [Sally]_371-sally , [I]_0-i was surprised , on entering [the kitchen]_{5526-the kitchen} , to find there [Mr. Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} . There was little time for talking , and much less for poetry . [We]_1775-weanies were to start at three in the morning , [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} having promised to drive [us]_1775-weanies to meet [the coach]_{1778-the coach} in [Barnstaple]_{21-barnstaple} , whence there would be more than thirty miles of [hilly road to [Tiverton]_42-tiverton]_{1779-hilly road to tiverton} , [the nearest railway station]_{1780-the nearest railway station} . The journey to [London]_1-london could thus be made in a day , though [no one in [the parish]_{1782-the parish}]_{1781-no one in the parish} could be brought to believe it . [The poet]_{5582-the poet} had been suborned , no doubt , by [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , and now detained [me]_0-i to listen to an elegy upon [the metropolis of [England]_9-england]_{1784-the metropolis of england} . [I]_0-i can not stop to repeat it , neither does it deserve the trouble ; but it began thus : — " [Fayther]_392-fayther was wance to [Lonnon town]_{5880-lonnon town} , And a zed , zed [he]_{334-beany dawe} , whan a coom down , ' Do n't e niver goo there , [Ebenezer]_{350-mr. dawe} [[my]_{1786-the author} son]_{5986-my son} , For [they]_5987-they mulks a coo , when [her]_5987-they ai n't gat none . [They]_5987-they kapes up sich a hollerin , naight and day , And [a Devonsheer man]_{5988-a devonsheer man} dunno the impudence [they]_5987-they zay . [Their]_5987-they heads and [their]_5987-they hats wags regular , like the scratchers of a harrow , And [they]_5987-they biles [their]_5987-they taties peeled , and ates [them]_5987-they in a barrow . [They]_5987-they raides on a waggon top with [[their]_5987-they wives]_{5989-their wives} squazed up inside [her]_{5989-their wives} , And [they]_5987-they drinks black dose and yesty pops in the place of wholesome zider . [They]_5987-they want take back anything [they]_5987-they 've zelled , And the beds can bite , and the cats can speak : And [a well - dress'd man]_{5990-a well - dress'd man} be a most compelled To channge [his]_{5990-a well - dress'd man} shirt in the middle of the week ! ' "_{[1786-the author]} " [Lor]_393-lor , "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} cried [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , " however could [they]_5987-they do [their]_5987-they washing ? [Thee]_393-lor vayther must a been as big a liar as [thee]_393-lor , [Beany]_{334-beany dawe} . [Them]_5987-they gifts always runs in [the family]_{1254-the family} . "_{[331-mrs. huxtable]} When , with remarkable patience , [I]_0-i had heard out [his]_1785-his elegant effusion , [the author]_{1786-the author} , who had conceived much good will towards [me]_0-i , because [I]_0-i listened to [his]_1785-his lays and called [him]_1785-his [Mr. Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} , [the author]_{1786-the author} dived with a deep - drawn sigh into a hole in [his]_1785-his sack , and produced in a mysterious manner something wrapped in greasy silver paper , and well tied up . [He]_{1786-the author} begged [me]_0-i to accept , and carry it about [me]_0-i most carefully and secretly , as long as [I]_0-i should live . To [no other person in [the world]_{798-the world}]_{1788-no other person in the world} would [he]_{1786-the author} have given this , but [I]_0-i had earned it , as [a true lover of poetry]_{1790-a true lover of poetry} , and required it as [a castaway among the perils of [London]_1-london]_{1791-a castaway among the perils of london} . In vain [I]_0-i declined the present ; refusal only confirmed [his]_{1786-the author} resolution . As the matter was of so little importance , [I]_0-i soon yielded upon condition that [I]_0-i should first examine the gift . [He]_{1786-the author} gave [me]_0-i leave with much reluctance , and [I]_0-i was surprised at the beauty and novelty of the thing . It was about the size of a Geneva watch , but rather thicker , jet black and shining , and of the exact shape of a human heart . Around the edge ran a moulding line or cord of brilliant red , of the same material as the rest . In the centre was a white spot like a siphuncle . What it was [I]_0-i could not guess , but it looked like some mineral substance . Where the two lobes met , a small hole had been drilled to receive a narrow riband . After putting [me]_0-i through many guesses , [Mr. Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} informed [me]_0-i that it was [a pixie]_{1792-a pixie} 's heart , a charm of unequalled power against witchcraft and assassination , and to enthral the affection of [a loved one]_{1793-a loved one} . [He]_{1786-the author} only smiled , and rubbed [his]_{1786-the author} nose , on hearing that [I]_0-i should never want it in the last capacity . Being greatly pleased with it , [I]_0-i asked [him]_{1786-the author} many questions , which [he]_{1786-the author} was very loth to answer . Nevertheless [I]_0-i extorted from [him]_{1786-the author} nearly all [he]_{1786-the author} knew . As [he]_{1786-the author} was sawing into boards a very large oak - tree , something fell from the very heart of it almost into [his]_{1786-the author} mouth , for poor [Ebenezer]_{350-mr. dawe} was only [an undersawyer]_{1794-an undersawyer} . As [he]_{1786-the author} could not stop the saw without [[his]_{1786-the author} partners]_{1795-his partners} concurrence , and did not wish to share [his]_{1786-the author} prize , [he]_{1786-the author} kicked some sawdust over it until [he]_{1786-the author} could stoop to pick it up unobserved . In all [his]_{1786-the author} long experience of [the woods]_{1796-the woods} , [he]_{1786-the author} had seen but two of these rare and beautiful things , and now assured [me]_0-i that [any sawyer]_{1797-any sawyer} was considered lucky who found only one in the course of [his]_{1786-the author} career . The legend on the subject was rather quaint and graceful , and deserves a better garb than [he]_{1786-the author} or [I]_0-i can furnish . " All in the olden time , there lived [A little Pixie king , So lovely and so light of foot That]_{5992-a little pixie king , so lovely and so light of foot that} when [he]_{5992-a little pixie king , so lovely and so light of foot that} danced the ring , The moonlight always shifted , to gaze upon [his]_{5992-a little pixie king , so lovely and so light of foot that} face , And the cowslip - bells uplifted , rang time with every pace . There came [a dozen maidens]_{5993-a dozen maidens} , Almost as tall as bluebells ; The cowslips hushed [their]_{5993-a dozen maidens} cadence , And bowed before [the true belles]_{5994-the true belles} : [The maidens]_{5995-the maidens} shyly glancing , betwixt the cummer darts , Espied [the monarch]_{5996-the monarch} dancing , and lost a dozen hearts . [He]_{5996-the monarch} was fitted up so neatly , With dewdrops for [his]_{5996-the monarch} crown , And [he]_{5996-the monarch} footed it so featly [He]_{5996-the monarch} never shook them down . [The maids]_{836-the maids} began advancing , along a lily stem , Not to stop [the monarch]_{5996-the monarch} 's dancing , but to make [him]_{5996-the monarch} look at [them]_{836-the maids} . [The king]_{5999-the king} could not afford [them]_{836-the maids} The proper time to gaze , But sweetly bowed toward [them]_{836-the maids} , At the turn of every maze : Till full of pretty faces , and [his]_{5992-a little pixie king , so lovely and so light of foot that} sandals getting worn , [He]_{5992-a little pixie king , so lovely and so light of foot that} was puzzled in [his]_{5992-a little pixie king , so lovely and so light of foot that} paces , and fell upon a thorn . [The maidens]_{5995-the maidens} broke the magic ring , And leaped the cummer dart ; ' Alas , [[our]_{5995-the maidens} little Pixie king]_{6001-our little pixie king} , The thorn is in [his]_{5992-a little pixie king , so lovely and so light of foot that} heart ! ' [They]_{5995-the maidens} laid [him]_{5992-a little pixie king , so lovely and so light of foot that} in a molehill , and piteously [they]_{5995-the maidens} cried : Yet this was not the whole ill , for all [the maidens]_{5995-the maidens} died . [Each]_6003-each took a spindled acorn , found Below a squirrel 's nest , And set the butt against the ground , The barb beneath [her]_6003-each breast : So truly [she]_6003-each addressed the stroke unto [her]_6003-each loving part , That when the acorn grew an oak , it held [her]_6003-each little heart . ' By no means a "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} little heart , " it seemed to [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , for [a fairy]_{6004-a fairy} to have owned , but as large as it was loving . [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} assured [Mr. Dawe]_{350-mr. dawe} that [he]_{350-mr. dawe} was quite untaught in fairy lore , or [he]_{350-mr. dawe} never would have confounded [fairies]_6005-fairies with pixies , [a different class of society]_{6006-a different class of society} . But [he]_{350-mr. dawe} treated [my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} learning with utter contempt , and reasonably enough declared that [he]_{350-mr. dawe} who spent all [his]_{350-mr. dawe} time in [the woods]_{1796-the woods} must know more than any books could tell . [He]_{350-mr. dawe} also informed [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , that the proper name for the lignified fairy heart , was a "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} gordit : " but [he]_{350-mr. dawe} did not choose to tell [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} what had become of the other , which was not so large or handsome as this , yet it had saved [him]_{350-mr. dawe} a month 's sawing , and earned [him]_{350-mr. dawe} "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} a rare time , " which meant , [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} fear , that the proceeds had been spent in a very long cruise . After refusing all compensation , [Mr. Dawe]_{350-mr. dawe} made [his]_{350-mr. dawe} farewell in several couplets of uncouth but hearty blessing , begging [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} only to shake hands with [him]_{350-mr. dawe} once , and venturing as [a poet]_{6008-a poet} to prophesy that [we]_6009-we should meet again . The "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} gordit " was probably nothing more than a rare accretion , or ganglion , in the centre of an aged oak . However , it was very pretty ; and of course [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} observed the condition upon which [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had received it , valuing it moreover as a token of [true friends]_{6010-true friends} . But how can [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} think of such trifles , while sitting for the last time in the room where [[my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} mother]_{746-my mother} died ? To - morrow all the form and colour of [my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} life shall change ; even now [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} feel once more [my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} step on the dark track of justice , which is to [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} revenge . How long have [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} been sauntering on the dreary moor of listlessness and hollow weariness , which spreads , for so many dead leagues , below the precipice of grief ? How long have [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} been sauntering , not caring to ask where , and conscious of existence only through the nerves and fibres of the memory . The things [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} have been doing , the duties [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} have discharged , the vague unlinked ideas , startling [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} by their buffoonery to grief — might not these have all passed through [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , every whit as well , if [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had been set against a wall , and wound up for three months , and fitted with the mind expressed in the chuckle of a clock ? Nay , worse than all — have [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} not allowed soft thoughts to steal throughout [my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} heart , the love of [children]_{1229-children} , the warmth of kindness , the pleasure of doing good in however small a way ? Much more of this , and [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} shall learn forgiveness of [my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} wrong ! But now [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} see a clearer road before [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . Returning health renews [my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} gall . [Death]_296-death recedes , and lifts [his]_296-death train from the swords that fell before [him]_296-death . Once more [my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} pulse beats high with hatred , with scorn of meanness , treachery , and lies , with admiration of truth and manhood , not after the fashion of [fools]_1050-fools . But dare [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} mount [the Judge]_{6014-the judge} 's throne ? Shall the stir of one frail heart , however fresh from its Maker 's hand , be taken for [His]_296-death voice pronouncing right and wrong ? These thoughts give [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} pause , and [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} dwell again with [[my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} mother]_{746-my mother} . But in all the strength of youth and stern will , [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} tread them down ; and am once more that [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara whose life shall right [[her]_293-clara father]_{898-her father} 's death . At last [we]_6017-our got through [our]_6017-our parting with the best of [people]_1132-people ( far worthier than [myself]_{391-mrs. shelfer} to interest [any reader]_{6019-any reader} ) , and after it the dark ride over [the moors]_{6020-the moors} , and [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} 's vain attempt at talking to relieve both [himself]_{5517-the farmer} and [us]_6017-our . The honest eyes were bright with tears , tears of pity for [my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} weakness , which now [he]_{5517-the farmer} scarcely cared to hide , but would not show by wiping away ; and how many times [he]_{5517-the farmer} begged for frequent tidings of [us]_6017-our , which [Sally]_371-sally could now interpret , if written in large round hand . How many times [he]_{5517-the farmer} consulted , commanded , and threatened [the coachman]_{6022-the coachman} , and promised [him]_{5517-the farmer} a goose at [Michaelmas]_{43-michaelmas} , if [he]_{5517-the farmer} took good care of [us]_6017-our and [our]_6017-our luggage ! These great kindnesses , and all the trifling cares which strew the gap of long farewells , were more to think of than to tell . But [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ought to mention , that much against [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} 's will , [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} insisted on paying [him]_{5517-the farmer} half the sum , which [he]_{5517-the farmer} had lent [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} in a manner never to be forgotten . Moreover , with the same presentiment which [he]_{5517-the farmer} had always felt , [he]_{5517-the farmer} made [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} promise once more to send for [him]_{5517-the farmer} , if [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} fell into any dreadful strait . It was late at night when [[our]_6017-our cabman]_{6024-our cabman} , the most polite , and ( if [his]_{6024-our cabman} word may be trusted ) [the most honourable of mankind]_{6025-the most honourable of mankind} , rang the bell of [[Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's house]_{6026-mrs. shelfer 's house} . [The house]_{764-the house} was in [a by - street near [a large unfinished square]_{6029-a large unfinished square} , in [the northern part of [London]_1-london]_{6030-the northern part of london}]_{6028-a by - street near a large unfinished square , in the northern part of london} . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} came out at once , sharp and quick and short , and wonderfully queer . At first [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} took no notice at all of either of as , but began pulling with all [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} strength at the straps of the heaviest boxes , which , by means known to [herself]_{391-mrs. shelfer} alone , [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} contrived to drag through [the narrow passage]_{6031-the narrow passage} , and down three low steps into [the little kitchen]_{6032-the little kitchen} . Then [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} hurried back , talking all the time to [herself]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , re - opened the door of the fly , jumped in , and felt under both the seats , and round the lining . Finding nothing there , [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} climbed upon [the driver]_{6033-the driver} 's box , and thoroughly examined both that and the roof . Being satisfied now that none of [our]_6034-our chattels were left in [the vehicle]_{6035-the vehicle} , [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} shook [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} little fist at [two or three boys]_{6036-two or three boys} , who stood at the corner near [the mews]_{6037-the mews} , and setting both hands to [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} 's great hamper or "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} maun " ( as [he]_0-i called it ) , [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} dragged it inside the front door , and turned point blanc upon [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Pray , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , how many is there ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i 'm sure [I]_0-i do n't know , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [[your]_{391-mrs. shelfer} cousin]_{1799-your cousin} knows best . " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Ah , [they]_1800-they 're terrible fellows [them]_1800-they [cabbies]_1801-cabbies , terrible ! " [The cabman]_{6039-the cabman} stood by all the time , beating [his]_{6039-the cabman} hands together . "_[1802-'em] ' Twas only last time [I]_0-i went to [Barbican]_44-barbican , one of ['em]_1802-'em come up to [me]_0-i , ' [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , ' says [he]_0-i , ' [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ! ' says [I]_0-i , ' pray [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , how do [you]_{1798-my good friend} know [my]_0-i name ? ' ' [Ho]_394-ho , [I]_0-i knows [Charley]_395-charley well enough , ' says [he]_0-i , ' and there ai n't [a better fellow living]_{1804-a better fellow living} . ' ' A deal too good for [you]_{1798-my good friend} , ' says [I]_0-i , ' and now pray what 's [your]_{1798-my good friend} business with [me]_0-i ? ' ' Why , [old lady]_{1805-old lady} , ' [he]_0-i says , as impudent as [the man with the wooden leg]_{1806-the man with the wooden leg} , ' [you]_{1805-old lady} 've been and left [your]_{1805-old lady} second best umbrella under the seat of [the Botany Bay Bus]_{45-the botany bay bus} . ' ' Catch [me]_0-i ! ' says [I.]_0-i ' It 's Bible truth , ' says [he]_0-i , ' and [[my]_0-i old woman]_{1807-my old woman} 's got it now . ' ' If [you]_{1798-my good friend} never get drunk , ' says [I]_0-i , ' till that umbrella runs in [your]_{1798-my good friend} shoes , [[your]_{1798-my good friend} old woman]_{1808-your old woman} need n't steal [her]_{1808-your old woman} lights , ' and with that [I]_0-i ran between the legs of a sheep , hanging up with [my]_0-i Tuscan bonnet on trimmed with white — nothing like it , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , the same as [I]_0-i 've had these two and twenty years . " "_[0-i] What for , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ? " [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} asked in great surprise . "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Why , for [the butcher]_{1810-the butcher} to see [me]_0-i , to be sure , [Miss.]_342-miss. [You]_342-miss. see [he]_{1810-the butcher} wanted to get [me]_0-i down [the mews]_{6037-the mews} , and murder [me]_0-i with [my]_0-i little wash - leather bag , as [I]_0-i was going to pay the interest on [Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's double - barrel gun . Ah yes , " with a short sigh , "_{[1810-the butcher]} and there 'll be four and ninepence again , next Tuesday . " Talking at this rate , and stopping for no reply , [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} led [us]_6040-us into [[her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} kitchen]_{6041-her kitchen} , saying that [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} would not light a fire [upstairs]_{6042-upstairs} , it was so bootiful , the trimmings of the grate , because [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was n't certain that [we]_6040-us would come , but [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had got supper for [us]_6040-us , excuse [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [[my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , in [[her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} own snug little room]_{6044-her own snug little room} , and bootiful [they]_1812-they was sure enough , the wind last week had made them so fat . [She]_{391-mrs. shelfer} pointed in triumph to a large dish on the table piled up with blue shells . "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Why , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , they are muscles , " [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} exclaimed with some disgust . "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Ah [I]_0-i see [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} knows 'em , that [they]_1812-they are , [Miss]_1813-miss , and as bootiful as ever [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ate . [Charley]_395-charley and [me]_0-i sits down to a peck of [them]_1812-they . But the man as comes round with [the catsmeat]_{1814-the catsmeat} 's brother the man with [the truck]_{1815-the truck} and [his]_1816-he eyes crossed , [he]_1816-he told [me]_0-i there was such a demand for them in [Grosvenor Square]_{46-grosvenor square} , and [they]_1812-they was so cunning this weather when [they]_1812-they gets fat , [he]_1816-he had n't more than half a peck left , but they was the best of the lot . Now [I]_0-i 'll have [them]_1812-they all bootiful hot , bootiful , boiling [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , if [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 'll just run [upstairs]_{6042-upstairs} , and a teaspoon and a half of salt , and [Cousin Ann]_{396-cousin ann} knows the way , and [the apartments]_{1819-the apartments} is splendid , splendid , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara ! " [She]_{1798-my good friend} drew [herself]_{1798-my good friend} up , at the end of the sentence , with an air of the greatest dignity ; then suddenly dropped it again , and began bustling in and out . Now for the first time , [I]_293-clara had leisure to examine [her]_{1798-my good friend} , for while [she]_{1798-my good friend} spoke , the short jumps of [her]_{1798-my good friend} ideas unsettled [my]_293-clara observation . [She]_{1798-my good friend} was a little body , rather thin , with a face not strongly peculiar , but odd enough to second the oddities of [her]_{1798-my good friend} mind . No doubt [she]_{1798-my good friend} had once been pretty , and [her]_{1798-my good friend} expression was pleasant now , especially when a glimpse was afforded of [her]_{1798-my good friend} quick grey eyes , which generally avoided the gaze , and dropped beneath a fringe of close - set lashes . But the loss of the front teeth , and the sharpening and wrinkling of the face , with the straggling neglect of the thick black hair fraying out from the black cap , and the habit [she]_{1798-my good friend} had of shutting [her]_{1798-my good friend} mouth with a snap , all these interfered with [her]_{1798-my good friend} credit for pristine good looks . Like [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , [she]_{1798-my good friend} was generally in a bustle , but a bustle of words more often than of deeds . [She]_{1798-my good friend} had no deception about [her]_{1798-my good friend} , yet [she]_{1798-my good friend} never knew the difference between the truth and a lie , and could not understand that [any one else]_{926-any one else} should do so . Therefore [she]_{1798-my good friend} suspected everything and everybody , till one of [her]_{1798-my good friend} veins of opinion was touched , and then [she]_{1798-my good friend} would swallow anything . Tired out with the long day 's travel , the dazing of railway speed , and the many scenes and faces which had flashed across [me]_293-clara , [I]_293-clara could not appreciate the beauty of [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's furniture ; but leaving [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} to eat the muscles , if [she]_{294-ann maples} could , and to gossip with [[her]_{294-ann maples} cousin]_{6046-her cousin} , [I]_293-clara was not slow to revisit [the old farmhouse]_{6047-the old farmhouse} , and even [the home of [my]_293-clara childhood]_{6048-the home of my childhood} , in the winged cradle of sleep . [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} had done [her]_{294-ann maples} best to persuade [me]_293-clara to call on [[my]_293-clara godmother]_{6049-my godmother} , [Lady Cranberry]_{397-lady cranberry} , but [I]_293-clara was quite resolved to do nothing of the sort . In the first place , [Lady Cranberry]_{397-lady cranberry} was [a person of great wealth]_{6050-a person of great wealth} , living in [a very large house]_{6051-a very large house} , and keeping up such state as [gay widows love , who have forgotten old affections and are looking out for new]_{6052-gay widows love , who have forgotten old affections and are looking out for new} . In [me]_293-clara , therefore , to whose fixed estimate fidelity seemed the very pith of honour , there could be no love towards such a changeling . And even if [I]_293-clara had liked [her]_{397-lady cranberry} , [my]_293-clara circumstances would not admit of [our]_6053-our visiting upon equal terms , and it was not likely that [I]_293-clara would endure to be patronized by [any one]_{1178-any one} . In the second place , [the same most amiable lady]_{6055-the same most amiable lady} had written letters of beautiful condolence , and taken a tender interest in [our]_6053-our change of fortune , so long as there was any novelty in it ; but soon flagged off , and had not even replied to [my]_293-clara announcement of [dearest mother]_{6056-dearest mother} 's death . Finally , [I]_293-clara hated [her]_{397-lady cranberry} without any compromise , from what [I]_293-clara had seen of [her]_{397-lady cranberry} , and what [she]_{397-lady cranberry} had done to [me]_293-clara at [Vaughan Park]_{5-vaughan park} . So [my]_293-clara good [Ann]_{294-ann maples} set off all alone , for [she]_{397-lady cranberry} hoped to obtain some recommendation [there]_1114-there , and [I]_293-clara was left to receive [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's morning visit . [Her]_{397-lady cranberry} queer episodical conversation , and strange biographies of every table , chair , and cushion — [her]_{397-lady cranberry} "_[293-clara] sticks , " as [she]_{397-lady cranberry} delighted to call them — [I]_293-clara shall not try to repeat , for [my]_293-clara history is not a comic one ; neither will [she]_{397-lady cranberry} appear , unless the connexion requires it . One vein of sympathy between [us]_6058-us was opened at once , by [her]_{397-lady cranberry} coming into [the room]_{823-the room} with a lame blackbird on [her]_{397-lady cranberry} finger ; and [I]_293-clara was quite surprised at the number of [her]_{397-lady cranberry} pets . As for [the "_[293-clara] splendid apartments]_{6060-the " splendid apartments} , " [they]_{6060-the " splendid apartments} were [two little rooms on [the first floor]_{6062-the first floor} , adjoining [one another]_{758-one another} , and forming , together with the landing outside and [a coal - closet]_{6064-a coal - closet} , the entirety of [that storey]_{6065-that storey}]_{6061-two little rooms on the first floor , adjoining one another , and forming , together with the landing outside and a coal - closet , the entirety of that storey} . [The rooms above]_{6066-the rooms above} were occupied by [a young dress - maker]_{6067-a young dress - maker} . [Mr.]_6068-mr. and [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , who had [no children]_{6069-no children} kept the ground - floor ( consisting of [a parlour]_{6070-a parlour} and [kitchen]_1734-kitchen ) and [the two attics , one of which was always full of onions and carrot seed]_{6072-the two attics , one of which was always full of onions and carrot seed} . Upon the whole , though the "_[293-clara] sticks " were very old , and not over clean , until [I]_1820-you scoured them , and [the drawing - room ( as [[my]_1820-you landlady]_{6074-my landlady}]_{6073-the drawing - room ( as my landlady} loved to call [it]_{6073-the drawing - room ( as my landlady} ) was low and small , and looked through the rails of [a narrow balcony upon [a cheese - monger]_{6076-a cheese - monger} 's shop]_{6075-a narrow balcony upon a cheese - monger 's shop} across [the road]_{1630-the road} ( instead of [a wooded dingle]_{6078-a wooded dingle} ) , [I]_1820-you was very well satisfied with them ; and above all the rent was within [my]_1820-you means . In the afternoon , when things were growing tidy , [a carriage]_{6079-a carriage} drove up rapidly , and a violent ringing of the bell ensued . It was [Lady Cranberry]_{397-lady cranberry} , who , under the pretext of bringing [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} [home]_1102-home , was come to gratify [her]_{397-lady cranberry} own sweet curiosity . [She]_{397-lady cranberry} ran [upstairs]_{6042-upstairs} in [her]_{397-lady cranberry} most charming manner , caught [me]_1820-you by both hands , and would have kissed [me]_1820-you desperately , if [I]_1820-you had shown any tendency that way . Then [she]_{397-lady cranberry} stopped to admire [me]_1820-you . "_[1820-you] Oh , [you]_1820-you lovely creature ! How [you]_1820-you are grown to be sure ! [I]_0-i should never have known [you]_1820-you . How delicious all this is ! " Of course [I]_0-i was pleased with [her]_{397-lady cranberry} admiration ; but only for a moment , because [I]_0-i disliked [her]_{397-lady cranberry} . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am glad [you]_0-i find it delicious , " [I]_0-i replied quite coldly ; "_[0-i] perhaps [I]_0-i shall by - and - by . " "_[0-i] What would [I]_0-i give to be entering life under such sweetly romantic circumstances ? Dear [me]_0-i ! [I]_0-i must introduce [you]_1820-you . What a sensation [you]_1820-you will cause ! With such a face and figure and such a delightful story , [we]_1821-we shall all rave about [you]_1820-you . And how well [you]_1820-you are dressed from [that outlandish place]_{1822-that outlandish place} ! What a piece of luck ! It 's the greatest marvel on earth that [you]_1820-you found [me]_0-i in [London]_1-london now . " "_[1820-you] Excuse [me]_0-i , " [I]_1820-you said , "_[1820-you] [I]_0-i neither found , nor meant to find [you]_0-i . " "_[0-i] Oh , of course [you]_0-i are cross with [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i forgot about that . But who made [your]_0-i dress , in the name of all woodland graces ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i always make [my]_0-i own dresses . " "_[0-i] Then [you]_0-i shall make [mine]_0-i . Say no more about it . [You]_1820-you shall live with [me]_0-i , and make [my]_0-i dresses by day ; and by night [you]_1820-you shall go with [me]_0-i everywhere , and [I]_0-i wo n't be jealous . [I]_0-i will introduce [you]_1820-you everywhere . ' This is [[my]_0-i ward]_{1823-my ward} , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara , whose father — ah , [I]_0-i see , [you]_1820-you know that romantic occurrence in [Gloucestershire]_{3-gloucestershire} . ' Do [you]_1820-you think it will be a [your]_1824-your — and the Great Exhibition season — before [you]_1820-you are mistress of [a property ten times the size of [Vaughan Park]_{5-vaughan park}]_{1825-a property ten times the size of vaughan park} ? If [you]_1820-you doubt it , look in the glass . Ah [me]_0-i ! [You]_1820-you know nothing of [the world]_{798-the world} , [I]_0-i forget , [I]_0-i am so warm - hearted . But [you]_1820-you may take [my]_0-i word for it . Will [you]_1820-you cry a bargain ? " [She]_293-clara held out [her]_293-clara hand , as [she]_293-clara had seen [the fast men]_{6082-the fast men} do , whose society [she]_293-clara affected . [I]_1820-you noticed it not , but led [her]_293-clara on ; [my]_1820-you fury had long been gathering . [I]_1820-you almost choked when [she]_293-clara spoke in that way of [[my]_1820-you father]_{731-my father} , utterly as [I]_1820-you despised [her]_{731-my father} . But [I]_1820-you made it a trial of self - control , which might be demanded against more worthy objects . "_[1820-you] Are [you]_1820-you sure that [I]_0-i shall be useful ? Sure that [I]_0-i shall earn [my]_0-i board ? " "_[1820-you] Oh , [you]_1820-you [Vaughans]_398-vaughans are always so conscientious . [I]_0-i want an eider - down petticoat quilted at once for the winter , and [I]_0-i dare not trust it to [Biggs]_399-biggs , [I]_0-i know [she]_1827-she will pucker it so . That shall be the first little job for [[my]_0-i Clara]_{5392-my clara} . " [Her]_293-clara cup was full . [She]_293-clara had used [dearest mother]_{6056-dearest mother} 's fond appellative , and , as [I]_{5392-my clara} thought , in mockery . [I]_{5392-my clara} did not lower [myself]_{5392-my clara} by any sarcastic language . [She]_293-clara would not have understood it . [I]_{5392-my clara} merely opened the door , and said calmly to [[my]_{5392-my clara} landlady]_{6074-my landlady} , who was there , of course "_{[5392-my clara]} promiscuously ; " "_{[5392-my clara]} [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , show out the [Countess of Cranberry]_{400-countess of cranberry} . " [Poor godmother]_{401-poor godmother} , [she]_293-clara was so frightened that [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was sorry for [her]_293-clara . [They]_6086-they helped [her]_293-clara into [the carriage]_{6087-the carriage} , and [she]_293-clara had just strength to draw down the blinds . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had been in raptures at having so grand [a vehicle]_{5550-a vehicle} and [two great footmen]_{6089-two great footmen} at [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} door . Lest [the street]_{6090-the street} should lose the effect , [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had run in and out a dozen times , and banged the door , and got into talk with [the coachman]_{6022-the coachman} , and sent for beer to [the Inn]_{1283-the inn} , though [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had it in [the house]_{764-the house} . [She]_{391-mrs. shelfer} now came again to [my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} door , in what [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} called a "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} terrible quandary . " [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} could not attend to [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , but locked [myself]_{391-mrs. shelfer} in , and wrestled with [my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} passionate nature , at one time indulging , then spurning and freezing it . Yet [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} could not master it , as [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} fancied [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had done . Soon afterwards , [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} went to [the place which [she]_{294-ann maples} had obtained in [[Lady Cranberry]_{397-lady cranberry} 's household]_{6095-lady cranberry 's household}]_{6094-the place which she had obtained in lady cranberry 's household} ; and [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} determined to begin [my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} search . "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , do [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} know [London]_1-london well ? " [[My]_{391-mrs. shelfer} landlady]_{6074-my landlady} was feeding [her]_{6074-my landlady} birds , and [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had made up for [her]_{6074-my landlady} disappointment about [Lady Cranberry]_{397-lady cranberry} , by fitting the lame blackbird with a wooden leg , cut from a skewer , and tipped with a button : it was pretty to see how kindly and cleverly [he]_0-i took to it , and how proudly [he]_0-i contemplated it , when [he]_0-i thought there was [no one]_{730-no one} watching . [[His]_0-i mistress]_{5962-his mistress} now stopped [her]_{5962-his mistress} work , and made ready for a long speech , with the usual snap of [her]_{5962-his mistress} lips . "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Know [London]_1-london , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara ! [I]_0-i was born in [Red Cross Street]_{47-red cross street} , and [I]_0-i 've never been further out of [town]_1829-town than [Chalk Farm fair]_{48-chalk farm fair} , or [Hampstead Waterworks]_{49-hampstead waterworks} , and , please [God]_303-god , [I]_0-i never will . Bless [me]_0-i , what [an awful place]_{1830-an awful place} [the country]_{1831-the country} is , awful ! What with the trees , and the ditches , and the sting - nettles , and the black wainscot with skewers on the top — " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Too bad of [you]_293-clara , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , to be frightened at palings — and [[your]_293-clara husband]_{1832-your husband} [a gardener]_{985-a gardener} , too ! But tell [me]_0-i whereabouts is [Grove Street]_{30-grove street} ? " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} What [Grove Street]_{30-grove street} , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} ? " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} [Grove Street]_{30-grove street} , [London]_1-london , to be sure . " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Why , [dear]_5871-dear [me]_0-i , [Miss]_1836-miss , [I]_0-i thought [you]_293-clara knew everything ; [you]_293-clara can doctor [Jack]_374-jack , and [the Bully]_{1837-the bully} , and tell [me]_0-i all about [Sandy]_402-sandy the squirrel 's tail and the hair coming off and when it 's going to rain ! Do n't [you]_293-clara know there 's [a dozen Grove Streets]_{1838-a dozen grove streets} in [London]_1-london , for all [I]_0-i know . Leastways [I]_0-i knows four . " "_[0-i] And where are those four , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ? " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Now please , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , give [me]_0-i just a minute to think . It is dreadful work to be hurried , ever since [I]_0-i fell [downstairs]_{1041-downstairs} , when [I]_0-i were [six year old]_{1841-six year old} . Let [me]_0-i see now . [Charley]_395-charley knows . Ca n't [you]_293-clara wait , [Miss]_5433-miss , till [Charley]_395-charley comes [home]_1102-home , and [he]_395-charley 's coming quite early this evening , and [two friends of [his]_395-charley]_{1844-two friends of his} to supper . " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} No , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [I]_0-i can not wait . If [you]_293-clara ca n't tell [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i must go and get a book . " "_[1845-they] Oh [them]_1845-they books is no good . Why [they]_1845-they ai n't got [Charley]_395-charley in , and [he]_395-charley with the lease one time of [the garden in [Hollyhock Square]_{50-hollyhock square}]_{1846-the garden in hollyhock square} , and a dahlia named after [him]_395-charley at [the Royal Heretical Society]_{51-the royal heretical society} ! And [they]_1845-they did say [the Queen]_{1427-the queen} would have handed [him]_395-charley the spade [she]_{1427-the queen} liked [his]_395-charley looks so much , only [his]_395-charley nails was n't clean . Very likely [you]_293-clara heard , [Miss]_1848-miss — And how [he]_395-charley was cheated out of it . " "_[1848-miss] Do [you]_293-clara expect [me]_0-i to wait all day ? " "_[293-clara] No no , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , to be sure not . [You]_293-clara never will wait a minute , [partikler]_{1850-partikler} when [I]_0-i spill the coals , and when [I]_0-i wants to baste the meat . And how can the gravy run , and a pinch of salt in the dripping - pan — " "_[293-clara] Yesterday , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [you]_293-clara basted [my]_0-i pound and a half of mutton with three pounds of coals . Now do n't go off into a treatise . Answer [me]_0-i , where is [Grove Street]_{30-grove street} ? " "_[293-clara] Bless [my]_0-i heart , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara . [You]_293-clara never gives one a chance . And [we]_1851-we thought [a young lady from [the]_1853-the]_{1852-a young lady from the} [country as had been brought up with tags , and lace , and bobbin]_{1854-country as had been brought up with tags , and lace , and bobbin} , and pigs , and hay — " "_{[1852-a young lady from the]} Could be cheated anyhow . No , [I]_0-i do n't mean that : [I]_0-i beg [your]_293-clara pardon , dear [Patty]_322-tilly . [I]_0-i often speak very hastily . What [I]_0-i mean is that [you]_293-clara thought [I]_0-i should know nothing at all . And [I]_0-i do n't know much , but one thing [I]_0-i do know , that [you]_293-clara would never cheat [me]_0-i much . " To [my]_293-clara surprise [she]_293-clara was not at all sensitive on this subject . In fact [she]_293-clara had dealt with so many [lodgers]_6099-lodgers , that [she]_293-clara expected to be suspected . But [I]_293-clara believe [she]_293-clara never cheated [me]_293-clara more than [she]_293-clara could help . [She]_293-clara answered [me]_293-clara quite calmly , after some meditation : "_[293-clara] To be sure , [Miss]_1855-miss , to be sure , [I]_0-i only does [my]_0-i dooty . A little dripping may be , or a drop of milk for [old Tom]_{379-tom gundry} , and a piece of soap [you]_1855-miss left in the water , [Miss]_5433-miss , [I]_0-i kept it for [Charley]_395-charley to shave with . " "_[0-i] Now , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , no more of that . Come back to [Grove Street]_{30-grove street} ; surely , [I]_0-i have given [you]_1855-miss time enough now . " "_[5433-miss] Well , [Miss]_5433-miss , there is one [I]_0-i know close by here . [You]_1855-miss keep down [the Willa Road]_{52-the willa road} , and by [[the fishmonger]_{1858-the fishmonger} 's shop]_{1859-the fishmonger 's shop} , and then [you]_1855-miss turn on the right over against the licensed pursuant to Act of [George the Fourth]_{403-george the fourth} . [I]_0-i knows [George the Fourth]_{403-george the fourth} acted badly , but [I]_0-i never thought it was that way . [Sam the Sweep]_404-samuel lives with [him]_404-samuel , and [the young man with a hook for [his]_{1860-the young man with a hook for his hand that lets out the ' times ' for a penny , and keeps all his brothers and sisters} hand that lets out the ' Times ' for a penny , and keeps all [[his]_{1860-the young man with a hook for his hand that lets out the ' times ' for a penny , and keeps all his brothers and sisters} brothers and [sisters]_1862-sisters]_{1861-his brothers and sisters}]_{1860-the young man with a hook for his hand that lets out the ' times ' for a penny , and keeps all his brothers and sisters} . " "_{[1860-the young man with a hook for his hand that lets out the ' times ' for a penny , and keeps all his brothers and sisters]} And where are the other three that [you]_0-i know ? " "_[0-i] There 's one in [Hackney]_53-hackney , and one in [Bethnal Green]_{54-bethnal green} , and there 's one in [Mile - end Road]_{1863-mile - end road} . Bless [me]_0-i , to be sure ! [I]_0-i 've been [there]_1114-there with [dear [Miss Minto]_{405-miss minto} after a cat [she]_{405-miss minto} lost , a tabby with a silver collar on , and a notch in [his]_{1860-the young man with a hook for his hand that lets out the ' times ' for a penny , and keeps all his brothers and sisters} left ear]_{405-miss minto} . It would make [you]_{405-miss minto} cry , [Miss]_1865-miss — " "_[1865-miss] Thank [you]_{405-miss minto} , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ; that will do for the present . [I]_0-i 'll go up to [the ' drawing - room ']_{1866-the ' drawing - room '} now . " In a few minutes [I]_0-i went forth with [my]_0-i dark plaid shawl around [me]_0-i , which had saved [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} 's life , and was thenceforth sacred . It was the first time [I]_0-i walked all alone in [London]_1-london , and though [we]_6101-we lived quite in [the suburbs]_{6102-the suburbs} it seemed very odd to [me]_0-i . For a while [I]_0-i felt rather nervous , but [no one]_{730-no one} molested [me]_0-i then or at any other time ; although [I]_0-i have heard [some plain young ladies]_{6104-some plain young ladies} declare that [they]_{6104-some plain young ladies} could not walk in [London]_1-london without attracting unpleasant attention . Perhaps because [they]_{6104-some plain young ladies} knew not the way either to walk or to dress . Without any trouble , [I]_0-i found [No . 19]_{6105-no . 19} , [Grove Street]_{30-grove street} , then rang the bell and looked round [me]_0-i . [It]_{6105-no . 19} was [a clean unpretentious street]_{6106-a clean unpretentious street} , not to be known by [its]_{6105-no . 19} architecture from a thousand others in [London]_1-london . The bell was answered by [a neat little girl]_{6107-a neat little girl} , and [I]_0-i asked for [the Master of [the house]_{764-the house}]_{6108-the master of the house} . Clever tactics truly for commencing a task like [mine]_0-i . Being told that [the Master]_{1286-the master} was from [home]_1102-home , [I]_0-i begged to see [the Mistress]_{6112-the mistress} . [The little maid]_{6113-the little maid} hesitated awhile , with the chain of the door in [her]_{6113-the little maid} hand , and then invited [me]_0-i into [the parlour]_{5965-the parlour} , [a small room]_{6115-a small room} , but neat and pretty . "_[0-i] Please , [Miss]_5433-miss , what name shall [I]_0-i say ? " "_[0-i] [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara , if [you]_0-i please . " Then [I]_293-clara said to [myself]_293-clara , "_[293-clara] What good am [I]_0-i ? Is this [my]_0-i detective adroitness ? " Presently [a nice old lady , with snow - white hair]_{6116-a nice old lady , with snow - white hair} , came in . "_[293-clara] [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara , " [she]_{6116-a nice old lady , with snow - white hair} asked with a pleasant smile , "_[293-clara] do [you]_293-clara wish to see [me]_0-i ? " "_[293-clara] Yes , if [you]_293-clara please . Just to ask a few questions as to [the inmates of [this house]_{5422-this house}]_{1868-the inmates of this house} . " Despite [her]_{6116-a nice old lady , with snow - white hair} kindness and good breeding , [the lady]_{1431-the lady} stared a little . "_[293-clara] May [I]_0-i inquire [your]_0-i motives ? Do [you]_0-i know [me]_0-i at all ? [I]_0-i have not the pleasure of knowing [you]_0-i . " "_[0-i] [My]_0-i motives [I]_0-i must not tell [you]_293-clara . But , as [a lady]_{5829-a lady} , [I]_0-i assure [you]_293-clara , that curiosity is not one . Neither are [they]_1871-me improper . " [She]_293-clara looked at [me]_1871-me in great surprise , examined [me]_1871-me closely , and then replied : "_[1871-me] [Young lady]_{1872-young lady} , [I]_0-i believe what [you]_{1872-young lady} say . It is impossible not to do so . But [my]_0-i answering [you]_{1872-young lady} must depend on the nature of [your]_{1872-young lady} inquiries . [You]_{1872-young lady} have done , excuse [my]_0-i saying it , [you]_{1872-young lady} have done a very odd thing . " "_{[1872-young lady]} [I]_0-i will not ask many questions . How many [people]_1132-people live [here]_846-here ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i will answer [you]_{1872-young lady} curtly as [you]_{1872-young lady} ask , unless [you]_{1872-young lady} ask what [I]_0-i do not choose to answer . [Four people]_{1875-four people} live [here]_846-here , namely , [[my]_0-i husband]_{1877-my husband} , [myself]_0-i , [[our]_1878-we only daughter]_{1879-our only daughter} — but for whom [I]_0-i might have been ruder to [you]_{1872-young lady} — and [the child who let [you]_{1872-young lady} in]_{1880-the child who let you in} . Also [a woman]_{5830-a woman} comes every day to work . " "_{[5830-a woman]} Are there no more ? Forgive [my]_0-i impertinence . [No strangers to [the family]_{1254-the family}]_{1882-no strangers to the family} ? " "_{[1882-no strangers to the family]} No lodgers whatever . [[My]_0-i son]_{5986-my son} is employed in [the City]_{1885-the city} , and sleeps [there]_1114-there . [[My]_0-i only daughter]_{1887-my only daughter} is in very weak health , and though [we]_1878-we do not want all [the house]_{764-the house} , [we]_1878-we are not obliged to take [lodgers]_6099-lodgers . A thing [I]_0-i never would do , because [they]_6099-lodgers always expect to be cheated . " "_{[6099-lodgers]} And is [[your]_0-i husband]_{1832-your husband} [an Englishman]_{1891-an englishman} ? " "_{[1891-an englishman]} Yes , and [an English writer]_{1892-an english writer} , not altogether unknown . " [She]_{1887-my only daughter} mentioned a name of good repute in the world of letters , as even [I]_0-i was aware . "_[0-i] [You]_0-i have quite satisfied [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i thank [you]_0-i most heartily . [Very few]_{1893-very few} would have been so polite and kind . [I]_0-i fear [you]_0-i must think [me]_0-i [a very singular being]_{1894-a very singular being} . But [I]_0-i have powerful motive , and am quite [a stranger in [London]_1-london]_{1895-a stranger in london} . " "_[0-i] [[My]_0-i dear]_{5318-my dear} , [I]_0-i knew that at once . [No Londoner]_{1897-no londoner} would have learned from [me]_0-i the family history [I]_0-i have told [you]_0-i . [I]_0-i should have shown [them]_1898-them out at the very first question . Thank [you]_0-i , oh thank [you]_0-i , [[my]_0-i child]_{1549-my child} . But [I]_0-i am sure [you]_0-i have hurt [yourself]_0-i . Oh , the shell has run into [your]_0-i forehead . " As [she]_{406-mrs. elton} looked so intently at [me]_{406-mrs. elton} , on [her]_{406-mrs. elton} way to the door of [the room]_{823-the room} , [her]_{406-mrs. elton} foot had been caught by the claw of the what - not , and [I]_{406-mrs. elton} barely saved [her]_{406-mrs. elton} from falling . "_{[406-mrs. elton]} No , [Mrs. Elton]_{406-mrs. elton} , [I]_0-i am not hurt at all . How stupid of [me]_0-i , to be sure . And all [my]_0-i fault that [you]_0-i fell . [I]_0-i hope the shell is not broken . Ah , [I]_0-i bring very bad luck to all who treat [me]_0-i kindly . " "_[0-i] The shell is not worth sixpence . The fault was all [my]_0-i own . If [you]_0-i had not been wonderfully quick , [I]_0-i must have fallen heavily . Pray sit down , and recover [yourself]_0-i , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara . Look , [you]_0-i have dropped a letter . Dear [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i know that writing ! Excuse [me]_0-i ; it is [I]_0-i that am now impertinent . " "_[0-i] If [you]_0-i know that writing , pray tell [me]_0-i how and where . " The letter [she]_293-clara had seen was the anonymous one which brought [me]_0-i from [Devonshire]_4-devonshire to [London]_1-london . [I]_0-i had put it into [my]_0-i pocket , thinking that it might be wanted . It fell out as [I]_0-i leaped forward , and it lay on the floor wide open . "_[0-i] May [I]_0-i look at the writing more closely ? Perhaps [I]_0-i am deceived . " For a while [I]_0-i hesitated . But it seemed so great a point to know who [the writer]_{6119-the writer} was , that [I]_0-i hushed [my]_0-i hesitation . However , [I]_0-i showed the letter so that [she]_{1900-a polish lady} could not gather its import . "_[0-i] Yes , " said [Mrs. Elton]_{406-mrs. elton} , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am quite certain now . That is the writing of [a Polish lady]_{1900-a polish lady} , whom at one time [I]_0-i knew well . [[My]_0-i husband]_{1877-my husband} has written a work upon [Poland]_55-poland , which brought [him]_{1877-my husband} into contact with [some of [the refugees]_{1903-the refugees}]_{1902-some of the refugees} . Among [them]_{1902-some of the refugees} was [a gentleman of some scientific attainments]_{1904-a gentleman of some scientific attainments} , who had [a pretty lively warm - hearted wife]_{1905-a pretty lively warm - hearted wife} , very fond of dancing , and very fond of dogs . [She]_{1900-a polish lady} and [I]_0-i have had many a laugh at [one another]_{758-one another} and [ourselves]_{1907-ourselves} ; for , though [my]_0-i hair is grey , [I]_0-i am fond of [lively people]_{1908-lively people} . " "_{[1908-lively people]} And where is [that lady]_{1909-that lady} now ? " "_{[1909-that lady]} [[My]_0-i child]_{1549-my child} , [I]_0-i can not tell [you]_{1549-my child} . [Her]_{1909-that lady} name [I]_0-i will tell [you]_{1549-my child} , if [you]_{1549-my child} like , when [I]_0-i have consulted [[my]_0-i husband]_{1877-my husband} . But it will help [you]_{1549-my child} very little towards finding [her]_{1909-that lady} ; for [they]_1912-they change [their]_1912-they names almost every time [they]_1912-they move . Even in [London]_1-london [they]_1912-they forget that [they]_1912-they are not heard every time [they]_1912-they sneeze . The furtive habits born of oppression cling about [them]_1912-they still . " "_[1912-they] And where did [they]_1912-they live at the time [you]_0-i knew [them]_1912-they ? " Wrung by suspense and anxiety , [I]_1912-they had forgotten good manners . But [Mrs. Elton]_{406-mrs. elton} had good feeling which knows when to dispense with [them]_1912-they . Nevertheless [I]_1912-they blushed with shame at [my]_1912-they own effrontery . "_[1912-they] Not very far from here , in [a part that is called ' [Agar Town]_{1914-agar town}]_{1913-a part that is called ' agar town} . ' But [they]_1912-they have now left [London]_1-london , and [England]_9-england too , [I]_0-i believe . [I]_0-i must tell [you]_0-i no more , because [they]_1912-they had reasons for wishing to be unknown . " "_[1912-they] Only tell [me]_0-i one thing . Were [they]_1912-they cruel or [violent people]_{1915-violent people} ? " "_{[1915-violent people]} The very opposite . Most humane and warm - hearted [They]_1912-they would injure [no one]_{730-no one} , and hated all kinds of cruelty . How pale [you]_0-i are , [[my]_0-i child]_{1549-my child} ! [You]_0-i must have a glass of wine . It is useless to say no . " As this clue , which seemed so promising , led to nothing at all , [I]_{1918-good dog} may as well wind it up at once , and not tangle [my]_{1918-good dog} story with it . [Mr. Elton]_{407-mr. elton} permitted [[his]_{407-mr. elton} wife]_{789-his wife} to tell [me]_{1918-good dog} all [she]_{789-his wife} knew about [the Polish exiles]_{6121-the polish exiles} , for [they]_{6121-the polish exiles} were gone to [America]_56-america , and nothing done [here]_846-here could harm [them]_{6121-the polish exiles} . But at the same time [he]_{407-mr. elton} made [me]_{1918-good dog} promise not to mention to [the police]_{6123-the police} , if [my]_{1918-good dog} case should ever come before [them]_{6123-the police} , the particulars which [he]_{407-mr. elton} gave [me]_{1918-good dog} ; and [I]_{1918-good dog} am sure [he]_{407-mr. elton} would not wish [me]_{1918-good dog} to make free with [the gentleman]_{6124-the gentleman} 's name . [A gentleman [he]_{407-mr. elton} was , as both [[my]_{1918-good dog} kind friends]_{6126-my kind friends}]_{6125-a gentleman he was , as both my kind friends} assured [me]_{1918-good dog} , and not likely to conceal any atrocious secret , unless [he]_{407-mr. elton} had learned it in a way which laid it upon [his]_{407-mr. elton} honour . [Mr. Elton]_{407-mr. elton} had never been intimate with [him]_{407-mr. elton} , and knew not who [[his]_{407-mr. elton} friends]_{976-his friends} were , but [Mrs. Elton]_{406-mrs. elton} had liked [the lady who was very kind and passionate]_{6128-the lady who was very kind and passionate} . Also [she]_{406-mrs. elton} was very apt to make mistakes in English names , and to become confused at moments of excitement . Therefore [Mrs. Elton]_{406-mrs. elton} thought that [she]_{406-mrs. elton} had confounded [the Eltons]_{408-the eltons} ' address with that of [some other person]_{6129-some other person} ; for it seemed a most unlikely thing that [she]_{406-mrs. elton} should know [the residents at [two Nos . 19 [Grove Street]_{30-grove street}]_{6131-two nos . 19 grove street}]_{6130-the residents at two nos . 19 grove street} . However so it proved — but of that in [its]_6132-its place . It was now six months since [they]_{6126-my kind friends} had quitted [London]_1-london , perhaps on account of the climate , for [the gentleman]_{6124-the gentleman} had been ill some time , and quite confined to [the house]_{764-the house} . It would be altogether vain to think of tracing [them]_{6126-my kind friends} in [America]_56-america . While living in [London]_1-london [they]_{6126-my kind friends} owned a most magnificent dog , [a truly noble fellow but afflicted with a tumour]_{6135-a truly noble fellow but afflicted with a tumour} . This dog suddenly disappeared , and [they]_{6126-my kind friends} would not tell what had become of [him]_{6135-a truly noble fellow but afflicted with a tumour} , but [the lady]_{1431-the lady} cried most violently one day when [he]_{6135-a truly noble fellow but afflicted with a tumour} was spoken of . Directly after this [they]_{6126-my kind friends} left [the country]_{1831-the country} , with a very brief farewell . All this [I]_{1918-good dog} learned from [Mr.]_6138-mr. and [Mrs. Elton]_{406-mrs. elton} during [my]_{1918-good dog} second visit , for [Mrs. Elton]_{406-mrs. elton} was too good [a wife]_{1297-a wife} to dispense with [[her]_{406-mrs. elton} husband]_{6140-her husband} 's judgment . Also [I]_{1918-good dog} saw [[their]_{6126-my kind friends} daughter]_{6141-their daughter} , [a pleasing delicate girl]_{6142-a pleasing delicate girl} ; [they]_{6126-my kind friends} learned of course some parts of [my]_{1918-good dog} story , and were most kind and affectionate to [me]_{1918-good dog} ; and [I]_{1918-good dog} am proud to have preserved [their]_{6126-my kind friends} friendship to the present time . But as [they]_{6126-my kind friends} take no prominent share in the drama of [my]_{1918-good dog} life , henceforth [they]_{6126-my kind friends} will not be presented upon its stage . As [I]_{1918-good dog} returned up [the Villa Road]_{6143-the villa road} , thinking of all [I]_{1918-good dog} had heard , and feeling down at heart , something cold was gently placed in [my]_{1918-good dog} ungloved hand . Turning in surprise and fright [I]_{1918-good dog} saw an enormous dog , wagging [his]_{6140-her husband} tail , and looking at [me]_{1918-good dog} with magnificent brown eyes . Those great brown eyes were begging clearly for the honour of [my]_{1918-good dog} acquaintance , and that huge muzzle was deposited as a gage of love . As [I]_{1918-good dog} stooped to ascertain [his]_{6140-her husband} sentiments , [he]_{6140-her husband} gravely raised one mighty paw and offered it to [me]_{1918-good dog} delicately , with a little sigh of self - approval . Upon [my]_{1918-good dog} accepting it frankly and begging to congratulate [him]_{6140-her husband} upon [his]_{6140-her husband} noble appearance and evident moral excellence , [he]_{6140-her husband} put out [his]_{6140-her husband} tongue , a brilliant red one , and gave [me]_{1918-good dog} a serious kiss . Then [he]_{6140-her husband} shrugged [his]_{6140-her husband} shoulders and looked with patient contempt at [a nicely - dressed young lady , who was exerting [her]_{6144-a nicely - dressed young lady , who was exerting her lungs at a silver whistle some fifty yards down the road} lungs at a silver whistle some fifty yards down [the road]_{1630-the road}]_{6144-a nicely - dressed young lady , who was exerting her lungs at a silver whistle some fifty yards down the road} . "_{[1918-good dog]} Go , [good dog]_{1918-good dog} , " [I]_{1918-good dog} said with a smile , "_{[1918-good dog]} run , that 's [a good dog]_{1919-a good dog} , [[your]_{1918-good dog} Mistress]_{1920-your mistress} wants [you]_{1918-good dog} immediately . " "_{[1920-your mistress]} Let [her]_{1920-your mistress} wait , " [he]_{6140-her husband} said with [his]_{6140-her husband} eyes , "_{[1920-your mistress]} [I]_0-i am not in a hurry this morning , and [she]_{1920-your mistress} does n't know what to do with [her]_{1920-your mistress} time . However , if [you]_1921-i think it would be rude of [me]_0-i — " And with that [he]_{6140-her husband} resumed a long bone , laid aside while [he]_{6140-her husband} chatted to [me]_1921-i , tucked it lengthwise in [his]_{6140-her husband} mouth , like a tobacco - pipe , and after shaking hands again , and saying "_[1921-i] Now do n't forget [me]_0-i , " the great dog trotted away sedately , flourishing [his]_{6140-her husband} tail on high , like a plume of Pampas grass . At the corner of [the railings]_{6146-the railings} [he]_{6140-her husband} overtook [[his]_{6140-her husband} young Mistress]_{6147-his young mistress} , whose features [I]_1921-i could not descry ; though from [her]_{6147-his young mistress} air and walk [I]_1921-i knew that [she]_{6147-his young mistress} must be [a pretty girl]_{6148-a pretty girl} . [A good - tempered one]_{6149-a good - tempered one} too [she]_{6147-his young mistress} seemed to be , for [she]_{6147-his young mistress} only shook [her]_{6147-his young mistress} little whip lightly at the dog , who made an excursion across [the road]_{1630-the road} and sniffed at a heap of dust . Although [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} was not so very talkative , it would be romantic to suppose that [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had failed to learn [my]_1921-i entire history , so far at least as [[her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} cousin]_{6046-her cousin} knew it . Having now disposed of [one Grove Street]_{30-grove street} , [I]_1921-i was about to try the same rude tactics with another , viz . that in [Hackney]_53-hackney ; when [[my]_1921-i landlady]_{6074-my landlady} gave a little nervous knock , and hurried into [the room]_{823-the room} . "_[1921-i] Oh , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara , is it about [them]_1922-them willains [you]_293-clara are wandering about and taking on so , and frightening all of [us]_1923-us nearly to death ? " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [I]_0-i shall feel obliged by [your]_293-clara leaving [me]_0-i to manage [my]_0-i own affairs . " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Bless [you]_293-clara , [Miss]_1924-miss , so [I]_0-i will . [I]_0-i would n't have them on [my]_0-i mind for [the Bank of [England]_9-england]_{58-the bank of england} , and [Guildhall]_59-guildhall , paved with [Lombard Street]_{60-lombard street} , and so [I]_0-i told [Charley]_395-charley last night . Right , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , quite right , [you]_293-clara may depend upon it . " Here [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} tapped [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} forehead , and looked mysterious . "_[293-clara] That being so , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [I]_0-i need say nothing more ; " and with that [I]_0-i was going away . "_[0-i] No , no , to be sure not . Only listen to [me]_0-i , [Miss]_5433-miss , one minute ; and [I]_0-i knows more about willains , a deal more than [you]_293-clara do of course , [Miss. Why]_342-miss. , ever since that rogue who come to [Miss Minto]_{405-miss minto} 's with brandyballs and rabbitskins on a stick . " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Once more , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [I]_0-i have no time to spare for gossip — " "_{[1927-gossip]} [Gossip]_1927-gossip ! No , no , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara ; if [you]_293-clara ever heard [any one]_{1178-any one} say [Patty Shelfer]_409-patty was [a ' gossip]_{1929-a ' gossip} , ' [I]_0-i 'll thank [you]_293-clara for [their]_{1178-any one} name . [Gossip]_410-gossip ! A mercy on [me]_0-i with all [I]_0-i has to do , and the days drawing in so , and how [they]_1930-they does charge for the gas , and [the directors]_{1931-the directors} holds a meeting first Tuesday in every month , and fills up the pipes with spittle , that 's the reason it sputters so , [Charley]_395-charley told [me]_0-i . " "_{[395-charley]} Good bye , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} No , no . One minute , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara ; [you]_293-clara are always in such a hurry . What [Charley]_395-charley and [me]_0-i was talking about last night was this . [[My]_0-i Uncle John , [a very high class man]_{1932-a very high class man} , first - rate , first - rate , [Miss Vaughan]_{411-miss vaughan} , has been for ever so long in [the detective police]_{1933-the detective police}]_{411-miss vaughan} . There 's nothing [he]_{411-miss vaughan} do n't know of what goes on in [London]_1-london , from the rats as comes up the drain pipes to [the Queen]_{1427-the queen} getting up on [her]_{1427-the queen} throne . [A wonderful man]_{1935-a wonderful man} [he]_{411-miss vaughan} is . [I]_0-i said t'other day — " "_[0-i] Is [he]_{411-miss vaughan} like [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ? " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Like [me]_0-i , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} ! No , no . And [I]_0-i would n't be like [him]_{411-miss vaughan} for something . With all [them]_1937-them state secrets upon [him]_{411-miss vaughan} . Why [he]_{411-miss vaughan} dare n't sneeze out of [his]_{411-miss vaughan} hat . But if [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 'll only put off going again till to - morrow , [he]_{411-miss vaughan} 'll be here this very night about the plate [they]_1938-they stole in [the Square]_{1939-the square} . And [I]_0-i 'm sure [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ca n't do better than hear what [he]_{411-miss vaughan} thinks about [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . [He]_{411-miss vaughan} 'll be sure to know all that was done at the time . Bless [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [he]_{411-miss vaughan} has got to make all the returns ; what that is , [I]_0-i do n't know . It 's a kind of tobacco [Charley]_395-charley says , that [they]_1938-they smokes in [the Queen]_{1427-the queen} 's pipe . But [I]_0-i think it 's [the convicts]_{1941-the convicts} as returns from [Botany Bay]_{61-botany bay} . " "_[0-i] Well , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [I]_0-i 'll think of what [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} say , and [I]_0-i am much obliged to [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} for the suggestion ; but [I]_0-i ca n't bear the idea of coming before [the Police]_{6123-the police} again , with a matter in which [they]_{6123-the police} failed so signally . " "_[0-i] But [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} know , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , it need not be put on the books at all . [He]_{411-miss vaughan} 'll tell [us]_1944-us what [he]_{411-miss vaughan} thinks of it , private like , and for the love of the thing . " "_{[411-miss vaughan]} If [I]_0-i see [him]_{411-miss vaughan} at all , [I]_0-i must beg to see [him]_{411-miss vaughan} alone . " "_{[1798-my good friend]} To be sure , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} . Quite right , [Miss Vaughan]_{411-miss vaughan} , quite right . [I]_0-i 'm sure [I]_0-i would rather have [the plumber]_{1946-the plumber} 's ladle put to [my]_0-i ear , than one of [them]_{6123-the police} horrible secrets . " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , have [I]_0-i told [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} any ? Now remember , if [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ever again allude to this subject before [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i leave [[your]_{391-mrs. shelfer} house]_{5344-your house} that day . [You]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ought to know better , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} [You]_{391-mrs. shelfer} are quite right , [Miss Vaughan]_{411-miss vaughan} ; [I]_0-i ask [your]_{391-mrs. shelfer} pardon , [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} are quite right . The very words as [Charley]_395-charley said to [me]_0-i the other night . ' [You]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ought to have knowed better , [Patty]_409-patty , that [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} did . ' " Away [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} went , smoothing [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} apron , patting the fray of [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} hair — for [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} never wore side - combs — and mumbling down [the stairs]_{5744-the stairs} . "_[409-patty] Quite right , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , quite right , [I]_0-i ought to have knowed better , poor thing . " [She]_{391-mrs. shelfer} brought up [my]_0-i dinner and tea , without a single word , but with many sly glances at [me]_0-i from [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} quick grey eyes . Once or twice [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was at the point of speaking , and the dry smile [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} always spoke with fluttered upon [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} face ; but [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} closed [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} lips firmly and even bit them to keep [herself]_{391-mrs. shelfer} in . [I]_0-i could scarcely help laughing , for [I]_0-i liked the odd little thing ; but [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was so free with [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} tongue , that the lesson was sadly wanted . Late in the evening , [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} came to say that [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} was there , and would come up if [I]_0-i wished it . Upon [my]_0-i request [he]_{412-inspector cutting} came , and one look was enough to show that [[his]_{412-inspector cutting} niece]_{6155-his niece} had not misdescribed [him]_{412-inspector cutting} . [An elderly man]_{6156-an elderly man} , but active looking and wiry , with nothing remarkable in [his]_{412-inspector cutting} features , except the clear cast of [his]_{412-inspector cutting} forehead and the firm set of [his]_{412-inspector cutting} mouth . But the quick intelligence that shot from [his]_{412-inspector cutting} eyes made it seem waste of time to finish telling [him]_{412-inspector cutting} anything . For this reason , polite though [he]_{412-inspector cutting} was , it became unpleasant to talk to [him]_{412-inspector cutting} . It was something like shooting at [divers]_6157-divers — as [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} used to describe it — for whom the flash of the gun is enough . Yet [he]_{412-inspector cutting} never once stopped or hurried [me]_0-i , until [my]_0-i tale was done , and all [my]_0-i thoughts laid bare . Then [he]_{412-inspector cutting} asked to see all [my]_0-i relics and vestiges of the deed ; even [[my]_0-i gordit]_{6159-my gordit} did not escape [him]_{412-inspector cutting} . "_[0-i] L.D.O. " [he]_{412-inspector cutting} said shortly , "_[1949-you] do [you]_1949-you speak Italian ? ' " [I]_1949-you can read it , but not speak it . "_[1949-you] " Is it commoner for Italian surnames to begin with an O , or with a C ? "_[1949-you] " There are plenty beginning with both ; but more [I]_1949-you should think with a C. "_[1949-you] When all [my]_0-i particulars had been told , and all [my]_0-i evidence shown , [I]_0-i asked with breathless interest — for [my]_0-i confidence in [him]_1950-me grew fast — what [his]_1950-me opinion was . " Allow [me]_1950-me , [young lady]_{1872-young lady} , to put a few questions to [you]_{1872-young lady} , on matters [you]_{1872-young lady} have not mentioned . Forgive [me]_1950-me , if [they]_6161-they pain [you]_{1872-young lady} . [I]_1950-me believe [you]_{1872-young lady} feel that [they]_6161-they will not be impertinent . "_[1950-me] [I]_0-i promised to answer without reserve . " What was [[your]_1949-you mother]_{5332-your mother} 's personal appearance ? "_[0-i] " Most winning and delicate . "_[1949-you] " How old was [she]_{5332-your mother} at the time of [her]_{5332-your mother} marriage ? "_[1950-me] " Twenty - one , [I]_0-i believe . "_[0-i] " How old was [[your]_1949-you father]_{5365-your father} then ? "_[1949-you] " Twenty - five . "_[1950-me] " How many years were [they]_6164-they married ? "_[0-i] " Sixteen , exactly . "_[0-i] " When did [[your]_1949-you guardian]_{5396-your guardian} first leave [England]_9-england ? "_[1949-you] " In the course of a year or two after the marriage . "_[0-i] " Had there been any misunderstanding between [him]_{5396-your guardian} and [[your]_1949-you father]_{5365-your father} ? "_[0-i] " None , that [I]_1949-you ever heard of . "_[1949-you] " Did [[your]_1949-you father]_{5365-your father} , at any time , travel on [the continent]_{6168-the continent} ? "_[1949-you] " Only in [Switzerland]_{62-switzerland} , and [part of [Italy]_63-italy]_{6169-part of italy} , during [his]_{5365-your father} wedding tour . "_[0-i] " [[Your]_1949-you guardian]_{5396-your guardian} returned , [I]_1949-you believe , at intervals to [England]_9-england ? "_[1949-you] [I]_0-i had never told [him]_1951-him this . " Yes . At least [I]_1949-you suppose so , or [he]_{5396-your guardian} would not have been in [London]_1-london . "_[1949-you] " Did [he]_{5396-your guardian} visit then at [Vaughan Park]_{5-vaughan park} ? "_[0-i] " Not once within [my]_0-i memory . "_[0-i] " Thank [you]_1949-you . [I]_0-i will ask no more . It is a strange story ; but [I]_0-i have known several much more strange . Of one thing be assured . [I]_0-i shall catch [the criminal]_{6171-the criminal} . [I]_0-i need not tell [you]_1949-you that [I]_0-i heard much of this case at the time . "_[0-i] " Were [you]_1949-you sent down to [Gloucestershire]_{3-gloucestershire} ? "_[0-i] " No . If [I]_0-i had been — well , [I]_0-i will not say . But [I]_0-i was not then in [my]_0-i present position . Had [I]_0-i been so , it would have become [my]_0-i special department . "_[0-i] " Pray keep [me]_0-i no more in suspense . Tell [me]_0-i what [you]_1949-you think . "_[0-i] " That [I]_0-i must not do , or [you]_1949-you should know it at once , for [my]_0-i opinion is formed . It would be a breach of duty for [me]_0-i to tell [you]_1949-you now . "_[0-i] " Oh , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i cried in [my]_0-i disappointment , " [I]_0-i wish [I]_0-i had never seen [you]_1949-you . "_[0-i] " [Young lady]_{1872-young lady} , [you]_1949-you have done [your]_1949-you duty in placing the matter before [me]_0-i , and some day [you]_1949-you will rejoice that [you]_1949-you did so . One piece of advice [I]_0-i will give [you]_1949-you : change [your]_1949-you name immediately , before even [the tradesmen about here]_{6173-the tradesmen about here} know it . "_[0-i] " Change [my]_0-i name , [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} ! Do [you]_{412-inspector cutting} think [I]_0-i am ashamed of [my]_0-i name ? "_[0-i] " Certainly not . [You]_1949-you have shown great intelligence when [a mere child]_{6174-a mere child} ; exert but a little now , and [you]_1949-you will see the good sense , or rather the necessity , of [my]_0-i recommendation . When [you]_1949-you have gained [your]_1949-you object , [you]_1949-you may resume [your]_1949-you name with pride . [You]_1949-you have given [your]_1949-you information , [Miss Vaughan]_{411-miss vaughan} , as clearly as ever [I]_0-i knew [a female]_{6175-a female} give it . "_[0-i] If [I]_0-i detest anything , in the way of small things , it is to be called [a " female]_{6176-a " female} . "_[0-i] So [I]_0-i said coldly ; " [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} , [I]_0-i thank [you]_{412-inspector cutting} for the compliment . It would be strange indeed if [I]_0-i could not tell with precision , what [I]_0-i have thought of all [my]_0-i life . "_[0-i] " Excuse [me]_1952-he , [Miss]_6177-miss , it would not be strange at all , in [a female]_{6175-a female} . And now [I]_1952-he will wish [you]_6177-miss ' good night . ' [You]_6177-miss shall hear from [me]_1952-he when needful . Meanwhile , [I]_1952-he will take charge of these articles . "_[1952-he] [He]_1952-he began , in the coolest manner , to pack up [my]_0-i sacred relics , dagger , casts , and all . " Indeed [you]_1952-he wo n't , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i cried , " [you]_1952-he shall not have one of them . What are [you]_1952-he thinking of ? "_[1952-he] [He]_1952-he went on with [his]_1952-he packing . [I]_0-i saw [he]_1952-he was resolute ; so was [I.]_0-i [I]_0-i sprang to the door , locked it , and put the key in [my]_0-i pocket . [He]_1952-he said nothing , but smiled . " Now , "_[1952-he] [I]_0-i exclaimed in triumph , " [you]_1952-he can not take those away , unless [you]_1952-he dare to outrage [a young lady]_{6179-a young lady} . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i was wholly mistaken . [He]_1952-he passed by , without touching [me]_0-i , drew some instrument from [his]_1952-he waistcoat pocket , and the door stood open before [him]_1952-he . All [my]_0-i treasures were in [his]_1952-he left hand . [I]_0-i flew at , and snatched them , and then let go with a scream . A gush of blood poured from [my]_0-i hand . [He]_1952-he had taken the dagger folded in paper only , and [I]_0-i was cut to the bone . [I]_0-i sank on a chair and fainted . When [I]_0-i came to [myself]_0-i , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was kneeling before [me]_0-i , with [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} feet in a basin of water , while two other basins , and numberless towels , were round . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was rubbing [my]_0-i other hand , and crying and talking desperately about [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} bad luck that day , and [a man with eyes]_{1953-a man with eyes} crossed whom [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had met in the morning . In the background stood [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} [himself]_{413-mr. shelfer} , whom [I]_0-i had hitherto failed to see , though [I]_0-i believe [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} had seen [me]_0-i often . [He]_{413-mr. shelfer} had a pipe in [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} mouth about a yard long , and seemed wholly undisturbed . " All right , [old ' ooman]_{6180-old ' ooman} , "_{[413-mr. shelfer]} [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} said deliberately through [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} nose , as [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} saw that [I]_0-i perceived [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} , " [she]_{6180-old ' ooman} 'll do now , if [you]_0-i do n't make too much rumpus . "_{[413-mr. shelfer]} And with that [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} disappeared , and [I]_0-i had time to pity [myself]_0-i . The hand [the poor farmer]_{1954-the poor farmer} used so to admire , and which [I]_0-i was proud of no doubt , in [my]_0-i way , lay in a dishcloth covered and oozing with blood . But [my]_0-i relics were on the table , all safe . A quick step was heard on the stairs , and [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} came in , carrying a small phial . " Out of the way , [Patty]_409-patty , "_{[412-inspector cutting]} [he]_{412-inspector cutting} cried , " [you]_409-patty are doing more harm than good . "_{[412-inspector cutting]} [He]_{412-inspector cutting} took up a basin of cold water , and poured half the contents of the little phial into it . " Now hold [her]_{6180-old ' ooman} arm up , [Patty]_409-patty , as high as [you]_409-patty can . [I]_{412-inspector cutting} never knew [arnica]_414-arnica fail . "_{[412-inspector cutting]} [My]_0-i hand was put into the water , and the bleeding was stanched in a minute or two . However [he]_{412-inspector cutting} kept it there for a quarter of an hour , till it was quite benumbed . " Now [you]_409-patty may look at [your]_409-patty hand , [Miss Vaughan]_{411-miss vaughan} ; it will not be disfigured at all . There will be no inflammation . [Patty]_409-patty , fetch [me]_{412-inspector cutting} some cambric and the best lard ; put [the young lady]_{5814-the young lady} to bed at once , and prop [her]_{6180-old ' ooman} arm up a little . "_{[412-inspector cutting]} [I]_0-i looked at [my]_0-i hand , and found three parallel gashes across it , for every edge of the weapon was keen . But only one wound was deep , viz . that across the palm , which was very deep under the thumb . [I]_0-i have the mark of it still . All the wounds were edged with a narrow yellow line . " [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i cried , " no power will move [me]_0-i from here , until [you]_{412-inspector cutting} promise not to steal [my]_0-i property . Stealing it is , and nothing else . [You]_{412-inspector cutting} have no warrant , and [my]_0-i information to [you]_{412-inspector cutting} was wholly unofficial . "_[0-i] The last word seemed to move [him]_{412-inspector cutting} . [They]_1955-i all like big words , however clear - headed they are . " [Miss Vaughan]_{411-miss vaughan} , under these special circumstances , [I]_1955-i will promise what [you]_{412-inspector cutting} require ; upon condition that [you]_{412-inspector cutting} give [me]_1955-i accurate drawings , for [I]_1955-i see that [you]_{412-inspector cutting} can make them . "_[1955-i] " Certainly , when [my]_1955-i hand is well enough . "_[1955-i] " Believe [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i am deeply concerned at what has occurred . But the fault was all [your]_{412-inspector cutting} own . How dare [you]_{412-inspector cutting} obstruct [the Police]_{6123-the police} ? But [I]_0-i wish [some of [[my]_0-i fellows]_{6184-my fellows}]_{6183-some of my fellows} had only half [your]_{412-inspector cutting} spirit . A little more experience , and nothing will escape [you]_{412-inspector cutting} . Come , [Miss Vaughan]_{411-miss vaughan} , though [you]_{412-inspector cutting} are [a lady]_{5829-a lady} , or rather because [you]_{412-inspector cutting} are [one]_6186-one , give [me]_0-i [your]_{412-inspector cutting} left hand , in token that [you]_{412-inspector cutting} forgive [me]_0-i . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i did so with all [my]_0-i heart . [I]_0-i liked [him]_1956-he much better since [I]_0-i had defeated [him]_1956-he ; and [I]_0-i saw that it was well worth the pain , for [he]_1956-he would do [his]_1956-he utmost to make amends . [He]_1956-he wished [me]_0-i good night with a most respectful bow . " [I]_1956-he will come and inquire how [you]_{412-inspector cutting} are to - morrow , [Miss Vaughan]_{411-miss vaughan} . [Patty]_409-patty , quiet , and coolness , and change the lard frequently . [No doctor]_{6187-no doctor} , if [you]_{412-inspector cutting} please ; and above all hold [your]_{412-inspector cutting} queer little tongue . "_[1956-he] " Never fear [me]_{412-inspector cutting} , [Uncle John]_{411-miss vaughan} ; [you]_{411-miss vaughan} are right , [[my]_{412-inspector cutting} good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , it is a little tongue , but no queerer than [[my]_{412-inspector cutting} neighbours]_{6189-my neighbours} . "_{[412-inspector cutting]} [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} would have formed a far lower opinion of [my]_0-i spirit , if [he]_1956-he had seen how [I]_0-i cried that night ; not from the pain of the wounds , [I]_0-i am sure , but to think of the fuss [dear mother]_{968-dear mother} would have made about them . In spite of the arnica , [my]_0-i cuts were not healed for a month ; not enough , [I]_0-i mean , for [me]_0-i to handle a pencil . [Mr. Cutting]_{415-mr. cutting} , when [he]_1956-he came , according to promise , told [me]_0-i something to quiet [me]_0-i , because [I]_0-i was so feverish . Whether [he]_1956-he believed it , or only acted medically , was more than [I]_0-i could decide . The opinion [he]_1956-he gave [me]_0-i , or the substance of it , was this . That the deed was done , not for money , or worldly advantage in any way , but for revenge . Here [I]_0-i thought of [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} . What wrong the revenge was wreaked for , [he]_1956-he could not even guess , or at any rate would not hint to [me]_0-i . That the straightest clue to the mystery was to be sought in [Italy]_63-italy , where [[my]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} 's track should be followed carefully . The idea of forcing , or worming , the truth from [him]_1956-he was rejected at once through [my]_0-i description of [his]_1956-he character ; although [the Inspector]_{1959-the inspector} quite agreed with [me]_0-i , that , even if guiltless of the crime , [Mr. Edgar Vaughan]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} knew all about it now . That no importance should be attached to the anonymous letter from [London]_1-london ; in accordance with [my]_0-i promise to [Mrs. Elton]_{406-mrs. elton} , [I]_0-i did not mention [the Polish lady]_{1960-the polish lady} 's name ; and [Mr. Cutting]_{415-mr. cutting} did not press [me]_0-i to do so , for [he]_{415-mr. cutting} firmly believed from what [I]_0-i said that [she]_{1960-the polish lady} had made a mistake in the address [she]_{1960-the polish lady} gave , and would not help [us]_1961-us now , even if [we]_1961-us could find [her]_{1960-the polish lady} . That nevertheless a strict watch should be kept in [London]_1-london , whither flock nine - tenths of [the foreigners who ever set foot in [this country]_{1963-this country}]_{1962-the foreigners who ever set foot in this country} . [London]_1-london moreover was likely , ere long , to draw nearly [all the migratory strangers]_{1964-all the migratory strangers} to the business or pleasure of next year 's " Great Exhibition , "_{[1959-the inspector]} provided only that it should prove successful , as [the Inspector]_{1959-the inspector} thought it would . As for [[my]_0-i enemy]_{1966-my enemy} being attracted by works of industry , it seemed to [me]_0-i quite against nature that [a base assassin]_{1967-a base assassin} should care for art or science , or any national progress . But the remembrance of several cases , among the dark annals [I]_0-i used to delight in , soon proved to [me]_0-i [my]_0-i error ; while the long experience of [a man]_{5384-a man} , versed from [his]_{5384-a man} youth in criminal ways , convicted [me]_0-i of presumption . To put [myself]_0-i more on a level with fraud , and stealth , and mystery , [I]_0-i did a thing for which [I]_0-i felt guilty to [myself]_0-i and [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} . [I]_0-i changed [my]_0-i name . But , in spite of [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} , [I]_0-i did not travel out of [the family]_{1254-the family} . [[My]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's second name was " [Valentine]_298-harry , "_{[731-my father]} taken from [[his]_{731-my father} mother]_{1066-his mother} . This name [I]_0-i assumed in a shorter form , becoming " [Clara Valence]_{416-clara valence} ; "_[0-i] it saved change of initials and a world of trouble , and [I]_0-i felt warmer in it , because it seemed to have been [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's . In [the neighbourhood]_{5329-the neighbourhood} [I]_0-i knew [no one]_{730-no one} except [Mrs. Elton]_{406-mrs. elton} , to whom ( as [I]_0-i grew intimate with [her]_{406-mrs. elton} ) [I]_0-i partly explained [my]_0-i reasons . As for [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was delighted at the change . [She]_{391-mrs. shelfer} said that [[her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} Uncle [John]_{411-miss vaughan}]_{1976-her uncle john} had christened [me]_0-i , that it sounded much prettier , and would always remind [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} of [Valentines]_{417-valentines} . Nevertheless [I]_0-i longed for the day when [I]_0-i might call [myself]_0-i " [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara "_[0-i] once more . By the time [I]_0-i was able to go about freely again and use [my]_0-i hand as of old , it was the middle of November . The first use [I]_0-i made of [my]_0-i pencil was to copy most carefully all that Inspector Cutting required . [He]_1977-he promised to keep these drawings , and indeed the whole matter , most jealously to [himself]_1977-he ; by which term [he]_1977-he meant , as [I]_0-i afterwards found , [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} and those to whom [he]_1977-he was bound to report . What [I]_0-i now wanted was money , to send an adroit inquirer throughout [the North of [Italy]_63-italy]_{1978-the north of italy} , and [other parts where [[my]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} 's shifting abode had been]_{1979-other parts where my guardian 's shifting abode had been} . [I]_0-i knew that [he]_1977-he dwelt awhile at [Pisa]_64-pisa , [Genoa]_65-genoa , and [Milan]_66-milan , also at [an obscure little village named "]_{6190-an obscure little village named "} [Calva]_67-calva , "_[1977-he] which [I]_0-i could not find in the maps . All [I]_0-i had learned of [his]_1977-he rovings was from the lessons [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} would give [me]_0-i sometimes , when [he]_{731-my father} used to say , " Now , [Tooty]_289-tooty , put [your]_289-tooty finger on [Uncle Edgar]_{310-uncle edgar} . "_{[731-my father]} To [every one]_{1982-every one} , but [myself]_0-i , it seemed a strange thing that after so many wanderings , [Mr. Edgar Vaughan]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} had brought [no valet]_{1983-no valet} , [major domo]_{1984-major domo} , or [courier]_1985-courier , [no dependant or retainer of any kind]_{1986-no dependant or retainer of any kind} , and not even [a foreign friend to [England]_9-england]_{1987-a foreign friend to england} , or at any rate to [Vaughan Park]_{5-vaughan park} . But now for the needful resources — the only chance of procuring [them]_1988-them lay in [my]_0-i young and partly self - tutored art . [I]_0-i braced [myself]_0-i with the remembrance , that while [none of [[my]_0-i family]_{1990-my family}]_{1989-none of my family} ever laid claim to genius , [the limner 's faculty]_{1991-the limner 's faculty} had never been wanting among [them]_{1990-my family} . Inferior gifts are often as heirlooms in the blood , though high original power follows no vein except its own . The latter none of [us]_1992-us ever possessed ; but taste and the knack of adaptation had seldom been alienated . Observation too , in a small way , and the love of nature seemed inborn in [us]_1992-us all . [[My]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's drawings were perfect , but for the one thing wanted ; and in sketches from outdoor nature that want was less perceived . [[My]_0-i grandfather]_{1994-my grandfather} had been known among [the few amateurs of the day]_{1995-the few amateurs of the day} as [a skilful colourist]_{1996-a skilful colourist} . As to habits of observation , a little tale handed down in [[our]_1992-us family]_{1997-our family} will show that [they]_{1997-our family} had existed in [one of its members]_{1998-one of its members} seven generations ago . In the autumn of 1651 , when [King Charles]_{419-king charles} was stealing along from [[Colonel Wyndham]_{420-colonel wyndham} 's house]_{1999-colonel wyndham 's house} to [the coast of [Hampshire]_68-hampshire and [Sussex]_69-sussex]_{2000-the coast of hampshire and sussex} , [the little band]_{2001-the little band} was overtaken by nightfall , somewhere near [the New Forest]_{2002-the new forest} . It was shortly after the narrow escape of [the King]_{5999-the king} from [that observant blacksmith]_{2004-that observant blacksmith} , who saw that [his]_{5999-the king} horse was shod with North - country iron . Though [he]_{5999-the king} was taking it easily , [[his]_{5999-the king} three trusty friends]_{2005-his three trusty friends} knew well that [a Roundhead Squadron]_{70-a roundhead squadron} was near , and that [his]_{5999-the king} last chance depended on speed and night travel . What could [they]_{2005-his three trusty friends} do now in the tempestuous darkness ? [They]_{2005-his three trusty friends} were in [a tract thinly inhabited , half woodland , half heather]_{2006-a tract thinly inhabited , half woodland , half heather} , and [the road]_{1630-the road} was hopelessly lost . No rain fell as yet it was true , and the wind was waiting for rain , but the lightning came fitfully from the horizon all round . [The King]_{419-king charles} alone was on horseback , [[his]_{5999-the king} three companions]_{2008-his three companions} afoot . [They]_{2005-his three trusty friends} stood still in doubt and terror , for [they]_{2005-his three trusty friends} could not tell north from south . Suddenly [Major Cecil Vaughan]_{421-major cecil vaughan} espied a faint gleam familiar to [him]_{421-major cecil vaughan} of old in [the waste land]_{2009-the waste land} round [Vaughan Park]_{5-vaughan park} . To an accurate eye there could be little doubt as to the source of the lambent light — flame it could not be called . It played in a pale yet constant stream on a certain kind of moss , known to [botanists]_{2010-botanists} , not to [me]_0-i , for [the waste lands]_{2011-the waste lands} have been reclaimed . This light is to be seen at no time , except when the air is surcharged with electricity . " Follow [me]_{421-major cecil vaughan} all ; [I]_{421-major cecil vaughan} know the way ! "_{[421-major cecil vaughan]} cried [Major Vaughan]_{421-major cecil vaughan} , right cheerily . " And if [you]_{421-major cecil vaughan} do , [man]_5770-man , "_{[5999-the king]} said [the King]_{5999-the king} , " [your]_{421-major cecil vaughan} eyes are made of [dashers]_6192-dashers . "_{[5999-the king]} [ What this meant , [I]_0-i used as [a child]_{782-a child} to wonder ; but now [I]_0-i know . ] For six dark miles [the Major]_{421-major cecil vaughan} led [them]_{2005-his three trusty friends} without default , until [they]_{2005-his three trusty friends} came to [a lonely heathman 's house]_{2014-a lonely heathman 's house} , where [they]_{2005-his three trusty friends} slept in safety . [He]_{421-major cecil vaughan} never told [them]_{2005-his three trusty friends} how [he]_{421-major cecil vaughan} did it ; being apt , [I]_0-i suppose , as [men of the second order]_{2015-men of the second order} are , to hug superior knowledge . But it was a most simple thing . That strangely sensitive moss follows the course of the sun , and therefore the lambent light can only be seen from the west . So all the time [he]_{421-major cecil vaughan} could see it — [the others]_{1636-the others} never saw it at all — [he]_{421-major cecil vaughan} knew that [they]_{1636-the others} were wending from west to east , which was [their]_{1636-the others} proper course . To return to [myself]_0-i . [I]_0-i put the finishing touch to a view of rock and [woodland scenery]_{2017-woodland scenery} , north - west of [[Tossil]_361-tossil 's [Barton]_361-tossil]_{5668-tossil 's barton} , and set off to try [my]_0-i fortune with it . [Some young ladies]_{1009-some young ladies} , born to [my]_0-i position , would have thought this errand one of much degradation , but it did not appear so to [me]_0-i . So [I]_0-i walked briskly — for [I]_0-i hate [an omnibus]_{2020-an omnibus} , and could ill afford [a cab]_{2021-a cab} — to [the shop of [a well - known dealer in pictures]_{2023-a well - known dealer in pictures} , not far from [the Haymarket]_{72-the haymarket}]_{2022-the shop of a well - known dealer in pictures , not far from the haymarket} . It was [my]_0-i first venture into [the heart of [London]_1-london]_{2024-the heart of london} , but [I]_0-i found the way very easily , having jotted it down from a map . The day was dark and drizzly ; [the pavement]_{2025-the pavement} grimy and slimy , and hillocked with mud at the joints of the flags . It was like walking on a peeled kneading - trough with dollops of paste left in it . Along the far reach of [the streets]_{2026-the streets} , and [the gardens]_{2027-the gardens} in [the squares]_{2028-the squares} , wisps of fog were crawling , and almost every one was coughing . [The dealer]_{2029-the dealer} received [me]_0-i politely . Too politely in fact : for it seemed to savour of kindness , which [I]_0-i did not want from [him]_{2029-the dealer} . What [I]_0-i wanted was business , and nothing else . [He]_{2029-the dealer} took [my]_0-i poor drawing , done only in water - colours , and set it up in a square place made perhaps for the purpose , where the brown flaw fell upon it from a skylight formed like a Devonshire chimney . Then [he]_{2029-the dealer} drew back and clasped [his]_{2029-the dealer} hands , then shaded [his]_{2029-the dealer} eyes with them , as if the light were too strong , whereas [the whole place]_{2030-the whole place} was like [a well turned upside down]_{2031-a well turned upside down} . [He]_{2029-the dealer} seemed uneasy because [I]_0-i did not care to follow [him]_{2029-the dealer} throughout all this little performance . " And now , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said , for [my]_0-i foolish pride was up , and [I]_0-i spoke as [I]_0-i would have done to [the porter at [[our]_2033-our lodge]_{973-our lodge}]_{2032-the porter at our lodge} , not with the least contempt — [I]_0-i was never so low as that — but with a long perspective , " Now , [Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} , it will soon be dark . What will [you]_{422-mr. oxgall} give [me]_0-i for it ? "_[0-i] " Allow [me]_0-i , [Miss]_6193-miss ; allow [me]_0-i one moment . The light is a leetle too strong . Ah , the mark of the brush comes out . Strong touch , but indiscreet . A year of study required . Shade too broad and massive . A want of tone in the background . Great feeling of nature , but inexperienced rendering . More mellowness desiderated . Full however of promise . All the faults on the right side . Most energetic handling ; no weak stippling here . But water - colours are down just now ; a deal depends on the weather and time of year . "_[0-i] " How so , [Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} ? "_{[2032-the porter at our lodge]} " Hot sun , and off they go . Fog and murk and frost , and the cry is all for oil . Excuse [me]_0-i , [Miss]_5433-miss — a thousand pardons , [your]_5433-miss name escaped [me]_0-i , [you]_5433-miss did not pronounce it strongly . "_[0-i] " [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} ! "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said , with an emphasis that startled [him]_{2032-the porter at our lodge} out of [his]_{2032-the porter at our lodge} mincing . " [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , [you]_{423-miss valence} think [me]_0-i very long . [All young ladies]_{6195-all young ladies} do . But [my]_0-i object is to do [them]_{6195-all young ladies} justice , and if [they]_{6195-all young ladies} show any power , to encourage [them]_{6195-all young ladies} . "_[0-i] " Thank [you]_{423-miss valence} , [I]_0-i want no encouragement . [I]_0-i know [I]_0-i can draw a little ; and there it is . The fog is thickening . [I]_0-i have far to go . [Your]_{423-miss valence} price , if [you]_{423-miss valence} please ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i went up many steps in [his]_{2032-the porter at our lodge} opinion , by reason of [my]_0-i curtness and independence . " [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , [I]_0-i will give [you]_{423-miss valence} three guineas , although no doubt [I]_0-i shall be [a loser]_{6196-a loser} . "_[0-i] " Then do n't give it , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i in pure simplicity . [I]_0-i went up several steps more . How utterly [men of [the world]_{798-the world}]_{2035-men of the world} are puzzled by plain truth ! " [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , if [you]_{423-miss valence} will forgive the observation , [I]_0-i would beg to remark that [your]_{423-miss valence} conversation as well as [your]_{423-miss valence} painting is crisp . [I]_0-i will take this little piece at all hazards , because it is full of character . Will [you]_{423-miss valence} forgive [me]_0-i for one word of advice ? "_[0-i] " There is nothing to forgive . [I]_0-i shall thank [you]_{423-miss valence} heartily for it . "_[0-i] " It is simply this:—The worst part of [your]_{423-miss valence} work is the perspective . And figure - drawing will be of service to [you]_{423-miss valence} . Study at [a school of design]_{6197-a school of design} , if [you]_{423-miss valence} have one near [you]_{423-miss valence} ; and be not above drawing stiff and unsightly objects . [Houses]_6198-houses are the true guides to perspective . [I]_0-i can not paint or even draw ; but [I]_0-i am so much with [great artists]_{6199-great artists} , that [I]_0-i know well how to advise . "_[0-i] " Thank [you]_{423-miss valence} . Can [you]_{423-miss valence} kindly suggest anything more ? "_[0-i] " Yes . [Your]_{423-miss valence} touch is here and there too harsh . Keep [your]_{423-miss valence} hand light though bold , and [your]_{423-miss valence} brush just a leetle wetter . But [you]_{423-miss valence} have the grand things quite unattainable , when not in the grain . [I]_0-i mean , of course , freedom of handling and [an artist]_{6200-an artist} 's eye . "_[0-i] " Do [you]_{423-miss valence} think [I]_0-i could do any good in oils ? "_[0-i] " [I]_2037-i have no doubt [you]_{423-miss valence} could , but not for a long time . If fame is [your]_{423-miss valence} object , take to oils . If speedy returns , stick to water - colours . Leave [me]_2037-i [your]_{423-miss valence} address , if [you]_{423-miss valence} have no objection ; and bring [me]_2037-i [your]_{423-miss valence} next work . If [I]_2037-i do well with this , [I]_2037-i will try to give [you]_{423-miss valence} more . "_[2037-i] [He]_2037-i took from a desk three new sovereigns and three new shillings , wrapped them neatly in silver paper , and handed them to [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i never imagined [I]_0-i could be so proud of money . Light of heart [I]_0-i left [the shop]_{2038-the shop} , not that [I]_0-i had made [my]_0-i fortune yet , but what was greater happiness , [I]_0-i thought [myself]_0-i likely to make it . Soon [I]_0-i perceived , with some alarm , how thick and murky the air had grown . The fog was stooping heavily down , and was now become like a wash of gamboge and lamp - black . [All the street]_{2039-all the street} - lamps were lit , though [they]_{2039-all the street} could not see one another , and [every shop - keeper]_{2040-every shop - keeper} had [[his]_{2040-every shop - keeper} little jet]_{2041-his little jet} . [The pavement]_{2025-the pavement} was no longer slippery , but sticky and dry ; and a cold , that pierced to the bones , was stealing along . Already it had begun to freeze ; and [I]_0-i , so familiar both with white and black frost , observed with no small interest the grey or fog - frost , which was new to [me]_0-i . How different from the pure whiteness when the stars are sparkling , and [the earth]_{1046-the earth} is gleaming , and the spirit of [man]_5770-man so buoyant ! This grey fog - frost is rather depressing to most natures , and a chilly damp creeps to the core of all things . Thick encrusting rime comes with it , and sometimes a freezing rain . Before [I]_0-i reached [the New Road]_{2045-the new road} , the fog had grown so dense and dark , that [I]_0-i was much inclined to take [a cab]_{2021-a cab} , for fear of losing [my]_0-i way . But [I]_0-i could not see one , and finding [myself]_0-i at last in [a main thoroughfare called [the Hampstead Road]_{2048-the hampstead road}]_{2047-a main thoroughfare called the hampstead road} , [I]_0-i walked on briskly and bravely till [I]_0-i reached [Camden Town]_{73-camden town} , when [I]_0-i knew what course to pursue . Slowly wending up [College Street]_{74-college street} , for [I]_0-i was getting tired and the fog thicker than ever , indeed every step seemed a thrust into an ochred wall , [I]_0-i heard a plaintive , and rather musical , voice chanting , much as follows : — " [Christian friends]_{6201-christian friends} , and [sisters in the Lord]_{6202-sisters in the lord} , [all who own a heart that feels for undeserved distress]_{6203-all who own a heart that feels for undeserved distress} , aid , [I]_0-i implore [you]_{6201-christian friends} , [a bereaved wife]_{6204-a bereaved wife} and [mother]_739-mother , who has this very moment [seven small lovely children]_{6206-seven small lovely children} , starving in [a garret]_{1413-a garret} , three of [them]_{6206-seven small lovely children} upon a bed of sickness , and [the inhuman landlord]_{6208-the inhuman landlord} , for the sake of a few shillings about to turn [them]_{6206-seven small lovely children} this bitter night into [the flinty streets]_{6209-the flinty streets} . [Christian friends]_{6201-christian friends} , may [you]_{6201-christian friends} never know what it is to be famished as [I]_0-i and [[my]_0-i seven darlings]_{6211-my seven darlings} are this very night , in the midst of plenty . From [Plymouth]_75-plymouth in [Devonshire]_4-devonshire , [I]_0-i walked two hundred and fifty miles afoot all the way to join [[my]_0-i beloved husband]_{6212-my beloved husband} in [London]_1-london . When [I]_0-i came to [this Christian city]_{6213-this christian city} — [Georgiana]_{424-georgiana} , pick up that halfpenny — [he]_{6212-my beloved husband} had been ordered off in [the transport ship Hippopotamus]_{6214-the transport ship hippopotamus} , to shed [his]_{6212-my beloved husband} blood for [his]_{6212-my beloved husband} Queen and [country]_6215-country ; and [I]_0-i who have known the smiles of plenty in [[my]_0-i happy rustic home]_{6216-my happy rustic home} , [I]_0-i am compelled for the sake of [[my]_0-i children]_{6217-my children} to the degradation of publicly soliciting alms . The smallest trifle , even an old pair of shoes or a left off garment will be received with the heartfelt gratitude of [the widow]_{1411-the widow} and [orphan]_6219-orphan . [[My]_0-i eldest child]_{6220-my eldest child} , [ma'am]_5765-ma'am , the oldest of seven , bad in the whooping cough . [Georgiana]_{424-georgiana} , curtsey to [the pretty lady]_{6222-the pretty lady} , and show [her]_2049-she [your]_{424-georgiana} broken chilblains . "_[0-i] " No thank [you]_{424-georgiana} , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said : [I]_0-i could just see [her]_2049-she through the fog . [She]_2049-she looked like one who had seen better days , and the thought of [my]_0-i own vicissitudes opened [my]_0-i heart towards [her]_2049-she . How could [I]_0-i show [my]_0-i gratitude better for the money [I]_0-i had just earned , than by bestowing a share in charity upon [worthy objects]_{2050-worthy objects} ? So [I]_0-i took out [my]_0-i purse , an elegant little French one given [me]_0-i by [dear mother]_{968-dear mother} , and placed [my]_0-i three new shillings in [the poor creature]_{2052-the poor creature} 's hand , as [she]_2049-she stood in the gutter . [She]_2049-she was overpowered with gratitude , and could not speak for a moment . Then [she]_2049-she came nearer , to bless [me]_0-i . " [Sweet lady]_{6223-sweet lady} , in the name of [seven famishing innocents , whom [you]_{6223-sweet lady} have saved from death this night]_{6224-seven famishing innocents , whom you have saved from death this night} , may [[He]_6225-he who guards [the fatherless]_{5786-the fatherless} and [the widow]_{1411-the widow} from [His]_6225-he mercy - seat above]_{6226-he who guards the fatherless and the widow from his mercy - seat above} , may [He]_6225-he shower [his]_6225-he richest blessings — "_[2049-she] Snap — [she]_2049-she had got [my]_0-i purse and was out of sight in the fog . [Georgiana]_{424-georgiana} 's red heels were the last thing [I]_0-i saw . For an instant [I]_0-i could not believe it ; but thought that the fog had affected [my]_0-i sight . Then [I]_0-i darted across [the road]_{1630-the road} , almost under the feet of a horse , and down [a place called " [Pratt Street]_{76-pratt street}]_{6229-a place called " pratt street} . "_[0-i] It was hopeless , utterly hopeless ; and not only [my]_0-i three pounds were gone , but half besides of all [I]_0-i had in [the world]_{798-the world} . [I]_0-i had taken that money with [me]_0-i , because [I]_0-i meant , if fortunate with [my]_0-i landscape , to buy a large box of colours in Rathbone - place ; but the fog had deterred [me]_0-i . [She]_2049-she had snatched [my]_0-i purse while [I]_0-i tried to clasp it , for [my]_0-i glove had first got in the way . All was gone , [dear mother]_{968-dear mother} 's gift , [my]_0-i first earnings , and all . More than all [I]_0-i felt sore at heart from the baseness of the robbery . Nothing is so bitterly grievous to youth as a blow to faith in one 's species . [I]_0-i am not ashamed to confess that feeling all alone in the fog , [I]_0-i leaned against some iron railings and cried away like [a child]_{782-a child} . [Child]_5440-child [I]_0-i was still at heart , despite all [my]_0-i trials and spirit ; and more so perhaps than [girls who have played out [their]_{2058-girls who have played out their childhood} childhood]_{2058-girls who have played out their childhood} . In the full flow of [my]_0-i passion , for [I]_0-i was actually sobbing aloud , ashamed of [myself]_0-i all the while , [I]_0-i felt an arm steal round [my]_0-i waist , and starting in fear of [another thief]_{2059-another thief} , confronted the loveliest face that human eyes ever looked on . With soft caresses , and sweetest smiles , it drew close to [my]_0-i own stormy and bitter countenance . " Are [you]_0-i better now , [dear]_5871-dear ? Oh do n't cry so . [You]_0-i 'll break [your]_0-i poor little heart . Do tell [me]_2060-her what it is , that 's [a dear]_{1467-a dear} . [I]_2060-her 'll do anything to help [you]_0-i . "_[2060-her] " [You]_0-i ca n't help [me]_0-i : "_[0-i] [I]_0-i exclaimed through [my]_0-i sobs : " [Nobody]_1116-nobody can help [me]_0-i ! [I]_0-i was born to ill luck , and shall have nothing else till [I]_0-i die . "_[0-i] " Do n't say so dear . [You]_0-i must n't think of it . [[My]_2060-her father]_{731-my father} , who never is wrong , says there 's no such thing as luck . "_[2060-her] " [I]_2060-her know that well enough . [People]_1132-people always say that who have it on [their]_1132-people side . "_[2060-her] " Ah , [I]_0-i never thought of that . But [I]_0-i hope [you]_0-i are wrong . But tell [me]_0-i , [dear]_5871-dear , what is the matter with [you]_0-i . [I]_0-i 'm sure [you]_0-i have done no harm , and [dear papa]_{6236-dear papa} says [no one]_{730-no one} can be unhappy who has not injured [any one]_{1178-any one} . "_[0-i] " Ca n't [they]_6239-they though ? [[Your]_0-i papa]_{6240-your papa} is [a moralist]_{6241-a moralist} . Now [I]_2060-her 'll just tell [you]_0-i facts . "_[2060-her] And to prove [my]_0-i point , [I]_0-i told [her]_2060-her of this new trouble , hinted at previous ones and [my]_0-i many great losses , of which money was the least . Even without the controversial spirit , [I]_0-i must have told [her]_2060-her all . There was no denying anything to such a winning loving face . " Dear [me]_2060-her ! "_[2060-her] [she]_2060-her cried very thoughtfully , with [her]_2060-her mites of hands out of [her]_2060-her muff — [she]_2060-her had the prettiest set of fur [I]_0-i ever beheld , and how it became her!—"Dear [me]_2060-her ! [she]_2060-her could n't have meant it , [I]_2060-her feel quite sure [she]_2060-her could n't . [You]_0-i 'll come to [my]_2060-her opinion when [you]_0-i have time to consider , [dear"—this]_{6242-dear"—this[2060-her]} was said so sagely that [I]_0-i could have kissed [her]_2060-her all over like a duck of [a baby]_{2061-a baby} . " To steal from [you]_0-i who had just given [her]_2060-her more than [you]_0-i could afford ! Now come with [me]_0-i , [dear]_5871-dear , [you]_0-i shall have all the money [I]_0-i have got ; though [I]_0-i do n't think it 's anything like the nine pounds [you]_0-i have lost , and [I]_0-i 'm sure it is not new money . Only [I]_0-i have n't got it with [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i never carry money . Do [you]_0-i know why , [dear]_5871-dear ? "_[0-i] " No . How should [I]_{2062-and the lively little thing} ? "_{[2062-and the lively little thing]} " Well , [I]_0-i do n't mind telling [you]_0-i . Because then [I]_0-i ca n't spend it , or give it away . [I]_0-i do n't care a bit about money . What good is it to [me]_0-i ? Why , [I]_0-i can never keep it , somehow or other . But [papa]_425-papa says if [I]_0-i can show five pounds on Christmas - day , [he]_425-papa will put five more on the top of it , and then do [you]_0-i know what [I]_0-i 'll do ? [I]_0-i 'll give away five , and spend the rest for [Pappy]_426-pappy and [Conrad]_427-conrad . "_[0-i] [And the lively little thing]_{2062-and the lively little thing} clapped [her]_{2062-and the lively little thing} hands at the prospect , quite forgetting that [she]_{2062-and the lively little thing} had just offered [me]_0-i all [[her]_{2062-and the lively little thing} store]_{2063-her store} . Presently this occurred to [her]_{2062-and the lively little thing} . " No . Now [I]_0-i come to think of it , [I]_0-i wo n't have the five pounds on Christmas - day . As [the girls at [the College]_{6246-the college}]_{6245-the girls at the college} say , [I]_0-i 'll just sell [the old Pappy]_426-pappy . That will be better fun still . [He]_426-pappy will find a good reason for it . [He]_426-pappy always does for everything . [You]_0-i shall have every bit of it . Come [home]_1102-home with [me]_0-i now , that 's a dear . [You]_0-i are better now , [you]_0-i know . Come , that 's a love . [I]_0-i am sure [I]_0-i shall love [you]_0-i with all [my]_0-i heart , and [you]_0-i are so terribly unlucky . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i yielded at once . [She]_{2062-and the lively little thing} was so loving and natural , [I]_0-i could not resist [her]_{2062-and the lively little thing} . [She]_{2062-and the lively little thing} broke upon [me]_0-i like soft sunshine through the fog , laughing , smiling , dancing , [her]_{2062-and the lively little thing} face all light and warmth , yet not a shallow light , but one that played up from the fount of tears . [Her]_{2062-and the lively little thing} deep rich violet eyes seldom used their dark lashes , except when [she]_{2062-and the lively little thing} was asleep . [She]_{2062-and the lively little thing} was life itself , quick , playful , loving life , feeling for and with all life around ; pitying , trusting , admiring all things ; yet true as the hearth to household ties . [I]_0-i never found another such nature : it was the perfection of maiden womanhood , even in its unreason . And therefore [nobody]_1116-nobody could resist [her]_{2062-and the lively little thing} . With [me]_0-i , of ten times [her]_{2062-and the lively little thing} strength of will , and power of mind — small though it be — [she]_{2062-and the lively little thing} could do in a moment exactly as [she]_{2062-and the lively little thing} liked ; [I]_0-i mean of course in trivial matters . It was impossible to be offended with [her]_{2062-and the lively little thing} . When [she]_{2062-and the lively little thing} had led [me]_0-i a few steps towards [[her]_{2062-and the lively little thing} home]_{2065-her home} — for [I]_0-i went with [her]_{2062-and the lively little thing} ( not , of course , to take [her]_{2062-and the lively little thing} money , but to see [her]_{2062-and the lively little thing} safe ) , [she]_{2062-and the lively little thing} turned round suddenly : — " Oh [I]_2066-i forgot , [dear]_5871-dear ; [I]_2066-i must not take [you]_5871-dear to [[our]_6249-our house]_{1160-our house} . [We]_6249-our have had new orders . But where do [you]_5871-dear live ? [I]_2066-i will bring [you]_5871-dear [my]_2066-i little bag to - morrow . [They]_6251-they wo n't let [me]_2066-i out again to - night . Now [I]_2066-i know [you]_5871-dear will oblige [me]_2066-i . [I]_2066-i am so sorry that [I]_2066-i must n't see [you]_5871-dear safe [home]_1102-home , [dear]_5871-dear . "_[2066-i] This [she]_2066-i said with the finest air of protection imaginable . [I]_0-i gave [her]_2066-i [my]_0-i name and address , and asked for [hers]_2066-i . " [My]_0-i name is [Isola Ross]_428-isola , [I]_0-i am seventeen and a half , and [[my]_0-i papa]_{6254-my papa} is Professor at [the College]_{6246-the college} . [I]_0-i ran away from old [Cora]_429-cora . It seemed such fun to be all alone in the fog . What trouble [I]_0-i shall get into ! But [they]_6256-they ca n't be angry with [me]_0-i long . Kiss [me]_0-i , [darling]_6257-darling . Mind , to - morrow ! "_[0-i] Off [she]_2066-i danced through the fog ; and [I]_0-i went sadly [home]_1102-home , yet thinking more of [her]_2066-i , than of [my]_0-i serious and vexatious loss . [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} , upon the first tidings of the robbery , came at once , and assured [me]_0-i that [he]_{412-inspector cutting} knew the " party "_{[412-inspector cutting]} well , and wanted [her]_2066-i for several other plants , and crafty as [she]_2066-i was ( " leary "_{[412-inspector cutting]} was the elegant word [he]_{412-inspector cutting} used ) [he]_{412-inspector cutting} was sure to be down upon [her]_2066-i in the course of a very short time . [Isola Ross]_428-isola , to [my]_0-i great surprise , did not come the next day , nor even the day after ; so [I]_0-i set out to look for [her]_2066-i , at the same time wondering at [myself]_0-i for doing so . Knowing that [College Street]_{74-college street} must take [its]_{74-college street} name from [some academic building in or near [it]_{74-college street}]_{2068-some academic building in or near it} , [I]_0-i concluded of course that there [I]_0-i should find [Professor Ross]_{430-professor ross} and [[my]_0-i lovely new friend]_{2069-my lovely new friend} . So without consulting [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , who would have chattered for an hour , away [I]_0-i went one tine frosty morning to ask about [the College]_{6246-the college} . [I]_0-i found that [a low unsightly building , which [I]_0-i had often passed , near the bottom of [the street]_{6090-the street}]_{2071-a low unsightly building , which i had often passed , near the bottom of the street} , was [the only College there]_{2073-the only college there} ; so [I]_0-i entered [a small quadrangle]_{2074-a small quadrangle} , to make further inquiries . [The first person]_{2075-the first person} [I]_0-i saw was [a young man dressed like one of [[my]_0-i father 's grooms]_{2077-my father 's grooms}]_{2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms} , and cracking a long whip and whistling . [He]_{2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms} had a brilliant scarlet neckcloth , green sporting coat , and black boots up to [his]_{2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms} knees . [I]_0-i studied [him]_{2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms} for a moment because it struck [me]_0-i that [he]_{2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms} would look well in a foreground , when toned down a little , as water colours would render [him]_{2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms} . [He]_{2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms} appreciated [my]_0-i attention , and seemed proud of it . " Now , [Polly]_431-polly , what can [I]_{2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms} do for [you]_431-polly , [dear]_5871-dear ? "_{[2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms]} [He]_{2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms} must have been three parts drunk , or [he]_{2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms} would never have dared to address [me]_0-i so . Of course [I]_0-i made no answer , but walked on . [He]_{2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms} cracked [his]_{2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms} whip like a pistol , to startle [me]_0-i . " [Splendid filly]_{6259-splendid filly} , "_{[2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms]} [I]_0-i heard [him]_{2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms} mutter , " but cussed high action . "_{[2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms]} What [he]_{2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms} meant [I]_0-i do not know or care . The next [I]_0-i met was [a fussy little man , dressed all in brown , who smelt of musty hay]_{2078-a fussy little man , dressed all in brown , who smelt of musty hay} . " Will [you]_{2076-a young man dressed like one of my father 's grooms} kindly tell [me]_0-i , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i asked , " where to find [Professor Ross]_{430-professor ross} ? ' "_{[430-professor ross]} [Ross]_{430-professor ross} , [Ross]_{430-professor ross} ! Do n't know the name . [No Ross]_{2079-no ross} about here . What 's [he]_{430-professor ross} Professor of ? " "_{[430-professor ross]} That [I]_0-i was not told . But it is something [the young ladies]_{2080-the young ladies} study . " "_{[2080-the young ladies]} [No young ladies]_{2081-no young ladies} about [here]_846-here . But [I]_0-i see [you]_0-i have brought [[your]_0-i dear]_{2083-your dear} mamma 's lapdog . Take it out of the bag . Let [me]_0-i look at it . " "_[0-i] Is not this [the College]_{6246-the college} ? " "_[0-i] Yes to be sure . [The best College in [London]_1-london]_{2085-the best college in london} . Quick , let [me]_0-i see the dog . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i have no dog , [sir]_5380-sir . [I]_0-i have made some mistake . " "_[0-i] Then [you]_0-i have got a pony . [Pet]_432-pet over - fed . [Shetland breed]_{2087-shetland breed} . " "_{[2087-shetland breed]} No indeed . Nothing except [myself]_0-i ; and [I]_0-i am looking for [Miss Ross]_428-isola . " "_[428-isola] [Young lady]_{1872-young lady} , [you]_0-i have made a very great mistake . [You]_0-i have kept [me]_0-i five minutes from a lecture on the navicular disease . And [my]_0-i practice is controverted by [an upstart youth from [the country]_{1831-the country}]_{2089-an upstart youth from the country} . [I]_0-i am in search of [authorities]_{2091-authorities} . " And off [he]_0-i darted , [I]_{2091-authorities} suppose to [the library]_{988-the library} . It was clear that [I]_{2091-authorities} had made some mistake , so [I]_{2091-authorities} found [my]_{2091-authorities} way back to [the street]_{6090-the street} , and asked in [the nearest shop]_{6262-the nearest shop} what building it was that [I]_{2091-authorities} had just left . "_{[2091-authorities]} Oh , [them]_2092-they 's [the weterans]_{2093-the weterans} , " said [the woman]_{822-the woman} , "_[2092-they] and a precious set [they]_2092-they be ! " "_[2092-they] Why , [they]_2092-they did not look like [soldiers]_{2094-soldiers} . " "_[2092-they] No , no , [Miss. Weterans]_342-miss. , where [they]_2092-they takes in all the sick horses and dogs . And very clever [they]_2092-they are , [I]_0-i have heard say . " "_[2092-they] And where is [the College]_{6246-the college} where [the young ladies]_{2080-the young ladies} are ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do n't know of [no other College nearer than [High Street]_{77-high street}]_{2097-no other college nearer than high street} , where [the boys]_{2098-the boys} wear flat caps . But there 's [[a girls]_{2099-a girls} ' school down [the road]_{1630-the road}]_{2100-a girls ' school down the road} . " "_{[2099-a girls]} [I]_0-i do n't want [a school]_{2102-a school} . [I]_0-i want [a College where [young ladies]_{2104-young ladies} go]_{2103-a college where young ladies go} . " "_[0-i] Then [I]_0-i ca nt help [you]_0-i , [Miss.]_2105-miss. " And back [I]_2105-miss. went to consult [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . "_[2105-miss.] Bless [my]_0-i soul , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , " cried [the little woman]_{6264-the little woman} , out of breath with amazement , "_{[423-miss valence]} have [you]_{423-miss valence} been among [them niggers]_{2106-them niggers} ? It 's a mercy [they]_{2106-them niggers} did n't skin and stuff [you]_{423-miss valence} . What do [you]_{423-miss valence} think now [they]_{2106-them niggers} did to [[my]_0-i old [Tom]_{379-tom gundry}]_{2107-my old tom} ? " "_{[423-miss valence]} How can [I]_0-i guess , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ? " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} No , no , to be sure not . [I]_0-i forgot , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} . Why , [they]_{2106-them niggers} knowed [him]_{379-tom gundry} well it seems , because [he]_{379-tom gundry} had been [there]_1114-there in dear [Miss Minto]_{405-miss minto} 's time , for a salmon bone that had got crossways in [his]_{379-tom gundry} oesop , so [they]_{2106-them niggers} said at least , but [they]_{2106-them niggers} are [the biggest liars]_{2110-the biggest liars} — so only a year ago come next Boxing - day , here comes to the door half a dozen of [them]_{2106-them niggers} , [bus - cad]_{2111-bus - cad} and [coachman]_{2112-coachman} all in one , all looking as grave as [judges]_2113-judges . When [I]_0-i went to the door [they]_{2106-them niggers} all pulled [their]_{2106-them niggers} hats off , as if [I]_0-i had been [the Queen]_{1427-the queen} at the very least . ' What can [I]_0-i do for [you]_{2106-them niggers} , [[my]_0-i good friends]_{2115-my good friends} ? ' says [I]_0-i ; for [Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was out of the way , and catch [me]_0-i letting [them]_{2106-them niggers} in for all [their]_{2106-them niggers} politeness . No , no , thank [you]_{2106-them niggers} . ' [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , ' says [the biggest of [them]_{2106-them niggers}]_{2116-the biggest of them} , [a lantern - jawed young fellow with covers over [his]_{2116-the biggest of them} pockets]_{2117-a lantern - jawed young fellow with covers over his pockets} , ' [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} are possessed of a most remarkable cat . An animal , [ma'am , of unparalleled cemetery and organic dewelopment]_{2118-ma'am , of unparalleled cemetery and organic dewelopment} . [[Our]_2119-our Professor]_{2120-our professor} , [ma'am]_5765-ma'am , is delivering a course of lectures on the Canonical Heapatightness of [the Hirumbillycuss]_{433-the hirumbillycuss} . " "_[5765-ma'am] Well done , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ! What a memory [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} must have ! " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Pretty well , [Miss]_2122-miss , pretty well . Particular for long words , when [I]_0-i likes the sound of them . ' Well [sir]_5380-sir , ' [I]_0-i says , feeling rather taken aback , ' thank [God]_303-god [I]_0-i have n't got it . ' ' No , [ma'am]_5765-ma'am , ' says [he]_5765-ma'am , ' [your]_{391-mrs. shelfer} blooming countenance entirely negatives any such dyingnoses . But [the Professor]_{2125-the professor} , in passing the other morning , observed some symptoms of it in [your]_{391-mrs. shelfer} magnificent cat , for whom [he]_{2125-the professor} entertains the most sincere attachment , and whom [he]_{2125-the professor} will cure for [our]_2119-our advancement and edification upon the lecture table . And now , [ma'am]_5765-ma'am , [Professor Sallenders]_{434-professor sallenders} desires [his]_{434-professor sallenders} most respectful compliments , and will [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} allow [us]_2119-our to take that dear good cat to be cured . [The Professor]_{2125-the professor} was instrumental once in preserving [his]_{2125-the professor} honoured existence , therefore [he]_{2125-the professor} feels assured that [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} will not now refuse [him]_{2125-the professor} . ' Well [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} see , [Miss]_2128-miss , [I]_0-i did n't half like to let [him]_{2125-the professor} go , but [I]_0-i was afraid to offend [the Professor]_{2125-the professor} , because of all [my]_0-i animals , for [I]_0-i knew that [he]_{2125-the professor} could put a blight upon them , birds and all , if [he]_{2125-the professor} chose . [Old Tom]_{435-old tom} was lying roasting [his]_{435-old tom} back again the fender , the same as [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} see [him]_{435-old tom} now , [poor soul]_{2130-poor soul} ; so [I]_0-i catched [him]_{435-old tom} up and put [him]_{435-old tom} in a double covered basket , with a bit of flannel over [him]_{435-old tom} , because the weather was cold ; and [he]_{435-old tom} was so clever , would [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} believe it , [he]_{435-old tom} put up [his]_{435-old tom} old paws to fight [me]_0-i , [he]_{435-old tom} knew [he]_{435-old tom} was going to mischief , and that turned [me]_0-i rather . ' Now will [you]_{2125-the professor} promise to bring [him]_{435-old tom} back safe ? ' [I]_0-i says . ' [Ma'am]_436-ma'am , ' says [the lantern - jawed young man]_{2131-the lantern - jawed young man} , bowing over [his]_{2131-the lantern - jawed young man} heart , and as serious as a pulpit , ' [Ma'am]_436-ma'am , in less than an hour . Rely upon the honour of [Weteran Arian Gent]_{437-weteran arian gent} . " "_{[437-weteran arian gent]} Well , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [I]_0-i am astonished . Even [I]_0-i should never have been so silly . [Poor old Tom]_{435-old tom} among [the Philistines]_{438-the philistines} ! " "_[2132-miss] Well , [Miss]_2132-miss , [I]_0-i began to feel very uneasy directly [they]_2133-they was gone . [I]_0-i thought [they]_2133-they looked back so queerly , and [old Tom]_{435-old tom} was mewing so dreadful in the basket . Presently [I]_0-i began to hear a mewing out of the cupboard , and a mewing out of the clock , and even out of the dripping - pan . So [I]_0-i put on [my]_0-i bonnet as quick as [I]_0-i could , and ran right away to [the College]_{6246-the college} , and somehow or other by the time [I]_0-i got [there]_1114-there , [I]_0-i was in a fright all over . As good luck would have it , [the man]_{5533-the man} was at the gate ; [a nice respectable married man]_{2137-a nice respectable married man} , and [a friend of [Charley]_{419-king charles} 's]_{2138-a friend of charley 's} . ' [Curbs]_439-curbs , ' [I]_0-i says , ' where is [Professor Sallenders]_{434-professor sallenders} ? ' ' Down in [the country]_{1831-the country} , ' says [he]_{434-professor sallenders} , ' since last Friday . [He]_{434-professor sallenders} never stops here at Christmas , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [he]_{434-professor sallenders} 's a deal too knowing for that . ' [My]_0-i heart went pop , [Miss]_2140-miss , like an oyster shell in the fire . [I]_0-i held on by the door , and [I]_0-i thought it was all up with [me]_0-i . ' Do n't take on so , [Missus]_2141-missus , ' says [Curbs]_439-curbs , ' if any of [[your]_2141-missus museum]_{2142-your museum} is ill , there 's [half a dozen clever young coves in [the operating room]_{2144-the operating room}]_{2143-half a dozen clever young coves in the operating room} over there , only [they]_{2143-half a dozen clever young coves in the operating room} 're busy just now , cutting up a big black cat . [My]_0-i eyes , how [he]_{434-professor sallenders} did squeal ! ' [I]_0-i screamed out and ran — [Curbs]_439-curbs thought [I]_0-i was mad , and [he]_{434-professor sallenders} was not far out — bang went the door before [me]_0-i , and there on the table , with [the lantern - jawed young man]_{2131-the lantern - jawed young man} flourishing a big knife over [him]_{434-professor sallenders} , there lay [[my]_0-i precious old Tom]_{2146-my precious old tom} strapped down on [his]_{2146-my precious old tom} back , with [his]_{2146-my precious old tom} mouth tied up in white tape , and leather gloves over [his]_{2146-my precious old tom} feet , and sticks trussed across [him]_{2146-my precious old tom} the same as a roasting rabbit , and a streak of white all along [his]_{2146-my precious old tom} blessed stomach — [you]_2147-you know , [Miss]_2148-miss , [he]_{2146-my precious old tom} had n't got one white hair by rights — where [the niggers]_{2149-the niggers} had shaved and floured [him]_{2146-my precious old tom} , to see what [they]_{2149-the niggers} were about . [He]_{2146-my precious old tom} turned up [his]_{2146-my precious old tom} dear old eyes when [he]_{2146-my precious old tom} saw [me]_0-i ; it would have made [you]_2147-you cry , and [he]_{2146-my precious old tom} tried to speak . Oh [[you]_2147-you precious old soul]_{2150-you precious old soul} , did n't [I]_0-i scatter [them]_{2149-the niggers} right and left ? [I]_0-i scratched that lantern - jawed hypocrite 's face till [I]_0-i gave [him]_{2146-my precious old tom} the hirumbillycuss and hirumtommycuss too , [I]_0-i expect . [I]_0-i called [a policeman]_{2151-a policeman} in , and there was n't one of [them]_{2149-the niggers} finished [his]_{2146-my precious old tom} Christmas in [London]_1-london . But [the poor old soul]_{2152-the poor old soul} has never been the same cat since . The anxiety [he]_{2146-my precious old tom} was in , turned [his]_{2146-my precious old tom} hair white on both sides of [his]_{2146-my precious old tom} heart and all round the backs of [his]_{2146-my precious old tom} ears . [He]_{2146-my precious old tom} would n't come to the door , [he]_{2146-my precious old tom} shook so , at the call of [the cat's - meat man]_{2153-the cat's - meat man} for better than a month , and [he]_{2146-my precious old tom} wo n't look at it now , while there 's a skewer in it . " [The poor little woman]_{6265-the poor little woman} was crying with pity and rage . [Old Tom]_{435-old tom} looked up all the time as if [he]_{435-old tom} knew all [she]_{6265-the poor little woman} said , and then jumped on [her]_{6265-the poor little woman} lap , and showed [his]_{435-old tom} paws , and purred . Meanwhile , a change had come over [my]_{2146-my precious old tom} intentions . Perhaps all the rudeness [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} had met with that day had called [my]_{2146-my precious old tom} pride into arms . At any rate , much as [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} liked [pretty Isola]_428-isola , and much as [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} longed for [her]_428-isola fresh warm kindness , [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} now resolved to wait until [she]_428-isola should choose to seek [me]_{2146-my precious old tom} . So [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} did not even ask [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} whether [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} knew [the College where [the Professor]_{2125-the professor} lectured]_{6266-the college where the professor lectured} . What were love and warm young hearts to [me]_{2146-my precious old tom} ? [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} deserved such a rebuff for swerving so from [my]_{2146-my precious old tom} duty . Now [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} would give all [my]_{2146-my precious old tom} thoughts to the art , whence only could spring any hope of attaining [my]_{2146-my precious old tom} end , and the very next day [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} would follow [the picture - dealer]_{6268-the picture - dealer} 's advice . There was [a school of design]_{6197-a school of design} not very far from [[my]_{2146-my precious old tom} lodgings]_{6270-my lodgings} , and thither [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} went the next morning . [[My]_{2146-my precious old tom} landlady]_{6074-my landlady} offered to come with [me]_{2146-my precious old tom} and see [me]_{2146-my precious old tom} safe in [the room]_{823-the room} ; and of course [her]_{6074-my landlady} Charley , who seemed to know [everybody]_{6273-everybody} , knew [some one even there]_{6274-some one even there} , to whom [she]_{6074-my landlady} kindly promised to recommend [me]_{2146-my precious old tom} . So [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} gladly accepted [her]_{6074-my landlady} offer . In some respects , [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} was more remarkable than even [[his]_{413-mr. shelfer} wife]_{789-his wife} . [He]_{413-mr. shelfer} was so shy , that on the rare occasions when [we]_6276-we met , [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} never could get [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} to look at [me]_{2146-my precious old tom} , except once when [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} was drunk ; yet by some mysterious process [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} seemed to know everything about [me]_{2146-my precious old tom} — the colour of [my]_{2146-my precious old tom} eyes , the arrangement of [my]_{2146-my precious old tom} hair , the dresses [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} put on , the spirits [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} was in — a great deal more , in fact , than [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} ever cared to know . So that sometimes [my]_{2146-my precious old tom} self - knowledge was largely increased , through [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} observations repeated by [[his]_{413-mr. shelfer} wife]_{789-his wife} . But [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} was not allowed to flatter [myself]_{2146-my precious old tom} that this resulted from any especial interest ; for [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} seemed to possess an equal acquaintance with the affairs of [all [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} neighbours]_{6278-all his neighbours} . Mention any one anywhere around , and [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} , without seeming to mean it , would describe [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} or [her]_6279-her unmistakably in half a dozen words . [He]_{413-mr. shelfer} never praised or blamed , [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} simply identified . [He]_{413-mr. shelfer} must have seen more with a blink of [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} eye , than [most people]_{6280-most people} see in five minutes of gazing . [He]_{413-mr. shelfer} seldom brought [any one]_{1178-any one} [home]_1102-home with [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} , though [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} often promised to do so ; [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} never seemed to indulge in gossip , at any rate not with [[his]_{413-mr. shelfer} wife]_{789-his wife} . "_{[2146-my precious old tom]} Cut it short , [old ' ooman]_{6180-old ' ooman} , " was all the encouragement [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} ever gave [her]_{789-his wife} in that way . When [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} was at [home]_1102-home — a thing of rare occurrence — [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} sat with [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} head down and a long pipe in [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} mouth ; [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} walked in [the street]_{6090-the street} with [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} head down , and never accosted [any one]_{1178-any one} . Where did [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} get all [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} knowledge ? [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} doubt if there were [a public - house in [London]_1-london]_{6287-a public - house in london} , but what [Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} knew at the furthest [a cousin of [the landlord]_{6289-the landlord}]_{6288-a cousin of the landlord} , and [a brother of one of [the potboys]_{6291-the potboys}]_{6290-a brother of one of the potboys} . "_{[2146-my precious old tom]} [Charley Shelfer]_395-charley " [everybody]_{6273-everybody} called [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} , and [everybody]_{6273-everybody} spoke of [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} , not with distinguished respect , but with a kindly feeling . [His]_{413-mr. shelfer} luck was proverbial ; [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} had [a room full of things which [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} had won at raffles]_{6294-a room full of things which he had won at raffles} , and [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} was in constant requisition to throw for [less fortunate people]_{6295-less fortunate people} . As for [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} occupation — [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} called [himself]_{413-mr. shelfer} [a nurseryman]_{6296-a nurseryman} , but [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} had [no nursery that [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} could discover]_{6297-no nursery that i could discover} . [He]_{413-mr. shelfer} received a pound a week for looking after [the garden]_{1203-the garden} in [the great square]_{6299-the great square} ; but when [any one]_{1178-any one} came for [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} , [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} was never to be found [there]_1114-there . [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} think [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} spent most of [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} time in jobbing about , and "_{[2146-my precious old tom]} swopping " ( as [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} called it ) among [[his]_{413-mr. shelfer} brother gardeners]_{6302-his brother gardeners} . Sometimes , [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} brought home beautiful plants , perfectly lovely flowers , unknown to [me]_{2146-my precious old tom} even by name , and many of these [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} presented to [me]_{2146-my precious old tom} by [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's hands . Every Sunday morning [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} was up before the daylight , and away for an excursion , or rather an incursion , through [the Hampstead]_{6303-the hampstead} , [Highgate]_78-highgate , and [Holloway]_79-holloway district . From [these raids]_{6304-these raids} [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} used to return as [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} came [home]_1102-home from the morning service . By the way , if [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} had wanted to puzzle [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} and find a blank in [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} universal acquaintance , the best chance would have been to ask [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} about [the clergyman]_{6306-the clergyman} . [He]_{413-mr. shelfer} never gave [the pew - openers]_{6307-the pew - openers} any trouble , neither indeed did [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , who called [herself]_{391-mrs. shelfer} [a Catholic]_{6308-a catholic} ; but [the lively little woman]_{6309-the lively little woman} 's chiefest terror was death , and [a parson to [her]_{6309-the lively little woman}]_{6310-a parson to her} was always [an undertaker]_{6311-an undertaker} . If [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} had not spent the Sunday morning quite so well as [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} had , at any rate [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} had not wasted [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} time . [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} think [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} must have robbed hen - roosts and [allotment grounds]_{6312-allotment grounds} ; and yet [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} was too respectable for that . But whence and how could [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} ever have come by the gipsey collection [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} always produced from [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} hat , from [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} countless pockets , from [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} red cotton handkerchief , every Sunday at 1 P.M. ? Eggs , chickens , mushrooms , sticks of horseradish and celery , misletoe - thrushes , cucumbers , cabbages red and white , rabbits , watercress , Aylesbury ducks — [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} can not remember one quarter of [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} manifold forage . All [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} can say is , that if these things are to be found by the side of [the road]_{1630-the road} near [London]_1-london , [Middlesex]_80-middlesex is [a far better field]_{6314-a far better field} for [the student of natural history]_{6315-the student of natural history} than [Gloucestershire]_{3-gloucestershire} , or even beloved [Devon]_24-devon . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} said it was all [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} luck ; but [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} hardly think it could have rained Aylesbury ducks , even for [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} . All the time [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} was extracting from [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} recesses [this multifarious store]_{6316-this multifarious store} , [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} never once smiled , or showed any symptoms of triumph , but gravely went through the whole , as if a simple duty . How was it [such a man]_{6317-such a man} had not made [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} fortune ? Because [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} had an incurable habit of "_{[2146-my precious old tom]} backing bills " for [any one who asked [him]_{413-mr. shelfer}]_{6318-any one who asked him} ; and hence [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} was always in trouble . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} and [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} were admitted readily into [the school of design]_{6319-the school of design} . [It]_{6319-the school of design} was [a long low room]_{6320-a long low room} , very badly lighted , and fitted up for the time until a better could be provided . [It]_{6319-the school of design} looked very cold and comfortless ; forms instead of chairs , and desks like [a parish school]_{6321-a parish school} . The whitewashed walls were hung with diagrams , sections , tracings , reductions , most of them stiff and ugly , but no doubt instructive . At one end was a raised platform , reserved for [lecturers]_{6322-lecturers} and [the higher powers]_{6323-the higher powers} . Shelves round the wall were filled with casts and models , and books of instruction were to be had out of cupboards . Of course [we]_6324-we were expected to bring [our]_6324-we own materials , and a code of rules was exhibited . [The more advanced students]_{6325-the more advanced students} were permitted to tender any work of [their]_{6325-the more advanced students} own which might be of service to [the neophytes]_{6326-the neophytes} . From [no one there]_{6327-no one there} did [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} ever receive any insolence . At first , [the young artists]_{6328-the young artists} used to look at [me]_{2146-my precious old tom} rather hard , but [my]_{2146-my precious old tom} reserved and distant air was quite enough to discourage [them]_{6328-the young artists} . After the introduction , which [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} accomplished in very great style , [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} dismissed [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , and set to in earnest to pore once more over the rudiments of perspective . One simple truth as to the vanishing point struck [me]_{2146-my precious old tom} at once . [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} was amazed that [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} had never perceived it before . It was not set forth in the book [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} was studying ; but it was the sole key to all [my]_{2146-my precious old tom} errors of distance . At once [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} closed the book ; upon that one subject [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} wanted no more instruction , [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} had caught the focus of truth . Books , like bad glass , would only refract [my]_{2146-my precious old tom} perception . All [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} wanted now was practice and adaptation of the eye . Strange as it seemed to [me]_{2146-my precious old tom} then , [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} could draw no more that day . [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} was so overcome at first sight by the simple beauty of truth , mathematical yet poetical truth , that error and obscurity ( for there is a balance in all things ) had their revenge for a while on [my]_{2146-my precious old tom} brain . But the truth , once seen , could never be lost again . Thenceforth there were few higher penances for [me]_{2146-my precious old tom} , in a small way , than to look at one of [my]_{2146-my precious old tom} early drawings . When [my]_{2146-my precious old tom} brain was clear , [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} returned to do a real day 's work . For the cups , and vases , and plates , and things of "_{[2146-my precious old tom]} æsthetic art " ( as [they]_6329-they chose to call it ) , [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} did not care at all ; but the copies and models and figures were most useful to [me]_{2146-my precious old tom} . Unless [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} am much mistaken , [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} made more advance in a fortnight there , than [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} had in any year of [my]_{2146-my precious old tom} life before . With [my]_{2146-my precious old tom} usual perseverance — if [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} have no other virtue , [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} have that — [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} worked away to correct [my]_{2146-my precious old tom} many shortcomings ; not even indulging ( much as [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} wanted the money ) in any attempts at a finished drawing , until [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} felt sure that all [my]_{2146-my precious old tom} foundations were thoroughly laid and set . "_{[2146-my precious old tom]} And now , " [I]_{2146-my precious old tom} cried towards [Christmas]_{326-christmas} , "_{[2146-my precious old tom]} now for [Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} ; if [I]_0-i do n't astonish [him]_{422-mr. oxgall} this time , [my]_0-i name is not [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara ! " It did [me]_293-clara good when [I]_293-clara was alone , to call [myself]_293-clara by [my]_293-clara own name , and [my]_293-clara right to be [[my]_293-clara father 's daughter]_{6330-my father 's daughter} . Meanwhile old Christmas was come , and all [I]_293-clara was worth in [the world]_{798-the world} was change for half a sovereign . True , [[my]_293-clara lodgings]_{6270-my lodgings} were paid for , a fortnight in advance , because [good Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} wanted to treat all [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} pets to a Christmas dinner ; but as for [my]_293-clara own Christmas dinner — though [I]_293-clara ca n't say [I]_293-clara cared much for it — if [I]_293-clara got one at all , it must be upon credit , since [my]_293-clara drawing would not be finished for another week . Credit , of course , [I]_293-clara would not think of . Any day in the week or year , [I]_293-clara would rather starve than owe money . However , [I]_293-clara was not going to cry about plum - pudding , though once or twice it made [me]_293-clara hungry to think of the dinner in [the great hall at [Vaughan Park]_{5-vaughan park}]_{6333-the great hall at vaughan park} on the Christmas eve ; a much more elaborate matter in the old time , than the meal served in [the dining - room]_{6334-the dining - room} next day . Now [I]_293-clara sat in [[my]_293-clara little room]_{6335-my little room} this dreary Christmas eve ; and do what [I]_293-clara would , [I]_293-clara could not help thinking a little . It was a gusty evening , cold and damp , with scuds of sleet and snow , as yet it had not made up [its]_6336-its mind whether to freeze or thaw . Nevertheless , [the streets]_{2026-the streets} were full of merry laughing parties , proud of [their]_{2026-the streets} bargains for the Christmas cheer ; and as [they]_{2026-the streets} went by , the misletoe and the holly glistened in the flickering gaslight . For old recollection 's sake , [I]_293-clara had made believe to dress [[my]_293-clara little room]_{6335-my little room} with some few sprigs of laurel and unberried holly ; the sceptre branch , all cobbed with coral beads , was too expensive for [me]_293-clara . Misletoe [I]_293-clara wanted not . Who was there now to kiss [me]_293-clara ? From the sheer craving of human nature for a word of kindness , [I]_293-clara had called , that afternoon , upon [Mrs. Elton]_{406-mrs. elton} . But good as [she]_{406-mrs. elton} was and sweet to [me]_293-clara , [she]_{406-mrs. elton} had near [relatives]_{6339-relatives} coming ; and [I]_293-clara saw or fancied , that [I]_293-clara should be in the way . Yet [I]_293-clara thought that [[her]_{406-mrs. elton} mother]_{6340-her mother} heart yearned toward [me]_293-clara as [she]_{406-mrs. elton} said "_[293-clara] Good bye , " and showed [me]_293-clara out by the Christmas tree , all trembling to be lighted . Now [I]_293-clara sat alone and lonely by the flickering of three pennyworth of wood which [I]_293-clara had bought recklessly for the sake of the big ash - tree that used to glow with the lichen peeling round it on the old Christmas hearth , where [I]_293-clara was believed [the heiress]_{6341-the heiress} . The little spark and sputter of [my]_293-clara sallow billet ( chopped by [the poor old people]_{6342-the poor old people} at [[St. Pancras]_{81-st. pancras} workhouse]_{6343-st. pancras workhouse} ) led [me]_293-clara back through eight sad years to the last merry time when [[my]_293-clara father]_{731-my father} was keeping [his]_{731-my father} latest Christmas , and [I]_293-clara [his]_{731-my father} pride and hope was prouder than all , at being just ten years old . How [he]_{731-my father} carved and ladled the gravy ; how [he]_{731-my father} flourished [his]_{731-my father} knife and fork with a joke all hot for every one ; how [he]_{731-my father} smiled when [the thrice - helped farmers]_{6345-the thrice - helped farmers} sent for another slice , and laughed when [the crow - boy]_{6346-the crow - boy} was nearly choked with plum - pudding ; how [he]_{731-my father} patted [me]_293-clara on the head and caught [me]_293-clara for a kiss , when [I]_293-clara , dressed up as head - waitress , with [my]_293-clara long hair all tied back , pulled [his]_{731-my father} right arm and pointed to [widow Hiatt]_347-jane 's plate — the speech [he]_{731-my father} made after dinner , when [I]_293-clara was amazed at [his]_{731-my father} eloquence and clapped [my]_293-clara little hands , and the way [he]_{731-my father} made [me]_293-clara stand up on a chair and drink [the Queen]_{1427-the queen} 's health first — then the hurrahs of [the tenants]_{6348-the tenants} and [servants]_{6349-servants} , and how [they]_{6348-the tenants} kissed [me]_293-clara outside — all this goes through [my]_293-clara memory as the smoke of the billet goes up the chimney , and the tears steal under [my]_293-clara eyelids . Then [I]_293-clara see [the long hall]_{6350-the long hall} afterwards , with the tables cleared away and the lights hung round the tapestry , and the yule log roaring afresh ; [[my]_293-clara father]_{731-my father} ( [a type of the true English gentleman , not of the past but the present century]_{6352-a type of the true english gentleman , not of the past but the present century} ) , holding the hand of [[his]_{731-my father} wife]_{789-his wife} ( [a lady of no condescending airs , but true womanly warmth and love)—both dressed for the tenants]_{6354-a lady of no condescending airs , but true womanly warmth and love)—both dressed for the tenants} ' ball as if for [the lord - lieutenant]_{6355-the lord - lieutenant} 's ; both eager to lead off the country dance , and beating [their]_{6348-the tenants} feet to the music . Next [them]_{6348-the tenants} , [a laughing child in a little white frock and pink slip]_{6356-a laughing child in a little white frock and pink slip} ( scarce to be known for [myself]_293-clara ) , hand - in - hand with [[my]_293-clara brave chevalier]_{6357-my brave chevalier} , [Master Roderick Blount]_{440-master roderick blount} , accounted by [Cooky]_441-cooky and [both lady's - maids]_{6358-both lady's - maids} , and most of all by [himself]_{731-my father} , [[my]_293-clara duly affianced lord]_{6359-my duly affianced lord} . Then [the housekeeper]_{6360-the housekeeper} , starched beyond measure , yet not too stiff to smile , and open for the nonce even to jokes about courtship , yielding [her]_{6360-the housekeeper} gracious hand for the dance to [the senior tenant]_{6361-the senior tenant} , [a man with great calves , red face , and snow - white hair]_{6362-a man with great calves , red face , and snow - white hair} . After [them]_{6348-the tenants} come — Hark ! a loud knock and a ring . It is just in time before [I]_293-clara begin the palinode . Who can want [me]_293-clara to - night ? [I]_293-clara want [no one]_{730-no one} but those [I]_293-clara can not have , whom the fire has now restored [me]_293-clara , though [the earth]_{1046-the earth} has hidden [them]_{6348-the tenants} . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} is hard at work in [the kitchen]_{5526-the kitchen} , preparing a wonderful supper for [Charley]_395-charley , who has promised to come [home]_1102-home . [She]_{391-mrs. shelfer} has canvassed the chance of [his]_395-charley keeping this promise fifty times in the day . [Hope]_442-hope cries "_[293-clara] yes ; " experience whispers "_[293-clara] no . " At any rate the knock is not [his]_395-charley , for [he]_395-charley always carries a latch - key . [She]_{391-mrs. shelfer} calls up the stairs "_{[423-miss valence]} [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} ! " before [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} goes to the door , for who knows but [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} might be murdered in the midst of [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} Christmas pudding ? [I]_{423-miss valence} come out to prove [my]_{423-miss valence} existence and stand in the dark on [the landing]_{6367-the landing} . [She]_{391-mrs. shelfer} draws back the bolt ; [I]_{423-miss valence} hear a gruff voice as if it came through a hat . "_{[423-miss valence]} [Young ' ooman]_{2155-young ' ooman} by the name of [Clara Waun]_443-waun live [here]_846-here ? " "_{[2155-young ' ooman]} Yes to be sure ; [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} [you]_{423-miss valence} mean , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} . " "_{[423-miss valence]} The name on this here ticket ai n't [Walence]_445-walence , but [Waun]_443-waun . " "_[443-waun] All right , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} . All right . It 's just the same . " "_{[1798-my good friend]} Hor , [I]_0-i do n't know that though . [Jim]_444-jim , the name of the party here ai n't [Waun]_443-waun after all . It be [Walence]_445-walence . And three blessed days [us]_2159-us has been all over [London]_1-london ! " [Jim]_444-jim , from the top of [the van]_{6368-the van} , suggests that , after all , [Walence]_445-walence and [Waun]_443-waun be much of a muchness . For [his]_444-jim part , [he]_444-jim 'll be blessed if [he]_444-jim 'll go any further with it . Let [him]_444-jim and [Ben]_446-ben look at [the young lady]_{5814-the young lady} , and see if [she]_{5814-the young lady} be like the card . Meanwhile , of course , [I]_445-walence come forward and claim the parcel , whatever it is . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} redoubles [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} assurances , and calls [the man]_{5533-the man} [a great oaf]_{6371-a great oaf} , which has more effect than anything . "_{[445-walence]} Why , [Jim]_444-jim , this must be [[Charley]_395-charley 's missus]_{2160-charley 's missus} ; [[Charley Shelfer]_395-charley 's missus]_{2161-charley shelfer 's missus} ! [Him]_395-charley as beat [you]_444-jim so at skittles last week , [you]_444-jim know . " "_{[395-charley]} Ah , [he]_395-charley did so . And [I]_0-i 'd like to back [him]_395-charley again [you]_444-jim , [Ben]_446-ben , for a quart all round . " This fact is decisive . Who can doubt any more ? But for all that , the book must be signed in the name of "_[443-waun] [Waun]_443-waun , " with which of course [I]_443-waun comply . When [the two strong men]_{6372-the two strong men} have , with much difficulty ( of which [they]_{6372-the two strong men} made much more ) , lowered the enormous package from [the van]_{6368-the van} , [Ben]_446-ben stands wiping [his]_446-ben forehead . "_[443-waun] [Lor]_393-lor , how hot it be to - night to be sure ! And the job [us]_2162-us has had with this big lump sure*ly * ! Both the handles come off long ago . [I]_0-i wish [[my]_0-i missus]_{5901-my missus} had got a featherbed half the weight of that . Five - and - twenty year [I]_0-i 've been along of [this company]_{2164-this company} , [man]_5770-man and [boy]_5903-boy , but [I]_0-i never see such a direction as that there in all [my]_0-i born days . Did ever [you]_444-jim , [Jim]_444-jim ? " "_[444-jim] Well , " replies [Jim]_444-jim , "_[444-jim] [I]_0-i 've seed [a many queer ones]_{2167-a many queer ones} , but none as could come up to that . And who 'd a thought after all [their]_2168-they trouble — for [I]_0-i 'm blessed if [they]_2168-they wrote that there under a week — who'd a ' thought [they]_2168-they 'd a put ' Waun ' on it when [they]_2168-they meant ' [Walence]_445-walence . ' But [the young lady]_{5814-the young lady} is awaiting for [us]_2170-us to drink [her]_{5814-the young lady} health , [Ben]_446-ben , and a merry Christmas to [her]_{5814-the young lady} . " "_{[5814-the young lady]} How much is [the carriage]_{6087-the carriage} ? " [I]_5433-miss ask , trembling for [my]_5433-miss change of [the half - sovereign]_{6374-the half - sovereign} . "_[5433-miss] Nothing , [miss]_5433-miss . Only eightpence for delivery . It be paid to [Paddington]_{246-paddington} , and if ever [our]_2170-us Company airned eightpence , [I]_0-i 'm blessed if [they]_2173-they have n't airned it now . Thank [you]_5433-miss , [Miss]_2174-miss , and [werry]_2170-us handsome on [you]_5433-miss , and [us]_2170-us hopes the contents will prove to [your]_5433-miss liking , [Miss]_2175-miss , and make [you]_5433-miss a merry Christmas . " Away [they]_2173-they go with the smoking horses , after carrying into [the little kitchen]_{6032-the little kitchen} [the mighty maun]_{6376-the mighty maun} , which [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , with [my]_{423-miss valence} assistance , could not stir . "_{[423-miss valence]} Bless [me]_0-i , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , what a direction ! " cries [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , when the full light falls upon it . The direction was written in round hand upon a strip of parchment , about four inches wide and at least eight feet in length . It came from the bottom all up over the cover and down upon the other side , so that [no one]_{730-no one} could open the basket without breaking it asunder . It was as follows : — "_{[423-miss valence]} [Miss Clara Vaughan]_293-clara lodges at number seven in [Prince Albert Street]_{84-prince albert street} in [London town]_{2176-london town} near [Windsor]_85-windsor Castle in [Gloucestershire]_{3-gloucestershire} the daughter of [Mr. Henry Valentine Vaughan]_298-harry Esquire [a nice tall young lady]_{2177-a nice tall young lady} [her]_{2177-a nice tall young lady} always wears black things and walks very peart pale with a little red on [her]_{2177-a nice tall young lady} cheeks when [they]_2178-they lets [her]_{2177-a nice tall young lady} alone ca n't be no mistake without it be done a purpose If so be this here little maun hain't brought to [her]_{2177-a nice tall young lady} safe and sweet and wholesome will be prosecuted with the utmost rigour of the law signed [John Huxtable]_299-john [his]_299-john mark x witness [Timothy Badcock]_344-tim his'n X. " [I]_299-john wondered much whether [Mr. Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} had been called in to achieve this masterpiece of manuscript , which was all in large round hand , but without any stops . It seemed beyond poor [Sally]_371-sally 's art , yet were some loops and downstrokes that must be dear little [Sally]_371-sally 's . [I]_299-john took it off with much trouble — the parchment was joined in four places — and [I]_299-john have it now . Meanwhile [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was dancing around it , neglecting [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} supper in the wonder of this gigantic hamper . "_[299-john] Let [me]_0-i get a chopper , [Miss]_2179-miss , [you]_2179-miss 'll never get it open . Why it 's sewed as tight as an oyster . " However , [I]_{1798-my good friend} did get it open at last , and never shall [I]_{1798-my good friend} forget the contents . There was a month 's food for [a family of twelve]_{6378-a family of twelve} . First came hay , such as [I]_{1798-my good friend} never smelt out of [Devonshire]_4-devonshire ; then eighteen rolls of butter , each with a snowy cloth around it ; the butter so golden even at that time of year , that [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} compared it to the yolk of an egg looking out of the white . Then a storey of clotted cream and beautiful lard and laver , which [they]_{6378-a family of twelve} knew [I]_{1798-my good friend} loved . Then a floor of hay . Below it a pair of guinea fowls , two large turkeys , and most carefully wrapped from the rest a fine hare filled with dried sweet herbs . Below these a flitch of bacon , two wood - smoked hams , a pair of tongues , a leg of Exmoor mutton , and three bottles of best elder wine . Then a brown paper parcel containing [Sally]_371-sally 's last copy - book ( [I]_{1798-my good friend} had set [her]_371-sally copies for half a year to come ) and a long letter , the first [I]_{1798-my good friend} had ever received from [Tossil]_361-tossil 's Barton . When all was out at last , after the greatest delight and laughter as each thing appeared , [I]_{1798-my good friend} fell back in utter dismay at the spectacle before [me]_{1798-my good friend} . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} sat on the floor unable to find [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} way out , [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was so flounced and tippeted with good things . When [I]_{1798-my good friend} came to [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} relief , [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} did nothing but go round and round what was left of [the little room]_{6379-the little room} , humming a Catholic hymn , and pressing both hands to [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} side . But something must be done at once . Waste is wickedness ; how could [we]_6380-we stave it off ? Everything would depend upon the weather . At present all was beautifully fresh , thanks to the skilful packing and the frost , albeit the mighty package had made the round of all [the Albert Streets in [London]_1-london]_{6381-the albert streets in london} . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} would have looked at it for a month , and at intervals exclaimed , "_{[1798-my good friend]} Bless [me]_0-i , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , that beats [Charley]_395-charley 's pockets . How [they]_2181-they must eat in [Devonshire]_4-devonshire ! " "_{[1798-my good friend]} Come , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , what good are [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} at [housekeeping]_{2182-housekeeping} ? [You]_{391-mrs. shelfer} do n't help [me]_0-i at all . Let [us]_2183-we put most of it out of doors at once . [You]_{391-mrs. shelfer} have [no cellar]_{2184-no cellar} , and [I]_0-i suppose [they]_2181-they have none in [London]_1-london . At least [we]_2183-we can give it the chance of the open air , and it is not snowing now . " "_[2185-miss] Oh , but the cats , [Miss]_2185-miss ! " "_[2185-miss] Well , [I]_0-i must find some plan for [them]_2181-they before [we]_2183-we go to bed . Now come and help , that 's [a good little creature]_{2186-a good little creature} , and [I]_0-i 'll give [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} some elder wine when [we]_2183-we have done . " So [we]_2183-we got all that was taintable into [the little yard]_{6382-the little yard} , while [Tom]_{435-old tom} , who never stole , except when quite sure of impunity , looked on very sagely . There [we]_2183-we fixed it all up to the wall secure , except from cats , of whom a roving band serenaded [me]_0-i every night . [I]_0-i presented [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} at once with a turkey — a specimen of natural history not found by [the roadside]_{6383-the roadside} , even on [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} 's Sabbath journey — also a ham , and three rolls of butter . As to the rest , [I]_0-i would think what to do with it afterwards . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} kept off the cats until midnight , after which [I]_0-i held [them]_2181-they at bay by the following means . With one of [my]_0-i mineral paints mingled with some phosphorus , [I]_0-i drew upon [a black board a ferocious terrier , the size of life , with fangs unsheathed , bristles erect]_{6384-a black board a ferocious terrier , the size of life , with fangs unsheathed , bristles erect} , and eyes starting out of [his]_{2186-a good little creature} head . [We]_2183-we tried the effect in the dark on poor [Tom]_{435-old tom} , who arched [his]_{435-old tom} back , and sputtered with the strongest execration , then turned and fled ignobly , amid roars of laughter from [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} , who by this time was come [home]_1102-home . This one - headed Cerberus being hung so as to oscillate in the wind , right across the cat - leap , [I]_0-i felt quite safe , so long as [my]_0-i chemical mixture should continue luminous . [Dear little Sally]_371-sally 's letter gave [me]_0-i the greatest delight . It was all in round hand , and had taken at least a week to write , and [she]_371-sally must have washed [her]_371-sally hands almost every time . There were no stops in it , but [I]_0-i have put some . The spelling was wonderfully good for [her]_371-sally , but here and there [I]_0-i have shaped it to the present fashion . "_[0-i] Please [Miss Clara]_293-clara dear , [father]_738-father and [mother]_739-mother and [I]_0-i begs [their]_2189-they most respectable duty and love and [they]_2189-they hopes no offence and will [you]_293-clara be so kind as to have this here little hamper and wishes it was ten times as much but hopes [you]_293-clara will excuse it and please to eat it all [yourself]_293-clara [Miss.]_342-miss. All the pegmate be [our]_2190-our own doctrine , and very wholesome , and [we]_2190-our have took all the hair off , please [Miss]_2191-miss , because [you]_293-clara said one time [you]_293-clara did n't like it . Likely [you]_293-clara 'll remember , [Miss]_2192-miss , [the young black sow]_{2193-the young black sow} as twisted [her]_{2193-the young black sow} tail to the left , [her]_{2193-the young black sow} as [Tim]_344-tim was ringing the day as [I]_0-i wrote first copy , and the other chillers ran out , well most of it be [she]_{2193-the young black sow} , [Miss. Father]_448-miss. say as [he]_2194-he do n't think [they]_2189-they ever see butter in [London town]_{2176-london town} , but [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} says yes for [they]_2189-they makes a plenty out of red herrings and train oil . Please [Miss]_2196-miss , [Tabby Badcock]_388-tabby would go on the ice in [the old saw - pit]_{2197-the old saw - pit} last Sunday , by [the upper linhay]_{2198-the upper linhay} when [I]_0-i told [her]_{2193-the young black sow} it would not bear , and so [her]_{2193-the young black sow} fell through and would have been drownded at last , only [[our]_2199-our little [Jack]_374-jack]_{2200-our little jack} crawled over the postesses and give [her]_{2193-the young black sow} [his]_374-jack heel to hold on by , and please [Miss]_2201-miss it would have done [your]_2201-miss heart good , [mother]_739-mother says , to see how [Tim Badcock]_344-tim dressed [her]_{2193-the young black sow} when [he]_344-tim come [home]_1102-home from [church]_1429-church for getting [her]_{2193-the young black sow} best frock all of a muck . Please [Miss]_2205-miss , [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} come when [you]_2201-miss was gone , and made a poem about [you]_2201-miss , and [father]_738-father like it so much [he]_738-father give [him]_{334-beany dawe} free of the cider and as [he]_{334-beany dawe} was going [home]_1102-home [he]_{334-beany dawe} fell into a bit of [a ditch down [Breakneck hill]_{5651-breakneck hill}]_{2208-a ditch down breakneck hill} , and when [he]_{334-beany dawe} come to [himself]_{334-beany dawe} [the road]_{1630-the road} had taken to run the wrong way [Beany]_{334-beany dawe} do n't know how for the life of [him]_{334-beany dawe} , so [he]_{334-beany dawe} come back here ' nolus wolus ' [he]_{334-beany dawe} saith and that be the way to spell it and no mistake , and here [he]_{334-beany dawe} have been ever since a - making of poems and sawing up hellums out of the lower cleeve , and [he]_{334-beany dawe} sleepth in [the onion loft]_{2211-the onion loft} and Suke ca n't have no rest of nights for the noise [he]_{334-beany dawe} makes making verses . [Mother]_291-mother tell [Suke]_345-suke to pote [him]_{334-beany dawe} down stairs and too good for [him]_{334-beany dawe} , but [father]_738-father say no , [he]_{334-beany dawe} be [a fine chap for sure]_{2213-a fine chap for sure} and airneth [his]_{334-beany dawe} meat and drink , let alone all the poetry . Please [Miss]_2214-miss [he]_738-father wanted to larn [me]_0-i to write , but [father]_738-father say no [I]_0-i had got better learning than [hisn]_2216-hisn , and [I]_0-i say [he]_738-father may learn [Tabby Badcock]_388-tabby if [he]_738-father will , but [he]_738-father sha n't learn [me]_0-i . No tino . " How [she]_388-tabby tossed [her]_388-tabby pretty curls when [she]_388-tabby wrote this [I]_2217-miss 'll be bound . [I]_2217-miss wished that [I]_2217-miss could see [her]_388-tabby . "_[2217-miss] Please [Miss]_2217-miss [I]_0-i be forced to write this when [he]_738-father be away , or [he]_738-father 'd a made it all in poetry ; and [Tim Badcock]_344-tim tell [me]_0-i to be sure to tell [you]_2217-miss as how at the wrastling to [Barnstaple]_{21-barnstaple} fair , week after [you]_2217-miss was gone , [father]_738-father was so crule unkid that in playing off the ties [he]_738-father heaved [a Cornisher]_{2219-a cornisher} up through the chandelier , and a come down with a candle stuck so fast down [his]_738-father throat [doctor]_2220-doctor was forced to set it a - fire and blow with a pair of bellises afore [he]_738-father could put [him]_738-father to rights . [Cornisher]_{449-cornisher} be all right again now , [Tim saith]_344-tim , but [he]_738-father have a made up [his]_738-father mind not to wrastle no more in [Devonshire]_4-devonshire . Please [Miss]_2221-miss , [father]_738-father saith before this here goes [he]_738-father 'll shoot the old hare as sits in the top of the cleeve if [Queen Victoria]_{450-queen victoria} transports [him]_738-father for it with hard labour . [Tim]_344-tim have made four pops at [her]_{450-queen victoria} , but [he]_344-tim say the powder were crooked . Please [Miss Clara]_293-clara , all the eggs as [my]_0-i little black hen have laid , since the last of the barley was housed , is to be sewed up inside the Turkey with the black comb ; [he]_738-father be strutting about in [the court]_{1718-the court} and looking at [me]_0-i now as peart as [a gladdy]_{1469-a gladdy} ; but [her]_{450-queen victoria} have not laid more than a dozen to now , though [I]_0-i have been up and whistled to [her]_{450-queen victoria} in the tall at every morning and evening same as [we]_2225-we used to do when [you]_2226-you was in good spirits . But [the other hens]_{2227-the other hens} has not laid none at all . Please [Miss]_2228-miss , [father]_738-father say as how [he]_738-father have sold such a many beasties , [he]_738-father be afeared to keep all the money in [the house]_{764-the house} , and [he]_738-father have told [mother]_739-mother to sew up the rent for next Ladyday in the turkey with the white comb when [he]_738-father be killed and [he]_738-father humbly hope no offence . Please [Miss Clara]_293-clara , [us]_2232-us has had three letters from [you]_2226-you , and [I]_0-i reads them all to [father]_738-father and [mother]_739-mother every Sunday evening , and [Joe]_451-joe [the Queen 's boy]_{2235-the queen 's boy} do n't know but what [he]_451-joe lost another one in leathering [the jackass]_{2236-the jackass} across [the brook]_{2237-the brook} after the rain . [Joe]_451-joe tells as [he]_451-joe ca n't say for certain , because why [he]_451-joe baint no scholar the same as [us]_2232-us be , and [Joe]_451-joe only knows the letters by the pins they sticks in [his]_451-joe sleeve afore [he]_451-joe leaves [Martinhoe]_41-martinhoe . Whoever ' twas for [he]_738-father thinks there was crockery in it by reason it sunk so quick . Anyhow [mother]_739-mother give [him]_738-father a little tap with a mop on the side of [his]_738-father head , to make [him]_738-father mind [the Queen]_{1427-the queen} 's business , and did n't [he]_738-father holler a bit , and [he]_738-father flung down the [parson]_2240-parson 's letters all in the muck , but [us]_2232-us washed them in a bucket and let [parson]_2240-parson have them on Sunday . [[Joe Queen]_451-joe 's boy]_{2242-joe queen 's boy} have n't been nigh [us]_2232-us since , and [they]_{2242-joe queen 's boy} did say to [Martinhoe]_41-martinhoe [us]_2232-us should n't have no more letters , but [father]_738-father say if [he]_738-father do n't [he]_738-father will show [the man there]_{2244-the man there} what a forehip mean pretty smart . Please [Miss Clara]_293-clara , [us]_2232-us would have written afore , but [mother]_739-mother say no , not till [I]_0-i finish twelve copybooks one every week , that [the folks to [London town]_{2176-london town}]_{2246-the folks to london town} might see the way as [they]_{2246-the folks to london town} ought to write and spell . [Father]_448-miss. say [London]_1-london be in [Gloucestershire]_{3-gloucestershire} , but [I]_0-i am most sure it baint , and [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} shake [his]_{334-beany dawe} head and wo n't tell , and [mother]_739-mother believe [he]_{334-beany dawe} do n't know . Please [Miss]_2249-miss , there be a new babby come a month agone and better , and [mother]_739-mother find out as how it be [a girl]_{2251-a girl} , and please if [you]_2252-you have no objection [Miss]_2253-miss , and if [you]_2252-you do n't think as it would be a liberty , [us]_2232-us has all made up [our]_2232-us minds upon having it christened [Clara]_293-clara , and please to say [Miss]_2254-miss if it be too high , or any way unfitty . [Father]_448-miss. be ' most afeared that it sound too grand for the like of [us]_2232-us , but [mother]_739-mother says as [the Huxtables]_{453-the huxtables} was thought brave things on , to Coom and [Parracombe]_{86-parracombe} a hundred years agone . Please Miss , [father]_738-father heard to [Coom]_87-coom market last week , as there 's going to be a French invasion , and [they]_2257-they be sure to go to [London]_1-london first , and [he]_738-father beg [you]_2252-you to let [him]_738-father know as soon as ever there be one , and [he]_738-father come up at once with the big ash - stick and the ivy on it as growed in [Challacombe]_{88-challacombe} wood , and see as [they]_2257-they does n't hurt [you]_2252-you , [Miss.]_448-miss. Please [Miss]_2258-miss , [the young chap as saved [you]_2252-you from the great goyal]_{2259-the young chap as saved you from the great goyal} come here to ask for [you]_2252-you , day after [you]_2252-you was gone , and [mother]_739-mother believes [he]_738-father baint after no good , by token [he]_738-father would not come in nor drink a drop of cider . Please [Miss]_2261-miss , [father]_738-father say it make [his]_738-father heart ache every night , to think of [you]_2252-you all to [yourself]_2252-you in [the wicked London town]_{2263-the wicked london town} , and [he]_738-father go down [the lane]_{1652-the lane} to the white gate every evening in the hope to see [you]_2252-you acoming , and [mother]_739-mother say if [you]_2252-you be a selling red and blue picturs [her]_739-mother hope [you]_2252-you will send for [they]_2266-they as [father]_738-father gave the hog 's puddens for , and [us]_2268-us wo nt miss [them]_2266-they at all . And [Miss Clara]_293-clara dear , [I]_0-i expect [you]_293-clara 'll be mazed to see how [I]_0-i writes and spells , [father]_738-father say it must be in [the family]_{1254-the family} , and [I]_0-i wo n't write no more till [I]_0-i have finished another dozen of copy books ; and oh dear how [I]_0-i do wish that [you]_293-clara were come back again , but [father]_738-father say to [me]_0-i to say no more about it for fear to make [you]_293-clara cry , [Miss.]_448-miss. All [the little childers]_{2272-the little childers} except [the new babby who have not seen [you]_293-clara yet , sends [their]_{2272-the little childers} hearts ' loves and duty and a hundred kisses]_{2273-the new babby who have not seen you yet , sends their hearts ' loves and duty and a hundred kisses} , and [father]_738-father and [mother]_739-mother the same , and [Timothy Badcock]_344-tim , and [Tabby]_388-tabby , and [Suke]_345-suke , and [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} , now [he]_738-father knows it . [I]_0-i remain , [[Miss Clara]_293-clara dear]_{2276-miss clara dear} , [[your]_293-clara thankful and loving scholar]_{2277-your thankful and loving scholar} to command , [SARAH HUXTABLE]_371-sally . Signed all this here [papper]_2278-papper scrawl in the settle by the fire . [JOHN HUXTABLE]_299-john [his]_299-john mark X HONOR HUXTABLE hern X. " [I]_299-john was much grieved at the loss of [my]_299-john last letter to [[Tossil]_361-tossil 's Barton]_{5668-tossil 's barton} , because it contained [my]_299-john little Christmas presents for all [the family]_{1254-the family} . It was registered for security , but [I]_299-john suppose [they]_{1254-the family} "_[299-john] took no count " of that where the delivery of letters depended so much upon luck . Of [their]_{1254-the family} Christmas present to [me]_299-john [I]_299-john resolved to give the surplus to [those who would be the better for it , and not ( according to the usual law of such things ) to those who did not want it , and would make return with interest]_{6388-those who would be the better for it , and not ( according to the usual law of such things ) to those who did not want it , and would make return with interest} . So on the Christmas morning [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} and [myself]_299-john , each carrying a large basket , went to the mews round the corner , and distributed among [the poor lodgers there]_{6389-the poor lodgers there} , more Christmas dinners than had ever entered those doors before ; and how grateful [the poor things]_{6390-the poor things} were , only [they]_{6390-the poor things} all wanted the best . Now [the school of design]_{6319-the school of design} was closed for a while , and [I]_299-john worked hard for several days at the landscape for [Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} , though the store of provisions sent [me]_299-john and the rent enclosed in the turkey had saved [me]_299-john from present necessity . On the day of all days in the year the saddest and darkest to [me]_299-john , [I]_299-john could not keep to [my]_299-john task , but went for a change of thoughts to [the school]_{6392-the school} , now open again . It was the 30th of December , 1850 , and , though [I]_299-john crouch not to the mumming of prigs scolloped out at the throat , who block out with a patchwork screen the simple hearth of religion , and kneel at an ashbin to warm [themselves]_{1254-the family} ; though [I]_299-john do n't care a herring for small anniversaries dotted all over the calendar , and made by [some Murphy of old]_{6393-some murphy of old} ; yet [I]_299-john reverence deeply the true feasts of [Church and Chapel]_{6394-church and chapel} , the refreshings of faith and charity , whereupon [we]_6395-we forgive and are sorry for [those who work hard to mar]_{6396-those who work hard to mar} [them]_{6396-those who work hard to mar} . Neither does it seem to [me]_299-john — so far as [my]_299-john timid and wavering judgment extends — to be superstition or vanity , if [we]_6395-we dare to set mark by those dates in [our]_6395-we own little span which [God]_303-god has scarred on [our]_6395-we memory . In [the long dark room]_{6397-the long dark room} so bare and comfortless , and , to - day , so lonely and cold , [I]_299-john got [my]_299-john usual books and studies , and tried , all in vain , to fix [my]_299-john attention on them . Finding the effort so fruitless , [I]_299-john packed up [my]_299-john things in the little black bag and rose to depart . Turning round , [I]_299-john saw on the table , where [students]_{6398-students} ' works were exhibited , a small object newly placed there . It was a statuette in white marble of a magnificent red deer , such as [I]_299-john had seen once or twice in [the north of [Devon]_24-devon]_{5631-the north of devon} . The listening attitude , the turn of the neck , the light poise of the massive head , even the mild , yet spirited eye , and the quivering sensitive lip , [I]_299-john could answer for [them]_{6396-those who work hard to mar} all , they were done to the very life . Truth , power , and elegance triumphed in every vein of it . For a minute [I]_299-john stood overcome with wonder . If this were the work of [a youthful sculptor]_{6400-a youthful sculptor} , [England]_9-england might hope at last for something beyond the grotesque . Before [me]_299-john rose at once all [the woodland scenery]_{6401-the woodland scenery} , the hill - side garbed with every shade of green , the brambled quarry standing forth , the trees , [the winding vales]_{6402-the winding vales} embosoming the light , the haze that hovers above [the watersmeet]_{6403-the watersmeet} , bold crests of amaranth heath behind , and far away [the russet wold of [Exmoor]_22-exmoor]_{6404-the russet wold of exmoor} . The stag in the foreground of [[my]_299-john landscape]_{6405-my landscape} , [I]_299-john feel so grateful to [him]_6406-him for this expanse of vision that [I]_299-john stoop down and kiss [him]_6406-him , while [no one]_{730-no one} can see [me]_299-john . As [I]_299-john bend , the gordit drops from its warm home in [my]_299-john breast . By some impulse undefined [I]_299-john lift the ribbon from [my]_299-john neck , and hang the little fairy 's heart on the antlers of the Devonshire deer . Out springs from behind a chest full of casts and [models]_6408-models — what model can compare with [her?—the]_{6409-her?—the} loveliest of [all lovely beings]_{6410-all lovely beings} , [my]_299-john little [Isola Ross]_428-isola . [I]_299-john hide the tears in [my]_299-john eyes , and try to look cold and reserved . What use is it ? One smile of [hers]_428-isola would have disarmed [Belial]_454-belial . "_[299-john] It is n't [my]_0-i fault , [dear]_5871-dear . It is n't indeed . Oh , please give [me]_0-i that cordetto . No do n't . That is why [I]_0-i loved [you]_5871-dear so at first sight . And here is all [my]_0-i money dear . [I]_0-i have carried it about ever since , though [I]_0-i sewed up the purse not to spend it , and only once cut it open . [They]_2280-they made [me]_0-i promise , and [I]_0-i would not eat for three days , and [I]_0-i tried to be sulky with [Pappy]_426-pappy because [he]_426-pappy did not care ; [they]_2280-they made [me]_0-i promise with all [my]_0-i honour not to go and see [you]_5871-dear , and [Cora]_429-cora came about with [me]_0-i so that [I]_0-i had no chance of breaking it . And [I]_0-i would not tell [them]_2280-they where [you]_5871-dear lived , [dear]_5871-dear ; but [I]_0-i led [old Cora]_429-cora a dance through [[your]_5871-dear street]_{2282-your street} on the side [you]_5871-dear live , till [she]_429-cora began to suspect . But [I]_0-i could never see [you]_5871-dear , though [I]_0-i looked in at all the windows till [I]_0-i was quite ashamed , and [the people]_{2283-the people} kissed [their]_{2283-the people} hands to [me]_0-i . " [Poor little dear]_{6411-poor little dear} ! [I]_{2283-the people} lived [upstairs]_{6042-upstairs} , and could not have seen [her]_429-cora without standing out on [the balcony]_{6413-the balcony} , which was about the size of a chess - board . If [she]_429-cora had not been so simple as to walk on [my]_{2283-the people} side of [the street]_{6090-the street} , [she]_429-cora must have seen [me]_{2283-the people} ere long , for [I]_{2283-the people} sat all day near the window to draw , when [I]_{2283-the people} was not away at [[my]_{2283-the people} school]_{6415-my school} . [I]_{2283-the people} forgave [her]_429-cora most graciously for having done [me]_{2283-the people} no wrong , and kissed [her]_429-cora with all [my]_{2283-the people} heart . [Her]_429-cora breath was as sweet as violets in Spring clover , and [her]_429-cora lips warm and soft as a wren 's nest . On receiving [my]_{2283-the people} forgiveness , away [she]_429-cora went dancing down [the long room]_{6416-the long room} , with [her]_429-cora cloak thrown off , and [her]_429-cora hair tossing all out of braid , and [her]_429-cora exquisite buoyant figure floating as if on a cloud . Of course there was [no one there]_{6327-no one there} , or even impulsive [Isola]_428-isola would hardly have taken [her]_428-isola frolic ; and yet [I]_{2283-the people} am not sure . [She]_429-cora never thought harm of [any one]_{1178-any one} , and never imagined that [any one]_{1178-any one} could think harm of [her]_429-cora . After a dozen flits of some rapid elegant dance quite unknown to [me]_{2283-the people} ( who have never had much of dancing ) , but which [I]_{2283-the people} supposed to be [Scotch]_455-scotch , back [she]_429-cora came out of breath , and kissed [me]_{2283-the people} ever so many times , and kissed [my]_{2283-the people} gordit too , and told [me]_{2283-the people} never to part with it . One thing [she]_429-cora was sure of , that [[her]_429-cora Papa]_{6420-her papa} could not resist [me]_{2283-the people} now , and when [he]_{6420-her papa} was told of it [I]_{2283-the people} should come to [[their]_6421-their house]_{6422-their house} the next day . And [she]_429-cora knew [I]_{2283-the people} was dreadfully proud , but would [I]_{2283-the people} , for [her]_429-cora sake , forgive [her]_429-cora [Pappy]_426-pappy ? Of course , [he]_426-pappy knew nothing about [me]_{2283-the people} , and [she]_429-cora had never told [him]_426-pappy [my]_{2283-the people} name , though [she]_429-cora could not help telling [my]_{2283-the people} story , at least all [she]_429-cora knew of it ; but [he]_426-pappy was so dreadfully jealous of [her]_429-cora , [he]_426-pappy did not want [any one]_{1178-any one} to have a touch of [her]_429-cora glove but [himself]_426-pappy . Looking at [her]_429-cora pure sweet face , [I]_{2283-the people} could well believe it ; but how could [he]_426-pappy bear to see [that dear little thing]_{6424-that dear little thing} go three days without food ? Most likely [she]_429-cora had exaggerated . Although [she]_429-cora was truthful as light , sometimes [her]_429-cora quick fancy and warmth , like the sunshine itself , would bring out some points too strongly . However , [I]_{2283-the people} was prepared , without that , to dislike [the Professor]_{2125-the professor} , for , as a general rule , [I]_{2283-the people} do n't like [men who moralise]_{6426-men who moralise} ; at least if [their]_{6426-men who moralise} philosophy is frigid . Nevertheless , [I]_{2283-the people} promised very readily to forgive [her]_429-cora [Papa]_425-papa , for [I]_{2283-the people} did so love that [Isola]_428-isola . [Her]_428-isola nature was so different to [mine]_{2283-the people} , so light and airy , elastic and soft ; in short ( if [I]_{2283-the people} must forsake [my]_{2283-the people} language ) , the complement of [my]_{2283-the people} own . [We]_6427-we chatted , or rather [she]_428-isola did , for at least half an hour ; and then [she]_428-isola told [me]_{2283-the people} [old Cora]_429-cora was coming to fetch [her]_428-isola at three o'clock . Once more [I]_{2283-the people} rose to depart , for [I]_{2283-the people} feared [she]_428-isola might get into trouble , if [the old nurse]_{6428-the old nurse} should find [her]_428-isola so intimate with [a stranger]_{1247-a stranger} . But [Isola]_428-isola told [me]_{2283-the people} that [she]_428-isola did not care for [her]_428-isola a bit , and [she]_428-isola had quite set [her]_428-isola heart on [my]_{2283-the people} meeting [[her]_428-isola brother]_{6430-her brother} [Conrad]_427-conrad , [the sculptor of that magnificent stag]_{6431-the sculptor of that magnificent stag} . Perhaps [he]_427-conrad would come with [Cora]_429-cora , but [he]_427-conrad was so altered now , [she]_429-cora could never tell what [he]_427-conrad would do . Since the time [she]_429-cora first saw [me]_{2283-the people} , [Conrad]_427-conrad had come of age , and [she]_429-cora could not guess what it was all about , but there had been a dreadful disturbance between [him]_427-conrad and [[his]_427-conrad father]_{1062-his father} , and [he]_427-conrad had actually gone to live away from [the family]_{1254-the family} . [She]_429-cora thought it must be about money , or some such nasty thing ; but even [Cora]_429-cora did not know , or if [she]_429-cora did , [the old thing]_{6434-the old thing} would not tell . It had made poor [Isola]_428-isola cry till [her]_428-isola eyes were sore , but now [she]_428-isola supposed [she]_428-isola must make up [her]_428-isola mind to it all . But [she]_428-isola would tell the truth , [she]_428-isola did hate being treated like [a baby]_{2061-a baby} when [she]_428-isola was [a full - grown woman]_{6436-a full - grown woman} ; how much taller did [they]_6437-they expect [her]_428-isola to be ? And what was much worse , [she]_428-isola did want so to comfort [them]_6437-they both , and how could [she]_428-isola do it without knowing what was the matter ? It was too bad , and [she]_428-isola wished [she]_428-isola was [a boy]_{1691-a boy} , with all [her]_428-isola heart [she]_428-isola did . [She]_428-isola went on talking like this till [her]_428-isola gentle breast fluttered , and [her]_428-isola coral lips quivered , and the tears stole down [her]_428-isola long lashes , and [she]_428-isola crept to [me]_{2283-the people} closer for comfort . [I]_{2283-the people} was clasping [her]_428-isola round little waist , and kissing the bright drops away , when in burst [a dark , scraggy woman , who must , of course , be [old Cora]_429-cora]_{6439-a dark , scraggy woman , who must , of course , be old cora} . [She]_{6439-a dark , scraggy woman , who must , of course , be old cora} tore [the poor child]_{6440-the poor child} from [my]_{2283-the people} arms , and scowled at [me]_{2283-the people} fiercely enough to frighten [a girl unacquainted with real terrors]_{6441-a girl unacquainted with real terrors} . [I]_{2283-the people} met [her]_{6439-a dark , scraggy woman , who must , of course , be old cora} dark gaze with a calm contempt , beneath which it quailed and fell . [She]_{6439-a dark , scraggy woman , who must , of course , be old cora} mumbled some words in a language or patois , which [I]_{2283-the people} supposed to be Gaelic , and led off [her]_{6439-a dark , scraggy woman , who must , of course , be old cora} charge towards the door . [She]_{6439-a dark , scraggy woman , who must , of course , be old cora} had mistaken [[her]_{6439-a dark , scraggy woman , who must , of course , be old cora} adversary]_{6442-her adversary} . Was [I]_{2283-the people} to be pushed aside , like [a gingerbread woman]_{6443-a gingerbread woman} tempting [a weak - stomached child]_{6444-a weak - stomached child} ? [I]_{2283-the people} passed [them]_{2285-this young lady} ; then turned and confronted [the hag]_{6445-the hag} . "_{[2283-the people]} Have the goodness , [old woman]_{2284-old woman} , to walk behind [this young lady]_{2285-this young lady} and [me]_0-i . When [we]_2286-we want [your]_{2285-this young lady} society , [we]_2286-we will ask for it . [Isola Ross]_428-isola , come with [me]_0-i , unless [you]_{2285-this young lady} prefer [a rude menial]_{2287-a rude menial} 's tyranny to [a lady]_{5829-a lady} 's affection . " [Isola]_428-isola was too frightened to speak . [I]_{2285-this young lady} know not what would have been the result , if [the old hag , who was glaring about , rather taken aback , but still clutching that delicate arm]_{6446-the old hag , who was glaring about , rather taken aback , but still clutching that delicate arm} , had not suddenly spied [my]_{2285-this young lady} fairy 's heart , as yet unrestored to its sanctuary . [She]_428-isola stared , for a moment , in wide amazement ; then [her]_428-isola whole demeanour was altered . [She]_428-isola cringed , and fawned , and curtseyed , as if [I]_{2285-this young lady} had worn a tiara . [She]_428-isola dropped [my]_{2285-this young lady} dear [Isola]_428-isola 's arm , and fell behind like [a negress]_{6447-a negress} . [[My]_{2285-this young lady} poor little pet]_{6448-my poor little pet} was trembling and cold with fright , for ( as [she]_428-isola told [me]_{2285-this young lady} afterwards ) [she]_428-isola had never seen [old Cora]_429-cora in such a passion before , and [the superstitious darling]_{6449-the superstitious darling} dreaded the evil eye . As [we]_6450-we went towards [[Isola]_428-isola 's home]_{6451-isola 's home} , [I]_{2285-this young lady} could not help thinking how fine the interview would be between [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} and [Cora]_429-cora , if [I]_{2285-this young lady} only chose to carry [that vanquished beldame thither]_{6452-that vanquished beldame thither} ; but [sage]_456-sage discretion ( was [I]_{2285-this young lady} not now eighteen ? ) , and the thought of that solemn day prevented [me]_{2285-this young lady} . So [I]_{2285-this young lady} took [them]_6453-them straight [home]_1102-home , leading [Isola]_428-isola while [she]_428-isola guided [me]_{2285-this young lady} , and turning sometimes , with complacency , to encourage old [Cora]_429-cora behind [us]_6450-we . [The house]_{764-the house} [they]_6453-them lived in was [a high but narrow one , dull - looking and dark , with area rails in front]_{6456-a high but narrow one , dull - looking and dark , with area rails in front} . [Some little maiden]_{6457-some little maiden} came to the door , and [I]_{2285-this young lady} took [my]_{2285-this young lady} leave on the steps . [Dear Isola]_457-isola , now in high spirits again , kissed [me]_{2285-this young lady} , like a peach quite warm in the sun , and promised to come the next day , about which there could now be no difficulty . [Old Cora]_429-cora bent low as [she]_429-cora wished [me]_{2285-this young lady} good evening and begged leave to kiss [my]_{2285-this young lady} cordetto . This [I]_{2285-this young lady} granted , but took good care not to let it pass out of [my]_{2285-this young lady} hands ; [she]_429-cora admired it so much , especially when allowed to examine it , and there was such a greedy light in [her]_429-cora eyes , that [I]_{2285-this young lady} was quite sure [she]_429-cora would steal it upon the first chance ; and therefore [I]_{2285-this young lady} went straightway and bought a guard of thick silk cord , as a substitute for the black riband , which was getting worn . And so [I]_{2285-this young lady} came [home]_1102-home before dark , full of wonder , but feeling rather triumphant , and greatly delighted at having recovered [dear Isola]_457-isola . Late in the evening of that same day , [I]_{2285-this young lady} sat in [[my]_{2285-this young lady} room]_{986-my room} by the firelight only ( for [I]_{2285-this young lady} could not work ) and tried to look into [myself]_{2285-this young lady} , and find out the cause of [my]_{2285-this young lady} strange attraction or rather impulsion towards [Isola]_457-isola . Somehow or other [I]_{2285-this young lady} did not wonder so much that [she]_457-isola should be drawn quite as strongly towards [me]_{2285-this young lady} , although [an impartial observer]_{6460-an impartial observer} would perhaps have wondered far more . Alter puzzling [myself]_{2285-this young lady} in vain with this inquiry , [my]_{2285-this young lady} thoughts began to move , in their usual gloomy train . Eight years had now elapsed , and what had [I]_{2285-this young lady} discovered ? Nothing ; but at long dark intervals some impress of the deed itself , more than of [the doer]_{6461-the doer} . Had [I]_{2285-this young lady} halted in pursuit , or had [my]_{2285-this young lady} vengeance cooled ? To the former question [my]_{2285-this young lady} conscience answered "_{[2285-this young lady]} yes , " to [the latter]_{907-the latter} "_{[2285-this young lady]} no . " Gentle influences had been shed around [me]_{423-miss valence} , sorrow had bedewed the track of hate , intercourse with [happy harmless people]_{6463-happy harmless people} , and gratitude for unmerited kindness ; it was not in human nature , however finely constitute for evil , entirely to repulse these powers . [I]_{423-miss valence} could not deny , that the religion of [my]_{423-miss valence} heart , during the last twelvemonth , had been somewhat neglected . For [my]_{423-miss valence} devotion to [dear mother]_{968-dear mother} , no plea was required . But the time since that , what business had [I]_{423-miss valence} with [laughing children]_{6465-laughing children} , and snug firesides , with dickybirds , and [Sandy]_402-sandy the squirrel ? Even [sweet Isola]_457-isola caused [me]_{423-miss valence} a pang of remorse ; but no , [I]_{423-miss valence} could not quite abandon [her]_457-isola . But now , thank [God]_303-god , [I]_{423-miss valence} was in [the right road]_{6466-the right road} again , and plodding resolutely as [[my]_{423-miss valence} father]_{731-my father} could expect . To [his]_{731-my father} spirit , ever present with [me]_{423-miss valence} , [I]_{423-miss valence} knelt down and poured out [my]_{423-miss valence} remorse ; and swore to make amends , whatever it might cost [me]_{423-miss valence} . Yet even then , a gentle shadow seemed to come as well , and whisper the words that calmed the face of death . [My]_{423-miss valence} musings , if so mild a word may suit them , were roughly interrupted by a loud step on the stairs . [Inspector Cutting , who could walk when needful like a cat]_{6468-inspector cutting , who could walk when needful like a cat} , loved to redress this injury to [the Goddess Echo]_{458-the goddess echo} , by making double noise when not on business . [Farmer Huxtable]_{362-farmer huxtable} , [a man of twice the weight]_{6469-a man of twice the weight} , would have come up [those stairs]_{6470-those stairs} at half the expense in sound . When [he]_{362-farmer huxtable} entered [the room]_{823-the room} , [he]_{362-farmer huxtable} found [himself]_{362-farmer huxtable} in a semi - official state again , and [I]_{423-miss valence} saw that [he]_{362-farmer huxtable} was not come for nothing . In a few brief words , [he]_{362-farmer huxtable} told [me]_{423-miss valence} what [he]_{362-farmer huxtable} had done , which was not very much ; or perhaps [my]_{423-miss valence} suspicion was right , that [he]_{362-farmer huxtable} only told [me]_{423-miss valence} a part of it . Then [he]_{362-farmer huxtable} said abruptly , "_{[423-miss valence]} [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , [I]_0-i know pluck when [I]_0-i see it . " "_{[423-miss valence]} What do [you]_0-i mean , [Mr. Cutting]_{415-mr. cutting} ? " "_[0-i] Excuse [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i forgot that [you]_0-i have been reared in [the country]_{1831-the country} . What [I]_0-i mean is , that [I]_0-i believe [you]_0-i possess an unusual share of courage . " "_[0-i] As to that , [I]_0-i can not say , having never been severely tried ; but in such a cause as [mine]_0-i , [I]_0-i could go through a good deal . " "_[0-i] And not lose [your]_0-i presence of mind , even in real danger ? " "_[0-i] That again [I]_0-i can not say , and for the same reason . But [I]_0-i am quite ready to make the trial . " [I]_0-i felt the colour mounting in [my]_0-i cheeks . How glad [I]_0-i should be to prove to [myself]_0-i that [I]_0-i was not ignoble . [He]_0-i observed [me]_0-i closely , and appeared quite satisfied . "_[0-i] What [I]_0-i have to propose to [you]_0-i , is attended with no little danger . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i will do [my]_0-i utmost not to be afraid . [I]_0-i am more impulsive perhaps than brave , but what is life worth to [me]_0-i ? [I]_0-i will try to think of that all the time . No doubt [you]_0-i have a good reason for exposing [me]_0-i to danger . " "_[0-i] Certainly [I]_0-i have , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} . For [your]_0-i own purpose it is most important that [you]_0-i should be able to identify [certain persons]_{2290-certain persons} , whom [I]_0-i shall show [you]_0-i to - night ; that is , unless [I]_0-i am misinformed . " "_[0-i] To - night ! so late as this ? " And [I]_0-i began to tremble already . "_[0-i] Yes , [we]_2291-we must go to - night , or wait for another fortnight ; and then it would be no earlier , even if [we]_2291-we got such a chance again . And for [your]_0-i sake it is better than to be in a fright for a fortnight . " "_{[412-inspector cutting]} [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} , [I]_0-i am in no fright whatever . At least [I]_0-i mean no more so than [any other girl]_{2292-any other girl} would be , who felt a vague danger impending . [I]_0-i hope and trust that [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's memory and the justice of [God]_303-god will be with [me]_0-i . " "_{[1872-young lady]} [Young lady]_{1872-young lady} , [I]_0-i see that [I]_0-i may safely venture it . If [you]_0-i had boasted , [I]_0-i should have hesitated , though [I]_0-i have had some proof already of [your]_0-i determination . [The chief]_{2295-the chief} , and indeed the only danger , is lest [you]_0-i lose [your]_0-i presence of mind , and that [most females]_{2296-most females} would do , if placed as [you]_0-i will be . Now [I]_0-i wish [you]_0-i to make deliberate choice , and not to be carried away by impulse vindictiveness , or the love of adventure ; which , when the spirit is high like [yours]_0-i , too often leads [young females]_{2297-young females} into trouble , from which it is not always possible even for [the most capable members of the force]_{2298-the most capable members of the force} to extricate [them]_{2297-young females} . " "_[0-i] Of course [I]_0-i know all that . How much longer are [we]_2299-we to talk ? Must [I]_0-i disguise [myself]_0-i ? When am [I]_0-i to be ready ? And where are [we]_2299-we going ? " "_[0-i] Now [you]_0-i are growing impatient . That is not a good sign . Remember , [I]_0-i can easily procure [another witness]_{2300-another witness} ; but for [your]_0-i own sake [I]_0-i wish to give [you]_0-i the chance . Probably [you]_0-i will see to - night [the man who killed [[your]_0-i father]_{5365-your father}]_{2301-the man who killed your father} . " As [he]_0-i spoke [my]_{2301-the man who killed your father} flesh was creeping , and [my]_{2301-the man who killed your father} blood ran cold , then suddenly flushed through [my]_{2301-the man who killed your father} system like electric fluid . [He]_0-i began again as coolly as if [he]_0-i were reporting a case of [some one discovered "_{[2301-the man who killed your father]} drunk and incapable]_{6472-some one discovered " drunk and incapable} . " From force of habit , [he]_0-i touched [his]_0-i forehead , and stood at attention , as [he]_0-i spoke . "_{[2301-the man who killed your father]} In consequence of information which [I]_0-i have received , [I]_0-i have been induced to make certain inquiries , which have resulted in the conviction that [the criminal [I]_0-i am in search of]_{2303-the criminal i am in search of} will be present at a certain place this night , at a certain hour . It is therefore [my]_0-i intention to embrace the opportunity of — " "_[0-i] Catching [him]_{2301-the man who killed your father} ! " cried [I]_0-i in a breathless hurry . "_[0-i] To embrace the opportunity , " continued [the Inspector , like a talking oak]_{6473-the inspector , like a talking oak} , "_[0-i] of conducting [my]_0-i investigations personally , and in the presence of [a witness]_{2304-a witness} . The effect thereby produced upon [my]_0-i mind shall be entered duly , the moral effect [I]_0-i should have said , and the cause of justice will be promoted as rapidly as is consistent with the principles of [our]_2305-our glorious constitution . " "_[0-i] Do [you]_0-i mean to say that [you]_0-i will let [him]_{2301-the man who killed your father} go ? " "_[0-i] No , [I]_0-i shall not let [him]_{2301-the man who killed your father} go , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , for the simple reason that [I]_0-i shall not apprehend [him]_{2301-the man who killed your father} . [I]_0-i see that [you]_{423-miss valence} are inclined to take the law into [your]_{423-miss valence} own hands . That will never do for [me]_0-i . " "_{[423-miss valence]} Oh no , [I]_0-i am not . A year ago [I]_0-i would have done so . But [I]_0-i am older and wiser now . " [I]_0-i was thinking of [dear mother]_{968-dear mother} ; and began to feel already that [my]_0-i character was changing . [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} gave [me]_0-i some minute instructions , and in less than half an hour [we]_6475-we set forth upon [our]_6475-we enterprise . [I]_0-i was wrapped in a loose grey cloak having a hooded cape ; and carefully hidden [I]_0-i carried for self - defence a very keen stiletto . [I]_0-i had procured it indirectly from the best cutler in [London]_1-london , but neither workmanship nor material could be compared to that of [Italy]_63-italy . The night was dark and cold , [the streets]_{2026-the streets} were almost deserted , and [all the shops except [the chemists]_{6478-the chemists} ']_{6477-all the shops except the chemists '} and [the public - houses]_{6479-the public - houses} closed . [We]_6475-we walked straightway to [the nearest cabstand]_{6480-the nearest cabstand} , where [Mr. Cutting]_{415-mr. cutting} ordered [a vehicle]_{5550-a vehicle} , and put [me]_0-i inside , [himself]_{415-mr. cutting} riding with [the driver]_{6033-the driver} . So little did [I]_0-i know as yet of [London]_1-london , that after the first turn or two , [I]_0-i could not even guess what direction [we]_6475-we were taking . [I]_0-i had such confidence in [[my]_0-i guide]_{5798-my guide} , [a staid respectable man with [a grown up family]_{6485-a grown up family}]_{6484-a staid respectable man with a grown up family} , that [I]_0-i never thought there could be harm in [my]_0-i journeying with [him]_{5798-my guide} at night . And even had [I]_0-i thought so , most likely [I]_0-i should have done it all the same . Ever since the time [he]_{5798-my guide} wounded [me]_0-i , or allowed [me]_0-i to wound [myself]_0-i , [his]_{5798-my guide} manner towards [me]_0-i had been most kind , considerate , and respectful ; though [he]_{5798-my guide} found it [his]_{5798-my guide} duty now and then to repress [my]_0-i impetuosity . With all [my]_0-i perception alert , [I]_0-i kept a sharp look - out from the window , but vainly strove to find anything that might serve for a landmark . Once [we]_6486-we stopped for about five minutes , at [a police - station]_{6487-a police - station} somewhere in [Clerkenwell]_{89-clerkenwell} , where , by the light of a lamp , [I]_0-i read , without leaving [the cab]_{6488-the cab} , the ghastly descriptions of all the dead bodies recently found in [London]_1-london and waiting identification . Hereupon [my]_0-i courage began to ooze , and the weather seemed much colder . The type was hard to read at that distance , and the imagination had fair play , as it does when words come slowly . Anon [the inspector]_{1959-the inspector} reappeared , so altered in dress and countenance , that [I]_0-i did not know [him]_{1959-the inspector} until [he]_{1959-the inspector} made [me]_0-i a bow . With a glance of encouragement , and a little grin of dry humour , [he]_{1959-the inspector} mounted the box again . After another long drive , in the course of which [we]_6486-we ran silently over [a wooden road,—probably High Holborn,—we]_{6490-a wooden road,—probably high holborn,—we} stopped in [a broad but deserted thoroughfare]_{6491-a broad but deserted thoroughfare} , very badly lighted . Here [Mr. Cutting]_{415-mr. cutting} opened the door , helped [me]_0-i out , and discharged [the cab]_{6488-the cab} , but whispered something to [the driver]_{6033-the driver} before [he]_{6033-the driver} let [him]_{6033-the driver} go . "_[0-i] Now take [my]_0-i arm , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , if [you]_{423-miss valence} please . [I]_0-i have escorted [many [a lady of higher birth]_{2307-a lady of higher birth} than [yours]_{423-miss valence}]_{2306-many a lady of higher birth than yours} . " "_{[2307-a lady of higher birth]} Of higher title perhaps , [Mr. Cutting]_{415-mr. cutting} ; and [[their]_{2306-many a lady of higher birth than yours} grandfathers money - lenders]_{2308-their grandfathers money - lenders} , or perhaps far worse . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am sure [I]_0-i do n't know ; [we]_2309-we must take things as [we]_2309-we find them . [I]_0-i thought [you]_{423-miss valence} despised such nonsense . But the cabbage that runs to seed is the tallest in [the field]_{5597-the field} . [No Englishman]_{2311-no englishman} sees the nonsense of it , unless [he]_{2311-no englishman} happens to be [a detective]_{2312-a detective} or [a grave - digger]_{2313-a grave - digger} . " "_{[2311-no englishman]} Do [you]_{423-miss valence} mean to say that [those of lofty birth]_{2314-those of lofty birth} are worse than those of low birth ? " "_{[423-miss valence]} No , [I]_0-i mean nothing of the sort . But [I]_0-i do mean that they ought to be better , and on the whole are not so . Nature holds the balance , and temptation and education chuck into the opposite scales , and [I]_0-i think the first chucks fastest . At any rate [I]_0-i would rather have [a good drunken navvy]_{2315-a good drunken navvy} than [a lord]_{2316-a lord} to take to [the station]_{2317-the station} . [I]_0-i mean of course when [my]_0-i own rank was not what it is . " This little dissertation was meant to divert [my]_{5381-poor child} thoughts . [I]_{5381-poor child} made no reply , being ignorant of such matters ; neither did [I]_{5381-poor child} care to talk about them then . Nevertheless , [I]_{5381-poor child} believe [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} was wrong . As [we]_6494-we entered [a narrow street]_{6495-a narrow street} [he]_{412-inspector cutting} suddenly turned and looked at [me]_{5381-poor child} . "_{[5381-poor child]} [Poor child]_{5381-poor child} ! how [you]_{5381-poor child} tremble ! Draw [your]_{5381-poor child} cape more forward ; the bitter cold requires it . Are [you]_{5381-poor child} trembling from fear ? " "_{[5381-poor child]} No ; only from cold . " But [I]_{5381-poor child} tried in vain to think so . "_{[5381-poor child]} A steady hand and steadfast nerve are wanted for [your]_{5381-poor child} task . If [you]_{5381-poor child} can not rely on [them]_2319-them , say so at once . In five minutes [you]_{5381-poor child} will have no retreat . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i shall be better directly . But [I]_0-i am so cold . [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} , it must be freezing hard — ten degrees , [I]_0-i should think . " "_{[412-inspector cutting]} It does not freeze at all . [I]_0-i see [we]_2320-we must warm [you]_{5381-poor child} a little . But no more ' [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} , ' if [you]_{5381-poor child} please , until to - morrow . " Hereupon [he]_{412-inspector cutting} led [me]_{412-inspector cutting} into [a little room]_{6496-a little room} , fenced off from [the bar of [some refreshment - house]_{6498-some refreshment - house}]_{6497-the bar of some refreshment - house} . A glorious fire was burning , by which [he]_{412-inspector cutting} set and left [me]_{412-inspector cutting} . Presently [he]_{412-inspector cutting} returned , with a small glass in [his]_{412-inspector cutting} hand . "_{[412-inspector cutting]} Drink this , [young lady]_{1872-young lady} . It will warm [you]_{5381-poor child} , and brace [your]_{5381-poor child} nerves . " [I]_{412-inspector cutting} saw by the firelight that it was brandy , or some dark - coloured spirit . "_{[412-inspector cutting]} No , [I]_0-i thank [you]_{412-inspector cutting} . Do [you]_{412-inspector cutting} suppose that [I]_0-i require [Dutch]_459-dutch courage ? " [I]_{412-inspector cutting} threw such emphasis on the personal pronoun , and looked at [him]_{412-inspector cutting} so indignantly , that [he]_{412-inspector cutting} laughed outright . "_{[412-inspector cutting]} [I]_0-i thank [you]_{5381-poor child} in turn . [You]_{5381-poor child} suppose that [I]_0-i do . [I]_0-i will justify [your]_{5381-poor child} discernment . " And with that [he]_{412-inspector cutting} tipped it off , and then returned to business , all the graver for the interlude . "_[0-i] Now , if [you]_{5381-poor child} are really warm , [we]_2322-we will start again . Stop one moment . [I]_0-i have heard [you]_{5381-poor child} cough two or three times . Can [you]_{5381-poor child} keep it under ? " [I]_{5381-poor child} assured [him]_{412-inspector cutting} that [I]_{5381-poor child} could very easily do so , and that it was nothing but the sudden effect of the cold . Forth [we]_2322-we went again into the winter night , after [I]_{5381-poor child} had learned from [him]_{412-inspector cutting} that [we]_2322-we were now in [Whitechapel]_{90-whitechapel} , not far from [Goodman 's Fields]_{91-goodman 's fields} . After another short walk , [we]_2322-we came to the end of [a narrow by - street]_{6499-a narrow by - street} , where there was an archway . Passing through this archway , [we]_2322-we descended some steep and broken steps . Then [the Inspector]_{1959-the inspector} produced a small lamp brightly burning , which [he]_{1959-the inspector} must have lit at [the public - house]_{6501-the public - house} . It was not what is called a bull's - eye , but a reflector - lamp . By its light [I]_{5381-poor child} saw that the chief entrance to [the house]_{764-the house} must be round the corner , and perhaps in [another street]_{6503-another street} . With a small key which [he]_{412-inspector cutting} took from [his]_{412-inspector cutting} pocket , [Mr. Cutting]_{415-mr. cutting} unlocked a little iron gate , and [we]_2322-we entered [a narrow passage]_{6504-a narrow passage} . At the end of [it]_{6504-a narrow passage} was a massive door studded with great nails . Here [[my]_{5381-poor child} guide]_{5798-my guide} gave a gentle knock , and hid the lamp as before . Presently [we]_2322-we heard a shrill sound from the keyhole , like a dryad 's voice . [The Inspector]_{1959-the inspector} stooped thereto , and pronounced the password . Not without some difficulty the lock was turned and the bolts withdrawn , and [we]_2322-we stood inside . [A child , under - sized and unnaturally sharp]_{6507-a child , under - sized and unnaturally sharp} , stared at [us]_2322-we for a moment , then dodged away from the lamp , as if more accustomed to darkness . [Mr. Cutting]_{415-mr. cutting} closed the door and refastened it , then led [me]_{5381-poor child} through [some basement rooms]_{6508-some basement rooms} unpaved and unfurnished , until [we]_2322-we came to an iron step - ladder . This [he]_{412-inspector cutting} ascended , and helped [me]_{5381-poor child} up , and [we]_2322-we found [ourselves]_2322-we in a small dark lobby , containing no furniture , except a high three - legged stool . When [he]_{412-inspector cutting} closed [his]_{412-inspector cutting} lamp all around was dark , but on the rafters overhead a faint patch of light appeared — ceiling there was none . "_{[5381-poor child]} Do [you]_2323-you see that light ? " [he]_{412-inspector cutting} whispered to [me]_2323-you , pointing , as [I]_2323-you could just perceive , to a narrow glazed opening high in the wall , whence the faint gleam proceeded . "_[2323-you] Then jump upon this stool , and do [your]_2323-you best to see through . " [He]_0-i cast the light of [his]_0-i lamp upon the stool for a moment , while [I]_0-i did as [he]_0-i bade [me]_0-i . Standing there , [I]_0-i found that [I]_0-i was tall enough to look through ; but the narrow pane which formed the window was thickly covered with size , or some opaque integument . All [I]_0-i could tell was , that the space beyond was lighted . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i know [you]_2323-you ca n't see now , " [he]_0-i said , as [I]_2323-you came down despairing , "_[2323-you] but [you]_2323-you shall see by and by . [The fools who were here before]_{2324-the fools who were here before} sized the glass on the wrong side , and this lot , though much sharper , have not corrected the error . [They]_{2324-the fools who were here before} keep that window for escape in the last resort . Now take this bottle and this camel's - hair brush ; it will make the glass transparent without the smallest noise . [The men]_{5486-the men} are not there yet . [We]_2326-we could easily rub it clear now , but [they]_{5486-the men} will examine it . When the time comes , use the liquid most carefully and lightly , and do n't spread it higher than an inch from the bottom of the frame . The lights are at this end ; the shadow of the sill will allow [you]_2323-you just an inch . " "_[0-i] And how far may [I]_0-i go horizontally ? " "_[0-i] The whole length of the glass , to command as much view as possible . The effect will pass in three or four minutes , but [you]_2323-you must not do it again . If [you]_2323-you do , the glass will fly , and [you]_2323-you will be in [their]_{5486-the men} hands . [Desperate men]_{2327-desperate men} [they]_{5486-the men} are , and though [I]_0-i shall be near , [I]_0-i might be too late to save [you]_2323-you . See all [you]_2323-you can , to be able to swear to [them]_{5486-the men} all . " "_{[1111-the one]} How shall [I]_0-i know [the one]_{1111-the one} ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i can not tell [you]_2323-you . [I]_0-i must leave it to [your]_2323-you instinct , or [your]_2323-you intuition . [I]_0-i only know [myself]_0-i that [he]_{1111-the one} is one of the four . [My]_0-i information , such as it is , was obtained very oddly , and [I]_0-i trust to this night 's work to make it more precise . One thing more : No noise , if [you]_2323-you value [your]_2323-you life . Keep the bottle stopped . Do n't let the stuff drop on [you]_2323-you ; do n't put [your]_2323-you eyes to it , or it will blind [you]_2323-you for ever . There is very little of it , because it is so deadly . " "_[0-i] When shall [I]_0-i do it ? " "_[0-i] In one hour from this time . Take [this repeater]_{2329-this repeater} . [I]_0-i have shown [you]_2323-you how to use it . Look well at it now , while [you]_2323-you have the light . " [I]_0-i looked at the watch ; it was nearly midnight . "_[0-i] Am [I]_0-i to be left in the dark — all in the dark here , by [myself]_0-i ? " "_[2330-they] Yes . [I]_0-i must be seen elsewhere , or the whole thing fails . [They]_2330-they know [me]_0-i even in this dress , and [they]_2330-they watch [me]_0-i as [I]_0-i do [them]_2330-they . But for to - night [I]_0-i believe [I]_0-i have misled [them]_2330-they . When it is over , wait here till [I]_0-i come for [you]_2323-you , or [the little girl [you]_2323-you saw]_{2331-the little girl you saw} . " "_[0-i] Oh ! [I]_0-i wish [I]_0-i had never come ; and all so vague and indecisive ! " "_[2323-you] [You]_2323-you can go back now , if [you]_2323-you please ; though ever that would be dangerous . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i will not go back . No doubt [I]_0-i shall know [him]_0-i . When will [you]_0-i secure [him]_0-i ? " "_[0-i] When [my]_0-i evidence is completed . Now , remember , [you]_2323-you have to deal with men keen as hawks , and stealthy as tigers . But there is no real danger , if [you]_2323-you keep [your]_2323-you self - command . Observe all four as narrowly as [you]_2323-you can , both for [your]_2323-you own sake and for [mine]_0-i . Be careful to stand on the centre of the stool . But [you]_2323-you had better not get upon it until [they]_2332-they have searched [the room]_{823-the room} . Now , good - bye . [I]_0-i trust to [your]_2323-you courage . If any harm comes , [I]_0-i will avenge [you]_2323-you . " "_[0-i] A comfort that ! What good will it be to [me]_0-i ? " "_[0-i] If vengeance is no good , what are [you]_0-i doing [here]_846-here ? " "_[0-i] Thank [you]_0-i . That is no business of [yours]_2323-you . Do n't let [me]_0-i detain [you]_2323-you . " [He]_0-i told [me]_0-i afterwards that [he]_0-i had vexed [me]_0-i on purpose to arouse [my]_0-i mettle . And [I]_0-i am sure [I]_0-i needed it . "_[0-i] Ah ! now [you]_2323-you are all right . If [your]_2323-you caution fails [you]_2323-you , [the man who slew [[your]_2323-you father]_{5365-your father}]_{2335-the man who slew your father} will be sure to escape [us]_2337-us . " "_{[2335-the man who slew your father]} If it fails [me]_0-i , ' twill be from anger , not from terror . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i know it . Let [me]_0-i look at [you]_2323-you . " [He]_0-i threw the full light on [my]_0-i face . The burnished concave was not brighter or firmer than [my]_0-i eyes . "_[0-i] Pale as death , and quite as resolute . Rely only upon [yourself]_2323-you . " "_[303-god] [God]_303-god and [myself]_0-i , " [I]_303-god whispered , as [he]_0-i glided out of sight along [the vaults below]_{6509-the vaults below} . [I]_303-god could see no other entrance to [the place in which [I]_303-god sat]_{6510-the place in which i sat} ; but how could [I]_303-god tell ? For a minute excitement kept [me]_303-god hot ; but as the last gleam of the light died upon the wall below , [my]_303-god heart began to throb heavily , and a chill came over [me]_303-god . The pulse thumped in [my]_303-god ears , like a knocking in [the cellar]_{1496-the cellar} . "_[303-god] Was it fear ? " [I]_303-god asked [myself]_303-god , in scorn that [I]_303-god should ask . No , it was not fear , but horrible suspense . The balance of life and death , of triumph and disgrace , swung there before [me]_303-god in the dark , as if [my]_303-god breath would turn it . No dream of [a child]_{782-a child} , no vagary of the brain — the clear perception of strong will and soul poised upon this moment . The moment was too long ; the powers began to fail , the senses grew more faint and confused at every heavy throb . Little images and little questions took the place of large ones . In vain [I]_303-god looked for even a cobweb , or the skeleton of a fly , where the dull light flickered through the pane of glass . In vain [I]_303-god listened for a mouse . Even a rat ( much as [I]_303-god hate [him]_0-i ) would have been welcome then . The repeater was purposely made so low of tick , that [I]_303-god got no comfort thence . All was deep , unfathomable silence , except the sound of [my]_303-god rebel heart . As a forlorn hope , [I]_303-god began to reckon sixty slowly , as [a child]_{782-a child} keeps with a ticking clock . It would not do . [My]_303-god heart was beating louder than ever , and [my]_303-god hands were trembling ; even [my]_303-god teeth rattled like dice in a box as the time approached . The nerves will not be hoodwinked ; the mind can not swindle the body . [I]_303-god once slapped the cheeks of [[my]_303-god governess]_{1019-my governess} . [I]_303-god can not treat nature so . Try the sweet influence , and the honest coin of reason . It will not do . All trembling , [I]_303-god strike the repeater . Five minutes more , and the trial must come . [My]_303-god heart is fluttering like a pigeon 's throat . The long suspense has been too much . Oh ! why was [I]_303-god submitted to this cruel ordeal ? The walls are thick . [I]_303-god can hear no movement in [the secret room]_{6515-the secret room} . There comes a creeping , fingering , sound , as of one whose candle is out , groping for the door . It passes along the pane of glass , and a shadow is thrown on the rafter . Who can it be ? What stealthy hand but that of [[[my]_303-god father]_{731-my father} 's murderer]_{5361-my father 's murderer} ? The word — the thought is enough . What resolution , reason , justice , all in turn , have failed to do , passion has done at once — passion at [myself]_303-god , as well as at [[my]_303-god enemy]_{1966-my enemy} . Is it [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara , who , for eight long years of demon 's reign , has breathed but for this moment — is [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara to shake like the wooden - legged blackbird now [her]_293-clara chance is come ? A rush of triumph burned , like vitriol , through [my]_303-god veins . Every nerve was braced , every sense alert and eager . Against the light of that window , dull as it was , [I]_303-god could have threaded the finest needle that ever was made . [I]_303-god struck [my]_303-god repeater again . It was the hour , the minute , when [[my]_303-god father]_{731-my father} died . With the mere spring of [my]_303-god instep [I]_303-god leaped upon the stool . [I]_303-god could see it clearly now . [I]_303-god dipped the broad camel's - hair brush in the flat phial , holding it carefully at arm 's length , and then drew it lightly along the pane , quite at the bottom , from corner to corner . One more dip , one more stripe above , a steam hovered on the glass , and there was a gazing - place , clear as crystal , and wide enough to show most of [the narrow room]_{6520-the narrow room} . Of [the room itself]_{6521-the room itself} [I]_303-god took no heed ; [the occupants]_{6522-the occupants} were [[my]_303-god study]_{5434-my study} . Only four in all . [One man at a high desk]_{6524-one man at a high desk} writing rapidly ; [three men]_{6525-three men} sitting round a small table , talking earnestly , and with much gesticulation , but the tone too low for [me]_303-god even to guess [their]_{6525-three men} language . From the appearance , manner , and action of [the speakers]_{6526-the speakers} , [I]_303-god felt sure that it was not English , and [I]_303-god thought that it was not French . Why , [I]_303-god can not say ; but [my]_303-god attention fixed itself upon [the man who was writing at the top of the room]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} . Perhaps it was because [I]_303-god could see [him]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} best , for [he]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} stood with [his]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} face full towards [me]_303-god . [He]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} was [a man of middle age and stature , strongly framed , closely knit , and light of limb , with a handsome , keenly oval face , broad forehead , black eyes]_{6528-a man of middle age and stature , strongly framed , closely knit , and light of limb , with a handsome , keenly oval face , broad forehead , black eyes} , glancing quickly and scornfully at [[his]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} three comrades]_{6529-his three comrades} , long hair of an iron grey , falling on [his]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} shoulders , and tossed back often with a jerk of the head . [His]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} hands were white and restless , quick as light in their motion . On the left thumb flashed a large red jewel . Though [I]_303-god could not see the paper , [I]_303-god knew by the course of the quill that the writing was very small . But one minute [I]_303-god watched [him]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} , for the film was returning upon the glass , and [I]_303-god must scan [the others]_{1636-the others} ; yet in that time [he]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} had written several lines , half of them without looking at the paper , but with [his]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} eyes upon [the other three]_{6531-the other three} . [I]_303-god knew [him]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} now [he]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} was in clear light , [I]_303-god could swear to [him]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} anywhere again . The last glance [I]_303-god could spare [him]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} sent a shudder through [me]_303-god , for in [his]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} impatience [he]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} shifted one foot from the shade of the desk . It was small , pointed , and elegant . The film was thickening , like frost upon the pane , when [I]_303-god began to observe [the others]_{1636-the others} . But [I]_303-god saw enough to print [their]_{1636-the others} faces on [my]_303-god memory , or those at least of two . The third [I]_303-god could not see so well . [He]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} seemed older than [the rest]_{6533-the rest} . [All the men]_{6534-all the men} wore loose grey tunics , with a red sash over the left shoulder . [I]_303-god judged that [the three]_{6535-the three} were debating hotly , as to some measure , upon which [the fourth]_{6536-the fourth} had resolved . Every now and then , [they]_{6535-the three} glanced at [him]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} uneasily . At [him]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} [I]_303-god gazed again , with deadly hatred , cold as ice , upon [my]_303-god heart . [I]_303-god felt [my]_303-god dagger handle . Oh for one moment with [him]_{6527-the man who was writing at the top of the room} ! In [my]_303-god fury [I]_303-god forgot [the Inspector]_{1959-the inspector} 's warning . The film was closing over . [I]_303-god touched the glass with [my]_303-god lashes . A flash of agony shot through [my]_303-god eyes . With a jerk [I]_303-god drew back , the stool rocked under [me]_303-god , one foot of it struck the wall . [I]_303-god clutched the window sill , and threw [my]_303-god weight inwards . Down came the foot of the stool , loud as the bang of a door . [I]_303-god thought it was all over . How [I]_303-god stifled a scream [I]_303-god know not ; had it escaped [me]_303-god , [I]_303-god should never have told this story . [I]_303-god had the presence of mind to stand still , and watch , though [my]_303-god eyes were maddening [me]_303-god , what the cut - throats would do . Through the agony , and the dimness , [I]_303-god could just see [them]_6538-them all start , and rush to the door at the side of [the room]_{823-the room} . [The writer]_{6119-the writer} stood first , with [his]_{6119-the writer} papers thrust anyhow into [his]_{6119-the writer} bosom , a pistol in one hand , a poniard in the other . Did [I]_303-god know the shape of it ? [The other three]_{6531-the other three} were armed , but [I]_303-god could not see with what . [They]_{6531-the other three} crouched behind a heavy screen , presenting ( [I]_303-god supposed ) [their]_{6531-the other three} pistol muzzles at the door . Finding no attack ensue , [they]_{6531-the other three} began to search . Now was the real danger to [me]_303-god . If [they]_{6531-the other three} searched that window before the size returned , [my]_303-god life ended there . Fear was past . Desperation seized [me]_303-god . If [I]_303-god was doomed to blindness , just as well to death . But [I]_303-god clutched [my]_303-god dagger . [My]_303-god left ear was against the wall . [I]_303-god heard a hand graze the partition inside , then a chair placed under the embrasure , and a step upon it . [I]_303-god was still upon the stool , stooping close beneath the window frame . Suddenly the light streak vanished , the size flew over it , as the breath flies over glass in the hardest frost . The hand felt along the window frame , the dull shadow of a head flitted upon the beam . It was within a foot of [mine]_303-god . [The searcher]_{6542-the searcher} passed on , without suspicion . Strange it was , but now the deadliest peril was over , triple fear fell upon [me]_303-god . The heat flew back to [my]_303-god heart , just now so stanch and rigid ; [my]_303-god hair seemed to creep with terror . Dear life , like true love scorned , would have its way within [me]_303-god . Quietly [I]_303-god slid down from the stool , and cowered upon it , in a storm of trembling . [My]_303-god eyelids dropped in agony , [I]_303-god could not lift them again , but blue and red lights seemed to dance within them . [I]_303-god had made up [my]_303-god mind to blindness ; but not , oh not just yet , to death . How long [I]_303-god remained in this abject state , scorning [myself]_303-god , yet none the braver , is more than [I]_303-god can tell , or even cared to ask . May it never be the lot of any , not even [the basest murderer]_{6543-the basest murderer} ! Worn out at last , in a lull of pain and terror , [I]_303-god fell into deep sleep , from which [I]_303-god was awakened by a hand upon [my]_303-god shoulder . [I]_303-god tried to look up , but could not . Sight was fled , and as [I]_303-god thought for ever . But [I]_303-god felt that it was [a friend]_{6544-a friend} . "_[303-god] Ah , [I]_0-i see how it is"—the voice was [Inspector Cutting's—"my_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} poor child]_{6545-inspector cutting's—"my poor child} , there is now no danger . Give [me]_0-i [your]_2338-your hand : " [he]_0-i tried to lift [me]_2338-your , but [I]_2338-your fell against the wall . "_[2338-your] Take a sip of this , [we]_2339-we must restore circulation . It is the cold as much as anything ; another sip , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara . " [He]_0-i used [my]_293-clara true name on purpose ; it helped to restore [me]_293-clara . [He]_0-i was most humane and kind ; [he]_0-i did not even remind [me]_293-clara of [Dutch]_459-dutch courage . In the morning [I]_293-clara dreamed of [Isola]_457-isola . Across [a broad black river]_{6546-a broad black river} , [I]_293-clara saw [her]_457-isola lovely smile . Thick fog rose from the water , in which two swans were beating a dog , and by snatches only could [I]_293-clara see [[my]_293-clara darling]_{5337-my darling} . [She]_457-isola waved [her]_457-isola little hand to [me]_293-clara , and begged [me]_293-clara , with that coaxing smile which bent cast iron and even gold , to come across to [Isola]_457-isola . In vain [I]_293-clara looked for [a boat]_{6548-a boat} , even in [my]_293-clara dream [I]_293-clara knew that [I]_293-clara could not swim , and if [I]_293-clara could , the lead upon [my]_293-clara eyelids would have sunk [me]_293-clara . So [I]_293-clara called to [her]_457-isola to come to [me]_293-clara , and with that cry awoke . It was striking ten — [my]_293-clara own little clock which [[my]_293-clara father]_{731-my father} gave [me]_293-clara . [I]_293-clara counted every stroke . What was [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} doing , that [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had not called [me]_293-clara yet ? What was [I]_293-clara doing , that [I]_293-clara lay there so late ; for [I]_293-clara always get up early ? And what was the sun about , that no light came into [the room]_{823-the room} ? [I]_293-clara knew it was ten in the morning . [I]_293-clara felt all round . [I]_293-clara was in [my]_293-clara little bed , the splinter at the side of the head - board ran into [my]_293-clara finger as usual . There [I]_293-clara was , and nowhere else . Was it a tremendous fog ? If it was , [they]_6551-they should have told [me]_293-clara , for [they]_6551-they knew that [I]_293-clara liked fogs . At least [they]_6551-they thought so , from the interest [I]_293-clara felt . [I]_293-clara groped for the little bell - pull , a sleezy worsted cord , which meant to break every time , but was not strong enough to do it . [I]_293-clara jerked with all [my]_293-clara strength , which seemed very little somehow . What a pleasure ! The bell rang like a fire - peal . [I]_293-clara fell back on the pillow , exhausted , but determined to have it out with [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . [I]_293-clara put [my]_293-clara hands up to arrange [my]_293-clara hair , to look a little more like [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara , when the light should enter , and to frighten [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . There was something on [my]_293-clara head . [I]_293-clara never wear a night - cap ; [my]_293-clara long black hair would scorn it . Am [I]_293-clara in [a madhouse]_{6552-a madhouse} , is this put to keep [me]_293-clara cool ? Cold it is , and [my]_293-clara brain so hot . [All [Wenham]_92-wenham lake on Dives]_{6553-all wenham lake on dives} , and [he]_{6553-all wenham lake on dives} will only hiss . While [I]_293-clara am pulling at it , and find it streaming wet , in comes — [I]_293-clara know [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} step — [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . But there is no light from [the passage]_{824-the passage} ! "_[293-clara] [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , what do [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} mean by this ? " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} By what , [[my]_0-i dear good soul]_{2340-my dear good soul} ? [I]_0-i have done all the blessed things [I]_0-i was told to do for [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . [You]_{391-mrs. shelfer} might have put a ostrich feather or a marabout to [my]_0-i mouth , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , and tucked [me]_0-i up , and a headstone , and none the wiser , when [Uncle John]_{411-miss vaughan} brought [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} [home]_1102-home last night . " "_{[411-miss vaughan]} [I]_0-i suppose [I]_0-i am dreaming . But [I]_0-i am sure [I]_0-i rang the bell . " "_[0-i] [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , [you]_{423-miss valence} did so , and no mistake . Bless [me]_0-i ! [I]_0-i started in [my]_0-i shoes . A good job , [Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was n't [home]_1102-home , [he]_{411-miss vaughan} 's so nervous . [He]_{411-miss vaughan} 'd have gone for gin straightways . Now get up , that 's [a dear good soul]_{2343-a dear good soul} , and when [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} have had some breakfast , [we]_2344-we 'll talk over it , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} . Let [me]_0-i see how [your]_{391-mrs. shelfer} eyes are . [Uncle John]_{411-miss vaughan} said they was bad , and [I]_0-i was to keep them covered . [I]_0-i expects [him]_{411-miss vaughan} [here]_846-here every minute . Now turn them up to the light . What large eyes [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} have , to be sure . Bless [me]_0-i ! Where are [your]_{391-mrs. shelfer} long black lashes ? " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , there is some strange mistake . Let the light into [the room]_{823-the room} . " [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had risen in the bed , and [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} breath was on [my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} forehead . "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Light , [dear child]_{2347-dear child} , [I]_0-i ca n't let more . The sun is on [your]_{2347-dear child} face . " [I]_{1872-young lady} fell back upon [my]_{1872-young lady} pillow , and could rise no more . The truth had been tingling through [me]_{1872-young lady} , all the time [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} talked . [I]_{1872-young lady} was stone - blind . [I]_{1872-young lady} flung the bandage from [me]_{1872-young lady} , and wished [my]_{1872-young lady} heart would break . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} tried some comfort . [She]_{391-mrs. shelfer} seemed to grieve for [my]_{1872-young lady} eyelashes , more than for [my]_{1872-young lady} eyes ; and addressed [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} comfort more to [my]_{1872-young lady} looks than sight . Of course , [I]_{1872-young lady} did not listen . When would the creature be gone , and let [me]_{1872-young lady} try to think ? [Poor little thing]_{6555-poor little thing} ! [I]_{1872-young lady} was very sorry ; what fault was it of [hers]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ? Who and what am [I]_{1872-young lady} , blind [I]_{1872-young lady} , to find fault with [any one who means [me]_{1872-young lady} well]_{6556-any one who means me well} ? [I]_{1872-young lady} drop [my]_{1872-young lady} eyelids , [I]_{1872-young lady} can feel them fall ; [I]_{1872-young lady} lift them , [I]_{1872-young lady} can feel them rise ; a full gaze , a side gaze , a half gaze ; with both eyes , with one ; it is all the same ; gaze there may be , but no sight . Henceforth [I]_{1872-young lady} want no eyelids . The sun is on [my]_{1872-young lady} face . [I]_{1872-young lady} can feel [his]_6557-his winter rays , though [my]_{1872-young lady} cheeks are wet . What use is [he]_6557-his to [me]_{1872-young lady} ? [I]_{1872-young lady} have the dagger somewhere by which [[my]_{1872-young lady} father]_{731-my father} died . Let [me]_{1872-young lady} find it , if [I]_{1872-young lady} can . [I]_{1872-young lady} could have sworn that the box was in that corner carefully concealed . [I]_{1872-young lady} strike against a washing - stand . Ah , now [I]_{1872-young lady} have it ; the box is locked , [my]_{1872-young lady} keys are in the top - drawer . [I]_{1872-young lady} bear the box to the bed , and go groping for the chest of drawers . Already [I]_{1872-young lady} can tell by the sun - warmth on [my]_{1872-young lady} face , which way [I]_{1872-young lady} am going . Surely , if [I]_{1872-young lady} wait , [I]_{1872-young lady} shall have the instinct of the blind . What care [I]_{1872-young lady} for that ? The coward love of life suggested that poor solace . Now [I]_{1872-young lady} have the keys . [Quick]_460-quick unlock the box . At length [I]_{1872-young lady} throw the cover back . The weapon handle is to the right . [I]_{1872-young lady} stoop to seize it . [I]_{1872-young lady} grasp a square of colour . Pretty instinct this ! [I]_{1872-young lady} have got [my]_{1872-young lady} largest drawing box . Oh paints , [my]_{1872-young lady} paints , so loved but yesterday , that ape the colours [I]_{1872-young lady} shall never see , [my]_{1872-young lady} hot tears make [you]_6559-you water - colours indeed ! If [God]_303-god has robbed [my]_{1872-young lady} eyes of sight , [He]_303-god has not dried [my]_{1872-young lady} tears . The gushing flood relieves [me]_{1872-young lady} . What right have [I]_{1872-young lady} to die ? Even without asking if [my]_{1872-young lady} case be hopeless ! Who knows but what these lovely tints may glow for [me]_{1872-young lady} again ? May [I]_{1872-young lady} not once more intone the carmine damask of the rose , the gauzy green of [April]_461-april 's scarf ? Softening scenes before [me]_{1872-young lady} rise . [I]_{1872-young lady} lay [my]_{1872-young lady} box of colours by , and creep into [my]_{1872-young lady} bed for warmth . Presently [the doctor]_{5643-the doctor} comes . [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} has chosen [him]_{5643-the doctor} , and chosen well . From [his]_{5643-the doctor} voice [I]_{1872-young lady} know that [he]_{5643-the doctor} is [a gentleman]_{5462-a gentleman} , from [his]_{5643-the doctor} words and touch instinctively [I]_{1872-young lady} feel that [he]_{5643-the doctor} understands the case . When [he]_{5643-the doctor} has finished the examination [he]_{5643-the doctor} sees [me]_{1872-young lady} trembling for the answer which [I]_{1872-young lady} dare not seek . "_{[1872-young lady]} [Young lady]_{1872-young lady} , [I]_0-i have hopes , strong hopes . It is quite impossible to say what course the inflammation may pursue . All depends on that . At present there is a film over the membrane , but the cornea is uninjured . Perfect quiet , composure , so far as in such a case is possible , cold applications , and the exclusion of light , are the simple remedies . All the rest must be left to nature . Avoid excitement of any kind . Diet as low as possible . Do not admit [[your]_{1872-young lady} dearest friends]_{2349-your dearest friends} , unless [they]_{2349-your dearest friends} will keep perfect silence . Even so , [they]_{2349-your dearest friends} are better away , unless [you]_{1872-young lady} pine at loneliness . " "_{[1872-young lady]} Oh no . [I]_0-i am quite accustomed to that . " "_[0-i] That is well . [I]_0-i shall make a point of calling daily , but shall not examine [your]_{1872-young lady} eyes every time . The excitement and the effort would strain the optic nerve . [Our]_2350-our object is to keep the inflammation from striking inwards . [I]_0-i should not tell [you]_{1872-young lady} all this , but [I]_0-i see that [you]_{1872-young lady} have much self - command . On that and [your]_{1872-young lady} constitution , under Providence , the cure depends . One question . [I]_0-i am not [a professed ophthalmist]_{2351-a professed ophthalmist} , would [you]_{1872-young lady} prefer to have one ? " "_{[1872-young lady]} Oblige [me]_0-i with [your]_{1872-young lady} opinion . " "_{[1872-young lady]} It is a delicate point for [me]_0-i . There is no operation to perform . It is a medical , not a surgical case . [I]_0-i have dealt with such before . Were [you]_{1872-young lady} [[my]_0-i own child]_{2352-my own child} [I]_0-i would call in [no ophthalmist]_{2353-no ophthalmist} , but as [you]_{1872-young lady} are [a stranger to [me]_0-i]_{2354-a stranger to me} , [I]_0-i wish [you]_{1872-young lady} to decide for [yourself]_{1872-young lady} . " "_[0-i] Then , [I]_0-i will have none . [I]_0-i have perfect confidence in [you]_{1872-young lady} . " [He]_0-i seemed gratified , and took [his]_0-i leave . "_[0-i] Please [God]_303-god , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , [you]_{1872-young lady} shall look [me]_0-i in the face ere long . " "_{[1872-young lady]} Composure is [my]_0-i only chance . " What chance have [I]_{1872-young lady} of composure until [I]_{1872-young lady} know the meaning of what [I]_{1872-young lady} saw last night ? Blind though [I]_{1872-young lady} am , one face is ever before [me]_{1872-young lady} . No thickening of the membrane can exclude that face . [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} is still below ; [I]_{1872-young lady} will send for [him]_{412-inspector cutting} at once . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} remonstrates . "_{[1872-young lady]} It will excite [you]_{1872-young lady} so , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} . [The doctor]_{5643-the doctor} said perfect quiet . " "_{[5643-the doctor]} Just so . [I]_0-i can have none , until [I]_0-i have spoken to [[your]_{1872-young lady} Uncle [John]_{411-miss vaughan}]_{2357-your uncle john} . Let [him]_{411-miss vaughan} stay in [[my]_0-i sitting - room]_{2358-my sitting - room} , open the folding - door a little , and then , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , please to go down [stairs]_1506-stairs . " [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} hear [the Inspector]_{1959-the inspector} 's step , not so heavy this time . [He]_{1959-the inspector} asks how [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} am , and expresses [his]_{1959-the inspector} sorrow . [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} feel obliged to [him]_{1959-the inspector} for not reminding [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} that the fault was all [my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} own . Then [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} implore [him]_{1959-the inspector} , if [he]_{1959-the inspector} wishes [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ever to see again , to tell [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} all [he]_{1959-the inspector} knows about [the men [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} saw last night]_{6563-the men i saw last night} . Thus entreated , [he]_{1959-the inspector} can not refuse [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , but first looks up and down the stairs , as [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} know by the sound of [his]_{1959-the inspector} steps ; then [he]_{1959-the inspector} shuts the door of [the sitting - room]_{6564-the sitting - room} . All [he]_{1959-the inspector} knows is not very much . [They]_2361-they are [refugees]_{6565-refugees} , [Italian refugees]_{6566-italian refugees} ; [two political and [two criminal exiles]_{6568-two criminal exiles} , leaders now of a conspiracy to revolutionize [[their]_{6567-two political and two criminal exiles , leaders now of a conspiracy to revolutionize their country} country]_{6569-their country}]_{6567-two political and two criminal exiles , leaders now of a conspiracy to revolutionize their country} . "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} But why does [he]_2360-he not arrest [them]_2361-they ? ' " Simply because [he]_2360-he has no right . As for [the political refugees]_{6570-the political refugees} , of course , [we]_6571-we never meddle with [them]_{6570-the political refugees} ; as for [the two criminals]_{6572-the two criminals} , [they]_{6572-the two criminals} have not been demanded by [[their]_{6572-the two criminals} Government]_{6573-their government} . Wonderful now , is n't it ? [The two fellows who have committed murder [their]_{6572-the two criminals} Government]_{6574-the two fellows who have committed murder their government} would not give sixpence for [them]_{6572-the two criminals} ; but [the two men who have only spouted a little , it would give a thousand pounds]_{6575-the two men who have only spouted a little , it would give a thousand pounds} for [either of [them]_{6572-the two criminals}]_{6576-either of them} . [He]_{412-inspector cutting} ca n't understand such a system . "_{[412-inspector cutting]} And [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} sucks [his]_{412-inspector cutting} lips — [I]_0-i know it by the sound — [he]_{412-inspector cutting} always does it when [he]_{412-inspector cutting} is in a puzzle . Being [a true Englishman]_{2362-a true englishman} , [he]_{412-inspector cutting} knows no more of serfdom , than of the dark half of [the moon]_{2363-the moon} . [I]_0-i mean , of course , political serfdom . Of social slavery [we]_2364-we have enough to last ten generations more . " Would [he]_{412-inspector cutting} be afraid to arrest [them]_{6572-the two criminals} ? [He]_{412-inspector cutting} said [they]_{6572-the two criminals} were [desperate men]_{2327-desperate men} . "_[0-i] " [He]_{412-inspector cutting} should rather hope [he]_{412-inspector cutting} would n't . [They]_{6572-the two criminals} had got [their]_{6572-the two criminals} knives , and pistols , and all that humbug . But it was more show than fight . [They]_{6572-the two criminals} were desperate men in a private quarrel , particular when [they]_{6572-the two criminals} could come round a corner , and when [women]_5443-women were concerned ; but as for showing honest fight , [he]_{412-inspector cutting} would sooner come across [three of [them]_{6572-the two criminals}]_{6579-three of them} , than [one good Irish murderer]_{6580-one good irish murderer} . "_[2365-him] " What was [his]_2365-him proof against [[my]_0-i enemy]_{1966-my enemy} ? [I]_0-i need not ask [him]_2365-him which it was . "_[0-i] The excitement of this question sent needles through [my]_0-i eyes . And [I]_0-i could not see [him]_2365-him , to probe [his]_2365-him pupils . " Well , [his]_2365-him proof was very little . In fact it was no proof at all as yet . But [he]_2365-him was not like [a juryman]_{6582-a juryman} . [He]_2365-him was quite convinced ; and [his]_2365-him eyes should never be off [that man]_{1220-that man} , until [he]_2365-him had [him]_2365-him under warrant , and the whole case clear . Would that satisfy [me]_2365-him ? "_[2365-him] [He]_2365-him spoke with such hearty professional pride , that [I]_0-i could not help believing [him]_2365-him . But as for being satisfied — why should [his]_2365-him evidence be a mystery to [me]_0-i ? " Catch [him]_2365-him at once , "_[0-i] was [my]_0-i idea ; but a hot and foolish one . " Get up the evidence first , "_{[412-inspector cutting]} was [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} 's , " [I]_{412-inspector cutting} can catch [him]_2365-him at any time . "_{[412-inspector cutting]} That was the whole gist of it . Could [he]_{412-inspector cutting} always catch [him]_2365-him ? [He]_{412-inspector cutting} scorned the idea of there being any difficulty about it . [The man]_{5533-the man} could leave for [no part of [the Continent]_{6168-the continent}]_{2367-no part of the continent} ; [he]_{5533-the man} was [a political refugee]_{2369-a political refugee} . [America]_56-america was [[his]_2365-him only bourne beyond [the Inspector]_{1959-the inspector} 's jurisdiction]_{2370-his only bourne beyond the inspector 's jurisdiction} . And thither [he]_{5533-the man} could not try to go without [the Police]_{93-the police} being down upon [him]_{5533-the man} at once . By this time [I]_0-i was worn out , though [my]_0-i reasons were not exhausted . In a word , [I]_0-i was only half satisfied , but [I]_0-i could not help [myself]_0-i . If , in [my]_0-i helpless blindness , [I]_0-i offended [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} , the whole chance disappeared . Only one question remained . " Why did [he]_{5533-the man} take [me]_{412-inspector cutting} thither ? "_{[412-inspector cutting]} " For excellent reasons . As to the one , it was most important that [I]_0-i should always know [him]_{5533-the man} again . Moreover , it saved [my]_0-i energies from waste . As to the other three , [he]_{412-inspector cutting} had [his]_{412-inspector cutting} own reasons for requiring [an intelligent witness]_{6584-an intelligent witness} about [their]_{2375-such fellows as those} proceedings . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i thought of the thousand pounds , and said no more . [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} was [an Englishman]_{1891-an englishman} , and proud , in [his]_{412-inspector cutting} way , of English freedom . But , like [nine - tenths of [us]_2374-us]_{2373-nine - tenths of us} , [he]_{412-inspector cutting} thought that [we]_2374-us alone understand what freedom is . What good was it to [such fellows as those]_{2375-such fellows as those} ? [They]_{2375-such fellows as those} would only be free of [one another]_{758-one another} 's throats . And like all of [us]_2374-us , with most rare exception , next to freedom , [he]_{412-inspector cutting} valued money . For [our]_2374-us love of this , [many foreigners]_{2377-many foreigners} jeer [us]_2374-us . All [we]_2374-us can say is , that with [us]_2374-us it is second , with [them]_{2377-many foreigners} it is first . But [we]_2374-us are of such staple , [our]_2374-us second is stronger than [their]_{2377-many foreigners} first . When [the Inspector]_{1959-the inspector} was gone , [I]_0-i formed a very sensible resolve . Since there was nothing more to be done or learned at present , [my]_0-i only care should be the recovery of [my]_0-i sight . If [I]_0-i were to be blind till death , the purpose of [my]_0-i life was lost , and [I]_0-i might as well die at once . But now the first blind agony , the sudden shock , was over ; and [I]_0-i had too much of what [the Inspector]_{1959-the inspector} denominated " pluck , "_{[1959-the inspector]} to knock under so . In the afternoon , when all was quiet , [lovely Isola]_457-isola came . Strict orders had been given that [no one]_{730-no one} should be admitted . But [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was not proof against the wiles of [Isola]_457-isola . " [She]_457-isola smiled so bootiful , when [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} opened the door , [Miss]_6585-miss , it fetched out all [my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} hair pins ; and when [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} told [her]_457-isola [you]_6585-miss was ill in bed , and struck stone blind along of some chemical stuff , two big tears came out of [her]_457-isola long blue eyes , same as the wet out of a pennorth of violets , [Miss]_6586-miss ; and as for stopping [her]_457-isola , [she]_457-isola threw [her]_457-isola muff at [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , and told [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} to stop that if [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} liked , and to run and tell [you]_6585-miss that [she]_457-isola was coming , quick , quick ! "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} To be sure , and here [I]_0-i am ! " cried the cheery voice [I]_0-i loved so well . "_[0-i] Oh , [Clara]_293-clara dear , [dear Clara]_293-clara ! " [The little darling]_{6587-the little darling} flung [her]_{6587-the little darling} soft warm arms around [me]_293-clara , utterly forgetful of [her]_{6587-the little darling} dress , forgetful of all [the world]_{798-the world} , but that little bit of it [she]_{6587-the little darling} held . [Her]_{6587-the little darling} delicious breath came over [my]_293-clara fevered cheek , [her]_{6587-the little darling} cool satin flesh was on [my]_293-clara burning eyelids . What lotion could be compared to this ? How long [she]_{6587-the little darling} stayed , [I]_293-clara can not tell ; [I]_293-clara only know that while [I]_293-clara heard [her]_{6587-the little darling} voice , and felt [her]_{6587-the little darling} touch , blindness seemed no loss to [me]_293-clara . [She]_{6587-the little darling} pronounced [herself]_{6587-the little darling} [head nurse]_{6589-head nurse} ; and as for [doctors]_6590-doctors , what were [they]_6590-doctors , compared to [[her]_{6587-the little darling} own father]_{6591-her own father} ? If [she]_{6587-the little darling} could coax [him]_{6591-her own father} , [he]_{6591-her own father} should come next day , and deliver [his]_{6591-her own father} opinion , and then [the doctor]_{5643-the doctor} might betake [himself]_{5643-the doctor} to things [he]_{5643-the doctor} understood , if indeed [he]_{5643-the doctor} understood anything , which [she]_{6587-the little darling} did not believe [he]_{5643-the doctor} did , because [he]_{5643-the doctor} had said [she]_{6587-the little darling} was not to come . [My]_293-clara drawings too [she]_{6587-the little darling} admired , much more than they deserved , and [[her]_{6587-the little darling} brother]_{6430-her brother} [Conrad]_427-conrad must come and see them , [he]_427-conrad was so fond of drawing , and there was nothing [he]_427-conrad could not do . [She]_{6587-the little darling} was so sorry [she]_{6587-the little darling} must go now , but [old Cora]_429-cora must be tired of patroling , and [she]_{6587-the little darling} [herself]_{6587-the little darling} had a lecture to attend upon the chemical affinity of bodies . What it meant [she]_{6587-the little darling} had no idea , but that would not matter the least ; [some of [the clever girls]_{6595-the clever girls}]_{6594-some of the clever girls} said [they]_{6594-some of the clever girls} did , but [she]_{6587-the little darling} would not believe [them]_{6594-some of the clever girls} ; it took [a man]_{5384-a man} , [she]_{6587-the little darling} was sure , to understand such subjects . [She]_{6587-the little darling} would bring [her]_{6587-the little darling} work the next day , such as it was , and the nicest bit of sponge that was ever seen , it could not be bought in [London]_1-london ; and [she]_{6587-the little darling} would answer for it [I]_293-clara should be able to paint [her]_{6587-the little darling} likeness in a week ; and [she]_{6587-the little darling} would not go till it was dark ; and then [the Professor]_{2125-the professor} should come for [her]_{6587-the little darling} when [his]_{2125-the professor} lectures were over , and examine [me]_293-clara ; [he]_{2125-the professor} knew all about optics , and retinas , and pencils of light , and refraction and aberration , and [she]_{6587-the little darling} could not remember any more names ; but [she]_{6587-the little darling} felt quite certain this was a case of optical delusion , and nothing else . How [I]_293-clara wished [I]_293-clara could have seen [her]_{6587-the little darling} , when [she]_{6587-the little darling} pronounced this opinion , with no little solemnity . [She]_{6587-the little darling} must have looked such [a sage]_{6598-a sage} ! The thought of that made [me]_293-clara laugh , as well as the absurdity of the idea . But [I]_293-clara only asked how [the Professor]_{2125-the professor} was to examine [my]_293-clara eyes , if [he]_{2125-the professor} did not come till dark . To be sure ! [She]_{6587-the little darling} never thought of that . What [a little goose]_{6600-a little goose} [she]_{6587-the little darling} was ! But [she]_{6587-the little darling} would make [him]_{2125-the professor} come in the morning , before [his]_{2125-the professor} work began ; and then [old Cora]_429-cora would fetch [her]_{6587-the little darling} [home]_1102-home to tea . And [she]_{6587-the little darling} had very great hopes , that if [she]_{6587-the little darling} could only persuade [[her]_{6587-the little darling} papa]_{6420-her papa} to deliver a lecture in [[my]_293-clara room]_{986-my room} , it would have such an effect on [my]_293-clara optic nerves , that [they]_6604-them would come all right directly , at any rate [I]_293-clara should know how to treat [them]_6604-them . Delighted with this idea , [she]_{6587-the little darling} kissed [me]_293-clara , and hugged [me]_293-clara , and off [she]_{6587-the little darling} ran , after telling [me]_293-clara to be sure to keep [my]_293-clara spirits up , and the bandage not too tight . The latter injunction was much easier to obey than the former . [She]_{6587-the little darling} had enlivened [me]_293-clara wonderfully , as well as nursed [me]_293-clara most delicately ; but now that [she]_{6587-the little darling} was gone , the usual reaction commenced . Moreover , although as the saying is , the sight of [her]_{6587-the little darling} would have been good for sore eyes , the effort at seeing [her]_{6587-the little darling} , which [I]_293-clara could not control , when [she]_{6587-the little darling} was present , was , [I]_293-clara already felt , anything but good for [them]_6604-them . And the loss , when [she]_{6587-the little darling} was gone , was like a second loss of light . Light ! What million thoughts flash through [me]_293-clara at that little word ! Swiftest thing the mind has met , too like itself to understand . Is it steed or wing of mind ? Nay , not swift enough for that . Is it then the food of life , prepared betimes ere life appeared , the food [the blind]_{6605-the blind} receive but can not taste ? If so , far better to be blind from birth . Well [I]_293-clara know the taste from memory ; shall [I]_293-clara never taste it else ? Has beauty lost its way to [me]_293-clara ? The many golden folds of air , the lustrous dance of sunny morn , the soft reclining of the moon , the grand perspective of the stars ( long avenue to [[God]_303-god 's own home]_{6606-god 's own home} ) , are these all blank to [me]_293-clara , and night made one with day ? [Oh God , whose first approach was light , replenisher of sun and stars]_{6607-oh god , whose first approach was light , replenisher of sun and stars} , whence dart anew [thy]_6608-thy gushing floods ( solid or liquid [we]_6609-we know not ) , whose subtle volume has no bourne or track ; light , the dayside half of life , leaping , flashing , beaming ; glistening , twinkling , stealing ; light ! Oh [God]_303-god , if live [I]_293-clara must , grudge [me]_293-clara not a ray ! Low fever followed the long prostration to which the fear of outer darkness had reduced [my]_293-clara jaded nerves . This fever probably redeemed [my]_293-clara sight , by generalizing the local inflammation , to which object [the doctor]_{5643-the doctor} 's efforts had been directed . Tossing on [my]_293-clara weary bed , without a glimpse of anything , how [I]_293-clara longed for the soft caresses and cool lips of [Isola]_457-isola ! But since that one visit , [she]_457-isola had been sternly excluded . [The Professor]_{434-professor sallenders} had no chance of delivering [his]_{434-professor sallenders} therapeutic lecture . In fact [he]_{434-professor sallenders} did not come . "_[293-clara] Once for all , " said [Dr. Franks]_{462-dr. franks} , when [he]_0-i heard of that proposal , "_[293-clara] choose , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , between [my]_0-i services , and the maundering of some pansophist . If [you]_{423-miss valence} prefer the former , [I]_0-i will do [my]_0-i utmost , and can almost promise [you]_{423-miss valence} success ; but [I]_0-i must and will be obeyed . [None]_1510-none shall enter [[your]_{423-miss valence} room]_{2382-your room} , except [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} and [myself]_0-i . As to [[your]_{423-miss valence} lovely friend]_{2383-your lovely friend} , of whom [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} is so full , if [she]_{2383-your lovely friend} truly loves [you]_{423-miss valence} , [she]_{2383-your lovely friend} will keep away . [She]_{2383-your lovely friend} has done [you]_{423-miss valence} already more harm than [I]_0-i can undo in a week . [I]_0-i am deeply interested in this case , and feel for [you]_{423-miss valence} sincerely ; but unless [you]_{423-miss valence} promise [me]_0-i to see — [I]_0-i mean to receive — [no one]_{730-no one} without [my]_0-i permission , [I]_0-i will come no more . " It sounded very hard , but [I]_0-i felt that [he]_0-i was right . "_[0-i] No crying , [[my]_0-i dear child]_{2385-my dear child} , no crying ! Dear [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i have heard so much of [your]_{423-miss valence} courage . Too much inflammation already . Whatever [you]_{423-miss valence} do , [you]_{423-miss valence} must not cry . That is one reason why [I]_0-i will not have [[your]_{423-miss valence} friend]_{5450-your friend} [here]_846-here . When [two young ladies]_{2388-two young ladies} get together in trouble , [I]_0-i know by [[my]_0-i own daughters]_{2389-my own daughters} what [they]_{2388-two young ladies} do . [You]_{423-miss valence} may laugh as much as [you]_{423-miss valence} like , in a quiet way ; and [I]_0-i am sure [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} can make any one laugh , under almost any circumstances . Ca n't [you]_0-i now ? " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} To be sure , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , [I]_0-i have seen such a many rogues . That is , when [I]_0-i know [Charley]_395-charley 's a - coming [home]_1102-home . " "_{[395-charley]} Now good bye , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} . But [I]_0-i would recommend [you]_{423-miss valence} not to play with [your]_{423-miss valence} paints so . There is an effluvium from [them]_2392-them . " "_[2392-them] Oh , what can [I]_0-i do , what am [I]_0-i to do to pass the endless night ? [I]_0-i was only trying to build [a house]_{5382-a house} in the dark . " "_[0-i] Sleep as much as [you]_{423-miss valence} can . [I]_0-i am giving [you]_{423-miss valence} gentle opiates . When [you]_{423-miss valence} can sleep no longer , let [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} talk or read to [you]_{423-miss valence} , and have a little music . [I]_0-i will lend [you]_{423-miss valence} [my]_0-i musical box , which plays twenty - four tunes : have it in [the next room]_{2394-the next room} , not to be too loud . And then play on the musical glasses , not too long at a time : [you]_{423-miss valence} will soon find out how to do that in the dark . " [He]_0-i most kindly sent [us]_6611-us both the boxes that very day ; and many a weary hour [they]_6611-us lightened of its load . [Poor Isola]_463-isola came every day to inquire , and several times [she]_463-isola had [[her]_463-isola brother]_{6430-her brother} with [her]_463-isola . [She]_463-isola made an entire conquest of [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , who even gave [her]_463-isola a choice canary bird . [I]_{2395-such a pair} was never tired of hearing [the little woman]_{6264-the little woman} 's description of [her]_{6264-the little woman} beauty , and [her]_{6264-the little woman} visit to [the kitchen]_{5526-the kitchen} formed the chief event of the day . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ( who had Irish blood in [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} veins ) used to declare that the ground was not good enough for [them]_{2395-such a pair} to walk on . "_{[2395-such a pair]} [Such a pair]_{2395-such a pair} , [Miss]_2396-miss ! To see [her]_2397-her so light , and soft , and loving , tripping along , and such eyes and such fur ; and [him]_2398-him walking so straight , and brave , and noble . [I]_0-i am sure [you]_2396-miss 'd go a mile , [Miss]_5433-miss , to see [him]_2398-him walk . " "_[2396-miss] [You]_2396-miss forget , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [I]_0-i may never enjoy that pleasure . " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} No , no . Quite true , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} . But then [we]_2401-i may , all the same . " Exactly so . There lay all the difference to [me]_2401-i , but none to any other . This set [me]_2401-i moralising in [my]_2401-i shallow way , a thing by no means natural to [me]_2401-i , who was so concentrated and subjective . But loss of sight had done [me]_2401-i good , had turned the mind 's eye inward into the darkness of [myself]_2401-i . [I]_2401-i think [the blind , as a general rule]_{6615-the blind , as a general rule} , are less narrow - minded than [those endowed with sight]_{6616-those endowed with sight} . Less inclined , [I]_2401-i mean , to judge [[their]_{6616-those endowed with sight} neighbours]_{6617-their neighbours} harshly , less arrogant in exacting that every pulse keep time with [their]_{6616-those endowed with sight} own . If eyes are but the chinks through which [we]_2401-i focus on [our]_2401-i brain censoriousness and bigotry , if rays of light are shafts and lances of ill will ; then better is it to have no crystalline lens . Far better to be blind , than print the world - distorted puppets of [myself]_2401-i . [I]_2401-i , that smallest speck of dust , blown upon [the shore of time]_{6618-the shore of time} , blown off when [my]_2401-i puff shall come ; a speck ignored by moon and stars ; too small ( however [my]_2401-i ambition leap ) for [earth]_1622-earth to itch , whate'er [I]_2401-i suck ; and yet a speck that is [a mountain in the telescope of [God]_303-god]_{6620-a mountain in the telescope of god} ; shall [I]_2401-i never learn that [His]_303-god is [my]_2401-i only magnitude ; shall [I]_2401-i wriggle to be all in all to [my]_2401-i own corpuscle ? Is there any Mocha stone , fortification agate , or Scotch pebble , with half the veins and mottlings , angles , flux and reflux , that chequer one minute of the human mind ? Was ever machine invented to throw so many shuttles ? At present [I]_2401-i am gauged for little threads of thought — two minutes since , the smallest thing [I]_2401-i could think of was [myself]_2401-i . Now it is the largest . Must [I]_2401-i grope from [room]_918-room to room , shall [I]_2401-i never be sure where the table is , where [my]_2401-i teacup stands ; never read , or write , or draw ; never tell when [my]_2401-i hands are clean , except by smelling soap ; never know ( though small the difference ) how [my]_2401-i dress becomes [me]_2401-i , or when [my]_2401-i hair is right ; never see [my]_2401-i own sad face , in which [I]_2401-i have been fool enough to glory , never — and this is worst of all — never catch another 's smile ? Here am [I]_2401-i , [a full - grown girl]_{6622-a full - grown girl} , full of [maiden]_6623-maiden 's thoughts and wonderings , knowing well that [I]_2401-i am shaped so but to be a link in life ; must [I]_2401-i never think of loving or of being loved , except with love like [Isola]_463-isola 's ; sweet affection , very sweet ; but white sugar only ? When [my]_2401-i work is over , and [my]_2401-i object gained , when [[my]_2401-i father]_{731-my father} 's spirit knows the wrong redeemed , as [a child]_{782-a child} [I]_2401-i used to think [I]_2401-i would lay [me]_2401-i down and die . But since [I]_2401-i came to [woman]_1698-woman 's fulness , since [I]_2401-i ceased to look at [men]_1003-men and [they]_1003-men began to look at [me]_2401-i , some soft change , [I]_2401-i know not what , has come across [my]_2401-i dream . Is [my]_2401-i purpose altered ? Is [my]_2401-i tenor broken ? Not a whit of either . Rather are [they]_1003-men stronger set and better led , as [my]_2401-i heart and brain enlarge . Yet [I]_2401-i see beyond it all , a thing [I]_2401-i never used to see , a glow above the peaks of hate , a possibility of [home]_1102-home . "_[2401-i] Saw " [I]_2401-i should have said , for now what have [I]_2401-i to do with seeing ? On the fourteenth morning , [I]_2401-i had given up all hope . [They]_1003-men told [me]_2401-i it was bright and sunny ; for [I]_2401-i always asked about the weather , and felt most cruelly depressed upon a sunny day . By this time [I]_2401-i had learned to dress without [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's aid . Still , from force of habit [I]_2401-i went to the glass to do [my]_2401-i hair , and still drew back , as far as was allowed , the window curtain . Off with [my]_2401-i wet bandage , [I]_2401-i am sick of it ; let [me]_2401-i try no longer to delude [myself]_2401-i . Suddenly a gleam of light , [I]_2401-i am sure of it ; faint indeed , and like a Will of the Wisp ; but [I]_2401-i am quite sure it was a gleam of light . [I]_2401-i go nearer the window and try again . No , there is no more for the present , it was the sudden change produced it . Never mind ; [I]_2401-i know what [I]_2401-i have seen , a thing that came and cheated [me]_2401-i in dreams ; this time it has not cheated [me]_2401-i ; it was a genuine twinkle of the sun . [I]_2401-i can do nothing more . [I]_2401-i can not put another stitch upon [me]_2401-i . [I]_2401-i am thrilling with the sun , like [Memnon]_464-memnon . [I]_2401-i fall upon [my]_2401-i knees , and thank [the Father of light]_{6629-the father of light} . When [the Doctor]_{5643-the doctor} came that day , and looked into [my]_2401-i eyes , [he]_{5643-the doctor} saw a decided change . "_[2401-i] [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , the crisis is over . With all [my]_0-i heart [I]_0-i congratulate [you]_{423-miss valence} . Another fortnight , and [you]_{423-miss valence} will see better than ever . " [I]_{423-miss valence} laughed , and wept , and , blind as [I]_{423-miss valence} was , could hardly keep from dancing . Then [I]_{423-miss valence} wanted to kiss [the Doctor]_{5643-the doctor} , but hearing [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's step , made a reckless jump and had it out upon [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . "_{[423-miss valence]} Bless [me]_0-i , why bless [me]_0-i , [my]_0-i good soul , if [I]_0-i was [a young gentleman]_{5342-a young gentleman} now — " "_{[423-miss valence]} Why , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , [I]_0-i am perfectly astonished , " said [Doctor Franks]_{465-doctor franks} , but [I]_0-i knew [he]_{465-doctor franks} was laughing ; "_[0-i] if [I]_0-i had been requested , only two minutes ago , to pick out [the most self - possessed , equable , and courageous young lady in [London]_1-london]_{2403-the most self - possessed , equable , and courageous young lady in london} , [I]_0-i should have said , ' [I]_0-i do n't want any looking , [I]_0-i know where to find [her]_{2403-the most self - possessed , equable , and courageous young lady in london} , ' but now , upon [my]_0-i word — " "_[0-i] If [you]_0-i are asked to point out [the most delighted , grateful , and happy girl in [London]_1-london]_{2404-the most delighted , grateful , and happy girl in london} , [you]_0-i know where to come for [her]_{2403-the most self - possessed , equable , and courageous young lady in london} . Let [me]_0-i kiss [you]_0-i , [Dr. Franks]_{462-dr. franks} , only once . [I]_0-i wo n't rob [[your]_0-i daughters]_{2405-your daughters} . It is to [you]_0-i [I]_0-i owe it all . " "_[0-i] No , to [Providence]_{319-providence} , and [yourself]_0-i , and an uncommonly good conjunctiva . Now be prudent , [[my]_0-i dear child]_{2385-my dear child} ; a little ecstasy must be forgiven ; but do n't imperil [your]_0-i cure by over - excitement . It is , as [I]_0-i hoped it would be , a case of epiphytic sloughing " ( [I]_0-i think that was what [he]_0-i said ) , "_[0-i] and it may become chronic if precipitated . The longer and more thorough the process , the less chance of recurrence . " "_[0-i] Oh [I]_0-i am satisfied with one eye , or half an eye . Can [you]_0-i promise [me]_0-i that ? " "_[0-i] If [you]_0-i will only follow [my]_0-i directions , [I]_0-i can promise [you]_0-i both eyes , more brilliant than ever ; and [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} says they were wonderfully bright . But what [I]_0-i order must be done . Slow and sure . " [He]_0-i gave [me]_0-i short directions , all upon the same principle , that of graduation . "_[0-i] And now , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , good - bye . Henceforth [I]_0-i visit [you]_0-i only as [a friend]_{6544-a friend} ; in which [I]_0-i know [you]_0-i will indulge [me]_0-i , from the interest [I]_0-i feel in the case , and in [yourself]_0-i . [[Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's wonderful young lady]_{2408-mrs. shelfer 's wonderful young lady} may be admitted on Thursday ; but do n't let [her]_{2408-mrs. shelfer 's wonderful young lady} look at [your]_0-i eyes . [Girls]_5444-girls are always inquisitive . If there is [any young gentleman]_{2410-any young gentleman} , lucky enough to explain [your]_0-i strange anxiety to see , [you]_0-i will make short work of [him]_{2410-any young gentleman} , when [your]_0-i sight returns . [Your]_0-i eyes will be the most brilliant in [London]_1-london ; which is saying a great deal . But [I]_0-i fear [he]_{2410-any young gentleman} will hardly know [you]_0-i , till [your]_0-i lashes grow ; and all [your]_0-i face and expression are altered for the time . " "_{[2410-any young gentleman]} One thing will never alter , though it can find no expression , [my]_0-i gratitude to [you]_0-i . " "_[0-i] That is very pretty of [you]_0-i , [[my]_0-i dear child]_{2385-my dear child} . [You]_0-i kissed [me]_0-i just now . Now let [me]_0-i kiss [you]_0-i . " [He]_0-i touched [my]_0-i forehead and was gone . [He]_0-i was [the first true gentleman [I]_0-i had met with]_{6632-the first true gentleman i had met with} , since the loss of [Farmer Huxtable]_{362-farmer huxtable} . When [Isola]_463-isola came on the Thursday , and [I]_0-i obtained some little glimpse of [her]_463-isola , [she]_463-isola expressed [her]_463-isola joy in a thousand natural ways , well worth feeling and seeing , not at all worth telling . [I]_0-i loved [her]_463-isola for [them]_6633-them more and more . [I]_0-i never met [a girl so warm of heart]_{6634-a girl so warm of heart} . [Many women]_{1732-many women} can sulk for days ; [most women]_{6636-most women} can sulk for an hour ; [I]_0-i believe that no provocation could have made [Isola]_463-isola sulky for two minutes . [She]_463-isola tried sometimes ( at least [she]_463-isola said so ) , but it was no good . And yet [she]_463-isola felt as keenly as any of [the very sulkiest women]_{6637-the very sulkiest women} can do ; but [she]_463-isola had too much warmth of heart and imagination to live in the folds of that cold - blooded snake . Neither had [she]_463-isola the strong selfishness , on which that serpent feeds . In the afternoon , as [we]_6638-we still sat together , in rushed [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} with [her]_463-isola bonnet on , quite out of breath , and without [her]_463-isola usual ceremony of knocking at the door . [I]_0-i could not think where [she]_463-isola had been all the day ; and [she]_463-isola had made the greatest mystery of it in the morning , and wanted to have it noticed . Up [she]_463-isola ran to [me]_0-i now , and pushed [Isola]_463-isola out of the way . "_[0-i] Got 'em at last , [Miss.]_448-miss. Got 'em at last , and no mistake . No more [Dr. Franks]_{462-dr. franks} , nor bandages , nor curtains down , nor nothing . Save a deal of trouble and do it in no time . But what a job [I]_0-i had to get [them]_2412-them to be sure ; if [[the cook]_{2413-the cook} 's mate]_{2414-the cook 's mate} had n't knowed [Charley]_395-charley , [they]_2412-them would not have let [me]_0-i had 'em , after going all the way to [Wapping]_94-wapping . " [She]_466-idols holds up something in triumph . "_[2412-them] What is it , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ? [I]_0-i am sorry to say [I]_0-i can not see . " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} And right down glad of it , [I]_0-i am , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} . Yes , yes . Or [I]_0-i should have had all [my]_0-i journey for nothing . But [Miss Idols]_466-idols knows , [I]_0-i 'll be bound [she]_466-idols does , or it 's no good going to [College]_2416-college . " "_[466-idols] Let [me]_0-i look at it first , " says [Isola]_463-isola , "_[0-i] [we]_2417-we learn almost everything at college , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ; but even [we]_2417-we [senior sophists]_{2418-senior sophists} do n't know every thing without seeing it yet . " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Then put [your]_466-idols pretty eyes on [them]_2419-them , [Miss Idols]_466-idols ; [I]_0-i 'll be bound it will make [them]_2419-them caper . [I]_0-i never see [such fine ones]_{2420-such fine ones} , nor [[the cook]_{2413-the cook} 's mate]_{2414-the cook 's mate} either . Why [they]_2419-them 're as big as [young whelks]_{2423-young whelks} . " "_[2419-them] Mollusca , or Crustacea , or something ! " exclaims [Isola]_463-isola , with more pride than accuracy , "_[2419-them] what queer little things . [I]_0-i must take them to [[my]_0-i papa]_{6254-my papa} . " "_[0-i] Now , [young ladies]_{2104-young ladies} , " cried [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} in [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} grandest style , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i see [I]_0-i must explain them to [you]_{2104-young ladies} after all . [Them]_2426-them 's the blessed shells [the poor sailors]_{2427-the poor sailors} put in [their]_{2427-the poor sailors} eyes to scour them out , and keep them bright , and make [them]_{2427-the poor sailors} see in the dark against the wind . Only see how [they]_2426-them crawls . There now , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , [I]_0-i 'll pick [you]_{2104-young ladies} out [two big lively fellows]_{2428-two big lively fellows} , and pop one for [you]_{2104-young ladies} in the corner of each eye ; [[the cook]_{2413-the cook} 's mate]_{2414-the cook 's mate} showed [me]_0-i how to lift [your]_{2104-young ladies} eyelids . " "_{[2413-the cook]} How kind of [him]_{2414-the cook 's mate} , to be sure ! ' " And it will crawl about under the lid , [you]_{2104-young ladies} must not mind its hurting a bit ; and it wo n't come out till to - morrow when the clock strikes twelve , and then it will have eaten up every bit , and [your]_{2104-young ladies} eyes will be brighter than diamonds . [Charley]_395-charley has seen [them]_2426-them do it ever so many times , and [he]_395-charley says it 's bootiful , and [they]_2426-them do n't mind giving five shillings a piece for [them]_2426-them , when they are scarce . "_{[2413-the cook]} " Did [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} ever try them ? [His]_{413-mr. shelfer} eyes are so sharp : perhaps that is the reason . "_[2431-i] " No . [I]_2431-i never heard that [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} did , [Miss.]_448-miss. But bless [you]_{2104-young ladies} [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} never tells [me]_2431-i half [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} does ; no , nor a quarter of half . "_[2431-i] At this recollection , [she]_2431-i fetches a little short sigh , [her]_2431-i nearest approach to melancholy , for [she]_2431-i is not sentimental . " [Care]_467-care killed the cat , "_[2431-i] is [her]_2431-i favourite aphorism . " Then when [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} comes [home]_1102-home , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , pop one of these shells , a good big one , into each of [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} eyes ; and let [us]_6640-us know the effect to - morrow morning , and [I]_2431-i 'll give [you]_{2104-young ladies} a kiss , if [you]_{2104-young ladies} do it well . "_[2431-i] This is the bribe [Isola]_463-isola finds most potent with [everybody]_{6273-everybody} . " [Lor]_393-lor , [Miss Idols]_466-idols , bless [your]_{2104-young ladies} innocent heart , do [you]_{2104-young ladies} suppose [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} would let [me]_463-isola ? Why [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} thinks it a great thing to let [me]_463-isola tie [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} shoe , and [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} wo n't only when [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} has had a good dinner . "_[463-isola] " Well , "_[463-isola] cries [Isola]_463-isola , " [I]_463-isola am astonished ! Catch [me]_463-isola tying [[my]_463-isola husband]_{1877-my husband} 's shoes ! [I]_463-isola shall expect [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} to tie mine , [I]_463-isola know ; and [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} shall only do that when [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} is very good . "_[463-isola] With a regal air , [she]_463-isola puts out the prettiest foot ever seen . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} laughs . " Lor , [Miss]_6642-miss , it 's all very well for [girls]_5444-girls to talk ; and [they]_5444-girls all does it , till [they]_5444-girls knows better . Though for the likes of [you]_6642-miss , [any one]_{1178-any one} would do anything a most . Pray , [Miss Idols]_466-idols , if [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} may make so bold , how many offers of marriage have [you]_6642-miss received ? "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} " Let [me]_463-isola think ! Oh [I]_463-isola know ! it 's one more than [I]_463-isola am years old . Eighteen altogether , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ; if [you]_6642-miss count [the apothecary 's boy]_{6645-the apothecary 's boy} , and [the nephew of [the library]_{988-the library}]_{6646-the nephew of the library} ; but then [they]_6648-they were [all of [them]_6648-they [boys]_5527-boys]_{6649-all of them boys} , [[papa]_6651-papa 's pupils]_{6652-papa 's pupils} and that , a deal too young for [me]_463-isola . [They]_6648-they were all going to die , when [I]_463-isola refused [them]_6648-they ; but [they]_6648-they are all alive so far , at any rate . Is n't it too bad of [them]_6648-they ? "_[463-isola] " Well , [Miss Idols]_466-idols , if [you]_466-idols get as good [a husband]_{6653-a husband} as [you]_466-idols deserve , and that is saying a deal , [he]_{6653-a husband} 'll tie [your]_466-idols shoe may be for a month , and then [he]_{6653-a husband} 'll look for [you]_466-idols to tie [his]_{6653-a husband} . "_[463-isola] " And long [he]_{6653-a husband} may look , even if [he]_{6653-a husband} has shellfish in [his]_{6653-a husband} eyes . Why look , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [they]_6648-they 're all crawling about ! "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} " [Bootiful]_468-bootiful , is n't it ? [Bootiful]_468-bootiful ! [I]_463-isola wish [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} could see [them]_6648-they . And look at the horns [they]_6648-they goes routing about with ! How they must tickle [your]_466-idols eyelids . And what coorious eyes [they]_6648-they has ! Ah , [I]_463-isola often think , [Miss Idols]_466-idols , [I]_463-isola likes this sort of thing so much , what a pity it is as [I]_463-isola was n't born in [the country]_{1831-the country} . [I]_463-isola should never be tired of watching the snails , and the earywigs , and the tadpoles . Why , [I]_463-isola likes nothing better than to see them stump - legged things come to table in the cabbage . [I]_463-isola have not seen one now for ever so long . Oh that [Charley]_395-charley , what dreadful lies [he]_395-charley do tell ! "_[463-isola] " What about , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ? "_[463-isola] " Why , [[my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , [he]_395-charley says them green things with stripes on , and ever so many legs , turns to live butterflies , after they be dead . But [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was too many for [him]_395-charley there . Yes , yes . The last one as [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} boiled , [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} did not say a word about it to [him]_395-charley , but [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} put it by in a chiney - teacup , with the saucer over , in case it should fly away . Bless [your]_466-idols heart , [young ladies]_{2104-young ladies} , there it is now , as quiet as anything , and no signs of a butterfly . And when [he]_395-charley tells [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} any lies , about where [he]_395-charley was last night , [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} just goes to the cupboard , and shows [him]_395-charley that ; and never another word can [he]_395-charley say . And so , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , [you]_{423-miss valence} wo n't try these little snails , after [my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} journey and all ! "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} " Of course [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} wo n't , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . But [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} am sincerely obliged to [you]_{423-miss valence} for [your]_{423-miss valence} trouble , as well as for all [your]_{423-miss valence} kind nursing , which [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} can never forget . Now let [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} buy those shellfish from [you]_{423-miss valence} , and [Miss Isola]_428-isola will take them as a present to [[her]_428-isola papa]_{6420-her papa} . "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} " No , no , unless [he]_{6420-her papa} will put them in [his]_{6420-her papa} eyes , Miss. [I]_463-isola wo n't have them wasted . [Charley]_395-charley will sell them again in no time . [He]_395-charley knows lots of [sailors]_6658-sailors . Most likely [he]_395-charley 'll get up a raffle for [them]_{2434-the ophthalmist snails} , and win them [himself]_395-charley . "_[463-isola] Away [she]_2433-she hurries to take off the bonnet [she]_2433-she has been so proud of , for the last two and twenty years . Though [I]_0-i declined the services of [the ophthalmist snails]_{2434-the ophthalmist snails} , [my]_0-i sight returned very rapidly . How delicious it was to see more and more every day ! Plenty of cold water was the present regimen . Vision is less a vision , every time [I]_0-i use it . In a week more , [I]_0-i can see quite well , though obliged to wear a shade . One morning , dear [Isola]_428-isola runs [upstairs]_{6042-upstairs} , out of breath as usual ; but , what is most unusual , actually frowning . Has [Cora]_429-cora tyrannised , or what ? Through the very shade of [her]_429-cora frown , comes [her]_429-cora sunny smile , as [she]_429-cora kisses [me]_0-i . " Oh , [I]_429-cora am so vexed . [I]_429-cora have brought [him]_395-charley to the door ; and now [he]_395-charley wo n't come in ! "_[429-cora] " Who , [[my]_429-cora darling]_{5337-my darling} ? "_[429-cora] " Why , [Conny]_427-conrad , to be sure . [[My]_429-cora brother]_{1302-my brother} [Conrad]_427-conrad . [I]_429-cora had set [my]_429-cora heart on showing [him]_395-charley to [you]_427-conrad , directly [you]_427-conrad could see . "_[429-cora] " Why wo n't [he]_395-charley come in ? "_[429-cora] " Because [he]_395-charley thinks that [you]_427-conrad ought not to see [strangers]_{6661-strangers} , until [you]_427-conrad are quite well . [He]_395-charley has not got to the corner yet . [I]_429-cora can run like a deer . Send word by [me]_429-cora , that [you]_427-conrad are dying to see [him]_395-charley . "_[429-cora] " Not quite that . But say how glad [I]_429-cora shall be . "_[429-cora] " [I]_429-cora 'll say that [you]_427-conrad wo n't get well till [you]_427-conrad do . "_[429-cora] " Say what [you]_427-conrad like . [He]_395-charley will know it 's only [your]_427-conrad nonsense . "_[429-cora] Off [she]_2436-she darts ; [she]_2436-she is quick as light in [her]_2436-she movements , and soon returns with [[her]_2436-she brother]_{6430-her brother} . [I]_0-i lift [my]_0-i weak eyes to [his]_{6430-her brother} bright ones , and recognise at once [the preserver of [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} and [myself]_0-i]_{2438-the preserver of my mother and myself} . But [I]_0-i see , in a moment , that [he]_{6430-her brother} has not the faintest remembrance of [me]_0-i . [My]_0-i whole face is altered by [my]_0-i accident , and even [my]_0-i voice affected by the long confinement . When [he]_{6430-her brother} met [me]_0-i in the wood , [he]_{6430-her brother} seemed very anxious not to look at [me]_0-i ; when [he]_{6430-her brother} saved [my]_0-i life from [the rushing mountain]_{2440-the rushing mountain} , [he]_{6430-her brother} had little opportunity . Very likely [he]_{6430-her brother} would not have known [me]_0-i , under another name ; even without this illness . So let it be . [I]_0-i will not reveal [myself]_0-i . [I]_0-i thanked [him]_{6430-her brother} once , and [he]_{6430-her brother} repulsed [me]_0-i ; no doubt [he]_{6430-her brother} had a reason , for [I]_0-i see that [he]_{6430-her brother} is [a gentleman]_{5462-a gentleman} . Let that reason hold good : [I]_0-i will not trespass on it . [He]_{6430-her brother} took [my]_0-i hand with a smile , the counterpart of [Isola]_428-isola 's . [He]_{6430-her brother} had heard of [me]_0-i so constantly , that [I]_0-i must excuse the liberty . [A dear friend of [[his]_{6430-her brother} sister]_{2443-his sister} 's]_{2442-a dear friend of his sister 's} could be [no stranger to [him]_{6430-her brother}]_{2444-no stranger to him} . A thrill shot through [me]_0-i at the touch of [his]_{6430-her brother} hand , and [my]_0-i eyes were weak . [He]_{6430-her brother} saw it , and placed a chair for [me]_0-i further from the light . On [his]_{6430-her brother} own face , not the sun , for the " drawing - room "_{[6430-her brother]} windows look north , but the strong reflection of the noon - day light was falling . How like [he]_{6430-her brother} is to [Isola]_428-isola , and yet how different ! So much stronger , and bolder , and more decided , so tall and firm of step . [His]_{6430-her brother} countenance open as the noon , incapable of concealment ; yet if [he]_{6430-her brother} be the same ( and , how can [I]_0-i doubt it ? ) , then at least there seemed to be some mystery about [him]_{6430-her brother} . [Isola]_428-isola , with the quickness of [a girl]_{2251-a girl} , saw how intently [I]_0-i observed [him]_{6430-her brother} , and could not hide [her]_428-isola delight . " There now , [[Clara]_293-clara dear]_{6662-clara dear} , [I]_428-isola knew [you]_{6662-clara dear} would like [him]_{6430-her brother} . But [you]_{6662-clara dear} must not look at [him]_{6430-her brother} so much , or [your]_{6662-clara dear} poor eyes will be sore . "_[428-isola] Little stupid ! As [I]_0-i felt [my]_0-i pale cheeks colouring , [I]_0-i could almost have been angry , even with [[my]_0-i [Isola]_428-isola]_{2446-my isola} . But [she]_428-isola meant no harm . In spite of lectures and " college , "_[428-isola] [she]_428-isola was gentle nature personified ; and [no Professors]_{2447-no professors} could make anything else of [her]_428-isola . All these things run in the grain . If there is anything [I]_0-i hate , [I]_0-i am sure [I]_0-i hate affectation . But there is a difference between [us]_2448-us . Probably it is this : [I]_0-i am of pure English blood , and [she]_428-isola is not . That [I]_0-i know by instinct . What blood [she]_428-isola is of , [I]_0-i am sure [I]_0-i can not tell . [Gentle blood]_{2449-gentle blood} at any rate , or [I]_0-i could not have loved [her]_428-isola so . How horribly narrow - minded , after all [my]_0-i objectivity ! Well , what [I]_0-i mean is , that [I]_0-i can like and love [many people who are not of gentle , but ( [I]_0-i suppose ) of ferocious blood]_{2450-many people who are not of gentle , but ( i suppose ) of ferocious blood} ; still , as a general rule , culture and elegance are better matches for nature , after some generations of training . [[My]_0-i father]_{731-my father} used to say so about [his]_{731-my father} pointers and [setters]_2452-setters . The marvel is that [I]_0-i , who belong to [this old streak]_{2453-this old streak} , seem to have got some twist in it . [[My]_0-i grandmother]_{2454-my grandmother} would have swooned at the names of [some people [I]_0-i love]_{2455-some people i love} more than [I]_0-i could have loved [her]_428-isola . [[My]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} would not . But then [she]_428-isola was [a Christian]_{2457-a christian} . Probably that is the secret of [my]_0-i twist . All this has passed through [my]_0-i mind , before [I]_0-i can frown at [Isola]_428-isola . And now [I]_0-i can not frown at all . [Dear little thing]_{2458-dear little thing} , [she]_428-isola is not eighteen , and [she]_428-isola knows no better . [I]_0-i have attained [that Englishwoman]_{2459-that englishwoman} 's majority three weeks ago ; and [I]_0-i am sorry for [Isola]_428-isola . To break the awkwardness , [[her]_428-isola brother]_{6430-her brother} starts off into subjects of art . [He]_{6430-her brother} has heard of [my]_0-i drawings , may [he]_{6430-her brother} see them some day ? [I]_0-i ask [him]_{6430-her brother} about the magnificent stag . Yes , that is [his]_{6430-her brother} , and [I]_0-i have no idea how long it took [him]_{6430-her brother} to do . [He]_{6430-her brother} speaks of it with no conceit whatever ; neither with any depreciation , for the purpose of tempting praise . As [he]_{6430-her brother} speaks , [I]_0-i observe some peculiarity in [his]_{6430-her brother} accent . [Isola]_428-isola 's accent is as pure as [mine]_0-i , or purer . [[Her]_428-isola brother]_{6430-her brother} speaks very good English , and never hesitates for a word ; but the form of [his]_{6430-her brother} sentences often is not English ; especially when [he]_{6430-her brother} warms to [his]_{6430-her brother} subject ; and ( what struck [me]_0-i first , for [I]_0-i am no purist as to collocation of words ) [his]_{6430-her brother} accent , [his]_{6430-her brother} emphasis is not native . The difference is very slight , and quite indescribable ; but a difference there is . Perhaps it is rather a difference of the order of thought than of language , as regards the cast of the sentence ; but that will not account for the accent ; and if it would , it still shows another nationality . There is a loud knock at the door . [I]_0-i am just preparing ( with [Isola]_428-isola 's help ) [[my]_0-i little hospitalities]_{2462-my little hospitalities} . If [London]_1-london visits mean much talk and no food , [I]_0-i hold by [Gloucestershire]_{3-gloucestershire} and [Devon]_24-devon . [I]_0-i have [a famous North Devon ham]_{2463-a famous north devon ham} , and am proud of its fame . Surely no more visitors for [me]_0-i . No ; but one for [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . [The Professor]_{2125-the professor} has heard of the eyeshells ; and what politeness , humanity , love of [[his]_{2125-the professor} daughter]_{2465-his daughter} failed to do , science has effected . [He]_{2125-the professor} is come to see and secure [them]_2466-them . [[His]_{2125-the professor} children]_{2467-his children} hear [his]_{2125-the professor} voice . Of course , [we]_2468-we must ask [him]_{2125-the professor} to come up . [Mr. Conrad]_427-conrad rises . [Isola]_428-isola runs to fetch [[her]_428-isola father]_{898-her father} . [Isola]_428-isola loves [everybody]_{6273-everybody} . [I]_0-i do believe [she]_428-isola loves [old Cora]_429-cora . [Conrad]_427-conrad is of sterner stuff : but surely [he]_427-conrad loves [[his]_427-conrad father]_{1062-his father} . As for [me]_0-i — [we]_2468-we were just getting on so well — [I]_0-i wanted [no Professor]_{2472-no professor} . [[Isola]_428-isola 's brother]_{2473-isola 's brother} will not tell a lie . [He]_{2473-isola 's brother} does not remember , all at once , any pressing engagement . [He]_{2473-isola 's brother} holds out [his]_{2473-isola 's brother} hand , saying simply , " [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , [I]_{2473-isola 's brother} heartily beg [your]_{423-miss valence} pardon for leaving so suddenly ; and just when [we]_2468-we were giving [you]_{423-miss valence} so much trouble . It would be impertinence for [me]_{2473-isola 's brother} to tell [you]_{423-miss valence} the reason . It is a domestic matter . [I]_{2473-isola 's brother} trust [you]_{423-miss valence} will believe [me]_{2473-isola 's brother} , that no light reason would make [me]_{2473-isola 's brother} rude . May [I]_{2473-isola 's brother} come again with [Isola]_428-isola , to see [your]_{423-miss valence} drawings soon ? "_{[2473-isola 's brother]} [He]_{2473-isola 's brother} meets [the Professor]_{2125-the professor} on the stairs . [The latter]_{907-the latter} enters [the room]_{823-the room} , under evil auspices for [my]_0-i good opinion . If [Professor Ross]_{430-professor ross} entered [[my]_0-i room]_{986-my room} under evil auspices , it was not long before [he]_{430-professor ross} sent the birds the other way . For the first time , since [my]_0-i childhood , [I]_0-i met [a man of large and various knowledge]_{2478-a man of large and various knowledge} ; [a man who had spent [his]_{2478-a man of large and various knowledge} life in amassing information , and learning how to make the most of it]_{2479-a man who had spent his life in amassing information , and learning how to make the most of it} . A little too much perhaps there was of the second , and more fruitful branch , of the sour - sweet tree . Once [I]_0-i had been fool enough to fancy that some of [my]_0-i own little bopeeps at nature were original and peculiar . To [Thomas Kenwood]_295-tom , [Farmer Huxtable]_{362-farmer huxtable} , and even [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} , [a gardener]_{985-a gardener} , [I]_0-i had been quite an oracle as to the weather , the sky , and the insects about . Moreover , in most of the books [I]_0-i had read , there were such blunders , even in matters that lie on nature 's doorsteps , that , looking back at them , [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i had crossed [her]_2481-her threshold . As the proverb has it , nature always avenges [herself]_2481-her ; and here was [I]_0-i , a mere " gappermouth "_[0-i] ( [I]_0-i use a [Devonshire]_4-devonshire word ) , to be taught that [I]_0-i had not yet cropped even a cud to chew . True , [I]_0-i did not expect ( like [Mr.]_2482-mr. and [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ) that a boiled caterpillar would become a live butterfly ; neither did [I]_0-i believe , with [Farmer Huxtable]_{362-farmer huxtable} , that hips and haws foretell a hard winter , because [God]_303-god means them for the thrushes ; but [I]_0-i knew no more than [they]_2483-they did the laws and principles of things . [My]_0-i little knowledge was all shreds and patches . It did not cover even the smallest subject . Odd things here and there [I]_0-i knew ; but [a person of sound information]_{2484-a person of sound information} knows the odd and the even as well . [My]_0-i observations might truly be called [my]_0-i own ; but instead of being peculiar to [me]_0-i , nearly all of them had been anticipated centuries ago . [I]_0-i was but a gipsey straying where [an army had been]_{2485-an army had been} . All this [I]_0-i suspected in less than ten minutes from [the Professor]_{2125-the professor} 's entrance ; [he]_{2125-the professor} did not leave [me]_0-i long in doubt about it . It is just to [myself]_0-i to say that the discovery did not mortify [me]_0-i much . [My]_0-i little observations had been made , partly from pure love of nature 's doings , partly through habits drawn from a darker spring . At first [I]_0-i had felt no pleasure in them , but it could not long be so . Now they were [mine]_0-i as much as ever , though [a thousand]_{2487-a thousand} shared them with [me]_0-i . As [the Professor]_{2125-the professor} laid bare [my]_0-i ignorance and [my]_0-i errors , and proved that the little [I]_0-i did know was at second hand — which it certainly was not — [I]_0-i attempted no reply ; [I]_0-i was too young for argument , and too much interested to be impatient . So [he]_{2125-the professor} demolished [my]_0-i ham and [myself]_0-i , with equal relish and equal elegance of handling . [He]_{2125-the professor} seemed to have no intention of doing either , but managed both incidentally , and almost accidentally , while [he]_{2125-the professor} opened [his]_{2125-the professor} mental encyclopædia . At length , [Isola]_428-isola , who was tired of lectures , such as [she]_428-isola got and forgot every day , felt that it was high time to assert [her]_428-isola prerogative , and come to [my]_0-i rescue . " Come , [Pappy]_426-pappy , [you]_426-pappy fancy [you]_426-pappy know everything , do n't [you]_426-pappy ? "_{[2125-the professor]} [He]_{2125-the professor} was just beginning to treat of mosses ; and [I]_0-i knew that [he]_{2125-the professor} was wrong upon several points , but did not dare to say so . " [[My]_{2125-the professor} dear child]_{2385-my dear child} , of the million things [I]_{2125-the professor} never shall discover , one is the way to keep [you]_426-pappy at all in order . "_{[2125-the professor]} " [I]_{2125-the professor} should hope not , indeed . Come now , here is another thing [you]_426-pappy do n't know . How long did it take to boil this delicious ham ? [Clara]_293-clara knows , and so do [I.]_{2125-the professor} "_{[2125-the professor]} " Upon that matter , [I]_{2125-the professor} confess [my]_{2125-the professor} total ignorance . "_{[2125-the professor]} " Hear , hear ! [Pappy]_426-pappy , [you]_426-pappy can lecture by the hour upon isothermic laws , and fluids , and fibrine , and adipose deposits , and [you]_426-pappy ca n't tell how long it took to set this delicate fat . [I]_{2125-the professor} 'll tell [you]_426-pappy what it is , [Pappy]_426-pappy , if [you]_426-pappy ever snub [me]_{2125-the professor} in lecture again before [the junior sophists]_{6664-the junior sophists} , as [you]_426-pappy dared to do yesterday , [I]_{2125-the professor} 'll sing out , ' Ham , [Pappy]_426-pappy , ham ! ' and [you]_426-pappy 'll see how [the girls]_{6665-the girls} will laugh . "_{[2125-the professor]} " No novelty , [[my]_2489-his dear]_{5318-my dear} , for [them]_{6665-the girls} to laugh at [you]_426-pappy . [I]_2489-his fear [you]_426-pappy never will learn anything but impertinence . "_[2489-his] [His]_2489-his words were light , and [he]_2489-his strove to keep [his]_2489-his manner the same ; but [his]_2489-his eyes belied [him]_2489-his . [Isola]_428-isola ran round , and administered [her]_428-isola never - failing remedy . There was that sweetness about [her]_428-isola [nobody]_1116-nobody could resist it . Returning to [her]_428-isola seat , [she]_428-isola gave [me]_0-i a nod of triumph , and began again . " Now , [Papples]_469-papples , when [you]_469-papples are good again , [you]_469-papples shall have a real treat . [Clara]_293-clara will show [you]_469-papples [her]_293-clara cordetto , wo n't [you]_469-papples , [dear]_5871-dear ? It is twice as big as [yours]_469-papples , and more than twice as pretty . "_[428-isola] [I]_0-i took it from [my]_0-i neck , where it had been throughout [my]_0-i illness . [Isola]_428-isola told [me]_0-i continually that it had saved [my]_0-i sight ; and so old [Cora]_429-cora devoutly believed , crossing [herself]_429-cora , and invoking fifty saints . Long afterwards [I]_0-i found that [Cora]_429-cora knew it to be the heart of the Blessed Virgin , perpetuated in the material which [[her]_429-cora husband]_{6140-her husband} used . If so , it had been multiplied as well . [Dr. Ross]_{470-dr. ross} took [my]_0-i pretty gordit , and examined it narrowly , carrying it to the window to get a stronger light . " Beyond a doubt , "_{[6140-her husband]} [he]_{6140-her husband} said at last , " it is the finest in [Europe]_95-europe . [I]_{6140-her husband} have only seen one to compare with [it]_6668-it , and that had a flaw in the centre . Will [you]_0-i part with it , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} ? "_{[6140-her husband]} " No ; [I]_{6140-her husband} have promised never to do that . "_{[6140-her husband]} " Then [I]_{6140-her husband} must say no more ; but [I]_{6140-her husband} should have been proud to add it to [my]_{6140-her husband} collection . "_{[6140-her husband]} " To carry it about with [you]_0-i , [you]_0-i mean , [Pappy]_426-pappy . [You]_0-i know [you]_426-pappy are [a superstitious old Pappy]_{6669-a superstitious old pappy} , in spite of all [your]_426-pappy learning . "_{[6140-her husband]} Weak as [my]_0-i eyes were , [I]_0-i could see the scowl of deep displeasure in [his]_{6140-her husband} . [Isola]_428-isola was frightened : [she]_428-isola knew [she]_428-isola had gone too far . [She]_428-isola did not even dare to offer the kiss of peace . No more was said about it , and [I]_0-i turned the conversation to some other subject . But when [he]_{6140-her husband} rose to depart , [I]_0-i found a pretext for keeping [Isola]_428-isola with [me]_0-i . " Good - bye for the present , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , "_{[6140-her husband]} [Dr. Ross]_{470-dr. ross} said gracefully — [he]_{6140-her husband} did everything but scowl with an inborn grace—"I hope that [your]_{423-miss valence} very first journey in quest of natural history will terminate at [[my]_{6140-her husband} house]_{5343-my house} . [I]_{6140-her husband} can not show [you]_{423-miss valence} much , but shall truly enjoy going over [my]_{6140-her husband} little collection with [you]_{423-miss valence} whenever [you]_{423-miss valence} find that [your]_{423-miss valence} sight is strong enough . Meanwhile , let [me]_{6140-her husband} earnestly warn [you]_{423-miss valence} to abstain from chemical experiments"—this_{[6140-her husband]} was the cause of [my]_0-i injury assigned by [Mrs. Shelfer—"until]_{471-mrs. shelfer—"until} [you]_{423-miss valence} have [a competent director]_{6671-a competent director} . [Isola]_428-isola , good - bye . [I]_{471-mrs. shelfer—"until} will send [Cora]_429-cora for [you]_{423-miss valence} in good time for tea . [Your]_{423-miss valence} attendance at lecture will be excused . "_{[471-mrs. shelfer—"until]} All [my]_0-i interest in the subjects [he]_0-i had discussed , and in [his]_0-i mode of treating [them]_2492-them , all [my]_0-i admiration of [his]_0-i shrewd intellectual face , did not prevent [my]_0-i feeling it a relief when [he]_0-i was gone . [He]_0-i was not at all like [[his]_0-i children]_{2467-his children} . About [them]_{2467-his children} there was something so winning and unpretentious , [few]_2494-few could help liking [them]_{2467-his children} at first sight . [They]_{2467-his children} did all [they]_{2467-his children} could to please , but without any visible effort . But with [the Professor]_{2125-the professor} , in spite of all [his]_0-i elegance and politeness , [I]_0-i could not help perceiving that [he]_0-i was not doing [his]_0-i best , that [he]_0-i scorned to put forth [his]_0-i powers when there was [neither antagonist]_{2496-neither antagonist} nor ( in [his]_0-i opinion ) [duly qualified listener]_{2497-duly qualified listener} . Nevertheless [I]_0-i could have told [him]_0-i some things [he]_0-i did not know concerning lichens and mosses . When [I]_0-i was left with [my]_0-i favourite [Isola]_428-isola , [that gentle senior sophist]_{2498-that gentle senior sophist} seemed by no means disconsolate at [her]_428-isola [Papa]_425-papa 's departure . [She]_428-isola loved [him]_425-papa and was proud of [him]_425-papa , but there were times , as [she]_428-isola told [me]_0-i , when [she]_428-isola was quite afraid of [him]_425-papa . " Would [you]_0-i believe it , [dear]_5871-dear , that [I]_428-isola could be afraid of [old Pappy?"—his]_{472-old pappy?"—his[428-isola]} age was about four and forty—"It is very wicked [I]_428-isola know , but how am [I]_428-isola to help it ? Were [you]_0-i like that with [[your]_0-i Papa]_{6240-your papa} , when [he]_425-papa was alive ? "_[428-isola] " No , [I]_428-isola should think not . But [I]_428-isola am not at all sure that [he]_425-papa was n't afraid of [me]_428-isola . "_[428-isola] " Oh , how nice that must be ! But it is [my]_0-i fault , is n't it ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i could not well have told [her]_428-isola , even if [I]_0-i had known it , that the fault in such cases is almost always on [the parent]_{2499-the parent} 's side . That same evening , when [dear " Idols]_466-idols "_[466-idols] was gone , and [I]_0-i felt trebly alone , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} came to say that [[her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} uncle]_{2500-her uncle} [John]_{411-miss vaughan} was [there]_1114-there , and would be glad to see [me]_0-i . Though [he]_{411-miss vaughan} had been several times to ask how [I]_0-i was , [he]_{411-miss vaughan} had not seen [me]_0-i since the first day of [my]_0-i blindness . After expressing [his]_{411-miss vaughan} joy and surprise at [my]_0-i recovery , [he]_{411-miss vaughan} assured [me]_0-i that [I]_0-i must thank neither [myself]_0-i nor [the doctor]_{5643-the doctor} , but [my]_0-i luck in not having touched the liquid until its strength was nearly expended . " Have [you]_{411-miss vaughan} any news for [me]_0-i ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i asked abruptly . As [my]_0-i strength returned , the sense of [my]_0-i wrong grew hotter . " Yes ; and [I]_0-i fear [you]_0-i will think it bad news . [You]_0-i will lose [my]_0-i help for awhile in [your]_0-i pursuit . "_[0-i] " How so ? [You]_0-i talk of [my]_0-i luck ; [I]_0-i am always unlucky . "_[0-i] " Because [I]_0-i am ordered abroad on a matter too nice and difficult for any of [[my]_0-i colleagues]_{6674-my colleagues} . To - morrow [I]_0-i leave [England]_9-england . "_[0-i] " How long shall [you]_2504-you be away ? "_[0-i] " [I]_0-i can not tell . Perhaps one year ; perhaps two . Perhaps [I]_0-i may never return . Over and above the danger , [I]_0-i am not so young as [I]_0-i was . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i felt dismayed , and stricken down . Was [I]_0-i never to have a chance ? All powers of [earth]_1622-earth and heaven and hell seemed to combine against [me]_0-i . Then came a gleam of hope , obscured immediately by the remembrance of [his]_2504-you words . " Are [you]_2504-you going to [Italy]_63-italy ? "_[2504-you] " No . To [Australia]_96-australia . "_[0-i] Thereupon all hope vanished , and for a time [I]_0-i could not say a word . At last [I]_0-i said — " [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} , the least thing [you]_{412-inspector cutting} can do before [you]_{412-inspector cutting} go , and [your]_{412-inspector cutting} absolute duty now , is to tell [me]_0-i every single thing [you]_{412-inspector cutting} found out , in the course of [your]_{412-inspector cutting} recent search . Something [you]_{412-inspector cutting} must have learned , or [you]_{412-inspector cutting} would not have done what [you]_{412-inspector cutting} did . All along [I]_0-i have felt that [you]_{412-inspector cutting} were hiding something from [me]_0-i . Now [you]_{412-inspector cutting} can have no motive . Now [I]_0-i am [[your]_{412-inspector cutting} successor]_{6675-your successor} in the secret ; [I]_0-i , and [no one else]_{5442-no one else} . To no other will [I]_0-i commit the case . How much [I]_0-i have suffered from [your]_{412-inspector cutting} secresy , none but [myself]_0-i can know . Henceforth [I]_0-i will have no help . Three months [you]_{412-inspector cutting} have been on the track , and [I]_0-i almost believe that [you]_{412-inspector cutting} have discovered nothing . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i spoke so , partly through passion , partly in hope to taunt [him]_2505-i into disclosure . [His]_2505-i chief weakness , as [I]_0-i knew well , was pride in [his]_2505-i own sagacity . " [You]_{412-inspector cutting} shall suffer no more . [I]_2505-i had good reasons for hiding it , one of them [your]_{412-inspector cutting} own hastiness . Now [I]_2505-i will tell [you]_2505-i all [I]_2505-i know . In fact , as [you]_2505-i well said , it has become [my]_2505-i duty to do so , unless [you]_2505-i will authorise [me]_2505-i to appoint [a successor]_{6677-a successor} before [I]_2505-i go . "_[2505-i] " Certainly not . [My]_2506-my confidence in [you]_2505-i can not be transferred to [a stranger]_{1247-a stranger} . "_[2506-my] " One chance more . Let [me]_2505-i report the matter officially . It is possible that [[my]_2505-i superiors]_{6679-my superiors} may think it more important than [my]_2505-i new mission , which is to recover a large amount of property . "_[2505-i] " No . [I]_2505-i will not allow it . [I]_2505-i have devoted [myself]_2505-i to one object . [I]_2505-i alone can effect it . It shall not pass to [others]_869-others . [I]_2505-i feel once more that it is [my]_2505-i destiny to unravel this black mystery ; [myself]_2505-i , by [my]_2505-i own courage . In asking [your]_2505-i aid [I]_2505-i was thwarting [my]_2505-i destiny . Since then [I]_2505-i have had nothing but accidents . There is a proverb in some language , ' Who crosses destiny shall have accident . ' "_[2505-i] " [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , [I]_2506-my could never have dreamed that [you]_{423-miss valence} were so superstitious . "_[2506-my] " Now tell [me]_2506-my all [you]_{423-miss valence} have done , all [you]_{423-miss valence} have discovered , and [your]_{423-miss valence} own conclusion from it . "_[2506-my] [He]_2506-my told [me]_0-i all in a very few words , and [his]_2506-my conclusion was [mine]_0-i . To any other except [myself]_0-i , the grounds on which [he]_2506-my had based it , would have seemed insufficient . [I]_0-i took good care to secure every possible means of following up the frail clue . Ere [he]_2506-my wished [me]_0-i good - bye , [he]_2506-my offered one last suggestion . " If , during [my]_2506-my absence , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , [you]_{423-miss valence} press [your]_{423-miss valence} evidence far enough to require the strong hand , or if before [you]_{423-miss valence} have done so [you]_{423-miss valence} require [a man]_{5384-a man} 's assistance , apply at once to [[my]_2506-my son]_{5986-my son} — [you]_{423-miss valence} can always find [him]_{5986-my son} through [Patty Shelfer]_409-patty . [He]_{5986-my son} is only [a serjeant]_{6683-a serjeant} as yet , and not in [the detective force]_{6684-the detective force} ; but [he]_{5986-my son} has qualities , [that young man]_{6685-that young man} has , [he]_{5986-my son} has got all [my]_2506-my abilities , and more ! Ah , [he]_{5986-my son} will be at the top of the tree when [I]_2506-my am in [my]_2506-my grave , please [God]_303-god . "_[2506-my] [His]_2507-he shrewd eyes softened as [he]_2507-he spoke , and [I]_0-i liked [him]_2507-he ten times as well for this little flaw in [his]_2507-he sheathing . Of course [he]_2507-he knew that [I]_0-i could not entrust [myself]_0-i to [a young man]_{1703-a young man} , as [I]_0-i could to [him]_2507-he . When [he]_2507-he was gone , with many good wishes on both sides , and a little keepsake from [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i felt that [I]_0-i had lost [an intelligent , honest , and true friend]_{2509-an intelligent , honest , and true friend} . [Vigorous]_473-vigorous and elastic as [I]_0-i am , [I]_0-i can not deny that the air and weather have great dominion over [me]_0-i . It was always so with [[my]_0-i own dear father]_{2510-my own dear father} . Two days spent indoors , without any real exercise , would make [him]_{2510-my own dear father} feel as uneasy as a plant in [a cellaret]_{2511-a cellaret} . Crusty and crabbed , nothing could ever make [him]_{2510-my own dear father} — not even gout [I]_0-i believe , if [he]_{2510-my own dear father} had lived long enough for it — but when [he]_{2510-my own dear father} had lost [his]_{2510-my own dear father} fishing , or shooting , or bit of gardening , too long , [he]_{2510-my own dear father} was quite unlike [himself]_{2510-my own dear father} . It was a bad time then to coax for anything — no song , no whistling , no after - dinner nap . [I]_0-i too am not of a sedentary nature , though upon due occasion [I]_0-i can sit writing or drawing for some hours together . But how fine a thing all the while to see any motion outside — a leaf that can skip , or a cloud that can run ! How [we]_2512-we envy [a sparrow]_{2513-a sparrow} [his]_{2513-a sparrow} little hop , even across the gutter . It is now a long month since [I]_0-i have been out of doors , except just to sniff the air , without any bonnet on . [I]_0-i have never been boxed and pannelled so long since first [I]_0-i crawled out of [[my]_0-i cradle]_{2514-my cradle} . It is a sharp bright frost — it seems to freeze harder in [London]_1-london than in [the west of [Gloucestershire]_{3-gloucestershire}]_{2515-the west of gloucestershire} , but not half so cleanly . [Isola]_428-isola comes , like a tea - china rose bedded in poplin and ermine . [Her]_428-isola close - drawn bonnet of velvet , mazarin blue , is freaked with snowdrops , nod , nod , nodding , not too many of them . [I]_0-i hail the omen of spring , and [my]_0-i spirits rise already . [Idols]_466-idols is up for a lark ( as [the junior sophists]_{6664-the junior sophists} express it ) and [she]_428-isola has set [her]_428-isola heart upon leading [me]_0-i such a dance . Shall [she]_428-isola ever set that sweet heart upon anything , and not obtain it at once ? Who knows ? Never , [I]_0-i am quite sure , when another heart is the object . " Come , [you]_0-i grave [old Grandmother]_{474-old grandmother} . [You]_0-i are younger than [me]_2517-i , [I]_2517-i believe , in spite of all [your]_0-i stories ; and [you]_0-i are old enough in [your]_0-i ways , for [old mother Hubbard that lived in [a cupboard]_{6687-a cupboard}]_{6686-old mother hubbard that lived in a cupboard} . Oh [my]_2517-i tippets and furbelows , if [I]_2517-i wore as tall as [you]_0-i , and half as long in the waist , what a dress [I]_2517-i would have . Fifteen guineas at least . Come along , [[you]_0-i bed - ridden dump of [a Clara]_{6689-a clara}]_{6688-you bed - ridden dump of a clara} ; it 's freezing like bricks and silica , and [I]_2517-i am in such spirits , and [Giudice]_475-giudice is frightening [Tom]_295-tom out of [his]_295-tom life in [the kitchen]_{5526-the kitchen} . "_[2517-i] [She]_2517-i danced round [[my]_0-i little room]_{6335-my little room} , like a leaf when the wind is rising . [The Pixie - king of [my]_0-i gordit]_{2519-the pixie - king of my gordit} could not have been lighter of foot , nor half so lovely of form . How [she]_2517-i managed to spin so between the " sticks , "_[2517-i] none but [herself]_2517-i can tell . What would [poor Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} have said ? In spite of [her]_2517-i fears for the furniture , [she]_2517-i would have laughed , [I]_0-i believe , and blessed the pretty feet . " Come along , [[Clara]_293-clara [child]_5440-child]_{6691-clara child} . Do [you]_{6691-clara child} think [I]_2517-i am going to stand still [here]_846-here all day ? "_[2517-i] " If [you]_{6691-clara child} call that standing still , pray give [me]_2517-i [the senior sophist]_{6694-the senior sophist} 's definition of motion . "_[2517-i] " Oh [I]_2517-i want to skate , so dreadfully . And [Pappy]_426-pappy and [Conrad]_427-conrad wo n't let [me]_2517-i . [They]_6695-them say it is n't becoming . But what on earth can be more so ? Would n't [I]_2517-i skim on one foot ? [I]_2517-i 'll skate , in spite of [them]_6695-them , [Clara]_293-clara , if [you]_{6691-clara child} 'll only keep [me]_2517-i in countenance . "_[2517-i] " Can [you]_{6691-clara child} imagine [me]_2517-i skating ? "_[2517-i] " No . [I]_2517-i know [you]_{6691-clara child} wo n't do it , [you]_{6691-clara child} are so fearfully grave . But there 's more fun in [you]_{6691-clara child} , when [you]_{6691-clara child} like , or when [you]_{6691-clara child} ca n't help [yourself]_{6691-clara child} , as [I]_2517-i 've seen [you]_{6691-clara child} once or twice , than there is in [a hundred such Merry - Andrews as [me]_2517-i]_{6696-a hundred such merry - andrews as me} . At any rate [we]_6697-we 'll go and see [them]_6695-them . On with [your]_{6691-clara child} bonnet now , [I]_2517-i can not wait a minute . Have something to cover [your]_{6691-clara child} eyes . [Conny]_427-conrad ' 11 be there [I]_2517-i know . "_[2517-i] On went [my]_0-i bonnet , nothing loth to have an airing again . It was fading in the box . " Now lots of warm things , [darling]_6257-darling . [You]_{6691-clara child} have no idea how cold it is , and scarcely sun enough to thaw the long frost in [your]_{6691-clara child} eyes . Let [me]_2517-i look at them , [Donna]_476-donna . Oh if [mine]_2517-i were half as bright . [You]_{6691-clara child} ca n't have got them in [England]_9-england . "_[2517-i] " Now , [Idols]_466-idols , do n't talk nonsense . Every inch of [me]_2520-her is English , and not an inch of [you]_{6691-clara child} ; although [your]_{6691-clara child} eyes are so blue . [You]_{6691-clara child} are Scotch all over , or else [you]_{6691-clara child} are all Swiss . "_[2520-her] For answer [she]_2520-her began singing " [the Merry Swiss Boy]_{6699-the merry swiss boy} , "_[2520-her] and was going to dance to [her]_2520-her song , when [I]_0-i danced [her]_2520-her off down [stairs]_1506-stairs . [Giudice]_475-giudice was in [the kitchen]_{5526-the kitchen} , with [Tom]_295-tom , from the top of [the coffee - mill]_{2523-the coffee - mill} , sputtering anathemas at [him]_475-giudice . A magnificent dog [he]_475-giudice was , of [the race of Maltese bloodhounds , now so scarce , fawn - coloured , long in the flank , deep in the jowl , pouch - eared , and grave of eye]_{2524-the race of maltese bloodhounds , now so scarce , fawn - coloured , long in the flank , deep in the jowl , pouch - eared , and grave of eye} . [He]_475-giudice regarded [Tom]_295-tom no more than if [he]_475-giudice had been an old hat brushed the wrong way ; and the birds , who were all in a flutter , [he]_475-giudice took for British butterflies . [He]_475-giudice came leisurely to [me]_0-i , walking one side at a time , and solemnly deposited [his]_475-giudice great moist nose in [my]_0-i hand . [I]_0-i knew [him]_475-giudice then as [the friend who addressed [me]_0-i , long since , in [the Villa Road]_{6143-the villa road}]_{2525-the friend who addressed me , long since , in the villa road} . " Why , [you]_0-i graven [images"—a_{[475-giudice]} popular person]_{6700-images"—a popular person} always has fifty nicknames ; [Isola]_428-isola had a hundred at least , and [she]_428-isola liked them all—"what depth of secresy and statecraft is this ! [You]_0-i know how [I]_428-isola love dogs , and [you]_0-i never even told [me]_428-isola of [this splendid fellow]_{6701-this splendid fellow} 's existence ! "_[428-isola] " Well , [Donna]_476-donna dear , do n't look so indignant . [He]_475-giudice does n't belong to [me]_428-isola , and [he]_475-giudice wo n't come with [me]_428-isola unless [he]_475-giudice is told , and then [he]_475-giudice makes such a favour of it . See [his]_475-giudice long supple stride . [He]_475-giudice walks just like a leopard — don't [you]_0-i , [you]_0-i pious panther ? [I]_428-isola wonder [he]_475-giudice took to [you]_0-i so . [He]_475-giudice is not fierce at all , except when [he]_475-giudice ought to be ; but [he]_475-giudice hardly ever makes [friends]_6702-friends . "_[428-isola] " Whose dog is [he]_475-giudice ? ' "_[427-conrad] [Conrad]_427-conrad 's to be sure . And [I]_0-i do believe [Conny]_427-conrad thinks more of [him]_427-conrad than [he]_427-conrad does of [me]_0-i . Get along , [you]_2527-you yellow mammoth ! Why [he]_427-conrad would keep [his]_427-conrad head there all day ? " "_[427-conrad] [All dogs]_{2528-all dogs} love [me]_0-i , [Idols]_466-idols . It was so when [I]_0-i was [a child]_{782-a child} . [They]_{2528-all dogs} know how honest [I]_0-i am . " "_{[2528-all dogs]} Well , [I]_0-i believe [you]_466-idols are , [Donna]_476-donna ; and too honest sometimes . But [I]_0-i am honest enough , and [Giudice]_475-giudice does not appreciate it . Come along , [Judy]_477-judy . Are [you]_466-idols going to stick [there]_1114-there all day ? " Away [we]_6703-we went , and the great dog walked behind , keeping [his]_427-conrad head most fairly adjusted between [us]_6703-we , never shifting its place an inch , whether [we]_6703-we walked or ran — as [we]_6703-we did where [the street]_{6090-the street} was empty , and when [we]_6703-we got into [the Park]_{892-the park} . Oh the cold air of heaven , fresh from [the clear North Pole]_{97-the clear north pole} , where [the Great Bear]_{478-the great bear} stalks round the Little Bear with the vigilance of [a mother]_{1544-a mother} , how it tightens the clip of the joints , puts a sting into every step , flushes the cheeks with [Aurora]_479-aurora , and sparkles in young eyes ! For the nonce [we]_6703-we forget who [we]_6703-we are , never think how [our]_6703-we clothes blow about , [our]_6703-we spirits are on the north wind , what are [we]_6703-we more than snow flakes , let [us]_6703-we glisten and lift on the air . Crossing [the Park]_{892-the park} ( lightly furrowed with snow at the drains , like [our]_6703-we hair when [we]_6703-we part it ) [we]_6703-we came to a broad sheet of ice . [We]_6703-we had heard a long way off a crisp musical hollow sound , like tapping a box with a hole in it . The ice was not like the old ice at [Vaughan Park]_{5-vaughan park} , but seamed and channeled , and up and down , and powdered light grey with scrapings from skates and shoes . [Thousands of people]_{6708-thousands of people} were on it , some skating , some sliding , [some]_811-some rushing about and playing hot game with crooked sticks , some sweeping away with short brooms , some crying things for sale and offering skates for hire , many standing still and wistfully eyeing [the land]_{1188-the land} ; but all in the height of good humour , laughing , chaffing , holloaing , drinking , and ordering more . Every now and then [some great performer]_{6711-some great performer} ( in [his]_{6711-some great performer} own eyes ) would sail by [the women]_{5487-the women} grandly ( like [a ship]_{1423-a ship} heeling over ) , with [his]_{6711-some great performer} arms folded and foot over foot , and a long cigar in [his]_{6711-some great performer} mouth . For [these one]_{6714-these one} devoutly desired a fall . [The skaters of real eminence]_{6715-the skaters of real eminence} scorned this common show - off , and each had [[his]_{6711-some great performer} special admirers]_{6716-his special admirers} forming a ring around [him]_{6711-some great performer} , where [he]_{6711-some great performer} had cut [his]_{6711-some great performer} own circus of smoother and greener ice . Along [the brink of firm land]_{6717-the brink of firm land} , stood [nurses]_6718-nurses and [children]_{1229-children} innumerable ; [the maids on the giggle]_{6720-the maids on the giggle} at every challenge borne to [them]_{6720-the maids on the giggle} from the glazed waters , [the little ones]_{6721-the little ones} tugging , and kicking , and frantic to get on . The [background of all the cold scene , whiter as it receded , and broken by gliding figures]_{6722-background of all the cold scene , whiter as it receded , and broken by gliding figures} , was formed by [some low fringed islets , with open water around them]_{6723-some low fringed islets , with open water around them} , and crane - necked wild fowl wheeling about , and warning boards , and [icemen pushing flat - bottomed boats]_{6724-icemen pushing flat - bottomed boats} along . In the far distance , to the right , were [two or three canvas tents , where [they]_{6725-two or three canvas tents , where they kept the range of the mercury , and the list of the accidents} kept the range of the mercury , and the list of the accidents]_{6725-two or three canvas tents , where they kept the range of the mercury , and the list of the accidents} . [The long vista]_{6726-the long vista} was closed now and then , as high as hats and bonnets , by scuds of the drifting ice and snow . Here as [we]_6727-we stood on [the bank]_{6728-the bank} , [Giudice]_475-giudice forsook [us]_6727-we shamefully , and bounded over the ice , with a levity quite scandalous for a serious - minded dog , towards one of the charmed circles , where [eminent skaters whirled , like peg - tops full of steam - engines]_{6729-eminent skaters whirled , like peg - tops full of steam - engines} . Was it likely that [we]_6727-we , [two girls of spirit]_{6730-two girls of spirit} , would halt ignobly there ? First on the ice went [I]_477-judy , holding [Isola]_428-isola 's hand , and tempting [her]_428-isola nothing loth . In spite of [her]_428-isola boast about skating , [Idols]_466-idols was frightened at first , and held very tightly by [me]_477-judy , and wanted to run back . But the little feet grew braver at every step , and [she]_428-isola ventured even to clap [her]_428-isola hands and dance . To [me]_477-judy the thing was no novelty , except from the number of [people]_1132-people , and the puckering of the ice . [I]_477-judy had even the courage to slide with one foot , but never with both at a time . As for the cracking and bending when [some heavy man]_{6732-some heavy man} scoured by , on purpose , [I]_477-judy dare say , to frighten [us]_6727-we , [I]_477-judy laughed with [my]_477-judy heart in [my]_477-judy mouth . [Isola]_428-isola was amazed . [She]_428-isola never could have conceived that [I]_477-judy had so much effrontery . What cared [I]_477-judy , if [a hundred people]_{6733-a hundred people} stared at [me]_477-judy ? [I]_477-judy was doing nothing unseemly , and [dozens of [ladies]_6735-ladies]_{6734-dozens of ladies} were there . The scene , and the air , and the spirits of youth set [my]_477-judy blood all on the bound , and oh , blessing of blessings , [my]_477-judy blessed sight was come back . How manly , and stirring , to feel , that a slip — and a limb may be broken ; a crack — and one may be drowned . But , as usual , [I]_477-judy suffered for [my]_477-judy temerity . First [we]_6727-we followed [Giudice]_475-giudice , and found [him]_475-giudice in the centre of the ring , where [the greatest throng]_{6736-the greatest throng} was gathered , the dog skating with [[his]_475-giudice master]_{827-his master} , who was [one of [the very best skaters in [the world]_{798-the world}]_{6739-the very best skaters in the world}]_{6738-one of the very best skaters in the world} . [Giudice]_475-giudice was graver than ever , but wistfully glanced as [he]_475-giudice whirled round , at every point of escape . With [his]_475-giudice heavy fore feet on [[his]_475-giudice master]_{827-his master} 's shoulders , and [his]_475-giudice tongue lolling out , and [his]_475-giudice eyes rolling sadly at each reluctant caper , and [his]_475-giudice poor tail between [his]_475-giudice jerked legs , it was impossible not to see that [his]_475-giudice dignity and self - respect were suffering . So when [Conrad]_427-conrad came to speak to [us]_6742-us , [I]_477-judy earnestly begged that [Giudice]_475-giudice might be set free , which was done in a moment , to the great disappointment of [the bystanders]_{6743-the bystanders} , and the boundless delight of the dog , who came and gratefully kissed [my]_477-judy hand . "_[477-judy] Why , [Donna]_476-donna , " cried [Isola]_428-isola in a small pet , "_[476-donna] [Giudice]_475-giudice takes [you]_476-donna for [[his]_475-giudice mistress]_{5962-his mistress} : [he]_475-giudice would never do that to [me]_0-i , if [I]_0-i coaxed [him]_475-giudice a hundred years . " Through , the colour the north wind had spread on [my]_0-i cheeks , [I]_0-i felt the warm blood rushing , and bent over the dog to hide it ; then much as [I]_0-i longed to see [[Isola]_428-isola 's brother]_{2473-isola 's brother} skate , [I]_0-i dragged [her]_428-isola off rather rudely towards [the rougher part of the ice]_{6745-the rougher part of the ice} . [Conrad]_427-conrad looked rather surprised and hurt , but resumed [his]_427-conrad figuring with much apparent philosophy . [Idols]_466-idols and [I]_0-i , with the flush in [our]_6746-our cheeks , and the flash in [our]_6746-our eyes , and [our]_6746-our forms all buoyant with innocent fun , came suddenly round a corner on [a party of low - looking men]_{6747-a party of low - looking men} , who were casting flat stones , bowling , or curling , or playing at drake , with a great tin can for [their]_{6747-a party of low - looking men} mark . [We]_6746-our turned and were off in a moment ; but [we]_6746-our had been observed by the sharpest and slyest eyes in [London]_1-london . [A man]_{5384-a man} gave chase in half - skating fashion , having bones tied under [his]_{5384-a man} boots , in lieu of skates . [We]_6746-our could easily have escaped , in spite of [his]_{5384-a man} bones ; but was [I]_0-i going to run away , like [a skittish servant - maid]_{6749-a skittish servant - maid} ? [I]_0-i drew up [Miss Isola]_428-isola sharply , whether [she]_428-isola would or no , and confronted [the enemy]_{1677-the enemy} . It was [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} [himself]_{413-mr. shelfer} , [the man so modest and bashful , who could never bear to look at [me]_0-i]_{6751-the man so modest and bashful , who could never bear to look at me} . [Though a dozen more]_{6752-though a dozen more} came after [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} , [I]_0-i felt no alarm at all , knowing [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} wonderful shyness and diffidence . But [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} first address amazed [me]_0-i . "_[0-i] Now 's [your]_2532-your time , [lads]_2533-lads . At 'em , [I]_0-i say . Here 's [the two prettiest gals in [London]_1-london]_{2534-the two prettiest gals in london} . " [The low scoundrel]_{6753-the low scoundrel} ! [I]_293-clara saw that [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} was quite tipsy . But frightened as [I]_293-clara was , for none but [they]_{2534-the two prettiest gals in london} were near , [I]_293-clara could hardly help laughing at [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} . [He]_{413-mr. shelfer} had [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} usual slouch , and the long sly nose , and the pent - house gleam of the eye , and [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} gaunt cheeks drawn as if [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} was always sucking them , and the chimneypot hat , that had once belonged to [some steady going Churchman]_{6754-some steady going churchman} , with the crown flapping in , like the gills of a fish . All this was balanced by the skill and comical courage of [Bacchus]_480-bacchus , upon a pair of grating marrow - bones . Behind [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} countless pockets yawned and looked brown on the wind . And this was the being bowed down to by [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ! "_[293-clara] [Clara]_293-clara dear , stop , [Clara]_293-clara ! " [the impudent sot]_{6755-the impudent sot} cried out . [I]_293-clara had stopped without that , and was already facing [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} . For a moment [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} was abashed , for [my]_293-clara eyes were full upon [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} ; but the others were coming up . "_[293-clara] Now this is what [I]_0-i calls harmony , dashed if it is n't . Why look at the trees and the bushes . There 's harmony in them trees , ay in every one on 'em . Fine trees and [pretty gals]_{2535-pretty gals} , them 's the jockeys for [me]_0-i . That 's what [I]_0-i calls [natur]_2536-natur ' and something like . Houses ! Lor , there 's no harmony in [houses]_6198-houses and [pantiles]_{2538-pantiles} . Fine trees is all harmony , and so is [lovely woman]_{2539-lovely woman} . Do n't tell [the old gal]_{2540-the old gal} at [home]_1102-home . [She]_{2540-the old gal} never would understand . Why Idols there is a pretty duck as ever swam on the ice . But [Clara]_293-clara 's a — — fine swan , and no mistake . [Ducks]_481-ducks is all very well , but a swan is the jockey for [me]_0-i . There 's something to lay hold on there . Give [me]_0-i a swan [I]_0-i say , and the harmony of them trees . [Bob Ridley]_482-bob , [I]_0-i 'll lay [you]_482-bob [a tanner]_{2542-a tanner} [I]_0-i kisses that there swan . Ever see such eyes , [Bob]_482-bob , and look at the way [she]_293-clara stands . Wonder there 's a bit of ice left here . " [The low rogue]_{6756-the low rogue} had a long pipe "_[0-i] in [his]_0-i head,"—as [Farmer Huxtable]_{362-farmer huxtable} expressed it,—and at every leering sentence blew out a puff of smoke . "_{[2542-a tanner]} Bet [you]_482-bob [a tanner]_{2542-a tanner} , [Charley]_395-charley , [you]_482-bob do n't kiss [that stunnin ' gal]_{2544-that stunnin ' gal} , " cried [[his]_0-i friend]_{6757-his friend} , as drunk as [himself]_{6757-his friend} . "_[482-bob] Here goes , neck or nothing ; " and the niddering made a dash at [me]_482-bob . [I]_482-bob drew [my]_482-bob clenched hand from [my]_482-bob muff , where it had been tingling in [my]_482-bob glove , and in [his]_0-i tipsy rush , [his]_0-i face came full against it . It was a very odd thing , and [I]_482-bob know not how it happened . [He]_0-i reeled on [his]_0-i bones from the collision , and staggered in staring amazement . Before [he]_0-i had time to recover , [Conrad]_427-conrad dashed up like [a hawk at an owl]_{6758-a hawk at an owl} ; by some wonderful back - stroke [he]_427-conrad stopped in an instant , wrung [Shelfer]_395-charley 's crooked stick from [his]_427-conrad hand , hooked [him]_0-i under the collar , struck out again , and towed the poor wretch away backward , at the speed of a mile in a minute . The fire flew from [his]_0-i skates as [he]_0-i dashed towards [the open water]_{6759-the open water} . [Giudice]_475-giudice , at full gallop behind , tried in vain to keep up . [Every man and woman there]_{6760-every man and woman there} turned to watch the issue . [Shelfer]_395-charley threw out [his]_395-charley hands wildly , and screamed : [he]_395-charley was utterly helpless , [his]_395-charley teeth rattled more than the bones on [his]_395-charley boots . At the edge of [the open water]_{6759-the open water} , three hundred yards away , [Conrad]_427-conrad stopped suddenly , like [an engine in collision]_{6762-an engine in collision} , unhooked [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} , and let [him]_395-charley go with full impetus . Sprawling and yelling in vain , [he]_395-charley flung up [his]_395-charley arms , and fell backward into [the water]_{1150-the water} headlong . [The icemen]_{6764-the icemen} came running with [boats]_6765-boats , and ropes , and grapnels . But before the first splash was over , [another]_6766-another was seen ; [Giudice]_475-giudice , at a sign from [[his]_475-giudice master]_{827-his master} , plunged in , drew [the poor man of harmony]_{6768-the poor man of harmony} out , and laid [him]_{6768-the poor man of harmony} high and wet on the ice . [He]_395-charley was taken at once to [the tent]_{6769-the tent} ; where , as [I]_482-bob afterwards heard , [he]_395-charley made a fine afternoon of it with [[the society]_{6770-the society} 's men]_{6771-the society 's men} ; most of whom , it is needless to say , [he]_395-charley knew . Be that as it may , the lesson did [him]_395-charley good . [He]_395-charley never insulted [a lady]_{5829-a lady} again , or ( what is still worse ) [a poor honest girl]_{6773-a poor honest girl} , with no education , and [no one to defend [her]_{6773-a poor honest girl}]_{6774-no one to defend her} . As for [me]_482-bob , [I]_482-bob really believe [he]_395-charley never durst blink [his]_395-charley sly eyes in [my]_482-bob direction again . [I]_482-bob love good justice , in or out of the pod . The bean is as sweet to [me]_482-bob from the rough air of [heaven]_1555-heaven as from [a juryman]_{6582-a juryman} 's pocket . But [I]_482-bob thought [Master Conrad]_427-conrad had overdone it this time . [He]_395-charley had no right to risk [the poor man]_{6777-the poor man} 's life . And so [I]_482-bob told [him]_395-charley when [he]_395-charley came back , as calm as if [he]_395-charley had cut a spread eagle . [He]_395-charley assured [me]_482-bob that [he]_395-charley had not risked [the man]_{5533-the man} 's life at all . [He]_395-charley knew the depth of the water there by [the island]_{1125-the island} . It was five feet and no more . Then [I]_482-bob felt all of a glow and longed to give [him]_395-charley the kiss which had cost [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} so much . The next minute [I]_482-bob felt humiliated , and burst into a passion of tears , to think what [[my]_482-bob father]_{731-my father} would say at [his]_{731-my father} pet of grace and luxury being insulted like that . [Idols]_466-idols and [Conrad]_427-conrad , not knowing [my]_482-bob story , could not understand it at all . [They]_6781-they came [home]_1102-home with [me]_482-bob at once . [Conrad]_427-conrad , "_[482-bob] under the circumstances , " ventured to offer [his]_427-conrad arm , which [I]_482-bob , under the circumstances , ventured to accept . At the door [he]_427-conrad left [me]_482-bob ; but [Idols]_466-idols came in with [Giudice]_475-giudice , commissioned to see [[her]_466-idols safe [home]_1102-home]_{6783-her safe home} . [She]_466-idols came in partly lest [I]_482-bob should feel lonely , partly to arraign [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ( already condemned by both of [[us]_6785-us girls]_{6786-us girls} ) for daring to have such [a reprobate drunken husband]_{6787-a reprobate drunken husband} . When [Isola]_428-isola had told [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} everything , and a little more than everything ( for [her]_428-isola imagination was lively ) , the dominant feeling in [the little woman]_{6264-the little woman} 's bosom was not indignation , as [we]_6785-us had expected , but terror . Terror of two evils ; the first and chief evil , the possibility of [Charley]_395-charley catching cold ; the other , the probability that [he]_427-conrad would crush [Conrad]_427-conrad , and tread [him]_427-conrad into [the earth]_{1046-the earth} , at the earliest opportunity . [I]_482-bob assured [her]_428-isola warmly that [Mr. Conrad]_427-conrad could well defend [himself]_427-conrad , even if [Shelfer]_395-charley should dare to meddle with [him]_427-conrad . "_[482-bob] Oh , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , [you]_{1798-my good friend} have no idea what [a terrible fellow]_{2546-a terrible fellow} [Charley]_395-charley is . Why [he]_395-charley broke the head of [the skittleman at the " Load of Hay]_{6790-the skittleman at the " load of hay} . "_{[395-charley]} So [he]_395-charley told [me]_0-i [himself]_395-charley . Ah , [he]_395-charley 's [a terrible fellow]_{2546-a terrible fellow} , when [he]_395-charley 's put out . " "_{[395-charley]} But [you]_{1798-my good friend} forget , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [he]_395-charley has n't been put out this time ; [he]_395-charley was put in . " That [Isola]_428-isola always loved small jokes . "_{[395-charley]} Put in , [Miss Idols]_466-idols ? " [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} never understood any joke but [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} own—"oh_[466-idols] yes , put into the water [you]_{1798-my good friend} mean . True , true , and serve [him]_395-charley right ( so long as [he]_395-charley do n't take cold ) for calling [me]_0-i , [[his]_395-charley lawful wife]_{2548-his lawful wife} who keeps [him]_395-charley together , ' [the old gal at [home]_1102-home]_{2549-the old gal at home} ! ' But [Charley]_395-charley 's [a terrible fellow]_{2546-a terrible fellow} , terrible . " "_{[2552-terrible coward]} [Terrible coward]_{2552-terrible coward} more likely , " [I]_395-charley cried , "_{[395-charley]} or [he]_395-charley would never have dared [his]_395-charley low insolence to [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i am sorry for it , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , utterly as [I]_0-i scorn [him]_395-charley , because it compels [me]_0-i to leave [[your]_{391-mrs. shelfer} house]_{5344-your house} ; and [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} have been truly good and kind to [me]_0-i . " [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} thought of [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} ; but how different was the fibre of [her]_{331-mrs. huxtable} kindness ! "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Leave [[my]_0-i house]_{5343-my house} , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} ! No , no , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , that will never do , not to be thought of , and [us]_2556-us so used to [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} and all , and [Tom]_295-tom , and the blackbird , and the new squirrel ! A likely story , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , and with [your]_{391-mrs. shelfer} eyelashes coming ! And do [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} know who would come instead of [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ? " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Of course not , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Why [a nasty stinking hussy]_{2558-a nasty stinking hussy} , that would steal the feathers out of [my]_0-i best bed again , the same as [they]_2559-they did before . [My]_0-i very best bed , [Miss Idols]_466-idols , as dear [Miss Minto]_{405-miss minto} left [me]_0-i by [her]_{405-miss minto} will , not [a better bed in [London]_1-london]_{2560-a better bed in london} , unless it 's [the Queen]_{1427-the queen} 's , and so [I]_0-i used to tell [her]_{405-miss minto} when [I]_0-i helped to shake it up . [My]_0-i mouth watered over it so , that [she]_{405-miss minto} said one day , and [the knife - boy]_{2562-the knife - boy} heard [her]_{405-miss minto} on [the stairs]_{5744-the stairs} , ' [Patty]_409-patty , [you]_409-patty 've been [a good girl]_{2564-a good girl} to [me]_0-i , and [you]_409-patty deserves it , and [you]_409-patty shall have it , when [I]_0-i am tucked up for good and all . ' And so [I]_0-i did , very honourable , and all above board . Yes , yes ; [I]_0-i had [a commercial gent]_{2565-a commercial gent} one time , [a wonderful heavy man]_{2566-a wonderful heavy man} to be sure , and [he]_{2565-a commercial gent} stayed with [me]_0-i three year for the sake of that same bed . And [he]_{2565-a commercial gent} knew what beds was , and no mistake . It was bootiful to see when [he]_{2565-a commercial gent} was a getting up . [It]_2567-it began to rise up , up , the same as [Tom]_295-tom 's back , when [he]_{2565-a commercial gent} see [your]_409-patty dog , [Miss Idols]_466-idols . " "_[466-idols] Come , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [I]_0-i fear [we]_2568-we can hardly wait . " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} ' Twas like dough put afore the fire , [Miss.]_448-miss. There 's no such [Dantzic]_98-dantzic now . [You]_409-patty could n't put [your]_409-patty fist into one side of it , but out it would come the other . [Oh Lor]_393-lor , [I]_0-i could cry ; [that nasty sly minx]_{2569-that nasty sly minx} , [she]_{2569-that nasty sly minx} was softer than parsnips , [you]_409-patty 'd say , and one leg more than the other . [I]_0-i could n't think why it was [she]_{2569-that nasty sly minx} would always make [her]_{2569-that nasty sly minx} own bed . ' Thank [you]_409-patty , [Mrs. Shelfer'—with]_{483-mrs. shelfer'—with} [her]_{2569-that nasty sly minx} lips sucked in like a button - hole—'thank [you]_409-patty , [you]_409-patty are too kind . It does n't at all fatigue [me]_0-i , and [[my]_0-i doctor]_{2570-my doctor} pronounces the exercise good for [my]_0-i chest and arms . ' Thank God , [she]_{2569-that nasty sly minx} got some exercise good for [her]_{2569-that nasty sly minx} legs as well . Six months on the treadmill . [Charley]_395-charley got [me]_0-i an order , and it did [my]_0-i heart good to see [her]_{2569-that nasty sly minx} . But [my]_0-i twenty pounds of best feathers never came back again , and that was n't the worst of it neither . " "_[409-patty] Oh dear no , " says [Idols]_466-idols , "_[409-patty] the worst of it was the sin , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} The worst of it was that [she]_{2569-that nasty sly minx} stuffed it with sawdust , and oakum , and jovanna , [I]_0-i do believe , by the smell of it . " "_{[2569-that nasty sly minx]} What do [you]_409-patty mean , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ? " "_[409-patty] [Lor]_393-lor , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , do n't [you]_409-patty know [jovanna]_2571-jovanna that [the kingfishers]_{2572-the kingfishers} lays on [the top of [the sea]_{895-the sea}]_{2573-the top of the sea} , and [the gardeners]_{2575-the gardeners} make water with it ? " "_{[2569-that nasty sly minx]} And what did [she]_{2569-that nasty sly minx} do with [your]_409-patty feathers ? " "_{[2569-that nasty sly minx]} Sneaked them out of [the house]_{764-the house} in the crown of [her]_{2569-that nasty sly minx} bonnet , and sold them at eightpence a pound , and they worth three and sixpence , every flue of them . But [the rag and bottleman]_{2577-the rag and bottleman} got two months , thank [God]_303-god for it . Ah , it will never be a bed again under 5*l . * at least . " "_{[1798-my good friend]} Is it the one [I]_0-i sleep on , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ? " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Yes , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , the very same . " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} And [you]_409-patty have put [me]_0-i to sleep on guano ! Well , [I]_0-i thought it smelt very odd . " "_[0-i] No , no , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , wait a bit . [We]_2580-we got most of that out again , and gave it to [[our]_2580-we geraniums]_{2581-our geraniums} . [She]_{2569-that nasty sly minx} stole it out of a sack as [Charley]_395-charley kept in [the washhouse]_{2582-the washhouse} . There was feathers in it . That put it into [her]_{2569-that nasty sly minx} head , [I]_0-i suppose . But as for [your]_{1798-my good friend} going , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , that will never do . Never , never . Will it now , [Miss Idols]_466-idols ? And to see [her]_{2569-that nasty sly minx} dress , to be sure , that baggage ! Why , [[my]_0-i best tarlatan]_{2583-my best tarlatan} , as dear [Miss Minto]_{405-miss minto} give [me]_0-i to be married in , was n't good enough for [her]_{2569-that nasty sly minx} to sweep the stairs in . Sweep the stairs — yes , yes , [she]_{2569-that nasty sly minx} did sweep the stairs when [I]_0-i see [her]_{2569-that nasty sly minx} last ; and [she]_{2569-that nasty sly minx} had afore , [I]_0-i know ; [she]_{2569-that nasty sly minx} was so clever at it ; and that was why one leg was so much more than the other . " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , do [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} expect [us]_2584-us to listen to [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} all night ? " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} True , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , quite true . But when [I]_0-i thinks of [my]_0-i feathers , something comes over [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i must out with [my]_0-i troubles , or burst . But [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} musn't go , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} . That will never do , never ; ask [Miss Idols]_466-idols now . " And [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} turned to [Isola]_428-isola , who was quite ready to be turned to . "_[466-idols] Of course it wo n't , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . [You]_{391-mrs. shelfer} are quite right , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} . [I]_0-i wo n't hear of it for a moment . Why [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} was drunk . [I]_0-i know it by the way [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} held [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} pipe . Quite ' drunk and incapable , ' [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} know . And [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} will be so sorry , and [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} 'll never do it again . And [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} did not mean to be drunk at all , but the frost was very hard , and the cold got into [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} head . [I]_0-i am sure it would into [mine]_0-i , if [I]_0-i had stayed much longer ; and [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} did n't understand brandy - balls , as [we]_2587-we do at [College]_2416-college — [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} could not expect it , [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} know . " The pure good faith of this last was too much for [me]_{413-mr. shelfer} . [I]_{413-mr. shelfer} laughed outright , having [no husband]_{6791-no husband} concerned in it . As for [the dry little woman]_{6792-the dry little woman} , [she]_{6792-the dry little woman} actually cried . [I]_{413-mr. shelfer} had never seen a tear in [her]_{6792-the dry little woman} quick , shy eyes before , though the feather - bed nearly brought them , and so did the death of [the elder Sandy]_{6793-the elder sandy} , the squirrel . [She]_{6792-the dry little woman} turned away . [She]_{6792-the dry little woman} was always ashamed of emotion . "_{[413-mr. shelfer]} Bless [your]_{391-mrs. shelfer} innocent heart , [Miss Idols]_466-idols , if [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} do n't marry [a king]_{2589-a king} ! [Not one of [us]_2587-we]_{2590-not one of us} is good enough to tie [your]_{391-mrs. shelfer} shoes as [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} talked of , [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} are that simple and good of heart . " Is there any goodness more touching to [a veteran]_{6794-a veteran} than a soft young nature 's disbelief in evil ? But for bitter experience , [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} might have been sweet as [Isola]_428-isola . Thank [God]_303-god , that in spite of all vinegar , the ailment is still infectious . [Isola]_428-isola could not make it all out . "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} To - morrow morning , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , " began [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} again , "_{[423-miss valence]} to - morrow morning , after [I]_0-i have wigged [him]_2591-him well all night , and then given [him]_2591-him a good breakfast , [he]_2591-him 'll come and beg [your]_{423-miss valence} pardon like [a child]_{782-a child} , and be ashamed to look any higher than [your]_{423-miss valence} flounces ; and [I]_0-i know [you]_{423-miss valence} 'll forgive [him]_2591-him . " "_{[423-miss valence]} [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [I]_0-i have forgiven [him]_2591-him long ago . [I]_0-i can not bear enmity against [such people"—these]_{6795-such people"—these} last three words had better been away—"for_{[423-miss valence]} such little wrongs . And [I]_0-i owe [you]_{423-miss valence} a great deal for all [your]_{423-miss valence} kindness to [me]_0-i . The only question is , whether self - respect and prudence allow [me]_0-i to stay [here]_846-here . [I]_0-i will leave the decision to [Miss Isola]_428-isola . Young as [she]_428-isola is , and innocent and confiding , [she]_428-isola can not be wrong on a question of delicacy . As for prudence , [she]_428-isola knows more of [London]_1-london than [I]_0-i do . " Hereon [I]_428-isola sat down with a womanly air . But [I]_428-isola could hardly help laughing when [the senior sophist]_{6694-the senior sophist} jumped up , proud to deliver judgment . To look taller , [she]_{6694-the senior sophist} shook [her]_{6694-the senior sophist} flounces down , threw back [her]_{6694-the senior sophist} plump white shoulders — [her]_{6694-the senior sophist} bonnet and cloak were off — drew [her]_{6694-the senior sophist} rich flowing hair down the pearly curve of [her]_{6694-the senior sophist} ears and , scarcely satisfied yet , thought of mounting a stool , then took [her]_{6694-the senior sophist} foot off [the too convictive bema]_{6797-the too convictive bema} . After all these anabolisms , [she]_{6694-the senior sophist} began with much solemnity . [She]_{6694-the senior sophist} was thinking of [the College]_{99-the college} , and [[her]_{6694-the senior sophist} father]_{898-her father} in the rostrum . "_[428-isola] [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} and [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , since [you]_2594-you have honoured [my]_0-i weak judgment by appointing [me]_0-i umpire , and as [I]_0-i am led to believe without any right of appeal , [I]_0-i will do [my]_0-i utmost to be discreet and impartial . In the first place [I]_0-i award that [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} remain in [this house]_{5422-this house} , forget and forgive [her]_{423-miss valence} wrongs . In the second place [I]_0-i recommend ( in such a matter [I]_0-i will not presume to command ) that till [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} has made a humble apology and promised faithfully never to be intoxicated again , however cold the weather is , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} shall not permit [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} to have a single kiss , nor a single bit of hot dinner . Now [I]_0-i have delivered [my]_0-i decree . " "_[0-i] [Lor]_393-lor , [Miss Idols]_466-idols , [you]_466-idols are too soft for [the Old Bailey]_{2596-the old bailey} . [He]_{413-mr. shelfer} never kiss [me]_0-i , unless it is when [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} knows [I]_0-i have got some money . But [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} do like a good hot dinner . Right enough there , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} . " So this knotty point was settled ; and [Giudice]_475-giudice , who was very loth to leave [me]_{1798-my good friend} , escorted [Miss Idols]_466-idols [home]_1102-home , Before going , [he]_475-giudice made another solemn deposit of [his]_475-giudice great jowl in [my]_{1798-my good friend} hand , and looked at [me]_{1798-my good friend} with an air so tutelary and encouraging , that [I]_{1798-my good friend} could not help laughing ; at which [he]_475-giudice felt hurt , but condoned it . [Isola]_428-isola told [me]_{1798-my good friend} that when [he]_475-giudice was put in charge of [her]_428-isola , [he]_475-giudice felt the responsibility so strongly that [he]_475-giudice would not stir from [her]_428-isola side , not even to speak to [the most colloquially gifted dog]_{6800-the most colloquially gifted dog} ; though at other times [he]_475-giudice would stay gossiping near a lamp - post for five minutes together . One evening when [he]_475-giudice was thus commissioned , [a rude fellow]_{6801-a rude fellow} pushed between [them]_6802-them , and said something to [Isola]_428-isola . [Giudice]_475-giudice had [him]_475-giudice down in an instant , and stood over [him]_475-giudice , like a tawny thundercloud , with growlings so fearful and such flashing eyes , that [two policemen]_{6803-two policemen} felt it wiser not to act as [conductors]_{6804-conductors} . [Idols]_466-idols [herself]_466-idols was obliged , at the entreaty of [[her]_466-idols prostrate foe]_{6805-her prostrate foe} , to coax the great dog off ; but when [the ungrateful man]_{6806-the ungrateful man} got up , [he]_{6806-the ungrateful man} insisted on giving [Giudice]_475-giudice into charge , and having [him]_475-giudice dragged to [the Station]_{2317-the station} . "_{[1798-my good friend]} Very good , [Sir]_5380-sir , " said [the policeman]_{6808-the policeman} , "_{[1798-my good friend]} [we]_2599-we 'll enter the charge when [you]_5380-sir bring [him]_2600-him [there]_1114-there ; let [him]_2600-him go , [Miss]_2602-miss , for [the Gent]_{2603-the gent} to collar [him]_2600-him . " [The "_{[2603-the gent]} Gent "]_{6809-the " gent "} was away in no time , and [Giudice]_475-giudice and [[his]_475-giudice mistress]_{5962-his mistress} walked off amid loud hurrahs from [all the boys of [the neighbourhood]_{5329-the neighbourhood}]_{6811-all the boys of the neighbourhood} . [Conrad]_427-conrad called with [[his]_427-conrad sister]_{2443-his sister} the day after [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} 's ducking , to reassure [himself]_427-conrad as to [my]_{2606-little woman} nerves , which were never better . [He]_427-conrad looked over some of [my]_{2606-little woman} drawings , and without seeming to give , but rather to seek information , afforded [me]_{2606-little woman} many a hint , which [I]_{2606-little woman} afterwards found most useful . [I]_{2606-little woman} now learned what [his]_427-conrad profession was ; and it gave [me]_{2606-little woman} pleasure to find that [he]_427-conrad was not , as [I]_{2606-little woman} had feared , [a mere lounger upon [town]_1829-town]_{6814-a mere lounger upon town} . Instead of that , [he]_427-conrad was working very hard , being ( as [he]_427-conrad told [me]_{2606-little woman} ) nothing more or less than [a journeyman sculptor]_{6816-a journeyman sculptor} . Though , as [himself]_427-conrad admitted , by no means [a novice]_{6817-a novice} , [he]_427-conrad was going through the regular course of study and hand - labour under [an eminent artist]_{6818-an eminent artist} . But [Isola]_428-isola told [me]_{2606-little woman} , and no doubt it was true , that [he]_427-conrad could beat [[his]_427-conrad master]_{827-his master} out and out , and that for any choice design , where original power and taste were needed , [they]_6820-they always came to [him]_427-conrad . Of late the frosts had lightened [his]_427-conrad tasks ; for warm [the room]_{823-the room} as [they]_6820-they would , the weather always affected the material ; and [they]_6820-they feared to attempt the more delicate parts of the work during the rigours of winter . So when the thaw came , [he]_427-conrad must lose the pleasure of seeing [me]_{2606-little woman} for a while , unless [dear Isola]_428-isola wished to be escorted [home]_1102-home on a Sunday ; if , indeed , [I]_{2606-little woman} allowed [her]_428-isola to come on that day . Why , that was the very day when [I]_{2606-little woman} could best indulge in a walk with [[my]_{2606-little woman} gentle friend]_{6823-my gentle friend} , after going to [church]_1429-church ; and [I]_{2606-little woman} was sure [her]_428-isola society did [me]_{2606-little woman} more good than the sermons . On [her]_428-isola part , [Isola]_428-isola found that the services always made [her]_428-isola so nervous ( [her]_428-isola nerves were as good as mine ) , and that [she]_428-isola did not much like walking about with a big dog on Sundays , and [Cora]_429-cora was always cross all the day after mass , so [Conrad]_427-conrad must promise upon [his]_427-conrad honour always to come for [her]_428-isola , rain , hail , or shine , on a Sunday . This [he]_427-conrad promised so readily , that , for a moment , [I]_{2606-little woman} fancied it had all been preconcerted . Then [I]_{2606-little woman} despised [myself]_{2606-little woman} for the suspicion . The trick would have been not out of the compass of [Isola]_428-isola , but very unworthy of [Conrad]_427-conrad . Soon as ever [my]_{2606-little woman} sight was fully restored , and [I]_{2606-little woman} had [Dr. Frank]_{484-dr. frank} 's permission , [I]_{2606-little woman} took to [my]_{2606-little woman} drawing again , and worked at it till [my]_{2606-little woman} eyes ached . This was the symptom upon which [I]_{2606-little woman} had promised immediately to leave off . Then out [I]_{2606-little woman} would rush , towards dusk , and away into [the great square]_{6299-the great square} , full of the pure air of heaven , round by [the church]_{1351-the church} at the top , and six times round [it]_{6299-the great square} till [my]_{2606-little woman} breath was short . [The senior sophist]_{6694-the senior sophist} reminds [me]_{2606-little woman} that round a square is impossible . After squaring the circle , extract the square root , [dear Idols]_466-idols , by the binomial theorem . [You]_466-idols do learn so much at college : but [I]_{2606-little woman} write simple and often foolish English . Never mind ; [I]_{2606-little woman} would rather write bad English , than the best French ever written . One is the tongue of power and multitude : the other the language of nicety and demarcation . Which of the two is the more expansive , even [a woman]_{5830-a woman} may guess . High time it was for [me]_{2606-little woman} to recruit [[my]_{2606-little woman} exchequer]_{6829-my exchequer} . [Dr. Franks]_{462-dr. franks} had charged [me]_{2606-little woman} far less than [I]_{2606-little woman} even dared to hope . How [I]_{2606-little woman} trembled when [I]_{2606-little woman} opened the envelope ! What quick terror is half so bad as the slow fear of gathering debt ? [I]_{2606-little woman} was accustomed to medical charges of the time when [I]_{2606-little woman} was [an heiress]_{6830-an heiress} : but [his]_{462-dr. franks} appeared to [me]_{2606-little woman} now to be even below reason . The sum could hardly have paid [him]_{462-dr. franks} for [his]_{462-dr. franks} numerous walks to and fro . Then a wretched idea shot through [me]_{2606-little woman} : had [he]_{462-dr. franks} charged [me]_{2606-little woman} so little , because [he]_{462-dr. franks} knew [I]_{2606-little woman} was poor ? [I]_{2606-little woman} took [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} into [my]_{2606-little woman} confidence ; [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was likely to know what the [London]_1-london scale should be . The little thing soon reassured [me]_{2606-little woman} : it was quite enough , [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} declared ; if [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} were in [[my]_{2606-little woman} place]_{6831-my place} , [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} would demand a discount for ready money ! "_{[2606-little woman]} Oh [[you]_2604-you dreadfully mean [little woman]_{2606-little woman}]_{2605-you dreadfully mean little woman} ! [I]_0-i should lose [my]_0-i sight , and deserve it , if [I]_0-i did . " However , in spite of all this , money was scarce and scarcer every day , and none of [my]_0-i grand revenues would fall due for ever so long . So another visit must be paid to [Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} . [Isola]_428-isola insisted on coming with [me]_0-i ; to [my]_0-i surprise [I]_0-i found that , with all [her]_428-isola soft simplicity [she]_428-isola had much more idea of making a market than [I]_0-i had . The reason probably was that [she]_428-isola had much less pride . No pocket would hold mine , when [a tradesman]_{6832-a tradesman} attempted any familiarity . [And whoso stands on a pedestal to sell]_{6833-and whoso stands on a pedestal to sell} , is like to find [the buyer]_{6834-the buyer} 's arm too short . Whether it were that , or the golden charm of [her]_428-isola manner , or of something else , let [Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} say ; certain it is that [the man of crackly canvas]_{6835-the man of crackly canvas} ( for whom , by - the - bye , [I]_0-i have a sincere respect , because [he]_{422-mr. oxgall} cheated [me]_0-i so little and so [neatly)—this man]_{6836-neatly)—this man} , [I]_0-i say , regarded [her]_428-isola with a wide - mouthed , brooch - eyed , admiration , which [he]_{422-mr. oxgall} hardly ever expended on anything out of oils . For [the king of painters]_{6837-the king of painters} [himself]_{6837-the king of painters} [she]_428-isola was a vision sweeter than dreams of heaven . Such a tint in [her]_428-isola lustrous eyes , such tone in [her]_428-isola dainty cheeks , such perfection of line in [her]_428-isola features , and every curve of [her]_428-isola exquisite shape . And bounding and sparkling through all , from the rippled wealth of [her]_428-isola hair to the light - curved arch of [her]_428-isola foot , the full play of [her]_428-isola innocent , joyous , loving life . No wonder [the picture - dealer]_{6268-the picture - dealer} shaded [his]_{6268-the picture - dealer} eyes and gazed , and rubbed them and gazed again . [I]_0-i have frequently seen [respectable elderly gentlemen , whose rakishness has never been more than found vent in the cock of a hat]_{6839-respectable elderly gentlemen , whose rakishness has never been more than found vent in the cock of a hat} , [[magisterial men]_{6840-magisterial men}]_{6840-magisterial men} [I]_0-i mean , who would no more think of insulting [a girl in [London]_1-london]_{6842-a girl in london} or anywhere else , than of giving [[their]_{6839-respectable elderly gentlemen , whose rakishness has never been more than found vent in the cock of a hat} daughters]_{6843-their daughters} as prizes for competitive skill in poaching , [such good men]_{6844-such good men} and [true]_6845-true , also [simple - hearted clergymen]_{6846-simple - hearted clergymen} ( for some there still are from [the country]_{1831-the country} ) these and the like , [I]_0-i Clara [Vaughan]_293-clara have seen , when [they]_{6839-respectable elderly gentlemen , whose rakishness has never been more than found vent in the cock of a hat} met [[my]_0-i [Isola]_428-isola]_{2446-my isola} , stop short , wink frequently , and without much presence of mind , until [she]_428-isola was gone by ; then shumble hotly across [the street]_{6090-the street} , with hands in [their]_{6839-respectable elderly gentlemen , whose rakishness has never been more than found vent in the cock of a hat} tail - coat pockets ( for [these gentlemen]_{6850-these gentlemen} always expect most to be robbed when there is least chance of it ) pretend to look at [a shop]_{6851-a shop} , then march at top speed , fumbling all the while for [their]_{6839-respectable elderly gentlemen , whose rakishness has never been more than found vent in the cock of a hat} spectacles , until [they]_{6839-respectable elderly gentlemen , whose rakishness has never been more than found vent in the cock of a hat} got well a - head of [us]_6852-us . Then [I]_0-i have seen [them]_{6839-respectable elderly gentlemen , whose rakishness has never been more than found vent in the cock of a hat} cross again , some thirty yards in front , with spectacles nicely adjusted , and become again wholly absorbed by the beauty of metropolitan goods . But when the light foot sounded , from a fair gazing distance , [these same gentlemen]_{6853-these same gentlemen} have ( by some strange coincidence ) alway turned full upon [us]_6852-us , in an absent and yet nervous manner , and focussed [their]_{6853-these same gentlemen} green or pale blue eyes upon the rich violet orbs of [Isola]_428-isola . [I]_0-i have even known [them]_{6853-these same gentlemen} to look at [me]_0-i ( when [they]_{6853-these same gentlemen} could see [her]_428-isola no more ) , to find some sympathy for [their]_{6853-these same gentlemen} vague emotions . [Idols]_466-idols knew it : of course [she]_428-isola did . And [she]_428-isola rather gloried in it . [She]_428-isola had much respect for [a fine old gentleman]_{6854-a fine old gentleman} ; and [I]_0-i know not how it was , but [nobody]_1116-nobody ever thought of insulting [her]_428-isola when [she]_428-isola could be clearly seen . A "_[0-i] pretty girl " [you]_6856-your would never call [her]_428-isola — though [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} did — the term would be quite unworthy ; even [a "_[0-i] beautiful girl]_{6857-a " beautiful girl} , " sweetly beautiful though [she]_428-isola was , would hardly be [your]_6856-your expression , at least for a while . But [a "_[0-i] lovely girl]_{6858-a " lovely girl} , " and [the loveliest one ever seen]_{6859-the loveliest one ever seen} , that is what [she]_428-isola would be called at once , if [you]_6856-your could take [your]_6856-your eyes off , to analyse [your]_6856-your ideas . [Isola]_428-isola knew it of course , as [I]_0-i said before , [she]_428-isola knew all [her]_428-isola wondrous gifts ; but as for being conceited , [a trull with a splay foot and a crop of short - horn carrots]_{6860-a trull with a splay foot and a crop of short - horn carrots} has often thrice [her]_428-isola conceit . A certain pretty graceful pride [she]_428-isola had , which threw a rosy playful halo round [her]_428-isola , but never made [other women]_{1538-other women} look plain in [her]_428-isola eyes . [She]_428-isola will not value [her]_428-isola beauty much , until [she]_428-isola falls in love ; and blessed is [he]_6862-he who shall be the object , if [she]_428-isola is allowed to abide with [him]_6862-he . [Meanwhile Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} wished for nothing but to hear and see [her]_428-isola talk ; and this [she]_428-isola did to some purpose . [I]_0-i like [a man who at the age of sixty is still impressible to the gay vein of youth]_{6863-a man who at the age of sixty is still impressible to the gay vein of youth} . [I]_0-i know at once by [his]_{6863-a man who at the age of sixty is still impressible to the gay vein of youth} eyes whether [his]_{6863-a man who at the age of sixty is still impressible to the gay vein of youth} admiration is abstract and admissible . If it be , [I]_0-i reciprocate it . What clearer proof can [we]_6864-we find , that [his]_{6863-a man who at the age of sixty is still impressible to the gay vein of youth} heart has not withered with [his]_{6863-a man who at the age of sixty is still impressible to the gay vein of youth} body ; that [he]_{6863-a man who at the age of sixty is still impressible to the gay vein of youth} is [not a man of mammon , tinsel , or phylactery,—in a word , no mummy]_{6865-not a man of mammon , tinsel , or phylactery,—in a word , no mummy} ? Shall [I]_0-i ever finish this bargain ? [I]_0-i have never been so reflective before ; and all the time no less a sum than five pounds hangs upon it . Five guineas ( which sounds better ) was the amount at which dear [Idols]_466-idols let off [Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} . [I]_0-i believe [she]_428-isola might have got ten , but [she]_428-isola had an excellent conscience . It worked like a patent chronometer , with compensation balance . [Mine]_0-i was still more sensitive . [I]_0-i could hardly think [[my]_0-i landscape]_{6405-my landscape} , perspective mare 's nest and all , worth that amount of money , and [I]_0-i wished to throw off a guinea , but [Idols]_466-idols would not hear of it . "_[0-i] [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , [I]_0-i am [your]_{423-miss valence} factor for this beautiful landscape , which has cost [you]_{423-miss valence} so much labour . Either accept [my]_0-i terms , inadequate as they are , or take the agency from [me]_0-i , and recommence with [Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} ' de novo , ' as [we]_2607-we say at College . " Betwixt [her]_428-isola beauty and [my]_{422-mr. oxgall} stately integrity , [poor Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} knew not where [he]_{422-mr. oxgall} stood . [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} heard [him]_{422-mr. oxgall} mutter that [he]_{422-mr. oxgall} would rather go through fifty auctions , even if it was [George Robins]_{485-george robins} . But if [she]_428-isola had come to sell [him]_{422-mr. oxgall} a picture the very next day , [he]_{422-mr. oxgall} would have gone through it all again with the same infatuation . So [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} took the money ; and now [my]_{422-mr. oxgall} evil demon , who had chafed beneath all this trampling , had [his]_{422-mr. oxgall} turn again . [We]_2607-we had foolishly brought the great dog [Giudice]_475-giudice , for [our]_2607-we delight and the expansion of [his]_475-giudice mind . In [[Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} 's shop]_{6867-mr. oxgall 's shop} [he]_475-giudice behaved to admiration . With the air of [a connoisseur]_{6868-a connoisseur} [he]_475-giudice walked from picture to picture , closed one eye , and faintly wagged [his]_475-giudice tail . Then [he]_475-giudice found a Scotch terrier scarcely worth a sniff , and a mastiff whom [he]_475-giudice saluted with a contemptuous growl . The only work of high art [he]_475-giudice could discover was an interior , with a flitch of bacon in the foreground uncommonly well drawn . Before this [he]_475-giudice sat down , and receiving no invitation , bedewed the boards with a stalactite from either side of [his]_475-giudice mouth . The dog was so well behaved , [he]_475-giudice never took anything without leave and saying t a long grace . [Unluckily Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} , mainly [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} believe to prolong [his]_475-giudice interview with [Idols]_466-idols , insisted upon taking [us]_2607-we to [the shop of [a carver and gilder close by]_{6870-a carver and gilder close by}]_{6869-the shop of a carver and gilder close by} ; where [my]_{422-mr. oxgall} first drawing ( which had been sold ) was to be seen in its frame . [He]_475-giudice declared that [we]_2607-we could not tell what a painting was like , until [we]_2607-we had seen it framed . Observing several large mirrors in [this shop]_{6871-this shop} , [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} begged that [Giudice]_475-giudice might be left outside . And so [he]_475-giudice was , but [he]_475-giudice did not stay there . Scarcely had [we]_2607-we begun to discuss the effect of the frame on [my]_{422-mr. oxgall} drawing , when [Giudice]_475-giudice pushed [his]_475-giudice way in , and looked about with a truly judicial air . [The shop]_{2038-the shop} was long , and [the owner]_{6873-the owner} was with [us]_2607-we at the further end . [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} saw what would follow , and dashed off to stop [him]_{6873-the owner} , but it was too late . [Giudice]_475-giudice had seen the very finest dog [he]_475-giudice ever beheld in [his]_475-giudice life — a dog really worth fighting . Up went [his]_475-giudice crest and [his]_475-giudice tail , one savage growl , and [he]_475-giudice sprang at [him]_475-giudice . Crash,—and the largest mirror there was a wreck , and [Giudice]_475-giudice the rock beneath it . For a time [he]_475-giudice lay quite stunned ; then to [my]_{422-mr. oxgall} great delight [he]_475-giudice staggered to [me]_{422-mr. oxgall} , not [Isola]_428-isola , laid [his]_475-giudice cut paws in [my]_{422-mr. oxgall} hands and [his]_475-giudice bleeding nose in [my]_{422-mr. oxgall} lap , and explained it all to [me]_{422-mr. oxgall} with much entreaty for sympathy . This [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} gave [him]_475-giudice readily , even to tears and kisses . [Isola]_428-isola wanted to scold and even to beat [him]_475-giudice , but [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} would not hear of it . [He]_475-giudice had seen another great dog between [himself]_475-giudice and [us]_6874-us , how could [he]_475-giudice help attacking [him]_475-giudice ? [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} ordered a sponge and some water at once , and bathed [his]_475-giudice fore paws , which were terribly cut ; then remembering [the Inspector]_{1959-the inspector} , [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} sent [Idols]_466-idols for some arnica . But the blood was not stanched by it as [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} expected ; perhaps the drug was not pure , or the hair obstructed its action . So [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} held [his]_475-giudice paws in the basin , and [he]_475-giudice whinged , and licked [me]_{422-mr. oxgall} , and made [my]_{422-mr. oxgall} face all bloody . Meanwhile [the poor carver and gilder]_{6876-the poor carver and gilder} thought much more of [his]_475-giudice looking - glass than of noble flesh and blood . [The picture - dealer]_{6268-the picture - dealer} as well was in a great predicament . "_{[422-mr. oxgall]} [Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} , " [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} cried , still sponging the wounded dog 's nose , "_{[422-mr. oxgall]} let [us]_2608-us hear no more about it . Tell [me]_0-i the full value of the mirror , and [I]_0-i will pay for it . What are glass and quicksilver , or even gold , compared to a noble dog like this ? Not worth a wag of [your]_{422-mr. oxgall} tail , are they , [my]_0-i duck of diamonds ? Give [me]_0-i another kiss , [you]_{422-mr. oxgall} delicious pet of a dog . " The delicious dog was entirely of [my]_{422-mr. oxgall} opinion . [His]_475-giudice beautiful eyes were unhurt . [His]_475-giudice nose tasted wholesomely salt . But [Isola]_428-isola was not half so romantic . Little [she]_428-isola cared about money for [herself]_428-isola ; yet [she]_428-isola had no idea of seeing [a friend]_{6544-a friend} disburse . Empowered by nature to wind [all men]_{951-all men} round [her]_428-isola finger , [she]_428-isola now called art to [her]_428-isola aid , and [Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} , who was half - way round already , had no chance of escape . [She]_428-isola settled it thus : [the carver and gilder]_{6880-the carver and gilder} , in consideration of [his]_{422-mr. oxgall} dealings with [Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} and [his]_{422-mr. oxgall} own "_{[422-mr. oxgall]} careless exposure " of the mirror , should accept cost price for the article . That amount should be paid in equal shares by [all three of [us]_{6881-all three of us}]_{6881-all three of us} : by [Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} because [he]_{422-mr. oxgall} would drag [us]_{6881-all three of us} thither , by [herself]_428-isola as [the mistress of the dog]_{6882-the mistress of the dog} , and by [me]_{422-mr. oxgall} as the cause of the expedition . [She]_428-isola had attended a course of lectures upon jurisprudence , and [her]_428-isola decision was better than that of [a judge]_{6883-a judge} , because [she]_428-isola had seen the whole of it , and because the dog was [hers]_428-isola — at least [[her]_428-isola brother]_{6430-her brother} 's , which was all the same . As for [the owner of the mirror]_{6885-the owner of the mirror} , [he]_{6885-the owner of the mirror} must think [himself]_{6885-the owner of the mirror} wonderfully lucky in having met with [such honest people]_{6886-such honest people} , and in having sold [his]_{6885-the owner of the mirror} glass , and had n't [he]_{6885-the owner of the mirror} got all the pieces , and [she]_428-isola must have the largest one for [Judy]_477-judy to dress [his]_{6885-the owner of the mirror} hair by . And so indeed [she]_428-isola did . After [[our]_6887-our dear]_{6888-our dear} [Portia]_486-portia had finished , and the whole thing was settled , it struck [me]_{422-mr. oxgall} that no lectures upon jurisprudence could turn wrong into right . [Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} was quite blameless , so was [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} , so was [Idols]_466-idols , except in bringing [unlucky Giudice]_475-giudice with [her]_428-isola , which , from the outset , [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} had discouraged . [She]_428-isola , as [the temporary owner of the dog]_{6889-the temporary owner of the dog} , should have borne all the loss ; and so [she]_428-isola would have done gladly , only [she]_428-isola did not see it in that light . As it was , [she]_428-isola tried afterwards to force upon [me]_{422-mr. oxgall} [her]_428-isola last three guineas ( that being the sum which [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} had paid , as [my]_{422-mr. oxgall} third of the whole ) , but of course [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} would not accept them . [She]_428-isola had no money with [her]_428-isola , so [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} paid [her]_428-isola contribution , but allowed [her]_428-isola to repay [me]_{422-mr. oxgall} . [Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} 's third [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} made good to [him]_{422-mr. oxgall} ( without consulting [her]_428-isola ) when [he]_{422-mr. oxgall} paid [me]_{422-mr. oxgall} for [my]_{422-mr. oxgall} next drawing . So [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} had earned five guineas , and lost six . Is it always to be so when [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} labour to make a little money ? At [my]_{422-mr. oxgall} earnest entreaty — [Idols]_466-idols could refuse [me]_{422-mr. oxgall} nothing , when [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} was in earnest — [darling Giudice]_475-giudice was brought [home]_1102-home in [a cab]_{2021-a cab} to [[my]_{422-mr. oxgall} lodgings]_{6270-my lodgings} . [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} knew that [he]_{422-mr. oxgall} would not be cared for at [the stables where [he]_{422-mr. oxgall} was boarded]_{6893-the stables where he was boarded} ; and [his]_{422-mr. oxgall} wounds were very serious . As for [home]_1102-home , [Professor Ross]_{430-professor ross} , who detested dogs in general , would not admit [him]_{422-mr. oxgall} into [the house]_{764-the house} . [He]_{430-professor ross} even thought it a great stretch of grace to allow [old Cora]_429-cora to watch the dog back to [the stables]_{6896-the stables} , after [he]_{430-professor ross} had been patrolling all the afternoon with [[his]_{430-professor ross} mistress]_{5962-his mistress} . How [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} hate such low ingratitude ! An animal is to serve [us]_6898-we , body and soul , to crouch and fawn for [our]_6898-we notice — not that [Giudice]_475-giudice ever fawned to [him]_{422-mr. oxgall} , but growled awfully — and [we]_6898-we are to think it well off with a curse or a kick , which [we]_6898-we durst not give it but for its loyalty to [us]_6898-we . What pleasure [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} had in nursing [that poor Giudice]_{6899-that poor giudice} , and how grateful [he]_{6899-that poor giudice} was ! When [we]_6898-we got [home]_1102-home , [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} washed [his]_{6899-that poor giudice} wounds again , with warm water this time , as the bleeding was stanched ; and then [I]_{422-mr. oxgall} "_{[422-mr. oxgall]} exhibited " ( as [the doctors]_{6901-the doctors} absurdly say ) [a little friar]_{6902-a little friar} 's balsam . "_[428-isola] Oh , it does smart so ! " [Giudice]_475-giudice exclaimed with [his]_475-giudice eyes , "_[428-isola] but [I]_0-i know it 's for the best , and [you]_2609-you wo n't see [me]_0-i give one wince . " Neither did [I.]_{422-mr. oxgall} Then a nice soft bandage over [his]_{6899-that poor giudice} lovely paws , and a plaister across [his]_{6899-that poor giudice} nose , and [he]_{6899-that poor giudice} lies snugly , at the proper distance from the fire , as proud as possible of being nursed , and with an interesting air of pallid refinement on [his]_{6899-that poor giudice} features . [He]_{6899-that poor giudice} will hardly notice [Idols]_466-idols , but exclaims , at length , with the petulance of [an invalid]_{6903-an invalid} , "_[2609-you] [Isola]_428-isola , ca n't [you]_428-isola let [me]_0-i alone ? [Clara]_293-clara understands a dog , and [I]_0-i like [her]_293-clara much the best . " So [he]_{6899-that poor giudice} followed [me]_293-clara all round [the room]_{823-the room} with [his]_{6899-that poor giudice} eyes , and begged [me]_293-clara to come and talk to [him]_{6899-that poor giudice} , which [I]_293-clara would not do , because [he]_{6899-that poor giudice} needed quiet and composure . [Beloved Giudice]_475-giudice remained many days under [my]_293-clara care , until [he]_{6899-that poor giudice} became convinced that [he]_{6899-that poor giudice} was [my]_293-clara dog absolutely , and had no claim on [any other human being]_{6905-any other human being} . [He]_{6899-that poor giudice} more than paid for [his]_{6899-that poor giudice} board and medical attendance , by sitting repeatedly for [his]_{6899-that poor giudice} portrait ; in which at last [I]_293-clara succeeded to [his]_{6899-that poor giudice} and [my]_293-clara own satisfaction . Though by no means a conceited dog , there was nothing [he]_{6899-that poor giudice} loved better than having [his]_{6899-that poor giudice} likeness taken ; and directly after breakfast [he]_{6899-that poor giudice} always assumed the most becoming attitude , and watched intently for the appearance of the pencil with [his]_{6899-that poor giudice} massive head a little on one side , and [his]_{6899-that poor giudice} dark brown eyes full of dignified interest , and [his]_{6899-that poor giudice} great ears curving down through russet tufts , like tawny cascades in autumn , [he]_{6899-that poor giudice} seemed fit study for [a real artist , who should quicken as well as copy]_{6906-a real artist , who should quicken as well as copy} [him]_{6899-that poor giudice} . However , [he]_{6899-that poor giudice} was too much of [a gentleman]_{5462-a gentleman} to sneer at [my]_293-clara weak efforts , for [he]_{6899-that poor giudice} saw that [I]_293-clara did [my]_293-clara best . Oftentimes [he]_{6899-that poor giudice} would gaze steadfastly at the portrait and then at [me]_293-clara , and hobble up , and nudge [me]_293-clara , and whine , a little , and then sigh in self - abasement at [his]_{6899-that poor giudice} want of speech . Whenever [he]_{6899-that poor giudice} did this , [I]_293-clara knew that [he]_{6899-that poor giudice} wished to have something altered ; but it was long before [I]_293-clara could discover what that something was . [I]_293-clara tried every change of line or colour that [I]_293-clara could think of — all to no purpose . At length it struck [me]_293-clara that as [he]_{6899-that poor giudice} criticised more with nose than eyes , the defect must be in the smell . Happy idea ! [I]_293-clara satisfied [my]_293-clara Giudice at last , and did it thus . After shading around the nose and mouth , before laying on the colour , [I]_293-clara took a clean dry brush , and passed it lightly round the hollows of [his]_{6899-that poor giudice} own sweet saltish nostrils , carefully avoiding the cut ; then one turn of the brush , not on the palette , but on a dry square of colour , and with that [I]_293-clara expressed the dear dog 's nose so well , that [he]_{6899-that poor giudice} would have spoiled it in a sniffing ecstasy , if [I]_293-clara had not pulled it away . [His]_{6899-that poor giudice} portrait now possessed the life which [he]_{6899-that poor giudice} required . Meanwhile [I]_293-clara received almost daily visits from [Isola]_428-isola and [[her]_428-isola brother]_{6430-her brother} ; [the latter]_{907-the latter} was , of course , very anxious about [his]_{6899-that poor giudice} poor dog , and could only relieve that anxiety by long interviews with [him]_{6899-that poor giudice} . It happened strangely enough , yet more and more often as time went on , that [Isola]_428-isola during these interviews felt an especial desire for [[Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's society]_{6910-mrs. shelfer 's society} , which [she]_428-isola could only enjoy by betaking [herself]_428-isola to [the kitchen]_{5526-the kitchen} . There , with all the pets , except [old Tom]_295-tom , who was constancy itself , and the lame blackbird who was all gratitude , [her]_428-isola influence began to supersede [mine]_293-clara , and even [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's ; for this [I]_293-clara cared but little , so long as [Giudice]_475-giudice kept to [me]_293-clara . Over that great dog , as [he]_{6899-that poor giudice} turned upon [his]_{6899-that poor giudice} side , and lifted one hind leg ( the canine mode of showing submission to the will of [God]_303-god ) , over [him]_{6899-that poor giudice} [we]_6912-we bent , [Conrad]_427-conrad and [I]_293-clara , in most interesting diagnosis , until it seemed the proper thing that [our]_6912-we hair should flow together , and [our]_6912-we breath make one soft breeze . From this position [we]_6912-we would rise with a conscious colour in [our]_6912-we cheeks , and a flutter at the heart , and a certain awe of [one another]_{758-one another} . Then it would be ever so long before [either of [us]_6912-we]_{6914-either of us} dared to seek the other 's eyes . [Haply]_487-haply when those eyes were met — unwitting yet inevitably — [they]_6915-they would drop , or turn away , or find some new attraction in the dog or clouds . Then some weak remark would follow , for which [the hearer]_{6916-the hearer} cared no whit , yet feigned deep interest therein . Why labour thus to cheat [ourselves]_6912-we — each other [we]_6912-we can not cheat — why feel [we]_6912-we so confused and guilty , why long so heartily to be a hundred leagues away , yet knowing thoroughly that , if it were so , all the space between were void and heartache ? The reason neither [we]_6912-we nor [other mortal]_{6917-other mortal} knows ; the cause is this , that [we]_6912-we love [one another]_{758-one another} . [I]_293-clara have felt that it must be so , at least on [my]_293-clara part , ever since the day [he]_6919-he came with [Isola]_428-isola , and knew [me]_293-clara not , though [I]_293-clara knew [him]_6919-he so well . Does [he]_6919-he know [me]_293-clara now as [the Clara Vaughan whom [he]_6919-he once avoided]_{6920-the clara vaughan whom he once avoided} ? These eyelashes are as long and dark as ever ; the large eyes , shaded by them , are as deep a gray as twilight in a grove of willows . [My]_293-clara cheeks have regained their curve , [my]_293-clara hair was never injured ; let [me]_293-clara hie to the glass now [he]_6919-he is gone , and see if [I]_293-clara be like [myself]_293-clara , and whether [I]_293-clara have face and form likely to win [Conrad]_427-conrad 's love . No , [I]_293-clara am not like [myself]_293-clara . No wonder [he]_6919-he does not know [me]_293-clara . The gloom habitual to [my]_293-clara face is gone . It is the difference betwixt [a cavern well]_{6921-a cavern well} and [a sunny fountain]_{6922-a sunny fountain} . [I]_293-clara see [a laughing graceful girl , with high birth marked in every vein , and self - respect in every motion]_{6923-a laughing graceful girl , with high birth marked in every vein , and self - respect in every motion} ; [her]_{6923-a laughing graceful girl , with high birth marked in every vein , and self - respect in every motion} clear cheeks glowing with soft wonder , [her]_{6923-a laughing graceful girl , with high birth marked in every vein , and self - respect in every motion} red lips parted with delight , [her]_{6923-a laughing graceful girl , with high birth marked in every vein , and self - respect in every motion} arching neck and shoulder curve gleaming through a night of tresses , [her]_{6923-a laughing graceful girl , with high birth marked in every vein , and self - respect in every motion} forehead calm and thoughtful still , half - belying the bright eyes where love and pleasure sparkle . For a moment self - approval heightens the expression . At [my]_293-clara silly self [my]_293-clara foolish self is smiling ; but the smile has warmer source than [maiden]_6623-maiden 's light conceit . [I]_293-clara smile because [I]_293-clara see that , as regards exterior , [he]_6919-he who slights [me]_293-clara must be hard to please ; and [some one , whom [I]_293-clara think of]_{6925-some one , whom i think of} , is not hard to please . Straight upon the thought of [him]_6919-he — Ah well . [[My]_293-clara father]_{731-my father} used to quote from the "_[293-clara] Hero and [Leander]_488-leander " a beautiful verse , which neither [he]_{731-my father} nor any other could in English render duly , [ Greek : Aidoûs hyròn éreuphos apostazousa prosôpou.]—v . 173 . "_[293-clara] Showering from [her]_2610-her cheek the flowing carmine of [her]_2610-her shame . " But when [Conrad]_427-conrad should have learned who it was that nursed [his]_427-conrad dog , would [he]_427-conrad feel the tender gratitude and delight which [he]_427-conrad now displayed so freely ? Would [he]_427-conrad say , as in [his]_427-conrad fervour [he]_427-conrad now said every day , "_[293-clara] [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , [I]_0-i do believe there is [no one like [you]_{423-miss valence} in [the world]_{798-the world}]_{2611-no one like you in the world} ! " Would [he]_427-conrad not rather say , "_[293-clara] [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara , how basely [you]_{423-miss valence} have deceived [me]_0-i ! [Giudice]_475-giudice , come away ! " A whistle and the last sound of the foot , for which [I]_475-giudice listened now by the hour . This thought was continually with [me]_475-giudice . It poisoned half the flavour and ruined all the digestion of [my]_475-giudice happy moments . But what could [I]_475-giudice do ? How unmaidenly , how presumptuous of [me]_475-giudice to imagine that [he]_427-conrad was likely to break [his]_427-conrad heart for [me]_475-giudice ! And if [he]_427-conrad did — why then [he]_427-conrad should break [my]_475-giudice own as well . [I]_475-giudice am not one of [the drawing - room young ladies]_{6927-the drawing - room young ladies} , who receive a modified proposal every Sunday afternoon , and think much more about the sermon afterwards . [I]_475-giudice can not play with the daffodils upon the brink of love , sleepily thrusting [[my]_475-giudice admirers]_{6928-my admirers} in , and lounging with half - open breast , which neither love - knots may secure , nor fluttering sighs unzone . No , here [I]_475-giudice am , such as [I]_475-giudice am , such as [God]_303-god has made [me]_475-giudice . No usury , no auction for [my]_475-giudice heart : once for all [I]_475-giudice give it , and [my]_475-giudice life goes with it . So it must always be with [a girl of any feeling]_{6929-a girl of any feeling} , who has trained [her]_{6929-a girl of any feeling} own existence . But for [my]_475-giudice wild ignorance , [I]_475-giudice would dare to say — so it must be always with [a girl of feeling]_{6930-a girl of feeling} , twist and warp [her]_{6929-a girl of any feeling} as [you]_6931-you will . Yet [I]_475-giudice am told , by those who know [the world]_{798-the world} , that it is not so with [nine girls out of ten among [the lady caste]_{6934-the lady caste}]_{6933-nine girls out of ten among the lady caste} . If , beneath the roc of fashion , [they]_{6933-nine girls out of ten among the lady caste} prefer the diamond to the meat , let [them]_{6933-nine girls out of ten among the lady caste} have it , and starve thereon . The choice is of [their]_{6933-nine girls out of ten among the lady caste} own young crops . [No parent bird]_{6935-no parent bird} can force the bauble down . But what have [I]_475-giudice to do with this ? All [I]_475-giudice know is that neither [I]_475-giudice , nor [any child of [mine]_475-giudice]_{6936-any child of mine} , will or shall be gulleted thus for life . After every little burst of thought , every feeble sally of imagination , came ( as always is the case with [me]_475-giudice ) came the slow pusillanimous reaction . All that [I]_475-giudice had any right to do was to paint , earn money , and be off for [Italy]_63-italy . Little as [I]_475-giudice knew about the expense of travelling , [I]_475-giudice felt sure that it would be vain to start with less than a hundred pounds . Enormous sum ! How could [I]_475-giudice ever hope to win it , though [I]_475-giudice painted day and night , and lived on bread and water . To this diet , or what in [London]_1-london is quite synonymous , bread and milk , [I]_475-giudice had already reduced [myself]_475-giudice , in [my]_475-giudice stern resolve to lay by two pounds every week . Farewell to meat , so soon as [my]_475-giudice [Devonshire]_4-devonshire "_{[475-giudice]} pegmate " was gone , and farewell to what [I]_475-giudice cared much more about , a glass of good [London]_1-london stout . [I]_475-giudice suppose there is something horribly "_{[475-giudice]} vulgar " in [my]_475-giudice tastes , for [I]_475-giudice will confess that the liquid called "_{[475-giudice]} black draught " by [Mr. Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} had much charm for [me]_475-giudice . However , [I]_475-giudice abjured it with all other luxuries , and throve no whit the worse . [The kindly little woman]_{6937-the kindly little woman} , whose summum bonum ( next to [her]_{6937-the kindly little woman} "_{[475-giudice]} sticks " ) was plenty of good fare , took it much to heart that [I]_475-giudice should live so plainly . "_{[475-giudice]} Why , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , [you]_{423-miss valence} are [the queerest young lady as ever [I]_0-i set eyes on]_{2613-the queerest young lady as ever i set eyes on} . All as ever [I]_0-i see , and [I]_0-i 've see'd [a many]_{2614-a many} , [they]_{2614-a many} picks a little bit so dainty , like a canary cracking a hemp seed when [the gentlemen]_{2615-the gentlemen} is by : then off [they]_{2614-a many} goes when there 's [nobody]_1116-nobody looking , and munches like so many pigs in a potato bury . [Miss Violante]_{489-miss violante} [you]_{423-miss valence} know . But as for [you]_{423-miss valence} , why bless [me]_0-i and keep [me]_0-i , [you]_{423-miss valence} feeds that great horse of a dog with all the fat of [the land]_{1188-the land} , and [you]_{423-miss valence} lives on a crust [yourself]_{423-miss valence} . Now do come down , that 's [a good soul]_{2618-a good soul} ; there 's a clod of beef a - biling with suet dumplings , and [such lovely parsnips]_{2619-such lovely parsnips} , [you]_{423-miss valence} can smell it all up the stairs , galloping , galloping , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , and [that rogue of a Charley]_{2621-that rogue of a charley} wo n't come [home]_1102-home [I]_0-i know , [he]_{2621-that rogue of a charley} 's got along with [that thief [Bob Ridley]_482-bob]_{2623-that thief bob ridley} ; and [I]_0-i expects [the boy]_{1121-the boy} every minute with a little drop of stout , and the best pewter pot for [you]_{423-miss valence} . Now if [you]_{423-miss valence} wo n't come down , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , [my]_0-i dinner will all stick in [my]_0-i throat , and [I]_0-i am so hungry . " "_[0-i] So am [I]_0-i , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} have made [me]_0-i so . " In [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} excitement , [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} slipped from the edge of the chair , whereon [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} always balanced [herself]_{391-mrs. shelfer} when [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} made [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} sit down . [She]_{391-mrs. shelfer} thought it disrespectful to occupy too much room , and cuddled [herself]_{391-mrs. shelfer} in the smallest compass possible . Let no ill be thought of [Giudice]_475-giudice . Who thinks ill of [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} care not , for [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} can defend [myself]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , if it be worth while . So can [Giudice]_475-giudice with [his]_475-giudice teeth — the finest set in [London]_1-london — but [he]_475-giudice has no tongue , no merop tongue , [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} mean . It was true that [Giudice]_475-giudice had good fare , and thoroughly [he]_475-giudice enjoyed it . [That dog]_{6938-that dog} knew a juicy bit of meat , short of staple , crisp , yet melting , quite as well as [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} did . True , [he]_475-giudice had a love of bones , transparent gristle , and white fibres , which [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , from inferior structure , can not quite appreciate . Yet all this was no part of [his]_475-giudice mind , much less did it affect the greatness of [his]_475-giudice soul . [He]_475-giudice kept , as all of [us]_6939-us do [who are good for anything , a certain alter ego , a higher voice , a purer sense]_{6940-who are good for anything , a certain alter ego , a higher voice , a purer sense} , a vein which fashion can not leech , or [false shame tourniquet]_{6941-false shame tourniquet} . So the good dog used to come to [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , before [he]_475-giudice touched [his]_475-giudice breakfast , lunch , or dinner , and entreat [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} to devour all [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} could , there would be lots still left for [him]_475-giudice . In [my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} hurry to get start of time , to spin a little faster the revolving moons , [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} did a thing which [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} could ill - approve to [myself]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , even at the moment . [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} wrote to [Sally Huxtable]_371-sally to obtain [Mr. Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} 's permission for [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} to sell [my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} gordit . [Professor Ross]_{430-professor ross} had offered [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} no less than ten guineas for it . As [a gentleman]_{5462-a gentleman} [he]_{430-professor ross} should not have made the offer , after what [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had told [him]_{430-professor ross} . But the love of science — falsely so called by [collectors]_{6943-collectors} — drives [men]_1003-men to discern propriety "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} by the wire - drawn line of [their]_2625-their longings . " However , [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was not quite so blind upon right and wrong , as to mean to keep all the money . [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} offered [Mr. Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} half , if the plaything should be sold . [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} knew not why , but [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} could not bear the idea of a bargain and sale with [[Conrad]_427-conrad 's father]_{6945-conrad 's father} , wide apart as the two always were in [my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} mind . [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} rather hoped that [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} , though sorely tempted , would refuse . And now the time was almost come for news from [Tossil]_361-tossil 's Barton . [Dear Sally]_371-sally must have filled the twelve copybooks , at the rate of one a week . Ere [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} quite expected it , the letter came ; but before its tidings are imparted , [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} must in few words describe the visit of [[Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} 's son]_{6946-inspector cutting 's son} . [George Cutting]_{490-george cutting} came one evening to see [his]_{490-george cutting} good Aunt [Patty]_409-patty , for so [he]_{490-george cutting} called [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , who was in truth [[his]_{490-george cutting} cousin]_{1189-his cousin} . Though [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had been so assured that [[my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} enemy]_{1966-my enemy} could not escape , [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was not equally convinced , and at times a deep anxiety and despair possessed [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . Therefore [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} went to [the kitchen]_{5526-the kitchen} to see [[the Inspector]_{1959-the inspector} 's son]_{6951-the inspector 's son} , and requested [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} to allow [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} five minutes of conversation with [him]_{6951-the inspector 's son} . [He]_{6951-the inspector 's son} stood all the while , and seemed rather shy and confused . [He]_{6951-the inspector 's son} had not heard from [[his]_{6951-the inspector 's son} father]_{1062-his father} , since [the ship]_{6953-the ship} sailed ; but [he]_{6951-the inspector 's son} had seen in the papers that [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had been spoken somewhere . "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} The party as [I]_0-i knew of " was still safe in [London]_1-london — [my]_0-i blood ran like lava at the thought — or [I]_0-i should have heard of it . [He]_{6951-the inspector 's son} , [George Cutting]_{490-george cutting} , had [his]_{6951-the inspector 's son} eye upon [him]_{6951-the inspector 's son} , and so had [two of [the detective force]_{6684-the detective force}]_{6954-two of the detective force} ; but what were [they]_{6954-two of the detective force} in comparison with [[his]_{6951-the inspector 's son} father]_{1062-his father} ? This [he]_{6951-the inspector 's son} asked , despite [his]_{6951-the inspector 's son} shyness , with so large a contempt , that [I]_0-i began to think [the Cutting family]_{6957-the cutting family} admired [the Cuttings]_{491-the cuttings} only . Upon [me]_0-i , who am no [Cutting]_{490-george cutting} , [he]_{6951-the inspector 's son} left the simple impression that the qualities , so lauded by [[his]_{6951-the inspector 's son} father]_{1062-his father} , lay as yet beneath a bushel . However , [[his]_{6951-the inspector 's son} Aunt [Patty]_409-patty]_{6959-his aunt patty} declared that [he]_{6951-the inspector 's son} could eat three times as much as [Charley]_395-charley . Not unlikely , if [he]_{6951-the inspector 's son} only drank one - third of [Charley]_395-charley 's allowance . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , who knew that [I]_0-i was laying by a fixed sum every week , began to look upon [me]_0-i as [a fine young miser]_{6960-a fine young miser} . Of course [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} quite fell in with what [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} supposed to be [my]_0-i ideas , for [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} never contradicted any one , unless it was [a cabman]_{6961-a cabman} . "_[0-i] Oh , [I]_0-i do love money , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} ; gold , gold , it is so bootiful . Did [you]_{1798-my good friend} ever hear tell of the marrow bone [I]_0-i had ? Oh dear ! " "_[0-i] What marrow bone , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ? " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Why a big beef marrow bone , that long , full of [sovereigns]_{2627-sovereigns} and guineas after dear [Miss Minto]_{405-miss minto} . [I]_0-i stopped it with a bung and a piece of bladder , and for better than a twelvemonth , while [they]_2628-they was executing [her]_{405-miss minto} will , [I]_0-i slept with that beneath [my]_0-i pillow for fear [the priest]_{2629-the priest} should get it . [Lord]_2630-lord , how [they]_2628-they did fight over [the poor old lady]_{2631-the poor old lady} 's rags and bones , [that leathery priest]_{2632-that leathery priest} and [three yellow kites of [cousins]_2634-cousins]_{2633-three yellow kites of cousins} , [they]_2628-they said [they]_2628-they was , as come from [Portugal]_100-portugal . At last [they]_2628-they got a ministration with the testament and text , and [they]_2628-they robbed [me]_0-i shameful , shameful , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} . Never catch [me]_0-i going to mass again , or [you]_{1798-my good friend} may tell [me]_0-i of it . " "_{[1798-my good friend]} And what became of the marrow bone , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ? " At this inquiry , [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} winked both eyes rapidly , and screwed up [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} little mouth . "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Oh what [a thief]_{735-a thief} [that Father Banger]_{2637-that father banger} was , to be sure ! [You]_{1798-my good friend} see , [Miss]_2638-miss , [I]_0-i had strict orders to shut [him]_{2637-that father banger} out , when [Miss Minto]_{405-miss minto} was near [her]_{405-miss minto} end , because [he]_{2637-that father banger} had kicked [her]_{405-miss minto} dear cat [Filippina]_{492-filippina} from the top of [the stairs]_{5744-the stairs} to the bottom , after [he]_{2637-that father banger} had gived [her]_{405-miss minto} unction . What a pretty sight it was to see them seven dear cats , all sitting round the fire , each one on [his]_{2637-that father banger} proper stool with [his]_{2637-that father banger} name done on it in different coloured worsted . [I]_0-i had so much a year left [me]_0-i on [the Bank of [England]_9-england]_{2640-the bank of england} , honourable to the day , for each one of those cats , and change of diet every week , and now there 's only one of them left , and that is [my]_0-i dear old [Tom]_295-tom . " "_[295-tom] But , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , about the marrow bone — " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Well , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , [I]_0-i was going to tell [you]_{1798-my good friend} . The way that [Father Banger]_493-father got into [the house]_{764-the house} again to steal [the poor old lady]_{2631-the poor old lady} 's money , for building [a school]_{2102-a school} or [some such villany]_{2645-some such villany} . [He]_493-father knowed how fond [the poor soul]_{2646-the poor soul} was of cats , so [he]_493-father borrowed a cat somewhere , and [he]_493-father got [two boys]_{2647-two boys} to let it down [the area]_{2648-the area} with a whipcord round its stomach , and to jerk , jerk , jerk away at it , and [the poor thing]_{2649-the poor thing} did squeal sure enough . ' Pain , [Patty]_409-patty , ' says [[my]_0-i poor mistress]_{2650-my poor mistress} , and [she]_{2650-my poor mistress} could hardly speak—'Oh , [Patty]_409-patty , there 's [some cruel Englishman torturing a cat]_{2651-some cruel englishman torturing a cat} again . ' So out [I]_0-i runs into [the area]_{2648-the area} , and in pops [Father Banger]_493-father , who had [his]_493-father back to the wall , with a great sheet of paper ; and [he]_493-father begins to make a list of all the things in [the house]_{764-the house} . [I]_0-i took the cat to [dear Miss Minto]_{405-miss minto} , and how pleased [she]_{405-miss minto} was ! ' Please [God]_303-god , ' says [she]_{2650-my poor mistress} , ' to let [me]_0-i live a few days more till [I]_0-i make a Catholic of [this poor heretic'—she]_{2654-this poor heretic'—she} always converted [her]_{405-miss minto} cats the first thing—'and then [it]_2655-it shall have a stool and a good annuity . ' But next day [the poor thing]_{2649-the poor thing} went . " [Little Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had so great a fear of death , that like [some ancient nations]_{6962-some ancient nations} [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} shunned all mention of [his]_493-father name , by euphemistic periphrase . [She]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had never known real illness , and even a stitch or a spasm would frighten [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} for days . When [I]_{2649-the poor thing} spoke calmly , as [I]_{2649-the poor thing} sometimes did , of [[our]_2658-we great inevitable friend]_{6963-our great inevitable friend} , whom [we]_2658-we so labour to estrange , up would jump [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} with a shudder and a little scream . "_{[2649-the poor thing]} Oh do n't , [[my]_0-i good soul]_{2657-my good soul} , oh do n't ! How can [you]_{2657-my good soul} ? Let [us]_2658-we live , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , let [us]_2658-we live while [we]_2658-we can , and not think of such dreadful things . [You]_{2657-my good soul} make [my]_0-i blood run cold . " "_{[2657-my good soul]} But , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , surely [you]_{2657-my good soul} know that [we]_2658-we all must die . " "_{[2657-my good soul]} Of course , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , of course . But then [you]_{2657-my good soul} need n't remind one of it . [I]_0-i met [Doctor Franks]_{465-doctor franks} to - day , and [he]_{465-doctor franks} said , ' Why , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [I]_0-i do declare , [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} look younger than ever , ' and [a very clever man]_{2660-a very clever man} [he]_{465-doctor franks} is , yes , yes ; and not a gray hair in [my]_0-i head , and [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} lived to eighty - eight . " "_{[465-doctor franks]} And how old are [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , now ? " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Oh [I]_0-i am sure [I]_0-i do n't know , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , [I]_0-i do n't keep no account . Let [us]_2662-us talk of something else . Did [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} hear what [Tom]_295-tom did to [your]_{391-mrs. shelfer} Judy to - day ? " Ah , [poor little thing]_{6555-poor little thing} ! But [I]_295-tom am not going to moralise . Shall [I]_295-tom ever know the history of that marrow bone ? [Tossil 's Barton]_361-tossil , estimating the British Post by the standard of [[Joe Queen]_451-joe 's boy]_{2242-joe queen 's boy} , placed but little confidence in [that institution]_{6966-that institution} . Moreover , [Tossil]_361-tossil 's [Barton]_361-tossil held that a "_[295-tom] papper scrawl , " as it termed a letter , was certain to be lost for want of size , unless it were secured in something large , "_[295-tom] something as [a man]_{5384-a man} can zee and hold on to , " as [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} [himself]_{5517-the farmer} expressed it . Therefore [I]_295-tom was not surprised at receiving , instead of a letter by post , a packet delivered by [the parcels van]_{6968-the parcels van} . This packet was bound round like the handle of a whip . and stuck at either end with a mass of [cobbler]_6969-cobbler 's wax . bearing the vivid impress of a mighty thumb . Within the wrappings first appeared an ominous crumpled scroll . [Ye]_6970-ye stars , where [angels so buffooned by eminent painters]_{6971-angels so buffooned by eminent painters} dwell ! Once more [I]_295-tom behold [Eli]_336-eli on the turnpike gate , the Great Western steamer , [Job]_494-job with a potsherd of willow - pattern plate , [the Prodigal Son]_{5558-the prodigal son} , and worse than all , that hideous Death and [the Lady]_{1431-the lady} . Recklessly [I]_295-tom tumble out all the rest of the packet . Three great bolts with silver clasps , three apostle spoons , two old silver salt - cellars marked W.H.J.H. , [a child]_{782-a child} 's christening cup , a horn tobacco - stopper with a silver tip , an agate from [the beach]_{6975-the beach} , a tortoise - shell knife with a silver blade , half a dozen coins and a bronze fibula found upon [the farm]_{1516-the farm} , [an infant]_{6977-an infant} 's coral , a neck - pin garnished with a Bristol diamond , a number of mother - of - pearl buttons and blue beads , and a mass of mock jewelry bought by [the farmer from [the Cheapjacks at [Barum]_101-barum fair]_{6979-the cheapjacks at barum fair}]_{6978-the farmer from the cheapjacks at barum fair} with the produce of [his]_{5517-the farmer} wrestling triumphs . Separate from the rest , and packed most carefully , were all but two of the trinkets [I]_295-tom had sent as Christmas gifts for [the family]_{1254-the family} . Touched to the heart by all this loving kindness , [I]_295-tom felt so ashamed of [my]_295-tom paltry petulance at [Eli]_336-eli , [Jonah]_495-jonah , and the rest , that [I]_295-tom would not indulge in a peep at [Sally]_371-sally 's letter , which came last of all , until [I]_295-tom had starved [myself]_295-tom for a day . That literary effort showed so much improvement , both in writing and in spelling , that [any critic]_{6981-any critic} would have endorsed [Mr. Huxtable]_{338-mr. huxtable} 's conclusion that the gift must be in [the family]_{1254-the family} . A few words still there were of rather doubtful texture , but who can bind or bound the caprice and luxury of the English language ? Moreover , [Sally]_371-sally 's stops were left once more to the discretion of [the reader]_{6983-the reader} . But if [Lord Byron]_{496-lord byron} could not grasp the mysteries of punctuation , how could [Sally Huxtable]_371-sally ? Yet [that eager little maid]_{6984-that eager little maid} would have learned in half an hour the art which might have mellowed [the self - tormentor]_{6985-the self - tormentor} 's howling . [Sally]_371-sally 's was a healthy , sweet , and wholesome nature . [[Tossil]_361-tossil 's [Barton Farm]_{102-barton farm}]_{6986-tossil 's barton farm} , [Trentisoe]_12-trentisoe . The tenth day of March A.D. 1851 . "_[295-tom] [DEAR MISS CLARA]_293-clara DEAR,—If [you]_293-clara please , [father]_738-father and [mother]_739-mother and [me]_0-i and [[our]_2666-our little [Jack]_374-jack]_{2200-our little jack} hope this letter will find [you]_293-clara in good health as it leaves all of [us]_2666-our at this present , or when it will be finished , thank [God]_303-god for the same , and hoping no offence . [The baby as was born on the 20th day of October]_{2668-the baby as was born on the 20th day of october} last is [a very fine and lusty wench at this time of writing]_{2669-a very fine and lusty wench at this time of writing} , and have got two teeth , and [her]_{2668-the baby as was born on the 20th day of october} hair coming again , and answers to the name of [Clara]_293-clara , as [you]_293-clara know [Miss]_2670-miss [you]_293-clara was so kind to give [her]_{2668-the baby as was born on the 20th day of october} leave and liberty , and [father]_738-father call [Clara]_293-clara to [her]_{2668-the baby as was born on the 20th day of october} now , and so do [I]_0-i and [Jack]_374-jack , but [mother]_739-mother will call [her]_{2668-the baby as was born on the 20th day of october} [Babby]_498-babby still , and so [the chillers]_{2673-the chillers} does . [Father]_493-father often say , " [Babby]_498-babby ! Why there be a hundred babbies in [the world]_{798-the world} , and a thousand either , for ought [I]_493-father knows again it , but [I]_493-father reckon there is n't half a dozen [Claras]_499-claras . "_[493-father] But [mother]_739-mother say [she]_739-mother ca n't help it : [she]_739-mother always did call [them]_2675-them [babbies]_2676-babbies till [they]_2675-them was put into short - clothes , and longer too , if so be there was n't another , and [she]_739-mother feels a call on [her]_739-mother to do it , and no offence [Miss Clara]_293-clara for that same . If [you]_2677-you please [Miss]_2678-miss , when [the parson]_{2679-the parson} say " Name [this child]_{6988-this child} , "_{[2679-the parson]} and [Aunt Muxworthy]_{500-aunt muxworthy} , from over to [Rowley Mires]_{28-rowley mires} , say , quite peart , " [Clara]_293-clara , [sir"—father]_{6989-sir"—father[2240-parson]} had been learning [her]_293-clara , [you]_2677-you see [Miss]_2680-miss , all the morning — [parson]_2240-parson look , so [mother]_739-mother say , the same as a skinned sheep all skivered out to dry ; and [Tim Badcock]_344-tim go haw haw , till [father]_738-father was forced to slip behind [the godmothers]_{2684-the godmothers} and fetch [him]_344-tim a little clout on the side of [his]_344-tim head . Then [parson]_501-parson say at last , " [Clara]_293-clara maam ! There be [no child of that name]_{6990-no child of that name} to this side of [Coom]_87-coom , and it seem to [me]_501-parson to go again the rub rick . "_[501-parson] [Father]_493-father say [the parson]_{2679-the parson} must be [a high farmer]_{2686-a high farmer} , for none of [us]_2687-us ever hear tell of that rick in [this country]_{1963-this country} . " Now take [my]_{2679-the parson} advice and think better of it [Mrs. Muxworthy]_{502-mrs. muxworthy} , "_{[2679-the parson]} [the parson]_{2679-the parson} say again . So [she]_739-mother looks to [father]_738-father , for [you]_738-father see [Miss]_2691-miss [she]_739-mother were not edified about it being right , because [she]_739-mother could not find it in the Bible nowhere . And [she]_739-mother say , " Think better of it farmer now ; if [you]_738-father wants a handsome name , there 's [Tryphena]_503-tryphena and [Tryphosa]_504-tryphosa , and has been in [the family]_{1254-the family} afore . "_[739-mother] " [Mother]_739-mother , "_{[731-my father]} says [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} , and [he]_{731-my father} looked the way [he]_{731-my father} do when [he]_{731-my father} do n't intend to talk about a thing , " [Mother]_739-mother , go [home]_1102-home with [the child]_{6995-the child} , and [I]_{731-my father} 'll take [her]_{6995-the child} to [Parracombe Church]_{103-parracombe church} next Sunday : and tell [Suke]_345-suke not to put the goose down . "_{[731-my father]} [You]_2693-you see , [Miss]_2694-miss , [we]_2695-we was going to have a supper after [church]_1429-church , and the best goose on [the farm]_{1516-the farm} , and [the parson]_{2679-the parson} was coming too . " [Sober]_505-sober now , "_{[2679-the parson]} say [the parson]_{2679-the parson} , " if so be now , [farmer John]_{411-miss vaughan} , [you]_{411-miss vaughan} have put [your]_{411-miss vaughan} mind upon naming this here infant [Clara]_293-clara , why [I]_{2679-the parson} will christen [her]_293-clara so , only an under Protestant , and with difference to the chapter . "_{[2679-the parson]} [Father]_493-father only say " Amen , so be it ; "_{[2240-parson]} and then [parson]_2240-parson do it , and do it uncommon well too , [father]_738-father say . and [she]_2694-miss only laugh when [they]_2702-they give [her]_2694-miss the splash . [Father]_493-father told [us]_2695-we afterwards as [he]_493-father believed [parson]_2240-parson was feared [he]_2240-parson could n't spell [Clara fitty]_293-clara ; but [mother]_739-mother say [he]_2240-parson be wrong there , and all along of [his]_2240-parson pride , for [parson]_2240-parson be [a college chap]_{2706-a college chap} and so [he]_2240-parson can spell anything amost , in one way or another . [Miss Clara]_293-clara , all them beautiful things as [you]_2707-you sent for [us]_2695-we to Christmas time , with the forepart of all [our]_2695-we names upon them , except [Sally]_371-sally , was sunk in the bottom of [the brook]_{2237-the brook} in the hole below the stickle by the hollow ash , where the big trout hath [his]_2240-parson hover , all along of [Joe]_451-joe [[the Queen]_{1427-the queen} 's boy]_{2235-the queen 's boy} ; and [we]_2695-we never knew ought about it till [your]_2707-you after letter come . Then [[our]_2695-we little Jack , who be quite [a big boy]_{2712-a big boy} now , and button [his]_{2711-our little jack , who be quite a big boy now , and button his own corduroys} own corduroys]_{2711-our little jack , who be quite a big boy now , and button his own corduroys} , go down to [the brook]_{2237-the brook} at once , and pull off all [his]_{2711-our little jack , who be quite a big boy now , and button his own corduroys} things , and there [he]_{2711-our little jack , who be quite a big boy now , and button his own corduroys} rake and feel among the stones for the biggest part of a day , though the ice was on the edge but [the water]_{1150-the water} were quite clear ; and [Tabby Badcock]_388-tabby want to pull off [her]_388-tabby things and go in too , but [Jack]_374-jack would not let [her]_388-tabby , and be ashamed of [herself]_388-tabby , and [I]_0-i sat on [the bank]_{6728-the bank} and [Tabby]_388-tabby , and [Jack]_374-jack pull out nine beautiful things , as were meant for [father]_738-father , and [mother]_739-mother , and [him]_374-jack , and [Billy]_378-bill , and [little Honor]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , and [Bobby]_482-bob , and [Peggy]_{355-margery daw} , and the two [weanies]_2718-weanies , but [he]_374-jack could n't find nothing as were meant for [me]_0-i [Sally]_371-sally , unless [Tabby]_388-tabby stole it , and [she]_388-tabby be quite equal to it [I]_0-i am afeared : and [we]_2718-weanies all returns [you]_2719-you many many kind thanks and love , especially the ones as had it , and [me]_0-i . [[Our]_2718-weanies [Jack]_374-jack]_{2720-our jack} say , No [her]_388-tabby would n't do it , [he]_374-jack 'll go bail for that , no fie ! But [I]_0-i shake [my]_0-i head ; though perhaps [she]_388-tabby never had the chance , if so be there was n't none marked [Sally]_371-sally , and thank [you]_2719-you every bit the same , [Miss]_2721-miss , so long as there was n't none for [Tabby]_388-tabby . " [Poor little Sally]_371-sally ! [She]_371-sally must have cried bitterly to think of [her]_371-sally being forgotten . But the best of all , next to [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} 's , was for [her]_371-sally , and there was one for [Tabby]_388-tabby too . "_[293-clara] [Miss Clara]_293-clara dear , the things was not hurt at all by being under water for a week , and [father]_738-father say they must be made of the very same gold as [Queen Victoria]_{450-queen victoria} 's crown and sceptre is , as never can rust with the briny waves ; and [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} feel cock sure as it was [the fairy of [the brook]_{2237-the brook}]_{2723-the fairy of the brook} stole them from [Joe]_451-joe 's breeches pocket , and keep [mine]_0-i still [he]_{334-beany dawe} say because it be the prettiest . But there , [he]_{334-beany dawe} never know much , any more than [Tabby]_388-tabby does . If [you]_2719-you please [Miss]_2725-miss , asking [your]_2719-you pardon , when [Aunt Muxworthy]_{500-aunt muxworthy} were [here]_846-here , to the christening time , [she]_{500-aunt muxworthy} said [she]_{500-aunt muxworthy} never see such writing in [her]_{500-aunt muxworthy} life as [mine]_0-i , and it was n't [my]_0-i best copy neither , and [she]_{500-aunt muxworthy} said it was a sin to make [a scholar of [a honest wench like that]_{2728-a honest wench like that}]_{2727-a scholar of a honest wench like that} , and [I]_0-i should want to be [the parson]_{2679-the parson} next , and read the forty - two generations and play the fort piano ; and [I]_0-i did n't know , [Miss]_2730-miss , whether to laugh or cry , so [I]_0-i began to eat an apple ; but [father]_738-father say quite slowly , " [Sister Muxworthy]_{506-sister muxworthy} , [you]_{506-sister muxworthy} was never gifted with no eddication no more nor [I]_738-father [Jan Uxtable]_{343-jan uxtable} , and how be [us]_6997-us to know if it be good or bad ? Once [I]_738-father had a horse , say [father]_738-father , as afore ever [he]_738-father went into [the field]_{5597-the field} , turned up [his]_738-father nose at the grass like , and with turning up so much [he]_738-father died at last of the glanders . But [I]_738-father never see that there horse persuade [the others]_{1636-the others} to starve . "_[738-father] [Aunt Muxworthy]_{500-aunt muxworthy} toss [her]_{500-aunt muxworthy} head , and [we]_2732-we thought [she]_{500-aunt muxworthy} would n't eat no goose , but the smell of the stuffing and the weather was too many for [her]_{500-aunt muxworthy} ; and [she]_{500-aunt muxworthy} eat a wing , and a leg , and one side of the breast , and it do [her]_{500-aunt muxworthy} good . And afore [she]_{500-aunt muxworthy} had had much brandy , " [John]_{411-miss vaughan} , "_{[500-aunt muxworthy]} [she]_{500-aunt muxworthy} say , " [you]_{411-miss vaughan} was right and [I]_{500-aunt muxworthy} was wrong . Let [the little wench]_{7001-the little wench} crack on , and some day [they]_7002-they 'll hear of [her]_{7001-the little wench} to tother side of [Hexmoor]_104-hexmoor . "_{[500-aunt muxworthy]} So [father]_738-father laugh and kiss [her]_{500-aunt muxworthy} , and the chillers was put to bed , and [we]_2732-we drink [your]_{500-aunt muxworthy} health [Miss]_2734-miss , and [Clara]_293-clara 's nine times nine , and [father]_738-father say [he]_738-father 'll learn [himself]_738-father some day , when [he]_738-father give up wrestling , only [he]_738-father fear it would make [his]_738-father hand shake terrible , and then some laugh and some of [us]_2732-we cry , and [they]_2736-they has more hot water , and [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} set to , and make so many poems [he]_738-father turn the stairs somehow inside out , and [Suke]_345-suke and [Tim]_344-tim was forced to heave [him]_738-father into [the tallat]_{2737-the tallat} , and keep [him]_738-father from going [abroad]_2738-abroad by a rope of onions round [him]_738-father and two truss of hay on the top . Next day , [he]_738-father make no poems at all till [he]_738-father drink more than a gallon of cider . Oh [Miss Clara]_293-clara dear , what ever is the matter with [you]_293-clara ? [Father]_493-father be in such a taking [I]_0-i never see . To - day [your]_293-clara letter come about selling that knob - thing of [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} 's , and [we]_2732-we knows it must be all along of the crown jewels [you]_293-clara bought for [us]_2732-we , as [we]_2732-we meant to keep in [the family]_{1254-the family} to the end of all [our]_2732-we time . [Mother]_291-mother double up , and cry into the churn , and spoil all the butter ; and [father]_738-father were that upset [he]_738-father stamp out of [the house]_{764-the house} a trying hard to whistle , and [he]_738-father could n't see [no one there to let it off on]_{2742-no one there to let it off on} but [Timothy Badcock]_344-tim , and [he]_344-tim were a little saucy , so [he]_344-tim toss [Tim]_344-tim up on the linhay roof and [his]_344-tim legs come through the thatch , and [father]_738-father was forced to ease [him]_344-tim out with the pitchfork . [Tim]_344-tim was stiff a bit in the evening , and serve [him]_344-tim right say [mother]_739-mother , for laughing so at [the Cornishers]_{507-the cornishers} ; but [father]_738-father give [him]_344-tim some neatsfoot oil and cider , and [we]_2732-we knew [us]_2732-we could n't hurt [him]_344-tim because [he]_344-tim be double - jointed . And if [you]_2746-you please [Miss Clara]_293-clara dear , [we]_2732-we would not stoop to ask [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} and [he]_{334-beany dawe} nothing but [a sawing poet]_{2747-a sawing poet} ; so [father]_738-father go to the old oak chest with the whitewash on it , and pull it open without the key , and take out some old rubbish [he]_738-father saith , and order [mother]_739-mother to pack it without a word , and [mother]_739-mother want to put in a pair of linen sheets and the best table - cloth , but [father]_738-father say quite crusty like , " Do [e]_2732-we take [our]_2732-we [Miss Clara]_293-clara for [a common packman]_{7003-a common packman} ? "_[738-father] And when [I]_0-i say , " Please [father]_738-father what shall [I]_738-father say about it all ? "_[738-father] [he]_738-father answer [me]_0-i quite low , " How ever can [I]_738-father tell [child]_5440-child ? Ask [[your]_5440-child mother]_{5332-your mother} there . Only give [my]_738-father best respects and most humble duty , and tell [Miss Clara]_293-clara [I]_738-father wishes [I]_738-father could find [a man]_{5384-a man} to throw [me]_738-father all four pins , for being such [a drunken hosebird]_{7008-a drunken hosebird} not to have more to send [her]_{5332-your mother} . But [I]_738-father know [her]_{5332-your mother} wo n't take money from the likes of [us]_7009-us . Stop , "_[738-father] [father]_738-father say , " ask [her]_{5332-your mother} to please to lift [our]_7009-us horn up as the horn of an unicorn . [I]_738-father knows where to go for lots of money and all to be had for asking . [I]_738-father 'll go to [Bodmin town]_{7010-bodmin town} next week , "_[738-father] say [father]_738-father , " and show [them]_7011-them [Cornishers]_{507-the cornishers} a trick of [Abraham Cann]_508-abraham . Since [honest Abraham]_508-abraham took the sprain , [he]_508-abraham left it all to [me]_738-father , though [God]_303-god knows , and thank [him]_508-abraham for the same , [I]_738-father never want it yet . [I]_738-father should like to see [the Cornisher]_{7012-the cornisher} as could stand [my]_738-father grip . "_[738-father] And then [father]_738-father pull both [his]_738-father hands out of [his]_738-father pockets . [Mother]_291-mother say [he]_738-father wear them out [he]_738-father do spraddle both [his]_738-father thumbs so . It seems a curious thing , [[Miss Clara]_293-clara dear]_{2276-miss clara dear} , [father]_738-father never get vexed or weist like , but what [he]_738-father want to wrestle , and other times [he]_738-father never think of it , unless it be to fair or revel time . When [I]_0-i asked [mother]_739-mother and said as [father]_738-father tell [me]_0-i to , the tears was in [her]_739-mother eyes , and [she]_739-mother try to look angry with [me]_0-i , and then [she]_739-mother broke out crying as loud as [Suke]_345-suke when the cow [Molly]_431-polly kick [her]_739-mother . So between [the both of [them]_{2759-the both of them}]_{2759-the both of them} , [Miss]_2760-miss , [I]_0-i ca n't know what to say , so please to make it [yourself]_2760-miss [Miss]_2761-miss , for [I]_0-i am sure [I]_0-i ca n't find any thing only the best love of [our]_2762-our hearts and a side of bacon [us]_2762-our would like to send , and the butter from [my]_0-i own little cow , all sweet hay and no turmots ; [I]_0-i be to sit in [Coom market]_{5891-coom market} , all by [myself]_0-i , on Saturday , and [mother]_739-mother not come nigh [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i know [you]_2760-miss 'll let [me]_0-i send [you]_2760-miss the money , and [I]_0-i expects elevenpence a pound , because [you]_2760-miss never was proud with [[your]_2760-miss loving scholar]_{2765-your loving scholar} ever to command and obey . [SALLY HUXTABLE]_371-sally . All this here underneath and over the leaf is going to be written after the rest of this here paper . If [you]_2760-miss please [[Miss Clara]_293-clara dear]_{2276-miss clara dear} , there come now just [a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands]_{2767-a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands} , and ever so many great silver buttons with a print like pats of best butter , and gold ribbon round [his]_{2767-a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands} hat . [We]_2768-us seemed at first [he]_{2767-a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands} be [an officer of dragoons]_{2769-an officer of dragoons} , till [we]_2768-us see'd the flour in [his]_{2767-a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands} hair , and then [us]_2768-us knowed [he]_{2767-a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands} was [[the Queen]_{1427-the queen} 's miller]_{2771-the queen 's miller} . [Father]_493-father was a great mind to show [him]_{2767-a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands} a forehip and send [his]_{2767-a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands} buttons to [you]_2760-miss [Miss]_2772-miss , because [he]_{2767-a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands} see they be worth ever so much more than these little things all put together , only [mother]_739-mother stop [him]_{2767-a very fine spoken gentleman with a long coat the colour of udder , and blue flaps , and blue at the hands} . Then [the gentleman]_{6124-the gentleman} say [he]_{6124-the gentleman} know [Mr. Henwood]_{509-mr. henwood} well , and respect [him]_{509-mr. henwood} much , and [he]_{6124-the gentleman} be sent here by expression to discover where [you]_2760-miss be [Miss Clara]_293-clara , and it be most particular , and if [we]_2768-us wished [you]_2760-miss well , [us]_2768-us would tell [him]_{6124-the gentleman} to once . [Father]_493-father and [mother]_739-mother and [me]_0-i puts [him]_{6124-the gentleman} in [the parlour]_{5965-the parlour} and gives [him]_{6124-the gentleman} a jug of the very best cider , and then [we]_2768-us goes and lays [our]_2768-us heads together about [him]_{6124-the gentleman} in [the cheese - room]_{2777-the cheese - room} , and [mother]_739-mother and [me]_0-i was for telling [him]_{6124-the gentleman} , only [father]_738-father say no . [You]_2760-miss never give [us]_2768-us leave , and [us]_2768-us wants to do what is right and upright , unless [you]_2760-miss order [us]_2768-us contrary , and [us]_2768-us has no right to tell without ask [you]_2760-miss , and [you]_2760-miss so full of [enemies]_2780-enemies . So [father]_738-father say , very grand for [him]_738-father : " Honoured sir , [us]_2768-us hopes the honour of a papper scrawl from [Miss Clara]_293-clara in ten days time , or may be a fortnight , according to the weather please [God]_303-god , and [us]_2768-us be satisfied too . [[My]_738-father eldest daughter]_{7013-my eldest daughter} here be writing to [Miss Clara]_293-clara for a week or more , and if so be [she]_{7013-my eldest daughter} have got room left on the papper scrawl [she]_{7013-my eldest daughter} ask [Miss Clara]_293-clara 's leave , and [us]_2768-us shall have time enough to hear what [her]_{7013-my eldest daughter} say in a fortnight , or [mebbe]_7014-mebbe three weeks . "_[738-father] " Oh then , [she]_{7013-my eldest daughter} be gone to [Hitaly]_105-hitaly at the least . "_{[6124-the gentleman]} [The gentleman]_{6124-the gentleman} say . [Father]_493-father never hear tell of [Hitaly]_105-hitaly whether it be in [London town]_{2176-london town} or no , but [he]_493-father look to [mother]_739-mother and [me]_0-i to hold [our]_2785-us noise . [The gentleman]_{6124-the gentleman} say something sound very much like " Dang , "_{[6124-the gentleman]} and [father]_738-father hoped [he]_738-father would be saucy , because then [he]_738-father send [his]_738-father buttons in spite of [mother]_739-mother and [me]_0-i ; but when [he]_738-father look at [father]_738-father [he]_738-father think better of it , and go off very civil in [the carriage [he]_738-father come by]_{2790-the carriage he come by} , only say [he]_738-father would find out in spite of [us]_2785-us . And please [Miss Clara]_293-clara dear , [mother]_739-mother say [she]_739-mother be ashamed to send [you]_293-clara a parcel all rubbage , except the pictures , but [she]_739-mother do hope [they]_2792-they wo nt cheat [you]_293-clara about them there , for [they]_2792-they be the finest ever come to these parts , and warranted real [London]_1-london made . [All the farmers hereaway]_{2793-all the farmers hereaway} want to buy them of [us]_2785-us . And [father]_738-father say , " Dang the pictures , tell [Miss Clara]_293-clara to come to [us]_2785-us , and [her]_293-clara sha n't want [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} 's things , nor [[the Queen]_{1427-the queen} 's miller]_{2771-the queen 's miller} either . "_[738-father] Oh do come , [Miss Clara]_293-clara dear , [the banks]_{2795-the banks} be yellow with primroses , and white and blue with violets , and [I]_0-i know three blackbirds nests already and an ousel 's down by [the river]_{5715-the river} . Oh do come . [I]_0-i have got such a lot to tell [you]_293-clara , things as [I]_0-i ca n't make head or tail of when [I]_0-i try to spell them , and [you]_293-clara shall milk [my]_0-i own cow [Sally]_371-sally , and have all [my]_0-i black hen 's eggs , and the ducks too if they hatch,—and sling all the small potatoes from [the plough field]_{2797-the plough field} to the hazel hedge . [[Your]_293-clara best scholar]_{2798-your best scholar} as ever was and [loving pupil]_{2799-loving pupil} . [SALLY HUXTABLE]_371-sally . " From [Sally]_371-sally 's eager description of the coat and buttons , [I]_371-sally concluded easily that [a servant from [Vaughan St. Mary]_431-polly]_{7017-a servant from vaughan st. mary} had been sent in quest of [me]_371-sally . [[My]_371-sally father]_{731-my father} hated showy liveries and loathed hair - powder , but [Mr. Edgar Vaughan]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} returned to [the family]_{1254-the family} usages , or rather allowed [them]_{1254-the family} to re - establish [themselves]_{1254-the family} ; for on such questions [he]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} was wholly indifferent . Now what could be [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} motive for sending so expressly to discover [me]_371-sally ? [I]_371-sally knew not , neither cared very greatly , but wrote at once to [Tossil 's Barton]_361-tossil , first to return [their]_{1254-the family} loving contribution , which consisted mainly of ancestral relics prized for generations , secondly , to set free the secret of [my]_371-sally address . Into [my]_371-sally own self [I]_371-sally returned once more . Somehow [I]_371-sally seem to expand whenever [I]_371-sally come in contact with [[the yeoman]_{7020-the yeoman} 's family]_{7021-the yeoman 's family} , and [their]_{7021-the yeoman 's family} lowly greatness . [I]_371-sally am like a worm when it rains , after the drought of summer . Surely [the God]_{7022-the god} , who leaves [us]_7023-we to stifle [ourselves]_7023-we with the dust of fashion and convention , has [His]_{7022-the god} own gracious times to breathe upon and scatter it . At intervals [we]_7023-we may see through the reek of [our]_7023-we own exuding , and inhale a more bracing air than sleeps in [mausoleums]_{7024-mausoleums} . But instead of being exalted and fed by the open breeze , [we]_7023-we shudder at the draught and replace [our]_7023-we respirators . [I]_371-sally returned into [myself]_371-sally , and found little comfort there . [I]_371-sally do not live inside [myself]_371-sally , as [most people]_{6280-most people} live in [theirs]_{6280-most people} . True , [I]_371-sally am apt to resent any slight to it offered from the outside . True , [I]_371-sally seek its keep and comfort in a mechanical sort of way . But as for crusting in its bottle , ripening in its husk , rusting in its watch - case , [I]_371-sally have been too long the toy of wind and weather not to be turned inside out . Never can [I]_371-sally moulder into the fungoid nucleus the British taste admires . And yet there is about [me]_371-sally , if [I]_371-sally must not say within [me]_371-sally , a stanch cleaving , a cohesion , a concrete will , which is of genuine Anglo - Saxon fibre . So [I]_371-sally thrust aside all dreams of [[Tossil]_361-tossil 's Barton and [Vaughan Park]_{7027-vaughan park}]_{7026-tossil 's barton and vaughan park} , and certain wilder sweeter dreams which have begun to flutter and thrill through [me]_371-sally , and in earnest [I]_371-sally return to [my]_371-sally task of money - making . [Giudice]_475-giudice still is faithful , and comforts much [my]_371-sally solitude . [He]_475-giudice has never asked [[his]_475-giudice master]_{827-his master} 's leave or [mine]_371-sally , [he]_475-giudice has never received any formal invitation , yet here [he]_475-giudice looks all at [home]_1102-home , sleek and unblushing , though long since quite convalescent and equal to livery stable diet . Once indeed , as [we]_7030-we passed the entrance , [he]_475-giudice pretended to [me]_371-sally that [his]_475-giudice conscience pricked [him]_475-giudice . To ease it , [he]_475-giudice sniffed about , and halted just for a moment , then turned [his]_475-giudice nose up , recocked [his]_475-giudice tail , and trotted jauntily on . Since then [he]_475-giudice has always avoided that left side of [the street]_{6090-the street} . [He]_475-giudice is affable still to [Isola]_428-isola , but clearly regards [her]_428-isola as no more than [a pleasant acquaintance]_{7032-a pleasant acquaintance} . Whenever [she]_428-isola enters [the room]_{823-the room} , [he]_475-giudice walks from [his]_475-giudice corner with a stretch and a yawn , sniffs all round [her]_428-isola dress , to learn where [she]_428-isola has been , and what dogs [she]_428-isola has spoken to ; then , in the absence of any striking discovery , [he]_475-giudice looks into [her]_428-isola face with a grave complacence , and brings [me]_371-sally [his]_475-giudice conclusion . [Tom]_295-tom , and the birds , the squirrel , and the little marmoset ( [[Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's newest and dearest pet]_{7034-mrs. shelfer 's newest and dearest pet} ) , [he]_475-giudice gazes upon from a lofty standing as so many specimens of natural history , interesting so far , but otherwise contemptible . [He]_475-giudice is now allowed free run of [the house]_{764-the house} , understands all the locks , and presents [himself]_475-giudice in [every room]_{7036-every room} at the proper meal - time . [Even the little dress - maker]_{7037-even the little dress - maker} is then honoured with [his]_475-giudice attentions . [Everybody]_{6273-everybody} loves [him]_475-giudice , [he]_475-giudice is so gentle and clever and true . Back [he]_475-giudice comes to [me]_371-sally , with [his]_475-giudice mouth rather greasy [I]_371-sally must admit , gives [me]_371-sally one kiss ( as a form , [I]_371-sally am afraid ) , and exclaiming , "_[371-sally] Dear [me]_0-i ! What a life this is ! ' sits down on [his]_0-i rug to think . [No one]_{730-no one} can tempt [him]_0-i further than the corner of [[our]_2801-our street]_{2802-our street} , except [[his]_0-i master]_{827-his master} or [myself]_0-i . [Miss Flounce]_{511-miss flounce} , with [my]_0-i permission , granted not without jealousy , once aspired to the escort of [Giudice]_475-giudice . Although [she]_{511-miss flounce} carried a bag of [his]_475-giudice favourite biscuits ( made perhaps of bone - dust ) , and kept one of them in [her]_{511-miss flounce} hand , [Judy]_477-judy flattered [her]_{511-miss flounce} only to [the corner]_{2804-the corner} ; then [he]_475-giudice turned abruptly , and trotted firmly ( rudely [she]_{511-miss flounce} called it ) [home]_1102-home , with [his]_475-giudice eyes upon [[my]_0-i balcony]_{2806-my balcony} . [I]_0-i gave [him]_475-giudice more of [his]_475-giudice biscuits than [he]_475-giudice would have got from [her]_{511-miss flounce} . All this was very delightful . But there were two sad drawbacks . In the first place , [Giudice]_475-giudice expected [me]_0-i to forego every other line of art , and devote all [my]_0-i time to portraiture of [himself]_475-giudice . This was unreasonable , and [I]_0-i could not do it . Apart from other considerations , [Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} , after buying three studies of [him]_475-giudice , declined to take any more until those three should be sold . To [Giudice]_475-giudice [himself]_475-giudice [I]_0-i had based [my]_0-i refusal upon more delicate grounds . [I]_0-i had quoted to [him]_475-giudice , " Although , lest [I]_0-i profane [your]_475-giudice hallowed part , Queen Nature chills the blood around [my]_0-i heart ; Sweet dog , permit [me]_0-i to indulge [my]_0-i dream Of [country valleys]_{7039-country valleys} , and [the mazy stream]_{7040-the mazy stream} . "_[0-i] But [he]_475-giudice took no heed , and never would permit [me]_0-i so to do , without the keenest jealousy . The other drawback was still more serious . Either by maintaining the dog , [I]_0-i placed [[his]_475-giudice owner]_{2807-his owner} under an obligation ; or by engrossing the dog 's society , [I]_0-i laid [myself]_0-i under obligation to [[his]_475-giudice owner]_{2807-his owner} . Either view of the case was unpleasant ; the latter , which [I]_0-i adopted , soon became intolerable . So [I]_0-i spoke about it to [Isola]_428-isola , for [I]_0-i could not well explain [myself]_0-i to [[her]_428-isola brother]_{6430-her brother} , who ought indeed to have perceived [my]_0-i dilemma . " Oh [Donna]_476-donna , "_[428-isola] [she]_428-isola cried , " what nonsense [you]_476-donna do talk ! Obliged to [us]_7041-us indeed ! [I]_428-isola am sure [we]_7041-us are all greatly obliged to [you]_476-donna ; and many a stir it saves [us]_7041-us at [home]_1102-home , for the dog detests papa so ; and when [Conrad]_427-conrad comes to see [us]_7041-us , [he]_427-conrad ca n't bear to have [Judy]_477-judy shut out like [a thief]_{735-a thief} , and [he]_427-conrad the most honourable dog that ever wagged a tail . "_[428-isola] " To be sure [he]_427-conrad is . [You]_428-isola know [you]_428-isola are , do n't [you]_428-isola , [oh combination of [Bayard]_512-bayard and [Aristides]_{513-aristides}]_{7044-oh combination of bayard and aristides} ? "_[2810-i] That union of justice and chivalry wagged [his]_2810-i tail to [me]_0-i , and nodded gravely to [Isola]_428-isola . " But [I]_2810-i have said all along that [Conny]_427-conrad should pay for [his]_427-conrad board , and [he]_427-conrad feels it too : but [we]_7045-we could not tell how to propose it to [you]_428-isola , dear [Donna]_476-donna , [you]_428-isola are so very outrageous . "_[2810-i] " [I]_2810-i should hope so indeed . "_[2810-i] " And then [I]_428-isola am sure it would break poor [Judy]_477-judy 's heart to go . Would n't it now , [Judy]_477-judy ? "_[428-isola] [Giudice]_475-giudice did not answer [her]_428-isola , but came and laid [his]_475-giudice great head on [my]_0-i lap , and looked up at [me]_0-i as only a dog can look . In that wistful look [he]_475-giudice said as plainly as possible — " [You]_477-judy know [I]_475-giudice am only a dog . But [you]_428-isola , [Clara]_293-clara , happen to be [a human being]_{7046-a human being} ; and so [you]_428-isola know all [we]_7045-we dogs know , and ever so much besides . Only [you]_428-isola ca n't smell . [You]_428-isola can talk , as fast as [you]_428-isola like , both to [each other]_{734-each other} and to [us]_7045-we , but [we]_7045-we can talk to none except [our]_7045-we fellow dogs . Now do n't take a mean advantage of [me]_475-giudice . [I]_475-giudice know that [I]_475-giudice was made only to be [[your]_428-isola servant]_{7048-your servant} , and [I]_475-giudice love [you]_428-isola with all [my]_475-giudice heart , that [I]_475-giudice do . [I]_475-giudice ca n't tell at all where [I]_475-giudice shall go when [I]_475-giudice die , or if [I]_475-giudice shall go anywhere ; and [I]_475-giudice am sure [I]_475-giudice shall die , if [you]_428-isola cast [me]_475-giudice away like this . "_{[475-giudice]} So [I]_0-i kissed [his]_2811-him dotty whiskers , and promised not to desert [him]_2811-him , though [I]_0-i should go all the way to [the stables]_{6896-the stables} twice a day to see [him]_2811-him . " And another thing , [Clara]_293-clara dear , "_{[2813-his master 's sister]} resumed [[his]_2811-him master 's sister]_{2813-his master 's sister} , " [I]_{2813-his master 's sister} consider [him]_2811-him now more [[my]_{2813-his master 's sister} dog]_{7049-my dog} than [Conny]_427-conrad 's . [You]_428-isola know [he]_2811-him was given between [us"—this]_{7050-us"—this[2813-his master 's sister]} was the first time [I]_0-i heard of it—"and [I]_{2813-his master 's sister} only lent [Conrad]_427-conrad [my]_{2813-his master 's sister} half as long as [he]_427-conrad liked to pay for [him]_2811-him . "_{[2813-his master 's sister]} [Lovely Isola]_428-isola , like [most other lovely girls]_{2814-most other lovely girls} , was keen about money - matters . Not that [she]_428-isola was ungenerous . [That impulsive little mortal]_{2815-that impulsive little mortal} would give away all [her]_428-isola substance , the moment [her]_428-isola heart was touched , and it was not hard to touch , despite all the quick suspicions which [her]_428-isola [London]_1-london life and native shrewdness had now begun to produce . But as regards small dealings , [she]_428-isola was thoroughly qualified to keep [a meat - pie shop]_{2816-a meat - pie shop} , or go upon board wages , or even to take furnished lodging : by which climax [I]_0-i mean no disrespect to [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , who ( considering [her]_428-isola temptations ) is the very pink of honesty , especially since [Giudice]_475-giudice can . As to these small matters , and as to many large ones , [I]_0-i was dear [Isola]_428-isola 's cardinal opposite . [She]_428-isola would make , for [most men]_{2817-most men} , [a far better wife than [I]_0-i should]_{2818-a far better wife than i should} ; although [she]_428-isola will never love with a tenth part of the intensity . [She]_428-isola ca n't even hate like [me]_0-i . When [I]_0-i hate , [I]_0-i loathe and abhor . [I]_0-i never hate [any one]_{1178-any one} lightly , and hardly ever am reconciled , or suppress it . [Isola]_428-isola talks about hating , but has never learned what it means . Spite [she]_428-isola can carry , and nurse like [a doll]_{2820-a doll} , and count it a minor virtue , albeit [she]_428-isola can not be sulky ; hate is too heavy a burden . Scorn , which is with [women]_5443-women the hate of things beneath [them]_5443-women , [Isola]_428-isola hardly knows . Perhaps [she]_428-isola will learn it when [her]_428-isola knowledge of [the world]_{798-the world} narrows and condenses , as with [most women]_{6636-most women} it does . Another great difference there is between [Isola]_428-isola and [me]_0-i . Although [she]_428-isola never would think of deceiving [any one]_{1178-any one} seriously , and would on no account tell a downright malicious lie , yet [she]_428-isola is not so particular about telling [little fibs]_{2825-little fibs} , or at any rate colouring matters so highly that [others]_869-others are misled . This [she]_428-isola can justify to [herself]_428-isola in a charming warm - hearted way . And yet [she]_428-isola rarely makes mischief . [Her]_428-isola departures are half unconscious , and always arise from good will . " And so now , [Clara]_293-clara dear , "_{[6694-the senior sophist]} concluded [the senior sophist]_{6694-the senior sophist} , " as [Conrad]_427-conrad has owned all the dog so long , it is [my]_{6694-the senior sophist} turn to own every bit of [him]_427-conrad for an equal period , and [I]_{6694-the senior sophist} must pay [you]_293-clara half a crown a week for [his]_427-conrad keep , and half a guinea for doctoring [him]_427-conrad so well . "_{[6694-the senior sophist]} [I]_0-i was much inclined to take [her]_428-isola at [her]_428-isola word , it would have been such a surprise . But what a disgrace to [Giudice]_475-giudice and to [me]_0-i ! " Oh [Donna]_476-donna , "_[428-isola] [she]_428-isola continued , " [you]_476-donna have no idea how fond dear [Conny]_427-conrad is of [you]_476-donna . [I]_428-isola am getting so jealous . [He]_427-conrad thinks much more of [you]_476-donna than [he]_427-conrad does of [me]_428-isola . "_[428-isola] [I]_0-i bent over [my]_0-i drawing with more carmine on [my]_0-i cheeks than was on the palette . What folly to be sure ! And [Isola]_428-isola would come round in front . " Why do n't [you]_476-donna answer [me]_428-isola , [Clara]_293-clara ? Did [you]_476-donna ever know such a shame ? Well , [I]_428-isola do believe [you]_476-donna like being admired every bit as much as [I]_428-isola do , in spite of all [your]_476-donna sublimity . Why there comes [Conny]_427-conrad [himself]_427-conrad ; "_[428-isola] and to [my]_0-i great relief [she]_428-isola stepped into [the balcony]_{6413-the balcony} . " [I]_428-isola thought so . [I]_428-isola knew the ring of [his]_427-conrad heel . [He]_427-conrad will wear such clumsy boots , though [his]_427-conrad foot is as pretty as [mine]_0-i . [I]_428-isola always know [his]_427-conrad step , and so does [Judy]_477-judy . "_[428-isola] Alas ! and so do [I.]_0-i How weak and paltry of [me]_0-i , with a life like [mine]_0-i before [me]_0-i ! " [I]_{2443-his sister} will go and open the door , "_{[2443-his sister]} cries [[his]_2829-his sister]_{2443-his sister} ; " how rude [he]_2829-his is to come when [you]_0-i are so busy , [Clara]_293-clara . "_{[2443-his sister]} Away [she]_{2443-his sister} runs , then ushers [him]_2829-his grandly in , and away again to nurse the marmoset . [I]_0-i know that [I]_0-i look slightly discomposed . There is a glow upon [me]_0-i as if [I]_0-i had stepped into sunlight . [Conrad]_427-conrad fails to notice it , or conceals the perception . [He]_427-conrad stands before [my]_0-i easel . How [I]_0-i long for [his]_427-conrad approbation ! That of course is only from [his]_427-conrad knowledge of art and [his]_427-conrad native taste . Yet [I]_0-i fear to look at [his]_427-conrad face , but wait for [him]_427-conrad to speak . With a stretch like a windlass , and a cavernous yawn , up comes [Giudice]_475-giudice , and pokes [himself]_475-giudice right in front of [my]_0-i work . Could [I]_0-i have foreseen that effrontery and execrable taste , less bread and milk would [he]_427-conrad have had for breakfast . [Conrad]_427-conrad perceives [my]_0-i vexation , and despite [his]_427-conrad good breeding is too natural not to smile . The smile is infectious , and [I]_0-i obtain no more than a look of commendation . But that is enough for [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i resolve to keep the drawing : [Mr. Oxgall]_{422-mr. oxgall} may bid what [he]_{422-mr. oxgall} likes . As [our]_2831-our eyes meet , [Conrad]_427-conrad 's and [mine]_0-i , [I]_0-i see that [he]_427-conrad is not in [his]_427-conrad usual spirits . Something has happened to vex [him]_427-conrad . Oh that [I]_0-i dared to ask what it is . [I]_0-i also am heavy at heart , and ill at ease with [myself]_0-i . Is it any wonder ? [My]_0-i nature is true and straight - forward as well as proud and passionate . But here have [I]_0-i been , for weeks and weeks , stooping below its level . [I]_0-i have even been deceitful . Perhaps there was no dishonour in [my]_0-i change of name , with such an object in view . Perhaps there was good excuse for maintaining disguise with [Conrad]_427-conrad , when first [we]_2831-our met in [London]_1-london . But was it right and honourable to persist in [my]_0-i alias , when [I]_0-i could not help suspecting [his]_427-conrad growing attachment to [me]_0-i ? Peradventure [my]_0-i conscience alone would not account for all the misery [I]_0-i felt about this . Had [I]_0-i no selfish misgivings as well ? Now as [I]_0-i stood before [him]_427-conrad , [my]_0-i breast began to flutter with fear , not so acute , but deeper than [my]_0-i alarm in the dark , when [I]_0-i crouched from [the conspirators]_{2832-the conspirators} . " [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , "_[427-conrad] at last [he]_427-conrad began , " [I]_427-conrad am grieved in [my]_427-conrad heart by hearing that [you]_{423-miss valence} were not treated at all politely last night . "_[427-conrad] [He]_427-conrad was greatly moved , and began to lose [his]_427-conrad command of colloquial English . [I]_0-i had spent an evening at [[the Professor]_{2125-the professor} 's house in [Lucas Street]_{106-lucas street}]_{2834-the professor 's house in lucas street} , the second time only of [my]_0-i being [there]_1114-there . Now [I]_0-i came to recollect it , [Dr. Ross]_{470-dr. ross} had certainly been a little overbearing , but [I]_0-i did not feel hurt thereby , because [I]_0-i cared not for [him]_427-conrad , and knew it to be [his]_427-conrad manner . [Isola]_428-isola had told [[her]_428-isola brother]_{6430-her brother} , but without meaning any harm . [[Her]_428-isola father]_{898-her father} no doubt had been vexed , because [I]_0-i could not sell [him]_{898-her father} [my]_0-i gordit . " Oh , [Mr. Ross]_{515-mr. ross} , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i replied , " [I]_0-i think nothing at all of that . [A learned man like [[your]_{515-mr. ross} father]_{5365-your father}]_{7051-a learned man like your father} can not be expected to bear with [every ignorant girl]_{7053-every ignorant girl} 's curiosity . "_[0-i] " To [a lady]_{5829-a lady} 's love of knowledge [every gentleman]_{7055-every gentleman} should administer and be gratified . [All men of lofty science]_{7056-all men of lofty science} enjoy to meet with a gentle mind inquiring . "_[427-conrad] It was not the first time [Master Conrad]_427-conrad had disparaged , by implication , [[his]_427-conrad father]_{1062-his father} 's great acquirements . To [me]_0-i it seemed scarcely graceful , and very far from dutiful , but many of [my]_0-i sentiments are dreadfully old - fashioned . An awkward pause ensued ; how could [I]_0-i answer without condemning one or [the other]_{1586-the other} ? Though [I]_0-i could not quite acquit [Conrad]_427-conrad , [my]_0-i heart was entirely with [him]_427-conrad , for [I]_0-i had long been aware that [he]_427-conrad was not happy at [home]_1102-home . There [he]_427-conrad stood , with an angry countenance , having declined the chair [I]_0-i had offered [him]_427-conrad . Suddenly [he]_427-conrad took both [my]_0-i hands and looked [me]_0-i full in the face , though [his]_427-conrad eyes were glistening . [I]_0-i gazed full at [him]_427-conrad , with vague apprehensions rising . How or why , [I]_0-i know not , but at that very moment [my]_0-i hair , which is always a trouble to [me]_0-i , fell in a mass down [my]_0-i cheeks and neck . [He]_427-conrad started back , but still held [my]_0-i hands . " [I]_427-conrad am made certain that [I]_427-conrad have seen [you]_0-i long ago . [I]_427-conrad will think , [I]_427-conrad will think . "_[427-conrad] [I]_0-i saw at once how it was , the fear on [my]_0-i face reminded [him]_427-conrad . [I]_0-i meant to tell [him]_427-conrad some day , but [I]_0-i never meant [him]_427-conrad to find out . Scorning [myself]_0-i for [a hypocrite]_{1089-a hypocrite} , [I]_0-i looked stedfastly at [him]_427-conrad and smiled . " [You]_427-conrad will forgive [me]_427-conrad , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , [you]_427-conrad know that [I]_427-conrad would not use a freedom . "_[427-conrad] [He]_427-conrad saw in [my]_0-i eyes that [I]_0-i knew it , and dropped [my]_0-i hands , and went on . " [You]_427-conrad will think [me]_0-i the weakest in mind and most wicked , but [I]_0-i am most unhappy . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i started in turn , and how [I]_0-i longed to console [him]_427-conrad . What use is pride if it can not even command [one]_6186-one 's eyes ? " It is to [me]_427-conrad a disgrace to come to [you]_427-conrad with [my]_427-conrad troubles . But [I]_427-conrad do it from no unmanly temper . [I]_427-conrad do it alone for the sake of [[my]_427-conrad precious sister]_{7057-my precious sister} [Isola]_428-isola . [I]_427-conrad have no longer [any one whom [I]_427-conrad dare to love but [her]_428-isola]_{7058-any one whom i dare to love but her} , and now [I]_427-conrad am compelled to abandon [her]_428-isola at the last . "_[427-conrad] " Do [you]_427-conrad mean to be long away ? "_[427-conrad] This [I]_0-i managed to ask pretty well , though it was sore work . " [I]_0-i shall not be away from [London]_1-london , but [I]_0-i shall be departed from [Isola]_428-isola . [The house where [she]_428-isola lives [I]_0-i am no more to visit]_{7059-the house where she lives i am no more to visit} . A long time [I]_0-i have gone [there]_1114-there only a little , and alone to see [her]_428-isola . [She]_428-isola is ordered now to come no more to [me]_0-i . This day [I]_0-i spoke very violently . But [I]_0-i will not detain [you]_427-conrad with that . [I]_0-i will confess [I]_0-i did wrong ; but [I]_0-i was richly provoked . [My]_0-i object in burdening [you]_427-conrad is double:—First to implore [you]_427-conrad , if [I]_0-i may without using liberty , to endure well with [the Professor]_{2125-the professor} , lest [she]_428-isola should be interdicted from coming to visit [you]_427-conrad , and then [she]_428-isola would have [no one]_{730-no one} remaining to love [her]_428-isola . Second to ask , a thing that [I]_0-i hesitate because [I]_0-i can not narrate to [you]_427-conrad all things , whether [you]_427-conrad would indulge [me]_0-i , if there is no wrong , to come now and then to see [my]_0-i own and [[my]_0-i only sister]_{7063-my only sister} . "_[0-i] " Of course [you]_0-i do not mean without [[her]_428-isola father]_{898-her father} 's knowledge . "_[2843-i] " [I]_2843-i would never insult [you]_427-conrad , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} , by asking a thing like that . [I]_2843-i desire nothing of what [you]_427-conrad call clandestine . [You]_427-conrad are so free and open , [you]_427-conrad would never have to do with any sort of concealment . Neither am [I]_2843-i in the habit to do anything like that . It has only been commanded that [I]_2843-i may not go [there]_1114-there , or invite [her]_428-isola to come to [[my]_2843-i house]_{5343-my house} . [The Professor]_{2125-the professor} has great power in the present , but [he]_{2125-the professor} does not pretend to interdict [me]_2843-i from [[my]_2843-i sister]_{7068-my sister} . "_[2843-i] [His]_2843-i eyes flashed , as [he]_2843-i spoke , with an expression quite unfilial . Remembering how differently [I]_0-i had loved [[my]_0-i own dear father]_{2510-my own dear father} , [I]_0-i felt disappointed and grieved , but had no right to show it . " Only one more thing [I]_2843-i will entreat of [you]_427-conrad , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} ; poor [Isola]_428-isola has never learned what means any grief . If [she]_428-isola is vexed by this , [I]_2843-i pray [you]_427-conrad to sustain and comfort [her]_428-isola ; for [I]_2843-i shall never make a wrong advantage of [your]_427-conrad most kind permission , so as to see [her]_428-isola very often . "_[2843-i] [He]_2843-i raised [my]_0-i hand to [his]_2843-i lips in gratitude for what [he]_2843-i called a kindness beyond all value to [him]_2843-i , and [his]_2843-i voice was trembling as [he]_2843-i turned away . But [I]_0-i had done no kindness , [I]_0-i had given no permission ; for [I]_0-i was not calm enough to distinguish right from wrong . Strange indeed it seemed to [me]_0-i that [I]_0-i , for the most part so decided , could not now determine , but was all perplexity . [My]_0-i great iceberg self - reliance , built in bleak and lonesome years , was now adrift and melting in the bright sun of friendship and the warm sea - depths of love . [Isola]_428-isola happened that day to leave [me]_0-i before the usual time , being afraid that [[her]_428-isola father]_{898-her father} , who was not in [his]_{898-her father} sweetest mood , would be angry with [her]_428-isola . [She]_428-isola was grieved of course at the new dissension , and thought [me]_0-i ( [her]_428-isola ideas were of loose texture ) somewhat to blame somehow . Nevertheless [she]_428-isola soon forgave [me]_0-i the crime [I]_0-i had not committed . That day [I]_0-i could paint no more , but sat [me]_0-i down to meditate . Suddenly a loud ring and a louder knock echoed through [the house]_{764-the house} . [Quickly Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's little feet came pattering up [the stairs]_{5744-the stairs} , and [her]_428-isola grey eyes actually seemed to come in first at the door . On the crown of [her]_428-isola head [her]_428-isola black cap hung , like the top of a chaise doubled back . " Oh [[my]_428-isola good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , look here ! [I]_428-isola was never so frightened in all [my]_428-isola life . "_[428-isola] [She]_428-isola held as far from [her]_428-isola as [she]_428-isola could reach a closed envelope , addressed " [Miss Clara Vaughan]_293-clara . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i tore it open and read—"Mr . [Vaughan]_293-clara is dying , come instantly . Sent by [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} . "_[0-i] " Telegraph , [[my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} good soul]_{2657-my good soul} , "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} cried [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , " [Electric Telegraph Company]_{7071-electric telegraph company} , all screams the wires red hot , and [you]_{2657-my good soul} must sign the message [he]_{7071-electric telegraph company} says . And is there any answer ? And [they]_{7071-electric telegraph company} give [him]_{7071-electric telegraph company} eighteen pence . Oh dear , [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} shall never get over it . Never had such a turn since [[my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} brother]_{1302-my brother} [John]_{411-miss vaughan} went , and [they]_{7071-electric telegraph company} tucked [him]_{7071-electric telegraph company} up so bootiful , and [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} said to [the clerk at [Barbican]_44-barbican]_{7073-the clerk at barbican} — "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} " Out of [my]_2848-me way if [you]_{7073-the clerk at barbican} please . Let [me]_2848-me sign the form , and leave [me]_2848-me alone a minute . There is no answer . "_[2848-me] Should [I]_0-i go or not ? Bitterly as [I]_0-i disliked [him]_2848-me , could [I]_0-i let [him]_2848-me die among [hirelings]_{2849-hirelings} and [strangers]_{6661-strangers} — [I]_0-i , [[his]_2848-me brother 's daughter]_{2851-his brother 's daughter} ! A year ago [I]_0-i would have done so and thought it the judgment of [God]_303-god . Now [I]_0-i remembered [[my]_0-i dear mother]_{5530-my dear mother} 's death , and doubted about going only because [I]_0-i knew not how [he]_2848-me would take it . [My]_0-i hesitation was very brief . [A cab]_{2021-a cab} was ordered , [Giudice]_475-giudice entrusted to [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's care , a short note left for [Isola]_428-isola , a few things put together anyhow , and [I]_0-i was ready to start . Even in this hurry a selfish terror smote [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i cautioned [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} strictly to conceal both name and destination . [She]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had only to say that [some relative]_{2854-some relative} was suddenly taken ill , somewhere down in [the country]_{1831-the country} ; [the country]_{1831-the country} being to [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} mind a desert marked with milestones , [my]_0-i description did not seem unreasonably vague . As [I]_0-i stood in [the passage]_{824-the passage} waiting for [the cab]_{6488-the cab} , [the poor dog , who had been quite flurried , and scented indefinite evil , commenced , prolonged , and would not conclude a howl of passing sadness]_{2859-the poor dog , who had been quite flurried , and scented indefinite evil , commenced , prolonged , and would not conclude a howl of passing sadness} . " Oh , [[my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} cried [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , " let [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} stop [the cab]_{6488-the cab} . All waste of money to go . [The good gentleman]_{7076-the good gentleman} , whoever [he]_{7076-the good gentleman} is , is as dead as a crabshell now . There was [a terrier with a split ear]_{7077-a terrier with a split ear} , next door but one , when [[my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} poor brother]_{7078-my poor brother} [John]_{411-miss vaughan} was ill ; [his]_{7078-my poor brother} name was [Jack]_374-jack , [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} think , no , [Tom]_295-tom ; bless [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , no , what am [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} thinking of , [Bob]_482-bob — [Charley]_395-charley knows , [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} dare say — "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} " Well , send [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} [his]_475-giudice name by telegraph . Here 's [the cab]_{6488-the cab} , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Heavy thumps of weary wambling feet , grating of wheels , a needless " whoa , "_[2860-we] and [we]_2860-we open the door . [Giudice]_475-giudice bolts first into [the cab]_{6488-the cab} , and sitting upright with [his]_475-giudice tongue out and a sprightly pant , occupies the whole . It takes the united strength , address , and authority of [cabman]_2862-cabman , [landlady]_{2863-landlady} , and [myself]_0-i to get [him]_475-giudice out again . Then [he]_475-giudice coils [his]_475-giudice tail to [his]_475-giudice stomach , droops [his]_475-giudice ears and eyes , and receiving two hot tears and a kiss is sidled and deluded into [the narrow passage]_{6031-the narrow passage} . The last thing [I]_0-i hear is a howl that winds far round the corner and beyond [the square]_{1939-the square} . In an hour and a half from the delivery of the message , [I]_0-i was in [a second - class carriage]_{2866-a second - class carriage} , and [we]_2860-we shrieked away from [Paddington]_{246-paddington} . The hurry and rush overcame [me]_0-i for a while . Soon the April evening was spread with shadowy gray , and [we]_2860-we were rushing past [the wooded waves of [Pangbourne]_{107-pangbourne}]_{2867-the wooded waves of pangbourne} , and casting silver rings of steam on the many - fingered spruce , before [I]_0-i could collect and feel [my]_0-i thoughts again . As [we]_2860-we glided through plantations and between [the winding hills]_{2868-the winding hills} , with the partridge beginning [his]_475-giudice twilight call , the pheasants come out of the coppice to feed , and [the late rook]_{2869-the late rook} plying [his]_{2869-the late rook} dusky wings , at length the dust and city turmoil lagged round the corner miles away , and [we]_2860-we sparkled in the dewy freshness of the silent moon . Though all alone in [the carriage]_{6087-the carriage} , [I]_0-i vainly tried for prudence ' sake to creep into the cloak of sleep . Every vein and every pore was full of gushing thrilling electric life . [The country]_{1831-the country} , [the country]_{1831-the country} ! [the heavenly country]_{2873-the heavenly country} 's glory ! how had [I]_0-i breathed and groped in [the city]_{1885-the city} grave so long ? For every thought that dribbled there and guttered in [my]_0-i brain , a hundred thousand now flow through [me]_0-i , not of brain , but soul . Thoughts [I]_0-i can not call them , for there is no volition , neither have [they]_2875-they sequence , impress , or seen image : only a broad stream gliding , whence and whither [I]_0-i know not . How can [I]_0-i describe to [others]_869-others what [I]_0-i can not tell [myself]_0-i ? " Glost ' ! [Glost]_517-glost ' ! change here for [Chelt'm]_518-chelt'm ! "_[869-others] & c. broke [my]_0-i dreaming suddenly . It was eleven at night . [I]_0-i had come unwrapped ; [the heavenly country]_{2873-the heavenly country} and nature 's tide forgot to keep [me]_0-i warm . Out [I]_0-i came upon [the platform]_{2878-the platform} , and dreamily began to seek [my]_0-i carpet - bag , for [I]_0-i had no heavy luggage . The moon was struggling with the gas - lights , as nature in [me]_0-i fought with modern life . " Fly , [Miss]_7080-miss , fly ? "_{[2879-the lonely porter]} [the lonely porter]_{2879-the lonely porter} asked . " Yes , please , "_{[2879-the lonely porter]} said [I.]_0-i " Where for , [Miss]_7081-miss ? "_[0-i] " [Vaughan St. Mary]_{18-vaughan st. mary} . "—At_{[2879-the lonely porter]} this part of [my]_0-i life , [I]_0-i dropped the grand " [Vaughan Park]_{5-vaughan park} ; "_{[2879-the lonely porter]} it seemed too fine for [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i was well content to be of [Conrad]_427-conrad 's class in [the world]_{798-the world} . " Oh , there 's [a carriage waiting at every train]_{7082-a carriage waiting at every train} , if [you]_0-i please , [Miss.]_2105-miss. "_{[2881-the porter]} And with tenfold politeness [the porter]_{2881-the porter} showed [me]_0-i across [the square]_{1939-the square} to one of [the family hearses , which [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} and [I]_0-i so detested]_{2883-the family hearses , which my father and i so detested} . It so happened that [the driver]_{6033-the driver} and [footman]_2886-footman were taking some light refreshment at the bar of [a neighbouring edifice]_{2887-a neighbouring edifice} , while the horses champed [their]_2888-their bits and whinnied . [The men]_{5486-the men} came out against [their]_{5486-the men} will , and stared at [me]_0-i in the broad moonshine . [I]_0-i was very simply , plainly , and cheaply dressed , in deep mourning still for [[my]_0-i darling mother]_{2890-my darling mother} ; but [no servant of even slight experience]_{2891-no servant of even slight experience} could take [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i think , for anything but [a lady]_{5829-a lady} ; little as it matters . [The men]_{5486-the men} were half - drunk , very surly at being disturbed , and inclined to form a low estimate of [my]_0-i dress and carpet - bag . " [You]_0-i mean to say [you]_0-i be [Miss Vaughan]_{411-miss vaughan} , [young ' ooman]_{2155-young ' ooman} ? "_[2894-i] stuttered the reeling coachman , with [his]_2894-i hands beneath [his]_2894-i flaps and a short pipe in [his]_2894-i mouth , " Now [I]_2894-i tell [you]_0-i plainly , there 's no mistake about [me]_2894-i mind , [I]_2894-i ca n't noway credit it . It do n't seem likely , do it , [Bob]_482-bob ? "_[2894-i] " Likely , [Jacob]_519-jacob ? Yes , like enough to [a fool]_{7085-a fool} ; but nohow creditable to the like of [us]_7086-us . Think [I]_2894-i do n't know now ? Perhaps [the young ' ooman]_{7087-the young ' ooman} will answer a few questions , [Jacob]_519-jacob . "_[2894-i] " Ah , let [you]_482-bob alone ; let [you]_482-bob alone , [Bob]_482-bob ! Specially for [young women]_{7088-young women} ! "_[2894-i] " [Porter]_7089-porter , [a cab]_{2021-a cab} at once , if [you]_7089-porter please ; or a fly [I]_2894-i think [you]_7089-porter call it [here]_846-here . "_[2894-i] Oh [my]_0-i [London]_1-london impudence ! " To be sure , [Miss]_7092-miss ; the best in [Gloucester]_{23-gloucester} directly . And , Miss"—confidentially_[2894-i] , " if [I]_2894-i was in [your]_7089-porter shoes , [I]_2894-i 'd walk [them]_{7088-young women} chaps about [their]_{7088-young women} business to - morrow . How [they]_{7088-young women} have been carrying on [here]_846-here , to be sure , ever since [the six o'clock train]_{7094-the six o'clock train} come in . Why , in the time of [the old Squire Vaughan]_{520-the old squire vaughan} — "_[2894-i] " Thank [you]_7089-porter , [the fly]_{7095-the fly} , if [you]_7089-porter please . "_[2894-i] In two minutes [I]_0-i was off for [[[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's home]_{1315-my father 's home} with mighty rattle of glass , and many jerking noises . About three miles from [Gloucester]_{23-gloucester} [we]_2897-we were passed by [Jacob]_519-jacob and [Robert]_327-robert , who were sitting side by side and driving furiously . Convinced at last by [the porter of [my]_0-i genuine Vaughanship]_{2898-the porter of my genuine vaughanship} , [they]_2899-they had set off full speed to secure first audience . At length [we]_2897-we passed [the lodge]_{1166-the lodge} , where the gates creaked as of yore , and [dear old Whitehead]_{316-old whitehead} trembled at [my]_0-i voice , and so along [the great avenue]_{2901-the great avenue} where [I]_0-i had studied the manners and ways of every tree , and where [Tulip]_521-tulip ( Nestor among deer ) came to stare at [us]_2897-we with [his]_521-tulip grey face silver in the moonlight . [Poor old friend]_{2902-poor old friend} , [he]_{2902-poor old friend} knew [me]_0-i as well as [Giudice]_475-giudice did , but [I]_0-i could not stop to talk to [him]_{2902-poor old friend} . Soon as the bell was rung the broad bolt of the great lock , which [I]_0-i was once so proud to draw , flew back with suspicious promptitude . Albeit [he]_{2902-poor old friend} had changed the cloth too ochrously described by [Sally]_371-sally , for a suit of gentle gray , and had drawn out [his]_{2902-poor old friend} face to a most unjovial length , and assumed an attitude of very profound respect , there [he]_{2902-poor old friend} was , quite unmistakeable to observant eyes , [the Bacchanalian Bob]_522-bob . " And please , Miss"—after_{[2902-poor old friend]} [he]_{2902-poor old friend} had fussed awhile—"what train did [you]_0-i please to come by ? [I]_{2902-poor old friend} understand that [the carriage]_{6087-the carriage} has been waiting [there]_1114-there all day ; indeed , [I]_{2902-poor old friend} saw it come back from the pantry window [myself]_{2902-poor old friend} , and [they]_7098-they said in [the yard]_{5978-the yard} [the last train]_{7100-the last train} was in afore [they]_7098-they come away . "_{[2902-poor old friend]} " [I]_{2902-poor old friend} came by [the train]_{7101-the train} that ought to be there at half - past ten o'clock . "_{[2902-poor old friend]} " Well to be sure ! That must be the very train as [Samuel]_404-samuel and [Humphry]_523-humphry said [they]_7098-they waited for ; but [they]_7098-they never has much judgment , [them]_7098-they [two men]_{7102-two men} . And to let [you]_0-i come in a common fly , [Miss]_5433-miss ! "_{[2902-poor old friend]} " [I]_{2903-strange servants} saw [[my]_{2903-strange servants} father]_{731-my father} 's carriage at [the station]_{2317-the station} , and [two low - looking servants]_{7106-two low - looking servants} quite tipsy . [Their]_{7106-two low - looking servants} names , however , were not [Samuel]_404-samuel and [Humphry]_523-humphry , but [Jacob]_519-jacob and [Robert]_327-robert . "_{[2903-strange servants]} [Strange servants]_{2903-strange servants} now came thronging round , with an obsequiousness so long unknown that it quite disgusted [me]_0-i . [No familiar face among [them]_{2903-strange servants}]_{2904-no familiar face among them} , none whom [I]_0-i could bring [myself]_0-i to ask how [[my]_0-i guardian]_{912-my guardian} was . But from [their]_{2903-strange servants} servility to [me]_0-i [I]_0-i concluded that [his]_{912-my guardian} time was short . " Will [you]_0-i step into [the small drawing - room]_{7107-the small drawing - room} , if [you]_0-i be so kind , [Miss]_5433-miss ? There is a good fire there , [Miss]_5433-miss , and [a lady]_{5829-a lady} waiting for [you]_0-i . "_[0-i] " Thank [you]_0-i . Take [my]_{2906-the officious bob} things to [[my]_{2906-the officious bob} own little room]_{7111-my own little room} , if [you]_0-i please ; that is , if [you]_0-i know [which room]_{7112-which room} was called [mine]_{2906-the officious bob} . "_{[2906-the officious bob]} " [Tilly]_409-patty knows , [Miss.]_2105-miss. [I]_{2906-the officious bob} 'll run and fetch [Tilly]_409-patty , "_{[2906-the officious bob]} cried [the officious Bob]_{2906-the officious bob} . " If [Matilda Jenkins]_524-matilda is still [here]_846-here , let [her]_524-matilda answer [my]_{2906-the officious bob} bell as long as [I]_{2906-the officious bob} remain . "_{[2906-the officious bob]} And therewith [I]_0-i was shown into [the room where [the lady]_{1431-the lady} was expecting [me]_0-i]_{2907-the room where the lady was expecting me} . [She]_{1431-the lady} sat with [her]_{1431-the lady} back to the door , and [I]_0-i could only see that [she]_{1431-the lady} was richly attired in full evening dress . There was a powerful smell of vinegar in [the room]_{823-the room} , and two pastiles were burning . As [I]_0-i walked round the table [she]_{1431-the lady} rose with some reluctance , and [I]_0-i confronted [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} . [We]_2910-we stood for a moment , examining [each other]_{734-each other} . [She]_{1431-the lady} was fattening nicely on what [she]_{1431-the lady} called " holy converse and spiritual outpourings at [Cheltenham]_{108-cheltenham} . "_{[1431-the lady]} [She]_{1431-the lady} rushed forward with great enthusiasm . " Why , [Clara]_293-clara , [darling]_6257-darling , is it possible ? Can this be [you]_293-clara — so grown , and improved in every way ? [I]_{1431-the lady} never should have known [you]_293-clara , [I]_{1431-the lady} do declare ! Why , [you]_293-clara have quite a brilliant colour , and [your]_293-clara eyes , and [your]_293-clara hair — oh dear , how proud [[your]_293-clara sweet mother]_{7116-your sweet mother} would have been ! [You]_293-clara lovely creature , [I]_{1431-the lady} must have a kiss ! What , not even [your]_293-clara pretty hand ? "_{[1431-the lady]} " No , [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} ; never more [my]_{1431-the lady} hand to [a person who dared to insult [[my]_{1431-the lady} father]_{731-my father} . [Me]_{1431-the lady} [you]_293-clara might have insulted a thousand times , and [I]_{1431-the lady} would have forgiven [you]_293-clara]_{7117-a person who dared to insult my father . me you might have insulted a thousand times , and i would have forgiven you} . "_{[1431-the lady]} " Come now , let bygones be bygones , that 's a dear . Oh for a little more of the essence of [Christianity]_{525-christianity} ! Let [us]_7119-us stoop to the hem of the garment of [the meek]_{7120-the meek} and lowly"—I_{[1431-the lady]} will not write the sacred name [she]_2912-you used—"let [[us]_7119-us poor grovelling [fellow - sinners]_{7122-fellow - sinners}]_{7121-us poor grovelling fellow - sinners} — "_{[1431-the lady]} " Do n't couple [me]_0-i with [yourself]_293-clara , [I]_0-i beg . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i was losing [my]_0-i temper , and [she]_2912-you saw [her]_2912-you advantage . " Not even as [a sinner]_{7123-a sinner} , [dear]_5871-dear ? [I]_2912-you thought in [my]_2912-you humility that [we]_7119-us all were [sinners]_7125-sinners . "_[2912-you] " So [we]_7119-us are ; but [not all hypocrites]_{7126-not all hypocrites} . "_[2912-you] [She]_2912-you kept [her]_2912-you temper wonderfully , in all except [her]_2912-you eyes . " Ah , [[you]_5871-dear impetuous [young people]_{7128-young people}]_{7127-you impetuous young people} can not understand the chastened lowly heart , which nothing but heavy trials and the grace of [God]_303-god produce . [You]_5871-dear know , [Clara]_293-clara , [you]_5871-dear never could . "_[2912-you] This last truth was put in the form of an exclamation , and in such a different tone from the rest , moreover it was so true , that [I]_0-i could hardly help smiling . " Since last [I]_0-i saw [you]_2912-you , [I]_0-i have been tried severely and chastised most heavily . [I]_0-i bow to the rod . All works together for [our]_7119-us spiritual good . Until that blessed day , when all the sheaves — "_[0-i] " [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} , [I]_2913-i as well have seen and suffered much since last [we]_7119-us met . If [I]_2913-i could not be hoodwinked then by this sham religion , is it likely that [I]_2913-i can be now ? [I]_2913-i wonder that [you]_2912-you waste [your]_2912-you time so . "_[2913-i] The truth was that [she]_2913-i talked in this strain less from hope than habit . " Then if [I]_2913-i must treat [you]_2912-you , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara , but as [a sister worldling]_{7129-a sister worldling} , let [us]_7119-us at least combine , for [Providence]_{319-providence} has seen fit to make [our]_7119-us interests the same . "_[2913-i] " How so ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i was doing [my]_0-i utmost to bear with [her]_2913-i awhile . " First , before [I]_2913-i tell [you]_2912-you anything , have [you]_2912-you as keen an eye for the perception of [your]_2912-you own sweet interest as for the discovery of what [you]_2912-you kindly call ' hypocrisy ? ' [Ah]_7130-ah well , it is all for [my]_2913-i good . "_[2913-i] [Her]_2913-i rolling compendious eyes glistened at the thought that [she]_2913-i was about to catch [me]_0-i here . [I]_0-i pretended to be caught already . " What of it , if [I]_0-i have ? "_[0-i] " Then [I]_2913-i will tell [you]_2912-you something . Sit down by [me]_2913-i , [Clara]_293-clara . "_[2913-i] " Thank [you]_2912-you , [I]_2913-i will stand . "_[2913-i] " Now first , before [I]_0-i tell [you]_2912-you anything , [we]_7131-we must make some little arrangement for [our]_7131-we mutual benefit , and then resolve upon united action . [You]_2912-you must give [me]_0-i one little pledge . That being done [I]_0-i will tell [you]_2912-you everything , and it is of the last importance to [you]_2912-you . "_[0-i] " Is it about [[my]_2913-i father]_{731-my father} ? ' "_[2913-i] No . It has nothing to do with [him]_2914-him ; it is about [[your]_0-i uncle]_{5339-your uncle} , who now lies at the door of death . All , it is all for the best . There is , [I]_0-i fear , no chance of [his]_{5339-your uncle} recovery , and the disposal of [this splendid property]_{2916-this splendid property} is in [our]_2917-our hands , if [we]_2917-our know how to play [our]_2917-our cards , and if [we]_2917-our act together . But there is no time to be lost . Only think , 15,000*l . * a year , for it is now worth every farthing of that , besides [this beautiful place]_{2918-this beautiful place} . Why , [Clara]_293-clara , all the pleasures of life will be at [our]_2917-our feet ! " In [her]_293-clara greedy excitement , [she]_293-clara forgot all [her]_293-clara piety ; but [I]_293-clara liked [her]_293-clara better so . In a moment [she]_293-clara saw that [she]_293-clara had laid [her]_293-clara wicked heart too open . In [my]_293-clara eyes there was no co - partner flash of avarice . "_[293-clara] What is the matter with [[my]_0-i poor uncle]_{2919-my poor uncle} ? " "_{[2919-my poor uncle]} First a paralytic stroke ; since that low gastric fever , and entire prostration . Do [you]_0-i remember when [you]_0-i came to [[your]_0-i dear mother]_{5347-your dear mother} 's funeral ? " "_[0-i] Of course , [I]_0-i do . " "_[0-i] And could [you]_0-i help observing how altered [he]_{2919-my poor uncle} was even then ? The hour [he]_{2919-my poor uncle} heard of [her]_{5347-your dear mother} death , [he]_{2919-my poor uncle} was seized with violent illness , yet [he]_{2919-my poor uncle} would go out of [doors]_2921-doors alone , on the very day of the funeral . Something then excited [him]_{2919-my poor uncle} ; [he]_{2919-my poor uncle} came [home]_1102-home worse , and in the night was visited with a slight paralytic stroke . However , [he]_{2919-my poor uncle} quite recovered the use of [his]_{2919-my poor uncle} limbs for a time , though never [his]_{2919-my poor uncle} former spirits — if [we]_2923-we can call [them]_2924-them spirits . For several months [he]_{2919-my poor uncle} went about as usual , except that instead of a horse [he]_{2919-my poor uncle} rode a quiet pony . [He]_{2919-my poor uncle} saw to [the property]_{1112-the property} , received the Michaelmas rents , and invested large sums of money both in land and the funds ; [he]_{2919-my poor uncle} even commenced some great improvements , for [he]_{2919-my poor uncle} has always been , as [you]_2926-you know , [a most skilful and liberal steward and manager]_{2927-a most skilful and liberal steward and manager} . " "_{[2919-my poor uncle]} That [I]_0-i never denied . There could not be a better one . " "_{[2919-my poor uncle]} But suddenly , after no Christmas festivities ( for [he]_{2919-my poor uncle} would hear of none , for the sake of [[your]_2926-you dear mother]_{5347-your dear mother} ) , [he]_{2919-my poor uncle} was found on the morning of the last day in the year bolt upright in [his]_{2919-my poor uncle} study chair , and fully dressed , with two pistols , loaded and cocked , on the table , no sign of life in [his]_{2919-my poor uncle} face or pulse , [his]_{2919-my poor uncle} body stiff yet limp , like a sand - bag tightly stuffed . [The man who found [him]_{2919-my poor uncle}]_{2929-the man who found him} described it better than [I]_0-i can . ' [Poor master]_{2930-poor master} , whichever way [I]_0-i put [him]_{2919-my poor uncle} , there [he]_{2919-my poor uncle} stop , like a French dog doing tricks . '' " How terrible ! "_{[2919-my poor uncle]} " Yes , but it was true . At first [they]_7133-they thought it was catalepsy only ; but when that passed off , paralysis remained . [I]_{2929-the man who found him} wanted to send for [you]_2926-you at once . "_{[2929-the man who found him]} Here [she]_{2929-the man who found him} met , for [she]_{2929-the man who found him} could not help it , but did not answer , [my]_0-i gaze ; and [I]_0-i knew it was a lie . " However , [I]_{2929-the man who found him} was over - ruled ; and [[your]_2926-you poor uncle]_{7134-your poor uncle} lay bed - ridden , but in no actual danger , until this horrid low fever came . [He]_{7134-your poor uncle} must have a frame of iron to have borne up as [he]_{7134-your poor uncle} has . [The doctor]_{5643-the doctor} says this fever is partly from the prostration of the nerves . "_{[2929-the man who found him]} " Who is [the doctor]_{5643-the doctor} ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i felt almost as if [I]_0-i could love [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} . " [A very eminent man]_{7137-a very eminent man} . [His]_{7137-a very eminent man} name is [Churchyard]_{526-dr. churchyard} . "_[0-i] " That is not [[our]_7138-our old medical man]_{7139-our old medical man} . Where does [this gentleman]_{7140-this gentleman} come from ? "_{[2929-the man who found him]} " [Cheltenham]_{108-cheltenham} , [I]_0-i believe . "_[0-i] " Surely , [you]_0-i must know that , if [he]_{7140-this gentleman} is [an eminent man]_{7141-an eminent man} ; living [there]_1114-there [yourself]_0-i ! "_[0-i] [I]_0-i saw that [she]_2932-she had brought [him]_{1271-my uncle} . " Well , "_[2932-she] [she]_2932-she answered sharply , " it matters little where [he]_{7140-this gentleman} comes from , and [I]_2932-she have not verified [[his]_{7140-this gentleman} residence]_{7143-his residence} . [I]_2932-she fear [all the doctors in [Europe]_95-europe]_{7144-all the doctors in europe} could not save [[your]_0-i poor dear uncle]_{7145-your poor dear uncle} . "_[2932-she] And here ( from habit when death was thought of ) [she]_2932-she fell into the hypocritical vein once more—"Ah , how true it is ! The thing that will most avail [him]_{1271-my uncle} now , when [his]_{1271-my uncle} poor sinful frame is perishing , and [the old man with all its works]_{7146-the old man with all its works} — "_[2932-she] " Thank [you]_2932-she . [I]_2932-she know all that . [Which room]_{7112-which room} does [[my]_2932-she uncle]_{1271-my uncle} occupy ? "_[2932-she] " Surely , [you]_2932-she never would think of disturbing [him]_{1271-my uncle} at midnight ! "_[2932-she] " Does death look what o'clock it is ? If [he]_{1271-my uncle} is really dying , [I]_2932-she must see [him]_{1271-my uncle} at once . "_[2932-she] [She]_2932-she seemed resolved to prevent [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i was determined to do it . It is needless to tell all [her]_2932-she stratagems , and needless to say ( unless [I]_0-i have failed to depict [myself]_0-i ) that they proved utterly vain . [I]_0-i was only surprised that [she]_2932-she did not come with [me]_0-i . How vast [the rooms]_{2933-the rooms} appeared to [me]_0-i , how endless [the main passages]_{2934-the main passages} , after the dimensions long familiar at [[Tossil]_361-tossil 's Barton]_{5668-tossil 's barton} , and [[Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's]_{2936-mrs. shelfer 's} . [I]_0-i even feared to lose the way , where [my]_0-i childish feet had measured every step . First [I]_0-i hurried to [[my]_0-i own snug room]_{2937-my own snug room} , or rooms — for [I]_0-i had [parlour]_2938-parlour and [bedroom]_2939-bedroom adjoining — in [the western wing]_{2940-the western wing} , where [mother]_739-mother used to live . Everything there was in beautiful order , a lamp and a good fire lighted ; and [Matilda Jenkins]_524-matilda met [me]_0-i at the door . Directly after [our]_2942-our departure for [Devonshire]_4-devonshire , [Mr. Vaughan]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} had thought fit to discharge all [the old servants]_{2943-the old servants} , except [the housekeeper]_{6360-the housekeeper} and [Matilda]_524-matilda . [They]_{2943-the old servants} were all in league against [him]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} , for [they]_{2943-the old servants} could not bear that [the " rightful owners]_{7149-the " rightful owners} , "_{[297-mr. edgar vaughan]} whom [they]_{2943-the old servants} had known so long , should be ejected . Moreover , [his]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} discipline was far more stern than [ours]_2942-our ; for [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} and [mother]_739-mother had always ruled by love . [The housekeeper]_{6360-the housekeeper} , [a great friend of [mine]_0-i]_{2948-a great friend of mine} , was retained from respect and policy , and poor [Tilly]_409-patty ( who entered life through a dust - bin ) from contempt of [her]_409-patty insignificance . By that time [she]_409-patty had risen to the rank of [scullery - maid]_{2949-scullery - maid} and [deputy dishwasher]_{2950-deputy dishwasher} ; now [she]_409-patty had climbed in the social scale to the position of [under - housemaid]_{2951-under - housemaid} . " Why , [Matilda]_524-matilda , how well [you]_524-matilda look , and how smart ! [I]_409-patty declare [you]_524-matilda are getting quite tall . [I]_409-patty suppose the new times agree with [you]_524-matilda better than the old . "_[409-patty] " Oh do n't say that , [Miss Clara]_293-clara , please do n't ! [I]_2952-i 'd tear the gownd off [my]_2952-i back"—looking_[2952-i] savagely at the neat print—"if [I]_2952-i thought it make [you]_524-matilda think that . No , [I]_2952-i gets a little more wages , but a deal more work , and [I]_2952-i never gets a kind word . Oh it does [my]_2952-i heart good to see [you]_524-matilda here again , in [[your]_524-matilda own house]_{7150-your own house} , [[Miss Clara]_293-clara dear]_{2276-miss clara dear} , and evil to [them]_7152-them as drove [you]_524-matilda out"—and_[2952-i] [she]_2952-i lifted the corner of [her]_2952-i new white muslin apron;—"and [I]_409-patty have tended [[your]_524-matilda rooms]_{7153-your rooms} all [myself]_409-patty , though it was n't in [my]_409-patty part , and never let [no one else]_{5442-no one else} touch them , ever since [I]_409-patty was took from [the kitchen]_{5526-the kitchen} , and always a jug full of flowers , [Miss]_7156-miss , because [you]_524-matilda was so fond of them . "_[409-patty] " Thank [you]_524-matilda , [Matilda]_524-matilda . How kind of [you]_524-matilda , to be sure ! "_[409-patty] " Many 's the time [I]_409-patty 've cried over them , [Miss]_7157-miss , and the new shilling [you]_524-matilda give [me]_409-patty , when [we]_7158-we was [little girls]_{7159-little girls} together . But please to call [me]_409-patty ' [Tilly]_409-patty , ' [Miss]_7160-miss , the same as [you]_524-matilda always used . "_[409-patty] " [I]_409-patty ca n't stop to talk to [you]_524-matilda now , [Tilly]_409-patty ; how is [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} ? "_[409-patty] " Quite hearty , [Miss]_7161-miss , all but the rheumatics . Ah , [she]_{516-mrs. fletcher} do suffer terrible from [them]_7162-them . [Us]_7158-we both waited up , [Miss]_5433-miss , and [I]_409-patty to and fro the door , till [the carriage]_{6087-the carriage} come [home]_1102-home ; and then [she]_{516-mrs. fletcher} went off to bed , and [I]_409-patty was up with [her]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , and never knowed when [you]_524-matilda come . But [she]_{516-mrs. fletcher} 's getting up now , [Miss]_5433-miss , to come here to see [you]_524-matilda . "_[409-patty] " Go and stop [her]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , at once . [I]_409-patty will see [her]_{516-mrs. fletcher} to - morrow . Stop , show [me]_409-patty first [[[your]_524-matilda master]_{7167-your master} 's room]_{7168-your master 's room} ; knock gently and bring out [the nurse]_{7169-the nurse} . [The doctor]_{5643-the doctor} is gone [I]_409-patty believe . "_[409-patty] " Yes , [Miss]_7171-miss , [he]_{5643-the doctor} left [here]_846-here at eight o'clock , for [he]_{5643-the doctor} had a long way to drive , and [he]_{5643-the doctor} could n't do nothing more . But [you]_7171-miss must not go , [Miss]_5433-miss , oh pray , [Miss]_5433-miss , do n't go [there]_1114-there ! "_[409-patty] [We]_2953-we went along [the passage]_{824-the passage} , until [we]_2953-we came to the door . [I]_0-i was surprised to see a new door across [the lobby]_{2955-the lobby} , very closely fitted . There was an inner door also , and [the nurse]_{7169-the nurse} did not seem very wakeful . Instead of knocking again , [Matilda]_524-matilda retreated hastily . At last [the nurse]_{7169-the nurse} appeared , and [I]_0-i found [her]_{7169-the nurse} to be [a very respectable woman]_{2958-a very respectable woman} , who had been with [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} , through several attacks of illness . A dark suspicion , which [I]_0-i had scarcely confessed to [myself]_0-i , was partly allayed hereby . After whispering for a few moments , [she]_{7169-the nurse} led [me]_0-i into [the dimly lighted room]_{2960-the dimly lighted room} , and to [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's bed . [I]_0-i started back in terror . Prepared as [I]_0-i was for a very great change , what [I]_0-i saw astounded [me]_0-i . The face so drawn and warped aside , withered and yet pulpy , with an undercast of blue ; the lines of the mouth so trenched and livid , that the screwed lips were like a bull's - eye in a blue diamond pane ; and the hair , so dark and curly when last [I]_0-i saw [him]_{1271-my uncle} , now shredded in patches of waxy gray . The only sign of life [I]_0-i saw , was a feeble twitching of the bed - clothes , every now and then . The poor eyes were closed , hard , and wrinkled round ; one wasted arm lay on the quilt , the hand bent up at the wrist , the fingers clutched yet flabby , and as cold as death . It was a sight for human pride to cower at , and be quelled . " Is [he]_{1271-my uncle} like this always ? "_{[7169-the nurse]} " No , "_{[7169-the nurse]} [she]_{7169-the nurse} replied , " but [he]_{1271-my uncle} has been so now for ten hours and more : generally [he]_{1271-my uncle} is taken with pain and thirst , every six hours ; and it makes [my]_{7169-the nurse} heart ache to hear [him]_{1271-my uncle} moan and cry . "_{[7169-the nurse]} " Does [he]_{1271-my uncle} say anything particular then ? "_[303-god] [God]_303-god knows [I]_0-i was not pursuing [my]_0-i own fell purpose in asking this . Thank [Him]_{1271-my uncle} , [I]_0-i was not such [a fiend as that]_{2962-a fiend as that} . All [I]_0-i wished was to relieve [him]_{1271-my uncle} whom [I]_0-i pitied so . " Yes , [he]_{1271-my uncle} opens [his]_{1271-my uncle} eyes and stares , and then [he]_{1271-my uncle} always says , and [he]_{1271-my uncle} tries to shake [his]_{1271-my uncle} head only [he]_{1271-my uncle} is n't strong enough , ' [My]_2963-my fault , ah [me]_2963-my , [my]_2963-my fault , and to rob [them]_7176-them too ! If [I]_2963-my could but see [her]_2963-my , if [I]_2963-my could but see [her]_2963-my , and die ! ' [He]_{1271-my uncle} always says that first , and then that exhausts [him]_{1271-my uncle} so , [he]_{1271-my uncle} can hardly say ' water ' after , and then [he]_{1271-my uncle} moans so melancholy , and then [he]_{1271-my uncle} goes off again . "_[2963-my] The tears stood in [her]_2963-my eyes , for [she]_2963-my had a tender heart . [I]_0-i burst into [my]_0-i usual violent flood , for [I]_0-i never have any half - crying . " Have [you]_2963-my any medicine to give [him]_{1271-my uncle} ? "_[0-i] " No , [Miss]_7177-miss , no more ; [he]_{1271-my uncle} has taken a shopful already , though [he]_{1271-my uncle} can only swallow at the time [he]_{1271-my uncle} wakes up . [The doctor]_{5643-the doctor} said to - night [he]_{1271-my uncle} could do no more ; this awful black fever must end in mortification ; no medicine moves it at all . "_[2963-my] " Did [the doctor]_{5643-the doctor} call it black fever ? "_[2963-my] " Yes , the very worst form of typhus of [the real Irish type]_{7180-the real irish type} , such as [they]_{5643-the doctor} have had once or twice in [Manchester]_{109-manchester} . It has settled most on the stomach , but all the blood is poisoned . "_[0-i] And [she]_2963-my sprinkled [herself]_2963-my , and the bed again , with disinfecting fluid , and threw some over [me]_0-i . " Excuse [me]_2963-my , [Miss]_5433-miss , [you]_5433-miss would n't allow [me]_2963-my , so [I]_2963-my am bound not to ask [you]_5433-miss . [You]_5433-miss know [you]_5433-miss came in dead against [my]_2963-my will , and dead against all orders"—this_[2963-my] was what the whispering had been about—"and if anything happens to [you]_5433-miss , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara , who is to have all the property , but that bad [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} ? "_[2963-my] Oh ! In a moment [I]_0-i saw the whole ; though it was too black for belief , blacker than any fever that festers the human heart . This was the purpose with which [that woman]_{1232-that woman} had sent for [me]_0-i . [She]_{1232-that woman} had lied to [me]_0-i as to the character of the disease . [She]_{1232-that woman} had opposed [me]_0-i , because [she]_{1232-that woman} knew it the surest way to urge [me]_0-i . [She]_{1232-that woman} had brought [me]_0-i too at night , when fevers are doubly infectious . " [You]_5433-miss see , [Miss]_7182-miss , [we]_7183-we are forced to keep the three windows open , and the passage doors all closed . It 's a wonder [I]_{1232-that woman} had any of the fluid left , for [they]_7184-they never sent it up this afternoon ; but [I]_{1232-that woman} had a drop put by , no thanks to [them]_7184-they for the same . [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} brought [the first nurse]_{7185-the first nurse} , but [she]_{7185-the first nurse} ran clean away when the fever took the turn ; and [they]_7184-they were forced to send for [me]_{1232-that woman} , for [nobody else]_{7186-nobody else} would come near [him]_{1232-that woman} . But [[my]_{1232-that woman} poor old man]_{7187-my poor old man} has no work , and [I]_{1232-that woman} 've minded as bad a case as this , and [they]_7184-they say [I]_{1232-that woman} be fever - proof . But [you]_5433-miss , [Miss]_5433-miss , [you]_5433-miss ; [I]_{1232-that woman} should never forgive [myself]_{1232-that woman} , if anything happened to [you]_5433-miss , and in [your]_5433-miss youth and bloom . Though [I]_{1232-that woman} could not stop [you]_5433-miss , [you]_5433-miss know [I]_{1232-that woman} did [my]_{1232-that woman} best . And [they]_7184-they say [you]_5433-miss catch things most when [you]_5433-miss come off a journey . "_{[1232-that woman]} " [Jane]_347-jane , whatever happens , [you]_5433-miss are not to blame . [I]_{1232-that woman} have no fear whatever ; and now [I]_{1232-that woman} am here , [I]_{1232-that woman} will stay . It is safer so , both for [myself]_{1232-that woman} and [others]_869-others . "_{[1232-that woman]} " Well , [Miss]_7190-miss , so [I]_2965-i have heard say . Once in for it , keep to the air . But come into [this little room]_{7191-this little room} , if [you]_5433-miss want to talk to [me]_2965-i , [Miss.]_2105-miss. [We]_7193-we can hear [the poor gentleman]_{7194-the poor gentleman} move , or even sigh ; and the air is a little fresher there . But [we]_7193-we must keep the window open . "_[2965-i] [She]_2965-i led [me]_0-i into [the dressing room]_{2966-the dressing room} ; but even there the same crawling creeping smell pervaded , as if a grave had been opened , when the ground was full of gas . Instead of talking to [the nurse]_{7169-the nurse} , [I]_0-i began to think . It broke upon [me]_0-i vaguely , that [I]_0-i had heard of some very simple remedy for a fever of this nature , and that [[my]_0-i dear mother]_{5530-my dear mother} , who in [her]_{5530-my dear mother} prosperous times was [the village doctoress]_{2969-the village doctoress} , had been acquainted with the case . But in the whirl of [my]_0-i brain , [I]_0-i could not bring to mind what it was . Oh what would [I]_0-i give , only to think of it now ! Though not , [I]_0-i am sorry to say , at all of a pious turn ( at least if [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} is so ) , in the strong feeling of the moment , [I]_0-i fell upon [my]_0-i knees , and prayed for help . So had [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} taught [me]_0-i , and [Mother Nature]_291-mother taught [me]_0-i now . [I]_0-i will not be so daring as to say that [my]_0-i prayer was answered . Perhaps it was only that it calmed [my]_0-i mind . " [Jane]_347-jane , have [they]_7195-they been brewing lately ? "_{[746-my mother]} Alas the bathos ! But [I]_0-i ca n't help it . " Yes , [Miss]_7196-miss ; last Thursday and Friday . [They]_7195-they wo n't let [me]_0-i go near the kitchen part : but [I]_0-i know it all the same . "_[0-i] " Go and get [me]_2971-me a nice jug of fresh yeast . [I]_2971-me will watch [[your]_347-jane master]_{7167-your master} . "_[2971-me] [She]_2971-me stared , and hesitated ; but saw that [I]_0-i was in earnest . " [I]_0-i do n't know where to find it , [Miss]_7198-miss ; and [none of [them]_7195-they]_{774-none of them} will come near [me]_0-i ; and [they]_7195-they 'll stop [me]_0-i too if [they]_7195-they can . Why [they]_7195-they wo n't bring [my]_0-i food to the door , but put it half - way down [the passage]_{824-the passage} . [They]_7195-they wanted to lock [me]_0-i in , only [I]_0-i would n't stand that ; and [they]_7195-they break all the plates and dishes , and to - day [they]_7195-they sent word that [my]_0-i dinner must come in at the window to - morrow . "_[0-i] " [Low cowards and zanies]_{7201-low cowards and zanies} ! Now find the yeast , [Jane]_347-jane , if [you]_347-jane have to search for an hour . [They]_7195-they must all be gone to bed now , except [Matilda Jenkins]_524-matilda ; and [she]_524-matilda dare not stop [you]_347-jane if [you]_347-jane say [you]_347-jane have [my]_347-jane orders . "_[347-jane] " Bless [you]_347-jane , [Miss]_7202-miss ; [she]_524-matilda 'll run away as if [I]_0-i was a ghost . "_[0-i] " Then call to [her]_524-matilda , that [I]_347-jane say [she]_524-matilda must go to bed directly . "_[347-jane] After a few more words , [Jane]_347-jane went [her]_347-jane way stealthily , like [a thorough - bred thief]_{2972-a thorough - bred thief} ; and [I]_0-i was left alone with [[my]_0-i poor dying uncle]_{2973-my poor dying uncle} . Wonderful as it seemed to [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i felt now a tender affection for [him]_{2973-my poor dying uncle} , [I]_0-i the resolute , [the consistent]_{2974-the consistent} , [the bitter Clara Vaughan]_293-clara . Even if [he]_{2973-my poor dying uncle} had told [me]_0-i that moment , that [he]_{2973-my poor dying uncle} had plotted [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's death , [I]_0-i would have perilled [my]_0-i life for [his]_{2973-my poor dying uncle} ; because [I]_0-i should have known that [he]_{2973-my poor dying uncle} was sorry . Yet [I]_0-i was full of cold fear , lest [he]_{2973-my poor dying uncle} should awake to consciousness , and utter that awful cry , while [I]_0-i alone was with [him]_{2973-my poor dying uncle} , in the dead hour of night . Sooner than [I]_0-i expected , [the nurse]_{7169-the nurse} came back with a jug of beautiful yeast , smelling as fresh as daybreak . [We]_2977-we put it outside the window on the stone sill , to keep it cool and airy . [She]_{7169-the nurse} had seen [no one]_{730-no one} except [Matilda]_524-matilda , who was waiting for [me]_0-i , and crying dreadfully , predicting [my]_0-i certain death , and [her]_524-matilda own too ; if [she]_524-matilda should have to attend [me]_0-i . [She]_{7169-the nurse} kept at a most respectful distance from [Jane]_347-jane ; and , with all [her]_{7169-the nurse} affection , was glad to be clear of [me]_0-i for the night . For nearly two hours , [the nurse]_{7169-the nurse} and [I]_0-i sat watching , with hardly a spoken word , except that [I]_0-i asked one question . " How often has [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} been to see [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} ? "_[0-i] " [She]_{312-mrs. daldy} would hardly leave [his]_{1271-my uncle} bedside , until the fever declared itself . Since then [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} has not been once . "_[527-broad] [Broad]_527-broad awake at that strange hour , and in that strange way , [I]_0-i began to pass through the stereoscope of [my]_0-i brain the many strange slides of [my]_0-i life . Of all of these , the last for the moment seemed the strangest . Suddenly [we]_2980-we heard a low feeble moan . Running into [the bedroom]_{2981-the bedroom} , there [we]_2980-we saw [the poor sick one]_{2982-the poor sick one} with [his]_{2982-the poor sick one} eyes wide open , vainly attempting to rise . [I]_0-i put [my]_0-i arms around [him]_{2982-the poor sick one} , and raised [him]_{2982-the poor sick one} on the pillow . [He]_{2982-the poor sick one} tried to say ' thank [you]_0-i , ' for [he]_{2982-the poor sick one} was always a gentleman in [his]_{2982-the poor sick one} manners ; then [he]_{2982-the poor sick one} gazed at [me]_0-i with hazily wondering eyes . Then [he]_{2982-the poor sick one} opened [his]_{2982-the poor sick one} mouth in a spasmodic way , and began that bitter cry . Ere [he]_{2982-the poor sick one} closed [his]_{2982-the poor sick one} mouth again , [I]_0-i poured well into [his]_{2982-the poor sick one} throat a table - spoonful of yeast , handed to [me]_0-i by [Jane]_347-jane . To [my]_0-i great pleasure , it glided beyond the black tongue ; and [I]_0-i gave [him]_{2982-the poor sick one} two more spoonfuls , while [he]_{2982-the poor sick one} was staring at [me]_0-i with a weak and rigid amazement . " No water , [Jane]_347-jane , not a drop of water ! It will work far better alone . [He]_{2982-the poor sick one} does n't know what it is , and [he]_{2982-the poor sick one} thinks [he]_{2982-the poor sick one} has had [his]_{2982-the poor sick one} water . Keep [him]_{2982-the poor sick one} thirsty that [he]_{2982-the poor sick one} may take more . "_{[2982-the poor sick one]} As [he]_{2982-the poor sick one} lay thus in [my]_0-i arms , [I]_0-i felt that one side was icily cold , and the other fiery hot . [His]_{2982-the poor sick one} face looked most ghastly and livid , but there was not that mystical gray upon it , like the earth - shine on the moon , which shows when the face of [man]_5770-man is death 's mirror , and the knee of death on [man]_5770-man 's heart . In a minute [he]_{2982-the poor sick one} slid from [my]_0-i grasp , down on the pillow again , and , with a long - drawn sigh , became once more stiff and insensible . [My]_0-i hope was faint indeed , but still it was hope : if [he]_{2982-the poor sick one} had hope 's vitality , [he]_{2982-the poor sick one} might yet be saved . The rest of that night was passed by [the nurse]_{7169-the nurse} and [myself]_0-i in heavy yet broken sleep . [Jane]_347-jane assured [me]_0-i that there was no chance of [[my]_0-i poor uncle]_{2919-my poor uncle} becoming conscious again , for at least six hours . [I]_0-i was loth to forego [my]_0-i watch , and argued that the dose [we]_2987-we had given might cut short this interval ; but lo — while [I]_0-i kept repeating at weary and weary periods , that [I]_0-i could do no harm , since [the physician]_{2988-the physician} gave up , and [I]_0-i might do good — sleep , [the lover of repetition]_{2989-the lover of repetition} , laid [his]_{2989-the lover of repetition} hand alike on [my]_0-i formula and [myself]_0-i . Dear [Judy]_477-judy 's howl was in [my]_0-i dream , and [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's never ceasing prattle . Cold and fresh was the morning air , and the open window invited the sounds of country life . Who could think of fever with the bright dew sparkling on [the lawn]_{2990-the lawn} , the lilac buds growing fat enough to claim their right of shadow , the pleasant ring of the sharpening scythe , and the swishing sweep of the swathe ? From [the stable - yard]_{2991-the stable - yard} , round the corner , came the soothing hiss of [the grooms]_{2992-the grooms} , the short stamp of the lively steed ( [I]_0-i fancied [I]_0-i knew [my]_0-i own favourite " [Lilla]_528-lilla "_[0-i] ) , and the gruff " Stand still , [mare]_7204-mare , wull'e ? "_{[2994-the cowboy]} Far down [the avenue]_{2993-the avenue} whistled [the cowboy]_{2994-the cowboy} , waddle - footed , on [his]_{2994-the cowboy} way to [the clover leys]_{2995-the clover leys} , or [the milkmaid]_{2996-the milkmaid} sung with the pail on [her]_{2996-the milkmaid} hip , and the deer came trooping and stooping [their]_2997-their horns along . Was it not [one of [[my]_0-i own pet robins]_{2999-my own pet robins} , who hopped on the window - sill , peered bravely at [himself]_{2998-one of my own pet robins , who hopped on the window - sill , peered bravely at himself in the jug , and tried to remember the last of his winter notes} in the jug , and tried to remember the last of [his]_{2998-one of my own pet robins , who hopped on the window - sill , peered bravely at himself in the jug , and tried to remember the last of his winter notes} winter notes]_{2998-one of my own pet robins , who hopped on the window - sill , peered bravely at himself in the jug , and tried to remember the last of his winter notes} ? But it is cold , [Jane]_347-jane , very cold indeed ; and [we]_3000-we have never been to bed ; and now [the mowers]_{3001-the mowers} have descried [us]_3000-we , why do [they]_{3001-the mowers} stop [their]_{3001-the mowers} work , and shake [their]_{3001-the mowers} heads together so , and keep outside the ranunculus bed , and agree that the grass beneath [our]_3000-we windows does not require cutting ? Why , if [they]_{3001-the mowers} were [Papists]_3002-papists , [they]_{3001-the mowers} would cross [themselves]_{3001-the mowers} , and that saves many an oath . But the grass does want cutting , [Jane]_347-jane . It can not have been cut for a week . [I]_0-i will call to [them]_{3001-the mowers} . No , it might disturb [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} . There is no sound from the bed - room yet : all deep and deadly silence . [I]_0-i will go and see . There [[my]_0-i patient]_{3004-my patient} lies , just as when [I]_0-i saw [him]_{3004-my patient} first , except that [I]_0-i have arranged the wreck of [his]_{3004-my patient} hoary locks , and applied a lotion to [his]_{3004-my patient} temple on the burning side . And yet , now [I]_0-i look closer , the face is not quite so livid ; or is it the difference between the candle - light and the morning ray ? Even while [I]_0-i looked , [he]_{3004-my patient} started up , as if [my]_0-i eyes revived [him]_{3004-my patient} . [He]_{3004-my patient} did not moan or cry ; but opened wide [his]_{3004-my patient} filmy eyes , and gazed feebly and placidly at [me]_0-i . For a time [he]_{3004-my patient} did not know [me]_0-i : then a great change gradually crept through [his]_{3004-my patient} long faltering gaze . Fearing the effects of excitement upon [him]_{3004-my patient} , [I]_0-i tried to divert [his]_{3004-my patient} attention by another good dose of yeast . Three times [he]_{3004-my patient} took it with resignation like [a well - trained child]_{3005-a well - trained child} , but [his]_{3004-my patient} eyes all the time intent on [me]_0-i . Presently [they]_3006-they began to swim and swerve ; the effort of the faint blood - tissued brain and the exertion of swallowing had been too much for [his]_{3004-my patient} shattered powers . [He]_{3004-my patient} fell off again into the comatose state , but with a palpable difference . The pulse , which had throbbed on the hot side only , could now be felt most feebly moving in the other wrist , and the tension of the muscles was relaxed : circulation was being restored and balanced , and the breathing could now be traced , short as it was and irregular . [I]_0-i have not time to describe all the symptoms of gradual improvement , and [I]_0-i have not the medical knowledge needful to do so clearly . Enough that the six - hour interval was shortened that day by half , that the breathing became more regular , and a soft perspiration broke through the clogged and clammy pores . [Jane]_347-jane wanted to second this by an additional blanket , but [I]_0-i feared to allow it in a case of so utter prostration . When the perspiration was over , then [I]_0-i prescribed the blanket for fear of a chill reaction . At every return of consciousness , [[our]_3007-our patient]_{3008-our patient} made an effort to speak , but [I]_0-i hushed [him]_{3004-my patient} with [my]_0-i hand on [his]_{3004-my patient} lips , and [he]_{3004-my patient} even managed to smile , when [he]_{3004-my patient} found that [I]_0-i would be obeyed . In the evening [he]_{3004-my patient} tried to open [his]_{3004-my patient} arms to [me]_0-i , and then tried to push [me]_0-i away , in some faint recollection of the nature of [his]_{3004-my patient} disorder . To [me]_0-i the interest was so intense , and the delight so deep , that if [I]_0-i had lost [him]_{3004-my patient} now , it would surely have broken [my]_0-i heart . At sunset of that day , as [nurse]_3009-nurse and [I]_0-i sat near [the dressing - room]_{3010-the dressing - room} window , watching the slant rays flickering on the sward , and the rooks alighting and swinging over [their]_3011-their noisy nests , a black cloud hung for a moment just above the sun , a black cloud with a vivid edge of gold . It tempered the light in a peculiar manner , and seemed to throw it downwards . Peering through [my]_0-i fingers at it , for it was very beautiful , [I]_0-i saw a whitish mist or vapour steaming and hovering above the disk of the setting sun , between [my]_0-i eyes and that golden marge . [I]_0-i wondered what this could be ; there was no heat to cause strong evaporation , nor any mist or dewy haze about , nor was the sun " drawing water . "_[0-i] But what [I]_0-i saw was like that trembling twinkle of the air , which [we]_3012-we often observe on [a meadow footpath]_{3013-a meadow footpath} in the hot forenoon of July . [I]_0-i drew [Jane]_347-jane 's attention to it , not expecting any solution , but just for something to say . " Dear [me]_0-i , [Miss]_7205-miss , do n't [you]_347-jane know what that is ? [I]_0-i see it every evening ; it will be twice as plain when the sun goes down , and then it will be quite white . "_[0-i] " Well , what is it ? Why ca n't [you]_347-jane tell [me]_0-i ? Is everything here a secret ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i was rather irritable , but vexed with [myself]_0-i for being so . Too much excitement and too little sleep were the causes . " No , [Miss]_7206-miss , there 's no secret at all about that . [Every one]_{1982-every one} knows what that is . It 's only the scum that rises through the grass from the arched pool that takes all the drains of [the house]_{764-the house} . Some of the arch fell in [they]_7209-they say , and the ground shakes when [they]_7209-they mow it ; [they]_7209-they are afraid to roll there . "_[0-i] " Is it possible ? And [you]_347-jane knew it , [a practised nurse like [you]_347-jane]_{7210-a practised nurse like you} ! Did [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} know it ? "_[0-i] " [I]_0-i am sure , [Miss]_7212-miss , [I]_0-i ca n't tell : most likely not , or [he]_{1271-my uncle} would have had it mended , [he]_{1271-my uncle} hates things out of repair . But it ca n't do any harm , with the mould and the grass above it . "_[0-i] " Ca n't it indeed ? And [you]_7212-miss can see it rise . Shut all the bedroom windows in a moment , [Jane]_347-jane . [I]_3014-she 'll shut this . "_[3014-she] [She]_3014-she thought [my]_0-i wits were wandering , from what [I]_0-i had gone through ; nevertheless [she]_3014-she obeyed [me]_0-i . It happened that [I]_0-i had attended , at [Isola]_428-isola 's urgent request , one lecture of the many delivered by [Dr. Ross]_{470-dr. ross} . [She]_428-isola forgot what the subject was to be . It proved to be an unsavoury and " unlady - like "_[428-isola] one — [Mephitis]_529-mephitis . [Isola]_428-isola wanted to run away , but [I]_0-i have none of that nonsense about [me]_0-i , when human life is concerned , and listened with great attention , and even admiration ; for [he]_{470-dr. ross} handled the matter eloquently and well . " Now , [Jane]_347-jane , throw all the doors open , and the lobby window that looks in the other direction . When do [you]_7212-miss think it will be possible to move [[our]_7213-we poor patient]_{7214-our poor patient} from [these rooms]_{7215-these rooms} ? The air here is deadly poison . "_{[470-dr. ross]} " Well [I]_{7169-the nurse} 'm sure , [Miss]_7216-miss ! And [he]_{7214-our poor patient} could n't have a nicer nor [a more airy room]_{7217-a more airy room} ; and all [my]_{7169-the nurse} things in order too , and so handy , and so many cupboards ! "_{[7169-the nurse]} " Out of this poison [he]_{7214-our poor patient} must go . When can [he]_{7214-our poor patient} be moved ? "_{[7169-the nurse]} " Well , [Miss]_7218-miss , [he]_{7214-our poor patient} might be moved to - morrow , if [we]_7213-we could only get plenty of hands , and do it cleverly . "_{[470-dr. ross]} " Surely [we]_7213-we can have plenty of hands . There used to be [twenty - five servants]_{7219-twenty - five servants} [here]_846-here ; and [I]_{7169-the nurse} have not heard that [[my]_{7169-the nurse} uncle]_{1271-my uncle} has lessened the number . "_{[7169-the nurse]} " No , [Miss]_7222-miss ; but save and keep [us]_7213-we , [we]_7213-we sha n't get one of [them]_{7219-twenty - five servants} [here]_846-here . "_{[7169-the nurse]} " Nonsense ! [I]_{7169-the nurse} will have [them]_{7219-twenty - five servants} , or [they]_{7219-twenty - five servants} leave [the house]_{764-the house} . Of course [I]_{7169-the nurse} wo n't peril [their]_{7219-twenty - five servants} lives . [We]_7213-we shall only want two or three ; and [they]_{7219-twenty - five servants} may take a bath of disinfecting stuff , with all [their]_{7219-twenty - five servants} clothes on , before [they]_{7219-twenty - five servants} come ; and [they]_{7219-twenty - five servants} may smoke all the while . "_{[7169-the nurse]} [The nurse]_{7169-the nurse} laughed grimly , and shook [her]_{7169-the nurse} gray head . " And [we]_7213-we will fumigate , [Jane]_347-jane , fumigate tremendously . Surely [Englishmen]_{7225-englishmen} have more self - respect than to be [such babies]_{7226-such babies} , and [you]_347-jane [a woman]_{5830-a woman} , and [I]_{7169-the nurse} [a girl]_{2251-a girl} , shaming [them]_{7219-twenty - five servants} out of face . "_{[7169-the nurse]} " It does n't matter , [Miss]_7229-miss ; [they]_{7219-twenty - five servants} wo n't come . [I]_{7169-the nurse} know [them]_{7219-twenty - five servants} well , the lot [I]_{7169-the nurse} mean that are in [the house]_{764-the house} now . "_{[7169-the nurse]} " Very well , [Jane]_347-jane , [we]_7213-we 'll have [Gamekeeper Hiatt]_{530-gamekeeper hiatt} , and [[his]_7231-his eldest son]_{7232-his eldest son} ; [they]_{7219-twenty - five servants} are [men]_1003-men [I]_{7169-the nurse} know . And if that is not enough , [we]_7213-we 'll send to [Gloucester]_{23-gloucester} for [Thomas Henwood]_{321-thomas henwood} . But why do n't [you]_347-jane open the lobby door , as [I]_{7169-the nurse} told [you]_347-jane ? "_{[7169-the nurse]} " If [you]_347-jane please , [Miss]_7234-miss , [I]_{7169-the nurse} ca n't . [They]_{7219-twenty - five servants} have fastened it outside . "_{[7169-the nurse]} " Do [you]_347-jane mean to say that [they]_{7219-twenty - five servants} have dared to lock [us]_7213-we in ? "_{[7169-the nurse]} " Indeed [I]_{7169-the nurse} do , [Miss]_7235-miss ; [we]_7213-we have been fastened in since the morning . "_{[7169-the nurse]} " And pray , why did [you]_347-jane not tell [me]_{7169-the nurse} ? ' "_{[7169-the nurse]} Because [I]_0-i feared to excite [you]_3016-you , [Miss.]_448-miss. [I]_0-i know [your]_3016-you temper when [you]_3016-you are wronged , ever since [you]_3016-you was that high ; and in this fever air , excitement is sure to kill [you]_3016-you . [Brutes]_3017-brutes ! But [I]_0-i suppose [they]_3017-brutes do n't know it . " "_{[3017-brutes]} [They]_3017-brutes know it well ; at least [the master - spirit]_{3018-the master - spirit} does . And for that very reason [I]_0-i will crush [my]_0-i indignation . Since [I]_0-i was that high , [Jane]_347-jane , [I]_0-i have passed through much tribulation , and have dropped [my]_0-i lady - heiress tone . [I]_0-i can now command [myself]_0-i . " "_[0-i] Then , [Miss]_3019-miss , [I]_0-i will show [you]_3019-miss what [they]_3017-brutes sent this morning , round the handle of the coffee - jug . [I]_0-i was afraid to let [you]_3019-miss see it before . " [She]_{516-mrs. fletcher} gave [me]_0-i a twist of paper , on which was written as follows : — "_[0-i] For the safety of [the household]_{870-the household} , [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} orders that [the persons in [the fever - room]_{3022-the fever - room}]_{3021-the persons in the fever - room} be allowed no communication with [the other servants]_{3023-the other servants} . The intercepting door is fastened , because a most sinful un - Christian act was perpetrated last night . Due supplies will be delivered once a - day , at 10 A.M. No empty vessels and no correspondence received . Any attempt to break these rules will be punished by suspension of supplies . [Servants]_{6349-servants} are forbidden to come beneath [the sick - room]_{3025-the sick - room} windows . May [the Lord]_{5815-the lord} have [you]_3019-miss in [His]_{5815-the lord} keeping , in [His]_{5815-the lord} tender mercy , according to [His]_{5815-the lord} holy will . [You]_3019-miss are requested to read Philippians i. 8 - 11 inclusive . There are three holy bibles on the drawers and dressing - tables . " When [I]_303-god had read this , and perceived , by the blasphemy at the end , that it could proceed from no other than [that awful woman]_{7236-that awful woman} , [I]_303-god confess that [my]_303-god spirit was cowed within [me]_303-god . Not from selfish fear , nor yet from the taming of passion , but from the lowering thought that [I]_303-god belonged to the same race of being as [the author of such Satanity]_{7237-the author of such satanity} . Presently , [I]_303-god became too indignant to speak , or even think . It added , if that were possible , to [my]_303-god indignation , that [I]_303-god had seen [her]_{7236-that awful woman} leave [the house]_{764-the house} , about nine o'clock that morning , in [[our]_7239-our best close carriage]_{7240-our best close carriage} . [She]_{7236-that awful woman} kept the windows up until [she]_{7236-that awful woman} was past [the lawn]_{2990-the lawn} and the light iron gates , beyond the arcade of roses ; then , at the first turn in [the avenue]_{2993-the avenue} , [she]_{7236-that awful woman} let down the glass and gracefully kissed [her]_{7236-that awful woman} hand to [me]_303-god . [I]_303-god did not believe , however , that [she]_{7236-that awful woman} was gone back to [Cheltenham]_{108-cheltenham} . With so much at stake in [[our]_7239-our house]_{1160-our house} , and depending on [her]_{7236-that awful woman} direction , [she]_{7236-that awful woman} would surely stop in [the neighbourhood]_{5329-the neighbourhood} , if only to watch the course of events . Sooner than [I]_303-god dared to expect , [I]_303-god regained the command of [myself]_303-god ; horror within [me]_303-god was stronger than wrath , and stronger than either became the resolve to survive and win . "_[303-god] There can be no [God]_303-god , " [I]_303-god exclaimed , in [my]_303-god presumptuous ignorance , "_[303-god] if this scheme of the devil is permitted to triumph . " First [I]_303-god tried the door , which severed [us]_7239-our from [the rest of [the house]_{764-the house}]_{7245-the rest of the house} . [[[My]_303-god uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's rooms]_{7248-my uncle 's rooms} were in [the western wing]_{2940-the western wing} , very near those which [[my]_303-god dear mother]_{5530-my dear mother} had occupied , and not very far from [my]_303-god own . They formed one floor of the western gable ; the three bedroom windows and that of [the dressing - room]_{3010-the dressing - room} looked to the west , while the great lobby window , from which [I]_303-god had seen [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} 's departure , looked southward along [the avenue]_{2993-the avenue} , the curve of which could be seen also from the bedroom windows . An oaken door , at the end of the main passage , cut off [the rooms in this storey of the gable from all the rest of [the house]_{764-the house}]_{7253-the rooms in this storey of the gable from all the rest of the house} . This door [Jane]_347-jane had left locked from the inside , fearing lest [others]_869-others should lock [her]_347-jane in , as [they]_869-others had threatened to do . But now [we]_7239-our found that a strong iron bolt had been fixed upon the outside , while [we]_7239-our were asleep in the morning , and that [we]_7239-our had no chance of forcing it . Next [I]_303-god asked [Jane]_347-jane , whether [she]_347-jane thought that [the house]_{764-the house} , now [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} was gone , would be still in the hands of [[our]_7239-our enemies]_{7257-our enemies} . Would not [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} at once re - assert [her]_{516-mrs. fletcher} authority ? Might not [Matilda Jenkins]_524-matilda be expected to fly to the rescue ? [The nurse]_{7169-the nurse} , knowing all the politics of [[the servants]_{772-the servants} ' hall]_{7260-the servants ' hall} , assured [me]_303-god that there was no hope of either of these events . [Robert]_327-robert , [a drunken Wesleyan]_{7261-a drunken wesleyan} , turned out of the sect in [Cheltenham]_{108-cheltenham} , was [[Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} 's lieutenant]_{7262-mrs. daldy 's lieutenant} , and would take all care of [Matilda]_524-matilda , to whose good graces [he]_327-robert had been making overture . As for [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , [she]_{516-mrs. fletcher} was probably in the same plight as [ourselves]_7239-our . From what [I]_303-god heard about [Robert]_327-robert , [I]_303-god began to believe that [he]_327-robert had private orders to disown [me]_303-god at [the station]_{2317-the station} , for the double purpose of yielding a tit - bit of insolence , and warning of [my]_303-god arrival . However , that mattered very little ; but out of [those rooms]_{7264-those rooms} [I]_303-god must get , either by door or by window ; and that , too , without delay . Do [they]_7265-they expect to triumph so easily over [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara ? And in [[[her]_293-clara father]_{898-her father} 's house]_{7267-her father 's house} ? The windows were about twenty feet from the ground , as nearly as [I]_303-god could guess , and [the rooms beneath]_{7268-the rooms beneath} were empty . At once [I]_303-god resolved to attempt an escape that way , and to do so before the moon , which was southing now , should shine on the western aspect . [Good Jane]_531-jane was terrified at the thought ; and then , upon [my]_303-god persisting , implored [me]_303-god to let [her]_531-jane make the attempt , if it must be made at all . "_[303-god] Now , [Jane]_531-jane , no more , if [you]_531-jane please . [We]_3027-we ca n't waste time about that . [You]_531-jane have [a husband partly dependent upon [you]_531-jane]_{3028-a husband partly dependent upon you} , and [several children]_{3029-several children} to think of . For [me]_0-i [nobody]_1116-nobody cares . " But [I]_1116-nobody hoped [somebody]_{7269-somebody} did . "_{[1116-nobody]} And [you]_531-jane know [I]_0-i am far more active and much lighter than [you]_531-jane are . Help [me]_0-i out with the feather bed . " The little bed in [the dressing - room]_{3010-the dressing - room} , which [she]_531-jane had to sleep on , was speedily brought to the window , and dropped just underneath it . It fell upon the grass with a pleasing and quiet flop . Then the two strong bell - ropes , already cut down and plaited together , were tied round the bars of the double window sashes , the lower sash being thrown up to the full extent , the glass pressed quietly out with a pair of wet towels , and the splinters removed , so as not to cut the rope . The latter still failed to reach more than half - way to the ground , but [I]_1116-nobody would venture the drop if [I]_1116-nobody could only descend so far . After winding a linen sheet around [my]_1116-nobody body and dress , with the end tied round one ankle , so as to leave [me]_1116-nobody free use of [my]_1116-nobody limbs , [I]_1116-nobody sat upon the window - sill in the broad shadow , and calculated [my]_1116-nobody chances . Should [I]_1116-nobody begin the descent with face , or with back , to the wall ? Face to the wall [I]_1116-nobody resolved on , for though [I]_1116-nobody should have to drop backward so , yet what [I]_1116-nobody feared most of all was having the back of [my]_1116-nobody head crushed against [the house]_{764-the house} . Next to this [I]_1116-nobody dreaded a sprain of the ankle , but [all [our]_7273-our family]_{7272-all our family} are well - knit and straight in the joint . So [I]_1116-nobody launched [myself]_1116-nobody off , beginning as gently as could be , [Jane]_531-jane having firm hold of one hand , until [I]_1116-nobody was well on the voyage . Though not well versed in calisthenic arts , [I]_1116-nobody got on famously almost as far as the end of the rope , keeping away from the wall by the over - saling of the window - sill , and the rapid use of [my]_1116-nobody feet . Then [I]_1116-nobody rested a moment on a projecting ledge — called , [I]_1116-nobody believe , a "_{[1116-nobody]} stringing - course"—and away hand below hand again . But [I]_1116-nobody struck [my]_1116-nobody knuckles terribly against that stringing - course , and very nearly lost hold from the pain of the blow ; then bending [my]_1116-nobody body forward [I]_1116-nobody gave one good push at the wall , and shutting both eyes , [I]_1116-nobody believe , let go the rope altogether . Backward [I]_1116-nobody fell , and rolled over upon the feather bed . [I]_1116-nobody was not even stunned , but feared for a moment to try if [my]_1116-nobody limbs were sound . There [I]_1116-nobody sat and stripped off the winding sheet . Presently , up [I]_1116-nobody got , and , in [my]_1116-nobody triumph , alas ! could not help crying "_{[1116-nobody]} All right , [Hurrah]_532-hurrah ! " like [a foolish little child]_{7274-a foolish little child} . In a moment [I]_1116-nobody saw that [my]_1116-nobody cry had been heard , where it should not have been . A rapid flitting of lights along the lower windows and in [the stableyard]_{7275-the stableyard} , and [I]_1116-nobody knew that chase would be given . But after leaving [[[my]_1116-nobody father]_{731-my father} 's house]_{7277-my father 's house} in such a dignified manner , was it likely that [I]_1116-nobody would give in and be caught ? Now , [Clara]_293-clara , [you]_293-clara could beat all [[your]_293-clara nurses]_{7278-your nurses} in running , off and away like the wind ! Away [I]_1116-nobody went full speed towards the shade of [the avenue]_{2993-the avenue} , while [Jane]_531-jane had the wit to scream out of the window , "_{[1116-nobody]} Help ! Help ! Here 's [the house]_{764-the house} on fire ! " This made some little diversion ; [I]_521-tulip had a capital start , and it was but half a mile to [the lodge where [old Whitehead]_{316-old whitehead} lived]_{7280-the lodge where old whitehead lived} . Once there , [I]_521-tulip should care for [nobody]_1116-nobody . [I]_521-tulip must have escaped very easily , for [my]_521-tulip feet seemed as swift as a deer 's ; but , as [my]_521-tulip luck would have it , the light iron gates between [the lawn]_{2990-the lawn} and [the park]_{892-the park} were fastened . What on earth should [I]_521-tulip do ? [I]_521-tulip saw [men]_1003-men running across [the lawn]_{2990-the lawn} , and , what was worse , [they]_1003-men saw [me]_521-tulip . In vain [I]_521-tulip pulled at the gates ; [they]_1003-men rattled , but would not yield . Had [I]_521-tulip owned true presence of mind , [I]_521-tulip should have walked boldly up to [the men]_{5486-the men} , and dared [them]_1003-men to touch [me]_521-tulip fresh from [the fever - room]_{3022-the fever - room} . In the flurry of the moment [I]_521-tulip never thought of that , but darted into the shrubbery , and crouched among thick laurels . Presently [I]_521-tulip heard [them]_{5486-the men} rush down [the main drive]_{7288-the main drive} and begin the search , with some heavy swearing . [Two of [them]_{5486-the men}]_{7289-two of them} came to the very clump [I]_521-tulip was hiding in , and pushed a pitchfork almost into [my]_521-tulip side , but [the stupid fellows]_{7290-the stupid fellows} had lanterns , which blinded [them]_{7290-the stupid fellows} to the moonlight . On [they]_{7290-the stupid fellows} went with grumblings and growlings , which told [me]_521-tulip exactly where to shun [them]_{7290-the stupid fellows} . Judging at length , from the silence , that the search had passed to the right , [I]_521-tulip slipped from [my]_521-tulip tangled lair , and glided away to the left , beyond the shrubbery spring , where a little gate , as [I]_521-tulip knew , led to a glade in [the park]_{892-the park} . The deep ha - ha which [I]_521-tulip had feared to jump in the dark , because of the loose stones at the bottom , was here succeeded by a high oak paling , and probably through that gate had come [the murderer of [[my]_521-tulip father]_{731-my father}]_{921-the murderer of my father} . With a cold shudder at the remembrance , [I]_521-tulip stole along through [the shadowy places]_{7294-the shadowy places} , and had almost reached the little gate , when [I]_521-tulip saw [two of [the searchers]_{7296-the searchers}]_{7295-two of the searchers} coming straight towards [me]_521-tulip . To the right of [me]_521-tulip was [the park - paling]_{7297-the park - paling} , on the left a breastwork of sod , which [I]_521-tulip could not climb without being clearly seen ; to fly was to meet [the enemy]_{1677-the enemy} ; should [I]_521-tulip yield , and be baffled after all ; insulted too , most likely , for [I]_521-tulip knew that [the men]_{5486-the men} were tipsy ? In [my]_521-tulip hand was the tightly - wound sheet , used as a rope to confine [my]_521-tulip dress . [I]_521-tulip had folded it short and carried it , on the chance of its proving useful . In a moment [I]_521-tulip was under the palings in deep shadow , with the white sheet thrown around [me]_521-tulip , falling from [my]_521-tulip forehead , and draped artistically over the right arm . [Stock]_533-stock still [I]_521-tulip stood against the black boards , and two great coils of long black hair flowed down the winding sheet . [The men]_{5486-the men} came up , tired of the chase , and grumbling ; and by [their]_{5486-the men} voices [I]_521-tulip knew [them]_{5486-the men} for [[my]_521-tulip good friends]_{2115-my good friends} [Jacob]_519-jacob and [Bob]_522-bob . Suddenly , [they]_{5486-the men} espied a tall , white figure , of tremendous aspect . [They]_{5486-the men} stopped short , both tongue and foot , and [I]_521-tulip distinctly heard [their]_{5486-the men} teeth chatter . With a slow and spectral motion , [I]_521-tulip raised [my]_521-tulip draped white arm , and fetched a low , sepulchral moan . Down fell the lantern , and , with a loud yell , away went [the men]_{5486-the men} , as hard as [their]_{5486-the men} legs could carry [them]_{5486-the men} . Laughing heartily , [I]_521-tulip refolded [my]_521-tulip sheet , and taking the short cut across [the park]_{892-the park} to [the lodge where [old Whitehead]_{316-old whitehead} lived]_{7280-the lodge where old whitehead lived} , arrived , without having met even [[my]_521-tulip old friend]_{7305-my old friend} "_[521-tulip] [Tulip]_521-tulip . " [The old man]_{7306-the old man} , in hot indignation , drew forth [his]_{7306-the old man} battered musket — for [he]_{7306-the old man} had once been in [the militia]_{7307-the militia} — and swore that [he]_{7306-the old man} would march upon [the — — rogues]_{7308-the — — rogues} at once . Instead of that [I]_521-tulip sent [him]_{7306-the old man} for [the two Hiatts]_{7309-the two hiatts} , and [the village constable]_{7310-the village constable} ; and soon , without invitation , half [the village]_{981-the village} attended . With [my]_521-tulip torn dress tucked up by [good Mrs. Whitehead]_{316-old whitehead} , and a hat on [my]_521-tulip head , newly bought for [[her]_{316-old whitehead} clean little grandchild]_{7312-her clean little grandchild} , [I]_521-tulip set forth again in the moonlight , at the head of [a faithful army]_{7313-a faithful army} , to recover [[my]_521-tulip native home]_{7314-my native home} . [Hiatt]_347-jane easily opened the gate , which had defied [my]_521-tulip flurried efforts , and [we]_7315-we presented [ourselves]_7315-we at the main entrance , a force that would frighten [a castle]_{7316-a castle} . It is needless to say that [we]_7315-we carried all before [us]_7315-we . The state of siege was rescinded , [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} and [Tilly]_409-patty set free , all [the ringleaders]_{7317-the ringleaders} turned away neck and crop , and what was far more important , [[my]_521-tulip poor uncle]_{2919-my poor uncle} removed , without being conscious of it , to [a sweet and wholesome room]_{7319-a sweet and wholesome room} . The sturdy Gloucestershire yeomen scorned all idea of danger . Tired with all [my]_521-tulip adventures , before [I]_521-tulip slept that night — still near [[my]_521-tulip uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's bed — two reflections came dreamily over [my]_521-tulip mind . The first was a piece of vanity . "_[521-tulip] Ah , [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} , [you]_{312-mrs. daldy} little know [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara ! " The second was , "_{[312-mrs. daldy]} Dear [me]_0-i , how [Conrad]_427-conrad would be astonished at this ! And how strange that [[his]_427-conrad father]_{1062-his father} should thus have saved [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's life ! For [he]_427-conrad must have died , if left in [that noisome room]_{3034-that noisome room} . " Before that week was over , [[my]_427-conrad uncle]_{1271-my uncle} could sit up in bed for a short time every day , being duly propped in a downy nest of pillows . One arm , however , remained quite impotent , and part of one side rigid and numb . [His]_{1271-my uncle} recovery was slow and tedious , as might well be expected with [one who had been dragged not from the jaws but the very throat of death]_{7322-one who had been dragged not from the jaws but the very throat of death} . For a long time also [his]_{1271-my uncle} mind was feeble and dim , a mirror overcast by the vapours of the body . To [me]_427-conrad , who am fond of observing , in [my]_427-conrad own little childish way , it was interesting as well as delightful to note how , day by day , the mind and body , hand in hand , rose stronger . More than all was [I]_427-conrad taught , and humbled in [my]_427-conrad own conceit , by taking heed how tardily came back the power to guide and control the imagination . That object - glass of the mind — not achromatic even in first - rate intellects — had long been out of the focal distance from the lens of reason 's eye . Upon it had been glancing loose distorted images , rendered home imperfectly , if at all , to the retina of the brain . Herein its state was the very opposite to that of [my]_427-conrad own phrenoscope . [I]_427-conrad have no large imagination ; but the images it presents are vivid , and [I]_427-conrad see well round them . Every one of them is not cast , but cut , on [my]_427-conrad sensorium . Whether [I]_427-conrad can strike them off in words — whether [my]_427-conrad telegraph can print its message — is quite another question , and beside its purpose . Having rendered home to [me]_427-conrad the idols ( oftentimes inverted , though distinct ) it leaves expression and judgment to do their best with the copyright . Now , both in fabric and in mould , [[my]_427-conrad uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's mind was different . Naturally [his]_{1271-my uncle} powers were far superior , but [he]_{1271-my uncle} seemed to take no pride in them . No dark and settled purpose had ever thrown its shadow , and even its weight , upon them ; nor had [they]_7324-they felt , so far as [I]_427-conrad knew , the rough grasp of adversity . Therefore [they]_7324-they were longer in recovering from the blow , than [I]_427-conrad think [my]_427-conrad own would have been . There were few things , among the many desired by [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} , which [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} failed to reconcile with [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} strong sense of religion . "_[427-conrad] There is not one"—I have heard [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} say—"not_[427-conrad] one of the things [we]_3035-we believe to be for [our]_3035-we good , which [we]_3035-we should scruple to lay before the Throne of Grace . Even the throbbings of [that little unregenerate heart"—Clara Vaughan]_{7325-that little unregenerate heart"—clara vaughan} 's to wit , who had kicked [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} that morning , quite by accident of course—"even_[427-conrad] they are known and sifted there"—slight confusion of metaphor caused by strong conviction of sin—"Infinite_[534-elder] mercy knows the things that be for [our]_3035-we edification , and confirmation in the faith . Yes , [backsliding sinner]_{3036-backsliding sinner} , the want of real heart - felt spiritual life can be supplied by prayer alone . Is it not so in [your]_3037-your experience , [Elder]_534-elder ? " "_[534-elder] Prayer , [[my]_0-i dear Madam]_{3038-my dear madam} , and searching of the heart . Oh the depth of the wickedness of the unconverted heart ! " And [he]_0-i took another glass of sherry . That night [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} remember [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} worked very hard , for [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} ; and the next day [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} presented [me]_{516-mrs. fletcher} with markers the size of a gallows , progged with many holes ; on one was done in cross - stitch , "_{[516-mrs. fletcher]} Pray without ceasing , " and upon the other "_{[516-mrs. fletcher]} Wrestle thou in prayer . Gen. xxxii . 24 . " Both of these [I]_3039-i threw into the fire there before [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} eyes . From this it will be clear , that in [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} devotions [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} still remembered [me]_3039-i , and doubtless prayed in good Scriptural phraseology for [my]_3039-i release from [this wicked world]_{7326-this wicked world} . [Dr. Churchyard]_{526-dr. churchyard} 's last report had raised [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} terror to the highest pitch , and instead of wrestling in prayer , [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} had run away in high panic , upon hearing that [the fever - nurse]_{7327-the fever - nurse} was seen at large the night before . "_[3039-i] [We]_3039-i must use the means of grace , " [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} said to [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , before [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} locked [her]_{516-mrs. fletcher} in , "_{[516-mrs. fletcher]} and accept the mercies vouchsafed to [us]_3039-i . And it would be sinful , dear [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , in [me]_0-i to neglect such a warning as this . " It was wise , as well as righteous , in [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} to keep aloof for a time , while [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} devices worked [their]_7328-their consummation . For the present it appeared to [me]_{516-mrs. fletcher} that [they]_7328-their were failing signally . [[My]_{516-mrs. fletcher} uncle]_{1271-my uncle} was regaining strength of mind and body ; while native air , a sense of triumph , and daily exercise , kept [me]_{516-mrs. fletcher} in blooming health . [[My]_{516-mrs. fletcher} patient]_{3004-my patient} , who otherwise could hardly bear [me]_{516-mrs. fletcher} to leave [him]_{1271-my uncle} for an hour , insisted upon [my]_{516-mrs. fletcher} taking a long ride every day . [Lilla]_528-lilla was charmed , and so was [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , with the sweet spring air , and the rich familiar scenery . And how it did make [me]_{516-mrs. fletcher} eat ! Thankful indeed [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} ought to be , and am , that it pleased [God]_303-god to spare [me]_{516-mrs. fletcher} that awful and deadly pestilence . But the worst injury done by [canting hypocrites]_{7331-canting hypocrites} is , that the repulsion [they]_{7331-canting hypocrites} create drives away [others]_869-others from good . Truly [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} may say , that for days after being in contact with that slimy sanctity , [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} could not say [my]_{516-mrs. fletcher} own prayers , as [a little child]_{962-a little child} should do . Of that fever there had been three fatal cases in [the village]_{981-the village} , before it entered [[our]_7335-our house]_{1160-our house} ; and [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} found that it was spreading rapidly . With [[my]_{516-mrs. fletcher} uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's authority , [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} had the drainage surveyed and amended at once ; and so the pest was stayed . Of course [we]_7335-our did not neglect [our]_7335-our own weak point ; and the crawling noisome smell was no longer perceived in [the room]_{823-the room} , nor the white vapour on the grass . And so three weeks went by ; no news from [London]_1-london or [Devonshire]_4-devonshire , no explanation between [[my]_{516-mrs. fletcher} uncle]_{1271-my uncle} and [myself]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , no arrangements as to [my]_{516-mrs. fletcher} expectations in life . As yet [[my]_{516-mrs. fletcher} uncle]_{1271-my uncle} was too weak to bear any sort of excitement , and seemed desirous only to be passive in [my]_{516-mrs. fletcher} hands . [His]_{1271-my uncle} eyes always followed [me]_{516-mrs. fletcher} to every part of [the room]_{823-the room} , and [he]_{1271-my uncle} would even be propped on the sofa to see [me]_{516-mrs. fletcher} ride down [the avenue]_{2993-the avenue} ; and there [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} always found [him]_{1271-my uncle} watching for [my]_{516-mrs. fletcher} return . Meanwhile [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} yearned to be once more in [a certain little room]_{7343-a certain little room} with a north aspect , opposite [a cheesemonger 's shop in [an obscure street of [London]_1-london]_{7345-an obscure street of london}]_{7344-a cheesemonger 's shop in an obscure street of london} . Nightly [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} dreamed of [Giudice]_475-giudice , and daily [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} dreamed of dear [Isola]_428-isola and [Conrad]_427-conrad . The dog in [the stableyard]_{7275-the stableyard} , who had hitherto owned no especial attractions for [me]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , suddenly found [himself]_{1271-my uncle} petted , and coaxed , and fed ( which [he]_{1271-my uncle} thought much more of ) to the scandal of [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , and the great alarm of [the grooms]_{2992-the grooms} , who would rather not have [me]_{516-mrs. fletcher} [there]_1114-there . Moreover , the dog [himself]_{1271-my uncle} , though [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} strove to invest [him]_{1271-my uncle} with every chivalrous attribute , was of a low and ungenial order , adorned with no graces of mind , and little taste , except for bones and gravy . But perhaps [my]_{516-mrs. fletcher} standard was too high : peradventure [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} even commenced with more prejudice than a bulldog 's . Be that as it may — and if [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} can see round things , [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} ought to see round [myself]_{516-mrs. fletcher} — every day fell heavier and heavier from the fair balance of time ; and every night the stars — for there was now no moon — looked wearier in the heavens , and less inclined for business . How long , how long shall [you]_7349-you go round the pole in [your]_7349-you steady pacing way , as if the sky were for auction , and [you]_7349-you were pacing [the lots]_{7350-the lots} ; while [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , with more fire in [me]_{516-mrs. fletcher} than [you]_7349-you can strike or steal , am ditched like [a glow - worm kicked under a dock - leaf]_{7351-a glow - worm kicked under a dock - leaf} , and see no polestar at all ? Here is [May]_{355-margery daw} , the height of May : [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} am full of life and spirit : the garb of death , like an April cloud , blows over . Let [me]_{516-mrs. fletcher} see . Last birthday [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} was eighteen : [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} have known more troubles than years , and enjoyed no youth as yet . Last year [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} spent in growing , and pining , and starving . Now the Power , that balances [earth]_1622-earth and [heaven]_1555-heaven , has filled [me]_{516-mrs. fletcher} with joy and light . Neither am [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} renegade to [my]_{516-mrs. fletcher} life , in opening wide [my]_{516-mrs. fletcher} heart to this flood of love and happiness . Still am [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} set upon one strong purpose . Still am [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} sworn , and will not repent , that if filial duty demand it , [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} will trample love under [my]_{516-mrs. fletcher} feet , and cut the throat of happiness . During most of this time , [I]_{516-mrs. fletcher} had no idea where [the queen of hypocrites]_{7354-the queen of hypocrites} was ; though doubtless [she]_{7354-the queen of hypocrites} knew all that was happening to [us]_7355-us . As soon as [he]_7356-he heard of [[my]_{516-mrs. fletcher} uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's surprising rally , [Dr. Churchyard]_{526-dr. churchyard} came over , and claimed all the merit for [his]_7356-he own last prescription . Brought face to face with the awkward fact that the medicine had not been procured , [he]_7356-he was not in the least disconcerted , but found that [we]_7355-us had misunderstood [him]_7356-he , the prescription to which [he]_7356-he referred was the one before the last . At any rate , [he]_7356-he enhanced [his]_7356-he own fame immensely , and became "_{[516-mrs. fletcher]} instrumental under Providence " in killing [more people]_{7358-more people} than ever . In reply to [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , for [I]_521-tulip would not deign to ask [him]_7356-he , [he]_7356-he stated that [the excellent and devoted Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} had not been seen lately in [Cheltenham]_{108-cheltenham} . [[Her]_{312-mrs. daldy} son]_{1218-her son} , however , was there , and foremost in the ranks of [Pump - room Lady - killers]_{7360-pump - room lady - killers} . Just what [he]_{1218-her son} was fit for . [The doctor]_{5643-the doctor} entertained a belief , and spread the report in [Cheltenham]_{108-cheltenham} , that [Dorcas]_535-dorcas was lodged in [a humble cot among the haunts of pestilence]_{7362-a humble cot among the haunts of pestilence} , imperilling [her]_535-dorcas life and lavishing [her]_535-dorcas substance to relieve the fever - stricken . This being more than [I]_521-tulip could stand , [I]_521-tulip asked [the worthy doctor]_{7363-the worthy doctor} — who , after all , was [a man of [the world]_{798-the world}]_{7364-a man of the world} — what [three wealthy persons]_{7366-three wealthy persons} [Dorcas]_535-dorcas had carried with [her]_535-dorcas . At first [he]_{7363-the worthy doctor} feigned not to understand [me]_521-tulip , then looked sly , and changed the subject cleverly . Of course [I]_521-tulip referred to the well - known fact , that [she]_535-dorcas supported [her]_535-dorcas grandeur and [[her]_535-dorcas son]_{1218-her son} 's extravagance by playing an admirable rubber . [She]_535-dorcas was playing a better one now . [Dr. Churchyard]_{526-dr. churchyard} finished by writing another prescription , which , after [his]_{526-dr. churchyard} departure , [I]_521-tulip handed to [the husband of [Venus]_536-venus]_{7368-the husband of venus} , [legitimate disposer of mineral medicines]_{7369-legitimate disposer of mineral medicines} . [London]_1-london ! [London]_1-london ! was still the cry of [my]_521-tulip heart ; and was [I]_521-tulip not summoned thither by duty long ago ? What might become , during all this time , of [the man whom [I]_521-tulip was bound to watch at every turn , and whom [I]_521-tulip was now in a better condition to deal with]_{7370-the man whom i was bound to watch at every turn , and whom i was now in a better condition to deal with} ? [My]_521-tulip first visit , every morning , was to [[[my]_521-tulip parents]_{732-my parents} ' graves]_{7372-my parents ' graves} , and [neither of [them]_{732-my parents}]_{7373-neither of them} would be there but for [his]_{526-dr. churchyard} ruthless hand . As [I]_521-tulip sat there how lonely [I]_521-tulip felt ! how sadly forlorn in [the world]_{798-the world} , be [my]_521-tulip lot wealth or poverty , victory or defeat ! One morning as [I]_521-tulip sat there [my]_521-tulip spirit was moved by dreams of the night before , and [I]_521-tulip vowed , in that bodily but invisible presence , that [none]_1510-none , except one whose name [I]_521-tulip whispered , should ever kneel on that turf hand in hand with [me]_521-tulip . Borne out of [my]_521-tulip usual vein by the deed [myself]_521-tulip had done , [I]_521-tulip entered [the ancient church]_{7376-the ancient church} , always left open for [me]_521-tulip , and , kneeling at the altar - rails , with [many a Vaughan supine in prayer]_{7377-many a vaughan supine in prayer} , pennons , helms , and trophies round [me]_521-tulip , stately dames in marble white , and [old crusaders]_{7378-old crusaders} clutching still the cross — there [I]_521-tulip made [my]_521-tulip vow upon the knee - cupped stones , that if [he]_7379-he claimed [me]_521-tulip not , the race should end with [me]_521-tulip . It was a presumptuous and unholy act , with all around [me]_521-tulip quelled by time , with ages laid aside in dust , with many a stouter heart and larger mind than [mine]_521-tulip , helpless even to superintend the wasting of [his]_7379-he tenement , with all [his]_7379-he bygone bliss and woe , stanchest love and deadliest hate , less eloquent now than the fly whom the spider has caught in [his]_7379-he skull . Returning across [the park]_{892-the park} , after a warm interview with "_[521-tulip] [Tulip]_521-tulip , " who insisted mainly upon having [his]_7379-he ears well scratched , [I]_521-tulip found [[my]_521-tulip uncle]_{1271-my uncle} in [his]_7379-he snug wheel - chair , waiting near the side - door for [me]_521-tulip to help and accompany [him]_7379-he forth . This was [our]_7382-our best way to take [him]_7379-he out , because of the steps at the front - door . [He]_7379-he had not yet been in the open air since [his]_7379-he terrible illness , but , judging by [my]_521-tulip own experience , [I]_521-tulip thought that [he]_7379-he pined for the breeze , and , after long council , it was resolved to trust [him]_7379-he forth this day . With all [his]_7379-he heart [he]_7379-he was longing to be out ; but , instead of expressing impatience , smiled gratefully at [me]_521-tulip . [I]_521-tulip now observed that [he]_7379-he had a sweet and winning smile — a gift bestowed not rarely on faces of a sombre cast . In return for it [I]_521-tulip kissed [him]_7379-he , and [we]_7382-our sailed smoothly out . How [he]_7379-he revelled , to be sure , in the first clear breath from the lips of heaven ! Stretching one poor arm forth — the other [he]_7379-he could not move — [he]_7379-he tried to spread [himself]_7379-he like a flower to the sun . Then [he]_7379-he drew long draughts of liquid freedom , and was for a time as one intoxicated . In the glorious crystal bath [he]_7379-he seemed to float away from [earth]_1622-earth . Coming to [himself]_7379-he at length , [he]_7379-he looked at [me]_521-tulip , and said , "_[521-tulip] Now [John]_{411-miss vaughan} may go , if [he]_{411-miss vaughan} pleases . " A year ago [he]_7379-he would have said , "_{[411-miss vaughan]} Go , [John]_{411-miss vaughan} , " and no more . But illness is [a great refiner]_{7384-a great refiner} . When [John]_{411-miss vaughan} was out of sight [he]_7379-he allowed free vent to the tears of joy and gratitude , whereof , in [my]_{411-miss vaughan} opinion , [he]_7379-he had no call to be ashamed . [I]_{411-miss vaughan} kissed [him]_7379-he many times . [My]_{411-miss vaughan} warm impassioned nature always felt for and delighted in any touch like this . Then [he]_7379-he placed [his]_7379-he better hand on the cold and rigid one , lifting this with that , and poured forth silent thanks to [the Giver of all things]_{7385-the giver of all things} . "_{[411-miss vaughan]} [Clara]_293-clara , [darling]_6257-darling , " at length [he]_7379-he said , "_{[411-miss vaughan]} how can [I]_0-i ever show [you]_293-clara a thousandth part of [my]_0-i gratitude for all the lovingkindness [you]_293-clara have heaped on [me]_0-i ? Coals of fire , indeed ! and they have warmed [my]_0-i selfish heart . With loathsome death before [your]_293-clara face , in all the pride and bloom of early youth and richest — " [I]_0-i will not repeat [his]_7379-he words , because it would not become [me]_0-i ; but [I]_0-i am forced by all that has happened to show what [his]_7379-he feelings were . "_[0-i] And all this for [me]_0-i — [me]_0-i who have been [[your]_293-clara bitterest enemy]_{3041-your bitterest enemy} , who have turned [you]_293-clara out of [[[your]_293-clara father]_{5365-your father} 's house]_{3043-your father 's house} , and caused [[your]_293-clara mother]_{5332-your mother} 's death ! " Here [I]_{3045-dear uncle} stopped [him]_{3045-dear uncle} , lest [he]_{3045-dear uncle} should be overcome . "_{[3045-dear uncle]} [Dear uncle]_{3045-dear uncle} , talk no more of this — never even think of it . The fault was all [my]_0-i own . [You]_{3045-dear uncle} know [I]_0-i would not stop , often as [you]_{3045-dear uncle} asked [me]_0-i . There always was a bar between [us]_3046-us , and it was [my]_0-i obstinacy . " "_[0-i] No , it was [my]_0-i pride . [Clara]_293-clara , in [my]_0-i better mind [I]_0-i loved [you]_293-clara all along . How could [I]_0-i help admiring [your]_293-clara truth and courage and devotion to [[your]_293-clara father]_{5365-your father} ? Although [I]_0-i own that [you]_{3045-dear uncle} were very bitter against [me]_0-i , yet , if [I]_0-i had only used the proper means , [I]_0-i might have got the better of it . If [I]_0-i had told [you]_293-clara all [my]_0-i story , [you]_{3045-dear uncle} would have pitied more even than condemned [me]_0-i . But [my]_0-i pride forbade , and [I]_0-i made the common mistake of regarding [you]_293-clara as [a child]_{782-a child} , because [you]_293-clara were that in years . [I]_0-i forgot to allow for the forcing powers of grief . Even now , pulled down as [I]_0-i am , and humbled by the wisdom of Heaven , [I]_0-i can not tell [you]_293-clara [my]_0-i strange history without the acutest pain . " "_[0-i] Then [I]_0-i am sure , [uncle]_1284-uncle , [I]_0-i will never let [you]_1284-uncle do it . " "_[0-i] Yes , it is [my]_0-i duty , and the sooner done the better . Rescued though [I]_0-i am , for the present , by [your]_{3045-dear uncle} wonderful courage and skill , [I]_0-i feel that one more blow , even a slight one now , and time for [me]_0-i is ended . But if it were [God]_303-god 's will to cut [me]_0-i off to - morrow , [I]_0-i should die in happiness , having made [my]_0-i peace , and won [your]_{3045-dear uncle} kind forgiveness . " "_[1284-uncle] [You]_1284-uncle shall not tell [me]_0-i now at any rate . And [I]_0-i wo n't have [you]_1284-uncle talk so , [uncle]_1284-uncle . Mind , [I]_0-i am head - nurse still . Now come and see how lovely [the ranunculus]_{3051-the ranunculus} are getting . " [I]_1284-uncle began to wheel [him]_1284-uncle over the grass and gather flowers ( which "_[1284-uncle] [he]_1284-uncle played with like [a child]_{782-a child} ) , to change , if possible , the current of [his]_1284-uncle thoughts . Stupid thing ! [I]_0-i took the wrong way to do it . " Oh , [uncle dear]_{7386-uncle dear} ! [you]_1284-uncle will laugh at [me]_0-i , and say [I]_0-i am as bad as ever ; but as soon as [you]_1284-uncle get better [I]_0-i want to be off again , kind and good as [you]_1284-uncle are to [me]_0-i . "_[0-i] [He]_1284-uncle trembled so violently , that [I]_0-i feared the chair would be upset . " What , [Clara]_293-clara , ca n't [you]_293-clara live with [me]_3053-i even now ? Everything shall be [yours]_1284-uncle , as it ought to be . [I]_3053-i will never meddle with [you]_293-clara in any way , but keep to some lonely corner , and not see [you]_293-clara very often . Oh , [Clara]_293-clara ! dear [Clara]_293-clara ! do n't go away ! [You]_293-clara know [I]_3053-i am quite helpless , and [I]_3053-i ca n't live long , and [you]_293-clara are all in all to [me]_3053-i , and [I]_3053-i am so proud of [you]_293-clara , [darling]_6257-darling ! But it is not for [myself]_3053-i [I]_3053-i care . [I]_3053-i can not tell , much less can [you]_293-clara , what mischief may be done if [you]_293-clara leave [this house]_{5422-this house} again . [That low , crafty woman]_{7389-that low , crafty woman} will be back again directly — [she]_{7389-that low , crafty woman} who made cowards of all [the household]_{870-the household} , and acted [the coward]_{7391-the coward} [herself]_{7389-that low , crafty woman} , who left [me]_3053-i to die in [my]_3053-i lonely bed , while [she]_{7389-that low , crafty woman} took all [my]_3053-i keys . If [her]_{7389-that low , crafty woman} treachery succeeds , [I]_3053-i shall rise from [my]_3053-i grave . And [I]_3053-i know [she]_{7389-that low , crafty woman} will poison [me]_3053-i yet , if [she]_{7389-that low , crafty woman} gets the chance , and can make anything by it . "_[3053-i] It was the first time [he]_3053-i had spoken to [me]_0-i of [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} , and [I]_0-i was amazed at [his]_3053-i bitterness , for [I]_0-i had heard of no quarrel between [them]_3054-them . What on earth did it mean ? " Do n't go , [Clara]_293-clara ! "_[3053-i] [he]_3053-i implored [me]_0-i , with the cold sweat on [his]_3053-i forehead , and every line in [his]_3053-i poor thin face a - quivering . " Do n't go , [[my]_3053-i darling]_{5337-my darling} , blessed [Clara]_293-clara ! [I]_3053-i have had none to love for years and years , and to love [you]_293-clara is so sweet ! If [you]_293-clara go [I]_3053-i must die at once , and , worse than that , die wretched in the knowledge that [you]_293-clara will be robbed . "_[3053-i] [He]_3053-i fell back in the chair , from which , in [his]_3053-i excitement , [he]_3053-i had striven to rise , and for some minutes there [he]_3053-i lay insensible . When [I]_0-i had succeeded in bringing [him]_3053-i to [himself]_3053-i , [he]_3053-i looked at [me]_0-i so piteously , with so much death in [his]_3053-i eyes , that [I]_0-i promised , with a sinking heart , never to leave [him]_3053-i more , except upon absolute necessity , until [he]_3053-i should be well , or need [my]_0-i care no longer . [He]_3053-i even tried to persuade [me]_0-i not to go to [London]_1-london for the things [I]_0-i had left [there]_1114-there , but to send [a trusty person]_{3056-a trusty person} to pack and bring [them]_3057-them [home]_1102-home . To this , however , [I]_0-i could not yield , feeling , as [I]_0-i did , that , after all [my]_0-i love for [Isola]_428-isola , and all [her]_428-isola kindness to [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i was bound to see [her]_428-isola and say farewell ; and what harm could there possibly be in so short an absence ? [[My]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} wished [me]_0-i to bring [her]_428-isola down for a good long visit , but this at such a time could not be thought of . Moreover , [lively , impulsive Idols]_{3060-lively , impulsive idols} would have grown very long - faced in [a dull sick house]_{3061-a dull sick house} , which ours must be for the present . It was settled at last that [I]_0-i should go to [London]_1-london the following Monday , stay [there]_1114-there one entire day , and come back the day after with all [my]_0-i trifling chattels . One thing more [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} proposed which [I]_0-i would not hear of . It was , that [he]_{1271-my uncle} should transfer to [me]_0-i , by deed of gift , all the estate , both real and personal , reserving only a small annuity for [himself]_{1271-my uncle} , and a sum of 10,000*l . * for some special purpose , which [he]_{1271-my uncle} would disclose to [me]_0-i at leisure . Thus , [he]_{1271-my uncle} said , [he]_{1271-my uncle} should feel as if justice had been done , and there would be some security against [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} 's schemes . Of the latter [I]_0-i felt no fear whatever , and thought it the effect of a shaken mind that [he]_{1271-my uncle} attached so much importance to [them]_3064-them . Under no circumstances would [I]_0-i think , for a moment , of allowing [him]_{1271-my uncle} so to divest [himself]_{1271-my uncle} . Money , to any amount , [I]_0-i could have , though [I]_0-i wanted very little , seeing that now , once more , a solemn duty would withdraw [me]_0-i from [my]_0-i long pursuit , and from all the frivolities which [many girls]_{3065-many girls} delight in . [I]_0-i begged [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} to appoint [an honest steward]_{3067-an honest steward} for [the estate]_{952-the estate} , and to assign [me]_0-i a moderate yearly allowance , which would save much trouble . To this [he]_{1271-my uncle} at last consented , and proposed for [me]_0-i so large a revenue , that , after removing the last cipher , [I]_0-i had more than [I]_0-i knew how to spend . The first thing [I]_0-i did was to send the kind farmer the residue of the sum [he]_{1271-my uncle} had lent [me]_0-i , together with interest at ten per cent . , which did not seem excessive , considering that [he]_{1271-my uncle} had no security . And now , with the utmost anxiety , [I]_0-i looked forward to the time when [[my]_0-i poor uncle]_{2919-my poor uncle} should be strong enough to tell [me]_0-i , without risk , that history of [himself]_{2919-my poor uncle} which [he]_{2919-my poor uncle} had distinctly promised [me]_0-i . Surely it must shed some light on the mystery of [my]_0-i own . This thought , as well as the sense of duty , reconciled [me]_0-i in some measure to the suspension of [my]_0-i life - long search . [He]_{1271-my uncle} would have told [me]_0-i everything then and there , in [his]_{1271-my uncle} warm gratitude for [my]_0-i undertaking ; but [I]_0-i durst not let [him]_{1271-my uncle} . [He]_{1271-my uncle} was already fatigued with so much talking , and when the stimulus of the fresh air was gone , [he]_{1271-my uncle} suffered a serious relapse . On the following Monday , [[my]_0-i poor uncle]_{2919-my poor uncle} being rather better again , [I]_0-i set off for [London]_1-london , as had been determined , and arrived [there]_1114-there late in the afternoon . It had been proposed to send [a servant]_{3072-a servant} with [me]_0-i , but [I]_0-i had been too long accustomed to independence , and also had reasons of [my]_0-i own for refusing . [I]_0-i was to receive , on the morrow , an account , by telegraph , of [[my]_0-i patient]_{3004-my patient} 's health and spirits , and promised to give , in return , some tidings of [myself]_0-i . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had not been apprised of [my]_0-i coming , because [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} would have been sure to tell [Miss Isola]_428-isola , whom , as well as [[her]_428-isola brother]_{6430-her brother} , [I]_0-i wished to take by surprise . [Dear Isola]_457-isola had often inquired about [[my]_0-i family]_{1990-my family} , but only knew that [I]_0-i was [an orphan]_{1231-an orphan} , much reduced in [the world]_{798-the world} , poor , and all alone . Much as [I]_0-i loved [her]_428-isola , [I]_0-i knew quite well that [she]_428-isola could not keep a secret , and whenever [she]_428-isola teased [me]_0-i about [my]_0-i " iron mask , "_[428-isola] [I]_0-i retorted upon [her]_428-isola that [she]_428-isola had first to discover the secret of [[her]_428-isola own home]_{3078-her own home} . As [we]_3079-us rushed towards [the mighty city]_{3080-the mighty city} , what a flush was in [my]_0-i cheeks , what a flutter in [my]_0-i heart ! Whom might [I]_0-i not see even upon [the platform]_{2878-the platform} , or , at any rate , in [the streets]_{2026-the streets} , and , poverty being removed , what obstacle could there be between [us]_3079-us ? Not that [I]_0-i intended to resign [myself]_0-i to affection , and lead a life of softness , until [I]_0-i had discharged to the utmost [my]_0-i duty to the dead . Yet some sort of pledge might pass — some surety there might be , that neither of [us]_3079-us would feel thereafter quite alone in [the world]_{798-the world} . But how could [I]_0-i tell that [he]_3084-he even cared about [me]_0-i ? Well , [I]_0-i had a strong suspicion . In some things the eyes are [the best detective police]_{3085-the best detective police} . Only [I]_0-i had always been so unlucky . Was it not too good luck for [me]_0-i ever to be true ? [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's door was opened at [my]_0-i knock , not by [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} own little bustling self , nor even by shock - headed and sly " [Charley]_395-charley , "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} but by [a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - Jewish face , and a confidential air]_{3086-a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - jewish face , and a confidential air} . [He]_{3086-a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - jewish face , and a confidential air} had a pot of porter in one hand and a paper - roll in the other , a greasy hat on [his]_{3086-a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - jewish face , and a confidential air} head , and one leg of [his]_{3086-a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - jewish face , and a confidential air} trousers had lost the lower half . Upon learning [my]_0-i name and object , [he]_{3086-a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - jewish face , and a confidential air} took no notice whatever of [me]_0-i , but put up [his]_{3086-a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - jewish face , and a confidential air} paper - roll for a trumpet , and shouted along [the passage]_{824-the passage} , " [Balaam]_537-balaam , here 's a kick ! [I]_{3086-a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - jewish face , and a confidential air} 'm bothered if it 's all lies , after all . Never dreamed [the old gal]_{2540-the old gal} could tell a word of truth . Had a higher opinion of [her]_{2540-the old gal} . Blowed if [the young woman]_{7394-the young woman} [herself]_{2540-the old gal} ai n't come ! "_{[3086-a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - jewish face , and a confidential air]} " Easy there , [Balak"—the]_{538-balak"—the[3086-a short stout man of affable self - importance , with a semi - jewish face , and a confidential air]} mouth of [the speaker]_{3088-the speaker} was full—"keep the door , [I]_{3088-the speaker} tell [you]_537-balaam . Never gets a bit of time to [my]_{3088-the speaker} victuals . [She]_{7394-the young woman} 's up to a plant , [I]_{3088-the speaker} doubt . Just let [me]_{3088-the speaker} have a squint at [her]_{7394-the young woman} . "_{[3088-the speaker]} Out came [another man with a like appearance and air]_{3089-another man with a like appearance and air} , and a blade - bone in [his]_{3089-another man with a like appearance and air} hand , whereat [he]_{3089-another man with a like appearance and air} continued to gnaw throughout the interview . It was indeed a squint with which [he]_{3089-another man with a like appearance and air} favoured [me]_0-i , and neither of [them]_3090-them would move for [me]_0-i to pass . " Pray what is the meaning of all this ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i asked , in [my]_0-i grandest manner . " Surely [I]_0-i have not mistaken [the house [I]_0-i lived in]_{7395-the house i lived in} . This , [I]_0-i believe , is [[Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's house]_{6026-mrs. shelfer 's house} ? "_[0-i] Instead of answering [me]_0-i , [they]_3090-them closed the door enough to put the slide - chain on , leaving [me]_0-i still outside , where , with boiling indignation , [I]_0-i heard [myself]_0-i discussed ; [the cabman]_{6039-the cabman} looking on with an experienced grin . " Well , [Balaam]_537-balaam , now , and what do [you]_537-balaam think of that party ? "_{[6039-the cabman]} " [Uncommon fine young gal]_{7397-uncommon fine young gal} , and doosed mannersome too ; but it do n't follow , for all that , that the thing is on [the square]_{1939-the square} , [you]_537-balaam know . Have [she]_{7397-uncommon fine young gal} got any luggage , [Balak]_539-balak ? "_{[6039-the cabman]} " No , [mate]_7399-mate . And that looks fishy , now one come to think on it . Stop , let [me]_{6039-the cabman} have another look . "_{[6039-the cabman]} " No ; leave that to [me]_{6039-the cabman} . Slip the chain out , [Balak]_539-balak : and keep [your]_539-balak foot behind the door . [She]_{7397-uncommon fine young gal} ca n't push [us]_7400-we both in without assault and battery . "_{[6039-the cabman]} To [my]_0-i shame and indignation , [I]_0-i was subjected to another critical cross - fire from half drunken eyes . [I]_0-i turned [my]_0-i back and stamped in [my]_0-i vexation ; [the cabman]_{6039-the cabman} gave [me]_0-i an approving nod . This little act of [mine]_0-i was so unmistakably genuine , and displayed such very nice embroidery — [I]_0-i do like a tasteful petticoat — that the hard heart of [Balaam]_539-balak was softened ; at the same moment a brilliant idea stole through [his]_539-balak cautious mind . " Stop now , [Balak]_539-balak , put [your]_539-balak foot there . [She]_{7397-uncommon fine young gal} ca n't push [us]_7400-we both in , [I]_539-balak believe ; leastways not without battery and contempt of court . Now what do [you]_{3093-his grimy friend} think of this?"—And_[539-balak] [he]_539-balak whispered to [[his]_539-balak grimy friend]_{3093-his grimy friend} . " Well , that beats all [I]_539-balak ever heer'd on . Let [you]_{3093-his grimy friend} alone for brains , [Balaam]_539-balak , and [me]_539-balak for muscle and pluck ! "_[539-balak] " Now , [young lady]_{1872-young lady} , "_[539-balak] began [Balaam]_539-balak in a diplomatic tone , " [me]_539-balak and [[my]_539-balak mate]_{7402-my mate} here be in a constitution of trust , or else [you]_{1872-young lady} may take [your]_{1872-young lady} oath , and never a pervarication , [we]_7400-we never would keep [an agreeable young female"—here]_{7403-an agreeable young female"—here[539-balak]} [he]_539-balak gave [me]_0-i two ogles intended for one—"on the flinty stones so long ; only [we]_7400-we ca n't say if [you]_{1872-young lady} mean honest , and there be such a many bad ones going , and [we]_7400-we 've got a leary file inside . Now listen to what [I]_539-balak say . There 's a dog as big as a lion in [the room]_{823-the room} as [you]_{1872-young lady} calls [yourn]_{1872-young lady} ; and [he]_539-balak do show [his]_539-balak teeth , and no mistake . [We]_7400-we be afeared to show [our]_7400-we noses there , even at the command of dooty . [You]_{1872-young lady} can hear [him]_539-balak growling now like all the Strand and [Fleet Street]_{110-fleet street} ; and [[my]_539-balak mate]_{7402-my mate} [Balak]_539-balak here leave half [his]_539-balak breeches behind [him]_539-balak , saving [your]_{1872-young lady} presence , [Miss]_7406-miss , and lucky to get off so . Now if so be [you]_{1872-young lady} undertakes , honour bright , to march straight into [that front room]_{7407-that front room} , [[my]_539-balak mate]_{7402-my mate} and [self]_7409-self have concluded to let [you]_{1872-young lady} in . "_[539-balak] " Of course [I]_0-i will , "_[0-i] said [I]_0-i , smiling at [their]_3094-their terrors . So [I]_0-i paid [the cabman]_{6039-the cabman} , took up [my]_0-i little bag , and ran right up [the stairs]_{5744-the stairs} . [Balaam]_539-balak and [Balak]_539-balak feared to come round the corner . " [You]_0-i must unlock the door , [Miss]_5433-miss , "_{[1627-one of them]} cried [one of [them]_3094-their]_{1627-one of them} , " [we]_7411-we was forced to lock [him]_539-balak in . "_{[1627-one of them]} " Oh [Judy]_477-judy , [[my]_539-balak darling [Judy]_477-judy]_{7412-my darling judy} , [[my]_539-balak own pet love of a [Judy]_477-judy]_{7413-my own pet love of a judy} . "_[539-balak] [He]_539-balak let [me]_0-i say no more ; [his]_539-balak paws were on [my]_0-i shoulders , and [I]_0-i was in a shower - bath of kisses . In the ecstasy of [my]_0-i joy , [I]_0-i forgot all about [the two men]_{3098-the two men} and [their]_{3098-the two men} mysterious doings , and flung [myself]_0-i down on a chair , while [Judy]_477-judy , out of [his]_539-balak mind with delight , even tried to sit on [my]_0-i lap . [He]_539-balak whinnied , and cried , and laughed , and yelled , and could find no vent for [his]_539-balak feelings , until [he]_539-balak threw [his]_539-balak great head back and told all in a wow - wow , that must have been heard in [Oxford Street]_{111-oxford street} . A little familiar knock , and [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} appeared , looking rather better than ever . " Why , [dear Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , how glad [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} am to see [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ! And [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} look much younger , [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} declare ! "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} " And , [Miss]_7414-miss , [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} do look bootiful , bootiful , [[my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} good friend]_{1798-my good friend} ! [Splendid things,"—I]_{7416-splendid things,"—i[391-mrs. shelfer]} was dressed a little better , but still in sombre colours—"splendid , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara , and how [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} becomes 'em to be sure ! Talk of [Miss Idols]_466-idols after that , why it 's [the Queen]_{1427-the queen} to [a gipsy]_{7418-a gipsy} ! And pray , [Miss]_7419-miss , if [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} may make so bold , what did [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} give for this ? it beats [my]_{391-mrs. shelfer} sarcenet dress , [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} do believe . "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} " Nothing , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , only a little kiss . "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} " Gracious [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [Miss]_5433-miss , then [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 've been and got engaged , and to [a lord]_{2316-a lord} at least . [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} heard [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} were come into [your]_{391-mrs. shelfer} great fortune at last ; more than all Middlesex [they]_7422-they tell [me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [Regency Park]_{112-regency park} and all ! And [that poor straight - legged young man]_{7423-that poor straight - legged young man} , as come here every day to see [Judy]_477-judy , and to ask for [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} " Now , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , do n't talk nonsense,"—my_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} heart was jumping , but [I]_0-i did not want [her]_3099-her to see it . " [I]_0-i only hope [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} have n't said a word to [him]_{7423-that poor straight - legged young man} about these foolish reports . "_[0-i] " [Me]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [Miss]_7424-miss ! Do [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} think [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} would now ? "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} " Yes ; [I]_427-conrad know by [your]_{391-mrs. shelfer} face [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} have . [You]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ca n't cheat [me]_427-conrad , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . Never mind , if [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} have not mentioned [my]_427-conrad name . "_[427-conrad] It never struck [me]_0-i that [Conrad]_427-conrad would be frightened at [my]_0-i money . " No , never , [Miss]_7425-miss , as [I]_3100-i hope to be saved . "_[3100-i] And [she]_3100-i crossed [herself]_3100-i , which [I]_0-i had never seen [her]_3100-i do . " Come , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , now ; [I]_3100-i 've got some pretty little trifles for [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} in this bag . "_[3100-i] [She]_3100-i jumped with pleasure ; [she]_3100-i was so fond of knick - knacks : then [she]_3100-i put [her]_3100-i fingers on [her]_3100-i lips and went to the door and listened . Presently [she]_3100-i came back with a mysterious air . " Pray , [Miss]_7426-miss , as [you]_7426-miss are so very kind , excuse [my]_3100-i taking the liberty , but would [you]_7426-miss mind giving [Judy]_477-judy the bag in [his]_477-judy paws ? no fear of [them]_7427-them getting it there . "_[3100-i] " Why , what on earth is the matter ? Why did n't [you]_7426-miss let [me]_3100-i in ? Who are [those nasty men]_{7428-those nasty men} ? "_[3100-i] " Oh , it 's nothing , [Miss]_7429-miss ; nothing at all to speak of : only [they]_{7428-those nasty men} knocks [my]_3100-i sticks so in making the inwentory , and the one [they]_{7428-those nasty men} made last time , and the time before , would do every bit as well . But [they]_{7428-those nasty men} charges for it , every time , [the rogues]_{7430-the rogues} — and [they]_{7428-those nasty men} dare to put the chairs down lackered and American cloth , good , morocco as ever was , and as if [Miss Minto]_{405-miss minto} — "_[3100-i] " Now , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , tell [me]_3100-i in two words what it means . Is it a sale ? "_[3100-i] " No , no , [Miss]_7431-miss , [I]_3100-i should hope not ; only an execution , and [them]_{7428-those nasty men} [two men]_{7102-two men} are [the bailiffs]_{7433-the bailiffs} ; [civil tongues enough , and very good judges of porter and periwinkles]_{7434-civil tongues enough , and very good judges of porter and periwinkles} . [They]_{7428-those nasty men} 're [the ones as come last time]_{7435-the ones as come last time} ; but [I]_3100-i 'd sooner have [the old ones]_{7436-the old ones} , [jolly fellows]_{7437-jolly fellows} [they]_{7436-the old ones} were , and knew how to wink both eyes . But [that cross - eyed thief]_{7438-that cross - eyed thief} — "_[3100-i] " And have [they]_{7428-those nasty men} got [my]_3100-i things , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ? "_[3100-i] " No , [Miss]_7439-miss ; only what few was in [the bedroom]_{2981-the bedroom} ; [they]_{7428-those nasty men} dare n't come here for [Judy]_477-judy . It was as much as [their]_{7428-those nasty men} lives were worth . If [I]_3100-i had known [they]_{7428-those nasty men} was coming , [I]_3100-i 'd have had [him]_{7438-that cross - eyed thief} at the front door , but [they]_{7428-those nasty men} locked [him]_{7438-that cross - eyed thief} in as soon as [he]_{7438-that cross - eyed thief} got a piece out of [the other fellow]_{7441-the other fellow} 's leg . Bless [me]_3100-i , how [he]_{7438-that cross - eyed thief} did holloa ! "_[3100-i] " Do [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} mean to say , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , that [they]_{7428-those nasty men} have taken possession of [my]_3100-i things in [[my]_3100-i bedroom]_{7442-my bedroom} ? "_[3100-i] " To be sure , [Miss.]_448-miss. [I]_3100-i said they was [yours]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , and of course [they]_{7428-those nasty men} would n't believe [me]_3100-i , and the folding door was shut , but [Judy]_477-judy would have broken it down only [they]_{7428-those nasty men} put the bedstead again it . Gracious [me]_3100-i ! [I]_3100-i never see a dog take on so in all [my]_3100-i life ! [He]_{7438-that cross - eyed thief} was like a roaring lion . "_[3100-i] " [I]_3100-i should rather hope so . [Giudice]_475-giudice , [I]_3100-i commend [you]_475-giudice ; and [I]_3100-i 've a great mind to let [you]_475-giudice out , and what is more , [I]_3100-i will if [they]_{7428-those nasty men} do n't give [me]_3100-i back [my]_3100-i things . Surely , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [they]_{7428-those nasty men} have no right to [[my]_3100-i property]_{7443-my property} . "_[3100-i] " Well , so [I]_3100-i say , [Miss]_7444-miss ; because it is n't for [the landlord]_{6289-the landlord} ; but [they]_{7428-those nasty men} wo n't believe [they]_{7428-those nasty men} are [yours]_475-giudice . "_[3100-i] " If [they]_{7428-those nasty men} do n't believe [me]_3100-i pretty soon , [Giudice]_475-giudice shall convince [them]_{7428-those nasty men} . [He]_475-giudice is [a judge]_{6883-a judge} [you]_7444-miss know , and [I]_3100-i 've no idea of robbery any more than [he]_475-giudice has . But who is doing all this , and why do [you]_7444-miss seem so unconcerned about it ? [I]_3100-i should cry [my]_3100-i eyes out , [I]_3100-i am sure . "_[3100-i] " Bless [your]_7444-miss pretty heart , [Miss]_7447-miss ; this makes the fifteenth time [I]_3100-i 've had [them]_{7428-those nasty men} [here]_846-here in the last four years . At first [I]_3100-i was terribly put out , and made [myself]_3100-i [a figure crying]_{7449-a figure crying} ; but now [I]_3100-i only think it 's company , and [they]_{7428-those nasty men} drink as if [they]_{7428-those nasty men} was , that 's certain . [You]_7444-miss must have seen the inwentories , [Miss]_7450-miss , round the candles lots of times . Only one thing [they]_{7428-those nasty men} does that do n't strike [me]_3100-i as wery honourable , though it 's law [I]_3100-i b'lieve ; [they]_{7428-those nasty men} charges [me]_3100-i , and wery high too , for eating up [my]_3100-i victuals , and [they]_{7428-those nasty men} will have meat four times a day . Why , [that Balak]_539-balak , [him]_539-balak with [his]_539-balak breeches gone — "_[3100-i] " Who put them in , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , and how much is it for ? "_[3100-i] " Oh , it 's one of [Charley]_395-charley 's bills or notes , of course . [Quinlan]_540-quinlan holds it , [him]_540-quinlan as keeps "_[3100-i] the little dust - pan , " down [Maiden Lane]_{113-maiden lane} , and [Charley]_395-charley says that all [he]_395-charley got for it was ten shillings and a waggon - load of water - cresses . Now [they]_{7428-those nasty men} 'll be here directly , [Miss]_7451-miss , with [you]_7451-miss to keep the dog in . Excuse [me]_3100-i , [Miss]_7452-miss , [I]_3100-i see [you]_7451-miss have got one of them new wide things as go all round and up — capital things , [I]_3100-i must have one before [they]_{7428-those nasty men} come again . And could [you]_7451-miss manage to sit upon the sofa , [Miss]_7453-miss , and the three best chairs in [your]_7451-miss petticoat , with the tea - poy on [your]_7451-miss lap ? "_[3100-i] " What on earth do [you]_3100-i mean , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ? "_[3100-i] " Why , [Miss]_7454-miss , [they]_{7428-those nasty men} ca n't lay hold of any article in use , [I]_3100-i believe , and [you]_7451-miss have got so much room in [your]_7451-miss things . "_[3100-i] " Do [you]_7451-miss suppose [I]_3100-i intend to let [them]_{7428-those nasty men} come [here]_846-here , for a moment ? Now let [me]_3100-i look at [[my]_3100-i bedroom]_{7442-my bedroom} . Come , [Judy]_477-judy . "_[3100-i] " Oh , [Miss]_7457-miss , [they]_{7428-those nasty men} did have such a hunt here for [Charley]_395-charley 's double - barrel gun ; a regular beauty it is , and that big rogue [Quinlan]_540-quinlan is after it . [They]_{7428-those nasty men} know it all round [this neighbourhood]_{7458-this neighbourhood} , it was made by [a famous maker]_{7459-a famous maker} , [Joe something]_451-joe , [I]_3100-i b'lieve , and the best [he]_{7459-a famous maker} ever made ; it was [poor [Miss Minto]_{405-miss minto} 's brother]_{7460-poor miss minto 's brother} 's ; and [they]_{7428-those nasty men} sha n't have it , not one of 'em . [I]_3100-i 'd sooner shoot [them]_{7428-those nasty men} with it . [I]_3100-i keeps it always in [the safest place [I]_3100-i knows on]_{7461-the safest place i knows on} , and twice a year [I]_3100-i see that it do n't get rusty . "_[3100-i] " What safe place do [you]_3101-i keep it in ? "_[3101-i] [She]_3101-i put [her]_3101-i little mouth up to [my]_0-i ear , and [her]_3101-i little hand up to [her]_3101-i mouth , and whispered — " At [the broker]_{7462-the broker} 's , [Miss]_5433-miss , in [Barbican]_44-barbican . [He]_{7459-a famous maker} has had it now six years . It 's in for a quarter its value , but that 's all the better for [me]_3101-i : [I]_3101-i have less to pay for keeping it , and [I]_3101-i carries the ticket night and day in [my]_3101-i bosom . And do [you]_5433-miss know , [[my]_3101-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , [they]_7465-they thought [they]_7465-they had got it just now ; [they]_7465-they got a key that fitted that box of [yours]_5433-miss , that [you]_5433-miss always locked so carefully , and [they]_7465-they made sure that was it ; ha , ha , how [I]_3101-i laughed at [them]_7465-they when [they]_7465-they opened it ! "_[3101-i] " What ! have [they]_7465-they dared to open [my]_3101-i mahogany box ? "_[3101-i] It was the repository of [my]_0-i precious relics . " To be sure [they]_7465-they did , [Miss]_7466-miss , and [they]_7465-they found such curious things there ! A lovely thing all set with jewels , [they]_7465-they said , a baggonet fit for the Duke of [Wellington]_{34-wellington} , and plaster shapes like [a cobbler]_{7467-a cobbler} 's last , and coloured paper with queer letters on it , and a piece of long black hair , and a plan with distances on it — Lor , [Miss]_7468-miss , what on earth is the matter ? Water ! water ! [You]_5433-miss 're like death — [Balaam]_537-balaam ! [Balak]_539-balak ! "_[3101-i] " Stop , [Mrs. Shelfer"—I]_{541-mrs. shelfer"—i[3102-her]} had fallen on the bed—"I would not for ten thousand pounds have had that box exposed to [those low ruffians]_{7469-those low ruffians} , ransacked , and even catalogued . If [I]_3101-i can punish [them]_{7469-those low ruffians} [I]_3101-i will ; and [you]_5433-miss too , [you]_5433-miss low , [miserly , meddling , inquisitive old crone]_{7470-miserly , meddling , inquisitive old crone} . "_[3101-i] [She]_3102-her cared for nothing — though afterwards [she]_3102-her told [me]_0-i [she]_3102-her never saw such eyes in [her]_3102-her life — until [I]_0-i luckily called [her]_3102-her an " [old crone]_{7471-old crone} . "_[0-i] At that , [she]_3102-her fell back upon the towel - horse , and sobbed with both hands over [her]_3102-her eyes , as if [her]_3102-her heart would break . [I]_0-i had pierced [her]_3102-her in the tenderest point — [her]_3102-her age . [I]_0-i did not feel sorry for [her]_3102-her at all for at least two minutes , but let [her]_3102-her cry away . " Serves [her]_3102-her right , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i thought . Even if [she]_3102-her could not have stopped [them]_3103-them from opening that box of [mine]_0-i , at any rate [she]_3102-her had no right to gossip about it , and enjoy it all , as [she]_3102-her evidently had done . Furthermore , [I]_0-i knew well that [she]_3102-her had always been on the tingle to learn the contents of that box , and many a time [I]_0-i had baffled [her]_3102-her . Now [she]_3102-her had triumphed thoroughly , and [I]_0-i should not have been [female]_3104-female if [I]_0-i had calmly allowed it . But seeing [her]_3102-her great distress ( through all of which [she]_3102-her talked , with sobs for affirmations ) , [I]_0-i began to think what a pity it was ; then to wonder whether [she]_3102-her deserved it all ; next , to believe that [she]_3102-her had done no harm ; lastly , to feel that [I]_0-i had been [a brute]_{3105-a brute} . Thereupon [I]_0-i rushed to coax and kiss [her]_3102-her , wiped away [her]_3102-her tears with [my]_0-i own lawn handkerchief — the feel of which consoled [her]_3102-her , for the edge was lace — and begged [her]_3102-her pardon fifty times in a thousand foolish words . Finally [she]_3102-her was quite set up again by this : " [I]_3102-her tell [you]_0-i , [[my]_3102-her dear]_{5318-my dear} [Patty]_409-patty , when [I]_3102-her come to [your]_0-i age , when [I]_3102-her am five and thirty"—she_[3102-her] was fifty - two at least—"I shall fully deserve to be called [an old woman]_{7473-an old woman} for this ; and much older [I]_3102-her shall look , there is no doubt , than [you]_0-i do . "_[3102-her] " Right , [[my]_3102-her good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , [you]_0-i are quite right there"—this_[3102-her] expression showed [me]_0-i that [she]_3102-her [herself]_3102-her was right.—"Why [the young man from the butcher]_{7475-the young man from the butcher} 's , [he]_{7475-the young man from the butcher} said to [me]_3102-her this morning , and beautiful black hair reminded [me]_3102-her of [yours]_0-i , [Miss]_5433-miss , all stuck together with the fat from off the kidneys — "_[3102-her] " Come , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , let [me]_3102-her see about [my]_3102-her box . "_[3102-her] " To be sure , to be sure , [[my]_3102-her dear]_{5318-my dear} [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara ; but what do [you]_0-i think [he]_{7475-the young man from the butcher} said ? ' Now , [William John]_{542-william john} , ' says [I]_3102-her , ' a good steak mind , a tender juicy steak , for [the gentleman visitors here'—Balaam]_{7478-the gentleman visitors here'—balaam} , [Miss]_5433-miss , and [Balak]_539-balak , if [you]_0-i please,—'does like good juicy meat . ' ' [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [ma'am]_5765-ma'am , ' [he]_{7475-the young man from the butcher} says , a bowing with [his]_{7475-the young man from the butcher} tray like that , ' [you]_5765-ma'am shall have a steak , [ma'am]_5765-ma'am , as fresh and as juicy as [yourself]_5765-ma'am . ' Now was n't that pretty , [[my]_3102-her good friend]_{1798-my good friend} ? "_[3102-her] " Beautiful , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . But see about [my]_539-balak box . "_[539-balak] " Surely , surely , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara . But it was very pretty , like a valentine , do n't [you]_293-clara think it was now ? "_[3102-her] " Where is it ? "_[3102-her] " [Downstairs]_{1041-downstairs} , [Miss]_5433-miss , in [[my]_539-balak little parlour]_{7485-my little parlour} . "_[539-balak] " Then send it up at once , by [one of [the men]_{5486-the men}]_{7486-one of the men} . "_[3102-her] Presently [Balaam]_539-balak came up , looking askance at [Judy]_477-judy , and with the mahogany box under [his]_539-balak right arm . [He]_539-balak touched [his]_539-balak dirty hat , for [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had filled [him]_539-balak by this time with the wonders of [my]_0-i wealth , and then [he]_539-balak looked doubtfully , and with sorrow , at [his]_539-balak burden . " Put it here if [you]_539-balak please , "_[0-i] and [I]_0-i pointed to some chairs , " the dog will not touch [you]_539-balak while [I]_0-i am [here]_846-here . Now what is the amount of this execution ? "_[0-i] " Debt fifteen pounds , [Miss]_5433-miss ; expenses up to five o'clock , four pound ten . "_[0-i] " Here is the money . Now give [me]_0-i a receipt . "_[0-i] " No , [Miss]_7490-miss ! [You]_5433-miss do n't mean to pay all ! "_[0-i] " Of course , [I]_0-i do . "_[0-i] " Then , [Miss]_7491-miss , [I]_0-i beg [your]_7491-miss pardon , but [I]_0-i ca n't allow [you]_7491-miss . [I]_0-i has a duty to [[my]_0-i employer]_{7492-my employer} , and [I]_0-i has a duty to [the public]_{7493-the public} too , not forgetting [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , and [Charley]_395-charley [an old friend]_{7494-an old friend} , and all so handsome in the way of victuals . And [I]_0-i 'm sure [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} would n't wish [you]_7491-miss to be cheated , [Miss.]_448-miss. Pay ten pounds for the debt , [Miss]_5433-miss , and that 's a deal more than it cost [them]_{7493-the public} or [they]_{7493-the public} expects to get . ' Twixt [you]_7491-miss and [me]_0-i , [Miss]_7496-miss , every stick of this here furniture is in a dozen bills of sale already ; and [we]_7497-we comes here more for practice like , than for anything else . "_[0-i] In short , [I]_0-i paid 10*l . * for the debt , and 4*l . * for the expenses : whereupon [Balaam]_539-balak looked at [me]_0-i with a most impressive and confidential glance . " Now , [Miss]_5433-miss , [you]_7491-miss wo n't think [me]_539-balak rude ; but [you]_7491-miss have come down so handsome , [I]_539-balak can tell [you]_7491-miss something as [you]_7491-miss may like to know . [I]_539-balak 've seed the very moral of that sword of [yours]_7491-miss before . "_[539-balak] " Are [you]_539-balak certain ? Pray where was it ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i trembled with excitement . " It was in [a place in [Somers - town]_{7500-somers - town}]_{7499-a place in somers - town} , [Miss]_7501-miss ; where [I]_0-i made a levy , some eight year agone . "_[0-i] " What was the name of [the people]_{2283-the people} ? "_[0-i] " [Dallyhorse]_{543-dallyhorse} , or [Jellycorse]_{544-jellycorse} , or something of the sort . [Foreigners]_{7503-foreigners} [they]_{7503-foreigners} was , and [they]_{7503-foreigners} had only just come to [this country]_{1963-this country} . But [I]_0-i can tell [you]_7491-miss the name more shipshape from the books . Ah , the very moral of it ; only there warn't no serpent . "_[0-i] " Do [you]_539-balak know what has become of [them]_{2283-the people} ? "_[0-i] " No that [I]_0-i do n't , and do n't want to come across [them]_{2283-the people} again . [A mean set of [mongrel parlywoos]_{7506-mongrel parlywoos}]_{7505-a mean set of mongrel parlywoos} ; [I]_0-i got [starved amost]_{545-starved amost} . But [I]_0-i did hear [they]_{2283-the people} was riding the high horse now , and something about [court]_7507-court . "_[0-i] " Are [you]_539-balak quite sure that the weapon was exactly like this ? Look at this again . "_[0-i] " [Miss]_5433-miss , [I]_0-i can take [my]_0-i oath it was [the fellow pea]_{7509-the fellow pea} , all but the little snake , and [he]_{7509-the fellow pea} ai n't a fixture , [I]_0-i do n't believe . [I]_0-i would have sworn it was the very same , only [you]_539-balak tells [me]_0-i not . [I]_0-i noticed it most particular ; for [I]_0-i never see one like it , though [I]_0-i have had a sight of foreign weapons in [my]_0-i hands ere now . And [the gent]_{2603-the gent} had got it put away so ; [we]_7511-we come across [it]_{7509-the fellow pea} only through a cat as happened to be confined — "_[0-i] " And what became of it ? Did [[your]_539-balak employer]_{7512-your employer} have it ? "_[0-i] " Not [he]_{7512-your employer} , [Miss.]_448-miss. When [the gent]_{2603-the gent} found [we]_7511-we had got it , [he]_{7512-your employer} was put out and no mistake ; though [he]_{7512-your employer} sham not . Away [he]_{7512-your employer} goes and gets the money somehow , and has [us]_7511-we all away in no time . "_[0-i] " How many were there in [the family]_{1254-the family} ? "_[0-i] " Well , let [me]_0-i see . [They]_{1254-the family} was only living in [lodgings]_{7515-lodgings} , and had but half [the house]_{764-the house} . There was [Dallyhorse]_{543-dallyhorse} [himself]_{543-dallyhorse} , and [a queer - looking lady]_{7517-a queer - looking lady} , and [some children]_{7518-some children} , [I]_0-i do n't know how many [children]_{1229-children} , for [they]_3106-they kept [them]_{1229-children} out of the way ; and [a nice young woman]_{7520-a nice young woman} as did the cooking for [them]_{1254-the family} , and precious little it was . "_[0-i] " What was [his]_3107-his profession ? And who was [[his]_3107-his creditor]_{7521-his creditor} ? ' "_[0-i] [I]_0-i do n't know . [They]_3106-they called [him]_3107-his [an artist]_{6200-an artist} [I]_0-i think , but [he]_3107-his look to [me]_0-i more like [a sailor]_{3109-a sailor} . It was a boarding - house bill , as [I]_0-i was on [him]_3107-his for . [Rum - tempered fellow]_{3110-rum - tempered fellow} . [I]_0-i thought [he]_3107-his would have stuck [me]_0-i when [I]_0-i got [his]_3107-his sword thing . [A tallish man]_{3111-a tallish man} [he]_3107-his was , slight build , and active , and such black eyes . " "_[3107-his] Now , [Balaam]_539-balak , if [you]_539-balak can trace [that man]_{1220-that man} , and find out where [he]_{1220-that man} is living now , [I]_0-i will give [you]_539-balak two hundred pounds . Here 's ten pounds for [you]_539-balak as [an earnest]_{3113-an earnest} . " [Balaam]_539-balak was so amazed , that [he]_539-balak almost looked straight at [me]_{3113-an earnest} . "_{[3113-an earnest]} Please , [Miss]_5433-miss , may [I]_0-i tell [Balak]_539-balak ? [I]_0-i sha n't be happy if [I]_0-i does n't . [We]_3115-we always works together , and it would n't be on the square like . " "_[3115-we] Was [he]_{1220-that man} with [you]_0-i then ? And can [he]_{1220-that man} keep a secret ? " "_{[1220-that man]} Yes , [Miss]_3116-miss , [he]_{1220-that man} was with [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i 'd trust [him]_{1220-that man} with a gallows secret . [I]_0-i ca n't do no good without [him]_{1220-that man} . " "_[0-i] Then , certainly [you]_0-i may tell [him]_{1220-that man} ; but not while in [this house]_{5422-this house} . Here is [my]_0-i country address , that [you]_0-i may know who [you]_0-i act for . Keep clear of [the Police]_{93-the police} . Keep the whole matter to [yourselves]_0-i . In two days , [I]_0-i leave [London]_1-london ; if [you]_0-i discover nothing in that time , write to [me]_0-i here , and [I]_0-i will take good care to have the letters forwarded . Do nothing , but find out that one thing , and when [I]_0-i have verified it , [I]_0-i will pay [you]_0-i the two hundred pounds . " "_[0-i] Would [you]_0-i mind , [Miss]_3118-miss , putting it on paper ? " "_[0-i] Yes : for many reasons , [I]_0-i will not write it down . But [you]_0-i are at liberty to inquire who [I]_0-i am , and whether [I]_0-i am likely to disgrace [my]_0-i word . " After taking [his]_0-i address , "_[0-i] [Balaam Levison]_537-balaam , [Dove Court]_{117-dove court} , [Chancery Lane]_{118-chancery lane} , " [I]_537-balaam allowed [him]_0-i to depart , and heard [him]_0-i pause on [every stair]_{7522-every stair} , to ponder this strange matter . [Presently Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} came [home]_1102-home , and was delighted to see [the bailiffs]_{7433-the bailiffs} ; and the pleasure being mutual , and [my]_537-balaam cash burning to be quenched , a most hilarious evening was the natural result . [My]_537-balaam health was drunk , as [I]_537-balaam could hear too plainly , to unfathomable depths : and comic songs from three loud organs , provided with patent nasal stops , with even [Patty]_409-patty 's treble pipe audible in the chorus , broke from time to time the tenour of [my]_537-balaam sad and lonely thoughts . [The bailiff]_{7525-the bailiff} 's discovery , and the pursuit commenced thereon , appeared to [me]_537-balaam so important , that in reply to the message received the next morning — that [[my]_537-balaam uncle]_{1271-my uncle} was much the same , and longing for [my]_537-balaam return — [I]_537-balaam sent word that [my]_537-balaam journey was put off until the day after the morrow . This allowed [me]_537-balaam one day more for tidings from [[my]_537-balaam new scouts]_{7527-my new scouts} , as to the success of [their]_{7527-my new scouts} efforts . [I]_537-balaam was very sorry to disappoint [[my]_537-balaam poor sick uncle]_{7528-my poor sick uncle} , but it seemed still worse to run away all in the dark . The next thing [I]_537-balaam did was to arrange with [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} about the money [I]_537-balaam had paid for [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . It was not the money [I]_537-balaam cared for , but [I]_537-balaam had other views . Although [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was politely thankful , [I]_537-balaam perceived that [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} thought it a very bad job indeed , and a most romantic transaction . Thirty per cent . was the very largest dividend [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} had ever intended to pay . But the plan which [I]_537-balaam proposed was so much for [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} benefit , while it suited [me]_537-balaam , who otherwise must have lost the money , that it almost recovered [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} from the shock of having paid a debt . The plan was simply this , that [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} should reserve [[my]_537-balaam rooms]_{7529-my rooms} for [me]_537-balaam , airing and cleaning [them]_{7529-my rooms} duly , and always keeping the bed in a fit state to be slept on at an hour 's notice . [My]_537-balaam previous rent had been twelve shillings a week , the utmost [I]_537-balaam could afford out of [my]_537-balaam narrow income ; attendance , and linen , and other troubles being now dispensed with , [I]_537-balaam thought it fair to allow [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ten shillings off [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} debt to [me]_537-balaam , for every week [I]_537-balaam should so retain [the rooms]_{2933-the rooms} . The 4*l . * for the expenses of the execution [I]_537-balaam forgave [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} altogether ; inasmuch as [I]_537-balaam had paid without consulting [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . Directly [my]_537-balaam payment should be exhausted , to wit in twenty weeks , [I]_537-balaam would send [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} a further sum , if [I]_537-balaam still required [the rooms]_{2933-the rooms} . [She]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was delighted with this arrangement , which in fact enabled [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} to have [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} "_[537-balaam] sticks " all to [herself]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , to pet them and talk to [them]_{2933-the rooms} every day , and even to clean them , if such a freak of destruction ever should enter [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} brain . [She]_{391-mrs. shelfer} could use [the sitting - room]_{6564-the sitting - room} for [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} own pleasure and pride , as much as ever [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} chose , so long as it always was ready for [me]_0-i ; and already visions were passing before [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} mind 's eye , of letting [the parlour]_{5965-the parlour} [downstairs]_{1041-downstairs} with the onion - room for [[its]_{5965-the parlour} dormitory]_{7535-its dormitory} . To [me]_0-i the arrangement was very convenient , as affording [a fixed and familiar resort in [London]_1-london]_{7536-a fixed and familiar resort in london} , and a pivot of ready communication . Nor was it a small consolation to feel that [I]_0-i still retained [a stronghold in [the neighbourhood of [dear friends]_{7539-dear friends}]_{7538-the neighbourhood of dear friends}]_{7537-a stronghold in the neighbourhood of dear friends} . All this being comfortably settled , [Giudice]_475-giudice and [I]_0-i went forth to pay [our]_7540-we visit in [Lucas Street]_{106-lucas street} . The whole of [that street]_{7541-that street} [we]_7540-we found so utterly changed in appearance by a vigorous onset of [painters]_{7542-painters} , [grainers]_{7543-grainers} , and [decorators]_{7544-decorators} , that it was not easy to know [the house [we]_7540-we were in quest of]_{7545-the house we were in quest of} . Even the numbers on the doors , which had been illegible , or very nearly so , had now been re - arranged and painted over again upon the fashionable and very sensible mode of marking odd numerals on one side , and even ones on the other . Finding [myself]_0-i in a difficulty , and [the houses]_{7546-the houses} all alike as [the central peas of a pod]_{7547-the central peas of a pod} , [I]_0-i trusted to [Judy]_477-judy 's delicate nose , and rang the bell of the door at which [he]_477-judy halted . Then [he]_477-judy drew back , and trembled , and crouched upon [the pavement]_{2025-the pavement} , to wait for [my]_0-i return . As [I]_0-i heard the tinkle , [my]_0-i heart began to flutter : who could tell what new phase of [my]_0-i life might begin with that little pull ? After some delay , poor old [Cora]_429-cora came , looking as weird and woebegone as ever — fierce would have been that look to [any one but [me]_0-i]_{7549-any one but me} . [I]_0-i knew that [I]_0-i held [her]_429-cora by [my]_0-i magic gordit , like [the slave of the lamp]_{7550-the slave of the lamp} . After imploring in some mumbled words ( which [I]_0-i interpreted only by knowledge of [her]_429-cora desire ) gracious leave to kiss that potent charm , [she]_429-cora led [me]_0-i into [the breakfast - parlour]_{7551-the breakfast - parlour} , where [I]_0-i found sweet [Isola]_457-isola in a passionate flood of tears . At sight of [me]_0-i , [her]_429-cora beautiful smile broke through them , and [her]_429-cora quick deep sobs spent themselves in kisses . "_[0-i] Oh , [I]_0-i am so gug - gug - glad , [my]_0-i own dear [Cla - Cla - Clara]_546-clara ; and [I]_0-i wo n't cuc - cuc - cry one bit more , the moment [I]_0-i can stop . " [She]_429-cora put [her]_429-cora arms around [me]_0-i , and [her]_429-cora head upon [my]_0-i breast , as if [I]_0-i had been , at the very least , [[her]_429-cora brother]_{6430-her brother} . "_[0-i] [[My]_0-i pretty dear]_{3119-my pretty dear} , what is it all about ? " [I]_0-i had never seen [her]_429-cora look so lovely as now , [her]_429-cora violet eyes brimming with liquid brightness , the velvet of [her]_429-cora cheeks deepened to rich carmine , and the only thing that sweet face ever wanted , the expression of earnest feeling , now radiant through the whole . "_[0-i] Why , [dear]_5871-dear , [I]_0-i ought not to tell [you]_5871-dear ; but [I]_0-i must tell [somebody]_{7269-somebody} , or [my]_0-i heart will break . " Here [she]_429-cora pressed [her]_429-cora little hand on that pure unfissured casket , where sorrow was as yet an undreamed - of robber . "_{[7269-somebody]} [You]_5871-dear know , [dear]_5871-dear , it 's all about [papa]_6651-papa and [[my]_0-i darling]_{5337-my darling} [Conny]_427-conrad . The only trouble [I]_0-i ever have , but a very great one , big enough and too big for [two little folk of [my]_0-i size]_{3125-two little folk of my size} . Half an hour ago , [I]_0-i went in suddenly to get a book upon the politico - economical science , the very one [papa]_6651-papa is lecturing about so beautifully ; and [I]_0-i did not even know that [Conny]_427-conrad was in [the house]_{764-the house} . There [papa]_6651-papa was , white as death with passion ; and [Conrad]_427-conrad with [his]_427-conrad eyes like coals of sparkling fire ; and what do [you]_5871-dear suppose [[my]_0-i papa]_{6254-my papa} called [[his]_{6254-my papa} own son]_{3130-his own son} [Conny]_427-conrad ? " "_{[6254-my papa]} Do n't tell [me]_0-i , if it 's anything bad . [I]_0-i ca n't bear it , [Isola]_457-isola . " "_[457-isola] Oh , [I]_0-i knew [you]_5871-dear were fond of [him]_427-conrad , and [I]_0-i am so glad ! " This [she]_457-isola said in such an artless way — as if [Conrad]_427-conrad and [I]_0-i were two dolls which [she]_457-isola meant to put in [[one doll]_{7553-one doll} 's house]_{7554-one doll 's house} — that instead of colouring , [I]_0-i actually laughed . "_[0-i] Oh , but [I]_0-i must tell [you]_5871-dear , [Clara]_546-clara : it 's right for [you]_5871-dear to know ; one of the leading principles of political economy — " "_[427-conrad] Do n't talk to [me]_0-i of that stuff . " "_[427-conrad] Well , [I]_0-i wo n't ; because [I]_0-i see that [you]_5871-dear do n't understand it . But [he]_427-conrad actually called [him]_427-conrad — and [his]_427-conrad voice came from a depth , like an Artesian well — [he]_427-conrad called [[our]_3131-our darling [Conny]_427-conrad]_{3132-our darling conny} — " "_[427-conrad] What ? " And in [my]_{3133-a low bastard} passion , [I]_{3133-a low bastard} flung off [her]_5871-dear hand , and stood up . "_{[3133-a low bastard]} [A low bastard]_{3133-a low bastard} , a renegade hound , a scandal to [[his]_427-conrad country]_{3134-his country} — and then [he]_427-conrad even said [Rimbecco]_547-rimbecco . " [She]_5871-dear pronounced the last word almost with a scream , as an insult beyond forgiveness . What it meant [I]_427-conrad did not ask , [I]_427-conrad had heard enough already . "_[427-conrad] [I]_0-i must leave [this house]_{5422-this house} . Where is [[your]_0-i brother]_{1415-your brother} [Conrad]_427-conrad ? " "_[0-i] Gone , [I]_0-i believe , to inquire for [you]_0-i . Nothing but that composes [him]_427-conrad . [I]_0-i wish [he]_427-conrad would never come here . And [he]_427-conrad was ordered not to . But it is about some business . Oh , [he]_427-conrad never will come again . " And [she]_{2347-dear child} began to cry at the thought of the very thing [she]_{2347-dear child} had wished for . "_[427-conrad] Neither will [I]_0-i come again . Where is [[your]_0-i father]_{5365-your father} now ? " "_[427-conrad] Up at [his]_427-conrad lumbering cabinet , where [he]_427-conrad always consoles [himself]_427-conrad , whenever [he]_427-conrad is put out . But if [you]_0-i are going , [dear child]_{2347-dear child} , do let [me]_0-i come with [you]_0-i . [I]_0-i shall cry till [I]_0-i die here , all by [myself]_0-i : and [Pappy]_426-pappy never cares about [me]_0-i , when [he]_427-conrad is in [his]_427-conrad black dudgeon . " In a few minutes [we]_7555-we left [the rude unpleasant house]_{7556-the rude unpleasant house} , and even [Judy]_477-judy seemed relieved to get away from the door . By the time [we]_7555-we reached [[Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's]_{2936-mrs. shelfer 's} , [Idols]_466-idols was in capital spirits again , and pressed [me]_427-conrad for some account of the wonderful wealth , and [the grand house [she]_466-idols had heard of]_{7558-the grand house she had heard of} . No doubt this rumour had found its way through [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} . "_[427-conrad] And [the great Lord]_{3139-the great lord} — what 's [his]_{3139-the great lord} name , dear [Donna]_476-donna ? [I]_0-i would n't believe a word of it ; though [I]_0-i 'm sure [you]_476-donna are a deal too good for [all the house of peers]_{3140-all the house of peers} . But [Conny]_427-conrad did ; and was n't [he]_427-conrad in a way ? But [he]_427-conrad ought to be very glad [you]_476-donna know — wish [you]_476-donna every blessing , as [they]_3141-they say in the plays ; and [a peer]_{3142-a peer} is the very highest blessing to [an Englishwoman]_{3143-an englishwoman} . But one thing [I]_0-i am quite resolved on : [Judy]_477-judy belongs to [me]_0-i now , do n't [you]_476-donna , [lovely Judy]_477-judy ? " "_[476-donna] No , " said the judicious , "_[476-donna] [I]_0-i belong to [Clara]_546-clara . " "_[546-clara] Though [Conny]_427-conrad pretends , since [he]_427-conrad was left at [[your]_476-donna place]_{3144-your place} , that [he]_427-conrad belongs to [him]_427-conrad . Now [I]_0-i will give [him]_427-conrad to [you]_476-donna ; and so will [Conny]_427-conrad too . [You]_476-donna can afford to keep [him]_427-conrad now , and [I]_0-i ca n't , [he]_427-conrad does eat such a lot ; and [he]_427-conrad does not care a pin for [me]_0-i , but [he]_427-conrad loves [you]_476-donna with all [his]_427-conrad heart . " "_[427-conrad] How do [you]_0-i know [he]_427-conrad does ? " [I]_0-i was not attending much , but thinking of [some one else]_{5827-some one else} . "_[0-i] Why , ca n't [you]_476-donna see that [he]_427-conrad does , how [he]_427-conrad wags [his]_427-conrad tail every time [you]_476-donna even look at [him]_427-conrad ? But [I]_0-i hope [poor Conny]_427-conrad is here . [I]_0-i should think [he]_427-conrad would stop , when [he]_427-conrad finds [darling Clara]_546-clara come back . " [I]_427-conrad had jumped to that hope long ago , before [we]_7560-we even left [Lucas Street]_{106-lucas street} , and that had something to do with [my]_427-conrad walking so fast . No , [he]_427-conrad was not there , [he]_427-conrad had not been [there]_1114-there to - day . It was [my]_427-conrad turn now to cry ; what might [he]_427-conrad not have done , after that fearful insult , and from [[his]_427-conrad own father]_{7562-his own father} too ? The tears , which [I]_427-conrad confided to [no one]_{730-no one} except the wooden - legged blackbird — for [Giudice]_475-giudice would have made such a fuss about them — were still upon [my]_427-conrad cheeks , when [I]_427-conrad heard the well - known step — not half so elastic as usual . [I]_427-conrad fled into [[my]_427-conrad bedroom]_{7442-my bedroom} , and pushed the boxes about , to make a goodly noise , and to account for the colour in [my]_427-conrad face . Then out [I]_427-conrad came at the side - door , and ran [downstairs]_{1041-downstairs} perversely , though [I]_427-conrad knew that [Conrad]_427-conrad and [Isola]_457-isola were in [[my]_427-conrad sitting - room]_{2358-my sitting - room} . But this first - rate manoeuvre only outwitted [its author]_{7567-its author} , for [Isola]_457-isola ran down after [me]_427-conrad , and sent [me]_427-conrad [upstairs]_{6042-upstairs} alone . All [my]_427-conrad little nonsense vanished the moment [I]_427-conrad looked in [Conrad]_427-conrad 's face . [His]_427-conrad healthy brown complexion was faded to an opal white ; beneath [his]_427-conrad eyes such dark blue rims , that [I]_427-conrad thought [he]_427-conrad had spectacles on ; and on either cheek a round red spot was burning . So shocked [I]_427-conrad was , that when [he]_427-conrad took [my]_427-conrad hand , [I]_427-conrad turned [my]_427-conrad face away and smothered down a sob . [I]_427-conrad felt that [I]_427-conrad had no right to be so fresh and blooming . Nor was it only in health that the contrast between [us]_7569-us lay . [I]_427-conrad was dressed with unusual care , having fidgeted all the morning , and with [my]_427-conrad utmost taste . [Poor Conrad]_{548-poor conrad} was in [his]_{548-poor conrad} working clothes , full of marble dust , tumbled , threadbare , and even in need of mending ; [his]_{548-poor conrad} hair swept anyhow , and [his]_{548-poor conrad} hands not over - lately washed . Yet , for all that , [he]_{548-poor conrad} was as clearly [a gentleman]_{5462-a gentleman} , as [I]_427-conrad was [a lady]_{5829-a lady} . Not so would [he]_{548-poor conrad} have been arrayed , [I]_427-conrad fancy , had [he]_{548-poor conrad} thought to see [neat Clara]_546-clara . And yet , who knows ? "_[427-conrad] [I]_0-i trust that [you]_3145-you will excuse [me]_0-i , " [he]_{548-poor conrad} began to say , "_[3145-you] but such things have happened lately — [you]_3145-you will not account [me]_0-i rude — [I]_0-i had no sense at all of this great pleasure . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i fear [you]_0-i have not been very happy . " [I]_0-i knew not what to say , or how to keep [my]_0-i voice clear . "_[0-i] Yes , " [he]_{548-poor conrad} replied , "_[0-i] as happy as [I]_0-i deserve . It serves [me]_0-i aright for esteeming so much of [myself]_0-i , before that [I]_0-i do anything . But [I]_0-i will win [my]_0-i way"—and [his]_{548-poor conrad} own proud glance flashed out—"and_[0-i] [we]_3146-we shall see how many will scorn [me]_0-i then . " "_{[3147-no one in the world]} [No one in [the world]_{798-the world}]_{3147-no one in the world} can scorn [you]_0-i , " [I]_{3147-no one in the world} said very softly , and [my]_{3147-no one in the world} voice thrilled through [him]_{548-poor conrad} . "_{[3147-no one in the world]} Ah , [you]_0-i are always kind and gentle:"—am [I]_0-i though , thought I—"but_[0-i] [I]_0-i will no more fatigue [you]_0-i with [my]_0-i different lot in life . [I]_0-i am told that [some great nobleman]_{3149-some great nobleman} has won [you]_0-i for [his]_{3149-some great nobleman} own . Perhaps [you]_0-i will give [me]_0-i an order . " [His]_{548-poor conrad} throat was swelling with these bitter words , and [he]_{548-poor conrad} looked at [his]_{548-poor conrad} dusty clothes . Somewhat rude [I]_0-i thought [him]_{548-poor conrad} , but [I]_0-i knew not half [his]_{548-poor conrad} troubles . "_[0-i] Whoever told [you]_0-i that , has made a great mistake . [I]_0-i am engaged to [no one]_{730-no one} . [[Your]_0-i sister]_{3151-your sister} knows [me]_0-i better . " And [I]_{3151-your sister} turned away to the window . For a minute [he]_{548-poor conrad} said nothing ; but [I]_{3151-your sister} could hear [his]_{548-poor conrad} heart beat . Stedfastly [I]_{3151-your sister} looked at [[the cheesemonger]_{7572-the cheesemonger} 's shop]_{7573-the cheesemonger 's shop} . Oh for a flower , or something on [the balcony]_{6413-the balcony} ! Presently [he]_{548-poor conrad} came round the corner of the sofa . Without being rude , [I]_{3151-your sister} could not help turning round . [His]_{548-poor conrad} face was much , much , brighter , and [his]_{548-poor conrad} eyes more kind . "_{[3151-your sister]} Have [I]_0-i said any harm — [I]_0-i would not for [the world]_{798-the world} — [I]_0-i knew not it was harm . " "_[0-i] No harm , " [I]_0-i said , "_[0-i] to think so ill of [me]_0-i ! To believe , for a single moment , that because [I]_0-i am not so poor , [I]_0-i would go and forsake — at least , [I]_0-i mean , forget — [any one [I]_0-i cared for]_{3153-any one i cared for} ! " "_[0-i] Can [I]_0-i ever hope , if [I]_0-i serve [you]_0-i all [my]_0-i life , that [you]_0-i will ever care for [me]_0-i ? " "_[0-i] Do n't [you]_0-i know [I]_0-i do ? " And [I]_0-i burst into [my]_0-i violent flood . When [I]_0-i came to [myself]_0-i , both [his]_0-i arms were round [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i was looking up at [his]_0-i poor sick face , [my]_0-i hair quite full of marble chips , and [he]_0-i was telling [me]_0-i with glad tears in [his]_0-i eyes , which [he]_0-i never took from [mine]_0-i , how [he]_0-i cared for nothing now , not for all [the world]_{798-the world} , not for glory or fur shame , so long as [I]_0-i only loved [him]_0-i . "_[0-i] With all [my]_0-i heart and soul , " [I]_0-i whispered , "_[0-i] [him]_3154-him and [no one else whatever]_{3155-no one else whatever} , whether in life or death . " All the folly [we]_7576-we went through [I]_0-i am not going to repeat , though [I]_0-i remember well every atom of it . Let [the wise]_{7577-the wise} [their]_{7577-the wise} wisdom keep , [we]_7576-we are [babes]_7578-babes and [sucklings]_{7579-sucklings} . Neither of [us]_7576-we had ever loved before , or ever meant to love again , except of course [each other]_{734-each other} , and that should be for ever . "_[0-i] One thing [I]_0-i must tell [you]_3156-you , [my]_0-i own sweet love , and yet [I]_0-i fear to do it . But [you]_3156-you are not like [other girls]_{3157-other girls} . There is [no one like [you]_3156-you]_{3158-no one like you} , nor has there ever been . [I]_0-i think [you]_3156-you will not scorn [me]_0-i for another 's fault . " "_[3156-you] Of course [I]_0-i wo n't , [my]_0-i own pet [Conny]_{548-poor conrad} . What is this awful thing ? " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i am [an illegitimate son]_{3159-an illegitimate son} . " One moment [I]_0-i sprang from [him]_{548-poor conrad} ; the next [I]_0-i despised [myself]_0-i . But in spite of all [my]_0-i troubles , there still lurked in [my]_0-i heart the narrow pride of birth . Down to the earth it fell beneath the foot of true love , and [I]_0-i kissed away from [his]_{548-poor conrad} eyes the mingled reproach and sorrow , assuring [him]_{548-poor conrad} that at least [he]_{548-poor conrad} should have [a legitimate wife]_{7581-a legitimate wife} . To make amends , [I]_0-i leaned upon [him]_{548-poor conrad} one moment , and put [my]_0-i hand on [his]_{548-poor conrad} shoulder , and let [him]_{548-poor conrad} play awhile with the dark shower of [my]_0-i hair . "_[0-i] [Darling Conny]_549-conrad , [you]_549-conrad have told [me]_0-i [yours]_549-conrad , now [you]_549-conrad shall hear [my]_0-i secret . Only promise [me]_0-i [you]_549-conrad will give tit for tat . [You]_549-conrad say [you]_549-conrad loved [me]_0-i ever since [you]_549-conrad saw [me]_0-i first ; then [you]_549-conrad must have loved [[your]_549-conrad Clara]_{3160-your clara} when [you]_549-conrad saved [her]_{3160-your clara} life . " "_[549-conrad] What do [you]_549-conrad mean , [[my]_0-i [Clara]_546-clara]_{5392-my clara} ? [Those low ruffians in [the Park]_{892-the park}]_{3162-those low ruffians in the park} were not going to kill [you]_549-conrad . " "_{[3162-those low ruffians in the park]} No , [dearest]_3164-dearest ; [I]_0-i do n't mean that at all . But there 's a kiss for that , [I]_0-i have owed it [you]_3164-dearest ever since . But what [I]_0-i mean no kisses can repay ; no , nor a life of love . [You]_3164-dearest saved a life worth fifty of [my]_0-i own . " Some dark alarm was growing in [his]_0-i eyes , on which [I]_3164-dearest gazed with vague increasing terror . "_{[3164-dearest]} Why , [dearest]_3164-dearest , it is nothing . Only [your]_3164-dearest own [Clara]_546-clara is not [Clara Valence]_{416-clara valence} ; [you]_3164-dearest must call [her]_546-clara ' [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara . ' " With actual violence [he]_0-i thrust [me]_546-clara from [his]_0-i arms , and stood staring at [me]_546-clara , while [I]_546-clara trembled from head to foot ; [his]_0-i face was one scarlet flame . "_[546-clara] And pray , [Sir]_5380-sir , what harm have [I]_0-i done ? Am [I]_0-i to suppose that you"—special emphasis meant for illegitimacy—"that_[5380-sir] [you]_5380-sir are ashamed of [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} and [me]_0-i ? " "_[5380-sir] Yes , [I]_0-i am . Accursed low licentious race ! If [you]_5380-sir knew what [you]_5380-sir have done , [you]_5380-sir would tear [your]_5380-sir heart out rather than give it to [me]_0-i . " "_[5380-sir] Thank [you]_5380-sir — [I]_0-i feel obliged — [my]_0-i heart indeed — to [a bastard]_{3168-a bastard} . Take back [your]_5380-sir ring if [you]_5380-sir please ; kindly restore [me]_0-i [mine]_0-i . May [I]_0-i trouble [you]_5380-sir for room enough to go by ? " And [I]_0-i swept out of [the room]_{823-the room} , and through the side - door into [[my]_0-i bed - room]_{7583-my bed - room} , where [I]_0-i crouched in a corner , with both hands on [my]_0-i heart , and the whole world gone away . "_[0-i] Mad ! " [I]_0-i heard [him]_0-i cry , "_[0-i] yes , [I]_0-i must go mad at last ! " Away [he]_0-i rushed from [the house]_{764-the house} , and [I]_0-i fell upon the bed , and lay in fits till midnight . [I]_0-i believe that [my]_0-i heart would have burst , if [they]_7585-they had not cut [my]_0-i stays ; and how [I]_0-i wished it had . When [I]_0-i came back to [my]_0-i unlucky self , there was something shivery cold in the forehead wave of [my]_0-i hair . Was it [Conrad]_549-conrad 's finger ? [I]_0-i put up [my]_0-i hand to dash it away , and caught a fine fat leech . [Dr. Franks]_{462-dr. franks} was sitting by [me]_0-i , holding a basin and a sponge . "_[0-i] That 's the last of them , [[my]_0-i dear child]_{2385-my dear child} . Do n't disturb [him]_0-i . [He]_0-i is doing [his]_0-i duty by [you]_{2385-my dear child} . " "_[0-i] [His]_0-i duty ! Was it [his]_0-i duty to say such fearful things ? To break [my]_0-i heart with every word ! Ashamed of [me]_0-i — ashamed of [[my]_0-i darling father]_{3170-my darling father} ! Low and licentious ! What have [I]_0-i done ? what have [I]_0-i done ? Oh , it [I]_0-i only knew what harm [I]_0-i have ever done ! " "_[0-i] No harm , [[my]_0-i poor dear]_{3171-my poor dear} , no harm in [the world]_{798-the world} ; let [me]_0-i bathe [your]_{3171-my poor dear} pretty face . Come now , [you]_{3171-my poor dear} sha n't cry another drop . What is to become of the beautiful eyes [I]_0-i was so proud of saving ? " "_[0-i] Oh , [I]_0-i wish [you]_0-i had n't , how [I]_0-i wish [you]_0-i had n't . [Dr. Franks]_{462-dr. franks} , [I]_0-i have [no father]_{3173-no father} , and [no mother]_{3174-no mother} , and [no one in all [the world]_{798-the world}]_{3175-no one in all the world} to love [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i was just getting so nice and happy again , so proud of [myself]_0-i , and so much prouder of [him]_{462-dr. franks} , and [I]_0-i began to think how glad [[my]_0-i own dear father]_{2510-my own dear father} would be ; and , [Dr. Franks]_{462-dr. franks} , [I]_0-i did love [him]_{462-dr. franks} so , with all [my]_0-i heart , perhaps it 's not very large , but with every morsel and atom of [my]_0-i heart — and now , now [I]_0-i must hate [him]_{462-dr. franks} as much as ever [I]_0-i can . Oh let [me]_0-i go [home]_1102-home , do let [me]_0-i go [home]_1102-home , where [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} and [mother]_739-mother are buried . " And [I]_{1982-every one} rose in the bed to start , and the candles glimmered in [my]_{1982-every one} eyes . "_{[1982-every one]} Please to go out of [the room]_{823-the room} , [every one]_{1982-every one} please to go ; and do n't let [Isola]_457-isola come . [I]_0-i ca n't bear the sight of [her]_457-isola now . It wo n't take [me]_0-i long to dress , and [I]_0-i do n't want any luggage ; and , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , please to go for [a cab]_{2021-a cab} : and [I]_0-i sha n't want [the rooms]_{2933-the rooms} any more , and it does not matter a bit about any letters . [I]_0-i 'll tell [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} everything when [I]_0-i see [him]_{731-my father} , and then perhaps [he]_{731-my father} 'll tell [me]_0-i what harm it is [I]_0-i have done . Why do n't [you]_0-i go , when [you]_0-i see [I]_0-i want to get up ? ' " Do n't [you]_0-i see , [[my]_0-i dear child]_{2385-my dear child} , [we]_7587-we are going ? Only [you]_0-i must take this glass of wine first , to prepare [you]_0-i for [your]_0-i long journey . Will [you]_0-i take it now , while [we]_7587-we fetch [the cab]_{6488-the cab} ? "_[0-i] " Yes , anything , anything : [I]_0-i do n't care what it is . Only let [me]_0-i get ready . "_[0-i] And [I]_0-i drank , without even tasting it , a glass of some dark liquid , which saved [me]_0-i from wandering further either in mind or body . When [I]_0-i awoke , it was broad noon once more , and [Dr. Franks]_{462-dr. franks} was sitting by [me]_0-i with one of [my]_0-i hands in [his]_{462-dr. franks} . " Magnificent constitution , "_{[462-dr. franks]} [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i heard [him]_{462-dr. franks} mutter , " glorious constitution . "_{[462-dr. franks]} What good was it to [me]_0-i ? At the foot of the bed , sat [Isola]_457-isola crying terribly . Slowly [I]_0-i remembered all [my]_0-i great disaster , but saw it only through a dull gray veil . The power of the opiate was still upon [my]_0-i brain . But a cold dead pain lay heavy on [my]_0-i heart , and always seemed to want a heavy hand upon it . After [he]_{462-dr. franks} had given [me]_0-i a reviving draught , [Dr. Franks]_{462-dr. franks} perceived that [I]_0-i wished to speak to [Isola]_457-isola , and accordingly withdrew . [Poor Isola]_463-isola came slowly and sat beside [my]_0-i pillow , doubting whether [she]_463-isola should dare to take [my]_0-i hand . Therefore [I]_0-i took [hers]_457-isola , drew [her]_457-isola face towards [me]_0-i , and covered it with kisses . [Isola]_463-isola had done no harm to [me]_0-i whatever , and [I]_0-i felt it something to have even [her]_457-isola to love . [She]_463-isola was overcome with affectionate surprise . " Oh , [Clara dearest]_293-clara , [I]_463-isola am so very glad to find [you]_293-clara love [me]_463-isola still . [I]_463-isola feared that [you]_293-clara would never care for [me]_463-isola again . What is it all about , [dear]_5871-dear , if [you]_293-clara are well enough to tell [me]_463-isola , what is all this dreadful misery about ? "_[463-isola] " That is the very thing [I]_0-i want to learn from [you]_293-clara , [dear]_5871-dear . Surely [you]_293-clara must know better far than [I]_0-i do . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i would not even ask [her]_463-isola what had become of [Conrad]_549-conrad . " No , [I]_463-isola do n't dear . [I]_463-isola do n't know at all . All [I]_463-isola know is there must have been some dreadful quarrel between [you]_293-clara and [Conrad]_549-conrad . [I]_463-isola must tell [you]_293-clara , [dear]_5871-dear , [I]_463-isola was so anxious about something [you]_293-clara can guess , that [I]_463-isola stole up to the door soon after [he]_549-conrad came in ; and [you]_293-clara were so intent upon the window , that [you]_293-clara never even saw [me]_463-isola put the door ajar ; and then [I]_463-isola heard [him]_549-conrad tell [you]_293-clara how very much [he]_549-conrad loved [you]_293-clara , and [I]_463-isola was so glad . And then [I]_463-isola thought it was not quite fair of [me]_463-isola , and [I]_463-isola knew all [I]_463-isola wanted , so [I]_463-isola ran [downstairs]_{1041-downstairs} again . And the next thing [I]_463-isola heard was [your]_293-clara bedroom door bang and then [Conny]_549-conrad dashed out [the house]_{764-the house} , and [Judy]_477-judy came down to [me]_463-isola looking very sorrowful . And [I]_463-isola ran up to [you]_293-clara , and [here]_846-here [I]_463-isola found [you]_293-clara shrieking so , and rolling , and clutching at the bedclothes , and [I]_463-isola was so frightened [I]_463-isola could not even move . And then [Judy]_477-judy came and made such a dreadful howling , and [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ran straight off for [the doctor]_{5643-the doctor} , and [I]_463-isola poured the water in the decanter over [you]_293-clara , and [I]_463-isola ca n't tell any more . "_[463-isola] " But surely , [darling]_6257-darling , [you]_293-clara have been [home]_1102-home since that ? "_[0-i] " Oh yes ; when [Dr. Franks]_{462-dr. franks} came , and [you]_293-clara were a little better , [he]_{462-dr. franks} would make [me]_0-i go [home]_1102-home , because [he]_{462-dr. franks} did not want [two patients]_{7599-two patients} , [he]_{462-dr. franks} said ; and [[his]_{462-dr. franks} eldest daughter]_{7600-his eldest daughter} , such [a nice girl]_{7601-a nice girl} , came with [me]_0-i ; and [[my]_0-i papa]_{6254-my papa} did n't even know that [I]_0-i had been out of [the house]_{764-the house} . [He]_{462-dr. franks} was still [upstairs]_{6042-upstairs} , brooding over [his]_{462-dr. franks} relics , and [all the sixth form at [the College]_{6246-the college}]_{7605-all the sixth form at the college} had to go to dinner without [their]_{7605-all the sixth form at the college} lectures ; but [I]_0-i do believe [the stupid girls]_{7607-the stupid girls} were glad . "_[0-i] " And did [you]_0-i hear — no , it does n't matter . "_[463-isola] " No , [I]_0-i never heard what became of [Conrad]_549-conrad . No doubt [he]_549-conrad went back to [his]_549-conrad favourite chip , chipping . [He]_{462-dr. franks} has got a splendid thing [he]_{462-dr. franks} is full of now , and it prevents [his]_{462-dr. franks} sleeping ; something or other very horrible from [Dante]_550-dante , and [the leading figure]_{7608-the leading figure} is modelled after [you]_0-i . [I]_0-i have seen the drawings , and [he]_{462-dr. franks} has got [you]_0-i exactly . "_[0-i] " How gratifying to be sure ! [I]_463-isola will ask [you]_0-i no more questions . Pray let [me]_463-isola know when [I]_463-isola am for sale ; though [I]_463-isola should call it a work of illegitimate art . "_[463-isola] [My]_0-i eyes were on [her]_3187-she face , but [she]_3187-she showed no consciousness whatever , which [she]_3187-she must have done had [she]_3187-she known the fact referred to , for [she]_3187-she was quick of perception , and open as the day . [I]_0-i was angry with [myself]_0-i for the low and bootless sneer , which was pretty certain to be conveyed to [[her]_3187-she brother]_{6430-her brother} . " Now [I]_463-isola will delay no longer . Let [me]_463-isola speak to [Dr. Franks]_{462-dr. franks} . [I]_463-isola shall go this afternoon . "_[463-isola] [Poor Isola]_463-isola turned pale ; [she]_463-isola had looked upon the occurrence as only [a lover]_{3189-a lover} 's quarrel , sure to be set right in a day or two . [She]_463-isola could not harbour any great resentment long , and forgot that [I]_0-i could . " Do n't talk so , [dear]_5871-dear ; and [you]_5871-dear so very weak ! it would be sure to kill [you]_5871-dear . And what will [Conny]_549-conrad think ? [You]_5871-dear must not go , at any rate , till [you]_5871-dear have been to see [him]_549-conrad . "_[463-isola] " [I]_0-i go to [him]_549-conrad ! [I]_0-i hope to see [him]_549-conrad never more until [I]_0-i charge [him]_549-conrad in [another world]_{7610-another world} with this bitter wrong . No , no more if [you]_5871-dear please ; [I]_0-i will not hear [his]_549-conrad name again . How can [he]_549-conrad be [[your]_5871-dear brother]_{1415-your brother} ? [Darling Idols]_{551-darling idols} , [I]_0-i never shall forget [you]_3190-you . Take this , [[my]_0-i pet]_{5394-my pet} , and think of [me]_0-i sometimes , for [you]_3190-you will never see [me]_0-i more . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i gave [her]_3190-you an emerald ring , set with lovely pearls , small types of [herself]_3190-you . It was not the one [I]_0-i had reclaimed from [[her]_3190-you brother]_{6430-her brother} , that was [a plain keeper]_{3192-a plain keeper} . " Oh [Clara]_293-clara , [Clara]_293-clara , do n't say that , whatever [you]_3190-you do , because [I]_{3192-a plain keeper} know [you]_3190-you will keep to it , [you]_3190-you are so shamefully obstinate . And [I]_{3192-a plain keeper} never loved [any one in [the world]_{798-the world} like [you]_3190-you]_{7613-any one in the world like you} ; no , not even [Conny]_549-conrad . "_{[3192-a plain keeper]} " And not even [[your]_3190-you father]_{5365-your father} or [mother]_739-mother ? "_{[3192-a plain keeper]} " No , not half so much . [I]_{3192-a plain keeper} like [Pappy]_426-pappy very well when [he]_426-pappy is good and kind , but that is not very often now"—the_{[3192-a plain keeper]} poor little thing 's eyes filled again with tears,—"and as for [[my]_{3192-a plain keeper} mother]_{746-my mother} , [I]_{3192-a plain keeper} never even saw [her]_{746-my mother} ; [she]_{746-my mother} died when [I]_{3192-a plain keeper} was born . "_{[3192-a plain keeper]} " And [I]_{3192-a plain keeper} love [you]_3190-you too , [[my]_{3192-a plain keeper} sweet]_{7618-my sweet} , best of all [the world]_{798-the world} — now . Nevertheless , [we]_7620-we must part . "_{[3192-a plain keeper]} " And never see [each other]_{734-each other} ? [I]_3193-i do n't call that loving . Tell [me]_3193-i why : do tell [me]_3193-i why . There seems some horrid mystery about every one [I]_3193-i love . "_[3193-i] And [she]_3193-i was overcome with grief . [She]_3193-i had not been , like [me]_0-i , apprenticed young to trouble . " [Darling]_6257-darling , [I]_3193-i will write to [you]_6257-darling sometimes . [You]_6257-darling can come here for the letters . [I]_3193-i will have no secrets any more from [you]_6257-darling ; but [you]_6257-darling must never attempt to write to [me]_3193-i — only send [your]_6257-darling name on a bit of paper when [my]_3193-i letters go . "_[3193-i] " But why on earth may n't [I]_3193-i write to [you]_6257-darling , [Clara dear]_{6662-clara dear} ? "_[3193-i] " [I]_3193-i ca n't tell [you]_6257-darling why . Only [I]_3193-i can not bear it . "_[3193-i] The truth was [I]_0-i could never have borne to read about [[her]_3193-i brother]_{6430-her brother} . So all that was settled , and [I]_0-i said good - bye with plenty of bitter crying . As for [Balaam]_537-balaam and [Balak]_539-balak , from whom [I]_0-i expected tidings , and [George Cutting]_{490-george cutting} , whom [I]_0-i had thought it right to send for — [I]_0-i had not the heart to attend to any of [them]_3195-them . [Dr. Franks]_{462-dr. franks} had done [his]_{462-dr. franks} utmost to oppose [my]_0-i sudden journey , but [I]_0-i told [him]_{462-dr. franks} truly that [I]_0-i should go mad if [I]_0-i stopped [there]_1114-there any longer . [I]_0-i could not bear the mere sight of [the room where [I]_0-i had been , in the height of delicious joy , so trampled upon and outraged]_{3197-the room where i had been , in the height of delicious joy , so trampled upon and outraged} . [My]_0-i brain was burning , and [my]_0-i heart was aching for the only spot on [earth where true love could be found]_{3198-earth where true love could be found} , the spot where lay [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} and [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} . Seeing how the fever of the mind was kindling , [the doctor]_{5643-the doctor} , like [a good physician]_{3202-a good physician} , knew that the best plan was to indulge , and so allay it . Yet [he]_{462-dr. franks} begged [me]_0-i , if [I]_0-i had any regard for [him]_{462-dr. franks} , not to travel all alone while in that dangerous state . With most unlooked - for and unmerited kindness , [he]_{462-dr. franks} even sent [[his]_{462-dr. franks} eldest daughter]_{7600-his eldest daughter} , at an hour 's notice , to see [me]_0-i [home]_1102-home in safety . The last farewell was said to [Judy]_477-judy , whom [I]_0-i would not take away , greatly as [I]_0-i loved [him]_477-judy still ; and [he]_477-judy received most stringent orders first to conduct [dear Isola]_463-isola [home]_1102-home , and then to go to [[his]_477-judy old quarters at [the livery stables]_{3207-the livery stables}]_{3206-his old quarters at the livery stables} . Apparently [he]_477-judy acquiesced , though with wistful glances ; but at [Paddington]_{246-paddington} , as [I]_0-i was getting the tickets , to [my]_0-i amazement in [he]_477-judy rushed , upset [a couple of [porters]_3209-porters]_{3208-a couple of porters} , and demanded [his]_477-judy ticket too . Under the circumstances there was nothing for it , except to let [him]_477-judy go with [us]_3210-us , or to lose [the train]_{7101-the train} . So [his]_477-judy ticket was taken , and [he]_477-judy dashed into the dog - box with an enthusiasm which earned [him]_477-judy a hard knock on the head . [Annie Franks]_{552-annie franks} was exactly as [Isola]_463-isola had described [her]_{552-annie franks} , " such [a nice girl]_{7601-a nice girl} . "_{[552-annie franks]} Kind - hearted like [[her]_{552-annie franks} father]_{898-her father} , truthful , ladylike , and sensitive ; retiring too , and humble - minded , with a well of mute romance in the shadow of [her]_{552-annie franks} heart , a wave of which [she]_{552-annie franks} would not for [the world]_{798-the world} display . The only vent [she]_{552-annie franks} ever allowed this most expansive element was novel - reading , or a little quiet hero - worship . [Her]_{552-annie franks} greatest happiness was to sit upon [a lonely bank]_{3214-a lonely bank} , and read a slashing curtel - axe and gramercy romance , with lots of high - born ladies in it , and lots of moonlight love . If history got hard thumps among [them]_3215-them , and chronology , like an unwound clock , was right but twice in twenty - four , [simple Annie]_{552-annie franks} smiled no less , so long as the summer sun flashed duly on pennon , helm , and gonfalon , and [she]_{552-annie franks} could see bright cavalcades winding through the greenwood shade . In " coat and waistcoat "_{[552-annie franks]} novels [her]_{552-annie franks} soul took no delight . Not a shilling would [she]_{552-annie franks} squeeze from [her]_{552-annie franks} little beaded purse for all the quicksilver of [Dickens]_553-dickens , or the frosted gold of [Thackeray]_{554-thackeray} . Yet [she]_{552-annie franks} was not by any means what [fast young ladies]_{3216-fast young ladies} call [a " spooney]_{7625-a " spooney} ; "_{[552-annie franks]} [she]_{552-annie franks} had plenty of common sense upon the things of daily life , plenty of general information , and no lack of gentle self - respect . Now [she]_{552-annie franks} was wending through [an upland meet for gray - clad reverie]_{3217-an upland meet for gray - clad reverie} , where [she]_{552-annie franks} might dream for days and days , and none but silly deer intrude . As [we]_3218-we passed along in the gloaming of [the May]_{355-margery daw} , through [bosomed lawn]_{3219-bosomed lawn} and [bosky dell]_{121-bosky dell} , with lilac plumes for cavaliers , and hawthorn sweeps for [ladies]_6735-ladies ' trains , the soft gray eyes of [Annie]_{552-annie franks} ceased at last to watch [me]_0-i , and [her]_{552-annie franks} thoughts were in costume of [Chevy Chase]_{555-chevy chase} or [Crecy]_556-crecy . By reason of the message sent the day before , [no one in]_{3221-no one in} [the house]_{764-the house} expected [me]_0-i ; so [we]_3218-we stole in quietly , lest [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} should be alarmed , and [I]_0-i requested [Gregory]_557-gregory , [tipsy [Bob]_522-bob 's successor]_{3224-tipsy bob 's successor} , to bring [Jane]_347-jane to meet [us]_3218-we , in [[my]_0-i own little room]_{7111-my own little room} . [Annie]_{552-annie franks} being installed [there]_1114-there , to [her]_{552-annie franks} great delight , and allowed free boot of " Marry , [Sir knight]_{7626-sir knight} , "_{[552-annie franks]} and " Now by [my]_{552-annie franks} halidame , "_{[552-annie franks]} [I]_0-i went to see [[my]_0-i poor dear uncle]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} , who by this time was prepared for [my]_0-i visit . Very weak [he]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} seemed , and nervous , and more rejoiced at [my]_0-i return than even [I]_0-i had expected . To [me]_0-i also it was warm comfort in [my]_0-i cold pride - ailment to be with [one of [[my]_0-i own kin]_{3229-my own kin} , whom none could well disparage]_{3228-one of my own kin , whom none could well disparage} . There was a dignity about [him]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} , an air of lofty birth , which [[my]_0-i own darling father]_{1243-my own darling father} had been too genial to support . Soon [I]_0-i perceived from [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's manner , that something had happened since [my]_0-i departure to add to [his]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} uneasiness . But [he]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} offered no explanation and [I]_0-i did not like to ask [him]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} . [He]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} in turn perceived the heavy dark despondency , which , in spite of all [my]_0-i efforts , would at times betray itself . Pride and indignation supported [me]_0-i , when [I]_0-i began to think , but then [I]_0-i could not always think , whereas [I]_0-i could always feel . Moreover , pride and indignation are , in almost every case , props that carry barbs . In a word , though [I]_0-i would scorn [the love - lorn maiden]_{3232-the love - lorn maiden} 's part , it was sad for [me]_0-i to know that [I]_0-i could never love again . With [a father]_{3233-a father} 's tenderness , [he]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} feebly drew [my]_0-i head to [his]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} trembling breast , and asked [me]_0-i in a tearful whisper what had happened to [me]_0-i . But [I]_0-i was too proud to tell [him]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} . Oh that [I]_0-i had not been ! What misery might have been spared to [many]_3234-many . But all the time [my]_0-i head lay there , [I]_0-i was on fire with shame and agony , thinking of the breast on which [my]_0-i hair had last been shed . " Now , [good nurse]_{7627-good nurse} [Clara]_293-clara , "_{[3227-my poor dear uncle]} [he]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} said at last with a poor attempt at playfulness , " [I]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} shall have no more confidence in [your]_293-clara professional skill , unless [you]_293-clara wheel [me]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} forth to - morrow with a cheerful face . [You]_293-clara are tired to - night , [[my]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} love]_{5792-my love} , and so should [I]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} have been , if [you]_293-clara had not come [home]_1102-home . To - morrow [you]_293-clara shall tell [me]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} why [you]_293-clara came so suddenly and saved [me]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} a day of longing . And to - morrow , if [I]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} am strong enough , [I]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} will tell [you]_293-clara a little history , which may be lost , like many a great one , unless it is quickly told . Stop — one cup of tea , [dear]_5871-dear , and how proud [I]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} am to pour it out for [you]_293-clara — and then [I]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} will not keep [you]_293-clara from [a livelier friend]_{7631-a livelier friend} . To - morrow , [you]_293-clara must introduce [me]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} . [I]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} still like [pretty girls]_{7632-pretty girls} , and [you]_293-clara should have brought [that lovely Isola]_463-isola with [you]_293-clara . [I]_{3227-my poor dear uncle} ca n't think why [you]_293-clara did n't . [She]_463-isola would have been most welcome . "_{[3227-my poor dear uncle]} " Come , [uncle]_1284-uncle , [I]_3235-i shall be jealous . [The young lady [I]_3235-i have brought]_{7634-the young lady i have brought} is quite pretty enough for [you]_1284-uncle . "_[3235-i] [He]_3235-i sighed at some remembrance , and then asked abruptly , " Do [you]_0-i mean to sleep , [[my]_3235-i darling]_{5337-my darling} , in [the little room]_{6379-the little room} to - night ? "_[3235-i] [His]_3235-i voice shook so , while [he]_3235-i asked this question , that [I]_0-i was quite certain something had alarmed [him]_3235-i . [The little room]_{6379-the little room} was [the one [I]_0-i had occupied between [the main corridor]_{840-the main corridor} and [[his]_3235-i present bedroom]_{3239-his present bedroom}]_{3237-the one i had occupied between the main corridor and his present bedroom} . It was meant for [an ante - room]_{3240-an ante - room} , not [a sleeping chamber]_{3241-a sleeping chamber} ; but [I]_0-i had brought [my]_0-i little iron bedstead thither . " To be sure [I]_0-i do , [dear uncle]_{3045-dear uncle} ; do [you]_{3045-dear uncle} suppose , because [I]_0-i have been off duty , that [I]_0-i mean to be cashiered ? Only one thing [I]_0-i must tell [you]_{3045-dear uncle} ; [I]_0-i have brought [home]_1102-home with [me]_0-i one of [the very best friends [I]_0-i ever had]_{7639-the very best friends i ever had} . [You]_{3045-dear uncle} have heard [me]_0-i talk of [Giudice]_475-giudice . [I]_0-i can not bear the thought of parting with [him]_475-giudice to - night , [he]_475-giudice will cry so dreadfully in [the strange stables]_{7640-the strange stables} ; and in [London]_1-london [he]_475-giudice always slept on the mat outside [my]_0-i door . May [I]_0-i have [him]_475-giudice in [the lobby]_{2955-the lobby} , [uncle]_1284-uncle , [you]_{3045-dear uncle} will never hear [him]_475-giudice move , and [he]_475-giudice never snores except just after dinner ? "_[0-i] " To be sure , [[my]_3242-my pet]_{5394-my pet} ; [I]_3242-my would not part [you]_{5394-my pet} for [the world]_{798-the world} . [God]_303-god bless [you]_{5394-my pet} , [[my]_3242-my own child]_{2352-my own child} , and keep [your]_{5394-my pet} true heart lighter . "_[3242-my] If [I]_0-i had been really [[his]_3242-my own child]_{3243-his own child} , [he]_3242-my could not have been more loving to [me]_0-i , than [he]_3242-my had now become . After giving [Annie Franks]_{552-annie franks} [her]_{552-annie franks} tea , which [she]_{552-annie franks} was far too deep in tournament to drink , [I]_0-i paid a visit to [[Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} 's room]_{3244-mrs. fletcher 's room} , and learned from [her]_{552-annie franks} that nothing , so far as [she]_{552-annie franks} knew , had happened to disturb [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} : [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} had not been near [the house]_{764-the house} , and there was a rumour afloat that [she]_{552-annie franks} had been called to take part in a revival meeting near [Swansea]_122-swansea . So after introducing [Judy]_477-judy , who was a dreadful dog for jam , and having [him]_477-judy admired almost as much as [he]_477-judy ought to be , [I]_0-i returned to [Annie]_{552-annie franks} , and found [her]_{552-annie franks} in high delight with everything and [everybody]_{6273-everybody} , and most of all with [her]_{552-annie franks} tapestry - writer . Leaving [her]_{552-annie franks} at last under [Tilly]_409-patty 's care , [Judy]_477-judy and [I]_0-i were making off for [[our]_3248-our sleeping quarters]_{3249-our sleeping quarters} , when [truant Matilda]_524-matilda followed [me]_0-i down [the passage hastily]_{3250-the passage hastily} . " Oh , [Miss]_7646-miss , please , [Miss]_7647-miss , [I]_524-matilda want to tell [you]_7647-miss something , and [I]_524-matilda did not like to name it before [that nice young lady]_{7648-that nice young lady} , because [I]_524-matilda am sure [she]_{7648-that nice young lady} is timid like . "_{[524-matilda]} [Matilda]_524-matilda looked not timid like , but terrified exceedingly , as [she]_524-matilda stared on every side with [her]_524-matilda candle guttering . " Hold [your]_7647-miss candle up , [Matilda]_524-matilda ; and tell [me]_524-matilda what it is . "_{[524-matilda]} By this time [we]_3248-our were in [the main passage]_{3251-the main passage} , " corridor "_[3252-they] [they]_3252-they called it , and could see all down [it]_{3251-the main passage} by the faint light of some oil - lamps , to the oriel window at the farther end , whereon the moon ( now nearly full again ) was shining . " Why , [Miss]_7649-miss , the ghost was walking last night , and the night before . "_[409-patty] " Nonsense , [Matilda]_524-matilda . Do n't be so absurd . "_[409-patty] " It 's true , [Miss. True]_448-miss. as [you]_7647-miss stand there . Pale gray it is this time , and so tall , and the face as white as ashes . "_[409-patty] And a shiver ran through [Tilly]_409-patty , at [her]_409-patty own description—"You know , [Miss]_7650-miss , it 's the time of year , and [she]_{7648-that nice young lady} always walks three nights together , from the big east window to this end and back again . So please to lock [your]_7647-miss door , [Miss]_7651-miss , and bolt it too inside . "_[409-patty] " Well done , [Tilly]_409-patty ! Does [any one]_{1178-any one} intend to wait up for [the ghost]_{7653-the ghost} ? What time does it come ? "_[409-patty] " [One o'clock]_{7654-one o'clock} , [Miss]_5433-miss , as punctual as a time - piece . But could [you]_5433-miss suppose , [Miss]_7656-miss , [any one]_{1178-any one} would dare to wait up and see it ? "_[409-patty] " Then how have [they]_3252-they seen it , in the name of folly ? "_[409-patty] " Why , [Miss]_7658-miss , [I]_409-patty 'll tell [you]_7658-miss . [One of [the carriage - horses]_{7660-the carriage - horses}]_{7659-one of the carriage - horses} got an inflammation in [his]_{7659-one of the carriage - horses} eyes , and [the farrier]_{7661-the farrier} give orders to have it sponged never more than three hours between , and so [William Edwards]_{558-william edwards} , [the head - groom]_{7662-the head - groom} if [you]_7658-miss please , [Miss"—Tilly]_{559-miss"—tilly[409-patty]} curtseyed [here]_846-here , because this was [her]_3254-her legitimate sweetheart—"he stops up till one o'clock to see to it , and then [Job Leyson]_494-job goes instead . So [William]_{558-william edwards} come in , [Miss]_5433-miss , on Monday night , to go to bed , please , [Miss]_7664-miss , and [he]_{558-william edwards} took the short cut , not that [he]_{558-william edwards} were allowed , [Miss]_7665-miss , or would think of taking a liberty on no account whatever , but [he]_{558-william edwards} were that sleepy [he]_{558-william edwards} did n't know the way to bed , so [he]_{558-william edwards} went across [the corridor]_{7666-the corridor} for the short cut from [the kitchen gallery]_{7667-the kitchen gallery} to [[the servants]_{772-the servants} ' passage]_{7669-the servants ' passage} ; and there [he]_{558-william edwards} saw — [he]_{558-william edwards} had n't any light , [Miss]_7670-miss , and the lamps all out — Goodness [me]_409-patty ! Whatever was that ? Did [you]_7670-miss hear it , [Miss]_7671-miss ? "_[409-patty] " Yes , and see it , [Tilly]_409-patty ; it 's a daddy in [your]_409-patty candle . Go on , [Tilly]_409-patty , will [you]_409-patty . Am [I]_409-patty to stop [here]_846-here all night and get as bad as [you]_409-patty are ? "_[409-patty] " There [William Edwards]_{558-william edwards} , a man who never swears or drinks , there [he]_{558-william edwards} saw all in the dark , coming so stately down [the corridor]_{7666-the corridor} , as if [it]_{7666-the corridor} had n't room enough , with one arm up like this , [a tall pale melancholy ghost]_{7674-a tall pale melancholy ghost} , and [he]_{558-william edwards} knew it was [the lady who was wronged and killed , when the great wars was , [Miss]_7676-miss , two hundred year agone]_{7675-the lady who was wronged and killed , when the great wars was , miss , two hundred year agone} . "_[409-patty] " Well , [Tilly]_409-patty , and did [he]_{558-william edwards} speak to [it]_{7675-the lady who was wronged and killed , when the great wars was , miss , two hundred year agone} ? "_[409-patty] " [He]_{558-william edwards} was that frightened , [Miss]_7677-miss , [he]_{558-william edwards} could not move or speak ; but [he]_{558-william edwards} fell again the wall in [the side - passage]_{7678-the side - passage} , with [his]_{558-william edwards} eyes coming out of [his]_{558-william edwards} head , and [his]_{558-william edwards} hair up like [my]_409-patty wicker - broom . And then [she]_{7675-the lady who was wronged and killed , when the great wars was , miss , two hundred year agone} vanished away , and [he]_{558-william edwards} got to bed , and did perspire so , [they]_7679-they was forced to wring the blankets . "_[409-patty] " Capital , [Tilly]_409-patty ! And who saw [her]_{7675-the lady who was wronged and killed , when the great wars was , miss , two hundred year agone} the next night ? "_[409-patty] " Why [that nincompoop Job Leyson]_{7680-that nincompoop job leyson} , [Miss. Our William]_{560-miss. our william} was a deal too wise to go that way any more , but [he]_{558-william edwards} tell [Job Leyson]_494-job , and [he]_{558-william edwards} [a foolish empty fellow]_{7681-a foolish empty fellow} , perhaps [you]_7677-miss know , [Miss.]_{560-miss. our william} ' Ho , ' says [Job]_494-job , ' [I]_409-patty often hear tell of [her]_{7675-the lady who was wronged and killed , when the great wars was , miss , two hundred year agone} , to - night [I]_409-patty 'll have a peep . ' So last night when [William]_{560-miss. our william} went to bed on [the servants]_{772-the servants} ' side , down comes [Job]_494-job and takes the front way , pretty impudent of [him]_{558-william edwards} [I]_409-patty think . And , [Miss]_7683-miss , [I]_409-patty do n't know what [he]_{558-william edwards} see , [I]_409-patty never says much to [him]_{558-william edwards} ; but there [they]_{772-the servants} found [him]_{558-william edwards} in [the saddle - room]_{7684-the saddle - room} , at five o'clock this morning , with [his]_{558-william edwards} heels up on a rack , and [his]_{558-william edwards} head down in the bucket , and never a bit of sponge had come near the poor mare 's eye . "_[409-patty] " Oh , thank [you]_0-i , [Tilly]_409-patty . Perhaps [you]_0-i had better snuff [your]_0-i candle . [No ghost]_{7685-no ghost} will have much chance that comes near [[my]_409-patty Judy]_{7686-my judy} . "_[409-patty] And with that [I]_0-i went to bed , tired of such nonsense . An hour of deep sleep from pure weariness both of mind and body , and [I]_0-i awoke with every fibre full of nervous life . The moon was high in the south - east , and three narrow stripes of lozenged light fell upon the old oak floor . Although [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} had left the gable where the windows faced the setting sun , [he]_{1271-my uncle} still kept to the western wing . [The house]_{764-the house} , which was built in the reign of [Henry the Eighth]_{561-henry the eighth} , covered [the site]_{3257-the site} and in some parts embodied the relics of [a much more ancient structure]_{3258-a much more ancient structure} . The plan was very simple , at least as regarded [the upstair rooms]_{3259-the upstair rooms} . From east to west ran [one long corridor]_{3260-one long corridor} , crossed at right angles , in the centre and near the ends , by three gable passages . Although there were so many [servants]_{6349-servants} , not half [the rooms]_{2933-the rooms} were occupied : [all the best bedrooms]_{3263-all the best bedrooms} had been empty many a year . No festivities had filled [them]_{3263-all the best bedrooms} since [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's days . Gloom and terror still hung over the eastern part , where [he]_{731-my father} had been so foully murdered . In most of the downstair windows along the front of [the house]_{764-the house} , the rickety lattice of diamond panes had been replaced by clear plate - glass , but [the old hall]_{3266-the old hall} , and [the corridor]_{7666-the corridor} , and some of the gable windows still retained their gorgeous tints and heraldry . As the shadows of the mullions stole upon [my]_0-i counterpane , there began to creep across [my]_0-i mind uneasy inklings of [the ghost]_{7653-the ghost} . [A less imaginative man]_{3269-a less imaginative man} than [William Edwards]_{558-william edwards} , [I]_0-i who had often enjoyed [his]_{558-william edwards} escort , knew well there could not be . As for [Job Leyson]_494-job [I]_0-i could not tell with what creative powers [his]_{558-william edwards} mind might be endowed ; but — to judge from physiognomy — a light ring snaffle would hold them . Thinking , with less and less complacence , of this apparition story , and the red legend which lay beneath it , for [the spectral lady]_{3270-the spectral lady} was believed to be a certain [Beatrice Vaughan]_{562-beatrice vaughan} , [daughter of [the Cavalier who perceived the moss - light]_{3272-the cavalier who perceived the moss - light} , and heiress of [the house]_{764-the house}]_{3271-daughter of the cavalier who perceived the moss - light , and heiress of the house} 200 years ago — thinking of this , [I]_0-i say , with more and more of flutter , [I]_0-i sat up in the bed and listened . [[My]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's thick irregular breathing , the play of an ivy - leaf on the mullion , the half - hour struck by the turret - clock , were all the sounds [I]_0-i heard ; except that [my]_0-i heart , so listless and desponding , was re - asserting some right to throb for its own safety . With [my]_0-i hand upon it , [I]_0-i listened for another minute , resolving if [I]_0-i heard nothing more to make a great nest in the pillows — [I]_0-i always want three at least — and shut both ears to destiny . But there came , before the minute passed , a low , long , hollow sound , an echo of trembling expectation . In a moment [I]_0-i leaped from the bed ; though [I]_0-i had never heard it before , [I]_0-i knew it could only be [the bloodhound]_{3275-the bloodhound} 's cautious warning . [I]_0-i flung a long cloak round [me]_0-i , gathered close [my]_0-i hair , hurried velvet slippers on , locked [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} in , and quietly opened the outer door . There stood [Giudice]_475-giudice in the moonlight , with [his]_475-giudice head towards the far east window , [his]_475-giudice ears laid back , [his]_475-giudice crest erect , and in [his]_475-giudice throat a gurgling sound , a growl suppressed by wonder . [He]_475-giudice never turned to look at [me]_0-i , nor even wagged [his]_475-giudice tail , but watched and waited grimly . [I]_0-i laid [my]_0-i hand upon [him]_475-giudice , and then glided down [the corridor]_{7666-the corridor} , avoiding the moonlight patches . [Giudice]_475-giudice followed , like [my]_0-i shadow , never a foot behind [me]_0-i , [his]_475-giudice tread as stealthy as a cat 's . Before [I]_0-i reached the oriel window where the broad light fell , something told [me]_0-i to draw aside and watch . [I]_0-i withdrew , and [Giudice]_475-giudice with [me]_0-i , into the dark entrance to [[[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's room]_{3279-my father 's room} . Here [we]_3280-we would see what came . Scarcely had [I]_0-i been there ten throbs of the heart , when between [me]_0-i and the central light , where the moonbeams fell askance , rose [a tall gray figure]_{3281-a tall gray figure} . [I]_0-i am not quite [a coward]_{3282-a coward} , for [a woman]_{5830-a woman} at least , but every drop of blood within [me]_0-i at that sight stood still . [Even Giudice]_475-giudice trembled , and [his]_475-giudice growl was hushed , and every hair upon [him]_475-giudice bristled as [he]_475-giudice crouched into [my]_0-i cloak . Slowly the form was rising , like [a corpse raised from a coffin by the loose end of the winding - sheet]_{3284-a corpse raised from a coffin by the loose end of the winding - sheet} . [I]_0-i could not speak , [I]_0-i could not move , much less could [I]_0-i think . With a silent stately walk , or glide — for no feet could [I]_0-i see — [the figure]_{3285-the figure} came towards the embrasure where [we]_3280-we lurked . Ashy white the face was , large the eyes and hollow , all the hair fell down the back , the form was tall and graceful , one arm was lifted as in appeal , to heaven , and the shroud drooped from it , the other lay across the breast . The colour of the shroud was gray , pale , unearthly gray . For one moment as it passed , [I]_0-i kept [my]_0-i teeth from chattering . [Giudice]_475-giudice crawled one step before [me]_0-i , with [his]_475-giudice mind made up for death . Back the blood leaped to [my]_0-i heart , as [the apparition]_{3286-the apparition} glided slowly down [the corridor]_{7666-the corridor} without sigh or footfall . What to do [I]_0-i knew not ; [my]_0-i feet were now unrooted from the ground . Should [I]_0-i fly into [[[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's death - room]_{3289-my father 's death - room} ? No ; [I]_0-i was afraid . To stay where [I]_0-i was seemed best , but how could [I]_0-i see it come back , as [I]_0-i knew it would ? Another such suspension of [my]_0-i life , and all , [I]_0-i felt , would be over . Suddenly , while still [the figure]_{3285-the figure} was receding in the distance , [I]_0-i saw a great change in the bloodhound . [He]_{3285-the figure} strode into [the corridor]_{7666-the corridor} , and began to follow . At the same time , the deep gurgle in [his]_{3285-the figure} throat revived . In a moment , it flashed through [me]_0-i that [he]_{3285-the figure} had smelt [the ghost]_{7653-the ghost} to be [a thing of flesh and blood]_{3293-a thing of flesh and blood} . It might be [[[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's murderer]_{5361-my father 's murderer} . At any rate [it]_{7653-the ghost} had entered as [he]_{3285-the figure} must have done . Close behind the dog [I]_0-i stole after [the spectral figure]_{3296-the spectral figure} . The supernatural horror fled ; all [my]_0-i life was in [my]_0-i veins . What became of [me]_0-i [I]_0-i cared not , [I]_0-i who was so wretched . Almost to the end , that gliding form preceded [us]_3297-us , then turned down a flight of steps leading to [the basement]_{3298-the basement} . Triple resolution gushed through [me]_0-i at this ; this was the spot where the ghost was known to turn , and glide back through [the corridor]_{7666-the corridor} . When it had descended about half - way down the staircase , where the steps were on the turn and narrow , standing at the head [I]_0-i distinctly heard a flop , as of a slipper - heel dropping from the foot , and then caught up again . What ghost was likely to want slippers ? And what mortal presence need [I]_0-i fear , with [Judy]_477-judy at [my]_0-i side ? Keeping [him]_477-judy behind [me]_0-i by a gentle touch , [I]_0-i hurried down [the stairs]_{5744-the stairs} . Luckily , [I]_0-i stopped before [I]_0-i turned the corner , for a gleam came up [the passage]_{824-the passage} ; the ghost had struck a lucifer . It was [a dark and narrow passage]_{3302-a dark and narrow passage} , proof to any moon - light , and [the spectre]_{3303-the spectre} lost no time in lighting a small lamp , to find the study door ; [I]_0-i mean [[[my]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's private study]_{3305-my uncle 's private study} , where [he]_{1271-my uncle} kept [his]_{1271-my uncle} papers . The lamp was of peculiar shape , very small , and fitted with three reflectors , to throw the light in converging planes . Still remaining in deep shadow , [I]_0-i saw [the person — ghost no longer]_{3306-the person — ghost no longer} — produce a key , open the study door and enter . Then an attempt was made to lock the door from the inside , but — as [I]_0-i knew by the sound — the false key would not work that way , and the door was only closed . Whispering into [Judy]_477-judy 's ear , that if [he]_477-judy dared to move — for [his]_477-judy honest wrath at these burglarious doings could scarcely be controlled — [I]_0-i would make a ghost of [him]_477-judy next day , [I]_0-i left [him]_477-judy in [the passage]_{824-the passage} , and softly followed [the intruder]_{3308-the intruder} . First [I]_0-i looked through the key - hole ; [the room]_{823-the room} was very dark and full of heavy furniture ; [I]_0-i could see nothing ; but must risk the chance . So [I]_0-i slipped in noiselessly and closed the door behind [me]_0-i . With the ghostly apparel thrown aside , and a mask laid on an ebony desk , stood intently occupied at [the large bureau , which [I]_0-i had once so longed to search]_{3310-the large bureau , which i had once so longed to search} , [[my]_0-i arch - enemy]_{3311-my arch - enemy} , [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} . [I]_0-i was not at all surprised , having felt long since that it could be no other . Sitting upon a stiff - backed velvet chair , in the shadow of an oaken bookcase — crouch [I]_0-i would not for [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} — [I]_0-i waited to see what [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} would do . Already the folding - doors of [the large bureau]_{3312-the large bureau} were open ; their creaking had drowned the noise of [my]_0-i entry . Before [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} was exposed a multitude of drawers . All the visible doors [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} had probably explored on the previous nights , as well as the other repositories of various kinds which [the room]_{823-the room} contained . [Her]_{312-mrs. daldy} search was narrowed now to one particular part of [this bureau]_{3314-this bureau} . The folding - doors were very large , and richly inlaid with arabesques and scroll - work of satin - wood and ebony : all the inside was fitted and adorned with ivory pillars , small alcoves containing baby mirrors , flights of chequered steps , and other quaint devices , besides the more business - like and useful sliding trays . With the lamp - light flashing on it , [it]_{3314-this bureau} looked like [a palace for [the Queen of Dolls]_{3316-the queen of dolls}]_{3315-a palace for the queen of dolls} — [a place for puppet ceremony and pleasure]_{3317-a place for puppet ceremony and pleasure} . Every drawer was faced with marquetrie , every little door had panels of shagreen . In short , the whole thing would have been the pride of [any shop in [Wardour Street]_{123-wardour street}]_{3318-any shop in wardour street} , when [that street]_{7541-that street} was [itself]_{7541-that street} . Having never seen [it]_{3314-this bureau} open till now , [I]_0-i was quite astonished , though [I]_0-i do n't know how often [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} had promised to show it to [me]_0-i on [my]_0-i very next birthday , if [I]_0-i were good . Probably [I]_0-i was never good enough . Without any hesitation , [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} pressed a fan , or slide , of cedar - wood , in the right corner of the cabinet ; the slide sunk into a groove , and disclosed two deep , but narrow drawers ; these [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} pulled out from [their]_3321-their boxes , and laid aside ; they were full of papers , which [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} no doubt had already examined . Then [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} placed the diminutive lamp on one of the doll steps , and produced from [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} pocket three or four little tools . Before commencing with these , [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} probed and pressed the partition between the sockets of those two drawers , in every imaginable way — a last attempt to find the countersign of [some private nook]_{3322-some private nook} , which had defied [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} the night before . At length , with a low cry of impatience , [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} seized a small , thin chisel , and a bottle of clear liquid : with the one [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} softened the buhl veneer upon the partition 's face , and with the other [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} removed it . Then , after a little unscrewing , [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} carefully prized away the stop of cedar - wood , while [I]_0-i admired [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} workman - like proceedings ( so far as they were visible to [me]_0-i ) , and the graceful action of the arms [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} was so proud of . [Her]_{312-mrs. daldy} shoulder came rather in [my]_0-i way , but [I]_0-i got a glimpse of the narrow , vertical opening , where the cedar - stop had been . [She]_{312-mrs. daldy} drew a long breath of delight and pride , then thrust a wire - crook into this opening , and hooked forth two thin and closely - fastened packets . Eagerly [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} looked at them ; they were what [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} wanted . No doubt [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} knew [their]_3323-their contents ; [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} object was to get hold of them . Having placed them carefully in [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} bosom , [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} prepared for a little more joiner 's work , to restore what [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} had dismantled . [Her]_{312-mrs. daldy} dexterity was so pleasing , that [I]_0-i let [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} proceed for a while . [She]_{312-mrs. daldy} soon refixed the cedar - stop , tapping it in the most knowing way with the handle of the screw - driver , then [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} screwed it tightly , and spread the wood with some liquid cement to carry the veneer . [She]_{312-mrs. daldy} had mislaid the narrow strip of tortoise - shell and brass , and was looking for it on the chequered steps , when [I]_0-i called aloud : " Shall [I]_0-i show [you]_{312-mrs. daldy} where [you]_{312-mrs. daldy} put it , [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} ? But where on earth did [you]_{312-mrs. daldy} learn [your]_{312-mrs. daldy} trade ? "_[0-i] Never was amazement written more strongly on any human face . If the ghost had frightened [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i now had [my]_0-i full revenge . [She]_{312-mrs. daldy} dropped the bottle of cement , and it rolled on the cabinet steps ; [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} turned , with [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} face as white as the mask , and glared round [the room]_{823-the room} , for [I]_0-i was still concealed in the recess . [I]_0-i thought [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} would have blown out the lamp , but [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} had not presence of mind enough : otherwise among all that furniture it would not have been easy to catch [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} ; and [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} knew nothing of [[my]_0-i sentinel]_{3325-my sentinel} at the door . After some quiet enjoyment of [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} terror , [I]_0-i came forth , and met [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} fairly . " What , [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara ! Is it possible ? [I]_0-i thought [you]_{312-mrs. daldy} were in [London]_1-london . "_[0-i] " Is it possible that [I]_0-i have found [a Christian]_{2457-a christian} , so truly earnest about [her]_{2457-a christian} soul , so yearning over the unregenerate , committing a black robbery in the dead of night ? Is this what [you]_{312-mrs. daldy} call a wholesome conviction of sin ? "_[0-i] Low exultation [I]_0-i confess : but the highest blood in [the land]_{1188-the land} , if it were blood , could scarcely have forborne it : for how [I]_0-i abhorred [that hypocrite]_{3327-that hypocrite} ! For a time [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} knew not what to do or say , but glared at [me]_0-i without much [Christian]_{309-christian} feeling . Then [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} tried to carry it off in a grandly superior style . [She]_{312-mrs. daldy} drew [herself]_{312-mrs. daldy} up , and looked as if [I]_0-i were not worth reasoning with . " Perhaps [you]_0-i are young enough to imagine , that because appearances are at this moment peculiar — "_{[312-mrs. daldy]} " Thank [you]_0-i : there is no need to inquire into the state of [my]_{312-mrs. daldy} mind . Be kind enough to restore those packets which [you]_0-i have stolen . "_{[312-mrs. daldy]} " Indeed ! [I]_{312-mrs. daldy} am perfectly amazed at [your]_{312-mrs. daldy} audacity . What [I]_{312-mrs. daldy} have belongs to [me]_{312-mrs. daldy} righteously , and a stronger hand than [yours]_{312-mrs. daldy} is required to rob [me]_{312-mrs. daldy} . "_{[312-mrs. daldy]} [She]_{312-mrs. daldy} grasped [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} chisel , and stood in a menacing attitude . [I]_0-i answered [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} very quietly , and without approaching nearer . " If [I]_0-i wish to see [you]_3328-his torn in pieces , [I]_0-i have only to raise [my]_0-i hand . [Giudice]_475-giudice ! "_[0-i] And [I]_0-i gave a peculiar whistle thoroughly known to [my]_0-i dog . [He]_3328-his leaped against the door , forced the worn catch from the guard , and stood at [my]_0-i side , with [his]_3328-his great eyes flashing and [his]_3328-his fangs laid bare . [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} jumped to the other side of the table , and seized a heavy chair . " [[My]_{312-mrs. daldy} dear child]_{2385-my dear child} , [[my]_{312-mrs. daldy} dear girl]_{7689-my dear girl} , [I]_{312-mrs. daldy} believe [you]_{2385-my dear child} are right after all . It is so hard to judge — for [God]_303-god 's sake keep [him]_3328-his back — so hard to judge when [one]_6186-one 's own rights are in question . The old unregenerate tendencies — "_{[312-mrs. daldy]} " Will lodge [you]_{2385-my dear child} in [Gloucester]_{23-gloucester} jail to - morrow . Once more those papers — or — "_[0-i] and [I]_0-i looked at [Giudice]_475-giudice and began to raise [my]_0-i hand . [His]_3328-his eyes were on it , and [he]_3328-his gathered [himself]_3328-his for the spring like a cannon recoiling . In the height of [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} terror , [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} tore [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} dress open and flung [me]_0-i the packets across the end of the table . [I]_0-i examined and fixed them to [Judy]_477-judy 's collar . Then [we]_3329-we both advanced , and penned [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} up in a corner . It was so delightful to see [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} for once in [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} native meanness , despoiled of [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} ca nt and phylactery , like a Pharisee under an oil - press . [She]_{312-mrs. daldy} fell on [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} knees and implored [me]_0-i , in plain earnest English for once , to let [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} go . [She]_{312-mrs. daldy} appealed to [my]_0-i self - interest , and offered [me]_0-i partnership in [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} schemes ; whereby alone [I]_0-i could regain the birthright of which [I]_0-i had been so heinously robbed . [I]_0-i only asked if [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} could reveal the mystery of [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's death . [She]_{312-mrs. daldy} could not tell [me]_0-i anything , or [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} would have jumped at the chance . At last [I]_0-i promised to let [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} go , if [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} would show [me]_0-i the secret entrance under the oriel window . It was not for [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} own sake [I]_0-i released [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} , but to avoid the scandal and painful excitement which [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} trial must have created . When [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} departed , now thoroughly crestfallen , [I]_0-i followed [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} out of [the house]_{764-the house} by [the secret passage]_{3332-the secret passage} , wherein [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} had stored a few of [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} stage - properties . [Giudice]_475-giudice , whom , for fear of treachery , [I]_0-i kept at [my]_0-i side all the time , showed [his]_475-giudice great teeth in the moonlight , and almost challenged [my]_0-i right to let [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} go . After taking the packets from [him]_475-giudice , [I]_0-i gave [him]_475-giudice a sheepskin mat under the window there , and left [him]_475-giudice on guard ; although there was little chance of another attempt being made , while the papers were in [my]_0-i keeping . [Her]_{312-mrs. daldy} mask and spectral drapery remained with [me]_0-i , as trophies of this [my]_0-i ghostly adventure . Next day when [I]_0-i showed [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} the two sealed packets which [I]_0-i had rescued , and told [him]_{1271-my uncle} all that had happened , at first [he]_{1271-my uncle} was overcome with terror and amazement . [His]_{1271-my uncle} illness seemed to have banished all [his]_{1271-my uncle} satirical humour , and that disdainful apathy which is the negative form of philosophy . [He]_{1271-my uncle} took the parcels with a trembling hand , and began to examine the seals . " All safe , "_{[1271-my uncle]} [he]_{1271-my uncle} said at last , " all safe , to [my]_{1271-my uncle} surprise . [Dear child]_{2347-dear child} , [I]_{1271-my uncle} owe [you]_{2347-dear child} more than life this time . [You]_{2347-dear child} have defeated [[my]_{1271-my uncle} worst enemy]_{944-my worst enemy} . To [your]_{2347-dear child} care only will [I]_{1271-my uncle} commit these papers , one of which , [I]_{1271-my uncle} hope will soon be of little value . It is [my]_{1271-my uncle} will ; and by it [[your]_{2347-dear child} father]_{5365-your father} 's estates are restored to [you]_{2347-dear child} , while the money which [I]_{1271-my uncle} have saved by [my]_{1271-my uncle} own care and frugality is divided into two portions , one for [you]_{2347-dear child} , and the other , upon certain events , for that worthless [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} . This must be altered at once . When [you]_{2347-dear child} have heard [my]_{1271-my uncle} story , [you]_{2347-dear child} may read the will , if [you]_{2347-dear child} like . Indeed [I]_{1271-my uncle} wish [you]_{2347-dear child} to do so , because it will prove that in spite of all [our]_7694-our estrangement , [I]_{1271-my uncle} have meant all along to act justly towards [you]_{2347-dear child} . But that [you]_{2347-dear child} may understand things properly , [I]_{1271-my uncle} will tell [you]_{2347-dear child} [my]_{1271-my uncle} strange history . Only one thing [you]_{2347-dear child} must promise before [I]_{1271-my uncle} begin . "_{[1271-my uncle]} " What is it , [uncle dear]_{7386-uncle dear} ? "_[3334-his] " That [you]_{2347-dear child} will forgive [me]_0-i for [my]_0-i one great error . Although it was the cause of [[your]_{2347-dear child} dear father]_{5757-your dear father} 's death . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i could not answer , for a minute . Then [I]_0-i took [his]_3334-his hand and kissed it , as [he]_3334-his turned [his]_3334-his face away . " [[My]_0-i darling]_{5337-my darling} , [I]_0-i am not quite strong enough now after all [you]_{2347-dear child} have been telling [me]_0-i . Although [I]_0-i had dark suspicions yesterday that some plot was in action ; for [I]_0-i had observed that things in [the study]_{7698-the study} were not as [I]_0-i had left them ; and [I]_0-i had other reasons too . But take [me]_0-i , [[my]_0-i precious child]_{7699-my precious child} , to [the sunny bank]_{7700-the sunny bank} this afternoon , and please [God]_303-god , [I]_0-i will at least begin [my]_0-i tale . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i begged [him]_3334-his in vain to defer it : there was a weight upon [his]_3334-his mind , [he]_3334-his said , which [he]_3334-his must unload . So in the early afternoon , [I]_0-i wheeled [him]_3334-his gently to [the sheltered nook]_{3335-the sheltered nook} . There , with the breezes way - lost among [new streets of verdure]_{3336-new streets of verdure} , tall laburnum dangling chains of gold around [us]_3337-us , and [Giudice]_475-giudice stretching out [his]_475-giudice paws in sunny yawns of glory , [I]_0-i listened to [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's tale , and was too young to understand the sigh which introduced it . How [few]_2494-few may tell the story of [their]_2494-few lives without remembering how [they]_2494-few played with life ! Alas the die thrown once for all , but left to roll unwatched , and lie uncounted ! Though [I]_0-i can not tell the story in [his]_3334-his impressive way , [I]_0-i will try to repeat it , so far as [my]_0-i memory serves , in [his]_3334-his words , and with [his]_3334-his feelings . Solemnly and sadly fell the history from [his]_3334-his lips , for [his]_3334-his mind from first to last was burdened with the knowledge that the end was nigh at hand , that nothing now remained , except to wait with resignation the impending blow . STORY OF [EDGAR VAUGHAN]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} . " [I]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} have always been , as [you]_7701-you know , of a roving unsocial nature . [[My]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} father]_{731-my father} being dead before [I]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} was born , and [[my]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} mother]_{746-my mother} having married again before [I]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} could walk , there was little to counteract [my]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} centrifugal tendencies . [I]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} seemed to belong to [neither family]_{7704-neither family} ; though [I]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} always clung to [the Vaughans]_398-vaughans , and disliked [the Daldys]_{563-the daldys} . The trustees of [[[my]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} mother]_{746-my mother} 's settlement]_{7706-my mother 's settlement} were [[my]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} virtual guardians]_{7707-my virtual guardians} ; for all the [Vaughan]_293-clara estates being most strictly entailed , [[my]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} father]_{731-my father} had nothing to dispose of , and therefore had made no will . [[[My]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} mother]_{746-my mother} 's settlement]_{7706-my mother 's settlement} comprised only personal estate , for no power had been reserved under the entail to create any charges upon [the land]_{1188-the land} . The mortgages , of which no doubt [you]_3341-your have heard , as paid off by [[your]_3341-your father]_{5365-your father} , were encumbrances of long standing . "_{[297-mr. edgar vaughan]} [The estates]_{879-the estates} , [I]_0-i need not tell [you]_3341-your , were shamefully mismanaged , during [[your]_3341-your father]_{5365-your father} 's long minority . [An agent]_{3343-an agent} was appointed under [the Court of Chancery]_{3344-the court of chancery} , and [an indolent rogue [he]_{3343-an agent} was]_{3345-an indolent rogue he was} . Meanwhile [[your]_3341-your father]_{5365-your father} and [myself]_0-i went through the usual course of education , no difference being made in that respect between [us]_3347-we . Although [we]_3347-we were [only half - brothers]_{3348-only half - brothers} , [we]_3347-we were strongly attached to each other , especially after a thorough drubbing which [[your]_3341-your good papa]_{3349-your good papa} found it [his]_{3349-your good papa} duty to administer to [me]_0-i at [Eton]_125-eton . It did [me]_0-i a world of good ; before that , [I]_0-i had rather despised [him]_{3349-your good papa} for the gentleness of [his]_{3349-your good papa} nature . At [Oxford]_126-oxford , after [[your]_3341-your father]_{5365-your father} had left , [I]_0-i kept aloof both from the great convivial and from the thinly peopled reading set , and lived very much by [myself]_0-i . Soon as the humorous doings , whose humour culminates in the title ' lectures , ' soon as these were over , [I]_0-i was away from the freckled stones , punting lazily on [the Cherwell]_{127-the cherwell} , with French and Italian novels ; or lounging among the gipseys on [the steppes of [Cowley]_128-cowley]_{3351-the steppes of cowley} . Hall [I]_0-i never frequented , but dined at [some distant tavern]_{3352-some distant tavern} , and spent the evening , and often the night till [Tom]_{321-thomas henwood} - curfew , in riding through [the lonely lanes]_{3353-the lonely lanes} towards [Otmoor]_129-otmoor , [Aston Common]_{130-aston common} , or [Stanlake]_131-stanlake . It was strange that [I]_0-i never fell in love , for [I]_0-i had plenty of small adventures , and fell in with [several pretty girls]_{3354-several pretty girls} , but never one [I]_0-i cared for . Gazing on the wreck [I]_0-i am , it is no conceit to say that in those times [I]_0-i was considered remarkably good - looking . Of course [I]_0-i was not popular ; that [I]_0-i never cared for ; but [nobody]_1116-nobody had reason to dislike [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i affected no peculiarity , gave [myself]_0-i no airs , behaved politely to all who took the trouble to address [me]_0-i ; and [the world]_{798-the world} , which [I]_0-i neither defied nor courted , followed its custom in such cases , and let [me]_0-i have [my]_0-i way . " At [Lincoln 's Inn]_{132-lincoln 's inn} , [my]_3357-my life was much the same , except that wherries succeeded punts , and evening rides were exchanged for moonlight walks in [the park]_{892-the park} . It was reported at [home]_1102-home , as it is of [most men who are called to [the Bar]_{903-the bar}]_{7715-most men who are called to the bar} , that [I]_3357-my was likely to do great things . There never was a chance of it . Setting aside the question of ability , [I]_3357-my had no application , no love of the law , no idea whatever of touting ; and still more fatal defect , [my]_3357-my lonely habits were darkening into a shy dislike of [my]_3357-my species . "_[3357-my] [You]_3357-my have heard that [I]_0-i was extravagant . As regards [my]_0-i early career , the charge is quite untrue . Money , [I]_0-i confess , was never much in [my]_0-i thoughts , nor did [I]_0-i ever attempt to buy things below their value ; but [my]_0-i wants were so few , and [my]_0-i mode of life so ungenial , that [I]_0-i never exceeded the moderate sum allotted to [me]_0-i as [a younger son]_{910-a younger son} . Afterwards this was otherwise , and for excellent reasons . " During the height of the [London]_1-london season [I]_3359-i was always most restless and misanthropic . Not that [I]_3359-i looked with envy on the frivolous dust of fashion , and clouds of sham around [me]_3359-i ; but that [I]_3359-i felt [myself]_3359-i lowered as [an Englishman]_{1891-an englishman} by the cringing , the falsehood , the small babooneries , which [we]_7718-we call ' society . ' [I]_3359-i longed to be , if [I]_3359-i could but afford it , where [men]_1003-men have more manly self - respect , and [women more true womanhood]_{7720-women more true womanhood} . "_[3359-i] [[Your]_3359-i parents]_{3360-your parents} were married , [[my]_0-i darling]_{5337-my darling} [Clara]_293-clara , at the end of December , 1826 , six years before [your]_3359-i birth . Upon that occasion , [[your]_3359-i dear father]_{5757-your dear father} , [the only man in [the world]_{798-the world} for whom [I]_0-i cared a fig]_{3363-the only man in the world for whom i cared a fig} , made [me]_0-i a very handsome present . In fact [he]_{5757-your dear father} gave [me]_0-i a thousand pounds . [He]_{5757-your dear father} would have given [me]_0-i a much larger sum , for [he]_{5757-your dear father} was [a most liberal man]_{3365-a most liberal man} , but [the estates]_{879-the estates} had suffered from long mismanagement , and were seriously encumbered . [I]_0-i do not hesitate to say that the gross income of [this property]_{5453-this property} is now double what it was when [[your]_3359-i father]_{5365-your father} succeeded to it , and the net income more than quadruple . During the four years which elapsed between that event and [his]_{5757-your dear father} marriage , [he]_{5757-your dear father} had devoted all [he]_{5757-your dear father} could spare to the clearance of encumbrances and therefore , as [I]_0-i said , the present [he]_{5757-your dear father} made [me]_0-i was a most generous one . More than this , [he]_{5757-your dear father} invited and pressed [me]_0-i to come and live on [the estate]_{952-the estate} , and offered to set [me]_0-i up in [a farm which [I]_0-i might hold from [him]_{5757-your dear father} on most advantageous terms]_{3370-a farm which i might hold from him on most advantageous terms} . Upon [my]_0-i refusal , [he]_{5757-your dear father} even begged [me]_0-i to accept , at a most liberal salary , the stewardship of [the property]_{1112-the property} , and the superintendence of great improvements , which [he]_{5757-your dear father} meant to effect . [I]_0-i remember , as if it were yesterday , the very words [he]_{5757-your dear father} used . [He]_{5757-your dear father} took [my]_0-i hand in [his]_{5757-your dear father} , and with that genial racy smile , which very few could resist , " ' Come , [Ned]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} , ' [he]_{5757-your dear father} cried , ' there are but two of [us]_7721-us ; there 's room for both in [the old nest]_{7722-the old nest} ; and [you]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} are big enough to thrash [me]_{5757-your dear father} now . ' "_{[5757-your dear father]} At the sweet recollection of [his]_{5757-your dear father} Eton drubbing , as [he]_{5757-your dear father} called it , [[my]_0-i poor uncle]_{2919-my poor uncle} 's eyes grew moist . " So [you]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} see , [[my]_{5757-your dear father} child]_{1549-my child} , instead of grudging [[your]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} father]_{5365-your father} [the property]_{1112-the property} , [I]_{5757-your dear father} had every reason to love and revere [him]_{5365-your father} . However , [I]_{5757-your dear father} refused this as well as the other offer ; but [I]_{5757-your dear father} accepted [his]_{5757-your dear father} present , and invested it rather luckily . After spending a pleasant month at [home]_1102-home — as [I]_{5757-your dear father} always called it — [I]_{5757-your dear father} returned to [London]_1-london early in April , 1827 . There are [no two minds]_{7727-no two minds} alike , any more than there are [two bodies]_{7728-two bodies} ; and yet how little variety exists in polite society ! Surely it were more reasonable to wedge the infant face into a jelly - mould , to flute [its]_7729-its ears and cheeks like collared head , and grow the nose and lips and eyebrows into rosettes and grapes and acorns , than to bow and cramp and squeeze a million minds into one set model . Yet [here]_846-here [I]_{5757-your dear father} find [men]_1003-men all alike , [Dane]_564-dane and [Saxon]_565-saxon , [Celt]_566-celt and [Norman]_567-norman , like [those who walk where snow is deep , or [Alpine travellers lashed to a rope]_{7733-alpine travellers lashed to a rope} , trudging [each in other]_{7734-each in other} 's footprint , swinging all [their]_1003-men arms in time , looking neither right nor left , and so on through life 's pilgrimage]_{7732-those who walk where snow is deep , or alpine travellers lashed to a rope , trudging each in other 's footprint , swinging all their arms in time , looking neither right nor left , and so on through life 's pilgrimage} , a file some million deep . Who went first [they]_1003-men do not know , why [they]_1003-men follow [they]_1003-men can not tell , what it leads to [they]_1003-men never ask . [I]_{5757-your dear father} was marked and scorned at once , because [I]_{5757-your dear father} dared to adopt a hat that did not scalp [me]_{5757-your dear father} in half - an hour , and a cravat that did not throttle [me]_{5757-your dear father} ; and even had the hardihood to dine when [I]_{5757-your dear father} felt hungry . How often [I]_{5757-your dear father} longed for [a land of freedom and common sense]_{7735-a land of freedom and common sense} , where it is no disgrace to carry a barrel of oysters , or shake hands with [a tradesman]_{6832-a tradesman} . [I]_{5757-your dear father} know what [you]_7737-you are smiling at , [Clara]_293-clara . [You]_7737-you are thinking to [yourself]_7737-you , ' how different [you]_7737-you are now , [[my]_{5757-your dear father} good uncle]_{7738-my good uncle} ; and wern't [you]_7737-you a little inconsistent in sanctioning all this livery humbug here ? ' Yes , [I]_{5757-your dear father} am different now . [I]_{5757-your dear father} am older and wiser than to expect to wipe away with [my]_{5757-your dear father} coat - sleeve the oxide of many centuries . As for the livery , it makes [them]_7739-them happy : it is [an Englishman]_{1891-an englishman} 's uniform . And [I]_{5757-your dear father} have seen and suffered so bitterly from the violence of an untamed race , that [I]_{5757-your dear father} admire less what [I]_{5757-your dear father} used to call [the unlassoed arch of the human neck]_{7741-the unlassoed arch of the human neck} . [I]_{5757-your dear father} have seen a coarse line somewhere , "_{[5757-your dear father]} ' And freedom made a deal too free with [me]_0-i , ' which expresses briefly the moral of [my]_0-i life . However , at the time [I]_0-i speak of , nursing perhaps [a younger son]_{910-a younger son} 's bias against the social laws , and fresh from the true simplicity and unaffected warmth of [[your]_3374-your father]_{5365-your father} 's character and the gentle sweetness of [[your]_3374-your mother]_{5332-your mother} 's , [I]_0-i could not sit on the spikes of [fashion 's hackney coach]_{3377-fashion 's hackney coach} , as becomes [a poor Briton]_{3378-a poor briton} , till [the driver]_{6033-the driver} whips behind . Finding of course that [no one]_{730-no one} cared whether [I]_0-i sat there or not , and that all [I]_0-i got at the side of [the road]_{1630-the road} was pea - shots from cads in the dickey , [I]_0-i did what [thousands]_{3382-thousands} have done before [me]_0-i , and will probably do again , [I]_0-i voted [[my]_0-i fellow - Britons]_{3383-my fellow - britons} a parcel of [drivelling slaves]_{3384-drivelling slaves} , and longed to be out of [the gang]_{3385-the gang} . Perhaps [I]_0-i should never have made [my]_0-i escape , for like most of [[my]_0-i class]_{5968-my class} , [I]_0-i spent all [my]_0-i energy in small eccentricity , if it had not been for what [we]_3387-we idlers entitle the force of circumstances . At a time when [my]_0-i life was flowing on calmly enough though babbling against [its]_3388-its banks , it came suddenly on an event which drove it into [another and rougher channel]_{3389-another and rougher channel} . " Early one afternoon in the month of April , 1829 , [I]_0-i launched [[my]_0-i little boat]_{7742-my little boat} from [the Temple - stairs]_{7743-the temple - stairs} , where [I]_0-i kept [it]_{7742-my little boat} , and feeling more than usually saturnine and moody , resolved on a long expedition . So [I]_0-i victualled [[my]_0-i ship]_{7744-my ship} like [Robinson Crusoe]_{568-robinson crusoe} , and took some wraps and coverings . It was then slack water , just at the height of the flood . [I]_0-i meant to have gone to [Richmond]_133-richmond , but being far too indolent to struggle against the tide , [I]_0-i yielded to nature 's good pleasure , and pulled away down stream . In a few minutes a rapid ebb tide was running , and [I]_0-i made up [my]_0-i mind to go with it as far as ever it chose , and to return with the flood whenever that pleased to meet [me]_0-i . "_[0-i] After rowing steadily for several hours , [I]_0-i found [myself]_0-i a long way past [my]_0-i customary Cape Turn - again . With a strong ebb tide as well as [a land - fresh in [the river]_{5715-the river}]_{3390-a land - fresh in the river} , [I]_0-i had got beyond [Barking Reach]_{134-barking reach} , and as far as [the Dagenham marshes]_{3392-the dagenham marshes} . Here [some muddy creeks]_{3393-some muddy creeks} , pills , and [sluggish channels]_{3394-sluggish channels} wind and welter among the ooze - lands on [the north side of [the Thames]_{135-the thames}]_{3395-the north side of the thames} . All around [them]_{3393-some muddy creeks} stretches and fades away a dreary flat monotonous waste ; no dot of [a house]_{5382-a house} , no jot of a tree , to vary [the dead expanse]_{3397-the dead expanse} ; except that by [the river]_{5715-the river} - side one or two low cabooses , more like hoys than [houses]_6198-houses , are grounded among the slime . This , so far as [my]_0-i memory serves , was the state of [these Essex marshes]_{3400-these essex marshes} in the year 1829 : how it is now [I]_0-i can not say . " It was high time for [me]_0-i to turn : row as [I]_0-i would , [I]_0-i could hardly get back to [[my]_0-i haven]_{7745-my haven} by midnight . [Outrigger skiffs]_{7746-outrigger skiffs} were not yet known ; and [an oarsman]_{7747-an oarsman} could not glide along at the rate of ten miles an hour . Just as [I]_0-i was working round , [a steam packet]_{7748-a steam packet} , which had been moored a short way below , crippled perhaps in [[her]_{7748-a steam packet} engines]_{7749-her engines} , now at the turn of the tide passed up , and was quickly out of sight . As [she]_{7748-a steam packet} passed [me]_0-i [I]_0-i hailed for a tow - rope ; but either [they]_7750-they could not hear , or [they]_7750-they did not choose to notice [me]_0-i . There was nothing for it but to bend [my]_0-i back to the oars , and keep a sharp look out . Presently the flood began to make strongly up [the river]_{5715-the river} , and [I]_0-i gave way with a will , [my]_0-i paddles bending and the water gleaming in the early starlight . It was a lonely and melancholy scene . The gray mist returning from some marshy excursion , and hugging [the warm sea - water]_{7752-the warm sea - water} , floated along in dull folds , with a white flaw of steam here and there curdling over the current . Not [a ship]_{1423-a ship} , [not a barge]_{7754-not a barge} was in sight ; no voice of [men]_1003-men or [low of cattle]_{7756-low of cattle} broke the foggy silence : but the wash of [the stream]_{1155-the stream} on [its]_{1155-the stream} sludgy marge , or on some honey - combed mooring - post , surged every now and then betwixt the jerks of [my]_0-i rowlocks . The loneliness and the sadness harmonised with [my]_0-i sombre mind . All is transient , all is selfish , all is a flux of melancholy . If [we]_7758-we toss and dance [we]_7758-we are only boats adrift ; [we]_7758-we are nothing more than crazy tide - posts , if [we]_7758-we be philosophers . "_[0-i] Suddenly a clear loud cry broke [my]_0-i vacant musings . It startled [me]_0-i so that [I]_0-i caught a crab , ceased rowing , and gazed around . At first [I]_0-i could not tell whence it came , till [[my]_0-i boat]_{3401-my boat} , with the way [she]_3402-she had on [her]_3402-she , shot round [a low spit of [the Essex shore]_{3404-the essex shore}]_{3403-a low spit of the essex shore} , which from the curve of [the river]_{5715-the river} [I]_0-i was nearing rapidly . Louder and louder the cry was twice repeated , and [I]_0-i heard in the still spring evening the oaths of [men]_1003-men and the scuffling of feet . Within fifty yards of [me]_0-i was [an ill - looking house , made of battens , and raised on piles above high water mark]_{3407-an ill - looking house , made of battens , and raised on piles above high water mark} . A tattered sign hung on a pole , and [a causeway]_{3408-a causeway} led to the steps . While [I]_0-i was hesitating , [two figures]_{3409-two figures} crossed a lattice window , as if in violent struggle , and a heavy crash resounded . Three strong strokes of [my]_0-i oars , and the keel grated on [the causeway]_{3410-the causeway} . Out [I]_0-i leaped with the boat - hook , threw the painter over a post , and rushed up [the slimy jetty]_{3411-the slimy jetty} , and the narrow wooden steps . The door was fastened , [I]_0-i pushed it with all [my]_0-i force , but in vain . One faint scream reached [my]_0-i ears , as of [some one at length overpowered . Swinging the boat - hook with both hands]_{3412-some one at length overpowered . swinging the boat - hook with both hands} , [I]_0-i struck the old door with the butt , and broke it open . In [the lower room]_{3413-the lower room} there was [no one , but a moaning and trampling sounded over head]_{3414-no one , but a moaning and trampling sounded over head} . [Upstairs]_{6042-upstairs} [I]_0-i ran , and into [the room where [the villany]_{3417-the villany} was doing]_{3416-the room where the villany was doing} . [A poor girl]_{3418-a poor girl} lay on the floor at the last gasp of exhaustion . [Two ruffians with a rope]_{3419-two ruffians with a rope} were bending over [her]_{3418-a poor girl} . Down went one , at a blow of [my]_0-i boat - hook , flat beside [[his]_3420-his victim]_{3421-his victim} : the other leaped at [my]_0-i throat . [I]_0-i saw and soon felt that [he]_3420-his was [a powerful man]_{3422-a powerful man} , but in those days [I]_0-i was [no cripple]_{3423-no cripple} . [We]_3424-we were most evenly matched . [I]_0-i wrenched [his]_3420-his hand from [my]_0-i throat , but twice [he]_3420-his got [me]_0-i under [him]_3420-his , twice [I]_0-i writhed from [his]_3420-his grasp like a python from a tiger 's jaw . Clutched and locked in [each other]_{734-each other} 's arms , in vain [we]_3424-we tugged to get room for a blow . Throttle , and gripe , and roll — which should be first insensible ? An accident gave [me]_0-i the mastery . For a moment [we]_3424-we lay face to face , glaring at [each other]_{734-each other} , drawing the strangled breath , loosing the deadly grip , panting , throbbing , and watching . [My]_0-i boat - hook lay on the floor , [[my]_0-i enemy]_{1966-my enemy} spied and made a sudden dash at it . Instead of withholding , [I]_0-i jobbed [him]_3420-his towards it with all [my]_0-i might , and as [he]_3420-his raised it , the point entered one of [his]_3420-his eyes . With a yell of pain and fury , [he]_3420-his sank beneath [me]_0-i insensible . Shaking and quaking all over after the desperate struggle , [I]_0-i bound [him]_3420-his and [[his]_3420-his mate]_{3428-his mate} , hand and foot , with the twisted tarry junk , which [they]_3429-they had meant for [the maiden]_{3430-the maiden} . " At length [I]_3429-they had time to look round . On a low truckle bed at the end of [the long dark room]_{6397-the long dark room} , in which a ship - lamp was burning , there lay [an elderly lady in a perfect stupor of fright and illness]_{7760-an elderly lady in a perfect stupor of fright and illness} . Upon the floor with [her]_{7760-an elderly lady in a perfect stupor of fright and illness} head thrown back against the timbers , and [her]_{7760-an elderly lady in a perfect stupor of fright and illness} black eyes wide open and fixed on [me]_3429-they , sat [a girl of remarkable beauty]_{7761-a girl of remarkable beauty} , though [her]_{7760-an elderly lady in a perfect stupor of fright and illness} cheeks were as white as death . A magnificent ring , for which [she]_{7760-an elderly lady in a perfect stupor of fright and illness} had fought most desperately , was wrenched from its place on [her]_{7760-an elderly lady in a perfect stupor of fright and illness} finger and hung over the opal nail , for [her]_{7760-an elderly lady in a perfect stupor of fright and illness} hands were clenched , and [her]_{7760-an elderly lady in a perfect stupor of fright and illness} arms quite stiff , in the swoon of utter exhaustion . [Both ladies]_{7762-both ladies} were in deep mourning . "_[3429-they] For the rest a few words will suffice . [The poor ladies]_{3431-the poor ladies} revived at last , after chafing of hands and sprinkling , and told [me]_0-i where to find [the woman of [the house]_{764-the house} , who had been locked up in [another room]_{3434-another room} by [[her]_{3432-the woman of the house , who had been locked up in another room by her husband and brother} husband]_{6140-her husband} and [brother]_3436-brother]_{3432-the woman of the house , who had been locked up in another room by her husband and brother} . There was [no one else]_{5442-no one else} on [the premises]_{3438-the premises} . How came [the ladies]_{3439-the ladies} [there]_1114-there , what was [their]_{3439-the ladies} destination , and why were [they]_{3439-the ladies} so outraged ? [They]_{3439-the ladies} were on [their]_{3439-the ladies} return to [London]_1-london from [the Continent]_{136-the continent} , being called [home]_1102-home by tidings of death , and had sailed from [Antwerp]_137-antwerp two days and a - half before , in [the steamer]_{3442-the steamer} which [I]_0-i had seen lying to . [Steamers]_{3443-steamers} were then heavy lumbering things , and all that time [Mrs. Green]_{569-mrs. green} and [[her]_{569-mrs. green} daughter]_{3444-her daughter} had been knocking about on [a pecky sea]_{3445-a pecky sea} . No wonder that [the poor mother]_{3446-the poor mother} had cried out feebly , to be landed anywhere , anywhere in [the world]_{798-the world} , where things would leave off going round . And before [they]_{3439-the ladies} came to that tedious halt in [the river]_{5715-the river} , [fair Adelaide]_570-lepardo , who had enjoyed [her]_570-lepardo meals throughout , renewed and completed [her]_570-lepardo poor mamma 's excavation , by inquiring calmly with [her]_570-lepardo mouth full of pickled pork , where the peas - pudding was . Now too [Miss Adelaide]_{571-miss adelaide} soon recovered from [her]_{571-miss adelaide} fearful battle for honour and life . [She]_{571-miss adelaide} was what is called now - a - days [a girl of " splendid organisation]_{7763-a girl of " splendid organisation} . "_{[7763-a girl of " splendid organisation]} If [she]_{571-miss adelaide} had not been so , [she]_{571-miss adelaide} would have lain ere now with [[her]_{571-miss adelaide} mother]_{6340-her mother} at [the bottom of [Barking Reach]_{134-barking reach}]_{3450-the bottom of barking reach} . [The two scoundrels of [that lonesome hostelry]_{3452-that lonesome hostelry}]_{3451-the two scoundrels of that lonesome hostelry} had been ordered to send to [Barking]_139-barking for a conveyance . But [they]_{3451-the two scoundrels of that lonesome hostelry} only pretended to do so ; for [they]_{3451-the two scoundrels of that lonesome hostelry} had cast foul covetous eyes on the wealth of [[their]_{3451-the two scoundrels of that lonesome hostelry} unknown guests]_{3453-their unknown guests} and on [brave Adelaide]_570-lepardo 's beauty . Beyond a doubt [both ladies]_{7762-both ladies} would have been murdered , but for the gallant resistance , the vigour , and presence of mind of [Adelaide]_570-lepardo . " Having restored [their]_{3451-the two scoundrels of that lonesome hostelry} watches , and scattered trinkets , and led the poor things from the scene of the combat , [I]_3455-i was quite at a loss for means to convey [them]_{3451-the two scoundrels of that lonesome hostelry} [home]_1102-home . [Barking]_139-barking was a long way off , and [the marshy track]_{7765-the marshy track} unknown to [me]_3455-i , and not likely to be found in the dark . Moreover , there must be some hazard in leaving [them]_{3451-the two scoundrels of that lonesome hostelry} still in [that villanous den]_{7766-that villanous den} , no matter how [[their]_{3451-the two scoundrels of that lonesome hostelry} cowardly foes]_{7767-their cowardly foes} might be bound . At last , and with great difficulty , [I]_3455-i embarked [the two ladies]_{7768-the two ladies} in [my]_3455-i shallop , and wrapped [them]_{7768-the two ladies} warmly from the night air ; then after relashing [[my]_3455-i prisoners]_{7769-my prisoners} , and locking [them]_{7768-the two ladies} up in [separate rooms]_{7770-separate rooms} , and [the woman]_{822-the woman} [downstairs]_{1041-downstairs} , [I]_3455-i pulled away stoutly for [Woolwich]_140-woolwich . Here [I]_3455-i obtained [a carriage]_{6079-a carriage} , and started [[my]_3455-i convoy]_{7774-my convoy} for [London]_1-london , and then returned with [two policemen]_{6803-two policemen} to [the "_[3455-i] Old Row Barge]_{7776-the " old row barge} , " as [the low caboose]_{7777-the low caboose} was called . But both [our]_7778-our birds were flown , as [I]_3455-i was inclined to expect . Most likely [the woman]_{822-the woman} had contrived to get out , and release [them]_{7768-the two ladies} . At any rate [the "_[3455-i] Old Row Barge]_{7776-the " old row barge} " had [no crew]_{7781-no crew} , and [the deserters]_{7782-the deserters} had set it on fire . The flames , as [we]_7778-our rowed away , after vainly searching [the marshes]_{7783-the marshes} , cast a lurid glow on [the mud - banks]_{7784-the mud - banks} , and on the slackening tide ; a true type it was of what soon befell [me]_3455-i — the burning of [[my]_3455-i caboose]_{7785-my caboose} . [The two men]_{3098-the two men} were caught long afterwards by [the Thames Police]_{141-the thames police} , and transported for life on a conviction for river piracy . At least , [I]_3455-i was told that [they]_{3098-the two men} were [the men]_{5486-the men} . "_[3455-i] " And of course , [dear uncle]_{3045-dear uncle} , [you]_{3045-dear uncle} fell deeply in love with the beautiful [Adelaide Green]_572-adelaide . "_[3455-i] " Of course , [[my]_0-i dear]_{5318-my dear} , [a young lady]_{6179-a young lady} would conclude so . But at present [I]_0-i must not talk any more . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i had several times tried to stop [him]_3455-i . " And what [I]_3455-i have next to relate is matter of deeper feeling . By [Jove]_573-jove , to think how [I]_3455-i battled with [that strong man]_{7791-that strong man} ! And now [your]_{5318-my dear} little fist , [Clara]_293-clara , would floor [me]_3455-i altogether . "_[3455-i] [He]_3455-i sighed , and [I]_0-i sighed for [him]_3455-i . Then [I]_0-i thought of [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} , and gloried in [my]_0-i prowess , as [I]_0-i wheeled [[my]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} [home]_1102-home . [[My]_0-i uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's tale , as repeated here , will no more be broken either by [my]_0-i interruptions , which were frequent enough , or by [his]_3455-i own pauses , but will be presented in a continuous form . [STORY OF EDGAR VAUGHAN]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} . " On the following day , when [I]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} called at [the house in [Bloomsbury]_{142-bloomsbury}]_{7792-the house in bloomsbury} — then [a fashionable neighbourhood]_{7793-a fashionable neighbourhood} — to which [I]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} had been directed , [I]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} was met at the threshold , with power and warmth , by [Peter Green]_575-green [himself]_575-green , [an old acquaintance of [mine]_{574-story of edgar vaughan}]_{7794-an old acquaintance of mine} , who proved to be [[Adelaide]_572-adelaide 's brother]_{7795-adelaide 's brother} . [My]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} nature had been too reserved for [me]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} to be friendly with [him]_575-green at [College]_{99-the college} , but [I]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} had liked [him]_575-green much better than [any one else]_{926-any one else} , because [he]_575-green was so decided and straight - forward . The meeting rather surprised [me]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} , for [Green]_575-green is not a rare name , and so it had never occurred to [me]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} to ask the weary [Adelaide]_572-adelaide whether [she]_572-adelaide knew one [Peter Green]_575-green , [a first - class man of [Christchurch]_{144-christchurch}]_{7797-a first - class man of christchurch} . [Peter]_575-green , who was [a most hearty fellow]_{7798-a most hearty fellow} , and full , like [[his]_575-green sister]_{2443-his sister} , of animal life , overpowered [me]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} with the weight of [his]_575-green gratitude , which [I]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} did not at all desire or deserve . As , in spite of [your]_7800-your rash conclusion , [[my]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} romantic [Clara]_293-clara]_{7801-my romantic clara} , [I]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} did not fall in love with [Adelaide]_572-adelaide , who besides [her]_572-adelaide pithsome health and vigour was in many respects astray from [my]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} fair ideal , and more than all , was engaged long ago to [the giver of the sapphire ring]_{7802-the giver of the sapphire ring} , [I]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} need not enlarge upon [my]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} friendship with [Peter Green]_575-green , whom [I]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} now began to like in real earnest . Young as [he]_575-green was , [[his]_575-green father]_{1062-his father} 's recent death had placed [him]_575-green at the head of [a leading mercantile house]_{7804-a leading mercantile house} , [Green]_575-green , [Vowler]_7805-vowler , and [Green]_575-green , of [Little Distaff Lane]_{145-little distaff lane} . And young as [he]_575-green was — not more than seven - and - twenty — [his]_575-green manners were formed , and [his]_575-green character and opinions fixed , as if [he]_575-green had seen all the ways , and taken stock of the sentiments of [all the civilised world]_{7806-all the civilised world} . Present to [him]_575-green any complexity , any conflict of probabilities , [any maze whose ins and outs]_{7807-any maze whose ins and outs} were abroad half over [the universe]_{7808-the universe} , and if the question were practical , [he]_575-green would see what to do in a moment ; if it were theoretical , [he]_575-green would quietly move it aside . [I]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} have known [many learned judges]_{7809-many learned judges} sum up a case most lucidly , blow away all the verbiage , sweep aside all the false issues , balance the contradictions , illuminate all the obscurities , and finally lift from its matrix , and lay in the colourless sunlight the virgin truth , without either dross or polish . All this [Peter Green]_575-green seemed to have done in a moment , without any effort , without any reasoning process ; not jumping at [his]_575-green conclusion , but making it fly to [him]_575-green . [He]_575-green possessed what [an ancient writer]_{7810-an ancient writer} , once highly esteemed at [Oxford]_126-oxford , entitles the "_{[574-story of edgar vaughan]} wit universal , " which confers and comprises the "_{[574-story of edgar vaughan]} wit of details . " For this power when applied to a practical purpose , [a great historian]_{7811-a great historian} employs a happy expression not welcomed by [our]_7812-our language ; [he]_{7811-a great historian} calls it the power to "_{[574-story of edgar vaughan]} pontoon the emergency . " Excuse [my]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} harsh translation , perhaps it is better than paraphrase . With all these business qualities , [[my]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} friend]_{7813-my friend} was as merry and unpretentious [a man]_{5384-a man} as ever made a bad joke , or laughed at [another fellow]_{7815-another fellow} 's ; [liberal]_7816-liberal also , warm - hearted , and not sarcastic . In a word , [he]_575-green was [a genuine specimen of [the noble English merchant , who has done more to raise [this country]_{1963-this country} in the esteem of [the world]_{798-the world} than would [a thousand Nelsons]_{7821-a thousand nelsons} or [Wellingtons]_{576-wellingtons}]_{7818-the noble english merchant , who has done more to raise this country in the esteem of the world than would a thousand nelsons or wellingtons}]_{7817-a genuine specimen of the noble english merchant , who has done more to raise this country in the esteem of the world than would a thousand nelsons or wellingtons} . Now [this man]_{7822-this man} discerned at a glance the wretched defects of [my]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} nature and position . An active mind like [his]_{7822-this man} could never believe in the possibility of being happy without occupation . And by occupation [he]_{7822-this man} meant , not the chasing of butterflies , or maundering after foxes , but real honest Anglo - Saxon work ; work that strings the muscles , or knits the hemispheres of the brain . And work [he]_{7822-this man} would [himself]_{7822-this man} , ay , and with all [his]_{7822-this man} energies . Not [the man]_{5533-the man} was [he]_{7822-this man} to tap the table with [his]_{7822-this man} pipe , and cry out , "_{[574-story of edgar vaughan]} Bravo , [Altiora]_577-altiora ! A little more gin if [you]_577-altiora please , and chalk it down to the Strike ; " but [he]_{7822-this man} was [the man]_{5533-the man} to throw off [his]_{7822-this man} coat , and pitch into the matter before [him]_{7822-this man} without many words , though with plenty of thought . Now , [this man]_{7822-this man} , feeling deeply indebted to [me]_293-clara , and beginning to like [me]_293-clara as [my]_293-clara apathy and reserve went to pieces before [his]_{7822-this man} energy , [this man]_{7822-this man} , [I]_293-clara say , cast about for some method of making [me]_293-clara useful and happy . Wonderfully swift as [he]_{7822-this man} was in pouncing upon the right thing , [I]_293-clara believe it took [him]_{7822-this man} at least five minutes to find out the proper course for [an impracticable fellow like [me]_293-clara]_{7827-an impracticable fellow like me} . And when [he]_{7822-this man} had found this out , it took even [him]_{7822-this man} a week to draw the snail out of [his]_{7822-this man} hole . Years of agreeable indolence , and calm objective indifference , seldom ruffled except at fashionable snobbery , had made of [me]_293-clara not [a Sybarite]_{7828-a sybarite} , or [a supercilious censor]_{7829-a supercilious censor} , much less [a waiter on fortune]_{7830-a waiter on fortune} , but [a contemplative islander]_{7831-a contemplative islander} , [a Haytian who had been once to [Spain]_146-spain , and would henceforth be satisfied with the view of [her]_{7832-a haytian who had been once to spain , and would henceforth be satisfied with the view of her caravels} caravels]_{7832-a haytian who had been once to spain , and would henceforth be satisfied with the view of her caravels} . But [[my]_293-clara Adelantado]_{7833-my adelantado} was [a man of gold and iron]_{7834-a man of gold and iron} . [Green]_575-green , [Vowler]_578-vowler , and [Green]_575-green were largely concerned in the oil and dried fruit business . [They]_7835-they had ransacked [the olive districts of [continental Europe]_95-europe]_{7836-the olive districts of continental europe} , and found the price going up and the quality going down , so [they]_7835-they wanted now to open another oil vein . [Peter Green]_575-green observing [my]_293-clara love of uncultured freedom , the only subject on which [I]_293-clara ever grew warm and rapturous , espied the way to relieve [me]_293-clara of some nonsense , give [my]_293-clara slow life a fillip , and perhaps — oh climax — open a lucrative connexion . [He]_575-green knew , for [he]_575-green seemed to know everything done or undone by commerce , that there was [a glorious island rich in jewels and marble and every dower of nature]_{7837-a glorious island rich in jewels and marble and every dower of nature} , and above all teeming with olives , lemons , and grapes , and citrons ; and that [this gifted island]_{7838-this gifted island} still remained a stranger , through French and [Genoese]_148-genoese ignorance , to [our]_7839-our [London]_1-london trade . This was [the island libelled by [Seneca]_579-seneca , idolised by [[its]_{7840-the island libelled by seneca , idolised by its natives , drenched with more blood than all the plains of emathia} natives]_{7841-its natives} , drenched with more blood than [all the plains of [Emathia]_149-emathia]_{7842-all the plains of emathia}]_{7840-the island libelled by seneca , idolised by its natives , drenched with more blood than all the plains of emathia} , yet [mother of [heroes]_7844-heroes and conquerors of [the world]_{798-the world}]_{7843-mother of heroes and conquerors of the world} — if that be any credit — in a single word , [Corsica]_150-corsica . Once or twice indeed [[our]_7839-our countrymen]_{7846-our countrymen} have attempted to shake hands with [this noble race , so ruined by narrow tradition]_{7847-this noble race , so ruined by narrow tradition} ; and in the end [we]_7839-our shall doubtless succeed , as [we]_7839-our always do ; but the grain of [the Corsican]_{585-old cora} is almost as stubborn as [our]_7839-our own . In fact the staple is much the same , the fabric is very different . Bold [they]_{7846-our countrymen} are , and manly , simple , generous , and most hospitable , [lovers too of [[their]_{7846-our countrymen} country]_{6569-their country} beyond [all other nations]_{7850-all other nations}]_{7848-lovers too of their country beyond all other nations} ; but — oh fatal ignorance — industry to [them]_{7846-our countrymen} is drudgery ; and labour is an outrage . Worse than all is [the fiend of [the island]_{1125-the island}]_{7851-the fiend of the island} , the cursed Blood - revenge . "_[293-clara] Just the place for [you]_3459-you , [Vaughan]_293-clara , " said [the indomitable [Peter]_575-green]_{7853-the indomitable peter} , "_[293-clara] every one there as dignified as an eagle after stealing a lamb . No institutions to speak of , but the natural one of Vendetta , splendid equality , majestic manhood , lots of true womanhood , and it does all the work that is done , which is n't saying much . Why , [[my]_0-i dear]_{5318-my dear} [Quixotic]_580-quixotic , [the land of [Sampiero]_152-sampiero and [Paoli]_153-paoli]_{3461-the land of sampiero and paoli} , and where [Rousseau]_581-rousseau was to legislate , only [he]_3462-he proved too lazy,—is not that the jockey for [you]_3459-you ? After all these levees and masquerades that [you]_3459-you so much delight in — [you]_3459-you need not scowl like [a bandit]_{3463-a bandit} ; it is only because [they]_3464-they do n't want [you]_3459-you , [you]_3459-you are just the same as [the rest]_{6533-the rest} , or why do [you]_3459-you notice the nonsense?—after all this [London]_1-london frippery , [Monte Kotondo]_{582-monte kotondo} will be a fresh oyster after devil'd biscuits . " "_{[582-monte kotondo]} True enough , [[my]_0-i friend]_{7813-my friend} : but an oyster to be swallowed shell and all . " "_{[582-monte kotondo]} Well , is not that just what [you]_{7813-my friend} want ? Lime is good for squeamishness . And more than that , [you]_3459-you are just [the man [we]_3468-we want]_{3467-the man we want} . [You]_3459-you can talk Italian with excellent opera style and sentiment ; and [you]_3459-you wo n't be long till [you]_3459-you fraternise with [the Corsicans]_{583-the corsicans} . Perhaps [they]_3464-they will drive out [the French]_{3469-the french} , who do n't know what to do with it , and make [you]_3459-you [[their]_{3469-the french} king]_{3470-their king} like [Theodore of Neuhoff]_{584-theodore of neuhoff} ; and then [you]_3459-you proclaim free trade restricted to [the navy of [Green]_575-green]_{3471-the navy of green} , [Vowler]_578-vowler , and [Green]_575-green . But in sober earnest , think of it , [[my]_0-i dear]_{5318-my dear} [Vaughan]_293-clara . Anything is better than this cynic indolence . Some of [your]_3459-you views will be corrected , and all enlarged by travel . A common sentiment . Yes , the very thing [you]_3459-you are short of . All [your]_3459-you expenses [we]_3473-we pay of course , and give [you]_3459-you an honest salary ; and all [we]_3473-we ask of [you]_3459-you is to explore more than [a tourist]_{3474-a tourist} would ; and to send [us]_3473-we a plain description of everything . [You]_3459-you have plenty of observation ; make it useful instead of a torment to [you]_3459-you . [We]_3473-we know well enough the great gifts of [that island]_{3475-that island} , but [we]_3473-we want to know how they lie , and how [we]_3473-we may best get at [them]_3476-them . " "_[0-i] Then [you]_0-i would expect [me]_0-i to make commercial arrangements ? " [Peter]_575-green laughed outright . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i should rather fancy not . Somewhat queer ones they would be . Platonic no doubt , and panisic , but not altogether adapted to double entry . " "_{[3477-a committee of inquiry]} Then in fact [I]_0-i am to go as [a committee of inquiry]_{3477-a committee of inquiry} . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i have told [you]_3459-you all [we]_3473-we want . If [you]_3459-you make [any friends]_{3478-any friends} all the better ; but that [we]_3473-we leave to [yourself]_3459-you . Perhaps [you]_3459-you 'll grow sociable [there]_1114-there . Though [the Corsican]_{585-old cora} does not sing , ' [We]_3473-we wo n't go [home]_1102-home till morning , ' and be going [home]_1102-home all the time . " "_{[585-old cora]} And how long would [my]_0-i engagement last ? " "_{[585-old cora]} Till [you]_3459-you have thoroughly traversed [the country]_{1831-the country} , if [you]_3459-you stick to it so long ; and then if [you]_3459-you quit [yourself]_3459-you well , [we]_3473-we should commission [you]_3459-you for Sardinia . What an opening for [an idle man]_{3483-an idle man} , though it would soon kill [me]_0-i — so little to do . But [you]_3459-you may cut it short when [you]_3459-you like . [Plenty of [[our]_3473-we people]_{3485-our people}]_{3484-plenty of our people} would jump at such an offer ; but for [a country like that]_{3486-a country like that} [we]_3473-we must have [a thorough gentleman]_{3487-a thorough gentleman} . [A coarse - mannered bagman]_{3488-a coarse - mannered bagman} would very soon secure the contents of a fusil . [He]_{3488-a coarse - mannered bagman} would be kissing [the Corsican girls]_{3489-the corsican girls} , who are wonderfully lovely [they]_{3489-the corsican girls} say , and [[their]_{3489-the corsican girls} lovers]_{3490-their lovers} amazingly jealous ; and [every man]_{3491-every man} carries a gun . [A timid man]_{3492-a timid man} [they]_{3489-the corsican girls} despise , [an insolent man]_{3493-an insolent man} [they]_{3489-the corsican girls} shoot ; and [most of [[our]_3473-we fellows]_{3495-our fellows}]_{3494-most of our fellows} are one or the other , or both . But will [you]_3496-you undertake it ? Yes , or no , on the spot . And [I]_0-i ask [you]_3496-you to say ' yes ' as a special favour to [me]_0-i . " "_[0-i] Then of course [I]_0-i say yes . When shall [I]_0-i go ? " "_[0-i] To - morrow , if [you]_3496-you like . Next month if [you]_3496-you prefer it . [We]_3473-we can give [you]_3496-you introductions . There is no real danger for [a thorough gentleman]_{3487-a thorough gentleman} , or [you]_3496-you should not go for all the olives in [Europe]_95-europe . Mind [we]_3473-we want a particular sort , very long and taper — [Virgil]_586-virgil 's ' Ray , ' in fact . [You]_3496-you shall have a sample of it . As yet [we]_3473-we know but [one district of [Italy]_63-italy where it grows]_{3498-one district of italy where it grows} , but have got scent of it in [Corsica]_150-corsica . Glorious fellows [they]_3499-they are , if half that [I]_0-i hear is true , [glorious fellows]_{3500-glorious fellows} but for [their]_3499-they laziness , and that — — Vendetta . " To be brief , [I]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} received very clear instructions in writing , and was off for [Bonifazio]_{155-bonifazio} the following week , in [a small swift yacht]_{7854-a small swift yacht} of [my]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} own , a luxury to which [I]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} had always aspired , and which [I]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} could now for a time afford . But before [I]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} went , [[your]_3496-you poor father]_{5406-your poor father} , [Clara]_293-clara , protested most strongly against the scheme , and even came to [London]_1-london in the vain hope of dissuading [me]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} . [He]_0-i had some deep presentiment that it would end darkly , and so indeed it did . "_{[574-story of edgar vaughan]} [Ned]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} , " said [he]_0-i once more , "_{[574-story of edgar vaughan]} there are only two of [us]_3501-us , and [[my]_0-i dear wife]_{3502-my dear wife} is very delicate . [I]_0-i have been at [Genoa]_65-genoa , where [those islanders]_{3503-those islanders} are well known , and even there [they]_{3503-those islanders} are rarely spoken of but with a cold shudder . [They]_{3503-those islanders} are [a splendid race]_{3504-a splendid race} , [I]_0-i believe , [great heroes]_{3505-great heroes} and all that , but [they]_{3503-those islanders} shoot [a man with no more compunction]_{3506-a man with no more compunction} than [they]_{3503-those islanders} shoot [a muffro]_{3507-a muffro} . [I]_0-i implore [you]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} , [[my]_0-i dear brother]_{5454-my dear brother} , not to risk [the last of [[our]_3501-us family]_{1997-our family} , where blood flows as freely as water]_{3509-the last of our family , where blood flows as freely as water} . And [your]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} temper , [you]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} know , is not the best in [the world]_{798-the world} . Do n't go , [[my]_0-i dear fellow]_{3512-my dear fellow} , do n't go . [I]_0-i shall have to come and avenge [you]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} , and [I]_0-i do n't understand Vendetta . " Ah , [me]_0-i ! If [I]_0-i had only listened to [him]_0-i . And yet , [I]_0-i do n't know . After a pleasant voyage [we]_3501-us reached [the magnificent island]_{7856-the magnificent island} , about the middle of May. [My]_0-i intention was to skirt round [it]_{7856-the magnificent island} from [the southern extremity]_{7857-the southern extremity} , taking the western side first , and touching at every anchorage , whence [I]_0-i would make incursions , and return to [[my]_0-i little cutter]_{7858-my little cutter} , as the most convenient head - quarters . Of course [I]_0-i should have to rough [it]_{7858-my little cutter} ; but [what young man]_{7859-what young man} would think twice of that , with an adventurous life before [him]_{7859-what young man} ? [I]_0-i will not weary [you]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} , [[my]_0-i dear child]_{2385-my dear child} , with a long description of [Corsica]_150-corsica . [It]_150-corsica is [a land which combines all the softness and the majesty , all the wealth and barrenness , all the smile and menace of all [the world beside]_{7862-the world beside}]_{7861-a land which combines all the softness and the majesty , all the wealth and barrenness , all the smile and menace of all the world beside} . [I]_0-i could talk of it by the hour ; but [you]_{574-story of edgar vaughan} want to know what [I]_0-i did , and was done to , more than what [I]_0-i saw . From [the awful rock of [Bonifazio]_{155-bonifazio}]_{7863-the awful rock of bonifazio} , [the streets where [men]_1003-men should have no elbows]_{7864-the streets where men should have no elbows} , and [the tower of [Torrione]_156-torrione]_{7866-the tower of torrione} , along [the fantastic coast which looks as if time]_{7867-the fantastic coast which looks as if time} were a giant rabbit , [we]_7868-we traced [the blue and spur - vexed sea]_{7869-the blue and spur - vexed sea} , now edged with white , and now with gray , and now with glowing red , until [we]_7868-we reached [that paradise of heaven]_{7870-that paradise of heaven} , [the garden of [Balagna]_{183-the balagna}]_{7871-the garden of balagna} . Let [me]_0-i hold [myself]_0-i . Weak as [I]_0-i am and crippled by premature old age , not the shortness of [my]_0-i breath , not the numbness of [my]_0-i heart , not even the palsy of [my]_0-i frame , can quench or check the fire rekindled by the mere name of [that heavenly valley]_{7872-that heavenly valley} . To live there only half a minute is worth a day of English life . Life — it is a space to measure , not by pendulum or clock - hand , not by [our]_7868-we own strides to and fro ( the ordnance scale of the million ) , not even by the rolling sun , and nature 's hail and farewell ; but by the well - spring of [ourselves]_7868-we , the fount of thought and feeling . Every single breath [I]_0-i draw of this living air — air [the bride of [earth]_1622-earth [[our]_7868-we sire]_{7875-our sire} , wedded to [him]_{7875-our sire} by [God Creator]_303-god , [air whose mother - milk [we]_7868-we fight for in clusters baulking [one another]_{758-one another}]_{7876-air whose mother - milk we fight for in clusters baulking one another}]_{7873-the bride of earth our sire , wedded to him by god creator , air whose mother - milk we fight for in clusters baulking one another} — every breath [I]_0-i draw dances with a buoyant virtue , sucked , in [any other land]_{7878-any other land} , but from [mountain nipples]_{7879-mountain nipples} . Bright air of a rosy blue , where northern eyes are dazed with beauty , where every flower cuts stars of light , and every cloud is sunshine 's step ; can even [lovers parted]_{7880-lovers parted} thus believe [themselves]_{7880-lovers parted} divided ? [Every rock]_{7881-every rock} has its myrtle favour , every tree its clematis wreath ; under the cistus and oleander hides the pink to lace [its]_{7881-every rock} bodice , watched by [the pansy]_{7882-the pansy} 's sprightly eye . Lavishly , as [children]_{1229-children} 's bubbles , hover overhead oranges , and citrons , lemons , almonds , figs , varied by the blushing peach and the purpling grape . Far behind , and leaning forth the swarthy bosom of [the mountain]_{5676-the mountain} , whose white head leans on [the heaven]_{7885-the heaven} , are ranks on ranks of glaucous olive , giants of a green old age dashed with silver gray . And oh , the fragrance under foot , the tribute of the ground , which [[Corsica]_150-corsica 's great son]_{7886-corsica 's great son} — as [we]_7868-we men measure greatness — pined for in [the barren isle]_{7887-the barren isle} , where the iron of [his]_{7886-corsica 's great son} selfishness entered [his]_{7886-corsica 's great son} own soul . These are said to be the largest olive - trees in [the world]_{798-the world} , and of the very best varieties . Heaps upon heaps the rich fruit lies at the foot of the glorious tree ; nature is too bountiful for [man]_5770-man to heed [her]_7890-her gifts . For [this district of Balagna]_{7891-this district of balagna} , and [that of [Nebbio]_158-nebbio further north]_{7892-that of nebbio further north} , [my]_0-i attention had been especially bespoken by [[my]_0-i shrewd and sagacious friend]_{7893-my shrewd and sagacious friend} . Therefore and by reason of the charms around [me]_0-i , here [I]_0-i resolved to pass the summer ; so [my]_0-i vessel was laid up at [Calvi]_159-calvi , and being quartered in [Belgodere]_{160-belgodere} at [a little [Inn—"locanda]_{161-inn—"locanda}]_{7894-a little inn—"locanda[0-i]} " it should be called , but [I]_{3513-law the second to live by robbery} hate interlarding — [I]_{3513-law the second to live by robbery} addressed [myself]_{3513-law the second to live by robbery} right heartily to business and to pleasure . First [I]_{3513-law the second to live by robbery} had to study the grand Palladian gift . Unless [old Seneca]_579-seneca was , as [the Corsicans]_{583-the corsicans} say , [a great liar]_{7895-a great liar} , [he]_579-seneca can not have been the author of that epigram which declares [this land]_{7896-this land} a stranger to [the peaceful boon]_{7897-the peaceful boon} . It is impossible to believe that [a country so adapted to that tree , so often colonized by [cultured races]_{7899-cultured races}]_{7898-a country so adapted to that tree , so often colonized by cultured races} , can have been so long ungifted with [its]_{7898-a country so adapted to that tree , so often colonized by cultured races} staff of life . [The island]_{1125-the island} itself in that same epigram is utterly mis - described . As regards [the inhabitants]_{7901-the inhabitants} , the first line of the well - known couplet is verified by ages ; to the second it does not plead guilty now , and probably never did . "_{[3513-law the second to live by robbery]} Law the first revenge . [Law the second to live by robbery]_{3513-law the second to live by robbery} . Law the third to lie . The fourth to deny any Gods . " [The Corsicans]_{583-the corsicans} , on the contrary , have always been famous for candour , whose very soul is truth , and for superstition , [the wen or hump of religion]_{7902-the wen or hump of religion} . For [my]_0-i own part , loving not that unprincipled fellow hard labour , towards whom [these noble islanders]_{7903-these noble islanders} entertain a like antipathy , and loving much any freedom not hostile to [my]_0-i own , [I]_0-i got on with [the natives]_{7904-the natives} admirably , for a certain time . Time had reconciled [me]_0-i to [their]_{583-the corsicans} custom of carrying , instead of cane or umbrella , long double - barrelled guns , whose muzzle they afford [the stranger]_{1526-the stranger} full opportunity of inspecting . [First - rate marksmen]_{7906-first - rate marksmen} are [they]_{583-the corsicans} , but [they]_{583-the corsicans} sling [their]_{583-the corsicans} guns at hap - hazard on [their]_{583-the corsicans} backs , and cheek to jowl [we]_7907-we come upon the cold metal at the corner of [the narrow streets]_{7908-the narrow streets} . [Tall and powerful men]_{7909-tall and powerful men} [they]_{583-the corsicans} are , especially [the mountaineers]_{7910-the mountaineers} ; with all [the Spaniard]_{7911-the spaniard} 's dignity and [the Italian]_{7912-the italian} 's native grace . [The women]_{5487-the women} are lithe , erect , and beautifully formed , with a swan - like carriage , and a free and courteous bearing , such as very few of [[our]_7907-we high - born damsels]_{7914-our high - born damsels} own . [The olive - growers]_{7915-the olive - growers} frankly gave [me]_0-i all [their]_{7915-the olive - growers} little information about that tree whose typical virtues [they]_{7915-the olive - growers} have never cared to learn . The variety chiefly grown , or rather which chiefly grows itself , is one [they]_{7915-the olive - growers} call [the Genoese]_148-genoese . [The owners]_{1613-the owners} afford [them]_{7915-the olive - growers} very little culture , and [many]_3234-many are too idle even to collect the fruit . There are said to be ten million olive - trees in [the island]_{1125-the island} ; at least they were reckoned up to that number by order of [the Government]_{7919-the government} ; then [the enumerators]_{7920-the enumerators} grew tired , and left off counting . Whatever number there is might easily be tripled , if [any one]_{1178-any one} had the energy to graft the oleasters , with which [the hills]_{1167-the hills} are covered . There is also the Saracen olive , and the Sabine , the latter perhaps the Regia of [Columella]_{162-columella} , Raggiaria of [Cæsalpinus]_{163-cæsalpinus} , and [Radius of Virgil]_586-virgil . However , though not unlike [my]_0-i sample fruit , it was not quite identical , and as [[my]_0-i employers]_{7923-my employers} wanted a very special sort for very special qualities , [I]_0-i was as far from [my]_0-i object as ever . One magnificent summer evening , as [I]_0-i rode along [the mountain side]_{5713-the mountain side} near [the village of Speloncato]_{7925-the village of speloncato} , suddenly [the track]_{7926-the track} turned sharply into [a wooded dingle]_{6078-a wooded dingle} . Steeped in the dream of nature 's beauty , [I]_0-i was thinking of nothing at all , as becomes [a true Corsican]_{7928-a true corsican} , when [I]_0-i received a sharpish knock in the eye . Something fell and lodged in [my]_0-i capacious beard . Smarting from the pain . [I]_0-i caught it , and not being able to see clearly , took it at first for a spent and dropping bullet . But when [my]_0-i eyes had ceased to water , [I]_0-i found in [my]_0-i hand a half - grown olive of the very kind [I]_0-i had so long been seeking . [I]_0-i drew forth some of [my]_0-i London specimens which had been chemically treated to prevent [their]_{7923-my employers} shrivelling , and compared it narrowly . Yes , there could be no doubt ; the same pyriform curve , the same bulge near the peduncle , the same violet lines in the skin , and when cut open , the same granulation and nucleus . [I]_0-i was truly delighted , at length [I]_0-i should be of some real service ; at least if there were many trees [here of this most rare variety]_{7929-here of this most rare variety} . By riding up [the dingle]_{7930-the dingle} , [I]_0-i soon ascertained that [it]_{7930-the dingle} was planted with trees of this sort only , gray old trees of a different habit from any other olive . Afterwards [I]_0-i found that it requires a different soil , and a different aspect . Full speed [I]_0-i galloped back to [the hamlet of [Speloncato]_{164-speloncato}]_{7931-the hamlet of speloncato} , and inquired for [the owner of [this olive Eldorado]_{7933-this olive eldorado}]_{7932-the owner of this olive eldorado} . [Signor Dezio Della Croce]_{589-signor dezio} , owner of all this lovely slope , and of [large estates extending as far as [the road]_{1630-the road} to [Corte]_165-corte]_{7934-large estates extending as far as the road to corte} ; in fact [the chief proprietor of [the neighbourhood]_{5329-the neighbourhood}]_{7936-the chief proprietor of the neighbourhood} . [He]_{589-signor dezio} was , said [the peasant]_{7938-the peasant} with some pride , [a true descendant of [the great race of [Cinarca]_166-cinarca]_{7940-the great race of cinarca} , foremost in [the island]_{1125-the island} annals for a thousand years , and of whom was [the famous [Giudice Della Rocca]_590-giudice , Count and Judge of [Corsica]_150-corsica]_{7942-the famous giudice della rocca , count and judge of corsica}]_{7939-a true descendant of the great race of cinarca , foremost in the island annals for a thousand years , and of whom was the famous giudice della rocca , count and judge of corsica} , six hundred years ago . "_[0-i] At the sound of [his]_3514-his name , [Giudice]_590-giudice opened [his]_590-giudice great sleepy eyes , and pricked [his]_590-giudice ears : [I]_0-i promised not to interrupt , but [he]_590-giudice gave no such pledge . " Let the Cinarchesi blood go for its full value ; but it was worth something to [the Della Croce]_{589-signor dezio} to be descended also from [the Tuscan Malaspina]_{7943-the tuscan malaspina} ; for [the lands of [those great Marquises]_{7945-those great marquises}]_{7944-the lands of those great marquises} were now in the possession of [the Signor Dezio]_{589-signor dezio} . And [the Signor]_{7946-the signor} had such [a daughter]_{5399-a daughter} , [a young maiden]_{7948-a young maiden} . Ah , [Madonna]_591-madonna ! [The loveliest girl in [Corsica]_150-corsica]_{7949-the loveliest girl in corsica} . And [the vine - dresser]_{7950-the vine - dresser} crossed [himself]_{7950-the vine - dresser} . As [I]_590-giudice listened to all this information , [I]_590-giudice began to look through [my]_590-giudice unused credentials , which [I]_590-giudice always carried . It struck [me]_590-giudice that this name of [Della Croce]_{589-signor dezio} was quite familiar to [me]_590-giudice , though [I]_590-giudice knew not how , until a letter in the sprawling hand of [young Laurence Daldy]_{307-laurence daldy} fell out from among [Peter]_575-green 's crabbed characters . [Laurence Daldy]_{307-laurence daldy} , [[my]_590-giudice mother 's younger son]_{7951-my mother 's younger son} , was now in full career , as a pigeon and [a Guardsman]_{7952-a guardsman} , spending at full gallop [[his]_{307-laurence daldy} dead father]_{7953-his dead father} 's money . [These Daldys]_{563-the daldys} were of Italian origin , the true name being D'Aldis , which after some years of English life [they]_{563-the daldys} had naturalised into [Daldy]_{307-laurence daldy} . And now [I]_590-giudice recollected that when [we]_7954-we [Vaughan boys]_{7955-vaughan boys} scorned [them]_{563-the daldys} as [ignoble sons of commerce]_{7956-ignoble sons of commerce} , [they]_{563-the daldys} used to brag about [their]_{563-the daldys} kinship to the ancient [Della Croce]_{589-signor dezio} . Riding up [the forest hill]_{7957-the forest hill} , on whose western bluff stands boldly [the gray old tower of [the Malaspinas]_{167-the malaspinas}]_{7958-the gray old tower of the malaspinas} , [I]_590-giudice began of course to make forecasts about the character of [[my]_590-giudice host]_{7959-my host} . [My]_590-giudice host [I]_590-giudice knew [he]_{7959-my host} needs must be , for [Corsica]_150-corsica is of all [the world the most hospitable spot]_{7960-the world the most hospitable spot} . Although by this time well acquainted with the simple island habits , [I]_590-giudice could not but expect to find [a man of stateliness and surroundings , of stiffness and some arrogance]_{7961-a man of stateliness and surroundings , of stiffness and some arrogance} . Now the sun was setting , and the western fire from off [the sea]_{895-the sea} glanced in spears of reddening gold into the solemn timeworn keep . All things looked majestic , but a deal too lonely . Where was [I]_590-giudice to apply , how was [I]_590-giudice to get in ? The narrow doorway overhung with the wreck of some portcullis , was blocked instead with a sort of mantlet like [the Roman Vinea]_{7963-the roman vinea} ; the loopholes on the ground - tier were boarded almost to the top , the high windows , such as they were , had their rough shutters closed . Everything betokened a state of siege and fear . Two or three magnificent chesnuts , which must have commanded the front of [the tower]_{7964-the tower} , had been cut down and added to the defences of the approach . Over these [I]_590-giudice managed at last to leap [my]_590-giudice horse , who was by no means [a perfect hunter]_{7965-a perfect hunter} ; and there [I]_590-giudice halted at a loss how to proceed . [I]_590-giudice had been long enough in [Corsica]_150-corsica to know , even without a certain ominous gleam from a loophole , and the view in transverse section of a large double - barrelled gun , that [the owner of [this old mansion]_{7967-this old mansion}]_{7966-the owner of this old mansion} was now in the pleasant state of [Vendetta]_168-vendetta . Expecting every moment to be shot , and nothing said about it , [I]_590-giudice waved [my]_590-giudice letter , as a white flag , furiously above [my]_590-giudice head . Presently that frightful muzzle was withdrawn , and the slide pushed back , to reconnoitre [me]_590-giudice at leisure . [I]_590-giudice tried , for the first time in [my]_590-giudice life , to look like [a real Briton]_{7968-a real briton} ; [my]_590-giudice Corsican ambition was already on the wane . So [I]_590-giudice sat [my]_590-giudice horse , and waited ; and what came was worth a thousand years of waiting . Round [the bastion of the tower]_{7969-the bastion of the tower} , under the rich magnolia bloom , towards [me]_590-giudice glided through the rosy shadow the loveliest being that ever moved outside [the gates of [heaven]_1555-heaven]_{7970-the gates of heaven} . [She]_7972-her seemed not to walk but waft along , like the pearly Nautilus . A pink mandile of lightest gauze lit the sable of [her]_7972-her clustering hair , and wreathing round [her]_7972-her graceful head deepened the tinge of the nestling cheeks . The lithe faldetta of white cashmere , thrown hastily over the shoulders , half concealed the flowing curves of the slender supple form , half betrayed them as it followed every facile motion . But when [she]_7972-her smiled — oh , [Clara]_293-clara , [I]_590-giudice would have leaped from [[[her]_7972-her father]_{898-her father} 's tower]_{7974-her father 's tower} , or into [the black caves of [the Restonica]_{169-the restonica}]_{7975-the black caves of the restonica} , for one smile of [hers]_7972-her . The dark - fringed lustre of [her]_7972-her eyes seemed to dance with golden joy , trusting , hoping , loving all things , pleasure pleased at pleasing . And the gleesome arch of [her]_7972-her laughing lips , that never shaped evil word ! Oh , [[my]_590-giudice [Lily]_592-lily]_{7976-my lily} , [[my]_590-giudice own Lily]_{7977-my own lily} , [I]_590-giudice shall see [you]_293-clara soon again . [[My]_590-giudice dear]_{5318-my dear} [Clara]_293-clara , [I]_590-giudice ought to know better . [I]_590-giudice am ashamed of [myself]_590-giudice . And after so many years ! But at the first glance of [Fiordalisa]_{593-fiordalisa} , [my]_590-giudice fate was fixed for this life and the other . [I]_590-giudice never had loved before . [I]_590-giudice never had cared to look at [a girl]_{2251-a girl} ; in fact [I]_590-giudice despised [them]_7980-them all . Now [I]_590-giudice paid for that contemptuous folly . Loving at one glance , loving once , for all , for ever , [my]_590-giudice heart stood still like the focus of a hurricane ; [my]_590-giudice speech and every power but that of vision failed [me]_590-giudice . [I]_590-giudice dared not try to leave the saddle , such a trembling took [me]_590-giudice . It was a visitation unknown in [[our]_7981-our foggy plains]_{7982-our foggy plains} , scoffed at by [[our]_7981-our prosy race]_{7983-our prosy race} , but known full well in [Southern climes]_{7984-southern climes} , as the sunstroke of love . [[My]_590-giudice own darling]_{5763-my own darling} — [I]_590-giudice can call [her]_{5763-my own darling} nothing less — [[my]_590-giudice own delicious darling]_{7986-my own delicious darling} was quite startled at [me]_590-giudice . Whether [she]_{5763-my own darling} had a like visitation in a milder form , is more than [I]_590-giudice can say ; but [I]_590-giudice hope with all [my]_590-giudice heart [she]_{5763-my own darling} had ; for then , as the Southern tale recites , [God]_303-god placed [her]_{5763-my own darling} hand in [mine]_590-giudice . How [I]_590-giudice got [my]_590-giudice horse tied up , how [I]_590-giudice followed [her]_{5763-my own darling} through the side entrance , and returned [[her]_{5763-my own darling} father]_{898-her father} 's greeting , [I]_590-giudice have not the least idea ; all [I]_590-giudice know is that [she]_{5763-my own darling} smiled , and [I]_590-giudice wanted nothing more . But [I]_590-giudice could not bear to see [her]_{5763-my own darling} in the true Homeric fashion still maintained in [Corsica]_150-corsica , waiting on [us]_7988-us like [a common servant]_{7989-a common servant} , with [her]_{5763-my own darling} beautiful arched feet glancing under the brown pelone , and [her]_{5763-my own darling} tapering white arms laid demurely on [her]_{5763-my own darling} bosom ; then at [[her]_{5763-my own darling} father]_{898-her father} 's signal how [she]_{5763-my own darling} flew for the purple grapes or the fragrant broccio ! But do what [she]_{5763-my own darling} would , it seemed to become [her]_{5763-my own darling} more than all [she]_{5763-my own darling} had done before . As that form of love and elegance flitted through [the simple room]_{7991-the simple room} , and those lustrous heavenly eyes beamed with hospitable warmth , [Signor Dezio Della Croce]_{589-signor dezio} , [careworn man with beard of snow]_{7992-careworn man with beard of snow} , seemed at times no little proud of [[his]_{589-signor dezio} sweet and only child]_{7993-his sweet and only child} , but was too proud to show [his]_{589-signor dezio} pride . As for [me]_590-giudice , [he]_{589-signor dezio} must have thought that [I]_590-giudice spoke very poor Italian . [Child Clara]_293-clara , for [your]_293-clara own dear sake , as well as [mine]_590-giudice and [my]_590-giudice sweet love 's , [I]_590-giudice will not dwell on that tempestuous time . If [you]_293-clara can not comprehend it without words , no words will enable [you]_293-clara . If [you]_293-clara can , and [I]_590-giudice fear [you]_293-clara do , no more words are wanted ; and , as [an old man weary of [the world]_{798-the world}]_{7994-an old man weary of the world} , [I]_590-giudice know not whether to envy or to pity [you]_293-clara . Hither and thither [I]_590-giudice was flung , to the zenith star of ecstasy or the nadir gulf of agony , according as [[my]_590-giudice idol]_{7996-my idol} pet chose to smile or frown . Though [she]_293-clara was [no silly child]_{7997-no silly child} , but [a girl of mind and feeling]_{7998-a girl of mind and feeling} , [she]_293-clara had a store , [I]_590-giudice must confess , of clouds as well as dazzling sunlight in the empyrean of [her]_293-clara eyes . [Her]_293-clara nature , like [my]_590-giudice love , was full of Southern passion . It is like the air [they]_7999-they breathe , the beauty [they]_7999-they behold . One minute of such love compresses in a thunder flood all the slow emotions stealing through the drought - scrimped channel , where [we]_8000-we dredge for gold deposits , through ten years of Saxon courtship . Instead of [Lily - bloom]_592-lily , [she]_293-clara should have been called the Passion - flower . [My]_590-giudice life , [my]_590-giudice soul — how weak [our]_8000-we English words are — [she]_293-clara loved [me]_590-giudice from the first , [I]_590-giudice can take [my]_590-giudice oath [she]_293-clara did , although [her]_293-clara glory was too great for [her]_293-clara to own it yet , though now and then [her]_293-clara marvellous eyes proved traitors . Sometimes when [she]_293-clara was racking [me]_590-giudice most , feigning even , with those eyes cast down , [her]_293-clara pellucid fingers point to point , and [her]_293-clara little foot tapping the orchid bloom , feigning , [I]_590-giudice say , in cold blood , to reckon [[her]_293-clara noble lovers]_{8001-her noble lovers} — long names all and horribly hateful to [me]_590-giudice — suddenly , while [I]_590-giudice trembled , and scowled like [a true - born Briton]_{8002-a true - born briton} , suddenly up would leap the silky drooping lashes , and a spring of soft electric light would flutter through them to the very core of [my]_590-giudice heart . As for [me]_590-giudice , [I]_590-giudice abandoned [myself]_590-giudice . [I]_590-giudice made no pretence of waiting a moment . [I]_590-giudice flung [my]_590-giudice heart wide open to [her]_293-clara , and if [she]_293-clara would not come in , desert it should be for ever . [She]_293-clara did come . That life - blood of [my]_590-giudice soul came in , and would and could live nowhere else for ever . It was done like this . One August evening , when the sun was sinking , and the air was full of warmth and wooing sounds , [the cicale]_{8003-the cicale} waking from [his]_{8003-the cicale} early nap , the muffro leaping for the first dew - drop , the love - birds whispering in the tamarind leaves , [Fiordalisa]_{593-fiordalisa} sat with [me]_590-giudice , under a giant cork - tree on [the western slope]_{8004-the western slope} . [The tower]_{7964-the tower} was still in Vendetta siege , and [the grave and reverend Signor]_{8006-the grave and reverend signor} knew better than to come out , when [the Sbirri]_{595-the sbirri} were gone to [the town]_{8007-the town} . [Lily - bloom]_596-lily was sitting by [me]_590-giudice in a mass of flowers ; [her]_293-clara light mandile was laid by , that [her]_293-clara glorious hair might catch the first waft of the evening breeze . All down [her]_293-clara snow - white shoulders fell the labyrinth of tresses , twined by [me]_590-giudice with red Tacsonia , and two pale carnations . [Her]_293-clara form was pillowed in rich fern , that feathered round [her]_293-clara waist ; of all the fronds and plumes and stems , not one so taper , light , and rich as that . The bloom upon [her]_293-clara cheeks was deepened by [my]_590-giudice playing with [her]_293-clara hair , and [her]_293-clara soft large eyes were beaming with delicious wonder . [We]_8008-we knew , as well as [He]_8009-he who made [us]_8008-we , that [we]_8008-we loved [one another]_{758-one another} . [None who did not love for ever]_{8011-none who did not love for ever} could interchange such looks . Suddenly , and without a word , in an ecstasy of admiration , [I]_590-giudice passed [my]_590-giudice left arm round [her]_293-clara little waist , drew [her]_293-clara close to [me]_590-giudice — [she]_293-clara was very near before — and looking full into [her]_293-clara wondrous eyes , found no protest but a thrill of light ; then tried [her]_293-clara lips and met [her]_293-clara whole heart there . [Darling]_477-judy , how [she]_293-clara kissed [me]_590-giudice ! [No English girl]_{8012-no english girl} can do it . And then the terror of [her]_293-clara maiden thoughts . The recollection of [her]_293-clara high - born pride , and higher because [God]_303-god - born innocence . How [she]_293-clara wept , and blushed , and trembled ; trembled , blushed , and wept again ; and then vouchsafed one more entrancing kiss , to atone for the unwitting treason . Even thus [I]_590-giudice would not be content . [I]_590-giudice wanted words as well . "_{[590-giudice]} Do [you]_3515-my love [me]_0-i , [my]_0-i own [Lily]_596-lily , with every atom of [your]_3515-my heart ? " "_[3515-my] [I]_0-i have not left one drop of blood for all [the world]_{798-the world} besides . " And it was true . And so it was with [me]_3515-my . [I]_3515-my told [[her]_293-clara father]_{898-her father} that same night . And now in the heaven of gladness and wild pleasure , beyond all dreams of [earth]_1622-earth , opened the hell of [my]_3515-my wickedness and crime ; which but for mercy and long repentance would sever [me]_3515-my from [[my]_3515-my Lily]_{7976-my lily} in [the world]_{798-the world} to come . To some the crime may seem a light one , to [me]_3515-my it is a most atrocious sin , enhanced tenfold by its awful consequences . By [my]_3515-my crime , [I]_3515-my do not mean [my]_3515-my sinful adoration , as [cold men]_{8017-cold men} may call it , of [a fellow mortal]_{8018-a fellow mortal} . Nature has no time to waste , and unless [she]_293-clara meant [[my]_3515-my Lily]_{7976-my lily} to be worshipped , [she]_293-clara would not have lavished all [her]_293-clara skill in making [her]_293-clara so divine . No , [I]_3515-my mean [my]_3515-my black deceit , in passing for [[my]_3515-my brother]_{1302-my brother} . Oh , [Clara]_293-clara , do n't go from [me]_3515-my . Like many another ruinous sin , it was committed without thought , or rather without deliberation . No scheme was laid , not even the least intention cherished ; but the moment brought it , and the temptation was too great . Who could have [that loving pet]_{8021-that loving pet} gazing at [him]_{1302-my brother} so , and not sell [his]_{1302-my brother} soul almost to win [her]_{8021-that loving pet} to [his]_{1302-my brother} arms ? [Laurence Daldy]_{307-laurence daldy} was [a lazy ass]_{8022-a lazy ass} . [I]_3515-my do not want to shift [my]_3515-my blame to [him]_{307-laurence daldy} , but merely state a fact . If [he]_{307-laurence daldy} had not been [a lazy ass]_{8022-a lazy ass} , [[your]_8024-your father]_{5365-your father} would be living now — ay , and [my]_3515-my Fiordalisa . When [he]_{307-laurence daldy} chose , [he]_{307-laurence daldy} could write very good Italian , and a clear , round hand , and oh , rare accomplishment for [an officer]_{8026-an officer} , [he]_{307-laurence daldy} could even spell . But [his]_{307-laurence daldy} letter to [Signor Dezio]_{589-signor dezio} , scrawled betwixt two games of pool , was a perfect magpie 's nest of careless zigzag , wattles , and sand slap - dash . In those days [a hasty writer]_{8027-a hasty writer} used to flick [his]_{8027-a hasty writer} work with sand , which stanched but did not dry the ink . The result was often a grimy dabble , like [a child]_{782-a child} 's face blotched with blackberries . [Lily]_596-lily and [I]_3515-my had quite arranged how [we]_8029-we should present [ourselves]_8029-we . Like [two children]_{1626-two children} [we]_8029-we rehearsed it under the twilight trees . "_[3515-my] And then , [you]_3517-you know , " [[my]_0-i sweet love]_{8031-my sweet love} whispered , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i shall give [you]_3517-you a regular kiss beneath [the dear father]_{3518-the dear father} 's beard , and [you]_3517-you will see what an effect it will have . Thence [he]_{3518-the dear father} will learn , oh sweetest mine , that there is no help for it ; because [we]_3519-we [Corsican girls]_{3520-corsican girls} are so chary of [our]_3519-we lips . " "_[3517-you] Are [you]_3517-you indeed , [[my]_0-i beautiful [Lily]_596-lily]_{3521-my beautiful lily} ? [I]_0-i must teach [you]_3517-you liberality , to [me]_0-i , and to [me]_0-i alone . " "_[0-i] Sweetest mine , " [she]_596-lily always called [me]_0-i from the moment [she]_596-lily confessed [her]_596-lily love ; and so , no doubt , [she]_596-lily is calling [me]_0-i now in [heaven]_1555-heaven . The curtain hung in heavy folds across the narrow doorway of [the long dark room]_{6397-the long dark room} . The hospitable board was gay with wine and dainty fruit , melons , figs , and peaches , plums of golden and purple hue , pomegranates , pomi d'oro , green almonds , apricots , and muscatels from the ladders of [Cape Corso]_{170-cape corso} . Through [them]_8034-them and upon [them]_8034-them played the mellow light from a single lamp , with dancing lustres round it . All the rest of [the room]_{823-the room} was dark . At the head of the table sat [Signor Dezio Della Croce]_{589-signor dezio} , waiting for [[his]_{589-signor dezio} guest]_{8036-his guest} and [daughter]_{8037-daughter} . Posted high at the end window on a ledge of rough - hewn board , stood [the ancient warder]_{8038-the ancient warder} , who had lived for fifty years among [them]_8034-them , and whose great fusil commanded the only approach to [the castle]_{8039-the castle} . As [we]_8040-we entered timidly , [the maiden]_{3430-the maiden} 's right hand on [my]_0-i neck , [my]_0-i left arm round [her]_{3430-the maiden} ductile waist , [our]_8040-we other hands clasped firmly , [I]_0-i glanced toward [that noxious sentinel]_{8042-that noxious sentinel} . "_[0-i] Never mind [him]_3522-my , sweetest mine . Do n't believe that [he]_3522-my is there . [Grandpapa]_{597-grandpapa} , [I]_0-i call [him]_3522-my , and [he]_3522-my knows all [my]_0-i secrets . " [Signor Dezio]_{589-signor dezio} looked amazed , as [we]_8040-we glided towards [him]_{589-signor dezio} . [His]_{589-signor dezio} life had been one series of crushing blows from heaven . [Three brave sons]_{8043-three brave sons} had been barbarously murdered in Vendetta , and [[his]_{589-signor dezio} graceful loving wife]_{8044-his graceful loving wife} had broken [her]_{8044-his graceful loving wife} heart and died . The sole hope of [[his]_{589-signor dezio} house]_{1301-his house} , [[his]_{589-signor dezio} petling Fiordalisa]_{8046-his petling fiordalisa} , though [she]_{8046-his petling fiordalisa} called [herself]_{8046-his petling fiordalisa} [a woman and was full sixteen]_{8047-a woman and was full sixteen} , [he]_{589-signor dezio} looked upon [her]_{8046-his petling fiordalisa} still in [his]_{589-signor dezio} trouble - torn chronology , as only ripe enough to be dandled on [his]_{589-signor dezio} lap . Still [he]_{589-signor dezio} called [her]_{8046-his petling fiordalisa} [his]_{589-signor dezio} "_[3522-my] [Ninnina]_598-ninnina , " and sang nannas to [her]_{8046-his petling fiordalisa} , as [he]_{589-signor dezio} had been obliged to do after [[her]_{8046-his petling fiordalisa} mother]_{6340-her mother} 's death . As [he]_{589-signor dezio} sat there , too astonished to smile , or frown , or say a word , [Lily]_596-lily dropped upon [her]_596-lily knees before [him]_{589-signor dezio} , as [a Grecian maiden]_{8049-a grecian maiden} would . [We]_8050-we English are not supple - jointed ; but for [Lily]_596-lily 's sake , [I]_3522-my could not stand beside [her]_596-lily . Then [she]_596-lily placed [her]_596-lily soft right hand in the centre of [my]_3522-my hard palm , flung the other arm round [my]_3522-my neck , and with [her]_596-lily eyes upon [[her]_596-lily father]_{898-her father} 's , gave [me]_3522-my a long affectionate kiss . This done , [she]_596-lily drew [[her]_596-lily father]_{898-her father} 's head down , and kissed [his]_{589-signor dezio} snow - white beard . Now , [she]_596-lily told [me]_3522-my , after this , [any father who is obdurate , must according to institution blame [himself]_{589-signor dezio} and [no one else]_{5442-no one else} , if harm befall [the maiden]_{3430-the maiden}]_{8053-any father who is obdurate , must according to institution blame himself and no one else , if harm befall the maiden} . All this time , [I]_3522-my spoke not , and thought of nothing except to screen [[my]_3522-my Lily]_{7976-my lily} . [Signor Dezio]_{589-signor dezio} kept a stately silence , but the tears were in [his]_{589-signor dezio} eyes , and the long white beard was quivering . [Lily]_596-lily bent [her]_596-lily head , and waited for [his]_{589-signor dezio} words . "_[3522-my] [Mother of [God]_303-god]_{3523-mother of god} ! [[My]_0-i little child]_{3524-my little child} , what are [you]_{3524-my little child} thinking of ? " "_{[3524-my little child]} Only thinking of being married , [father]_738-father . " "_[738-father] And set another Vendetta afoot , and be killed [yourself]_{3524-my little child} ! [Signor"—turning]_{599-signor"—turning} haughtily to [me—"this_[738-father] lady]_{8057-me—"this lady} is betrothed , from [her]_3526-her early infancy , to [[her]_3526-her cousin]_{6046-her cousin} [Lepardo Della Croce]_570-lepardo . " "_{[570-lepardo]} Oh , [I]_0-i hate [him]_{6046-her cousin} , " cried [Fiordalisa]_{593-fiordalisa} , clasping [her]_{3529-our lady} hands piteously . "_[0-i] Ah , [Madonna]_591-madonna , [I]_0-i hate [him]_{6046-her cousin} so ; and thank [[our]_3528-our Lady]_{3529-our lady} , [no one]_{730-no one} has seen [him]_{6046-her cousin} for six years . [He]_{6046-her cousin} is dead no doubt in [some Cannibal Island]_{3531-some cannibal island} . [Saints of mercy]_{600-saints of mercy} , keep [him]_{6046-her cousin} . [I]_0-i saw it in [the Spalla]_{171-the spalla} , in [the Shepherd]_{3532-the shepherd} 's [Spalla]_{171-the spalla} , and [I]_0-i saw [my]_0-i own love there , the eve before [he]_{6046-her cousin} came . " "_[0-i] Grace of [Holy Mary]_{601-holy mary} ! Who read [the Spalla]_{171-the spalla} for [you]_0-i ? " "_{[171-the spalla]} The hoary goatherd from [Ghidazzo]_173-ghidazzo . " And up sprang [Fiordalisa]_{593-fiordalisa} , flew to [an inner room]_{812-an inner room} , and fetched from the dark niche in the wall the box of holy relics . With these [she]_{1549-my child} knelt before [[her]_{1549-my child} father]_{898-her father} , and placed [her]_{1549-my child} right hand on the box . "_{[171-the spalla]} [[My]_0-i child]_{1549-my child} , it is not needful . [I]_0-i believe [you]_{1549-my child} without an oath . Never yet have [you]_{1549-my child} passed the boundary of truth . " [The old chief]_{8060-the old chief} bowed [his]_{8060-the old chief} head in thought . [He]_{8060-the old chief} had lost [[his]_{8060-the old chief} last surviving son]_{8061-his last surviving son} by neglecting [the Spalla]_{171-the spalla} 's decree . [The Spalla]_{171-the spalla} is the shoulder blade of a goat , polished , and used for divination ; upon it had been read [Sampiero]_152-sampiero 's death , and the destiny of [Napoleon]_604-napoleon . [The old man who had forecast [the latter]_{907-the latter} was still alive , and of immense renown , and traversed [the island]_{1125-the island} now like [an ancient prophet]_{8065-an ancient prophet}]_{8062-the old man who had forecast the latter was still alive , and of immense renown , and traversed the island now like an ancient prophet} . [He]_{8062-the old man who had forecast the latter was still alive , and of immense renown , and traversed the island now like an ancient prophet} was [the hoary goatherd of [Ghidazzo]_173-ghidazzo]_{8066-the hoary goatherd of ghidazzo} . [Lily]_596-lily saw that [she]_596-lily was conquering ; [she]_596-lily leaped upon [[her]_596-lily father]_{898-her father} 's knee and hugged [him]_{898-her father} ; and [her]_596-lily triumph was complete . While [she]_596-lily wept upon [his]_{898-her father} breast , and told [him]_{898-her father} all [her]_596-lily little tale , and whispered in [his]_{898-her father} ear , and while [he]_{898-her father} kissed , and comforted [her]_596-lily , and thought of [[her]_596-lily dear mother]_{8068-her dear mother} , [I]_{1549-my child} rushed out and leaped [the Vinea]_{174-the vinea} , and wept beneath the olive - trees . At last [the old man]_{7306-the old man} rose and called [me]_{1549-my child} , [he]_{7306-the old man} durst not venture from the door ; but [he]_{7306-the old man} did what was far better , [he]_{7306-the old man} sent [my]_{1549-my child} own love after [me]_{1549-my child} . At length when [we]_8070-we returned , and [we]_8070-we found cause not to hurry , — "_{[1549-my child]} [Signor Vogheno]_{605-signor valentine} , " [he]_0-i began , "_{[605-signor valentine]} [I]_0-i have observed [you]_{605-signor valentine} well . [I]_0-i am [a man of very keen observation"—Lily]_{8071-a man of very keen observation"—lily} 's eyes gave [me]_{8071-a man of very keen observation"—lily} a twinkle full of fun—"or_{[8071-a man of very keen observation"—lily]} [I]_0-i should not be alive this moment . [I]_0-i have observed [you]_{605-signor valentine} , [sir]_5380-sir , and [I]_0-i approve [your]_{605-signor valentine} character . [I]_0-i can not say as much , [sir]_5380-sir , of all [the Englishmen [I]_0-i have been privileged to meet]_{3536-the englishmen i have been privileged to meet} . There is about [them]_3537-them very much of the nature of a dog . Forgive [me]_0-i , [sir]_5380-sir ; pray interrupt [me]_0-i not . [I]_0-i only judge by what [I]_0-i have seen . God forbid that [I]_0-i should say so to [you]_{605-signor valentine} , while [you]_{605-signor valentine} were [[my]_0-i guest]_{3539-my guest} . Now [you]_{605-signor valentine} are [one of [[my]_0-i family]_{1990-my family}]_{3540-one of my family} , and entitled to the result of [my]_0-i observations . Of [the little island itself]_{3542-the little island itself} [I]_0-i know nothing at all , though [I]_0-i am informed that [its]_{3542-the little island itself} institutions are of a barbarous character . " "_{[3543-signor beloved]} Vendetta for instance , " was on [my]_{3543-signor beloved} lips , but [Lily]_596-lily 's glance just saved it . And [I]_{3543-signor beloved} thought of [[his]_0-i three brave sons]_{8072-his three brave sons} . "_{[3543-signor beloved]} But , [Signor beloved]_{3543-signor beloved} , [you]_{605-signor valentine} are different from [them]_3544-them ; indeed [you]_{605-signor valentine} have the nobility of the Corsican nature . And what is most of all , [[my]_0-i little child]_{3524-my little child} has fixed [her]_{3524-my little child} heart upon [you]_{605-signor valentine} . But [she]_{3524-my little child} is very young , [sir]_5380-sir , quite a child [you]_{605-signor valentine} see . " [I]_{3524-my little child} saw nothing of the sort , but [a blooming maiden figure]_{8073-a blooming maiden figure} , growing lovelier every day . [Poor Lily]_606-lily dropped [her]_606-lily long eyelashes , and smiled through a glowing blush . So blushed [Lavinia]_607-lavinia under the eyes of [Turnus]_608-turnus . "_{[3524-my little child]} [This darling child]_{3547-this darling child} is now [the heiress to [these lands of [mine]_0-i]_{3549-these lands of mine}]_{3548-the heiress to these lands of mine} . And if [[her]_{3547-this darling child} cousin]_{6046-her cousin} [Lepardo]_570-lepardo , whose death [she]_{3547-this darling child} has seen on [the Spalla]_{171-the spalla} , be indeed removed from [us]_3551-us , [she]_{3547-this darling child} is the very last of all [the Della Croce]_570-lepardo . [I]_0-i can not easily read the billet of [[your]_{605-signor valentine} brother]_{1415-your brother} . [He]_{1415-your brother} does not write good Corsican of [[our]_3551-us side of [the mountains]_{3554-the mountains}]_{3553-our side of the mountains} , but [some outlandish [Tuscan]_175-tuscan]_{3555-some outlandish tuscan} . There is something first which [I]_0-i can not well decipher , and then [I]_0-i see [your]_{605-signor valentine} name [Signor Valentine Vogheno]_{605-signor valentine} , and that [you]_{605-signor valentine} are [the lord of [very large estates]_{3557-very large estates}]_{3556-the lord of very large estates} , in [some district called [Gloisterio]_{176-gloisterio}]_{3558-some district called gloisterio} ? " [He]_{1415-your brother} looked at [me]_3559-i inquiringly . Instead of explaining that [I]_3559-i was only [the brother of [the great Signor Valentino]_{609-the great signor valentino}]_{8074-the brother of the great signor valentino} , [I]_3559-i bowed , alas [I]_3559-i bowed with a hot flush on [my]_3559-i cheeks . What could it matter , and why should [I]_3559-i interrupt [him]_{1415-your brother} , if [he]_{1415-your brother} chose to deceive [himself]_{1415-your brother} ? [Lily]_606-lily charmed away all hesitation , by clapping [her]_606-lily little hands , and crying , "_[3559-i] Sweetest [mine]_3559-i , [I]_0-i am so glad . " "_[0-i] Then , upon two conditions [I]_0-i will give [you]_3560-you [[my]_0-i daughter]_{3561-my daughter} . The first , that [you]_3560-you leave [this island]_{3562-this island} , and do not see [[our]_3563-our [Lily]_606-lily]_{3564-our lily} , write to , or even hear from [her]_606-lily , for a period of six months . If [she]_606-lily has not outgrown [her]_606-lily love , [she]_606-lily will then be almost old enough to [we]_3563-our d. [I]_0-i mean , of course , if [Lepardo]_570-lepardo does not appear . The other condition is that [you]_3560-you shall promise on the holy relics , and [you]_3560-you as well , [[my]_0-i flower]_{3565-my flower} , never to part with [these old estates]_{3566-these old estates} , but keep them for [Lily]_606-lily while [she]_606-lily lives , and transmit them to [[her]_606-lily second child]_{3567-her second child} . " A load of terror was off [my]_{3565-my flower} heart — [I]_{3565-my flower} thought [he]_0-i was going to bind [me]_{3565-my flower} to the accursed Vendetta . Even for [[my]_{3565-my flower} Lily]_{7976-my lily} , [I]_{3565-my flower} could hardly have taken that pledge . So [I]_{3565-my flower} assented readily to the last stipulation , though it was based upon a virtual lie of mine . But with [Lily]_606-lily 's eyes upon [me]_{3565-my flower} , brimming as they were with tears at the first condition , and [her]_606-lily round arms trembling to enfold [me]_{3565-my flower} , could [I]_{3565-my flower} stick at anything short of downright murder ? The first proviso [I]_{3565-my flower} fought against in vain . Even [Lily]_606-lily coaxed and cried , without any good effect . When at last [we]_8076-we yielded to the stern decree , [the venerable father]_{8077-the venerable father} , as [we]_8076-we knelt before [him]_{8077-the venerable father} , joined [our]_8076-we hands together , and poured a blessing on [us]_8076-we , which [I]_{3565-my flower} did not lack . [He]_{8077-the venerable father} had given [me]_{3565-my flower} [my]_{3565-my flower} blessing . After this [we]_8076-we sat down to supper , and the trusty musketeer , who had watched the whole scene grimly , and without hearing all , knew what the result was , [he]_{8077-the venerable father} , [I]_{3565-my flower} say , upon [his]_{8077-the venerable father} perch began to improvise , or haply to adapt , and sing to a childish air , some little verses upon the glad occasion . Having exhausted [his]_{8077-the venerable father} stock , down [he]_{8077-the venerable father} leaped without permission , and drank [our]_8076-we health in a bumper of Luri wine . [Lily]_606-lily was now in due course of promotion . No longer was [she]_606-lily [the handmaid , whose eyes created and rejoiced in countless mistakes of [mine]_{3565-my flower}]_{8078-the handmaid , whose eyes created and rejoiced in countless mistakes of mine} . Now [she]_606-lily was sitting by [my]_{3565-my flower} side , as [she]_606-lily had good right to be , and was lost in pretty raptures at [my]_{3565-my flower} gallant attentions . [They]_8079-they were very nice , [she]_606-lily owned , but thoroughly un - [Corsican]_{585-old cora} . How [I]_{3565-my flower} wished [[her]_606-lily father]_{898-her father} and [the old fusileer]_{8081-the old fusileer} away ! "_{[3565-my flower]} Six long months to be away from [Lily]_606-lily ! And perhaps forget [her]_606-lily , and find [some lovelier maiden]_{3568-some lovelier maiden} . " "_{[3568-some lovelier maiden]} By [Lily]_606-lily 's side , [all maids]_{3569-all maids} are burdocks . And yet what if [I]_0-i do ? " [She]_606-lily showed a small stiletto toy with a cross upon the handle , and ground [her]_606-lily pearly teeth together . "_[0-i] Will it be for [me]_0-i , or [her]_606-lily ? " "_[606-lily] Both ; and [Lily]_606-lily afterwards . " "_[606-lily] Oh [you]_0-i [wholesale little murderer]_{3570-wholesale little murderer} ! Three great kisses directly , one for every murder . " "_[606-lily] Only if [you]_0-i promise , on the relics , never to look twice at [a pretty maiden]_{3571-a pretty maiden} . " And so [we]_8082-we spent the precious time,—ten days allowed [me]_0-i to prepare [[my]_0-i yacht]_{8083-my yacht} — in talking utter nonsense , and conning fifty foolish schemes , to make [us]_8082-we seem together . [I]_0-i was for departing at once , that the period might begin to run ; but [Lily]_606-lily was for keeping [me]_0-i to the last possible moment , and of course [she]_606-lily had [her]_606-lily way . It was fixed that [I]_0-i should sail on the 10th day of September . [[My]_0-i little boat]_{7742-my little boat} , now called the "_[0-i] Lily flower , " was brought from [Calvi]_159-calvi , and moored in [a secluded cove]_{8085-a secluded cove} , where [[my]_0-i love]_{5792-my love} could see it from [her]_{5792-my love} bedroom window . It was no longer Corsican law that [I]_0-i should live in [the castle]_{8039-the castle} . The privileges of [a guest]_{8088-a guest} were gone ; and the rigorous code of [suitorship]_{8089-suitorship} began . But to [me]_0-i and [[my]_0-i own darling]_{5763-my own darling} it made very little difference . [I]_0-i never left [Vendetta tower]_168-vendetta , as [I]_0-i lightly named [it]_168-vendetta , until [[my]_0-i pet]_{5394-my pet} was ordered off to bed ; and every morn [I]_0-i climbed [the heights]_{8092-the heights} , after a long swim in [the sapphire ripple]_{8093-the sapphire ripple} , and met [my]_0-i own sweet [Lily]_606-lily sparkling from the dew of [her]_606-lily early toilet . How [she]_606-lily loved [me]_0-i , how [I]_0-i loved [her]_606-lily ; which more than other let [angels]_8094-angels say ; for [we]_8095-we could not decide . [That ancient Corsican [[her]_606-lily father]_{898-her father} , albeit little versed in books]_{8096-that ancient corsican her father , albeit little versed in books} , was as upright and downright a gentleman as ever knew when [his]_{898-her father} presence was not required . Therefore [he]_{898-her father} took [my]_0-i word of honour for [his]_{898-her father} [Lily]_606-lily 's safety ; and left [her]_606-lily to [her]_606-lily own sweet will ; and [her]_606-lily sweet will was to spend with [me]_0-i all [her]_606-lily waking hours . For [her]_606-lily as yet there was no fear of [the blood - avenger]_{8098-the blood - avenger} . According to [their]_8094-angels etiquette [they]_8094-angels can not shoot [the daughter]_{8099-the daughter} , until [they]_8094-angels have shot [the father]_{8100-the father} . As to [the sons]_{8101-the sons} the restriction does not hold . The feud [we]_8102-we were concerned in had lasted now 120 years , and cost the lives of [130 people]_{8103-130 people} . It lay between [the ancient races of Della Croce]_{8104-the ancient races of della croce} , and [De Gentili]_{610-de gentili} , and owed its origin to the discovery of a dead mule on [the road to [church]_1429-church]_{8105-the road to church} . The question was which [family]_8107-family should be exterminated first . For many years [the house of [Della Croce]_570-lepardo]_{8108-the house of della croce} had been in the ascendant , having produced a long succession of [good shots and clever bushmen]_{8109-good shots and clever bushmen} . At one time all the hopes of [the De Gentili]_{610-de gentili} hung upon one infant life , which was not thought worth the taking . Fatal error — that one life had proved a mighty trump . One after one the [Della Croce]_570-lepardo fell before [that original artist]_{8110-that original artist} , who invented a patent method of trunking [himself]_{8110-that original artist} in olive bark and firing from a knot - hole . Many a story [Lily]_606-lily told [me]_0-i of [his]_{8110-that original artist} devilish wiles ; and in those stories [I]_0-i rejoiced , because [she]_606-lily clung around [my]_0-i neck , and trembled so that [I]_0-i must hold [her]_606-lily . Happily now this olive - branch was dead , having received [his]_{8110-that original artist} death - wound while [he]_{8110-that original artist} administered one to [[Lily]_606-lily 's youngest brother]_{8111-lily 's youngest brother} . Ever since that , the feud had languished , and strict etiquette required that [the Della Croce]_570-lepardo should perpetrate the next murder . But [[her]_606-lily father]_{898-her father} , said [[my]_0-i [Lily]_606-lily]_{7976-my lily} , with [her]_606-lily sweet head on [my]_0-i breast and [her]_606-lily soft eyes full of fire , [[her]_606-lily father]_{898-her father} did not seem to care even to shoot [the cousin of the man who had shot [[her]_606-lily brothers]_{8116-her brothers}]_{8115-the cousin of the man who had shot her brothers} . [Darling Lily]_592-lily , [my]_0-i blood runs cold , even with [your]_592-lily beauty in [my]_0-i arms , to hear [you]_592-lily talk of murder so . [[Own]_0-i pet]_{8117-own pet} , [I]_0-i shall change [you]_592-lily . [You]_592-lily heaven meant for love , and softness , and delight : human devilry has tainted even [you]_592-lily . It was not an easy task to change [her]_606-lily . Of all human passions revenge is far the strongest . [Clara]_293-clara , how [your]_592-lily eyes flash . [You]_592-lily ought to have been [a Corsican]_{585-old cora} . It was not an easy task ; but love loves difficulties . In [my]_0-i ten short days of delicious wretchedness , almost [I]_0-i taught [Fiordalisa]_{593-fiordalisa} to despise revenge . And what do [you]_592-lily think availed [me]_0-i most ? Not the Bible . No , [her]_606-lily mind and soul were swathed by [Popery]_612-popery in the rags of [too many saints]_{8118-too many saints} . What helped [me]_0-i most , and the only thing that helped [me]_0-i at all , except caresses , was the broad and free expanse of [the ever changing sea]_{8119-the ever changing sea} . [Her]_606-lily nature was all poetry , [her]_606-lily throbbing breast an Idyl . Upon [[my]_0-i little quarter - deck]_{8120-my little quarter - deck} [I]_0-i had a cushioned niche for [her]_606-lily , and there [we]_8121-we sat and steered [ourselves]_8121-we while [the sailors]_{8122-the sailors} slept below . Alone upon [the crystal world]_{8123-the crystal world} , pledged for life or death together , drinking deepest draughts of passion and thirsting still for more , what cared [we]_8121-we for petty hatreds , [we]_8121-we whose all in all was love ? How [she]_606-lily listened as [I]_0-i spoke , how [her]_606-lily large eyes grew enlarged . At last [those]_8124-those eyes , pure wells of love , were troubled with hot tears . The fatal day was come . Tokens [we]_8121-we had interchanged , myriad vows , and countless pledges , which even love could scarce remember . With all the passion of [her]_606-lily race , and all the fervour of the clime , [she]_606-lily bared [her]_606-lily beautiful round arm , the part that lay most near the heart and touched it with the keen stiletto , then [she]_606-lily threw [her]_606-lily breast on [mine]_0-i , and [I]_0-i laid the crimsoned ivory on [my]_0-i lips . How [the devil]_{5884-the devil} — excuse [me]_0-i , [Clara]_293-clara — how the devil [I]_0-i got away , [only phlegmatic Englishmen]_{8126-only phlegmatic englishmen} can tell . [No Frenchman]_{8127-no frenchman} , or Italian , would have left that heavenly darling so . [We]_8121-we put it off to the last moment , till it was quite dangerous to pass [the rocky jaws]_{8128-the rocky jaws} . As [my]_0-i bad luck would have it , there was a purpling sunset breeze . [My]_0-i own love on the furthest point , [her]_606-lily white feet in the water , growing smaller and smaller yet , and standing upon tiptoe to be seen for [another yard]_{8129-another yard} ; [my]_0-i own darling love of ages , [she]_606-lily loosed [her]_606-lily black hair down [her]_606-lily snowy vest , for [me]_0-i to know [her]_606-lily from the rocks behind ; then [she]_606-lily waved and waved [her]_606-lily sweet palm hat , fragrant of [my]_0-i Lily,—I had kissed every single inch of it,—until [she]_606-lily thought [I]_0-i could not see [her]_606-lily ; and then , as [my]_0-i telescope showed [me]_0-i , back [she]_606-lily fell upon [a ledge of rocks]_{8130-a ledge of rocks} , and [I]_0-i could see or fancy [her]_606-lily delicious bosom heaving to the fury of [her]_606-lily tears . [We]_8131-we glided past [the cavern mouth]_{8132-the cavern mouth} , and [the silver beach beyond]_{8133-the silver beach beyond} [it]_{8132-the cavern mouth} , whence [we]_8131-we had often watched the sunset ; and then a beetling crag took from [me]_0-i the last view of [Lily]_592-lily . However long [the schoolboy]_{8134-the schoolboy} may have bled from [some big coward]_{8135-some big coward} 's bullying , or the sway of the rustling birch and the bosky thrill that follows , however sore [he]_{8134-the schoolboy} may have wept while hung head - downwards through the midnight hours , with a tallow candle between [his]_{8134-the schoolboy} teeth , or in the pang of nouns heteroclite and brachycatalectic dinners ; yet despite these minor ills , [his]_{8134-the schoolboy} fond heart turns through after life to the scene of foot - ball and I - spy , to the days when [he]_{8134-the schoolboy} could jump or eat any mortal thing . And so it is with bygone love . Even the times of separation or of bitter quarrel , the aching heart whereon the keepsake lies , the spasms of jealousy , the tenterhooks of doubt ; remembrance looks upon them all as treasures of a golden age . Over [the darkening sea]_{8136-the darkening sea} , [we]_8131-we bore away for [Sardinia]_181-sardinia . Hours and hours , [I]_0-i gazed upon the cushions , where [[my]_0-i own pet darling]_{8137-my own pet darling} used to lean and love [me]_0-i . To [me]_0-i they were fairer than all the stars , or [the phosphorescent sea]_{8138-the phosphorescent sea} . From time to time [[our]_8131-we Corsican pilot]_{8139-our corsican pilot} kept [himself]_{8139-our corsican pilot} awake , by chanting to strangely mournful airs some of the voceros or dirges , the burden of many ages in [that lamenting land]_{8140-that lamenting land} . Fit [home]_1102-home for [Rachel]_614-rachel , [Niobe]_178-niobe , or [Cassandra]_{698-alexander} , where half [a million gallant beings]_{8142-a million gallant beings} , twice the number of [the present population]_{8143-the present population} , have fallen [victims to the blood - revenge]_{8144-victims to the blood - revenge} . So [Corsican historians]_{8145-corsican historians} tell ; a thousand violent deaths each year , for the last five centuries . Sometimes [the avenger]_{1030-the avenger} waits for half a lifetime , lurking till [his]_{1030-the avenger} moment comes . Before [[his]_{1030-the avenger} victim]_{3421-his victim} has ceased to quiver , or the shot to ring down [the rocky pass]_{8148-the rocky pass} , [he]_{1030-the avenger} is off for the bush or [the mountains]_{3554-the mountains} , and leads thenceforth [a bandit]_{3463-a bandit} 's life . [They]_{8145-corsican historians} tell [me]_0-i , [Clara]_293-clara , that things are better now , and this black stain on a chivalrous race is being purged by [Christian civilization]_{8151-christian civilization} . Be it as it may , [I]_0-i love the island of [[my]_0-i [Lily]_592-lily]_{7976-my lily} still ; and hope , please [God]_303-god , to see it once more , before [I]_0-i go to [her]_592-lily . Banished though [I]_0-i was , for the present , from [the only place [I]_0-i cared for]_{8153-the only place i cared for} , it seemed still greater severance to go further than [I]_0-i could help . Therefore instead of returning to [England]_9-england , [I]_0-i spent the winter in cruising along [the western coast of [Italy]_63-italy]_{8154-the western coast of italy} , and [the south of [Spain]_146-spain]_{8155-the south of spain} ; and coasted back to [Genoa]_65-genoa . To [Seville]_180-seville , and [other places famed for [beautiful women]_{8157-beautiful women} , [I]_0-i made especial trips , to search for any fit to compare with [[my]_0-i own maiden]_{8158-my own maiden}]_{8156-other places famed for beautiful women , i made especial trips , to search for any fit to compare with my own maiden} . Of course [I]_0-i knew none could be found ; but it gave [me]_0-i some employment , and bitter pleasure , to observe how [inferior were all]_{8159-inferior were all} . To [my]_0-i eyes , bright with one sweet image , no other form had grace enough to be fit pillow for [[my]_0-i charmer]_{8160-my charmer} 's foot . How [I]_0-i longed and yearned for some fresh token of [her]_{8160-my charmer} : all [her]_{8160-my charmer} little gifts [I]_0-i carried ever in [my]_0-i bosom , but never let another 's eyes rest one moment on them . Not even would [I]_0-i tell [[my]_0-i friends]_{8161-my friends} one word about [my]_0-i love ; it seemed as if it would grow common by being talked about . To [Peter Green]_575-green [I]_0-i wrote , resigning [my]_0-i commission , although [I]_0-i did not tell [him]_575-green that [I]_0-i had found the olives . No , [[friend]_8162-friend [Peter]_575-green]_{8163-friend peter} , those olives are much too near [[my]_0-i Lily]_{7976-my lily} ; and [I]_0-i wo n't have [you]_{8163-friend peter} or [any other stranger there]_{8165-any other stranger there} . [I]_0-i know [she]_{7976-my lily} would not look at [you]_{8163-friend peter} ; still [I]_0-i would rather have [you]_{8163-friend peter} a thousand miles away . Free trade , if [you]_{8163-friend peter} like , when [I]_0-i have made [my]_0-i fortune ; which by the bye is somewhat the maxim of [that school]_{8166-that school} . [My]_0-i fortune , not in olives , oil , or even guineas — all that rubbish [you]_{8163-friend peter} are welcome to — but [my]_0-i fortune where [my]_0-i heart and soul are all invested , and now , no more [my]_0-i fortune , but [my]_0-i certain fate in [Lily]_592-lily . At length and at last [my]_0-i calendar — like [a homesick pair at school]_{8167-a homesick pair at school} , [we]_8168-we had made one for [each other]_{734-each other} , thanking [God]_303-god that it was not a leap - year — [my]_0-i calendar so often counted , so punctually erased , began to yield and totter to the stubborn sap of time . [My]_0-i patience long ago had yielded , [my]_0-i blood was in a fever . Another thing began to yield , alas it was [my]_0-i money . [Green]_575-green , [Vowler]_578-vowler , and [Green]_575-green had behaved most liberally ; but of course the expenses of [my]_0-i vessel had been heavy on [me]_0-i ; and now [my]_0-i salary had ceased . [Peter Green]_575-green wrote to [me]_0-i in the kindest and most handsome manner , pressing [me]_0-i , if tired ( as [he]_575-green concluded ) of [those murderous Corsicans]_{8170-those murderous corsicans} , to accept another engagement in [Sardinia]_181-sardinia . Even without imparting [my]_0-i last discovery , [I]_0-i had done good service to [the firm]_{8171-the firm} . [I]_0-i smiled at the idea of [my]_0-i being weary of [Corsicans]_{583-the corsicans} : even now the mere word sends a warm tide to [my]_0-i heart . It was not for the beauty of the scene , or the works of art , that [I]_0-i remained in [Genoa]_65-genoa ; but because it was [the likeliest place to see]_{8172-the likeliest place to see} [the Negro]_{8173-the negro} 's head . As [we]_8174-we lay at the end of [the mole]_{8175-the mole} , [my]_0-i glass commanded all that entered ; and [every lugger or xebec that bore the sacred emblem]_{8176-every lugger or xebec that bore the sacred emblem} — off [my]_0-i little dingy pushed from [our]_8174-we raking stern , and with [one man]_{1690-one man} , now [[my]_0-i friend]_{7813-my friend} because [a thorough Corsican]_{8179-a thorough corsican} , [I]_0-i boarded [her]_{7813-my friend} , at all hazards of imprisonment ; and craved for tidings of [the sacred land]_{8180-the sacred land} . Although , of course , [I]_0-i would not show the nest of all [my]_0-i thoughts , yet by beating about the bush , [I]_0-i got some scraps of news . [The great Signor]_{8181-the great signor} was flourishing , and had harvested an enormous crop of olives : [[his]_{8181-the great signor} lovely daughter]_{8182-his lovely daughter} , now becoming the glory of [the island]_{1125-the island} , had been ill of something like marsh - fever , but was now as blooming as the roses . [They]_8184-they did say , but [the captain]_{8185-the captain} could not at all believe it , that [she]_{7813-my friend} had been betrothed to [some foreign olive - merchant]_{8186-some foreign olive - merchant} . What disgrace ! The highest blood and [the sweetest maid in [Corsica]_150-corsica]_{8187-the sweetest maid in corsica} , to be betrayed to [an oilman]_{8188-an oilman} ! Plenty of other news [I]_0-i gathered — [the good people]_{8189-the good people} are great gossips — but this was all [I]_0-i cared for . Meanwhile [[your]_8190-your father]_{5365-your father} , [[Clara]_293-clara dear]_{6662-clara dear} , replied most warmly to [my]_0-i letter , sending [me]_0-i a sum on loan , which quite relieved [me]_0-i from cheese - paring . And now the wind was in [the north]_{8193-the north} , and it was almost time to start for the arms of [Lily]_592-lily . If [I]_0-i waited any longer , [I]_0-i should be too mad to bear the voyage . At the break of day [we]_8194-we left [the magnificent harbour]_{8195-the magnificent harbour} , and the cold wind from [the maritime Alps]_{8196-the maritime alps} chilled all but the fire of love . Up and down [the little deck]_{8197-the little deck} , up and down all day and night ; sleep [I]_0-i never would again , until [I]_0-i touched [my]_0-i Lily . On the evening of the 8th of March , [we]_8194-we were near [Cape Corso]_{170-cape corso} ; next day [we]_8194-we coasted down the west to the lively breeze of spring , and so upon the 9th [we]_8194-we moored to [the tongue of [Calvi]_159-calvi]_{8198-the tongue of calvi} . At midnight [we]_8194-we were under way , and when the sun could reach [the sea]_{895-the sea} over [the snowy peaks]_{8200-the snowy peaks} , [we]_8194-we glided past [the mountain crescent that looks on [the Balagna]_{183-the balagna}]_{8201-the mountain crescent that looks on the balagna} . In the early morning still , when the dew was floating , [we]_8194-we rounded [the gray headland of Signor [Dezio 's cove]_{589-signor dezio}]_{8202-the gray headland of signor dezio 's cove} , and [I]_0-i climbed along the bowsprit to glance beyond the corner . What is that white dress [I]_0-i see fluttering at [the water 's edge]_{8203-the water 's edge} ? Whose is that red - striped mandile tossed on high and caught again ? And there the flag - staff [I]_0-i erected , with [my]_0-i colours flying ! Only one such shape on [earth]_1622-earth — only two such arms — out with [the boat]_{8205-the boat} or [I]_0-i must swim , or run [the yacht]_{8206-the yacht} [ashore]_8207-ashore . [The boat]_{8205-the boat} has been towing alongside for the last six hours : [Lily]_592-lily ca n't wait for [the boat]_{8205-the boat} any more than [I]_0-i can . From rock to rock [she]_592-lily is leaping ; which is the nearest one ? Into [the water]_{1150-the water} [she]_592-lily runs , then away in blushing terror — [she]_592-lily forgot all about [the other men]_{8211-the other men} . But [I]_0-i know where to find [her]_592-lily , [she]_592-lily has dropped [her]_592-lily little shoe , [she]_592-lily must be in [[my]_0-i grotto]_{8212-my grotto} . There [I]_0-i press [her]_592-lily to [my]_0-i heart of hearts , trembling , weeping , laughing , all unable to get close enough to [me]_0-i . "_[0-i] Sweetest mine , ten thousand times , [I]_0-i have been so wretched . " [Her]_592-lily voice is like a silver bell . "_[0-i] [My]_0-i own , [I]_0-i am so glad to hear it . But how well [you]_3572-i look ! " If [she]_592-lily were lovely when [I]_3572-i left [her]_592-lily , what shall [I]_3572-i call [her]_592-lily now ? There is not one atom of [her]_592-lily but is pure perfection . [I]_3572-i hold [her]_592-lily from [me]_3572-i for one moment , to take in all [her]_592-lily beauties . [She]_592-lily has a most delicious fragrance that steals upon [my]_3572-i senses . Toilet bottles [she]_592-lily never heard of ; what [she]_592-lily has is nature 's gift , and unperceived except by love . [I]_3572-i have often told [her]_592-lily of it , but [she]_592-lily wo n't believe it . It is not [your]_3572-i breath , [[you]_3572-i darling]_{8213-you darling} ; [your]_3572-i breath is only violets ; it comes from every fibre of [you]_3572-i , even from [your]_3572-i hair ; it is as when the wind has kissed a lily of [the valley]_{1708-the valley} . [The ancient Signor]_{8215-the ancient signor} being [a man of very keen observation]_{8216-a man of very keen observation} , did not delay [our]_8217-our wedding any longer than could be helped . That evening [we]_8217-our hauled down [the family fusileer]_{8218-the family fusileer} , gave [him]_{8215-the ancient signor} a goblet of wine , and sent [him]_{8215-the ancient signor} about [his]_{8215-the ancient signor} business : for one night [we]_8217-our would take [our]_8217-our chance even of Vendetta . At supper - time [the Signor]_{7946-the signor} was in wonderful spirits , and drank [our]_8217-our health with many praises of [our]_8217-our constancy and obedience . One little fact [he]_{7946-the signor} mentioned worth a thousand propinations ; [[his]_{7946-the signor} daughter]_{2465-his daughter} 's fever had been cured by some chance news of [me]_3572-i . [He]_{7946-the signor} even went away to fetch a bottle of choicest [Rogliano]_204-rogliano , when [he]_{7946-the signor} saw how [I]_3572-i was fidgetting to get [my]_3572-i arm round [Lily]_592-lily . Then after making [his]_{7946-the signor} re - entrance , with due clumsiness at the door , [he]_{7946-the signor} quite disgraced [himself]_{7946-the signor} , while drawing the cork , by even winking at [me]_3572-i , as [he]_{7946-the signor} said abruptly , "_[3572-i] [Fiordalisa]_{593-fiordalisa} , when would [you]_{593-fiordalisa} like to be married ? " [[My]_{593-fiordalisa} [Lily]_592-lily]_{7976-my lily} blushed , [I]_{593-fiordalisa} must confess , but did not fence with the question . "_{[593-fiordalisa]} As soon as ever [you]_{593-fiordalisa} please , [papa]_6651-papa . That is , if [[my]_0-i love]_{5792-my love} wishes it . " But [she]_592-lily would not look at [me]_{5792-my love} to ask . In [the porch]_{930-the porch} [she]_592-lily whispered to [me]_{5792-my love} , that it was only from [her]_592-lily terror of [the bad Lepardo]_570-lepardo coming . Did [the loving creature]_{8223-the loving creature} fancy that [I]_{5792-my love} would believe it ? Once more [we]_8224-we sailed together over [the amethyst sea]_{8225-the amethyst sea} ; [she]_592-lily was as fond of [the water]_{1150-the water} as [a true - born Briton]_{8002-a true - born briton} . In [her]_592-lily thoughts and glances was infinite variety . [None]_1510-none could ever guess the next thing [she]_592-lily would say . Thoroughly [I]_{5792-my love} knew [her]_592-lily heart , because [I]_{5792-my love} lived therein , and sweeter lodgings never [man]_5770-man was blessed with . But of [her]_592-lily mind [she]_592-lily veiled as yet the maiden delicacies , strictly as [she]_592-lily would the glowing riches of [her]_592-lily figure . What amazed [me]_{5792-my love} more than all , was that while [most Corsican girls]_{8230-most corsican girls} are of the nut - brown order , no sun ever burned the snowy skin of [Lily]_592-lily : [she]_592-lily always looked so clear and clean , as if it were impossible for anything to stain [her]_592-lily . [Clara]_293-clara , [you]_293-clara are always talking of [your]_293-clara lovely [Isola]_463-isola . [I]_{5792-my love} wonder where [she]_463-isola got [her]_463-isola name : it is no stranger to [me]_{5792-my love} . Something in [your]_293-clara description of [her]_463-isola reminds [me]_{5792-my love} of [my]_{5792-my love} [Lily]_592-lily . [I]_{5792-my love} long to see [the girl]_{8231-the girl} : and [you]_293-clara must have some reason for so obstinately preventing [me]_{5792-my love} . Though [Lily]_592-lily and [I]_{5792-my love} were most desirous to keep things as quiet as possible , by this time [our]_8232-our engagement was talked of in [every house of [the Balagna]_{183-the balagna}]_{8233-every house of the balagna} . [That paternal fusileer]_{8234-that paternal fusileer} and [[my]_{5792-my love} merry yachtsmen]_{8235-my merry yachtsmen} , although [they]_{8235-my merry yachtsmen} looked the other way whenever [we]_8232-our approached , would not permit the flower of [Corsica]_150-corsica , as [she]_592-lily was now proclaimed , to blush with [me]_{5792-my love} unseen . [[My]_{5792-my love} sailors]_{8236-my sailors} attended to [her]_592-lily far more than to [their]_{8236-my sailors} business , and would have leaped into [the water]_{1150-the water} for one smile of [Lily]_592-lily . It is the fashion of [the island]_{1125-the island} to make a wedding jubilee ; and [the Signor]_{7946-the signor} was anxious to outdo all that had ever been done . [We]_8232-our , absorbed in [one another]_{758-one another} , did [our]_8232-our best to disappoint [him]_{7946-the signor} ; but [he]_{7946-the signor} scorned the notion of any private marriage . [I]_{5792-my love} never shall forget how [he]_{7946-the signor} knit [his]_{7946-the signor} silver brows when [I]_{5792-my love} made a last attempt to bring [him]_{7946-the signor} to [our]_8232-our views . "_{[5792-my love]} [Signor Vogheno]_{605-signor valentine} , to [me]_0-i [you]_{605-signor valentine} appear to forget whose daughter it is that loves [you]_{605-signor valentine} . Perhaps in [[your]_{605-signor valentine} remote , but well regarded island maidens]_{3575-your remote , but well regarded island maidens} may be stolen before [[their]_{3575-your remote , but well regarded island maidens} fathers]_{3576-their fathers} can look round . Indeed , [I]_0-i have heard that [they]_{3575-your remote , but well regarded island maidens} leap over a broomstick . That is not the custom here . [Fiordalisa Della Croce]_{593-fiordalisa} is [[my]_0-i only child]_{5775-my only child} — [the child of [my]_0-i old age]_{3578-the child of my old age} ; and not altogether one to be ashamed of . [I]_0-i can afford to be hospitable , and [I]_0-i mean to be so . " [The Corsicans]_{583-the corsicans} are [a most excitable race]_{8241-a most excitable race} , and , when affronted , seem to lash [their]_{583-the corsicans} sides as [they]_{583-the corsicans} talk . By the time [the good Signor]_{8242-the good signor} had finished [his]_{8242-the good signor} speech , every hair of [his]_{8242-the good signor} beard was curling with indignation . But [[his]_{8242-the good signor} daughter]_{2465-his daughter} sprang into [his]_{8242-the good signor} arms and kissed away the tempest , and promised , if it must be so , to make [herself]_{2465-his daughter} one mass of gold and coral . So [the Parolanti]_{8244-the parolanti} , or [mediators]_{8245-mediators} , were invoked ; an armistice for a week was signed , and honour pledged on either side . Free and haughty was the step of [the Signor Dezio]_{589-signor dezio} as [he]_{589-signor dezio} set forth for [the town]_{8007-the town} to order everything [he]_{589-signor dezio} could see ; and very wroth again [he]_{589-signor dezio} was , because [I]_0-i would not postpone the day for [him]_{589-signor dezio} to get a shipload of trumpery from [Marseilles]_{186-marseilles} . This time [I]_0-i was resolved to have [my]_0-i way . Besides the fervour of [my]_0-i passion and [my]_0-i dread of accidents , the one thing of all others [I]_0-i detest is to be stared at anywhere . And it is far worse to be stared at by [a foreign race]_{8247-a foreign race} . [The Corsicans]_{583-the corsicans} are [gentlemen]_{8248-gentlemen} by nature , but [they]_{583-the corsicans} could not be expected to regard without some curiosity [the lucky stranger who had won [their]_{583-the corsicans} Lily]_{8249-the lucky stranger who had won their lily} . [I]_0-i will not weary [you]_8250-you , as [I]_0-i [myself]_0-i was wearied , with all the ceremonies of the wedding - day . All [I]_0-i wanted was [[my]_0-i bride]_{8251-my bride} , and [she]_{8251-my bride} wanted none but [me]_0-i : yet [we]_8252-we could not help being touched by the hearty good - will of [the commune]_{8253-the commune} . The fame of [Lily]_592-lily 's beauty had spread even to [Sardinia]_181-sardinia , and many [a handsome woman]_{8254-a handsome woman} came to measure [her]_{8254-a handsome woman} own thereby . Clever as [they]_{583-the corsicans} are at such things , not one of [them]_{583-the corsicans} could find a blemish or defect in [Lily]_592-lily , and [[our]_8252-we fair [Balagnese]_{615-balagnese}]_{8255-our fair balagnese} told [them]_{583-the corsicans} to go [home]_1102-home and break [their]_{583-the corsicans} mirrors . It was a sweet spring morning , and amid a fearful din of guns and trumpets , mandolins and fiddles , [I]_0-i waited with a nervous smile under the triumphal arch in front of [[my]_0-i fictitious house]_{8257-my fictitious house} . [A sham house]_{8258-a sham house} had been made of boards , and boughs , and flowers , because it is most essential that [the bride]_{8259-the bride} should be introduced to [[the bridegroom]_{8260-the bridegroom} 's dwelling]_{8261-the bridegroom 's dwelling} . Here [I]_0-i was to receive the procession , which at last appeared . First came [fifty well - armed youths , crowned with leaves and ribbons]_{8262-fifty well - armed youths , crowned with leaves and ribbons} ; then [four - and - twenty maidens dressed alike , singing and scattering flowers]_{8263-four - and - twenty maidens dressed alike , singing and scattering flowers} , and then [a boy of noble birth , mounted on a pony]_{8264-a boy of noble birth , mounted on a pony} , and carrying the freno , symbol of [many scions]_{8265-many scions} . None of them [I]_0-i looked at ; only for [[my]_0-i Lily]_{7976-my lily} . On a noble snow - white palfrey , decked from head to foot with flowers , [[her]_{7976-my lily} father]_{898-her father} walking at [her]_{7976-my lily} side , came the bloom , the flower , the lily of them all , arrayed in clear white muslin , self - possessed , and smiling . One glorious wreath was round [her]_{7976-my lily} head ; it was [her]_{7976-my lily} own black hair by [her]_{7976-my lily} own sweet fingers twined with sprigs of myrtle . A sash , or fazoletto , of violet transparent crape , looped at the crown of [her]_{7976-my lily} head , fell over the shy lift of [her]_{7976-my lily} bosom , parting like a sunset cloud , where the boddice opened below the pear - like waist . To [me]_0-i [she]_{7976-my lily} looked like a white coralline rising through [an amethyst sea]_{8268-an amethyst sea} . Behind [her]_{7976-my lily} came [the authorities of [the commune]_{8253-the commune}]_{8269-the authorities of the commune} . The sham keys were already hanging at [her]_{7976-my lily} slender zone . It was [my]_0-i place to lift [her]_{7976-my lily} down and introduce [her]_{7976-my lily} formally . This [I]_0-i did with excellent grace , feeling the weight of eyes upon [me]_0-i . But when [I]_0-i got [her]_{7976-my lily} inside , [I]_0-i spoiled the folds of the fazoletto . [I]_0-i heard [the old man]_{7306-the old man} shouting , "_[0-i] Who are [[ye]_3579-ye gallant sons of [the mountain]_{5676-the mountain}]_{3580-ye gallant sons of the mountain} , who have carried off [[my]_0-i daughter]_{3561-my daughter} ? To [me]_0-i , indeed , [ye]_3579-ye seem to be brave and [noble men]_{3583-noble men} , yet have [ye]_3579-ye taken [her]_{3561-my daughter} rather after the manner of [bandits]_3584-bandits . Know [ye]_3579-ye not that [she]_{3561-my daughter} is the fairest flower that ever was reared in [Corsica]_150-corsica ? " "_{[3585-old fellow]} Yes , [old fellow]_{3585-old fellow} , [I]_0-i know that well enough ; and that 's the very reason why [I]_0-i have got [her]_{3561-my daughter} [here]_846-here . " One more virgin kiss , and with [Lily]_592-lily on [my]_6702-friends arm , forth [I]_6702-friends sally to respond . "_{[6702-friends]} [Friends]_6702-friends [we]_6702-friends are , who claim some hospitality . [We]_6702-friends have plucked the fairest flower on all the strands of [Corsica]_150-corsica , and [we]_6702-friends bear [her]_{3561-my daughter} to [the priest]_{2629-the priest} , fit offering for [Madonna]_591-madonna . " "_{[2629-the priest]} Bide on , [[my]_0-i noble friends]_{3589-my noble friends} ; then come and enjoy [my]_0-i feast . " No more delay . [The maids]_{836-the maids} have got all [they]_{836-the maids} can do to keep in front of [us]_6702-friends with [their]_{836-the maids} flowers . [The armed youths]_{8273-the armed youths} stand on either side at the entrance to [the church]_{1351-the church} . The tapers are already lit , the passage up [the little church]_{995-the little church} is strewed with flowering myrtle . [Lily]_592-lily , holding [her]_592-lily veil around [her]_592-lily , walks hand in hand with [me]_3592-me . [Fiordalisa Della Croce]_{593-fiordalisa} now is [Lily Vaughan]_592-lily ; amidst a world of shouting , shooting , and cornamusas , [we]_6702-friends are led to [the banqueting - room]_{8276-the banqueting - room} ; there [they]_{836-the maids} seat [us]_6702-friends in two chairs , and [a fine fat baby]_{8277-a fine fat baby} is placed on [Lily]_592-lily 's lap , to remind [her]_592-lily of [her]_592-lily duties . [She]_592-lily dandles it , and kisses [it]_{8277-a fine fat baby} as if [she]_592-lily understood the business , and then presents [it]_{8277-a fine fat baby} with a cap of corals and gay ribbons . Now [Lily Vaughan]_592-lily throws off [her]_592-lily fazoletto , and gives [me]_3592-me for a keepsake the myrtles in [her]_592-lily hair . Then all who can claim kin with [her]_592-lily , to [the fortieth generation]_{8278-the fortieth generation} , hurry up and press [her]_592-lily hand , and wish the good old wish . "_[3592-me] Long life and growing pleasure , [[sons]_3590-sons like [him]_3592-me]_{3591-sons like him} , and [[daughters]_{3593-daughters} like [yourself]_{3595-yourself}]_{3594-daughters like yourself} . " After the banquet , [we]_8279-we were free to go , having first led off the ballo in the Cerca dance . Thank [God]_303-god , [[my]_{593-fiordalisa} Lily]_{7976-my lily} is at last [my]_{593-fiordalisa} own ; [she]_{7976-my lily} falls upon [my]_{593-fiordalisa} bosom weary and delighted . [Clara]_293-clara , remember this : [the little church in which [we]_8279-we were married]_{8281-the little church in which we were married} is called [[St. Katharine]_{188-st. katharine} 's on [the cliff]_{8283-the cliff}]_{8282-st. katharine 's on the cliff} ; and [I]_{593-fiordalisa} signed the record in [my]_{593-fiordalisa} proper name , [Edgar Malins Vaughan]_{300-edgar malins vaughan} : [the Malins]_{300-edgar malins vaughan} , very likely , [they]_8284-they did not know from [Valentine]_{605-signor valentine} , for [I]_{593-fiordalisa} always wrote it with a flourish at the end . [The Signor]_{7946-the signor} , with all [[his]_{7946-the signor} friends]_{976-his friends} , escorted [us]_8279-we to [the limits of [[his]_{7946-the signor} domain]_{8288-his domain}]_{8287-the limits of his domain} ; there [we]_8279-we bade [them]_8284-they heartily farewell , and [they]_8284-they returned to renew the feast . [[My]_{593-fiordalisa} little yacht]_{8289-my little yacht} was in [the bay]_{8290-the bay} , and [we]_8279-we saw [the boat]_{8205-the boat} push off to fetch [us]_8279-we as had been arranged . [We]_8279-we were to sail for [Girolata]_189-girolata , where [the Signor]_{605-signor valentine} had [a country - house]_{8292-a country - house} , lonely enough even for [two such lovers]_{8293-two such lovers} . Three or four hours would take [us]_8279-we thither , and the sun was still in the heavens . As [no one]_{730-no one} now could see [us]_8279-we , [Lily]_592-lily performed a little dance for [my]_{593-fiordalisa} especial delight . How beaming [she]_592-lily looked , how full of spirits , now all the worry was over . Then [she]_592-lily tripped roguishly at [my]_{593-fiordalisa} side to the winding rocky steps that lead to [[St. Katharine]_{188-st. katharine} 's cove]_{8295-st. katharine 's cove} . [The cove]_{8296-the cove} was like a well scooped in [the giant cliffs]_{8297-the giant cliffs} . As [we]_8279-we descended [the steep and narrow stairs]_{8298-the steep and narrow stairs} , [[my]_{593-fiordalisa} Lily]_{7976-my lily} trembled on [my]_{593-fiordalisa} arm . [The house]_{764-the house} and [all the merry - makers]_{8301-all the merry - makers} were out of sight and hearing . Of course [we]_8279-we stopped every now and then , for [the boat]_{8205-the boat} could not be at [the landing]_{6367-the landing} yet , and [we]_8279-we had much to tell [each other]_{734-each other} . As [we]_8279-we stepped upon [the beach]_{6975-the beach} , and under the eaves of a jutting rock , [a tall man]_{8306-a tall man} stood before [us]_8279-we . [His]_{8306-a tall man} eyes and beard were black as jet , and [he]_{8306-a tall man} wore the loose dress of [a Southern seaman]_{8307-a southern seaman} . [Three sailors , unmistakeably English]_{8308-three sailors , unmistakeably english} , were smoking and playing cards in [the corner shade of [the cliff]_{8283-the cliff}]_{8309-the corner shade of the cliff} . [Lily]_592-lily started violently , turned pale , and clung to [me]_{593-fiordalisa} , but faced [the intruder]_{3308-the intruder} bravely . [He]_{8306-a tall man} was quite amazed at [her]_592-lily beauty , [I]_{593-fiordalisa} at [his]_{8306-a tall man} insolent gaze . "_{[593-fiordalisa]} [Fiordalisa Della Croce]_{593-fiordalisa} , " [he]_{8306-a tall man} said with a pure Tuscan accent , "_{[593-fiordalisa]} behold [me]_0-i ! [I]_0-i am come to claim [you]_{593-fiordalisa} . " [He]_{8306-a tall man} actually laid [his]_{8306-a tall man} small , but muscular hand upon [my]_0-i [Lily]_592-lily 's shoulder . [She]_592-lily leaped back as from a snake . [I]_0-i knew it must be [Lepardo]_570-lepardo . "_[0-i] [Sir]_5380-sir , " [I]_0-i said , as calmly as [I]_0-i could , "_[0-i] oblige [me]_0-i by allowing [[my]_0-i wife]_{3597-my wife} to pass . " The sneering , supercilious look which [he]_{8306-a tall man} hardly deigned to spare [me]_0-i , was honest , compared to [his]_{8306-a tall man} foul stare at [her]_592-lily . "_[0-i] [Signor]_3598-signor , [she]_{3597-my wife} is too beautiful . [I]_0-i must have [my]_0-i rights . Come for [her]_{3597-my wife} when [I]_0-i am tired , if any can tire of [her]_{3597-my wife} . " And [he]_{8306-a tall man} thrust [his]_{8306-a tall man} filthy , hairy lips under [my]_{3597-my wife} own pet 's hat . [My]_{3597-my wife} muscles leaped , and [my]_{3597-my wife} soul was in the blow . Down [he]_{8306-a tall man} went like a flail , and [I]_{3597-my wife} thought [he]_{8306-a tall man} was stunned for an hour ; but while [I]_{3597-my wife} was bearing [[my]_{3597-my wife} pet]_{5394-my pet} to [the boat]_{8205-the boat} , which now was close to [the beach]_{6975-the beach} , up [he]_{8306-a tall man} leaped , and rushed at [me]_{3597-my wife} with a dagger — a dagger like one which [you]_8315-you know . [I]_{3597-my wife} did not see [him]_{8306-a tall man} , but [Lily]_592-lily did over [my]_{3597-my wife} shoulder ; [she]_592-lily sprang from [my]_{3597-my wife} arms and flung [herself]_592-lily between [us]_8316-us . [He]_{8306-a tall man} thrust [her]_592-lily aside , and leaped at [me]_{3597-my wife} like a panther , aiming straight at [my]_{3597-my wife} heart . How [he]_{8306-a tall man} missed [me]_{3597-my wife} [I]_{3597-my wife} can not tell , but think it was through [Lily]_592-lily . Before [he]_{8306-a tall man} recovered , [I]_{3597-my wife} closed with [him]_{8306-a tall man} , wrested away the weapon and flung it far into [the sea]_{895-the sea} . But one main thing [I]_{3597-my wife} omitted ; [I]_{3597-my wife} ought to have stunned [him]_{8306-a tall man} thoroughly . Into [the boat]_{8205-the boat} with [Lily]_592-lily — [I]_{3597-my wife} caught up an oar , and away [we]_8316-us dashed . [The three English sailors]_{8319-the three english sailors} were running up . As a wave took [the boat]_{8205-the boat} about , one of [them]_{8319-the three english sailors} grasped the stern ; down on [his]_{8306-a tall man} knuckles crashed [my]_{3597-my wife} oar , and with a curse [he]_{8306-a tall man} let go . All right , all clear , off for [the yacht]_{8206-the yacht} for [your]_8322-your lives . [I]_{3597-my wife} would show fight , for [my]_{3597-my wife} blood is up , but what would become of [Lily]_592-lily ? And [we]_8316-us are but three against four , and none of [us]_8316-us have arms . Meanwhile , that black Italian , [I]_{3597-my wife} can never call [him]_{8306-a tall man} [a Corsican]_{8323-a corsican} , sneaked away to a tuft of sea - grass for [his]_{8306-a tall man} double - barrelled fusil . [Bowing]_616-bowing with all [my]_{3597-my wife} might , [I]_{3597-my wife} saw [him]_{8306-a tall man} examine the priming , lay [his]_{8306-a tall man} red cap on a rock , and the glistening gun on the cap , and , closing one eye , take steady aim , not at [me]_{3597-my wife} , but at [Lily]_592-lily . [Poor Lily]_606-lily sat on the thwart at [my]_{3597-my wife} side , faintly staring with terror . No time to think ; oar and all [I]_{3597-my wife} dashed in front of [[my]_{3597-my wife} darling]_{5337-my darling} . A ping in the air , a jar on [my]_{3597-my wife} wrist , a slight blow on [my]_{3597-my wife} breast , and at [my]_{3597-my wife} feet dropped the bullet . It had passed through the tough ash handle . Down , [Lily]_592-lily , down , for God 's sake ; [he]_{8306-a tall man} is firing the other barrel . [I]_{3597-my wife} flung [her]_592-lily down in [the bilge water]_{8325-the bilge water} ; [the brute]_{8326-the brute} can not see [her]_592-lily now . Not quite so easily off . Up [a steep rock]_{8327-a steep rock} [he]_{8306-a tall man} climbed like a cat , the cursed gun still in [his]_{8306-a tall man} hand . [He]_{8306-a tall man} won fifty feet of vantage , and commanded the whole of [the boat]_{8205-the boat} . [We]_8329-we were not eighty yards away . There [he]_{8306-a tall man} coolly levelled at [my]_{3597-my wife} prostrate [Lily]_592-lily . [I]_{3597-my wife} had grey hairs next morning . Forward , [I]_{3597-my wife} threw [myself]_{3597-my wife} , over [[my]_{3597-my wife} wife]_{3597-my wife} ; [me]_{3597-my wife} [he]_{8306-a tall man} might kill if [he]_{8306-a tall man} chose . One lurch of [the boat]_{8205-the boat} — [a short sea]_{8332-a short sea} was running — and [[my]_{3597-my wife} darling]_{5337-my darling} 's head was shown . [He]_{8306-a tall man} saw [his]_{8306-a tall man} chance and fired . Thank [God]_303-god , [he]_{8306-a tall man} had too little powder in ; [my]_{3597-my wife} own love is untouched . The ball fell short of [Lily]_592-lily , and passed through [my]_{3597-my wife} left foot , in at the sole and out below the instep . Luckily [I]_{3597-my wife} had retained [my]_{3597-my wife} dancing shoes , or [my]_{3597-my wife} thick boots would have kept the ball in [my]_{3597-my wife} foot . [The brute]_{8326-the brute} could not see that [he]_{8306-a tall man} had hit any one , and [he]_{8306-a tall man} cursed [us]_8335-us in choice Italian . [Poor Lily]_606-lily had quite swooned away , and knew nothing of [my]_{3597-my wife} wound . Over the side of [the yacht]_{8206-the yacht} [I]_{3597-my wife} lifted [her]_606-lily [myself]_{3597-my wife} , standing upon one leg . [No one else]_{5442-no one else} should touch [her]_606-lily . So furious [I]_{3597-my wife} was with [that cold - blooded miscreant]_{8338-that cold - blooded miscreant} , that if [I]_{3597-my wife} could only have walked , [I]_{3597-my wife} would have returned to fight [him]_{8338-that cold - blooded miscreant} . [[My]_{3597-my wife} men]_{5915-my men} , too , were quite up for it . But when [Lily]_606-lily came to [herself]_606-lily , and threw [her]_606-lily arms round [me]_{3597-my wife} and wept , and thanked [God]_303-god and [[her]_606-lily saints]_{8340-her saints} , [I]_{3597-my wife} found [my]_{3597-my wife} foot quite soaked in a pool of blood , and stiffening . [Poor little dear]_{6411-poor little dear} ! what a fuss [she]_606-lily did make about it ! [I]_{3597-my wife} would have borne ten times the pain for the smiles and tears [she]_606-lily gave [me]_{3597-my wife} . One thing was certain — under the mercy of [God]_303-god , [we]_8342-we owed [our]_8342-we lives to each other , and held [them]_{5915-my men} henceforth in common . As , with a flowing sheet , [we]_8342-we doubled [the craggy point]_{8343-the craggy point} , concealed close under [the rocks]_{8344-the rocks} [we]_8342-we saw a low and snake - like vessel , of the felucca build . [She]_606-lily was banked for three pair of sweeps , and looked a thorough rover . This was , of course , [[Lepardo]_570-lepardo 's boat]_{8345-lepardo 's boat} . [We]_8342-we now bore away for [Ajaccio]_191-ajaccio , [dear Lily]_618-lily having implored [me]_{3597-my wife} not to think of [Girolata]_189-girolata , where no medical aid could anyhow be procured . Moreover , [she]_606-lily wanted to fly from [that dark Lepardo]_570-lepardo ; and [I]_{3597-my wife} am quite willing to own that , despite [my]_{3597-my wife} delicious nursing , [I]_{3597-my wife} was not ambitious to stand as target again during [our]_8342-we honeymoon . At first [I]_{3597-my wife} thought a great deal more of the pain than the danger of [my]_{3597-my wife} wound ; but when [I]_{3597-my wife} showed it to [the French surgeon at [Ajaccio]_191-ajaccio]_{8346-the french surgeon at ajaccio} , [he]_{8346-the french surgeon at ajaccio} surprised [me]_{3597-my wife} by shrugging [his]_{8346-the french surgeon at ajaccio} shoulders formidably , and declaring that it was [the good God]_{8347-the good god} if [I]_{3597-my wife} kept [my]_{3597-my wife} foot . Being of a somewhat sceptical turn , [I]_{3597-my wife} thought at first that [he]_{8346-the french surgeon at ajaccio} only wanted to gild the frame of [his]_{8346-the french surgeon at ajaccio} work ; but when [I]_{3597-my wife} began to consider it , [I]_{3597-my wife} found that [he]_{8346-the french surgeon at ajaccio} was quite right . The fact was , that [I]_{3597-my wife} had thought much more of [[my]_{3597-my wife} bride]_{8251-my bride} than of [my]_{3597-my wife} metatarsals . Two of these were splintered where the bullet passed between them , and it was a question whether it had not been poisoned . [Many of [the mountaineers]_{7910-the mountaineers}]_{8349-many of the mountaineers} are skilled in deadly drugs , and use them rarely for the bowl , not so rarely for the sword and gun . At one time there were symptoms even of mortification , and [[my]_{3597-my wife} wife]_{3597-my wife} , who waited hand and foot upon [me]_{3597-my wife} , joined [the surgeon]_{1504-the surgeon} in imploring [me]_{3597-my wife} to submit to amputation . "_{[3597-my wife]} Sweetest mine ! do [you]_3599-you suppose that [I]_0-i shall love [you]_3599-you any the less because [you]_3599-you walk on crutches , and all through [your]_3599-you love of [me]_0-i ? And what other difference can it make to either of [us]_3600-i ? [I]_0-i shall cry a great deal at first , for [I]_0-i love [your]_3599-you little toe - nails more than [I]_0-i do [my]_0-i own eyes ; but , [darling]_6257-darling , [we]_3600-i shall get over it . " As [she]_{3597-my wife} loved [my]_3600-i toes so much , [I]_3600-i resolved to keep them , if it was only for [her]_{3597-my wife} sake ; and , after a narrow crisis , [my]_3600-i foot began to get better . To [her]_{3597-my wife} care and tenderness [I]_3600-i owed [my]_3600-i recovery , far more than to the skill of [the clever surgeon]_{8353-the clever surgeon} . Six months elapsed before [I]_3600-i could walk again , and [[our]_3600-i little yacht]_{8354-our little yacht} was sent to [Calvi]_159-calvi to explain the long delay . [Fond]_619-fond as [I]_3600-i was of the "_[3600-i] Lily - flower , " [I]_3600-i was anxious now to sell [her]_{3597-my wife} ; but [[my]_3600-i darling nurse]_{8355-my darling nurse} , although [she]_{8355-my darling nurse} knew before [our]_3600-i marriage that [I]_3600-i was not [a wealthy man]_{8356-a wealthy man} , would not listen to the scheme at all ; for [the doctor]_{5643-the doctor} ordered [me]_3600-i , as [I]_3600-i grew stronger , to be constantly on [the water]_{1150-the water} . "_[3600-i] Not by any means , [my]_0-i own , will [we]_3602-our sell [[our]_3602-our little love - boat]_{3603-our little love - boat} . [I]_0-i should cry after it like [a baby]_{2061-a baby} ; and another thing , far more important , [you]_3605-you can bear no motion except on board [[our]_3602-our Lily]_{3564-our lily} . [Papa]_425-papa has got great heaps of money , and [he]_425-papa never can refuse [me]_0-i anything when [I]_0-i coax in earnest . " Conscious as [I]_425-papa was of [my]_425-papa vile deceit , [I]_425-papa would rather have died than apply to [Signor Dezio]_{589-signor dezio} , albeit [I]_425-papa am quite sure that [he]_{589-signor dezio} would soon have forgiven [me]_425-papa . So [I]_425-papa wrote again to [[my]_425-papa good - natured brother]_{8359-my good - natured brother} and [banker]_8360-banker , and told [him]_{589-signor dezio} all that had happened , but begged [him]_{589-signor dezio} not to impart it even to [[your]_3605-you mother]_{5332-your mother} . [I]_425-papa have strong reason for suspecting that [he]_{589-signor dezio} did not conceal it from [her]_{5332-your mother} ; but as [I]_425-papa never alluded to the subject before [her]_{5332-your mother} , [she]_{5332-your mother} was too much [a lady]_{5829-a lady} ever to lead [me]_425-papa towards it . [My]_425-papa motive for this reserve was at first some ill - defined terror lest [my]_425-papa fraud upon [Signor Dezio]_{589-signor dezio} should come to light prematurely . Also [I]_425-papa hate to be talked about among people whom [I]_425-papa despise . Afterwards , as [you]_3605-you will perceive , [I]_425-papa had other and far more cogent reasons . [I]_425-papa need not say that [[your]_3605-you father]_{5365-your father} — [dear Clara]_293-clara , [I]_425-papa ought to love [you]_3605-you , if only on [his]_{5365-your father} account!—your father wrote [me]_425-papa a kind and most warm - hearted letter , accompanied by a most handsome gift — no loan this time , but a wedding - gift , and a very noble one . Also [he]_{5365-your father} pressed [me]_425-papa to come [home]_1102-home with [[my]_425-papa bride]_{8251-my bride} the moment [I]_425-papa could endure the voyage . Ah ! if [I]_425-papa had only obeyed [him]_{5365-your father} , not [Lily]_618-lily and [Henry]_{561-henry the eighth} , but [myself]_425-papa would have been [the victim]_{8366-the victim} . [We]_8367-we returned as soon as possible to [Vendetta tower]_168-vendetta , and found [the good Signor]_{589-signor dezio} in excellent spirits , delighted to see [[his]_{589-signor dezio} sweet daughter]_{8368-his sweet daughter} again , and still more delighted by hope of a little successor to the gray walls and [the olive groves]_{8369-the olive groves} . When this hope was realized , and [a lusty young grandson]_{8370-a lusty young grandson} was laid in [his]_{589-signor dezio} arms , [he]_{589-signor dezio} became so wild in [his]_{589-signor dezio} glory , that [he]_{589-signor dezio} went about boasting all over [the commune]_{8253-the commune} , feasting all who came near [him]_{589-signor dezio} , forgetting the very name of the blood - revenge . Many a time [we]_8367-we reminded and implored [him]_{589-signor dezio} to be more careful . [He]_{589-signor dezio} replied , that [his]_{589-signor dezio} life was of no importance now ; [he]_{589-signor dezio} had come to [[his]_{589-signor dezio} haven]_{8372-his haven} among [[his]_{589-signor dezio} own dear ones]_{8373-his own dear ones} , and was crowning [the old ship]_{8374-the old ship} with flowers . Moreover , [he]_{589-signor dezio} knew that [the De ' Gentili]_{8375-the de ' gentili} were of a nobler spirit than to shed the blood of [a gray - haired man]_{8376-a gray - haired man} , when institution did not very loudly demand it . And so [I]_425-papa believe [they]_{8375-the de ' gentili} were . Alas ! [the poor old man!—a thorough and true gentleman]_{8377-the poor old man!—a thorough and true gentleman} as [one need wish to see — choleric albeit , and not too wide of mind]_{8378-one need wish to see — choleric albeit , and not too wide of mind} ; but [his]_{589-signor dezio} heart was in the right place , and made of the right material , and easy enough to get at . [He]_{589-signor dezio} was free to confess [his]_{589-signor dezio} own failings , and could feel for [a man who was tempted]_{8379-a man who was tempted} . Deeply thankful [I]_425-papa am that , before [his]_{589-signor dezio} white beard was laid low , [I]_425-papa acknowledged to [him]_{589-signor dezio} [my]_425-papa offence , and obtained [his]_{589-signor dezio} hearty forgiveness . [Little Henry]_{620-little henry} was on [his]_{589-signor dezio} lap , going off into smiles of sleep , with [[his]_{620-little henry} mother]_{1066-his mother} 's soft finger in [his]_{620-little henry} mouth . At first [my]_425-papa confession quite took [the poor Signor]_{8381-the poor signor} aback ; for [I]_425-papa did not attempt to gloss the dishonour of what [I]_425-papa had done ; but [I]_425-papa told [him]_{589-signor dezio} truly that the meanness was not in [my]_425-papa nature , and although [I]_425-papa had won [my]_425-papa pet Lily , [the road]_{1630-the road} ran through hemlock and wormwood . And now [I]_425-papa perceived how uncalled - for and stupid the fraud had been . When [the old man]_{7306-the old man} recovered a little from the shock caused by the dishonesty — towards which recovery the tears of [[his]_{7306-the old man} daughter]_{2465-his daughter} and the smiles of [[his]_{7306-the old man} grandson]_{8385-his grandson} contributed — [he]_{7306-the old man} was really glad to find that [I]_425-papa was not [a landed Signor]_{8386-a landed signor} . [He]_{7306-the old man} rubbed [his]_{7306-the old man} hands and twitched [his]_{7306-the old man} beard with delight , for now [[his]_{7306-the old man} little Enrico]_{8387-his little enrico} would never be taken away to [the barbarous English island]_{8388-the barbarous english island} . Was [he]_{7306-the old man} not [rightful successor to [the lands of [the Della Croce]_{589-signor dezio}]_{8390-the lands of the della croce}]_{8389-rightful successor to the lands of the della croce} ? and what more could [he]_{7306-the old man} possibly want ? What could [he]_{7306-the old man} care for [the property in [Gloisterio]_{176-gloisterio}]_{8391-the property in gloisterio} ? However , [he]_{7306-the old man} made [us]_8392-us promise that if [the present remarkable baby]_{8393-the present remarkable baby} , [Master Henry Vaughan]_298-harry , should ever enjoy [the property in [the unpronounceable county]_{8395-the unpronounceable county}]_{8394-the property in the unpronounceable county} , [[Lily]_618-lily 's second child]_{8396-lily 's second child} , if [she]_618-lily had one , should take [the Corsican lordships]_{8397-the corsican lordships} ; for [his]_{7306-the old man} great fear was , that [the Malaspina and Della Croce estates]_{8398-the malaspina and della croce estates} should become [a servient tenement to [the frozen fields of [the North]_{192-the north}]_{8400-the frozen fields of the north}]_{8399-a servient tenement to the frozen fields of the north} . To express and ensure [his]_{7306-the old man} wishes , [he]_{7306-the old man} had a deed - poll prepared according to [his]_{7306-the old man} own fancy , read it to [us]_8392-us and [some witnesses]_{8401-some witnesses} , then signed , sealed , and enrolled it . This was one of the documents which [you]_8402-you , [[my]_425-papa brave [Clara]_293-clara]_{8403-my brave clara} , rescued from that vile , stealthy ghost . And now , for a short time , [we]_8392-us enjoyed deep , quiet , delicious happiness . The crime which had haunted [me]_425-papa was confessed and forgiven . Amply possessed of the means , and even the abundance of life , [I]_425-papa was blessed with strong health again , and freedom among [the free]_{8404-the free} . Richest and best of all blessings , [I]_425-papa had [a sweet , most lovely , and most loving wife]_{8405-a sweet , most lovely , and most loving wife} , and loved [her]_{8405-a sweet , most lovely , and most loving wife} once and for all . No more beautiful vision has [any poet]_{8406-any poet} imagined than [young Lily Vaughan]_592-lily sitting under the vine - leaves , [her]_{8405-a sweet , most lovely , and most loving wife} form more exquisite than ever , [[her]_{8405-a sweet , most lovely , and most loving wife} soft - eyed infant]_{8407-her soft - eyed infant} in [her]_{8405-a sweet , most lovely , and most loving wife} lap wondering at [[his]_{8407-her soft - eyed infant} mother]_{1066-his mother} 's beauty , while [her]_{8405-a sweet , most lovely , and most loving wife} own deep - lustred eyes carried to [[her]_{8405-a sweet , most lovely , and most loving wife} husband]_{6140-her husband} 's , without the trouble of thinking , all that flowed into [her]_{8405-a sweet , most lovely , and most loving wife} heart — joy at belonging to [him]_{6140-her husband} , hope of bliss to come , fear of over - happiness , pride in [all the three of [us]_{8410-all the three of us}]_{8410-all the three of us} , and shame at feeling proud . Then a gay coquettish glance , as [quick youth]_{8411-quick youth} warms the veins , and some humorous thought occurs , a tickle for [the baby]_{1681-the baby} , and a feint of cold - shouldering [me]_425-papa . But , jealous as [I]_425-papa was , desperately jealous , for [my]_425-papa love was more passionate than ever , [I]_425-papa can honourably state that [Lily]_592-lily 's one and only trial to arouse [my]_425-papa jealousy was an ignominious failure , recoiling only on [the person of [the dear designer]_{8414-the dear designer}]_{8413-the person of the dear designer} . However exacting [little Harry]_298-harry might be , [I]_425-papa never grudged [him]_298-harry [his]_298-harry double share of attention . In the first place [I]_425-papa looked upon [him]_298-harry as a piece of [me]_425-papa , still holding on ; and , in the next place , [I]_425-papa knew that all [he]_298-harry laid claim to was only a loan to [him]_298-harry , and belonged in fee simple to [[his]_298-harry father]_{1062-his father} . At this time [I]_425-papa wrote to [[my]_425-papa brother]_{1302-my brother} again , announcing the birth of [[our]_8417-our boy]_{8418-our boy} , and that [we]_8417-our had made [him]_298-harry [[his]_298-harry namesake]_{8419-his namesake} ; dispensing , too , with all further reserve on the subject of [our]_8417-our marriage . This letter was never delivered to [[your]_{1302-my brother} dear father]_{5757-your dear father} . That much [I]_425-papa know , for certain ; and at one time [I]_425-papa strongly suspected that [[our]_8417-our cold - blooded , crafty foe]_{8421-our cold - blooded , crafty foe} contrived to intercept it . But no ; if [he]_{8421-our cold - blooded , crafty foe} had , [he]_{8421-our cold - blooded , crafty foe} would have known better afterwards . After that cowardly onslaught upon [[my]_425-papa bride]_{8251-my bride} and [myself]_425-papa , [I]_425-papa had of course learned all [I]_425-papa could of the history of [this Lepardo]_{8423-this lepardo} . [He]_298-harry was [the only son of [[the Signor]_{7946-the signor} 's only brother]_{8426-the signor 's only brother}]_{8424-the only son of the signor 's only brother} , but very little was known of [him]_298-harry in [the neighbourhood]_{5329-the neighbourhood} , as [he]_298-harry came from [Vescovato]_{193-vescovato} on [the east side of [the island]_{1125-the island}]_{8428-the east side of the island} . [He]_298-harry was said to have great abilities and very great perseverance , and under the guardianship of [[his]_298-harry uncle]_{8430-his uncle} had been intended and partly educated for the French Bar . But [his]_298-harry disposition was most headstrong and sullen ; and at an early age [he]_298-harry displayed a ferocity unusual even in [a Corsican]_{585-old cora} . Neither had [he]_298-harry the great redeeming trait of [the islanders]_{8431-the islanders} , [I]_425-papa mean [their]_{8431-the islanders} noble patriotism . One good quality , however , [he]_298-harry did possess , and that was fidelity to [his]_298-harry word . With one of the contradictions so common in human nature , [he]_298-harry would even be false in order to be true : that is , [he]_298-harry would be treacherous wherever [he]_298-harry was unpledged , if it assisted [him]_298-harry towards a purpose to which [he]_298-harry was committed . While [he]_298-harry was yet [a boy]_{1691-a boy} , [his]_298-harry intended career was cut short by an act of horrible violence . [He]_298-harry disliked all the lower animals , horses and [mules]_8433-mules especially ; and one day [he]_298-harry was detected by [a master of [the Paoli College]_{8435-the paoli college}]_{8434-a master of the paoli college} , screaming , and yelling at , and lashing , from a safe distance , [a poor little pony whom [he]_298-harry had tied to a fence]_{8436-a poor little pony whom he had tied to a fence} . [The master]_{1286-the master} , [an elderly man]_{6156-an elderly man} , very humane and benevolent , rebuked [him]_298-harry in the most cutting manner , and called [him]_298-harry [a low coward]_{8439-a low coward} . [The young villain]_{8440-the young villain} ran off , with [his]_298-harry eyes flashing fire , procured a stiletto , and stabbed [the poor man]_{6777-the poor man} in the back . Then [he]_298-harry leaped on the horse [he]_298-harry had been ill - treating , and pricking [him]_{8436-a poor little pony whom he had tied to a fence} with the dagger , rode away furiously in [the direction of [Bastia]_194-bastia]_{8442-the direction of bastia} . [The pursuers]_{8443-the pursuers} could not trace [him]_298-harry through [the wild mountain district]_{8444-the wild mountain district} , but it was believed that [he]_298-harry reached [the town]_{8007-the town} and took refuge in [an English brig]_{8446-an english brig} , which was lying off [the harbour]_{8447-the harbour} , and sailed for [Genoa]_65-genoa that evening . [The pony]_{8448-the pony} was found dead , lying by the roadside with [the brute]_{8326-the brute} 's dagger in its throat . No wonder [Lily]_592-lily , who told [me]_425-papa all this , with true Corsican rage in [her]_592-lily eyes , no wonder [[my]_425-papa [Lily]_592-lily]_{7976-my lily} hated [him]_298-harry . Even as [a little girl]_{8451-a little girl} , for [she]_592-lily was but ten years old when [he]_298-harry disappeared , [she]_592-lily always felt a strong repugnance towards [him]_298-harry . [He]_298-harry was about six years older than [Fiordalisa]_{593-fiordalisa} , and four years younger than [I]_425-papa ; so when [he]_298-harry shot at [Lily]_592-lily , [he]_298-harry must have been three - and - twenty . It was reported that after [his]_298-harry disappearance [he]_298-harry took to a sea - faring life , and made [himself]_298-harry very useful , by [his]_298-harry knowledge of languages , in [the English merchant service]_{8452-the english merchant service} . Quarrelling with [[his]_298-harry employers]_{8453-his employers} , [he]_298-harry was said to have resorted to smuggling in [the Levant]_{195-the levant} , if not to downright piracy . [Clara]_293-clara , for reasons [I]_425-papa can not explain , [I]_425-papa wish [you]_293-clara to follow [my]_425-papa story step by step in its order , noting each landing - place . To do this with advantage , [you]_293-clara must have the dates carved upon each of the latter : therefore [I]_425-papa beg [you]_293-clara to copy them as [you]_293-clara pass . [I]_425-papa arrived in [Corsica]_150-corsica , as [you]_293-clara heard , during the month of May , 1829 . On the 12th of August in that same year [I]_425-papa first beheld [[my]_425-papa [Lily]_592-lily]_{7976-my lily} . That day [I]_425-papa remember , beside other reasons , because [I]_425-papa had wondered , as [I]_425-papa rode idly along , whether [[my]_425-papa brother]_{1302-my brother} was opening [his]_{1302-my brother} usual Highland campaign , and whether [he]_{1302-my brother} would like to shoot the muffrone . [Lily]_592-lily and [I]_425-papa were married on the 21st of March , 1830 , when [I]_425-papa was twenty - seven years old : and [[our]_8456-our little [Henry]_298-harry]_{8457-our little henry} first saw the light on the 24th of December following , more than two years before [your]_293-clara birth . [[Your]_293-clara father]_{5365-your father} having [no children]_{6069-no children} as yet , [I]_425-papa looked upon [[my]_425-papa Harry]_{8460-my harry} as [heir presumptive to [these estates]_{8462-these estates}]_{8461-heir presumptive to these estates} . Although [your]_293-clara birth appeared to divest [him]_{8460-my harry} of the heirship , it has since , through causes then unknown to [me]_425-papa , proved otherwise ; and if [he]_{8460-my harry} were living now , [he]_{8460-my harry} would in strict law be entitled to [this property]_{5453-this property} after [my]_425-papa death . But if [he]_{8460-my harry} were alive , [he]_{8460-my harry} never should have an inch of it , that is if [I]_425-papa could prevent it ; because in strict righteousness all belongs to [you]_293-clara . And now [I]_425-papa hold [the property]_{1112-the property} in fee simple , under an Act which abolishes fines and recoveries ; for [I]_425-papa have suffered so much from remorse , ever since [[your]_293-clara dear mother]_{5347-your dear mother} 's death , that even before [you]_293-clara saved [my]_425-papa life , [dearest child]_{8466-dearest child} , [I]_425-papa enrolled a deed in Chancery , which gives [me]_425-papa disposing powers ; and as [I]_425-papa think [you]_293-clara know , [I]_425-papa made thereupon a will devising [the lands]_{8467-the lands} to [you]_293-clara . This also was one of the documents [you]_293-clara caught that vile hypocrite stealing . To return to [the old Signor]_{8468-the old signor} . [He]_{8468-the old signor} was now as happy as the day was long , and desirous , as [an old man]_{8469-an old man} often is , to set on foot noteworthy schemes , which might survive [his]_{8468-the old signor} time . Of this desire [I]_425-papa took advantage to inoculate [him]_{8468-the old signor} with some English views . It was rather late to learn another catechism , at threescore years and five ; but a green old age was [his]_{8468-the old signor} , hale and hearty as could be . "_[425-papa] Why should all those noble olives shed , and rot upon the ground , all those grapes of divers colours be of no more use than rainbows ? Why should all the dazzling marbles slumber in [the quarry]_{3607-the quarry} , [the porphyry of [Molo]_196-molo]_{3608-the porphyry of molo} , [the verde antique of [Orezza]_197-orezza]_{3609-the verde antique of orezza} , [the Parian of [Cassaconi]_{198-cassaconi}]_{3610-the parian of cassaconi} , [the serpentine near [Bastia]_194-bastia]_{3611-the serpentine near bastia} , and the garnets of [Vizzavona]_{199-vizzavona} — nay even the matchless white alabaster — " Mother of [[our]_8470-our Lord]_{5553-our lord} , [I]_0-i have got such pretty stuff in [[my]_0-i cavern]_{8472-my cavern} on [the gulf of [Porto]_200-porto]_{8473-the gulf of porto} . [Some one]_{1603-some one} told [me]_0-i it was the very finest alabaster . But then it would require cutting out . "_[0-i] The last thought seemed a poser . " Well , [father"—so]_{8475-father"—so[0-i]} [I]_0-i called [him]_3612-him now—"when [Harry]_298-harry has finished [his]_298-harry tooth , suppose [we]_3613-we go all together in [the yacht]_{8206-the yacht} and see it . "_[0-i] And so [we]_3613-we did ; and it was worth a voyage all the way from [London]_1-london only to look at [it]_3614-it . Pillars of snow , pellucid , and fancifully veined , like a glacier shot with sea - weed ; clean - working moreover , and tough , and of even texture , as [I]_0-i proved to [my]_0-i [Lily]_592-lily 's delight . There is now a small piece in the drawer of [my]_0-i walnut - wood desk . But [I]_0-i took [home]_1102-home a square block with [me]_0-i , and under [[my]_0-i wife]_{3597-my wife} 's most original criticisms , worked it into a rough resemblance of [the baby Henry]_{3617-the baby henry} . Perhaps [I]_0-i have a natural turn for sculpture , perhaps it was [a wife]_{1297-a wife} 's flattery ; but at any rate [the young mother]_{3619-the young mother} was so charmed with it , that in one of [her]_{3619-the young mother} pensive moments [she]_{3619-the young mother} even made [me]_0-i promise , that if [she]_{3619-the young mother} died soon and alone , [I]_0-i would have the little recumbent figure laid upon [her]_{3619-the young mother} breast . Meanwhile [the Signor]_{7946-the signor} was gayer than ever : [he]_{7946-the signor} told [us]_3621-us to have no anxiety about anything less than a score of [children]_{1229-children} ; to such effect would [he]_{7946-the signor} work [[his]_{7946-the signor} great olive grounds]_{3623-his great olive grounds} , [quarries]_{3624-quarries} , and [vineyards]_{3625-vineyards} . Some ingenious plan [he]_{7946-the signor} formed , which delighted [him]_{7946-the signor} hugely , but was past [my]_0-i comprehension . As fast as [he]_{7946-the signor} quarried [his]_{7946-the signor} alabaster , [he]_{7946-the signor} would plant young vines in the holes , and [every one]_{1982-every one} knew how the vine delighted to run away over [the rocks]_{8344-the rocks} . So at once [he]_{7946-the signor} must set off for [Corte]_165-corte , [the central town of [the island]_{1125-the island}]_{3628-the central town of the island} , to procure a large stock of tools well - tempered in [the Restonica]_{169-the restonica} . That [turbulent little river]_{3630-turbulent little river} possesses a magic power . Its water is said to purify steel so highly that it never can rust again . [I]_0-i have even heard that [the cutlers of [Northern Italy]_{201-northern italy}]_{3631-the cutlers of northern italy} import it , for the purpose of annealing [their]_{3631-the cutlers of northern italy} choicest productions . For [my]_0-i part , little as [I]_0-i knew of commerce , [I]_0-i strongly recommended that arrangements for shipping and selling the alabaster should be made , before it was quarried . But [the Signor]_{7946-the signor} scorned the idea . Having in prospect all the riches of [Croesus]_202-croesus , and in possession enough to make [us]_3633-we happy , and having worked , as [we]_3633-we thought , uncommonly hard , [we]_3633-we all four indulged in a tour through [Sicily]_203-sicily and [Italy]_63-italy , proposing to visit and criticise [the principal marble quarries]_{3634-the principal marble quarries} . By the time [we]_3633-we had done all this and enjoyed it thoroughly — dear [me]_0-i , how [[my]_0-i wife]_{3597-my wife} was admired in [[the sculptor]_{3636-the sculptor} 's studio!—and]_{3637-the sculptor 's studio!—and} by the time [we]_3633-we had fallen to work again , surveyed and geologised all [the estates]_{879-the estates} , taken , or rather listened to , long earfuls of advice , settled all [our]_3633-we plans summarily over [the Rogliano]_204-rogliano , and reopened them all the next morning , by this time , [I]_0-i say , nearly three years of bliss had slipped by , since [my]_0-i recovery from the lingering wound ; and it was now the summer of 1833 . [[My]_0-i loving wife]_{3639-my loving wife} was twenty years old , and [we]_3633-we were looking forward to the birth of [a brother]_{3640-a brother} or sister for [Harry]_298-harry . Meanwhile [we]_3633-we had heard of [your]_3641-your birth , which delighted [us]_3633-we all , especially [[my]_0-i [Lily]_592-lily]_{7976-my lily} . [She]_{3639-my loving wife} used to talk , in the fond way [mothers]_3643-mothers discover , to [Harry]_298-harry , now gravely perched up on a stool , about [[his]_298-harry little sweetheart]_{3644-his little sweetheart} away in [the dark north country]_{3645-the dark north country} . It was in the month of July 1833 that [the Signor]_{7946-the signor} found [he]_{7946-the signor} could no longer postpone [his]_{7946-the signor} visit to [Corte]_165-corte . Alone [he]_{7946-the signor} would go , riding [his]_{7946-the signor} favourite jennet , as sure - footed as a mule , and as hardy as [a mustang]_{3647-a mustang} . Behind [him]_{7946-the signor} [he]_{7946-the signor} slung [his]_{7946-the signor} trusty fusil , with both barrels loaded , for [he]_{7946-the signor} had to traverse [a desert and mountainous district haunted by banditti]_{3648-a desert and mountainous district haunted by banditti} . [He]_{7946-the signor} was to travel through by - ways to [Novella]_205-novella , and so on to the bridge where [the roads from [Calvi]_159-calvi and [Bastia]_194-bastia]_{3649-the roads from calvi and bastia} meet , put up in [rude quarters there]_{3650-rude quarters there} for the night , and follow the steep descent to [the town of Corte]_{3651-the town of corte} next day . In vain [we]_3652-we begged [him]_{7946-the signor} to take [some escort]_{3653-some escort} , or at least to let [me]_0-i go with [him]_{7946-the signor} . No , [I]_0-i must stop to guard [the Lily]_592-lily and [the little snow - drop]_{3654-the little snow - drop} ; could [he]_{7946-the signor} possibly take [me]_0-i at such a time from [home]_1102-home , and did [I]_0-i think a [Della Croce]_{593-fiordalisa} was afraid of bandits ? It was a Monday morning when [he]_{7946-the signor} left [the tower]_{7964-the tower} , and [he]_{7946-the signor} would be back on Saturday in good time for supper . [He]_{7946-the signor} kissed and blessed [[his]_{7946-the signor} Lily]_{3657-his lily} , and the little snow - drop as [he]_{7946-the signor} called [young Harry]_298-harry , who cried at [his]_{7946-the signor} departure ; and then [he]_{7946-the signor} gave [me]_0-i too an earnest trembling blessing . By this time [he]_{7946-the signor} and [I]_0-i had come to love [each other]_{734-each other} , as [a father]_{3233-a father} and [a son]_{3660-a son} . [I]_0-i went with [him]_{7946-the signor} quite to [the borders of [the commune]_{8253-the commune}]_{3661-the borders of the commune} ; and there , in [a mountain defile]_{3663-a mountain defile} , [I]_0-i lit for [him]_{7946-the signor} [his]_{7946-the signor} cigar . With some dark foreboding , [I]_0-i waited till [I]_0-i saw [him]_{7946-the signor} reach and pass the gap at [the summit of the rise]_{3664-the summit of the rise} . There [he]_{7946-the signor} turned in the saddle to wave [his]_{7946-the signor} last adieu , and [his]_{7946-the signor} beard , like a white cloud , floated on the morning sky . On the Saturday night , an excellent supper was ready : [the Signor]_{7946-the signor} 's own particular plate was at the head of the table , and by it gleamed , in a portly bottle , [his]_{7946-the signor} favourite Rogliano . [Little Harry]_298-harry , who could say anything [he]_298-harry was told , and knew right well what was good , or at least what tasted good — [that beloved child]_{3666-that beloved child} was allowed to stop up , that [grandpapa]_{3667-grandpapa} might kiss [him]_{7946-the signor} ; this was a sovereign specific , believed in the nursery creed , to ensure sweet sleep for both . That silver beard never kissed the chubby cheek again . All night [we]_3668-we waited and wondered : [Harry]_298-harry was sent to bed roaring ; [no grandpapa]_{3669-no grandpapa} appeared . The olives rustled at midnight , and out [I]_0-i ran ; the doors creaked afterwards , and [I]_0-i opened them , all in vain ; the sound of hoofs came up [the valley]_{1708-the valley} before the break of day ; but no step or voice of [man]_5770-man , no bark of [his]_{7946-the signor} favourite mountain hound , no neigh of the jennet to [[her]_3672-her sleepy brother]_{3673-her sleepy brother} - horses . All Sunday [we]_3668-we remained in terrible uneasiness , trying to cheer [each other]_{734-each other} with a hundred assurances that [the dear old man]_{3675-the dear old man} must have turned aside to see [an ancient friend]_{3676-an ancient friend} living now at [Prato]_207-prato . When Monday morning came , but brought no tidings of [him]_{3675-the dear old man} , [I]_0-i set off , amid a shower of tears , to seek [the beloved father]_{3677-the beloved father} . [The old fusileer]_{8081-the old fusileer} was left on guard , and [I]_0-i took [two young and active men]_{3679-two young and active men} , well acquainted with [the mountain passes]_{3680-the mountain passes} . All well mounted , and well armed , [we]_3668-we purposed to ride hard , and search [the track quite up to [the town of Corte]_{3651-the town of corte}]_{3681-the track quite up to the town of corte} . There , if indeed [he]_{3675-the dear old man} had ever arrived , [we]_3668-we should be sure to hear of [him]_{3675-the dear old man} . But it proved unnecessary to go so far from [home]_1102-home . Along [that dreary mountain road]_{3684-that dreary mountain road} , often no more than [a shepherd]_{3685-a shepherd} 's walk difficult to descry , [we]_3668-we found no token of [any traveller]_{3686-any traveller} either living or dead , until [we]_3668-we came to [the Ponte Leccia]_{208-the ponte leccia} , where [the main roads]_{3687-the main roads} meet . Here [our]_3668-we fears were doubled , and the last hope nearly quenched ; for on asking at [[the shepherd]_{3532-the shepherd} 's hut]_{3689-the shepherd 's hut} , where [Signor Dezio]_{589-signor dezio} meant to put up , [we]_3668-we found that [he]_{3675-the dear old man} had slept [there]_1114-there on the Friday night , as [he]_{3675-the dear old man} was returning from [the town]_{8007-the town} . [[The shepherd]_{3532-the shepherd} 's wife , who had known [him]_{3675-the dear old man} for years]_{3693-the shepherd 's wife , who had known him for years} , assured [us]_3668-we that [he]_{3675-the dear old man} was in wonderful spirits and health , insisted upon [her]_{3693-the shepherd 's wife , who had known him for years} supping with [them]_3694-them — which is contrary to Corsican usage — and boasted much of the great things [he]_{3675-the dear old man} would do , and still more of [[his]_{3675-the dear old man} beautiful grandson]_{3695-his beautiful grandson} . [His]_{3675-the dear old man} goatskin wallet was full of sample tools , which were to astonish [[his]_{3675-the dear old man} English son]_{3696-his english son} , and [he]_{3675-the dear old man} had a toy gun no bigger than the tail of a dog , with which [he]_{3675-the dear old man} intended to teach [the baby]_{1681-the baby} to shoot . Telling [us]_3668-we all these little things , and showing [us]_3668-we [her]_{3693-the shepherd 's wife , who had known him for years} presents , [the poor woman]_{3698-the poor woman} cried at the thought of what must have happened to [him]_{3675-the dear old man} . Right early on Saturday morning [he]_{3675-the dear old man} set off , as impatient as [a child]_{782-a child} , to see [[his]_{3675-the dear old man} beloved ones]_{3700-his beloved ones} again , and exhibit all [his]_{3675-the dear old man} treasures . For love of [the Della Croce]_{589-signor dezio} [[her]_{3693-the shepherd 's wife , who had known him for years} husband]_{6140-her husband} had groomed the mare thoroughly , and [she]_{3693-the shepherd 's wife , who had known him for years} neighed merrily down [the hill]_{1624-the hill} at thought of [[her]_{3693-the shepherd 's wife , who had known him for years} stable friends]_{3703-her stable friends} . Moreover , [[the shepherd]_{3532-the shepherd} 's wife]_{3705-the shepherd 's wife} told [us]_3668-we that there had been in [those parts]_{3706-those parts} [no bandit worth the name]_{3707-no bandit worth the name} , since the death of [the great Teodoro , king of [the mountains]_{3554-the mountains} , whose baby still received tribute]_{3708-the great teodoro , king of the mountains , whose baby still received tribute} . After resting [our]_3668-we horses awhile , with heavy hearts [we]_3668-we began to retrace [our]_3668-we steps through [that awful wilderness]_{3710-that awful wilderness} . Instead of keeping together , as [we]_3668-we had done in the morning , [we]_3668-we now rode in parallel lines , right and left of [the desert track]_{3711-the desert track} , wherever the ground permitted it . All [this district]_{3712-this district} is very barren and rugged , and the way winds up and down , often along the brink of crags , or through [narrow mountain gorges]_{3713-narrow mountain gorges} . The desolation and loneliness grew more oppressive , as the shadows lengthened . [We]_3668-we had thoroughly searched two - thirds of the distance homeward , and had crossed [some granite heights]_{3714-some granite heights} whence [the sea]_{895-the sea} was visible ; the sun was low over [Cape Bevellata]_{209-cape bevellata} , and the vapours from [the marsh]_{3716-the marsh} were crouching at [the mountain]_{5676-the mountain} 's foot . Here as [I]_0-i rode to the left of [[my]_0-i two companions]_{3718-my two companions} , [I]_0-i heard the faint bay of a dog far down [a deep ravine]_{3719-a deep ravine} , that trended leftward from [our]_3668-we course . Putting [my]_0-i jaded animal to [his]_3720-his utmost speed , [I]_0-i made for the hollow which echoed the dismal sound — a feeble bark prolonged into a painful howl . Turning the corner sharply [I]_0-i scared two monstrous vultures , who were hovering over and craning at a dog . The dog so gaunt and starved , that at every bark the ribs seemed bursting the skin , still was fighting past despair with [[his]_3720-his loathsome enemies]_{3721-his loathsome enemies} . [He]_3720-his stood across the breast of [the noble Signor [Dezio]_{589-signor dezio}]_{3722-the noble signor dezio} . There lay [that gallant cavalier]_{3723-that gallant cavalier} , stark and rigid , with [his]_{3723-that gallant cavalier} eyes wide open , and [his]_{3723-that gallant cavalier} white beard tipped with crimson . There [he]_{3723-that gallant cavalier} lay upon [his]_{3723-that gallant cavalier} back , [his]_{3723-that gallant cavalier} kingly head against a rock , [his]_{3723-that gallant cavalier} left hand on [his]_{3723-that gallant cavalier} clotted breast and glued thereto with blood ; [his]_{3723-that gallant cavalier} right hand hung beside [his]_{3723-that gallant cavalier} chin whence it had slipped in death , and in it still securely grasped was a trinket newly made , containing a little sheaf of [the baby]_{1681-the baby} 's flossy hair tied with a black wisp of [the mother]_{5825-the mother} 's . [The poor old man]_{3726-the poor old man} had dragged [himself]_{3726-the poor old man} thither to die , and died with that keepsake on [his]_{3726-the poor old man} lips . The fatal shot had been fired from above , and passed completely through [his]_{3726-the poor old man} body . It pierced [his]_{3726-the poor old man} lungs , and [I]_0-i believe that [he]_{3726-the poor old man} felt little pain , but gasped [his]_{3726-the poor old man} simple life away . Near [him]_{3726-the poor old man} was [his]_{3726-the poor old man} wallet , with the tools still in it ; [I]_0-i think [he]_{3726-the poor old man} had been playing with the toy gun when [he]_{3726-the poor old man} received the wound ; at any rate it lay separate from the rest , and at [the old man]_{7306-the old man} 's side . Examining by the waning light , with icy awe upon [me]_0-i , the scene of this damned atrocity , [I]_0-i found that [the hoary traveller]_{3728-the hoary traveller} must have dismounted here , to eat [his]_{3728-the hoary traveller} frugal dinner . A horn cup and a crust of bread were on a rocky shelf , and a little spring welled down the dingle , with the mark of the dog 's feet here and there . [The craven foe]_{3729-the craven foe} had been sneaking along behind , and took advantage of [the old man]_{7306-the old man} 's position , as [he]_{3729-the craven foe} sat upon a stone to make certain of [him]_{3729-the craven foe} from the granite loophole . [We]_3731-we found the very place where [the murderer]_{831-the murderer} must have crouched , but [the cliff - side]_{3733-the cliff - side} kept no footprint . [The victim]_{8366-the victim} 's gun was gone , and so was the Spanish mare : no other robbery seemed to have been committed . [This glen]_{3735-this glen} led to [a shorter but more difficult track]_{3736-a shorter but more difficult track} towards [home]_1102-home , which [the Signor]_{7946-the signor} , in [his]_{7946-the signor} impatience , must have resolved to try . Reverently [we]_3731-we laid [him]_{7306-the old man} on the freshest horse ; while [I]_0-i with the faithful mountain dog on [my]_0-i saddle — for [he]_{7306-the old man} was too exhausted to walk — rode on to break the melancholy news , and send assistance back . To break bad news — the phrase is a failure , the attempt it implies a much worse one . [Lily]_592-lily knew all in a moment , and in [her]_592-lily delicate state [she]_592-lily received so appalling a shock , that for a week [she]_592-lily lay on the very threshold of death . At the end of that time , and three days after [the old man]_{7306-the old man} 's funeral — at which for [[his]_{7306-the old man} daughter]_{2465-his daughter} 's sake [I]_0-i allowed no wailings or voceros — [a lively little girl]_{3741-a lively little girl} was born , who seemed to be none the worse for [[her]_{3741-a lively little girl} mother]_{6340-her mother} 's bitter sufferings . [Her]_592-lily innocent caresses , or some baby doings optimised by [[her]_{3741-a lively little girl} mother]_{6340-her mother} — though even as [a new - born babe]_{3744-a new - born babe} [she]_592-lily seemed [a most loving creature]_{3745-a most loving creature} — all those soft endearing ways , which [I]_0-i could not understand , did more to bring [my]_0-i [Lily]_592-lily 's spirit back than even [my]_0-i fond attentions . But as yet , though able to walk again , and nurse [[her]_{6340-her mother} child]_{1505-her child} , whom [she]_{6340-her mother} would not commit to another , [[my]_0-i wife]_{3597-my wife} remained in a fearfully sensitive and tremulous condition . The creak of a door , the sound of a foot , the rustle of the wind — and [she]_{3597-my wife} , so brave and proud of yore , started like a cicale , and shook like a forest shadow . In everything [she]_{3597-my wife} feared the ambush of [that sleuth cold - blooded reptile , on whom alone , truly or not God]_{3748-that sleuth cold - blooded reptile , on whom alone , truly or not god} knows , [she]_{3597-my wife} charged the blood of [[her]_{3597-my wife} venerable father]_{3749-her venerable father} . But still [she]_{3597-my wife} had the comfort of [a husband]_{6653-a husband} 's love , [a husband]_{6653-a husband} even fonder than when the flowers fell on [his]_{6653-a husband} path ; and still [she]_{3597-my wife} had the joy of watching , with [a mother]_{1544-a mother} 's tender insight , the budding promise of [two sweet infants]_{3753-two sweet infants} . Infants [I]_0-i call [them]_{3753-two sweet infants} , why [Master Harry]_298-harry was now [a thorough chatterbox]_{3754-a thorough chatterbox} ! With all this love around [her]_{3597-my wife} , [she]_{3597-my wife} by far the loveliest , the pride and glory of all , was sure to find [her]_{3597-my wife} comfort soon upon the breast of time , even as small [Lily]_592-lily found it in [her]_592-lily own sweet bosom . Deeply and long [we]_3755-we mourned [that ancient Signor]_{3756-that ancient signor} , [chivalrous and true gentleman]_{3757-chivalrous and true gentleman} , [counsellor of all things]_{3758-counsellor of all things} . Every day [we]_3755-we missed [him]_{3756-that ancient signor} ; but could talk of it more as time flowed on . [Rogliano]_204-rogliano had no sparkle , [Luri]_622-luri not the tint of old : never could [I]_0-i pour out either from [his]_{3756-that ancient signor} favourite flagon , without a thought of [him]_{3756-that ancient signor} who taught [us]_3755-we the proper way to do it ; who ought to be teaching [us]_3755-we still , but was lying foully murdered in [[his]_{3756-that ancient signor} lonely grave at [St. Katharine]_{188-st. katharine} 's on [the Cliff]_{8283-the cliff}]_{3759-his lonely grave at st. katharine 's on the cliff} . [We]_3755-we had done [our]_3755-we utmost to avenge [him]_{3756-that ancient signor} : soon as [I]_0-i could leave [[my]_0-i wife]_{3597-my wife} , [I]_0-i had scoured all [the neighbourhood]_{5329-the neighbourhood} . [The Sbirri]_{595-the sbirri} too had done [their]_{595-the sbirri} best , but discovered nothing . [Brave fellows]_{3763-brave fellows} [they]_{595-the sbirri} are , when it comes to fighting , but [very poor detectives]_{3764-very poor detectives} . Only two things [we]_3755-we heard that seemed at all significant . One of these was that [a Spanish jennet]_{3765-a spanish jennet} , like [the Signor]_{7946-the signor} 's favourite " [Marana]_623-marana , "_{[7946-the signor]} but dreadfully jaded and nearly starved , had been sold on the Friday after the murder , being the very day of the funeral , at [the town of [Porto Vecchio]_{210-porto vecchio}]_{3767-the town of porto vecchio} on [the south - eastern coast]_{3768-the south - eastern coast} . [I]_0-i sent [[my]_0-i coxswain]_{3769-my coxswain} [Petro]_624-petro , [an intelligent and trusty Corsican]_{3770-an intelligent and trusty corsican} , to follow up this clue ; for [I]_0-i durst not leave [[my]_0-i wife]_{3597-my wife} as yet . [Petro]_624-petro discovered [the man who had bought the mare]_{3772-the man who had bought the mare} , and re - purchased [her]_{3597-my wife} from [him]_{3772-the man who had bought the mare} , as [I]_0-i had directed : but the description of [the first seller]_{3773-the first seller} did not tally with [my]_0-i recollections of [Lepardo]_570-lepardo . However , it proved to be the true [Marana]_623-marana ; and glad [she]_623-marana was to get [home]_1102-home once more . The other report , that seemed to bear upon the bloody mystery , was that [a swift felucca , flush - built and banked for triple sweeps]_{3775-a swift felucca , flush - built and banked for triple sweeps} , had been seen lying close in shore near [point Girolata]_189-girolata , during the early part of the week in which [the Signor]_{7946-the signor} left [home]_1102-home . And it was even said that [two Maltese sailors , belonging to [this felucca]_{3779-this felucca}]_{3778-two maltese sailors , belonging to this felucca} , had encamped on [shore]_3780-shore in [a lonely place near [Otta]_212-otta]_{3781-a lonely place near otta} , and were likely to be found [there]_1114-there still . [Lily]_592-lily being stronger now , [I]_0-i determined to follow this last clue [myself]_0-i ; and so [I]_0-i put [the little yacht]_{3783-the little yacht} into commission again , and manned [her]_{3783-the little yacht} with [Calvi men]_{3784-calvi men} , for all [[my]_0-i English crew]_{3785-my english crew} had been dismissed long ago . Leaving [[my]_0-i wife]_{3597-my wife} and [children]_{1229-children} under the care of [the old fusileer]_{8081-the old fusileer} , away [I]_0-i sailed from [St. Katharine]_{188-st. katharine} 's , intending to return in three days ' time . [All this coast]_{3789-all this coast} [I]_0-i now knew thoroughly , and [Otta]_212-otta was not far beyond [the poor Signor 's cave of [alabaster]_{214-alabaster}]_{3790-the poor signor 's cave of alabaster} . [It]_{3789-all this coast} is [a wild and desert region]_{3791-a wild and desert region} , far away from [any frequented road]_{3792-any frequented road} , and little visited except by [outlaws]_3793-outlaws . [We]_3794-we found no trace of [any tent , no sign of any landing]_{3795-any tent , no sign of any landing} , and [an aged fisherman]_{3796-an aged fisherman} , whom [we]_3794-we met , declared that [no felucca or vessel of any sort]_{3797-no felucca or vessel of any sort} had lately been near [the bay]_{8290-the bay} . [I]_0-i began to fear that , for some dark purpose , [I]_0-i had been beguiled from [home]_1102-home , and despatched upon [a fool]_{7085-a fool} 's errand . [The dreary coast]_{3801-the dreary coast} was still the home of solitude , [the alabaster cave untouched since [our]_3794-we pic - nic survey]_{3802-the alabaster cave untouched since our pic - nic survey} ; the marks of which were undisturbed except by wind and weather . So [I]_0-i crowded sail , and hurried back to [St. Katharine]_{188-st. katharine} 's , with a strange weight on [my]_0-i heart . To add to [my]_0-i vexation , a strong north wind set in , and smartly as [[our]_3794-we cutter]_{3803-our cutter} sailed , [we]_3794-we were forced to run off [the land]_{1188-the land} . When at last [we]_3794-we made [the cove]_{8296-the cove} , it was unsafe for [the yacht]_{8206-the yacht} to anchor , and so [I]_0-i was compelled to send [her]_{8206-the yacht} on to [Calvi]_159-calvi . It was nearly midnight on the 2d of October , when [Petro]_624-petro and [myself]_0-i plodded up [the wooded hill on which [the old tower]_{3808-the old tower} stands]_{3807-the wooded hill on which the old tower stands} . Weary and dispirited , though glowing every now and then with the thought of all [[my]_0-i darlings]_{3809-my darlings} , in vain [I]_0-i called [myself]_0-i [a fool]_{7085-a fool} for fearing where no fear was . When [we]_3794-we reached [the brow of [the hill]_{1624-the hill}]_{3811-the brow of the hill} , [my]_0-i vague alarm was doubled . The rude oil - lamps that marked the entrance , why were they unlighted ? [I]_0-i had especially ordered that they should be kindled every night , and [Lily]_592-lily had promised to see to it [herself]_592-lily . No challenge from [the watchman]_{3813-the watchman} , no click of the musket hammer , even the vinea was not in its place . In vain [we]_3794-we knocked and knocked at the old chesnut doors ; [no one]_{730-no one} answered , [no one]_{730-no one} came to open . None of the loopholes showed a light ; [the house]_{764-the house} was dark and silent as the ivy . Wild with terror [I]_0-i ran to the little side - door , whence first [[my]_0-i [Lily]_592-lily]_{7976-my lily} met [me]_0-i . This too was locked , or fastened somehow ; and only the echo of [my]_0-i knock was heard . [Petro]_624-petro and [I]_0-i caught up a great bough of ilex , which [myself]_0-i had lopped last week , rushed at the door with the butt , and broke it in with one blow . Shrieking for [Lily]_592-lily , [Lily]_592-lily , [I]_0-i flew from [room]_918-room to room , tumbling over the furniture , blundering at the doorways . No voice of [wife]_5819-wife , no cry of [child]_5440-child , no answer of domestic ; all as silent as if ten fathoms under water . Having dashed through [every room]_{7036-every room} , [I]_0-i turned to rush off to [the hamlet]_{3822-the hamlet} , when [my]_0-i foot struck something — something soft and yielding ; was it a sack or bolster ? [I]_0-i stooped to feel it ; it was [Lily]_592-lily , laid out , stiff and cold Dead , [[my]_0-i [Lily]_592-lily]_{7976-my lily} dead ! Oh , [God]_303-god can never mean it ; would [He]_303-god let [me]_0-i love [her]_592-lily so ? For all intents of actual life , for all that [we]_3824-we are made for , for [all the soul 's loan of [this world]_{3826-this world}]_{3825-all the soul 's loan of this world} , [I]_0-i died that very moment ; and yet a mad life burned within [me]_0-i , the flare of hope that will not die . How [I]_0-i forced [her]_592-lily clenched hands open , bowed [her]_592-lily rigid arms around [me]_0-i , threw [myself]_0-i upon [her]_592-lily , breathed between [her]_592-lily lips and listened , tore [her]_592-lily simple dress asunder and laid [my]_0-i cheek upon [her]_592-lily heart ; feeling not a single throb , flooded [her]_592-lily cold breast with tears , and lay insensible awhile . Then , as if awaking , felt that [she]_592-lily was with [me]_0-i , but somehow not as usual ; called [her]_592-lily all [our]_3824-we names of love , and believed [we]_3824-we were in heaven . But there stood [Petro]_624-petro with a light , sobbing , and how [his]_624-petro beard shook!—What right had [he]_624-petro in [heaven]_1555-heaven ? Would [they]_3828-they let [him]_624-petro in without shaving ? [I]_0-i rose to order [him]_624-petro out ; when [he]_624-petro restored [my]_0-i wits awhile by pointing with [his]_624-petro finger . " Look , look , [Signor]_{589-signor dezio} ! [She]_592-lily is not dead , [I]_624-petro saw [her]_592-lily eyelid tremble . "_[624-petro] Wide [she]_592-lily opened those glorious eyes , looked at [me]_0-i with no love in them , shuddered , and closed them again . Mad with rapture , [I]_0-i caught [her]_592-lily up , sent Petro headlong lamp and all , and kissed [her]_592-lily enough to kill [her]_592-lily . [She]_592-lily was not dead , [[my]_0-i Lily]_{7976-my lily} , [[my]_0-i pet of eternal ages]_{3830-my pet of eternal ages} . There [she]_592-lily fell trembling , fluttering , nestling in [my]_0-i arms , [her]_592-lily pale cheek on [my]_0-i breast , [her]_592-lily white hand on [my]_0-i shoulder ; then frightened at [her]_592-lily nest shrunk back , and gazed with unutterable reproach , where love like the fallen lamp was flickering : then clung to [me]_0-i once more , as if [she]_592-lily ought to hate , but could not yet help loving . [She]_592-lily died the next morning . [Clara]_293-clara , [I]_0-i ca n't tell [you]_293-clara any more now . Before [my]_0-i own and only love departed , [she]_592-lily knew , thank [God]_303-god , [she]_592-lily knew as well as [I]_0-i did , that [I]_0-i had never wronged [her]_592-lily pure and true affection . But it was long before [I]_0-i learned what had so distressed [her]_592-lily . Though [she]_592-lily appeared quite sensible , and looked at [me]_0-i , every now and then , with the same reproachful harrowing gaze , it seemed to [me]_0-i ages , it must have been hours , before [she]_592-lily could frame [her]_592-lily thoughts in words . In an agony of suspense for [her]_592-lily , for [[our]_3831-our children]_{3832-our children} , for [our]_3831-our love , [I]_0-i could hardly repress [my]_0-i impatience even at [her]_592-lily debility . Many a time [she]_592-lily opened [her]_592-lily trembling lips , but the words died on them . At last [I]_0-i caught [her]_592-lily meaning from a few broken sentences . " How could [he]_8477-he do it ? How could [he]_8477-he so betray [her]_592-lily ? And [his]_8477-he own Lily that loved [him]_8477-he so — no , [she]_592-lily must not be [Lily]_592-lily any more , [she]_592-lily was only [Fiordalisa Della Croce]_{593-fiordalisa} . How could [he]_8477-he come and pretend to love [her]_592-lily , and pretend to marry [her]_592-lily , when all the while [he]_8477-he had [a young wife at [home]_1102-home in [England]_9-england]_{8478-a young wife at home in england} ? Never would [she]_592-lily have believed it but for the proofs , the proofs [that hateful man]_{8480-that hateful man} had shown [her]_592-lily . How could [he]_8477-he shame [his]_8477-he own love so , and [[his]_8477-he children]_{2467-his children} , and [the aged father]_{8482-the aged father} — there was no hope for [her]_3833-her but to die — to die and never see [him]_8477-he more ; and then perhaps [he]_8477-he would be sorry , for [he]_8477-he must care about [her]_3833-her a little . "_[0-i] Then [she]_3833-her burst into such a torrent of tears , and pressed both hands on [her]_3833-her bounding heart , and grew white with terror . Then as the palpitation passed , [she]_3833-her looked at [me]_0-i and knew [me]_0-i , and crept close to [me]_0-i , forgetting all the evil,—and seemed to sleep awhile . Of course [I]_0-i saw what it was ; dazed as [I]_0-i was and wild at [her]_3833-her sorrow and danger , [I]_0-i slowly perceived what it was . [The serpent - like foe]_{3834-the serpent - like foe} had been there , and had hissed in [her]_3833-her ear what [he]_{3834-the serpent - like foe} thought to be true — that [I]_0-i had done [her]_3833-her a dastard 's wrong ; had won [her]_3833-her passionate maiden love , and defiled [her]_3833-her by a sham marriage , while [[my]_0-i lawful wife]_{3835-my lawful wife} was living . When once [I]_0-i knew [my]_0-i supposed offence , it did not take long to explain [the murderer]_{831-the murderer} 's error , an error which had sprung from [my]_0-i own deceit . But [[my]_0-i children]_{6217-my children} , where are [[my]_0-i children]_{6217-my children} , [Lily]_592-lily ? In [her]_3833-her ecstatic joy , [she]_3833-her could not think for the moment even of [[her]_3833-her children]_{3839-her children} ; but pressed [me]_0-i to [her]_3833-her tumultuous heart , as if [I]_0-i were all [she]_3833-her wanted . Then [she]_3833-her began to revile [herself]_3833-her , for daring to believe any ill of [[her]_3833-her noble husband]_{3840-her noble husband} . " And even if it had been true , which [you]_0-i know it never could be , [dear,—I]_0-i must have forgiven [you]_0-i , [sweetest darling]_{8483-sweetest darling} , because [you]_0-i could n't have helped it , [you]_0-i did love [me]_3833-her so , did n't [you]_0-i ? "_[3833-her] This sweet womanly logic , [you]_0-i , [Clara]_293-clara , may comprehend — But where are [the children]_{1695-the children} , [[my]_0-i [Lily]_592-lily]_{7976-my lily} ? " Oh , in bed [I]_592-lily suppose , [dear]_5871-dear : let [me]_592-lily get up , [we]_8485-we must go and kiss [the darlings]_{8486-the darlings} . When [I]_592-lily first came in , [I]_592-lily could not bear to go near [them]_{1695-the children} , [poor pets]_{8487-poor pets} ; but now — Oh [my]_592-lily heart , holy [Madonna]_591-madonna , [my]_592-lily heart ! "_[592-lily] [She]_592-lily leaped up as if [she]_592-lily were shot , and a choking sound rose in [her]_592-lily throat .. [Her]_592-lily fresh youth fought hard in the clutches of death . " Oh save [me]_592-lily , [[my]_592-lily own husband]_{8488-my own husband} , save [me]_592-lily . Hold [me]_592-lily tighter ; [I]_592-lily can not die yet . So young and so happy with [you]_{8488-my own husband} . It is gone ; but the next pang is death . Hold [me]_592-lily so till it comes again . God bless [you]_{8488-my own husband} , [my]_592-lily own for ever . [You]_{8488-my own husband} will find [me]_592-lily in [heaven]_1555-heaven , wo n't [you]_{8488-my own husband} ? [You]_{8488-my own husband} can never forget [your]_{8488-my own husband} own Lily . "_[592-lily] [Her]_592-lily large eyes rested on [mine]_3843-mine , as they did when [she]_592-lily first owned [her]_592-lily love ; and [her]_592-lily soul seemed trying to spring into the breast of [mine]_3843-mine . Closer to [me]_0-i [she]_592-lily clung , but with less and less of strength . [Her]_592-lily smooth , clear cheek was on [mine]_3843-mine , [her]_592-lily exhausted heart on [my]_0-i wild one . [I]_0-i felt its last throb , as the death - pang came , and [she]_592-lily tried to kiss [me]_0-i to show that it was not violent . Frantic , [I]_0-i opened [my]_0-i lips , and received the last breath of [hers]_592-lily . The crush of its anguish [her]_592-lily heart might have borne , but not the rebound of its joy . [Her]_592-lily body , the fairest the sun ever saw , was laid beside [[her]_592-lily father]_{898-her father} 's in [the little churchyard at [St. Katharine]_{188-st. katharine} 's]_{3845-the little churchyard at st. katharine 's} , with the toy baby on [her]_592-lily breast ; [her]_592-lily soul , the most loving and playful that ever [the angels]_{3846-the angels} visited , is still in attendance upon [me]_0-i , and mourns until [mine]_0-i rejoins it . [You]_3847-you have heard [my]_0-i greatest but not [my]_0-i only distress . For more than three months , [my]_0-i reason forsook [me]_0-i utterly . [I]_0-i recognised [no one]_{730-no one} , not even [myself]_0-i , but sought high and low for [[my]_0-i Lily]_{7976-my lily} . At night [I]_0-i used to wander forth and search among the olive - trees , where [we]_3850-we so often roved : sometimes the form [I]_0-i knew so well would seem to flit before [me]_0-i , tempting [me]_0-i on from bole to bole , and stretching vain hands towards [me]_0-i . Then as [I]_0-i seemed to have overtaken and brought to bay [her]_{7976-my lily} coyness , with a faint shriek [she]_{7976-my lily} would vanish into hazy air . Probably [I]_0-i owed these visions to capricious memory , gleaming upon old hexameters of the Eton clink . True from false [I]_0-i knew not , [neither]_3851-neither cared to know : everything [I]_0-i did seemed to be done in sleep , with all the world around [me]_0-i gone to sleep as well . One vague recollection [I]_0-i retain of going somewhere , to do something that made [me]_0-i creep with cold . This must have been the funeral of [my]_0-i lost one ; when [the Corsicans]_{583-the corsicans} , as [I]_0-i am told , fled from [my]_0-i ghastly stare , and would only stand behind [me]_0-i . [They]_{583-the corsicans} are [a superstitious race]_{3852-a superstitious race} , and [they]_{583-the corsicans} feared the " evil eye . "_{[583-the corsicans]} All the time [I]_0-i was in this state , faithful [Petro]_624-petro waited on [me]_0-i , and watched [me]_0-i like [a father]_{3233-a father} . [He]_624-petro sent for [[his]_624-petro wife]_{789-his wife} , [old Marcantonia]_{625-marcantonia} , who was famed for [her]_{789-his wife} knowledge of herbs and [her]_{789-his wife} power over [the witches]_{3855-the witches} , who now beyond all doubt had gotten [me]_0-i in possession . [Decoctions]_{626-decoctions} manifold [she]_{789-his wife} gave [me]_0-i at the turn of the moon , and hung [me]_0-i all over with amulets , till [I]_0-i rang like a peal of cracked bells . In spite of all these sovereign charms , [Lepardo]_570-lepardo might at any time have murdered [me]_0-i , if [he]_624-petro had thought [me]_0-i happy enough to deserve it . Perhaps [he]_624-petro was in [some other land]_{3856-some other land} , making sure of [[my]_0-i children]_{6217-my children} 's lives . [Poor helpless darlings]_{3858-poor helpless darlings} , all that was left [me]_0-i of [[my]_0-i Lily]_{7976-my lily} , as yet [I]_0-i did not know that even [they]_{6217-my children} were taken . [Petro]_624-petro told [me]_0-i afterwards that [I]_0-i had asked for [them]_{6217-my children} once or twice , in a vacant wondering manner , but had been quite content with some illusory answer . It was [[my]_0-i Lily]_{7976-my lily} , and [no one else]_{5442-no one else} , who brought [me]_0-i back to conscious life . What [I]_0-i am about to tell may seem to [you]_3862-you a feeble brain 's chimera ; and so it would appear to [me]_0-i , if related by another . But though [my]_0-i body was exhausted by unsleeping sorrow , under whose strain the mental chords had yielded , yet [I]_0-i assure [you]_3862-you that what befell [me]_0-i did not flow from but swept aside both these enervations . It is the [Corsican]_{585-old cora} 's belief , that [those whom [he]_624-petro has deeply mourned , and desolately missed]_{3863-those whom he has deeply mourned , and desolately missed} , are allowed to hover near [him]_624-petro in the silent night . Then sometimes , when [he]_624-petro is sleeping , [they]_3864-they will touch [his]_624-petro lids and say , " Weep no more , [beloved one]_{8490-beloved one} : in all , except [thy]_{3863-those whom he has deeply mourned , and desolately missed} sorrow , [we]_8491-we are blessed as [thou]_{3863-those whom he has deeply mourned , and desolately missed} couldst wish . "_[3864-they] Or sometimes , if the parting be of still more tender sort , ( as between [two lovers]_{3865-two lovers} , or [a newly wedded couple]_{3866-a newly wedded couple} ) in the depth of darkness when [the lone survivor]_{3867-the lone survivor} can not sleep for trouble , appears [the lost one at the chamber door]_{3868-the lost one at the chamber door} , holds it open , and calls softly ; " Dearest , come ; for [I]_{3868-the lost one at the chamber door} as well am lonely . "_{[3868-the lost one at the chamber door]} Having thrice implored , it waves its cerements like an angel 's wing , and awaits the answer . Answer not , if [you]_3862-you wish to live ; however the sweet voice thrills [your]_3862-you heart , however that heart is breaking . But if [you]_3862-you truly wish to die , and hope is quenched in memory ; make answer to the well - known voice . Within three days [you]_3862-you will be dead , and flit beside the invoking shadow . Perhaps [old Marcantonia]_{625-marcantonia} had warned [me]_0-i of this appeal , and begged [me]_0-i to keep silence , which for [[my]_0-i children]_{6217-my children} 's sake [I]_0-i was bound to do . All [I]_0-i know is that one night towards the end of January , [I]_0-i lay awake as usual , thinking — if a mind distempered thus can think — of [my]_0-i own sweet [Lily]_592-lily . All the evening [I]_0-i had sought [her]_592-lily among the olive - trees , and at [St. Katharine 's Church]_{215-st. katharine 's church} , and even on [the sad sea - shore]_{3870-the sad sea - shore} by the moaning of the waves . Now the winter moon was high , and through the embrasured window , the far churchyard that held [[my]_0-i wife]_{3597-my wife} , and [the silver sea beyond]_{3872-the silver sea beyond} [it]_3873-it , glimmered like the curtain of [another world]_{7610-another world} . Sitting up in the widowed bed , with one hand on [my]_0-i aching forehead — for now [I]_0-i breathed perpetual headache — [I]_0-i called in question [that old church of one gay wedding and two dark funerals]_{3875-that old church of one gay wedding and two dark funerals} . Was there [any such church]_{3876-any such church} at all ; was it not a dream of moonlight and the phantom love ? Even as [I]_0-i sat gazing now , so on many a moonlight night sat [my]_0-i [Lily]_592-lily gazing with [me]_0-i , whispering of [[her]_592-lily father]_{898-her father} 's grave , and looking for it in the shrouded distance . [Her]_592-lily little hand used to quiver in [mine]_0-i , as [she]_592-lily declared [she]_592-lily had found it ; and [her]_592-lily dark eyes had so wondrous a gift of sight , that [I]_0-i never would dare to deny , though [I]_0-i could not quite believe it . Had [she]_592-lily not in the happy days , when [we]_3878-we roamed on [the beach]_{6975-the beach} together , waiting for [the yacht]_{8206-the yacht} and pretending to seek shells , had [she]_592-lily not then told [me]_0-i the stripes and colours of [the sailors]_{8122-the sailors} ' caps , and even the names of [the men on deck]_{3882-the men on deck} , when [I]_0-i could hardly see [their]_{3882-the men on deck} figures ? Ah , could [she]_592-lily tell [my]_0-i own name now , could [she]_592-lily descry [me]_0-i from that shore which mocks the range of telescope , and the highest lens of thought ; was [she]_592-lily permitted one glimpse of [him]_3883-him from whom in life [she]_592-lily could hardly bear to withdraw those gentle eyes ? Answer [me]_0-i , [my]_0-i own , in life and death [my]_0-i own one ; tell [me]_0-i that [you]_3884-you watch and love [me]_0-i , though it be but now and then , and not enough to break the by - laws of [the disembodied world]_{3885-the disembodied world} . Calmly as [I]_0-i now repeat it , but in a low melodious tone , sweeter than [any mortal]_{3886-any mortal} 's voice , a tone that dwelt [I]_0-i knew not where , like the sighing of the night - wind , came this answer to [me]_0-i : " True love , for [[our]_8492-our children]_{3832-our children} 's sake , and [[mine]_0-i who watch and love [you]_3884-you still , quit this grief , the spirit 's grave]_{8494-mine who watch and love you still , quit this grief , the spirit 's grave} . All [your]_3884-you sorrow still is [mine]_0-i , and would [you]_3884-you vex [[your]_3884-you darling]_{8495-your darling} , when [you]_3884-you can not comfort [her]_{8495-your darling} ? Though [you]_3884-you see [me]_592-lily now no more , [I]_592-lily am with [you]_3884-you more than ever ; [I]_592-lily am [your]_3884-you image and [your]_3884-you shadow . At every sigh of [yours]_3884-you , [I]_592-lily shiver ; [your]_3884-you smiles are all [my]_592-lily sunshine . Let [me]_592-lily feel some sunshine , sweetest ; [you]_3884-you know how [I]_592-lily used to love it , and as yet [you]_3884-you have sent [me]_592-lily none . [I]_592-lily shall look for some to - morrow . Lo [I]_592-lily , for ever [yours]_3884-you , am smiling on [you]_3884-you now . "_[592-lily] And a golden light , richer than any sunbeam , rippled through [the room]_{823-the room} . [I]_0-i knew the soft gleam like the sunset on a harvest - field . It was [my]_0-i [Lily]_592-lily 's smile . A glow of warmth was shed on [me]_0-i , and [I]_0-i fell at once into a deep and dreamless sleep . [You]_3888-you , [[my]_0-i child]_{1549-my child} , who have never known such loss — pray God [you]_3888-you never may — very likely [you]_3888-you regard all this incident as a dream . Be it so : if it were a dream , [[Lily]_592-lily 's angel]_{3890-lily 's angel} brought it . The next day [I]_0-i was [a different man]_{3891-a different man} . All [my]_0-i energy had returned , and all [my]_0-i reasoning power ; but not , thank [God]_303-god , the rigour of [my]_0-i mind , the petty contempt of [[my]_0-i fellow - men]_{3892-my fellow - men} . Nothing is more hard to strip than that coat of flinty closeness formed upon [Deucalion]_{627-deucalion} 's offcast in the petrifying well of self . Though [I]_0-i have done [my]_0-i utmost , and prayed of late for help in doing it , never have [I]_0-i quite scaled off this accursed deposit . This it was that so estranged [your]_3888-you warm nature , [Clara]_293-clara ; a nature essentially like [[your]_3888-you father]_{5365-your father} 's , but never allowed free scope . [You]_3888-you could not tell the reason , [children]_{1229-children} never can ; but somehow it made [you]_3888-you shiver to be in contact with [me]_0-i . [Petro]_624-petro and [Marcantonia]_{625-marcantonia} would have been astonished at [my]_0-i sudden change , but [they]_3895-they had lately dosed [me]_0-i with some narcotic herb , procured , by a special expedition , from [the Monte Rotondo]_{216-the monte rotondo} , and esteemed [a perfect Stregomastix]_{3896-a perfect stregomastix} ; so of course [the worthy pair]_{3897-the worthy pair} expected [my]_0-i recovery . No longer did [they]_3895-they attempt to conceal from [me]_0-i the truth as to [[my]_0-i poor infants , who had been carried off on the day of [my]_0-i return]_{3898-my poor infants , who had been carried off on the day of my return} . What [I]_0-i learned of the great calamity , which then befell [me]_0-i , was this . Towards sunset , [[my]_0-i dear wife]_{3502-my dear wife} , with [her]_{3502-my dear wife} usual fondness , went forth to look for the little yacht returning from [the gulf of [Porto]_200-porto]_{8473-the gulf of porto} . [[Our]_3901-our darling]_{3902-our darling} [Harry]_298-harry , then in [his]_298-harry third year , was with [her]_{3502-my dear wife} , and [the young nurse from [Muro]_217-muro]_{3903-the young nurse from muro} . [Lily]_592-lily sat upon [the cliff]_{8283-the cliff} , watching a sail far in [the offing]_{3905-the offing} , probably [[our]_3901-our vessel]_{3906-our vessel} . Then as [she]_592-lily turned towards [the tower]_{7964-the tower} , [a man from the shrubbery]_{3908-a man from the shrubbery} stood before [her]_592-lily , and called [her]_592-lily by [her]_592-lily maiden name . [She]_592-lily knew [[her]_592-lily cousin]_{6046-her cousin} [Lepardo]_570-lepardo , and supposed that [he]_{6046-her cousin} was come to kill [her]_592-lily . Nevertheless [she]_592-lily asked [him]_{6046-her cousin} proudly how [he]_{6046-her cousin} dared to insult [her]_592-lily so , in the presence of [[her]_592-lily child]_{1505-her child} and [servant]_3911-servant . [He]_{6046-her cousin} answered that it was [her]_592-lily name , and [she]_592-lily was entitled to no other . Then [he]_{6046-her cousin} promised not to harm [her]_592-lily , if [she]_592-lily would send [the maid]_{3912-the maid} away , for [he]_{6046-her cousin} had important things to speak of . And thereupon [he]_{6046-her cousin} laid before [her]_592-lily documents and letters . Meanwhile [the tower]_{7964-the tower} was surrounded by [[his]_{6046-her cousin} comrades]_{3914-his comrades} ; but [they]_{3914-his comrades} durst not enter , for [the trusty fusileer]_{3915-the trusty fusileer} kept the one approach up [the steep hillside]_{3916-the steep hillside} ; and [[his]_{3915-the trusty fusileer} grandson]_{8385-his grandson} , [a brave boy]_{3918-a brave boy} , stood at the loop - hole with [him]_{3915-the trusty fusileer} . [The maid]_{3912-the maid} , however , with [her]_{3912-the maid} little charge , was allowed to pass , and [she]_{3912-the maid} joined [the two other women]_{3920-the two other women} in weak preparations for defence . The period of attack had been chosen skilfully . So simple and patriarchal is the Corsican mode of life , that [very few servants]_{3921-very few servants} are kept , even by [men of the highest station]_{3922-men of the highest station} ; and those few are not [servants]_{6349-servants} in [our]_3924-our sense of the word . It happened this night that [the only two men employed upon the premises]_{3925-the only two men employed upon the premises} , beside [the old fusileer]_{8081-the old fusileer} , had been sent into [the town]_{8007-the town} for things wherewith to welcome [me]_0-i . However , [the faithful gunner]_{3928-the faithful gunner} , with [his]_{3928-the faithful gunner} eye along the barrels , kept [the foe]_{3929-the foe} at bay , and seemed likely to keep [them]_{3929-the foe} there , until the return of [the men]_{5486-the men} ; while [[his]_{3928-the faithful gunner} sturdy grandson]_{3931-his sturdy grandson} split [his]_{3931-his sturdy grandson} red cheeks at [the warder]_{3932-the warder} 's conch . But [they]_{5486-the men} little knew [[their]_{5486-the men} enemy]_{3933-their enemy} . [Lepardo Della Croce]_570-lepardo was not to be baulked by [an old man]_{8469-an old man} and [a boy]_{1691-a boy} . At the narrow entrance [a lady]_{5829-a lady} 's dress came fluttering in the brisk north wind . [Poor [Lily]_592-lily]_{3937-poor lily} tottered across the line of fire , [her]_{3937-poor lily} life [she]_{3937-poor lily} never thought of ; what use to live after all that [she]_{3937-poor lily} had heard ? Close behind [her]_{3937-poor lily} , and in the dusk invisible past [her]_{3937-poor lily} wind - tossed drapery , stole [[her]_{3937-poor lily} scoundrel cousin]_{3938-her scoundrel cousin} ; [whom , like trees set in a row , or feather - edged boards seen lengthwise , a score of lithe and active sailors]_{3939-whom , like trees set in a row , or feather - edged boards seen lengthwise , a score of lithe and active sailors} followed . No chance for [the marksman]_{3940-the marksman} ; like [tiles]_3941-tiles [they]_3942-they overlapped [one another]_{758-one another} , and poor [Lily]_592-lily , upright in [her]_592-lily outraged pride , covered the stooping graduated file . French and English , [Moorish and Maltese]_{3944-moorish and maltese} , [a motley band as ever]_{3945-a motley band as ever} swore , [they]_3946-they burst into a hearty laugh at [the old gunner]_{3947-the old gunner} 's predicament , the moment [they]_3946-they had passed [his]_{3947-the old gunner} range . [All within]_{3948-all within} was at [their]_3946-they mercy . True [he]_{3947-the old gunner} kept the main gate still , and all the doors were barred ; but gates and doors were lubber 's holes for [seamen]_3949-seamen such as [they]_3946-they . Up [the ivy]_{3950-the ivy} [they]_3946-they clambered , along the chesnut branches , or the mere coignes of the granite , and into [the house]_{764-the house} [they]_3946-they poured at every loop - hole and window . One thing must be said in [their]_3946-they favour — [they]_3946-they did very little mischief . [They]_3946-they were kept thoroughly under command , and a wave of [[their]_3946-they captain]_{3952-their captain} 's hand drove [them]_3946-they anywhither . All [he]_{3952-their captain} wanted was possession of [[my]_0-i children]_{6217-my children} , and of some valuable property which [he]_{3952-their captain} claimed in right of [[his]_{3952-their captain} father]_{1062-his father} . Having secured both objects , [he]_{3952-their captain} ordered [[his]_{3952-their captain} men]_{3955-his men} to depart , allowing [them]_{3955-his men} only to carry what wine and provisions [they]_{3955-his men} found . But [the three domestics]_{3956-the three domestics} , and [the ancient sentinel]_{3957-the ancient sentinel} and [[his]_{3952-their captain} boy]_{3958-his boy} , were bound hand and foot , and concealed in [a cave on [the beach]_{6975-the beach}]_{3959-a cave on the beach} , to prevent any stir in [the neighbouring hamlet]_{3961-the neighbouring hamlet} . [Poor Lily]_606-lily was left where [she]_606-lily fell , to recover or not , as might be . [[My]_0-i own darling]_{5763-my own darling} was not insulted or touched ; [the men]_{5486-the men} were afraid , and [Lepardo]_570-lepardo too proud to outrage one of [[his]_{3952-their captain} kin]_{3964-his kin} . Moreover , [his]_{3952-their captain} word was pledged ; and [they]_{5486-the men} say that [he]_{3952-their captain} always keeps it . Soon after dark [the robbers]_{3965-the robbers} set sail , and slipped away down [the coast]_{3966-the coast} , before that strong north wind which had so baffled [me]_0-i . But for [me]_0-i a letter was left , full of triumph and contumely . It was addressed to " [Valentine Vaughan]_298-harry , [the Englishman]_{8496-the englishman} ; "_{[3967-the fusileer]} " [Signor Valentine]_{605-signor valentine} "_{[3967-the fusileer]} was the title conferred on [me]_0-i by [the fusileer]_{3967-the fusileer} , and adopted by [the neighbourhood]_{5329-the neighbourhood} . To [my]_0-i surprise that letter was written in English , and English as good as [a foreigner]_{1527-a foreigner} ever indites : [I]_0-i can repeat it word for word : — " [SIR,—I]_{8497-sir,—i} am reluctant to obtrude good counsel , but with the obtuseness of [[your]_{8497-sir,—i} nation]_{8498-your nation} [you]_{8497-sir,—i} are prone to the undervaluing of [others]_869-others . It is [my]_0-i privilege to amend this error , while meekly [I]_0-i revindicate [my]_0-i own neglected rights . From [me]_0-i [you]_{8497-sir,—i} have stolen [[my]_0-i bride]_{8251-my bride} and [my]_0-i good inheritance , and in a manner which [the persons unversed in human nature]_{8501-the persons unversed in human nature} would be inclined to characterise as dastardly and dissolute . Furthermore , [you]_{8497-sir,—i} have rendered [the heiress of [the noblest house in [Corsica]_150-corsica [a common Englishman]_{8504-a common englishman} 's adulteress]_{8503-the noblest house in corsica a common englishman 's adulteress}]_{8502-the heiress of the noblest house in corsica a common englishman 's adulteress} . If [I]_0-i had heard this on the day of [your]_{8497-sir,—i} mocking marriage , not [the poor victim]_{8505-the poor victim} but [you]_{8497-sir,—i} , [you]_{8497-sir,—i} , would have been [my]_0-i direction . Now [I]_0-i will punish [you]_{8497-sir,—i} more gradually , and longer , as [you]_{8497-sir,—i} deserve . [[Your]_{8497-sir,—i} unhappy adulteress]_{8506-your unhappy adulteress} knows the perfidy of [your]_{8497-sir,—i} treachery , and [[your]_{8497-sir,—i} two poor bastards]_{8507-your two poor bastards} shall take refuge with [me]_0-i . The inquiry with respect to [my]_0-i drowning [them]_{8507-your two poor bastards} to - night is dependent upon the stars . But if [I]_0-i shall spare [them]_{8507-your two poor bastards} , as [I]_0-i may , because [they]_{8507-your two poor bastards} can not come between [me]_0-i and [[my]_0-i property]_{7443-my property} , [I]_0-i will teach [them]_{8507-your two poor bastards} , when [they]_{8507-your two poor bastards} are old enough , to despise and loathe [your]_{8497-sir,—i} name . [They]_{8507-your two poor bastards} shall know that in the stead of [a father]_{3233-a father} 's love [they]_{8507-your two poor bastards} have only had a vagabond 's lust , and [they]_{8507-your two poor bastards} shall know how [you]_{8497-sir,—i} seduced and then slew [[their]_{8507-your two poor bastards} mother]_{8510-their mother} ; for death , in [my]_0-i humble opinion , appears in [her]_{8510-their mother} face to - night . Although [she]_{8510-their mother} has betrayed [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i am regretful for [her]_{8510-their mother} : but to [you]_{8497-sir,—i} who have disgraced [my]_0-i name and plundered [me]_0-i , as [a man of liberal and exalted views]_{8511-a man of liberal and exalted views} [I]_0-i grant a contemptuous forbearance ; so long , that is to say , as [you]_{8497-sir,—i} remain unhappy , which [the wicked]_{8512-the wicked} ought to be . Of one thing , however , [I]_0-i bid [you]_{8497-sir,—i} to take admonishment . If [I]_0-i hear that [you]_{8497-sir,—i} ever forget this episode of debauchery , and return to [[your]_{8497-sir,—i} English wife]_{8513-your english wife} and property , [no house]_{8514-no house} , [no castle that ever was edified]_{8515-no castle that ever was edified} , shall protect [you]_{8497-sir,—i} from [my]_0-i dagger . Remember the one thing , as [your]_{8497-sir,—i} proverb tells , [I]_0-i am slow and sure . LEPARDO DELLA CROCE . "_[0-i] > Instead of enraging or maddening [me]_0-i , as [the writer]_{6119-the writer} perhaps expected , this execrable letter did [me]_0-i a great deal of good . [I]_0-i determined to lower that insufferable arrogance ; and brought all [my]_0-i thoughts to bear upon one definite object , the recovery of [[my]_0-i darlings]_{3809-my darlings} and the punishment of [that murderer]_{3972-that murderer} . [I]_0-i did not believe that [he]_{3972-that murderer} had destroyed [them]_{3809-my darlings} , or was likely to do so ; for had not [[their]_{3809-my darlings} mother]_{8510-their mother} 's spirit referred to [them]_{3809-my darlings} as living ? Without delay , [[my]_0-i yacht]_{8083-my yacht} was prepared for a lengthened cruise ; [the tower]_{7964-the tower} committed to [Marcantonia]_{625-marcantonia} and [the gray sentinel]_{3976-the gray sentinel} ; and with [Petro]_624-petro for [[my]_0-i skipper]_{3977-my skipper} , [I]_0-i sailed on the following day . Alas , the three months now elapsed during [my]_0-i delirium , had [they]_{3809-my darlings} not like [the sea]_{895-the sea} itself closed across the track ? All [the neighbours]_{3979-the neighbours} knew was this , the felucca had passed [Point Girolata]_{219-point girolata} , and had been seen in the early morning , standing away due south . [All the villagers]_{3980-all the villagers} , and even [the men from [the mountain]_{5676-the mountain}]_{3981-the men from the mountain} , thronged [the shore]_{1669-the shore} as [I]_0-i embarked , and there invoked [Madonna]_591-madonna 's blessing on [poor [Signor Valentine]_{605-signor valentine} , so basely robbed of [wife]_5819-wife and [children]_{1229-children}]_{3984-poor signor valentine , so basely robbed of wife and children} . When [we]_3987-we had rounded [Girolata]_189-girolata , [we]_3987-we bore away due south , and in less than fifteen hours made the Sardinian shore in [the gulf of [Asinara]_220-asinara]_{3988-the gulf of asinara} . Here [we]_3987-we coasted along the curve , inquiring at every likely place whether [any such vessel]_{3989-any such vessel} had been sighted as that which [we]_3987-we were seeking . But [we]_3987-we could learn nothing of [her]_3990-her until [we]_3987-we were off [the Gypsum Cape]_{221-the gypsum cape} ; where [some fishermen]_{3991-some fishermen} told [us]_3987-we , that at or about the time [we]_3987-we spoke of , [a swift felucca , built and manned exactly as [we]_3987-we had described]_{3992-a swift felucca , built and manned exactly as we had described} , glided by [them]_{3991-some fishermen} and bore up for [the town of Alghero]_{3993-the town of alghero} . [We]_3987-we too bore up for [Alghero]_222-alghero , and soon discovered that [the roving vessel]_{3994-the roving vessel} had undoubtedly been there : even [Lepardo]_570-lepardo , [the captain]_{8185-the captain} , was described by [the keen Sardinians]_{628-the keen sardinians} . But [she]_{3994-the roving vessel} had only lain to for a few hours , and cleared again for [Cagliari]_223-cagliari . For [Cagliari]_223-cagliari [we]_3987-we made sail as hard as the sticks could carry , and arrived [there]_1114-there on the fourth day from [Cape Girolata]_{224-cape girolata} . [The pirates]_{3997-the pirates} , if such [they]_{3997-the pirates} were , had offered [[their]_{3997-the pirates} vessel]_{3998-their vessel} for sale at [Cagliari]_223-cagliari ; but , failing of a satisfactory price had sailed away again , and after much trouble [I]_0-i found out that [their]_{3997-the pirates} destination was [Valetta]_225-valetta . To [Valetta]_225-valetta also [we]_3987-we followed , feeling like [a new boy at school who is mystified by [the experts]_{4000-the experts} — innocent of much Greek [themselves]_{4000-the experts}]_{3999-a new boy at school who is mystified by the experts — innocent of much greek themselves} — with a game which means in English , " send [the fool]_{8516-the fool} on further . "_{[3999-a new boy at school who is mystified by the experts — innocent of much greek themselves]} When at length [we]_3987-we reach [the Maltese capital]_{4001-the maltese capital} — where [I]_0-i was not sorry to hear once more [[my]_0-i native tongue]_{4002-my native tongue} — [we]_3987-we found [the felucca]_{226-the felucca} snugly moored near [the " Merchant 's Yard]_{8517-the " merchant 's yard} , "_{[7140-this gentleman]} and being refitted as [a pleasure - boat]_{4003-a pleasure - boat} for [a wealthy Englishman]_{4004-a wealthy englishman} . [This gentleman]_{7140-this gentleman} knew a good deal about [ships]_4006-ships , but not quite enough . Pleased with the graceful lines and clean run of [the felucca]_{226-the felucca} , [he]_{7140-this gentleman} had given nearly twice [her]_{226-the felucca} value for [her]_{226-the felucca} ; as [he]_{7140-this gentleman} soon perceived when [the ship - carpenters]_{4007-the ship - carpenters} set to work . [He]_{7140-this gentleman} was in the vein to afford all possible information , being thoroughly furious with [the condemnable pirates]_{4008-the condemnable pirates} — as [he]_{7140-this gentleman} called [them]_{4008-the condemnable pirates} , without the weakness of the composite verb — who had robbed [him]_{7140-this gentleman} so shamefully of [his]_{7140-this gentleman} money . [He]_{7140-this gentleman} told [me]_0-i that [[my]_0-i children]_{6217-my children} had been ashore , and [Harry]_298-harry was much admired and kissed in [the Floriana]_{227-the floriana} . One thing [the sailors]_{8122-the sailors} did which would have surprised [a man unacquainted with [the Corsicans]_{583-the corsicans}]_{4011-a man unacquainted with the corsicans} , or perhaps [I]_0-i should say [the islanders of [the Mediterranean]_{228-the mediterranean}]_{4012-the islanders of the mediterranean} . [They]_{8122-the sailors} decked [[my]_0-i little babe]_{4013-my little babe} with flowers and ribands , and bore [her]_{4013-my little babe} in procession to [the church of St. John of [Jerusalem]_{229-jerusalem}]_{4014-the church of st. john of jerusalem} ; and there [they]_{8122-the sailors} had [her]_{4013-my little babe} baptized , for [Lepardo]_570-lepardo had found out that [she]_{4013-my little babe} had never undergone the ceremony . [I]_0-i was anxious to see the record , but was not allowed to do so ; therefore [I]_0-i do not know what [the little darling]_{6587-the little darling} 's name is , if [she]_{4013-my little babe} be still alive : but [they]_{8122-the sailors} told [me]_0-i that the surname entered was not [Vaughan]_298-harry , but [Della Croce]_570-lepardo . It was said that [the sailors]_{8122-the sailors} had become very fond of [her]_{4013-my little babe} , [the little creature]_{4017-the little creature} being very sweet - tempered and happy , and a pleasing novelty to [them]_{8122-the sailors} . Very likely [they]_{8122-the sailors} named [her]_{4013-my little babe} after [[their]_{8122-the sailors} own felucca]_{4018-their own felucca} . [The crew]_{4019-the crew} being now dispersed , [some]_811-some to [[their]_811-some homes]_{4021-their homes} , and some on board [ships which had sailed]_{4022-ships which had sailed} , [I]_0-i was thrown completely off the scent . All [I]_0-i could learn , at [a house which [they]_{8122-the sailors} had frequented]_{4023-a house which they had frequented} , was that [Lepardo]_570-lepardo , [the commander]_{4024-the commander} , had long ago left [the island]_{1125-the island} . [Whither]_629-whither , or in what [ship]_4026-ship , [he]_{4024-the commander} had sailed , [they]_{8122-the sailors} could not or would not tell [me]_0-i : [he]_{4024-the commander} had always plenty of money , [they]_{8122-the sailors} said , and [he]_{4024-the commander} spent it like [a prince]_{4027-a prince} . But [Petro]_624-petro , who was a much better ferret than [I]_0-i , discovered , or seemed to have done so , that [the kidnapper and murderer]_{4028-the kidnapper and murderer} had taken passage for [Naples]_230-naples . [My]_0-i heart fell when [I]_0-i heard it ; almost as easily might [I]_0-i have tracked [him]_{4024-the commander} in [London]_1-london . At [Naples]_230-naples [I]_0-i had spent a month , and knew the lying ingenuity , the laziness in all but lies , of its swarming thousands . However , [the little yacht]_{3783-the little yacht} was again put under way , and , after a tedious passage , [we]_4030-we saw [the Queen of [cities]_4032-cities]_{4031-the queen of cities} . Here , as [I]_0-i expected , the pursuit was baffled . [I]_0-i will not weary [you]_4033-you with [my]_0-i wanderings , off more often than on [the track]_{7926-the track} , up and down [the Mediterranean]_{228-the mediterranean} , and sometimes far inland . If [I]_0-i marked them on a map , however large the scale , [you]_4033-you would have what [children]_{1229-children} call a crinkly crankly puzzle , like [Lancashire]_{630-lancashire} in [Bradshaw]_231-bradshaw . Once , indeed , [I]_0-i rested at [the ancient tower]_{4036-the ancient tower} , near [[[my]_0-i [Lily]_606-lily]_{7976-my lily} 's grave]_{4038-my lily 's grave} , which [I]_0-i always visited twice in every year . [I]_0-i have some vague idea , now in [my]_0-i old age , that though [we]_4039-we [Vaughans]_398-vaughans detest any display of feeling — except indeed at times when the heart is too big for the skin — [we]_4039-we are in substance , without knowing it , [a most romantic race]_{4040-a most romantic race} . Whether [we]_4039-we are that , or not , is matter of small moment ; one thing is quite certain , [we]_4039-we are strutted well and stable . [We]_4039-we are not quick of reception , but [we]_4039-we are most retentive . Never was there [man of [us]_4039-we who ever loved [a woman]_{5830-a woman} and cast [her]_{5830-a woman} off through weariness]_{4041-man of us who ever loved a woman and cast her off through weariness} ; never was [there woman of [[our]_4039-we house]_{1160-our house} who played the jilt , when once [she]_{5830-a woman} had passed the pledge of love]_{4043-there woman of our house who played the jilt , when once she had passed the pledge of love} . And after all [I]_0-i have seen of [the world]_{798-the world} , and through [my]_0-i dark misfortune [few men]_{4046-few men} have seen more , it is [my]_0-i set conclusion that strong tenacity is the foremost of all the virtues . [[My]_0-i enemy]_{1966-my enemy} has it , [I]_0-i freely own , and through all [his]_{1966-my enemy} wickedness it saves [him]_{1966-my enemy} from being contemptible . For a time , as [I]_0-i said before , [I]_0-i paused from [my]_0-i continual search , and abode in [the old gray tower]_{4048-the old gray tower} . That search now appeared so hopeless , that [I]_0-i was half inclined to believe no better policy could be found than this . Some day or other [the robber]_{4049-the robber} would surely return and lay claim to [the lands of [the Della Croce]_570-lepardo]_{8390-the lands of the della croce} . At present [he]_{4049-the robber} durst not do it , while under the ban of piracy and the suspicion of [[his]_{4049-the robber} uncle]_{8430-his uncle} 's murder . Moreover , [I]_0-i thought it [my]_0-i duty to see to the welfare of [[[my]_0-i children]_{6217-my children} 's property]_{4053-my children 's property} . Under the deed - poll of [the old Signor]_{8468-the old signor} , [[his]_{8468-the old signor} friend at [Prato]_207-prato]_{4055-his friend at prato} and [myself]_0-i were [trustees]_{4056-trustees} and [guardians]_{4057-guardians} . But [I]_0-i could not live [there]_1114-there long : it was too painful for [me]_0-i to sit alone in [the desolate rooms where [[my]_0-i children]_{6217-my children}]_{4059-the desolate rooms where my children} ought to be toddling , or to wander through the shrubberies and among the untended flowers , every one of [them]_{6217-my children} whispering " [Lily]_606-lily . "_{[6217-my children]} Formerly [I]_0-i had admired and loved that peculiar stillness , that rich deep eloquent solitude , which mantles in bucolic gray [the lawns and glades of [Corsica]_150-corsica]_{4061-the lawns and glades of corsica} . But when [I]_0-i so admired and loved , [I]_0-i was [a happy man]_{4062-a happy man} , [a man who had affection near [him]_{4063-a man who had affection near him , and could warm himself when he pleased} , and could warm [himself]_{4063-a man who had affection near him , and could warm himself when he pleased} when [he]_{4063-a man who had affection near him , and could warm himself when he pleased} pleased]_{4063-a man who had affection near him , and could warm himself when he pleased} . Now though [I]_0-i had [no friends]_{4064-no friends} or friendship , [neither]_3851-neither cared for any , solitude struck [me]_0-i to the bones , because it seemed [my]_0-i destiny . After striving for half a year to do [my]_0-i duty as [a hermit Signor]_{4066-a hermit signor} , [I]_0-i found [myself]_0-i , one dreary morning , fingering [my]_0-i pistols gloomily , and fitting a small bullet into [my]_0-i ear . [My]_0-i thumb caught in the guard of the [Signor]_{605-signor valentine} 's locket , and jerked it up [my]_0-i waistcoat . It was the same which [the poor old man]_{3726-the poor old man} had pressed to [his]_{3726-the poor old man} dying lips . There was [Lily]_606-lily 's hair and [Harry]_298-harry 's , and a tiny wisp of down since added , belonging to [baby]_4068-baby — name unknown . Looking at [them]_4069-them and seeing how [Lily]_606-lily 's bound [them]_4069-them together and to [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i felt ashamed of [my]_0-i cowardly gloom , and resolved to quit [myself]_0-i like [a man]_{5384-a man} in [my]_0-i duty towards [the three]_{6535-the three} . [I]_0-i rode at once to [Prato]_207-prato , and persuaded [Count Gaffori]_{631-count gaffori} to come and live at [the tower]_{7964-the tower} . Like [[his]_{3726-the poor old man} old friend]_{4073-his old friend} [the Signor]_{7946-the signor} , [he]_{3726-the poor old man} had only [himself]_{3726-the poor old man} and [[his]_{3726-the poor old man} lovely daughter]_{8182-his lovely daughter} to think of ; but unlike [Signor Dezio]_{589-signor dezio} [he]_{3726-the poor old man} had lost nearly all [his]_{3726-the poor old man} paternal property , through political troubles . Therefore it was for [him]_{3726-the poor old man} no little comfort and advantage to be placed at the head of [a household]_{4076-a household} again , and restored to some worldly importance . Nevertheless , [his]_{3726-the poor old man} sense of honour was so nice and exacting , that [I]_0-i thought [I]_0-i should never succeed in bringing [him]_{3726-the poor old man} to [my]_0-i views ; and indeed [I]_0-i must have failed but for [[his]_{3726-the poor old man} daughter]_{2465-his daughter} 's assistance . [A very sweet elegant girl [she]_{4078-a very sweet elegant girl she was} was]_{4078-a very sweet elegant girl she was} , and [she]_{4078-a very sweet elegant girl she was} had been [a great friend of [[my]_0-i [Lily]_606-lily]_{7976-my lily} 's]_{4079-a great friend of my lily 's} . If [I]_0-i could ever have loved again , [I]_0-i should have loved [that maiden]_{4081-that maiden} : but the thing was impossible . [The old Count]_{4082-the old count} promised to come and settle at [Veduta tower]_{233-veduta tower} — which name , in light days , [I]_0-i had corrupted into " Vendetta"—and_{[4082-the old count]} living [there]_1114-there to assume the management of [the estates]_{879-the estates} , in trust for [[my]_0-i lost infants]_{4085-my lost infants} , as soon as [his]_{3726-the poor old man} arrangements could be made . [I]_0-i saw nothing that need have delayed [him]_{3726-the poor old man} a day ; however , [he]_{3726-the poor old man} declared that [he]_{3726-the poor old man} must have a month to get ready , and [he]_{3726-the poor old man} was plainly [a man whom nature meant not to be pushed]_{4086-a man whom nature meant not to be pushed} . So [I]_0-i employed the interval in having [my]_0-i dear old " Lilyflower "_{[3726-the poor old man]} overhauled at [Marseilles]_{186-marseilles} , coppered , and thoroughly painted . [I]_0-i could not bear to alter [[our]_4087-our little love - boat]_{3603-our little love - boat} , as [[my]_0-i darling]_{5337-my darling} called it , even in outward appearance ; but like [our]_4087-our love [she]_{5337-my darling} had laboured through many a tempest ; unlike it , [she]_{5337-my darling} needed repairs . However , [I]_0-i saved from [the painter]_{4090-the painter} 's brush [[our]_4087-our favourite quarter - deck bench]_{4091-our favourite quarter - deck bench} , whereon through the moonlight watches [my]_0-i Lily seemed still to recline . And so [my]_0-i life for some years wandered on , a worthless , unsettled , forlorn existence , only refreshed at intervals by return to the scenes of past happiness . If [I]_0-i had really wronged [Lepardo Della Croce]_570-lepardo , [he]_{4090-the painter} could hardly have wished for a better revenge . But in truth [I]_0-i had never wronged [him]_{4090-the painter} . Even if [I]_0-i had never come near [[his]_{4090-the painter} betrothed]_{4092-his betrothed} , it is quite certain [she]_{4092-his betrothed} would not have accepted [him]_{4090-the painter} . And [he]_{4090-the painter} , by [his]_{4090-the painter} own desertion , had left [her]_{4092-his betrothed} free to choose . Late in the autumn of 1812 , when [I]_0-i had abandoned all hope of ever recovering [my]_0-i little ones , except by one of those eddies of [Providence]_{319-providence} , which [we]_4087-our [men call accidents]_{4093-men call accidents} , and in which [I]_0-i place [my]_0-i confidence to this hour , at that season , [I]_0-i say , [I]_0-i landed at [Gibraltar]_{235-gibraltar} , being wind - bound in [the straits]_{4094-the straits} . [We]_4087-our were making for [Lisbon]_236-lisbon , where [I]_0-i was to ship some English watches , guns , and fine cutlery for [Ajaccio]_191-ajaccio . What a loss of rank for the " [Lilyflower]_{632-lilyflower} , "_{[4096-her late mistress]} to turn [her]_{4092-his betrothed} into [a trading smack]_{4095-a trading smack} ! Well , [I]_0-i could not see it so ; and [I]_0-i am sure [[her]_{4092-his betrothed} late mistress]_{4096-her late mistress} , who with all [her]_{4096-her late mistress} sweet romance was an excellent hand at a bargain , would have thought it far more below [my]_0-i dignity for [me]_0-i to sponge on [[our]_4087-our children]_{3832-our children} . There was plenty of money in hand at [Veduta tower]_{233-veduta tower} ; but having retired from stewardship , [I]_0-i did not feel [myself]_0-i justified in drawing upon [[my]_0-i children]_{6217-my children} . Therefore , and for the sake of the large acquaintance and great opportunities gained , [I]_0-i had renewed [my]_0-i connection with [the firm of [Green]_575-green]_{4099-the firm of green} , [Vowler]_578-vowler , and [Green]_575-green . Somehow , [I]_0-i could not bear to revisit [the shores of [England]_9-england]_{4100-the shores of england} ; otherwise [I]_0-i am sure that with the knowledge [I]_0-i now possessed of [the Mediterranean ports]_{4101-the mediterranean ports} , and [a house of such standing and enterprise]_{4102-a house of such standing and enterprise} to back [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i should quickly have made [my]_0-i fortune . [[My]_0-i vessel]_{4103-my vessel} , moreover , was much too small for the fruit - trade , even if [I]_0-i could have lowered [her]_{4103-my vessel} to an uncleanly freight ; but [she]_{4103-my vessel} was just the craft for valuable goods in small compass . [I]_0-i knew the Corsican fondness for arms and first - rate cutlery ; and the tools [the poor Signor Dezio]_{4104-the poor signor dezio} meant to astonish [me]_0-i with , certainly did astonish [me]_0-i by [their]_{4104-the poor signor dezio} wonderful badness . True , the material was good , but [all the waters of [the Restonica]_{169-the restonica}]_{4105-all the waters of the restonica} will not convert a hammer into a handsaw . Although hardware was not at all in [his]_4106-his line of business , [Peter Green]_575-green most kindly undertook to send [me]_0-i a cargo of [first - rate Sheffield]_{4107-first - rate sheffield} and Birmingham goods , by [a return fruit - schooner]_{4108-a return fruit - schooner} . These , consigned to [[his]_4106-his [Lisbon]_236-lisbon agent]_{4109-his lisbon agent} , [I]_0-i could fetch away , as [I]_0-i pleased , or wanted [them]_4110-them . Having arranged with [a shrewd merchant of [Ajaccio]_191-ajaccio]_{4111-a shrewd merchant of ajaccio} to take [my]_0-i goods wholesale , and save the dignity of all [the Vogheni]_{633-the vogheni} from haggling , [I]_0-i had already made six trips , and in spite of the most tyrannical douane perhaps in all [the world]_{798-the world} , [I]_0-i as a Corsican , importing goods in [a Corsican bottom]_{4113-a corsican bottom} , had cleared very nearly three hundred per cent . on [my]_0-i outlay . [We]_4114-we were now on [our]_4114-we seventh voyage , to reship the last of the second English consignment , when a violent gale from [the west]_{4115-the west} met [us]_4114-we right in the teeth , and [we]_4114-we were forced to bear up for [the anchorage]_{4116-the anchorage} . [A first - rate sea - boat]_{4117-a first - rate sea - boat} [the " Lilyflower "]_{632-lilyflower[4117-a first - rate sea - boat]} was , although [she]_{4117-a first - rate sea - boat} had been built for racing , and for two or three years had beaten [all competitors]_{4118-all competitors} , whenever there was wind enough for a cat to stand on the sheets . But one hot June day [she]_{4117-a first - rate sea - boat} got beaten in a floating match , when [the lightest bung]_{4119-the lightest bung} went fastest , and [her]_{4117-a first - rate sea - boat} prig of [a " noble owner]_{8518-a " noble owner} "_{[4117-a first - rate sea - boat]} sold [her]_{4117-a first - rate sea - boat} in disgust , and built a thing that drew as much water as a nautilus . In [her]_{4117-a first - rate sea - boat} [he]_4120-he was happily upset , and could hardly find a sheet of paper to hold on by . Knowing some little about [yachts]_4121-yachts , from [my]_0-i pool and reach experiences , [I]_0-i bought [the famous racing cutter]_{4122-the famous racing cutter} at about a quarter [her]_{4117-a first - rate sea - boat} value ; and even in these , [her]_{4117-a first - rate sea - boat} olden days , [she]_{4117-a first - rate sea - boat} could exhibit [her]_{4117-a first - rate sea - boat} taffrail to the smartest fruit - clipper — the name was then just invented — that ever raced for [the Monument]_{4123-the monument} . [Her]_{4117-a first - rate sea - boat} register was fifty tons , but [she]_{4117-a first - rate sea - boat} carried eighty . Landing at [Gibraltar]_{235-gibraltar} , [I]_0-i kept clear of [[my]_0-i countrymen]_{4124-my countrymen} , not that [I]_0-i dislike [them]_{4124-my countrymen} , but because — well [I]_0-i can not tell why ; and strolled away to [the Spanish and Moorish quarters]_{4125-the spanish and moorish quarters} . It was a windy evening , and in front of [a low refreshment house]_{4126-a low refreshment house} [some sailors]_{4127-some sailors} and [Spanish girls]_{4128-spanish girls} were dancing . A squabble arose among [them]_{4124-my countrymen} ; something [I]_0-i think it was about [a young girl]_{1101-a young girl} 's dress . Knives were drawn , and [two men]_{7102-two men} were stabbed in less than the time [I]_0-i am speaking . [I]_0-i just saved the life of one , just saved it by half an inch . [A fine - looking Spaniard]_{4131-a fine - looking spaniard} lay under [a Moor]_{4132-a moor} , who had tripped [him]_{4131-a fine - looking spaniard} up in [their]_{4124-my countrymen} quick way . The point of the knife had flashed through [the Spaniard]_{7911-the spaniard} 's shirt and [his]_{4131-a fine - looking spaniard} flesh was cut , before the swing of [my]_0-i stick — upwards luckily — had jerked [the Moor]_{4134-the moor} off [his]_{4131-a fine - looking spaniard} body . If [I]_0-i had struck downwards , or a millionth part of a second later , the blade would have stood in the heart . But [I]_0-i knew [those fellows]_{4135-those fellows} by this time . [The Moor]_{634-the moor} lay senseless from the quick upper - cut on [his]_{634-the moor} temples , and the knife was quivering where the impulse had failed it . Now if [Petro]_624-petro and [I]_0-i held deliberate choice—"proairesis "_[126-oxford] [Oxford]_126-oxford calls it — not to be turned into knife - sheaths , [our]_4136-we only chance of developing into action that undeniable process of " nous , "_[126-oxford] was to be found in the policy , vulgarly called " cut and run . "_[126-oxford] At a shrill signal , from [ship]_4026-ship and from [shore]_3780-shore , [the Moors]_{636-the moors} came swarming silently and swiftly . [Their]_{636-the moors} yellow slippers and coffee - coloured legs seemed set upon springs by excitement . [Some of [the Spaniards]_{637-the spaniards}]_{4139-some of the spaniards} stood bravely by [us]_4136-we , and with [their]_{4139-some of the spaniards} aid [we]_4136-we hurried [the wounded man]_{4140-the wounded man} into [[our]_4136-we boat]_{4141-our boat} , and pushed off just in time . Unlike [the Corsican peasants]_{4142-the corsican peasants} , [[our]_4136-we pursuers]_{4143-our pursuers} carried no fire - arms , and before [they]_{4143-our pursuers} could get any , [we]_4136-we were at safe distance . Having sent for [an English surgeon]_{4144-an english surgeon} , [we]_4136-we kept [the poor sailor on board [the yacht]_{8206-the yacht}]_{4145-the poor sailor on board the yacht} , until [he]_{4145-the poor sailor on board the yacht} was quite out of danger . [We]_4136-we Britons are not , as a general rule , an over - grateful race ; [we]_4136-we hate to be under an obligation , and too often illustrate [the great philosopher]_{4147-the great philosopher} 's saying , that [the doer]_{6461-the doer} feels more good will than [the receiver of a kindness]_{4149-the receiver of a kindness} . Moreover , [the Spaniards]_{637-the spaniards} , in [the neighbourhood of [the Rock]_{237-the rock}]_{4150-the neighbourhood of the rock} , could hardly be expected to love [us]_4136-we , even if [we]_4136-we were accustomed , which it is needless to say [we]_4136-we are not , to treat [them]_{637-the spaniards} with decent courtesy . Therefore [I]_0-i was surprised at the deep and warm gratitude of [this wounded man]_{4151-this wounded man} . A thing that enhanced [his]_{4151-this wounded man} debt to [me]_0-i — for life , in [my]_0-i opinion , is very little to owe — was that [he]_{4151-this wounded man} loved [a young girl]_{1101-a young girl} , the one over whom [they]_4153-they had quarrelled , and [he]_{4151-this wounded man} was about to marry [her]_{1101-a young girl} . Discovering who [I]_0-i was , for [he]_{4151-this wounded man} knew nothing of [me]_0-i at first , [he]_{4151-this wounded man} saw that [he]_{4151-this wounded man} could be of no little service to [me]_0-i . The only obstacle was a solemn oath ; but from this , [he]_{4151-this wounded man} believed , [he]_{4151-this wounded man} could soon obtain release . With [an Englishman]_{1891-an englishman} 's honest and honourable repugnance to any breach of faith , [I]_0-i was long reluctant to encourage this absolution . But the thought of [[my]_0-i helpless children]_{4155-my helpless children} , robbed of [their]_{4155-my helpless children} inheritance , and , still worse , of [a father]_{3233-a father} 's love , and dependant on the caprice of [a superstitious villain]_{4157-a superstitious villain} , this , and the recollection of [my]_0-i desolating wrongs , overpowered all scruples . And is it not a wiser course , and more truly [Christian]_{309-christian} , to port the helm than to cross the bows of [another man]_{4158-another man} 's religion , at any rate so long as it be [Christian]_{309-christian} also , though frogged in [a pensioner]_{4159-a pensioner} 's coat ? Being duly absolved — for which [he]_{4151-this wounded man} would not allow [me]_0-i to pay — [the Spanish sailor]_{4160-the spanish sailor} told [me]_0-i all [he]_{4160-the spanish sailor} knew . [He]_{4160-the spanish sailor} had been [[Lepardo]_570-lepardo 's mate]_{4161-lepardo 's mate} , on many a smuggling run , and in many an act of piracy off [the coast of [Barbary]_238-barbary]_{4162-the coast of barbary} . But [he]_{4160-the spanish sailor} had never liked [[his]_{4160-the spanish sailor} captain]_{4163-his captain} , [no one]_{730-no one} ever did ; though [all the crew]_{4165-all the crew} admired [him]_{4160-the spanish sailor} as [the cleverest man in [the world]_{798-the world}]_{4166-the cleverest man in the world} . After the felucca was sold and [[her]_4168-her crew]_{4169-her crew} dispersed , [the mate]_{4170-the mate} had followed for a while the fortunes of [Lepardo]_570-lepardo . [He]_{4170-the mate} told [me]_0-i things about [him]_{4170-the mate} which [I]_0-i knew not how to believe . However , [I]_0-i will not repeat them , because they do not seem to bear upon [my]_0-i story . The name of [[my]_0-i little girl]_{4171-my little girl} [he]_{4170-the mate} could not remember , for [he]_{4170-the mate} was not at the christening , and [she]_{4171-my little girl} was always called [the baby]_{1681-the baby} . Being [a good - natured man]_{4173-a good - natured man} [he]_{4170-the mate} took kindly to [the children]_{1695-the children} , and told [me]_0-i anecdotes of [them]_{1695-the children} which brought the tears to [my]_0-i eyes . After two or three months spent at [Naples]_230-naples , [they]_{1695-the children} all left suddenly for [Palermo]_239-palermo , on account , as [the mate]_{4170-the mate} believed , of [my]_0-i unexpected arrival ; and [here]_846-here [he]_{4170-the mate} lost sight of [[his]_{4170-the mate} commander]_{4177-his commander} , for tired by this time of an idle life , and seeing no chance of any more roving adventures , [he]_{4170-the mate} accepted a berth in [a brig]_{4178-a brig} bound for [the Piræus]_{240-the piræus} , and now after many shifts and changes was [first mate of [a fruit vessel sailing from [Zante]_241-zante to [London]_1-london]_{4180-a fruit vessel sailing from zante to london}]_{4179-first mate of a fruit vessel sailing from zante to london} . The most important part to [me]_0-i of all [his]_{4170-the mate} communication was that , on [their]_{1695-the children} previous voyage , [they]_{1695-the children} had carried to [England]_9-england [Lepardo Della Croce]_570-lepardo and [[my]_0-i two dear children]_{4181-my two dear children} . [That murderer]_{3972-that murderer} and [kidnapper]_{4183-kidnapper} had taken the lead in some conspiracy against [the government of [the Two Sicilies]_{4185-the two sicilies}]_{4184-the government of the two sicilies} , and through the treachery of [an accomplice]_{4186-an accomplice} had been obliged to fly for [his]_{4170-the mate} life . Disguising [himself]_{4170-the mate} [he]_{4170-the mate} contrived to reach [Gibraltar]_{235-gibraltar} , and took refuge on [English ground]_{4187-english ground} . [He]_{4170-the mate} was now very poor and in great distress , but still clung to [the children]_{1695-the children} , of whom [he]_{4170-the mate} appeared to be fond , and who believed [him]_{4170-the mate} to be [[their]_{1695-the children} father]_{4189-their father} . [The " Duo Brachiones]_{638-the " duo brachiones} "_{[638-the " duo brachiones]} touching [there]_1114-there , as usual , for supplies , [Lepardo]_570-lepardo met [[his]_{4170-the mate} old mate]_{4191-his old mate} ashore ; and begged for a passage to [England]_9-england . [They]_4192-they took [him]_{4170-the mate} to [London]_1-london , and there of course lost sight of [him]_{4170-the mate} . [He]_{4170-the mate} was greatly altered , [the mate]_{4170-the mate} said , from the Lepardo of old . Morose and reserved [he]_{4170-the mate} had always been ; but now misfortune had covered [him]_{4170-the mate} with a skin - deep philosophy . But [his]_{4170-the mate} eyes contracted and sparkled as of yore , whenever [my]_0-i name was mentioned ; and [the mate]_{4170-the mate} knew what [his]_{4170-the mate} intention was , in case [he]_{4170-the mate} should find [me]_0-i [a happy man]_{4062-a happy man} . [The simple mate]_{4196-the simple mate} was still more surprised at the alteration in [[my]_0-i children]_{6217-my children} ; as pretty a pair , [he]_{4196-the simple mate} said , as ever [he]_{4196-the simple mate} set eyes on . But [they]_{6217-my children} were kept most jealously from the notice of [the crew]_{4019-the crew} , and even from [[their]_{6217-my children} ancient friend]_{4199-their ancient friend} 's attentions ; [they]_{6217-my children} were never allowed to be on [the deck]_{4200-the deck} , except when [the berths]_{4201-the berths} were being cleaned . [They]_{6217-my children} seemed to fear [[their]_{6217-my children} reputed father]_{4202-their reputed father} , a great deal more than [they]_{6217-my children} loved [him]_{4202-their reputed father} . Upon hearing this last particular [I]_0-i seized [the mate]_{4170-the mate} by the hand , and felt something rise in [my]_0-i throat : [I]_0-i was so delighted to learn that [the pirate]_{4204-the pirate} had not succeeded in carrying nature by boarding . The next day [I]_0-i left [Petro]_624-petro to see to the hardware business — to which [we]_4205-we were bound by charter — while [I]_0-i set sail in the " Duo Brachiones "_{[6217-my children]} for the arms of [[my]_0-i darling little ones]_{4206-my darling little ones} . > [They]_{6217-my children} put [me]_0-i in [the very hammock where that murderer of all [my]_0-i happiness had slept]_{4207-the very hammock where that murderer of all my happiness had slept} , and no wonder that [I]_0-i could find no rest there . Soon as [I]_0-i knew the reason , [I]_0-i was allowed to change , and crept into [the little berth where [[my]_0-i innocent pets]_{4209-my innocent pets} had lain in [each other]_{734-each other} 's arms]_{4208-the little berth where my innocent pets had lain in each other 's arms} . Here [I]_0-i slept much better than [a king]_{2589-a king} , for [I]_0-i even fancied that it smelt of [Lily]_606-lily . If [little Lily]_{639-little lily} , as [she]_{639-little lily} shall be called , whatever [the rogues]_{7430-the rogues} have christened [her]_{639-little lily} , if [my]_0-i little beauty — for that [I]_0-i am sure [she]_{639-little lily} must be — ever comes to light , when [I]_0-i am in [my]_0-i grave , remember one thing , [Clara]_293-clara , [you]_293-clara will find [her]_{639-little lily} breath and general fragrance just as [[her]_{639-little lily} mother]_{6340-her mother} 's were . Such things are hereditary , especially among [women]_5443-women . After a long and stormy passage , and a fortnight spent in repairing at [Bordeaux]_242-bordeaux , [we]_4215-we passed [the familiar [Essex]_243-essex marshes]_{4216-the familiar essex marshes} by night , and were off [the Custom House]_{4217-the custom house} by the last day of the year . When that tedious work was over — talk as [we]_4215-we please of [the douane]_{4218-the douane} , [our]_4215-we own is as bad as most of [them]_{4218-the douane} — feeling quite out of [my]_0-i latitude , and not a bit like [an Englishman]_{1891-an englishman} , [I]_0-i betook [myself]_0-i to [a tavern near [London Bridge]_{244-london bridge}]_{4220-a tavern near london bridge} . There everything seemed new , and [I]_0-i could not walk [the streets]_{2026-the streets} without yawing into the wrong tide . But one old [London]_1-london custom held its ground with time . Papers a week and a fortnight old still strayed about in [the coffee - room]_{4222-the coffee - room} . Being told that the journals of that day were " in hand , "_[0-i] as they always are , [I]_0-i took up a weekly paper of some ten days back to yawn over it till supper time . It was too late for [me]_0-i to think of disturbing [Peter Green]_575-green by a sudden arrival , and so [I]_0-i had ordered a bed at [this hotel]_{4223-this hotel} . The weekly gazette in [my]_0-i hand was one of those which use the shears with diligence and method . Under the heading " Provincial News , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i found the following paragraph : — [[My]_0-i dear brother]_{5454-my dear brother} 's distinguished degree was that of [B.A.]_640-b.a. after a narrow escape from pluck . [Clara]_293-clara , do n't look offended . [[Your]_293-clara father]_{5365-your father} had very good abilities , but spent most of [his]_{5365-your father} Oxford time in pigeon matches at [the Weirs]_{4226-the weirs} , and expeditions to [Bagley]_245-bagley wood , which later in life [he]_{5365-your father} would have looked upon as felonious . This paltry puff would never have been reprinted by a [London]_1-london [journal of eminence and influence]_{4227-journal of eminence and influence} , but for the suggestion at the end , which happened just to hit the sentiments of [the more exalted editor]_{4228-the more exalted editor} . Now this weekly paper was sure to circulate among [refugees from [the continent]_{6168-the continent}]_{4229-refugees from the continent} , by reason of its well - known antipathy towards [them]_{4229-refugees from the continent} ; and there happened to be in this very number a violent tirade against [[our]_4231-our Government]_{4232-our government} for displaying what [we]_4231-our delight to call [the mighty Ægis of [England]_9-england]_{4233-the mighty ægis of england} . [I]_0-i saw the danger at once , and [my]_0-i heart turned sick within [me]_0-i . [[My]_0-i gay and harmless brother]_{4234-my gay and harmless brother} in the midst of [his]_{4234-my gay and harmless brother} Christmas rejoicings , and [a stealthy murderer]_{4235-a stealthy murderer} creeping perhaps at that very moment towards [him]_{4234-my gay and harmless brother} . But even if it were so , was there not some chance of [Lepardo]_570-lepardo discovering [his]_{4234-my gay and harmless brother} mistake , when in [the neighbourhood where [the Vaughans were so well known]_{4237-the vaughans were so well known}]_{4236-the neighbourhood where the vaughans were so well known} ? Yes , some chance there was , but very little . Bound upon such an errand [he]_{4234-my gay and harmless brother} would not dare to show [himself]_{4234-my gay and harmless brother} , or to make any inquiries , even if they seemed needful . And the mention by that cursed gossip of what [he]_{4234-my gay and harmless brother} called " continental [travel"—your_{[4234-my gay and harmless brother]} father]_{8519-travel"—your father} 's wedding tour — would banish all doubt of identity , had any been entertained . Even supposing that [cold - blooded fiend]_{4238-cold - blooded fiend} should meet [[my]_0-i poor brother]_{7078-my poor brother} , face to face , in the open daylight , it was not likely that [he]_{4234-my gay and harmless brother} would be undeceived . [Lepardo]_570-lepardo and [I]_0-i had met only once , and then in hot encounter . [[My]_0-i brother]_{1302-my brother} was like [me]_0-i in figure , in face , and in voice ; and though [I]_0-i was somewhat taller and much darker of complexion , the former difference would not attract attention , unless [we]_4241-we stood side by side ; the latter would of course be attributed to the effects of climate . From [the gamekeeper]_{4242-the gamekeeper} 's evidence , [I]_0-i am now inclined to believe that [Lepardo]_570-lepardo , while lurking in the lower coppice , among the holly bushes , must have cast [his]_{4234-my gay and harmless brother} evil eyes on [[your]_4243-your poor father]_{5406-your poor father} 's face , and convinced [himself]_{4234-my gay and harmless brother} that [he]_{4234-my gay and harmless brother} beheld [[his]_{4234-my gay and harmless brother} enemy]_{4245-his enemy} . Flurried and frightened , [I]_0-i looked at the date of the paper . It was twelve days old . Possibly [I]_0-i might yet be in time , for most likely [the murderer]_{831-the murderer} would set out on foot , according to Corsican practice , with the travel - stone bound on [his]_{831-the murderer} knee . Even if [he]_{831-the murderer} had travelled in modern fashion , [he]_{831-the murderer} would probably lurk and lie in ambush about [the house]_{764-the house} , enduring hunger and cold and privation , until [his]_{831-the murderer} moment came . Could [I]_0-i leave for [Gloucester]_{23-gloucester} that night ? No , [the last train]_{7100-the last train} would have started , before [I]_0-i could get to [Paddington]_{246-paddington} . So [I]_0-i resolved to go by [the morning express]_{4249-the morning express} , which would take [me]_0-i to [Gloucester]_{23-gloucester} by middle day . After a sleepless night , [I]_0-i was up betimes in the morning , and went through the form of breakfast while [the cab]_{6488-the cab} was sent for . Presently [a waiter]_{4251-a waiter} came in with the morning papers , the papers of New Year's - day , 1843 . What [I]_0-i saw and what [my]_0-i feelings were , [you]_4252-you , [[my]_0-i poor child]_{5429-my poor child} , can too well imagine . That day [I]_0-i could not bear to go . It was cowardly of [me]_0-i , and perhaps unmanly ; but [I]_0-i could not face [[your]_4252-you mother]_{5332-your mother} 's grief and the desolate household . Therefore [I]_0-i persuaded [myself]_0-i that [I]_0-i had discharged [my]_0-i duty , by visiting all [the London police stations]_{4255-the london police stations} , and leaving the best description [I]_0-i could give of [Lepardo]_570-lepardo . The following day [I]_0-i left [London]_1-london , and arrived , as perhaps [you]_4252-you remember , long after dark , and during a heavy fall of snow . There at the very threshold [I]_0-i began amiss with [you]_4252-you , for [I]_0-i outraged [your]_4252-you childish pride by mistaking [you]_4252-you for [[the housekeeper]_{6360-the housekeeper} 's daughter]_{4257-the housekeeper 's daughter} . With [a well - born child]_{4258-a well - born child} 's high self - esteem , and making no allowance for the dim light , [you]_4252-you believed it to be a sham intended to mortify [you]_4252-you ; and it poisoned [your]_4252-you heart towards [me]_0-i . But [you]_4252-you were wholly mistaken . [My]_0-i mind was full of [[your]_4252-you mother]_{5332-your mother} and of the terrible blow to [her]_{5332-your mother} ; to [you]_4252-you , whom [I]_0-i had never seen , and scarcely even heard of , [I]_0-i never gave a thought ; except the mistaken one that [you]_4252-you were not old enough to be sensible of [your]_4252-you loss . Little did [I]_0-i imagine what a fount of resolute will , and deep feeling , found a vent in the kicks and screams of [the large - eyed minnikin]_{4260-the large - eyed minnikin} , that would not be ordered away . [You]_4252-you are entitled , [Clara]_293-clara , to know all that [I]_0-i have done towards the discovery of [[[your]_4252-you father]_{5365-your father} 's assassin]_{4262-your father 's assassin} , and all that [I]_0-i can tell to aid [your]_4252-you own pursuit . The hair found in [[your]_4252-you mother]_{5332-your mother} 's grasp was beyond a doubt [Lepardo]_570-lepardo 's ; that laid upon [[your]_4252-you father]_{5365-your father} 's bosom was , of course , [my]_0-i [Lily]_606-lily 's . It was to show that [her]_{5332-your mother} supposed seduction had been expiated . The one thing that most surprised [me]_0-i was that [the murderer]_{831-the murderer} left no token , no symbol of [himself]_{831-the murderer} . In a Vendetta murder [they]_4266-they almost always do , as a mark of triumph and a gage to [[the victim]_{8366-the victim} 's family]_{4268-the victim 's family} . Hence [I]_0-i believed that [Signor Dezio]_{589-signor dezio} was not killed in [Vendetta]_168-vendetta , but by [[his]_{589-signor dezio} nephew]_{4269-his nephew} for gain . How [Lepardo]_570-lepardo got into [the house]_{764-the house} [I]_0-i have no idea , or rather [I]_0-i had none , until [you]_4271-you told [me]_0-i of the secret passage , and [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} 's entrance . Till then [I]_0-i always thought that [he]_{831-the murderer} had clambered up , as [he]_{831-the murderer} did at [Veduta tower]_{233-veduta tower} . But unless there was [a traitor]_{4272-a traitor} in [the household]_{870-the household} , [he]_{831-the murderer} must have been [there]_1114-there more than once , to have known so well [[[your]_4271-you father]_{5365-your father} 's sleeping room]_{4276-your father 's sleeping room} . It would have been waste of time for [me]_0-i to concern [myself]_0-i about [the county police]_{4277-the county police} . That body of well - conducted navvies — [Lepardo]_570-lepardo would have outwitted [them]_{4277-the county police} , when [he]_{831-the murderer} was five years old . Neither did [I]_0-i meddle with [the coroner]_{801-the coroner} and [[his]_{801-the coroner} jury]_{4279-his jury} , but left [them]_{4277-the county police} to [their]_{4277-the county police} own devices and indigenous intellect . [These]_4280-these displayed [themselves]_4280-these in much puzzle - headed cross - questioning , sagacious looks , and nods , and winks of acute reservation . It was , as most often it is , a bulldog after a hare . [Lepardo]_570-lepardo might safely have been in the midst of [them]_{4277-the county police} , asked for a chair , and made suggestions . as " amicus curiæ . "_{[570-lepardo]} But with [the [London]_1-london police]_{4281-the london police} it was somewhat different . [They]_{4281-the london police} showed some little acumen , but [their]_{4281-the london police} fundamental error is this — [they]_{4281-the london police} pride [themselves]_{4281-the london police} on [their]_{4281-the london police} intelligence . [No man of any real depth]_{4282-no man of any real depth} ever does such a thing as this . [He]_{4282-no man of any real depth} knows very well that whatever [he]_{4282-no man of any real depth} is , there are half a million more so ; that the age of exceptional intellects expired , at least in [this country]_{1963-this country} , with [Mr. Edmund Burke]_{641-mr. edmund burke} , and is not likely to rise from the dead . Now [we]_4284-we are all pretty much good useful clods on a level : education , like all good husbandry , tends to pulverisation ; and if the collective produce is greater , let [us]_4284-we be at once thankful and humble . The [London]_1-london police , being proud of [their]_{4281-the london police} intelligence , declared that there could be no doubt about [their]_{4281-the london police} catching [the criminal]_{6171-the criminal} . [They]_{4281-the london police} laughed at [my]_0-i belief that [he]_{6171-the criminal} might walk through the midst of [them]_{4281-the london police} , while [they]_{4281-the london police} would touch [their]_{4281-the london police} hats to [him]_{6171-the criminal} , and beg [him]_{6171-the criminal} to look after [his]_{6171-the criminal} handkerchief . At one time , [I]_0-i think , [they]_{4281-the london police} were really on [his]_{6171-the criminal} track , and [I]_0-i went to [London]_1-london , and stayed [there]_1114-there , and did [my]_0-i best to help [them]_{4281-the london police} . But [they]_{4281-the london police} were all too late ; [Lepardo]_570-lepardo , if [he]_{6171-the criminal} it were , had left for [Paris]_247-paris the week before . To [Paris]_247-paris [I]_0-i followed , but found no trace of [him]_{6171-the criminal} there . Then [I]_0-i went on to [Corsica]_150-corsica , thinking it likely that [he]_{6171-the criminal} would return to [his]_{6171-the criminal} old piratical ways . Moreover , [I]_0-i wanted to see how [[[my]_0-i children]_{6217-my children} 's estates]_{4288-my children 's estates} were managed , and to revisit [St. Katharine]_{188-st. katharine} 's . All was calm and peaceful . [[Lily]_606-lily 's grave]_{4289-lily 's grave} and [[her]_606-lily father]_{898-her father} 's were blended in one rich herbage . There all the bloom of [my]_0-i life was drooping , like the yellow mountain - rose , whence if a single flower be plucked , all the other blossoms fall . [Count Gaffori]_{631-count gaffori} received [me]_0-i kindly . [[His]_{631-count gaffori} daughter]_{2465-his daughter} was married and had [two children]_{1626-two children} , who played where [[Lily]_606-lily 's boy]_{4293-lily 's boy} and [girl]_4294-girl should by rights be playing . [I]_0-i could not bear it , and came away , having nothing now to care for . Wherever [I]_0-i went [the world]_{798-the world} seemed much of a muchness to [me]_0-i ; and to [my]_0-i own misfortunes the blood of [[my]_0-i brother]_{1302-my brother} was added . [I]_0-i found the " Lilyflower "_[606-lily] still under [worthy Petro]_624-petro , and returned in [her]_606-lily to [England]_9-england , and [she]_606-lily still is mine . [Petro]_624-petro would not come ; [he]_624-petro was too true [a Corsican]_{8323-a corsican} to leave [the beloved island]_{4298-the beloved island} now [his]_624-petro hair was grey . So [I]_0-i set [him]_624-petro up at [Calvi]_159-calvi with [a vessel of [his]_624-petro own]_{4299-a vessel of his own} , and now and then [I]_0-i receive a letter from [good Marcantonia]_{625-marcantonia} . [They]_4300-they have promised to watch for the reappearance of [[our]_4301-our fearful enemy]_{4302-our fearful enemy} ; and [Petro]_624-petro has sworn to shoot [him]_624-petro , if ever [he]_624-petro gets a chance . After [my]_0-i return to [England]_9-england , [I]_0-i set to work with all [my]_0-i energy to improve [this property]_{5453-this property} . In this , if in nothing else , [I]_0-i have thoroughly succeeded . Much opposition [I]_0-i had to encounter ; for [the tenants]_{6348-the tenants} regarded [me]_0-i as [a mere interloper]_{4305-a mere interloper} , and [their]_{6348-the tenants} hearts were with [you]_4306-you and [[your]_4306-you mother]_{5332-your mother} . When [I]_0-i call [them]_{6348-the tenants} together to - morrow , as [I]_0-i intend to do , abandon all [my]_0-i right , title , and interest , and declare [you]_4306-you [[their]_{6348-the tenants} Signora]_{4308-their signora} , it is [my]_0-i firm belief that [they]_{6348-the tenants} will hardly think [me]_0-i worth cursing before [they]_{6348-the tenants} worship [you]_4306-you . [This old retainership]_{4309-this old retainership} is a thing to be proud and yet ashamed of . It is a folly that makes one glory in being [a fool]_{7085-a fool} . Why , after [you]_4306-you left for [Devonshire]_4-devonshire ( much , as [you]_4306-you know , against [my]_0-i will ) , [I]_0-i could not ride out without being insulted , and even [the boys]_{2098-the boys} called [me]_0-i " [Jonathan Wild]_{643-jonathan wild} . "_[0-i] But this was due , in some measure , to [[your]_4306-you father]_{5365-your father} 's gay geniality , and hearty good - will to [all men]_{951-all men} , contrasted with [my]_0-i satiric and moody reserve . Neither were [your]_4306-you youth , and sex , and helplessness , lost upon that chivalrous being — if [he]_{5365-your father} only knew [his]_{5365-your father} chivalry — [the sturdy English yeoman]_{4314-the sturdy english yeoman} . Why did [I]_0-i let [you]_4306-you go ? Well , [I]_0-i believe it was one of the many mistakes of [my]_0-i life ; but [I]_0-i had a number of reasons , though personal dislike of [you]_4306-you was not , as [you]_4306-you thought , one of them . No , [[my]_0-i child]_{1549-my child} , [I]_0-i have never disliked [you]_4306-you ; not even on the night when [you]_4306-you came and denounced [me]_0-i , with the dagger in [your]_4306-you hand . [I]_0-i must indeed have been worse than [I]_0-i am , if [I]_0-i could have nourished ill - will against [a young thing , whom [I]_0-i had made [an orphan]_{1231-an orphan}]_{4316-a young thing , whom i had made an orphan} . By some instinct , [you]_4306-you knew from the first that the deed was [mine]_0-i , although [I]_0-i was not [the doer]_{6461-the doer} . [I]_0-i would have loved [you]_4306-you , if [you]_4306-you would have let [me]_0-i , [my]_0-i heart yearned so over [children]_{1229-children} . But of [my]_0-i reason for letting [you]_4306-you go , the chiefest perhaps — setting aside that [I]_0-i could not stop [you]_4306-you — was this consideration . For years [I]_0-i had longed , and craved in [my]_0-i heart of hearts , to tell [[your]_4306-you mother]_{5332-your mother} all , and obtain [her]_{5332-your mother} gentle forgiveness . But any allusion — no matter how veiled and mantled — to the story of [her]_{5332-your mother} loss threw [her]_{5332-your mother} , as [you]_4306-you know well , into a most peculiar state , wherein all the powers of mind and body seemed to be quite suspended . With [a man]_{5384-a man} 's usual roughness of prescription for the more delicate sex , [I]_0-i believed firmly that total change of living , and air , and place , and habits , would relax this wonderful closure , secure [my]_0-i forgiveness , and re - establish [her]_{5332-your mother} health . The shock [I]_0-i received at [her]_{5332-your mother} death was almost as terrible as when [[my]_0-i brother]_{1302-my brother} died . When [I]_0-i stood beside [you]_4306-you at [[her]_{5332-your mother} grave]_{4323-her grave} , [I]_0-i was come with the full intention of telling [you]_4306-you all [my]_0-i story , and begging [you]_4306-you to return with [me]_0-i , and live once more in [[[your]_4306-you father]_{5365-your father} 's house]_{3043-your father 's house} . But [your]_4306-you behaviour to [me]_0-i was so cold and contemptuous , that [I]_0-i forgot [my]_0-i crushing debt to [you]_4306-you ; and humiliation became , for the moment , impossible . [I]_0-i meant , however , to have written to [you]_4306-you that evening , before [you]_4306-you should leave [the village]_{981-the village} ; but ( as [you]_4306-you now are aware ) that very evening , [I]_0-i was smitten helpless . Partially recovering , after months of illness , [I]_0-i was deeply distressed to find that [you]_4306-you had left [[your]_4306-you good friends]_{4327-your good friends} in [Devonshire]_4-devonshire , and were gone , [[my]_0-i informants]_{4328-my informants} could not say whither . Neither had [I]_0-i learned [your]_4306-you whereabouts up to the time of [my]_0-i last illness , when [I]_0-i was making inquiries , of which [[your]_4306-you enemy]_{5427-your enemy} reaped the benefit . For the rest , [you]_4306-you know that [I]_0-i never meant to rob [you]_4306-you of [your]_4306-you inheritance , though bigoted nonsense enables [me]_0-i . To - morrow , please [God]_303-god , [I]_0-i will put it out of [my]_0-i power to do so . [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} 's motive [you]_4306-you have long since perceived . Failing [[my]_0-i children]_{6217-my children} , and [the attainted Lepardo]_{4331-the attainted lepardo} , [[her]_{312-mrs. daldy} son]_{1218-her son} is [the heir to [all the lands of [the Della Croce]_570-lepardo]_{4334-all the lands of the della croce}]_{4333-the heir to all the lands of the della croce} . [She]_{312-mrs. daldy} has held [me]_0-i much in [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} power , by [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} knowledge of parts of [my]_0-i history . [Henry]_298-harry 's baptismal entry , as well as that of [my]_0-i marriage , was in the packet [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} stole . One word more , [[my]_0-i darling]_{5337-my darling} — and from [an old man , who has wandered and suffered much]_{4336-an old man , who has wandered and suffered much} , [you]_4306-you will not think it impertinent . Leave [your]_4306-you revenge to [God]_303-god . In [His]_{4336-an old man , who has wandered and suffered much} way — which [we]_4337-we call wonderful , because the steps are unseen — [He]_{4336-an old man , who has wandered and suffered much} will accomplish it for [you]_4306-you , as righteousness demands . Any interference of [ours]_4337-we is a worm - cast in [[His]_{4336-an old man , who has wandered and suffered much} avenue]_{4338-his avenue} . Though [I]_0-i am stricken and dying , [He]_{4336-an old man , who has wandered and suffered much} , if so pleases [Him]_{4336-an old man , who has wandered and suffered much} , will bring [me]_0-i [[my]_0-i children]_{6217-my children} before [I]_0-i die , that [I]_0-i may bless [Him]_{4336-an old man , who has wandered and suffered much} , and tell [[my]_0-i [Lily]_606-lily]_{7976-my lily} . " [I]_606-lily fell upon [the old man]_{7306-the old man} 's neck — old [he]_{7306-the old man} was , though not in years — and as [I]_606-lily wept [I]_606-lily kissed [him]_{7306-the old man} . How could [I]_606-lily have wronged [him]_{7306-the old man} so , and how could [I]_606-lily keep [myself]_606-lily from loving one so long unhappy ? If sorrow be the sponge of sin , [his]_{7306-the old man} fault was wiped away . At this time and place , [I]_606-lily , [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara , leap from the pillion of [[my]_606-lily Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's pensive mule , and am upon the curb - stone of [my]_606-lily own strange life again . How [I]_606-lily wandered with [him]_{7306-the old man} through [the olive groves of [Corsica]_150-corsica]_{8522-the olive groves of corsica} , how [I]_606-lily wept for [his]_{7306-the old man} loving [Lily]_606-lily , [that ancient Signor]_{3756-that ancient signor} , and the stolen babes ; and how , beyond the vomito of words , [I]_606-lily loathed [that fiend who had injured whom or what most [I]_606-lily know not , unless it were [his]_{7306-the old man} own soul]_{8524-that fiend who had injured whom or what most i know not , unless it were his own soul} , if [he]_{7306-the old man} had any , and for [God]_303-god 's sake [I]_606-lily hope [he]_{7306-the old man} had — all this , though [I]_606-lily am too weak of language , will , perhaps , be understood . To [myself]_606-lily [I]_606-lily would hardly confess the interest [I]_606-lily could not discard in the pure and constant love of [that impassioned pair]_{8525-that impassioned pair} ; for what had [I]_606-lily any longer to do with [Pyramus]_644-pyramus and [Thisbe]_248-thisbe ? No more of love for [me]_606-lily . [You]_8526-you will not see [me]_606-lily droop , and fret , and turn to a mossy green . No nonsense of that sort for [me]_606-lily : [I]_606-lily have a loop at either side entitled self - respect , which will keep [my]_606-lily skirt from draggling . Neither will [I]_606-lily rush into the opposite extreme , pronounce all love a bubble because [my]_606-lily own has burst , take to low - necked dresses , and admire cats more than babies . No ; [I]_606-lily am only eighteen , not yet eighteen and a half ; [I]_606-lily have loved with all [my]_606-lily heart , and a free true heart it is , albeit [a hot and haughty one]_{8527-a hot and haughty one} ; if it be despised , outraged , and made nothing of , though [I]_606-lily can never transfer , [I]_606-lily will not turn it sour . [The world]_{798-the world} is every whit as fair , [children]_{1229-children} are quite as pretty , flowers have as rich a scent , and goodness as pure a charm , as if [that silly maiden]_{8530-that silly maiden} [Clara]_293-clara had not leaped before [she]_293-clara looked . And yet how [I]_606-lily wish that [I]_606-lily could only think so . Before [I]_606-lily go on with [my]_606-lily tale , [I]_606-lily must recur to one or two little matters , that everything may be as clear as it lies in [my]_606-lily power to make it . For although [I]_606-lily am but [a "_[606-lily] female]_{6176-a " female} , " as [Inspector Cutting]_{412-inspector cutting} observed , [I]_606-lily am doing [my]_606-lily best to make everything as clear as if told by [a male]_{8532-a male} . In the first place then , when [[my]_606-lily Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} had recovered from the exertion of telling [his]_{1271-my uncle} tale , [I]_606-lily acquainted [him]_{1271-my uncle} with [my]_606-lily discovery of the letters upon the bed - hangings . [They]_8534-they confirmed [his]_{1271-my uncle} account of the fearful Vendetta usages , and explained the point which had been to [him]_{1271-my uncle} most mysterious . Secondly , as to the anonymous letter which had led [me]_606-lily first to [London]_1-london ; like [the detective policeman]_{8535-the detective policeman} , [he]_{1271-my uncle} now attached but little importance to it . [He]_{1271-my uncle} had done [his]_{1271-my uncle} best , at the time , to trace [the writer]_{6119-the writer} and follow the clue , if there were any . But [he]_{1271-my uncle} had met with no success . [His]_{1271-my uncle} reason for passing it on to [me]_606-lily , was that [he]_{1271-my uncle} hoped to create some diversion of [my]_606-lily thought , some break in the clouds of [my]_606-lily sorrow . Next , to show the full meaning of [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} 's manoeuvres . Through [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} connexion — which [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} had carefully cultivated , when it began to seem worth [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} while — with [[[her]_{312-mrs. daldy} husband]_{6140-her husband} 's kindred near [Genoa]_65-genoa]_{8538-her husband 's kindred near genoa} , [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} had learned some portions of [[my]_606-lily poor Uncle]_{2919-my poor uncle} 's history ; for , as [he]_{1271-my uncle} [himself]_{1271-my uncle} observed , [the islanders]_{8431-the islanders} are much addicted to gossip , as indeed [all islanders]_{8541-all islanders} are , and continentals too for that matter , especially in hot climates . Now there is no lack of intercourse between [the Balagna]_{183-the balagna} and [Genoa]_65-genoa . Of course [[our]_8542-our chastened hypocrite]_{8543-our chastened hypocrite} made the most of [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} knowledge in a hundred ways , and by [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} sham sympathy and pretended aid — for up to the time of [his]_{1271-my uncle} illness [the desolate father]_{8544-the desolate father} still sought and sought — [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} even secured some little influence over [[her]_{312-mrs. daldy} brother - in - law]_{8545-her brother - in - law} . How often is it so : though [we]_8542-our know [people]_1132-people to be false , [we]_8542-our do not believe , when [our]_8542-our hearts are concerned , that [they]_1132-people are so false to [us]_8542-our . Moreover , when [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} found [him]_{1271-my uncle} shattered in body and mind by paralysis , [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} commenced an active bombardment , pulling out the tompions from every gun of mock religion . But , as in [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} treatment of [me]_606-lily , [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} displayed , in spite of all [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} experience and trials , a sad ignorance of unregenerate human nature . [[My]_606-lily Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} was not the man , palsied or no , to be terrified by [a Calvinist]_{8548-a calvinist} : and [he]_{1271-my uncle} knew too much of [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} early days , and certain doings at [Baden]_249-baden , to identify [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} at present with [the angel that stands in the sun]_{8549-the angel that stands in the sun} . And [this prison - eyed mole]_{8550-this prison - eyed mole} made another mistake . Not content with one good gallery , [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} must needs work two runs , side by side , in a very mealy soil . The result was of course that [they]_8551-they ran into one , and [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} had to dig [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} way out . If [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} had worked , heart and soul , for [[my]_606-lily Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's money only , which [he]_{1271-my uncle} rightly regarded as [his]_{1271-my uncle} own , and at [his]_{1271-my uncle} own disposal , [I]_606-lily believe [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} might have got most of it . At any rate , under the will which [I]_606-lily caught [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} carrying off , [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} was to take half of the large sum which [he]_{1271-my uncle} had laid by ; [I]_606-lily mean if [[his]_{1271-my uncle} children]_{2467-his children} did not come to light , and prove [their]_{2467-his children} legitimacy . But twenty - five thousand pounds would be nothing to [[her]_{312-mrs. daldy} dear son , who had inherited [[his]_{1271-my uncle} father]_{1062-his father} 's extravagance , or to [herself]_{312-mrs. daldy} , who loved high play]_{8554-her dear son , who had inherited his father 's extravagance , or to herself , who loved high play} . Therefore , believing [me]_606-lily out of the field , [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} began to plot for [the Vaughan estate]_{8556-the vaughan estate} as well , and furthermore for [the magnificent property in [Corsica]_150-corsica]_{8557-the magnificent property in corsica} . Of [the Vaughan estates]_{8558-the vaughan estates} [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} had no chance — albeit [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} had the impudence to propose a compromise with [me]_606-lily — of [Veduta]_{233-veduta tower} tower [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} had some prospect , if [the right heirs]_{8559-the right heirs} , [the poor children]_{8560-the poor children} , should never appear , or establish [their]_{8559-the right heirs} claim , and if [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} could procure the outlawry of [Lepardo]_570-lepardo . Believing [[my]_606-lily Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} to be dying by inches , [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} made a bold stroke for possession of the most important documents ; and , but for [Giudice]_590-giudice and [me]_606-lily , no doubt [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} would have succeeded . But [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} had dashed far out of [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} depth , and had little chance now of reaching [the coveted land]_{8562-the coveted land} . [I]_606-lily hope [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} felt that everything was ordered for [her]_{312-mrs. daldy} good . Another point which seems to require some explanation , is the discovery by the assassin of the secret entrance , an access quite unknown to [the family]_{1254-the family} , [the servants]_{772-the servants} , or [any other person]_{8565-any other person} , except , at a later time , [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} . [The house]_{764-the house} , as [I]_606-lily said before , was built upon [the site]_{3257-the site} and partly embodied the fabric of [a still more ancient structure]_{8568-a still more ancient structure} . Probably these narrow stairs , now enclosed in the basement of the eastern wall , had saved [many [a ripe priest]_{8570-a ripe priest} from reeling , in the time of [the Plantagenets]_{8571-the plantagenets}]_{8569-many a ripe priest from reeling , in the time of the plantagenets} . [They]_{8571-the plantagenets} led , [I]_606-lily think , from [the ancient chapel]_{8572-the ancient chapel} , long since destroyed , to [[the chaplain]_{8573-the chaplain} 's room]_{8574-the chaplain 's room} , and perhaps had been reopened secretly during the great rebellion , when [the Vaughans]_398-vaughans were in hot trouble . [Beatrice Vaughan]_{562-beatrice vaughan} , [[the cavalier]_{8575-the cavalier} 's child]_{8576-the cavalier 's child} , who was now supposed to begin [her]_{562-beatrice vaughan} ghost walk at the eastern window , glided probably down this staircase , when , as the legend relates , [she]_{562-beatrice vaughan} escaped mysteriously from [the house]_{764-the house} , in [[her]_{562-beatrice vaughan} father]_{898-her father} 's absence , roused [the tenants]_{6348-the tenants} , and surprised [the Roundhead garrison in [their]_{6348-the tenants} beds]_{8580-the roundhead garrison in their beds} . [The house]_{764-the house} was soon retaken , and [Beatrice]_{562-beatrice vaughan} , in [her]_{562-beatrice vaughan} youthful beauty , given up to [the brutal soldiers]_{8582-the brutal soldiers} . [She]_{562-beatrice vaughan} snapped a pistol at [the Puritan officer]_{8583-the puritan officer} , and flew like a bird along [this corridor]_{8584-this corridor} . At the end , while trying perhaps to draw the old oak slide — though nothing was said of this — [she]_{562-beatrice vaughan} was caught by [the gloating fanatics]_{8585-the gloating fanatics} , and stabbed [herself]_{562-beatrice vaughan} on the spot rather than yield to dishonour . [[The poor maiden]_{8586-the poor maiden} 's tomb]_{8587-the poor maiden 's tomb} is in [the church]_{1351-the church} , not far from the chancel arch , with some lines of quaint Latin upon [it]_{8587-the poor maiden 's tomb} . [[Her]_{562-beatrice vaughan} lover]_{8589-her lover} , [Sir William Desborough]_{646-sir william desborough} , slit [that Puritan officer]_{8590-that puritan officer} 's nose and cut off both [his]_{646-sir william desborough} ears . [I]_606-lily wonder that [he]_{646-sir william desborough} let [him]_{646-sir william desborough} off so lightly ; but perhaps it was all [he]_{646-sir william desborough} was worth . [Major Cecil Vaughan]_{421-major cecil vaughan} married again , and the direct line was re - established . [The chapel well]_{8591-the chapel well} , as [it]_{8591-the chapel well} was called , dark and overhung with ivy , was a spring of limpid icy crystal , spanned by and forming a deep alcove in the ancient chapel wall , which , partly for [its]_{8591-the chapel well} sake , and partly as a buttress for [the east end of [the house]_{764-the house}]_{844-the east end of the house} , had been left still standing . [This old well]_{8594-this old well} had long time been disused , hiding , as [it]_{8594-this old well} did , in a wild and neglected corner out of sight from [the terrace walk]_{8595-the terrace walk} ; and [the gardeners , who found the pump less troublesome]_{8596-the gardeners , who found the pump less troublesome} , had condemned the water as too cold for [their]_{8596-the gardeners , who found the pump less troublesome} plants . The mouth , with its tangled veil of ivy and periwinkle , was also masked by a pile of [the chapel ruins]_{8597-the chapel ruins} , now dignified with the name of a rockwork . Some steps of jagged stone led through the low black archway to [the crouching water]_{8598-the crouching water} , which was so clear that it seemed to doubt which was itself and which was stone . [This peaceful , cold , unruffled well]_{8599-this peaceful , cold , unruffled well} , formed the antechamber to [[the murderer]_{831-the murderer} 's passage]_{8601-the murderer 's passage} . For on the right - hand side , not to be seen in the darkness , and the sublustrous confusion , by any common eye , was a small niche and footing - place not a yard above [the water]_{1150-the water} . [It]_8603-it needed some nerve and vigour to spring from the lowest stepping - stone sideways to this scarcely visible ledge . [None , of the few whose eyes were good enough to espy it]_{8604-none , of the few whose eyes were good enough to espy it} , would be tempted to hazard the leap , unless [they]_{8604-none , of the few whose eyes were good enough to espy it} knew or suspected that the facing would yield to the foot , that it was in fact a small door purposely coloured and jointed like the slimy green of the masonry . In this well [the murderer]_{831-the murderer} must have lurked ; and [he]_{831-the murderer} might have done so from one year 's end to another . There with the craft of [his]_{831-the murderer} devilish race — [[my]_606-lily Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} may admire [them]_8607-them , but not [I]_606-lily — and with [their]_8607-them wonderful powers of sight , [he]_{831-the murderer} must have found this entrance , and rejoiced in [his]_{831-the murderer} hellish heart . As for [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} , [she]_{312-mrs. daldy} found it out at the other end , most likely . Unless [my]_606-lily memory fails [me]_606-lily , [I]_606-lily spoke long ago of some boards which sounded hollow to the ring of [my]_606-lily childish knuckles . These were in the skirting — if that be the proper name for it — under the centre of the great oriel window . The oak slides , when pressed from below , ran in a groove with but little noise , and without much force being used : but it required some strength to move them on the side of [the corridor]_{7666-the corridor} . It was the sound of these sliding boards which had first drawn [Judy]_477-judy 's notice : but as they were in deep shadow , [I]_606-lily neither perceived the opening , nor gave [him]_{831-the murderer} the opportunity . [That woman]_{1232-that woman} would never have dreamed of the thing , if [she]_{1232-that woman} had not surprised [me]_606-lily one day when [I]_606-lily was prying about [there]_1114-there ; [she]_{1232-that woman} must have returned alone , and being , as [we]_8611-we have seen , [a superior cabinet - maker]_{8612-a superior cabinet - maker} , discovered the secret which baffled [me]_606-lily . As [I]_606-lily did not want [Judy]_477-judy to catch cold by watching there any longer , [I]_606-lily had [this horrible passage]_{8613-this horrible passage} walled up at either end , and built across in the middle . Having thus made good [my]_606-lily arrears , [I]_606-lily am at liberty to proceed . When [[my]_606-lily Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} had paused from [his]_{1271-my uncle} many sorrows , which [he]_{1271-my uncle} did with a mellow dignity not yet understood by [me]_606-lily ; and when [I]_606-lily , in the fervour of youth , had offered much comfort kindly received , but far better let alone , [I]_606-lily asked [him]_4342-i for one thing only:—the most minute and accurate description [he]_4342-i could give of [that Lepardo Della Croce]_570-lepardo . [His]_4342-i answer was as follows : — "_[606-lily] [[My]_0-i dear]_{5318-my dear} , [I]_0-i have seen [him]_4342-i once only , and that more than twenty years ago , and in an interview of [some excitement"—I]_{8615-some excitement"—i} should think so indeed , when [one]_6186-one tried to kill [the other—"but]_{8617-the other—"but[8615-some excitement"—i]} [I]_0-i will describe [him]_4342-i to the best of [my]_0-i recollection . [He]_4342-i is [rather [a tall man]_{8306-a tall man} , at least of about [my]_0-i own height , but more lightly built than [myself]_0-i]_{4343-rather a tall man , at least of about my own height , but more lightly built than myself} . [His]_4342-i hands and feet are remarkably small and elegant . [His]_4342-i face is of the true Italian type , a keen oval with a straight nose , and plenty of width between the eyes , which are large and very dark . [His]_4342-i forehead is not massive , but well - formed , and much whiter than the rest of [his]_4342-i face . The expression of [his]_4342-i countenance is that of shrewdness and versatility , with a quickness eager to save both [you]_4345-you and [himself]_4342-i from the trouble of completing [your]_4345-you sentence . But all this is common enough . One thing [I]_0-i saw , or fancied , which is not quite so common . As [I]_0-i dealt [him]_4342-i that blow with [my]_0-i fist , [my]_0-i eyes for one flash met [his]_4342-i , and [his]_4342-i leaped towards [one another]_{758-one another} , as if [he]_4342-i had a strong cast in them . Before that , and afterwards too , there was no appearance of any distortion : if there were any at that moment , it arose from the start of terror or fury jerking the muscles awry . [His]_4342-i voice is flexible and persuasive , and soft as [a serpent - charmer]_{4347-a serpent - charmer} 's . [I]_0-i think [he]_4342-i must be [a most arrogant man]_{4348-a most arrogant man} ; profoundly convinced of [his]_4342-i own abilities , but seldom caring to vindicate them . Just [the man to get on in [the world]_{798-the world} , if [he]_4342-i were only what is called respectable]_{4349-the man to get on in the world , if he were only what is called respectable} . Just [the man to break [a woman]_{5830-a woman} 's heart , and crush the spirit of [a meek and humble child]_{4353-a meek and humble child}]_{4351-the man to break a woman 's heart , and crush the spirit of a meek and humble child} . Ah , [I]_0-i would forgive [him]_4342-i [his]_4342-i sins against [me]_0-i , though not [his]_4342-i wrongs towards [you]_4354-you , if [I]_0-i could only learn that [he]_4342-i had been kind to [[my]_0-i children]_{6217-my children} . " This description dwelt on [my]_4342-i mind for days and days of thinking . It did not altogether apply to [the man whom [I]_4342-i had observed so closely at the meeting of [the conspirators]_{2832-the conspirators}]_{8618-the man whom i had observed so closely at the meeting of the conspirators} . [That man]_{1220-that man} was of middle height , and though [his]_{1220-that man} face was oval , there was scarcely the average width between the eyes . And [he]_{1220-that man} did not seem to [me]_4342-i like [an arrogant man]_{8621-an arrogant man} , cold except when excited ; but rather of a hasty , impassioned nature , sure to do its utmost in trifles . Could it be that [I]_4342-i had watched and hated [the wrong man]_{8622-the wrong man} ? It might be so ; and it was not unlikely that [Mr. Cutting]_{8623-mr. cutting} [himself]_{8623-mr. cutting} knew not which was the guilty one . Like [most of [the London policemen]_{8625-the london policemen}]_{8624-most of the london policemen} — [[my]_4342-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} had taught [me]_4342-i this — [he]_{1271-my uncle} was too proud of [his]_{1271-my uncle} sagacity to be in truth very sagacious . Experience [he]_{1271-my uncle} had , and all that ; but [he]_{1271-my uncle} would not have done in [Paris]_247-paris . The real depth , that goes below , and yet allows for the depth of another , must be in the nature , can rarely exist in a small one , and in a large one is seldom worked but for theoretical purposes . Therefore [shallow men]_{8627-shallow men} overreach in daily life , and fancy [they]_{8627-shallow men} have blinded those who know [them]_{8627-shallow men} thoroughly , and know [themselves]_{8627-shallow men} as well . So far as [my]_4342-i experience goes , [large - natured men]_{8628-large - natured men} abhor cunning so much , that [they]_{8628-large - natured men} fear to work the depth of [their]_{8628-large - natured men} own intelligence , because it seems akin to it . So [they]_{8628-large - natured men} are cheated every day , as [a strong man]_{8629-a strong man} yields to the push of [a child]_{782-a child} ; and [the fools who cheat [them]_{8628-large - natured men}]_{8631-the fools who cheat them} chuckle in the idea that [they]_{8628-large - natured men} have done it by fine sagacity , and without [the victim]_{8366-the victim} 's knowledge . At [my]_4342-i earnest entreaty , the idea of assembling [the tenants]_{6348-the tenants} especially was allowed to drop , and [I]_4342-i was to be inducted at the Midsummer dinner , which was very near at hand . A deed had been prepared by [the [London]_1-london solicitors]_{8634-the london solicitors} , reciting the facts and assuring all [the estate]_{952-the estate} to [me]_4342-i , as [[my]_4342-i father 's proper heiress]_{8636-my father 's proper heiress} . [[My]_4342-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} also desired to settle upon [me]_4342-i all the personal property , except a sum of 10,000*l . * , which [he]_{1271-my uncle} would reserve for [[his]_{1271-my uncle} children]_{2467-his children} , to enable [them]_{2467-his children} , if ever [they]_{2467-his children} should be found , to establish [their]_{2467-his children} claims in [Corsica]_150-corsica : then if [the son]_{8639-the son} obtained [his]_{8639-the son} rights , [[his]_{8639-the son} sister]_{2443-his sister} was to have the money with all expenditure made good by [him]_{1271-my uncle} . But [I]_4342-i would not hear of it . It would have made [me]_4342-i [a rogue]_{8641-a rogue} . By [his]_{1271-my uncle} skill and economy , [[my]_4342-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} , during the nine years of [his]_{1271-my uncle} management , had saved more than 50,000*l . * from the proceeds of [the estate]_{952-the estate} . But [he]_{1271-my uncle} had added at least an equal amount to the value of [the land]_{1188-the land} , by carrying out most judiciously the improvements begun by [[my]_4342-i father]_{731-my father} ; and the whole was now considered [the best - managed estate in [Gloucestershire]_{3-gloucestershire}]_{8646-the best - managed estate in gloucestershire} . Therefore , when [he]_{1271-my uncle} abandoned [his]_{1271-my uncle} legal right , in the most honourable manner , it would have been horribly shabby and unlike [a Vaughan]_{8647-a vaughan} , to hold [him]_{1271-my uncle} accountable for the back rents . [I]_4342-i begged [him]_{1271-my uncle} to leave the whole of it for the benefit of [[his]_{1271-my uncle} poor children]_{8648-his poor children} , requesting only , and unnecessarily , that [the hypocrite]_{8649-the hypocrite} might not have sixpence . Another thing [I]_4342-i entreated , that [he]_{1271-my uncle} would prolong [his]_{1271-my uncle} guardianship , and stewardship , if [his]_{1271-my uncle} health allowed it , until [I]_4342-i should be of age , that is to say , for two years and a half . Seeing how earnestly [I]_4342-i desired it , [he]_{1271-my uncle} undertook to do so , though [he]_{1271-my uncle} made the promise with a melancholy smile , adding that [he]_{1271-my uncle} hoped [[his]_{1271-my uncle} children]_{2467-his children} would be found ere then , if [he]_{1271-my uncle} was to see [them]_{2467-his children} at all . When the rent - dinner was over , and the glasses had been replaced , [[my]_4342-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} , who had not been there as usual , led [me]_4342-i into [the great old hall]_{8652-the great old hall} . Feeble as [he]_{1271-my uncle} was , [he]_{1271-my uncle} entered with a grace and courtesy not always to be discovered in [the mien of [princes]_8654-princes]_{8653-the mien of princes} . The supper — as [the farmers]_{8655-the farmers} called it — had not begun till six o'clock ; and now the evening sunshine glanced through the western window , and between the bunches of stoning grapes into the narrow doorway , stealing in from the Vinery with sandals of leafy pattern . [The hall]_{8656-the hall} was decked with roses , no other flower but roses ; yet who could want any other , when every known rose was there ? Even the bright yellow blossoms of the Corsican rock - rose , a plant so sensitive that to steal one flower is to kill all the rest . From time out of mind , some feudal custom of tenure by the rose had been handed down in [[our]_8657-our family]_{1997-our family} . [All the guests]_{8659-all the guests} rose as [we]_8657-our passed , which made [me]_4342-i rather nervous , albeit [I]_4342-i knew every one of [them]_{8659-all the guests} from [my]_4342-i childhood up . Then [[my]_4342-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} , leaning on [me]_4342-i , spoke a few words from the step , plain and simple words without flourish or pretence . What [he]_{1271-my uncle} said was known long since , and had been thoroughly discussed in [every house of [the village]_{981-the village}]_{8661-every house of the village} . [He]_{1271-my uncle} finished by setting [me]_4342-i in the black oak chair of state — which [he]_{1271-my uncle} had never used — and presenting [me]_4342-i with a rose ; then [he]_{1271-my uncle} turned round and proposed [my]_4342-i health . When [I]_4342-i took the rose , an exquisite crested moss , kissed it and placed it in [my]_4342-i bosom , according to the usage , such a shout arose , such an English hurrah , that it must have echoed to [the other bank of [the distant Severn]_{7-the severn}]_{8663-the other bank of the distant severn} . At first [I]_4342-i was quite frightened , then [I]_4342-i burst into tears as [I]_4342-i thought of [him]_{1271-my uncle} whose chair [I]_4342-i sat in , [whose memory still was echoing in that mighty shout]_{8664-whose memory still was echoing in that mighty shout} . It was not only love of right , or sympathy with [a helpless girl]_{8665-a helpless girl} , that moved [those honest bosoms]_{8666-those honest bosoms} , but the remembrance of [him]_{1271-my uncle} who had been so pleasant to [them]_{8666-those honest bosoms} , humble , kind and just , in one word , [a gentleman]_{5462-a gentleman} . But as [they]_{8666-those honest bosoms} came up , one by one , and begged to take [my]_4342-i hand , and wished [me]_4342-i joy and long life with all [their]_{8666-those honest bosoms} hearts , [I]_4342-i found that [I]_4342-i was right in one thing ; [I]_4342-i knew [them]_{8666-those honest bosoms} better than [[my]_4342-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} did . Instead of being rude or cold to [him]_{1271-my uncle} , as [he]_{1271-my uncle} expected , [they]_{8666-those honest bosoms} almost overwhelmed [him]_{1271-my uncle} with praise and admiration . But all this [I]_4342-i must not dwell on , for [my]_4342-i story hurries hence , and its path is not through roses . [Annie Franks]_{552-annie franks} , who still was with [us]_8669-us , and did not mean to go until [she]_{552-annie franks} had finished all the Froissart novels , and such [a dear good girl]_{8670-a dear good girl} [she]_{552-annie franks} was , that [we]_8669-us hoped [they]_{8666-those honest bosoms} would last for ever , [Annie Franks]_{552-annie franks} brought [me]_4342-i next day two letters of aspect strange to "_[4342-i] good society . " One [I]_0-i knew at a glance to be from [Tossil]_361-tossil 's Barton , though the flourishes were amazing , and the lead - pencil lines rubbed out . The other , a work of far less ambition and industry , was an utter stranger ; so of course [I]_0-i took it first . Nevertheless , [I]_0-i will treat of it last , because it opens the stormy era . [Dear Sally]_647-sally 's gossip is not to be served up whole . Even if it were interesting to [others]_869-others as to [me]_0-i , [[my]_0-i space]_{8672-my space} permits no dalliance with [farm - yards]_{8673-farm - yards} , no idyls of [Timothy Badcock]_344-tim , nay , nor even the stern iambics of [Ebenezer Dawe]_{350-mr. dawe} . Only to be just and clear , [I]_0-i may not slur it all . The direction was remarkable . [The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} was always afraid of not being duly explicit , for [he]_{5517-the farmer} believed that letters were delivered throughout [England]_9-england as in [the parish of Trentisoe]_{8675-the parish of trentisoe} ; where all , except those for [the parson]_{2679-the parson} and [[Tossil]_361-tossil 's Barton farm]_{6986-tossil 's barton farm} , were set upside down in the window at [Pewter Will 's]_378-bill , [the most public - house in [the place]_{5531-the place}]_{8678-the most public - house in the place} . The idea was ingenious , and , [I]_0-i believe , original — having been suggested by [[the Queen]_{1427-the queen} 's boy]_{2235-the queen 's boy} , whose head [Mrs. Huxtable punched]_{331-mrs. huxtable} . It was that [no one]_{730-no one} could read the name upside down , except [the owner of the name and therefore of the letter]_{8683-the owner of the name and therefore of the letter} . Sound or not , [I]_0-i can not say , having had no experience ; but there was this to be said for it , that [no one]_{730-no one} would try the puzzle who did not expect a letter , unless indeed [he]_8685-he were of precocious genius , and from that [Trentisoe]_12-trentisoe was quite safe . Upon the present "_[0-i] papper - scrawl , " after a long description of [me]_0-i , patronymical , local , and personal , the following injunctions and menaces were added , "_[0-i] Not be stuck tops [I]_0-i turve [I]_0-i on no account in [no public house]_{4356-no public house} . [She]_4357-her be in [[her]_4357-her own house]_{4358-her own house} now again , thank [God]_303-god and dang [them]_4359-them as turned [her]_4357-her out [I]_0-i say , so mind [you]_4360-you carr it [there]_1114-there . A deal of money there be in it , and no fear of [Joe]_451-joe because [he]_451-joe knows it , and there lives [a man in [Gloucestershire]_{3-gloucestershire}]_{4362-a man in gloucestershire} knows [me]_0-i well by the name of [Thomas Henwood]_{321-thomas henwood} . Best look sharp [I]_0-i say . [I]_0-i be up to [every one of [you]_4360-you]_{4363-every one of you} . [John Huxtable]_299-john [his]_299-john name , no mark this time . God save [the queen]_{1427-the queen} . " So [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} had actually learned to write , although as yet to a strictly limited extent . Of course [he]_{5517-the farmer} had not written any of the above except [his]_{5517-the farmer} name ; but that was [his]_{5517-the farmer} , and did [him]_{5517-the farmer} credit , though it nearly described a circle . After the warmest congratulations and returning the five - pound note , which [I]_299-john had sent for interest , with an indignant inquiry from [father]_738-father whether [I]_299-john took [him]_{5517-the farmer} for [a Jew]_{8688-a jew} , and after several anecdotes and some histories of butter sold at [Ilfracombe]_{14-ilfracombe} market , [Sally]_647-sally proceeded thus : "_[299-john] Now what do [you]_4360-you think , [Miss Clara]_293-clara dear ? No [you]_4360-you never would guess as long as [you]_4360-you live — [father]_738-father are going to [London town]_1-london , and [me]_0-i , and [Jack]_374-jack , and [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} . [None of [us]_4367-us]_{4366-none of us} have slept two grunts of a pig , ever since it were made up , only [father]_738-father , and [he]_738-father always sleep without turning . Now mind if [I]_0-i tell [you]_4360-you all about it , [you]_4360-you must not tell again , [Miss Clara]_293-clara , because there is ever so much money upon it , and [we]_4367-us do hear [they]_4369-they have put it on some [London]_1-london paper and no business of theirs . [Two great gentlefolks]_{4370-two great gentlefolks} , the greatest of any about these parts , have been and made up a bet for [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} to wrestle along with [a great big chap as [they]_4369-they calls [the North Country champion]_{4373-the north country champion}]_{4372-a great big chap as they calls the north country champion} . Seems as [some great Northern lord]_{4374-some great northern lord} was boasting in [London]_1-london one dinner - time , [Speaker]_4375-speaker 's dinner [they]_4369-they called it because there were a deaf and dumb dinner next day , [this here great lord]_{4376-this here great lord} was telling up as how [Sam Richardson]_{648-sam richardson} were [the strongest man in [the world]_{798-the world}]_{4377-the strongest man in the world} . So [[our]_4367-us Sir [Arthur]_{649-our sir arthur}]_{649-our sir arthur} spake up for [Devonshire]_4-devonshire , and laid [him]_{649-our sir arthur} a quart - pot full of [sovereigns]_{2627-sovereigns} as [he]_{649-our sir arthur} would find [a better man in [the West country]_{4381-the west country}]_{4380-a better man in the west country} . And so [I]_0-i do n't know the rights of it , nor [father]_738-father nor [mother]_739-mother either , but it was made up atwixt [them]_4384-them that [Farmer Huxtable]_{362-farmer huxtable} , that 's [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} , [Miss]_5433-miss , should try this great [North country]_{4387-north country} chap at the time of the great Xabition — [you]_5433-miss never showed [me]_0-i the way to spell it , [Miss]_4388-miss , so [I]_0-i go by the light of nature , as [you]_5433-miss used to say , [Miss]_4389-miss — and should take best of three falls for 200*l . * a side . That will be 400*l . * for [us]_4390-our , when [father]_738-father gets it , and all [his]_738-father expenses paid , and [they]_4392-they say [the other folk]_{4393-the other folk} wo n't allow no kicking , so [he]_738-father must be [a soft - shelled chap]_{4394-a soft - shelled chap} ; but [father]_738-father feel no call to hurt [him]_738-father , if so be [he]_738-father can help it . [Mother]_291-mother do n't want [father]_738-father to go , but [he]_738-father say [he]_738-father be bound for the honour of [old Devonshire]_4-devonshire , or maybe [they]_4392-they will take [a man not good enough to make a standard]_{4397-a man not good enough to make a standard} . And please , [Miss]_4398-miss , when [we]_4390-our brings [home]_1102-home the money , [I]_0-i be to go to [Miss Bowden]_{650-miss bowden} 's , in [Boutport Street]_{255-boutport street} , and [[our]_4390-our [Jack]_374-jack]_{2720-our jack} to be put to [a day - school not more than six miles away]_{4401-a day - school not more than six miles away} , and then [I]_0-i hope [he]_374-jack know [himself]_374-jack , and look higher than that minx of [a Tabby Badcock]_388-tabby . What do [you]_4398-miss think , [Miss Clara]_293-clara , [you]_4398-miss would never believe it [I]_0-i know , but only a week ago last Tuesday [I]_0-i come sudden round the corner , and catched [her]_4398-miss a kissing of [[our]_4390-our [Jack]_374-jack]_{2720-our jack} in [the shed there by the shoot]_{4403-the shed there by the shoot} . And after all [you]_4398-miss taught [her]_4398-miss , [Miss]_4404-miss ! [Jack]_374-jack [he]_374-jack ran away , as red as mangawazzle , but [that brazen slut]_{4405-that brazen slut} , there [she]_4398-miss stand with [her]_4398-miss legs out , as innocent as a picture . Never a word [I]_0-i said , but with no more to do [I]_0-i put [her]_4398-miss head in the calves ' stommick as [we]_4390-our makes the cheese with , in a bucket handy . It would have done [you]_4398-miss good to see [[her]_4398-miss [Miss]_4407-miss]_{4406-her miss} , [she]_4398-miss did cry so hard , and [she]_4398-miss smell of it for a week , and it cure [[our]_4390-our [Jack]_374-jack]_{2720-our jack} , up to Sunday anyhow . [Mother]_739-mother come out at the noise , but [her]_739-mother see that [she]_739-mother deserve it , and the runnet was no account , except for the pigs , because it were gone by . [I]_0-i hope [she]_739-mother know [her]_739-mother manners now and [her]_739-mother spear in life with [her]_739-mother sheep 's eyes , and not come trying to catch [any of [[my]_0-i family]_{1990-my family}]_{4410-any of my family} . Well , [Miss Clara]_293-clara please , [father]_738-father want [mother]_739-mother to go ; but no , say [she]_4398-miss , " with all [they"—she]_{8689-they"—she[4398-miss]} ought to have said " [them]_{8689-they"—she} "_[4398-miss] [Miss]_4414-miss , now had n't [she]_4398-miss ought?—"with all [they]_{8689-they"—she} young pigs , and the brown cow expecting every day , and [Suke]_345-suke no head at all , and all the chillers and [little Clara"—she]_{651-little clara"—she[4398-miss]} call [her]_4398-miss " [Clara]_293-clara "_[4398-miss] now , [Miss,—"why farmer]_{8690-miss,—"why farmer} what be thinking of ? "_[4398-miss] Then [father]_738-father rub the nose of [him]_738-father , [you]_293-clara know the way [he]_738-father do it , [Miss]_4416-miss , and [he]_738-father say , " [I]_738-father must have some one . [London]_1-london be such [a wicked place]_{8691-a wicked place} . "_[738-father] [Mother]_291-mother look up very sharp at that , and say quite peart , " take [[your]_738-father daughter]_{8692-your daughter} , [farmer Huxtable]_{362-farmer huxtable} , if [you]_738-father wants to be kept respectable . "_[291-mother] So [I]_0-i be to go [Miss]_4417-miss ; and go [I]_0-i would n't without [Jack]_374-jack and leave [him]_374-jack along of that sly cat [Tabby]_388-tabby , and [her]_388-tabby got sweet again now ; besides [I]_0-i want [him]_374-jack to choose a knife [I]_0-i promised [him]_374-jack , same as [he]_374-jack saw to [Coom]_87-coom one time , if [he]_374-jack would n't let [Tabby]_388-tabby kiss [him]_374-jack with seven blades and a corkscrew , and [I]_0-i 'll give eighteen pence for it , that [I]_0-i will . And [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} must go to show [us]_4418-us the way about , and see as [they]_4419-they does n't cheat [us]_4418-us , because [[his]_{334-beany dawe} father]_{1062-his father} was once to [London town]_{2176-london town} , and told [him]_{334-beany dawe} a power about it . If [you]_4422-you please , [Miss Clara]_293-clara , [father]_738-father be put in training as [they]_4419-they call it in these parts , all the same as a horse . [He]_374-jack run up and down [Breakneck hill]_{5651-breakneck hill} , with the best bed on [his]_374-jack back , nine times every day , and [he]_374-jack do n't drink no cider , no nor beer , nor gin and water , and [mother]_739-mother hardly know [him]_374-jack , [he]_374-jack be come so clear in the skin ; but [he]_374-jack say [his]_374-jack hand shake still from the time [I]_0-i taught [him]_374-jack to write , and please , [Miss]_4426-miss , what do [you]_4426-miss think of the way [he]_374-jack is going to sign this ? [I]_0-i ca n't get [him]_374-jack to put [his]_374-jack thumb right , no nor [his]_374-jack middle finger , and [he]_374-jack stick [his]_374-jack elbow out every bit as bad as [Tabby]_388-tabby , and [he]_374-jack say [he]_374-jack like the pot - hooks over the fire best , but for all that [I]_0-i believe [I]_0-i shall make a scholard of [him]_374-jack , particular when [he]_374-jack give up wrestling , which [he]_374-jack have sworn to do if [he]_374-jack throw this Cumberland chap , and stick to [his]_374-jack Bible and Prayer - book . Please , [Miss]_5433-miss , not to be offended , but excuse [us]_4428-us asking if [you]_4426-miss like to see the great wrestling . [Father]_448-miss. say no , it would not be fitty , and that be the worst of being [a gentlefolk]_{4429-a gentlefolk} ; but [mother]_739-mother say what harm , and [she]_739-mother be sure [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} do it twice as well with [you]_4426-miss there , and [you]_4426-miss shall have the best seat in the place next to [the two judges]_{4432-the two judges} , and such a pretty handkerchief [they]_{4432-the two judges} sent down all spotted the same as a Guernsey cow , how [the people in church]_{4433-the people in church} did stare at [me]_0-i , and [you]_4426-miss shall have two of the best , [Miss]_4434-miss , but [I]_0-i am afraid it be making too bold ; but [you]_4426-miss never see any wrestling , [Miss]_4435-miss , and [I]_0-i am sure [you]_4426-miss would enjoy it so . It take place in [the copandhagen fields]_{4436-the copandhagen fields} , next Saturday week . Do come , [Miss Clara]_293-clara dear , it will do [you]_4426-miss so much good , and [you]_4426-miss see [father]_738-father , and [me]_0-i , and [Jack]_374-jack , and [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} . " [I]_{334-beany dawe} need recount no more of poor [Sally]_647-sally 's soft persuasions . The other letter was of a different vein : — "_{[334-beany dawe]} [HONOURED Miss,—Balak]_{653-honoured miss,—balak} and [me]_0-i after a deal of trouble and labouring night and day and throwing up [our]_4438-our vacation has at last succeeded in finding [you]_4426-miss knows who . Personal interview will oblige , earliest inconvenience . No more at present not being safe on paper , from [[your]_4426-miss most obedient servants]_{4439-your most obedient servants} and suitors [BALAAM AND BALAK]_539-balak — [you]_4426-miss knows who . — [Poscrip.—Balak]_{654-poscrip.—balak} says [a sharp young lady]_{4440-a sharp young lady} quite sure to know what is right , but for fear of accidents please [a little of the ready]_{4441-a little of the ready} will oblige , [large families both of [us]_4438-our]_{4442-large families both of us} has and it do take a deal of beer more than [our]_4438-our proper vacation [no one]_{730-no one} would guess unless [they]_4444-they was to try and bad beer too a deal of it . For self and partner.—BALAAM . " When [[my]_293-clara Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} saw that letter , [he]_{1271-my uncle} declared that [he]_{1271-my uncle} would go to [London]_1-london with [me]_293-clara . No power on [earth]_1622-earth should prevent [him]_{1271-my uncle} . Not even [his]_{1271-my uncle} self - willed [Clara]_293-clara . It was not revenge [he]_{1271-my uncle} wanted : even though it were for [[his]_{1271-my uncle} innocent brother]_{8695-his innocent brother} , whose wrongs [he]_{1271-my uncle} could not pardon . No , if [the small - minded wretch who had spent [his]_{8696-the small - minded wretch who had spent his life in destroying a fellow - creature 's} life in destroying a fellow - creature 's]_{8696-the small - minded wretch who had spent his life in destroying a fellow - creature 's} , if [that contemptible miscreant]_{8697-that contemptible miscreant} lay at [his]_{8696-the small - minded wretch who had spent his life in destroying a fellow - creature 's} feet to - morrow , [he]_{8696-the small - minded wretch who had spent his life in destroying a fellow - creature 's} would not plant foot upon [him]_{8696-the small - minded wretch who had spent his life in destroying a fellow - creature 's} ; but forgive [him]_{8696-the small - minded wretch who had spent his life in destroying a fellow - creature 's} heartily , if [he]_{8696-the small - minded wretch who had spent his life in destroying a fellow - creature 's} had the grace to desire it . But for [his]_{1271-my uncle} children,—for [them]_8698-them [he]_{1271-my uncle} must go to [London]_1-london . Only let [him]_{1271-my uncle} see [them]_8698-them once before [he]_{1271-my uncle} died . No torpid limbs for [him]_{1271-my uncle} . Who said [he]_{1271-my uncle} was old — and [he]_{1271-my uncle} only forty - seven ? One thing seemed rather strange to [me]_293-clara . [He]_{1271-my uncle} longed , yearned [I]_293-clara should say , to look upon [his]_{1271-my uncle} little [Lily]_606-lily even more than on [the child [he]_{1271-my uncle} knew]_{8699-the child he knew} , [[his]_{1271-my uncle} son]_{1321-his son} , [[his]_{1271-my uncle} first - born [Harry]_298-harry]_{8701-his first - born harry} . "_[293-clara] Why , [Clara]_293-clara , " [he]_{1271-my uncle} used to say , "_[293-clara] [she]_4445-she is nearly as old as [you]_293-clara , and [you]_293-clara are [a full - grown girl]_{6622-a full - grown girl} . On the 21st of this month"—it was now July—"she_[4445-she] will be eighteen ; [I]_0-i can hardly believe it . [I]_0-i wonder what [she]_4445-she is like . Most likely [she]_4445-she takes after [[her]_4445-she lovely mother]_{4447-her lovely mother} . No doubt of it , [I]_0-i should say . Do n't [you]_293-clara think so , [Clara]_293-clara ? " "_[293-clara] Of course , [Uncle]_1284-uncle , " [I]_4445-she would reply , knowing nothing at all about it , "_[4445-she] of course [she]_4445-she does . How [I]_0-i should like to see [her]_4445-she . " Perhaps fifty times a day , [he]_{1271-my uncle} would ask for [my]_0-i opinion , and [I]_0-i would deliver it firmly , perhaps in the very same words and without a shade of misgiving ; and though of no value whatever , it seemed to comfort [him]_{1271-my uncle} every time . But the prolonged excitement , and the stress of imagination exerted on [Lily junior]_606-lily , told upon [him]_{1271-my uncle} rapidly in [his]_{1271-my uncle} worn and weak condition . Longing for [his]_{1271-my uncle} company , assistance , and advice , [I]_0-i waited from day to day , even at the risk of leaving [Balaam]_537-balaam and [Balak]_539-balak without good beer . All this time , [my]_0-i imagination was busy with weak surmises , faint suspicions , and tangled recollections . At last , [I]_0-i could delay no longer . Tuesday was the latest day [I]_0-i could consent to wait for , and on the Monday [[my]_0-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} was more nervous and weak than ever . It was too plain that [he]_{1271-my uncle} must not attempt the journey , and that the long suspense was impairing [his]_{1271-my uncle} feeble health . So for once [I]_0-i showed some decision — which seemed to have failed [me]_0-i of late — without telling [him]_{1271-my uncle} any more about it , [I]_0-i got everything ready , and appeared at [[his]_{1271-my uncle} bedroom]_{8703-his bedroom} door , only to say "_[0-i] Good bye . " [Annie Franks]_{552-annie franks} , who was going with [me]_0-i , for a short visit to [[her]_{552-annie franks} father]_{898-her father} , hung back in some amazement , doubting whether [she]_{552-annie franks} had any right to be [there]_1114-there , and dragged off [her]_{552-annie franks} legs by the coil of [my]_0-i strong will . [[My]_0-i poor Uncle]_{2919-my poor uncle} seemed quite taken aback ; but as it could not be helped , [he]_{1271-my uncle} speedily made up [his]_{1271-my uncle} mind to it . "_[0-i] [The carriage]_{6087-the carriage} was at the door ; " which announcement to English minds precludes all further argument . "_[0-i] Good bye , [Uncle dear]_{7386-uncle dear} , " [I]_{7386-uncle dear} cried , as cheerily as [I]_{7386-uncle dear} could , "_{[7386-uncle dear]} [I]_0-i shall be back by the end of the week and bring [[your]_{7386-uncle dear} [Lily]_606-lily]_{4451-your lily} with [me]_0-i . Give [me]_0-i a good kiss for [her]_606-lily , and now another for [myself]_0-i . " [He]_{7386-uncle dear} was sitting up in the bed , with a Cashmere dressing - gown on , and poring over some relics of olden time . "_[0-i] Good bye , [[my]_0-i darling]_{5337-my darling} , and do n't be long away . [They]_4453-i have robbed [me]_0-i enough already . " After giving [Judy]_477-judy the strictest orders , [I]_4453-i hurried off in fear and hope , doubtful whether [I]_4453-i ought to go . [Annie]_{552-annie franks} lingered and gave [him]_{7386-uncle dear} a kiss , for [she]_{552-annie franks} was very fond of [him]_{7386-uncle dear} . [He]_{7386-uncle dear} whispered something about [me]_4453-i , which [I]_4453-i did not stop to hear , for [I]_4453-i wanted to leave [him]_{7386-uncle dear} in good spirits . After a rapid journey , [I]_4453-i saw [dear Annie]_{552-annie franks} safe in the arms of [[her]_{552-annie franks} father]_{898-her father} and [mother]_739-mother , and found [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} at [home]_1102-home , and in capital spirits , all the birds , & c. well , and no distress in [the house]_{764-the house} . [Charley]_395-charley was doing wonders , wonders , [[my]_4453-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , sticking to [his]_{7386-uncle dear} work , yes , yes , and not inside [the public house]_{8712-the public house} for the best part of the week . Leastways so [he]_{7386-uncle dear} said , and it would not do to contradict [him]_{7386-uncle dear} . And [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} really did believe there were only three bills over - due ! [[My]_4453-i little rooms]_{8713-my little rooms} were snug and quiet , and the dust not more than half an inch thick . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} used to say that dusting furniture was the worst thing in [the world]_{798-the world} to wear it out . According to [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} theory , the dust excluded the air , especially from the joints , and prevented the fly - blows coming . However , [I]_4453-i made [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} come up and furbish , while [I]_4453-i went out to post a letter for [Messrs. Balaam]_{655-messrs. balaam} and [Balak]_539-balak , requesting [them]_{655-messrs. balaam} to visit [me]_4453-i in the morning . When things were set to rights a little , and air , which [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} hated , flowed in from [either balcony]_{8715-either balcony} , [I]_4453-i bought a fine crab and some [Sally Lunns]_{656-sally lunns} , and begged for the pleasure of [[my]_4453-i landlady]_{6074-my landlady} 's company at tea . This [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} gladly gave [me]_4453-i , for [the little woman]_{6264-the little woman} loved nothing better than sucking the hairy legs of a crab . But [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was so overcome by the rumours of [my]_4453-i wealth , that [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} even feared to eject the pieces in [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ordinary manner , and the front rail of [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} chair was like the beam of a balance . [Infinitely]_{657-infinitely} rather would [I]_4453-i be poor [myself]_4453-i , than have [people]_1132-people ceremonious to [me]_4453-i because [I]_4453-i am not poor ; and to tell the honest truth , [I]_4453-i believe there is a vein of very low blood in [me]_4453-i , which blushes at the sense of riches and position . Why should [I]_4453-i have every luxury , that is if [I]_4453-i choose to have it , while [men]_1003-men and women of a thousand times [my]_4453-i mind , and soul , and heart , spend [their]_1132-people precious lives in earning the value of [their]_1132-people coffins ? This thought has wearied [many a mind of pure aerial flight]_{8720-many a mind of pure aerial flight} , compared whereto [my]_4453-i weak departures are but the hops of a flea ; so [I]_4453-i lose the imago , but catch the larva , upon the nettle , practice . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} is soon at ease ; and [we]_8721-we talk of the price of cat 's meat , and how dear sausages are , and laugh — [myself]_4453-i with sorrow — over the bygone days , when dripping played the role of butter , and [Judy]_477-judy would not take a bone because [he]_477-judy thought [I]_4453-i wanted it . Then [we]_8721-we talk over the news . [Miss Idols]_466-idols had been there , bless [her]_466-idols sweet face , yes , ever so many times , to look for letters , or to hear tidings of [me]_4453-i . But [she]_466-idols was not one bit like [herself]_466-idols . [She]_466-idols never teased [the poor little woman]_{6265-the poor little woman} now ; [the poor little woman]_{6265-the poor little woman} wished very much [she]_{6265-the poor little woman} would . Oh , [I]_4453-i should hardly know [her]_466-idols . [She]_466-idols did not know which bird it was that had the wooden leg , and had forgotten the difference between a meal - worm and a lob . And [she]_466-idols did not care which way [she]_466-idols rubbed the ears of the marmoset . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} believed , but for [the world]_{798-the world} it must not be told again , that [Isola]_463-isola was deeply in love , unrequited love , perhaps [one of [the weteranarian gents]_{8726-the weteranarian gents}]_{8725-one of the weteranarian gents} . [They]_8727-they did say [they]_8727-they had some stuff as would lead [a girl]_{2251-a girl} like a horse . But whatever it was , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} only knew that [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} could not get at the rights of it . [Girls]_5444-girls had grown so cunning now - a - days , what with the great supernatural exhibition , and the hats [they]_5444-girls had taken to wear flat on the tops of [their]_5444-girls heads , not at all what [they]_5444-girls used to be when [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} and [Charley]_395-charley were young . Then [a young woman]_{8730-a young woman} was not afraid of showing what [her]_{8730-a young woman} neck was like ; now [she]_{8730-a young woman} tucked it in cotton wool like a canary 's egg . And what were [they]_5444-girls [the better , sly minxes]_{8731-the better , sly minxes} ? [She]_{8730-a young woman} saw enough of it in [the Square garden]_{8732-the square garden} , and [them]_5444-girls showing [[their]_5444-girls little sisters]_{8733-their little sisters} ' legs for patterns of [their]_5444-girls own , oh fie ! "_[4453-i] " Come , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , no scandal , if [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} please . What news of [[your]_{391-mrs. shelfer} Uncle]_{5339-your uncle} [John]_299-john ? "_[4454-i] " Ah , [Miss]_5433-miss , [you]_5433-miss must ask the sharks , and the lobsters , and the big sea - serpent . [They]_5444-girls do say , down at [Wapping]_94-wapping , that [the ship]_{6953-the ship} was cast away among [the cannibal islands]_{8737-the cannibal islands} , and [the people]_{2283-the people} ate [a policeman]_{2151-a policeman} , and [he]_{2151-a policeman} upon [his]_{2151-a policeman} promotion . What a pity , what a pity ! And [his]_{2151-a policeman} coat four and sixpence [a yard]_{8740-a yard} , ready shrunk ! But [them]_5444-girls natives is outrageous . "_[4454-i] " Nonsense , [Patty]_409-patty , [I]_4453-i do n't believe a word of it . [Sailors]_6658-sailors are [dreadful story - tellers]_{8742-dreadful story - tellers} , ever since the days of [Sindbad]_257-sindbad . Has any one besides [Miss Isola]_428-isola , [Mrs. Elton]_{406-mrs. elton} , or [any one]_{1178-any one} , been here to ask for [me]_4453-i ? "_[4453-i] " No , [Miss]_8744-miss , [Mr. Conrad]_427-conrad never come after the day [you]_8744-miss served [him]_427-conrad so dreadful ; and [Miss Idols]_466-idols say [he]_427-conrad went back and spoiled 300*l . * worth of work ; but that great lady with the red plush breeches , and the pink silk stockings , and [the baker]_{8745-the baker} 's shop in [their]_5444-girls hair , [she]_466-idols been [here]_846-here twice last week , and left a letter for [you]_8744-miss . And [Balaam]_539-balak been here several times , and [Balak]_539-balak along of [him]_539-balak ; but [I]_4454-i banged the door on [them]_5444-girls both , now [I]_4454-i hear [they]_5444-girls be out of the business , and [a nice young man]_{8747-a nice young man} set up who do n't bother about the gun . "_[4454-i] " [Lady Cranberry]_{397-lady cranberry} 's letter may lie there , and go back the next time [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} comes . But [the bailiffs]_{7433-the bailiffs} [I]_4454-i must see . If [they]_{7433-the bailiffs} come to - morrow , let [them]_{7433-the bailiffs} in immediately . And how are all [[my]_4454-i friends]_{8161-my friends} at [the Mews]_{6037-the mews} ? "_[4454-i] [Her]_4454-i reply would fill a chapter , so [I]_0-i will not enter upon it , but go to bed and miss the sound of dear [Judy]_477-judy 's tail at the door . In the first course of [my]_0-i dreams , [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} passed on [[his]_{413-mr. shelfer} bedward road]_{4455-his bedward road} , having politely taken [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} shoes off at the bottom of the stairs ; in doing which [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} made at least three times the noise [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} shodden feet would have inflicted . In the morning [I]_0-i took [my]_0-i old walk round [the Square]_{1939-the square} , and then sat down and tried to be patient until [the bailiffs]_{7433-the bailiffs} should come . Of course [I]_0-i did not mean to go to [[my]_0-i darling]_{5337-my darling} [Isola]_428-isola , nor even to let [her]_428-isola know that [I]_0-i was so near at hand , although [my]_0-i heart was burning to see [her]_428-isola sweet face again . [I]_0-i even kept away from the window , though [I]_0-i wanted to watch for [the bailiffs]_{7433-the bailiffs} , and strictly ordered [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} not to tell [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , if [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} should call , a word about [my]_0-i being [there]_1114-there . However , it was all in vain . [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} went out after breakfast to [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} play - work in [the Square]_{1939-the square} , and the smell of [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} pipe invaded [[my]_0-i little room]_{6335-my little room} . [I]_0-i think [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} must have left the front door open ; at any rate [I]_0-i heard , all of a sudden , a quick patter of running feet , and such a crying and sobbing , and [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} hurrying out to meet it . " [You]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ca n't , [Miss]_5433-miss , [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ca n't indeed — not for a thousand pounds . [The rooms]_{2933-the rooms} are let , [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} tell [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , and [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ca n't go up . Oh dear , oh dear , whatever am [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} to do ? "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} " [Patty]_409-patty , [I]_466-idols will go up . [I]_466-idols do n't care who 's there . [My]_466-idols heart is breaking , and [I]_466-idols will die on [[my]_466-idols darling]_{5337-my darling} 's bed . If [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} stand there , [I]_466-idols 'll push [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . Out of the way , [I]_466-idols tell [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . "_[466-idols] And up flew [Idols]_466-idols , in a perfect mess of tears . What could [I]_0-i do but fly to meet [her]_466-idols , and hug [[my]_0-i only pet]_{4463-my only pet} ? What with [her]_466-idols passion of grief , and sudden joy , at seeing [me]_0-i , [she]_466-idols fainted away in [my]_0-i arms . [I]_0-i got [her]_466-idols somehow to the sofa , and kissed [her]_466-idols into [her]_466-idols senses again . When [she]_466-idols came to [herself]_466-idols , and felt sure it was not a dream , [she]_466-idols nestled into [my]_0-i bosom , as if [I]_0-i had been [[her]_466-idols husband]_{6140-her husband} , and stole long glances at [me]_0-i to see whether [I]_0-i was offended . [Her]_466-idols pretty cloak lay on the floor , and [her]_466-idols hat beneath the table . For a long time [she]_466-idols sobbed and trembled so that [she]_466-idols could not say a word , while [I]_0-i kept on whispering such vain words as these : " Never mind , [[my]_0-i pet]_{5394-my pet} . There , [you]_{4465-that sweet child} have cried enough . Tell [[your]_{4465-that sweet child} own]_{8755-your own} dear [Clara]_293-clara who has dared to vex [you]_{4465-that sweet child} . "_[0-i] To see [that sweet child]_{4465-that sweet child} 's misery , [I]_0-i felt in such a rage , [I]_0-i could have boxed [[her]_466-idols enemy]_{4466-her enemy} 's ears . But [I]_0-i never thought that it was more than [a child]_{782-a child} 's vexation . At last , after drinking a tumblerful of water , and giving room to [her]_466-idols palpitating heart , [she]_466-idols contrived to tell [me]_0-i [her]_466-idols trouble . " Why , [dear]_5871-dear , [you]_5871-dear know [[my]_466-idols pappy]_{8757-my pappy} — pappy [I]_466-idols used to call [him]_{8757-my pappy} — [he]_{8757-my pappy} is not [[my]_466-idols papa]_{6254-my papa} at all , [he]_{8757-my pappy} says [himself]_{8757-my pappy} [he]_{8757-my pappy} is not ; and that is not the worst of it , for [I]_466-idols could do well enough without [him]_{8757-my pappy} , [he]_{8757-my pappy} is always so dreadfully cross , and does n't care for [me]_466-idols one bit . [I]_466-idols could do without [him]_{8757-my pappy} very well , if [I]_466-idols had [a proper papa]_{8759-a proper papa} , or if [[my]_466-idols father]_{731-my father} was dead and had loved [me]_466-idols before [he]_{731-my father} died ; but now [I]_466-idols have [no father]_{3173-no father} at all , and never had any in [the world]_{798-the world} ; [I]_466-idols am only [an outcast]_{8763-an outcast} , an abandoned — Oh , [Clara]_293-clara , will [you]_293-clara promise to forgive [me]_466-idols , and love [me]_466-idols all the same ? "_[466-idols] " To be sure [I]_4468-her will , [[my]_4468-her dearest]_{8764-my dearest} . [I]_4468-her am sure , [you]_293-clara have done no harm . And even if [you]_293-clara have been led astray — "_[4468-her] [She]_4468-her looked at [me]_0-i with quick pride flashing through [her]_4468-her abasement , and [she]_4468-her took [her]_4468-her arm off [my]_0-i shoulder . " No , [you]_0-i have quite mistaken [me]_4468-her . Do [you]_0-i think [I]_4468-her would sit here and kiss [you]_293-clara , if [I]_4468-her were [a wicked girl]_{8765-a wicked girl} ? But who am [I]_4468-her to be indignant at anything now ? [He]_4468-her told [me]_4468-her — are [you]_293-clara sure the door is shut?—he told [me]_4468-her , with a sneer , that [I]_4468-her was [a base - born child]_{8766-a base - born child} , and [he]_4468-her used a worse word than that . "_[4468-her] [She]_4468-her fell away from [me]_0-i , [her]_4468-her cheeks all crimson with shame , and [her]_4468-her long eyelashes drooping heavily on them . [I]_0-i caught [her]_4468-her to [my]_0-i heart : [poor wronged one]_{4469-poor wronged one} , was [she]_4468-her a whit less pure ? [I]_0-i seemed to love [her]_4468-her the better , for [her]_4468-her great misfortune . Of course , [I]_0-i had guessed it long ago , from what [[her]_4468-her brother]_{6430-her brother} told [me]_0-i . " And who is [[your]_4468-her father]_{5365-your father} , [[my]_0-i pretty]_{8768-my pretty} ? [Any father]_{8769-any father} must be [a fool who would not be proud of [you]_4468-her]_{8770-a fool who would not be proud of you} . "_[0-i] " Oh , [Clara]_293-clara , the worst of it is that [I]_{6430-her brother} have not the least idea . But from something [that hard man]_{8771-that hard man} said , [I]_{6430-her brother} believe [he]_{8771-that hard man} was [an Englishman]_{1891-an englishman} . [I]_{6430-her brother} think [I]_{6430-her brother} could have got everything from [him]_{8771-that hard man} , [he]_{8771-that hard man} was so beside [himself]_{8771-that hard man} ; but when [he]_{8771-that hard man} told [me]_{6430-her brother} that dreadful thing , and said that [[my]_{6430-her brother} father]_{731-my father} had lied to [[my]_{6430-her brother} mother]_{746-my mother} and ruined [her]_{746-my mother} , [I]_{6430-her brother} felt so sick that [I]_{6430-her brother} could not speak , till [he]_{8771-that hard man} turned [me]_{6430-her brother} out of [the house]_{764-the house} , and struck [me]_{6430-her brother} as [I]_{6430-her brother} went . "_{[6430-her brother]} " What ? "_[0-i] " Yes , [he]_{8771-that hard man} turned [me]_{6430-her brother} out of [the house]_{764-the house} , and gave [me]_{6430-her brother} the blow of disgrace , and said [I]_{6430-her brother} should never look on [his]_{8771-that hard man} face again . [He]_{8771-that hard man} had won [his]_{8771-that hard man} revenge — [I]_{6430-her brother} can not tell what [he]_{8771-that hard man} meant , for [I]_{6430-her brother} never harmed [him]_{8771-that hard man} — and now [I]_{6430-her brother} might follow [[my]_{6430-her brother} mother]_{746-my mother} , and take to — [I]_{6430-her brother} ca n't repeat it , but it was worse than death . No fear of [my]_{6430-her brother} starving , [he]_{8771-that hard man} said , with this poor face of [mine]_{6430-her brother} . And so [I]_{6430-her brother} was going to [Conny]_427-conrad , [dear Conny]_427-conrad ; [I]_{6430-her brother} think [he]_{8771-that hard man} knew it all long ago , but could not bear to tell [me]_{6430-her brother} . And [I]_{6430-her brother} sat on some steps in [a lonely place]_{8778-a lonely place} , for [I]_{6430-her brother} did not know how to walk , and [I]_{6430-her brother} prayed to see [you]_427-conrad and die : then [old Cora]_{585-old cora} came after [me]_{6430-her brother} , and even [she]_{585-old cora} was crying , and [she]_{585-old cora} gave [me]_{6430-her brother} all [her]_{585-old cora} money , and a morsel of the true cross , and told [me]_{6430-her brother} to come here first , for [Conny]_427-conrad was out of [town]_1829-town , and [she]_{585-old cora} would come to see [me]_{6430-her brother} at dark ; and perhaps [the Professor]_{2125-the professor} would take [me]_{6430-her brother} back when [his]_{2125-the professor} rage was over . Do [you]_427-conrad think [I]_{6430-her brother} would ever go ? And after what [he]_{2125-the professor} told [me]_{6430-her brother} to do ! "_{[6430-her brother]} Such depth of loathing and scorn in those gentle violet eyes , and [her]_4471-i playful face for the moment so haughtily wild and implacable — [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara , in [her]_4471-i stately rancour , seemed an iceberg by a volcano . [I]_0-i saw that it was the moment for learning all that [she]_4471-i knew ; and the time for scruples was past . " [Isola]_428-isola , tell [me]_0-i all [you]_428-isola have heard , about [this dastard bully]_{8781-this dastard bully} ? "_[0-i] " [I]_4471-i know very little ; [he]_{8781-this dastard bully} has taken good care of that . [I]_4471-i only know that [he]_{8781-this dastard bully} did most horrible things to unfortunate cats and dogs . It made [me]_4471-i shudder to touch [him]_{8781-this dastard bully} at one time . But [he]_{8781-this dastard bully} gave that up [I]_4471-i believe . But there is some dark and fearful mystery , which [[my]_4471-i brother]_{1302-my brother} has found out ; that is if [he]_{1302-my brother} be [[my]_4471-i brother]_{1302-my brother} . How can [I]_4471-i tell even that ? Whatever the discovery was , it made such a change in [him]_{8781-this dastard bully} , that [he]_{8781-this dastard bully} cared for nothing afterwards , until [he]_{8781-this dastard bully} saw [you]_428-isola , [Clara]_293-clara . [I]_4471-i am not very sharp , [you]_428-isola know , though [I]_4471-i have learned so much , that perhaps [you]_428-isola think [I]_4471-i am . "_[4471-i] " [[My]_4471-i darling]_{5337-my darling} , [I]_4471-i never thought such a thing for a moment . "_[4471-i] " Oh , [I]_0-i am very glad . At any rate [I]_0-i like to talk as if [I]_0-i was clever . And [some people]_{8785-some people} say [I]_0-i am . But , clever or stupid , [I]_0-i am almost certain that [Conny]_427-conrad found out only half the secret ; and then on the day when [he]_427-conrad came of age , [that man]_{1220-that man} told [him]_427-conrad the rest , either for [his]_427-conrad own purposes , or [holy Madonna]_591-madonna knows why . "_[0-i] " When was [[your]_0-i brother]_{1415-your brother} of age ? "_[4471-i] " Last Christmas Eve . Do n't [you]_428-isola remember what [I]_4471-i told [you]_428-isola at [the school of design]_{6319-the school of design} that day ? "_[4471-i] " And when is [your]_0-i birthday , [Isola]_428-isola ? "_[0-i] " [I]_4471-i am sure [I]_4471-i do n't know , but somewhere about [Midsummer]_{658-midsummer} . [They]_{8785-some people} never told [Conny]_427-conrad when [his]_427-conrad was , but [he]_427-conrad knew it somehow . Come , [he]_427-conrad is clever now , [Clara]_293-clara , though [you]_428-isola do n't think [I]_4471-i am . Is n't [he]_427-conrad now ? Tell the truth . "_[4471-i] " [I]_4471-i am thinking of far more important matters than [[your]_0-i rude brother]_{8789-your rude brother} 's ability . Whence did [you]_0-i come to [England]_9-england and when ? "_[4471-i] This was quite a shot in the dark . But [I]_0-i had long suspected that [they]_4472-they were of Southern race . " [I]_0-i am sure [I]_0-i do n't know . [I]_0-i was quite [a child]_{782-a child} at the time , and the subject has been interdicted ; but [I]_0-i think [we]_4472-they came from [Italy]_63-italy , and at least ten years ago . "_[0-i] " And [[your]_0-i brother]_{1415-your brother} speaks Italian more readily than English . Can [you]_0-i tell [me]_4471-i anything more ? "_[4471-i] " Nothing . Only [I]_0-i know that [old Cora]_{585-old cora} is [a Corsican]_{8323-a corsican} : [she]_{585-old cora} boasts of it every night , when [she]_{585-old cora} comes to see [me]_0-i in bed , although [she]_{585-old cora} has been forbidden . But what does [she]_{585-old cora} care — [she]_{585-old cora} asks — for [this dirty little English island]_{8793-this dirty little english island} ? And [she]_{585-old cora} sits by [my]_0-i bed , and sings droning songs , which [I]_0-i hardly understand ; but [she]_{585-old cora} says they are beautiful nannas . "_[0-i] How [my]_0-i heart was beating , at every simple sentence . None of this had [I]_0-i heard before , because [she]_4473-me durst not tell it . " Any other questions , [Donna]_476-donna ? "_[4473-me] [She]_4473-me was recovering [her]_4473-me spirits , as [girls]_5444-girls always do by talking . " Why , [[my]_4473-me darling]_{5337-my darling} , [you]_476-donna ought to have a wig . [You]_476-donna beat [all the senior sophists]_{8795-all the senior sophists} . "_[4473-me] " Yes . Now come and kiss [me]_4473-me . Kiss [me]_4473-me for a pledge that [you]_476-donna will never leave [me]_4473-me . [I]_4473-me am rich again now : [you]_476-donna ca n't tell how rich [I]_4473-me am , and nothing to do with [my]_4473-me money , and [nobody]_1116-nobody likely to share it . If [you]_476-donna were [[my]_4473-me own sister]_{8797-my own sister} , [I]_4473-me could not love [you]_476-donna more ; and most likely [I]_4473-me should not love [you]_476-donna a quarter as much . And [[my]_4473-me Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} longs to see [you]_476-donna so . [You]_476-donna shall come and live with [me]_4473-me , and [we]_8799-we 'll be [two old maids]_{8800-two old maids} together . Now promise , [darling]_6257-darling , promise . Kiss [me]_4473-me , and seal the bargain . "_[4473-me] " [Clara]_293-clara , [I]_4475-i would rather be [[your]_476-donna servant]_{7048-your servant} than [the queen of [the world]_{798-the world}]_{8803-the queen of the world} . Only promise first that [you]_476-donna will never scold [me]_4475-i . [I]_4475-i can not bear being scolded . [I]_4475-i never used to be ; and it will turn all [my]_4475-i hair gray . "_[4475-i] " [I]_4475-i will promise never to scold [you]_476-donna , unless [you]_476-donna run away . "_[4475-i] [She]_4475-i swept back [her]_4475-i beautiful hair , threw [her]_4475-i arms round [my]_0-i neck , looked in [my]_0-i eyes with a well - spring of love , and kissed [me]_0-i . Oh , traitorous [Clara]_293-clara , it was not the kiss — deeply as [I]_0-i loved [her]_4475-i — but the evidence [I]_0-i wanted . [I]_0-i knew that with [her]_4475-i ardent nature [she]_4475-i would breathe [her]_4475-i soul upon [me]_0-i . The exquisite fragrance of [her]_4475-i breath was like the wind stealing over violets . [I]_0-i had noticed it often before . [My]_0-i last weak doubt was scattered ; yet [I]_0-i played with [her]_4475-i and [myself]_0-i , one sweet moment longer . " [Darling]_477-judy , what scent do [you]_477-judy use ? What is it [you]_477-judy wash [your]_477-judy teeth with ? "_[0-i] " Nothing but water , [Clara]_293-clara ; what makes [you]_477-judy ask in that way ? "_[4475-i] " And the perfume in [your]_477-judy hair — what is it ? Oh , [you]_477-judy little Rimmel ! "_[4475-i] " Nothing at all , [Donna]_476-donna . [I]_0-i never use anything scented . Not even Eau de Cologne . [I]_0-i hate all the stuff [they]_8805-they sell . "_[0-i] " How very odd ! Why , [I]_4475-i could have declared that [your]_477-judy lips and [your]_477-judy hair were sprinkled with extract of violets . "_[4475-i] " Oh , now [I]_4475-i know what [you]_477-judy mean . [I]_4475-i never perceive it [myself]_4475-i , but [numbers of people]_{8806-numbers of people} have fancied that [I]_4475-i use artificial perfume . But [that man]_{1220-that man} — oh , what shall [I]_4475-i call [him]_{1220-that man} ? And only this morning [I]_4475-i called [him]_{1220-that man} ' pappy'—he always accounts for everything , [you]_477-judy know ; and [he]_{1220-that man} said it was hered — [herod]_8808-herod — [I]_4475-i ca n't say it now , the long English word , but [I]_4475-i could at college — no matter , it means something in [the family]_{1254-the family} . [[My]_4475-i mother]_{746-my mother} , [he]_{1220-that man} said , was so well known to possess it , that [she]_{746-my mother} had an Italian name among [the servants]_{772-the servants} for it ; though [her]_{746-my mother} real name was quite a different flower . [Clara]_293-clara , why do [you]_293-clara look at [me]_4475-i so ? And what are [you]_293-clara crying for ? "_[4475-i] " Because , [[my]_4476-her own darling dear]_{8812-my own darling dear} , [I]_4476-her have not loved [you]_293-clara for nothing . [You]_293-clara are [my]_4476-her own flesh and blood . [You]_293-clara are [[my]_4476-her own cousin]_{8813-my own cousin} , [I]_4476-her tell [you]_293-clara , [[my]_4476-her dear Uncle 's daughter]_{8814-my dear uncle 's daughter} ; and [your]_293-clara name is [Lily Vaughan]_592-lily . "_[4476-her] [She]_4476-her drew [her]_4476-her arms from [me]_0-i , and leaped up from the sofa ; [she]_4476-her was so amazed and frightened . [She]_4476-her looked at [me]_0-i most sadly , believing that [I]_0-i was mad ; then [she]_4476-her fainted again , and fell back into [my]_0-i arms . When [I]_0-i had brought [her]_4476-her round , and propped [her]_4476-her up with a pillow — for cushions were very scarce — the strain of the mind being over , [my]_0-i brain began to whirl so that [I]_0-i could neither think nor act . For a long time [I]_0-i could not have enough of kissing and hugging [Idols]_466-idols . [I]_0-i played with [her]_4476-her hair , as if [I]_0-i had been [[her]_4476-her lover]_{8589-her lover} ; and then patted and caressed [her]_4476-her , as if [she]_4476-her had been [[my]_0-i baby]_{4478-my baby} . And had [I]_0-i no thought of another , who ought to be doing all this to [me]_0-i ? Yes , [I]_0-i fear that it lay in the depth of [my]_0-i heart , stronger than [maid]_4479-maid 's love of maiden , or even than [my]_0-i delight at the joy coming to [[my]_0-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} . Then [I]_0-i hated [myself]_0-i for [my]_0-i selfishness , and caught up [my]_0-i Lily and rubbed [her]_4476-her , and made [her]_4476-her understand things . [I]_0-i flung a decanter of water over both [her]_4476-her and [myself]_0-i , which saved [us]_4481-us from hysterics . [Poor little thing]_{6555-poor little thing} ! [She]_4476-her was not like [me]_0-i . [Strong Passion]_{659-strong passion} was a stranger to [her]_4476-her , and [she]_4476-her fell before [his]_{1271-my uncle} blow . [I]_0-i had fought with [him]_{1271-my uncle} so long , that [I]_0-i met [him]_{1271-my uncle} like [a prize - fighter]_{4483-a prize - fighter} , and countered at every stroke . Up ran [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , in the height and crest of the wave , when backwards or forwards , crying or laughing , hung on a puff of wind . [She]_{391-mrs. shelfer} came with a commonplace motive ; [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} thought [we]_4481-us were playing at cricket with [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} beloved sticks . [Her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} arrival made a diversion , though it had no other effect , for [I]_0-i walked [the little thing]_{4484-the little thing} out , and locked the door behind [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . Then [I]_0-i got [[my]_0-i darling new cousin]_{4485-my darling new cousin} into [my]_0-i arms , and kissed [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , and marched [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} about [the room]_{823-the room} , and made [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} show [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} Vaughan instep . Excuse the petty nonsense — what [women]_5443-women are quite free from it?—but for many generations [our]_4481-us feet have been arched and pointed : of course it does not matter ; still [I]_0-i was glad that [hers]_{391-mrs. shelfer} were of the true Vaughan pattern . Then , as [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} so hated all the stuffs [they]_4488-they sell , [I]_0-i showered over [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} an entire bottle of the very best Eau de Cologne . It was a bit of bullying ; but [all girls of high spirit]_{4489-all girls of high spirit} are [bullies]_4490-bullies . And it made [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} eyes water so dreadfully , that [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} cried as hard as [I]_0-i did . It must be owned that [my]_0-i evidence at present was very shadowy . Yet to [myself]_0-i [I]_0-i seemed slow of hand for not having grasped it before . To the mind there was nothing conclusive , to the heart all was irresistible . [I]_0-i have not set down a quarter of the thoughts that now dawned upon [me]_0-i ; and it would be waste of time to recount them , when actual proof is forthcoming . And poor [Idols]_466-idols gave [me]_0-i small chance of thinking clearly , in the turbulent flood of [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} questions . " And are [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} quite sure , quite certain , [[Clara]_293-clara darling]_{8815-clara darling} , that [I]_0-i have [a lawful father]_{8816-a lawful father} , [one who is not ashamed of [me]_0-i , and was not ashamed of [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother}]_{8817-one who is not ashamed of me , and was not ashamed of my mother} ! And why did [he]_{8816-a lawful father} never come for [me]_0-i ? And do [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} think [he]_{8816-a lawful father} will love [me]_0-i ? And is dear Conrad [[my]_0-i own brother]_{8819-my own brother} ? [I]_0-i do n't seem to understand half that [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} have told [me]_0-i . "_[0-i] At length [I]_0-i knelt down , and thanked [God]_303-god — rather late in the day , [I]_0-i must own — for [His]_303-god wonderful guidance to [me]_0-i . While doing so , and remembering , as [I]_0-i always did then , [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} — revealed in sudden light [I]_0-i saw the justice of [[God]_303-god 's Providence]_{4492-god 's providence} . Long as [I]_0-i had groped and groped , with red revenge [[my]_0-i leading star]_{4493-my leading star} , no breath of love or mercy cheering the abrupt steps of [a fatalist]_{960-a fatalist} , so long had [He]_303-god vouchsafed to send [me]_0-i check and warning , more than guidance . By loss of wealth and [dearest friends]_{4495-dearest friends} , by blindness and desertion , and the crushing blow to [maiden]_6623-maiden 's pride when [her]_6623-maiden heart is flung back in [her]_6623-maiden face , by sad hours of watching and weeping over the bed of sickness , by the history of another 's wrongs — worse than [my]_0-i own , and yet forgiven — by all these means , and perhaps no less by the growth of the mind , and wider views of life , [the spirit , once so indomitable]_{4497-the spirit , once so indomitable} , had learned to bow to [its Maker]_{4498-its maker} . Stooping thus it saw the path , which stiff - necked pride could not descry . Not first and sole , as it would have been two years since , but side by side with softer thoughts , came the strong belief that now [God]_303-god had revealed to [me]_0-i [the man who slew [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father}]_{4499-the man who slew my father} . And what humiliation to all [my]_0-i boasted destiny ! [I]_0-i had grasped the hand that did the deed , smiled to the eyes that glared upon it , laughed at the sallies of the mind that shaped it . Enough of this ; ere it go too hard with Christian feeling . [My]_0-i bosom heaves , [my]_0-i throat swells , and [my]_0-i eyes flash as of old . Before [I]_0-i had time to resolve what next to do ( for [Isola]_428-isola would not let [me]_0-i think ) , [we]_4501-we had another interruption . [That girl]_{4502-that girl} had a most ill - regulated and illogical mind . And the fault was fundamental . If [the lovely senior sophist]_{4503-the lovely senior sophist} had ever got [her]_{4503-the lovely senior sophist} degree , and worn the gown of [a Maiden of Arts]_{4504-a maiden of arts} , it could only have come by favour , after the manner of kissing . [Her]_{4502-that girl} enthymems were quick enough , and a great deal too quick [I]_0-i believe ; but as for [their]_4505-their reduction or eduction into syllogisms — [we]_4501-we might as well expect [her]_{4502-that girl} to make a telescope out of [her]_{4502-that girl} boot - tags . And now at once [she]_{4502-that girl} expected , and would not give [me]_0-i room for a word , that [I]_0-i should minutely detail in two sentences , with marginal annotations , and footnotes , queries , conjectures , and various readings , all incorporated into the text , everything that had ever , anywhere , or by any means , befallen [her]_{4502-that girl} " [genuine father]_{8820-genuine father} . "_[0-i] Not being [Thucydidean]_{660-thucydidean} enough to omit the key - word in the sentence , and mash ten thoughts into one verb , [I]_0-i could not meet the emergency ; and [[my]_0-i dear cousin]_{4506-my dear cousin} lost [her]_{4506-my dear cousin} patience , which was always a very small parcel . " At any rate , [Clara]_293-clara , tell [me]_{4506-my dear cousin} one thing clearly . Are [you]_293-clara quite certain that [Conny]_427-conrad and [I]_{4506-my dear cousin} are not — not — "_{[4506-my dear cousin]} " Not base - born , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said — why be mawkish in [Oscan - English]_{258-oscan - english} , when [Saxon]_565-saxon is to be had?—"No , [[my]_0-i darling]_{5337-my darling} , [you]_293-clara are as lawful as [I]_0-i , [[your]_293-clara cousin]_{1799-your cousin} [Clara]_293-clara . [We]_8823-we [Vaughans]_398-vaughans are [a passionate race]_{8824-a passionate race} , but [we]_8823-we never make wrecks of [women]_5443-women , and [scoundrels of [ourselves]_8823-we]_{8826-scoundrels of ourselves} . That [we]_8823-we leave for [Corsicans]_{583-the corsicans} , and [people brought up to lies]_{8827-people brought up to lies} . "_[0-i] The sneer was most unjust , and dreadfully unkind , but far too natural for [me]_0-i , so long pent in , to resist it . [I]_0-i saw that [I]_0-i had grieved [[my]_0-i pet]_{5394-my pet} , so [I]_0-i begged [her]_{5394-my pet} pardon , and reviled [myself]_0-i , till all was right again . Then suddenly [she]_{5394-my pet} leaped up and cried , with [her]_{5394-my pet} hand upon [her]_{5394-my pet} bounding heart — every look and gesture must have been like [[her]_{5394-my pet} mother]_{6340-her mother} 's . " Let [me]_{5394-my pet} go now , [Clara]_293-clara . What am [I]_{5394-my pet} thinking of ? Let [me]_{5394-my pet} start at once . And [you]_293-clara say [[my]_{5394-my pet} own father]_{1038-my own father} is very ill . [He]_{1038-my own father} will die without seeing [me]_{5394-my pet} . On with [your]_293-clara things , while [I]_{5394-my pet} run to [the cab - stand]_{8829-the cab - stand} . [I]_{5394-my pet} have money enough for both . "_{[5394-my pet]} [She]_{5394-my pet} wrenched at the door - handle in [her]_{5394-my pet} hurry , forgetting that [I]_0-i had locked it ; rich colour leaped into [her]_{5394-my pet} cheeks , and [her]_{5394-my pet} features and form seemed to dance , like a flickering flame , with excitement . No wonder [[her]_{5394-my pet} mother]_{6340-her mother} had loved , and been loved , with such power of passion . " [Idols]_466-idols , take it easily , or [I]_{6340-her mother} wo n't let [you]_293-clara go at all . [I]_{6340-her mother} rather fancy , [we]_8830-we must have some evidence , before [[my]_{6340-her mother} Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} owns a little chit picked up in [London]_1-london . [He]_{1271-my uncle} is [a clever and cautious man]_{8832-a clever and cautious man} , and will expect something more convincing than [your]_293-clara beautiful eyes and sweet breath . Do [you]_293-clara expect , [[you]_293-clara impetuous jumper]_{8833-you impetuous jumper} , that [he]_{1271-my uncle} will know [you]_293-clara by instinct ? "_{[6340-her mother]} Poor little thing , how [her]_{5394-my pet} face fell , and how the roses faded out of it ! That look of hers went to [my]_0-i heart ; but [I]_0-i knew what [the mother]_{5825-the mother} had died of , and feared lest [her]_{5394-my pet} image and picture should perish in the same manner . So [I]_0-i said again : " Did [you]_293-clara suppose , [[my]_0-i dear]_{5318-my dear} , that [[your]_293-clara father]_{5365-your father} would know [you]_293-clara by instinct ? "_[0-i] " Well , perhaps [I]_0-i did , [Clara]_293-clara ; if [I]_0-i thought about it at all . [I]_0-i am sure [I]_0-i should know [him]_{5365-your father} so . "_[0-i] At this moment , two heavy knocks , like [a postman]_{4511-a postman} 's , but not so quick , sounded through [the house]_{764-the house} . [I]_0-i knew what [they]_4513-they meant , one was [Balaam]_539-balak , [the other]_{1586-the other} was [Balak]_539-balak . [Isola]_428-isola clung to [me]_0-i , and turned pale ; [she]_428-isola thought it was [some one pursuing [her]_428-isola]_{4515-some one pursuing her} . [I]_0-i told [her]_428-isola hastily whom [I]_0-i expected , and sent [her]_428-isola to [[Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's room]_{4516-mrs. shelfer 's room} . [My]_0-i heart beat high , when with many a scrape and bow , [the worthy but not ornamental pair]_{4517-the worthy but not ornamental pair} sidled heavily into [the room]_{823-the room} . To [my]_0-i greetings [they]_4513-they answered [me]_0-i never a word ; but [Balaam]_539-balak stood solemnly at the end of the little table , and beckoned to [[his]_539-balak partner]_{4519-his partner} to fasten the door . This being done with some pantomime , which meant " By [your]_539-balak leave , if [you]_539-balak please , [Miss]_5433-miss , "_{[3098-the two men]} [the two men]_{3098-the two men} , who looked none the leaner for [their]_{3098-the two men} arduous exertions , stood side by side before [me]_0-i . Tired of this nonsense [I]_0-i exclaimed impatiently , " Be quick , if [you]_539-balak please ; what is it [you]_539-balak have found out ? "_[0-i] [Balaam]_539-balak winked at [Balak]_539-balak , and receiving a ponderous nod , began to digest it leisurely . " Have [you]_539-balak brought [me]_539-balak to [London]_1-london for nothing ? What do [you]_539-balak mean by all this mummery ? [I]_539-balak shall ring the bell in a moment , and have [you]_539-balak both shown out . "_[539-balak] [Balaam]_539-balak 's tongue revolved in [his]_539-balak mouth , but burst not the bonds of speech , and [he]_539-balak tried to look straight at both windows,—till [my]_0-i hand was on the bell - pull . " [Balak]_539-balak , [I]_0-i told [you]_539-balak so . Lor , how much better it be for [you]_539-balak to take [my]_0-i advice , than for [me]_0-i to take [yourn]_8837-yourn ! [Balak]_539-balak said , [Miss]_8838-miss , as [we]_8839-we come along , [the young lady]_{5814-the young lady} would be sure to know what was right , and turn up handsome afore [she]_{5814-the young lady} asked [us]_8839-we nothing . Now , says [I]_0-i , that ai n't [the carakter of [my]_0-i experience]_{8841-the carakter of my experience} , [the women]_{5487-the women} most always wants — "_[0-i] " Here , quick , how much do [you]_539-balak want , before [I]_539-balak know what [you]_539-balak have to tell ? "_[539-balak] Here a long interchange of signals took place , and even whispering behind a hat . " Well , [Miss]_8843-miss , [I]_0-i say ten , and that quite enough till [you]_8843-miss has time to judge . But [Balak]_539-balak say nothing under twenty , considering all the beer , and some of it [country brewers]_{8844-country brewers} ' — "_[0-i] " [Your]_539-balak advice is better than [Balak]_539-balak 's ; [I]_4521-i agree with [you]_539-balak on that point ; and [I]_4521-i will take it in preference . Here are ten pounds . "_[4521-i] [He]_4521-i looked rather taken aback , but could not well get out of it . [Balak]_539-balak smiled grimly at [him]_4521-i . " If what [you]_539-balak tell [me]_539-balak proves really valuable , [I]_539-balak will give [you]_539-balak a cheque for another ninety ere long , and the residue hereafter : but not another farthing , if [you]_539-balak keep [me]_539-balak in this suspense . Do [I]_539-balak look likely to cheat [people of [[your]_539-balak class]_{8846-your class}]_{8845-people of your class} ? "_[539-balak] " No , [Miss]_8847-miss , [we]_8848-we hopes not ; nor of any other class , [I]_4521-i dare say . Still there be so many rogues in [the world]_{798-the world} — "_[4521-i] " [You]_4521-i have taken [my]_539-balak money ; speak on . "_[539-balak] What [they]_4522-they told [me]_0-i at wearisome length , and with puzzling divergence , and quantities of self - praise , need not occupy many lines . [They]_4522-they had traced the Jelly - corses , as [they]_4522-they called [Della Croce]_570-lepardo , from [Somers Town]_{4523-somers town} to [Lisson Grove]_{260-lisson grove} , where [they]_4522-they stayed but a very short time , Lepardo Della Croce , under some fictitious name , giving lessons in French , Spanish , and Italian , at [schools in [Portland Town]_{261-portland town} and [St. John 's Wood]_{262-st. john 's wood}]_{4524-schools in portland town and st. john 's wood} . But [he]_4525-his only seemed to play with [his]_4525-his work , though [he]_4525-his never broke any engagement to which [he]_4525-his really pledged [himself]_4525-his . [He]_4525-his was always reserved and silent , accepted no invitations , and gathered [his]_4525-his real subsistence by night at chess - clubs and [billiard - rooms]_{4526-billiard - rooms} , where [his]_4525-his skill was unequalled . [[His]_4525-his only friends]_{4527-his only friends} were [Italian refugees]_{6566-italian refugees} , [his]_4525-his only diversion the vivisection of animals . It must have been about this time that [he]_4525-his saw the newspaper paragraph , and did what [he]_4525-his did to [me]_0-i . Then [he]_4525-his changed [his]_4525-his name again , and lived awhile in [Kensington]_{263-kensington} ; [he]_4525-his had been in [London]_1-london years before , and seemed to know it well . [Here]_846-here [a nobleman]_{4530-a nobleman} , whom [he]_4525-his had taught some new device at billiards , took [him]_4525-his up and introduced [him]_4525-his to [a higher class of pupils]_{4531-a higher class of pupils} , and obtained [him]_4525-his some back - door palace appointment . [He]_4525-his dubbed [himself]_4525-his " [Professor]_{8850-professor} , "_[4525-his] and started as [Dr. Ross]_{470-dr. ross} . But still [he]_4525-his missed the excitement and change of [his]_4525-his once adventurous life , and several times [he]_4525-his broke loose , and left [[his]_4525-his household]_{4532-his household} , for weeks and months together . Then [the two lovely children , whom all admired but none were allowed to notice]_{4533-the two lovely children , whom all admired but none were allowed to notice} , were attended wherever [they]_{4533-the two lovely children , whom all admired but none were allowed to notice} went , by [a dark - browed Italian woman]_{4534-a dark - browed italian woman} . Suddenly [they]_{4533-the two lovely children , whom all admired but none were allowed to notice} all left [Kensington]_{263-kensington} , and went to live at [Ball 's Pond]_{264-ball 's pond} ; the reason being some threatened exposure of [the Professor]_{2125-the professor} 's cat - skinning propensities . [His]_4525-his love of vivisection had become the master - passion , and [he]_4525-his would gratify it at all hazards . There is to some natures a strange fascination in the horrible cruelties perpetrated under the name of science . Through its influence [he]_4525-his even relaxed [his]_4525-his strict reserve a little , and formed the acquaintance of [a gentleman connected with [the college at [Camden Town]_{73-camden town}]_{4537-the college at camden town} ; to which suburb after a while [he]_4525-his removed , because [he]_4525-his found it impossible to pursue [his]_4525-his inhuman researches under [his]_4525-his own roof comfortably . [Here]_846-here , by means of [[his]_4525-his new ally]_{4539-his new ally} , who could not help admiring [his]_4525-his infinitely superior skill , [he]_4525-his was appointed lecturer at [several schools for]_{4540-several schools for} [young ladies , where smatterings of science were dealt in]_{4541-young ladies , where smatterings of science were dealt in}]_{4536-a gentleman connected with the college at camden town ; to which suburb after a while he removed , because he found it impossible to pursue his inhuman researches under his own roof comfortably . here , by means of his new ally , who could not help admiring his infinitely superior skill , he was appointed lecturer at several schools for young ladies , where smatterings of science were dealt in} . And now [he]_4525-his was highly respected by [people who did not know [him]_4525-his , and idolised by [young ladies]_{2104-young ladies} too clever to care for [pet parsons]_{4544-pet parsons}]_{4542-people who did not know him , and idolised by young ladies too clever to care for pet parsons} . Of course [he]_4525-his became conceited ; for [his]_4525-his nature was but a shallow one , and [his]_4525-his cunning , though sharp and poisonous , had no solid barb at the end . So [he]_4525-his sneered , and grimaced , and sniggered , and before [an ignorant audience]_{4545-an ignorant audience} made [learned men]_{4546-learned men} stammer and stutter , amazed at [his]_4525-his bold assumptions , and too honest and large of mind to suspect [them]_{4546-learned men} , at short notice . But the skill of [his]_4525-his hands was genuine , and [his]_4525-his power of sight most wonderful . [I]_0-i have since been told — though [I]_0-i do not believe it possible — that [he]_4525-his once withdrew and bottled nearly half the lungs of a dog , tubercular after distemper , while [the poor sufferer]_{4547-the poor sufferer} still gasped on , and tried to lick [his]_4525-his face . Oh that [I]_0-i were [a man]_{5384-a man} ! How can [I]_0-i hear such things and not swear ? All animals , except [one]_6186-one , hated [him]_4525-his by instinct . [The only one]_{4550-the only one} , not sagacious enough to know [him]_4525-his , was [[his]_4525-his fellow - man]_{4551-his fellow - man} . [Men]_1003-men , or at any rate [women]_5443-women , thought [him]_4525-his [a handsome , lively , playful , and brilliant being]_{4554-a handsome , lively , playful , and brilliant being} . And yet , upon the honour of [a lady]_{5829-a lady} [I]_0-i declare — let [those who know nothing of honour]_{4556-those who know nothing of honour} despise it as an after - thought — that when [he]_4525-his first entered [[my]_0-i room]_{986-my room} , in [his]_4525-his graceful and elegant way , there ran through [me]_0-i such a shudder as first turns the leaves towards autumn , such a chill of the spinal marrow as makes the aura of epilepsy . [Darling Judy]_477-judy hated [him]_4525-his from every bristle of [his]_4525-his body , not only through instinct , but for certain excellent reasons . [[The monster]_{4558-the monster} 's most intimate friend]_{4559-the monster 's most intimate friend} was [a gallant Polish patriot , who had sacrificed all for [his]_{4560-a gallant polish patriot , who had sacrificed all for his country} country]_{4560-a gallant polish patriot , who had sacrificed all for his country} , and lived [here]_846-here in dignified poverty . [This gentleman]_{7140-this gentleman} and [[his]_{7140-this gentleman} wife]_{789-his wife} could only afford one luxury ; and that , by denying [themselves]_{4564-themselves} many a little comfort . [They]_{4564-themselves} had the finest dog in [London]_1-london , [one who had saved [[his]_{4560-a gallant polish patriot , who had sacrificed all for his country} master]_{827-his master} 's life from [the squat - nosed sons of [the Czar]_{4568-the czar}]_{4567-the squat - nosed sons of the czar}]_{4565-one who had saved his master 's life from the squat - nosed sons of the czar} . [This glorious fellow , of Maltese family]_{4569-this glorious fellow , of maltese family} , was [the father of [[my]_0-i Giudice]_{4571-my giudice} — whom in [his]_{4571-my giudice} puppy days [the Polish exile]_{4572-the polish exile} gave to [Conrad]_427-conrad and pretty girl [Isola]_428-isola]_{4570-the father of my giudice — whom in his puppy days the polish exile gave to conrad and pretty girl isola} . [Slowski]_661-slowski , now [an ancient dog]_{4573-an ancient dog} , had a wen behind [his]_661-slowski shoulder , which grew and grew until [the Professor]_{2125-the professor} could scarcely keep [his]_{2125-the professor} hands from it . But [he]_{2125-the professor} knew that any operation , in so severe a case , was nearly sure to kill a dog so old and weather - beaten . [The owner]_{6873-the owner} too knew this , and would not have it meddled with . [Lepardo Della Croce]_570-lepardo swore at last that [he]_{2125-the professor} would taste no food until [he]_{2125-the professor} had traced the roots of that wen . [Judy]_477-judy , then [a pretty pup]_{4576-a pretty pup} , gambolled into [the room]_{823-the room} and saw [[his]_477-judy poor papa]_{4578-his poor papa} — but [I]_0-i will not describe what a dog can not even bear to think of . [Poor Slowski]_661-slowski died that night , and [the Pole]_{4579-the pole} knocked down [the surviving brute]_{4580-the surviving brute} , who shot [him]_661-slowski next day upon [Hampstead Heath]_{265-hampstead heath} . However , [the gentleman]_{6124-the gentleman} slowly recovered ; but during [his]_{6124-the gentleman} illness [the frenzied wife]_{4582-the frenzied wife} overstepped the bounds of honour — according to [their]_4583-their ideas ; [she]_{4582-the frenzied wife} took advantage of [Cora]_{585-old cora} , in the absence of [Lepardo]_570-lepardo , and learned some of [his]_{6124-the gentleman} previous crimes , by practising on [the poor woman]_{3698-the poor woman} 's superstition . Then [she]_{4582-the frenzied wife} found , through the firm of [Green]_575-green , [Vowler]_578-vowler , and [Green]_575-green , that [[my]_0-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} was still alive , traced out the history of the atrocious deed , and wrote the letter which had brought [me]_0-i to [London]_1-london . Soon afterwards , when [[her]_{4582-the frenzied wife} husband]_{6140-her husband} recovered , [she]_{4582-the frenzied wife} was sorry for what [she]_{4582-the frenzied wife} had done , and opened [her]_{4582-the frenzied wife} lips on the subject no more ; at least in [this country]_{1963-this country} , which [they]_4583-their soon forsook for [America]_56-america . In this brief epitome , [I]_0-i have told , for the purpose of saving trouble , a great deal more than [I]_0-i learned at the time , a great deal more than [Balaam]_539-balak and [Balak]_539-balak would have found out in a twelvemonth . But it makes no difference : for [my]_0-i conclusions and actions were just the same as they would have been , if [I]_0-i had known all the above . " And so [you]_8851-you see , [Miss"—was_[539-balak] Balaam]_{662-miss"—was balaam} 's peroration—"we have had a downy cove to deal with , for all [his]_539-balak furious temper . [Lor]_393-lor now , [I]_539-balak never believe [any Bobby]_{8852-any bobby} would have discovered [him]_539-balak ; but [we]_8853-we has ways , [Miss]_8854-miss , what with the carpets and [the sofys]_{8855-the sofys} , and always knowing the best pump at the bar , [gentlemen of [our]_8853-we profession]_{8856-gentlemen of our profession} has ways that [no Peeler]_{8857-no peeler} would ever dream of . And now , [Miss]_8858-miss , the ink is on the table , and both of [us]_8853-we wishes [you]_8851-you joy — didn't [you]_8851-you say so , [Balak?—if]_{663-balak?—if} [you]_8851-you only think [we]_8853-we has earned that cheque for 90*l . * , and the rest , please [God]_303-god , when [the gentleman]_{6124-the gentleman} feel [Jack Ketch]_374-jack . "_[539-balak] " [You]_8851-you shall have the money soon , if not now . For [I]_{662-miss"—was balaam} believe [you]_8851-you have deserved it . But [I]_{662-miss"—was balaam} must trouble [you]_8851-you first to write down briefly what [you]_8851-you have told [me]_{662-miss"—was balaam} , and to sign it in full . It is not for [myself]_{662-miss"—was balaam} . [I]_{662-miss"—was balaam} remember every word . It is for the satisfaction of [a gentleman who can not see [you]_8851-you]_{8860-a gentleman who can not see you} . "_{[662-miss"—was balaam]} [Balaam]_{662-miss"—was balaam} and [Balak]_539-balak looked very blank , and declared it would take [them]_4588-them a week to write out half [they]_4588-them had told [me]_0-i . This objection [I]_0-i soon removed , by offering to make an abstract of it , which [I]_0-i could do from memory , and then let [them]_4588-them read and sign it . By this time [they]_4588-them were both afflicted with thirst , which [I]_0-i sent [them]_4588-them away to quench , while [I]_0-i drew up a rough deposition . But first [I]_0-i called [darling Idols]_466-idols , and told [her]_466-idols that now [I]_0-i had evidence which would satisfy even [a sceptical father]_{4589-a sceptical father} . " And surely , [[my]_466-idols pet]_{5394-my pet} , [you]_{5394-my pet} [yourself]_{5394-my pet} must have something ; some relic , or token , to help [us]_8862-us . "_[466-idols] " No , [cousin Clara]_293-clara , [I]_466-idols ca n't think of anything , except this little charm , which has been round [my]_466-idols neck for years , and which [I]_466-idols have shown [you]_{5394-my pet} before : but [I]_466-idols fear it is not uncommon . [He]_427-conrad took it away from [me]_466-idols once , but [I]_466-idols managed to steal it back again . "_[466-idols] The charm was a piece of chalcedony , ground into some resemblance which [I]_0-i could not recognise then , and very highly polished . [She]_466-idols said it had been [[her]_466-idols brother]_{6430-her brother} [Conrad]_427-conrad 's , and [he]_427-conrad had given it to [her]_466-idols ; hearing which [I]_0-i ceased to examine it . Presently [the bailiffs]_{7433-the bailiffs} returned , in very high spirits indeed , and ready to sign almost anything . But [I]_0-i took good care to inform [them]_{7433-the bailiffs} that , however hard [they]_{7433-the bailiffs} had laboured , [I]_0-i had made the discovery before [them]_{7433-the bailiffs} ; which [they]_{7433-the bailiffs} said was permiscuous , and not to be thought nothing of . All the forms being quickly despatched , [I]_0-i found a few minutes to think what was next to be done . It is too late in [my]_0-i journey for dalliance and embarrassment with the heavy luggage of motives , and the bandboxes of reflections , when [we]_4592-we are past [the last station]_{4593-the last station} , and flying to [[our]_4592-we terminus]_{4594-our terminus} : enough that [I]_0-i resolved to take [poor little Isola]_428-isola [home]_1102-home at once to [the house at [Vaughan St. Mary]_{18-vaughan st. mary}]_{4596-the house at vaughan st. mary} , and the arms of [[her]_428-isola longing father]_{4597-her longing father} , that [he]_{4597-her longing father} might see [her]_428-isola before [he]_{4597-her longing father} died . [I]_0-i hoped [he]_{4597-her longing father} might live for years , but [I]_0-i feared [he]_{4597-her longing father} might die to - morrow ; so hangs over [every one]_{1982-every one} 's mind that fatal third stroke of paralysis . [Her]_428-isola own entreaties and coaxing told much upon [my]_0-i resolution ; if none could resist [her]_428-isola when happy , who could withstand [her]_428-isola distress ? So [Balaam]_539-balak and [Balak]_539-balak were ordered most strictly to watch [[that demon]_{4599-that demon} 's abode]_{4600-that demon 's abode} , and at any risk give [him]_{4597-her longing father} in charge if [he]_{4597-her longing father} made attempt at departure . To ensure due vigilance , [I]_0-i reclaimed the 90*l . * cheque , and gave one payable three days afterwards . [They]_4601-they grumbled and did not like it ; but in the course of all [my]_0-i rough usage , [I]_0-i had learned one great maxim — Never trust , beyond the length of a cork , [any man who is slave to the bottle . Eager as [Isola]_428-isola was to see [[her]_428-isola true father]_{4603-her true father}]_{4602-any man who is slave to the bottle . eager as isola was to see her true father} at last , [she]_428-isola pressed [me]_0-i strongly to call at [[[her]_428-isola brother]_{6430-her brother} 's lodgings]_{4605-her brother 's lodgings} on [our]_4606-our way to [Paddington]_{246-paddington} , and take [him]_{6430-her brother} with [us]_4606-our if possible ; or at any rate learn where [he]_{6430-her brother} was , and how long [he]_{6430-her brother} would be absent . But [I]_0-i refused to do anything of the kind . Though not half so proud as of old , [I]_0-i could not quite stoop to that . " [You]_0-i know , [dear]_5871-dear , "_[428-isola] [she]_428-isola continued , " [Conny]_427-conrad will think it unfair of [me]_428-isola to get such a start of [him]_{6430-her brother} with [the real good Papa]_{8864-the real good papa} ; and it would be so much nicer to have [him]_{6430-her brother} there to help . And [I]_428-isola am terribly frightened , though of course [you]_0-i ca n't understand it . "_[428-isola] " [Isola]_428-isola , no more nonsense . For [your]_0-i sake , and [[my]_428-isola poor Uncle]_{2919-my poor uncle} 's , [I]_428-isola would do anything honest and proper : but neither can [I]_428-isola travel with [[your]_0-i brother]_{1415-your brother} [Conrad]_427-conrad , nor can [I]_428-isola go near [[his]_427-conrad lodgings]_{8867-his lodgings} . [I]_428-isola am not quite reduced to that , however [I]_428-isola am trampled on . "_[428-isola] " But , [darling]_6257-darling , [they]_8869-they need not see [you]_6257-darling . And [you]_6257-darling know [he]_4607-he has made some wonderful mistake . "_[428-isola] Of course [I]_0-i knew it , and told [myself]_0-i so fifty times in a minute ; but it was a likely thing that [I]_0-i would tell [[his]_4607-he sister]_{2443-his sister} so . " [He]_4607-he has , indeed , a very grave mistake , if [he]_4607-he ever thinks [I]_0-i will forgive [him]_4607-he . No mistake ever made by [man]_5770-man can be pleaded for what [he]_5770-man has done . Even if [he]_4607-he believed , by some excess of absurdity , that [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} had murdered [his]_4607-he , instead of [his]_4607-he murdering [mine]_0-i ( which was much nearer the mark ) , would even that justify [his]_4607-he rudeness , low rudeness , and personal violence to [a lady]_{5829-a lady} ? What [he]_4607-he did [I]_0-i never told [you]_{2443-his sister} ; and [he]_4607-he , [I]_0-i should hope , was too much ashamed to speak of it : why [he]_4607-he actually pushed [me]_0-i ; thrust [me]_0-i , [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara , away from [him]_4607-he , till [I]_0-i almost fell on the floor ! "_[0-i] " Oh , [Donna]_476-donna , how [your]_476-donna eyes flash ! And [you]_476-donna call [me]_4607-he excitable ! Let [me]_4607-he put [your]_476-donna hair back . There now , give [me]_4607-he a kiss . [I]_4607-he am so sorry for [Conny]_427-conrad . [He]_427-conrad loves [you]_476-donna with all [his]_427-conrad heart , and [you]_476-donna look as if [you]_476-donna could kill [him]_427-conrad . But no doubt [the new good papa]_{8873-the new good papa} will put every thing to rights . "_[4607-he] " Will [he]_427-conrad indeed ? Let [us]_4609-our go and see . "_[0-i] [We]_4609-our got to [Paddington]_{246-paddington} just in time to catch [the two o'clock train]_{4610-the two o'clock train} , having telegraphed first to [[my]_0-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} that [I]_0-i was coming to take [his]_{1271-my uncle} advice , before doing anything more . This was true , so far as it went , and as much of the truth as [I]_0-i then dared to administer . This message was sent , not for the sake of finding [the carriage]_{6087-the carriage} at [Gloucester]_{23-gloucester} , but in order to break the suddenness of [our]_4609-our arrival . Through all [my]_0-i joy [I]_0-i dreaded what was to come , and knew not how to manage it . [Idols]_466-idols talked fast enough all the way down the line . As yet [she]_4613-she had seen scarcely anything of [our]_4609-our quiet , rich English scenery ; and although [the Great Western]_{4614-the great western} exhibits it rather flatly , some parts there are , below [Swindon]_266-swindon , which fill the mind with content . But [our]_4609-our minds could not be so filled , being full of excitement already . Near [Stroud poor Idols]_{664-stroud poor idols} was in the greatest ecstasy , and expected [me]_0-i to know [the owner of [every pretty meadow]_{4616-every pretty meadow}]_{4615-the owner of every pretty meadow} . But after [we]_4609-our entered [[my]_0-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's carriage — or [mine]_0-i , [I]_0-i suppose , it should now be called — dear [Isola]_428-isola fell away into the deepest silence . [She]_428-isola stored [her]_428-isola wonder inwardly , nor showed the sweet depths of [her]_428-isola eyes , until [she]_428-isola sprang out at the foot of the old stone steps , trodden by so many hundreds of [[her]_428-isola ancestors]_{4618-her ancestors} . Then [she]_428-isola looked up at [the long gray house]_{4619-the long gray house} , with the dusk of July around [it]_{4619-the long gray house} , and bats of three varieties flitting about [the gables]_{4620-the gables} ; and [I]_0-i saw beneath [her]_428-isola dark eye - lashes the tremulous light of a tear . After leading [[my]_0-i sweet new cousin]_{4621-my sweet new cousin} — whom [everybody]_{6273-everybody} stared at , and who feared to look at [the pavement]_{2025-the pavement} — to [[my]_0-i own snug quarters]_{4624-my own snug quarters} , [I]_0-i left [her]_428-isola there under kind [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} 's charge , and ran to [[[my]_0-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's favourite room]_{4626-my uncle 's favourite room} . Already [my]_0-i breath was short , and [my]_0-i heart up and down with excitement , and [I]_0-i had but the presence of mind to know that [I]_0-i was sure to make a mistake of it . [I]_0-i saw a great change in [him]_{1271-my uncle} , even since the Monday ; but [he]_{1271-my uncle} was the first to speak . " [[My]_{1271-my uncle} dear child]_{2385-my dear child} , kiss [me]_{1271-my uncle} again . [You]_{2385-my dear child} are nearly as tall as [I]_{1271-my uncle} am , since [my]_{1271-my uncle} upright ways have departed . From the moment [you]_{2385-my dear child} went away , [I]_{1271-my uncle} have done nothing but miss [you]_{2385-my dear child} , every hour and every minute ; and last night [I]_{1271-my uncle} slept never a single wink . Let [us]_8875-us give it up , [[my]_{1271-my uncle} darling]_{5337-my darling} . [God]_303-god has sent [you]_{2385-my dear child} to [me]_{1271-my uncle} to make up for both [daughter]_{8037-daughter} and [son]_8878-son . "_{[1271-my uncle]} " Well , [Uncle]_1284-uncle , that 's all very fine , but [I]_0-i doubt it strongly . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i was forced to be flippant a little , for fear of breaking down . " It is [my]_4627-you firm belief that [proud Clara]_293-clara will still have to wash at the pump . "_[4627-you] [He]_4627-you knew what [I]_0-i meant ; it was an old tale , in [[our]_4628-our neighbourhood]_{905-our neighbourhood} , of [[a nobleman]_{4530-a nobleman} 's second wife]_{4631-a nobleman 's second wife} who would not allow [[her]_{4631-a nobleman 's second wife} step - children]_{4632-her step - children} even the use of a yellow basin . " What ! do [you]_0-i mean to say"—and_[4627-you] [he]_4627-you began to tremble exceedingly—"that [you]_0-i have found any trace , any clue even , to [[my]_4627-you poor darlings]_{8880-my poor darlings} ? "_[4627-you] " Yes , thank [God]_303-god , [I]_4627-you have . Oh , [Uncle]_1284-uncle , [I]_4627-you am so glad ! "_[4627-you] And [I]_0-i threw [myself]_0-i into [his]_4627-you arms : [his]_4627-you head fell heavily on [my]_0-i shoulder , and [I]_0-i felt that [I]_0-i had been too sudden . [He]_4627-you could not speak , but fetched one long sob . [I]_0-i parted [his]_4627-you white hair , and looked at [him]_4627-you as if in surprise at [his]_4627-you hastiness . " [Dear Uncle]_{3045-dear uncle} , [we]_8883-we must not be certain yet . [I]_0-i mean that [I]_0-i have found something , or fancy [I]_0-i have found something , which — which — [I]_0-i mean if properly followed up — may lead in time — but [you]_4627-you know how sanguine [I]_0-i am . "_[0-i] " [Clara]_293-clara , [you]_4627-you are playing with [me]_0-i . It is a mistake to do so . [I]_0-i can not bear it , [child]_5440-child . But the sudden shock [I]_0-i can bear . Let [me]_0-i know all at once . Are [they]_8885-them alive or dead ? "_[0-i] " Alive , [I]_4633-his think , [dear Uncle]_{3045-dear uncle} ; and [I]_4633-his hope to find [them]_8885-them soon , if [you]_4627-you will calmly advise [me]_4633-his . "_[4633-his] " [You]_4633-his have found [them]_8885-them . No more fencing . [I]_4633-his know it by [your]_4627-you eyes . All the truth this moment , unless [you]_4627-you wish to kill [me]_4633-his . "_[4633-his] [He]_4633-his stood up as if to seize [me]_0-i , for [I]_0-i had withdrawn from [his]_4633-his grasp , but [his]_4633-his poor legs would not carry [him]_4633-his ; so [I]_0-i was obliged to seize [him]_4633-his instead . [He]_4633-his fell sideways on a chair , and vainly tried to speak ; but [his]_4633-his eyes never faltered from [mine]_0-i . " [Dearest Uncle]_{8887-dearest uncle} , [I]_4633-his tell [you]_4627-you the truth . Of course [I]_4633-his can not be certain yet , and it wo n't do to make a mistake ; and so [I]_4633-his want more evidence . "_[4633-his] " [I]_4633-his want no more . Only let [me]_4633-his see [them]_8888-them . "_[4633-his] [He]_4633-his spoke very slowly , and the muscles of [his]_4633-his face twitched at every word . " Now , keep [your]_4633-his mind calm and clear , to help [me]_4633-his , [[my]_4633-his dear Uncle]_{8889-my dear uncle} ; for [I]_4633-his know not what to do . Have [you]_4633-his anything , any tokens at all , of [[their]_8888-them beloved mother]_{8890-their beloved mother} ? "_[4633-his] [My]_0-i object was to divert [his]_4633-his mind , for [I]_0-i saw the approach of coma , and now trembled more than [he]_4633-his did . With a feeble smile at the folly of [my]_0-i question , after such a love as [his]_4633-his , [he]_4633-his answered in great exhaustion , " Take the key from [my]_4633-his neck . [You]_0-i know the large black box in — in — "_[4633-his] Here [his]_4633-his chin fell on [his]_4633-his breast , and [he]_4633-his could not lift the key , but [his]_4633-his eyes still shone with intelligence , and followed [me]_0-i everywhere . [Ribbon]_665-ribbon and all [I]_0-i took the key , and rang the bell for [Jane]_347-jane , [the most careful and kind of nurses]_{4634-the most careful and kind of nurses} . [I]_0-i ordered [her]_347-jane , in a whisper , to give [[my]_0-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} a glass of very strong brandy and water , if [she]_347-jane could get [him]_4633-his to swallow it ; and away [I]_0-i ran [upstairs]_{6042-upstairs} , hoping to relieve [him]_4633-his . Then suddenly it struck [me]_0-i that [I]_0-i had no right to open that box , without the presence of [a competent witness]_{4637-a competent witness} . [I]_0-i knew at once what box it was , from the constant anxiety [[my]_0-i poor Uncle]_{2919-my poor uncle} had shown about it . Who had such right to be [[my]_0-i witness]_{4639-my witness} as [[his]_{2919-my poor uncle} darling daughter]_{4640-his darling daughter} ? So back [I]_0-i flew to [[my]_0-i own rooms]_{4641-my own rooms} , and dragged the bewildered [Isola]_428-isola down [the broad corridor]_{4642-the broad corridor} . [The poor little thing]_{5327-the poor little thing} was frightened so that [she]_{5327-the poor little thing} could hardly breathe . [I]_0-i had no especial object in opening that old box , at that particular moment , much as [I]_0-i had often longed to know what [its]_4644-its contents were . [My]_0-i presence of mind was lost , and all [I]_0-i could think of was , that [I]_0-i might find something there to break that awful suspension of life , so likely to end in death . The box was in a panelled closet by the head of [[[my]_0-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's bed]_{4646-my uncle 's bed} . When [I]_0-i handed [Idols]_466-idols the light to hold , [she]_466-idols took it as if in a dream ; [her]_466-idols cheeks were as white and transparent as the wax , and [she]_466-idols held the candle so that a hot flake splashed on [my]_0-i neck . The lock of the long box turned most easily , and the hinges moved without creaking : most likely it had been pored over every day , for many years . The lid was arched and hollow , with straps of faded web inside it . In beautiful order , so fair that [I]_0-i hardly dared to touch them , lay the clothes and trinkets , the letters and little relics , the gloves and pocket - handkerchiefs , the fairy slippers , the wedding - dress , the coquettish veil , and saucy hat of the dead . [I]_0-i am not over sensitive , thank [God]_303-god , or [I]_0-i should not be living now ; but the sight of those things upset [me]_0-i more than any distress of [my]_0-i own . The small parcels of silver paper , screwed at the end and pinned in the middle , the pins put stupidly as [men]_1003-men always put them , the light gay dresses made for some sweet figure , folded with such care , and yet quite out of the plaits , and labelled with the dates when last [the dear one]_{4648-the dear one} wore them , even a withered fern - wreath and a sprig of shrivelled myrtle — [I]_0-i could not thrust [my]_0-i commonplace hands into these holy treasures ; if [I]_0-i could [I]_0-i should never deserve to be [myself]_0-i so remembered . But one thing struck [me]_0-i , as thoughts profane always strike [us]_4649-us crookedly ; if [the poor lady]_{4650-the poor lady} could have been wept to life again , how much better would [she]_{4650-the poor lady} have found all [her]_{4650-the poor lady} things arranged , than [she]_{4650-the poor lady} had ever kept them ! That is to say if [she]_{4650-the poor lady} resembled [[her]_{4650-the poor lady} wondering and crying daughter]_{4651-her wondering and crying daughter} , who knelt down and wanted to kiss every article in the box . [Her]_{4650-the poor lady} little white hands were as busy as mice among them ; and long - drawn sobs were tumbled with interjections . " Now , [[my]_4652-he dearest]_{8764-my dearest} [Idols]_466-idols , [you]_466-idols must not disturb these things . [[Your]_466-idols father]_{5365-your father} will be so vexed . "_[4652-he] Would [he]_4652-he though?—said [I]_0-i to [myself]_0-i — not if [he]_4652-he knew whose hand it was that did it . [She]_{4650-the poor lady} paid no attention to [me]_0-i . " Now just put back that silver knife , with the bit of peach - skin upon it : and leave the stone as it was . "_{[4650-the poor lady]} To [my]_0-i surprise [she]_{4650-the poor lady} began to suck the stone , which [[her]_{4650-the poor lady} mother]_{6340-her mother} perhaps had sucked , eighteen years ago . Inside the paper was written , " Knife and peach - stone found in [my]_{4650-the poor lady} [Lily]_592-lily 's pocket . The stone was meant for [me]_{4650-the poor lady} to set . [I]_{4650-the poor lady} will plant it , when [I]_{4650-the poor lady} have found [[her]_{6340-her mother} children]_{3839-her children} . E.V. , January , 1834 . "_{[4650-the poor lady]} " Now , [[you]_{4650-the poor lady} foolish child]_{8894-you foolish child} , [you]_{4650-the poor lady} are really too bad . "_[0-i] And with that [I]_0-i gave [her]_{4650-the poor lady} a little push . In [her]_{4650-the poor lady} heedless way , [she]_{4650-the poor lady} fell almost into the box , and [her]_{4650-the poor lady} light form lay amongst [[her]_{4650-the poor lady} mother]_{6340-her mother} 's dresses . A sudden thought flashed across [me]_0-i . " [Isola]_428-isola , off with that nasty dark frock ! "_[0-i] " Nasty , indeed , [Clara]_293-clara ! Why [you]_293-clara said this morning how very pretty it was . "_{[4650-the poor lady]} " What has that to do with it ? Pull it off , or [I]_0-i 'll tear it . Now , out with the other arm . "_[0-i] In a moment or two , [I]_0-i had all [her]_{4650-the poor lady} beauty gleaming in white before [me]_0-i ; and carefully taking from the box a frock of pale blue silk , [I]_0-i lifted it over [her]_{4650-the poor lady} head , and drew [her]_{4650-the poor lady} dimpled arms through the sleeves ; then [I]_0-i fixed it in front with the turquoise buttons , and buckled the slender zone . [Her]_{4650-the poor lady} blue eyes looked on in amazement , like violets at a snow - storm . Then [I]_0-i led [her]_{4650-the poor lady} to the mirror , and proud as [we]_4655-us both had always been of [her]_{4650-the poor lady} beauty , the same thought struck [us]_4655-us now . [I]_0-i saw it in the mirror , by the toss of [her]_{4650-the poor lady} pointed chin and the coy bend of [her]_{4650-the poor lady} neck : [she]_{4650-the poor lady} saw it there as clearly , by the flash of [my]_0-i tear - bright eyes . Neither of [us]_4655-us had ever seen [that loveliest of [all girls]_{4657-all girls}]_{4656-that loveliest of all girls} look half so lovely before . The glow of pride and beauty 's glory mantled in [her]_{4650-the poor lady} cheeks ; and [her]_{4650-the poor lady} eyes were softly beaming down the avenue of lashes , from clearest depths of azure . [I]_0-i never saw such eyes as [she]_{4650-the poor lady} had , among all [our]_4655-us English beauties . Some perhaps are as fine of colour , and as liquid , though not so lustrous : but the exquisite arch of the upper lid , and the rich short fringe of the lower , cast a tremulous light and shade , which dull [Anglo - Saxons]_{666-anglo - saxons} feel not . Like moonbeams playing through a mantled bridge . The dress fitted [her]_{4650-the poor lady} exactly . It had been made for a slender , buoyant figure , as graceful and pure as a snow - wreath , yet full of warm motion and richness . Indeed , [I]_0-i must confess , that , although correct enough for the time and clime of [the owner]_{6873-the owner} , it showed too much of the lifting snow for [our]_4655-us conceptions of maidenhood : so [I]_0-i drew a gauzy scarf — perhaps a true fazoletto — over the velvet slope of the shoulders , and imprisoned it in [the valley]_{1708-the valley} . This being nicely arranged , [I]_0-i hung [her]_{4650-the poor lady} chalcedony charm from [her]_{4650-the poor lady} neck , and fastened it to [her]_{4650-the poor lady} waist - band . Then [I]_0-i caught up [her]_{4650-the poor lady} clustering hair , nearly as thick and long as [my]_0-i own , after the Corsican fashion , snooded it close in ripples with a pink and white - striped mandile , and told [her]_{4650-the poor lady} to love [herself]_{4650-the poor lady} in the glass , while [I]_0-i ran off to [the hot - house]_{4660-the hot - house} for a truss of Stephanotis . This , with a glossy sprig of Gardenia leaves to back it , [I]_0-i fastened cleverly into the clear mandile , on the curve of [her]_{4650-the poor lady} elegant head , and [[my]_0-i darling]_{5337-my darling} was complete . Then [I]_0-i kissed [her]_{4650-the poor lady} sweet lips , and admired [her]_{4650-the poor lady} , more than [she]_{4650-the poor lady} admired [herself]_{4650-the poor lady} . " [Clara]_293-clara , it does not matter how much trouble [you]_293-clara take ; [you]_293-clara ca n't make [me]_{4650-the poor lady} look a quarter so well as [you]_293-clara do . "_{[4650-the poor lady]} " Not quite so tall , [[my]_{5337-my darling} darling]_{5337-my darling} , nor anything like so naughty ; but a thousand times more lovely . "_{[5337-my darling]} " Well , [I]_{4650-the poor lady} wish [I]_{4650-the poor lady} could think so . [I]_{4650-the poor lady} am always longing to change with [you]_293-clara . "_{[4650-the poor lady]} " Do n't talk nonsense , [[my]_0-i pretty]_{8768-my pretty} ; if [I]_0-i were [a man]_{5384-a man} [I]_0-i should die for [you]_4662-her . Now [I]_0-i glory in [you]_4662-her as a [Vaughan]_293-clara . Come along . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i led [her]_4662-her through [the gallery]_{4663-the gallery} and to the door of [[[her]_4662-her father]_{898-her father} 's room]_{4665-her father 's room} , before [she]_4662-her had time to think . [She]_4662-her did not know but what [I]_0-i was taking [her]_4662-her back to [[my]_0-i own rooms]_{4641-my own rooms} , along [another passage]_{4667-another passage} . At [the sick man]_{4668-the sick man} 's door [I]_0-i left [her]_4662-her , while [I]_0-i went in to see how much might be safely ventured . [[My]_0-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} was leaning back in [his]_{1271-my uncle} deep reclining chair , with [his]_{1271-my uncle} weak eyes fixed most eagerly on the door . In vain [he]_{1271-my uncle} strove to hide [his]_{1271-my uncle} disappointment , and to look at [me]_0-i with gratitude . [The wandering mind]_{4670-the wandering mind} too plainly hoped for something dearer than [[a brother]_{3640-a brother} 's child]_{4672-a brother 's child} . Dismissing [Jane]_347-jane through [the other room]_{4673-the other room} , that [she]_347-jane might not encounter [Isola]_428-isola , [I]_0-i sat down to examine [him]_{1271-my uncle} . The brandy and water had rallied [his]_{1271-my uncle} vital power , but made [him]_{1271-my uncle} hot and feverish . [He]_{1271-my uncle} kissed [my]_0-i hand to atone for some sharp and impatient expressions , and [I]_0-i saw that the moment was favourable . " [Uncle dear]_{7386-uncle dear} , what will [you]_{7386-uncle dear} say to [me]_{1271-my uncle} ? [I]_{1271-my uncle} have brought [you]_{7386-uncle dear} [another new visitor]_{8899-another new visitor} , [the loveliest girl in [London]_1-london]_{8900-the loveliest girl in london} . [You]_{7386-uncle dear} know [her]_{8900-the loveliest girl in london} well by name . [You]_{7386-uncle dear} have often longed to see [my]_{1271-my uncle} sweet darling [Isola]_428-isola . And [she]_{8900-the loveliest girl in london} wants to see [you]_{7386-uncle dear} so much . Only [you]_{7386-uncle dear} must promise [me]_{1271-my uncle} one thing honourably . Be gay and sprightly with [her]_{8900-the loveliest girl in london} ; [she]_{8900-the loveliest girl in london} is timid in [this old house]_{8901-this old house} . "_{[1271-my uncle]} " [[My]_{1271-my uncle} dear]_{5318-my dear} , [I]_{1271-my uncle} ca n't see [her]_{8900-the loveliest girl in london} to - night . [You]_{7386-uncle dear} do n't mean that of course . Give [her]_{8900-the loveliest girl in london} [my]_{1271-my uncle} best apologies . [You]_{7386-uncle dear} say [she]_{8900-the loveliest girl in london} is very sweet - tempered ; [I]_{1271-my uncle} am sure [she]_{8900-the loveliest girl in london} will excuse [me]_{1271-my uncle} . "_{[1271-my uncle]} " If [she]_{8900-the loveliest girl in london} would , [I]_0-i will not . Nor would [you]_{7386-uncle dear} excuse [her]_{8900-the loveliest girl in london} , if [you]_{7386-uncle dear} knew whom [she]_{8900-the loveliest girl in london} resembles . "_[0-i] " What do [you]_{7386-uncle dear} mean ? Have [you]_{7386-uncle dear} locked [my]_{1271-my uncle} box again ? "_{[1271-my uncle]} " Yes , and here is the key . [I]_0-i found a portrait of [a lady"—I]_{8903-a lady"—i[0-i]} had not shown this to [[my]_0-i cousin—"very]_{8904-my cousin—"very} like beautiful [Isola]_428-isola . "_{[1271-my uncle]} [He]_4674-he began to tremble again , so [I]_0-i thought the quicker the better . Placing the lamp - shade so that a dim light fell on the door , [I]_0-i ran out to fetch [[his]_4674-he daughter]_{2465-his daughter} . " Now , do n't be [a baby]_{2061-a baby} , [Isola]_428-isola . Remember how ill [he]_4674-he is . Keep as much in the shadow as possible ; and if [he]_4674-he should guess who [you]_0-i are , pretend not to care a bit for [him]_4674-he . "_[0-i] " [I]_{2465-his daughter} will try [my]_{2465-his daughter} very best , [Clara]_293-clara . But [I]_{2465-his daughter} do n't think [I]_{2465-his daughter} can do that . "_{[2465-his daughter]} [She]_{2465-his daughter} shook so much that [I]_0-i was obliged to support [her]_{2465-his daughter} , as [she]_{2465-his daughter} had supported [me]_0-i that evening when first [we]_4676-we met . [Stiffly]_667-stiffly [I]_0-i brought [her]_{2465-his daughter} in , and began to introduce [her]_{2465-his daughter} , holding [her]_{2465-his daughter} back all the time . " [Uncle Edgar]_{310-uncle edgar} , this is [[my]_0-i dearest friend]_{8906-my dearest friend} , of whom [you]_{2465-his daughter} have heard so often , [Miss Isola"—Ross]_{668-miss isola"—ross[0-i]} [I]_0-i could not say . " Why , [Uncle]_8907-uncle — why , [Idols]_466-idols , [darling]_6257-darling — "_[0-i] It was all in vain ; [I]_0-i might as well have spared [my]_0-i devices . From the moment [she]_{2465-his daughter} crossed the threshold , [his]_4677-he eyes had been leaping towards [her]_{2465-his daughter} . [The paralysed man]_{4678-the paralysed man} bounded forward , as if with galvanic life . [[His]_4677-he daughter]_{2465-his daughter} met [him]_4677-he as wildly . " [[My]_4677-he Lily]_{7976-my lily} , [[my]_4677-he [Lily]_592-lily]_{7976-my lily} , "_[4677-he] was all [he]_4677-he could sob , " [my]_4677-he own [Lily]_592-lily come from the grave ! "_[4677-he] With [a father]_{3233-a father} 's strength [he]_4677-he clasped [her]_{2465-his daughter} , and [her]_{2465-his daughter} dark locks were showered with silver . As for tears — but [I]_0-i left them together when [I]_0-i had seen [both]_4681-both safe on the sofa . To [our]_4682-our surprise and delight , [the genuine Papa]_425-papa , instead of being worse the next day , looked more like [himself]_4677-he than [he]_4677-he had done at any time since the fever . But in spite of added importance , and the sense of parental dignity , [he]_4677-he sat hand in hand with [[his]_4677-he beautiful daughter]_{4683-his beautiful daughter} by the hour together , playing with [her]_{2465-his daughter} cheeks and hair , as [little girls]_{7159-little girls} do with dollies . And all the time [he]_4677-he was talking to [her]_{2465-his daughter} about [[her]_{2465-his daughter} darling mother]_{4685-her darling mother} , and made [her]_{2465-his daughter} answer [him]_4677-he in Italian , and made [her]_{2465-his daughter} kiss [him]_4677-he every other minute ; and found out a thousand times , as a novelty every time , that [she]_{2465-his daughter} was the very image and model of [[her]_{2465-his daughter} mother]_{6340-her mother} , and yet [he]_4677-he was not sure that [her]_{2465-his daughter} smile was quite so sweet ; then to make up for depreciation [he]_4677-he needs must kiss [her]_{2465-his daughter} again , and say , yes , [he]_4677-he thought it was , though it was quite impossible for any other to be so — and thus [they]_4687-their went on , till [I]_0-i thought there never would be an end of it ; albeit [I]_0-i did [my]_0-i utmost to keep away from [them]_4687-their both . Knowing that [I]_0-i was in [their]_4687-their way , and feeling rather out of spirits , [I]_0-i went [my]_0-i old accustomed round of places , sacred in [my]_0-i memory to [a certain father]_{4688-a certain father} and [mother of [my]_0-i own]_{4689-mother of my own} . How long [I]_0-i wept at [[their]_4687-their simple graves]_{4690-their simple graves} , how [I]_0-i knelt to [[their]_4687-their God]_{4691-their god} and [mine]_0-i , thanking [Him]_{4691-their god} from [my]_0-i desolate heart for the light now shed upon [me]_0-i , and how [I]_0-i prayed that [they]_4687-their might both be looking down on [me]_0-i now and craving heavenly guidance for [me]_0-i through the peril yet to come — these , and the rest of [my]_0-i doings there , can not well be told except to the ears of [orphans]_1412-orphans . The clouds of an overcast existence seemed to be opening rapidly , and though they could never disclose [my]_0-i sun and moon again , some happiness it was to know even how those had set . And more than all , the foul aspersion upon [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's memory , which all the while [I]_0-i scorned it so , had lain heavily on [my]_0-i thoughts , this was now proved liar 's spittle , and [[my]_0-i sweet darling father]_{4694-my sweet darling father} had offended not even [a villain]_{4695-a villain} . A thousand times [I]_0-i implored [his]_{4694-my sweet darling father} pardon for the splash having ever descended upon the hem of [my]_0-i garment , though shaken off straight - way with loathing . In the midst of [my]_0-i dreamy thoughts , and while [I]_0-i sat between the two low headstones , upon the very spot where [I]_0-i hope [my]_0-i own head may lie , the tremulous beauty of [the Golden Thuja]_{267-the golden thuja} , which [I]_0-i had planted there , was pushed aside too carelessly , and something far more beautiful planted itself in front . It was [[my]_0-i cousin]_{1205-my cousin} [Lily]_592-lily . [I]_0-i have been strictly forbidden ever to call [her]_592-lily " [Isola]_428-isola , "_[592-lily] or even " [Idols]_466-idols , "_[592-lily] again , as savouring of [the evil one]_{4697-the evil one} . [Lily Vaughan]_592-lily was beaming with young delight and happiness : the fresh west country air , sweet from [the tropic gulf - stream]_{4698-the tropic gulf - stream} , had crowned the April of [her]_592-lily cheeks with a June of roses . " Oh , [Donna]_476-donna , [I]_592-lily am so glad [I]_592-lily have found [you]_476-donna at last . What makes [you]_476-donna run away from [me]_592-lily and [[my]_592-lily Papa]_{6254-my papa} ? [I]_592-lily have lost [my]_592-lily way all over [the world]_{798-the world} . What [a lovely world]_{8913-a lovely world} [it]_{8913-a lovely world} is , [Donna]_476-donna ! "_[592-lily] " Do n't call [me]_592-lily that name here . Do [you]_0-i not see where [you]_0-i stand ? "_[592-lily] [She]_592-lily glanced at the headstones engraved with initials and dates , and at once understood it all . For a long time [she]_592-lily was silent , a long time [I]_0-i mean for [her]_592-lily ; and [her]_592-lily soft eyes glistened at once with awe and pity . At last , [she]_592-lily crept close to [me]_0-i , looked at the ground , and whispered with a deep sigh : " How [you]_0-i must hate [me]_592-lily , [Clara]_293-clara . "_[592-lily] " Hate [you]_0-i , [[my]_592-lily darling]_{5337-my darling} ! What for ? "_[592-lily] " Oh , because [I]_592-lily have got such a dear [Papa]_425-papa , and [you]_0-i have none at all . And much worse than that , because — because — oh , [I]_592-lily do n't know how to tell [you]_0-i . "_[592-lily] " Tell [me]_592-lily all [you]_0-i mean . Let there be no misunderstanding between [us]_8915-us . "_[592-lily] " Because [[my]_4699-her mother]_{746-my mother} and [[my]_4699-her father]_{731-my father} seem somehow to have killed — though [I]_4699-her am sure [they]_8918-they would rather have killed [themselves]_8918-they — [[your]_0-i poor papa]_{8919-your poor papa} and [mamma]_5377-mamma . "_[4699-her] And [she]_4699-her leaned on [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} 's headstone , and sobbed till [I]_0-i feared for [her]_4699-her heart . [I]_0-i put [my]_0-i arm around [her]_4699-her waist , drew [her]_4699-her towards [me]_0-i , and sat on [[[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's grave]_{990-my father 's grave} , with [[his]_{731-my father} niece]_{6155-his niece} upon [my]_0-i lap . " [Dearest]_3164-dearest , [I]_0-i could not be [the child of those who sleep beneath [us]_8923-us]_{8922-the child of those who sleep beneath us} , if it were in [my]_0-i nature now to feel as [you]_3164-dearest imagine . Years ago , [I]_0-i might have done so ; though [I]_0-i hope not even then . [Orphan]_669-orphan as [I]_0-i am and helpless , already [I]_0-i perceive that [I]_0-i have not lived for nothing . [[My]_0-i father]_{731-my father} , [I]_0-i believe , [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} , [I]_0-i am sure , would have laid down life with pleasure to see [me]_0-i led from wayward childhood even to what [I]_0-i am . Oh , [Lily]_592-lily , [you]_592-lily ca n't think how [they]_8926-they loved [me]_0-i . "_[0-i] And at the tender memory , came tears , the voice of silence . [Lily]_592-lily said not a word , but gathered and plaited a wreath of flowers , wherewith , as in a nuptial tie , [she]_592-lily bound the white headstones together — anything so as not to disturb [me]_0-i just then . Even that trifle , a graceful idea born of [her]_592-lily Southern origin , even that for the moment touched [me]_0-i deeply . Times there are when [our]_4704-our souls seem to have taken hot baths in the springs of memory , and every pore of them is open . " [Darling Lily]_592-lily , come — how proud [they]_8926-they would have been of [you]_592-lily — come and kiss [me]_{4705-the innocent creature} in this presence , and promise that , whatever happens , [none]_1510-none shall ever thrust cold hands between [your]_592-lily heart and [mine]_{4705-the innocent creature} . That [we]_4704-our will bear , and trust , and love ; nor , if a shadow steals between [us]_4704-our , blink it till the substance follows , but be frank and open — the very breath of friendship — and when doubt begins to grow , for [the devil]_{5884-the devil} is sure to sow it , have it plucked away at once , each by [the other]_{1586-the other} 's hand . Kiss [me]_{4705-the innocent creature} , [dear]_5871-dear ; [your]_592-lily weakness is that [you]_592-lily are not so outspoken as [I]_{4705-the innocent creature} am . Never let [me]_{4705-the innocent creature} vex [you]_592-lily , without knowing it . "_{[4705-the innocent creature]} [The innocent creature]_{4705-the innocent creature} kissed [me]_0-i , and promised solemnly . " Oh , [Clara]_293-clara , "_{[4705-the innocent creature]} [she]_{4705-the innocent creature} cried , " how on earth did [you]_293-clara find it out ? Sometimes [you]_293-clara have vexed [me]_{4705-the innocent creature} dreadfully , for [you]_293-clara do n't care much what [you]_293-clara say ; but [I]_{4705-the innocent creature} always thought it was [my]_{4705-the innocent creature} fault , and [I]_{4705-the innocent creature} never told [you]_293-clara of it . But it never made [me]_{4705-the innocent creature} love [you]_293-clara a single bit the less . "_{[4705-the innocent creature]} " Yes , it did for the moment , though [you]_293-clara may soon have forgiven it . But a love which is always undergoing forgiveness , is like glass steeped in water , [you]_293-clara may cut it in two with a pair of common scissors . "_{[4705-the innocent creature]} " Well , [I]_4707-i should like to see the scissors that would cut [me]_4707-i away from [you]_293-clara . [I]_4707-i 'll have a great piece off [your]_293-clara hair , [Clara]_293-clara , if [you]_293-clara talk such nonsense . Now come ; [[my]_4707-i father]_{731-my father} wants [you]_293-clara . "_[4707-i] " Have [you]_293-clara told [him]_{731-my father} ? "_{[4705-the innocent creature]} " Yes , everything about [dear Conny]_427-conrad and [you]_293-clara ; and [he]_{731-my father} says [you]_293-clara are [a noble girl]_{8932-a noble girl} , but uncommonly thick - headed about [your]_293-clara own concerns , though as quick as lightning for others . Now , [I]_4707-i wo n't have [you]_293-clara look so pale ; let [us]_8933-us run and get some colour . See , [I]_4707-i 'll get first to that tree . "_[4707-i] " Will [you]_0-i indeed ? "_[0-i] [I]_0-i won the race by [a yard]_{8740-a yard} , and was glad that the exercise made excuse for the quick rise of [my]_0-i bosom . After all that had happened , [I]_0-i would not have [her]_4707-i imagine that [I]_0-i still cared for [[her]_4707-i brother]_{6430-her brother} . Like [a girl]_{2251-a girl} all over , [she]_4707-i said not another word , determined that [I]_0-i should begin it . " Let [us]_8933-us walk faster , [Lily]_592-lily , if [[my]_4707-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} wishes to see [me]_4707-i . "_[4707-i] " No , there is plenty of time . It will do [him]_{1271-my uncle} good to sleep a little . "_[4707-i] " Oh , then it is nothing important . [I]_4707-i rather feared that it might be . "_[4707-i] " Do n't be at all afraid , [darling]_6257-darling . [He]_{1271-my uncle} wants to show [you]_6257-darling how nicely [he]_{1271-my uncle} made the Chalcedony Spalla that used to be round [my]_4707-i neck . [He]_{1271-my uncle} made it for [[my]_4707-i mother]_{746-my mother} , in remembrance of something . "_[4707-i] " Oh , nothing more than that . [I]_4707-i thought [you]_0-i spoke of something — at least [you]_0-i seemed to imply — "_[4707-i] " Nothing that [you]_6257-darling need blush about , nor stammer either , proud [Donna]_476-donna . [You]_6257-darling know [you]_6257-darling proved to [me]_4707-i yesterday , when [we]_8937-we were in [the cab]_{6488-the cab} , that [you]_6257-darling did not care for [Conny]_427-conrad any more than [you]_6257-darling did for a flake of [London]_1-london soot , which happened to come in at the window , and fall upon [your]_6257-darling glove . And [you]_6257-darling were kind enough to compare [him]_427-conrad to [that individual smut]_{8939-that individual smut} . "_[4707-i] " Oh , [Judy]_477-judy , [Judy]_477-judy , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i cried , as the dog came bounding to meet us—"darling [Judy]_477-judy , [you]_6257-darling love [Clara]_293-clara , if [nobody else]_{7186-nobody else} has sense enough . "_[4707-i] And half an hour ago , [Lily]_592-lily and [I]_0-i in dramatic language , vowed eternal affection ! " Oh , [Clara]_293-clara , [darling Clara]_{8941-darling clara} , do n't [you]_293-clara know that [I]_4707-i was in fun ? [I]_4707-i thought [you]_293-clara were so clever . And now to see [you]_293-clara sobbing over that great muff of a dog ! [Judy]_477-judy , [I]_4707-i hate [you]_293-clara , get out of the way"—the_[4707-i] judicious would not stir—"take [your]_293-clara great hulking paws from [cousin Clara]_293-clara 's neck . There then , make the most of that ! Oh , [I]_4707-i have hurt [my]_4707-i hand so , and [he]_4707-i is only wagging [his]_4707-i tail . But [I]_4707-i am so delighted , [[my]_4707-i own pet]_{8942-my own pet} , that [you]_293-clara love poor [Conny]_427-conrad still . "_[4707-i] " And pray , who said [I]_4707-i did ? "_[4707-i] " [Nobody]_1116-nobody , only [me]_4707-i . All [dear Papa]_425-papa said was this , that there was a great mistake , and [he]_425-papa soon perceived what it was ; and [I]_4707-i asked [him]_425-papa to take [my]_4707-i opinion about it , because [I]_4707-i was [a senior sophist]_{8944-a senior sophist} . And [he]_425-papa pretended not to know what [a senior sophist]_{8944-a senior sophist} was . And [I]_4707-i told [him]_425-papa it was [my]_4707-i degree , not from [that man]_{1220-that man} , [you]_293-clara know , but fairly earned at [the College]_{6246-the college} ; though [they]_8948-they did have the impudence to say that [the Professors]_{8949-the professors} were going to pluck [me]_4707-i , until [I]_4707-i gave [them]_8948-they a smile . "_[4707-i] " True enough , no doubt . But [I]_4707-i know all that long ago . What more did [[my]_4707-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} say ? "_[4707-i] " That [he]_{1271-my uncle} would tell [you]_293-clara [his]_{1271-my uncle} opinion , but [he]_{1271-my uncle} would rather not talk about it to [me]_4707-i . And [he]_{1271-my uncle} could not bear [me]_4707-i to go out , for fear [I]_4707-i should be stolen again . And [I]_4707-i do believe [he]_{1271-my uncle} has had [me]_4707-i watched all the way . Here [I]_4707-i come , [Pappy]_426-pappy ; large as life [you]_293-clara see , and three times as natural . "_[4707-i] " Yes , [my]_592-lily own treasure , three times as natural to [me]_592-lily , as [my]_592-lily life has been without [you]_293-clara . But wheel [me]_592-lily indoors , [young maidens]_{8951-young maidens} . [No other man in [the world]_{798-the world}]_{8952-no other man in the world} has such a pair of horses . [I]_592-lily want to talk to [Clara]_293-clara , in [[my]_592-lily own room]_{8954-my own room} alone . [Lily]_592-lily , go to [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , [I]_592-lily ca n't have [you]_592-lily roving about so . "_[592-lily] [Lily]_592-lily obeyed [him]_4710-my instantly . " Wait one minute , [[Uncle]_8955-uncle dear]_{7386-uncle dear} ; [I]_4710-my want to go and fetch something . "_[4710-my] [I]_0-i ran to [[my]_0-i own rooms]_{4641-my own rooms} , and found the deed of gift , which had not been returned to [the lawyers]_{1354-the lawyers} . This [I]_0-i took to [[his]_4710-my study]_{1372-his study} and placed it in [his]_4710-my hands . " What is the matter , [Clara]_293-clara ? Have [you]_293-clara turned [conveyancer]_{8957-conveyancer} , and detected some informality ? "_[0-i] " No , [dearest Uncle]_{8887-dearest uncle} . But [I]_0-i want [you]_4710-my to cancel this . [I]_0-i can not allow [you]_4710-my so to rob [[your]_4710-my children]_{5805-your children} . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i will not say what [he]_4710-my called [me]_0-i in [his]_4710-my surprise and delight . It seemed to [me]_0-i quite uncalled for ; [I]_0-i had only done what [my]_0-i conscience told [me]_0-i was just . But as for accepting [my]_0-i offer — [he]_4710-my would not hear of it twice . " [Darling]_592-lily , it would be wrong . It would be downright robbery ; and no plea whatever for it , on the score of paternal duty . [You]_592-lily are [the proper heir]_{8960-the proper heir} , [the child of [the elder son]_{8962-the elder son}]_{8961-the child of the elder son} , [the true representative of [[our]_8964-our ancient family]_{8965-our ancient family}]_{8963-the true representative of our ancient family} . All the rest is a quibble and quirk , of which , even without [your]_592-lily countless benefits , [I]_4710-my never intended to take advantage . And [[my]_4710-my children]_{6217-my children} are , by [the mother]_{5825-the mother} 's side , of [a family older even than [ours]_8964-our]_{8968-a family older even than ours} — so far as that nonsense goes — and are heirs to wealth compared to which — if it only be rightly worked — [these Vaughan estates]_{8969-these vaughan estates} are nothing . All [I]_4710-my ask [you]_592-lily is to do a thing which [I]_4710-my am sure [you]_592-lily would do without asking — to assist [them]_{6217-my children} , if what [I]_4710-my have left [them]_{6217-my children} is spent before [they]_{6217-my children} prove [their]_{6217-my children} claims . Here is a letter to [Count Gaffori]_{631-count gaffori} ; [that excellent man]_{8970-that excellent man} is still alive ; and here are the certificates , and [my]_4710-my own brief deposition , which [I]_4710-my have begged [a neighbouring magistrate]_{8971-a neighbouring magistrate} to come to - day and attest ; here is [my]_4710-my [Lily]_592-lily 's [Spalla]_{171-the spalla} , and perhaps other relics are in [[my]_4710-my son]_{5986-my son} 's possession . Lastly , here are two more letters , one to [[my]_4710-my old friend]_{7305-my old friend} [Peter Green]_575-green , who has now much influence in [that part of [Corsica]_150-corsica]_{8974-that part of corsica} , the other to [James McGregor]_444-jim , once [[my]_4710-my messmate at [Lincoln 's Inn]_{132-lincoln 's inn}]_{8975-my messmate at lincoln 's inn} , now [an acute and rising Counsel]_{8976-an acute and rising counsel} , and a leading authority upon municipal law . Take all these , [[my]_4710-my darling]_{5337-my darling} , if [you]_{5337-my darling} will so far oblige [me]_4710-my ; for [I]_4710-my fear [[my]_4710-my lovely daughter]_{8978-my lovely daughter} — isn't [she]_{8978-my lovely daughter} lovely , [Clara]_293-clara ? "_[4710-my] " [The loveliest girl in [all the world]_{1663-all the world}]_{8979-the loveliest girl in all the world} ; and what is far more important , the sweetest , and the best . "_[4714-my] " Yes , if [you]_{5337-my darling} had searched [the kingdom]_{1288-the kingdom} , [you]_{5337-my darling} could not have brought [me]_4714-my such another love . But ah ! [you]_{5337-my darling} should have seen [[her]_{8978-my lovely daughter} mother]_{6340-her mother} ! However , [I]_4714-my fear [the sweet pet]_{8983-the sweet pet} is a little careless and random , as [[her]_{8978-my lovely daughter} father]_{898-her father} used to be . At any rate , [I]_4714-my prefer entrusting this great budget to [your]_{5337-my darling} brave and honest hands ; at least until [[my]_4714-my son]_{5986-my son} comes here to claim it . The deposition [you]_{5337-my darling} shall have , when attested . "_[4714-my] " But , [Uncle]_1284-uncle , surely [you]_4714-my had better keep it all [yourself]_4714-my . No fear of [Mrs. Daldy]_{312-mrs. daldy} now . "_[4710-my] " No , [[my]_4714-my darling]_{5337-my darling} ; but these things must not be buried with [me]_4714-my . "_[4714-my] There was something in [his]_4714-my eyes which made [me]_0-i start with terror . But [he]_4714-my smiled so sweetly that [my]_0-i terror fled . " And now , [[my]_4714-my child]_{1549-my child} , about [yourself]_{1549-my child} . Though [you]_{1549-my child} have found [me]_4714-my [another daughter]_{8989-another daughter} , [I]_4714-my look upon [you]_{1549-my child} as [the eldest]_{8990-the eldest} ; and [I]_4714-my venture to speak to [you]_{1549-my child} , as [a father]_{3233-a father} would . Is it as [[my]_4714-my [Lily]_592-lily]_{7976-my lily} tells [me]_4714-my ? Is it true — [God]_303-god grant it may be — that [you]_{1549-my child} love [[my]_4714-my son]_{5986-my son} , [[my]_4714-my [Lily]_592-lily 's son]_{8994-my lily 's son} , [Henry Conrad]_670-conrad ? Why do n't [you]_{1549-my child} answer [me]_4714-my , [darling]_6257-darling ? Tell the truth like [a real Vaughan]_{8996-a real vaughan} . Surely [you]_{1549-my child} are not ashamed of [him]_{8996-a real vaughan} . "_[4714-my] And [he]_4715-his laid [his]_4715-his hand on [my]_0-i head . [My]_0-i tears fell fast ; and [my]_0-i heart was in a tempest . " Yes , [Uncle]_1284-uncle , "_[4715-his] at last [I]_0-i answered , frightened for [his]_4715-his suspense , and looking [him]_4715-his full in the face , " Yes , [Uncle]_8998-uncle , [I]_0-i do — [I]_0-i mean at least [I]_0-i did — love [him]_{8996-a real vaughan} very much at one time . "_[0-i] " With all [your]_8998-uncle heart , as [we]_8999-we [Vaughans]_398-vaughans love ; with all [your]_8998-uncle heart , [poor darling]_{9000-poor darling} ? "_[4715-his] " Yes , [Uncle]_9001-uncle , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i sobbed , in bitter humiliation ; " none of [my]_0-i heart is left [me]_0-i . "_[0-i] " Thank [God]_303-god ! what blest news for [[his]_{8996-a real vaughan} mother]_{1066-his mother} ! [[My]_4715-his [Harry]_670-conrad]_{8460-my harry} is [the happiest fellow alive]_{9004-the happiest fellow alive} . "_[4715-his] " But , [Uncle]_9005-uncle , [he]_{8996-a real vaughan} does not think so , [he]_{8996-a real vaughan} — [he]_{8996-a real vaughan} — doesn't perceive [his]_{8996-a real vaughan} blessedness . "_[0-i] A flash of [my]_0-i old self - irony came even through [my]_0-i anguish . " Oh , [I]_0-i have heard all that . But surely [you]_9005-uncle know the absurd mistake [he]_{8996-a real vaughan} made . "_[0-i] " Indeed , [I]_4715-his can not guess it . Is it [my]_4715-his place to do that ? "_[4715-his] " Of course it is ; when [you]_9005-uncle are in the light , and [he]_{8996-a real vaughan} is all in the dark . Whom did [that kidnapper]_{9006-that kidnapper} believe [himself]_{8996-a real vaughan} to have murdered ? "_[4715-his] " [You]_9005-uncle , [Uncle]_1284-uncle , of course . "_[0-i] " And whose child then does [he]_{8996-a real vaughan} suppose [you]_9005-uncle to be ; if [he]_{8996-a real vaughan} heard of [your]_9005-uncle existence , as [he]_{8996-a real vaughan} is sure to have done ? "_[4715-his] " [Merciful God]_303-god , [I]_0-i see it all ! And how bitterly [I]_0-i have wronged [him]_{8996-a real vaughan} , [[my]_0-i own noble Conrad]_{9008-my own noble conrad} ! "_[0-i] [[My]_0-i poor weak Uncle]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} had to manage [me]_0-i , all by [himself]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} , in [my]_0-i terrible hysterics . Frightened as [he]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} was , for [he]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} never before had to deal in that way with a nature resembling [mine]_0-i , [he]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} would not even ring for help , lest [I]_0-i should betray [my]_0-i secret to other ears than [his]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} own . When at last [I]_0-i came to [myself]_0-i , [he]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} kissed [me]_0-i tenderly , and said : " [[My]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} poor dear child]_{5350-my poor dear child} , remember — when [you]_{5350-my poor dear child} may be glad to think of it — that whether [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} see [[my]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} noble boy]_{9010-my noble boy} or not , [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} shall die now in perfect happiness . Noble [he]_{9010-my noble boy} must be , or [Clara]_293-clara could not love [him]_{9010-my noble boy} . It would have been the pet scheme of [my]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} heart , if [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} could have had a voice in it . And here it is done without [me]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} ! How often have [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} longed and yearned that [he]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} could only see [you]_{5350-my poor dear child} , as [you]_{5350-my poor dear child} waited day and night by [my]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} pestilential bed , that [he]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} could only know the tale of [your]_{5350-my poor dear child} troubles and devotion . At [my]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} death , [the generation so visited from heaven]_{9011-the generation so visited from heaven} expires ; and [[you]_{5350-my poor dear child} three darlings]_{9012-you three darlings} start anew , with all things in [your]_{5350-my poor dear child} favour . Now mind that [the good old Signor]_{9013-the good old signor} 's directions are complied with , and that [Harry]_670-conrad , if [he]_670-conrad lives [here]_846-here , abandons [the Corsican property]_{9015-the corsican property} to [[his]_670-conrad sister]_{2443-his sister} [Lily]_592-lily . Promise [me]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} this , [[my]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} [Clara]_293-clara]_{5392-my clara} . "_{[4716-my poor weak uncle]} " Of course [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} will , [dear Uncle]_{3045-dear uncle} — [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} mean , so far as [my]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} influence goes . And [he]_670-conrad will then be bound to do so under the deed - poll , if [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} understood [you]_293-clara aright . But perhaps [he]_670-conrad has quite forgotten [me]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} now . "_{[4716-my poor weak uncle]} " Of course [he]_670-conrad thinks [himself]_670-conrad bound to avoid [you]_293-clara . But [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} have written to set [him]_670-conrad right , and to bring [him]_670-conrad as soon as possible . And now about — about that horrible — "_{[4716-my poor weak uncle]} " Ah , yes . If [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} had the right , [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} would even let [him]_670-conrad go . [My]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} feeling has changed from fierce hatred to utter contempt . And surely [his]_670-conrad vengeance is satisfied now . "_{[4716-my poor weak uncle]} " No , [Clara]_293-clara . It will flame more wildly than ever the moment [he]_670-conrad learns [his]_670-conrad mistake , and [my]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} final triumph over [him]_670-conrad . Has [he]_670-conrad any idea where [[our]_9019-our [Lily]_592-lily]_{3564-our lily} is ? "_{[4716-my poor weak uncle]} " As yet , [he]_670-conrad can have none . If [old Cora]_{585-old cora} went to [Albert Street]_{268-albert street} last evening , [she]_{585-old cora} would learn nothing from [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} took care of that , except that [Lily]_592-lily had been [there]_1114-there , and was gone again . [The old woman]_{9022-the old woman} does not speak English enough to attempt to cross - examine . [She]_{9022-the old woman} loves poor [Lily]_592-lily , [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} know , but will be satisfied with the belief that [the child]_{6995-the child} had gone to [[her]_{9022-the old woman} brother]_{6430-her brother} 's . And as for [that monster]_{9025-that monster} , even if [he]_670-conrad relents , [he]_670-conrad will be too proud to inquire . "_{[4716-my poor weak uncle]} " What had [[my]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} poor child]_{5429-my poor child} done , that [the brute]_{8326-the brute} turned [her]_{9022-the old woman} out , and struck [her]_{9022-the old woman} ? "_{[4716-my poor weak uncle]} " Nothing , [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} believe , beyond defending [[her]_{9022-the old woman} brother]_{6430-her brother} [Conrad]_670-conrad , as [she]_{9022-the old woman} always did . [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} suppose [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} may call [him]_670-conrad ' [Conrad]_670-conrad , ' [Uncle]_9029-uncle ? "_{[4716-my poor weak uncle]} " Yes , [[my]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} dear]_{5318-my dear} , it is [his]_670-conrad true name , chosen by [[his]_670-conrad mother]_{1066-his mother} . Where are [you]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} going so hastily ? "_{[4716-my poor weak uncle]} " To [London]_1-london at once . For [your]_{5318-my dear} sake , [[Uncle]_9032-uncle dear]_{7386-uncle dear} , [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} must not think of sparing [him]_670-conrad . [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} must have [him]_670-conrad in [custody]_9034-custody to - night . [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} would have avoided it , if [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} could for a thousand reasons ; but there is no alternative . "_{[4716-my poor weak uncle]} " Yes there is . In two days [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} shall be beyond [his]_670-conrad reach . Do n't ask [me]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} what [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} mean . To - day is Thursday . Promise only to let [him]_670-conrad go free till Saturday . "_{[4716-my poor weak uncle]} " [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} will . But [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} must go to [London]_1-london . [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} can not rest quiet here . "_{[4716-my poor weak uncle]} [[My]_0-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's face brightened beautifully . And [he]_{1271-my uncle} took [my]_0-i hand in [his]_{1271-my uncle} . " [I]_{1271-my uncle} know what [you]_0-i mean , [[my]_{1271-my uncle} darling]_{5337-my darling} . [You]_0-i intend to discover [[my]_{1271-my uncle} Harry]_{8460-my harry} , for fear of any mishap . [I]_{1271-my uncle} will let [you]_0-i go , [dear]_5871-dear ; though [the house]_{764-the house} seems empty without [you]_0-i , [[its]_{764-the house} truthful and graceful mistress]_{9039-its truthful and graceful mistress} . But [you]_0-i must not go alone . It is not right for [a beautiful girl]_{9040-a beautiful girl} , however self - possessed and dignified , especially one of [your]_0-i station , to rove about unattended . "_{[1271-my uncle]} " [Only one man]_{9041-only one man} ever insulted [me]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} , [Uncle]_9042-uncle , [I]_{4716-my poor weak uncle} mean in a serious way , and [he]_{9041-only one man} never did it again . "_{[4716-my poor weak uncle]} " It does not matter . The example is bad , and [all men]_{951-all men} are not [gentlemen]_{8248-gentlemen} . [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} shall go with [you]_0-i , and [our]_9045-our pretty [Lily]_592-lily keep house . But [I]_{1271-my uncle} have an especial reason , and [a most powerful one]_{9046-a most powerful one} , for wishing that [you]_0-i should be [here]_846-here . Do n't go till to - morrow , [[my]_{1271-my uncle} darling]_{5337-my darling} ; [I]_{1271-my uncle} am so well to - day , and [I]_{1271-my uncle} must see [you]_0-i once at [your]_0-i own table , with [[my]_{1271-my uncle} daughter]_{3561-my daughter} and [me]_{1271-my uncle} for [[your]_0-i guests]_{9050-your guests} . "_{[1271-my uncle]} " Oh , [Uncle]_1284-uncle , [I]_{1271-my uncle} hope so a thousand times . [I]_{1271-my uncle} will stop till the morning , if [you]_1284-uncle have set [your]_1284-uncle heart upon it . "_{[1271-my uncle]} " [I]_{1271-my uncle} have indeed . [You]_1284-uncle may go in the morning by [the first train]_{9052-the first train} , and be back to - morrow night . Will [you]_1284-uncle promise ? "_{[1271-my uncle]} Though [I]_0-i could not understand [his]_4718-his motive , and [he]_4718-his was pleased to conceal it , [I]_0-i promised all [he]_4718-his asked . Then [I]_0-i told [him]_4718-his all the story of [Conrad]_670-conrad and the accident , how [he]_670-conrad saved [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} 's life and [mine]_0-i , with the courage and skill of [a true - born mountaineer]_{4720-a true - born mountaineer} . [[My]_0-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} was moved to tears , not only at the gallantry of [[his]_4718-his son]_{1321-his son} , but also by the joy of discovering that all the obligations lay not upon one side . [I]_0-i also wept at finding that [Lily]_592-lily had never heard of it . [Conrad]_670-conrad 's lofty nature scorned to narrate its own achievements . When , after that adventure , [he]_4718-his discovered who [we]_4723-we were , [he]_4718-his avoided [us]_4723-we because [he]_4718-his believed that [[his]_4718-his father]_{1062-his father} had slain [mine]_0-i . It was not till a later date , when [he]_4718-his became of age — as [the Corsicans]_{4725-the corsicans} reckon manhood — that [Lepardo Della Croce]_570-lepardo told [him]_4718-his all [he]_4718-his knew of [his]_4718-his history , dwelt on the foul shame wrought to [the Della Croce by [[his]_4718-his bigamist father]_{4727-his bigamist father}]_{4726-the della croce by his bigamist father} , and tried in vain to force on [him]_4718-his the awful oath of Vendetta . [The youth]_{4728-the youth} had too much English blood in [his]_{4728-the youth} heart to accept the black inheritance . Thenceforth [he]_{4728-the youth} could not bear the sight of [the man who had killed , as [they]_4730-they both supposed , [[his]_4718-his father]_{1062-his father} , although , in [his]_4718-his wrath for [[his]_4718-his mother]_{1066-his mother} 's wrongs and [his]_4718-his own]_{4729-the man who had killed , as they both supposed , his father , although , in his wrath for his mother 's wrongs and his own} , [he]_4718-his would not resent the deed . What marvel then that [he]_4718-his spurned [me]_0-i , and was maddened with [himself]_4718-his , at finding that [he]_4718-his , [the illegitimate]_{4733-the illegitimate} , was in love with [me]_0-i , [[his]_4718-his legitimate sister]_{4734-his legitimate sister} ? But now , [we]_4735-us are only half - [cousins]_2634-cousins , and nature has never misled [us]_4735-us . All that evening , [[my]_0-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} was in the most glorious spirits , and [I]_0-i am not sure that [Lily]_592-lily and [I]_0-i were very far behind [him]_{1271-my uncle} . [He]_{1271-my uncle} played [us]_4735-us all sorts of boyish tricks , and [we]_4735-us made reprisals with girlish ones , till [Lily]_592-lily 's joyous laughter rang halfway clown [the corridor]_{7666-the corridor} . [I]_0-i had dressed [her]_592-lily with especial care , and [she]_592-lily did look such a love ! But it was all too sudden , and far too sweet to last . [[My]_0-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} indeed seemed quite beside [himself]_{1271-my uncle} , more gladsome than nature allows [us]_4735-us to be with impunity . Then the vein dried all of a sudden , and the mind flowed the opposite way . [He]_{1271-my uncle} made [[his]_{1271-my uncle} beautiful daughter]_{4683-his beautiful daughter} , who , though [not much of a sophist]_{4741-not much of a sophist} , had [a soul that thrilled to music]_{4742-a soul that thrilled to music} , [he]_{1271-my uncle} made [her]_{4683-his beautiful daughter} play the soft Corsican airs , that seem to weep as they breathe , and which [she]_{4683-his beautiful daughter} had learned from [old Cora]_{585-old cora} . [He]_{1271-my uncle} knew [them]_4743-them all ; how well [he]_{1271-my uncle} knew [them]_4743-them , [his]_{1271-my uncle} face turned from the light betrayed . The depth of melodious sadness , the touch of some nervine chord , which knew not its own existence , and starts to be known and appreciated , as might [an unconscious poet]_{4744-an unconscious poet} , and more than all the trembling spread of the feelers of the heart , these are the proofs of nature 's presence in music or in poetry . Then [he]_{1271-my uncle} begged [me]_0-i to play some of the sweet and simple melodies of [Wales]_671-wales . These [he]_{1271-my uncle} declared , and [I]_0-i had already perceived it , these were born of the self - same spirit , though not so highly intensified , as the Corsican romances . Finally , [he]_{1271-my uncle} told [us]_4745-us many a moving tale of [[his]_{1271-my uncle} [Lily]_592-lily]_{3657-his lily} ; tales [a man]_{5384-a man} is loth to tell to those with whom [he]_{5384-a man} expects to live . How [she]_592-lily was loved , and how [she]_592-lily seemed to love [everybody]_{6273-everybody} , and pretty answers [she]_592-lily made to those who praised [her]_592-lily beauty , and more than words or kisses , the loving things [she]_592-lily did , the elegance of self - denial , and the innocence of merit . That night , that memorable night , [we]_4745-us stayed up more than two hours over [his]_{1271-my uncle} proper time for going to bed . [He]_{1271-my uncle} seemed so sad to part , that [I]_0-i could not bear to hurry [him]_{1271-my uncle} . One thing [he]_{1271-my uncle} told [me]_0-i which [I]_0-i was glad to hear . " [Clara]_293-clara , [darling]_6257-darling , [I]_{1271-my uncle} have taken a liberty with [[your]_6257-darling house]_{5344-your house} . This afternoon , [I]_{1271-my uncle} wrote by the [London]_1-london post , for [Annie Franks]_{552-annie franks} to come back again to - morrow , if [she]_{552-annie franks} will , as an especial favour to [me]_{1271-my uncle} . "_{[1271-my uncle]} [I]_0-i was rather surprised ; but answered [him]_{1271-my uncle} warmly , and in all truth : " [Dear Uncle]_{672-dear uncle} , [you]_{1271-my uncle} know that [I]_{1271-my uncle} love [her]_{552-annie franks} ; and [I]_{1271-my uncle} can not see too much of [the few whom [I]_{1271-my uncle} really love]_{9055-the few whom i really love} . "_{[1271-my uncle]} Then , as [I]_0-i was to start at six o'clock in the morning , [he]_{1271-my uncle} wished [me]_0-i " Good bye , "_{[1271-my uncle]} in a solemn manner , which seemed to [me]_0-i quite uncalled for . [He]_{1271-my uncle} drew [my]_0-i young face to [his]_{1271-my uncle} own , so marked by sorrow and illness , looked into [my]_0-i eyes as if [I]_0-i were to remember something , then held [me]_0-i in [his]_{1271-my uncle} trembling embrace , and kissed [me]_0-i long and fondly . " God in [heaven]_1555-heaven bless [you]_0-i , [darling]_6257-darling , for all [you]_0-i have done to [me]_{1271-my uncle} and [mine]_{1271-my uncle} . "_{[1271-my uncle]} " [Mine]_{1271-my uncle} , [you]_0-i should say , [dear Uncle]_{3045-dear uncle} . [I]_{2465-his daughter} count them now [my]_{2465-his daughter} own . "_{[2465-his daughter]} [[His]_{1271-my uncle} daughter]_{2465-his daughter} took [him]_{1271-my uncle} away , with [her]_{2465-his daughter} white arms thrown around [him]_{1271-my uncle} . For now [she]_{2465-his daughter} slept in [the closet next to [[his]_{1271-my uncle} room]_{4751-his room}]_{4750-the closet next to his room} , where [I]_0-i had so long been quartered . In the early morning , [I]_0-i was off for [London]_1-london , taking [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} with [me]_0-i , much against [my]_0-i will , because [she]_{516-mrs. fletcher} seemed to cumber [me]_0-i both in thought and action . Between the door and [the avenue]_{2993-the avenue} , [I]_0-i looked from [the open carriage]_{4753-the open carriage} — [I]_0-i hate to be shut up in summer — at [the dear old house]_{4754-the dear old house} . [Lily]_592-lily had got up to breakfast with [me]_0-i , in spite of [my]_0-i prohibition ; and [she]_592-lily was going with [us]_4755-us as far as [the lodge]_{1166-the lodge} , to have a nice walk back . To [my]_0-i great surprise [I]_0-i saw [[my]_0-i poor Uncle]_{2919-my poor uncle} , standing at [his]_{2919-my poor uncle} open window , wrapped in a dressing - gown . [He]_{2919-my poor uncle} kissed [his]_{2919-my poor uncle} hand and waved [me]_0-i [his]_{2919-my poor uncle} last farewell . [I]_0-i leaped on the seat to reply , and then scolded [him]_{2919-my poor uncle} with [my]_0-i glove . Half in play and half in sorrow , [he]_{2919-my poor uncle} mocked [my]_0-i lively gestures , and the morning breeze lifted [his]_{2919-my poor uncle} silver hair , as [he]_{2919-my poor uncle} wafted [me]_0-i the last kiss . [I]_0-i told [Lily]_592-lily to scold [him]_{2919-my poor uncle} well , with [my]_0-i very best love , and [she]_592-lily asked [me]_0-i in the most ladylike manner , if [I]_0-i saw any green in [her]_592-lily eye . [The girl]_{8231-the girl} had picked up a great deal of slang among [the fair collegians]_{4759-the fair collegians} . [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} looked sadly shocked ; so [I]_0-i said , to reassure [her]_{516-mrs. fletcher} : " [You]_{516-mrs. fletcher} know , [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , [we]_9059-we must make allowances for [young ladies who come from college]_{9060-young ladies who come from college} . "_[0-i] " To be sure , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara , to be sure [we]_9059-we must , "_[592-lily] [she]_592-lily replied with [her]_592-lily most sagacious air : and at [Gloucester]_{23-gloucester} [she]_592-lily whispered to [the coachman]_{6022-the coachman} , " [John]_299-john , [the villain that stole [Miss Lily]_673-lily]_{9061-the villain that stole miss lily} sent [her]_673-lily to [Oxford]_126-oxford , in [a young gentleman]_{5342-a young gentleman} 's clothes , and [she]_673-lily took a very high degree : but do n't say a word about it . "_[592-lily] " Not by any means , [ma'am]_5765-ma'am , "_[299-john] answered [John]_299-john , with a grin . Nevertheless , it found its way over [the house]_{764-the house} , and the result was that all [the girls]_{6665-the girls} came to [Lily]_673-lily about [[their]_{6665-the girls} sweethearts]_{4763-their sweethearts} . [I]_0-i mention this trifling incident only to show how little [I]_0-i thought that [I]_0-i then saw the last of [[my]_0-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} . At [Paddington]_{246-paddington} [we]_4765-we met [Annie Franks]_{552-annie franks} taking [her]_{552-annie franks} ticket for [Gloucester]_{23-gloucester} , and looking most bright and blooming , with a grand pocket in [her]_{552-annie franks} cloak , made to hold a three - volumed novel . [I]_0-i had only time for a few words with [her]_{552-annie franks} , in which [I]_0-i commended [[my]_0-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} to [her]_{552-annie franks} especial attention , as [she]_{552-annie franks} had ten times [[my]_0-i cousin]_{1205-my cousin} 's experience . Then [I]_0-i went with [her]_{552-annie franks} to [the down - platform]_{4768-the down - platform} , and saw [her]_{552-annie franks} get into [the carriage]_{6087-the carriage} , and gave [her]_{552-annie franks} the last of [my]_0-i sandwiches , while [a cruel guard]_{4770-a cruel guard} made [her]_{552-annie franks} turn out [her]_{552-annie franks} new pocket , insisting that [she]_{552-annie franks} must have a little dog concealed there . [I]_0-i laughed at [the poor little dear]_{4771-the poor little dear} , as crimson with mortification [she]_{552-annie franks} showed before all [the gentlemen]_{2615-the gentlemen} the triple fluted bulk , and [the guard]_{4773-the guard} read out , more in amazement than rudeness , " [Sir Ingomar of the Red Hand]_{9064-sir ingomar of the red hand} ; or , [The Knight of St. Valentine]_{674-the knight of st. valentine} , and [the Paynim Lady]_{9065-the paynim lady} . "_{[4773-the guard]} [The gentlemen]_{2615-the gentlemen} were [gentlemen]_{8248-gentlemen} , and tried very hard not to smile ; but the way [the guard]_{4773-the guard} scratched [his]_{4773-the guard} head was a great deal too much for [them]_{2615-the gentlemen} . " [Dog]_675-dog 's ears , anyhow , "_{[4773-the guard]} cried [he]_{4773-the guard} , trying to escape with a joke . [I]_0-i drew [her]_{552-annie franks} out of [the carriage]_{6087-the carriage} , with tears in [her]_{552-annie franks} soft gray eyes , and put [her]_{552-annie franks} into another , where [Sir Ingomar]_{676-sir ingomar} was unknown , and might spur on at pleasure . Then the smiles returned to [her]_{552-annie franks} shy and innocent face , and [she]_{552-annie franks} put [her]_{552-annie franks} head to the window , and whispered gently to [me]_0-i : " Any strawberries left , [dear]_5871-dear ? "_{[552-annie franks]} " [I]_{552-annie franks} should think so , [Annie]_{552-annie franks} . The best of [them all]_{9067-them all} , [the British Queens]_{9068-the british queens} , are just coming in . And such a crop of grapes ! "_{[552-annie franks]} [Annie]_{552-annie franks} 's conception of perfect bliss was to sit upon [a shady bank]_{4778-a shady bank} , " the breeze just fanning [her]_{552-annie franks} delicate cheek , "_{[552-annie franks]} with a cabbage - leaf full of strawberries by [her]_{552-annie franks} , and a cut - and - thrust novel upon [her]_{552-annie franks} lap . Off [she]_{552-annie franks} went with a lovely smile , foreseeing all these delights . From [Paddington]_{246-paddington} [we]_4779-we drove straightway to [the lodgings of [Conrad Vaughan]_{269-conrad vaughan}]_{4780-the lodgings of conrad vaughan} . As [we]_4779-we jolted along [the New - road]_{4781-the new - road} , which always has more holes in [it]_{4781-the new - road} than [any other street in [London]_1-london]_{4782-any other street in london} , [I]_0-i lost [my]_0-i wits in a tumult of thick tempestuous thought . What would [Conny]_670-conrad say to see [me]_0-i , [me]_0-i [the haughty Clara]_{4783-the haughty clara} , coming all impatiently even in quest of [him]_670-conrad ? Would it not have been far better , far more like [an English maiden]_{4784-an english maiden} , to wait , and wait , and wear the soul out , rather than to run the risk of mis - interpretation ? True , it was for [[his]_670-conrad father]_{1062-his father} 's sake , to save [him]_670-conrad from deadly peril , and to make [his]_670-conrad happiness complete ; but might not all have been done by [messenger]_{4786-messenger} , as well as by [me]_0-i in person ? So at least might fancy [those who did not know [[our]_4779-we enemy]_{4788-our enemy}]_{4787-those who did not know our enemy} . Worst of all , and cloudiest thought , that filled the eyes every time it came,—would [he]_670-conrad love [me]_0-i still ? Would not the strong revulsion , that must have torn [him]_670-conrad in two , when [he]_670-conrad dashed [his]_670-conrad hand on [his]_670-conrad forehead , and forgot even [man]_5770-man 's forbearance , would not , must not this have snapped all the delicate roots of love ? [I]_0-i could not tell . Of [man]_5770-man 's heart [I]_0-i know nothing ; but [I]_0-i felt that with [me]_0-i , [a woman]_{5830-a woman} , such a horrible thing would create only longing to make amends . " [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , how is [my]_0-i hair ? "_[0-i] " Lovely , [my]_5770-man pretty child"—she_[5770-man] always called [me]_0-i so from habit when [no one else]_{5442-no one else} was present—"you look [your]_{516-mrs. fletcher} very best ; and [I]_0-i 'd like to see [them]_9069-them that could — talk to [me]_0-i of Lilies indeed , when [our]_9070-our [Miss Clara]_293-clara — "_[0-i] " No smuts on [my]_0-i nose , [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , [I]_0-i hope ? [I]_0-i never feel sure , in [London]_1-london . [You]_{516-mrs. fletcher} do n't know [London]_1-london , [you]_{516-mrs. fletcher} see . "_[0-i] " No , [[my]_0-i pretty]_{8768-my pretty} , as clean as a whistle , and as clear as the voice of a May - bird , every atom of [you]_{516-mrs. fletcher} . There 's no such complexion nowhere out of [Gloshire]_270-gloshire or in [it]_270-gloshire : and its all along of the brimstone and treacle [I]_0-i give [you]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , when [you]_{516-mrs. fletcher} was small . Talk to [me]_0-i of [Lilies]_677-lilies — why [I]_0-i see three great butter spots , as big as the point of a needle , and [I]_0-i know by the make of [her]_9072-her boot that [her]_9072-her little toe turn over ; and what 's more than that — "_[0-i] " [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , [I]_0-i wo n't hear a word of it . As to [her]_9072-her little toe , [I]_0-i can most solemnly declare that [you]_{516-mrs. fletcher} are wrong altogether ; for [I]_0-i have seen [her]_9072-her naked foot , and [a lovelier one]_{9073-a lovelier one} never was — "_[0-i] " Take [yours]_{516-mrs. fletcher} out of the way , [Miss.]_448-miss. But — "_[0-i] " But — here [we]_9074-we are ; and [you]_{516-mrs. fletcher} have made [my]_0-i cheeks quite red ! [I]_0-i shall be ashamed to be seen . "_[0-i] However , it did not matter ; for there was [no one there]_{6327-no one there} to see [me]_0-i . [Conrad]_670-conrad was gone to [Paris]_247-paris ; [he]_670-conrad had quitted [London]_1-london quite suddenly , and there was a letter left for [[his]_670-conrad sister]_{2443-his sister} , which [the girl]_{8231-the girl} forgot to post , till [she]_{8231-the girl} thought it was too late . And [he]_670-conrad said very likely [he]_670-conrad should go on to [Italy]_63-italy ; and [they]_4796-they were not to keep [the rooms]_{2933-the rooms} , if [they]_4796-they had a chance of letting [them]_{2933-the rooms} , only to put away the things [he]_670-conrad had left , in the cupboard . So [I]_0-i took the letter , directed " [Miss Isola Ross]_428-isola , "_[0-i] but [I]_0-i did not dare to open it , much as [I]_0-i longed to do so . Having enclosed it in a new envelope , and posted it in the nearest letter - box , with a heavy heart [I]_0-i re - entered [the cab]_{6488-the cab} , and went on to [[Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's]_{2936-mrs. shelfer 's} . [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was of course surprised to see [me]_0-i so soon again . Nevertheless [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} was all kindness and hospitality , as usual . The residue of [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} little debt had been long ago released , and now [I]_0-i paid full rent , for [I]_0-i could easily afford it . In answer to [my]_0-i eager inquiries as to what had occurred since Wednesday , [the little woman]_{6264-the little woman} said shortly : " Nothing at all , [Miss]_5433-miss , of any account , [I]_{6264-the little woman} thank [you]_5433-miss . Only [Charley]_395-charley threw double size , three times running , and won — "_{[6264-the little woman]} " [I]_{6264-the little woman} do n't mean that , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ; [I]_{6264-the little woman} mean , what has happened for [me]_{6264-the little woman} ? "_{[6264-the little woman]} " Nothing , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara ; no , nothing to concern [a great lady like [you]_5433-miss]_{9076-a great lady like you} : only [such a queer lot]_{9077-such a queer lot} come , and [they]_{9077-such a queer lot} seemed to be [friends of [yours]_5433-miss]_{9078-friends of yours} . [They]_{9077-such a queer lot} ai n't gone from [here]_846-here more than half an hour ago . "_{[6264-the little woman]} " Tell [me]_{6264-the little woman} all about [them]_{9077-such a queer lot} . "_{[6264-the little woman]} " [They]_{9077-such a queer lot} come and ringed the bell , as modest as could be ; and when [I]_436-ma'am went to the door , says [they]_{9077-such a queer lot} , ' If [you]_5433-miss please , where be [Miss Clara]_293-clara , [ma'am]_5765-ma'am ? ' ' [Miss Clara]_293-clara ! ' says [I]_436-ma'am , ' [a set of dressed up trollops like [you]_293-clara]_{9081-a set of dressed up trollops like you} , come and ask for [Miss Clara]_293-clara ! [She]_293-clara 'd [Miss Clara]_293-clara [you]_5433-miss , pretty quick time , [I]_436-ma'am doubt , if [she]_293-clara was only [here]_846-here . ' ' [Us]_9083-us humbly hopes no offence , [ma'am]_5765-ma'am , ' says [the great big man]_{9085-the great big man} , [the biggest man as ever [I]_436-ma'am see without paying]_{9086-the biggest man as ever i see without paying} , ' only [us]_9083-us has come up from [the country]_{1831-the country} , [ma'am]_5765-ma'am . ' ' Up from [the country]_{1831-the country} ! ' says [I]_436-ma'am , ' need n't tell [me]_436-ma'am that , [[my]_436-ma'am good giant]_{9090-my good giant} ; [any fool]_{9091-any fool} can see that . And if [you]_{9090-my good giant} take [my]_436-ma'am advice , [you]_{9090-my good giant} 'll clap [your]_{9090-my good giant} hat on , and go down again , and thank [God]_303-god for it . ' [You]_5765-ma'am see , [Miss]_9092-miss , [he]_{9085-the great big man} had got [his]_{9085-the great big man} hat off , and [he]_{9085-the great big man} standing out of doors , on the shady side of [the street]_{6090-the street} ! So what [I]_436-ma'am said seemed to stop [him]_{9085-the great big man} altogether , and [he]_{9085-the great big man} looked as if [he]_{9085-the great big man} wanted to think about it ; and [I]_436-ma'am was just a slapping the door in [their]_9094-their faces , when [the other man]_{9095-the other man} , [the queerest guy [I]_436-ma'am ever see]_{9096-the queerest guy i ever see} , a hanging in [his]_{9095-the other man} clothes like a skiver in a dish - clout , [he]_{9095-the other man} look full in [my]_436-ma'am face as grave as [a heretic parson]_{9097-a heretic parson} , and stretch out [his]_{9095-the other man} skinny arm , and keep time with one foot , while [he]_{9095-the other man} say or sing , "_[436-ma'am] ' [Ma'am]_436-ma'am , [us]_4801-us be here now in [this Lunnon town]_{4802-this lunnon town} , And it bain't likely as [we]_4801-us be going down , Till [us]_4801-us see [every mortal thing as there be for to see]_{4803-every mortal thing as there be for to see} , And take all the change out in a thorough - going spree . ' Then [the big man]_{4804-the big man} laugh and clap [him]_{4804-the big man} on the back ; and [the little one]_{4805-the little one} wink both [his]_{4805-the little one} eyes , and look to see what [I]_0-i think of it . Then when [he]_{4805-the little one} see [me]_0-i laugh , [he]_{4805-the little one} make [me]_0-i such a coorous bow , that what with [his]_{4805-the little one} — what do [they]_4806-they call the plaister , [Miss]_5433-miss ? " "_{[4805-the little one]} [Diachylon]_{678-diachylon} , perhaps [you]_0-i mean , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} ? " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Ah , that 's the word . What with [his]_{4805-the little one} strange diaculum , and [his]_{4805-the little one} dancing altitude , [I]_0-i declare [I]_0-i was a most a going to invite [them]_4806-they in : but [I]_0-i recollects , no , no : If [Charley]_395-charley gets along of such Reginalds as these , [I]_0-i may stand at the bed - room door and whistle for a week . There 's nothing [Charley]_395-charley loves so much as a downright [Reginald]_679-reginald . " [Poor simple - minded woman]_{9098-poor simple - minded woman} ; how little [she]_{9098-poor simple - minded woman} perceived that [she]_{9098-poor simple - minded woman} of all the number was by far the most original ! And , like [most of those who are truly so]_{9099-most of those who are truly so} , [she]_{9098-poor simple - minded woman} would have taken the imputation as an outrageous insult . Only the sham original glories in being thought queer . "_{[679-reginald]} Well , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [I]_0-i want to hear the end of it . " "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} Just what [I]_0-i say , [Miss.]_448-miss. Yes , yes , no time to spare , and the pudding boiling . So [I]_0-i says , quite sharp , ' What name , [[my]_0-i good sir]_{4808-my good sir} , and will [you]_{4808-my good sir} leave a message ? [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara is out of [town]_1829-town . ' ' Wull , ' says [he]_{4808-my good sir} , just as [I]_0-i tell [you]_448-miss. , [Miss]_4810-miss , ' ony plase [you]_448-miss. say , [ma'am]_5765-ma'am , as [Jan Uxtable]_{343-jan uxtable} , and [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} , and [the two beggest of the chillers]_{4812-the two beggest of the chillers} has doed theirselves the honour of coming to lave [their]_{4812-the two beggest of the chillers} dooty . ' Then [the little girl]_{1629-the little girl} look up and [she]_{1629-the little girl} flash [her]_{1629-the little girl} ribbons and say , ' [Mr. Huxtable]_{338-mr. huxtable} , if [you]_5765-ma'am please , [ma'am]_5765-ma'am , and [Mr. Ebenezer Dawe]_{350-mr. dawe} , and [Miss Huxtable]_{680-miss huxtable} , and [Master John]_{681-master john} , has called . ' ' Had n't [you]_{1629-the little girl} better write it down , [Miss]_5433-miss ? ' says [I]_0-i , as innocent as possible . ' Do [you]_5765-ma'am suppose [I]_0-i ca n't then ? ' says [she]_{1629-the little girl} , with such a spitting out of [her]_{1629-the little girl} eyes , and [she]_{1629-the little girl} swinging a new parry sole . ' Just give [me]_0-i a sheet of papper , if [you]_5765-ma'am keep such a thing in [the house]_{764-the house} . ' ' Plase to excuse [the little wanch]_{4817-the little wanch} , [ma'am]_5765-ma'am , ' says [the big man]_{4804-the big man} , quite humble , ' [us]_4820-us ca n't hardly make head nor tail of [her]_{4817-the little wanch} , since [her]_{4817-the little wanch} come to this [here Lunnon]_{4821-here lunnon} . If [I]_0-i had only knowed it [I]_0-i 'd have had [[her]_{4817-the little wanch} mother]_{6340-her mother} along of [me]_0-i , that [I]_0-i would ees fai , and the coo be [her]_{4817-the little wanch} own midwaife . But ony plase [you]_5765-ma'am say [Jan Uxtable]_{343-jan uxtable} come if [they]_4823-they count it dacent hereaway . [Threescore acres]_{4824-threescore acres} and five , [ma'am]_5765-ma'am , without reckon [the Cleeve]_{682-the cleeve} , and [no man]_{4826-no man} have a call , to [my]_0-i mind , to christen [himself]_{4804-the big man} " [Mister]_9100-mister "_{[682-the cleeve]} on less than a hundred acres , in [Lunnon]_271-lunnon or out of [it]_271-lunnon . ' ' Very well , [sir]_5380-sir , ' [I]_0-i says , for [I]_0-i took to [the big man]_{4804-the big man} somehow , ' [I]_0-i will deliver [your]_5380-sir message . [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara only went from [here]_846-here of middle day on Wednesday . ' ' And tell [her]_293-clara please , if [she]_293-clara do come back , ' says [spirity Miss Parrysole]_{683-spirity miss parrysole} , with the tears in [her]_{683-spirity miss parrysole} great blue eyes , ' that [Sally Huxtable]_371-sally leave [her]_371-sally very best love and duty , and hope so much [Miss Clara]_293-clara will come to see the great wrestling to - morrow , twelve o'clock , and be early . And [they]_4830-they be betting now two to one on [the other man]_{9095-the other man} , [ma'am]_5765-ma'am . But [he]_{9095-the other man} have no chance , no more than [Tim Badcock]_344-tim with [father]_738-father . ' ' [I]_0-i be much afeared , [ma'am]_5765-ma'am , ' says [the deep - voiced man]_{4835-the deep - voiced man} , as soft as any bell , ' [I]_0-i be afeared [[our]_4836-our [Sally]_371-sally]_{5879-our sally} will be begger by [a lanyard]_{4838-a lanyard} nor ever [[her]_371-sally daddy]_{4839-her daddy} or [[her]_371-sally mammy]_{4840-her mammy} was . But likely it be all for the best . ' And with that [all four of [them]_{4841-all four of them}]_{4841-all four of them} crooked [their]_{4841-all four of them} legs to [me]_0-i most polite , and went on round the corner ; and after [them]_{4841-all four of them} went a score of [boys]_5527-boys , that seemed to follow [them]_{4841-all four of them} everywhere . [The boys]_{2098-the boys} knew all about it , and so did [I]_0-i at last , that it was the great champion wrestling , that is to be to - morrow . [Charley]_395-charley have been mad about it going on now two months . And can [you]_0-i please to tell [him]_395-charley , [Miss]_4844-miss , which way to lay [his]_395-charley money ? " "_[0-i] To be sure , [I]_0-i can . Let [him]_395-charley take every offer of two to one against [the Devonshire champion]_{4845-the devonshire champion} ; and if [he]_395-charley loses [I]_0-i will make it good to [him]_395-charley , upon condition that [he]_395-charley gives [you]_0-i everything [he]_395-charley wins . Now please to let [me]_0-i have a cup of strong tea . " Having thus got rid of [[my]_0-i most talkative friend]_{9101-my most talkative friend} , and [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} having started off to buy something , [I]_0-i had time to think a little . It was nearly two o'clock on the Friday afternoon . Nothing more could be done at present towards [recovering Conrad]_670-conrad , for [he]_395-charley had not even left at [[his]_395-charley lodgings]_{8867-his lodgings} any [Continental]_{272-continental} address . Possibly [his]_395-charley place of sojourn might be revealed in the letter to [[his]_395-charley sister]_{2443-his sister} , posted by [my]_0-i hand : but it was far more likely that [he]_395-charley [himself]_395-charley knew not , at the time of writing , where [he]_395-charley should find [quarters]_{9104-quarters} . [I]_0-i must have been beside [myself]_0-i with worry and disappointment , when [I]_0-i dropped that letter into [[Her]_{2443-his sister} Majesty]_{1764-her majesty} 's box ; for if [I]_0-i returned , as had been arranged , by the express at five o'clock , several hours would be saved in the delivery of its tidings . And , as yet , [I]_0-i little dreamed where [I]_0-i should be at five P.M. In [that little room]_{9106-that little room} , whose walls were more relieved than decorated by certain daubs of [mine]_0-i , which even in [my]_0-i narrowest straits [I]_0-i could not bear to part with , because [an indulgent critic]_{9107-an indulgent critic} had found merit in them — a discovery requiring much acumen — here [I]_0-i now sat , gazing fondly , dreaming hazily , yearning strongly for the days gone by , yet only three months old , when [I]_0-i had not a crust or dress till [I]_0-i earned it by [my]_0-i labour . How that pinch enlarged [my]_0-i heart , [God]_303-god only knows , not [I.]_0-i Ah , then [I]_0-i was [a happy girl]_{9108-a happy girl} , though [I]_0-i never guessed it . How proudly [I]_0-i walked down [the Square]_{1939-the square} , with [my]_0-i black straw bonnet on — which [Idols]_466-idols called the Dowdy,—and [my]_0-i dark plaid shawl around [me]_0-i , the plainest of [the plain]_{9110-the plain} , yet not prepared to confess [myself]_0-i so quotidian as [my]_0-i dress . Who could tell , in those happy days , who might come , or round what corner , and who could say whether of the twain would look the more accidental ? And then the doubt — shall [I]_0-i look or not , better perhaps be intent on the fire - plug , and make [him]_9111-him come round again ? But now . Ah [me]_0-i , [they]_9112-they have heaped up riches for [me]_0-i , and who shall come to enjoy them ? Just as [I]_0-i was warming to this subject , gushing along in a fine vein of that compassion which alone of soft emotions [we]_9113-we find it no duty to wrestle with , [I]_0-i mean of course self - pity — in came [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , suddenly , and in anger . "_[0-i] Well , [Miss Clara]_293-clara , " [she]_{516-mrs. fletcher} exclaimed , throwing down [her]_{516-mrs. fletcher} parcel , "_[0-i] so this is [London]_1-london , is it ? " "_{[516-mrs. fletcher]} To be sure , [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} . What objection have [you]_{516-mrs. fletcher} to make to it ? " "_{[516-mrs. fletcher]} No objection , [Miss]_4846-miss , only this , that if ever [I]_0-i seen [a set of [countrified folk]_{4848-countrified folk}]_{4847-a set of countrified folk} , [the Londoners]_{4849-the londoners} are [them]_{4849-the londoners} . Why [the commonest of [[our]_4851-our kitchen - [maids]_4853-maids]_{4852-our kitchen - maids}]_{4850-the commonest of our kitchen - maids} would be ashamed to talk so broad , and to dress so contemptuous . And [here]_846-here [I]_0-i went half a mile to buy boots , real [London]_1-london - made ; and trees all along by the side of [the road]_{1630-the road} , and pots on the shelves of the windows . [I]_0-i never , if [Gloucester]_{23-gloucester} do n't look much more like [a town]_{4856-a town} . " As [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} did not tell a story with the Herodotean vivacity of [Tim Badcock]_344-tim , [I]_{23-gloucester} will render [her]_{516-mrs. fletcher} facts in [my]_{23-gloucester} own unpretending version , premising only that [she]_{516-mrs. fletcher} had taken [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} and [Sally]_371-sally for specimens of [the true Cockney]_{9115-the true cockney} ; a bit of saltatory reasoning of which [she]_{516-mrs. fletcher} has not heard ( and perhaps never will hear ) the last . While then [the worthy housekeeper]_{9116-the worthy housekeeper} was driving a slow but shrewd bargain , in [a smart shop by [the Broadway]_{9118-the broadway}]_{9117-a smart shop by the broadway} , taking the boots to the sunshine , to pick clever holes in the stitching , [she]_{9116-the worthy housekeeper} observed [a diminutive boy]_{9119-a diminutive boy} , of the genuine shoe - black order , encamping in a bight or back - eddy of pavement , just at the side of the door . [This little fellow]_{9120-this little fellow} was uniformed , or rather multi - coloured , in gold , and red , and green . [His]_{9120-this little fellow} cap was scarlet , and edged with gold twist ; [his]_{9120-this little fellow} tunic red , and [his]_{9120-this little fellow} apron of very bright green baize . On [his]_{9120-this little fellow} cap , and on one shoulder , appeared [his]_{9120-this little fellow} number , 32 , in figures of brass , an inch and a half in length . Strapped on [his]_{9120-this little fellow} back [he]_{9120-this little fellow} carried an oblong block of wood , like a great club - foot , and nearly as large as [himself]_{9120-this little fellow} . This [he]_{9120-this little fellow} deposited , with elaborate fuss , on the curb of [the inner pavement]_{9121-the inner pavement} , which terraced some inches above [the true thoroughfare]_{9122-the true thoroughfare} . A blacking - jar hung at one end of [his]_{9120-this little fellow} block ; from a drawer below [he]_{9120-this little fellow} pulled out three well - worn brushes , and began to hiss and to work away , in double quick time , with both hands , at some boot projected towards [him]_{9120-this little fellow} on the delicate foot of fancy . As [he]_{9120-this little fellow} grew warm at [his]_{9120-this little fellow} work , with one sharp eye all the while looking out for [a genial passenger]_{9123-a genial passenger} , there slowly came straggling towards [him]_{9120-this little fellow} a bevy quite fresh from [Arcadia]_273-arcadia . First , in treble importance walked , impressively rolling and leering around , [Hermes]_685-hermes , [Pan]_686-pan , and the owl of [Pallas]_274-pallas , combined in one [Ebenezer Dawe]_{350-mr. dawe} . [His]_{9120-this little fellow} eyes , never too co - operative , roved away upon either side , in quest of intelligence , which [they]_9124-they received with a blink that meant , "_{[23-gloucester]} Pooh , do n't [I]_0-i know it ? " With occasional jerks of [his]_{9120-this little fellow} lank right arm , [he]_{9120-this little fellow} was dragging along , like a saw through a knot , the sturdy , tight - buttoned , and close - pronged form of [[our]_9125-our little [Jack]_374-jack]_{2200-our little jack} . [Jack]_374-jack was arrayed in a black wide - awake , with blue ribbons , and a bran - new suit of broad - furrowed corduroy , made of nights by [[his]_374-jack mother]_{1066-his mother} and [Suke]_345-suke , and turned out with countless pockets , each having three broad buttons , to foil [the London thieves]_{9128-the london thieves} . In one of these pockets , the trouser one [I]_{23-gloucester} do believe , in spite of all [Sally]_371-sally had taught [him]_{9120-this little fellow} , [he]_{9120-this little fellow} was now chinking , to the creak of the corduroys , [his]_{9120-this little fellow} last - abiding halfpence , and lagging heavily on [the poet]_{5582-the poet} 's arm , [he]_{9120-this little fellow} cast fond glances at a pile of glorious peg - tops . Sticking [her]_371-sally toes into little [Jack]_374-jack 's heels , to kick anybody that dared to steal [him]_{9120-this little fellow} , came [[my]_{23-gloucester} little Sally]_{9130-my little sally} , all fire , and wonder , and self - assertion , towing [[her]_371-sally mighty father]_{9131-her mighty father} along , like a grasshopper leading an ox . At times [she]_371-sally strove to drag [him]_{9120-this little fellow} towards the finery of the windows , and paid very little heed to [his]_{9120-this little fellow} placid protestations . "_{[23-gloucester]} Walk fitty , [[my]_0-i dear]_{5318-my dear} ; walk as [you]_{5318-my dear} ought to do , [[my]_0-i dear]_{5318-my dear} . Oh fai ! oh fai ! Whatever wull [they]_4859-they [Lunnoners]_{349-lunnoners} think of [Davonsheer]_{687-davonsheer} , if [they]_4859-they zees [you]_{5318-my dear} agooin on laike this here ? There , dang that [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} ; blest if [I]_0-i baint a toornin Poüt too . Coomth of larnin to wraite , [I]_0-i reckon . " [The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} 's pockets were crammed with circulars , handbills , and puffs of every description , which [he]_{5517-the farmer} received from all who offered , and was saving them all for [[his]_{5517-the farmer} wife]_{789-his wife} . "_[0-i] Clean [your]_{5318-my dear} boots , [[my]_0-i gentleman]_{4860-my gentleman} , " cried [a little shrill voice]_{9134-a little shrill voice} ; "_[0-i] clean both [your]_{5318-my dear} boots for a halfpenny . Never say die , [Sir]_5380-sir ; polish 'em bright till the cat at [home]_1102-home wo n't know them . Three - fardings - worth of blacking , and a penny in skill and labour , and all for the laughable sum of one half - penny . Pure satisfaction guaranteed , or the whole of the money returned . Up with [your]_{5318-my dear} foot , [my gentleman]_{4860-my gentleman} ! " [The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} pulled up suddenly , for fear of walking over [him]_{5318-my dear} , as [the boy]_{1121-the boy} , despising [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} , had dashed in between [Jack]_374-jack and [Sally]_371-sally , and danced before [Mr. Huxtable]_{338-mr. huxtable} . [His]_{5318-my dear} brushes were whisking about , like bumble - bees roughly disturbed , and already menaced the drab of [the Sunday fustian gaiters]_{9137-the sunday fustian gaiters} . "_[688-zober] [Zober]_688-zober now , " cried [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , who could not believe that [he]_{5517-the farmer} was addressed , having never dreamed , in [his]_{5517-the farmer} most ambitious moments ( if any such [he]_{5517-the farmer} had ) , of ever being called [a gentleman]_{5462-a gentleman} , "_[688-zober] zober now , wull'e . Where bee'st gooin to , [[thou]_4864-thou little hosebird]_{4865-thou little hosebird} ; be [they]_4866-they [your]_{5318-my dear} Lunnon - town manners ? Lat alo - un , [I]_0-i zay ; [lat alo - un]_{4867-lat alo - un} now , wull ' e?"—as [the boy]_{1121-the boy} got more and more tentative—"Heart_{[4867-lat alo - un]} alaive , ca nt e zee , [they]_4866-they be [my]_0-i Zunday gaiters ? Oh , if [my]_0-i missus wor here ! And ' [e]_4868-e bain't more nor naine year old ! Wull , wull , where ever do ' [e]_4868-e goo to schoüll ? " "_[4868-e] [Hinstitooshun 66]_{275-hinstitooshun 66} . [No children]_{6069-no children} or [females]_4870-females admitted . Up with [your]_{5318-my dear} foot , [old bloke]_{4871-old bloke} ! Do [the young uns and tootor half - price]_{4872-the young uns and tootor half - price} . Just two minutes to spare , till the Dook of [Cambridge]_{689-cambridge} 's turn . Great Exhibition polish , and all to encourage the fine arts . " [The good farmer]_{9141-the good farmer} was lost beyond hope , in the multitude of [subjects]_{9142-subjects} pressed all of a pulp on [his]_{9141-the good farmer} slow understanding ; nevertheless , [he]_{9141-the good farmer} had presence of mind to feel first for [his]_{9141-the good farmer} watch and [his]_{9141-the good farmer} money , and then for the best pocket - handkerchief stitched into the crown of [his]_{9141-the good farmer} hat ; meanwhile [the boy]_{1121-the boy} got hold of one foot , and began to turn up [his]_{1121-the boy} gaiters . Then [Sally]_371-sally and [little Jack]_374-jack rushed to the rescue , and [Jack]_374-jack punched [the boy]_{1121-the boy} in the face , while [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} looked on with a grin of broad experience . But in spite of all aid , [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} began to collapse before [[his]_{9141-the good farmer} mosquito enemy]_{9146-his mosquito enemy} ; when luckily [three giant Life - guards ( for a crowd]_{9147-three giant life - guards ( for a crowd} was now collected ) opened [their]_{9147-three giant life - guards ( for a crowd} mouths , like the ends of a monkey - fur muff , in a round and loud guffaw , with a very coarse sneer at poor [Sally]_371-sally . [The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} looked at [them]_{9147-three giant life - guards ( for a crowd} in much amazement ; then [his]_{9141-the good farmer} perplexity went like a cloud , and [his]_{9141-the good farmer} face shone with something to do , as [he]_{9141-the good farmer} gave [Sally]_371-sally [his]_{9141-the good farmer} hat to hold . Till now [all the mockers]_{9149-all the mockers} had been too small for [him]_{9141-the good farmer} anyhow to fall foul of . Ere the echo of laughter was over , [the three dandy Lifeguards]_{9150-the three dandy lifeguards} lay on [their]_{9150-the three dandy lifeguards} backs in the mud , with [their]_{9150-the three dandy lifeguards} striped legs erect in the air , like the rods of [a railway surveyor]_{9151-a railway surveyor} . [The crowd]_{9152-the crowd} fell back headlong , as if from a plunging horse , then laughed at [the fallen]_{9153-the fallen} and with [the conqueror]_{9154-the conqueror} . Even [the boy]_{1121-the boy} was humility multiplied into servility . "_{[4871-old bloke]} Wutt be up to , arl on ' [e]_4873-e ? " asked [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , replacing [his]_{5517-the farmer} hat ; "_{[4871-old bloke]} cas'n none on ' [e]_4873-e lat [a pacible chap alo - un]_{4874-a pacible chap alo - un} ? And wutt will [they]_4875-them [chillers]_{4876-chillers} think as coom here to get example ? Why , [Beany]_{334-beany dawe} , if [us]_4877-us had knowed this , [us]_4877-us would have brought [Bill constable]_378-bill with [us]_4877-us , ees fai . Now ' [e]_4873-e do n't know nothing about it"—he remonstrated with the admiring multitude—"one_[4873-e] o ' [them]_4875-them dree worn't throw handsome laike , ony dree pins , [I]_0-i tull ' e. But us'll do it over again , if [he]_378-bill claimeth it . Ca n't do nothing vitty , zin [I]_0-i laved [my]_0-i missus at [home]_1102-home . But [her]_4879-her wadn't coom , God knows . " These last two remarks were addressed to [himself]_0-i , but [the crowd]_{9152-the crowd} had full benefit of them . "_[4879-her] Worn't ' [e]_4873-e axing of lave , two or dree minutes agone , [little chap with the brisk there]_{4880-little chap with the brisk there} , to tend [my]_0-i butts , and tuk it amost wiout axing ? [Us]_4877-us be bound laike to stap here now till [us]_4877-us zees if [[them]_4875-them ' lisher [men]_1003-men]_{4881-them ' lisher men} feels up for any moor plai . Do as ' e plase , [little chap]_{5942-little chap} , zoon as [Sally]_371-sally hath toorned [my]_0-i best gaiters up , if [her]_371-sally bain't too grand in [Lunnon]_271-lunnon . " With bright ribbons fluttering and finery flapping about [her]_371-sally , poor [Sally]_371-sally knelt down in a moment to work at [the muddy fustian]_{9158-the muddy fustian} : but [[her]_371-sally father]_{898-her father} would not allow it , [he]_{898-her father} had only wished to try [her]_371-sally ; so [he]_{898-her father} caught [her]_371-sally up with one hand , and kissed [her]_371-sally , and [I]_{5942-little chap} think , from what [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} said , [he]_{898-her father} must have given [her]_371-sally sixpence at least . It is needless to say that , although [the boy]_{1121-the boy} worked with both hands in the most conscientious manner , [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} 's boots defied [him]_{898-her father} . Neats'-foot oil , and tallow , and beeswax held [their]_4886-their own against Day and [Martin]_690-martin . "_{[5942-little chap]} Coom , [little chap]_{5942-little chap} , " said [Mr. Huxtable]_{338-mr. huxtable} , kindly , "_{[5942-little chap]} [thee]_4885-thee hast dooed [thy]_4885-thee very best , but [our]_4886-their Zuke will have the laugh of [thee]_4885-thee . Tache [thee]_4885-thee perhaps it wull to be zoberer next taime , and not be quite so peart to do a dale more nor [thee]_4885-thee can do . But [thee]_4885-thee hast used more ink than ai wud over two copies . Here be a groat for the Exhibition polish . " In this little episode , as will be manifest , [Sally]_371-sally has helped [me]_303-god more than [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} . But now , to return to [my]_303-god narrative . Almost directly after [the housekeeper]_{6360-the housekeeper} left [me]_303-god , [Patty]_409-patty came trotting in with a large white breakfast - cup full of most powerful tea . [I]_303-god can not help thinking that [the little woman]_{6264-the little woman} put some brandy in it , or allowed [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , who trusted much in that cordial , to do so ; but [they]_4886-their stoutly deny the charge , and declare that there was only a pinch of gunpowder . Whatever it was , being parched with thirst , [I]_303-god swallowed without tasting it , and the effect upon [my]_303-god jaded brain was immediate and amazing . All self - pity was gone ; and self - admiration , and haughty courage succeeded . Was [I]_303-god , [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara , who had groped and grubbed for years to find the hole of a blasting snake , and had now got [my]_303-god hand upon it , was [I]_303-god to start back and turn pale at [his]_4885-thee hiss , and say , "_[303-god] [God]_303-god speed [you]_4885-thee and polish [your]_4885-thee skin . Give [me]_0-i [your]_4885-thee slough for a keepsake ? " Would [I]_303-god not rather seize [the incarnate devil]_{9164-the incarnate devil} , trample [his]_4885-thee spine , and make [his]_4885-thee tongue sputter in dust ? In a moment [my]_303-god cloak and hat were on again ; [I]_303-god scarcely looked at the glass , but felt the hot flush on [my]_303-god cheeks , as [I]_303-god lightly skipped down the stairs , and silently left [the house]_{764-the house} . What to do next [I]_303-god knew not , nor asked , but flew headlong before the impulse , to lift and confront — as is [my]_303-god nature — the danger that lay before [me]_303-god . As [I]_303-god glided along , [I]_303-god was conscious of one thing , [the people in [the street]_{6090-the street}]_{9166-the people in the street} turned in surprise to watch [me]_303-god . As if by instinct , [I]_303-god hurried straight to [Lucas Street]_{106-lucas street} , [my]_303-god courage mounting higher and higher as [I]_303-god neared the accursed threshold . [Balaam]_539-balak and [Balak]_539-balak stood at the bar of [a tavern which commanded a view of [the street]_{6090-the street}]_{9168-a tavern which commanded a view of the street} , but were much too busy with beer to see [me]_303-god passing so swiftly . Loudly [I]_303-god rang the bell of [No . 37]_{276-no . 37} ; the figures were bright on the door , and looking narrowly , [I]_303-god perceived the old No . 19 , more by the lines than the colour . [Old Cora]_429-cora came as usual ; but started at seeing [me]_303-god , and turned as pale as death . "_[303-god] Is [[your]_4887-you master]_{7167-your master} within ? " [I]_4887-you could not use [his]_{7167-your master} false name . "_[4887-you] Yes , [Meesa]_4887-you , but [you]_4887-you not see [him]_{7167-your master} now . " "_{[7167-your master]} Dare [you]_4887-you to disobey [[Our]_4889-our Lady]_{3529-our lady} 's heart ? " And [I]_{7167-your master} held [my]_{7167-your master} gordit before [her]_429-cora . [She]_429-cora cowered with one knee on the mat and kissed it ; then led [me]_{7167-your master} into the presence of [Lepardo Della Croce]_570-lepardo . It was [a dark and gloomy room]_{9170-a dark and gloomy room} , with three high , narrow windows . [Cora]_429-cora departed hastily , frightened at what [she]_429-cora had done . In a recess at the farther end , before a chest of black bog - oak , sat [the man [I]_{7167-your master} sought]_{9171-the man i sought} . The crowning moment of [my]_{7167-your master} life was come . All rehearsals went for nothing : the strongest feeling of [my]_{7167-your master} heart was scorn , cold , unfathomable scorn . To show [myself]_{7167-your master} well , [I]_{7167-your master} took off [my]_{7167-your master} hat , and advanced in [my]_{7167-your master} haughtiest manner . As [he]_{9171-the man i sought} turned [his]_{9171-the man i sought} head , [I]_{7167-your master} saw that [his]_{9171-the man i sought} mood was blacker than the oak before [him]_{9171-the man i sought} . Some dark memorials perhaps were there ; hastily and heavily [he]_{9171-the man i sought} flung down the lid , as [I]_{7167-your master} walked with even steps towards [him]_{9171-the man i sought} . "_{[7167-your master]} Ah ! [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} ! [The young lady that paints]_{4891-the young lady that paints} . [I]_0-i feared that [you]_{423-miss valence} were lost to [London]_1-london ; for now - a - days the pursuit of the fine arts requires either genius , or fashion , at any rate the latter most , to be at all remunerative . May [I]_0-i show [you]_{423-miss valence} the way to [the drawing - room]_{4892-the drawing - room} ? [I]_0-i have not often the honour of receiving [visitors]_{4893-visitors} [here]_846-here . But [I]_0-i think [you]_{423-miss valence} know how entirely [I]_0-i am [the slave of [young ladies]_{2104-young ladies}]_{4895-the slave of young ladies} , [Miss Valence]_{423-miss valence} . " And [he]_0-i held out [his]_0-i delicate hand . "_{[423-miss valence]} [Lepardo Della Croce]_570-lepardo , [my]_0-i name is not [Valence]_{423-miss valence} . [I]_0-i am [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara , [the only child of [him]_0-i whom in [his]_0-i sleep [you]_{423-miss valence} murdered]_{4897-the only child of him whom in his sleep you murdered} . " [He]_0-i turned not pale , but livid . [His]_0-i jaunty nonsense was gone in a moment . [He]_0-i quailed from [my]_4898-you dark eyes , and fell upon a chair . For one minute there [he]_0-i crouched , and dared not meet [my]_4898-you gaze ; every fibre of [his]_0-i flesh was quivering . It was not shame that cowed [him]_0-i , but the prostration of amazement . Suddenly [he]_0-i leaped upright , and met [me]_4898-you eye to eye . Then [I]_4898-you saw that [his]_0-i pupils turned towards each other , as [[my]_4898-you uncle]_{1271-my uncle} had described . [I]_4898-you neither spoke , nor allowed [my]_4898-you gaze to falter . Every nerve and cord of [my]_4898-you frame was tense , and rigid , and rooted . To [him]_0-i [I]_4898-you must have seemed the embodiment of revenge . At last [he]_0-i spoke , very slowly , and in words that trembled . "_[4898-you] [You]_4898-you have no right to judge [me]_0-i by [your]_4898-you English notions . [You]_4898-you do not understand [me]_0-i . " "_[0-i] [I]_0-i judge [you]_4898-you not at all . [God]_303-god shall judge and smite [you]_4898-you . In cold blood [you]_4898-you murdered [a man who never wronged [you]_4898-you]_{4899-a man who never wronged you} . " "_[4898-you] What ! " [he]_0-i burst forth in a blaze of triumph , "_[4898-you] no wrong to steal [[my]_0-i lovely bride]_{4900-my lovely bride} , and [my]_0-i noble inheritance , to debauch the purest blood of [Corsica]_150-corsica by a prostitute wedding ; no wrong to strike [me]_0-i senseless ! Even [[your]_4898-you nation of [policemen]_{4902-policemen}]_{4901-your nation of policemen} would call this rather initiative . " "_{[4902-policemen]} [The man [you]_4898-you stole upon in [his]_{4903-the man you stole upon in his sleep} sleep]_{4903-the man you stole upon in his sleep} had never seen or heard of [you]_4898-you , had never been in [Corsica]_150-corsica . " "_{[4903-the man you stole upon in his sleep]} What ? " [His]_0-i teeth struck together like fire - tongs badly jointed , and [he]_0-i could not part them . "_{[4903-the man you stole upon in his sleep]} It is true . [I]_0-i regret to inform [you]_4898-you that [you]_4898-you must go to hell for nothing . [You]_4898-you could not even murder [the right man]_{4904-the right man} . " "_[4898-you] Tell [me]_0-i . " "_[4898-you] Like [a coward]_{3282-a coward} as [you]_4898-you are , [you]_4898-you crawled , and lurked , and lied ; [you]_4898-you spent what little mind [you]_4898-you have in securing [a baby]_{2061-a baby} 's blow , [you]_4898-you crouched among old clothes and bed - ticks , and behind [the housemaid]_{4907-the housemaid} 's flask ; and [you]_4898-you went away exulting in [your]_4898-you bloody soul , over what ? [the wrong man]_{8622-the wrong man} 's murder . " "_[4898-you] Can it be ? " "_[4898-you] Not only this , but [you]_4898-you enriched and brought into high position [the man [you]_4898-you meant to kill]_{4909-the man you meant to kill} . [He]_{4909-the man you meant to kill} became [the lord of [[his]_{4909-the man you meant to kill} half - brother]_{902-his half - brother} 's lands]_{4910-the lord of his half - brother 's lands} , and now is wealthy and happy , and [the children [you]_4898-you stole]_{4912-the children you stole} will help [him]_{4909-the man you meant to kill} to laugh at [your]_4898-you Vendetta . " "_{[4909-the man you meant to kill]} Wait a little . " "_{[4909-the man you meant to kill]} Cats and small dogs [you]_4898-you can carve alive , when [a woman]_{5830-a woman} has strapped them down for [you]_4898-you , and the poor things are trying to lick [you]_4898-you . But as for midnight murder , however sound [[your]_4898-you victims]_{4914-your victims} sleep , [you]_4898-you have not nerve enough . [You]_4898-you quake and quiver so that [you]_4898-you know not [a dark man from a fair]_{4915-a dark man from a fair} . Clever , do n't [you]_4898-you think ? Particularly for [a Professor]_{4916-a professor} . " [I]_{4916-a professor} saw that [my]_{4916-a professor} contempt was curling round [him]_4898-you like a knout ; so [I]_{4916-a professor} gave [him]_4898-you a little more of it . "_{[4916-a professor]} Of course [we]_4917-we could not expect [you]_4898-you to meet [[your]_4898-you foe]_{4918-your foe} like [a man]_{5384-a man} . Even were [you]_4898-you [a worthy sample of [your]_4898-you sneaking race]_{4920-a worthy sample of your sneaking race} , [you]_4898-you never could do that . Too wholesome memory of the English blow between [your]_4898-you quailing eyes . [I]_0-i am pleased to see [you]_4898-you fumbling clumsily for [your]_4898-you dagger . Who knows but what [you]_4898-you are fool enough even to have some self - respect ? " A black tint darted beneath [his]_4898-you skin , as if [his]_4898-you heart were a cuttle - fish . Had [I]_570-lepardo taken [my]_570-lepardo eyes from [him]_4898-you , [he]_4898-you would have stabbed [me]_570-lepardo . [He]_4898-you fell back against the oak chest . [My]_570-lepardo madness grew with [my]_570-lepardo triumph . "_{[570-lepardo]} No . [You]_4898-you dare not do it , because [I]_0-i am not asleep . Come , [I]_0-i will give [you]_4898-you every chance , [Lepardo Della Croce]_570-lepardo . If [you]_4898-you are brave enough to shoot [a white - haired man]_{4921-a white - haired man} at dinner , surely [you]_4898-you have the courage to stab [a young girl on the sofa]_{4922-a young girl on the sofa} . Here [I]_0-i lie . [I]_0-i will not move . And [I]_0-i defy [you]_4898-you to do it . " Quietly [I]_0-i lay and watched [him]_4898-you ; but as if [he]_4898-you were scarcely worth it . [He]_4898-you could not take [his]_4898-you eyes from [mine]_0-i . [He]_4898-you was like a rat before a snake . And all the while , [his]_4898-you hand was working on the cross haft of a poniard . "_[0-i] What more can [I]_0-i do to encourage [you]_4898-you ? Would [you]_4898-you like the curtain to skulk behind ? " And [I]_4898-you threw the window - hangings over the foot of the sofa , but so that [I]_4898-you held [him]_4898-you still in view . Calm as [I]_4898-you was , [I]_4898-you must have been mad to play with [my]_4898-you life so contemptuously . Presently [I]_4898-you rose , put back [my]_4898-you hair and turned away , as in weariness . "_[4898-you] [I]_0-i fear [your]_4898-you appetite is cloyed with the writhings of cats and dogs . Or has murder no relish for [you]_4898-you , unless it be in cold blood ? But there , [I]_0-i am tired of [you]_4898-you : [you]_4898-you have so little variety . [We]_4923-my will send [you]_4898-you back to [Corsica]_150-corsica , and write ' Rimbecco ' on [you]_4898-you . " [He]_4898-you sprang at [me]_4923-my madly , gnashing [his]_4898-you teeth , and whirling [his]_4898-you stiletto . [I]_4923-my faced [him]_4898-you just in time , with both hands by [my]_4923-my side . Had [I]_4923-my raised them , or shown the least sign of fear , [my]_4923-my life would have followed [[my]_4923-my father]_{731-my father} 's then and there . "_[4923-my] Yes , " [I]_547-rimbecco said , while [he]_4898-you paused , with the weapon not a yard from [me]_547-rimbecco , "_{[547-rimbecco]} a spirited attempt , considering what [you]_4898-you are . But waste of time and trouble . However , [I]_0-i have hit the word which seems to suit [your]_4898-you views . Allow [me]_0-i to repeat the agreeable term , ' [Rimbecco]_547-rimbecco . ' " [I]_547-rimbecco saw in [his]_4898-you eyes the flash which shows the momentum given , but [his]_4898-you arm fell powerless . [He]_4898-you looked even humbly at [me]_547-rimbecco . "_{[547-rimbecco]} [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara — " "_[293-clara] Be kind enough to address [me]_0-i properly . " "_[293-clara] [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara , [you]_4898-you must have some powerful reason for wishing to be rid of life . " [He]_4898-you tried to look piercingly at [me]_4898-you . "_[4898-you] [You]_4898-you are quite mistaken . It is nothing more than contempt of [an abject coward and murderer]_{4924-an abject coward and murderer} . " "_{[4924-an abject coward and murderer]} To [you]_4898-you [I]_0-i will make no attempt to justify [myself]_0-i . [You]_4898-you could not understand [me]_0-i . [Your]_4898-you ways of thought are wholly different . " "_[4898-you] [I]_0-i beg leave to hope so . Do n't come near [me]_0-i , if [you]_4898-you please . " "_[4898-you] If [I]_0-i have injured [you]_4898-you in ignorance , [I]_0-i will do [my]_0-i best to make amends . What course do [you]_4898-you propose ? " "_[4898-you] To let [you]_4898-you go free , in pity for [your]_4898-you abject nature and cowardice . [We]_4925-i scorn [you]_4898-you too much for anything else . " This seemed to amaze [him]_4898-you more than all before . It was plain that [he]_4898-you could not believe [me]_4925-i . A long silence ensued . Looking at [the wily wretch]_{9174-the wily wretch} , [I]_4925-i began unwittingly to compare , or rather to contrast [[his]_4898-you noble victim]_{9175-his noble victim} with [him]_4898-you . [I]_4925-i thought of the deep affliction and misery wrought by [his]_4898-you despicable revenge . [I]_4925-i thought of [his]_4898-you brutal cruelty to [the poor creatures [God]_303-god has given [us]_4925-i]_{9176-the poor creatures god has given us} ; and a rancour like [his]_4898-you own began to move in [my]_4925-i troubled heart . It had been there all the while , no doubt , but a larger pressure had stilled it . Watching [me]_4925-i intently , [he]_4898-you saw the change in [my]_4925-i countenance , and as cold disdain grew flushed with anger , [my]_4925-i power over [him]_4898-you departed . But [he]_4898-you did not let [me]_4925-i perceive it . [I]_4925-i am sure that [I]_4925-i might have gone whither and when [I]_4925-i pleased , and [he]_4898-you would have feared to follow [me]_4925-i , if [I]_4925-i had only regarded [him]_4898-you to the end with no other emotion than scorn . "_[4925-i] Am [I]_0-i to understand , " [he]_4898-you said at last , "_[0-i] that [you]_0-i intend to do nothing to [me]_0-i ? " "_[0-i] It is not worth [our]_4926-we while to hang [you]_0-i . For such a crime any other punishment would be an outrage and a jest . [You]_0-i slew [a good and a gentle man]_{4927-a good and a gentle man} ; one as brave as [you]_0-i are cowardly . By the same blow [you]_0-i destroyed [[his]_{4927-a good and a gentle man} wife]_{789-his wife} , who lingered for a few years , pining till [she]_{789-his wife} died . Both of these were dear to [God]_303-god . [He]_303-god will avenge [them]_4929-them in [His]_303-god good time . Only one thing [we]_4926-we shall insist on , that [you]_0-i leave [this country]_{1963-this country} immediately , and under a solemn oath never to return to it . One good point [you]_0-i have , [I]_0-i am told — fidelity to [your]_0-i word . " "_[0-i] And if [I]_0-i refuse , what then ? " "_[0-i] Then [you]_0-i die [a murderer]_{5469-a murderer} 's death . [We]_4926-we have evidence [you]_0-i little dream of . " [He]_0-i had now recovered [his]_0-i presence of mind , and [his]_0-i scoffing manner ; and all [his]_0-i plan was formed . "_[4926-we] What [a brave young lady]_{4932-a brave young lady} [you]_0-i are to come here all alone , and entertaining so low an opinion of [the poor Professor]_{4933-the poor professor} . " "_{[4934-precautions]} The very reason why [I]_0-i scorned [precautions]_{4934-precautions} . " A deep gleam shot through the darkness of [his]_0-i eyes . "_[0-i] [You]_0-i must indeed despise [me]_0-i , to come here without telling [any one]_{1178-any one} ! " "_[0-i] Of course . But [I]_0-i did not mean to come , till [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's spirit led [me]_0-i . " With a shudder [he]_0-i glanced all round [the room]_{823-the room} . [Lily]_673-lily was not mistaken when [she]_673-lily called [him]_0-i superstitious . Then [he]_0-i tried to sneer it off . "_[0-i] And did [the good Papa]_{4937-the good papa} , dear to [God]_303-god , undertake to escort [you]_0-i back ? " Seeing that [I]_{4937-the good papa} disdained to answer , [he]_0-i continued thus : "_{[4937-the good papa]} [You]_0-i have displayed much graceful and highly - becoming scorn . [I]_0-i , in turn , will exhibit some little contempt of [you]_0-i . [You]_0-i were pleased to say , if [my]_0-i memory serves [me]_0-i , that [you]_0-i had some wonderful evidence . [I]_0-i will furnish [you]_0-i with more , and perhaps what [you]_0-i little dream of . Approach , and examine this box . " [He]_0-i raised the lid of the oaken chest , and propped it with a staple . Quite thrown off [my]_{1872-young lady} guard for the moment , [I]_{1872-young lady} began to devour the contents with [my]_{1872-young lady} eyes . Not many things were in it ; but all of them were remarkable . To [me]_{1872-young lady} they looked like theatrical properties , or materials for disguise . Some of them were faded and tarnished ; some were set with a silver cross . [My]_{1872-young lady} gaze was rivetted on a pair of boots , fixed in a ledge with horse - shoe bays ; on the sole of one [I]_{1872-young lady} perceived a cross of metal inlaid ; [I]_{1872-young lady} drew nearer to see it more closely , when something fell over [my]_{1872-young lady} head . All down [me]_{1872-young lady} , and round [me]_{1872-young lady} , and twisted behind in a tight tourniquet , before [I]_{1872-young lady} could guess what it was . [I]_{1872-young lady} am not weak , for [a girl]_{2251-a girl} ; but [I]_{1872-young lady} could no more lift [my]_{1872-young lady} arms than a swathed mummy can . Neither could [I]_{1872-young lady} kick , although as [a child]_{782-a child} [I]_{1872-young lady} had been famous for that accomplishment ; if [I]_{1872-young lady} lifted either foot , [I]_{1872-young lady} must tumble head - foremost into the box , which was large enough for [me]_{1872-young lady} to live in . Scream [I]_{1872-young lady} could , and did , in spite of all [my]_{1872-young lady} valour , not only from fright , but from pain , for [my]_{1872-young lady} chest was dreadfully tightened ; but before [I]_{1872-young lady} could scream more than twice , a cloth was passed over [my]_{1872-young lady} mouth , and knotted behind [my]_{1872-young lady} neck . So there [I]_{1872-young lady} stood , [a helpless prisoner]_{9180-a helpless prisoner} , in the recess at the end of the oaken ark . A low laugh thrilled in [my]_{1872-young lady} ears , but the hand on [my]_{1872-young lady} spine relaxed not ; [I]_{1872-young lady} turned [my]_{1872-young lady} neck by a violent effort and met [the demon]_{9181-the demon} 's eyes . "_{[1872-young lady]} Very pretty [you]_4938-you look , [young lady]_{1872-young lady} , very pretty indeed . [I]_0-i must have a kiss before [I]_0-i have done with [you]_4938-you , in spite of all indignation . There is a dress resembling this among [the Tartar tribes]_{4940-the tartar tribes} . Did [I]_0-i hurt [your]_4938-you proud , straight nose ? If so , accept most humble apologies . [I]_0-i would not injure it for [the world]_{798-the world} ; it does express so much scorn . Take care , [[my]_0-i child]_{1549-my child} , [your]_4938-you eyelashes are coming through the worsted . " Yes . Ignoble confession ! [I]_{1549-my child} , for whose disdain [the world]_{798-the world} had been too small , was prisoned and helpless in an "_{[1549-my child]} anti - macassar , " like a fly in a paper cage - trap . The sofa , on which [I]_{1549-my child} had lain so grandly defying [[my]_{1549-my child} enemy]_{1966-my enemy} , was covered with a stout worsted net , long and very strong : this [he]_{1966-my enemy} had doubled end to end , and flung over [my]_{1549-my child} haughty head . [I]_{1549-my child} have not patience to recount [his]_{1966-my enemy} paltry , bantering jeers . Contempt is a tool [I]_{1549-my child} am used to grasp by the handle only . Be it enough to say that , without releasing [me]_{1549-my child} , [he]_{1966-my enemy} rang the bell for [Cora]_429-cora , whose greedy eyes glistened when [she]_429-cora saw [my]_{1549-my child} gordit loose from [my]_{1549-my child} bosom , and tangled in the net . [[Her]_429-cora master]_{814-her master} allowed [her]_429-cora to disengage , and , for the time at least , appropriate it . In return for this , [she]_429-cora was , at [his]_{1966-my enemy} pleasure , to stab [me]_{1549-my child} if [he]_{1966-my enemy} should order it . By [his]_{1966-my enemy} directions , [she]_429-cora tied [my]_{1549-my child} ankles together , while [he]_{1966-my enemy} lashed [my]_{1549-my child} arms anew , and tightened the muffler over [my]_{1549-my child} bleeding lips . [I]_{1549-my child} closed [my]_{1549-my child} eyes , and prayed ; then [I]_{1549-my child} made up [my]_{1549-my child} mind to die , as many [a Vaughan]_{8647-a vaughan} had done , at the hands of [a brutal enemy]_{9186-a brutal enemy} . [My]_{1549-my child} last thought was of [Conrad]_670-conrad , and then [my]_{1549-my child} senses forsook [me]_{1549-my child} . [I]_{1549-my child} have a faint recollection of feeling [myself]_{1549-my child} swung , and jolted down a number of stairs , and of a cold breeze striking on [my]_{1549-my child} face . And doubtless [they]_{8647-a vaughan} carried [me]_{1549-my child} down ; for [the room in which [I]_{1549-my child} had found [[my]_{1549-my child} enemy]_{1966-my enemy}]_{9187-the room in which i had found my enemy} was two floors above [the cellarage]_{9189-the cellarage} . When [I]_{1549-my child} came to [myself]_{1549-my child} , [I]_{1549-my child} had no idea where in [the world]_{798-the world} [I]_{1549-my child} was . The air was heavy with a most powerful and oppressive smell , a reek and taint as of death and corruption . It made [me]_{1549-my child} faint , and [I]_{1549-my child} think [I]_{1549-my child} must have gone off again . Lifting [my]_{1549-my child} head at last , [I]_{1549-my child} began to look languidly around . The table , or working - bench , on which [I]_{1549-my child} lay , was near the centre of [a long and narrow room]_{9191-a long and narrow room} , gloomy and cold , even in the dog - days , floored with moss - green stone , and far below the ground - level . Those flag - stones , [I]_{1549-my child} suppose , were bedded immediately upon the tough blue London clay , that most unconquerable stratum , sullen , damp , and barren . [I]_{1549-my child} could only see two windows in [the long low room]_{9192-the long low room} , both upon the same side , horizontally fixed , and several feet from the floor . Heavy iron bars , perpendicularly set , crossed them at narrow intervals , as if [it]_9193-it had been [the condemned cell in [a prison]_{9195-a prison}]_{9194-the condemned cell in a prison} . One of these windows was already darkened with a truss of straw , and sacks over it , placed outside the glass ; as is done in [Corsica]_150-corsica , during Vendetta siege . The technical term is "_{[1549-my child]} inceppar le fenestre . " Through the other window ( which looked up a slide or scoop of brickwork , like a malt - shovel , to [the flabby garden behind [the house]_{764-the house}]_{9196-the flabby garden behind the house} ) , [I]_{1549-my child} saw an arm , the colour and shape of an American herring , very active with a hammer . [I]_{1549-my child} knew that arm at once . Sticking out at the joints , like the spurs of a pear - tree , welted and wired with muscle between them , like the drumstick of a turkey , but flat as if plaited of hide , [no friend of mine]_{9198-no friend of mine} could claim it , except [the Corsican Cora]_{585-old cora} . Deliberately [she]_{585-old cora} drove the nails , like [a gardener training a tree]_{9199-a gardener training a tree} , paying undue attention to [her]_{585-old cora} skinny knuckles ; then [she]_{585-old cora} lifted the sacks , stooped down and looked in , grimly reconnoitring [me]_{1549-my child} . By the slanting light [I]_{1549-my child} saw what a horrible place [I]_{1549-my child} lay in . Around and under [me]_{1549-my child} , on the furrowed timber , were dull plum - coloured blotches , where the slowly trickling blood of many an unlucky dog and cat had curdled ; even if there were not any shed from nobler veins . Reaching in a back - handed way towards the jagged margin , [I]_{1549-my child} grasped a cold hard cylinder . It was an iron hold - fast , like , but larger than the instrument to be seen in [every carpenter]_{9200-every carpenter} 's bench , which works in a collared hole , and has a claw for clutching . Under it , no doubt , many [a poor live victim]_{9201-a poor live victim} had quivered and sobbed in vain . At [my]_{1549-my child} head were two square slides , fitted with straps of stout unyielding web . Near them was a rasped iron plane working along a metal bed or groove , with a solid T piece , and a winch to adjust it . As with morbid observation [I]_{1549-my child} surveyed [these fiendish devices]_{9202-these fiendish devices} , and many others which [I]_{1549-my child} can not stop to tell of , [I]_{1549-my child} who love almost every creature made by [[our]_9203-we own Maker]_{9204-our own maker} , especially those to whom [we]_9203-we are lent as [Gods]_691-gods , [my]_{1549-my child} flesh , [I]_{1549-my child} say , began to creep , and [my]_{1549-my child} blood to curdle , as if the dissecting knife were already in [my]_{1549-my child} diaphragm . Surely [those who in full manhood]_{9205-those who in full manhood} torture [[His]_{9205-those who in full manhood} innocent creatures]_{9206-his innocent creatures} — poor things that can not plead or weep , but worship the foot that kicks [them]_{9206-his innocent creatures} — surely these , if any , [we]_9203-we may without presumption say that [He]_{9205-those who in full manhood} who made will judge . Four brief lines by [a modern poet]_{9207-a modern poet} , too well known for [me]_{1549-my child} to quote them , express a grand and simple truth , seldom denied , more seldom felt . But here am [I]_{1549-my child} , laid out in this fearful place , perhaps [myself]_{1549-my child} a subject for vivisection . No , [I]_{1549-my child} am not strapped ; even [my]_{1549-my child} feet are free . Off the grouted and grimy table [I]_{1549-my child} roll with all possible speed , the table where even strong [Judy]_477-judy must have lain still as a skeleton . Of skeletons there were plenty ranged around the walls , and other hideous things which [I]_{1549-my child} can not bear to think of . One was a monstrous crocodile , with scales like a shed fir - cone , all reflexed and dry , and ringent lips of leather , and teeth that seemed to look the wrong way , like a daisy - rake over - worked . Another was some pulled - out beast , that never could hit [his]_{9205-those who in full manhood} own joints again — plesiosauri , deinosauri , marsupials , [proboscidians]_{9208-proboscidians} — [I]_{1549-my child} am sure [I]_{1549-my child} can not tell , having never been at college . [I]_{1549-my child} only know that at every one of them [I]_{1549-my child} shuddered , and shrugged [my]_{1549-my child} shoulders , and wished that [he]_{9205-those who in full manhood} smelled rather nicer . Then there were numbers of things always going up and down , in stuff like clarified syrup , according to the change of temperature , just as leeches do in a pickle - bottle . Snakes as well , and other reptiles streaked like sticks of peppermint , and centipedes , and Rio wrigglers , called [I]_{1549-my child} think [La Croya]_{692-la croya} . It was enough in [that vault - like room]_{9209-that vault - like room} , which felt like the scooping of an August iceberg ; it was more than enough to strike a chill to the marrow , as of one who sleeps in a bed newly brought from [the cellar]_{1496-the cellar} . But the worst and most horrible thing of all was the core and nucleus of the smell that might be felt , the half - dissected body of a porpoise , leaning on a dozen stout cross - poles . It was enough to make the blood of a dog run cold . Overpowered by sights and smells , and the fear of mingling with [them]_9211-them , [I]_{1549-my child} huddled away in a corner , and tried in vain to take [my]_{1549-my child} eyes from the only sign of life yet left , the motion of [Cora]_{585-old cora} 's club - like arm . [The poor old woman]_{9212-the poor old woman} enjoyed [my]_{1549-my child} interest in [her]_{9212-the poor old woman} work , and when [she]_{9212-the poor old woman} had finished , [she]_{9212-the poor old woman} made [me]_{1549-my child} a mock salaam , and kissed [the pixie]_{9213-the pixie} 's heart . Then , with a grin , [she]_{9212-the poor old woman} dropped the rough hangings , and left [me]_{1549-my child} in ghastly twilight . As the sacks fell over the window - frame , [I]_{1549-my child} lost all presence of mind , all honest indignation , everything but a coward horror , and the shrinking of life from death . With all the strength of [my]_{1549-my child} chest and throat , [I]_{1549-my child} cast forth , as a cannon discharges , one long , volleyed , agonising shriek . As it rang among the skeletons , and rattled [their]_9214-their tissue - less joints , a small square grating in the upper panel of the heavy door swung back , and in the opening appeared the face of [Lepardo Della Croce]_570-lepardo . [He]_0-i lifted [his]_0-i hat with a pleasant air , and addressed [me]_{1549-my child} with a smile , "_{[1549-my child]} Ah ! now , this [I]_0-i call a pity , a great pity , indeed , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara ; but that [I]_0-i always fear the imputation of pedantry , [I]_0-i should call it a bathos . [You]_4943-you can hardly be aware that since [you]_4943-you made that dreadful noise , [you]_4943-you have fallen in [my]_0-i opinion from [a Porcia]_{4944-a porcia} , or [an Arria]_{4945-an arria} , to [a common maid Marian]_{4946-a common maid marian} . Fie , fie , it is too disappointing . It saps [one]_6186-one 's candid faith in the nobility of human nature . But , as [I]_0-i can no longer appeal to [your]_4943-you courage or spirit , [I]_0-i must , it appears , address [myself]_0-i to [your]_4943-you reason ; if , as [I]_0-i am fain to hope , [your]_4943-you nerves have not impaired it . Be assured , then , once for all , that it is a vulgar error to exert [your]_4943-you sweet voice in so high a key . [My]_0-i little dissecting theatre , though not so perfect as [I]_0-i could wish , particularly in ventilation , is nevertheless so secured from erroneous plebeian sympathy , that [all the cats in [London]_1-london]_{4948-all the cats in london} might squall away [their]_{4948-all the cats in london} fabulous nine lives without affecting the tea and muffins of [the excellent old ladies who live on either side of [us]_4950-us]_{4949-the excellent old ladies who live on either side of us} . [That noble tabby , on the third shelf right]_{4951-that noble tabby , on the third shelf right} , was [a household god at No . 39]_{4952-a household god at no . 39} , until [he]_{4951-that noble tabby , on the third shelf right} had the honour of attracting [my]_0-i attention . Breathe not a word about [him]_{4951-that noble tabby , on the third shelf right} , if [you]_4943-you ever come out . Twice a day , [I]_0-i sent to inquire , with [my]_0-i kindest compliments , whether poor [Miss Jenkinson]_{693-miss jenkinson} had recovered [her]_{693-miss jenkinson} darling cat . Meanwhile , by inanition scientifically graduated , [I]_0-i succeeded in absorbing [his]_{4951-that noble tabby , on the third shelf right} adipose deposit , and found [him]_{4951-that noble tabby , on the third shelf right} one of the kindest subjects [I]_0-i have had the pleasure of manipulating . Be not alarmed , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara ; [I]_0-i have no intention of starving [you]_293-clara ; neither , if [you]_293-clara behave with courtesy , will [I]_0-i even dissect [you]_293-clara . [I]_0-i only mention these little facts to convince [you]_293-clara of [our]_4953-our pleasing retirement . The ceiling of [[your]_293-clara room]_{2382-your room} is six feet below the level of [the street]_{6090-the street} , the walls are three feet thick and felted , and the bricks set all as headers , which makes a great difference in conducting power . The windows , as perhaps [you]_293-clara have already observed , are secluded from vulgar eyes , and command a very partial view of [[our]_4953-our own little Eden]_{4956-our own little eden} . Moreover , if by exerting [your]_293-clara nobly - developed chest , to an extent which for [your]_293-clara sake [I]_0-i affectionately deprecate , [you]_293-clara even succeeded at last in producing an undulation — do [you]_293-clara remember [my]_0-i lecture upon the conflicting theories of sound?—or a vibration in the tympanum of [a neighbour]_{4957-a neighbour} , [I]_0-i fear [you]_293-clara would be regarded — it shocks [me]_0-i greatly to think of it — as a cat of rare vocal power , unduly agitated by [my]_0-i feeble pursuit of science . Therefore , let [me]_0-i conclude [my]_0-i friendly counsel in the language of all [[your]_293-clara theatres]_{4958-your theatres} — ah ! [you]_293-clara have no drama now in [this country]_{1963-this country} , such poverty of invention — but in the words , which [I]_0-i regret to say , appear from six to a dozen times in every British trugody , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara , ' Be calm . ' " Through all this brutal sneering , [I]_293-clara stood resolutely with [my]_293-clara back turned to [him]_0-i . Perhaps [he]_0-i thought that [I]_293-clara would stoop to supplication . [I]_293-clara could have bitten [my]_293-clara tongue off for that contemptible shriek ; it was such a triumph to [him]_0-i . "_[293-clara] Ah ! sulky , [I]_0-i fear ; [young lady sulky with [the poor Professor , who tries to develop [her]_{4961-the poor professor , who tries to develop her mind} mind]_{4961-the poor professor , who tries to develop her mind} . Fie , fie , very small and ungrateful , and not half so grand a study as the attitude of contempt]_{4960-young lady sulky with the poor professor , who tries to develop her mind . fie , fie , very small and ungrateful , and not half so grand a study as the attitude of contempt} . What a pity poor [Conrad]_670-conrad was not present an hour ago ! How [he]_670-conrad might have enriched [his]_670-conrad little book of schemata . Several most magnificent poses . But [I]_0-i fear [the poor fellow]_{4962-the poor fellow} has taken [his]_{4962-the poor fellow} last chip . A sad thing , was it not ? Why , how [you]_293-clara start , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara ! Oh , [you]_293-clara can show [your]_293-clara face at last ! And how pale ! Well , if eyes could only kill — " "_[293-clara] What is it — [I]_0-i mean be good enough just to go away . " "_[0-i] To be sure [I]_0-i will . [I]_0-i have a little matter on hand which must not be delayed ; to leave [my]_0-i carte de visite upon [the right man]_{4904-the right man} , this time . [I]_0-i can not sufficiently thank [you]_293-clara for [your]_293-clara invaluable information . Is that snug little entrance practicable still ? [Very hospitable people [they]_{4964-very hospitable people they used to be at vaughan park} used to be at [Vaughan Park]_{5-vaughan park}]_{4964-very hospitable people they used to be at vaughan park} . Fare [you]_293-clara well , [young lady]_{1872-young lady} ; [I]_0-i will not keep [you]_293-clara in any unnecessary suspense . After [my]_0-i return , [I]_0-i shall arrange for [your]_293-clara release ; if it can be made compatible with [my]_0-i safety . [You]_293-clara will have plenty of food , and much time for meditation . Let [your]_293-clara thoughts of [me]_0-i be liberal and kindly . [I]_0-i never injure [any one]_{1178-any one} , when [I]_0-i can avoid it . [I]_0-i only regret that the air [you]_293-clara breathe will impair , for the while , [your]_293-clara roses . But what an opportunity of analysing the gases ! Carbonic acid predominant . Do [you]_293-clara gratify [me]_0-i by bearing in mind a lecture , at which [you]_293-clara were very attentive , on Malaria and [Miasma]_694-miasma ? " Taunting to the last , and sneering even at [himself]_0-i , as [men of the blackest dye of wickedness]_{9215-men of the blackest dye of wickedness} are very apt to do , [he]_0-i closed the grating carefully , and [I]_293-clara heard the ring of the metal cross on the rough stone steps . [He]_0-i had the boots of vengeance on ; [his]_0-i errand was stealthy and cold - blooded murder ; [me]_293-clara , who had never harmed [him]_0-i , [he]_0-i was abandoning perhaps to death , certainly to madness — and yet to [his]_0-i own ideas , all [he]_0-i was doing was right . Frantic at the horrors around [me]_293-clara , and still more so at those impending through [my]_293-clara own rash folly , [I]_293-clara tore and scratched at the solid door , and flung [myself]_293-clara against it , till [my]_293-clara nails were broken , and [my]_293-clara fingers bleeding , and all [my]_293-clara body palpitating with impotent mad fury . In weariness at last and shame at this wild outburst , [I]_293-clara sat upon the floor , for [I]_293-clara could not touch [the operator]_{9216-the operator} 's stool , and tried to collect [my]_293-clara thoughts . Was there any possibility of saving [[my]_293-clara poor Uncle]_{2919-my poor uncle} ? It must now be nearly four o'clock on the Friday afternoon , or at least [I]_293-clara so computed it . The beautiful watch given [me]_293-clara by [[my]_293-clara Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} had stopped through [my]_293-clara reckless violence , and the breaking of the glass . The hands , as [I]_293-clara could barely perceive , stood at a quarter to four . [The express - train]_{9219-the express - train} , by which [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} and [I]_293-clara were to have returned , would leave [Paddington]_{246-paddington} at five P.M. and reach [Gloucester]_{23-gloucester} soon after eight . [Lepardo Della Croce]_570-lepardo would catch it easily , and perhaps would accomplish [his]_{2919-my poor uncle} foul design that night . [My]_293-clara only hope of preventing [him]_{2919-my poor uncle} lay in [his]_{2919-my poor uncle} own tenacity of usage . From [[my]_293-clara Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's account , [I]_293-clara knew , that on [their]_{1271-my uncle} cursed Vendetta enterprises , a certain pilgrimage on foot is , in [many families]_{9221-many families} , regarded as a matter of honour . This usage owes its origin perhaps to some faint trace of mercy , some wish to afford the evil passions one more chance of relenting to the milder reflections of weariness , and the influence of the air . Be that as it may , [I]_293-clara believed that the custom was hereditary in [the Della Croce family]_{9222-the della croce family} ; and if so , [the enemy]_{1677-the enemy} would finish [his]_{1677-the enemy} journey on foot , quitting [the train]_{7101-the train} some distance on [this side of [Gloucester]_{23-gloucester}]_{9225-this side of gloucester} . Therefore if [I]_293-clara could contrive to escape in the course of the night , [I]_293-clara might yet be in time . All the rest of the daylight , such as it was , [I]_293-clara spent in examining , inch by inch , every part of the loathsome chamber , which was now [[my]_293-clara dungeon]_{9226-my dungeon} . By this time all [my]_293-clara patience , habitual more than natural , had returned , and all [my]_293-clara really inborn determination and hope . Surely [I]_293-clara had been every bit as badly off before , and had struggled through quite as hopeless a difficulty . If arduous courage and tough perseverance were of any avail , those four walls should not hold [me]_293-clara , though [they]_{1271-my uncle} might be three feet thick . So stopping both [my]_293-clara nostrils with cotton - wool from a specimen ( for the smell was most insufferable ) , and pinning up [my]_293-clara dress , [I]_293-clara set to work in earnest . First , [I]_293-clara examined the windows : there was nothing to hope from them ; [I]_293-clara could never loosen a bar , and even if [I]_293-clara could , [I]_293-clara should only escape from [one prison]_{9227-one prison} to another , for [the garden behind [the house]_{764-the house}]_{9228-the garden behind the house} was surrounded with high dead walls . Fireplace there was none ; the door had already baffled [me]_293-clara ; could [I]_293-clara dig through the party wall , and into [the adjoining house]_{9230-the adjoining house} ? Most likely it was all a falsehood and boast about the thickness , intended perhaps to discourage [me]_293-clara from attempting the easiest way . And in so damp a place , the mortar probably would be soft . So , after searching and groping , ever so long , to find , if possible , one loose brick to begin with , [I]_293-clara drew from [my]_293-clara pocket a knife , of which [I]_293-clara was very proud , "_[293-clara] because [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} had given [it]_4968-it [me]_0-i ; and [I]_0-i looked at it wistfully in the dusk , because [I]_0-i feared so to break it . Nothing but the thought that life itself was at stake would ever have induced [me]_0-i to use that beloved knife for work so very unsuitable . It was a knife of strong but by no means elegant make , shorter in the handle , and squarer in the joints , than [the rising generation of knives]_{4969-the rising generation of knives} . Very likely [Sheffield of the present day]_{4970-sheffield of the present day} would laugh at it ; but like [most who laugh]_{4971-most who laugh} , it could not produce [the fellow]_{4972-the fellow} . [[My]_0-i father]_{731-my father} [himself]_{731-my father} had owned it for nearly thirty years , and had treated [it]_4968-it with the high respect which an honest knife deserves . From this due regard [[his]_{731-my father} daughter]_{2465-his daughter} had not derogated , and the knife was now as good as when it left [the maker]_{1201-the maker} 's hand . It had never been honed in utter ignorance of proper plane and angle , as nearly all knives are , and by none so often as [the professional knife - grinder]_{4976-the professional knife - grinder} . [I]_0-i never dared to meddle with it , except on a very mild razor - strap ; and all it was allowed to do was to mend [my]_0-i pens — [I]_0-i , [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara , hate steel paper - stabbers — and sometimes to cut [my]_0-i pencils . Now , this true and worshipful knife was to cut bricks and mortar ! In [my]_0-i natural affection for it , [I]_0-i hesitated and trembled , and knowing what was to come it closed upon [my]_0-i fingers . Oh , ruthless Atta Nævia ! trusty knife , fall to ! Meanwhile [old Cora]_{585-old cora} showed at the heavy grating [her]_{585-old cora} countenance demiss ; to all [my]_0-i eager adjurations , promises , and prayers , [she]_{585-old cora} answered not a word , but grimly smiled , like an ancient bird , beyond the reach of chaff . [She]_{585-old cora} handed [me]_0-i in a pint of milk , and a loaf of the variety termed in [London]_1-london a " twopenny brick . "_{[585-old cora]} A red herring on the toasting - fork , dripping with its own unction , was hastily shown , and then withdrawn , and the gordit appeared in its stead ; which being done , [the experienced dame]_{4977-the experienced dame} winked , and regarded [me]_0-i deeply . This meant , " Surrender [your]_0-i legal right in [[Our]_9231-our Lady]_{3529-our lady} 's heart , without which [I]_{4977-the experienced dame} shall have no luck , and [I]_{4977-the experienced dame} will give [you]_0-i this beautiful fish , hard - roed , and done to a nicety . "_{[4977-the experienced dame]} Ah no , [sweet Cora]_{585-old cora} , a good red herring is not to be despised ; but who could eat in a reeking hole like this ? Once [I]_0-i went , for [Judy]_477-judy 's sake , being rash and light of step , into [the back premises of [a highly respectable butcher]_{4979-a highly respectable butcher}]_{4978-the back premises of a highly respectable butcher} . Woe is [me]_0-i , what [I]_0-i saw and smelt there was Muscat grapes compared to this . When [Cora]_{585-old cora} had departed , after handing [me]_0-i in a pillow and a blanket of the true work - house texture , and crossing [herself]_{585-old cora} with a strange expression , meaning , as [I]_0-i interpreted , " Now keep alive if possible till breakfast time , [young woman]_{9233-young woman} , "_{[585-old cora]} [I]_0-i sat [me]_0-i down upon the floor at one end of [the room]_{823-the room} , and began [my]_0-i labours . First . [I]_0-i put on a pair of tan - leather gloves ; for small as [my]_0-i vanity is , [I]_0-i do not like [my]_0-i hands to look altogether like a hodman 's . Then [I]_0-i removed a strip of the felt with which the wall was covered . It was nearly dark , but [I]_0-i could easily feel the joints between the bricks . The mortar was not very good , but [my]_0-i work was rendered doubly difficult by the bricks being all set cross - wise to the line of the wall ; this , [I]_0-i suppose , is what [he]_{4979-a highly respectable butcher} meant when [he]_{4979-a highly respectable butcher} described them as " headers . "_{[4979-a highly respectable butcher]} By reason of this arrangement , [I]_0-i had to dig and dig for hours , before [I]_0-i could loosen a single brick ; and working all in the dark as [I]_0-i was , [I]_0-i feared every moment to break the stick - blade of [my]_0-i knife . The fingers of [my]_0-i gloves were very soon worn away , and even the palm where the heel of the knife was chafing ; nor was it long before [my]_0-i skin was full of weals , and raspy , like the knobs [I]_0-i have seen inside the legs of a horse . At last , to [my]_0-i wonderful delight , one brick began to tremble . In another half - hour , [I]_0-i eased it out most carefully , kissed [my]_0-i trusty blade , now worn almost to a skewer , and with stiff and aching muscles , and the trophy brick upon [my]_0-i lap , fell off into as sound a sleep as ever [I]_0-i was blest with . When [I]_0-i awoke , the summer dawn was stealing faintly through the barricaded windows . Oh ! how [I]_0-i longed for one draught of air , even as [London]_1-london imports it ! [My]_0-i head was burning and [my]_0-i eyes distended from the tainted stuff around [me]_0-i , and [my]_0-i hands , and arms , and even shoulders were stiff from over exertion . Languidly regarding the brick [I]_0-i had worked so hard for , and commiserating much the plight of [my]_0-i tender hands , [I]_0-i felt inclined to give it up , till [I]_0-i thought of all at stake . [[My]_0-i poor Uncle]_{2919-my poor uncle} in deadly peril through [my]_0-i desperate folly ; [Conrad]_670-conrad too , as that murderer implied , in a critical position . [My]_0-i own life also — it might be a week before [the monster]_{4558-the monster} returned ; and [I]_0-i felt sure that [I]_0-i could not live more than three days in that corruption . The oppression was so horrible , especially when [I]_0-i stood up , that [I]_0-i resolved at all hazards to break one of the windows . [I]_0-i had tried to do so the night before , but they were beyond [my]_0-i reach , and [I]_0-i had no stick , for [I]_0-i durst not touch the poles that propped the unlucky porpoise . Now , [I]_0-i had a good missile , and after two or three vain attempts from the closeness of the bars , [I]_0-i hurled the brick - bat through the glass ; and , as it raised the sacks a little , [I]_0-i obtained more light , as well as a breath of air . The taint upon the glass , the reek of the deadly gases , even cleared away for a short distance round the fracture . [Cora]_{585-old cora} was fast asleep no doubt , and the crash of the glass did not disturb [her]_{585-old cora} ; so [I]_0-i fell to again , and worked very hard till breakfast time . If [I]_0-i could only get out by noon , in time for the two o'clock train ! When [I]_0-i expected [[my]_0-i jailor]_{4983-my jailor} , [I]_0-i hid away under the porpoise the seven bricks [I]_0-i had removed since daylight — for [I]_0-i could work much faster as the aperture increased — and then [I]_0-i fastened [my]_0-i blanket over the hole . After drinking the milk with some relish — eat [I]_0-i could not in [that pestilential den]_{4984-that pestilential den} — [I]_0-i returned to [my]_0-i labour , and prepared to attack the second course in the thickness of the wall . By this time [I]_0-i had contrived , with the help of a brick , to extract the hold - fast from the bench , which [I]_0-i could not do the night before ; and very useful [I]_0-i found it , both as a hammer and lever . So with rising hopes , [I]_0-i resumed . Oh , cruel disappointment ! The second course was bedded in cement harder than the bricks themselves . Most likely they had formed the outside of the wall , until [Lepardo]_570-lepardo added the nine - inch lining of headers . [I]_0-i was utterly dismayed ; and now [my]_0-i beloved knife , which had stood like [a hero]_{4985-a hero} - martyr all its grinding indignities , broke off short at the haft , and left [me]_0-i helpless and hopeless . And [I]_0-i was getting on so well , and so proud of all [I]_0-i had done . There was nothing for it but a storm of crying . It served [me]_0-i right for ill - treating [[my]_0-i dear father]_{829-my dear father} 's knife so shockingly . [I]_0-i cried for at least a quarter of an hour , before it occurred to [me]_0-i what [a great baby]_{4987-a great baby} [I]_0-i was . Then , with the tears in [my]_0-i swollen eyes , and sobs that made [my]_0-i net - pressed bosom sore , [I]_0-i began to grope and peer again along the sides of [[my]_0-i prison]_{4988-my prison} . There was more light now than had hitherto entered , since [Cora]_{585-old cora} dropped the curtain . This was partly owing to the position of the sun , and partly to the interposition of the brick . Just opposite that window , on a shelf where lay [an old Penguin]_{4989-an old penguin} looking very bilious , [I]_0-i spied the corner of a little box , half covered with tow and moth - eaten feathers . Snatching it eagerly , [I]_0-i found it to be a match - box . But alas , how light ! With trembling fingers [I]_0-i pulled it open , for it was one of those that slide . There were three , and only three , fine stout lucifer matches , with the precious blue still on them . But even if they should prove dry enough to kindle , what good would they be to [me]_0-i ? " All the good in [the world]_{798-the world} , "_[0-i] said hope , looking towards the door , " if [you]_0-i had shown sense enough , [Clara]_293-clara , to fall to at that door , before [your]_0-i knife was broken , [you]_0-i might have cut through it by this time . Now [you]_0-i ca n't , that is certain ; but why should n't [you]_0-i burn it down ? "_[0-i] At any rate , [I]_0-i would try ; that is , if [my]_0-i matches would only strike fire . [I]_0-i had felt last night a piece of candle on the floor near the crocodile . This [I]_0-i soon laid hands upon ; and now for operations . No fear of [old Cora]_{585-old cora} smelling the smoke , for [she]_{585-old cora} spent all the forenoon , as [I]_0-i knew well , in [a little chapel [she]_{585-old cora} had established quite at the top of [the house]_{764-the house}]_{4990-a little chapel she had established quite at the top of the house} ; and this being the festival of [St. Bottle - imp]_{277-st. bottle - imp} , [she]_{585-old cora} would be twice as devout as usual . As for suffocating [myself]_0-i , that [I]_0-i must take the chance of . Much better to die of curling wood smoke than of these crawling odours . To give the wood , which was hard and solid , every inclination to burn , [I]_0-i channeled it first in a fan from the bottom with [my]_0-i little pen - blade . Then [I]_0-i cut off the lower half of [my]_0-i precious candle , and smeared the tallow in the shallow grooves [I]_0-i had made . This being done , [I]_0-i broke , with as little noise as possible , some other panes of glass , to admit the air to [my]_0-i fire , procured all the wool and tow that [I]_0-i could reach , and a pile of paper , and steeped them , though it sickened [me]_0-i to do it , in the rank oil from some of the specimens . All this being ready at hand , [I]_0-i prepared , with a beating heart , to try the matches , on which the whole depended . [I]_0-i had taken the precaution of slipping them just inside [my]_0-i frock , hoping that the warmth of [my]_0-i body might serve to dry them a little . The first , as [I]_0-i rubbed it on the sandpaper , flashed for a moment , but did not kindle ; the second just kindled with a sputter , but did not ignite its stick : the third — [I]_0-i was so nervous that [I]_0-i durst not attempt it then ; but trembled as [I]_0-i looked at it . [I]_0-i would not even breathe for fear of damping the phosphorus . Perhaps three lives depended on the behaviour of that match . In desperation at last [I]_0-i struck boldly ! a broad blue flame leaped upon the air , and in a moment [my]_0-i candle was lighted . In the hollow of [my]_0-i hand [I]_0-i carried it round [the room]_{823-the room} , to search for anything likely to be of service to [me]_0-i . Oh ! grand discovery — behind a great tabby cat , [I]_0-i found a bottle containing nearly a pint of naphtha , used , [I]_0-i suppose , for singeing some of the hair off . Now [I]_0-i need not fear , but what [I]_0-i could burn the door down ; the only thing to fear was that [I]_0-i should burn [myself]_0-i as well , used the naphtha very cautiously , keeping most of it as a last resource . Then commending the result to [God]_303-god , [I]_0-i set [my]_0-i candle carefully at the foot of the door , just below the spot where all [my]_0-i little grooves converged . At once the flame ran up them , the naphtha kindling angrily with a spatter and a hiss . The blue light showed in livid ghastliness all the horrors of [the chamber]_{4993-the chamber} . The naphtha was burnt in a moment , it seemed to go off like gunpowder ; from a prudent distance [I]_0-i threw more upon it , and soon [I]_0-i had the delight of seeing a steady flame established . The lumps of tallow were burning now , and the wood began to smoulder . Several times [I]_0-i thought that [I]_0-i must be choked by the smoke , till it went in a cloud to the windows , and streamed away under the sacks . As the fire grew and grew , and required no more feeding , [I]_0-i lay on [my]_0-i face , to get all the air possible , at the further end of [the room]_{823-the room} , where [my]_0-i loose mortar was scattered . [I]_0-i could feel [my]_0-i heart thumping heavily on the pavement , and [my]_0-i breath was shorter and shorter , as much from fear as from smoke . If once [I]_0-i became insensible , or even if [I]_0-i retained [my]_0-i senses but failed to extinguish the fire , nothing more would ever be known or heard of [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara ; there would be nothing even to hold an inquest upon . [I]_0-i must burn ignobly , in the fat of that dreadful porpoise , and with the crocodile , and all those grinning beasts , so awful in the firelight , making faces at [me]_0-i ! Surely it must be time , high time to put it out ; that is to say if [I]_0-i could . Once let the flame gather head on the other side of the door , and with [my]_0-i scanty means [I]_0-i never could hope to quench it . At last , [I]_0-i became so frightened , that [I]_0-i hardly let it burn long enough . It was flaring beautifully , and licking deeper and deeper ( with ductile wreathing tongues and jets like a pushing crocus ) , the channels prepared to tempt it ; and now the black wood was reddened , and a strong heat was given out , and the blazes began to roar ; when [I]_0-i cast on the centre suddenly [my]_0-i doubled blanket , and propped it there with the pillow . After a few vain efforts , the flames , deprived of air , expired in gray smoke ; then [I]_0-i removed the scorched blanket , and let the smouldering proceed . The charring went on nicely for perhaps a quarter of an hour , and the smell made [me]_0-i think of bonfires and roast potatoes ; and [I]_0-i gouged away with the claw of the holdfast , until [I]_0-i saw that , by a vigorous onset , a large piece might be detached ; so [I]_0-i stepped back and ran at it with a mighty kick , and with a shower of dust and sparks , a great triangle flew out before [my]_0-i " military heel . "_{[4995-a girl rather full in the chest]} At the risk of setting [myself]_0-i on fire , though gathered in the smallest possible compass for [a girl rather full in the chest]_{4995-a girl rather full in the chest} , [I]_0-i squeezed through the hole in the door , and met face to face old [Cora]_{585-old cora} . [She]_{585-old cora} could not speak , but fell back upon the steps , and rolled in fits of terror . [I]_0-i thought [her]_{585-old cora} black eyes would have leaped from their sockets ; they came out like hat - pegs japanned . Pressed as [I]_0-i was for time , [I]_0-i could not leave [her]_{585-old cora} so . [I]_0-i ran up to [the pump - trough]_{4996-the pump - trough} for water , and put out the fire first , and then poor [Cora]_{585-old cora} 's hysterics . [I]_0-i can not repeat [her]_{585-old cora} exclamations , to [our]_4997-our ears they are so impious ; but the mildest of them were these , as rendered weakly into English . " [Holy Madonna]_591-madonna , [most sacred mother]_{9235-most sacred mother} , take back [your]_591-madonna blessed heart . Take it back , for the sake of [the God that loved [you]_591-madonna]_{9236-the god that loved you} , take it back , and trample on the wicked stomach of [her]_{9236-the god that loved you} who dared to steal it . [You]_591-madonna have come through the fires of hell to fetch it , [mother of [the beloved one]_{9238-the beloved one}]_{9237-mother of the beloved one} , lo [I]_0-i hold it out to [you]_591-madonna . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i gladly received [my]_0-i poor gordit , and left [the old lady]_{4998-the old lady} , as there was now no danger , to recover [her]_{4998-the old lady} wits at leisure ; for [I]_0-i had not a moment to spare . As [I]_0-i entered [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's door , the church clock at the top of [the Square]_{1939-the square} was striking twelve . By the two o'clock train [I]_0-i must go , or [I]_0-i might as well have stopped in [[my]_0-i dungeon]_{9226-my dungeon} . Though the smoke had purified [me]_0-i a little , [I]_0-i still felt conscious of a nasty clinging smell ; but it would have surprised [me]_0-i , if there had been time , when [the little woman]_{6264-the little woman} cried , " Lor bless [my]_{6264-the little woman} soul , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara , where ever have [you]_293-clara been ? Why , [Mr. Chumps]_{695-mr. chumps} [the butcher]_{1810-the butcher} — "_{[6264-the little woman]} " The bath in one moment , and all the water in [the house]_{764-the house} . And as [I]_{6264-the little woman} throw [my]_{6264-the little woman} things out , burn them in [the garden]_{1203-the garden} . "_{[6264-the little woman]} In twenty minutes [I]_0-i was reclad from head to foot , and as sweet as [any girl in [Gloucestershire]_{3-gloucestershire}]_{5002-any girl in gloucestershire} ; [my]_0-i eyes were bright with energy , and [my]_0-i dripping hair in billows , like a rapid under the pine - trees . [I]_0-i had no time to tell [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , who was off [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} legs with excitement , one word of what had happened , or what [I]_0-i was going to do ; but flung on [myself]_0-i another hat and cloak , then [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} old bonnet and little green shawl on [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , dragged [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} out of [the house]_{764-the house} , and locked the door behind [us]_5004-us ; for [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , after waiting and wondering long about [me]_0-i , was gone to consult [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} . If [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 's best bonnet was twenty - two years old , [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} second - best must have been forty - four ; at any rate it appeared coeval with [herself]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . [Patty]_409-patty trotted along at [my]_0-i side , wondering what would come next . [Her]_409-patty thin little lips were working , and [her]_409-patty face was like a kaleidoscope of expressions ; but whenever [I]_0-i glanced toward [her]_409-patty , [she]_409-patty cast [her]_409-patty eyes up , with a scared weird look , as if [she]_409-patty was watching a ghost through a skylight , and trudged still faster , and muttered , " Yes , yes , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara . Quite right , [[my]_409-patty good friend]_{1798-my good friend} ; not a moment to lose . "_[409-patty] " And pray , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , where do [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} suppose [we]_9243-we are going ? "_[409-patty] " Oh , [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} knows well enough "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} — with [her]_{391-mrs. shelfer} eyes like corks drawn by distance—"I knowed it all the time . Yes , yes . Let [me]_409-patty alone for that . [Patty Shelfer]_409-patty was n't born yesterday . Why only Tuesday was a week — "_[409-patty] " If [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} guess right , [I]_409-patty will tell [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . "_[409-patty] " Why going to [Charley]_395-charley , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara , to be sure . Going for [Charley]_395-charley 's opinion . And very wise of [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} too ; and what [a most every one]_{9244-a most every one} does ; particular when [he]_395-charley have money . But how [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} knowed [he]_395-charley were there — "_[409-patty] " Where ? "_[409-patty] " At the great wrestling match to be sure . And [he]_395-charley wanted to take [me]_409-patty ; a thing [he]_395-charley ai n't offered to do fifteen year next oyster - day . No , no , says [I]_409-patty , with [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara away , and most likely among [them]_9245-them [resurrectioners]_{9246-resurrectioners} — "_[409-patty] Here [she]_5005-she cast at [me]_0-i a glance , like a flash of lightning , to see if the hit had told . In a moment [I]_0-i understood all that [I]_0-i had not cared to ask about ; why [she]_5005-she trembled and shrunk from [my]_0-i hand , why [she]_5005-she feared to look at [me]_0-i , and fixed [her]_5005-she eyes away so . [She]_5005-she believed that [I]_0-i had been burked , and that what [she]_5005-she saw walking beside was [my]_0-i spirit come to claim burial . [I]_0-i could not stop to disprove it , any more than [I]_0-i could stop to laugh . " And [[his]_395-charley grandfather]_{9247-his grandfather} were [a sexton]_{9248-a sexton} , [Miss]_9249-miss ; and [[our]_9250-our Charley]_{9251-our charley} [himself]_{9251-our charley} a first - rate hand at the spade . "_[0-i] " [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , [we]_9250-our are close to [the place]_{5531-the place} . Now , listen to what [I]_5006-i say . It is not [[your]_{391-mrs. shelfer} husband]_{1832-your husband} [I]_5006-i want , but [Farmer Huxtable]_{362-farmer huxtable} , whom [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} saw at the door . Nothing but a question of life and death would bring [me]_5006-i among [this rabble]_{9254-this rabble} . No doubt there are [many respectable men]_{9255-many respectable men} , but it is no place for [a lady]_{5829-a lady} . [The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} [himself]_{5517-the farmer} knows that , and has never dared to ask [me]_5006-i ; though [[his]_{5517-the farmer} wife]_{789-his wife} and [daughter]_{8037-daughter} , in ignorance , have . It is half - past twelve exactly ; in a quarter of an hour at the utmost , [I]_5006-i must speak to , and what is more , carry off the [Devonshire]_4-devonshire competitor . [[Your]_{391-mrs. shelfer} husband]_{1832-your husband} is here , and on the Committee , [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} told [me]_5006-i . [I]_5006-i expect [you]_{391-mrs. shelfer} to manage it . Go in at once and find [him]_{1832-your husband} . Stop , here is plenty of money . "_[5006-i] In [her]_5006-i supreme astonishment , [she]_5006-i even dared to look at [me]_0-i . But [she]_5006-i feared to take the money , although [her]_5006-i eyes glistened at it , for [I]_0-i offered more gold than silver . " Come back to [me]_5006-i at once ; [I]_5006-i shall not move from here . Mind , if [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} loses the match through [me]_5006-i , [I]_5006-i will pay all , and give the money for another . "_[5006-i] For once [the little woman]_{6264-the little woman} obeyed [me]_0-i , without discussion . [She]_{6264-the little woman} pushed through a canvass door into [the vast marquee]_{5008-the vast marquee} , or whatever [it]_{5008-the vast marquee} ought to be called , and was admitted readily on giving [[her]_{6264-the little woman} husband]_{6140-her husband} 's name . [I]_0-i hung back , but with a sense of the urgency of [my]_0-i case , which turned [my]_0-i shame into pride . Many eyes were on [me]_0-i already of loungers and [outsiders]_{5010-outsiders} . In two or three minutes [poor Patty]_409-patty came back , bringing [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} [himself]_{413-mr. shelfer} , who ever since [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} ducking had shown [me]_0-i the rose and pink of respect . [He]_{413-mr. shelfer} even went the length now of removing [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} pipe from [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} mouth . " Very sorry indeed , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara , very sorry , [you]_293-clara know . But [we]_9262-we darrn't interrupt [the men]_{5486-the men} now . [Our]_9262-we lives would n't be worth it , and [they]_{5486-the men} 'd kill both [the umpires]_{9264-the umpires} and [the referee]_{9265-the referee} too [you]_293-clara know . Why it 's fall for fall , only think of that , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara , it 's fall for fall ! "_{[413-mr. shelfer]} And the perspiration stood upon [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} forehead , and [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} wanted to run back . " What do [you]_293-clara mean ? "_{[413-mr. shelfer]} In spite of [my]_0-i hurry , [I]_0-i felt deeply interested . How could [I]_0-i help it , loving [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} so ? " Why , [the Great Northern]_{9266-the great northern} won the first throw by a bit of foul play , a foul stroke altogether , and no back at all , say [I]_{413-mr. shelfer} , and [my]_{413-mr. shelfer} eyes is pretty good ; however , [the umpires]_{9264-the umpires} give it , and [you]_293-clara should see [John Huxtable]_299-john 's face , the colour of a scythe - stone ; [he]_299-john knew it was unfair [you]_293-clara know . And [you]_293-clara should see [him]_299-john go in again for the second fall . ' [I]_{413-mr. shelfer} could ha dooed it , ' [I]_{413-mr. shelfer} hear [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} say , ' [I]_{413-mr. shelfer} could ha dooed it aisy , only [I]_{413-mr. shelfer} wudn't try [Abraham]_508-abraham , and [I]_{413-mr. shelfer} wun't nother if can help it now . ' None of [us]_9268-us knows what [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} mean , but in [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} go again , [Miss]_9269-miss , and three times [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} throw [Sam Richardson]_{648-sam richardson} clean over [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} shoulder , and one as fair a back as ever was in sawdust . But [the umpires]_{9264-the umpires} would n't give it , till just now [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} turn [him]_299-john over straight for'ard , just the same as a sod in a spade , and [they]_{9264-the umpires} could n't get out of that . And now [they]_{9264-the umpires} be just in for the finishing bout , and if [you]_0-i want [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} , [your]_0-i only way is to come . May be , [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} 'll try [Abraham]_508-abraham , when [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} see [you]_0-i . Ah [they]_{9264-the umpires} 've catched . "_{[413-mr. shelfer]} A shout inside proclaimed some crisis ; [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} , in [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} excitement , actually pulled [me]_0-i in without knowing it . Once there , [I]_0-i could not go back ; and the scene was a grand and thrilling one . In the centre of [a roped arena]_{5012-a roped arena} , hedged by [countless faces , all rigid , flushed , and straining with suspense]_{5013-countless faces , all rigid , flushed , and straining with suspense} , stood two mighty forms ; [the strongest men in [England]_9-england]_{5014-the strongest men in england} and perhaps in all [the world]_{798-the world} . A loose sack , or jerkin , of the toughest canvass , thrown back clear of the throat , half - sleeved , and open in front , showed the bole of the pollard neck , the solid brawn of the chest , and the cords of the outstretched arm . Stout fustian breeches , belted at waist , and strapped at knee , cased [their]_5016-they vast limbs so exactly , yet so easily , that every curve was thew , and every wrinkle sinew . Thin white stockings , flaked with sawdust and looking rather wet , rolled and stood out , like the loops of a mace , with the rampant muscles of the huge calf , and the bulge of the broad foreleg . As the shout proclaimed , [they]_5016-they had caught or clutched ; a thing which is done with much fencing and feinting , each foining to get the best grasp . Where [I]_0-i went , or what happened to [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i never noticed at all , so absorbed at once [I]_0-i became in this rare and noble probation of glorious strength , trained skill , and emulous manhood . Round and round the ring [they]_5016-they went , as in musical measure , holding each other at arms ' length , pacing warily and in distance , skilfully poised to throw the weight for either attack or defence . [Each]_6003-each with [his]_6003-each left hand clutched the jerkin of the other , between the neck and shoulder , [each]_6003-each kept [his]_6003-each right arm lightly bent , and the palm like a butterfly quivering . [Neither]_3851-neither dared to move [his]_3851-neither eyes from the pupils of [the other]_{1586-the other} ; for though [they]_5016-they were not built alike , [each]_6003-each knew the strength of [[his]_6003-each fellow]_{5022-his fellow} . [The Northern Champion]_{5023-the northern champion} was at least three inches taller than [the Son of [Devon]_24-devon]_{5024-the son of devon} , quite as broad in the shoulders and large of limb , but not so thick - set and close - jointed , not quite so stanch in the loins and quarters . But [he]_{5023-the northern champion} was longer in the reach , and made the most of that advantage . On [his]_{5023-the northern champion} breast [he]_{5023-the northern champion} bore the mark of a hug as hard as a bear 's ; and [his]_{5023-the northern champion} face , though a fine and manly one , looked rather savage and spiteful . [The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} was smiling pleasantly , an honest but anxious smile . For the first time [he]_{5517-the farmer} had met with [a man of almost [his]_{5517-the farmer} own power]_{5026-a man of almost his own power} ; and on a turn of the heel depended at least four hundred pounds , and what was more than four million to [him]_{5023-the northern champion} , the fame of [the county]_{871-the county} that nursed [him]_{5023-the northern champion} . Above [them]_5016-they hung [the champion]_{5028-the champion} 's belt , not of [the west or north]_{5029-the west or north} , but of [England]_9-england and of [the world]_{798-the world} . Suddenly , ere [I]_0-i could see how [they]_5016-they did it , [they]_5016-they had closed in the crowning struggle . Breast to breast , and thigh to thigh , [they]_5016-they tugged , and strained , and panted . Nothing though [I]_0-i knew of the matter , [I]_0-i saw that [the North - man]_{5031-the north - man} had won the best hold , and as [his]_{5031-the north - man} huge arms enwrapped [[my]_0-i friend]_{7813-my friend} , a tremble went through [my]_0-i own frame . [The men of [the North]_{192-the north}]_{5033-the men of the north} and [[their]_{5033-the men of the north} backers]_{5034-their backers} saw it , and a loud hurrah pealed forth ; deep silence ensued , and every eye was intent . Though giant arms were round [him]_{5031-the north - man} and [Titan]_696-titan legs inlocked , never a foot [he]_{5031-the north - man} budged . [John Huxtable]_299-john stood like [a buttress]_{5035-a buttress} . [He]_{5031-the north - man} tried not to throw the other ; placed as [he]_{5031-the north - man} was , [he]_{5031-the north - man} durst not ; but [he]_{5031-the north - man} made up [his]_{5031-the north - man} mind to stand , and stand [he]_{5031-the north - man} did with a vengeance . In vain [the giant]_{5036-the giant} jerked and twisted , levered , heaved , and laboured , till [his]_{5031-the north - man} very eyeballs strained ; all the result was ropes and bunches in the wide - spread [Devonshire]_4-devonshire calves , and a tightening of the clench that threatened to crush the Northern ribs . As well might a coiling snake expect to uproot an oak . As this exertion of grand stability lasted and outlasted , shouts arose and rang alike from [friend]_8162-friend and [foe]_5038-foe , from north , and west , and east ; even [I]_0-i could not help clapping [my]_0-i feeble hands . But the trial was nearly over . [The assailant]_{5039-the assailant} 's strength was ebbing ; [I]_0-i could hear [him]_{5031-the north - man} gasp for breath under the fearful pressure . By great address [he]_{5031-the north - man} had won that hold , and made sure of victory from it , it had never failed before ; but to use a [Devonshire]_4-devonshire word , [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} was too " stuggy . "_{[5517-the farmer]} Now , [the latter]_{907-the latter} watched [his]_{5031-the north - man} time , and [his]_{5031-the north - man} motive power waxed as the other 's waned . At length [he]_{5031-the north - man} lifted [him]_{5031-the north - man} bodily off [his]_{5031-the north - man} legs , and cast [him]_{5031-the north - man} flat on [his]_{5031-the north - man} back . A flat and perfectly level cast , as ever pancake crackled at . Thunders of applause broke forth , and scarcely could [I]_0-i keep quiet . With amazement [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} espied [me]_0-i as [he]_{5517-the farmer} was bowing on all sides , and amid the tumult and uproar that shook the canvass like a lark 's wing , [he]_{5517-the farmer} ran across the ring full speed . Then [he]_{5517-the farmer} stopped short , remembering [his]_{5517-the farmer} laboured and unpresentable plight , and [he]_{5517-the farmer} would have blushed , if [he]_{5517-the farmer} had not been as red as fire already . None of such nonsense for [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i called [him]_{5517-the farmer} by name , took [his]_{5517-the farmer} hand , and with all [my]_0-i heart congratulated . " But , [farmer]_5817-farmer , [I]_0-i want [you]_{5517-the farmer} immediately , on a matter of life and death . "_[0-i] [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} and [the children]_{1695-the children} came , but [I]_0-i only stopped to kiss [Sally]_371-sally , and motioned [them]_5044-them all away . " If [you]_{5517-the farmer} remember [your]_{5517-the farmer} promise to [me]_0-i , get ready for a journey in a moment , and run all the way to [[my]_0-i lodgings]_{6270-my lodgings} . [We]_9273-we must leave [London]_1-london , at two o'clock , to save [[my]_0-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's life . "_[0-i] [Mr. Huxtable]_{338-mr. huxtable} looked astounded , and [his]_{338-mr. huxtable} understanding , unlike [his]_{338-mr. huxtable} legs , for the moment was carried away . [Meanwhile]_{697-meanwhile} up came [Sally]_371-sally again , caught hold of [my]_0-i hand , and silently implored for some little notice , if only of [her]_371-sally costume , violet , indigo , blue , green , yellow , orange and red . [I]_0-i could only kiss [her]_371-sally again . " Oh do come , [farmer Huxtable]_{9275-farmer huxtable} , do come at once , [I]_0-i entreat [you]_{9275-farmer huxtable} ; or [I]_0-i must go alone and helpless . "_[0-i] " That [you]_{9275-farmer huxtable} sha n't , [[my]_{5533-the man} dearie]_{1454-my dearie} , dang [Jan Uxtable]_{343-jan uxtable} for [a girt lout]_{9277-a girt lout} . "_{[5533-the man]} " Please , [sir]_5380-sir , [I]_{5533-the man} am sent to tell [you]_{9275-farmer huxtable} that [the umpires]_{9264-the umpires} gives it no fall , and [you]_{9275-farmer huxtable} must play again . "_{[5533-the man]} [The man]_{5533-the man} looked abased by [his]_{5533-the man} errand ; even [he]_{5533-the man} knew better . In [my]_0-i hurry [I]_0-i had paid no attention to the ominous hissing and hooting around a knot of [men on the benches at the end]_{5046-men on the benches at the end} . [The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} 's face [I]_0-i shall never forget ; as [he]_{5533-the man} slowly gathered the truth , it became majestic with honest indignation . [A strong man]_{8629-a strong man} 's wrath at deceit and foul play sat upon it , like [a king on [his]_{8629-a strong man} throne]_{5049-a king on his throne} . " For the chillers — "_{[5533-the man]} [he]_{5533-the man} stammered at last—"ony for [the poor chiller]_{9280-the poor chiller} 's sake — else [I]_{5533-the man} 'd never stand it , danged if [I]_{5533-the man} wud , [Miss Clara]_293-clara ; it make [a man]_{5384-a man} feel like [a rogue]_{8641-a rogue} and a cheat [himself]_{5384-a man} . "_{[5533-the man]} Then , with all the power of [his]_{5533-the man} mighty voice [he]_{5533-the man} shouted , so that every fold of the canvass shook , and every heart thrilled fearfully : " [Men of [Lunnon]_271-lunnon]_{9283-men of lunnon} , if [men]_1003-men [you]_{9283-men of lunnon} be , [no chap]_{9285-no chap} can have fair play with [you]_{9283-men of lunnon} . It be all along of [your]_{9283-men of lunnon} swindling bets about things [you]_{9283-men of lunnon} do n't know nothing of . [You]_{9283-men of lunnon} offered [me]_{5533-the man} five hunder pound , afore ever here [I]_{5533-the man} come , to sell [my]_{5533-the man} back to [the Northman]_{9286-the northman} . [A good honest man]_{9287-a good honest man} [he]_{5533-the man} be , and the best cross - buttock as ever [I]_{5533-the man} met with ; but a set of [rogues and cowards]_{9288-rogues and cowards} that 's what [you]_{9283-men of lunnon} be ; and [no sport]_{9289-no sport} can live with [you]_{9283-men of lunnon} . As for [your]_{9283-men of lunnon} danged belt , [I]_{5533-the man} wun't have it , [no tino]_{9290-no tino} , it wud be a disgrace to [the family]_{1254-the family} ; it sha n't never go along side the [Devonshire]_4-devonshire and [Cornwall]_38-cornwall leather . But [I]_{5533-the man} 'll throw [[your]_{9283-men of lunnon} man]_{9292-your man} over again , and any six of [you]_{9283-men of lunnon} to once as plases . "_{[5533-the man]} Then , [thorough gentleman]_{5050-thorough gentleman} as [he]_{5050-thorough gentleman} was , [he]_{5050-thorough gentleman} apologized to [me]_0-i for [his]_{5050-thorough gentleman} honest anger , and for having drawn all eyes upon [me]_0-i , as there [I]_0-i stood at [his]_{5050-thorough gentleman} side . " But never fear about the time , [Miss Clara]_293-clara , [I]_{5050-thorough gentleman} wo n't kape [you]_{9283-men of lunnon} two minutes . [I]_{5050-thorough gentleman} 'll give [him]_{9292-your man} [Abraham]_508-abraham 's staylace this time . [They]_9293-they have a drove [me]_{5050-thorough gentleman} to it , as [us]_9294-us has n't a moment to spare . "_{[5050-thorough gentleman]} Proudly [he]_{5050-thorough gentleman} stepped into [the ring]_{5051-the ring} again , and again [the North Country giant]_{5052-the north country giant} , looking rather ashamed , confronted [him]_{5050-thorough gentleman} . No fencing or feinting this time ; but [the Devonshire wrestler]_{5053-the devonshire wrestler} , appealing thus to [the public]_{7493-the public} , " Now look here , [Lunnoners]_{349-lunnoners} , wull e , and zee if this here be a back , "_{[5053-the devonshire wrestler]} rushed straight at [[his]_{5053-the devonshire wrestler} antagonist]_{5055-his antagonist} , grappled [him]_{5055-his antagonist} in some peculiar manner , seemed to get round [his]_{5055-his antagonist} back , and then spun [him]_{5055-his antagonist} up over [his]_{5055-his antagonist} own left shoulder , in such a way that [he]_{5055-his antagonist} twirled in the air and came down dead on [his]_{5055-his antagonist} spine . Dead indeed [he]_{5055-his antagonist} appeared to be , and [a dozen surgeons]_{5056-a dozen surgeons} came forward , in the midst of a horrible silence , and some were preparing to bleed [him]_{5055-his antagonist} , when [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} moved [them]_{5056-a dozen surgeons} aside ; [he]_{5050-thorough gentleman} knew that [the poor man]_{6777-the poor man} was only stunned by concussion of the spine . Awhile [he]_{5050-thorough gentleman} knelt over [him]_{5055-his antagonist} sadly , with the tears in [his]_{5050-thorough gentleman} own brave eyes : " [I]_{5050-thorough gentleman} wudn't have doed it , [lad]_9295-lad ; indade and indade [I]_{5050-thorough gentleman} wudn't , ony [they]_{5056-a dozen surgeons} forced [me]_{5050-thorough gentleman} to it ; and [you]_9295-lad did n't say nought agin [them]_{5056-a dozen surgeons} . It be all fair enough , but it do hoort so tarble . That there trick was invented by [a better man]_{5937-a better man} nor [I]_{5050-thorough gentleman} be , and it be karled ' [Abraham]_508-abraham Cann 's staylace . ' [I]_{5050-thorough gentleman} 'll show [e]_9295-lad how to do it , if ever [us]_9297-us mates again . Now tak the belt , [man]_5770-man , tak it — "_{[5050-thorough gentleman]} [he]_{5050-thorough gentleman} leaped up , and tore it down , with very little respect , " [I]_{5050-thorough gentleman} resigns it over to [you]_9295-lad ; zimth [they]_{5056-a dozen surgeons} arl wants [you]_9295-lad to have it and [you]_9295-lad be [a better man]_{5937-a better man} nor deserves it . And [I]_{5050-thorough gentleman} 'll never wrastle no more ; [Jan]_{343-jan uxtable} Uxtable 's time be over . Give [us]_9297-us [your]_9295-lad hond , [old chap]_{9300-old chap} . [We]_9297-us two never mate again , unless [you]_9295-lad comes down [[our]_9297-us wai]_{9301-our wai} , and [us]_9297-us han't got [a man to bate e]_{9302-a man to bate e} , now [I]_{5050-thorough gentleman} be off the play . There be [dacent zider]_{9303-dacent zider} and bakkon to [Tossil]_361-tossil 's [Barton Farm]_{102-barton farm} . Give [us]_9297-us [your]_9295-lad hond like [a man]_{5384-a man} , there be no ill will atween [us]_9297-us , for this here little skumdoover . "_{[5050-thorough gentleman]} Perhaps [he]_5059-he meant skirmish and manoeuvre , all in one . [Sam Richardson]_{648-sam richardson} , slowly recovering , put out [his]_{648-sam richardson} great hand , all white and clammy , and [John Huxtable]_299-john took it tenderly , amid such uproarious cheering , that [I]_0-i expected the tent on [our]_5060-our heads . Even [Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} 's sharp eyes had a drop of moisture in them . As for [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} , [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} flung to the winds all dithyrambic gravity , and chanted and danced incoherently , [Cassandra]_{698-alexander} and Chorus in one ; while [Sally Huxtable]_371-sally blotted all [her]_371-sally rainbow in heavy drops . Hundreds of pipes were smashed , even [the Stoic Shelfer]_{699-the stoic shelfer} 's , in the rush to get at [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} ; but [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} parted [the crowd]_{9152-the crowd} right and left , as [I]_0-i might part willow - sprays , and came at once to [me]_0-i . Whether by [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} aid , or by the sympathies of [the multitude]_{5603-the multitude} , [I]_0-i am sure [I]_0-i can not tell , but [I]_0-i found [myself]_0-i in [a cab]_{2021-a cab} , with [Sally]_371-sally at [my]_0-i side , and [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} on the box , and [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} 's face at the window . " Twenty minutes , [Miss]_5433-miss , [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} 'll be [there]_1114-there , raddy to go where [you]_5433-miss plases . It bain't quite one o'clock yet . [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} must put [myself]_{391-mrs. shelfer} dacent like , avore [I]_{391-mrs. shelfer} can go with [you]_5433-miss , [Miss]_9307-miss ; and git the money for the sake of [them]_{6708-thousands of people} poor chiller , if so be [they]_{6708-thousands of people} [Lunnoners]_{349-lunnoners} be honest enough to pai . [Jan Uxtable]_{343-jan uxtable} never come to [Lunnon town]_{5921-lunnon town} no more . "_{[391-mrs. shelfer]} With [thousands of [people]_1132-people]_{6708-thousands of people} hurraing , [we]_5068-we set off full gallop for [Albert Street]_{268-albert street} . At the door [we]_5068-we found [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} just returned from [Lady Cranberry]_{397-lady cranberry} 's , and eager to say a great deal which could not now be listened to . Having proved the speed of [our]_5068-we horse , [I]_0-i begged [the cabman]_{6039-the cabman} to wait for a quarter of an hour , and then take [us]_5068-we to [Paddington]_{246-paddington} at any fare [he]_{6039-the cabman} pleased , so long as [he]_{6039-the cabman} drove full gallop . This suited [his]_{6039-the cabman} views very nicely , and knowing [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} , as [every one in [London]_1-london]_{5070-every one in london} does — so at least [I]_0-i am forced to believe — [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} fain would have kept [me]_0-i ten minutes of the fifteen , to tell of [Charley]_395-charley 's knowingness , how [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} had kept it all dark as could be , [you]_5071-you see , [Miss]_5072-miss , and had won three hundred and twenty - five pounds , without reckoning the odd money , [Miss]_5073-miss — " Reckon it then , [Mr. Cabman]_{700-mr. cabman} , "_[0-i] and [I]_0-i ran [upstairs]_{6042-upstairs} full speed , after telling [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} the sum , lest [she]_{391-mrs. shelfer} should be cheated . In five minutes [I]_0-i was ready , and came out of [[my]_0-i bedroom]_{7442-my bedroom} into [the sitting - room]_{6564-the sitting - room} , with [my]_0-i hat in one hand , and a little bag in the other ; and there , instead of [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , [I]_0-i found , whom?—Conrad ! Very pale and ill [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} looked , so unlike [himself]_{413-mr. shelfer} that [I]_0-i was shocked , and instead of leaping to [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} , fell upon a chair . [He]_{413-mr. shelfer} mistook [me]_0-i , and approached very slowly , but with [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} dear old smile : how [my]_0-i heart beat , how [I]_0-i longed to be in [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} arms ; but [they]_5077-they looked too weak to hold [me]_0-i . " Oh , [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara , [I]_5077-they know everything . Will [you]_{413-mr. shelfer} ever forgive [me]_5077-they ? "_[5077-they] " Never , [[my]_{413-mr. shelfer} own darling]_{5763-my own darling} , while [you]_{413-mr. shelfer} call [me]_{413-mr. shelfer} that . Forgive [you]_0-i indeed ! Can [I]_{413-mr. shelfer} ever forgive [myself]_{413-mr. shelfer} , for the evil [I]_{413-mr. shelfer} have thought of [you]_0-i ? How very ill [you]_0-i look ! Come and let [me]_{413-mr. shelfer} kiss [you]_0-i well . "_{[413-mr. shelfer]} But instead of [my]_0-i doing that , [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} had to do it for [me]_0-i ; for [I]_0-i was quite beaten at last , and fainted away in [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} arms . By this folly five minutes were lost ; and [I]_0-i had so much to say to [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} , and more to think of than twenty such heads could hold . But [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} seemed to think that it must be all right , so long as [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} had [me]_0-i [there]_1114-there . " Oh , [Conny]_670-conrad , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i said through [my]_0-i tears at last , " [[my]_0-i own pet [Conny]_670-conrad]_{9310-my own pet conny} , come with [me]_0-i . [[Your]_670-conrad father]_{5365-your father} is in such danger . "_[0-i] " Life of [my]_0-i heart , [I]_0-i will follow [you]_670-conrad by [the very next train]_{9312-the very next train} . This one [I]_0-i can not go by . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i could wait for no explanation , and [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} seemed inclined to give none . Perhaps this was the reason that [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} spent all the time in kissing [me]_0-i ; which , much as [I]_0-i enjoyed it , would have done quite as well at leisure . Be that as it may , there was no time to talk about it ; [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} said it did [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} lips good , and [I]_0-i believe it did , they were so pale at first , and now so fine a red . Suddenly in the midst of it , a great voice was heard from [the passage]_{824-the passage} : " Why now , what ever be [us]_9313-us to do with the chillers ? "_[0-i] Out [I]_0-i ran , with [my]_0-i hair down as usual , and a great flush in [my]_0-i cheeks , but [I]_0-i did not let [any one]_{1178-any one} see [me]_0-i . " Leave [them]_9314-them here , to be sure , leave [them]_9314-them here , [Mr. Huxtable]_{338-mr. huxtable} . [They]_9314-them shall have [[my]_0-i rooms]_{7529-my rooms} ; and in all [London]_1-london [they]_9314-them would not find such [a hostess]_{9316-a hostess} as [Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} . "_[0-i] There was no time to consider it . The throat of hurry is large , and gulps almost any suggestion . Away [we]_5081-we went full gallop ; [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} was on the box,—how [the driver]_{6033-the driver} found [room]_918-room [I]_0-i ca n't say,—Mrs . [Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} and [I]_0-i inside , all consulting [her]_5085-her watch every minute . Across [the Regent 's Park]_{278-the regent 's park} , scattering the tame wild ducks , past [Marylebone Church]_{279-marylebone church} , and [the Yorkshire Stingo]_{5086-the yorkshire stingo} , and [Edgware Road]_{280-edgware road} — [we]_5081-we saved it by just two minutes . Although [I]_0-i had taken [his]_{6033-the driver} ticket , [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} would not come with [us]_5081-we , but went in [a second - class carriage]_{2866-a second - class carriage} . " [They]_9317-they blue featherbeds trimmed with pig 's tails , is too good for the likes of [I]_0-i , [Miss Clara]_293-clara ; and [I]_0-i should be afeared all the wai that [the Missus]_{5899-the missus} was rating of [me]_0-i for [[my]_0-i leg - room]_{9319-my leg - room} . [I]_0-i paid parlour price coming up , and went in the [kitchen waggons]_{9320-kitchen waggons} , because it zim'd only fair , as [I]_0-i takes such a dale of room . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i knew that [none]_1510-none ever could turn [him]_{6033-the driver} from what [he]_{6033-the driver} considered just , and therefore allowed [him]_{6033-the driver} to ride where [he]_{6033-the driver} pleased . But a dozen times [I]_0-i thought [we]_5081-we should have lost [him]_{6033-the driver} on the way ; for at [every station]_{5090-every station} , where [the train]_{7101-the train} stopped , [he]_{6033-the driver} made a point of coming to [our]_5081-we window , which [he]_{6033-the driver} had marked with a piece of chalk , and " humbly axing [our]_5081-we pardon , but was [we]_5081-we all right and no fire ? [He]_{6033-the driver} could n't think what [they]_5081-we wanted , not [he]_{6033-the driver} , with tempting [God Almighty]_701-god fast . "_{[6033-the driver]} Not fast enough for [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i told [him]_{6033-the driver} every time ; whereupon [he]_{6033-the driver} put on [his]_{6033-the driver} hat with a sigh , and said [he]_{6033-the driver} supposed [I]_0-i was born to it . And yet all the time [he]_{6033-the driver} seemed to consider that [he]_{6033-the driver} was protecting [me]_0-i somehow , and once [he]_{6033-the driver} called [me]_0-i [[his]_{6033-the driver} dearie]_{5092-his dearie} , to the great surprise of [the other passengers]_{5093-the other passengers} , and the horror of [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} ; seeing which [he]_{6033-the driver} repented hastily , and " [Miss Vaughan'd]_{702-miss vaughan'd} "_[0-i] [me]_0-i three times in a sentence , with a hot flush on [his]_{6033-the driver} forehead . At [Swindon]_266-swindon , where [we]_5094-us changed [carriages]_{5095-carriages} , [he]_{6033-the driver} pulled out very mysteriously from an inner breast - pocket a little sack tied with whipcord , and in which , [I]_0-i do believe , [the simple soul]_{5096-the simple soul} had deposited all [his]_{6033-the driver} hard - earned prize - money . Then [he]_{6033-the driver} led [us]_5094-us to the counter , proud to show that [he]_{6033-the driver} had been [there]_1114-there before , and earnestly begged for the honour of treating [us]_5094-us to a drop of somewhat . [His]_{6033-the driver} countenance fell so on [my]_0-i refusal , that [I]_0-i was fain to cancel it , and to drink at [his]_{6033-the driver} expense a glass of iced sherry and water ; while [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} , with much persuasion and simpering , and for the sake of [her]_{516-mrs. fletcher} poor inside , that had been so long [[her]_{516-mrs. fletcher} enemy]_{4466-her enemy} , ventured on a " wee wee thimbleful of Cognac . "_{[5517-the farmer]} [The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} [himself]_{5517-the farmer} , much abashed at the splendour around [him]_{5517-the farmer} , which [he]_{5517-the farmer} told [me]_0-i , in a whisper , beat Pewter Will 's out and out , and even the " Fortescue Arms , "_{[5517-the farmer]} would not call for anything , until [I]_0-i insisted upon it ; being hard pressed [he]_{5517-the farmer} asked at last , hoping no offence of [the lady]_{1431-the lady} , for a pint of second cider . [The young woman]_{7394-the young woman} turned up [her]_{7394-the young woman} nose , but [I]_0-i soon made [her]_{7394-the young woman} turn it down again , and fetch [him]_{5517-the farmer} , as the nearest thing , a bottle of sparkling perry . As always happens , when [one]_6186-one is in a great hurry , [the train]_{7101-the train} was an hour behind [its]_{7101-the train} time , and the setting sun was casting gold upon [the old cathedral]_{5104-the old cathedral} — to [my]_0-i mind [one of the lightest and grandest buildings in [England]_9-england]_{5105-one of the lightest and grandest buildings in england} , though [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} prefers [that squat and heavy Norman thing at [Exeter]_29-exeter]_{5107-that squat and heavy norman thing at exeter} — when [we]_5108-we glided smoothly and swiftly into [the Gloucester Station]_{5109-the gloucester station} . [I]_0-i fully intended to have sent an electric message from [London]_1-london , not for the sake of [the carriage]_{6087-the carriage} , which mattered nothing , but to warn [[my]_0-i dear uncle]_{8889-my dear uncle} ; at [Paddington]_{246-paddington} , however , [we]_5108-we found no time to do it , and so stupid [I]_0-i was that [I]_0-i never once thought of telegraphing from [Swindon]_266-swindon . To make up by over alacrity , in a case of far less importance , [I]_0-i went to [the office at [Gloucester]_{23-gloucester}]_{5112-the office at gloucester} , and sent this message to [Tiverton]_42-tiverton , then [the nearest Station to [Exmoor—"Farmer]_{281-exmoor—"farmer}]_{9321-the nearest station to exmoor—"farmer} has won , and got the money . [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara to [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} . "_{[5517-the farmer]} The amazement of [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , [I]_0-i can not stop to describe . No time was lost by doing this , for [I]_0-i had ordered a pair of horses , and [they]_5114-they were being put to . Then , stimulating [the driver]_{6033-the driver} , [we]_5108-we dashed off for [Vaughan St. Mary]_{18-vaughan st. mary} . Anxious as [I]_0-i was , and wretched at the thought of what [we]_5108-we might find , so exhausted was [my]_0-i frame by the thaumatrope of the last six - and - thirty hours , that [I]_0-i fell fast asleep , and woke not until [we]_5108-we came to [the lodge]_{1166-the lodge} . [Old Whitehead]_{703-whitehead} came out , hat in hand , and whispered something into [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} 's ear . [That good old lady]_{5117-that good old lady} had been worrying [me]_0-i dreadfully about [her]_{5117-that good old lady} jams , for the weather was so hot , [she]_{5117-that good old lady} was sure all the fruit would be over , & c. , none of which could [I]_0-i listen to now . As [Whitehead]_{703-whitehead} spoke , [I]_0-i saw through [my]_0-i half - open lashes that [she]_{703-whitehead} started violently ; but [she]_{703-whitehead} would not tell [me]_0-i what it was , and [I]_0-i did not want to intrude on secrets that might be between [them]_5118-them . [The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} also diverted attention by calling from the box , as [we]_5108-we wound into [the avenue]_{2993-the avenue} , " [Dear heart alaive]_{5869-dear heart alaive} ; this bate all the sojers as ever [I]_{5517-the farmer} see , [Miss Clara]_293-clara , or even [the melisher to Coom]_{9323-the melisher to coom} . Why , arl thiccy treeses must [a growed so a puppose]_{9324-a growed so a puppose} , just over again [one another]_{758-one another} , and arl of a bigness too . Wull , wull ! [Coachman]_{2112-coachman} , was ever [you]_{2112-coachman} to [Davonsheer]_{687-davonsheer} ? "_{[5517-the farmer]} [I]_0-i do believe [those men of [Devon]_24-devon]_{5121-those men of devon} see nothing [they]_{5121-those men of devon} admire , without thinking at once of [[their]_{5121-those men of devon} county]_{5122-their county} . At the front door , [the butler]_{826-the butler} met [us]_5108-we , which surprised [me]_0-i rather , as being below [his]_{826-the butler} dignity . [He]_{826-the butler} was [a trusty old servant , who had been under [Thomas Henwood]_{321-thomas henwood} , and had come back to [his]_{826-the butler} place since the general turn - out of [the household]_{870-the household}]_{5124-a trusty old servant , who had been under thomas henwood , and had come back to his place since the general turn - out of the household} . Now [he]_{826-the butler} looked very grave and sad , and instead of leading [me]_0-i on , drew [me]_0-i aside in [the hall]_{8656-the hall} . It was getting dark , and the fire in [the west]_{4115-the west} was dying . Great plumes of asparagus — shame it was to cut them — waved under the ancient mantel - piece . " Bad news it is , [Miss Clara"—they]_{704-miss clara"—they[705-john hoxton]} all seemed to call [me]_0-i that—"very bad news indeed , [Miss.]_448-miss. But [I]_{705-john hoxton} hope [you]_0-i was prepared for it . "_{[705-john hoxton]} " What do [you]_0-i mean ? "_{[705-john hoxton]} " Why , have n't [you]_0-i heard about [poor master]_{2930-poor master} 's death ? "_{[705-john hoxton]} " Dead , [[my]_{705-john hoxton} dear uncle]_{8889-my dear uncle} dead ! Do [you]_0-i mean to say"—I_{[705-john hoxton]} could not finish the sentence . " No , [Miss]_5433-miss , only to - day , and not as [you]_5433-miss thinks ; no fit at all , nor paralyatic stroke . [He]_{2930-poor master} went off quiet as a lamb , as near as could be three o'clock . [He]_{2930-poor master} was very poorly before ; but [he]_{2930-poor master} had a deal to do , and would not give in on no account . [He]_{2930-poor master} was sitting by [himself]_{2930-poor master} in [the study]_{7698-the study} after breakfast , and at last [he]_{2930-poor master} rang the bell , and told [them]_9331-them to send [me]_{705-john hoxton} up . When [I]_{705-john hoxton} went in , [he]_{2930-poor master} was bolt upright in [his]_{2930-poor master} chair , with a beautiful smile on [his]_{2930-poor master} face , but so pale , white [I]_{705-john hoxton} ought to say , [Miss]_9332-miss , and so weak [he]_{2930-poor master} could hardly move . ' [John]_299-john , ' [he]_{2930-poor master} says , ' Yes , [Sir]_5380-sir , ' says [I]_{705-john hoxton} ; ' [John]_299-john , ' [he]_{2930-poor master} says again , ' [you]_299-john are [a most respectable man]_{9334-a most respectable man} , and [I]_{705-john hoxton} can trust [you]_299-john with anything in [the world]_{798-the world} , [John]_299-john . Take this letter for [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara , and put it with [your]_299-john own hands into [her]_293-clara own , directly the moment [she]_293-clara comes back . [I]_{705-john hoxton} am rather uneasy about [the poor girl]_{9336-the poor girl} , ' [he]_{2930-poor master} says , as it were to [himself]_{2930-poor master} . ' Which [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara , [Sir]_5380-sir ? ' says [I.]_{705-john hoxton} ' [[Your]_5380-sir mistress]_{1920-your mistress} , [John]_299-john . Ca n't [you]_299-john see what is written on it ? And now help [me]_{705-john hoxton} [upstairs]_{6042-upstairs} ; and if ever [I]_{705-john hoxton} spoke to [you]_299-john harshly , [John Hoxton]_{705-john hoxton} , [I]_{705-john hoxton} ask [your]_299-john pardon for it . [You]_299-john will find as [I]_{705-john hoxton} have n't forgotten [you]_299-john . ' And with that [I]_{705-john hoxton} helped [him]_299-john [upstairs]_{6042-upstairs} , [Miss]_9341-miss , and [I]_{705-john hoxton} had almost to carry [him]_299-john ; and then [he]_299-john says , ' Help [me]_{705-john hoxton} to bed , [John]_299-john . [I]_{705-john hoxton} would like to die in [my]_{705-john hoxton} bed , and it will save some trouble . And let [me]_{705-john hoxton} look out of the window ; what a lovely day it is , it reminds [me]_{705-john hoxton} quite of [the South]_{282-the south} . So [I]_{705-john hoxton} set [him]_299-john up in the bed , [Miss]_9342-miss , handy altogether , and beautiful , and [he]_299-john could see two larks on [the lawn]_{2990-the lawn} , and [he]_299-john asked [me]_{705-john hoxton} what [they]_9344-they was . Then [he]_299-john says , ' Thank [you]_299-john , [John]_299-john , [you]_299-john have done it wonderful well , and [I]_{705-john hoxton} hope [they]_9344-they wo n't speak evil of [me]_{705-john hoxton} round [this place]_{5690-this place} , after [I]_{705-john hoxton} am gone . [I]_{705-john hoxton} have tried to do [my]_{705-john hoxton} duty , [John]_299-john , as between [man]_5770-man and [man]_5770-man : though [I]_{705-john hoxton} would be softer with [them]_9344-they , if [I]_{705-john hoxton} had [my]_{705-john hoxton} time over again . Now send [[my]_{705-john hoxton} daughter]_{3561-my daughter} to [me]_{705-john hoxton} , though [I]_{705-john hoxton} wish [I]_{705-john hoxton} had seen [[my]_{705-john hoxton} son]_{5986-my son} , [John]_299-john . But [I]_{705-john hoxton} ought to be very thankful , and what 's more , [I]_{705-john hoxton} am . [All of [you]_{9350-all of you}]_{9350-all of you} likes [Miss Lily]_673-lily , unless [they]_9344-they tell [me]_{705-john hoxton} stories , [John]_299-john . ' ' [Sir]_5380-sir , ' says [I]_{705-john hoxton} , ' [we]_9352-we wusships [her]_673-lily , though not like [our]_9352-we own [Miss Vaughan]_293-clara . ' "_{[705-john hoxton]} Ah , [John Hoxton]_{705-john hoxton} , did [you]_{705-john hoxton} say that to [him]_{705-john hoxton} , [I]_0-i wonder , or interpolate , ex post facto ? " So [he]_{705-john hoxton} looked very pleased at that , [Miss]_9353-miss , and [he]_{705-john hoxton} says again , ' [John]_{705-john hoxton} , let all that love [her]_673-lily know that [she]_673-lily is the living image of [[her]_673-lily mother]_{6340-her mother} . Now go and send [her]_673-lily quickly ; but [John]_{705-john hoxton} , take care not to frighten [[my]_{705-john hoxton} little darling]_{9355-my little darling} . ' So [I]_{705-john hoxton} went and found [Miss Lily]_673-lily got along with the Shetland pony and giving it bits of clover , and [I]_{705-john hoxton} sent [her]_673-lily up and [Jane]_347-jane too , for [I]_{705-john hoxton} was dreadfully frightened , and [you]_9353-miss away , [Miss]_9356-miss , at the time . And what come afterwards [I]_{705-john hoxton} ca n't tell , only no luncheon went up , and there was orders not to ring the bell for [the servants]_{772-the servants} ' dinner ; and [I]_{705-john hoxton} heard poor [Miss Lily]_673-lily crying terrible all along [the corridor]_{7666-the corridor} , and [I]_{705-john hoxton} did hear say that [his]_{705-john hoxton} last words was , and [he]_{705-john hoxton} trying to raise [his]_{705-john hoxton} arms toward the window , ' Blessed be [God]_701-god , [I]_{705-john hoxton} can see [my]_{705-john hoxton} own [Lily]_673-lily , ' but [she]_673-lily warn't that side of the bed , [Miss]_9359-miss ; so [he]_{705-john hoxton} must have made some mistake . "_{[705-john hoxton]} " No . [He]_{705-john hoxton} meant [[her]_673-lily mother]_{6340-her mother} . Where is [[my]_0-i cousin]_{1205-my cousin} now ? "_[0-i] " In [[your]_9359-miss own room]_{9362-your own room} , [Miss]_5433-miss , lying down , [they]_9364-they tell [me]_{705-john hoxton} . [She]_673-lily did take on so awful , [Jane]_347-jane thought [she]_673-lily would have died . But at last [she]_347-jane brought [her]_673-lily round a little , and persuaded [her]_673-lily to lie down . [She]_673-lily calls for [you]_9359-miss , [Miss]_9365-miss , every time [she]_673-lily comes to [herself]_673-lily . "_{[705-john hoxton]} [I]_0-i went straightway to [the poor little dear]_{4771-the poor little dear} , without even stopping to read the letter placed in [my]_0-i hands . [The room in which [she]_{4771-the poor little dear} lay]_{5129-the room in which she lay} was dark ; for [Jane]_347-jane , who was watching in [[my]_0-i little parlour]_{7485-my little parlour} , whispered to [me]_0-i that [the poor child]_{6440-the poor child} could not bear the lamp - light , [her]_{4771-the poor little dear} eyes were so weak and sore . At first [Lily]_673-lily did not know [me]_0-i ; and it went to [my]_0-i heart , after all [my]_0-i own great sorrows , to hear the sad low moaning . [She]_673-lily lay on [[my]_0-i own little bed]_{5132-my own little bed} , with [her]_673-lily pale face turned to the wall , [her]_673-lily thick hair all over [her]_673-lily shoulders , and both hands pressed to [her]_673-lily heart . [Annie Franks]_{552-annie franks} had been many times to ask for [her]_673-lily , but [Lily]_673-lily would not let [her]_673-lily come in . Bending over [I]_0-i laid [my]_0-i cheek on [Lily]_673-lily 's , and softly whispered [her]_673-lily name . At last [she]_673-lily knew [me]_0-i , and took [my]_0-i hand , and turned [her]_673-lily sweet lips to kiss [me]_0-i . Then [she]_673-lily sobbed and cried most bitterly ; but [I]_0-i saw that it did [her]_673-lily good . By and by [she]_673-lily said , with [her]_673-lily fingers among [my]_0-i hair : " Oh , [Clara]_293-clara , is n't it hard to find [him]_9366-he at last , and love [him]_9366-he so , and only for three days , and then , and then — "_[673-lily] " And then , [[my]_673-lily pet]_{5394-my pet} , to let [him]_9366-he go where [his]_9366-he heart has been nearly twenty years . Would [you]_{5394-my pet} be so selfish as to rob [[your]_{5394-my pet} mother]_{5332-your mother} of [him]_9366-he ? And to go so happy . [I]_673-lily am sure [he]_9366-he has . Come with [me]_673-lily and see . "_[673-lily] " Oh no , oh no . [I]_673-lily can not . "_[673-lily] And [her]_673-lily lovely young form trembled , at the thought of visiting death . " Yes , [you]_{5394-my pet} can , if [you]_{5394-my pet} only try , and [I]_673-lily am sure that [he]_9366-he would wish it . That [you]_{5394-my pet} and [I]_673-lily should kneel hand in hand and bless [him]_9366-he , as [others]_869-others shall kneel some day by [us]_9370-us . What , [Lily]_673-lily afraid of [[her]_673-lily father]_{898-her father} ! Then [I]_673-lily have no fear of [[my]_673-lily Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} . "_[673-lily] [God]_701-god knows that [I]_0-i spoke so , not from harshness , only in the hope to do [her]_673-lily good . " If [you]_{5394-my pet} really think [he]_9366-he would wish it , [dear]_5871-dear — "_[0-i] " Yes . It is a duty [I]_477-judy owe [him]_9366-he . [He]_9366-he would be disappointed in [me]_477-judy , if [I]_477-judy failed . "_[477-judy] " Oh , how [he]_9366-he longed to see [you]_5871-dear once more , [dear [Clara]_293-clara]_{9374-dear clara} , But [he]_9366-he felt that [you]_5871-dear were safe , and [he]_9366-he said [you]_5871-dear would come to see [him]_9366-he , though [he]_9366-he could not see [you]_5871-dear . [He]_9366-he talked of [you]_5871-dear quite to the last ; [you]_5871-dear and [darling Conny]_670-conrad . "_[0-i] " [Conny]_670-conrad will be here to - night . "_[0-i] " No ! Oh [I]_477-judy am so glad ! "_[477-judy] and a bright flash of joy shone forth from the eyes that were red with weeping . Something cold pushed quietly in between [us]_5133-us , and then gave a sniff and a sigh . It was [darling Judy]_477-judy 's nose . [He]_5134-he had learned in [the lower regions]_{5135-the lower regions} , where [he]_5134-he always dwelled in [my]_0-i absence , that [Miss Clara]_293-clara was come [home]_1102-home ; and knowing [my]_0-i name as well as [his]_5134-he own , [he]_5134-he had set off at once in quest of [me]_0-i . After offering [me]_0-i [his]_5134-he best love and respects , with the tip of [his]_5134-he tongue , as [he]_5134-he always did , [he]_5134-he looked from one to the other of [us]_5133-us , with [his]_5134-he eyebrows raised in surprise , and the deepest sorrow and sympathy in [his]_5134-he beautiful soft - brown pupils . [I]_0-i declare it made [us]_5133-us cry more than ever . " Oh , [Clara]_293-clara , "_[673-lily] sobbed [Lily]_673-lily at length , " [he]_5134-he did howl so last night . Do [you]_293-clara think [he]_5134-he could have known it ? "_[673-lily] [His]_5134-he eyes dropped , as [she]_673-lily was telling [me]_0-i . [They]_5137-they always did , when [he]_5134-he thought [he]_5134-he had been a bad dog . " Now go down , [Judy]_477-judy ; good little [Judy]_477-judy , go to [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} . [A great friend of mine]_{2948-a great friend of mine} is with [her]_{516-mrs. fletcher} . "_[5134-he] Away [he]_5134-he trotted obediently , and [his]_5134-he tail recovered its flourish before [he]_5134-he had got to the corner . " Now , [darling]_6257-darling , let [us]_5139-we go [there]_1114-there , "_{[6440-the poor child]} said [the poor child]_{6440-the poor child} , trembling again . " [I]_{6440-the poor child} would go anywhere with [you]_6257-darling . "_{[6440-the poor child]} Hand in hand [we]_5139-we walked into [[[my]_0-i Uncle]_{1271-my uncle} 's chamber]_{5141-my uncle 's chamber} . Young as [I]_0-i was , and still thoughtless in many ways , twice before now had [I]_0-i gazed on the solemn face of death ; but never , not even in [[my]_0-i mother]_{746-my mother} 's holy countenance , saw [I]_0-i such perfect peace and bliss as dwelt in and seemed to smile from [my]_0-i dearest Uncle 's lineaments . The life , in youth puffed here and there by every captious breeze of pride , in its prime becalmed awhile on the halycon deep of love , then tempest - tossed through the lonely dark , and shattered of late by blows from [God]_701-god , [that life whose flaw of misanthropy and waste of high abilities had been redeemed , ennobled even , by a pure and perfect love]_{5143-that life whose flaw of misanthropy and waste of high abilities had been redeemed , ennobled even , by a pure and perfect love} — now it had bidden farewell to all below the clouds , calmly , happily , best of all — in faith . [We]_5139-we knelt beside the bed and prayed — [Lily]_673-lily as [a Catholic]_{6308-a catholic} , [Clara]_293-clara as [a Protestant]_{5145-a protestant} — that [we]_5139-we , and all [we]_5139-we loved , might have so blest an end . Then [we]_5139-we both sat peacefully , with a happy awe upon [us]_5139-we , in the dark recess behind the velvet curtains . Two wax candles were burning on the table towards the door , and by [their]_5146-their light the face [we]_5139-we loved , looked not wan , but glorious , as with a silver glory . Clasping [each the other]_{5147-each the other} 's waist , and kissing away [each other]_{734-each other} 's tranquil tears , how long [we]_5139-we sat there [I]_0-i know not , neither what high fluttering thoughts , thoughts or [angels]_8094-angels , which be [they]_5150-they — stealthily a door was opened , not the door of [heaven]_1555-heaven , not even the main door of [the room [we]_5139-we sat in]_{5152-the room we sat in} , but a narrow side - door . Through [it]_5153-it crept , with crawling caution , [he]_5154-his whom most of all [men]_1003-men [I]_0-i now despised and pitied . [Lily]_673-lily did not hear [his]_5154-his entrance , neither did [she]_673-lily see [him]_5154-his ; but [my]_0-i eyes and ears were keen from many a call of danger . Stunned for a while by the heavy blow , that met [me]_0-i on [my]_0-i return , [I]_0-i had forgotten all about [him]_5154-his ; [I]_0-i mean , at least , all about [his]_5154-his present design . [I]_0-i had indeed told [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , for it was only fair to do so , [my]_0-i object in bringing [him]_5154-his down ; and how [I]_0-i relied on [his]_5154-his wonderful strength and courage , having then no other to help [me]_0-i ; but since [I]_0-i got [home]_1102-home , and heard the sad tidings , it seemed a mere thing for contempt . Not even [Lepardo Della Croce]_570-lepardo could catch a departed spirit . So , and in the landslip of the mind , sapped by its own , and sliding swiftly into another 's sorrow , [I]_0-i had not even ordered that [the house]_{764-the house} should be watched at all ; [I]_0-i had not even posted [Giudice]_590-giudice , who had a vendetta of [his]_590-giudice own , anywhere on guard . With a stiletto still concealed , all but the handle on which the light fell , [he]_590-giudice approached the bed , wriggling along and crouching , as a cat or leopard would . Then [he]_590-giudice rose and stood upright at the side of the bed , not [our]_5159-our side but the other , and glared upon [[his]_590-giudice intended victim]_{5160-his intended victim} 's face . [I]_0-i pushed [Lily]_673-lily back behind the curtain as if with the weight of [my]_0-i bosom , while [I]_0-i watched the whole . Never in all [my]_0-i tempestuous life , of all the horrible things [I]_0-i have seen , and heard , and shuddered at , saw [I]_0-i anything so awful , so utterly beyond not only description , but conception , as that disdainful , arrogant face , when the truth burst on [him]_590-giudice . Not the body only , but the mind and soul — if [God]_701-god had cursed [him]_590-giudice with one — were smitten back all of a lump , as if [he]_590-giudice had leaped from [a train]_{5161-a train} at full speed into a firing cannon 's mouth . Before [he]_590-giudice had time to recover , [I]_0-i advanced and faced [him]_590-giudice . All dressed in white [I]_0-i was , with [my]_0-i black hair below [my]_0-i waist , for [I]_0-i had thrown off [my]_0-i travelling frock , and taken what first came to hand . [They]_5162-they tell [me]_0-i [I]_0-i look best in white , it shows [my]_0-i hair and eyes so . [He]_590-giudice believed that it was a spirit , [the Vendetta spirit of the other side]_{5163-the vendetta spirit of the other side} ; and [he]_590-giudice cowered from [me]_0-i . [I]_0-i was the first to speak . " [Lepardo Della Croce]_570-lepardo , it is the rebuke of heaven . Dust upon ashes ; such is [man]_5770-man 's revenge . [I]_0-i have nursed , but scorn it now . Go in peace , and pray [the Almighty]_{9379-the almighty} that [He]_590-giudice be not like [you]_570-lepardo . Stop ; [I]_0-i will show [you]_570-lepardo forth . [You]_570-lepardo have [a vindictive foe]_{9380-a vindictive foe} here , who would tear [you]_570-lepardo to atoms . "_[0-i] [I]_0-i led the way , trembling at every corner lest [we]_5164-we should meet [Giudice]_590-giudice ; for [I]_0-i knew [he]_590-giudice would not obey [me]_0-i , if [he]_590-giudice once caught sight of [this hated one]_{5165-this hated one} . After standing silently , unable to take [his]_590-giudice eyes from the placid face of the dead , [Lepardo]_570-lepardo began to follow [me]_0-i , walking as if in a dream . Meeting none , [I]_0-i led [him]_590-giudice forth along [the corridor]_{7666-the corridor} , down the end staircase , and out on [the eastern terrace]_{5167-the eastern terrace} . [There]_1114-there [I]_0-i waved [him]_590-giudice off , and pointed to the dark refuge of the shrubbery , beyond [the mineral spring]_{5169-the mineral spring} . The moonlight slept upon the black water narrowly threading the grass . Over [our]_5164-we heads drooped the ivy , the creeper of oblivion . [The murderer]_{831-the murderer} turned and looked at [me]_0-i ; hitherto [he]_{831-the murderer} had glided along with [his]_{831-the murderer} head down , as in bewilderment . Oh that [he]_{831-the murderer} had said one word of sorrow or repentance ! [He]_{831-the murderer} spoke not at all ; but shuddered , as the ivy rustled above [us]_5164-we . [His]_{831-the murderer} face was pale as the moonlight . Did [he]_{831-the murderer} see in [me]_0-i something higher than the spirit of Vendetta ? [I]_0-i pointed again to the trees , and urged [him]_{831-the murderer} away from [the house]_{764-the house} . [He]_{831-the murderer} had [two strong enemies]_{5172-two strong enemies} [there]_1114-there ; a minute might make all the difference . Breaking as if from a spell , [he]_{831-the murderer} waved [his]_{831-the murderer} Italian cap , and [his]_{831-the murderer} lithe strong figure was lost among the Portugal laurels . For a minute [I]_0-i stood there , wondering ; then slowly went round [the house]_{764-the house} - corner , and gazed at the grey stone mullions of [the room which had been [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's]_{5175-the room which had been my father 's} . [I]_0-i was still in the anguish of doubt and misgiving — what right had [an ignorant girl]_{5177-an ignorant girl} like [me]_0-i to play [judge and jury]_{5178-judge and jury} , or more , to absolve and release a crime against all humanity?—when a mighty form stood beside [me]_0-i , and [Giudice]_590-giudice , all bristle and fire , dashed forth from the door in the gable . With command and entreaty [I]_0-i called [him]_{831-the murderer} , but [he]_{831-the murderer} heard [me]_0-i not , [neither]_3851-neither looked at [me]_0-i ; but scoured the ground like a shadow , quartering it as a pointer does , only [he]_{831-the murderer} carried [his]_{831-the murderer} nose down . " Dang [my]_{5517-the farmer} slow bones , "_{[5517-the farmer]} said [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , " but [I]_{5517-the farmer} 'll have [him]_{831-the murderer} yet , [Miss.]_448-miss. [I]_{5517-the farmer} seed [him]_{831-the murderer} go , [I]_{5517-the farmer} 'll soon find [him]_{831-the murderer} . "_{[5517-the farmer]} " No , no . [I]_{831-the murderer} wo n't have [him]_{831-the murderer} stopped . [He]_{831-the murderer} shall go free , and repent . "_{[831-the murderer]} " By [your]_{831-the murderer} lave , [Miss]_5433-miss , it ca n't be . [A man]_{5384-a man} as have done what [he]_{5384-a man} have , [us]_9383-us has no right to play buff with . Never before did [I]_{5517-the farmer} go again [your]_{831-the murderer} will , [Miss]_9384-miss ; but axing [your]_{831-the murderer} pardon , [I]_{5517-the farmer} must now . Look , [the girt dog]_{9385-the girt dog} know better . "_{[5517-the farmer]} As the dog found the track and gave tongue , [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} rushed from [me]_0-i and followed [him]_5182-him , dashing headlong into the shrubbery , after leaping the mineral spring , at the very spot where the footprints had been . [Judy]_477-judy and [Farmer Huxtable]_{362-farmer huxtable} were [fast friends]_{5183-fast friends} already ; for that dog always made up [his]_5182-him mind in a moment on the question of like and dislike . For a time [I]_0-i was so horror - struck , that no power of motion was left . [I]_0-i knew that [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} was quite unarmed , [he]_{5517-the farmer} carried not even a stick . Even with the great dog to help [him]_{5517-the farmer} , what could [he]_{5517-the farmer} do against fire - arms , which [Lepardo]_570-lepardo was sure to have ? What should [I]_0-i say to [[his]_{5517-the farmer} wife]_{789-his wife} and [children]_{1229-children} , what should [I]_0-i say to [myself]_0-i , if [John Huxtable]_299-john fell [a victim to [that wily and desperate criminal]_{5188-that wily and desperate criminal}]_{5187-a victim to that wily and desperate criminal} ? Resolved to be present , if possible , [I]_0-i rushed down the narrow path which led to [the little park]_{5189-the little park} - gate , where probably [they]_5190-they would pass . [I]_0-i was right : [they]_5190-they had passed , and flung [it]_5191-it wide open . Breathless [I]_0-i looked around , for hence several tracks diverged . No living thing could [I]_0-i see or hear , but the beating of [my]_0-i heart , which seemed to be in [my]_0-i throat , and the hooting of an owl from the hollow elm at the corner . [I]_0-i flung [myself]_0-i down on the dewy grass , and strained [my]_0-i eyes in vain ; until by some silver birch - trees on which the moonlight was glancing , [I]_0-i saw first [a gliding figure that looked like a deer in the distance]_{5192-a gliding figure that looked like a deer in the distance} , then [a tall man]_{8306-a tall man} running rapidly . Away [I]_0-i made by a short cut for [the " Witches ' grave]_{9386-the " witches ' grave} , "_{[8306-a tall man]} as [the end of [the lake]_{953-the lake}]_{5194-the end of the lake} was called , for [I]_0-i knew that the path [they]_5190-they were on led thither . Quite out of breath [I]_0-i was , for [I]_0-i had run more than half a mile , when [I]_0-i came full upon a scene , which would have robbed [me]_0-i of breath if [I]_0-i had any . At the end of [a little dingle]_{5196-a little dingle} , under a willow - tree , and within a few feet of [the water]_{1150-the water} , stood [Lepardo Della Croce]_570-lepardo , brought to bay at last . A few yards from [him]_{8306-a tall man} , [Giudice]_590-giudice was struggling furiously to escape [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} 's grasp ; perhaps [no other hand in [England]_9-england]_{5199-no other hand in england} could have held [him]_590-giudice . [His]_590-giudice eyes kindled in the moonlight , like the red stars of a rocket , and a deep roar of baffled rage came from the surge of [his]_590-giudice chest , as [he]_590-giudice champed [his]_590-giudice monstrous fangs , and volleyed all the spring of [his]_590-giudice loins . [The farmer]_{5517-the farmer} leaned backward to hold [him]_590-giudice , and stayed [himself]_{5517-the farmer} by a tree - stump . " Sharp now , surrender , wull e , [man]_5770-man . In the name of of [the Quane]_{706-the quane} and [the Lord Chafe Justice]_{9388-the lord chafe justice} , and [the High Shariff of [Devon]_24-devon]_{9389-the high shariff of devon} , [I]_570-lepardo tell [e]_570-lepardo surrender — dang this here dog — surrender , and [I]_570-lepardo ' ont hoort e ; and [I]_570-lepardo ' ont let the girt dog . "_{[570-lepardo]} [Lepardo]_570-lepardo answered calmly , in a voice that made [my]_0-i blood cold : " Do [you]_0-i value [your]_0-i life ? If so , stand out of [my]_570-lepardo way . [I]_570-lepardo have death here for [you]_0-i , and five other dogs . "_{[570-lepardo]} [I]_0-i saw the barrel of a large revolver , with a stream of light upon it . [He]_5201-he held it steadily as a tobacco - pipe . [I]_0-i am glad [he]_5201-he owned some courage . For [my]_0-i life , [I]_0-i could not stir . All the breath in [my]_0-i body was gone . " Dear heart alaive . [Thiccy man]_{9390-thiccy man} must be a fule , "_{[5517-the farmer]} said [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} quite contemplatively . " Do n't [e]_570-lepardo know who [I]_{5517-the farmer} be ? Do [e]_570-lepardo reckon [they]_9391-they peppermint twistesses can hurt [Jan Uxtable]_{343-jan uxtable} ? [I]_{5517-the farmer} seed ever so many in [a smarl shop window to [Lunnon]_271-lunnon]_{9392-a smarl shop window to lunnon} . Surrender now wull e , [thou]_570-lepardo shalt have fair traial to [Hexeter]_283-hexeter , as [a Davonshire man]_{9393-a davonshire man} have took [e]_570-lepardo , and a dale more nor [e]_570-lepardo desarves . Sharp now : [I]_{5517-the farmer} be afeared of the girt dog getting loose . Dang [you]_{5517-the farmer} dog . [Ston]_707-ston up a bit . "_{[5517-the farmer]} And [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} approached [him]_{5517-the farmer} coolly , trailing the dog along ; as if what [the murderer]_{831-the murderer} held in [his]_{831-the murderer} hand was a stick of Spanish liquorice . " [Fool]_9394-fool , if [you]_{5517-the farmer} pass that stump , [your]_{5517-the farmer} great carcase shall lie on it . "_{[5517-the farmer]} " Fire away , "_{[5517-the farmer]} said [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , " [I]_{5517-the farmer} knowed [you]_{5517-the farmer} was [a coward]_{3282-a coward} , and [I]_{5517-the farmer} be glad it be so . Now mind , if so be [you]_{5517-the farmer} shuts , [I]_{5517-the farmer} lets the dog go , honour braight , because [e]_570-lepardo dunno what fair play be . But if [e]_570-lepardo harken to rason , [I]_{5517-the farmer} 'll give [e]_570-lepardo one chance more . [I]_{5517-the farmer} 'll tie up the dog with [my]_{5517-the farmer} braces to thiccy tree — allers wear cart rope [I]_{5517-the farmer} does — and [I]_{5517-the farmer} 'll tak [[e]_570-lepardo Quane 's prisoner]_{9396-e quane 's prisoner} , with [my]_{5517-the farmer} left hond , and t'other never out of [my]_{5517-the farmer} breeches pocket ; look e , [zee]_9397-zee , laike thiccy . "_{[5517-the farmer]} And [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} buried [his]_{5517-the farmer} right hand in [his]_{5517-the farmer} capacious trowsery . [The Corsican]_{585-old cora} seemed astonished . " [Fool - hardy clown]_{9398-fool - hardy clown} , [worthy son of [a bull - headed country]_{9400-a bull - headed country}]_{9399-worthy son of a bull - headed country} , stop at the stump — then , take that . "_{[585-old cora]} Out blazed the pistol with a loud ring , and [I]_0-i saw that [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} was struck . [He]_{5517-the farmer} let go the dog , and leaped up ; [his]_{5517-the farmer} right hand fell on [Lepardo]_570-lepardo 's temple , and seemed to crush the skull in,—another shot at the same instant and down fell [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} heavily . " [Great God]_{9401-great god} , "_[0-i] [I]_0-i screamed , and leaped forward . But [Giudice]_590-giudice was loose to avenge [him]_{5517-the farmer} , though [I]_0-i could swear that it was on a corpse . Corpse or living body , over and over it rolled , with the dog 's fangs in its throat . [I]_0-i heard a gurgle , a tearing , and grinding , and then a loud splash in the water . The dog , and [the murderer]_{831-the murderer} , both of [man]_5770-man and dog , sunk in [the lake]_{953-the lake} together . Twenty feet out from [the shore]_{1669-the shore} rose above water one moment , drawn ghastly white in the moonbeams , the last view seen till the judgment - day of the face of [Lepardo Della Croce]_570-lepardo . Almost drowned [himself]_{5517-the farmer} — for [he]_{5517-the farmer} would not release [[[his]_{5517-the farmer} father]_{1062-his father} 's murderer]_{5214-his father 's murderer} , while a gasp was in [him]_{5517-the farmer} — staggered at last to [the shore]_{1669-the shore} [my]_0-i noble and true dog Giudice . [He]_{5517-the farmer} fell down awhile , to recover [his]_{5517-the farmer} breath , then shook [himself]_{5517-the farmer} gratefully , tottered to [me]_0-i , where [I]_0-i knelt at [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} 's side , and wagged [his]_{5517-the farmer} tail for approval . The water from [his]_{5517-the farmer} chest and stomach dripped on [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} 's upturned face , and for a moment revived [him]_{5517-the farmer} . " No belt , [no tino lad]_{9402-no tino lad} , [I]_{5517-the farmer} ' ont tak ' it . Zimth laike a ticket for chating . [I]_{5517-the farmer} dunno as [I]_{5517-the farmer} 'd tak ' [the mony]_{9403-the mony} , if it warn't for the poor chillers , naine chillers now , and [anither a - coomin]_{9404-anither a - coomin} . Must n't drink no more beer , but [Beany]_{334-beany dawe} shall have his'n . "_{[5517-the farmer]} And [his]_{5517-the farmer} head fell back on [my]_0-i lap , and [I]_0-i felt sure that [he]_{5517-the farmer} was dead . How [I]_0-i screamed and shrieked , till [I]_0-i lay beside [him]_{5517-the farmer} , with [Judy]_477-judy licking [my]_0-i face , none can tell but [the gamekeepers , who had heard the shots]_{5218-the gamekeepers , who had heard the shots} , and came hurrying . Of [this lower end of [the lake]_{953-the lake}]_{5219-this lower end of the lake} [they]_{5218-the gamekeepers , who had heard the shots} happened to be most jealous ; for a brood of pintail ducks , very rare [I]_0-i believe in [England]_9-england , had been hatched [here]_846-here this summer , and [no one]_{730-no one} was allowed to go near [them]_5223-them . [Poor Judy]_477-judy kept all [the men]_{5486-the men} aloof , till [I]_0-i was able to speak to [him]_{5517-the farmer} . Then [I]_0-i perceived that [he]_{5517-the farmer} as well was bleeding , wounded perhaps by the poniard as [he]_{5517-the farmer} leaped on [[his]_{5517-the farmer} enemy]_{4245-his enemy} 's breast . It had entered just under the shoulder , and narrowly missed the heart . [They]_{5218-the gamekeepers , who had heard the shots} took [us]_5226-we at once towards [the house]_{764-the house} , carrying [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} and [Judy]_477-judy on the wooden floodgates of [the stream]_{1155-the stream} called [the " Witches ' brook]_{5376-the " witches ' brook} , "_{[5218-the gamekeepers , who had heard the shots]} which here fell into [the lake]_{953-the lake} . As [we]_5226-we entered [the avenue]_{2993-the avenue} , being obliged to take the broad way , though much further round , [we]_5226-we heard [a carriage]_{6079-a carriage} coming . It was the one [I]_0-i had sent for [Conrad]_670-conrad , with a hurried note to break the sad news of [[his]_670-conrad father]_{1062-his father} 's death . [He]_670-conrad had been detained in [London]_1-london by a challenge [he]_670-conrad found from [Lepardo]_570-lepardo ; which was of course a stratagem to keep [him]_670-conrad out of the way . How delighted [I]_0-i was to see [his]_670-conrad calm brave face again , as [he]_670-conrad leaped down , and took [my]_0-i tottering form in [his]_670-conrad arms . In a minute [he]_670-conrad understood everything , and knew what was best to be done . [He]_670-conrad would not allow [them]_5234-they to place [the poor farmer]_{1954-the poor farmer} in [the carriage]_{6087-the carriage} , as [they]_5234-they foolishly wanted to do ; but laid the rude litter down , examined the wounds by the lamplight , and bound them up most cleverly with the appliances of the moment . " Oh , [Conrad]_670-conrad , will [he]_670-conrad die ? "_[670-conrad] " No , [[my]_670-conrad darling]_{5337-my darling} , [I]_670-conrad hope not ; but [he]_670-conrad must if [they]_5234-they had let [him]_670-conrad bleed so much longer . "_[670-conrad] " [I]_670-conrad never heard that [you]_670-conrad were [a surgeon]_{9407-a surgeon} , [Conny]_670-conrad . "_[670-conrad] " Could [I]_670-conrad call [myself]_670-conrad [a sculptor]_{9408-a sculptor} , without having studied anatomy ? [[My]_670-conrad dearest]_{8764-my dearest} one , how [you]_{8764-my dearest} tremble ! Go [home]_1102-home in [the carriage]_{6087-the carriage} , and give directions for [us]_9412-us . [A room]_{9413-a room} [downstairs]_{1041-downstairs} , with a wide doorway , and plenty of air . [I]_670-conrad will stay with [them]_9412-us , and see that [they]_9412-us bear [him]_670-conrad gently . [Poor Judy]_477-judy may go with [you]_670-conrad . "_[670-conrad] Thus [Conrad]_670-conrad saw for the first time [the hearth and home of [[his]_670-conrad ancestors]_{5238-his ancestors}]_{5237-the hearth and home of his ancestors} , with [[his]_670-conrad father]_{1062-his father} lying dead there , and [[his]_670-conrad avenger]_{5240-his avenger} carried helpless . But [I]_0-i met [him]_670-conrad at the door . Did that comfort [you]_5241-you just a little , [[my]_0-i darling]_{5337-my darling} ? [The lake]_{953-the lake} was dragged that night , and all the following day , in spite of [the gamekeeper]_{4242-the gamekeeper} 's strong remonstrance for the sake of the tender pintails . But nothing whatever was found , except the Italian cap . [[The " Witches]_{9415-the " witches} ' grave]_{9386-the " witches ' grave} , "_{[9415-the " witches]} invisible [I]_0-i am glad to say from [the house]_{764-the house} , is more than forty feet deep , when the water is at its lowest . Three or four years afterwards [young William Hiatt]_{708-young william hiatt} caught a monstrous pike in [the lake]_{953-the lake} , and sent [him]_670-conrad , with [our]_5247-our permission , to be stuffed at [Gloucester]_{23-gloucester} . Like the famous fish of [Samos]_284-samos , this pike had swallowed a ring , which was sent to [Conrad]_670-conrad by [the Gloucester gun - maker]_{5248-the gloucester gun - maker} . It was [Lepardo]_570-lepardo 's seal - ring , the cross of [the family]_{1254-the family} engraved on a bloodstone , with L.D.C. below it . Whether [the midnight stabber]_{5250-the midnight stabber} died by the blow of an English fist , or suffered vivisection through a dog 's vendetta — an institution more excusable and dignified than [man's]_5251-man's — is known to [Him]_670-conrad , and [Him]_670-conrad alone , who holds the scales of retribution , and laughs in scorn as well as wrath at [our]_5247-our attempts to swing them . For are [we]_5247-our not therein [ourselves]_5247-our ; and how shall [the best and strongest of [us]_5247-our]_{5252-the best and strongest of us} carry the thing [he]_670-conrad is carried in ? Right glad [I]_0-i am , and ever shall be , that [I]_0-i moved not in the awful scene , which closed [[my]_0-i father]_{731-my father} 's tragedy . Through [Conrad]_670-conrad 's skill and presence of mind , [the dear farmer]_{5254-the dear farmer} 's life was saved . [We]_5247-our sent to [Gloucester]_{23-gloucester} immediately for [the cleverest surgeon there]_{5255-the cleverest surgeon there} ; and [he]_{5255-the cleverest surgeon there} owned that [he]_{5255-the cleverest surgeon there} could not have fixed the ligatures better , though [he]_{5255-the cleverest surgeon there} did what [Conny durst]_670-conrad not attempt , [he]_{5255-the cleverest surgeon there} extracted [the murderer]_{831-the murderer} 's bullet . It was the first shot that did all the mischief , being aimed deliberately at the large and tender heart . Thanks to the waving of the willow - tree , for [Lepardo]_570-lepardo was [a known marksman]_{5257-a known marksman} , it had missed by about two inches . The second shot , fired quite close and wildly , had grooved the left temple , and stricken [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} senseless . For six weeks now [[our]_5247-our dear friend]_{5259-our dear friend} , whose patience amazed all but [me]_0-i , was kept from [[his]_{5259-our dear friend} Devonshire home]_{5260-his devonshire home} . To [London]_1-london [I]_0-i sent at once for [the two children]_{5261-the two children} and [Mr. Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} , and would have sent to [Devon]_24-devon as well , for kind and good [Mrs. Huxtable]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , but [[her]_{331-mrs. huxtable} husband]_{6140-her husband} would not hear of it . By [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} , who had left [Lady Cranberry]_{397-lady cranberry} " shockingly , "_{[6140-her husband]} on hearing from [Mrs. Fletcher]_{516-mrs. fletcher} that [I]_0-i would take [her]_{397-lady cranberry} again , [he]_{6140-her husband} sent to [[his]_{6140-her husband} wife]_{789-his wife} " kind love and best duty , and for goodness ' sake , stop at [home]_1102-home now . No call to make a fule of [yourself]_0-i , and [the farm]_{1516-the farm} go to rack and ruin . There be fuss enough 'bout [I]_{6140-her husband} already , and never [I]_{6140-her husband} brag no more , when a pill like thiccy upsot [me]_{6140-her husband} . But [Miss Clara]_293-clara , God bless [her]_{397-lady cranberry} bootiful eyes , [she]_{397-lady cranberry} nurse [me]_{6140-her husband} , just as if [she]_{397-lady cranberry} wor [my]_{6140-her husband} own darter , with the apron on as [you]_0-i give [her]_{397-lady cranberry} . And [you]_0-i should see [the kitchen]_{5526-the kitchen} , [Honor]_{331-mrs. huxtable} , [you]_0-i loves [a kitchen]_{9420-a kitchen} so ; [they]_{9420-a kitchen} be a bilin and roastin arl day , and [they]_{9420-a kitchen} be vorced to swape the chimbley three times in a vortnight"—the_{[6140-her husband]} rest of this glorious message , about three pages long , [I]_0-i am " vorced "_{[789-his wife]} to suppress ; [I]_0-i only hope [Ann Maples]_{294-ann maples} remembered a quarter of it . But [his]_5264-his wonderful Miss [Clara]_293-clara did not nurse [him]_5264-his long . Hearing from [the surgeon]_{1504-the surgeon} that all the danger was over by the end of the following week — so strong was the constitution — [Conrad]_670-conrad , [Lily]_673-lily , and [I]_0-i set sail for [Corsica]_150-corsica on [our]_5266-our melancholy errand . In that letter , which seemed to come to [me]_0-i from the grave , [[my]_0-i poor Uncle]_{2919-my poor uncle} after expressing [his]_{2919-my poor uncle} joy and deep gratitude at so happy a close to [his]_{2919-my poor uncle} life , continued thus : — " Yes , [[my]_{2919-my poor uncle} dear child]_{2385-my dear child} , the close of [my]_{2919-my poor uncle} wasted and weary life . [You]_{2385-my dear child} may be surprised and perplexed at what [I]_{2919-my poor uncle} am about to tell [you]_{2385-my dear child} ; but [you]_{2385-my dear child} are not one of [those low - minded ones , who condemn as superstition all beyond [their]_{9422-those low - minded ones , who condemn as superstition all beyond their philosophy} philosophy]_{9422-those low - minded ones , who condemn as superstition all beyond their philosophy} . The very night after [you]_{2385-my dear child} brought [me]_{2919-my poor uncle} [my]_{2919-my poor uncle} new [Lily]_673-lily , a sweet thing just like [[her]_673-lily mother]_{6340-her mother} , [I]_{2919-my poor uncle} lay for some hours awake , broad awake as [I]_{2919-my poor uncle} am now . [I]_{2919-my poor uncle} was thinking of [my]_{2919-my poor uncle} two Lilies , [the lovely and loving creatures]_{9424-the lovely and loving creatures} . [I]_{2919-my poor uncle} was not in the least excited , but calm , reflective , and happy . Soon after the clock struck two , at the time when [our]_9425-our life burns lowest , [I]_{2919-my poor uncle} heard a soft voice , sweet as the music of heaven , call [me]_{2919-my poor uncle} by name three times . Of course [I]_{2919-my poor uncle} knew whose it was : too often that voice had murmured upon [my]_{2919-my poor uncle} bosom , for [me]_{2919-my poor uncle} not to know it now . Not rashly , but with a mind long since resolved , [I]_{2919-my poor uncle} answered : ' [Sweetest [mine'—her]_{9426-sweetest mine'—her own artless and young endearment—'sweetest mine} own artless and young endearment—'Sweetest [mine]_{2919-my poor uncle}]_{9426-sweetest mine'—her own artless and young endearment—'sweetest mine} , no longer will [I]_{2919-my poor uncle} keep [you]_{9426-sweetest mine'—her own artless and young endearment—'sweetest mine} lonely . ' No answer came in words ; but the light , the golden light of [my]_{2919-my poor uncle} own love 's smile , as [I]_{2919-my poor uncle} had seen it in [Corsica]_150-corsica , when [she]_9427-she came from the grave to comfort [me]_{2919-my poor uncle} . And now , as after that visit , [I]_{2919-my poor uncle} fell into deep and perfect rest , such rest as comes but rarely until the sleep of all . No wonder [you]_{9426-sweetest mine'—her own artless and young endearment—'sweetest mine} and [Lily]_673-lily thought [me]_{2919-my poor uncle} so strong next day . In the morning [I]_{2919-my poor uncle} knew and rejoiced in [my]_{2919-my poor uncle} quick departure . This cold obstruction was to be cast aside , this palsied frame to release the winged soul . On the third day [I]_{2919-my poor uncle} was to find and dwell with [[my]_{2919-my poor uncle} Lily]_{7976-my lily} for ever . So on the first day [I]_{2919-my poor uncle} enjoyed the harmless pleasures of life , and could not bear [you]_{9426-sweetest mine'—her own artless and young endearment—'sweetest mine} to leave [me]_{2919-my poor uncle} , because that would have turned them to pain . The second day [I]_{2919-my poor uncle} got through all the business that still remained , refreshing its dryness often with [[my]_{2919-my poor uncle} sweet child]_{5346-my sweet child} 's society . On this , the third , [I]_{2919-my poor uncle} write to [you]_5270-you , and am , through the grace of [God]_701-god , as calm and content , nay more content than if [I]_{2919-my poor uncle} were going to bed . "_{[2919-my poor uncle]} [Beloved daughters]_{5268-beloved daughters} both , and [[my]_0-i dear son]_{5269-my dear son} as well , [I]_0-i implore [you]_5270-you not to grieve painfully for [me]_0-i . Too well [I]_0-i know the weight of excessive sorrow , and how it oppresses the lost one , even more than the loser . Since the parting is so brief , the reunion so eternal , why make the interval long and dreary by counting every footstep ? Alas , it is easy to talk and think so , but very hard to feel it . Time demands [his]_{5269-my dear son} walk with sorrow , and will not have [his]_{5269-my dear son} arm dispensed with . Then think of [my]_0-i happiness , [darlings]_{5271-darlings} , and how [your]_5270-you own will increase it . Only one more request , which after Ciceronian sentiments — which [Cicero]_709-cicero could not practise — [you]_5270-you are all too young not to wonder at . If [you]_5270-you , [[my]_0-i three children]_{5272-my three children} , can manage it , without any heavy expense , or much trouble to [yourselves]_5270-you , it is [my]_0-i last wish as regards the body , that it should lie by the side of [[my]_0-i wife]_{3597-my wife} 's . The name of [the little church]_{995-the little church} , [[St. Katharine]_{188-st. katharine} 's on [the Cliff]_{8283-the cliff}]_{8282-st. katharine 's on the cliff} , can scarcely have escaped [[my]_0-i [Clara]_293-clara]_{5392-my clara} 's excellent memory . [Lily]_673-lily lies beside [[her]_673-lily father]_{898-her father} , in the right - hand corner towards [the sea]_{895-the sea} . [Each of [them]_5281-they]_{5280-each of them} has a cross of the Signor 's alabaster , made from [my]_0-i own design . [Lily]_673-lily 's is enough for [me]_0-i : put [my]_0-i name with [hers]_673-lily . " Not only did [we]_9430-we look upon [his]_{898-her father} last fond wish as sacred , but [we]_9430-we accomplished it in the manner that was likely to please [him]_{898-her father} most . [We]_9430-we put [his]_{898-her father} own "_{[632-lilyflower]} [Lilyflower]_{632-lilyflower} , " [the little love - boat]_{9431-the little love - boat} as [they]_5281-they called it , into commission again , engaged [a good captain]_{9432-a good captain} and [crew]_9433-crew , and taking [old Cora]_{585-old cora} with [us]_9430-we , set sail from [Gloucester]_{23-gloucester} for [the Mediterranean]_{228-the mediterranean} . [Poor Cora]_{710-poor cora} was now all devotion to [Conrad]_670-conrad and [Lily]_673-lily , ever since [she]_{585-old cora} had found that [they]_5281-they were [lawful blood and direct heirs of [the Della Croce]_570-lepardo]_{9434-lawful blood and direct heirs of the della croce} . The more recent part of the family story [she]_{585-old cora} had known only from [[her]_{585-old cora} master]_{814-her master} 's version , and had set little store by [the children]_{1695-the children} as bearing the stamp of disgrace ; though [she]_{585-old cora} could not help loving [sweet Lily]_673-lily . Now , by [her]_{585-old cora} evidence , coupled with [[my]_{632-lilyflower} dear]_{5318-my dear} Uncle 's deposition , [his]_{814-her master} relics , and documents , and [my]_{632-lilyflower} own testimony , confirmed by [Balaam]_539-balak and [Balak]_539-balak , [we]_9438-our established very easily the birth and the claims of [[my]_{632-lilyflower} Uncle [[Edgar]_{310-uncle edgar} 's children]_{9440-edgar 's children}]_{9439-my uncle edgar 's children} ; and [the old Count Gaffori , most venerable of [signors]_9442-signors]_{9441-the old count gaffori , most venerable of signors} , would have kept [us]_9438-our a month at least to go through all [his]_{9441-the old count gaffori , most venerable of signors} accounts . [He]_{9441-the old count gaffori , most venerable of signors} was entreated to retain [his]_{9441-the old count gaffori , most venerable of signors} position as [the guardian of [our]_9438-our [Lily]_673-lily]_{9443-the guardian of our lily} . So far as [our]_9438-our recent sorrow permitted enjoyment of scenery , [we]_9438-our were all enchanted with [the Balagna]_{183-the balagna} . At the funeral of "_{[632-lilyflower]} [Signor Valentine]_{605-signor valentine} , " whose name was still remembered and loved , nearly all [the commune]_{8253-the commune} was present ; and [many a dignified matron]_{9445-many a dignified matron} shed tears , who had smiled as [a graceful girl]_{9446-a graceful girl} , and strown flowers , at [his]_{9441-the old count gaffori , most venerable of signors} wedding . [They]_{8253-the commune} were burning with curiosity to see [our]_9438-our beautiful [Lily]_673-lily , for the tender tale had moved [them]_{8253-the commune} , as Southern natures are moved ; and many of [them]_{8253-the commune} had loved and gloried in [[her]_673-lily mother]_{6340-her mother} . But in spite of all this desire , not a prying glance fell on [her]_673-lily , as [she]_673-lily bowed in the hooded robe , and wept to [the mournful vocero]_{9448-the mournful vocero} . Foremost of all stood [old Petro]_624-petro and [Marcantonia]_{625-marcantonia} , who had found out and kissed with sobs of delight [[their]_{8253-the commune} beloved master 's daughter]_{9449-their beloved master 's daughter} . For [my]_713-lucus part , [I]_713-lucus loved [the Corsicans]_{583-the corsicans} ; there is something so noble and simple about [the men]_{5486-the men} , so graceful , warm - hearted , and lady - like in [the women]_{5487-the women} ; and in a very short time [I]_713-lucus could understand more than half [they]_{8253-the commune} said . The black Vendetta , [they]_{8253-the commune} told [me]_713-lucus , was dying out among [them]_{8253-the commune} , and in a few years would be but a wonder of the past . [God]_701-god in [His]_701-god mercy grant it . There must have been something surely in [my]_713-lucus Uncle [Edgar]_{310-uncle edgar} 's nature , which won the Southern hearts , as [[my]_713-lucus father]_{731-my father} won British affections . Such things [I]_713-lucus can not explain , or account for . [I]_713-lucus only know and feel them . [We]_9453-we were all back at [Vaughan St. Mary]_{18-vaughan st. mary} before the end of August , and found [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} , [the two chillers]_{9455-the two chillers} , and [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} as happy as if [they]_{8253-the commune} were born and reared [there]_1114-there . [Old Cora]_429-cora was left at [Veduta Tower]_{233-veduta tower} ; and having obtained [Mr. Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} 's permission [I]_713-lucus presented [her]_429-cora once and for all with the whole treasure of the gordit . [She]_429-cora intends , however , to bequeath it to [me]_713-lucus in [her]_429-cora will . Soon afterwards [Conrad]_670-conrad gave [her]_429-cora a more substantial blessing ; for [he]_670-conrad sold the things left in [Lucas Street]_{106-lucas street} , under letters of administration , as being [the next of kin]_{9457-the next of kin} . All the proceeds [he]_670-conrad handed over to [Cora]_429-cora , except one - tenth , which [he]_670-conrad presented to [the Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to [Animals]_711-animals]_{9458-the society for the prevention of cruelty to animals} . As many of the specimens , iguanodon , and other monsters , fetched prices as hard to explain away as [themselves]_{8253-the commune} , poor [Cora]_429-cora was amply provided for : all which of course [she]_429-cora attributed to [the holy Madonna]_{9459-the holy madonna} 's heart . And now at last [I]_713-lucus understood how 19 , [Grove Street]_{30-grove street} had become No . 37 , [Lucas Street]_{106-lucas street} . The change of number [I]_713-lucus have already explained ; the change of name was on [this wise:—The builder]_{9460-this wise:—the builder} , [a rising man]_{9461-a rising man} , who had bought the old part of [the street]_{6090-the street} , and built [thereto the new one]_{9463-thereto the new one} , had [a son]_{3660-a son} , [a fine undergraduate , better skilled in the boats than in the books of Oxford]_{9465-a fine undergraduate , better skilled in the boats than in the books of oxford} . Reading hard one day , after [his]_{3660-a son} third pluck , [this young man]_{9466-this young man} discovered that lucus was the Latin for grove . [He]_{3660-a son} smote [his]_{3660-a son} hand on [his]_{3660-a son} forehead , and a great idea presented itself . Had there not been both nymphs and [philosophers of the grove]_{9467-philosophers of the grove} ? [The street]_{6090-the street} that was [his]_{3660-a son} inheritance should be distinguished by nomenclature from [the thousand groves of [London]_1-london]_{9469-the thousand groves of london} , wherein [the nightingale]_{9470-the nightingale} pipeth not , neither — but [I]_713-lucus am getting poetical , and do n't understand [the Gradus]_{712-the gradus} . Enough , that [he]_{3660-a son} wrote at once and earnestly to [[his]_{3660-a son} father]_{1062-his father} , forgetting the vivid description , which was now growing stale , of [his]_{3660-a son} pluck — a result secured , as [the Winchester gentlemen]_{9472-the winchester gentlemen} tell [me]_713-lucus , by learning too solid to carry — but begging that [his]_{3660-a son} Oxford career might at least be commemorated in and by [the street that paid [his]_{3660-a son} bills [there]_1114-there]_{9473-the street that paid his bills there} . "_[713-lucus] [Lucus]_713-lucus " [he]_{3660-a son} wrote plainly enough , and in very large letters , but [the father]_{8100-the father} read it "_{[632-lilyflower]} Lucks . " No , said [the mother]_{5825-the mother} , [she]_{5825-the mother} was sure [Alexander]_{698-alexander} never meant such a low thing as that , it was "_{[632-lilyflower]} [Lucas]_714-lucas " of course ; why [the Lucases]_{715-the lucases} were [[her]_{5825-the mother} own cousins]_{9477-her own cousins} , and [Rosa]_716-rosa such [a nice girl]_{7601-a nice girl} , [she]_{5825-the mother} saw how it was , that [she]_{5825-the mother} did , and [Alexander]_{698-alexander} might have done worse . And so it was painted most bravely "_{[632-lilyflower]} [Lucas Street]_{106-lucas street} , " and [the builder]_{9479-the builder} was n't going to make a fool of [himself]_{9479-the builder} , when [Alexander]_{698-alexander} protested . When [John Huxtable]_299-john set off for [home]_1102-home , just in time to see to [his]_299-john harvest , which is always late round [Exmoor]_22-exmoor , [I]_{632-lilyflower} kissed [him]_299-john — ay , [Conny]_670-conrad , [you]_670-conrad saw it — and thrust , during [his]_299-john amazement , something far down into [his]_299-john mighty pocket , which something [he]_299-john was not upon any account to look at until [he]_299-john got [home]_1102-home . It was a deed , prepared by [[our]_9482-our solicitors]_{9483-our solicitors} , presenting [him]_299-john with the fee simple of [[Tossil]_361-tossil 's [Barton]_361-tossil farm]_{6986-tossil 's barton farm} . True , [I]_{632-lilyflower} was not of age , but [I]_{632-lilyflower} signed it as if [I]_{632-lilyflower} had been , and [Conny]_670-conrad and [I]_{632-lilyflower} again signed it , when [we]_9482-our paid [our]_9482-our first visit [there]_1114-there . Perhaps , in strict law , it binds not [my]_{632-lilyflower} interest even now ; but if ever [any one claiming "_{[632-lilyflower]} by]_{9486-any one claiming " by} , from , through , under , or in trust for " [me]_714-lucas , forgets [the Vaughan]_293-clara honour and dares to dream of [that farm]_{9487-that farm} , [I]_714-lucas 'll be at [him]_299-john as sure as a ghost ; and [I]_714-lucas trust before that time comes , [the farmer]_{5517-the farmer} will have sound title by immemorial years of possession . [He]_299-john is now [a prosperous man]_{9489-a prosperous man} ; and has never found it necessary to give up [his]_299-john beer , as [he]_299-john threatened [Young John]_{717-young john} , who is just like [[his]_{717-young john} father]_{1062-his father} , cleaves fast to [Tabby Badcock]_388-tabby , now [a blooming maiden]_{9491-a blooming maiden} ; but [[my]_714-lucas [Sally]_371-sally]_{9492-my sally} has more than balanced that imminent loss of caste , by fixing the eyes and transfixing the heart of [George Tamlin]_{718-george tamlin} , [the son of [[our]_9494-our principal tenant]_{9495-our principal tenant}]_{9493-the son of our principal tenant} , and [himself]_{718-george tamlin} of [Devonshire]_4-devonshire origin . [The young lady]_{5814-the young lady} comes to and fro every six weeks , and is to be married from [[our]_9494-our house]_{1160-our house} , when [[her]_{5814-the young lady} father]_{898-her father} considers [her]_{5814-the young lady} "_[714-lucas] zober enough . " [Beany Dawe]_{334-beany dawe} , who does not like work , still lives at [[Tossil]_361-tossil 's Barton]_361-tossil , and is in receipt of a pension of sixpence a day from [Government]_{9499-government} , as [a bard at last appreciated]_{9500-a bard at last appreciated} . As for [me]_714-lucas , [Clara Vaughan]_293-clara , on the very day after that which released [me]_714-lucas from [my]_714-lucas teens ( counting forward , as [we]_9494-our do , till [we]_9494-our count receding years ) , to wit on the 31st of December , 1851 , [I]_714-lucas did not change [my]_714-lucas name , but wrote it in the old church register , half an inch below a better and firmer hand . There was no fuss or frippery ; [no four clergymen]_{9501-no four clergymen} and [ten bridesmaids simpering at one another]_{9502-ten bridesmaids simpering at one another} . [[Our]_9494-our good vicar]_{9503-our good vicar} represented [the one class]_{9504-the one class} , dear [Lily]_673-lily and [Annie Franks]_{552-annie franks} [the other]_{1586-the other} . [[My]_714-lucas godfather]_{9506-my godfather} , newly disclosed for the purpose , gave [me]_714-lucas away very gracefully , and [young Peter Green]_575-green helped [Conrad]_670-conrad . [Lily Vaughan]_592-lily looked so exquisite , so deliciously lovely , that nobody in [the whole world]_{9507-the whole world} — Now [Conny]_670-conrad , hold [your]_670-conrad tongue , [I]_714-lucas never fish for compliments , do n't degrade [yourself]_670-conrad so for a kiss , of course [I]_714-lucas know all [my]_714-lucas perfections , but how can [I]_714-lucas care about them , when [you]_670-conrad say they belong to [you?—Lily Vaughan]_592-lily , [I]_714-lucas say once more , was such a sunrise of loveliness , that young [Peter Green]_575-green , just new from [his]_575-green Oxford honours , collapsed , and fell over the railings , and wedged [his]_575-green head in the "_[714-lucas] piscina , " or whatever [those nice young gentlemen , who see the duty of wearing strait waistcoats]_{9508-those nice young gentlemen , who see the duty of wearing strait waistcoats} , are pleased to denominate it . Ah , [Little Distaff Lane , most unconnubial title]_{9509-little distaff lane , most unconnubial title} , ah firm of [Green]_575-green , [Vowler]_578-vowler , and [Green]_575-green , [[your]_670-conrad Hercules]_{9510-your hercules} holds the distaff , and holds it , alas , in [his]_{9510-your hercules} heart ! From that shock [he]_575-green never recovered , until [we]_9511-we had at [Vaughan Park]_{5-vaughan park} a really merry wedding ; and [I]_714-lucas , ah [me]_714-lucas , [I]_714-lucas could not dance just then , but [I]_714-lucas showered roses upon [them]_9512-them , for the shadow of death was past . [Old Mr. Green,—nay]_{719-old mr. green,—nay} , nay , not fifty yet , by [[our]_9511-we Lady,—Mr]_{9513-our lady,—mr} . [Peter Green]_575-green [the elder]_{9514-the elder} , came down [here]_846-here for the occasion , and [I]_714-lucas hardly ever took such a fancy to [any man]_{9516-any man} before . [He]_575-green seemed to know almost everything , not by the skin , as [Dr. Ross]_{470-dr. ross} seemed to hold things , but by the marrow and fibrine of [their]_9512-them alimentary part . And withal such [a perfect gentleman]_{9517-a perfect gentleman} : [he]_575-green kept in the horns of [his]_575-green knowledge , instead of exalting them , and making [us]_9511-we wish for hay on them , while tossed in headlong ignorance . Scant as [I]_714-lucas am of space , [I]_714-lucas must tell how [he]_575-green behaved , when [[his]_575-green son]_{1321-his son} revealed [his]_{1321-his son} attachment . "_[714-lucas] Is it [a lady]_{5829-a lady} , [Peter]_575-green ? " "_{[5829-a lady]} [I]_0-i should rather think [she]_{5829-a lady} is , [father]_738-father . " "_{[5829-a lady]} Do [you]_738-father love [her]_{5829-a lady} with all [your]_738-father heart ? " "_[738-father] Of course [I]_0-i do , every bit . [I]_0-i am tough , but [I]_0-i know [I]_0-i shall die , unless — " "_[0-i] That will do , [[my]_0-i son]_{5986-my son} . [You]_{5986-my son} have [my]_0-i full consent , and [[your]_{5986-my son} mother]_{5332-your mother} 's is sure to follow . Most likely [you]_{5986-my son} got it beforehand . [[You]_{5986-my son} young fellows]_{5286-you young fellows} are so deep . Let [me]_0-i kiss [your]_{5986-my son} forehead , [[my]_0-i boy]_{5287-my boy} , although [I]_0-i am not dramatic . " Having behaved so nobly , for [this boy]_{1075-this boy} was [his]_0-i only hope , [he]_0-i deserved to find , as [he]_0-i did , that if [he]_0-i had searched [the world]_{798-the world} [he]_0-i could not have hit upon any other so desirable for [[his]_0-i son]_{1321-his son} , as [the daughter of [[his]_0-i old friend]_{4073-his old friend}]_{9522-the daughter of his old friend} . The only mistake [he]_0-i has made is that [he]_0-i so adores [her]_{1075-this boy} , [he]_0-i can not bear [her]_{1075-this boy} to be in [Corsica]_150-corsica ; though the trade [they]_9524-they conduct is worth at least fifty thousand a year . When [Lily]_592-lily fell in love , [I]_{720-clara green} told [her]_592-lily that it was because [she]_592-lily had an eye for the olives ; and olives enough [the darling]_{9525-the darling} has , [I]_{720-clara green} trow , and olive branches too . [The eldest]_{8990-the eldest} is called [Clara]_293-clara . "_{[720-clara green]} [Clara Green]_{720-clara green} ! " [I]_{720-clara green} do n't like the sound altogether ; but the substance is something beautiful , and the freshest of all Spring verdure . Nevertheless , [[my]_{720-clara green} [Clara]_293-clara]_{5392-my clara} is an inch larger round the calf , and [I]_{720-clara green} think [her]_293-clara eyelashes are longer . [Her]_293-clara hair weighs more , that is certain . [We]_9528-we compare [them]_9524-they very often ; for [they]_9524-they live only half the year at [Veduta Tower]_{233-veduta tower} . In the summer heats [they]_9524-they are here , and [the children]_{1695-the children} between [them]_9524-they , [my]_{720-clara green} own every bit as bad , leave [dear [Annie Elton]_{552-annie franks} ( [Annie]_{552-annie franks} Franks of old ) , uncommonly few British Queens]_{552-annie franks} . It is all [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} 's fault . What is the use of [a gardener]_{985-a gardener} , if [he]_{985-a gardener} allows dessert all the day long ? Every autumn [we]_9528-we go to [Corsica]_150-corsica to help at the olive harvest , and rarely [we]_9528-we enjoy it . [The Old Veduta Tower]_{285-the old veduta tower} is like a nest in the ivy , chirruping with young voices ; and the happy sleep of [the two who loved so well]_{9531-the two who loved so well} is dreaming , if dream it can or care to do , of the fairest flowers in [Europe]_95-europe , scattered there by little soft hands . [Conny]_670-conrad is wild every time about [the Rogliano]_204-rogliano and [Luri]_622-luri ; and if [Peter Green]_575-green listens to [him]_670-conrad — which [every one]_{1982-every one} does , except [me]_{720-clara green} — [he]_670-conrad will introduce , very slowly of course , those fine - bodied yet aerial wines to the noble British public , that loves not even intoxication , unless it be adulterated . Oh , [queer Mrs. Shelfer]_{391-mrs. shelfer} , oh [Balaam]_539-balak and [Balak]_539-balak , shall [I]_{720-clara green} pretermit [your]_9533-your annals ? [[The two Sheriff]_{9534-the two sheriff} 's officers]_{9535-the two sheriff 's officers} , having secured [their]_{9534-the two sheriff} reward , set up therewith [a public - house called the "_{[720-clara green]} Posse - Comitatus]_{9536-a public - house called the " posse - comitatus} , " which soon became the head quarters of all who are [agents]_9537-agents or [patients in the machinery of levying]_{9538-patients in the machinery of levying} . As at such times [all people]_{9539-all people} drink and pay more than double , [the public - house]_{6501-the public - house} has already [a Queensbench - ful of good - will]_{9541-a queensbench - ful of good - will} . [Poor Mrs. Shelfer]_{721-mrs. shelfer} and [Charley]_395-charley did not invest the 325*l . * altogether judiciously : at least , it went mainly to purchase "_{[720-clara green]} eternal gratitude , " whose time does not begin to run till [the purchaser]_{9542-the purchaser} 's is over . But [Patty]_409-patty , [I]_{720-clara green} am glad to say , has still that 30*l . * a year of [her]_409-patty own , left to [her]_409-patty in the funds by good and grateful [Miss Minto]_{405-miss minto} . "_{[720-clara green]} Ca n't touch it , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , not [the Queen]_{1427-the queen} , [the Lord Mayor]_{5290-the lord mayor} , and [all the royal family]_{5291-all the royal family} . [Government]_{9499-government} give [their]_{9499-government} bond for it , on parchment made of [their]_{9499-government} skins , and the ink come out of [their]_{9499-government} gall . " Be this as it may , what is much more to the purpose is that [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} can not touch it . And now [I]_{720-clara green} have pride in announcing , for [I]_{720-clara green} never expected such glory , that all the cats and birds , squirrels , mice , and monkeys , live , like [the happy family]_{9543-the happy family} , in [[our]_9544-our northern lodge]_{9545-our northern lodge} , where [Patty]_409-patty is most useful and happy as [the Queen of the poultry]_{9546-the queen of the poultry} . In a word , [they]_{9499-government} keep the gate , not of [[their]_{9499-government} enemies]_{9547-their enemies} , but of [old and grateful friends]_{9548-old and grateful friends} . [I]_{720-clara green} expected to see at least a leading article in the "_{[720-clara green]} Times , " when [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} left [the metropolis]_{9549-the metropolis} ; but [they]_{9499-government} let [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} go very easily for the sake of the discount market . [They]_{9499-government} gave [him]_{413-mr. shelfer} only two - and - twenty dinners ; but when [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} first came to [Vaughan Park]_{5-vaughan park} , how [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} wanted country air ! Now [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} attends to the wall - trees , and [the avenue]_{2993-the avenue} , and [I]_{720-clara green} hope finds harmony there . At any rate , [he]_{413-mr. shelfer} never breaks it by any undue exertion . Nevertheless , [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} very long pipe is of some account with the green fly , which has been very bad on [our]_5295-our peaches , ever since [they]_5293-they repealed the corn laws . [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} , accordingly , is compelled to spend half [his]_{413-mr. shelfer} time in smoking them . "_{[720-clara green]} Wonderful nice [they]_5293-they do taste , [Miss Clara]_293-clara ; [you]_293-clara 'd be quite surprised , [you]_293-clara know . Wonderful good , [Miss]_5294-miss , and [werry]_5295-our high - flavoured [you]_293-clara know , when they begins to fry . " "_[5294-miss] Come , come , [Mr. Shelfer]_{413-mr. shelfer} , [I]_0-i fear [you]_{413-mr. shelfer} cultivate them for their flavour . There are ten times as many of them , [I]_0-i see , as of peaches on the trees . And [you]_{413-mr. shelfer} charge [me]_0-i every week five shillings for tobacco . " "_{[413-mr. shelfer]} To be sure , [Miss Clara]_293-clara . Shows a fine constitooshun , [you]_293-clara know . And dreadful hard work it is to have to smoke so much , [you]_293-clara know . And then the sun will come on the wall , and only a quart of beer allowed all the afternoon . And sometimes [they]_5293-they makes [me]_0-i go for it [myself]_0-i , [you]_293-clara know ! Indeed [they]_5293-they does , [Miss]_5296-miss , [they]_5293-they has such cheek here in [Gloucestershire]_{3-gloucestershire} ! " [Patty]_409-patty brought all [her]_409-patty sticks of course , in spite of the twenty - five bills of sale , which by this time had grown upon them . One whole roomful was packed in the duplicate inventories . The law on this subject [she]_409-patty contemplated from a peculiar point of view . "_[5293-they] Lor , [Miss]_5297-miss , [I]_0-i never grudges ['em]_5298-'em . They do cost a bit at the time ; but see how safe [they]_5293-they makes [them]_5298-'em . If it was n't for [them]_5293-they [I]_0-i should be frightened out of [my]_0-i wits of thieves , down here where the trees and all the green grocery is , worse than [the Regency Park]_{5299-the regency park} . Bless [me]_0-i , [I]_0-i never should have gone out of doors , [Miss]_5300-miss , if [you]_293-clara had n't pulled [me]_0-i . And to see the flowers here all a - growing with their heads up as bootiful as a bonnet . Pray , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} , is that what they was made for , if [I]_0-i may be so bold ? " "_[409-patty] No , [Patty]_409-patty , not for bonnets . They were made for the bees and the butterflies , and for [us]_5302-us to enjoy them , while [they]_5298-'em enjoy [themselves]_5298-'em . " "_[0-i] Well , [I]_0-i never . Pray , [Miss]_5433-miss , did [I]_0-i tell [you]_293-clara [Uncle John]_{411-miss vaughan} 's come [home]_1102-home , and [they]_5305-they only ate a piece of [his]_{411-miss vaughan} shoulder for [they]_5305-they found [his]_{411-miss vaughan} belt was tenderer ; and [he]_{411-miss vaughan} put the glazing on it the same as [they]_5305-they wears on [their]_5305-they hats , and three cork pins to hold it , and [he]_{411-miss vaughan} find it [werry]_5306-werry convenient , it save so much rheumatism : and [he]_{411-miss vaughan} 'll be here next week to convict [the man that made [[his]_{411-miss vaughan} wife]_{789-his wife} swallow the tea - pot]_{5307-the man that made his wife swallow the tea - pot} . [Dear]_5871-dear , [dear]_5871-dear , what things [they]_5305-they does do in [the country]_{1831-the country} . Not a bit like [Christians]_{722-christians} . And so , [Miss Clara]_293-clara , [the old man]_{7306-the old man} wo n't drop off after all ; and [Uncle John]_{411-miss vaughan} a - coming , how nice it would have been . " [The old man]_{7306-the old man} was poor [Whitehead]_{703-whitehead} , whose lodge [Mrs. Shelfer]_{721-mrs. shelfer} coveted , as it was larger and livelier than [her]_{721-mrs. shelfer} own . "_{[411-miss vaughan]} No , [Mrs. Shelfer]_{721-mrs. shelfer} , [I]_0-i think [he]_{7306-the old man} will get over it . Surely [you]_{721-mrs. shelfer} would not wish to hurry [him]_{7306-the old man} . " "_{[721-mrs. shelfer]} To be sure , [[my]_0-i good friend]_{1798-my good friend} ; no , no : let [him]_{7306-the old man} have [his]_{7306-the old man} time , [I]_0-i say . But [he]_{7306-the old man} would have had it long ago , if [he]_{7306-the old man} had any reason in [him]_{7306-the old man} . What good can [he]_{7306-the old man} do now , holding on with [his]_{7306-the old man} eyebrows ? Please [God]_701-god to let [him]_{7306-the old man} go in peace ; and so much happier for [us]_5314-us all . " When [Uncle John]_{411-miss vaughan} appeared , [he]_{411-miss vaughan} scolded [me]_293-clara for [my]_293-clara want of intelligence on the night when [I]_293-clara was blinded . Of [the four men in [that room]_{9553-that room}]_{9552-the four men in that room} , [the one whom [I]_293-clara had noticed least]_{9554-the one whom i had noticed least} was [the very one whom [he]_{411-miss vaughan} had meant [me]_293-clara especially to observe]_{9555-the very one whom he had meant me especially to observe} . At least , so [he]_{411-miss vaughan} said ; but [I]_293-clara fully believed , and did not scruple to tell [him]_{411-miss vaughan} , that [he]_{411-miss vaughan} had discovered little beyond the information and description given at the time by [Mr. Edgar Vaughan]_{297-mr. edgar vaughan} . These [he]_{411-miss vaughan} had disinterred from the archives of [Bow Street]_{286-bow street} and [Whitehall]_{287-whitehall} , and was then trying to apply them . However , [I]_293-clara forgave [him]_{411-miss vaughan} freely ; inasmuch as , but for [my]_293-clara blindness , even blind love would have known [me]_293-clara as [an objectionable being]_{9556-an objectionable being} . And now [I]_293-clara come to a real grievance . When there is another [Miss Clara]_293-clara — such a beauty ! [I]_293-clara ca n't tell [you]_9557-you — and [a little Harry]_{9558-a little harry} , for whose sake this tale is told — why will [every one on [these premises]_{9560-these premises}]_{9559-every one on these premises} , even [the under - gardener 's boy]_{9561-the under - gardener 's boy} , persist in calling [me]_293-clara "_[293-clara] [Miss Clara]_293-clara ? " It makes [me]_293-clara stamp sometimes , and such a bad example that is for [[my]_293-clara children]_{6217-my children} . Dear [me]_293-clara , if either of [[my]_293-clara ducklings]_{9563-my ducklings} were to carry on as [I]_293-clara did at [their]_{9563-my ducklings} age , [I]_293-clara would cut down immediately the largest birch - tree on [the property]_{1112-the property} , and order a hogshead of salt . But , to return to that contumely — is it to be suspected that [I]_293-clara was more forcible and pronounced , in the days of [my]_293-clara trial and misery , than now when [I]_293-clara am [the happiest of [all the young mothers of [England]_9-england]_{9566-all the young mothers of england}]_{9565-the happiest of all the young mothers of england} ? "_[293-clara] Come , [Conny]_670-conrad , tell the truth now , do n't [I]_0-i keep [you]_670-conrad in order ? " "_[0-i] [My]_0-i own delight , [I]_0-i should think [you]_670-conrad did . [I]_0-i am nearly as much afraid of [you]_670-conrad as [I]_0-i am of [little Clary]_723-clary . [Clary]_723-clary ride on [Judy]_477-judy now , and [Harry]_670-conrad on [pup Sampiero]_152-sampiero , and come and see [papa go chip]_425-papa , chip , chip ? " "_[425-papa] No , [Clary]_723-clary stop and see [mamma]_5377-mamma go scratch , scratch , scratch , like [Cooky]_441-cooky at the pie - crust . [Clary]_723-clary love [mamma]_5377-mamma to - day , and papa to - morrow . " And [the lovely dear]_{9567-the lovely dear} jumps on the stool , to pull the top of [my]_723-clary pen . [Harry]_670-conrad pops out from under the table , and prepares [himself]_670-conrad for onset . [[My]_723-clary husband]_{1877-my husband} comes and lifts [my]_723-clary hair , and throws [his]_{1877-my husband} arm around [me]_723-clary . It is all up now with writing . "_[723-clary] [Darlings]_{5271-darlings} , [I]_0-i love all three of [you]_{5271-darlings} , to - day , to - morrow , and for ever . Only do n't pull [me]_0-i to pieces . "